#this is Such a big hyperfixation of mine rn
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THE PRINCE’S BACKSTORY YALL
Okay so first, i’m gonna get into spoiler territory since i’m pretty sure most of you have likely actually not read/listen to a translation of Villeneuve’s original unabridged tale. So, I’m gonna keep my points under the read more below.
Because it’s somehow over the several past months become somewhat important to me that y’all go become blindsided by the Prince’s backstory the same way I was okay?
1. I need you to understand the level of fucked upittude surrounding this guy and the fairies in Villeneuve’s tale okay???
2. okay so you know the evil fairy? not ONLY did she cursed him at 15 she cursed him when he refused her marriage proposal!!! EVEN WORSE WAS THAT SHE WAS HIS GOVERNESS WHILE HIS MOTHER WAS AWAY AT WAR
3. HE USED TO CALL HER MOTHER AT ONE POINT!!! THAT IS SO FUCKED UP!! btw the prince definitely has like a BUNCH of abandonment issues because the evil fairy ditch him for like a year straight she came back and proposed, like his mother figure left him then came back acting Different, His actual mother hasn’t seen him in like 14 years (i don’t even think she wrote him letters??) his dad was dead before he was born
4. his real mother the Queen as i mentioned before was away leading a war for basically his entire childhood until he turned 15
5. but because the war was over and she finally came back to him no HE came over to her and help FIGHT in the war so he could ask her to *formally* refuse the Evil Fairy’s request
6. okay the good fairy is fairly chill all things considered but there are still some weird moments with her regardless like near the end of the book when the curse is broken after he thanks her and hugs his mother for the first time in implied years(??) the good fairy ordered him to not speak to beauty while the whole time discussing with his mother his allowance to even marry beauty???
7. which by the queen doesn’t want her to marry beauty due to her class level being so low
8. and there a pregnant pause and the humans in the group await in fear of her reaction as their she might be a bit pissed at the queen for even caring about status and might turn all her good fortune right around on them for it
9. she thankfully doesn’t but like wtf??? what an unsettling pause
10. i like won’t get into because it’s like 2:47 am rn but truthfully i could write an actual essay on the prince having debatably the LEAST amount of agency of all the characters despite beauty’s whole arrangement dictating that she be here as a unwillingly member to some degree
but like god i’m obsessed with this fella i’m literally making a retell kinda story set in the immediate aftermath of the beast turning back into the prince in my downtime heavily inspired by Villeneuve and Beaumont’s tales because i just cannot stop thinking about this story
i wanna buy this book at some point and then later buy the untranslated version and forced myself word by word to learn how to read old timey french from it but yeah i’m positively insane about this book and my new shiny blorbo
#talking to the air#madame villeneuve’s unabridged version of beauty and the beast#la belle et la bête#character bingo#this is Such a big hyperfixation of mine rn#it’s 3am
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lots of encanto AUs i want to talk about so here you go
so uh, i've been brain rotting and hyperfixating on encanto for a bit now, and its been very fun
tho i've barely talked about some of the ideas and aus i have and want to share, so i guess i want to do that now in a way, so uh... (mirabel voice) lets go lets go
List of AUs here:
Time Travel AU
Big Hero 6 AU
[Redacted] AU (not the au's actual name, hidden for reasons)
Ghost Cocoon AU (fusion idea au i came up with of the cocoon au by @raefever and ghost grandchildren au by @jerseyk112, both found in @gamerbearmira's blog)
Giftless Grandkids AU (idea by anon, also found in @gamerbearmira's blog)
Undertale AU
Gravity Falls AU
P.S. some of these au ideas are not originally mine, but i've contributed to them in some way, and i've credited and tagged the creators
More information of the AUs found below
1. Time Travel AU
first au i've ever thought about, cool hue sisters centered, because i love them sm and i was still finding my footing in encanto and the fandom when i thought of this au, and yeah
its where isabela and luisa get sent back to the past after going after and protecting mirabel as casita falls
i gained the idea after seeing how the two older sisters were still so terrified of alma and disappointing her that they couldn't stand up for mirabel and for themselves, but as casita was falling, they weren't about to let their baby sister go, not after everything
despite this being the first au, its also still really vague and barebones in a sense, not much planned yet and its all just vibes, plus i just really wanted a cool sisters au because i love them sm
2. Big Hero 6 AU
ah yes, big hero 6 au, my beloved
came to be when i figured out bear aka @gamerbearmira's reference in one of her encanto one shots, the scooby doo one where they got arrested, and she used bh6's aunt cass' rant for alma's rant in said one shot, and then it led me to realize the potential of encanto big hero 6 au with bear, so that was fun
there's a post in bear's blog for the au, so you can check it out
there's a bunch more info that we haven't shared yet, but it's all written up in the docs for it, so yesyes
honestly been a bit since i touched the au personally, as i keep getting distracted by the other ones below
but yeah, planning on exploring of this au soon <3
3. [Redacted] AU
ah yes, this au, the 120 and counting pages one in my docs
and the 120 pages are mostly just details and planning for the au, not a single written thing yet
this au is not called redacted au, but the name itself is redacted because the word itself is a bit of a spoiler and im still trying to find a better name for it in general
i have no idea how to explain this au
first thing to mention is how its very much inspired by Take Back the Kingdom by @optimistic-violinist and @impossiblefangirl0632 (sorry for the tag, i can take it out if you'd like) and i really really recommend this fic, its so so good and it changed my brain chemistry on so many levels
so yes, i really got inspired by this fic, and it will very much be shown in this particular au with some things and tropes, but ofc im doing my own spin on stuff and the details, and from what i have rn, i think it really evolved and is still evolving as time goes on
another thing to note about this is how the idea came to be because of TBTK inspiration and a dream i had on the day i was taking a metaphysics midterms exam (this is completely unnecessary to mention but oh well, i still remember that moment so vividly)
the dream impacted just exactly how this au is going to go
what is the dream about? you'll find out whenever i get to write this au
all i can say without spoiling much is that there are lots of memory shenanigans and angst, plus the very fun trope of "your found family is your actual family"
also once more, read take back the kingdom, very good fic, 11/10, much recommend, will reread again
4. Ghost Cocoon AU
this au is the fusion of the Cocoon au and the Ghost Grandkids au, both still found in @/gamerbearmira's blog
ghost grandkids au is from @jerseyk112 and cocoon au is from @raefever, and ofc bear has a lot of ideas and thoughts for these aus in her blog
i was rereading bear's cocooned fic for the 17123723507 time and while i was at it, i remembered the ghost grandchildren au, so i decided it would be pretty fun to fuse the two aus together in some way
and so i did (first ask, second ask)
basic premise of this au is really just the ghost kids' healing and them protecting their younger selves and their family
this fusion au interested me so much that it got to the point where i actually wrote a 3683 word first chapter of sorts(?) for this fusion au already (bear has seen it but i havent posted it at all)
planning on continuing it when i feel like it tho hehe
so yes its been wild with this one
5. Giftless Grandkids AU
giftless grandkids au, my beloved
just as the name says, au where all the grandkids are giftless
all i can say is everything and nothing changes all at the same time with this
this au was sent and suggested by an anon in bear's blog
this is also the one where bear and i went wild on for the past few days
pretty sure bear is gonna be writing this au, if im not mistaken? so its very exciting
there's a lot in store for this au and it'll be fun
6. Undertale AU
undertale au yesyes
not the type where the characters are these characters tho
this idea is where we'll be throwing the grandkids into the underground for an adventure of a lifetime!
so basically characters of one media meet characters of the other media type
and the kids are gonna be going through the plot of undertale, technically in frisk's shoes here
this au is still very vibes and not much planned, there's lots of potential to play around tho, so im thinking of exploring this at some point soon
7. Gravity Falls AU
gravity falls au this time!!
now this au is the one pure vibes one, absolutely zero planning or thoughts, just vibes and aspirations for it
not even sure if it'll be like the undertale au where characters of one media will meet characters of the other media or if it'll be characters from this media are gonna be these characters of that media in this au
i just thought it would be fun to have an encanto gravity falls au idea, but still dont know where it'll be going in general
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So that's about it, there's actually a few more ideas i havent mentioned yet, but let's just say these ideas are exactly like the gravity falls au vibing no planning, except much worse in a sense, so i have no idea what kind of footing there will be at all with those aus
but anyway, i digress, these are some of the ideas and aus i have and would love to share and write and uh, yeah
if you have any questions on these aus, feel free to ask if ever, my asks are open (this is the first time im saying this in a post omg help)
but anyway yes the brainrot and hyperfixation is real
if you got here to the end, congrats have a pic of my dog for your effort and dedication <333 see you around <3
#encanto#encanto au#encanto time travel au#encanto big hero 6 au#encanto [redacted] au#TBTK#encanto ghost cocoon au#cocoon au#cocooned#ghost grandchildren au#encanto giftless grandkids au#giftless grandkids au#encanto undertale au#encanto gravity falls au#mic rambles#a lot#so many aus#wheezing#so many vibes here lmao#anyway uhhh thats all#thank you for reading#if you made it to the end#HASFUASF#anyway yes i'll stop rambling now bye#:')
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reposting from other acc :3
anyways HAIIII we have like a bunch of collective names (list below!!)
here's how we feel about certain pronouns collectively!!! (we mostly prefer he/him but kai likes they/them more, candle prefers she/her, and null prefers it/its!!!)
we're currently 15, gonna turn 16 later this year!!!
we're a non-disordered mixed origins system!! (suspected system of 23(may lower since we haven't seen candle in a long while), we nicknamed ourselves the lunar system!!) also we might possibly be alterhuman??
BIG NOTE. i am openly very pro endo, but i do not support harassment or rudeness on either side, i also do not fully feel comfortable whenever i see "____ fuck off" tags no matter what side it's from (especially since i have moots from both sides of the argument), i am okay with antis interacting if it's not for harassment or arguments
(suspected) alters, in order of when we noticed them:
- blake (🧊🌙)
- kaz (❄️🍃)
- 303 (🔥🌙)
- lost silver (🥇👁️🗨️)
- xander (⭐🐉)
- hoarfrost (❄️💀)
- silver (🥈🐊)
- glitchy (💥🔴)
- guardian (⬜🎩)
- kai (🐱😇)
- candle(although she hasn't spoken in a while) (🕯️🔮)
- null (⬛👁️)
- ethan (⚫🦌)
- steven (🔥🐉)
- stubborn (🗡️🐦⬛)
- julius
- aster
- austin
- sonic.exe
- norway
- usa
FANDOMS/FAVORITE GAMES/HYPERFIXATIONS, DNI, INTERACT, AND TRIGGERS UNDER THE CUT
our biggest fandoms n hyperfixations rn are:
- osc
- pokemon(and pokepasta)
- minecraft creepypasta
- creepypasta in general
- minecraft in general
- Fnaf
- godzilla
- args
- slendytubbies
- sorta gasa4(although we've become iffy about that bc of someone we cut contact with)
- transfur(such as kaiju paradise and changed)
- eddsworld
- countryhumans!!
- hermitcraft (or any minecraft smp really(except the problematic ones))
games we play or have played and really enjoyed:
- minecraft
- pokemon
- roblox
- gmod
- slendytubbies
- among us
- undertale
- fnaf
- tf2
collective triggers:
- basic criteria
- the names toby/tobi(although the character ticci toby is completely fine), kira, eddie/claire, nihilus, and crow
- minecraft creepypasta ships (and the artist vruzzt)
- jokingly being blocked as a "joke"
- the character skye from the "forever mine" pokepasta
- EEeEE from prevention of evolution
- beeping noises and the glaggleland theme (auditory triggers)
alter specific triggers:
- people acting weird towards source character or him (glitchy(and guardian))
- identity crisis (xander)
- being compared to source (303)
- odd ai bots or ships (guardian)
DNI if:
- basic criteria
- you post mainly NSFW or suggestive stuff (especially since we are a minor, esp don't follow if you have "minors dni" somewhere on your page </3 (somewhat targetted but in their defense we never posted anything abt our age before))
- ship minecraft creepypastas (like entity 303 and herobrine)
- you are anti endo or sysmed (EXCEPTION: if we were already friends/moots from before we found out you were anti endo or from before we knew what an endogenic system was OR if you're really chill and are nice about it (as long as you're not being hateful about it we're chill :3))
- r4dqu33r, pr0$h!p, or d4rk$h!p (censoring these because i'm scared if i don't they'll find this blog and get mad at me for whatever reason </3)
PLEAAAASE interact if:
- you like any of the fandoms we like
- you're a silly critter :3
- you selfship or like oc x canon!!
- you play any of the games we play
- pro endo (or endo neutral, we chill with both :3)
discord is r3iyo !!! ( please we need friends :[ /nf )
OTHER BLOGS BY US:
@r3iyo (original account, not using anymore, basically abandoned bc we're scared of a moot finding out we're pro endo)
@lunarmonau (gonna use for a comic/pokemon au)
@lunar-bah (build a headmate blog)
@breaking-of-the-dark-moon (minecraft documentation)
Rotomblr blogs:
@mtsilver-enjoyer - (Canon Character: Red)
@cyndaquil-supremacy (Canon Character: Gold)
@xxdark-lycanroc-slayerxx (Canon Character: SIlver) (idk if i'll consistently use this)
@the-faraway-trainer (Canon Character: Rei)
#endo friendly#endo safe#plural system#pro endo#anti endos dni#anti endos dni pls#questioning system#system#non disordered system#anti radqueer#anti proship#intro#intro post
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Tips on writing autistic characters,
from an autistic who goes to a school for autistic people
Autism is a genetic thing, try and establish who the character gets autism from (ex: grampa, mom, great gradma. Autism CAN skip over people(more like the gene is inactive))
Autism also usually comes along w/ other things, like ADHD, dyslexia, or dysgraphia. I've met multiple people who have something else alongside their autism (I myself also have ADHD)
Autism is also usually diagnosed young with males well females are usually diagnosed later
Masking is quite common in females
Sometimes, (at least with me) a diagnosis can make symptoms more visible
Stuttering. Not like "s-s-s-sorry" but more like "I- uh... Sorry, i just... Sorry" or going back and repeating "Well when you. When you put it that way"
Try and establish a comfort food for your character. Mine for example is Totino's microwave pizzas
Big use of sarcasm well also not knowing when someone else is being sarcastic
Sometimes i hear others chew even when they're chewing with their mouths closed (sometimes i even hear my own chewing)
I personally don't like the feeling after i wash my hands and touch paper, its... Bleh
Very sensitive to sound, most of the time
Either loud voice or soft, quiet voice, very little in-between
Hyperfixes can be. Weird. Like one time I was fixated on cannibalism.
Rants are common, whether it be about a dislike or a hyperfix
That's about all i have rn, feel free to add on if you want (^o^)
#— rens tips★#onetime one of my classmates was hyperfixed on h*tlr...#yea...#weird hyperfixes#autism#actually autistic#writing#writing tips
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Okay so I just finished the all of us villains duology (after postponing and then forgetting about it midway lmaooo) and it was definitely a favorite of mine! I'm going feral about it ngl. ANYWAY I think one of my favorite things is the character development of all parties. Apologies for not being able to spell
Isobel who was basically manipulated under the guise of family to participate in the tournament. Like think about it, even though she was part of the main family she really wasn't because of her parents divorce (I think my brain is fuzzy) and then once her BFF just yeets her as champion she forced into the limelight and then loses everything except the people who only care about her stays as champion aka her dad and his side of the family so she loses the ability to trust. And then the shit that happened with Alistair who she had to trust because of losing her ability to see magic and then he basically dropped her for his brother (same tho) and then having to relearn to trust and be trusted? Reid being the person to basically help her relearn to trust??? To help her figure who and what she really wants for herself and not based on what other people tell her???????
Briony who was raised to think that being a champion was an honor and not a death sentence who really thought that she could do good and then realized well fuck being a champion ain't it and tried to remedy that who sacrificed herself and who tried to be better her entire arc was genuinely one of my faves like and then the fact that she died in that room in the castle and no one will know exactly how it went down????? The what if will haunt them forever, she really was in a sense the first brick thrown ksbsjheisjkejejd
Finley mr.perfect I think him really branching himself off from those expectations was absolutely stunning and subtle. Like hold on he really gave me hs quarterback with cheerleader gf vibes who just went with his cookie cutter life??? But then discovers actually there's to life than that and I think that's great. Honestly my brain is blank with him rn but YEET I kinda wanted more interactions with him and the others
Gavin in particular is also a fave mostly because I love characters who pull themselves from the pit like he genuinely would have done whatever it takes to win and prevail simply because his family just immediately gave up on him and everyone else refused to help and I respect that something about a character refusing to let the odds win like the strength that takes is amazing and also his relationship with al was so good ngl like he genuinely hyperfixated on him and was like nah imma be the only one to kill him that's peak romance right there that slow burn enemies to lovers was PERFECT but also his relationship with hendery? I think they were really similar narrative wise, two people destined to die and didn't or in henderys case came back
Alistair WHOOOOOO BOY WHEN I SAY HE WAS FAVE BRUH I absolutely love his character, the angst! The trauma!!!! He is wrapped in grief and I am here for it. I love how when he was introduced it was basically as the big bad wolf and he was! The monster everyone feared and then Hendry dies and it's like ACTUALLY he is simply traumatized and it's beautiful. When Hendry dies it's basically revealed that it was just them against the world and when he looses that he just sinks into his grief and despair and then with isobel he kinda learns that he doesn't have to just bury himself like that and then it's revealed that the tournament can be broken and he finds some type of reprieve but when he realizes that he would loose hendery right after he immediately throws that idea away because he just lost then gained the one thing in the world that mattered and he isn't gonna lose it again and then the curse??? Be for real without it he would have impossible to defeat. He was determined to be the monster everyone said he was to keep the one thing he cared about and I fuck with shit. I also really liked how his relationship with Gavin essentially like lead to him? Processing his grief? The loss? Of hendery? And then if course hendery being the final nail in the coffin to tell him let go it's okay you will be ok. He was so important to me because he was sculpted as a monster then became a monster and then realized no I don't have to be, I'm not. Idk kshsisjksjs
Hendery my bbboooyyyyyyyy he deserved better but okay the set up for his play in Alistair being the champion like looking back at it it was foreshadowed so hard. I'm glad we got to see moments where yeah he's still a lowe like he grew up in that environment where he was expected to be a monster even if he was the 'softer' brother and getting revenge on what they did to him was expected and deserved but I also love how he was just as fierce. He was the light to Alistairs dark lol i think the focus of their sibling bond was my fave part because they grew up separated from society they didn't interact with other people their age and they knew that everyone hated them it was literally them against the world and then the family took that from them idk man I have thoughts. His fear of dying again and leaving. Like kshskjdjdjd he was definitely one of my favorite characters
Reids story being controlled by grief is PEAK he went through so much shit and decided actually imma fuck shit up and take yall down with me and that's so valid of him but I also really love how when he became a champion he realized that huh there's actually a chance. His character development in particular was one of my favorites I wish I could put my thoughts into words.
And don't even get me started on the tournament like I NEED TO KNOW THINGS like we have the vague stories of how the relics came to be but I wanna know the full details. What really started the tournament why it started WHO started it. It's implied that others tried to stop it I wanna know THEIR STORIES kskshiwhsiejsjs
#i literally just noticed my phone autocorrected hendry to hendery so sorry yall#this ended up being more about the caharcters than the plot but its already long af#you can tell what order i did these in by the length of the paragraphs lol#i would like to hear the thoughts yall have pls someone talk to me about thisssssssssss#i tried to save my thoughts and organize them but i barely made it#my memory is kinda fuzzy on the books since its been awhile off and on so sorry if smth is wrong :/#all of us villains#smileyoureinthevoid
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Have you heard of Mouthwashing (the video game)? It's pretty big rn. A friend of mine put me onto it recently and I loved it. It seems like it'd be really up your alley.
gosh i have and ive seen a t i n y bit abt it. it seems so cool and fucked and i think id be addicted but GOD im not ready to lose my hannibal hyperfix so ive refused to look into it anymore😭😭 i'll probably get obsessed with it a year from now when no one cares anymore
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Seen Pucca talking about this and I figure it's a good time for me to share my RP server horror story. Pucca's experience reminded me why I don't ever join servers at all anymore. Okay, so I was a part of this DC server (directed toward a specific franchise but y'all probs know what it is if you know my other blog) and my GOD. It was wild. One thing, people weren't all that interested in threading with me. And usually when my muse does get acknowledged, he's either treated like the butt of the joke or for ppl to "put down." (Understandable in a way since the comics themselves do that to the poor guy. But my characterization was a very serious one that I wished people would respect)
My character brags, he gets put down, my character jokes about something, he gets put down, my character gets jealous - feelings don't matter. And it'd be one thing if these were how the characters would realistically react to mine. But then there was one of the mod's characters, and he had very similar traits to mine - arrogant and all that. Except... every muse hyped him up. For some reason when my muse brags, arrogance is bad. But when this muse bragged, arrogance good. Clearly it's a bias for the mod - who was a real big problem themselves but I'll get into that shortly.
Then there was a problem with a guy who was clearly jealous of a ship I had - they tried to do all they can to catch my ship partner's attention and try to "woo them". This eventually lead into a kind polyamorous thing which I didn't want because my muse, being a super jealous type, wouldn't so easily enter one. And again, when he expressed that, he got put down. And tbf, a lotta this arise from a proper lack of plotting with the ship partner, but it still stressed me tf out.
The mod I mentioned before was a huge jerk. They clearly had a lotta money (which is probs another reason why everyone "worshipped" them) and then like a snobby rich person, they put down everyone who buys anything "cheaper". They spend HUNDREDS, sometimes even THOUSANDS, on those ball joint dolls. Then they openly teased (made fun of) me for buying cheaper figures. Even though it's like, my current mental and physical state does not allow me to work rn and also? Even if I could? Not all of us are in a position where we can afford to buy pricey af dolls. Go fuck yourself.
What I'm about to talk about is a little controversial but. A trans woman wanted to play a "gender-bend" version of a male character (but as a female) and basically the cis people gained up on her to tell her how bad she is for that and everything. She gave her reason, that playing male characters makes her dysphoric and whatnot, but then they asking her why she wants to write the character despite the fact she gave her reason over and over again. It basically ended with her apologizing after being bullied for it and saying she won't do it. This one, of course, is a touchy topic but the fact that cis people were talking over a trans person flabbergasted me.
OH YEAH, and after that... somebody wanted to "brighten the mood" so sb @ me to give facts about my character, since I was hyperfixating hard and knew so much about them (y'all know how passionate I get!) and then this other fucking person starts GUILTRIPPING ME???? acting like I'M bad because that person was interested in my muse?? And THEY start going on about how nobody cares about theirs and how I'm ""lucky""?? Despite the fact they had WAY MORE threads than I did at the time??? Like literally wtf!
And finally... the weirdest fucking thing... nude posting. Despite the fact that this is a DC RP SERVER, almost EVERYONE started posting their nudes??? Some even posting videos OF THEM GETTIGN FUCKED BY THEIR SPOUSES?! Like it's so wild, it's almost hard to believe it was real. Like I knew I felt like I was on drugs when I saw what was happening. Eventually that same mod came back and even they were like "uhhh?? guys??? Maybe let's not post our nudes in a server full of STRANGERS?? You never know what weirdos might be here??" and then that's when people stopped. But it was like... holy shit. I just never saw that happened before??? These weren't even ppl with OnlyFans or something. It was just so bizarre. And I'm ok if ppl are fine with showing off their naked bodies and stuff if they wanna. But is a RP group really the appropriate place??? Especially when there's nothing inherently sexual about the server??? Like it felt highly inappropriate to me and just weird.
It got to the point where the original creator of the server (a mutual of mine) told me how nervous the place made them and how they don't feel comfortable going on. They thought it was their fault but then I explained that it is a horrible place full of toxicity and everything. They left the server, and eventually, so did I. This isn't the only reason why I don't join RP servers anymore. There was also another where whenever I spoke about my headcanons for my character, another person who rps that character would get so fucking upset and basically try to change the topic or get me to stop talking. Or straight up say they don't agree. OR when I point out how one of my "headcanons" IS canon, they literally called original writer STUPID! (Therefore calling me stupid too because I abide by that canon???) And one time when we agreed on something they said "omg I can't believe we finally agree on something!!" and made a big deal out of it and I literally told them we didn't have to agree on anything, that our takes are supposed to be unique to oursevles and it's something they shouldn't have to worry about (or get upset about lmao) and I've had other bad experiences, but this server was just the Worst. I think there are more bad moments too, but this is all I can remember rn.
#✏️ - ᴛʜᴇ ʜᴏsᴛ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏsᴛ // (ooc)#vent#// tho i dunno how much of a vent this is ? 'cos i'm over it now lol#// I just wanted to share y'all some wild tales !!!
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(Ghost Pokemon AU) Ghost Type Pokemon Pac Trio
So I was working on the Ghost Pokemon AU and was going through a resurgence of a PMATGA hyperfixation at the moment and then I remembered "Hey the main characters of PMATGA have a role in this ,AU, why not draw them in the AU?",and because of that, here we are! This AU spans a lot of series and is very extremely crossovery in general, so why not! I need to make a masterpost/synopsis of this AU, I swear-
Also Spiral was a pain to draw bc I never drew Dragapult before and AAAAAAA- (I'm fine! Don't worry! Haha! Seriously though why...)
So they are! In all of their ghost fighting glory!
Started on: 2-18-2024
it's to be noted that they didn't start out in these forms exactly. A series of events caused their souls to take the forms they did. I made their eyes look similar to how ghosts in the show had them. Also the reason for the spectral lighting was because of Dragapults looking slightly more spectral... I'll try to elaborate more when I get to it.
Pac (Gengar)
The yellow boi himself! The way he goes out is on the hands of a certain other ghost fighting hero through way of misunderstanding. The beginning of his character arc is based on a fanmade one minute melee on Deviantart I read when I was younger. (I might link to it when I find it...) I will probably make the choreography of the fight somewhat different to that but the outcome is the same. I chose Gengar because of their long tongues and round bodies. (That and the fact the ears can be made to resemble his eyebrows.) He is known as the "Golden Gengar" to locals via rumors and became quite the urban legend. But rest assured, he is still the same Pac inside! Just more traumatized! :')
Cyli (Gourgeist)
Cyli is a Gourgeist since it and Pumpkaboo could be seen as a somewhat gothic cute ghost type Pokemon. (If that reasoning makes sense...) The fur of Pumpkaboo is black and the hairstyle of Gourgeist is simular in my opinion. Also the default shinies mesh well enough ingame. Besides the grass typing is somewhat befitting of her upbringing. So, how did she end up like this? Well, if i'll be honest, I didn't quite document how well her death goes quite yet. Same with Spiral. I only have the basics rn. Essentially, she dies to a mysterious enity in a meadow with a colony of pumpkins (is that what a group of pumpkins called...?) growing in Autumn. Her soul destablizes and is forced to bind into a pumpkin, giving a new form! By the way, she is an Average Size Gourgeist.
Spiral (Dragapult)
And finally, Spiral is a Dragapult! He wound up killed in the Lake of Dragons. (Name and Location Pending) His soul wound up absorbing the ancient draconic energies in the lake causing him to take the form of a Dreepy. Dragapult is from what I recall the tallest of the three pokemon, so it seem pretty befitting for him! (Also it gives me an excuse to use Dragapult somewhere, so yea.) He basically has a whole story thing with Soko, as Soko has the distinction of being the first of the three's Partner Digimon to find out about their respective deceased Tamer's whereabouts and travels with him! At one point after he first evolves a random Dreepy finds him and follows him around! He eventually goes "I guess it's mine now." and takes it in. (You could probably guess more eventually came.) He basically exudes so much big sibling energy that it was inevitable anyways!
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@kaydeefalls is the loveliest ever for tagging me in this meme, bc it's an absolute fave, so ty ty!
1. How many works do you have on AO3?
494, which definitely excludes some early career stuff I do not share. Yes, it's a lot, but hey, that's hyperfixation for you!
2. What’s your total AO3 word count?
3,646,862, which means 4mil is the next big target, and knowing me, I'll get there.
3. What fandoms do you write for?
Currently, my WIP folder touches the following fandoms: The Old Guard, Avatar the Last Airbender, XMFC, Interview with the Vampire, Roswell New Mexico (I very much want to write more Roy/Jamie, but just kicking around ideas rn).
4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
ready for my close up, mr. dameron (Poe/Finn), aka @swingsetindecember baited me with gogurt and I wrote a fic, and the gogurt is unique, but the baiting is not (see: my entire Mag7 oeuvre)
how to fall in love with a fairytale (Poe/Finn), aka, I got into the Star Wars fandom at the right time
what a tale my thoughts could tell (Joe/Nicky), aka, I got into the Old Guard fandom at the right time and mind-reading does well
Your Hand In Mine (Poe/Finn), aka, see above
hallelujah, you're still mine (Joe/Nicky), also above
The next couple are still Old Guard/Star Wars, but this year a few newbies have crept into the top page, including Ted Lasso and IWTV, which is very exciting to me!
5. Do you respond to comments?
Yes, always, I am a slut for positive reinforcement and I want to give thanks for that.
6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?
Every once in a while I like to write something that guts me to write and makes me cry. Anyway, The Time Traveling Pilot technically has a bittersweet and happy ending, except it's also super angsty? Love the ouroboros of it all!
7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?
....take your pick. With minimal exceptions, I'm a happy ending girlie by trade.
8. Do you get hate on fics?
I had a run in Roswell New Mexico where I had to turn off guests because I was getting some really random, but vicious comments and I knew why, but it was still exhausting.
9. Do you write smut?
I've noticed as I get older, I've stopped as much, mostly because the tone doesn't seem to match what I'm doing. Don't get me wrong, I'll still include it, but it's usually more in passing than focused.
10. Do you write crossovers?
Hell yes, and I miss them, I need to write more.
11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?
Not that I know!
12. Have you ever had a fic translated?
Yes, and my biggest piece of advice for any writer is to have an open policy for transformative works on your AO3, because that's how you get awesome translations and podfics!
13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?
Yes, and I love this too, and would love to do more of it. Honestly, sometimes I think that's the only way I'll ever finish the original novel ideas I have.
14. What is your all time favorite ship?
I feel like I don't have all-time faves, but I will say that there are some ships that stick with me even after years and I'll go back to them. Right now, I'd say those two that have longevity are Ronan/Adam, and Kirk/McCoy. Obviously then there are current obsessions like Armand/Daniel and Sokka/Zuko, but those first two just stick.
15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?
There's only one. Literally, only ONE. I will probably never finish even though there's only a chapter left. It's a modern day Pride & Prejudice AU. It is literally the only fic I've ever abandoned after I started posting (pretty sure it's still on ff.net) and honestly, the only reason I'm not going back to it is because my style has changed too much.
16. What are your writing strengths?
Engaging plot, or so I like to think. I feel like I tend to have fun unique takes on things.
17. What are your writing weaknesses?
Not describing shit enough. I do a lot of vague things on purpose sometimes because it fits the mood, and sometimes because I'm just too lazy about my prose.
18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language during a fic?
So I used to. And then I realized that it's too much work to scroll or highlight, so now I'll just write in italics and denote the language in the prose after.
19. First fandom you wrote for?
Mystic Knights of Tir Na Nog or Charmed - I can't remember which came first, but my username comes from the Mary Sues I wrote in both of those fandoms, bc I decided that I might as well own it. And here we are.
20. Favorite fic you’ve written?
It's always a flip-flop between my Webgott (Love Like The Sea) and this one, Baby, I'm Howling For You (my McDanno supernatural big bang). The latter is probably winning right now because I re-read it the other day and I miss world-building like that, so I'm dying to get back to it.
TAGGING TIME! I'm hitting up @myrmidryad @inell @atthelamppost @graygiantess and anyone else who wants to ramble about fics!
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i know that someday i'll be fine. i know that it's gonna take time.
photography blog | house oc roleplay blog | ao3 | last fm
my name is cain/matthew (feel free to call me any nicknames, too!). i use it/its and he/him pronouns + am comfortable with any neorponouns. I'm 18 years old and a college student (majoring in wildlife biology!)
i am genderqueer, transmasc, bisexual, and somewhere on the aromantic spectrum. i started testosterone on 28/10/2023
i'm kind of in between hyperfixations/big interests rn, so this blog is more just personal stuff at the moment. i sometimes post about robert sean leonard and house md. my favorite movie is the boys next door (1996) and i'm always up to talk about it!
other interests of mine that show up here from time to time are: daredevil, quantum leap, wildlife (especially birds), photography, music, and writing.
musically, i enjoy: badflower, jack kays, grandson, wafia, superet, idkhbtfm, godsmack, shinedown, fall out boy, dreamers, and lincoln. also old panic at the disco, but i cannot stand br*ndon ur*e
i am audhd, have dyscalculia, and live with mental illness. i occasionally post about this and my time in inpatient treatment. i usually avoid triggering topics, but please let me know if you'd like anything tagged!
and finally, my dms and ask box are open, and you can tag me in tag games. however, i am supremely shitty at responding. please know that if it takes me a while to reply, it is not personal! i love all my mutuals, i just have trouble talking. it's hard sometimes.
blinkies below! (FLASH WARNING!)
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hello hello hello friends ! i am so happy to be back oh my goshhh yippee!!!! (੭ ,ˊvˋ)੭ ♡
my new cell phone hit a rock n shattered (lowkey heartbroken i hadnt bought a "new" phone since 2019 and it wasn't even new sob) so i neglected to take outfit pictures while i was gone ಥ‿ಥ i am back to my old phone temporarily and will have the ability to take snaps from that phone even tho it is Struggling bfgfkg but i am SO SAD bc i didnt take any proper snaps of the truly gorgeous coord i wore to FREAKIN DJ ON SATURDAYYY ;W;
however! i can thank my amazing friend onyx for this video of me DJing this weekend ( ⸝⸝´꒳`⸝⸝) i got the most amazing feedback from folks that i'm still reeling from it tbfh,, "best set you've ever played" "your set made my friend like raving" "that was the best set i've heard in a while" etc etc etc <3 T o T andi felt so beautiful while on stage for the first time ever since I started DJing....waaaaaa
i could write a whole post abt this (and prob will) but wearing mori to a 'rave' (wouldn't quite call this a rave, it was a Drum 'n Bass showcase night) unlocked my ability to dance after 3 YEARS OF RAVING (˚ ˃̣̣̥⌓˂̣̣̥ )づ♡
anyways i don't want to make this tooooo arduously long ehe! some friends had expressed interest in hearing my set, and when i have it uploaded i will share it here<3 the actual file got corrupted bc of a stagehand pulling the power supply to my decks during changeover but i'm gonna just record a studio version at home! ❀⸜(˶´ ˘ `˶)⸝❀
so excited to be back to posting like normal, i missed u all so much gah, mori is a big hyperfixation of mine rn and u are all the sweetest and most wonderful people ଘ(੭ˊᵕˋ)੭ ੈ♡‧₊˚
final note: OH MY GOSH HOW GORGEOUS IS THIS CLUB I GET THE HONOR TO PLAY AT?????? .·°՞(≧□≦)՞°·.
#𓇢𓆸 my mori diary ˚⊹♡( ˊᵕˋ )♡.°⑅#mori girl#mori kei#mori style#mori coord#jfashion#j fashion#coord#mori girl coord#mori kei coord#mori girl fashion#mori kei fashion#mori fashion#mori girl style#mori#me#my pics#mori community
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//I wanna make an official post that goes on all my blogs rn b/c im just....busted.
I’m hyperfixated on some things, and have lost hyperfixation on other things, but whats the most important is:
Something big happened in my life that really hurt me emotionally. Nothing anyone did here, it was something else.
Only certain things are helping and I’m just.....my Muse to write on Tumblr has dwindled....and I’m so fucking scared....
I have Sovl and Sol in my dm’s saying its okay, and I know its okay for them, but I have other people who while they don’t interact w/ me, they follow me and like my content I GUESS....and I’m afraid to disappoint people on all the blogs and I’m scared to lose friends and followers and I’m crying but I need to step back and focus on the few things that are making the pain go away which is just...talking to friends, focusing on one thing at a time, and getting my shit situated because it hit me so fucking hard you have no idea.
I can’t go into detail, its so complicated and so personal it’s a train wreck, but know that it broke me mentally and emotionally and im not okay in the slightest as much as i try to smile and be funny for friends im not okay.
This is gonna be reblogged to all my blogs, but please know this:
To all my ships, my muses love their partners, they love them dearly and I hope we dont lose them while I’m on this little hiatus of mine, and i hope your muses dont forget that, just like i hope you dont.
To all my threads I hope you don’t forget me and know that I love you and what we’re doing and i look forward to coming back when im better and i’ll miss you.
I’m so, so, so fucking sorry.
God damnit I’m so fucking sorry.
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last night i watched a video of a borzoi and i think it triggered a cameo shift? or a hyperfixation? or both? i’m getting borzoi-themed phantom limbs now, and i really want to learn more about the breed
(rest of post under the cut bc this got a bit long)
i am slightly questioning if this is another theriotype instead of a cameo shift, bc i’ve been having muddled phantom limbs for about a couple weeks now and borzoi ears in particular resemble the phantom ears i’ve been feeling. it’s way too early to tell for sure though, and iirc i rarely had borzoi-like shifts before recently. it’s probably a cameo shift. i suppose i’m just sad to think that this feeling might end, since it feels so comfortable and me right now. i’ll just have to wait a while and see if this sticks.
and tbh, it may not even be a borzoi — the ears are the same shape (as is the body, and the fur feels right), but i’m pretty sure my ears are upright, and in most of the pictures i’ve seen, borzoi’s ears flop down. so either there’s a disproportionate amount of photos with floppy-eared-borzois or i might be another breed of dog that just looks similar to a borzoi. (i’ll continue to call myself that, tho, unless i find a breed that matches better.) i know borzois have the ability to prick their ears up, so maybe i’m just doing that more often than most borzois would? maybe the upright ears are because i still feel like a fox, it’s just milder rn and being overshadowed by borzoi-ness?
a borzoi tail also fits extremely well too, which is another thing i’ve been having trouble with recently. the fur on fox tails have been feeling too thick to be mine, even with a summer coat. but it didn’t match any of my other kintypes’ tails, as it still felt waggable and like it had fur. so i was kinda lost on what it was supposed to be from. but this one matches perfectly
as for mental-shift wise: i feel pretty much the same, though somewhat happier. which is caused by this shift, since nothing else particularly elating happened today, and i get happier the more i think about being a borzoi. i also keep feeling the urge to press my nose against windows and to lay on the floor in the typical dog-ish way.
there’s also some small, subtle difference between my personality as a fox and my personality as a borzoi — i don’t know how to describe it. i guess the best way is that the personalities are different colors? kinda? maybe personality isn’t the right word, maybe it’s more like attitude, or perspective, or way of thinking. like the thoughts tilt away from each other in different colors. i’m not describing this well
i have less species dysphoria than i usually get. when i’m a fox, which i am most of the time, i always feel too big and bulky in a human body. even when i’m a bidepal fox, i still feel much too tall. as a borzoi, i still feel *kinda* bulky, but the overall shape fits WAY better.
if any further developments occur, i’ll reblog with the updates. hopefully this sticks around for a little while, bc it’s pretty fun to exist like this
#therian#canine therian#cameo shift#borzoi theriotype#borzoi kintype#borzoi cameo shift#phantom limbs#mental shift
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((just a "little" (ha) update I guess, nothing major, just a note that I'm sorry if I post alot this week with seemingly no regard for my/my muse's vast presence on the dash, or if I end up writing alot of short weird drabbles to vent.... if there's questionable stuff it'll be tagged like always <3
I understand if you need to unfollow me to keep your dash clear for other people if you're mobile etc. or if you need to blacklist my muse's url for a bit if it's overwhelming
After xmas everything may have settled and if you wanna refollow then I'd welcome you back and wouldn't ask any questions. your comfort (whatever that may classify as in the context) is my utmost priority!
normally I try not to clutter, and I try to keep general post reblogs minimal and just queue most of them. I'm just... not doing too good rn
then again it's a 50/50 that I'll be posting nothing at all, just making my muse's presence known if it wants to sorta wave at someone from the depths of my brain hell jail.
I'll still be checking in around xmas stuff bc this muse gives me v happy bubbly vibes whenever I write it and that's honestly what I need rn.
I'm sorry if your muse reblogs/replies to one of mine's posts or smth and I seemingly glance over it. I genuinely just didn't see it. I always try and respond to stuff, or if it doesn't know how to reply I at least acknowledge that my muse saw it by liking it. but I might not have the mental capacity to actually keep up w stuff
...
BASICALLY I'm either gonna be kinda quiet or rly hyperfixated on not being in my own head for the next week or so.
I'm obv stressed anyway bc I need to do xmas shopping still and it's a struggle bc online it probs won't come in time. we're going "late night shopping" on thursday though so hopefully we can get a bunch of stuff then
but mainly an old work friend of mine passed away today. He's been unwell for a few years, and I dunno if he knew what it was and was just keeping it quiet, or if they genuinely couldn't work it out. last I heard he was getting MRIs.
I had a complicated relationship w him (positive) bc he was either bipolar or had BPD like me (although he wasn't diagnosed with either, but it was obvious he at least had bipolar), and if you know anything abt BPD you know what an FP (favourite person) is, and we were sort of each other's when we were working together? I think. like I say he wasn't diagnosed, but it felt like that. we hit it off really quick and were both really comfortable with each other, and he was just the sweetest most supportive person. he was one of my FPs, which basically means my brain was cursed to be in intense friendlove with him. He would tell me that he loved me and appreciated my friendship, was always saying you need to tell people you love them, however you can, however you mean it, because you don't know if you'll ever get to tell them again
he always showed off the little things I made him and made sure everyone knew exactly where he got the silly little origami animals on his desk, or who made his juggling balls that were his favourite thing in the whole world bc I made them for him by hand, and picked the fabric out specifically for him.
One time around xmas, bc of covid, we had these big plastic screen dividers between our desks and I used posca paint pens to draw him a HUGE Robin in a scarf and santa hat (his name was Robin and people always got him little Robin themed things, he loved them) on the one by his manager desk, like a name tag, but Facilities told him he needed to clean it off and chastised him thinking he did it, and you're "not supposed to vandalise work equipment" even though they're literally washable and it was xmas. we were sticking decorations everywhere, how is it any different? but he played along but he was really mad. He didn;t wanna say it was me that did it, because he thought I might've gotten in trouble, but he also wanted to argue that I'd put alot of work into it. I hadn't put that much in, it was just for fun and I liked drawing it, and he got to see it! That was the important part. and I said so. but I cleaned it off and drew him a new Robin on a piece of paper and he kept it at his desk like a retired picket sign, and told the story to anyone who would be polite enough to listen
mostly though, he gendered me correctly (and he was in his 60s so being so passionate abt they/them pronouns was just really sweet, though he was clearly bi but still in the closet, so it was maybe a little projection, in a way, or just straight up quiet queer solidarity), and literally agressively made sure everyone else did too, when he realised I'd been just letting people at work use whatever pronouns, he got really proactive and made sure all my paperwork was marked as "them" officially (with my permission). if anyone misgenered me he would get visably annoyed or disgusted, and there were a couple people who "forgot" (every time) and he actually got angry at them about it and reported them for harassment, which might've been a little extreme, but I honestly felt so validated, and I'm tearing up thinking about it. I don't think anyone's ever fought that hard in my corner, especially after only knowing me for, at that point, less than a year.
We worked together in a couple different parts of the business for a couple years, until some stuff happened that I shouldn't say bc I need my rp blog(s) to stay far away from my professional life, but we were gonna be working together doing something else, but it wasn't his thing, it was stressful and there were other reasons, but he just lost it and walked out.
we had a little joke when we were training before he left, he had this soft toy robin that he let me borrow because I was really anxious, and I gave it a little notepad and pencil and wrote something silly on it for when he got it back each time. usually some out of context joke on what we learned that day, so we could both laugh about it. but when he left I still had it, and I messaged him saying I would get it back to him sometime, but he said to keep it to remind me of him.
I put it away to keep it safe, but I'm gonna have to go and find it, because it's one of the only physical things I have left of him.
#ooc post.#.vat file#rl illness ment-#rl death ment-#readmore.#I think I'm ok for now. I'm sorry about the stuff mentioned at the top but I'm not sorry this post is so long. for once.#you don't have to read it. but if you do? then hey. thanks. we're besties now.#I had a little rant about him and it's cathartic but I'm trying not to break down tbh#I think just expressing how much I loved him helps. he was just. so pure and wholesome in reality.#always showing how much he appreciated people...
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I have a love/hate relationship with my autism...
Autism is interesting. At least, I find my autism entertaining. To set an example of what I mean, here's a list:
Pros:
-Fuck, music is so cool. I love it and I can feel it moving in my brain.
-I can tell if something is different or off really easily.
-Want me to explain your emotions to you bc even you don't understand them? Oh, don't worry, I don't know how I'm feeling either. No judgment. Anyway, time to examine your body language and tell you what every thought you're having rn is.
-You don't know where to eat? I have a maximum of 5 foods I can keep in my system at every waking moment, ask which one I want. (More ARFID than autism, but still.)
-Mmmmmmmmmmmmmm good texture, much comfort.
-You talk to me for 2 minutes every day? You say hi to me every morning? Good, you're now part of my routine. You may become the highlight of my day with just a small gesture.
-Yooo this painting has 5 people hidden inside. Also, I think this artist has a flaw in this section but succeeds really well in this section and-
-You want something to talk about? I HAVE SOMETHING TO TALK ABOUT! MEMEME I DO! ASK ME ABOUT [hyperfixation] P L E A S E !
-.O. You got me a gift! You shouldn't have. What is it? [Literally anything that isn't one of the 10 things I dislike] Omg I love it! Thank you so much! *Keeps it for the rest of my life*
-You know when I trust you. You'll notice. Don't worry about how or when. You'll just know.
-"Words, words, words, words-" "How tf are you on chapter 15 I left for 8 minutes-" "Shhhhhhhhhhhh. I'm at a really important part. Words, words, words, words."
-Want to know when I'm too tired? I stop walking on my tippytoes. That's when.
Cons:
-FUCK EVERYTHING IS TOO LOUD TOO LOUD SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UP
-Ow why is everything so bright that hurts
-Mmmmmmmmmmmm everything hurts. How do bones hurt? Mmmmmmmmmmmm tension headaches.
-EW NONO TEXTURE GET IT OFF GET IT OFF GET IT OFF I WANT TO PEEL THE SKIN THAT TOUCHED IT OFF OW WHY IS IT PAINFUL
-I can't sleep. My brain doesn't want to. Yeah, I know it's 6 AM.
-What? Huh? Da fuq? Uhhhhhhh.. OH OH OH yeah yeah yeah. Why did that take so long to process?
-WHY IS THERE A BREAK IN THE ROUTINE I HATE IT WHEN A PATTERN STOPS. BAD BAD YUCKY BAD. WHY? PANIC.
-*Static* "Hey. did you hear what I said?" "Oh sorry I zoned out. What?"
-Why am I irritated by this? It's not a big deal. Why am I crying, literally all that happened was [thing most people would call insignificant that I find really important]."
-A thing got denied, guess that's a permanent no. Time to lose all hope in it.
-Everything is awesome and I love life and I'm so happy and- *break in routine, bad texture, sensory issue, bad item, something gets slightly off* GODAMNIT
The main inspiration for this list was from this afternoon. My partner and I were about to go walk the dog and pick up food along the way. But what happened? My shoes were missing. They weren't in the place, let alone the room I always put them in and have for the past months. A break happened in the routine and I panicked so badly that my partner had to pull me into a hug and tell me it was okay. I almost started crying bc my shoes were in the wrong place and I didn't know where they were at first. I was excited, practically jumping for joy because I was about to pay for and have a date with my partner. Then, a pattern broke and I almost had a panic attack. I found my shoes, put them on, and boom. I was happy again. Of course, it took me a while to get past the initial shock from it. But afterwards, I was giddy as a kid on Christmas.
TLDR; Autism has its ups and downs, some of mine are listed above. Also, I lost my shoes and it almost sent me into a panic attack. So that was interesting.
#Not everyone with autism is the same#if you don't relate to this it doesn't mean you don't have autism#actually autistic#music#sensory#is it a blessing?#is it a curse?#or is it just a part of me?#pretty much a vent post#My brain said I'm not allowed to talk about the shoe thing without a prompt or someone asking if anything interesting happened today#So I made the list to make myself feel like I'm not just venting about my bad moment today to literal air cause no one is gonna see this#sorry for the rant
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Fuck it, im bored
1. Absolutely not
2. My partner, ofc
3. Most things that come out of my mouth, I have no filter sometimes and a tendency to be cringy
4. 100%
5. Very happily taken
6. Quick, painless, and unsuspecting
7. Tacos 🌮
8. Not often, was fucking amazing at badminton once though
9. Only when they get too long
10. 5 years ago
11. Hehe yeah 🫣 (the love of my life ofc)
12. Way past that
13. I have a list
14. Maybe sometimes?? I dont think so though. At least not currently
15. I've acquired a dog through relationship I suppose lol, we also have a cat that I made them keep
16. Better day than most. Solid 8/10
17. No
18. Fuck yes, im not dealing with them things
19. Maybe? But even though a lot of bad things happened I really like where my life it at rn, I wouldn't wanna change or jeopardize that
20. My car
21. Fucking rest omg
22. Absolutely, as many as me and my partner can handle responsibility lol
23. Yes, 10 of them
24. In school it was always math
25. I don't know? Not really
26. 4 cheese mac and cheese with honey pepper chicken tenders (shout out to applebees)
27. Not that I'm aware of, and if I have it wasn't on purpose
28. No
29. Not while dating
30. That I have to work 40 hours a week min to survive in this economy
31. I sure as hell hope so, or else this would be real awkward (jk, I know you love me babe)(also I *guess* family counts as well)
32. Green
33. Huuuuuge trust issues. Incredibly large. Trauma does that to a person
34. My last dream was about a friend of mine kissing me against my will and me punching him in the face
35. My sibling
36. Probably
37. As someone with huge amnesia gaps in my memory, forget lol
38. Maybe?? Idk, each year has big highs and big lows. It's hard to measure
39. .... 21, we ain't gonna talk about it
40. Yeah, once
Idk why the fuck 41-50 are missing but oh well
51. Chicken tenders and fries probably
52. I believe that things can be set in motion but not that everything is fixed and destined to happen. So like a little? But not fully
53. Watched YouTube
54. No 💚
55. Sometimes, not often. Certified pushover unless someone comes for someone I care about
56. 3
57. Yeah, I think I do. I believe it presents differently, I don't fully believe in predestined sometimes. And I certainly don't believe love at first sight. But true love, love at its core that's stronger than anything and that's the person you are meant to be with because no one or nothing compares? Yeah I do
58. Rainy
59. Yes
60. Absolutely
61. Depends on the person, but yeah I don't mind it
62. My partner, a shit ton of hyperfixations, my relationship with my extended family, a lot really
63. I've considered it
64. Lol no, would be very easy. Would enjoy it very much in fact
65. Laugh probably
66. Not fully, but im more comfortable around them than everyone else
67. My brother?? Technically. If we are talking outside of the family then my coworker
68. My partner
69. Yeah, I think so. See number 57, same vibe/similar answer honestly
70. Yes, of course. But there's also a lot of people I would live for as well. And honestly sometimes that's harder
70 horrible questions ... Fuck it
01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?
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