#this got. way longer than it was supposed to but yknow

[pikkish]

idk if this is a good prompt but put doomguy in myhouse.wad I think he would find it enriching

Right, so I've been mulling on this one for a little bit now, n I'm not opposed to writing something for you, I'm just not... entirely sure what to write? Because the thing is, myhouse.wad doesn't actually really have anything to do with Doom as a story. Sure, Doom is important in that it's the vessel through which the story is told and one of the connections between the narrator and his dead companion. But as far as Doom itself goes, and the story about a man who was too angry/stupid to die, fighting demons and saving earth, none of that is at all relevant to myhouse.wad and its story. For all intents and purposes, Doomguy isn't actually a character in myhouse.wad. So I'm not really sure how exactly to fit him in there.

[oli-ribbun-ver]

TADC Ep 4 Ramble! (?)

OKAY!! ive been wanting to yap about this for a while so!!

FIRST!! what finally got me to make this post!

the difference between how jax and ragatha worded it when they said something about gangle being happy!!

as you can see here, jax says "I like you better when you're sad."

but why am i thinking about this so much?

jax doesn't really say "i hate when youre happy," or anything of that sort! he just says "i like you better when you're sad." is there really that much of a difference? well, yes!

there's actually a BIG difference!

"I hate when you're happy," would mean that Jax ONLY likes Gangle when she's sad and that he makes her sad BECAUSE she's happy, which isn't the case!

We KNOW that Jax doesn't do it because he dislikes when she's happy (although that MIGHT be the case, he definitely doesnt overall HATE when she's happy) because he says in Ep 1;

"I'm fine with doing whatever, as long as I get to see funny things happen to people."

AND at the beginning of Ep 3, he has absolutely no issue with her being happy in any way. You can even visually see the reason he throws her mask is because he thinks it's funny.

(he literally dgaf)

Hell, you can tell he wasn't even considering throwing her mask until Gangle mentioned the doors and he was like "oh stars yknow what would be funny..."

oh stars wait i didnt know there was a pic limit hokd on

okay had to delete some SORYR wait does fhis mean this has to be a seperate part thing??? how do i even do fhat... oh dear... THATS OKAY ILL FIGURE IT OUT!! anyways

I'm sure you get my point! Yes, in Ep 2, he seems a bit happier with her being sad, he LITERALLY SAYS "Aren't you supposed to be submissive and agreeable?", but also remember he SPECIFICALLY says

"I like you better when you're sad." not that he ONLY likes her when she's sad, which is kinda my point with this.

Now, what makes it so different to Ragatha's comment about her being happy?

"You're kind of annoying when you have your happy mask."

Yeah. Kind of a big difference.

She just straight up says she thinks Gangle is annoying when she has her happy mask.

It can be argued that it's because Ragatha was hit with the good ol' stupid sauce, but if you haven't noticed, it's not that it made her stupid(although it sorta did), it just made her brutally honest with how she felt.

Gangle already knows that Ragatha is a people pleaser. Kind of everyone knows that. But regardless, Gangle considers Ragatha a friend. Sure, she could've expected it from Jax, but from RAGATHA?

Yeah. I wouldn't expect it either.

Because again, unlike Jax, Ragatha says she finds Gangle annoying when she's happy. Jax does not. And we know Jax is typically at least somewhat honest about how he feels. He literally has no reason to lie to Gangle about that, though. Like literally no reason.

"I like you better when you're sad" is a BIG difference than "You're kind of annoying when you have your happy mask."

Before anyone mentions it, although yes Ragatha DOES say happy MASK, Gangle doesn't exactly show she's sad when she has her happy mask on. She seems happier than when she doesn't have it, but we can pretty confidently assume that's not the case. I'll get into her mask later, though.

Regardless, what we know so far is that nobody really knows her happy mask doesn't actually make her happy except (now) Pomni and MAYBE Zooble.

Although I sorta doubt the Zooble thing because Ep 4 allowed us to learn that Gangle has a bigger mood drop the longer she's 'happy' for, since happiness isn't what she truly feels most of the time.

OKAY next post so i can put more images.

[salaapaoo]

I just read the a-z whump prompt and open the comment to see Hemophilia and I can't help but think of Cale yknow. Like, let's say it's on a more severe case he's prone to bruising and bleeding. He might have episodes of bleeding internally (into his joints or muscles) or from external injury (after the wound occurred), he may bleed longer and take a longer time to heal. He could also experience joint pain and swelling!

Imagine how chaotic it is! How the limitation of treatment in that era damned him! The resulting whumpy afterwards! The devilish cycle! XD (Don't forget the severe headache, blurred/doubled vision, and excessive sleepiness too— and and, the nosebleeds—) this excited me so much I think I should feel guilty

CHEFS KISSSSSS CHEFS KISSSSSS!!!! i just wanted to write da whump .. no end... i got no brain for an end rn ghskdjh i hope you like it :>

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It’s not all too obvious in the beginning. 

With how Cale had divvied up the work between the swordsman and the kittens in their late night outing, there weren't many chances for him to figure it out. The black dragon joined them soon after, and suddenly Cale was surrounded by people who were all too eager to work. Not that Cale had any issue with that. He was slowly getting surrounded by stupidly strong people who left him with no need to step in. Maybe that was why he never questioned the green that mottled his skin at the slightest bump. Cale doesn’t question the ache that would shift into his mind like a slow moving fog either, schooling his face to keep even the slightest wince from escaping. It’s not an unfamiliar feeling to him – the low simmering ache that settled at the base of his skull, but he hoped that it wouldn’t become a frequent thing like how it had in his previous life thanks to record. 

(Ron gives him an oddly stiff smile at the sight of the blues that marred his knees. He’d crawled through the stupidly cramped hole to make it to the ancient power the night before. Honestly, he was hoping that the cry baby of a power would have been able to wipe his skin clean of these bruises. Maybe it wasn’t considered too dire of an injury or something, he supposed.

Either way, the tight smile that Ron gives sends chills racing down Cale’s spine).

-

Thinking back, maybe the plaza bombing should have been when the incident to flag that something was wrong. He should have seen it in the awful burning that settled in his lungs, building and building until it burst from his mouth with a choked cough. It was all too warm across his stinging palms, but the sweet relief that followed suit was too good. The Vitality of the Heart was like a cool balm spread across his feverish skin, a quick relief that only he could feel. 

Looking up from his stained hands, Cale was met with a frenzy. Hysteria dyed the hues of his peers’ eyes, their hands landing on his shoulders to push him down to the ground. His head is cushioned in someone’s lap, but it’s a little too hard to focus on who it was. Cale’s pupils trembled, his brows furrowing as he tried to focus on steadying the shifting world in his eyes. He didn’t need to lie down, damn it, but when he’d try to sit up, he’d just be pushed back down. It invited the disgustingly slick copper to pool in the back of his throat, its iron taste flooding his mouth until he had to roll to his side to spit it out. 

The headache that comes marching in with the dragon’s threats make him feel more as though he’d just had his head bashed in with a hammer, than a headache. It was a cruel thing, really, creeping out until the pain encompassed his skull wholly. The pain from using the shield was nothing in comparison, in fact, he was feeling even better than before in terms of that “injury.” He could do without the sticky slide of blood trickling down his chin, dripping and dripping without a single sign of stopping. Cale chalked it all up to being a side effect of the ancient power. But more importantly, he desperately wished for the ancient power to whisk away the pain in his head, too. 

-

There’s a time when a brief concern flits across the young noble’s mind.

Cale was splayed across his bed, comfortably sunken into the sheets as he basked in the warmth of the afternoon sun. It was the perfect time to enjoy a midday nap and it seemed that the silver kitten, Ohn, thought the same. Her fur was silky to the touch now thanks to the hard work of Hans. It’s warm where she’s loafed next to his thigh, her paws neatly tucked away underneath her. The little dragon and the red kitten weren’t too keen on sleeping their day away like the two of them, but that was their choice, not his. 

Lightly, Cale feels the squishy pads of the boy’s paws press against the skin of his forearm. One poke and then another, whatever the boy was doing, it seemed to intrigue him. 

“Cale-nya,” Hong whispered, not wanting to wake his sister, “How come you’re always all beat up? Like.. like a dropped apple!”

Cale peels open his eyes at this and true to the boy’s words, his arm was painted in fading blotches of yellow. He doesn’t remember exactly what had caused it, but if anything, it just looked worse because of how pale his complexion was. The cons of being surrounded by stupidly strong people, he supposed, but if he thought about it even more… it wasn’t like any of them were manhandling him. Cale wasn’t entirely sure where these bruises had come from. 

“I just bruise easily,” Cale says after a moment of thought.

It seems that this, too, wasn’t the right answer because the black dragon was now clambering across the pillows to shove his snout into Cale’s face. Those azure eyes of his were dyed with worry.

“You’re too weak!” He said and Cale nodded. It was true, he was weaker than the rest of their group. If anything, they could all kill him if they wanted to. 

They don’t seem to like how accepting he is of this weakness, but the dragon slumps beside him with a harrumph and a promise to protect him. Cale doesn’t pay too much attention to it after that, giving in to the siren call of fatigue. He drifts off in the comfort of the pooling sunlight and the cushiony bed beneath it. Somewhere along the way, the boys must’ve fallen asleep, too, tucked close against his sides. 

-

Whatever it was, it all comes back to bite him in the ass when they’re fighting alongside the elves.

Rose gold flickered across the gathering plumes of dark grey. Cale stood with an outstretched hand, the hairs on the back of his neck rising as the scent of ozone filled the area. It was almost as though the lightning hidden in the clouds could match the rising thrum of his heart – faster and faster, the time between flashes and the beats of his heart grew shorter. 

There’s no way to fully describe it really, be it the innate tempo of the battle rising to its crescendo or the way his heart skipped a beat at the breathlessness that festered in his lungs. Of course, he’d been watching his allies zip in and out of the throes of battle, but there was just something else. 

Blindingly bright and deafeningly loud, the thunderbolt rattles the world around them. As quick as it comes, it sears its colors into the retinas of their eyes, haunting their visions even behind closed lids. Silence mars the world around them just as scorch marks marred the grounds. One beat, a second, and another after that – the world is silent with its shock. Then came the incessant ringing. 

Cale’s head throbbed with each cough that broke past his lips, the ground feeling as though it were shifting beneath his feet. Each coughing fit felt as though his lungs had been charred by the lightning bolt instead, the strain settling in his chest like a massive, tender bruise. Cale’s heart was a drum and the Vitality of the Heart beat heavily upon it, but before its relief, it brought waves of blood to seep between his lips. The darkened blood pooled at his feet in an ugly splatter. It grew and grew with each heaving cough.

The damned cheapskate hadn’t mentioned such effects as these, but he couldn’t even bring himself to curse. He didn’t have the breath to.

Squeezing his eyes shut, Cale tried to force his vision to focus, his feet stumbling over one another in an attempt to stay upright. Soon, he could feel Raon’s small, nubby horns pressing into the small of his back. The dragon’s the only reason he’s able to remain standing now, and the fabric of his shirt is quickly growing damp. The taste of iron is thick on his tongue as Cale choked out another weak cough. The pain is all too much for him to focus on anything more around him, and as the last whisps of his consciousness slipped away, he could distantly make out the feeling of hands steadying him. 

-

The young voice of the dragon counting is the first thing that greets Cale when he wakes up again. Teary eyed, yet overjoyed, Raon all but threw himself into the young noble’s arms. 

---- cutting myself off here because I'm getting carried away... but i think that after this, maybe he'd be diagnosed by one of the elves.. maybe pendrick... but then like, for treatment.. hmmm i'd like to think that maybe there's a weaker version of a medicine that helps iron deficient people, but it doesn't really do much to help cale because he loses insane amts of blood at a time... and it's mostly smth to try to help increase his cell count again after he loses too much blood... hmm not a good treatment for the long run, but not much he could do..

i'd like to think that maybe it becomes a new thing for rosalyn to work on... i wonder if there's a way to control blood cells w the use of mana.. like an agent to help control the clotting factor production? i just wanna see researcher rosalyn hehe... but for the time being, i'd think that cale's meals would change a bit to include more foods that are richer in iron!! maybe one of those iron fish that seep into the water when you boil it... I imagine that even if he's healed right away, he's gonna suffer from anemia issues ehhee... i wanna see him stand up and crumple LOLOL

thank you again for the ask!!! i get excited w cale whump too heheehe... (jailed)

[novaneet]

[Part 2 here]

It's 8:42pm. Andre's room is dark, except for the orange glow of the lamp on his desk, flickering slightly from a loose bulb. Posters are peeling at the edges. There’s an old soda can on the windowsill. The air smells faintly like dust, Mountain Dew, and gun oil. Cal's on the floor, half-sprawled across a heap of sleeping bags and military surplus blankets. His laugh is echoing off the wood paneling—loud, messy, real.

"I swear to God, if you do that impression one more time—"

"What, Hoffman's voice?" Cal grins and sits up, pushing his white-blond hair out of his face, squinting in a mockery of their vice principal.

He slaps his hands on his knees. “‘Gentlemen, I know your generation lacks discipline, but this is just—this is just sad!’”

Andre tries to hold it in. He really does. But the laugh punches out of him before he can stop it. His head drops to the side, and he laughs harder than he’s meant to—shoulders shaking, body folding forward like it’s been cut loose.

Cal watches him. Not laughing anymore, still smiling, but just… watching.

“You okay?” he asks, after a beat.

Andre sniffs, wipes his eyes with the back of his sleeve.

“You’re such an idiot.”

“Yeah. I know. When I want to be.”

Another pause.

The moment hangs crooked in the air. Not heavy, but fragile. Like something trying not to break.

Cal’s voice drops a little. “It’s weird when you laugh. I mean I'm used to it but I'm not.”

Andre looks at him. “What’s that supposed to mean? You hear me laugh all the time.”

“It’s not bad. Just… rare when it's real. I don’t know. Like seeing a bear smile.”

Andre snorts. “The fuck?”

Cal shrugs. “You’ve got a weird smile. That’s all. And yknow, bears are cool, so...”

Andre doesn’t answer. Doesn’t joke. He just looks at Cal—really looks at him. There’s a crack in Cal’s façade, barely there. His eyes are glassy, and his lips are parted like he’s halfway between saying something and forgetting how. His shoulders are slumped. Vulnerable in a way that makes Andre’s stomach twist.

He shifts onto his knees and leans forward, slowly, like something will snap if he moves too fast. Cal doesn’t flinch. Their lips meet like an accident they both saw coming. It’s not hungry or fast, not this time—it’s slow. Almost lazy. Tongue meeting tongue and teeth grazing lips. Andre cups the side of Cal’s jaw, thumb brushing over the bruise-colored shadows under his eyes. Cal kisses back like it’s the easiest and hardest thing in the world.

They stay like that for a while. Lips brushing. Breaths mingling. No need to explain it. Cal smiles against André's lips. Andre nibbles on Cal's.

The moment doesn’t last forever. But it lasts longer than it should.

When they pull apart, Cal is the first to speak.

“I... think I forgot what we were laughing about.”

Andre sits back, tongue poking at a split in his lip. “You were making fun of Hoffman again.” “Oh. Right.” Another beat.

Andre reaches out, grabs Cal’s wrist, and squeezes once before letting go.

“Staying here tonight?” he asks.

Cal nods. “Yeah. Okay.”

Neither of them says anything about the gun parts under the bed. Or the bombs in the closet. Or the notebooks on the desk. Or the date circled in red on the wall calendar that Andre TOLD Calvin not to circle. Not even the kiss.

[sunsetsover]

do you think it was intentional for jojo to associate Kant's fears with the ocean? to connect it with bison? or it was just a very good coincidence

that first question mark is throwing me off a little so i might be a bit confused - and if i am please correct me - but i think you're asking if it's intentional that kant's fears of the ocean are associated with bison? to which the answer is yes, i think it's 100% intentional.

it's too big of a plot point, too consistent, and too deliberate to be coincidental. i mean in the very first proper conversation they have on their date it comes up: bison tells kant he loves the beach and is a strong swimmer (iirc) and kant admits that he's scared of the ocean bc he almost drowned as a kid yes that conversation foreshadowing for the boat scene, but it's also the introduction of a motif for them - the ocean, but also water in general. if memory serves me right the very first time bison 'threatens' kant (in the sense that he says smth that's supposed to be lighthearted but bc kant knows the truth there's an Undertone there) they're in the pool. so they're in water, but it's not the ocean - it's a controlled environment, where kant has a relatively easy escape should things get out of hand, and there's people around both as witnesses and to help him should he need it.

but then there's the big reveal on the boat, and kant's no longer safe in his pool but back at sea. there's all the obvious parts of what it all means which i'm sure you don't need me to explain to you, but there's also the brilliant metaphor of the water being a metaphor for kant's feelings - kant being 'safe' in the predictable, controlled environment of the pool when he thinks he's got a hold on everything and is playing bison like a fiddle vs being in the middle of the sea, which is wild, frightening and completely out of his control. just like his emotions. just like his love for bison. (which, i guess really the association is with bison, but it's not about bison, yknow? the metaphor is really more about kant and his feelings than anything to do with bison's feelings)

then there's them both dropping their masks and starting their real, proper relationship on an island completely surrounded by the ocean. admitting their love for each other on the beach, right by the water. bison helping kant walk into the ocean, despite being scared. kant swearing that one day he'll overcome his fear and be out in the deep water, swimming with bison (mind you the water's already up to his armpits). but in the meantime they're shown playing in the shallows - in perfect tandem with the water without being drowned by it.

and ofc we can't forget the whole titanic scene. where they're sat in an empty pool (kant doesn't need the safety of the controlled environment anymore). and kant talks about jack didn't have to drown for love, really. and how he didn't plan on making that mistake. he was going to make sure they both survive. and yeah ofc he's talking abt the plan to get lily but. he's also talking about them. they will survive bc kant isn't scared of the water anymore.

to be completely fair it's hardly a groundbreaking metaphor - the association between water and emotions has existed since like... the beginning of time, across many, many societies and countries. think of the cups in tarot, or the water and moon signs in astrology, the moon associated w divine feminine as a more introspective 'feeling' energy compared to the sun/divine masculine/external 'doing' energy bc of it's association with the dark but also the tides. like jojo didn't invent this idea by any means but he did use it in a subtle and very clever way that i LOVED. it worked so perfectly for kantbison, and for kant specifically. like there is a pretty strong theme of water throughout the whole show - so many scenes involved pools, both full and empty, and the turning point of the plot and for both couples happens on an island, surrounded by the sea. but it's undeniably stronger for kantbison, and its introduced so early that there's no way it was an accident. so yeah, i think it was completely intentional by jojo. you don't just end up w a juicy ass motif like that by accident.

but yeah i hope i understood your question properly and that i managed to answer it ! i had fun either way lmao, but please do let me know if i completely missed what you were trying to ask me <3

[dol-dogboy]

Could you answer all of them for the intimacy ask game 🥹🥹🥹 if not then mayhaps 3, 4, and 7 for Bowie... For no particular reason..

Don’t u test me I really might compile them alldbdhbdjsbs for neow I’ll keep it to whatever asks i get but yknow. I named the notes document i did those full ask memes in “I am an insane man” for a reason 👀 No Promises though I’m a fickle guy

3. how do they feel about their gender and their body in relation to sex?

Yesssss this was the most interesting question on the list to me so I’m glad I got one ask abt it teehee

Hoooooo boy. Well I have detailed a lot how insecure he is with his body in general, and that does extend partially to his gender as well— basically I’ve accidentally given him reverse gender dysphoria like that one actress had in that movie ‘she’s the man’. So basically he’s deeply insecure in his day to day life, but how DOES it extend to sex??? Well…

He just Has a submissive personality, but the fact that he’s so tall and strong definitely isn’t completely unrelated to the reason he dislikes being dominant in the bedroom. He doesn’t want to be like all the big scary rapists in town, plain and simple— the thought of assaulting someone makes him nauseous! He is keenly aware of the fact that him being an extremely tall, extremely physically strong man can be scary for a variety of reasons, so he’s certainly molded his personality to try and mitigate that as much as possible, and that includes his sexual inclinations as well

And then his stupid big dick too!!! I’ve settled mostly on sizes for my guys I thiiink so jsyk. 10x7. That’s a weapon. And he feels so bad about itttttttttttt wahhhhhhhhhh. It’s made him very hesitant on penetrating his partners, or having them perform oral on him, they Have to be the ones that bring it up— and then constantly assure him that he isn’t gonna kill them. It’s fine this universe has been blessed with porn logic so their jaw totally isn’t gonna be broken sucking his monster cock it’s chilllllll

Uhhh that got away from me. I’ll end this by saying that body worship makes him cry in a good way, I encourage Bowie body worship all days of the week it makes him feel so happy and loved

4. what are their feelings on sex/physical intimacy under influence (alcohol / drugs)?

He… well… ‘tis a tad complicated. Both parties drunk? Well he’s dating Alex in his main timeline so he’s grown to have no qualms with that. But… he does feel like he’s taking advantage of someone if they’re drunk and he isn’t… he can be coerced into it but he doesn’t really feel good about it. And as for the other way around? There’s a part of him that thinks it would be…. Very hot…. To have his partner use him while he’s drunk… to have him be so vulnerable while they’re not…. Makes him a lil bit dizzy ngl

He doesn’t have much experience with drugs however (other than the few times he’s hooked up with Damon, and even then he himself didn’t take any drugs then and Damon is. Damon)… he supposes that it would go the same way? Unsure, needs more experience with it

7. do they know what they like? are they able to ask for it directly?

He knows what he likes but he is NOTTTT good at actually verbalizing it lol!!!! He’s scared of coming across as pushy or coercive or some other bad thing!! It gets better the longer that he’s with someone but at the start? God it’s a mess. He’s terrified of touching his partner and accidentally hurting them so his hands are constantly hovering, he’s embarrassed to put his thoughts to words so he’s just stuttering out pleas…. Yeah his partner has to do. A lot of the legwork there.

But eventually….. after building up his confidence and assuring him that he’s NOT gonna hurt them…. Then he’s, a little, itty bitty bit better at it. Not by much. But it’s incredibly obvious when something he wants happens bc he starts whining all needily… he does get off on being pushed to say what he wants out loud though, gets him worked up to a point he’s sobbing and begging to be touched, thrusting his hips up to try and get some sort of friction…. Drooling rn sorry what were we talking abt—

[axescryinwater]

｡⋆𖦹.✧˚──

you meet chloe in cairo. it’s too hot, the streets are too loud, and she talks too much. not to you, at first. you’re just the extra set of hands for a quick recovery job that’s gone sideways more times than it should’ve. you’re supposed to stay quiet, keep your head down, and do what you’re told. chloe doesn’t like people who take up space she didn’t give them. but she notices you.

the first time she actually looks at you— really looks — is after you talk a local dealer down from six thousand to two and a half for a map fragment she’s been trying to get for weeks.

she blinks. “well, i’ll be damned.”

you shrug, lips quirking. “he likes pretty faces.”

“so do i,” she says, and then walks off like she didn’t just throw a grenade and smile at the explosion.

it’s messy with her. always is.

the job stretches on longer than anyone wants to admit. more flights, more trains, more guns. more nights where neither of you sleep, and not just because of the danger. there’s this... buzz, you trade dry remarks, silent glances. she gives you that grin when you’ve got blood on your cheek and your chest is heaving and you both almost died, again.

she doesn’t touch you. not yet. but she wants to. and you feel it. that simmer just under the skin, waiting.

──

she kisses you in istanbul.

you’re in a crumbling hotel room with no lock on the door and only one working lamp. you’re bandaging her arm, a shallow graze, but it looks worse than it is. and she won’t stop fidgeting.

“hold still,” you mutter.

“you’re enjoying this, admit it.”

“you bleed too much.”

she laughs, but it dies off quick. her eyes are on you now, and they’re soft in a way you’ve never seen from her. like she’s thinking about letting you see something she’s spent years hiding under ten layers of sarcasm and steel. then: “come here.” she doesn’t say please. chloe doesn’t beg.

but you go to her anyway.

the kiss is rough. urgent. like she’s afraid if she waits, she’ll talk herself out of it. and maybe she would’ve. but you’re here now. and her hands are on your hips, pulling you in, grounding you both in this flickering, half lit room that smells like dust and gunpowder and something sweeter that neither of you will name.

you don’t sleep that night.

after that, it’s not easier. not with her. she still picks fights for fun, still flirts with danger like it owes her money. but she holds your gaze a second longer. hands linger when they don’t have to.

she lets you see her scared. once. maybe twice.

and when it’s all over, when the artifact’s in a box, the buyer paid off, the trail cold, she stands next to you on a rooftop in athens and says, “i don’t do the whole happily ever after thing.”

you nod. laughing at the comment. “me neither.”

she looks at you. quiet for a long while.

“but... yknow.. i could try.” she says, voice low. you slide your hand into hers. no fairy tale. just this. just her.

[ambyandony]

its melone

heres monster au melone & some of the concept sketches for his sigil. yes he actually looks like this .

this was supposed to be short and a quick summary but then i started saying things so... monster au loredump!! with a couple of visuals!!

hes a cambion (so half-human and half-demon) and for some reason people seem to think its his fault he is the kid of a demon as if he had a fuckin say in that?

hes actually not as bad as hes generally made out to be (he kinda wishes people would jump to conclusions a little less often when they hear hes a cambion because it's pretty annoying). I mean he's pretty strange and likes to weird people out but . He's not actually as bad as people assume.

I'd say most likely hes also got some real stress from his whole situation and some shit thats happened to him (almost definitely some of it is thanks to him being the kid of a demon). Whatever background / general circumstances he has, it's given him either some kind of trauma or some other various psychological-emotional issues that he probably tries to mask by his habit of being offputting just to mess with people. not totally sure what specifically is up with him but theres definitely a lot going on there that he would prefer not to discuss

but hes still a little bastard and i still want to hit him with a rolled up newspaper. di molto THIS, bitch *smacks him upside the head*

anyways,

physiology

Melone is actually the most unique in terms of known infernals in monster au insofar; unlike trish, diavolo, and abbacchio (kinda), Melone falls under the category of 'head-horned' and 'pencil-tailed' (or 'wire-tailed').

Most infernals seen in the Monster AU sorta resemble D&D style tieflings; Trish, Diavolo and Abbacchio are all considered face-horned and slope-tailed and are also wingless. Though Abbacchio is 'smooth-tailed' and Trish and Diavolo are 'fur-tailed', their construction is essentially the same.

Melone has a semblance to the more simplified / stylised pop media depictions of demons, yknow, like the little devil on the shoulder guy, little horns on the top of the head, thin pointy tail, tiny wings, etc. These kinds of demons do exist, but they are actually incredibly rare, on account of their physiological construction being pretty uhhh... not the best . (IM NOT CALLING YOU 'GOOD BOY' THIS BODY STRUCTURE IS SHIT!!!!!)

the wings are exclusively aesthetic, (yes they are actually they (unsurprisingly) can't actually even remotely support his weight (nature takes pity on these fuckers and usually these demons are able to semi-innately use minor levitation instead) and he can barely move them either, since they're barely connected to him if at all.

The horn placement doesn't really have an evolutionary bearing (face-horned infernals seem to be more common for some reason or another, but head-horned infernals aren't too rare); it's more just that the size of the horns that are seen on his specific breed/species are pretty much useless and seemingly have little to no function other than making hats hard to wear and getting in the way when they're trying to brush their hair.

his ears are pointed but short; whether this has to do with his hybridism or not isn't entirely clear, but they're observed to have a limited range of independent motion (he can move them somewhat). Demons with longer ears can also often achieve some level of independent motion; how much can vary, but generally, it ranges between only being able to twitch them to having either up-and-down motion or outward-inward motion, but never both. Which type of ear movement a demon has is often based on the natural position of the ears or the 'function' that the specific demon has.

Melone's ears, however, despite being shorter, have the same quality of hearing and a much wider range of motion, having both up-down and forward-backwards movement, likely owing to the muscles and cartilage that would have contributed to ear length—instead being structured to facilitate the expanded range of motion. or some shit

the construction of a pencil-tailed demon's tail is frail and lacks power, yet seems to be important for the flow of magic through their bodies. Unfortunately for them, though the tails can be somewhat prehensile, they are pretty easily chopped off due to the bones inside them being light and fragile and the tails themselves being very thin. Slope-tailed infernals, on the other hand, have much sturdier construction, thicker and stronger bones, more flesh to protect the bones, and some species also have tough scales.

magic

Melone has access to a range of magic as an infernal cryptian; almost every demon in human society has access to illusory magic out of necessity. His illusory magic is by default active on himself, but through magic development and practice, he can also use it beyond himself, though his illusory magic seems unusually (unusual for demons in general, anyway... not necessarily unusual for his kind) limited to only working on living things, people specifically.

He mostly keeps it confined to himself, but also often extends it to Ghiaccio since Ghiaccio isn't a magic user and has trouble with his partial transformations happening near-constantly (in reaction to his emotional states and sometimes just randomly). The auxiliary magic is pretty much the thing that best helps Ghiaccio with human passing. He hates his ailuranthropy and hates exhibiting it, so aside from just keeping Ghiaccio safe in general through helping with human-passing, it also makes the poor bastard feel a bit better since his ailuranthropy isn't showing.

Melone may push his luck and test Ghiaccio's (and Risotto's) patience with the use of a cheap laser pointer but at least he still cares. (the laser pointer 'prank' perpetuated by Melone and Formaggio irritates Risotto to the point where (to quote myself, from an earlier post:) the members of the team are explicitly told, sternly, by risotto, not to carry and/or use laser pointers around the hideout anymore, because the laser pointers’ literal only use is making Ghiaccio accidentally break the furniture and they frankly can’t afford it (risotto vc) "i do not care how fucking funny you think it is we don’t have the funds for the potential collateral")

As mentioned, Melone also has use of levitative abilities. which he naturally over-uses because it's fun and awesome to be able to freely float around with the exertion of little to no physical effort. he frequently hovers a bit and has a tendency to like. recline mid-air you know the sort. Every so often, if he's particularly tired, he can, somehow, fall asleep in mid-air.

in particular, due to his species / breed plus his demihumanity, he can't really use offensive magic—or things such as aurafire or flares—aside from using very weak projections in desperate situations but it tends to drain him quickly and doesn't do much damage.

regarding his concentration of mana / magic and its flow through him;

Like many inherently-magical creatures, Melone needs to have a proper manaflow for the sake of his own health.

mana and mana exhaustion monster au lore side tangent

For creatures that are magical in nature—I'm gonna call those magicrypts (magic cryptians) to make this a bit quicker—they rely on manaflow to live just as much as bloodflow and airflow—assuming they even need either of those. Actually, the reason that it's often hard to kill demons and magicrypt in general without utilising their weaknesses is that if they start suffering blood loss (asphyxiation, too, sometimes), they can supplement it with their manaflow, which keeps them alive despite exsanguination ( / asphyxiation ). Stand Users are also supernaturally vigorous which may have some relation to the flow of mana even for non-mage humans.

They are always, or almost always, circulating mana, and they must be able to replenish their supply of it so they don't run out. Most beings do not naturally produce it on their own, though, and instead gain it through mana absorption which has various methods / types. Often, creatures that need mana to survive have a way to stockpile / store it for later use, which facilitates the use of 'actual magic'—magic is kinda a synonym of mana, but can also mean magic that's 'used', castmagic (I don't like the term 'spell', it's too specific).

A magicrypt without mana storing capacity (very rare) has a lesser capacity for castmagic, unless they draw the mana for the casting directly from their environment which is incredibly hard to do, especially in such a short amount of time—and especially when the mana is converted directly into castmagic without pre-conversion in the body, wherein a magicrypt's manaflow naturally converts the inbound mana into the most efficient, practical, or usable form—so, casting magic like this has a high risk of backfire.

As a little piece of trivia, because it's a radiation of magical energy, if a magic-reliant monster suddenly loses too much and they can't replenish, they will drain their own aura into mana just to prolong their own survival for just a little while longer.

Melone has a typical construction that facilitates storing mana and building up an extra supply of it for use without disrupting his vital primary manaflow. If he ever were to run out of mana completely, Melone would most likely fall severely ill, and eventually die soon after his aura starts fading, if somehow he wasn't able to restore his manaflow before then.

It also should be noted—there is a minor caveat for someone such as Melone when it comes to mana exhaustion:

... as a Stand User, his soul's energy (which is, for all intents and purposes, a form of mana) is manifested as an entity—a Stand—and, consequently, Baby Face is essentially a mass of concentrated energy. If the body exhausts all mana, isn't replenishing, and has already drained its aura's mana as a last-ditch substitute... well, obviously, the body is gonna start pretty much straight-up metabolising the Stand into magical energy, which is incredibly hard to recover from, assuming the person even manages to survive after that point.

Popular to contrary belief, most demons probably have souls. Also all Stand Users have souls (unless in a very specific kind of special case) because their Stands 'are' their souls.

While having proper blood and oxygen flow/supply seems like it should mean he would be fine just surviving off of that, especially given his half-humanity—which does allow him to do this for a while—Melone still cannot survive without mana... at least, certainly not without likely feeling he'd rather be dead instead, because any survival past mana exhaustion is pretty agonising; and also... as stated, after total loss of manaflow and exhaustion of a Stand User's aura, the, like... magic 'respiratory system' instinctively starts absorbing the Stand and using it as mana, which... kind of destroys the psyche? like, that's basically the body obliterating its own soul. after that point youre just. fucked. but—basically, it's unlikely for anyone to survive mana exhaustion once it gets to the point of magically cannibalising their Stand (kinda like how you're fucked once rabies becomes symptomatic), and if they do, there's a strong chance they will never recover anyway.

Circumstances differ, but the conversion of the Stand into mana cannot be undone. Not really, anyway, but if a piece of the Stand remains in its original form, there's a slim chance it could be restored, though this would be hard; and most notably of all, the loss of the Stand is like the loss of the Soul, and a loss of the Soul, especially in this way, directly damages the psyche, which leaves the sufferer as basically a 'shell of their former selves'. While they may be able to function and live, their personality will be vastly different, if they have a detectable personality left at all.

back to talking about melone

For demons, or at least demons of Melone's type, their tails are (essentially) organs for mana intake of various sorts, and also sort of contain a mana 'artery' of sorts as all or most manaflow is "attached" to it. So if a demon of that sort were to lose their tail, they might be unable to replenish their manaflow, and would probably start 'bleeding' magic likely to the point of quick mana exhaustion and eventual death (as above).

Melone's tail, though it tends to mainly move either expressively or absentmindedly (like with most tailed monsters), often is seen pointed towards the ground or resting against it, which he claims is because that's how he collects magical energy.

It's actually not the most effective way of magic absorption for him, because of his species type. His demon half is most likely 'animasugent' (or maybe manasugent I haven't decided yet); so would primarily use 'sugent' absorption, or 'sapping'—basically, he's meant to drain energies from others and then convert them into his own manaflow—rather than the environmental absorption he claims to do. Sugent absorption is presumably what he (the demon part of him, rather) is cryptophysiologically 'designed' to perform. But he's honestly—despite what others' assumptions would likely have you believe—not a big fan of the 'traditional' method even when sugent absorption would be quicker and more effective for him, so he relies mostly on the environmental absorption and just does it more often to compensate.

Alternatively, he can also do lunar absorption—collecting magical energy from the moon, which is known to be a major source of magical energy for Earth as a whole. This pretty much just entails going outside at night and having access to the moonlight.

There's a very small problem to this method, and it's that Melone is one of the unfortunate (few? many? hard to say) who are susceptible to moonsickness. Effectively every cryptian and/or mage has a particular threshold for mana exposure tolerance. Moonsickness is, to put it simply, what happens when that threshold is passed in regards to the moon. It's a bit awkward because it's a very general term that could also refer to a few specific things, but generally, moonsickness is a 'magical' illness that occurs with overexposure to the moon and/or its magical energy.

It's because the moon and moonlight are arguably the most powerful sources of magical energy on Earth (it's something about the moon itself that makes the sunlight suddenly become magical upon being reflected off its surface—sunlight is not inherently magical in most ways that aren't related to Hamon) and have their own 'kind' of magical energy, lunar mana, and some people can have different tolerances for terrestrial mana vs lunar mana, which is why moonsickness is so prevalent. So a being who can use magic just fine, such as Melone, can still be pretty sensitive to the moon's energy.

The exact symptoms of moonsickness are kind of dependent, there seem to be different 'kinds' of moonsickness, or it affects people differently based on certain factors. It can affect the same person in different ways if the conditions are 'right'.

Some sufferers of moonsickness suffer it like an actual physical illness, usually experiencing nausea, terrible headaches, fever, congestion, etc. like, sometimes people just get the fucking flu from the moon.

Some sufferers have a sort of overflow upon being hypercharged from the moon's energy, and despite being too full of energy, they display the exact opposite; they suddenly become weak and fatigued, lose all their strength, and oftentimes, they briefly faint or collapse.

Some sufferers are afflicted with magical malfunction—either their abilities don't work, don't work properly, backfire, or just straight-up go haywire (this is common in children with magical inclinations).

Finally, some moonsick individuals slip into lunacy, a violent and/or incoherent state where the sufferer is likely to endanger themselves and others. Lunacy is most often seen in zooanthropes, but other cryptians can also suffer from it.

Melone's symptoms vary on the day. He can do lunar absorption if he's careful or finds a balance, but he generally stays out of moonlight. At my current concept, on the Full Moon, I figure he loses all magic ability (and the loss of power lingers into the following morning, probably, like a magic hangover) but Melone probably spends a good portion of the night making sure Ghiaccio isn't about to go insane anyway (the full moon seems to be the one time that he fully transforms, so he's usually in a lot of pain which naturally pisses him off) . not 100% on that tho

alright ill shut up now hope you enjoyed the side tangent ciao <3

[valdrift]

as the end of 2024 has been getting closer ive been both dreading and anticipating the new year and its a feeling tht i really dislike lol (more under cut bc my rambling got way longer than i thought 😦)

like i moved out 2022 and its been amazing for both my mental health and growth as a person since being away from my family gave me the space to figure out what i want to do and how to. idk. live ? got medicated, developed better coping mechanisms, made great friends, etc. i mean im living with my friends rn and theyre like family and i just got licensed to be an lvt and its all great ! but the thing is that my bio family need me and thts probably the root of the issue

cus my family is dirt poor, like living on gov aid, and none of them can work so growing up i was always told how i needed to be successful to take care of them even though i had plenty of rich relatives and i always wondered why none of them bothered to help and decided to put all that responsibility on a kid ?? and i was pretty much raised into being my family's eventual caretaker. from 13-17 i used to be so angry/depressed/resentful about it and hated my family bc it felt like they robbed me of my agency but now, i cant blame them. im not saying they should have done tht to a kid but i understand why. theres a bunch of complicated legal things and other stuff i dont want to get into and my family are either old, disabled, or both and god knows my relatives arent going to help so its up to me yknow ? its why im moving back in with them by 2025 to take care of them. and i love my family, i really do even if i dont tell them bc we dont talk like that and we all know it anyways. my mom is such a strong person despite how everyone looks down on her and i want her to have nice things, i want my family to live in a house that is clean and not falling apart, i want my mom to not have to ever worry about working and to have time for herself bc shes been stuck caring for kids for half her life. i love my family, i want to take care of them, and im angry i never got a choice. family is complicated and i wish it was as easy as just going "i dont want this responsibility" but i know its not

i keep telling myself that this is just how things are supposed to be and im going to spend the rest of my life taking care of them and i thought i accepted it but theres still some small part of me thats reluctant. i know im never going to have a partner or romance bc my family is and always will be my first priority and ig thats sad but i really dont mind. and im not just saying that, like genuinely im fine being single, i dont need companionship and have never felt that loneliness. im just fine with my friends and i dont need anything more, it just kinda sucks i dont get that choice. the whole thing is kinda sad and ive been told as much but these are the cards life dealt me and better me than someone else i guess

truth is im kind of scared, it feels like my life has already peaked and being away from my family has been so freeing but its selfish and damn if i dont want to be selfish for just a little longer. but its hard when i can see my mom getting older and the house getting worse and im angry that this isnt as easy as it should be. this country is awful and the systems in place are cruel and makes life as difficult as possible for people of color, the poor, and disabled. i know i'll get over it and i'll be moving back in and helping them like i promised but i'm only 22. my relatives are acting like i'm wasting my life every second im not helping my family or working towards making 6 figures or whatever and i won't lie it's put doubts in my mind. but im only 22!!!! i dont know. maybe im being dramatic because honestly it could be worse and we're even lucky to have a roof over our heads and to even have a steady source of income no matter how little it is. ive never told anyone the last bit abt being scared and all that, i think its easier to type it than say it, and it also helps i dont have a face to yall and i dont have to look you in the eye. i dont know if ive ever shared this much or anything like this on here either lol. i dont know

tldr; do it scared i guess

[yourheartasmymark]

the married wizards au has been rotating in my head the past few days…what their first meeting like as Ice King and Magic Princess…does MQ bring home gifts and souvenirs for her 53 penguin children, does any random ever go into a dungeon or a tomb and just find a Archeologist witch carrying a penguin in bjorn…..what do the Wizards in Wizard City think of Magic Queen calling herself Magic Queen, does that imply she’s their ruler??? Man, thank you for coming up with this idea. It’s so good.

aw thank you for the kind words! 💕 these are some fun questions!

their first meeting

magic princess preferred to travel on foot, or at least fly. she could just teleport herself places, but that takes the fun out of exploration for her, and its easy to miss things when youre just zapping around, yknow? that does mean she needs to make rest stops, though, and one of those stops brings her to the ice kingdom one day. shes surprised to find out a cave she was planning to rest in was already a home (albeit a terribly furnished one) occupied by the ice king

ice king, of course, is excited. a princess has just strolled into his home, and shes not immediately leaving! shes staying overnight! time to put the moves on. magic princess is a little more wary, at first. its been about 50 years since simon parted ways with betty and marcy, and his isolation has already affected him, though he has yet to develop his violent temper. he just comes off as very… sullen. he swings between being weepy and being happy and excited like nothing happens.

but this is a fine place to stay. magic princess wont be bothered much, and she can just magic up a bed for herself that isnt a solid chunk of ice. she ends up staying longer than planned, and they get to know each other better. ice king just falls more and more in love- mp is actually polite to him. shes smart and witty and funny, and she has a way of explaining things that makes them easier to understand. she figures out where hes at and accomodates him. sure, she could just be trying to be a polite guest, but… its hard not to fall in love with a woman this perfect. not to mention shes beautiful.

magic princess isnt sure why she sticks around so long. she doesnt need this long to rest up, but she feels safe here. sure, the ice king is moody, but hes never mean, and as she gets to see his good moods more, she finds out hes actually a pretty sweet and funny guy, and very creative and enthusiastic. unlike other wizards, hes actually interested in her pre-war research, and he helps her sort through her notes, even if he doesnt really “get” them.

theyre a match made in heaven, and so a few years later they make things official, and magic princess crowns herself as queen of the ice kingdom.

gifts for the penguins/dungeon diving

absolutely. she cant understand them the way ice king can, but he translates for her. she could just magic up whatever they want, but its supposed to be the thought that counts for a gift, so even if its something silly like a smooth rock or whatever, she’ll go out of her way to pick things up for the penguins. gunther asks for the most complex things. hes got a hell of a snow globe and post card collection by this point.

shes brought gunther dungeon diving once, indeed in a carrier. he didnt really enjoy himself thought, so she didnt bring him again, and the other penguins arent really interested. but yes, if a tomb or dungeon hasnt been explored much, chances are youll go inside and find magic queen in there, surrounded by the torched remains of guards and monsters and writing info in her big, messy notepad.

relationship with wizard city

its super mixed. at first, they hated her. like, whos this out of the blue nobody calling herself a magic princess? WAIT, SHES CALLING HERSELF A QUEEN NOW?

by year 100 of betty taking the queen name, though, theyve basically learned to live with it. she doesnt have actual political authority in wizard city, but shes accepted as one of the most powerful wizards to exist in a LONG time, doubled by not just her raw power but her sheer competency with it, and its versatility.

its begrudging, but they respect her strength. they think shes wasting a lot of her time though, both with her pre-war research and her relationship with a goofy guy like ice king. they definitely kiss up and show respect to her face, but they grumble and complain behind her back.

[xxjason-austenxx]

Hello! Small question, I’m a little out of touch with mainstream media and stuff but I read that you are allegedly one of em queers /silly, and dating someone named Janus Riviere?

First of congrats to you two! Second, can you tell us a bit about him and how/why y’all got together cause there is NOTHING about him online besides like his dad attacking Gotham that one time? I do hope he’s a good guy if you two are an item.

yeah, so i dont talk about this a whole lot unless prompted cause like, people seem to find relationships annoying or something, in my experience? i think people are just sad and yearning so they take it out on other people or some shit

not the point, but yeah, thats correct. we kinda grew up together, met him when i was pretty young, our dads didn't like each other (i mean like. obviously) so i wasn't really supposed to like him, but honestly he was kinda endearing. i thought of him as my friend long before i was supposed to do that

im not even really sure when it became more than platonic, it kind of just happened, i dunno. he became more to me, i became more to him, i just kinda... i wanted to be around him, like all the time

but when i was a teen, buncha shit happened, ymight know, didn't see him for like at least three years, maybe four, and by the time i found my way to him again i was just... so different. i was a COMPLETELY different person. and to be honest? i didn't think he'd want that at all. cause ill be frank, i was just pissed at everything and everyone and just not that happy, bubbly kid that jan knew beforehand. i was a bad person, i didn't know who i was, everything was... it was a really rough time for me.

but he didn't go. he stayed. which... to this day, i have no idea why. i distinctly remember him holding my face... and he said some shit about how it didnt matter, how i would always be his... no matter who i was. some sappy shit like that. i dunno. i probably cried, honestly. we became official a while after after all that went down, im surprised we didn't do it sooner

anyway, point being, he's sweet. he's always been sweet. he's a guy with a strong desire to help everyone, he's always been there for me when i've been at my weakest moments, he's never left. genuinely, there are so many moments when i'm really surprised he didn't give up on me and walk away. guess it's just my charming good looks, obviously

nah, but don't take his dad's bullshit as your perception of him. he's really good to people. even people who don't deserve it. he sees the good in people. although- he is a psych guy, so i guess that's kinda his thing, but- yknow.

i've had on and off shit with a lot of people, hookups, but... jan's always been different. in a good way. breath of fresh air.

i dunno. i love him, and id be surprised if anyone didn't with how chill he is.

anyways, this is way longer than i thought it'd be, but uhhh yeah there's the run down

[definitelynotshouting]

I said I was gonna stop cause it’s late but I thought of another question that I think you might enjoy

What exactly is the Listeners’ ecological niche? What do they do? You’ve mentioned that they’re symbiotic and function similarly to some fungi, and that they can even form a sort of hive mind with other Listener hosts to work towards the same goals, but what are those goals? How sentient are Listeners on their own, without a Player host?

WOOOOO OKAY SO THIS IS A POST IVE BEEN MEANING TO MAKE FOR A WHILE NOW AND ONLY JUST GOT THE TIME TO DO SO

Buckle in everyone lets talk about:

~Ecological Niches~

So to answer this question, im gonna ironically set the stage by talking about something that doesnt SEEM related but trust the process alright this is necessary background info

What we need to briefly dissect is server formation.

Ive mentioned before that singleplayer servers form around spawned Players--- much like a star, code coalesces and forms both Player and world, as a shield between them and the in-between. The thing ive only recently settled on is that all servers are formed by Players in some shape or manner.

Essentially: Players drive server creation.

I'm going to skip the mechanics for how multiplayers are formed rn because thats information for another post, but the essence of what you need to know is that Players are the driving force behind server formation. And the thing about Players, as entities, is that they have a drive to play. And the thing about playing is that sometimes... you get bored.

Theres a tendency to abandon old servers and old worlds--- it happens eventually to pretty much all of them, and its a natural process. Servers arent supposed to be around forever. But sometimes a Player will abandon a world that isnt that old yet, that isnt ready to be recycled by a virus, often for a myriad of reasons. One of these is boredom. Sometimes you just dont click with a with a new world. Sometimes you dont want to continue playing, and so its fairly common to just abandon the world and start a new one.

The problem with this is that theres only so much capacity a dev crystal has to maintain its server cluster, and overstuffing it with more servers than it can take will lead to its collapse (which as ive mentioned before, is CATASTROPHIC for the entire cluster). And this is where Watchers come in.

Where a Player's ecological niche is to create servers, a Watcher's is to keep Players within that server for a greater length of time. Basically, Watchers are a bit like herding dogs (and massive shout out to the anon who gave me that idea); before they were hunted almost to extinction, Watcher colonies would flock to different multiplayer servers and feed on the Players within them, heightening their emotions which very lowkey softlocked the Players into staying on that server for a greater length of time than if they were left to their own devices. When youre invested in a world, in the people within it, and your emotions are heightened while inside, you arent exactly focused on leaving, yknow???

So Watchers, on an ecological level, are essentially pinning Players in place to feed off of them, and keep them from abandoning servers for new ones at an unsustainable rate for the local dev crystal. Seekers, when they were around, would then hunt down the Watchers and eat them, or run them off in the process--- which then freed the Players to finally move on and make new servers again.

Which brings us to the ACTUAL question here, about Listeners.

Listeners are a relatively new type of entity, i think. With Seekers fully extinct, and most Watchers also hunted to critically endangered numbers, the universe needed a new solution for keeping Players in place for long periods of time so dev crystals wouldn't get overloaded. So Listeners were created as a new and more sophisticated way of forcing Players to stay in server worlds for a longer amount of time.

While Listeners dont have a super strong sense of individualism, they are independently sentient from Players and as entities they have a vested interest in remaining on specific servers as long as possible--- specifically because ive recently decided they are specifically connected to sculk. The explanation for that is ALSO for a different post, i think, but essentially Listeners can make new Listeners through the exp orbs Players expel after death, if they die near a sculk catalyst. So Listeners have a lot of incentive to stay on servers and get their Players to build up tons of exp levels before getting them to die so they can continue to make More Listeners, if that makes sense.

So to recap:

Players: create servers

Watchers: feed off Player emotions to trap them on servers for a longer period of time

Seekers: hunted and preyed on Watchers which released any trapped Players

Listeners: formed semi-recently to bridge the ecological gap made by the Seekers going extinct and hunting the Watchers to near extinction, for the same purpose of keeping Players in place for a longer period of time

I hope that answers your questions and then some!!! :D i need to make some posts about the new Listeners lore at some point soon, plus more info on multiplayers, but i'll leave those for a later date :] thank you for being patient while i percolated on this, i hope you like the post!!!

[biracy]

I don’t wanna diminish the f slurs either but I’m not gonna lie I thought jesse was gonna be WAY more consistently homophobic from hearing him slur in the first episode (or one of the first episodes not sure if it was the first)

YEPPPP like idk from the way people talk about it I thought that would be like His Thing, one of his defining "bits" from when he was more of a bit character (originally he was supposed to be killed at the end of s1, so s1 Jesse and s5 Jesse don't have the same amount of thought put into them), but it's not really? I associate him more with fucking like. Funyuns than I do with calling people fags. I'm definitely not diminishing it either, it's a Very interesting relic of the time period and also I do appreciate that they dropped it as he got more and more sympathetic, I consider it a character flaw within the universe of the show (and I'd consider it a writing flaw if they continued it any longer, yknow during seasons where ur supposed to like him more than Walt), but it's not nearly as present as the phrase "rampant homophobia" would lead you to believe. Like I said, I notice casual racism from Hank a lot more than I notice casual homophobia from s1 Jesse, and I'd even consider that one of Hank's earlier "bits." I guess white lgbt people don't care about white cops saying "beaner" as much as they care about two or three usages of "faggot" lmao

[nerves-nebula]

rambling about shit like my inability to identify things unless they're clearly labeled. it dont really matter

frequently finding out that i am technically parts of groups i did not know i was a part of because people around me never used those words to describe me.

my dad was a guy who had citizenship in 2 countries, but i dont ever remember hearing him describe himself as an immigrant (probably cuz he usually didnt live in the US? idk). i am technically a second generation immigrant cuz my dad is one, despite him not really taking us to any local immigrant communities. theres more stuff but i cant get into it rn.

the immigrant stuff is weird cuz i never really thought i had much in comment with immigrants cuz i was raised mostly by my mom, who always positioned immigrants as OTHERS, not people like me or my dad.

its also possible i just didnt pay attention but yknow. still.

i think it has to do with autism maybe, just the way i'm not often able to put 2 and 2 together unless its spelled out for me. if other people don't say the quiet part out loud it takes me much longer than them to realize it. if my parents never used the word immigrant to describe my dad then it takes me 15 years to recognize that's what he is.

you can tell me the definition but if people don't use it in every instance it's applicable, its hard for me to recognize.

the same thing happened with catholicism. the word was used a lot and i knew it was a kind of christian but because i was supposed to catch onto the fact that we were catholic by, idk, paying attention to passing conversations i found boring or something. if someone just answered when i asked or, like, straight up said "we are catholic" to me a bunch then i would've probably gotten it.

cuz i knew we hung around christians who weren't the same kind as us, i just always got the different kinds confused and i kinda gave up trying to figure it out since nobody would give a clear answer. anywya.

[im-smart-i-swear]

5 headcanons for Girlfailure!Jiro au please

jiro LOVES horror movies, the more gorey and grotesque the better<3 shes got a soft spot for practical effects and body horror specifically

pretty much the whole team suspected jiro might not cis from early on and when she finally came out everyone unanimously pretended to be very surprised

her eyesight is absolute shit(shes got astigmatism now! it was alluras first time yknow creating a whole functioning human body from scratch and so a lot of the less crucial details stray from being a perfect copy of shiro) but she was really opposed to wearing glasses bc it would make her even less indentical to shiro and thats Bad. eventually the headaches got to her tho and she caved in

jiro's love language is mimicry. if she looks up to/likes someone, she WILL try to copy their mannerisms and personality in one way or another(this behavior gets mixed reactions from ppl)(her favourite ppl to copy are allura and lance btw. and coran)(and shiro but i mean thats kinda a given bc of The Clone Situation)

keith and jiro refuse to maintain eye contact or a conversation longer than strictly nescessary for a VERY long time

(<- bonus lol) sometimes she forgets shes not a ghost anymore and this results in her either slamming into walls and furniture on accident or standing still in absolute silence and dozing off until someone snaps her out of it(when she was dead, she would often do this when she was bored, it was the closest thing to sleep she had)(ghosts cant sleep or fall uconcious)(yeah she was fully aware and concious 24/7 for months. it was TERRIBLE)

(<- bonus 2 bc why not?) her relationship with womanhood and gender and gender roles and the expectations of how women are 'supposed' to look and act is sooo complicated.. on one hand figuring out shes trans made her a lot happier and was a big step in finding out who she wanted to be, but also i feel like womanhood sometimes feels just as restictive as being shiro has- she is terrified of not being 'womanly enough', of somehow doing it wrong, and at the same time misses how easy being shiro seems compared to the horror and pain of being her own person. of couarse she loves being a woman tho, she finally feels like a person instead of a thing with a clearly defined purpose! but that doesnt mean some things arent hard to deal with and theres a lot of insecurity and doubt in the beginning

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20, 22, 29, 40, 56, and 75-77 for ODIETLG specifically

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ITS GREAT THATS ONE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES BC IM A BIG FAN OF TALKING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

20. have you noticed any patterns in your fics? words/expressions that appear a lot, themes, common settings, etc? UMMMM call me the forgetter the way i forget..... there are definitely words/expressions that show up a lot definitely. im sure if i looked hard enough id be able to see them GHFDJGSDFKG aaaaaannnnd as for themes i noticed ive been writing a lot on trauma and some of the uglier side effects of it ESPECIALLY when put in a situation that does not encourage healing or anything like that other than that I AM REALLY BLANKING THERE ARE DEFINITELY SO MANY MORE COMPARISONS TO BE DRAWN LMFAOOOO

22. are there certain types of writing you won’t do? (style, pov, genre, tropes, etc) hmmmmm i do a LOT of genfics and im not that much of a purely romantic type of guy yknow..... i dont see myself doing anything like that in the future i reckon! unless its a gift or something :). in the same vein i dont think ill be posting smut on my main ao3 either just bc i feel like itd really come out of left field ghfjkdgshdjkfgh.

29. what’s your revision or editing process like? i stare at it. hope google docs caught any spelling errors. convert it into ao3. hope ao3 caught any spelling errors. send it out. wake up the next morning and grimace so hard

40. if someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see? IF ANYBODY MAKES FANART OF MY WORK I CRY IMMEDIATELY YOU HAVE NO IDEAAA HOW MUCH IT MEANS TO ME SERIOUSLY. ohhhh there are a lot of big scenes in fics ooooo............. if youre looking for a dramatic piece of fanart then the miu+kokichi confrontation in lgowab is a good one. the sonia+akane conversation in opddmh could be cute........... like them on the floor looking up yknow. like a little comic. i can see it in my brain. and oooo a lot of interactions from that second last chapter of odietlg when the whole place is falling apart ................................

56. what’s something about your writing that you pride yourself on? BWAH uhm the characterisation :) i try to keep them in character but also make them feel a little more real if that makes senseee

75. what scene in odietlg took the longest to write? what was difficult about it?  ooo its been a while hm. odietlg was during a time i had a LOTT of time on my hands so i was whipping through chapters so fast it was crazy. um. maybe the finale???? just because it was a lot longer than most chapters and i kept going back to flip a few things around and all of that :))

76. did you have any ideas that didn’t make the final cut of odietlg?  I DONT HAVE A DISCORD CHANNEL FOR THIS ONE SO THERE ISNT A LOT OF EVIDENCCEEEEEE let me think let me think. because this story was more interactive there were a few scenes that didnt make the cut solely because it wasnt voted for!!!!! i know there were MULTIPLE executions that were avoided during that miu gonta trial. there were a few more scenes including a tsumugi conversation that got cut in favour of the tenko/himiko chat in the bunker. ummmmmm unrelated to any sort of poll im really unsure!!! odietlg had a lot less planning which means a lot of initial ideas made the final cut!! i think tenko nearly started hearing other "voices" other than angie but i decided against that just bc it was never supposed to be supernatural or anything

77. do you have a favorite scene you’ve written from odietlg story/chapter?  OOOO THERE ARE A FEW SCENES I ENJOYED WRITING i think one of my favorites has to be the final 3am encounter with shuichi and tenko. it really just felt like all of those conversations were building up to this last one and i loved writing the setting and loved writing their interaction bc it just felt like a great culmination of their character development up until that point but ESPECIALLY tenkos :)

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