#this got long and ranty

[neversatisfiedwithlife]

Someone called Maya ruthless and that's funny because she's really not all that ruthless? She could've easily just went to the union or whatever and told on Sullivan and Ross, could've went behind their back like Sullivan did when he didn't advocate for her and only thought about himself at his little boys meeting.

She didn't though. She doesn't owe Sullivan or Ross anything. They've both done nothing for her, Ross was already looking down on her from the beginning.

Maya's done more for Sullivan and in return all he ever thinks about is himself. She vouched for him and took him back on at 19 after his drug abuse/addiction. He's shown little gratitude or remorse. (Not saying he has to live in that dark moment but his choices had consequences on more than himself. Yes I'm still mad about Warren's prt)

Was it a bad look to threaten blackmail? Oh absolutely. But it's not like Sullivan and Beckett weren't doing whatever stupid little back and forth. And then for Ross to go to Beckett and ultimately be an enabler for the months of abuse and harassment Maya had to endure from him with no support or help.(yes Maya obviously dismissed the teams concerns because she knew why Beckett was treating her that way. But it doesn't make it right.)

Can you imagine the place and job you love, your second home and sometimes first home, becoming one of the places you dread the most. Hostile and just toxic. Fueling her breaking point.

And just the thing Ross said about Maya not taking accountability when she knew she was breaking the rules TO SAVE A KID. But then here's Ross trying to be high and mighty breaking the rules just to get some d*ck from a guy more concerned with his job and status.

[14dayswithyou]

💖 Day 3.5 is now available! 💖

For the last couple of months, only Server Boosters had access to the 3.5 update... Buuuuut now it's available for everyone to play in the 14DWY Discord — and soon itch.io once I'm happy with the QA and state of the game — so please don't feel pressured to join unless you want to!!

The full devlog + even more screenshots are under the cut ^^

What's been added to the 3.5 version?

📺 Streamer Mode!

I've been told that it's difficult to stream and monetise age-restricted videos on YouTube and Twitch, so I added an option to remove the sexual content and strong language used in the demo.

Now y'all can invite Ren into your bed for cuddles without putting your streamer career on the line /silly /lh

This won't affect the 18+ rating or dark themes/elements of the game, however! Although Streamer Mode will prevent you from seeing any "gruesome" CGs in the future, most of the core elements of the game will still be tied to the choices and decisions you make. So you won't miss out on the overall experience by using streamer mode!!

⚙️ Custom Pronouns!

It only took me one entire year to get around to it, but you can finally choose your own preferred pronouns (or use a set of pronouns instead)... At the cost of being able to change them mid-game ^^;

Since the original pronoun screen wouldn't update until a new scene was displayed, I temporarily disabled the feature. But once I find a workaround, I'll bring it back!

💗 Choose how others perceive you!

You can now choose how the cast and narration perceive you! Originally, the narration was kept strictly gender-neutral (outside of pronouns and genitalia picked by the player), but this will soon change in future updates.

For more clarity: you don't get to choose the words specifically, but you can choose between masculine, feminine, and androgynous terms!

📋 Separate top and bottom genitalia!

You can now choose your tatas and pps separately! >:3

Alongside that, you can also choose your preferred body type!

I removed the "both" genitalia option because a few players still assumed it was an obscure version of "intersex". That wasn't my intention and I don't want to mislead anyone, so I took it out for now ^^;

I also didn't want to include a screenshot of the new genitalia choices in action (because it's NSFW), so y'all get the same character menu screen for the nth time instead lmao

📱 Relationship Screen Overhaul!

You can now change your own status for more immersion, and long-term Server Boosters will eventually be able to submit and use their own icon within the game as well!

Stalking finding your friends has now become easier by using "Buddy Maps"; a new app that allows you to see the location of all the cast members!

I want to offer players more incentive to check the relationship screen since they tend to miss the status updates, so hopefully this might help ;v;

It also says it "updates every few hours" so folks don't go overboard and check every 5 seconds to see where Ren is gdsghf (also keep in mind that he's a hacker lol)

🖤 Additional Scenes Update!

Day 2 received a brand new CG!!!!! Originally, I planned on only adding a few CGs sporadically throughout the game, but it didn't feel right to leave Day 2 so... empty... so I added a brand new CG to (hopefully) make things feel more balanced and natural!

If you decline Teo's offer on Day 3, Leon will now call and try to convince you to reconsider. However, players are still allowed to decline, and if they do, they'll reach a dead end.

After listening to feedback on itch, I changed some of the dialogue during Days 1-3 to make it seem more consistent! They're only small changes though, so it's honestly not worth looking for sdgjssga

🎶 Updated BGM and SFX!

I wanted to try out a different style of music to see if it fits the vibe of 14DWY more! The BGM features more acoustics to suit the "beachy" theme of Corland Bay, though I made a conscious effort to include piano elements as well to stay true to the original!!

I figured it'd be better to give players a live example before I make a poll (to see if they prefer the change or not) and publish it to Itch.

Some new SFX have also been added, though it's very minimal and honestly not that noticeable.

How to download and play the update?

(warning: clicking on the following links will open Discord!!) To download the Day 3.5 update, simply join the 14DWY Discord server, verify your age, and visit the "14dwy-updates" channel!

Alternatively, you can also wait until the update is publicly released on Itch to play it as well!! (It normally gets released shortly after a round of QA testing/getting feedback from the server, though I may release it earlier if I feel like it hehe ^^)

Enjoy!!

[catsandgoodbooks]

So. Punz and George. They're both very much defined by their relationships with Dream, probably more than anyone else on the server. It's hard to talk about Punz without bringing up Dream, and it's hard to talk about George without referencing him either. They have lives, of course, but Dream is always at the forefront of their minds. Punz spent a whole year of their life just waiting for Dream's escape; George dreams away the days even after the jailbreak in a fantasy world of his imagination where everything is perfect and he can be with Dream.

But they don't really have a relationship. They don't talk, especially not about Dream, because that would show that they cared, and George is trying to deny that to himself after the dethronement and Punz cannot allow anyone to consider even for a moment that they are on Dream's side or it was all for nothing. So the relationship they do have, weak and distant as it is, is based on bitterness and perceived betrayals and envy.

George doesn't really think about Punz much. If he did, he'd had to think about Dream, and not his Dream, not the Dream that exists only in his dreams now, but the actual, real Dream. The Dream who dethroned him without a second glance. The Dream he abandoned. The Dream locked away in an obsidian prison, rotting away as George sleeps. And George doesn't want to think about Punz. Not when it pulls him out of his dreams and makes him think about Dream.

When he does think about Punz, though, he's not exactly a fan of them. They betrayed Dream; undeniably, inexcusably, they did. They had his trust, and they threw it away for a little extra bit of money. George would never do something like that. Dream left first, after all. Dethroned George first and told him he didn't care what happened to him. Dream never did that to Punz.

And that's important. Dream never turned against Punz; they were the one who chose to betray him. Dream never quite trusted George the same way he did with Punz, and, in the period leading up to the dethronement, he let George in on less and less of his plans, grew closer and closer to his mercenary. George told himself it was because Dream wanted to keep him safe. After the dethronement, he accepted the fact that Dream just didn't care about him anymore, and that it had been a sign of that.

George tells himself that if he had been in the situation as Punz, if Dream trusted him, he would of never done what they did.

Punz...doesn't have a great opinion of George, to tell the truth. They might of pretended to betray Dream, but George (and Sapnap, and everyone who was there and just watched it happen) is the one who actually did. George left. He left and didn't come back, didn't even show up for the arrest/execution (because that's what it really was, an execution, no use dancing around it). He didn't even go visit Dream in Pandora's Vault, even when he had every chance to, even when he didn't have a plan dictating that he absolutely could not do that. Not like Punz did.

Unreliable. Untrustworthy. Uncaring. Those are the nicest words for what George is, at least to Punz. Dream died, twice, and George was nowhere to be found. Just because Dream had been trying to keep him safe. To make sure people didn't try to target George to hurt Dream. And George just left, like that was an option in this game they were all playing, that none of them save Wilbur had chosen to play, like you could just throw up your hands and say "okay, that's it, I'm done" and leave with immunity, taking everything you've done with you. That wasn't how the world worked. And it didn't matter if George understood that or not, because it still hurt Dream, and that was what was important. Because what George did was a betrayal, and because they were already familiar enough with that to know how bitter it tasted. Because Punz had to constantly pretend and reap what they had sown and deal with this betrayal they had committed - not the one they were infamous for but the one in their heart and their brain and the way people looked at them and laughed with them and the way they had agreed to the plan and let Dream die and the sneaking suspicion they had, growing louder every day, that something had gone wrong and that they had to do something about it but that too would be a betrayal - but George didn't, just because he had been there earlier and knew some people longer. Because people trusted him more and he didn't have to prove how reliable he was and how much he hated Dream and all that.

And because George had Dream's love in a way Punz never could. Dream loved too freely, that much was true, but he flinches at every motion Punz that was a little too fast, a little too sudden, and makes sure to call everything a business arrangement, makes sure they're mercenary and client, makes sure to suppress any little trace of attachment that could get either of them hurt. And, even now, even after George has gone and left, Dream still loves George; Punz isn't too blind to reality to miss it. And they had kinder days together, back before everything went wrong; there were no kinder days for Punz, and there never had been.

Despite everything, they're two sides of the same coin: wishing for something that is no longer reachable, no longer possible, because things have changed and because people have changed. Because Dream has changed, partially due to the decisions they made, and there isn't anything they can do to go back to how it was. Not truly.

And neither of them really care about anything or anyone else. They're not here to fight for ideals or morals, they just want to keep the people they love safe and away from the people who would want to hurt them. They are willing to kill for it, but, because of who Dream is, and because that would put them in danger, they can't. They're not allowed to, explicitly in Punz's case, implicitly by Dream pushing George away. Because Dream wants to keep the people he cares about safe, and that can't happen if it looks like he cares about them or vice versa.

(It's only okay if Dream's the one getting hurt, after all)

[otgo-brooklyn]

MDZS Seven Deadly Sins!AU

[piosplayhouse]

what are your controversial wwx views? 👀 (asking as a fellow controversial wwx view-haver)

In the grand scheme of things I personally think my opinions are pretty lukewarm but I got a lot of shit a while back for making a post saying that it's important to acknowledge that wwx has privilege as a male cultivator member of the gentry and certified genius, and that that's important because even though he knows that his position in society is extremely tenuous and that so many people are willing to fight to force him to lose it, he still chooses to stand up for those even lower in society (in that post I was thinking specifically of the women in mdzs, particularly the brothel women because they're basically never considered). And then? A bunch of people started shittalking me because apparently wwx is the most underprivileged character in the story? And he's lower status than even the non cultivating sex workers because he was homeless as a kid?

I'm also neutral-positive on Jiang Cheng and made the great sin of making a completely neutral poll asking for people's opinions on him correlating with if they grew up with siblings and got a bunch of accusations of being a wwx anti, rigging the poll, and misrepresenting the answers (the results of which were completely even btw) based off . The fact I used a picture of grapes as the poll banner. Yeah . Wwx was never mentioned in the poll at all also. You can probably still find all that shit if you search my username, anons were just fully accidentally pinging me and everything, it's why I don't name search any more even though I know some people make posts based off my ideas but are afraid of pinging me (don't be btw!!! Please ping me 🥺🥺)

I actually really didn't like wwx in my first read-through of mdzs because I really related to teen lwj and felt very personally about the idea of overly pushy boundary breaking teenager attitudes, but I definitely grew to like him lol. I don't know how much that shows through in my posts, I think I've made a few comments about thinking that he was definitely a little bit of a dick as a teen but I don't know how controversial that is

So overall I'm sorry to disappoint, not very controversial opinions, but I've gotten so much grief for them anyways you'd think I posted some shit like wwx is my least favorite character in all of fiction 😵‍💫😵‍💫 there's probably more stuff that could be considered controversial but I'm so disconnected from mdzs fandom at this point that I don't really know what the general consensus is. I'd love to hear yours though!!!! Feel free to anon or message or whatever you feel comfortable with, I won't judge

[emailsicantsnd]

i always found it annoying when people were like “ive been a stan since always” shit but GOD i need everyone to know ive been here for sabrina since always!!!!!!!!!!! last year when i was deciding on my outfit for her show my friend said “u should go w ur evolution merch to show everyone youre an og” and HSHDJDNDJDKDKDKDKDSJGHJDNSGU shes MINE go away!!!!!!!!!! leave her alone shes mine shes mine

this is SO real!!!! like i wore my EVOLution sweatshirt to eics tour and i was barricade for it and in the video i have of her singing BILAB to me she looks down at my sweater and then back up at me and smiles and im like YES I'VE BEEN HERE ALL THIS TIME (and earlier) AND IM NOT GOING ANYWHERE !!!!! i 100% agree like she was mine FIRST like something that irks me so bad is i have IRLS who put me down for liking sabrina in general but in 2021/after especially and now im watching those SAME people who tried to make me feel bad be fans of hers and im like GO AWAY SHE'S NOT FOR YOU !! like i want to make people know that i've BEEN HERE even when everyone else was against her, i defended her, i've supported her from day one rooting for her and her success, and NOTHING is gonna change that for me and i want people to KNOW THAT especially those who put her down for so long (@ my IRLS lol)

adding more stuff under the cut:

it's like this: i want her to have the UTMOST success possible because she absolutely deserves it and all the attention and hype she's had lately but of course deep down i miss when she was our little secret you know? but i only want her to be successful at the end of the day even if she's not just ours anymore, but in my heart she'll always be ours FIRST

and i was looking at all her album covers and how EWO - EICS all look connected to each other and how different short n' sweet feels compared to them and it's like ... those five albums feel like they're for US and this new one feels like her first step into popstardom for more than just the OG carpenters and being for the general public and that comes across in the design of the album cover alone like...

this whole rant is the embodiment of that template that's like "how i met her / she's still with me" like i met her and have been with her since the CBAGFT ep before silver nights was even ON IT and now look at her!!! like she's always gonna be my girl forever and in a selfish way i feel like im gonna always hold that over the heads of new fans/new eyes on her yk?

[crippled-peeper]

i suspect im hypermobile if it turns out whats going on with me isn't injury-related; or that I'm hypermobile ontop of an injury and (gasp) watch this:

see how i shut the fuck up and didn't compare my disability to yours which is very obviously more severe and far more disabling? so easy!!! wow!!!!! amazing!!! :|

as a disabled person i still have a lot of privilege with whatever i have going on. yeah it sucks sometimes i can get out of bed every day. yeah it hurts like hell and i feel like I'm dying but i can walk up stairs if i need to. yeah i use a wheelchair but only on the bad days/if its a longer outing.

its not hard to accept when other people have it worse than you. it doesn't make you less """special"". god your anons piss me off 💀

I wish more people had the same attitude as you about other disabled people instead of automatically devolving into “if you think you have it worse than me in a single situation, you’re a violent ableist who’s just like a terf” lol

a lot of social commentary on this site about disability has transformed into having no connection to any real events or problems in the real world and are instead “theory” based . example: “if you think mental disability and physical disability are different, you’re just like a terf of disabled people!!!!” when historically these communities have ALWAYS had at least SOME degree of separation and nobody has fucking died from physically disabled people speaking about their marginalization

not everyone but a significant portion of the hEDS community on here falls into the same trap thinking that just because they’re physically disabled, they automatically know everything about physical disabilities, even ones they don’t have (or they ‘predict’ they’ll have later)

It does get very tiring having 250 of the same exact “zebras” telling me I am a evil violent ableist monster who should have my head exploded for saying spinal implants are a last-resort treatment

I am ironically one of TWO people on this site I know with a spinal cord injury and I never have called myself a fucking zebra or felt the desire to??? having rare deadly conditions isn’t a gender identity or an outfit I wear or a badge of honor. It’s fucking traumatizing. I lost my family. It’s not fun for me and I’m not privileged for it

[godheadjones]

i made the mistake of checking the comments on riverdales instagrams post about tabitha and so many people were saying that tabitha brings nothing to the show. i’m sorry, are we talking about the same tabitha tate? the one who saved riverdale twice, once on her own at the last minute? the tabitha tate who gave up everything with the one she had fallen in love with so that he could at least be happy in the new reality and went on to work out how she could save riverdale again by herself for however long it would take? what makes me so sad is that i know if tabitha had come to riverdale and had just helped jughead get back with betty and went on to date reggie everyone would love her and worship her. literally what happened with jopaz is just happening with tabitha and people don’t like her and find her a worthless character because she dated jughead and he’s happy with someone who helped heal him and get over someone who broke his heart. but whatever. let’s imagine a riverdale without tabitha. do you see it? yeah everyone’s dead and season 7 is the sweet hereafter. what a season to go out on without tabitha. percival also would have taken riverdale over so like. shut up.

[http-byler]

okay listen. I spent like 40 minutes ranting about this to someone who could care less TODAY so I feel like I gotta put it on here too bc at least you guys will care…

Mike was SO outta pocket with that snide little “she didn’t look fine” comment and I think it speaks to all the relationship problems between him & El. and to preface, I am a Mike defender til I die so this doesn’t come from a place of Mike hate/slander. that comment was just so unnecessary and petty in its delivery.

you can tell that it was just him being upset about El lying to him and not about Angela because even Will gives him a look like “wtf are you doing”. everyone else is trying to make El feel better because they know her and they know she needed that reassurance. and I’m not convinced that Mike doesn’t know the gravity of the situation for El. he JUST saw the horrific bullying she’s had to deal with and Will told him that it’s been going on the entire time. so it’s completely hypocritical of him to praise her for humiliating Troy, and even going as far as to break his arm, for bullying Mike & Dustin. why is it okay for her to use violence to stand up to his bullies, but not her own?

he knows the answer and we all know the answer. he’s just upset that she lied to him! because now he’s like, embarrassed and everything he thought he knew just, wasn’t true. his relationship for the past six months has been solely through letter correspondence, and he’s just found out that all of it was fake (or at least, that’s the extreme I think his dramatic ass would take it too). Friends Don’t Lie. that’s one of, if not, the first things he told El about friendships. and yet, in s3 he’s the one to lie to her! so again, were at a stand still because he’s mad at El for something he allows himself to do.

ultimately, what I took away from that comment and their subsequent fight scene is that they love each other, just not the way that they feel like they should.

El’s basis for relationships is based on fantasy. she learned about romantic relationships from tv shows and movies, never learning what a real relationship should be like! Mike’s basis for relationships is his parents’ marriage and his friends’ parents marriage (as well as entertainment media). we can see just how little he knows about relationships throughout s3 when Lucas has to walk him through every single aspect of it, even the concept of an “olive branch”. and honestly, it’s not bad or wrong of them to not have a good level of understanding about romantic relationships! they’re kids! even Lucas and Max, who are established as the couple who does understand romantic relationships, get it wrong sometimes.

because they don’t have a grasp on what makes a romantic relationship work, they end up jeopardizing their platonic relationship as well! because I believe they do love each other, I just think it’s platonic! they’ve been through so much together, and I think a lot of Mike’s feelings that he believes are romantic are actually just a feeling of relief that she’s still there. he watched her “die” and he had to deal with the grief of her death for a year. having her back, that feeling of joy at her being alive and the fear of losing her again, it’s all such strong emotions! emotions one could mistake for romantic feelings. especially in a time where men and women were expected to date and not “just be friends”.

as for El, she might have romantic feelings for Mike. it’s hard to tell sometimes if she really feels the love for him she says she does, or if that’s just her going through the motions of what she has seen portrayed. because in season one, Mike is the one to kiss her, and she is understandably surprised by this (though not upset by it). but then she disappears for a year and in that time she watches movies and shows about romance. they teach her what that kiss means and how she should act with someone she likes romantically. so when they meet again in s2, she leans in as well and this time, she knows what she’s supposed to do. and I don’t doubt that she feels differently about Mike than she does about the rest of the party members. he was the one to take her in and he was kind to her and respected her before the other boys were/did. it makes sense that their relationship is set apart from the rest of the party. but that doesn’t make it inherently romantic.

their fundamental relationship problem stems from not knowing each other. they love each other so much, and they would (they have) risked their lives for each other. But! they don’t really know anything about each other and don’t necessarily share the same interests. El doesn’t know that much about Mike as a person, but she still knows a hell of a lot more about him than he does about her. she doesn’t know that much about herself.

s3 showed us just how much of her life revolves around the men in it (hop, brenner, mike). Max was integral to El’s storyline for an abundance of reasons but the s3 storyline has got to be the most important. she’s the first person to tell her that she is her own person and that she can make her own decisions about who she is. and we’ve seen her smile and laugh a couple times in the show, but that montage was the most fun we’ve seen El have ever in the show. nothing dampens the mood and she’s learning what SHE likes and who SHE is outside of the box she’s been shoved into her whole life. and it’s only for a day. then reality sets back in and she’s sudden thrust into the role of protector again. that silly, happy, pre-teen girl we just saw is gone in a flash. she’s still figuring out who she is and it’s impossible for Mike to know her if she doesn’t know herself.

in the place of knowing each other well, they put each other on this unreachable pedestal that makes them feel inferior in their own relationship. El is “Superman” to Mike. he believes that he’s “just some random nerd” and that he got lucky that he found El. he has no idea how harmful that ideology is to her and to himself. and he hasn’t even really learned his lesson. he put her on a pedestal and was upset when she fell. and yet, he puts her right back up there, expecting a different result. she doesn’t want to be some superhero, she wants to be a normal teenage girl, she wants to be someone outside of the powers she had/has. and she reminds him that she’s not a “superhero”, as least not anymore, but in the Van he expresses the same sentiment to Will because he thinks so highly of her anyway. he bases so much of his self worth on being needed and helpful that his self esteem is practically on the damn floor. it makes it impossible for him to connect with her about insecurities because he feels like his are true and hers aren’t. he IS some random nerd and she’s NOT scary or abnormal.

now El, she sees mike as this, righteous guy who is so good in his heart that he’d never do the things she’s done. she’s put him on a pedestal as well, though it’s not as dramatic as Mike’s. she wants to impress him, make him like her more because he is good. hop is gone and brenner was literally her abuser, all she has now is Mike and she wants his validation. she wants him to believe everything is going great and that she is normal and good and everything she think he is. she doesn’t want to be spiteful or angry or violent or bad. she doesn’t want to be feared. and Mike was the first person to make her feel that way. he’s one of the only people that can still make her feel that way (besides the Byers now probably). so telling him those lies made her feel like she could still be normal. as long as Mike believes it, then maybe it can be true. but eventually, he finds out the truth, and now she’s realized (she thinks) she “doesn’t belong anywhere”.

they don’t feel comfortable enough with each other to show who they really are or express their insecurities. that’s where their relationship really fissures. so unless s5 really reworks the entire foundation of their relationship I just don’t think they can come back from all that. even after Mike’s monologue! because that monologue can still be true as a completely platonic thing. he loves her, and he can’t lose her, he’s not lying! but I don’t think it’s enough to save their relationship.

especially because the things they want from each other can be fulfilled by other people.

Hop is back, all the love and validation she needs can be provided by her family. romantic love isn’t necessarily what she needs, she just needs someone to love her for who she is, and they do.

Will accepts, understands, and loves Mike for all that he is. his good parts and his bad. and Mike feels comfortable with Will too, he seeks him out to talk about his feelings and insecurities.

the things they want so badly in their relationship with each other aren’t being met, and they could get it from other sources. so in conclusion, I believe their relationship is over for good and that Mike is a complex and flawed character who is still learning how to be himself and love himself.

[scarletwitch1918]

Today was the second birthday this year of a friend that I thought I was really close with that i didn’t get invited to

[sarcasticdolphin]

So. About Mirrorverse.

Yesterday I discovered that my former co-author for the Mirrorverse deleted her two stories that were part of the series off of ao3 and removed herself as a co-author of the series. I'm not sure exactly when it happened, but that is when I found out about it. The two stories that she wrote both (though the former part 5 more than the former part 3) contain plot points that are important so the later parts of the series make sense.

I honestly haven't decided what to do yet. My first thought was just two write two new Mirrorverse fics to fill the gaps, and I do want the series to be properly whole once more.

But I honestly don't know if I'm going to be able to do it. The me of 12-16 months ago, when the earlier parts of Mirrorverse were written, is very different from the me of now. As a person and especially as a writer. Add to that every time I think about Mirrorverse I'm reminded of my former co-author, which normally results in my writing 'mood,' as it were, rather souring.

I want to write the fics. I really do. Mirrorverse was (and still is) my fanfic baby and I worked on it week-in, week-out for an entire year. I was (and still am) very proud of myself for seeing it through, especially because it was originally planned as a one-shot. I want it to be what it deserves to be, not a puzzle missing two very important pieces.

But I don't know if I'm going to be able to (or willing to) put myself through the level of emotional pain that will be involved in outlining and writing those two replacement fics.

[davinaclare]

s6 might be my least favorite smallville season, at least the first half

lana has alienated everyone in her life since she's with lex, she even goes around blackmailing people on lex's behalf like girl, why are you doing his dirty work? also this "i can't make up my mind" routine is getting annoying, like she goes to live with lex and she has multiple fights with chloe and clark cause they don't think lex is good for her and she gets all mad and tells them off but then when she finds out she's pregnant she acts like someone killed her dog. like she's forced to marry him now? girl weren't you happy? then he gives her the ring and she again doesn't know what she wants and she goes to talk to clark? but once again clark can't tell her his secret cause god knows what fucking reason at this point. like jesus christ lionel knows! you told chloe the identities of the whole justice league why can't you tell her?

and now let's get to clark. oh boy. i've never hated him this much. like where does he get off being mad at lana and lex? you left her. she's making a mistake with lex? fine, let her. she's gonna figure that out by herself. but why is he mad at her for moving on when he knows what he has to do to get her back. it's pretty simple. yet he doesn't do it. so let it go. also the way he acts like chloe's bitter ex whenever she's with jimmy, like?? why? why does he do that? or when he gets mad at her for not telling him about lana's baby or just everytime he gives someone a hard time for keeping things from him really. like dude.. just shut up.

also i may not like oliver that much but he was very on point with some things he said to clark like the fact that he just waits for his enemies to show up. like since he's been back from the phantom zone he's been saying he has to stop the phantoms. so? look for them, fucking do something! he told raya he was gonna wake the fortress back up and train with jor-el. did he do that? nope. cause things go so well when he doesn't listen to him, right? and then he whines to chloe that he's not saving enough people. no shit genius. did he go with oliver and the others to help shut down the 33.1 labs? no he has a wedding to stop. cause in his head lana's a dumb bitch who can't make decisions for herself. who's gonna freak out if she knows he's from a different planet. dude at this point i know her better than that. than him.

lex annoys me too this season, he's just playing at being the perfect husband, mooning after lana, like dude do something evil at least. you were the most interesting character once. lionel is courting martha which is honestly the grossest thing i've ever fucking seen i'm not even exaggerating. everytime he's at the kent farm or he's at dinner with them i feel sick. and what. the. fuck. was that thanksgiving dinner honestly? they even put lionel right next to chloe, like?? what great conversations they must have had am i right? like "miss sullivan remember that time i almost blew you up? good times."

the only joy i have this season is jimmy tbh. i love him and i love him with chloe. i know how that's gonna end too. 😞 but let's enjoy it while it lasts at least.

[junranghae]

SO not to drag on a convo from last week but I was listening to Stacy’s beautiful monster and apparently ppl???? Don’t like it???? And I THINK beautiful monster follows the same pattern as ready to love concerning mediocre/whatever mvs making fans think a song isn’t good???? Idk if you’ve listened to the song but it’s a wonderful one and I actually really enjoyed it and didn’t realize ppl didn’t like it???? BUT yeah someone was like “it’s the only bad stayc song” and I was like. This is not correct. - dokcheol <3

omg i get to talk more!!

ok so I'll be the first to admit that i have almost no ability to tell what makes a good mv and what makes a bad mv, i think it's mostly due to indifference since i've never been a big music video person. I had also never seen the beautiful monster mv till right now but honestly i feel like it's not that bad?? Like ready to love I get, even I could tell it's awkward and just like not shot very well?? (Don't get me started on the filter on it WHY ARE WE ASH GREY RN???) but beautiful monster looks normal to me idk. The drawings are cute and the filter isn't THAT annoying. I also don't get why everyone hates that song. Is it the best song I've ever heard? no, but it was fun and completely passable.

[triptychgardener]

a third friendsim featuring whatever human children in hauntswitch should start off with joey and the other human protagonist[s] before actually getting into the thick of it [and maybe end with befriending calliope and also have a fight with crockertier mspar to the tune of carne vale because remember there is one awol splinter of mspar]

Iiiiii probably would need to replay the games in order to fully understand this. It's been quite a while since I played any of the game. Personally I'm not sure I would really Want to see a continuation of Friendsim at this point. I think (personally) the games started getting weaker when they forsook actually exploring the characters in favor of acting upon an overarching metastory. Part of it is just I feel like having a variety of authors in Pesterquest leads to some very inconsistent quality. I think Jade's arc is really excellent, Roxy's is for the most part wonderful, and there is a lot of good writing! But then you get stuff like Jane's route, or the disrespect given to Kanaya, and it just sort of made me unenthusiastic. And when it started getting to the end, where routes like Feferi's were basically nonexistent in favor of the metaplot... I feel like it defeated the purpose of having these little bite-sized character exploration episodes. I wouldn't hate to see like, a genuine sequel that follows more of a coherent story, but that feels more like the realm of fanon more than anything. I think philosophically Pesterquest is about sealing these characters in as their most, like, archetypal selves. The whole story isn't unaware of this, since MSPAR's whole thing is about solving people's problems and making friends. It's very much aiming to be a "fix-it," but it's notable that, like, a lot of it (especially the alpha kids) takes these characters as independent from each other, rather than intertwined. I'm not gonna pretend this is in anyway a coherent criticism beyond some light nitpicks and some mild hypocrisy on my part. I think after seeing what Vast Error did with the Friendsim format in Snowbound Blood leaves the original product feeling a little weak by comparison. Or the strong thematics that the fanmade Friendsim Volume 2 is dealing with. I think postcanon Homestuck's utter indecisiveness over the nature of fandom is part of why so much of postcanon swings between toothless and bitter, and it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. If they were willing to tell an actual story, I'd be interested.

[atempause-art]

oh wow, a year summary, bit too late

aka 2022 was a fucking nightmare and it keeps going

i had barely any time and energy to create what i wanted this year cause i spent majority of it being at my worst. but to find something good in it, i do like those fast sketch portraits

to explain my situation - i moved from an asscrack of the world into a big city in september 2021 to find a job bcs in that small town i was year on unemployment cause jesus fuck there’s 0 jobs there. we fucked up. the realter was a lying bitch. i ended up in the worst disctrict the city has to offer, incredible start if i say so myself, feared walking home everyday

so i spent about 9 months there being miserable and then i managed to move out! yay! a great location, i like it here really, bonus point for seeing crows daily, love the funky guys

this apartment is old piece of shit where things barely work. i was in a rush to gtfo cause my lease was ending in like a week and i had to find a place fast af and everyody is now picking who to let move in and let me just say that nobody trusts a single person working retail can reliably pay rent so i got denied on every apt except this shit one and i couldnt be looking any longer so i just had to take it

so i’m back to being miserable, even worse now, as we wasted money on another moving, rent is high as shit, and i don’t even have a properly functioning heating here. why wont i report the broken things? oh i did. i got told by the owner “well nobody before was complaining about it” and thats where it end. fucks sake i have just one working burner here, i havent cooked since october. i dont see myself drawing here any good stuff anytime soon, all i do is get home and go into bed under covers cause i’m cold as shit

we plan to move this year again. mom here to this city and find a place for both of us together. when is that happening i dont know. i hope it’s soon. i want to be sane and create again

[kittytual]

just watched a pjsekai analysis video and i hate ppl. it was basically someone debunking the idea of mizuki being trans using japanese terminology + thinking ppl Only care abt their gender . like i cant name anyone in the pjsekai fandom who only cares abt mizuki’s gender, ppl just like seeing themselves in fiction?? which isnt a bad thing??? like i understand tryna debunk smth based on flimsy evidence as to not get someones hopes up if someone turns out to Not be lgbt but i dont get the obsession ............ 

like i do understand the reading of mizuki representing otherness in itself and not tryna conform to society. like i hc mizuki as autistic but like aside from them using ‘boku’ to refer to themself, the trans coding is There so why blame ppl for focusing on that, esp when them keeping a secret from their friends in fear of rejection is a big part of their character rn?? i feel like this person just didnt read the 25ji event stories bc cmon . also the op said that mizuki doesnt experience dysphoria when HELLO ???? THEY DO???? and also they dont Have to like dysphoria isnt the end all be all of transness i just!!!!! they also mentioned a “possible” narrative of mizuki being forced to wear masc clothing in middle school when they actually wanna be feminine or vice versa and idk what to tell u but ppl just . Don’t do that. 

idk its just tiring ghfjhd like these r just constant points ppl use to either deny the idea of a character being trans or to justify an imaginary scenario of how ppl read/analyze a character