#this gal is such a freak /POS ))

[armourhunter]

Welcome! [RP BLOG] I've had a blog before, but never on anything like this. I thought it would be fun! About myself... I'm Gamel, I'm a vampire! I live in the year of 1326, according to friends, or year 32 of Charles the IV. I haven't been a vampire for very long, only about a year if you include the time I was in the ground c:' They/them - I am nonbinary! I like to hunt, cook, and practice archery in my spare time. Very happy to answer questions about myself! I like to help people not be so scared of vampires.

This is a multifandom rp blog from @dimingwins !

[anonymouscheeses]

more obvious shit I wanted to point out but it's more than last time uhhh pt.2 (spoilers for dad beat dad and maybe welcome to heaven. Maybe?)

I love that Charlie just randomly goes into demon form sometimes like here ehhehehe. Also can I just say I love Charlie so much?? She is my favorite and I love her especially in this episode because it feels like the same optimistic Charlie but she was just put in a bad situation. I relate to her a bit TOO much, almost down to every detail like wow. You'll understand later once I get there. But just wow...

LOOK AT THIS FUNNY LITTLE MAN. SPOODER DUST <3 also. Live [image] reaction. Someone make that into a reaction image 🙏🙏

HONEY!!! NEW MEME TEMPLATE JUST DROPPED. (Aka the one guy going crazy trying to explain the stuff on the board iykyk)

OMG... THAT CANT BE CHARLIE... NOT CHARLIE'S EMO PHASE PLEASE BAHAHAHHAHAHA (also love that Lucifer has kept it all these years, if Charlie knew I think she'd be extremely embarrassed. Vaggie would love it probably xd)

HE IS SO GOOFY I CANT- I LOVE HIM SO MUCH ALREADY!!! NEED.

Broskie got character development and is NICE?!? I LOVE THAT SMMM YALL.... LOOK AT HIM!! I am very delusional yes, but I will take this over ass development(cough. Vaggie's "story" in ep 3. Cough).

Imagine this. *holds your hand carefully to help you calm down while talking to your father you haven't really wanted to talk to.* lesbian type stuff ngl 🤯 (relatable)

Angel looking at the gays while being a gay too. HE'S BEING SO KIND TO CHARLIE UGGHH I CANTTT!!(POS) NODDING HIS HEAD, SMILING TO HER, ALSO TRYING TO HELP CALM HER DOWN. I MAY BE ASS AT SOCIAL CUES BUT I NOTICED THIS ONE!! YAA

*SHE IS STILL HOLDING HER HAND. CHARLIE'S ALSO SWINGING IT AROUND NERVOUSLY. I can never get tired of them and will make art soon just you wait.*

COMMANDER VAGGIE! I love that she acts like this is a camp full of tiny kids and honestly? That's not too far off. Sir pentious is at the ready! (glad he's here more often in the episode, thought he would just get sidelined after his first episode but gladly no!) Angel is just surprised. Husk spilled his drink, ON WHITE FUR NO LESS! Niffty of course is on the floor face first. Charlie is just happy to be there yippee!

What is this?? I have no idea what the hell it is at all. Bro is just peepin- it doesn't look like Alastor, even in demon form. And... I can't think of anyone else who could be this. Anyone have ideas or maybe it's foreshadowing? Maybe it was revealed in the 6th episode I don't know I haven't watched it yet. (I am a freak. I don't binge I give myself a day to watch a single episode. Most of the time uhhh.)

WE LOVE A SHORT KING. I LOVE THAT. I LOVE HIM. THE EVERYTHING. HE IS EVERYTHING. LET ME STRANGLE HIM PLEASE. (Lillith and Lucifer's dynamic is 100% Gomez and Morticia but a little more silly short man)

"OH WOW! AN OLDER MAN WHO GIVES ME FATHERLY CARE!" *STARTS TO FUCKING CRY*

I FEEL YOU CHARLIE WAAAGHHH

Oh and there goes the silly guy again! Atp I'm thinking it may be the gal some people been talking about that they've been hinting since the pilot. I forgot her name but she's said to be the big bad of season 1 or probably 2. Not sure if that's what it's trying to imply but here's my little no-thought idea

Lucifer, no...

LUCIFER NO!! THIS IS SUCH AN ADORABLE RESPONSE TO CHARLIE DATING A WOMAN. (ADOPT ME)

AND THEN THE HUG! I GET IM LOOKING TOO MUCH INTO THIS ONE SILLY SCENE BUT I JUST LOVE IT SO MUCH AND WANT THIS SO BAD IN MY LIFE.

Niffty really said, "Yes, I do the cleaning."

Get yourself a taller king who is a short king but compared to you is a tall king

Say what you will, but I genuinely want more dad Alastor, someone make an au before I do plsss and @ me 🙏🙏

alright.. now this is where it starts to be relatable and hurt my heart... yayy.... needing any sort of parent figure that actually cares about you than the actual parent who is rarely there? WOWZA! SAME CHARLIE <3 <3 (SO FAR VERY ACCURATE FROM SOMEONE THAT IS IN THE SAME SITUATION)

Alastor is letting her off kindly, atleast in his way. He may be pissed off she brought a shark gang to the hotel and put it on fire, but they were still close friends. With anyone else he would absolutely either murder them or have severely traumatized the person. She's the exception, although I don't think he'd let it off the hook so easily if there were a next time.

A father-daughter embrace! :,)

(This is gonna be messy asf) He wants to know who she is as a person. He always has, and that's definitely obvious, but from a person inside this, they may not know themselves what the other is thinking. To Charlie it was like he never cared and just wanted an excuse to not see her again, acting like he was truly busy as in the start where he made the rubber duck that breathed fire. Sure. But Charlie saw it as him finding ways to not interact with her again. The only times they talk was when it was related to business stuff or other things of the sort. Let me just say this song... is by far my favorite, including the episode. Sure, it's got problems it's own, but this extremely accurate portrayal of what my own situation with one of my parents just stole my entire soul. Yeah I got a bit of tears about to come out, BUT NOPE! NOT TODAY! I don't ever cry during shows or movies so if I ever get teary-eyed, YOU DID SOMETHING. THAT SOMETHING BEING GOOD. This episode was emotional and connected with me on a deep level that I dont think any film has ever done to me, which is weird because I've been actively trying to find one, any one that does. Then to find it in an indie company from a creator who has achieved the dreams that I myself want to one day? That's fucking amazing.

FORESHADOWING! FROESHADOWING! FORESHADOWING! VAGGIE EX-ANGEL THEORY MUST BE CANON AND IF ITS NOT I WILL TEAR MYSELF LIMB FROM LIMB WITH A CROWBAR. LETS GO TO HEAVENNN!!! TOMORROW! BECAUSE THE DAY I PUBLISH THIS WILL BE TOMORROW(FOR YOU TODAY) BUT TOMORROW FOR YOU ILL POST THE NEXT WHAT I CAUGHT SHENANIGANS AGAIN! SEE YA!

[howlonomy]

NOELLE YOU CRAZY GAL! “ME FIRST” IM DYINGGGG

i will never forget how much of a freak noelle is for suzie /pos

[bulldog-geckorahhhhh]

Behold my pretty but terrible guy (not very well shaded pls ignore lol)

her name is Luna and she is a menace to society! She has a little cult of her own with this cursed doll that has the ability to spy on anyone as long as there are some form of eyes around (drawings of eyes work too)

she basically runs the cult of blackmail and if you join it’s basically because you want to ruin the life of someone else very fun (and if you leave they’ll ruin your life yay!!)

she’s very happy to have a position of power and likes watching people suffer and never know it’s her so she proxy wars people into being hated and losing whatever job and respect they have

she is also dating my oc Paperbag girl and since she’s a doormat she really likes seeing what she can get away with before she dies or leaves her

she’s the type of gal to see her girlfriend hurting herself and telling her to let her do it because she’s not doing it right or ask to put a cigarette out on her skin and if she ever says no she says that it’s because Paperbag girl doesn’t loves her and wants her to die so any sort of boundaries are usually taken back

she’s gonna live a long happy life and will never face consequences for any of her actions yay :3

OH SHES A BASTARD I LOVE HER I HOPE SHE GETS STEPPED ON LIKE S BUG /pos

The thought and character building you put into your ocs, man…so freaking awesome /gen /pos

[ziipzeepzop-eez]

If/when your cat comes back, please keep her an inside cat.

Ahaaa, y'know I would!! But she's a wild girl. At this point, it'd be cruel to keep her solely inside. ^^ I fear she won't get all the stimulation she'd be good off with if I kept her strictly inside, y'know?? I get the concerns tho! But she's a tough little gal, my little spitfire. She can handle herself. She literally squared off with a possum two days ago. She's freaking NUTS. /pos

Plus she's back now! So, thank you for your concern nonny, but I think we'll be okiedokie. 🥹😌

[pastelprince18]

Okay so !! First I will say short things about the upcoming dlc for this summer!

So it does seems we are going to get new sparks! Here’s two of them from what we saw, one wear silly funky glasses while the other looks like a quake version of electric? Hope to see more of them and what other sparks we will meet while being in this new world

Second is, I do believe we will be a jungle like theme planet

From the looks it shows a lot of rocks, grass and trees…so maybe this is where the last spark hunter lives and nobody knows about it

Bonus: look at these two…idk who they are but I love them oh so much…🥺🥺

And finally

THE FREAK WE. LOVE TO SEE AND I THINK I LOVE HER SO MUCH ALREADY!!!!!! YOU ONE EVIL FUCKED UP GAL PLEASE… /pos

[one0p1nk]

List your friends muses out of context!

// mmm... It's time for Pins' "Riddle me this" descriptions ig/ih

It's literally almost like Simon Petrikov but buffed/ih

Pink lemon stabbed by a sewing needle.

Will the boy throw tea out of the boat???

Freak you, why do you have to kin Lyney out of other magica peep??? 😭/j/ih

Is he a face, or some encyclopedia Britannica but more... diva???/ih

Silly stoic gal with a voice that keeps molesting her for possibly unlogical reasons;;;

Beloved fluttershy kinnie who can't read red flags of a Gothic boi omg almost sounds like a good love anime/pos/ih

Rosalyn's officer bf.

Kid who would pay raccoons to stare at you in /pos way but it can even be the contrary/ih

Fox bf at a c*lt smh-

Is this uno, poker, or go fi-

[warmbeebosoftbeebo]

I've listened to everything! (Panic has been my top artist on Spotify since 2020)

I joined the fandom in 2019, because of ME! and Into The Unknown, and it was instant love. I'd probably rank the albums like:

Too Weird To Live Too Rare To Die

Vices & Virtues

Viva Las Vengeance

Death Of A Bachelor

Pray For The Wicked

Pretty Odd

A Fever You Can't Sweat Out

I'm the one fan who hopes that the Nearly Witches demo will be released someday!

And not to break hearts, but on January 23rd I randomly decided to watch The Overture on YouTube for no good reason at all....

But on a happy note, August 19th is a holiday to me! (Which is funny, because I've claimed 19 as a "lucky number". Discovered them in 2019, Viva released on the 19th...)

Thanks! I love talking lol.

Into the Unknown is freaking akfkhlsnflg his voice goddamn. The song me! is mid but I love the music vid and their silly goose campy dynamics (I actually think he's a lot like that with gals/sex irl and that that's the closest we've gotten to him irl in a music vid character. Plus we know he has a crush on her). That'd be a fave music vid too if it counts as a panic vid.

Unusual to see fever last! I put it third, but I also judge it as a first album by people in their late teens (would be forth otherwise). My faves are Vices and Bachelor: both beyond perfect. Twtl is 4th (instrumentals of it would put it 3rd tho bc the vocoder usually does not work for me, other than Casual Affair and Vegas Lights). Viva and PFTW go back n forth depending on which kind of music Id rather listen to/what I focus on. PO last.

What they actually got done of the Nearly Witches demo was released on that Fueled by Ramen mix tape https://www.tumblr.com/lilbdenclips/700292696157421569/the-paul-revere-jumpsuit-apparatus-nearly?source=share

Overture would prob be my fifth fave panic music video, after (not sure of the ranking but these are the top 4) gospel, enc, ready to go, sad Clown. "it's just us" "it always has been" 😢

I remember 13 and 19 being my fave numbers.

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the gimmick blogs are like tumblr’s rogue gallery. yes we’ve got some heroes, yes we’ve got some villains, but more importantly if you look over here you will see some freak who devotes all their time to counting the number of “t’s” in a post

[sunlitmcgee]

I’m still so proud of the fact that I took this fandom’s whole “it’s okay for my blorbo to be hella abusive/evil if they look hot and if it’s morally gray” and applied it to HWHBH!XD in the funniest way possible

Oh they tortured a guy? Well, maybe he shouldn’t have abused their little one. Maybe they looked very fetch when banging his head against the cell walls. Maybe you just haven’t seen things from their point of view.

They left an elderly man to rot in the depths of his guilt? Well, they were very funky while doing it. A bit of A Freak(pos). He should’ve understood that ancient deities don’t place dumb games and that trying to do so with them will only earn you dumb prizes.

Technofuck? FUCK technofuck. Who gives a single flipping DAMN about technofuck, anyway?!

They’re such a creature. Just a straight up immoral entity. They threw two men’s souls into their fucked up pocket dimension stomach to be tortured for eternity in the form of some methaphysical digestive process. They just don’t care. They have no reason to care. They can do anything to anyone for whatever reason they feel like, the only limit being their personal inhabitions and thinking “would this upset my kids?”

they trauma dump on people who cat call them. what a guy. or gal. or whatever the fuck you’d refer to them as

(/s for all of that. this is a shitpost about how HWHBH!XD’s violent behaviors have very shaky and oftentimes wholly selfish justifications. I acknowledge their behavior in these cases as wrong and want to expand on it sometime soonish, but they at least have more reasons to be this way than most canon DSMP characters, so I’m sure you get where I’m going with this.)

[electronegasteve]

MUTUALLY DUMB QUESTIONS

Tagged by ya gal @bunny-boyler

If you’re tagged:

a) skip questions you don’t have an answer to and

b) add a question of your own before tagging other people to do it.

QUESTIONS SO FAR

- What was the last movie you watched and would you recommend it?

Shrek 2. Highly recommend. If you hate it get oot my swamp cause I hate you.

- if Lemony Snicket wrote a book about you what would the alliterative title be?

A series of tragic misconceptions

- What's a song lyric that hits hard?

"Don't try to fix me I'm not broken"

- What is a word you can never spell right no matter how many times you try?

Liqueur

- What was the last thing you baked?

Um probably the carrot cake I made about a couple months ago

- Which Studio Ghibli film would you most like to live in?

Spirited away probably

- What will always be a Hard No for you?

Ketchup on macaroni like are u okay?

- What's a reason you should be Canceled?

I cant cook unless its basic shit you can bang into the microwave.

- What is the most aggressively ugly piece of clothing you own?

I have no fashion sense so probably all my clothes 😂

- When was the last time you screamed aloud and why?

Tonight cause I was called lazy for not gettinga customer drinks. On my break. Girl.

- What's a basic life skill that you either don't know how to do or just plain suck at?

I don't know when to keep my mouth shut if that's an acceptable answer

- What's something that's Not Scary that terrified you as a kid?

Ladders. instability freaks me out.

- What was the last expensive thing you purchased?

I bought a hot chocolate maker machine and I dont regret it one bit.

- What is something that bugs you that probably shouldn't?

When people dont get to the point and tell a 3 hour long story over something that should be 2 minutes

- Pick a team of Pokemon to have in real life.

Gengar, mismagius, dusclops, chandelure, Rotom and Drifblim

- If you were an RPG character what weird non-combat item would you wield as a weapon?

A goblet

- What's a conspiracy theory that you actually believe?

Surely there is intelligence of other worldly life we ain't being told

- What’s your number 1 nostalgic childhood tv show?

Black hole high!!!!

My question: do you believe in reincarnation?

I'll tag @ass-master-2000 @boredtojeff @circumcising @crushchris @nic-tu-po-mnie

[shadowtheblackbunny]

Everyone Calls Me Shadow

I got bored, enjoy, I guess 

Howdy doo 

 My name is Nat

I am a neek 

 and the queen of freaks

 I'm 15 years old

 And I write like Edgar Allen Poe

I have self esteem issues 

 I often require a tissue 

 I'm a gal

Got a lot of guy pals 

Don't care for the gals. 

I got a big brain 

Filled with lots of main shit 

 They call me an ace 

 In what I do 

 and in Pride. 

 I don't mind 

 My art is my mind 

 Often lost in time 

 I'm not the average chick 

 Not interested in flicks 

 My ocs are my shadows 

 Each a different part of me 

 Not everybody knows 

 The past of my oc Shadow 

 I can be the bad guy 

 Although I hardly tell a lie 

 I have a game I like to play 

 Everybody seems to be the same. 

 I hate the normals 

 Too boring and formal 

 The crazies are my friends 

 I wanna be with em, until my end. 

 I'm not always known 

 Don't try to make myself noticed 

 But when I'm in the spotlight 

 It always shines bright. I

t doesn't happen much 

 But when it does 

 The darkness fades 

 Makes me feel like a lovely maid 

 I get chilled to the bone 

 From my spot on the throne 

 I'm Mafia queen 

 Now bow at the knee 

 For reasons I don't always know 

 Everyone calls me Shadow... 

[solaadisa]

Sola's eyes squinted critically as she took in the selection before them, even moving her heart-shaped sunglasses to her forehead so that she could get a better read on some of the menus from their vantage point. Jolyani's application to the festival had gotten denied (again), so she was sending out a silent challenge to the trucks that were there to justify Jolyani's exclusion.

Bring it on, motherfuckers.

She took the phone from Cricket blindly and thought about consulting a guide to all of the available options before Cricket was was proposing options, because of course she'd done her homework. That competitive edge had kept Sola from doing too much of her own, though she had to admit that those assholes at Mano Po really knew what they were doing.

Lips pursed, Sola nodded and started forward, eyeing the already-growing line. "The tacos, for sure. God, Roy Choi, you son of a bitch. I wish I'd actually, like, listened when he came and talked to us at school — do you remember that? I fully napped through that entire thing, oops."

They reached the back of the line — Sola just about shoved someone who was getting too close but clearly couldn't decide if they actually wanted to be in it. "This freaky short rib taco gal from your dreams, though. Tell me more, paint me a word picture. What kinda freak are we talkin' about here? She kinky?"

@cricketcampbell

Holding hands in a crowded space so nobody got lost or left behind?

This was girlhood.

Aside from only having a few extra inches on Cricket, Sola was clearly the better choice as leader of this expedition through the crowd, unwavering and ruthless in her determination to march them towards the promise land: the food stalls. The swiftness in which she parted an obstructing couple like she was Moses and they were the Red Sea? A true religious experience. Cricket might have to start attending church.

"Okay, that was hot." As was the temperature in the valley, but she settles into the arm around her shoulder comfortably, wrapping her own around Sola's waist. "It is--" Sola's phone is the more reachable, sliding the device out of her back pocket and nudging her side with it until she got the hint to take it from her. "Oh, only three! We've so got time."

Which was good, because they'd need it. Cricket had been doing her research even before her and Sola had bit the bullet and shelled out for their tickets.

"Am I crazy for thinking a poke bowl would hit right now?" Fish in the middle of the desert seemed both too good to be true and a recipe for disaster, but now that it'd been spoken out loud, Cricket only wanted it more. "Or, ugh, the Kogi truck? I've had literal wet dreams about that short rib taco. She's, like, kind of a freak, too."

@solaadisa

[mrs-yamada]

Coping Mechanisms

I realized I’ve posted a lot of stories about abuse, but none of the things I’ve learned over my 40+ years to cope with or lessen the everyday pain one goes through. It’s so hard to struggle through each day all by yourself by sheer will - as it certainly feels like, somedays.

You need to find some ways to deal with your pain! No matter how silly something may sound, if it works it’s not silly at all.

Obviously these won’t all work on everyone and some might irritate the heck out of you, because we’re all different. But if you put your own spin on them and think of what you enjoy to do, they could be helpful. 

I’ll add to these if I remember more, since I’m in sort of a downward spiral (parents visiting soon) myself...

Onward, under the break...

Sleep when you need it

If you can, that is. I have too many issues to work and luckily we’ve managed so far with one income, although it sucks. This does mean that I can cater to my individual sleep schedule, however, and I use that to my advantage. 

Don’t listen to neural typicals when they say “go to bed at the same time every night”. They’re normies! We’re not! Our bodies differ. You may actually benefit from doing as everyone will tell you, but a lot of us with mental differences benefit much greater from setting our own, very different (and rapid cycling) sleep cycles. I am currently sleeping from 6 am until 1 or 2 in the afternoon. I simply cannot sleep until then no matter what I do - and in a few weeks, I know this will change and I’ll be back to 10 pm or maybe 12. The difference is I get the sleep my body so desperately needs, and it helps greatly. I know not all of us can do this, but if you can - go for it. Try it out. You’d be amazed how good you feel after actually sleeping.

On the flip side, though:

Don’t oversleep

No, seriously. We all have the urge to “never get out of bed”, but you’re just gonna feel like crap and get a headache. Sometimes it’s cool to do this but, you know. Don’t abuse the treat.

Clean up (yourself & the home)!

Yeah. This is another one of those “you see it everywhere” tips, but that’s because it does work. Even if you can only manage to brush your teeth, change your undies, whatever, you’ll feel a bit better. Same goes for your house/apartment/room. Clean a tiny space if it’s all you can do - you’ll feel like you’ve got more breathing room.

Don’t EVER want to shower/bathe?

We’ve been there. It stinks, no pun intended. Personally, I had to think of a great way to encourage myself to get the heck out of bed and bathe - bath bombs.

And not just the regular kind! Glitter, rainbows, especially the ones with little toys inside, those are the best for days I don’t want to wake up and shower. You can even use them (as I just said) in the shower. They act like shower steamers and smell the rooms up nice, too.

Make a “Power Outfit”

It could be a comfy sweatshirt, or animal pajamas (kigurumi). Maybe it’s a really wacky pair of socks or a shirt that features your favorite TV star or character from a series. This could include accessories, like a fun hat, headband, furry tail, superhero cape - whatever will make you feel great. Don’t overthink it. It’s not “weird” to wear what makes you feel better, no matter what.

Hide/buy surprises for yourself!

Again, this is one I absolutely love to do. I scroll around through etsy and eBay a lot as another numbing yet engaging brain exercise, and I look for the cheapest “blind boxes” and/or “surprises”. Blind boxes are packages where you don’t know what’s inside until you open it, just like the name suggests. If this doesn’t bother you, it’s great for buying yourself a surprise. I use this as stocking stuffers for myself, too. Ha.

Of course this works for things like a book you want to read or a puzzle you’d like to do. Maybe even wrap it and leave it in the “gift pile”. Gift yourself when you need a pick me up!

Another of my favorite things are called “surprise balls”. They’re balls of crepe paper strips you unravel, and each layer has a surprise in it. You unroll the rainbow-colored strips, dropping toys, novelty items, etc, as you go. You can unroll one layer at a time or all of them! Find them at etsy, you can even get them customised. 

Eat better. Exercise.

Trust me, I used to hate exercising (and when I say “hate”, I mean it). But it makes such a complete difference that I actually miss it when I skip on the weekends! Eating right (whatever is right for you, allergy-wise, dietary preferences, etc) also makes a huge difference. My mood lifted so high without the use of mind-altering drugs at all (societal approved medicine or otherwise).

Aromatherapy 

I’ve seen so many people FREAK OUT about this.

Relax. It’s not meant as a “cure-all” no matter what the MLM pushers say, it simply helps a little. And for those of us with a lot of problems, “a little off the top” is really a big help. There are different types of scents for different mood enhancers, but my favorites (bubblegum, lemon, orange) are citrus based because that lifts depression. (Google this if you’re want - there have been tests done researching depression & aromatherapy).

Use wax melts, incense, whatever - and remember that candles can be bought on etsy & elsewhere that have surprises in them, too! You take out the charms and gems and such as the candle burns. Win-win for a little pick me up!

Rainbows

Yeah, I know. I have little crystal rainbow catchers in my windows so that my rooms fill with rainbows throughout the day. You’d be amazed at how many times a surprise rainbow from one of them lifted my heart and made me smile. 

They’re not expensive, either. You can pop down to your local craft store and buy them in the beading section. Thread the bead with string or fishing line and hang it up on a suction cup or - really, wherever you can where light will catch!

Wait, did I mention craft stores..?

Arts & Crafts

I may be biased here, but there have been a lot of people that benefit from coloring books and crafts. They’re soothing, but be warned - they’re sometimes not good for mind-wanderers. If you’re “dump-trucking” bad thoughts, a mindless task will NOT be a good thing to do. I sometimes pair crafts and such with watching TV so that my mind and hands are busy at the same time.

Distractions!

Writing

*looks at self in reflection of monitor*

...yep.

This can help not only you, but others. It’s a relief to feel that you’re not alone, and when you come across something that helps you in a moment of need it’s awesome. It feels just as good to let it all out.

Write about your day, your past experiences, your hopes - anything. Heck, write fanfiction where the guys or gals or beings of your dreams help you get through things. Work it out. You don’t have to publish them. It will still feel good. And if you want to record your own in one area, or read specific fics, especially fanfics, I recommend the Archive (and not simply because I write there, ha)! 

Television/Movies/Games

Same thing for movies, games & TV. They may distract you, but that means you may get the odd, sneaky thought that creeps in. We all hate those. Oh, and watch out for triggers! Good flipping butt, so many triggers!

There’s a site that helps for tons of triggers (including books, games, etc) called “Does the Dog Die”. I use it constantly when watching new programs or movies. 

I personally do toon-fests where I watch so many cartoons, especially kiddie ones like “Molang” (so cute)! And I love using Minecraft for chilling out, game wise. Just, again... watch out for games. Man, they can be a pain sometimes if you’re getting frustrated. Stick with ones that you know are relaxing or you can play on “safe mode”. Don’t try to do a complicated campaign or grab that rare trophy/achievement when you’re stressed.

Music!

Yep. Music lifts spirits. And did you know if you search Google Play they’ve got free stuff? Like, a lot of it you might not want and there are a ton of religious readings, etc (if that’s your thing, then hooray)! But often I’ve found some really nice relaxing music with wave sounds, thunderstorms, etc. Of course you can buy albums too.

Voices

The same goes for voices. They can be very soothing and help you relax. There’s a whole bunch of Play apps where anime dudes and/or chicks talk you to sleep, or say comforting things. Well, technically, they’re real people speaking but there’s images of anime guys and gals. There are all types, so look around.

You could even ask your loved one to make a recording of them speaking to you or reading poetry, etc. It’s very helpful to hear a beloved voice - no matter who it is for you -- in times of need. 

Cuddles

Pets, stuffed animals, blankets, fellow humans... hugs help sometimes. Sometimes you really don’t want to be touched, but that stuffed animal or pillow can give you just the right snuggle to lift your mood.

Free stuff!

Every once in awhile I use a throwaway email and go freebie hunting on the internet. A lot of places will give you stickers, samples, and all sorts of stuff for free. If you have a PO Box or don’t mind giving out your address, this works so well. Mail surprises are the awesomest.

[teenagetragedymentality]

Friends and Being a female

I have been wanting to vent for a while now about the lack of connection between females. Either to become friends and stay life long friends or the simple compliment from a female to another female, trying to bring each other up! It just seems to not exist any more!!!!! Here is my story!!! 

This blog is about my childhood friend who I come to learn wasn’t the “friend” I thought she was. In my younger years i thought we would always have each other until we grew old and one of us croaked.

I had a very traumatizing experience/loss happen to me and my family in 2018    ( that’s another blog for another day). Felecia was always there for me through the little kiddie stage, teenage stage, and some of my young adult stage. We went to school together. Her Grandma introduced my mom to my bio dad (another blog for another day. My bio dad is a real piece of work) At almost 29 I don’t have any “friends” anymore (and I am not one ounce mad about it) because for whatever reason people don’t know how to have compassion and empathy, at least that’s what I am thinking, I don't know. 

Up to the point in 2018 I never had one issue with my gal pal. She would come to birthday’s for my son, and I would go to her son’s birthday’s. I have pictures with her family and she is in pictures of mine. I remember a time where her and her man would come over after a dinner outing and stay for hours until both boys were exhausted. Felecia would even come over for no reason just to get out of her house and come to bug me at mine. I helped them move into their home. I was there for her and her family 100 percent. 

Our friendship started going down hill when I filled for divorce in late 2017, yes you read that right when I filled for divorce, why things started changing up is beyond me. Why MY divorce had anything to do with her and our friendship was mind blowing.

 I was younger then (lol) so I started up a plentyoffish.com page. I was also doing it for a get back at (at the time my soon to be ex husband) since he was out cheating, doing whatever he wanted and thinking I was going to be a nurse and take care of everything by myself, so I figured I would do it by myself and divorce him and move on with my life. I have flashbacks of those days and I am so happy and thankful of where I am today!

On this dating site I see the soon to be ex had a page on plentyoffish. I also noticed that Felecia’s husband (her and her man where on and off for years. I believe he is a P.O.S) had a plentyoffish account. I screenshotted that shit and sent it right to her in a text. I freaked out I said “what in the hell is going on?” She asked me to come over and of course I jumped and ran to her like we both normally would.

I sat in her living room talking about old times, old crushes, old men’s we use to want to sleep with or people that she had throughout their on again off again relationship. I never slept around while married even through the divorce I didn’t start sleeping with anyone until I felt like it was a right time. I am a female who needs and craves love and attention not sex. Sex is sex how you treat a female means more to me than sex so I didn’t have many crazy sex stories like her. Sex and her was way different than me and sex lets say that.

She was mad, hurt, shocked, all the things that she was entitled to feel. She still to this day loves Mike. She loves him very much. I don’t know about him because he just doesn’t seem happy and when your man goes out on you it just doesn’t seem very loving. I know I been there. Now they have two children together and I am not sure if they got a divorce but they live not too far from me, really right around the corner. 

We stayed friends even though Mike (now of course) hated me. I called him out and screenshotted his dating profile to his wife I get it but then don’t do hurtful stupid shit to a girl who I would have considered a sister. I would have protected her against anything and if I couldn’t of I would have died trying.

After laughing and reminiscing, she asked me why I had one anyway? She asked me a bunch of questions (I cant remember all but she asked a good 12-15 questions) I answered all of them up until she told me that I shouldn’t have a dating profile and I should be waiting until the divorce is signed and dried and I am no better than Mike. 

This plentyoffsh account never got me any in person meetings. Really, it just got my Facebook to get all kinds of friends requests and then (the normal from where I come from) stalking follows shortly after a month of having one of those guys on Facebook. I had to learn the hard way.

I was taken back by it. I couldn’t believe what she was saying to me about my life, my home life, my sex life or the lack of it. I wasn’t attracted to my husband anymore. I didn’t like the idea of the person who I was married and fully dedicated to would steal money from me just to give it to all his girl friends. Physically caught him 3 times with other females. While I was at work he cleaned the house out and gave everything away to his girls, mind you I bought a good portion but when married it don’t matter its equally the both of yours.

To Felecia all that bad stuff he did to me needed to be forgiven and let go and move on with love for him. My son didn’t need to be shuffled and of course she really didn’t think that was a good mom move to file for divorce and have a dating page even though I never met up with anyone from POF and no one met my child. My child even would tell her about the women he would be around. I remember my son telling her a story about an Amy and he helped her make the bed after his dad and her where done in there. I was flamed.

I couldn’t forgive, I couldn’t forget, and I most certainly couldn’t love someone I couldn’t trust. There was a lot that went on between me and the ex so I drifted away from her in person but would still talk through social media or text even though that went down to about once a month or so. I got into drugs really bad because I couldn’t find a release or relief. Life was bearing down on me and the load was getting to heavy so I started doing really dumb shit. 

The dumb shit I was doing with the drugs and who I was hanging around at the time gave me a bad name. I take full responsibility for my actions and became one hell of a sober writer through it all. It was a name that pretty much said beat me, tear me down, and make sure when I am down to kick me a few extra times. I was going through the roughest time. I lost my Grandma who was my life in 2016 now this with someone I promised to be with forever.

I was younger at this time, I did let the world get to me. Everyone got into my head and made me feel like I was the problem. After all the questions and the distance me and Felecia had, started making me think what if I can make this work? What if I can forgive? What if I have to forgive? It was a very hard situation. 

When I was mad after being hurt by the ex whether it be verbal, physical, sexual, or mental abuse I would say I wish he would go find another family or just go die in a ditch somewhere. I didn’t mean it, I was mad, hurt, hell even thrown threw a window and needed some one to talk to. I was mad and hurt and who do you think I would vent to? or at least try Felecia. 

Most of the time she was that always there for you person, always two sided, always was fair and listened to both sides. She usually was a good impartial party to talk to now changed up on me. 

At first the ex would talk to her husband so really it worked out since they both were POS. They got along great! But why did Felecia and my ex need to talk? Oh I was pissed! (and I believe I am putting that lightly) She was texting and messaging my ex to find out what drugs I was on, what I was doing, why was he doing this to me, she even flirted on the messenger from Facebook. I was so angry.

Up to this point she was my go to when the world was crashing. Until the day she started talking to the Ex! Her and Mike believed everything that he was telling people and people where telling people, my creditability went down the drain. Shoot even the police told me that. My life was getting darker and darker. Felecia at this point was not talking to me.

Felecia changed completely. I backed way off. We went from super tight. Example, she would see my mom in the store when my mom was going through a divorce from my bio day in late 2016 early- 2017. My mothers divorce was finalized June 8th 2017. It was ugly and my bio dad wanted to kill my mother and me his own flesh and blood because I sided with my mom. Felecia would call me or text me if she saw James (bio dad) stalking my mom. She was that girl. She was a ride or die type of friendship until that crazy hundred and 1 questions.

In April of 2018, a crazy and traumatic event caused by my ex and his jealousy of other people in the world being able to be with me when I wanted nothing more to do with my old life drove him to murder a good friend of mine and hold me hostage and pulled the trigger on me the police shot him. I lived he didn’t and neither did the innocent life he took for no reason to me. At this point I have come to the conclusion I know the answers but I don’t like them and really wonder what in the hell was going on in that brain to snap the way he did.

After being treated badly by a large number of people I decided I was going to go forward not backwards no matter how hard it was or who I lost in the process, not only for myself but for a better life with my son. 

After that day in April and I was done being questioned and drilled by the police I went to Felecia’s to tell her what happened for comfort, for anything really. I just watched my own life flash before my eyes with a bullet flying through my hair and a bullet flying past my ear striking my ex right under his eye killing him instantly. 

I had a guy friend drive me to her house. I didn’t have a phone, car or a house until the police were done with everything because the nature of the crime. The ex and I had problems that’s why I filed for divorce I knew in my gut to try and get out and save my life as well as my sons. That whole ordeal was a really freaking close call. I will be forever scared and mentally fucked up for the things I have seen and went through. Just like millions of other out here but you always want to have one person in your corner.

Felecia, of all people I thought in this time of no bullshit just real life events and the truth that happened that day, she would be there for me. Well the exact opposite happened. Of course the event was already on the news way before I could get to anyone.

I show up to her house. She was home with her son, her man was in the garage drinking and messing around with his manly stuff. She flew out the house. Cussed me out, I can’t even remember everything that she said or did that early evening. What I do remember is being accused of being on drugs and drunk at her doorstep when I went to her house for comfort, to tell her, to talk to her, for really any type of comfort that I thought I was going to get. Now I look back and I have no idea what I was looking for because I knew she wasn’t going to be that person since everything went down hill before this day.

I had never been so hurt, so heartbroken, by someone who I broke bread with, sat down and ate with, trusted, had her in my hospital room after I had my hysterectomy. She had been though a lot with me. She knew my parents she knew what James was about. She was the only female who I really opened up with and loved very much.

After that day I never had the same feelings towards her. She also had to eat her words when I told her it was her man in the garage drunk doing drugs. I am a Medical Marihuana Patient so if she was referring to that as a drug she would be incorrect nevertheless I wasn’t even stoned because I had been with the police and before that I was held at gun point waiting to die. Not sure when I the time to get all fucked up but after that meeting I was fucked up. Felecia kicked me when I was down. Something I never done to her. All the time she would come to my house all hours when Mike would leave her. All the things that I had tried to pick her up when she was down.

We would vent about our parents. She would bitch and then it would be my turn. We could relate, which where we were raised is really hard to find. Now in my adult life I have noticed all those who haven’t had anything happen to them have now finally had things happen to them to where now they are understanding what I was going through at a much younger age. Made it hard to fit in.

I feel like this type of “friendship” happens way too much in today’s society. I am the type of female who likes to build people up whether it be man woman or beast, life is hard enough why do we need to make it harder on each other by tearing each other down or hurting and killing one another. 

I hope this story will inspire to be nicer to others. No one ever knows what some one goes through 100 percent no matter how close you are or you aren’t. With all the craziness we need to learn how to be a whole lot more understanding, care genuinely about one another and have empathy towards your fellow human. WE ARE ALL THE SAME!!!!!! WE ARE ALL HUMANS!!!!! WE ALL GO THROUGH SHIT!!!! WE ALL NEED EQUALITY!!!!! WE ALL NEED A REALITY CHECK!!!!!

Stay tuned for more real life events that have happened in my life. I have had to learn most of the things I know on my own and if I can learn how to be a little more caring less edgy more forgiving (to an extent!!!! that’s more blogs to come) and less judgmental than anyone can!!!!!

[minetteskvareninova]

#you know  “a face only a mother can love”#not true since his face is the one good thing he got#and mom does not exactly love him#also none of this justifies Baghra of course#she is a certified POS and made him that way#after literal centuries that stops being an absolving factor tho#ESPECIALLY given that Kirigan is cringeworthy in a specifically “insecure whiny teenager” way#in the body of freaking Ben Barnes

Well, I guess, to each their own. Still hard disagree, but oh well. I guess you mollified me by your hatred of Baghra. (First her then Ayşe Hafsa, lol, am I just prejudiced against old women?)

It’s really funny you should mention the guy you mentioned, because I also have seen Death Note anime. And lemme tell ya, my opinion of Light Yagami was always extremely low - I never vibed with him, I thought his philosophy was dumb and honestly, that was probably the writers’ intention at any case. I am not even sure if I hate him in a “love-to-hate” way, because while his schemes were entertaining, he was also extremely annoying and, well, cringe. Yes, I think your fave is pathetic, ackchully, checkmate, bro! Seriously, it’s wild how bad your choice of a counterexample is, but it does make me understand your feelings towards Darkles just a little.

Maybe it’s just that both of us can relate to a different kind of antagonist, y’know? Myself, I can relate to an immortal who in, like, five centuries of his life has crossed the line between a terrorist and freedom fighter so thoroughly he can’t even see it, but he still imagines it is there, because there is nothing and noone to really fight this fight and simultaneously give him a vibe check about his methods. His unrequited love to the most mediocre gal around just because she’s also immortal is just an icing on the cake. Like, he wants to use her, but he also has feelings for her, and absolutely cannot handle it. Also, funny you should mention Ben Barnes, because I actually love his performance? Like he gives the character a legit menace, charisma, vulnerability, just everything to make my brain go brrr. But... Okay, TL;DR I guess I can’t blame you it none of this appeals to you personally. Feel free to make me in turn suffer trough a rant on why Light Yagami is cool, actually!

(Also, is Alina a teenager, like in the show? I thought so at first, because she is in the books, but they never say what her actual age is. Also, she’s a cartographer, a position that necessitates at least some training, which is why I now lean more towards her being in her early twenties. Mind you, not a very MATURE twenty-something, so it’s still a bit hillarious when the world-weary immortal like Darkles falls for her. Like, I can’t deny he is pathetic sometimes, it’s just that I find it more endearing than anything. What can I say, I love clowning on old men who fall in unrequited love with much younger women - see my Daemon Targaryen takes.)

Last random thing before sleep

I have noticed at least ONE overlap with Shadow and Bone fandom since I'm here so maybe I will comment on that too soon enough.

I just have to decide whether it is on main, one post here, or a separate blog.

I might post sporadic multifandom non MC/dizi stuff on main unless I wanna say so much about it that it warrants a blog.

However IF enough people here are into that show I might just post here at least ONCE.

We'll see.