#this happens like thrice a week tbh

[victimized-martyr]

Stan rly thought he could send in those two alone to get Robinson Crusoe and nothin would happen huh.

[idk-i-want-mcl-content]

beebop

story time to future self, hope you learn from this

[fieldofdaisiies]

so i was just calmly checking my tumblr notifs and suddenly YOU FOLLOW ME?!?!?! wth how did this happen?? in less than two weeks, two of my favourite blogs follow me back?! my poor heart can't take this okay! anyway love love love you🩷🩷🥹 hope you have a great day (i still can't believe it tbh like what is happening rn i checked it thrice before even sending this ask am i dreaming?)

oh god!! yes, of course. you are so sweet and your support is sooooo amazing💛💛 generally I really like your blog and then things you blog/reblog. and you blog aesthetic is so pretty hehehe.

okay, and then...you never have to thank me for following you!!!

you are not dreaming no worries, but I guess now you know what I feel like when you leave a comment on my stories, or reblog something hahah💛💛💛

have an absolutely wonderful day, you wonderful human, love you💛☀️

[al-the-remix]

Wolf cub cult 👀

Wolf Club/Cult

This is the one I'm struggling the most with!!! And tbh could use some direction lol.

I did the thing that I'm frequently guilty of doing where I start the fic off strongly in one tone and then get indecisive later on and start coming up with ideas that are better suited to a fic with an entirely different tone and don't know what direction to take anymore.

The basic premise of this fic is based on these two posts 1 & 2

When I was first working on it I wanted the tone to be lighter and more cracky because most of my other wips are so dark and angsty 💀 but now I really want it to be more culty and ritualistic and I'm twiddling my thumbs about deleting and reworking what I do have (pain).

My original idea for the fic: Steve receives an invitation for the Greyson Wolf Club, he's confused as to why he's receiving it now of all times as it's not really his vibe and also he's soooo old, his pussy is sooo dry :'^( *world's smallest violin plays*. Steve attends a charity event at the Detroit club house. Sid's there (!!!). Steve finds out Sid's responsible for him receiving an invitation to join the "pack". [Some stuff happens?? the charity drive auctions off dates or something?? steve bids on sid??? or something else entirely i'm not committed to this plot line] Sid and Steve fuck.

My new idea: Sid's now the one getting the invite to the pack. In this version it's less frivolous and more revered. Steve is already part of the pack and is an important and respected member/omega. He's already got a few kids. There's some kind of pack joining ritual, like a pack/omega run or something? This one would go harder on the ABO instincts.

The other thing I'm undecided on is wether it's full, partial, or no shift abo/werewolves. It should probably be full or partial, but I already have one wip where sid fucks steve as a werewolf-like monster and another where they fuck when sid's a partial shift werewolf (play the game to learn more lol) and i'm trying my best not to write the exact same porn thrice 😭

This is the rough opening I currently have for the fic (old version):

Steve stared at his inbox, his cursor hovering over the email at the top of the queue for the third time this week. It had been sent about a month ago now and every time he did happen to open it and read it he would mark it unread and send it back to the top so that he wouldn’t lose it in the deluge that flooded his inbox daily.  With a sigh he opened up the email one more time, just to be sure. He clicked through to the website prompter and was immediately bombarded with prompts to join the Feed The Wolf newsletter and various levels of membership.   Scrolled past all of the garish wolf-branded polos and hoodies. He knew that’s not what he was being offered. Hell, he didn’t even like golf--he suffered it mostly for the sake of his social life--but that was beyond the point. He could admit to himself privately that he thought the whole thing way pretty silly—and quite probably cult adjacent.   They had taken them this long to send the offer so, why now? Steve was old and retired and to be quit honest with himself and everyone around him, reaching the end of his years where he’d be appealing to that sort of pack. Packs for the rich and famous who’s schedules were too hectic or had grown distant from their brith pack with fame. There were many reason to join a club like this one; many used it as a substitute for dating apps, other as a social club, and some simply for business connections. Steve, who still held close ties with his family pack, found it mostly superficial. They had merchandise for god sakes—be he supposed for some that was part of the draw. What was the point of being associated with a pack like this if you couldn’t brag about it.  If they wanted him that badly it would be rude to refuse the offer, it was [ounded in Detroit after all. What could it hurt, Steve thought to himself, and clicked accept. 

[r6shippingdelivery]

If you'd like to answer I'm curious about these: 🎢 😬 ⌛🎨

🎢 Which of your fics would you call your wildest ride?

Most probably the one with oviposition play kink, where Tachanka uses a especial kind of dildo to put gelatin eggs inside Kapkan before fucking him. Yep, that has to be the wildest ride 😂

😬 Which of your fics would you be most horrified for friends, family, or coworkers to stumble upon?

Any of them tbh! I keep my online life and my irl stuff carefully separated and I'd wither away in seconds if anyone of my family or irl friends found any of my stories. I'd feel massively uncomfortable sharing any of that with them. And they wouldn't understand/think it's a waste of time/mock it.

⌛ How long does it take you to write a fic, or a chapter?

It depends, but usually a week or more. I'm not a fast writer and I mostly write in small bursts of less than 1k (usually more around 500 words) about twice or thrice a day (on the train commute and before bed). So it will depend on how productive I am an how long the story turns out to be.

🎨 How do you feel about fan art of your stories?

It's beyond words how amazing that feels!! The times it happened I was so giddy and flattered and generally over the moon about it 💜 And it doesn't matter if it's a quick sketch or something more detailed, the fact someone liked your story so much as to draw for it, that is what gives you that high :D

[rewh0re]

Thanks for the tag Leni and vee!!! <<3

1. Are you named after anyone?

Like an irl person idts??

2. When was the last time you cried?

Ig it was either last month or a few weeks back

3. Do you have kids?

LMAO NO💀

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

As much as I'd like to say yes (idk why) idts i do tbh. But i do use it sometimes

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

I used to play tennis once upon a time out of school and in school i did rifle shooting and table tennis tho i was never the sports girlie lmao💀

6. What's the first thing you notice about other people?

I really check if our vibe matches and if they smile a lot around me tbh

7. What's your eye colour?

Brown:))

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

LMAO HAPPY ENDINGS!! I cannot deal with scary movies tho once upon a time i used to love them

9. Any special talents?

Idts?? I mean like twice or thrice i picked up on something which did end up happening later?? Does that count??

10. Where were you born?

Certificates say a hospital

11. What are your hobbies?

Singing, writing, reading, being an absolute menace to my best friend

12. Do you have any pets?

No:(( but i really want like a cat and a dog

13. How tall are you?

Idk like 164 maybe 165 cm

14. Fav subject in school?

Rn it's psych and english

15. Dream job?

Don't stress a girl out 🥲

Tagging : i really do not know a lot of ppl here so I'm keeping this as an open tag. anyone who wants to join is free to do so!!

tagged by @cursedvibes :)) ty

ok 15 questions 15 mutuals lets go

1. Are you named after anyone?

nope

2. When was the last time you cried?

uh idk probably a month or two ago? was feeling very bad </3

3. Do you have kids?

no lol

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

eh, here and there. mostly not because i dont want to be misunderstood or accidentally offend someone

5. What sports do you play/have you played?

i used to play tennis and badminton when i was a kid. joined a martial arts club two years ago but idk if that counts

6. What’s the first thing you notice about other people?

their mouth and their face. mouth specifically mentioned from face cause i have to look there when someone is speaking to understand what theyre saying. also when i look at someone my gaze travels up cause it feels awkward looking in their eyes directly

7. What’s your eye colour?

dark brown

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

theyre not mutually exclusive but ummmmm happy endings. i just like sleeping at night i guess lmao

9. Any special talents?

i can draw lol

10. Where were you born?

in a hospital !!

11. What are your hobbies?

drawing, writing. i also write a lot of analysis essays in my free time for fun but im too shy to post any of them here ghrfsghjkbgfsgkj my posts on here are all cleaned up and nice. i practice using nunchucks too :)

12. Do you have any pets?

two birds

13. How tall are you?

170cm

14. Favorite subject in school?

drawing/painting and web development

15. Dream job?

i think i want to be a math teacher. but if we're talking ab a hypothetical job with no drawbacks or harm that would hypothetically support me in all ways then i would love to be an animator or illustrator

i cant think of 15 off the top of my head but tagging @terroristiraqi @cairenes @that-one-queer-poc @zukkaoru @that-was-anticlimactic @bathtublawyer @themeoflauramp3 and anyone else who wants :))

[lexa-griffins]

I know clarke’s the healer between the two but lexa gently tending to clarke’s scratches is too cute

Tbh, there is no way lexa doesn't know how to at the very least clean and catheterize a wound, maybe even do basic stitches - for survival on the ground and as a warrior - the commander no less - she has to know the basics in case something happens to her if she's finds herself alone and wounded!

Which does bring me to Lexa cleaning Clarke wounds because, she doesn't have a doctors touch like Clarke does. A little too forceful while cleaning a scratch that makes Clarke hiss, tying the bandage too tight around Clarke's wound that she'll have to loosen up if she wants to feel her arm at all. And I know there's this trope were Lexa never wants to ask for help, but her and Clarke are one and the same, because we know Clarke doesn't do too good asking for help either, so if Lexa is cleaning her wounds is because she refused to go see a healer and now she has to deal with nurse no bedside manners Lexa.

And I agree, it's fucking cute. Because Clarke is sitting there like a little kid who got caught doing something she shouldn't and she can't even complain about Lexa not doing something right if she wants to sleep in the bed tonight. The commander is sitting on her lap because Clarke kept saying she was fine and had to be forced to sit and be taken care of. And all the while Lexa is mumbling about how

"you had to go pick a fight with a warrior thrice your size! And you just could not quit while you were ahead, you had be all Wanheda on him"

and Clarke does want to point out she did win as he will be staying in the infirmary with a broken leg for the next few weeks but poking the bear does not seem like a good idea right now.

Once she's finished Lexa just looks at Clarke with serious eyes and softly tells her to "try not to get injured again" and kissing her by the cut on her chin, gently pecking her busted lip.

And Clarke will smile and kiss her fully even if her lip still hurts like hell, "no promises Heda"

[333444555]

I wish every afab enby would know how powerful it is to identify with women / as a woman instead of putting themselves in a box in the gender system.

Every week I see screenshots from tiktok going around where a non-binary female person talks about their experiences with misogyny and the trauma that is female socialization. Most of the time they are even able to name it as misogyny, as the hatred of women and girls. This is often followed by multiple pages of comments by other non-binary or trans-identified females agreeing. Surprise! If the world sees you as female you will be discriminated against as a female. It does not matter if you wear baggy jeans, have a buzz-cut or call yourself a different gender (and tbh many of those non-binaries do look very gender conforming to the female gender role).

I even assume most of them know it or at least suspect it, sometimes they claim their new gender identity on sexist stereotypes and expectations, saying “I am not as female (=submissive/weak/interested in being a housewife) as I might look! I am not like the other girls!“

What they usually don't see is that they have already given up half of the fight. Yes, you can totally still say very general, very surface-level things against cis men but a huge part of feminist analysis gets completely lost when you conform to the gender system that exists today. When talking about any inequality related to your sex, body or anatomy your every step gets watched. The way you word your criticism about the right to bodily autonomy must be thought over thrice to not hurt some trans persons feelings and get called out by some white upper middle-class academic on twitter. You are conforming to a system that will prioritize male feelings over your safety and health as long as they claim to not be male on the basis of words. Because that is all it takes to be acknowledged as a woman in that system. Every analysis about male socialization gets completely thrown out the window.

You have to submit to a system that lets male people talk over female people on womens' issues and get celebrated for it. And dare you ask an uncomfortable question or relate any male quality or pronoun to a trans woman you will be flagged, and side-eyed and suspected to be a terf. And they will mostly do it on the basis of your sex. They will suspect you are a terf in the moment of slight doubt because they know you are female. (I know men also get called terf from time to time but it takes many very clear gender critical statements for that to happen) You will always be on thin ice. Your activism must be approved by the neo patriarchy that is currently backed by academia and the biggest cooperations in the western world.

I wish female enbies knew how powerful it is to claim your womanhood and your femaleness as a female, as a girl, as a woman. You don't have to tip-toe around when talking about sexism. You can still support gender non-conformity. You find like-minded women you share formative experiences with. You do not have to let a male person talk over you because they are considered the most oppressed person under patriarchy. You do not believe in any inherent femininity that you have to perform to be considered female. You can mentally protect yourself from the grooming, being called a genital fetishist. You do not give up the loose community that is womanhood, the mutual understanding of moments of pains and happinesses in life that are sprinkled through the female population and the pressures of patriarchy since even before birth.

If you are a the typical non-binary female you will not be doubted to be a terf as fast. You might not feel targeted by claims, insults or memes about cis women, who many people love to shit on a lot and receive lots of praise, especially from men, and are allowed to participate in the trans community that is still kind of seen as special and brave by some normies and yes-men. But you also have to submit to a system that gives males transfeminine people the biggest platforms and power over cultural decisions and womanhood. You are grouped as a tme with cis men. You are part of the outer-circle of a community but still always on thin ice.

Being a woman and claiming that unapologetically is a freedom that might make you unpopular with the patriarchy, the conservatives and the gender folx but it is a freedom that money can not buy. It is one of the answers to how the world relates to you, no matter how you identify. It opens the door to understanding historical sexism and misogyny. Your character does not have to fit in a box, you rather just see how your organic body is of a specific form that has it's specific abilities and needs specific protections. Your personality, hobbies and looks are completely free to develop in the way you prefer.

Understanding who and what you are got made so complicated by our culture because it can make you incredibly powerful. The thought of women knowing themselves, forming community, having strong solidarity and being aware of their injustices scares the patriarchs to the bones.

[moonlitberrry]

study with me

➀ ᴀ/ɴ: so i got inspired by wonho’s video to make this new bullet imagine where you and wonho study, yes that’s it, thank you for my brief talk. all softness right on ahead from here~

➁ ᴘᴀɪʀɪɴɢ: college student! lee hoseok/wonho x college student! reader

➂ ɢᴇɴʀᴇ: fluff, college au

➃ ᴡᴀʀɴɪɴɢ: none

i legitimately can’t believe you guys but wow

studying for 1 hour straight is a complete goal! 

you can’t focus on studying actually and just wanna yeet your subjects at the moment. look, you just can’t right now, ok?

sweet boyfriend wonho who happened to offer help you study happened

he came over at your house and helped you study for your upcoming exams and you’re just,,,

“no no it’s ok, i’ll stop being a lazy ass”

wonho ain’t having it and just, “babe, please. i love you but we’re not gonna have you failing your exams. so let’s study together, ok?”

“ok...” you give up just wanting to sleep but since he offered to help you study you just had to 

he’s too sweet and soft like this

so the both of you study for like 1 hour and its been going well tbh

calm music playing, books laid out on the floor along with boyfriend! wonho helping out in studying

after sometime even he wanted to yeet everything for a while and just give you every affection he wanted to give ever since he came to your house like

expect a bunch of kisses right after you were finally serious in studying for about 30 minutes ago

“h-hoseok please, we’re studying-.”

“a few kisses won’t hurt though..”

he kissed you

once

twice

thrice

four

five

LOTS of affection

and you’re just,

“ok ok stop haha”

and just return the affection back because he was pouting and how can you resist that?

so now the both of you are having a break from studying

wonho leading you to a nearby convenient store to grab some ramen and coffee

he doesn’t care what kind as long as you guys grab some ramen to eat in your break like

its his soul food

and you can’t complain

the both of you chill around the convenient store watching people pass by while eating ramen

he captures this little moment that the both of you have 

chilling, studying during the exam weeks

his caption with the both of ya’ll picture: studying with my favorite person <3, taking a ramen break atm”

cute ass comments coming from his friends about his post

kihyun: awww so cuteee i want to have goals like this!!

shownu: good luckkkk study hard guys!

minhyuk: yOU gUYS got food WITHOUT me???

jooheon replying to minhyuk: you can study and eat some food at my place

hyungwon: ya’ll are studying?

changkyun: studying? i don’t know her

after your little trip to the convenient store the both of you head back to resume on studying but like,

wonho isn’t having it right now

he just wants to pull you onto his lap and cuddle

now the roles have switched and you wanna continue to study and he doesn’t want to

keeps giving you kisses in order to distract you

he thinks all of this studying is already enough for one day and the both of you can continue during the next day

“but hoseok, one last page-.”

“what time is it? it’s cuddle time!”

eventually after a few kisses on your cheek and neck here and there you caved in and reciprocated his affection towards you back

your kiss? 

ramen mixed with iced coffee from the convenient store just hours ago

“you taste weird-.”

he keeps chuckling about it and you’re just, 

“bOI we just ate the same thing, what are you talking about??”

ya’ll keep on giggling right after the kiss and became extremely dorky with each other so quickly

it became so light right after that

his giggles ok?

makes you melt

its too cute to be heard out like this and it just made you squish his cheeks while he had his arms secured around you 

just because he hates to let you go as well

“i have one fear”

“and that is?”

“i don’t wanna let you go right now, what if something or someone takes you away from me?”

and you’re just, “boi what are you talking about you dork? what if i need to go to the bathroom or something?”

he just shushes you with a bunch of kisses

you made sure to invite wonho to your next study sessions

if you’re gonna get this much affection and help then yes you need lots of study sessions with him

and he doesn’t mind really because

he’ll spend his time with you a lot and that’s one of his favorite activities

just to spend his time with you means a lot <3

you were glad to accept his offer in the first place

ain’t nothing better than to study with wonho

until you know, the both of you end up distracting each other again haha

i mean ya’ll get good grades so all is good

« back to hoho masterlist

[qforqazaq]

Hmmm

The only thing I can say about the events of the Bloody January 2022, having stayed in the city where all the "fun" and action was happening - it was scary.

Admittedly, it was exciting at first, since that was the first time when anyone witnessed protests flaring up all over the country, people going out to the streets as one. It had never happened before, protests were always some very small isolated events by activists mostly in Almaty, maybe in Astana - super rare, never lasting and doing much.

Reading/watching how people in different cities gathered for protests one by one was nothing short invigorating. And it was all in social media, of course, mostly Instagram, or independent news channels, because the government wouldn't let the official channels to roll anything related to that.

Anyway, seeing on Instagram how that huge crowd in Almaty was moving towards the centre as one in a peaceful protest was inspiring, giving hope for some changes, for a brighter future. I think some of us were hoping for it to become a colour revolution of sorts.

I remember there was someone who was stuck in their office just next to the Republic Square and was streaming live on Instagram how the crowd reached the Square, and there was police with shields and helmets, or were those soldiers? Or whoever the fuck were those. Then they started throwing stun grenades at the crowd, and that was the moment when you kind of realised that well, this shit of a government wouldn't back down, would it?

The live video went on for some time, and it was alarming to watch: a lot of smoke, and noise of people shouting, and grenades going off. The people who were streaming this stopped the video, and I don't remember if that was when the internet went down, or was it afterwards, but one thing was clear: I could hear the stun grenades coming off in the distance despite living on the other side of the city.

I'm not sure I remember all the events in the correct order, but shortly after the crowd went into the city hall and someone started the fire, and I've read they've been beating up those soldiers who were basically 18 y.o. boys serving in an army or something. I think the violence has triggered violence, and, well, honestly, people were fed up with the management for far too long so the bitterness is understandable.

What is not understandable though is that there were reports of some group coming in and starting to distribute the guns which I have no idea where they got from (Kazakhstan is not the States, you can't just get guns anywhere). Which was already suspicious, and did look like a setup tbh. Many people believe it was a diversion from the government to create the chaos, and make it an excuse to call everyone terrorists and shoot without warning.

In either case, amidst the chaos marauders jumped into the opportunity to take whatever they could get their hands on. People were crashing and raiding shops, stores, restaurants, cafes and everything in between. Considering how much the general population got fucked socioeconomically in the past decade (I mean our currency alone was devaluated thrice, it is now worth 3 times less than it did in 2013), it is no wonder why so many people didn't mind start stealing shit while they could. And, well, people were angry, the pent up decades long frustration is never a good thing, what can I say.

Anyway, the internet was cut off, and we've been in the blackout for more than a week, I think. Those were the longest days that probably everyone had ever experienced.

While we've been in the communication lockdown, we've only received those laughable SMS messages from the government telling everyone to stay indoors, while they're having their anti-terrorist operation.

The news of Tokayev asking the CSTO for help with Russia at its helm was the most alarming thing I've heard. In all honesty, it really was a pretty fucking terrifying thought, because having Russian military forces on our ground where the country is destabilised only invoked stuff along the lines of "wait, hang on, are we going to be Ukraine 2.0?" Because we know what happened to Crimea. And in retrospect we now know what happened a month later.

Oh, also considering that right before the internet was shut down people have been ironizing over all those private jets that have been spotted on Flightradar24, leaving Almaty one by one, because, of course the fucking government elite and oligarchs would promptly flee on the first opportunity. They're the last people who would even care about country's wellbeing, obviously.

Knowing this + the news of the CSTO aka Russian and Belarusian military forces coming a few days later basically solidified this feeling of the country being majorly fucked. Yeah, because losing independence to Russia would be a fucking fiasco to say the least, who even in their right mind would want to live in the Soviet Union 2.0?

Honestly, my other thoughts were questions on how people actually apply for refugee status, because living under the Russian occupation was the last thing I wanted to do with my life, thank you very much. I might be biased, but I do think that was the sentiment and fear that majority of the people shared, learning about "receiving help" from the CSTO.

Oh, and a thought of "ok, how the fuck have I even found myself in this situation? I should've probably stayed in Canada, yeah, everything seems so clear in the retrospect, doesn't it. 'Let's go back to Kazakhstan', she said, 'Kazakhstan's got potential" she said, 'there's hope, look at so many creative people putting out cool things now!' she said. Potential my arse, this failure of a country wasn't worth shit after all."

Yeah, I know, I must be fun at parties. Honestly though, you can now see what might be another reason for the lack of any inspiration to write anything on this blog. But I digress, where were we?

Ah, so, yeah, such thoughts got very pronounced when a day or two later they restored the internet connection for an hour or so, and the first thing I've read on the news was - guess what? - that Novak Djokovic's Australian visa was revoked because he didn't want to be vaccinated, so won't be able to compete in the Australian Open. And there was a huge debate about it in every media outlet's comment section.

"Vaccinated?" I thought, "Ah, yeah, COVID is a thing, we are sort of still in the middle of a pandemic right now, aren't we. And people care so much huh. Btw, can I also have problems like these, please? You know, the" white-people kind". When you're debating over getting an avocado toast or eggs Benedict on a brioche bun for breakfast, while discussing whether or not Djokovic should be allowed to play in Australia. Can I? Please?"

You know what I also found bloody hilarious? Not a single news source said anything about what is happening in Kazakhstan. Bloomberg, the Economist, New York Times, Reuter, BBC. Not a single one. Nada.

And then that was another one of those bittersweet thoughts bordering hysterical: "Haha, yeah, how could I forget: nobody, in fact, gives a flying fuck about this piece of shit of a country. Why would they? Nobody even knows where it is on the map, oh, the fucking irony. Novak Djokovic is infinitely more valuable to this world even as a news piece than Kazakhstan's possible ceasing to be a country at all! Talking of priorities, ha!"

Okay, all the news came rolling down eventually, because, of course, they did, but only towards the end of the whole ordeal. And still, the fact that the world at large is indifferent about what is happening in this particular country was quite strikingly evident.

If we are to steer back to the ordeal in question, I don't think anyone believes in that 20k terrorists attack. There are many speculations and theories, a very popular one being that:

Somebody at the top used the ensued chaos to initiate the power struggle with a goal of coup d'etat that Tokayev had to revert, which is why he asked for Putin's help.

Nazarbayev must've fallen from Putin's and/or elites' grace, considering how much more freely/boldly Tokayev had started acting in the aftermath.

I don't think anyone planned or orchestrated the protests. It was just something that flared up like a piece of dry wood, the spark being those gas prices hikes. It was never about gas prices, that was just the proverbial straw that broke the proverbial camel's back, so whatever started at Zhanaozen had finally, for the first time ever, spread like a wildfire across the country, culminating in Almaty.

The shit with a group of people showing up and starting to distribute the guns among the protesters was shady af, that looked like a setup by the government to cover this all up as terrorist attack and get a control over the situation.

Not sure if Masimov who was accused of high treason was actually the one trying to use the situation and promptly stage the coup d'etat or he was just a scapegoat, while the real mastermind behind the scenes left the stage unknown.

Long story short: we still don't know shit about what actually happened. We all just know that we had a collective existential crisis and dread along with trauma and at least one thought about emigrating elsewhere.

Everyone, at least in Almaty, had come out of this scarred at least mentally, others physically, and some people did not live to tell the story at all - and that is the saddest part.

Two weeks after the events it was surreal to sit in a patio, casually sipping your latte at a hip coffee shop in the city centre as if nothing happened. It feels surreal to recall all this now, as it feels like it happened in a different lifetime or a parallel reality. The time blurs the edges though, and it makes you realise that human brain and psyche learns to accept everything.

Political instability is a pain in the arse - I can tell you that much.

And my desire to only have white-people problems have crystallised and solidified back then, but one thing is clear: getting that comically caricature sense of privilege would be rendered impossible, having witnessed this "revolution-that-did-not-happen".

Criminal proceedings against citizens accused of taking part in the protests that rocked Kazakhstan in January 2022 are still ongoing, according to BBC News Russian. More than 5,000 criminal cases were opened in the wake of “Bloody January,” including ones against people who died in the unrest. The targets of these posthumous trials include six people who were killed in Almaty, two who were killed in Kyzylorda, and seven who were killed in Taraz. Kazakhstanis have termed them the “trials of the souls of the dead.”

One of the defendants in question is Shyngys Tastanbekov, who was 34 when he was killed. Investigators alleged that he took part in the protests and that four other suspects who also died during the unrest attacked the president’s residence and the city administration building. All five of them were convicted, and the ruling was upheld by an appeals court in June. The court did not hand down a sentence, citing the defendants’ deaths.

Zhaksylyk Dolda, the lawyer representing Tastanbekov’s family, has denounced the trial as political, citing procedural violations committed during the investigation phase. The prosecution’s “evidence,” for example, included video footage that showed Tastanbekov standing in a crowd. Under Kazakhstan’s Criminal Procedure Code, the prosecutors are required to show the video to the defense in its entirety, but the clips used to convict Tastanbekov had been edited. According to Dolda, nowhere in the video is Tastanbekov seen attacking any buildings or police officers.

Additionally, investigators did not commission any expert analyses of the footage to prove that the person it shows is actually Tastanbekov. The BBC noted that he was initially charged with terrorism and attacking government structures as well but that those charges were ultimately dropped due to a lack of evidence.

Tastanbekov’s relatives do not believe he committed the crimes he was convicted of. According to his sister, Shynar, the prosecution’s evidence is self-contradictory; among other things, some materials say that Tastanbekov was killed on January 5 outside of the president’s residence in Almaty, while others say his body wasn’t found until January 7 and was in a different location. Shynar also said one investigator asked the family to sign a confession statement confirming that Tastanbekov took part in the protests. When they refused, according to Shynar, the investigator threatened them. Shynar maintains that her brother did not participate in any riots or seizures of government buildings but simply attended a peaceful protest to help the other demonstrators “convey the people’s desperation to the authorities.”

In January 2022, the Almaty authorities opened a criminal case over Tastanbekov’s murder, but his death was never investigated, his lawyer told the BBC. According to Dolda, in the first examination of Tastanbekov’s body, a police officer noted that he had a through-and-through gunshot wound and burn marks on his lower leg, but the burn isn’t mentioned in the official forensic report. Dolda believes his client may have died while being tortured, but the court did not take this possibility into account. Kazakhstan’s Prosecutor General has acknowledged that security officials tortured some people who were arrested in connection with the unrest, and a total of 203 criminal cases were opened over alleged instances of torture and abuse of authority. To this day, it’s unclear who fired at protesters.

International human rights organizations have called on the Kazakh authorities to conduct an independent investigation of the January unrest, but Kazakhstan’s president, Kassym-Jomart Tokayev, has maintained that involving international experts is unnecessary. As of June 2023, only 12 people had been charged in connection with protesters’ death, according to the BBC. According to human rights advocates, more than 40 cases opened over protesters’ deaths have been dismissed or classified.

Seven other people who were killed during the protests have been convicted of participating in mass protests in the city of Taraz. According to journalist Yesdaulet Kyzyrbekuly, none of the suspects’ parents believe the authorities’ account of their childrens’ deaths. One of the people convicted, Andrey Opushiev, was 17 years old when he died. He died from a bullet wound after being shot in the back, and his jaw, teeth, fingers, and left leg were broken. Despite his family’s pleas, the authorities have not investigated his death.

[keiyoomi]

❝ paalam❞

☾pairing: akaashi keiji x reader;

☾genre: angst

☾word count: 1,458 words

☾warning: cheating. akaashi is ooc.

☾note: i will probably rewrite this in the future. like my other works, this is unedited. will edit soon, but not this month. i think. i run out of ideas, tbh. also, i can’t write this in peace. sksksksksksksksksks. ah! if there’s anyone interested to beta read my future works, please step forward. T^T

☾currently playing on repeat: paalam by moira dela torre ft. ben&ben

“We’ll live in a house with a front yard and a backyard,” Akaashi whispered as he two slowly dance in your living room. He brought your hand to his lips before placing his hand behind your back. “Maybe we’ll have two or three kids who’ll be spoiled by his godparents. Especially Bokuto-san,” he added making you smile against his chest. “Everything will be perfect,” he whispered before kissing your temple.

You slammed your phone on the top of your wooden center table after reading the message he sent. ‘Why now? Of all times, why now when I’m finally healing from all the pain he had caused?’ Tears streamed down your cheeks as memories flooded your mind.

“Keiji.” Akaashi glanced at your direction before pulling you closer to him. “I hope we could stay like this forever,” you mumbled while drawing lazy circles against his arms. “I feel better whenever you’re around. You always know what to do and how to solve any obstacle presented to you.”

You looked up at Akaashi before kissing his jaw making him chuckle. “I am hoping for the same thing too. I hope that you’ll always be the first person I get to see the when I wake up.” He smiled at you before placing a tender kiss on your forehead. “And the only person I’ll be kissing every single day,” he says after kissing your temple thrice.

You made your way towards your fridge, taking out three cans of beers and your leftover pizza, before heading towards your room. However, seeing the corridor of your apartment alone made you stop. It reminded you of the worst night of your life.

You were waiting for him to arrive, to tell him about your plans. For your shared future. You were patiently waiting near the door while glancing at your phone from time to time. You sent him multiple message, asking where he is and if he’s coming home anytime soon. You even asked his friends about his whereabouts, but none of them knew where he was.

Or maybe they do. They just don’t want to tell you where he is.

Still, you waited for him to return. Not minding the fact that you’ve been skipping your classes just to see him again. But a week later, not even his shadow visited your shared apartment. Hell, he didn’t even return to take any of his things.

The next thing you knew, your world is already crumbling into tiny bits. Crushing every hopes and dreams you’ve shared with him.

Bitter tears streamed down your face as you walk towards your room. You didn’t even bother to switch on the lights before locking the door behind you. You just. . . want to forget everything about him. You just want to let go of the pain. To move on.

You wanted to see him again. You wanted to know how he’s doing after he left. If he’s doing better without you in his life. You open one of the beers and drowned yourself in alcohol, hoping that by the time you wake up, you’ll be able to escape this hellish nightmare.

But even in your dreams, he’s there.

He was wearing one of his favorite outfit that night. The night when he first went out without giving you any heads up. Akaashi arrived at your shared apartment drunk with someone from his department. They almost fell when the two of them tried to fit at the door. You would’ve laugh if you see one of his friends. You would’ve laugh with their silliness. If only. . . if only he didn’t kiss the woman in front of you.

“Who was that?” you asked while tapping his tinted cheeks. Tears stained your cheeks as soon as the woman left your apartment. “Hey, answer me, Keiji. Who was that? Why did she kiss you?” You were wiping your tears with your free hand as your left arm supports his weight. “Kei, please. Answer me,” you begged as the two of you were at your apartment’s corridor.

“Her? She’s no one important,” he responded before pushing you away from him. He made his way towards his room with wobbly legs.

You bit your lower lip before holding his arm. “Kei, do we have a problem?” you asked, your hands becoming colder every passing second. “Am I not enough?”

“I want to sleep,” he replied, unclasping your hand from his arm. “See you tomorrow.”

The following day, it was as if he forgot everything he did last night. Until it happened again and again. Until you’ve had enough of his bullshit.

“Why? Why are you doing this to me?” you asked as soon as he entered your shared apartment. With the same woman. Worst part? He smelled just like her. “Did I do anything that offended you? Did I do something wrong?”

“I’m tired!”

You scoffed. “And do you think I’m not? Huh?” you asked before pulling his arm. “Stop running away from me, Akaashi. We’ll discuss this right here, right now! I’ve had enough of your bullshit, Akaashi!”

“Fine!” he screamed. “Yes, I am fucking her and I enjoy fucking her!”

You let his arm go, as if you held a hot metal rod with your bare hands.

Your lips parted as you tried to breathe in. You couldn’t believe that you actually heard those words from him. You couldn’t believe that he changed this much. “Why? Why? Why?” you screamed while hitting his chest. “I’ve been loving you with all my heart for years! I gave you my everything! But you just—”

“—because you’re always busy! Always out with God knows who!” he screamed back, eyes filled with rage.

Your slapped his face with your shaky hands. “Fuck you and your stupid excuse!” You poked his chest. Your body was shaking with rage. “You know the reason why I’m always away. You know why. . .” Your fell on your knees while blubbering. “All this time. . .all this time. . .”

You woke up in the middle of the night and the first thing you did was respond to his message.

THE FOLLOWING DAY, you didn’t bother to wear anything fancy. You put on your black shirt and pants before heading to the meeting place you chose. It was easy to spot him from the small crowd. You sat on the empty spot beside him, your eyes glued to the children playing few meters away from you.

“What do you want?” you asked before he could even say a word. “Let’s cut to the chase, Akaashi.”

“I’m sorry.” You scoffed before looking away from the children, hoping to hide your emotion from him. “For all the pain that I’ve caused you. For all the lies that I’ve told you.”

You immediately turn your head towards him as soon as you hear him sniff. “I-I’m sorry you got hurt. . . because of everything I said. I’m sorry that I got scared.”

You wanted to wrap your arms around him. You wanted to comfort him so bad, but the pain in your chest kept you from doing so. You covered you bit the back of your hand, your shoulders shake in silence as your tears stream down youe cheeks.

“I-I got scared. . . I was scared to. . . to lose you.” Then, you both look at each other. “I was scared to hold you back.” Akaashi hold your hand before placing it on his cheek. “Y-You’re willing to give up everything you’ve dreamed of just to be with me.”

“That’s not your decision to make, Akaashi.” You respond between your sobs. “I wanted to be with you. I wanted you to be there when I achieve those dreams.” You lowered your head before meeting his gaze. “I wanted to make you proud of my achievements.” You harshly brush the tears on your cheeks. “I wanted to keep my promise to you back then while achieving my dreams. That I would never let you go. . .”

Images of you and him while dancing around your apartment appeared in your mind.

“That we’ll be there for each other no matter what happens. . .”

“I’m sorry that I messed up.”

You shook your head while pulling your hand away from him. “T-That was all in the past. Our past that we could no longer undo.” You forced a smile. “Maybe we could finally move forward after this,” you added, before standing up. “T-Thank you. For this closure.” You took a deep breath before exhaling loudly. “T-Thank you for loving me, Akaashi, I hope you’ll find the person who can. . . understand you better. Someone who can. . . love you with all their heart.”

AKAASHI wanted to go after you. To tell you that you’re still the only person he wanted to spend the rest of his life with. But guilt hold him back from chasing you. If only he didn’t crush your heart.

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[falsegoodnight]

hiiiii <3 would you care to update your raging fanbase on your wips/current priorities/progress/future plans?

omg ruthie i hope you realize that i’m taking this as permission to RAMBLE (also raging fan base sjfjjfg what 😭) also quick note, i’m doing this on my phone so that’s a 99% increased chance of typos. just ignore them <3

i’m currently attempting to do what i call “slowing the fuck down” because i’m literally incapable of taking an actual break so i have to settle for lowering my posting rate (for the sake of my grades most of all, but also the sake of my deteriorating sanity ha). posting twice or thrice (august 2020 smh) a month is fun and all except that it isn’t sjdjkd

i say that and yet i’m still planning on posting twice in march... anyways.

i’ll do this in list format because i love lists.

1. assassin au

okay so this is based off prompt 80 from the blff which is hopefully saved somewhere in my notes because i don’t even remember—

okay it is!! the prompt: John Wick au (kinda?), in which Harry is a legendary assassin but hides this from his sweet boyfriend Louis the whole time. Cue lots of badass Harry action scenes while trying to juggle this with his normal life with his sweet boyfriend and their cute dog Clifford.

and so the thing about this prompt is that it was originally submitted to the fest by lovely chelsea @kittenlouis whose birthday just happens to be coming up in march hehe. it’s a prompt that stuck out to me from the beginning but i never really considered it because i didn’t think i’d ever be able to pull off “badass Harry action scenes” tbh i still don’t know if i can but i’m going to try!

i’m currently at 8.5k for this fic out of an estimated 48k (rip) but that’ll hopefully be 10k by the end of today. the whole story itself is already outlined and planned out and i’m so excited about it, i can’t even articulate how much. there’s lots of drama and action and twists and turns and everything i love!! also this harry, man... this harry is my favorite harry i’ve ever written 😔🤚 i adore him and he deserves the world. they both do :’)

it’s definitely not going to be for everyone since there’s going to be a lot of action and violence (not non-graphic violence) and it’s darker than anything i’ve ever written 😬 like don’t get me wrong, 100% going for action rom-com vibes for some scenes and there’ll be some fluff and soft, sappy moments (stoic hardened assassin that has no experience with love in any form until he meets sweet affectionate nurse, pls 😓) but the last part of the fic: *incoherent gesticulations*

also it’s mpreg!! lol it’s for chelsea, i had to.

anyways back to the violence— i can’t even tell you how many videos and articles i’ve read/watched in the past week on jiu jitsu and kali, tactical driving, knife fighting (sort of have a fascination with this one now) (and an extreme fear sjdjd), medical info about various injuries, escapology, poisons, the john wick verse (it’s not going to be as intense as john wick but i am thinking of setting it in an alternate reality new york where there’s a lot more government instability and free reign from the underground— not, like, a lot... but a bit), and more. i love getting deep into research and ending up with so much new knowledge and information that you don’t know if you’ll ever apply to real life (or really really hope you won’t have to 😳)

yeah so that’s been fun! i’m looking forward to getting deeper in the story!!

2. fake dating au

i’ve already talked so much, this is ridiculous. will try to be quick now!

fake dating au is my oldest wip! it’s circa december 2019 and honestly i’m annoyed with myself for letting it sit for so long. however!! i finally completed the full outline for this fic (after months of procrastination) sometime last week (i think... what is time?) and i feel really good about where the story has ended up so hopefully this will be my priority after assassin au! i don’t expect it to be longer than 35-38k so i may be able to finish and post it by the end of march (it’s currently at 5k!! deleted most of what i had before and then speed-wrote a few scenes the other day) but we’ll see!!

i mainly chose this as the next priority because it’s been too long since i’ve written abo :’( etblp was posted in november! over three months ago what the fuck!! but there’s going to be a lot of good abo stuff in this fic: touch depri, nesting, scenting, and... courting <3 it’s also been much too long since i’ve written any level of enemies to lovers hehe.

3. destruction fic!!

can’t explain how much i love this fic :’) it’s been mostly outlined since back in... september i believe? maybe even august— but i’ve been stuck at the 3k mark since october and that’s really frustrating. i realized it didn’t quite excite me as much as it used to so i decided i needed to change that in the way i know best:

add. drama.

i’m not even joking sjdjdj i came up with a plot point that’s going to add so much angst and i’m so excited about it 😭 i was talking to chelsea about it (is this my tactic to avoid spoiling her birthday fic for her because everyone knows i can’t shut up... perhaps) the other day and her encouragement and excitement also made me more excited.

this fic is a combination of a lot of things i love: superpower, supernatural elements in general, exes to lovers, hurt/comfort (so much hurt 💔 so much comfort ❤️), and other things that i will not reveal!! i sort of like being mysterious on occasion.

anyways those are the next three priorities and after that nothing is set in stone. however, i will say that mandalorian series and the (newly abo) flatshare au are looking pretty good to me rn... also, perhaps the sequel to just a flicker in the dark 👀 (i don’t think i’ve mentioned that on tumblr yet so... surprise!)

i definitely made good on that promise of rambling sjdjdj apologies in advance, ruthie, but thank you for your interest!! 💞 hope you have a wonderful day/night!

(wait omg i can’t even do “keep reading” because i’m on my phone... ripp sorry guys)

edit: back on my laptop so i added it shjsks

[evadingreallife]

Guys, guys, guys, can I get a mdzs au where something, anything, happens to jin zixun and he never goes to attack wei wuxian before jin ling's one month celebration, so that wei wuxian can go and be a doting uncle to jin ling, reunite with jiang cheng and jiang yanli, reinforce himself as a good person instead of Mr Lord of Evilness And All That Bad Stuff, uncover all of jin guangshan's rotten deeds and the budding jin guangyao's evil plotting??

Tbh tho I would settle for him and lan zhan confessing their love and eloping after the celebration.

Oh and mxy never goes to carp tower but gets adopted by wei wuxian as a little brother, xue yang is not a murdering psychopatic serial killer but gets taken in by someone (part of wei wuxian's brood of adopted children? Jin guangyao reformed? Jiang yanli? Cloud recesses? Jiang sect? Song lan and xiao xingchen? I don't care as long as he doesn't go batshit crazy), xiao xingchen and song lan go on to become sect leaders and elope wangxian-style, and maybe adopt a qing again.

Oh and nie mingjue, lan xichen and jin guangyao become thick as thieves and nobody betrays and murders anyone.

And Huaisang? Huaisang is the masterming that made all of this happen~

Oh and wen qing and wen ning start an itinerant order of medics and emergency aid because nobody knows how to actually cure stuff besides handwaving spiritual energy at it and hoping for ths best. They get intersect recognition and fame and money and live happily ever after. Wen qing finds someone to get together with (nie mingjue? Mian mian? I am not picky, as long as it's not jiang "forced romance" cheng), while wen ning remains a pure little zombie boy at heart and opens an orphanage for street kids (ooh, maybe that's where xue yang ends up, gets taken in and then when he grows up he stays to help and protect the other children, they all love him).

Let's see, who else? Jiang cheng grows up, leads the sect, doesn't have anger issues as serious as when he was younger thanks to the Power of Therapy and marries an OC, maybe someone that works in a kennel or a veterinarian! Then he has dogs, many dogs to take care of, and eventually children, many years later.

Btw, of fucking course the 3zuns are in a loving threesome and nobody can convince me otherwise.

Jin guangshan dies ingnored and stupidly and madam jin becomes sect leader, the most badass sect leader ever. She and huaisang have tea every other week to gossip and scheme and veily mock-insult each other, and everybody is afraid of even knowing what the hell goes on during those encounters. Is she his sugar mommy? Idk, maybe, maybe not, but they develop this sort of friendly game where they have to sneakily one-up each other with snark and snobbery, it's all very funny and entertaining for them.

She has a fling with Sisi, Meng Shi's old friend, and nobody even dares to say anything because madam jin is terrifiyingly captivating when she wants.

Mo xuanyu's mother gets help and therapy and finds happiness somehow, while her awful relatives live forgotten in an old house far away from there. She then finds one of the Wen Medics and joins the order and makes wonderful memories and even better friends.

Then, perhaps, something happens between huaisang and mo xuanyu? They meet as an accident, and then they keep on meeting, and thrice is not a coincidence anymore so maybe that's fate or maybe it's just concerned friends that would like them to finally confess and stop this game of cat and mouse thay have had going on for way too much time.

Eventually wei wuxian, friend extraordinaire, has to get himself involved because his grubby hands itched to help his school friend and his unexplainably-not-blood-related twin get together and be happy.

Afterwards he gets a scolding from a yuan that explains to him that he souldn't interfere this much with other people's love life, and wei wuxian is forced to stop plotting how to matchmake every single cloud recesses inhabitant to find love. But his students love him very much so everyone is happy.

He becomes an inventor, and spends his time in a frenzy of creative flux and kinky, kinky everyday sex. After a while his particular kind of crazy spreads and now he teaches classes to little juniors to learn how to access their spiritual energy and for university-grade students on harnessing energy and creating talismans and all those things he can do because he is awesome.

Everyone is as happy as they can be, all the sexually inclined people have loads of kinky (basically everyone) sex or even just old fashioned vanilla sex (but, let's be honest, this is mdzs, who doen't have some hidden kink? Xiao xingchen maybe?), and all the kids grow up happy and loved and awesome.

[ofindcmitability]

🍁 EACH. ONE. OF. THEM.

WILLIAM FLYNN HALLIWELL

— wow so here we go. I remember very specifically. So my mom got the special Hulu to use the free trial and then cancel it so I watched the first two episodes of Deadly Class on it, then that night I watched the third episode when it aired after I watched The Magicians. I checked gif packs and yep I knew I wanted to do Benjamin Wadsworth. He, as my main, replaced by original version of Peyton Halliwell who I’d been struggling with forevers at that time. So originally I was thinking Henry Jr, but he’d been taken at the time. I’d also been obsessed with this fanfiction series (still am TBH it’s so fucking funny). This is the fic that made me say, I wanna do a damaged child taken in by a semi-adult. The semi-adult in the fic had been a teenager, so I thought of Mick who was playing Wyatt Halliwell and contacted her. ( Also a sidenote bc hilariously, the song came on. RWBY v6 had recently ended and the ending song NEVERMORE (which Will’s lyrics and title are from) started playing literally right now so thats funny ). Anyhow Mick was like SURE, and tbh the original connection idea was just through magic school but then it EVOLVED, I’m legit thinking thru the transcript of our conversation rn it’s wild??? Mick helped me choose darklighter-demon so this is fucking awesome ( go Mick!!! ) I LEGIT SENT THIS FROM THE FANFIC

“Hey, uh. Wyatt? I… I kind of failed my test today.”Wyatt grabbed the bottle of tequila that he insisted they didn’t own and poured it into his coffee. “I know, Will. I was there.” He sighed. Will slid the test across the table towards him and offered a wry smile. “My teacher said our parent or guardian needed to sign it if we failed.” He told him and Wyatt stared at him for a good two minutes before taking a long sip of the alcoholic coffee. He picked up the test and Will felt a stab of guilt for making the man look so goddamn tired. Maybe he should try a bit harder… Wyatt grabbed a pen and dramatically signed the test that he had graded earlier. “Get out of my face you evil, evil child.”

My goodness Mick and I fucking went at it over William Formally Flynn. 

Mick, after I showed her Will’s intro which I spent two hours writing as I listened to the same exact song. 

i like it when you hurt me.02/01/2019Oh my actual fucking good that breaks my heart.

Okay so next.

ASTER SILVERMIST

—- it’s weird bc I’m so horrible with chars Aster was literally brought in at a different era than William. Will has so many years on my others it’s fucking wild. Anyhow Imma just look at C and I’s transcripts bc I don’t remember how specific it went besides C posting Thomas Doherty’s FC as someone she was gonna do, and I knew I wanted to do Mitchell Hope post so I was like HEYYYYYY .

Literlally us:

satan with a keyboard07/29/2019CASUALLY DORPS INTO UR PM TO KNOW ABOUT UR THOMAS AND SEE IF U WANNA DO A CONNECTION WITH MY MITCHELLthe charizard of fkeke07/29/2019yes i want a connectioni am a slut for mitchell and thomas thanks to d2 

But yes, I remember looking up fairy names and last names bc I wanted perty names, and us just fucking brainstorming like wild and then C coming us with everaster and damn we went AT IT

HENRIK MIKAELSON

I can’t go into someone’s DM to help me so this’ll come from memory. I know I wanted to do Brenton, and for a bit I was considering doing him as our then-Davina’s brother connection. But I ended up not doing it bc I had muse for someone else and I was at character limit at the time (crazy right??) anyhow so…. okay tbh I have no idea how my want for Brenton translated into him becoming Henrik Mikaelson bc he does not look like a Mikaelson. I know it def had to do with Titans s2 coming out and a huge influx of muse for Brenton. I think I wanted to do a canon which was where Henrik fit in but honestly I don’t remember and now I’m bothered by it lmao. I know I played Freya thrice before doing Henrik so maybe it was a want for a Mikaelson? I really really don’t know what the fuck happened there. But yes, and his backstory of being brought back in s2 of TO came from another rp I was in where I played Henrik with Robbie Kay and even thou it didn’t end up clicking right bc of the fc, I always fucking loved my initial idea of him having come back way back then. I think my want for him to work with kids and be a caretaker came from Dick and Rachel in Titans tbh skndkngf bc I loved that softness and I was thinking he could have a soft relationship with Hope too, I rmemeber thinking to myself I’d use their huggle gifs for them eventually lmfao. But yes honestly my memory is shit and dusty and while I rmemeber how other huge changes and plots came to be for him, his creation is a molted memory. TBH I’m really surprised no one’s ever yelled at me for how non-Mikaelson he looks/is.

PEYTON HALLIWELL

So, let’s pre-requisite this by reminding everyone I’ve played Peyton Halliwell twice before with a number of three FCs, maybe more that I’m forgetting too tbh. The ones I remember are Lili Reinhart, Ginny Gardner and Taylor Hickson. So what happened here was. Um. Okay tbh I don’t remember too much. My ultimate memory is in the form of me mentioning Natalia Dyer to Sam and him being like I FUCKING LOVE HER DO IT and honestly thats how that happened lmfao. Her personality stemmed from Natalia’s ton of guns gifs and I still haven’t actually done her intro RIP. But yeah, this is finally the Peyton I got right bc everyone actually likes her kdnkgngkng I think. But yes. There’s her origin story, Sam loving Natalia Dyer. 

BARBARA FRIEDH 

Barbara Gordan and Jane Levy. Babs is still fairly new, so I remember enough. I was in/still am in a Batfamily phase. So I was following the Titans tag and they showed a picture of Brenton and Jane in a movie together bc she’s the perfect Barbara Gordan and I just loved her Fc for the firs time, bc in the past I’d seen her and never felt anything. So I found out she had a good number of gif packs and they’re so pretty??? But I was so hesitant bc I didn’t have an idea for her and I didn’t wanna go in half cocked. So I had a gif of her in my drafts for weeks with the name Mar’i or Zoe beside it bc I couldnt think of ANYTHING. but then I was finally like, fuck it. and I wrote her intro somehow?? I rmemeber sitting there so usnure for such a while but then it started rolling and Victoria’s connection just fit. I wanted to name her Babs bc i fucking love the nickname Babs it’s so cute. I almost changed her name but Ace was a warrior for hte name Barbara so thus she became Barabara Friedh. Friedh, is a surname from the video game Lost Odyssey which I liked and yeee. 

JACK KLINE

Okay so here’s the thing. Jack Kline is a soft soft sweet boy who has struggles with three dads and a major guilt complex. I loved him from his first episode. I was hesitant for a second tbh, bc I was like Maybe I shouldn’t. Cause it’d suck to take him on and drop him, or be really bad at him (jury’s still out on that one) but like. I have not felt such muse for a proper canon character in a hell of a long time. So I browsed through his edit tag and i just said, Okay so this is happening. I even ended up making a whole entire gif pack of him in one day yesterday bc resources r a Bich. But yes like. I love Jack a lot as a character. I feel like he made me enjoy Supernatural again bc I found his plotline so compelling and him to be such a good and earnest character who’s just trying so hard and that spoke to me.

But yeah, these are my bitches. Hope you’re happy Gaby. 

[deflowr-blog]

          oh  no ,  it’s  me ,  marty ,  18 ,  he / him ,  comin’  at  you  live  right  from  the  depths  of  the  underworld  ( cst ) .  i’m  so  tired  bc  i  work  litcherally  all  day�� five  days  a  week ,  but  guess  who  decided  to  join  an  rp  anyway  bc  it’s  been  to  long  since  he’s  written  Anything ??  anyway ,  here’s  this  li’l  sh/t ,  jude ,  my  darling  dearest  who’s  gone  by  several  different  names  and  slightly  different  histories  before  this .  this’ll  probs  be  Brief  bc  i’m  planning  on  making  his  pages  tomorrow .  like  this  ‘n’  i’ll  mosey  on  over  to  you ,  or  you  can  hmu  here  or  on  discord  @  dick’s wings#3074 !  xoxo

﹠  𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑎𝑝𝑝

— - ̗̀ it was great seeing JUDE FLORES around barcelona today! the NINETEEN y/o is originally from santa rosa, california, but they’re here to study biomedical sciences as an EXCHANGE STUDENT. i heard the SECOND YEAR got into barcelona university because they’re persevering, but some say they can also be hot-headed. no wonder people are starting to call them THE MAVERICK.

﹠  𝑞𝑢𝑖𝑐𝑘 𝑠𝑡𝑎𝑡𝑠

full name:  jude  flores     nn(s):  literally  any  variation  of  his  name  tbh dob + pob:  august  12th  &  cali     zodiac:  leo  sun ,  capricorn  moon gender + pronouns:  demiguy ,  he / him      sexuality:  homosexual ,  greyromantic ethnicity:  mexican  ( spanish + indigenous ) ,  iranian ,  various  white nationality:  american      language(s):  english ,  spanish ,  catalan ,  french label:  the  maverick     faceclaim:  benjamin  wadsworth

﹠  𝑎 𝑙𝑖𝑡𝑡𝑙𝑒 𝑏𝑎𝑐𝑘𝑔𝑟𝑜𝑢𝑛𝑑

TRIGGER WARNINGS:  death  &  mental / verbal  abuse ,  underage  drinking  mentions .

basically ,  his  parents  are  well - off  enough  to  be  comfortable  with  a  tad  bit  of  extra  cushion .  his  mom  divorced  his  bio  dad  when  he  was  four ,  and  she  remarried  her  side - guy .  his  dad  got  him  on  the  weekends  and  every  other  thursday  and  friday ,  and  he  preferred  being  with  his  bio  dad ,  who  was  his  hero  and  main  inspiration  ( and  still  is ) .

his  bio  dad  died  in  a  workplace  accident  when  jude  was  ten ,  and  his  bio  mom  got  full  custody  of  her  golden  boy  ( that’s  what  his  step - dad  called  him ,  and  not  in  a  Nice  way ) .  he’d  acted  out  before  then ,  but  after  his  dad  died ,  he  acted  out  a  lot  more  frequently  and  more  intensely --  but  he  also  got  better  at  hiding  it  and  finding  ways  around  consequences .

he’s  had  his  mind  set  on  going  to  barcelona  for  college  since  he  was  seventeen  and  freshly  out  of  high  school .  he  wanted  to  get  as  far  away  from  his  mom  and  step - dad  as  possible ,  because  when  they  weren’t  ignoring  his  existence ,  they  were  overbearingly  loud  and  mean  ( and  he  was  loud  &  mean  right  back ) .  they  were  more  than  happy  to  pay  his  tuition  and  get  him  out  of  their  hair .

he  started  smoking  somewhere  between  the  ages  of  sixteen  and  seventeen .  was  drinking  before  then .

as  for  friends ,  he  wasn’t  ever  really ,  you  know ,  the  most  popular  kid .  he  was  bullied  in  elementary  until  he  stood  up  for  himself  in  fifth  grade  by  punching  a  bully  in  the  jaw .  as  he  grew ,  he  preferred  his  lonesome ,  because  everyone  he  got  close  to  would  quickly  turn  around  and  start  ignoring  him  or  whispering  behind  his  back .  kids ,  right ??  //  he  DOES  have  one  friend  he  made  in  eighth  grade  that  is  still  his  best  friend ,  to  this  day ,  but  he  and  his  family  moved  to  australia ,  of  all  places ,  in  their  senior  year .

TDLR:  his  parents  suck ,  he’s  never  liked  people ,  grew  up  too  fast ,  and  he  misses  his  dad  and  best  friend .  oh ,  and ,  he  grew  up  speaking  both  english  and  spanish ,  using  almost  only  spanish  when  with  his  bio  dad .

﹠  𝑠𝑜𝑚𝑒 𝑎𝑛𝑎𝑙𝑦𝑠𝑖𝑠

too  intelligent  to  his  own  good ,  but  not  exactly  the  wisest .  his  best  subjects  are  science  and  math ,  and  he’s  a  li’l  nerd ,  but  by  g*d  if  he  isn’t  also  the  stupidest  dude  ever ,  and  he  knows  it .  he  does  it  on  purpose .

cynical ,  sarcastic  as  hell ,  and  has  a  deeply  rooted  hatred  for  authority  and  most  anyone  who  is  above  the  age  of  a millennial .  he’s  ( mostly )  self - interested ,  and  he’s  gotten  people  into  trouble  before  without  remorse ,  even  though  they  hadn’t  ever  done  anything  to  him .

quiet  and  soft - spoken ,  but  easily  riled  up .  he’s  got  a  short  fuse ,  and  anyone  who  has  met  him  knows  this  very  well .  he  doesn’t  usually  yell ,  but  he’s  gotten  into  many  fights  in  the  past .  he’s  got  more  bite  than  bark ,  when  he’s  truly  pissed  off .

seems  fearless ,  but  he’s  just  very  brave ,  bold ,  impulsive ,  and  stupid .  he  will  provoke  someone  thrice  his  size ,  and  he’ll  do  almost  anything  someone  dares  him  to  do .  he’s  got  a  good  record  for  that .

he’s  good  at  not  getting  caught  by  authority  figures ,  or  if  he  is  caught ,  it’s  not  entirely  difficult  for  him  to  get  out  of  a  slippery  situation .  he’s  got  his  wits  to  help  him  out  where  his  physical  strength  and  agility  lack .

he  could  be  literally  dying  and  he’d  still  try  to  get  up  and  walk ,  and  piss  off  the  people  he  doesn’t  like  or  who  hurt  him .  his  perseverance  and  determination  rarely  falter ,  and  it’s  not  always  a  good  thing .

okay ,  so ,  he’s  aloof  and  doesn’t  like  being  close  to  anyone ,  but  he  always  finds  himself  getting  close  with  at  least  one  or  two  people  that  he  lowkey  would  die  for .  he’ll  tease  ‘friends’  to  no  end ,  but  all  in  good  nature ,  and  it’s  easy  to  tell  when  he  likes  you  because  he’ll  talk  a  little  more ,  and  walk  or  sit  closer  to  you  ( and  it’s  easier  to  fluster  him ) .  he’s  actually  a  pretty  decent  friend ,  if  you  get  that  close  to  him ,  always  there  and  willing  to  help  ( even  though  he’ll  tell  everyone  else  he  doesn’t  actually  care  about  you ,  he  does ) .

TDLR:  he’s  a  little  shit  who  has  A  Heart   and  is  to  Smart  and  Mischievous  for  his  own  good ,  with  the  mouth  of  a  sailor ,  albeit  a  quiet  one .  gets  headshakes  and  tsks  from  everyone .

﹠  𝑤𝑎𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑑 𝑐𝑜𝑛𝑛𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠

          close  friend ,  confidante:  someone  who  rivals  his  best  friend  in  australia ,  who  he  didn’t  even  realize  he  was  getting  close  to  when  it  was  happening .  he’d  always  be  suggesting  they  go  out  together  and  do  whatever .  he’d  just  want  to  hang  out  with  them  a  lot  because  they’re  “ the  only  person  he  can  stand . ”  he’d  die  for  them .

          rivals ,  enemies ,  nemesis  and  what - have - yous:  probably  someone  or  some  people  who  are  more  stuck - up ,  who  always  follow  the  rules ;  OR  who  are  just  very  competitive  and  want  to  see  who  can  do  the  stupidest  shit  without  getting  caught .  can  be  amiable  or  actually  full  of  disdain .

          study  buddies / smol  group  of  ‘friends’:  he’s  really  neutral  with  them ,  but  talks  more  to  them  to  most  others  ( a  lot  more ,  actually ) .  they  give  him  the  chance  to  completely  nerd  out ,  and  they  actually  understand  what’s  coming  out  of  his  mouth ,  even  when  it’s  coming  out  a  mile  a  minute .  and  he  listens  when  they  do  the  same ,  and  they  help  each  other  out  when  they’re  stuck ,  teach  each  other  new  things ,  etc .  basically ,  they’re  total  adorable  geeks  together .

          bad - influencee:  someone  who’s ,  for  some  reason ,  taken  an  interest  in  him  and  actually  wants  to  hang  out  with  him ,  and  he’s  starting  to  rub  off  on  them  with  his  mischievous ,  cunning ,  deceitful  ways .

          literally  anything .  i  will  love  you  and  any  connections  you  have  in  mind .

[cottonblush]

misconstrued meetings | kth

❧ word count: 1,921

❧ genre: fluff, fluff, fluff, humor

❧ notes: ugh the ending has me soft i can’t believe i actually wrote this what the heck?? but like it lowkey seems like a crack fic at the beginning and i swear it’s not??

this is the fifth frat party your friend has managed to drag you along to in the span of 2 weeks

and at every party you always see the same dude creepily staring at you

and he looks kinda familiar so you point him out to your friend but she has no idea

she does, however, say that maybe you guys met in another lifetime

and then your friend starts to rant about how cute that would be and she gets this glimmer in her eyes and you’re just like

miss me with that romance bs this is the real world sweetie

anyway you’ve gotten so distracted that you lose track of the creepy yet somewhat cute boy

but you just shrug your shoulders and go to find yourself a drink that isn’t spiked bc you’re the designated driver

eventually you find a nice lil can of sprite and pop it open

then you go back into the mass of people and try to mingle

but like everyone is just grinding and you’re like,,,, no thank you sir

so you’re about to go find somewhere quieter but then the dude from earlier runs up to you

he looks a little different from when you first saw him when you walked in

now he’s practically bouncing up and down and he looks like he’s on the biggest sugar high ever

and you’re about to be like,, dude r u ok

but he beats you to it and he just goes

“asdfwjkdhh have you seen my pet alligator sKREEEEEEE”

and then he runs away screeching????

and you’re like

“wtf this can’t be the guy”

but sure enough you roll up your sleeve and double check

and what he said matches your soulmate tattoo word for word

the first thing you think is,,, ohmygod my soulmate is?? a stalker? who does drugs perhaps???

you think he’s pretty weird tbh

but ofc it’s your soulmate so you run after him and he’s not in the most stable condition so it literally only takes you 4 seconds to catch up

and you grab his shoulder to turn him around

and he looks at you for a good 5 seconds before passing out on you

you’re just glad he didn’t throw up bc like you’re wearing a pretty expensive shirt and

we going: broke hours!!

anyway so you sit him down on a couch and ask around if anyone knows who this guy is

this one guy with rlly cute dimples says

“oh that’s taehyung dw he ate like 20 sugar cookies earlier he should be fine just leave him”

and you’re just like?? “how could i just leave him there?  and how are you so nonchalant about this-”

the guy introduces himself as namjoon and says that taehyung lives on the same floor as him in the dorms

and then he asks why you’re so interested and you go

“i mean he could possibly??? be my soulmate,, but like no big deal or anything”

and namjoon is like “oh,,,,,,, oh shit wow rlly?”

and you’re like “yes rlly.. um so i’m just gonna go check on him”

after like 45 minutes taehyung finally wakes up and it happens to be right when you press a hand to his forehead to see if he has a fever or anything

and then you blink and say “are you ok dude? you kinda passed out on me”

he sits up straight and he’s like “yeah dw i’m fine- wait!! what’d you say!”

and you repeat yourself with like an unsure voice and then he just smiles

like he full on beams and you swear you’re looking at the sun even though it’s almost midnight and you’re in a crowded, dark room

and he goes “wow it’s really you:)))))))))))))))” and he starts lifting up his shirt

and you’re just really flustered at this point

“bro what are you doing we’re in public”

taehyung just waves you off and continues to lift up his shirt until it’s up to the middle of his chest

you have to try so hard not to focus on the fact that he has abs and he’s!! hot

but then your eyes land on this little tattoo he has along his ribcage

and it’s exactly what you said to him

and you smile too and show him your tattoo and say

“woah we’re soulmates that’s so cool!”

taehyung replies with “yeah so you wanna date?”

you kinda think it over in your head bc like taehyung is very very very attractive and he seems nice enough

but you eventually say “sorry um ii don’t really believe in the whole love/like at first sight thing but maybe we can be friends”

and it’s true,, your whole life you’ve thought the idea of soulmates is impractical like one day you meet this supposedly perfect person and you’re supposed to be instantly in love? that aint it

and lucky for you taehyung takes it just fine and is like “sure sure i totally get where you’re coming from,, how about we like go out for coffee some time but just as friends”

and you get taehyung’s number and make sure he’s feeling ok enough to stand up and stuff

and you say bye and go find your friend so you can zoom out of there

so you guys go out for coffee the next weekend at this cute café that taehyung recommends to you

it’s pleasantly surprising bc you’ve only been talking for 20 minutes but you feel like you’ve known taehyung since first grade or something

you learn that he loves to make jokes but he doesn’t like puns that much bc he says his roommate has a pun for literally everything and taehyung is: over it

he tells you he’s majoring in chemical engineering and you’re like !! me too

and he’s like,, yeah ik we have 3 classes together

and you’re like “what?? but? i never see you”

he explains that they’re all lecture classes and he sits behind you so you probably wouldn’t notice

and taehyung also wants to bring up the fact that he’s wanted to ask you out way before he knew you were soulmates but he knows you want to be friends first

and if you knew what he was thinking you would be aww-ing and probably soft™ like he’s balling his fists up bc he just wants to tell you he likes you that much

anyway so the totally not romantic get together goes really well and you say

“taehyung you should totally sit next to me in class next time”

and he’s like “ofc see you then”

you part ways and on the way back to your dorm you can’t stop feeling this tingly feeling all over and there’s a huge smile on your face but you’re telling yourself to stay strong bc

you can’t just cave in after seeing him one time

but then you start seeing him everywhere

like in classes and when you’re walking to club and at the cafeteria and at the library and ofc you guys hang out almost every weekend

and you kinda tell yourself,, ok i guess i kinda like this dude??

so anyway it’s been a good two months since you met and you and taehyung are pretty comfortable around each other

like you guys know each others orders at all of your favorite restaurants and you have clothes at each others dorms for when you have secret sleepovers and marathon marvel movies

and all of your friends and taehyung’s friends assume that you guys are a couple

one day you’re thinking and you’re like “i think i’m gonna ask tae out”

so you do and you do it during one of your sleepovers

you and taehyung are wearing matching flannel pajamas and you’re stuffing your faces with cookies and brownies

and you turn to taehyung and tap him on the shoulder

“go out w me”

“what”

“you heard me”

“no but like are you serious”

“yeah why wouldn’t i be???”

cue taehyung’s sunshine smile

he wraps you in a bear hug and releases this huge sigh and is like

“thank god i’ve literally had a crush on you since i saw you at the orientation fair”

and you pause and think for a second and you’re like

“taehyung that was 4 months ago… YOU’VE LIKED ME FOR FOUR MONTHS AND??? DIDN’T TELL ME SHHJSKHDJDHJSDHK DUMBASS OHMYGOD”

and at this point taehyung is super confused bc he rlly thought you’d be happy to hear it but instead you hit him on the head so he’s just like ??? por quay

and you have to force yourself to calm down and explain “the only reason i didn’t want to go out with you is bc i thought you only liked me bc we’re soulmates,, if i knew you had a crush on me!! i’d have said yes”

taehyung scratches his head and says “i thought i made it pretty obvious why do you think i always stared,,, and remember when i came up to you and tried to talk to you even though i knew i was on a sugar high and it was 500% likely i would say something dumb”

you’re just trying to process this bc ,,, taehyung thinks ‘have u seen my alligator’ = 'i like u’

and your eyebrows are scrunched together and you’re just trying to form a sentence to express how dumb you think he is

so you don’t notice him inching closer and closer

until he plants a lil peck on your lips and you blink once… twice… thrice

that!! just happened

taehyung just kissed you:))))

but he looks totally calm while you’re basically a tomato

and he does this half smirk half smile and is like “does this mean i can brag to people that you’re my gf/bf”

you hit taehyung on the head again

aNYWHO!!

so you and taehyung as a couple!

you two decide to join the bird watching club and like half the time it’s just you actually trying to find cool looking birds and taehyung stealing kisses and hiding your binoculars

and the other half of the time is when you actually want to be cuddly and sweet n stuff but taehyung is a tease so he ignores you and is like “woah is that an owl!! haha look y/n it’s an owl”

your movie marathons only get more frequent and sometimes you invite namjoon and even taehyung’s roommate seokjin (much to taehyung’s dismay)

coffee dates!! whenever one of you has a stressful test or project and needs to unwind

and also you two surprise each other with pastries from the café when you see each other in class

taehyung loves to share his hoodies with you

you think it’s rlly cute that his mom still sews his name into the tags of all of his favorite clothes

so imagine your surprise when one day you go to slip on this bright red sweatshirt of his and you glimpse at the tag and you see taehyung and y/n

you’re so soft because taehyung feels proud enough of this relationship to tell his parents about you and now you can’t wait to meet his mom bc she seems like the sweetest person ever

overall you and taehyung are just super sweet and goofy and you just fit so well together that you’ve managed to convince yourself that this whole soulmate system must be real bc you honestly can’t see yourself without him