#this game has become my hyperfixation tbh

[melodycollectsfandoms]

I just found Three Musketeers and Yu-Gi-Oh references in Genshin Impact in the same day and i am LIVING for it

[maddrumsticks2]

Been thinking about all the Links. Originally I thought Time was the only one whose deeds went basically unknown, but no, it's most of the Links.

There's almost never an instance where a bunch of people show up to help in any of the games. (Of course, I haven't played many of the Zelda games.)

I just wanna run through the games that I've played.

SUPER LONG POST WARNING

LttP: I never actually finished this one, but the majority of the game feel like you're completely on your own. Maybe people do know what he's done, though.

OoT: He fights Ganon in a world that's already destroyed. Of course, the remaining people may know of his accomplishments, but he doesn't know they know. Link is no longer in the timeline where he might've gotten some recognition. Instead, he just seems like a child who picked up on Ganon's evil before anyone else.

(I'm in the midst of playing Majora's Mask, please do not spoil it for me.)

WW: Nobody even remotely knew of Hyrule's existence. The only thing people may have noticed being wrong was the disappearance of some of the girls around towns and islands. Though, Link could easily be remembered as the person who saved these girls. (It's been a bit since I played this game, please forgive my bad memory.) And at least the sages know what he's been trying to do. Oh, and Tetra knows, but that's a given.

TP: Been playing through this one again. This time I've really picked up on the lonely atmosphere. Which is funny because that game has arguably one of the biggest casts of important people. And maybe that's why. Because despite how many people acknowledge and believe in Link, only Midna truly knows everything he's done. And by the end, she returns to her world and seals off any hope of Link ever seeing her again. So maybe the people know Link has something to do with the sudden decrease in monsters, or maybe that he saved Zelda somehow, but they will never truly know how in trouble they were before Link came along.

BotW: Idk, Link is pretty well acknowledged here. Though it seems like the villagers have no idea he even exists. The Rito even believe that Link's the descendant of himself. But he is not, by any means, the least acknowledged. After the events of BotW (in TotK), you can tell that people know who Link is, and they know that he saved Zelda and defeated Calamity Ganon. Zelda has become very beloved to her people, and Link is the guy almost always accompanying her. (I assume.)

TotK: It's been a while since I've beaten this game, so I'm not entirely sure, tbh. But my guess is the gloom dissipates, and Zelda's back and people know because the signs of things going back to normal are obvious.

Sorry, just having silly hyperfixation thoughts loll

[kid-az]

Ouran War Game Club (If the Host Club played Warhammer)

Please bear with me nerding out about my current anime hyperfixation & Warhammer. Tbh this is actually pretty likely since all of the characters that Aren’t Haruhi have enough money to buy their tabletop armies, alongside fancy terrain & all of that fancier stuff to make their sessions more…

AUTHENTIC

Tamaki only uses the most glorious and heroic armies of all of the settings, which is why he primarily plays the Craftworld Eldar, High Elves, and the Lumineth Realmlords, all the while evoking the pompous glorious pride & chivalry of the Elves. He sobs loudly whenever the Craftworld Eldar are screwed over.

Kyoya is the world’s most sophisticated powergamer to end all powergamers, and therefore he only uses the most powerful armies to achieve one thing… victory. Although he constantly changes his armies depending on the edition and whatever army he’s fighting, he has quite a soft spot for the Necrons & Lizardmen/Seraphon.

The Hitachiin twins never played Warhammer before joking the Host Club, but they’d quickly become addicted to the game (Particularly Age of Sigmar) after opening up to playing with other people. The twins’ favored faction are the Orruks, with Hikaru playing Ironjawz and Kaoru playing Kruleboyz. Sometimes they’ll switch up their subfactions with one-another to confuse their opponents.

Out of the entire Host Club, Honey would be the least-interested in Warhammer, for the grimdark nature of all of the settings does not appeal to him. He has however painted & kept an army of Halflings gifted to him by Mori, and everyone dreads the day when he finally gains interest in playing the game.

Mori plays the Adeptus Mechanicus (40k), and Brettonia (Fantasy), and he is a calm, collective player who’ll never speak unless he is either spoken too or the occasional advice to help out a newly-starting player. He has never lost.

Haruhi never even heard of Warhammer before joining the Host Club, and she wasn’t the least bit ecstatic over the idea of buying overpriced plastic miniatures. She’d only start playing 40k & Age of Sigmar once Tamaki begged about it for the 10,00th time, promising to pay for all of the miniatures she’d use.

After playing a few tabletop sessions with the Imperial Fists & Stormcast Eternal, Haruhi would find herself actually having loads of fun playing the game, even if she often loses due to being a newbie. She has however greatly improved, and can now consistently score wins against Tamaki (Even when he isn’t deliberately trying to lose) and the Twins.

Renge is an unhinged psycho who plops a Warlord Titan onto the tabletop while laughing maniacally.

[shytastemakerthing]

Hi!! I'm Ellie, and I'm looking for a romantic matchup for one of the Twisted Wonderland characters, please!

Some basic info is that I go by she/her pronouns, I'm 5'5, and I have a rather rounded figure (but that just means cuddle time is that much more comfy, i'd say!!) I have fair skin (by fair i mean vampire pale.) Blue eyes, and loooooong brown hair!

Personality wise, I'm the rather fun-loving sort, even if my severe social anxiety and depression keeps me from going outside, I do all I can to keep myself entertained and having as much fun as I can. If something sounds boring, then I have a hard time focusing on it (which gets me into a lot of trouble in school tbh.)

However, I tend to be extremely shy around other people, my social anxiety makes it very difficult to be open around others. However, when I become more comfortable with them, I'm much more lively, and willing to share my interests and hobbies and such.

Honestly, my entire life revolves around things that interest me, whether it be a new game to play, a story I like, characters I'm invested in, a new hobby, etc. It will always be something that I find easy to rant about for hours on end.

Aside from hyper-fixations and special interests, I'm rather reserved and don't say more than I need to at any given time. I tend to be overly considerate of others to the point where it drags me down, but I don't let it get in the way of my special interests.

In a relationship, I'm the type to be extremely clingy towards my partners, often hanging off their every word to shape how my mood will be for the entire day. When I'm in a relationship, my partner tends to be my hyperfixation or special interest, as I often want to spend all of my time with them due to just how happy their company makes me.

In all, I'm a girl who lets excitement control my life to the point where I don't have the capacity for a relationship that is just "chill". I'd need someone who can meet my needs while at the same time being someone who can get something fun for us to do together without me getting bored of them.

My love language is quality time and physical touch!! I'm a big fan of just having a blast with my partner, but cuddles and hugs are definitely the best. (pda in public is a big plus)

I am an extremely bashful and romantic sort of character, with lofty dreams of what life with a partner might be like. Even though I love the idea of romance, I am totally up for a chill relationship as well, anything goes as long as they're happy with me, and I'm happy with them.

Sorry for this being so long!! I'm looking forward to being matched!!

A/N: Hello and thank you so much for your request! I do hope that you enjoy it! Have a wondeful day/night!

Request: Twisted wonderland match-up

I match you with............

Floyd Leech

Someone who lets excitement run their life? Well then, count Floyd in. He is all about having a good time and has been known to leave things that he seems to be boring in search for new adventure and excitement

He will 100% condone this certain behavior and if he happens to find something rather exciting but you aren't there with him, be prepared for a towering eel man to come bounding towards you to carry you off to said excitement

Floyd is clearly all about physical touch. Holding, squeezing, having a hand on your shoulder, your head..... yeah, he's a touchy guy

And all for quality time as well. Someone willing to spend time with him? Someone who he is completely in love with and knowing that said feelings are returned?

Congrats, he is all yours now

Chill time often takes place within his room... half the time he falls asleep, but he looks so adorable, you can't even begin to think of waking him up

He will absolutely cling onto the things that are of current interest to you. You guys are the same in that regard, having bursts of hyper-fixations at any given time

He loves your clingy nature

Because this man is the same

Y'all feed off of each other

..... please come see him at work in the lounge (Jade and Azul aren't begging..... maybe... Floyd just does so much better when you're there to see him)

More than once, he has fallen asleep to the sound of your voice. Not that your ramblings bored him, no, your voice is just so soothing to him that he couldn't help it

Expect to stay with this guy for r the rest of your life, he isn't letting go

Thank you for your request!

[tiny-heist]

Does Chai have a home to go back to?

At the very beginning of the game, Chai wants to get off the Vandelay campus, but he never says “I want to go home” or something along those lines. He just keeps saying he wants to get off the island.

I don’t know if this is something to point out, and it’s me reading wayyyy too much into things, but with Chai’s tendency to kinda “act younger” you’d think he’d say something like “Ugh, this is so hard! I just wanna go home!” Or “can I go home now?” But he never mentions anything about home. He never even mentions a place to go. He just wants to get off the island.

This may be me projecting onto him about not having a good family and home life, but this is my hyperfixation, damn it!

In the game models, it says how Chai’s a college dropout, and do you ever think that Chai may have gotten kicked out for that? He’s also called a slacker a numerous amount of times in the game. It just leads me to believe that his parents or whoever took care of him really didn’t care for his rockstar dream, so when Chai dropped out for that dream, or possibly just wasn’t great in academics, they kicked him out. It’s like a “If he wants to be a slacker, he can be one somewhere else, not in my damn house” type of deal.

Because if Chai did have a home to go back to, you’d think the ending may have shown something like him calling someone, talking to another person, or maybe writing a simple text and it could have the same camera angle as Macaron when you see him working on CMNM to be able to look down at what he’s texting. A hint that he has a home to go back to. However, he’s not shown anything and never mentions anything.

If Chai never had a home to go back, then the ending just becomes so much more emotional for me because this means he found his home. It’s like a found family story.

And if it’s like a found family story, we can get into how there’s that whole thing about what home really is, and it’s the people and how you feel safe and secure in a place. A home isn’t just a house. A house is simply the vessel one can have as a home, and it can have the elements of what really makes something feel like home, but it’s not home. Home can be anything that makes you feel like you belong, like you’re safe in this place with these people in your environment. You feel safe because of the people you’ve bonded with and care about. Chai has found that home with his friends at the Vandelay campus. He found a place in his little group of misfits, and he sees that he finally has people he can lean onto.

And the song they play at the end, Synesthesia, means a whole lot more because when he’s with his friends at the Vandelay island, he gets to show all of himself to them. He feels that safety to feel everything with them, to be all the colors of himself. He gets to shine as a person and fully embrace his potential because of all the support he had with his friends. And it really gets me going because I’m a sucker for that shit, and I’ll eat it up.

Ugh, I feel like I didn’t make sense with this, but oh well. Tbh, I feel like what I’m saying here is a stretch, and people can have their own interpretations, but I like making up lore (especially sad ones tee hee) for my characters who don’t have one canonically lol

[tiddiesoutwhenthetisout]

tag from @babyrdie and @greekmythologylover234 .

been a lot of tag games recently huh! thanks for remembering me 🤣

9 people you want to know better

i don't know enough people on here, but i'll be tagging @amnesiaa-on-ice @akhillaous @whorewhouse @naurumii @elnbnt @peggy-sue-reads-a-book

here are the questions to copy-paste:

three ships

first ship

last song

last tv show

currently reading

currently watching

currently eating

currently craving

my answers to them are under the cut so only those who are interested will be reading it (because i'll be yapping) lol

three ships

- patrochilles (duh; probably going to be my favorite, if i'm honest)

- kavetham (admits this semi-shamefully because the rest of the fandom is ass-- but i've left it. glad i did because the recent toxic community will never do me any good. i stressed, i die. simple. was a huge hyperfixation for a year or so though.)

- vashwood (it's been a while, but i really got obsessed with them and the show. watched 1997 once, stampede 3 times, not inclusive of the scattered episodes)

first ship

tbh no idea. it may or may not be solomon and saya from blood+ (great show great show) but i was around 7 when this happened and was just tagging along with whatever my sister had to say about things like these? i'm not a super shippy person either-- i'm not big on these things and certainly a lot less when i was younger. didn't have a lot of interest in couples prolly bc i had no idea what difference it had with friendship. just that you kiss and fuck or something. and i thought that was weird, or well, nothing much to it.

i guess you could say that the first pairing i've ever wanted to defend was zuko and katara from ATLA 🤣 nowadays i understand mai and zuko's relationship and i think it's pretty sweet, but back then i was fixated on zutara chemistry so whee🕺

last song

i haven't been playing music recently since i've been over at my partner's, but "done for" from epic the musical has been playing in my head since i woke up so there's that lol

last tv show

we were looking through netflix for an "easy" show to watch for dinner and got through 2 episodes of the exploding kittens show 🤣 played the game a lot when we got it, plus fond memories of things that happened whilst prompted us to check it out. it's an american tv show i guess, and i've never really vibed with those so it was alright, i guess. the kitties were cute.

currently reading

nothing. finished madeline miller's circe 3 days ago or so, though. my odyssey reading has been suspended for 2 weeks now but i guess it's because i'm pretty much kept up on the plot from randomly reading shit about it on the internet? i'm generally more of a "how did the story go?" person when i get into a book unless i become super obsessed with it. then, i'll dive into the nuances of text and its analysis. which hasn't been happening recently. i'll probably be balls-deep in academic text soon considering i haven't been a good student (our research adviser told us to start doing our thesis papers over the summer holiday so the process will be smoother... guess i'll be disappointing the prof who actually likes me ✊)

currently watching

nothing. finished castlevania (as well as the released season of nocturne) last month and i think that's my quota for shows for a while lol.

currently eating

fast food because the rain started pouring so hard. in time for lunch or so. it was a sign from the lord to spend and have a good time because the world might end tomorrow or something.

currently craving

the other items on the menu i didn't order- kidding lmao. a calzone for some reason, as well as a fizzy drink i usually get from a local cafe run by a nice old lady and youth on the drinks. ok, now i want her pesto sandwich.

ight i'll just eat now brb

[nickeverdeen]

greetings and salutations, hope I don’t bother you too much by sending in such a random ask. may I please have a romantic matchup for spiderverse? now that Deadpool and Wolverine is out the marvel hyperfixation came back full swing and is quite literally kicking me in the ass rn. 🥲

I use they/them pronouns and I’m pansexual. my myers briggs type is INFJ and my star sign is taurus.

Im about 4’11..not to happy about it. I’m kind of introverted, and can be considered not a people person. I find life a little nihilistic. I’m into dressing in all black (trad, mopey, mall, black-metal, and hippie goth styles mainly, both fem and masc. chill days I settle for dark street wear. ) or and taking a liking to gruesome and morbid things like slashers, analog horror, witchcraft, true crime, ghost hunting, necromancy, anatomy, etc. I typically consider myself a "gorehound" ig. I participate in "Vulture Culture"; and I also like to visit abandoned places just for fun, along with playing quite a few escape rooms. I’ve also been trying to start a knife collection, but can’t ever seem to find the money to. (Butterfly knives and ritual daggers are my favorites.). I just have a genuine comfort in the uncomfortable.

I’ve come to the conclusion I just scare people off. In reality, I’m intimidated by everyone around me and find it hard to start talking, which may or may not come off as rude to people.

when I become comfortable with someone I start to become really sarcastic and joke around with them with witty banter. most of my humor comes off really insulting, and I’m brutally honest, but I’ll apologize and say it’s a joke or I didn’t mean it. though if I’m right a become a petty bitch..and quite honestly I’m vengeful to anyone who’s really wronged me. even though I do have a hard time understanding social cues.

lots of people don’t like me or stay away from me because of my rude behavior. I’m not good with overly sensitive or overly annoying people at all because of that, and I can’t stand kids or conformists. Idiocy can get on my nerves too sometimes. I’m a huge animal person though, and I own a herd of four guinea pigs that I protect with my life. I have my moments where I can get really feisty, or very quiet and closed off. I’ve been told I’m also a laidback person. I’ve also been told I never know when to quit, and I find I hold grudges for certain things. It’s not as common now but I used to get called a vampire by other kids when I was younger since I had oddly pointy canine teeth. I find it funny, seeing how I am today. I also have an inside joke with my family where they call me "Irl Wednesday Addams" which I find funny too (if not a little annoying at the wrong times).

I’m the type of person that has lots of opinions on things but I keep them to myself and bottle them up. If pushed far enough I’ll become unforgiving, and aggressive. especially with the types of people mentioned above.

I find the most comfort in just being in my room drawing, listening to music ( the cure, london after midnight, type o negative, deftones, slipknot, rob zombie,,,, sometimes melanie martinez , insane clown posse, jazmin bean or mother mother, etc. ), or even occasionally playing video games, reading, writing, or talking about a random conspiracy theory or shower thoughts I have. I also like to play D&D with my friends when I can, it’s super fun. I’m an actor and dancer, and I’m learning how to play electric guitar. I mostly work as a scare actor, and in the future I have a dream of being a broadway actor. I also take dance and singing classes for it, though dance isn’t as interesting to me.

I’m a plushie maniac and when I fall asleep you can always see me cuddled up to one of them. I find it because I’m really touch starved. I also have this specific blanket I can literally not sleep without. Im also a caffeine addict (97% of my body is just iced coffee tbh), and I’m guilty of being very submissive and maybe even masochistic- and a bit of a pyromaniac. I dissociate or daydream a lot, so you can often catch me starring.

I suffer from a handful off mental issues like asd, hypersomnia, depression and anxiety; plus chronic conditions like gerd, asthma and hypoglycemia. These have all been diagnosed professionally, and I’m definitely not trying to make myself "quirky". unfortunately health problems run in my family.

I’m very fidgety, and often bite the inside of my cheek or bounce my leg rapidly. you don’t need to rocmantasize this stuff ofc, but I think it’s good to know so the person can tolerate me.

I also have a spider sona! They go by Tarantula. They have normal Spider powers n stuff, but their big knock is their venom. When they experience high emotions (rage, grief, fear, etc) they are unable to control their venom, and end up going into what they call a “rage mode” it’s similar to Miguel’s thing in a way, but far more animalistic, dangerous, and unpredictable. Luckily it shouldn’t happen to often if they keep their emotions in check! (Let’s hope). So- whoever wants to deal with me would have to deal with that too in this universe lol.

If you do get to this, thanks for your time. <3

Your Spider-Man Across The Spiderverse match is…

Jessica Drew

Jessica Drew understands the need for personal space and would never push you out of your comfort zone

She’d give you the time and space you need to warm up to her, respecting your introverted nature

Jess would absolutely love your goth style

She’s no stranger to the darker side of things and would find your fashion choices not only intriguing but attractive

She might even join you in wearing darker colors on certain occasions, just to match your vibe

Jessica is fiercely protective by nature

Your penchant for venturing into creepy places and dabbling in the morbid wouldn’t scare her off; in fact, she’d insist on accompanying you to make sure you stay safe

Jess has a sharp wit and would totally vibe with your sarcastic, brutally honest sense of humor

The two of you would engage in witty banter, with her quick comebacks keeping you on your toes

Jessica isn’t easily intimidated, which makes her a perfect match for your feisty, vengeful side

She’d appreciate your ability to stand up for yourself and others, and she’d never shy away from a fight to protect what’s hers

Being someone who values their own space, Jessica would appreciate that you don’t always need to fill the silence with words

You could both be in the same room, lost in your own thoughts or activities, and it would feel perfectly natural

Jess has seen her share of violence and horror in her line of work, so your interest in the morbid wouldn’t faze her in the slightest

She’d probably find your love for horror movies and true crime fascinating and might even join you for a few late-night sessions

Jessica would be incredibly supportive of your dreams of becoming a Broadway actor

She’d be there for every audition, rehearsal, and performance, cheering you on and helping you through the tough times

Your love for exploring abandoned places and escape rooms would resonate with Jess’s own adventurous spirit

She’d be your partner-in-crime, turning every outing into a thrilling experience

Jessica would adore your herd of guinea pigs, and she’d be more than happy to help take care of them

She’s got a soft spot for animals, and seeing you with your pets would warm her heart

Given her own experiences with her powers and emotions, Jessica would be extremely patient and understanding of your “rage mode.”

She’d help you find ways to control and manage your venom, ensuring that you feel safe and supported

Jessica’s life as Spider-Woman means she’s no stranger to late nights and the need for a caffeine boost

The two of you would bond over your shared love of iced coffee, with her bringing you your favorite drink whenever you seem like you need it

Jessica understands the weight of mental health struggles, and she’d be a steady source of support for you

Whether you’re dealing with anxiety, depression, or just having an off day, she’d be there to listen and offer comfort without judgment

Knowing that you’re touch-starved, Jessica would be incredibly attentive to your need for physical affection

She’d love cuddling with you, making sure you always feel secure and loved in her embrace, especially with your favorite blanket and plushies

Trust is essential in any relationship, but especially with someone like Jessica who values loyalty and honesty above all else

She’d be the kind of partner you can rely on, someone who wouldn’t judge you for your quirks or struggles, but rather admire you for your resilience and strength

[visionkept]

Tackled 10 projects + papers ( the midterms experience ) and all I got in return was a four days weekend and two earthquakes in my city lol. I'll be sort of "free" up to wednesday at least ! So finally, FINALLY, I can try to write in peace. With the new resurgence of g.enshin blogs and come backs, I got the goal to release Tomo's new blog once and for all before it is too late. And with too late, well, I'll release some thoughts under the cut that got a little bit of vent so feel free to escape that part if it's not of your liking.

My hope of Tomo becoming playable are pretty much gone so I'm starting to consider once and for all to make Tomo my oc ( unaffilated to hoyo and g.enshin in general tho still having their verses tho won't be the main one anymore ) and call it a day. Might still give it a go as the "g.enshin character" but the moment I hit my breaking point I'll simply reorganize the new blog and make it just an oc.

And as breaking point I mean my limit with dealing with hoyo in general. Idk why my interest is going up and down lately cause I'm excited with Natlan's story so far besides... the obvious things and certain character designs that piss me off. Perhaps my downs come mostly out of the f.andom side and HOW TIRING IT IS. Like, not even with the p.okemon fandom it was this infuriating ? ? ?

I've personally decided that my "breaking point" might be when k.azuha and s.cara meet, which seem to be soon with the constant teasing tbh. In general it wouldn't be so bad if the fandom side ( especially the shipping side / not talking about the rpc - u guys are doing amazing bbys <3 ) was so awful and almost impossible to deal with or avoid. K.azuha has become my favorite character out of nowhere and it's a bit depressing that I can't browse his tag or content without it being 90% s.cara focused / centered and having him be so mischaracterized for shipping purposes. I know that when that meeting happens, it will be 99% and boy I don't want the headaches plus the constant "Tomo is dead give it up" comments will skyrocket for sure.

So yeah, Tomo as "genshin centered" is a ticking time bomb. I really do hope that when natlan ends my brain decides to hyperfixate on another game / character ( and one alive or with content this time ) cause I sure need a break from getting crumbs to almost NOTHING.

Hoyo is soon giving me Tomo's adoption papers and I'm sure signing them. Freeing that enby one of these days.

[vryivs]

spoilers ahead

wolfie and firefly hanging out theyre BESTIES

i missed silver wolf so bad ALSO SHES SOFT ON FIREFLY

theyre so cute i wanna cry

this is more fuel for my 'fate and destiny are optional' as the theme of the game conspiracy

reminds me of that one doctor who episode that mentions that nothing is set in stone until it happens

man i really do just keep linking this game to dw at every opportunity lately

kafka is such a mum omg

'make sure you bring me a souvenir!' its so cute

kafka and her three grey haired kids

AND BLADE OFFERING HIS ADVICE LIKE THAT (hes worried about her...he cares.....)

not a step dad...the dad that stepped UP

she called kafka jiejie......... thats adorable

stellaron hunters found family is so important to me

milf jade.....

shes so....omg. jade and her pet troublemakers. this dynamic will become integral to my personality i fear

i need playable oti. oh my god

playable siobhan WHEN

shes too beautiful to be an npc

im gonna cry dan heng loves his found family so much

crazy that welt isnt telling us he has a wholeass family back home

also 'for some reason' bestie she was your colleague. in the direct prequel to this game you were coworkers

gallagher isnt confirmed dead which is a point to a character being playable meaning theyre still alive, but misha is like... there is no way

Oh? Oh?????

oh shes mad at him for getting her involved

jade going 'dont be silly, you love him really' is so funny. topaz would kill him as much as she'd kill for him

awww jade cares about him

still cannot get over robin having a pride flag on her cheek. crazy of them to do that so blatantly

jade is the kind of girlboss that would sell nfts i think

all this finance talk is giving me a migraine

ok i was kidding but she really is just talking cryptospeak

i know tb/firefly is a super popular ship but idk..the more i play the more i feel like their platonic relationship is super sweet

the fact she knew us before kafka wiped our memories too....its so bittersweet

she is so transgender. to me

LMAO her tone being like. ah. my idiot

10 stoneheart lore oh i can feel my next hyperfixation coming on

BOOTHILL AND AVENTURINE INTERACTIONS!!!!!

oh yeah 'other things' like the fact that you NEARLY DIED

now im by no means fluent but my chinese hearing is just good enough to understand that boothill called him a pansy

also the fact that aventurine is there as a projection is so... im imagining him all dolled up for his zoom call just to collapse straight into bed the second it ends. remote work legend

girl help i cant stop imagining aventurine gossiping to ratio about us while on bed rest

'this individual is my responsibility' what a funny way of saying youre friends

tbh. my best friend irl talks about hanging out with me in almost the exact same way

eating brb

[the-travelling-witch]

Holly how have u been! And please give us a recap on ur fixations rn

i’ll be real honest and say… not great, to put it lightly, mainly bc my irl life is like 99% stress rn and bc i can’t write and i‘m missing a vital part of balance (validation) /lh

ngl when i first read that you want a recap of my fixations i was like

‘have i liked anything in my life ever’ bc i have the thought and object permanence of a 3 y/o

anyway… as you probably know if you’ve been on my blog in the last few months, you’ll know that i had a huge fixation on twst for a few months but it’s starting to die down atm; carmilla (my twst oc) also took up a lot of brain space along with a few choice characters

haikyuu is a constant fixation at the back of my mind, like it takes one conscious thought about atsumu and i’m logged back in, so when i went to see the haikyuu movie and made a literal presentation to sum up the plot of season 1-4 for my friend, i was definitely hyperfixating

other stuff was probably not as long lasting as those two, and a bit more rapid fire fixations

my twst pokémon au always makes me think a lot about pokémon itself and what team i’d have etc (and the thought of changing my theme has entered more than once); i’ve also really been enjoying hades and its characters; frieren and the apothecary diaries have become some of my favourite pieces of media ever and i don’t want to tire of them

i’m also catching up to kpop atm, much to my dismay, especially skz and especially especially svt (and how is that working out for me); as always i’m also binging video essays and gaming videos for some background noise and have been going back and forth between a few creators

i think that sums it up?? tbh i suck at identifying, remembering and talking about hyperfixations, though if you’re talking to me you can definitely tell when i’m going through one since i will not shut up about it

anyway i really appreciate the ask!! :]

[bumpscosity]

TAG GAME I FORGOT TO DO OOPS ORIGINALLY TAGGED BY @spingebills

last song

better in the dark by tv girl. i go thru phases of needing to be listening to specific tv girl albums/songs or ill die and summers over has become the one since a couple days ago, we'll see how long it lasts this time

favorite color

i like purple and periwinkle :) pastel yellow too

last movie

the secret world of arrietty, i hadn't seen it since it was in theaters and i really liked it! ghibli never misses tbh

sweet/spicy/savory

SWEET FOREVER AND EVER. savory is a close second and my spice tolerance is -500 i can't eat anything even remotely spicy without wanting to explode

current obsession

build-a-bears, disneyland, and i have a feeling the pokemon hyperfixation is gonna come back soon too. that really makes me sound like a 12 year old in 2010 and you know what maybe i am

i'll tag @pigswithwings @penumbralwoods and @isopodhours but if you see this and wanna do it consider yourself tagged!

[mcybree]

🌓 + ❄️ + 🌌

🌓 - opinions on watcher lore?

(warning for any onlookers I am a hater in this one. avert your eyes)

I think it’s fun in passing, like I have fun with it when I make an AU and have to incorporate it in a silly way but I feel as though watcher “KILL EACH OTHER WE MUST FEED” brand of interpretations undermine the entire narrative by tossing aside every character’s own agency and reducing their internal struggles to set-ups by immoral gods. There is only so much “I dont want to do this but I have to :( the watchers told me so” a story can take before it becomes the narrative happening *to* all of the characters, rather than the characters making their own bad decisions which takes away all the fun for me. similarly, watcher grian has always bothered me but I only ever put into words why a few days ago— If I was writing the life series, I would look take one look at Grian’s character and separate grian (watcher lore) and grian (the guy) into two different characters. I’ve never seen watcher grian incorporated in a way that compliments his character or says anything about who he is as a person. The Watchers are a punchline to me <\3

❄️ - be honest, which character do you care about the least?

I have thought extensively about every character at some point in my year long hyperfixation hellscape *except* for Etho and Impulse; through nature of being a scott megabuild mutual I care about Etho now like I get it but Impulse… im sorry man. I have still yet to get it I’ll keep trying though. I cant make myself write something without feeling that I have a grasp on how everyone involved thinks and acts I could not live with myself if I made every impulse fan point at me and go HE WOULD NOT FUCKING SAY THAT!!!! before rightfully banishing me to the beyond

🌌 - what happens when the players die?

Okay so. To me. The games are set in a dubious state of reality, like a simulation but theyre still made of flesh and blood and the trees are still breathing and the dirt is still dirt. I’m going to cite the infinity train car coding for how I sort of imagine this works… where its all living breathing thinking feeling but the organics of it are still attached to adjustable values behind the scenes. This is all to say that none of the players ever really sleep— the games existing in this dubious state of reality allows for adjustments to be made and this was one of them. So when they *die* die, the memories they gathered throughout the game are sort of flipped through and finalized in this window of time before the next game, creating a warped nonsensical dream sequence loosely based on the events of the game that they experience until the next one. I visualize this as a sort of psychedelic drug trip combination of all sorts of familiar places and people merging together but eerie nightmare purgatory dreams like being at an empty convenience store at night while echoes surround you is just as likely tbh.

TLDR what happens when the players die is whatever makes the coolest visuals for an animatic SORRY. Like if I’m being completely honest it’s whatever I need it to be to tell the story I made this up retroactively,

[sktls-ig]

would you like to tell us about your current hyperfixation?

Why yes I would

DO NOT GET ATTACHED TO ANYONE IT WILL HURT

OKay so recently I've been getting into red dead redemption 2, so far I think I"m on chapter 6, maybe five, and boy oh boy this game has me by the balls, I've even taken to playing the online version (where all my horses happen to magically "die at war*")

Basically it's about a gang of outlaws trying to escape the law and (mainly arthur, the character you play) their past, you go around the game making choices to increase or decrease honour and such with side missions and random npcs you find while riding, the main storyline consists of you trying to get away from the pinkertons, who are being paid by a man named leviticus cornwall to find you and kill you, and you have to keep moving camp

Personally my favorite characters are hosea matthews, javier esculla, and charles smith, hosea is (one of) the father figures in the game who kind of keeps dutch sane and all, majourly gay those two, in words of the game 'the curious couple and their unruly son' , then followed by the fact you can find this at seans party

Throughout the story your gangs leader who is (the other one of) your father figures slowly loses his damn mind and now he wants to flee to tahiti and become farmers but not without making some noise, he wants you to have some damn faith because he always has a plan, though for this one you needa rob a bank in saint denis and I won't spoil much but it goes shit and now you're trapped on an island near cuba, which also does not go the greatest, but you get home and then run into eagle flies and rains fall who need help with their troubles with the army, which I think goes better but that's about as far as I am, I also recommend reading arthurs journal when you can because i think that's pretty fuckin neat

I fucking hate micah bell he's such a prick like actually, little racist dill weed, wish he would stay alive when he needed to (like main missions) and die for the rest of it

I love this game so much, it's so much fun to play the storyline is amazing, it's a tad glitchy every now and then but it is fantastic, seriously I do not recommend getting attached to the characters, it will make you cry

Oh also when you buy horses in story mode it lets you name them so now I have two horses named too much mayo and second cumming, overall fantastic game tbh it is very pretty as well, tumblr won't let me post images rn I assume it's the wifi but it is very pretty, can't wait to get the first because that's a sequel to the second

[mumms-the-word]

Writing prompt ask: 23,24,&25 please and thank you!❤️

Hello anon! Thank you for the ask!!

23. pick three keywords that describe your writing

I answered this for another ask, but I'll post it here too, because I still think it's kinda true

easygoing, imaginative, and overlong (lol)

maybe lol I have a hard time defining my creative writing for some reason

24. how do you recharge when you’re not feeling creative?

I take a break from the creative thing I'm not vibing with. Sometimes if you force it, it sounds forced, and I hate that in my writing. Unfortunately this sometimes means indefinite breaks (I abandon a lot of projects), but not always.

When it's something I care about and want to finish, either for my readers or for myself, I'll listen to instrumental music. Movie soundtracks, game soundtracks, soundtracks from shows, etc. I'll use the music to help daydream or visualize the scene, the moods, the emotions, etc, and sometimes doing that will help me land on the right sentence to spark that creativity again.

Other times, I'll read other people's work. You wouldn't believe how inspiring it can be to read someone else's fic and go "oh my gosh, I want to do something like THAT." Except you don't want to outright steal ideas and phrases (unless you ask permission and permission is granted), so sometimes when you're inspired and want to do something like what you read, it helps you come up with unique ideas for yourself.

For example, the Atlantis fic wouldn't have happened if I hadn't read @sorceresssundries's Indiana Gale fic Rite of Resolve and gone "oh my GOD I have to write an Indiana Jones Gale fic, but my friend has already done that and I just can't steal her idea so something else what is something--THE MUMMY. ATLANTIS. A DIFFERENT INDIANA JONES MOVIE IDK"

And, well, here we are.

Likewise, my most popular Gale fic, Choosing to Live wouldn't have happened if I hadn't been inspired by the beautiful artwork @gangstagandalf did that sent my brain into hyperfixation. If you're stuck in a rut, my advice is to go out and look at other fanworks, listen to music that inspires you, and tell yourself it's okay to take a break from it for a little while.

25. besides writing, what are your other hobbies?

singing like...way too many broadway/disney musical songs mostly lmao

I cycle through hobbies tbh? Like...writing is the one CONSTANT hobby in my life, because I've just done it for...forever. If I'm not writing fic, I'm writing original book projects, if I'm not writing that I'm constantly working on academic writing, and if I'm taking a break from academic writing then I'm writing fic scraps or daydreaming fics/book scenes/etc. It's the one thing my brain doesn't shut off.

But other hobbies I periodically introduce are video games (the most frequent, though I tend to replay stuff I've already played), watching history documentaries/true crime/live trials on YouTube, and occasionally doing that ADHD thing where I want to suddenly become a master of a particular craft/art skill, hyperfocus on it for two weeks, and then abandon it (rip to all my craft supplies)

I need to get back into reading for fun....maybe after grad school :')

[elsiebrayisgay]

For the ask game: 3, 16 and 17 😊

um yeah! 3. Describe the creative process of writing a chapter/fic so this has changed a lot since i started writing prose, tbh, but there are some hallmarks of my process that have stayed the same. the absolute first thing that has always remained true whether it's been more academic, poetry (which is what i did for my degree,) TTRPG stuff, or now prose fanfic, is that no matter what no matter where no matter when if i have an idea i do my best to write it down. i have lost too many good ideas to not being sure what i had thought up and being certain i'd remember it. so often when i am laying in bed drifting off to sleep and thinking about my work, i will grumble and sit up and unlock my laptop to type out some notes.

another thing that was true for a while and still holds up somewhat today (with caveats) is that when i get inspired by something, i *write*. the first chapter of sourceless bruises was written in one evening after i got home from being out at dinner. i'd had vague concepts and ideas floating around for months before then but when it finally hit me i just sat down and wrote. this doesn't really happen as much anymore because even though i have the inspiration and the hyperfixation, i just don't have the energy to be up and in such high gear for so long, so i need to break it up more. this was true of my poetry and essays for school as well, though; i would just sit down start turning work out when i wanted or needed to.

16. How many fic ideas are you nurturing right now? Share one of them?

alright so i've been kind of trying to figure out what i want to write after sourceless bruises. i took kind of a long break between my first fic and my second fic (more of these queer feelings... it's probably nothing on ao3) because i was just sort of waiting to have an idea i felt really solid about working on and that's how long it took. partially because sourceless bruises is a bigger project and is taking longer, these days i have a lot more ideas for what to work on next kicking around. none of them are really formed into anything super cogent, because i pretty strictly keep myself to one involved/long-term creative project at a time. however, things i have been interested in developing once i have wrapped up sourceless bruises in no particular order:

i have a draft started for a sequel to more of these queer feelings. it's mostly outlined, but i hadn't really gotten far into the drafting process.

korrasami modern au. this kind of setting adaptation is my bread and butter, if you couldn't tell. i posted a joke about this sort of idea on tumblr a while back but it actually got a lot more traction than i was expecting and so honestly i'm thinking about putting some more work in on it.

cait/vi (vilyn?) has been really interesting to me recently. i dunno, something about those girls. so i've been thinking about early stages of what i might want to do with them, whether to give them my normal au treatment or try something else.

i have also been working a bit on a premise for some original fiction. i will only say at this point that it will be horror/mystery and probably be a fair bit bleaker than what i tend to write for ao3 (though honestly i have no idea how i would go about publishing original fiction.)

17. What do you do when writing becomes difficult? (maybe a lack of inspiration or writers block)

okay so at this point it's time to circle back to the first answer in this post because honestly the truth of how i go about writing chapters these days falls a lot more under this question than that more general one. the first thing i'm going to say is that in my opinion, writing is labor. there's an old interview with john darnielle and john k. samson (among others) where JD talks about how there's no such thing as convenience store clerk block, or coal miner's block, so writers shouldn't get blocked—they should just keep sitting down to write, and to some extent i believe in that idea, but i want to add nuance. i think there probably is such a thing as convenience store clerk block, and coal miner's block, it's just that society doesn't allow or expect them to take breaks, or go on sabbatical or whatever. so they end up working through, and maybe burning out. i think that labor is something that any person, in any field, needs to take at their own personal sustainable pace. it's really easy, as a writer, to compare yourself to others. word counts on ao3, stories published, etc. but i think it's very important to listen to your mind and body about what you need as a creative person and also just as a person. if you've got nothing right now, i think it is important to try allowing your mind to simply lie fallow. there's that post about mental crop rotation, and about letting your mind have time where it isn't expected to turn out anything that needs to get put on a page. i think respecting that need is pretty important. this philosophy is how i've been going about writing since i got out of school.

this ties into the actual difficulty i've mostly been having with sourceless bruises. around late 2022/early 2023 i had some life circumstances cause my chronic illness to get a lot more severe, from which i have never fully recovered. this has meant that my pain is a lot worse, and my energy levels are a lot lower. what i used to be able to do with turning out thousands of words a day when i was really inspired happens only very rarely now, when those moments line up with my good days. there's another post on here (somewhere in my reblogs) talking about what to do as a fic writer when your capabilities change, and a lot of the advice on that post has stuck with me. accepting my limits and working within them has definitely meant that my process is a lot slower, especially during flares (and once the weather warms up in the spring i am mostly stuck in one big flare until fall) but it also means that i get to maintain the quality of what i produce and my own quality of life. in these periods, i mostly just try to carve out a bit of time every day when i am able to sit up, usually only fifteen or twenty minutes or so, to peck away at my draft. i sit down, get a paragraph or two dealt with, maybe look at a bit of research, maybe not, and at the end of it i have maybe two hundred more words than i did before. some days, i don't even feel up to this. sometimes i go a week without doing it. but i try to just carve out some time when i can to peck away and eventually i end up with a finished chapter. that's really what my creative process looks like these days.

[chemdisaster]

fandom asks ✨ 3, 5, 7, 10, 15, 23, 24 (if it's too many, just choose the ones you wanna do!)

hi, thanks for the ask!! and no, it's not too many at all, i love answering questions

3. a character that fandom has helped you appreciate

any woman characters in anything tbh. this is in part due to how underrepresented women are in media, and i will also freely admit to being slightly influenced by the misogyny in our society and in fandom spaces, but i never really paid that much attention to female characters until i started actively participating in fandom. i do hope that i've gotten over that flaw in my perception, and will keep getting over it as my understanding of people and my characterisation in my own writing improves and develops

5. something you see in fics a lot and love

for hamilton - the very popular idea that ham is afraid of storms. i don't care that it's overdone or whatever, i love me some good anxiety and ptsd and i love me some good ham angst. for mcyt - i haven't actually read mcyt fics in a while, but i love the idea that all the life people remember every game across servers. it has soo much potential for angst in my opinion

7. your favourite tropes to read/write/draw

ohh man. hurt/comfort is everything to me, specifically the kind where one character cries in front of the other. hurt no comfort is also great, and there's also a specific one that i'll try to sum up in a concise way - character suffering in silence while everyone around them slowly begins to notice that something's wrong, all eventually culminating in them having some kind of breakdown in front of all these people in which the extent of their misery is revealed. this one's all i need in my life tbh, i wish there were more fics with this scenario

10. a blog (mutual or one you follow) that has made your fandom experience brighter

well. i confess that you came to mind first. like, your fics? i've been afraid to read some of them because i know that i'll get destroyed (/pos). the founding fucks? i have so much fun there. i'll admit that i'm rather lonely and coming off a messy friend-divorce, so having people to talk to and have fun with and be inspired by has been quite great. also you're just so nice? and you introduced me to 1776? and whump: the musical has done wonders for my creativity, i've had so much fun coming up with all the prompts and writing them, and it's kind of made me realise - i can write whatever i want. like, it doesn't have to be a long multiple k words fic, or have a whole story - i can literally write one specific scene. i can write for fun, fully, without worrying about my perfectionism kicking me in the ass. which, my perfectionism does tend to lead to masterpieces, but not everything has to be a masterpiece, and whump: the musical has played a big role in me realising that. so, uh, yeah!! thank you so much for brightening my fandom experience!

15. the character that always makes you smile

well, to be honest, this changes - whoever i'm hyperfixating on at the time makes me smile. but some of my favourite characters are 1776 adams, ham, hewlett in turn, and also watching a mcyt's new video never fails to make me smile

23. the fandom you're curious about because of a mutual

all the musicals in whump: the musical tbh. i've added them to my List™ (that thing is sooo long help /lh)

24. how has fandom positively impacted your life?

it's provided me an outlet for my creativity and a place i can go when real life gets to be too much. additionally, my special interest is humans and their emotions, personalities, particularly their misery - so fandom plays right into that. and also some experiences i've had with certain people while part of fandom have taught me a lot about friendship, people pleasing, trusting people and learning how to interact with people in general. and while those experiences did hurt, i'm ultimately grateful for the stronger and better person i've become as a result

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