#this book fucked severly

[roachemoji]

my summary of the novel Annihalation by Jeff Vandermeer

[sadclowncentral]

twink death? like in the picture ot dorian gray (1890)?

[aliteralgarbageheap]

I am once again rereading icebreaker by A.L. graziadei.

I think if I had read this book in college I would have had a real big cry about it, it makes me very emotional even in this period of my life

[writingsofwesteros]

All of these thoughts are delicious, but I can immediately imagine it being Viserys. His daughter with Alicent was always ambitious, though this particular occurance was born from the necessity to protect her family. They had all seen just how little their father cared for them when it came to his prized daughter and it was enough to create a divide within the family, a deep cavern that would be nearly impossible to fill. Alicent's daughter learned from the world around her, always more of an observer than an actual player in life's game, a fact that made her a different type of dangerous. Perhaps if she were interested in someone that could match her head on, she would've paired herself with Larys, or more appropriately, Aemond. But alas, her cunningness led her down the path of "greatness", as in the words of Otto Hightower.

Borrowing a trick from her mother, the daughter hatches a plan to strengthen her claim to their father's heart and secure their future through seizing the throne. She feels like a cheap whore the way she dumbs herself down to pretend like she wasn't vastly more knowledgeable than Viserys in regards to their history, or any other subject as he seemed to be severly lacking in several areas. It takes no time for her to worm her way into his bed, playing innocent and allowing him to mount her the first few times, moaning wantonly and clinging to him like he was her only lifeline. As he thrusts inside her desperately, all she can do is feel self satisfied over her amazing acting skills. It was evident that Viserys never remembered anything regarding Alicent's children, especially since it was a big ordeal within the castle when the servants had found blood on her sheets from an unexpected late night hook up with Aegon in their youth. Even after facing Alicent's wrath and ridicule, that didn't stop them from enjoying the occasional romp.

One night she whispers cutely to Viserys that she had recieved a dirty book from her handmaiden and wished to test out the position. He was immediately on board, though worried about how his "innocent" daughter would fare doing something so lewd. He's quickly shut up when she ties him down like a professional and wastes no time slowly torturing him with the thought of fucking her. She blindfolds him and rubs her tits in his face, climbing on the bed and teasingly rubbing his red cock through her folds and chuckling when he attempts to enter her. Alicent's daughter isn't going to let him get away with treating her the way he did her mother when she is his new wife, teaching him patience and making him eat her out from behind, her creamy pussy suffocating him. She doesn't let him get a break, making him work hard to learn her sensitive areas and the quickest way to make her cum.

Once she believes he is decent enough at the job, she slowly slides his cock in her sensitive pussy and gives him the ride of his life. His fragile heart stutters as she fucks his cock in and out of her tight cunt as if she had to rush to do something after she finished. His poor cock is abused by her tight grip and unrelenting pace, Viserys swearing his daughter is going to snap his cock in half with her vigorous movements, though says nothing and enjoys his slice of heaven. Alicent's daughter is going through it as she finally takes the liberty of fucking him, honestly feeling disgusted yet turned on by how submissive she had him already. She always loved when Aegon would let her take her frustration out on him instead of their usual wrestling match that left the servants extra busy come cleaning time. Feeling him start to pulse inside her helps bring her closer to her edge as her plan is that much closer to being achieved and she races to the finish line by swirling her fingers around her clit.

Alicent's daughter fucks him like he's her bitch a few more times before untying him and leaving him covered in their combined juices, his face red from embarrassment and vision blurry as he watches her slip her dress on and walk out like nothing had happened, his cum dripping from her cunt still. Viserys can't tell if he got punked, but he definitely knows that 1. He's not unhappy she fucked him so hard he wasn't able to walk to dinner, and 2. He's going to definitely need to marry her since it's obvious he wouldn't be able to stop thinking about her after that night 👑💀

SO DELICIOUS !!

[thicctails]

I C R A V E more gbc au stuff: particularly with Bill: were the twins aware of Bill before gravity falls? what do they tell the twins about bill once they get there? how does bill and his parents even go about reconnecting?? I want to know more about the direct aftermath of the reunion. It's not hard to piece together Bill and Fords relationship from the journals: did they read into it the wrong direction or smth? Like Bill fucking traumatized Ford: Euclid and Scalene's estranged long lost son fucking severly traumatized and manipulated a realtive of their adoptive kids: there's gotta be more complex feelings there? Does Bill blame them for his medical trauma? do Scalene and Euclid regret that? did they have differing opinions on it back when? also like, now Bill is legit insane: what with him having been percieved insane or a ticking time bomb of insanity before how do they feel about that? do they have differeing opinions?????

FNSKJDFNSDKJ DSI C R A V E MORE FERERJSNJKFDNFKE

PLEASE FEED MEEEEE

Ask and ye shall r e c e i v e

Both Scalene and Euclid were under the impression that Bill died when Euclidea inevitably collapsed in on itself. They told Dipper and Mabel that they had a child, but never went into much detail, as it hurt too much to talk about.

(You can imagine how fucking gutted they were when they saw images of him all around the Shack. Journal 3 was just a big fat gob of salt in their open wounds)

Reconnecting for them is like a healing an infected wound: you have to cut out the rot, grit your teeth for the burn of cleaning it out, work to keep the infection away, and accept the fact that there will be a scar.

Bill is so fundamentally broken and mentally unwell that not even the Axolotl can really fix him. The best he can do is help Bill get to a point where he can begin again in a different form. But getting to that point is the real trouble. It's rotten work, a path laden with pain and suffering and hurt feelings, but it's the only option worth fighting for.

Scalene and Euclid feel immense guilt for the mistakes they made raising Bill. They allowed themselves to be pressured into trying to make their gifted son normal, and everyone they ever loved and then some ended up paying the price. Bill may have started the fire, but their misguided good intentions handed him the match.

Bill himself is a whirlwind of emotions. He is unexplainably relieved that his parents are alive, but that also means that he can no longer possess a false bravado and pretend he intentionally slaughtered his entire dimension. His past is red and blue and in his face, and the voices have only gotten louder since he saw his mother's heartbroken face. Not only that, but they have, in his eye, replaced him with two of the people destined to destroy him! They look at Shooting Star and Pinetree with all the fondness they used to look at him with, and it makes his insides burn.

They also are constantly setting off each other's triggers, like some kind of sick oroborus of trauma. Bill's powers often manifest as pyrokinesis, which isn't great when your parents are still living with the horrific injuries caused by said fire. On the other side of the coin, Euclid has been soothing the twins with gentle TV static since they were little, since his preferred method of manifestation is screen-based technology, (whereas Scalene prefers music and books) which has caused Bill to spiral into a violent panic attack more than once.

As for Ford... well, neither Cipher parent is fond of him, as i've stated, but while they don't know the entire story of how his and Bill's time together was, they know enough to know that it ended in violence and misery, and they are not so heartless that they do not feel pity for the man and disgust towards their son's actions. They make it very clear to their eldest, when they can stand to speak to each other, that he is to never possess another member of the Pines family.

He only breaks that promise once, though it was for a good reason. Gideon needed a good beat down, and Pine Tree was too hurt to make that jump without help.

[ateakettle]

HEAR ME OUT

draco x george.

i mean just THINK ABOUT IT. it's after the war, george is severly depressed, probably a mess, picking up habits and barely managing the store, leaving verity in charge of it all. his family keeps trying to consol him and it's only making it worse, or maybe they struggle to look at him because they see fred and it breaks them too.

draco's also a mess, but a very different mess. his father's in azkaban and his mother just isn't the same anymore, everything he's been told his whole life is a lie. maybe his fortune's been taken, maybe not. maybe he's trying to seek help. he's spiraling into his own depression, picking up habits too.

nobody'll hire draco, being he's a previous death eater, but there's an opening at the wizarding weasleys. he's probably thinking "fuck no", but what if he's really desperate for a job? he applies.

george doesn't want to hire him, but there's nobody else applying and there's too much being put on verity.

he hires him.

they don't get along.

draco still holds some prejudice views, and george hates him for what he did to his little siblings and the people he cares about. but what if they need each other? what if they end up helping each other heal?

they never really had much interactions in the books or movies and they don't really have a history together, but they're still connected through family/enemies.

draco falls for a weasley, and really, what the hell? he's able to grow. george falls for malfoy, and again, what the hell? how are you supposed to tell your family that?

sure it could be a different dynamic too, doesn't have to be draco getting a job at the wizarding weasley's, but nontheless those two would be SO amazing to see fall for each other. it's not enemies or friends to lovers, it's a whole 'nother field, and that's interesting.

i know that was a really bad explanation so if you need to, think of what i said and word it your own way because i swear it made sense in my head

if you read this far ily

[slightly-gay-pogohammer]

I'm sure you've been asked this before, but for us Anglophones following you, can you recommend some good Italian comics to read?

OH BOY ARE YOU READY FOR A LIST

GRAPHIC NOVELS

Zerocalcare's works in general is incredible and the "easiest" answer since hes arguably the one author that brought italian comics back to life. Just pick one of his works theyre all great

"La Terra, il Cielo e i Corvi" by Stefano Turconi and Teresa Radice, that talks about three soldiers in opposite sides during war escaping together. Broke me fr fr

"Troppo facile amarti in vacanza" by Gaicomo Bevilacqua. Post-apocalyptic italy and huge satire of rich people. Highly recommend

"Il Mare Verticale" by Brian Freschi and Ilaria Urbinati, that talks about a teacher dealing with severe anxiety and panic attacks. Incredibly good. Made me cry during work

"Identiche Diversità" again by Bevilacqua is actually a huge collab of many modern italian comic authors and its very funny so thats a good way to get introduced to a lot of them!!!

Honestly pick anything published by Bao Editori and chances are its very good

EPISODIC AND STRIPS

look i nees to talk about W.I.T.C.H. if youre into magical girls. I generally tell people to stop reading after the book saga is over but the first sagas are still very good

PK!!! Aka what if Paperinik aka donald duck superhero AU was sci-fi and lowkey horror and it fucked severly actually

Monster Allergy was great too and I should reread it too someday

for something a lil older, Alan Ford is very fun and has hints of mystery every now and then

Sturmtruppen if you like satire and more dark humor, they're comic strips based on world war II iirc and they make fun of Literally Everyone

Lupo Alberto is also quite satirical of more "modern" topics every now and then, but mostly its shenanigans involving farm animals. Literally Beastars before Beastars

DYLAN DOG READ DYLAN DOG ITS VERY CREEPY AND GOOD

I'm not a big fan but honestly if you like more old-timey comics with a more realistic stuff anything published by Sergio Bonelli Editore is.okay ig. Cant say it aged gracefully skfkgog

...and yea okay the scrooge, donald and paperinik comics from Topolino are still fun every now and then :^)

[silky-silks]

Okay can I talk?

eric belonging to @night-light-artz

Patches @eve-pie

Okay for the image above I was doing a “mock” warrior cat book. I miss the old covers but anyway

I kinda feel my art is…boring. I mean it just feels that way. Sometimes I feel I rush myself to get things done, and to be honest I hate having to rush myself. I look back at my recent post and they just fall FLAT. Flat as in the colors are just boring as heck. Lineart? I don���t really like. Not only that but everything feels so unpolished

My anatomy/details

I hate the fact I miss crucial details of my chat starts or even other people characters. I mean, HAVE YOU SEEN HOW I DONT EVEN ADD SILKY’s ANTLERS 99% of the time? That bothers me. And I see other people add them and I’m just “well damn I’m so lazy I can’t even add antlers on my own fucking character”.

Not to mention the poses. Everything feels so stiff with me. So dang stiff that you may as well call my art wood and use it as a support beam. I hate how I don’t use references for my art. Maybe If I used them more and actually took my time stuff wouldn't look like your average horrific Netflix Original cartoon of some movie.

Backgrounds/minor objects.

Do not get me started. I hate all of them. They look so low effort. I mean, I know I can do better with them! But it seems like I worry about the main characters so much. In fact, I feel the background just falls flat or blends in too much with the characters that it looks. Messy. If I draw a cup, i'll skip over details and it will look awful! Which isnt good, as it shows im lacking severly.

Time

And for time I rush. I feel like I have to literally push things out by day’s end and well…it affects my art. Lately o just been so focus on the hour and time it just makes the art suffer. Even if no one else sees it I do. I love my painted style, but it takes quite some time. And forgive me but I hate just doing sketches to and posting it. I prefer my art to be colored in and all the way. Now im not saying i dont like it when other people sketch. That would be a dick-head move of me.

Some days I fear if I don’t post or read inboxes everyone is going to think I purely abandoned them. I try to focus on my page. but just giving them a sketch at the end well...it makes me feel as if I just dissapointed them. I think to myself and say "I could have done better than that. Why did you even do that in the first place {Name}. "

I have like so much on my agenda and plans and then i realize I can’t do it all in one day. Hell sometimes I just make one day spefically on one subject.

If that day was animation day; I focus on an animatic.

If a certain day is art day and I want to set up my commission page (which is so messy I deleted it) then that’s the settled day. But I feel like I’m going so slow. It's like I am running out of time, and time is just passing by as I look at my clock.

And I'm not blaming anyone it's just my stupid head that makes me feel this way. I know no one is trying to rush me. But head is like "Oh but what if- and why not-". It bothers me. It clouds my vision and i don't realize in reality...no one is saying the things my brain is saying. Sometimes I feel like I'm bothering people when i draw their charcaters so much and tag them. I fear they just say 'Aw great it's this one person again."Sometimes I feel I need to be MORE original. And some days i feel i just need to give up entirely. Some days I think posting everyday will aggervate folks. Sometimes I envy the attention of others, and when I see what they gain or what following I have i look back at myself and say "Well maybe if you did this better than MAYBE you people will be interested in ya". And damn do i slam my head in a wall. Everyone just seems so happy, and yet here I am fretting over if this fucking dog I drew looks remotely interesting. And I just feel it...blends in. Like what is there so special about my art?

MY BLOG

And for this blog, I don't know if I truly have an identity for myself. There's Silky, there is Minty and Syrup, there is Simon and there is Shrimpy. But who do they belong to? What roles do they even serve in this blog? I want them to be my identity. I don't want them being just some sort of character leech. They lack story, they lack purpose, they are thrown in tropes and gag. But what do they relate to? Nothing. Nothing at all. And yeah yeah I know im thinking to DEEP into this. But it's been on my mind so much. And hell call me crazy for talking about them if they are real, but they mean a lot to me. A LOT.

So I tried to make my art interesting here like, i tried referencing images space. I tried adding more anatomy to Snowy since I am tired of doing the usual standing up pose. I even wanted to make the background feel more detailed. I feel a bit better, but I still fear everything is too...eh...bland. Maybe it is just me.

Sorry for the ungodly word of text. I know I shouldn't vent here.

[mmyashas]

mainly for my own viewing and theory making im just going to ramble here like its my phone notes but feel free to read

ONE: BAGHERA | 747 / HEH

TWO: FOREVER | 083 / AID

THREE:

FOUR:

FIVE:

SIX:

SEVEN:

EIGHT:

NINE: BADBOYHALO | 654 / GFE

POSSIBLY MORE BOOKS ?

theory rambling below

okay from here we can go through 2 routes. the Ordo Theoritas will all receive a book OR. or. it'll be the presidency candidates. Honestly i can see both routes going on

first im going with the presidency candidates because. theres a total of 10 candidates, and 3/10 HAVE received a book. we still don't know if bbh is the "last" number or anything of the sort so..... hell even if whoever is giving out these books is severly anti federation it'd STILL make sense (not giving one to elq, confirmed federation member) (ish) meanwhile foolish while on the federation's good side , not necessarily one of them

in the other hand we've got the whole ordo theoritas group which would ALSO make sense to give to forever, bbh and baghera. which means i think the order would be (or atleast the people)

3. maxo (...seems a bit hard to give him a book atm)

4. cellbit

5. fit

6. foolish

7. pac

8. mike

possible other numbers: roier, jaiden, phil

which makes me now think of the meaning of the numbers. Sure we can go the A1Z26 route but unless its a vertical or sideways message i cant really see it making sense? eithwr way we cant really figure this out UNTIL we've gotten the rest of the books. maybe its still got a deciphering part AFTER w some sort of ceasar shift (the qsmp really fucking loves those. makes sense)

it could also be connected to whichever island was on elq's stream -> which could be the introduction to the new members of the island, like a sort of key . considering that was all some sort of gibberish until u turned it like vertical

whatever this is i think its all leading up to eitger the dinner tmr, the new member arrivals or something MORE. maybe w thr code. idfk

maybe ill add more later when iget an idea or something

[capcavan]

I actually want to congratulate you on your work because what I don't think a lot of people in this fandom understand is that Riko is a character that is FUCKING HARD to get right. Not just to understand, but to WRITE. You can't make him too unhinged or he's just a cartoon villain and you can't make his actions too light (If you're writing within canon) or he looks like a pathetic clown instead of the actual threat he is on canon and if you aim for the middle he can end up just bland (AND I WILL SAY the greatest offenders in this are Riko haters and not his stans). And even in your most redemptionest AUs you manage to write him in a way that is consistent with the existing characterisation. I have yet to come across from a post by you that didn't make me think "yeah, if things went different, he could have turned out like this"

I feel pretty honoured I feel like I just won fandom and riko is shipped to me in the post . I would like to thank my parents for making me fucked up enough to get him.

There is few things that contribute to it all pretty much. And I will use this as excuse to talk about them all its 7 am and I slept 4 hours let's goooo

I actually see riko as very pathetic and non threat myself and I'm pretty sure Neil and most foxes do as well because even on my first reading of the books something stuck out to me pręty severly

Characters who actually killed people in those books

Andrew Aaron Renee Neil ? The foxes are pretty hands on with murder

Riko? Riki never actually got his hands dirty it does separate him already in cannon as all bark no bite whose only way to be intimidating is to use family name and people who follow him menawhile Riko himself is scary only to Kevin.

Riko's buildup in narrative as threat is very good but I really wouldn't confuse it as fear of him himself.

Riko's roast perfectly sums it up

Riko is pathetic used and delusional

I'm sorry if this is spitting onto what you said I am happy you like my things but I truly believe that riko is pathetic and I say this fully loving his character and issues his character puts light on.

He is scary only if you give him power as abuser (wchih is what this fandom does a lot in their need to have black and white villian ) but as a person he is pathetic.

But seeing riko as pathetic is seen by people as " he is poor and sad and I don't want to feel this way about him BC he is bad person "

He is not pathetic little kitty

He is pathetic eaten by anger and frustrations and unable to cry from all the pain he is in I can see how killing him could be seen as mercy actually.

Another thing I think people don't get right

Is that riko is not 100% delusional about his value

He has skills and he knows he is worth something he is fighting to have his father acknowledge it not because he does not feel worthy but because he knows he has a lot to offer and wants a chance to show it

He does not feel worthles he is just frustrated that others see him as such

Also growing pains are important thing to show

I think saddest and my favourite thing about riko is that the better person you let him be the more unhappy he will be.being good person won't erase things he did in the past and hurt he caused and the further you go the heavier it will be on his conscience and this is balance in act and I have way too many versions of the story where I let him snap

So yeah riko is pathetic clown and he is scary only when you don't understand this I'm sorry to blow his cover like that !

Maybe my reading of character is different in the end we all base things we create on things we know and while I never did such horrible things I know how it feels to grow into being a better person than I used to be and I know how it feels to still not believe you did got better even when I have friends to prove. There is a lot of comfort in seeing someone so horrible get nice things not because I did those horrible things but because I know how it feels to not deserve anything nice and hate myself enough to self sabotage.

I could go on also to talk about difference between gloryfying physical abuse in fandom and ignoring psychological abuse but maybe that's a talk for another time.

[cherrymf15]

My thoughts on the toll which has made me wanna fight Mr Neal Shusterman in a Tesco

Greyson is new age jesus

iconic

Jeri my favourite genderfluid captain

iconic

and their crew is so supportive and the RESPECT

Faradays assisstant is not my favourite but that could be the self hate talking

my babies were deadish FOR 3 FUCKING YEARS

Goddard as always fight me sir

oh and Citra calling him out for some of the disasters that occured was fucking beautiful

i was like yes girl drag him

he'd kill me in seconds but i'd go down insulting him and take pride in it

Rand bringing back Tyger made me sob

Like thank you Rand for making Goddard die and stabbing him and everything

but that just made everything all the better cause I missed him and his bitch boy antics

and the fact she's been going to see like the simulation of him despite the fact he doesn't know her :(((((((((

"Where are you, my dear Marie?" IM SORRY

THE YEARING IN THESE WORDS

Can someone stop fucking seperating my babies please and thank you? Specifically you mr neal sir

Jeri and Greyson are so good together omg

both of them also kinda being in love with Citra. BIG MOOD

my boy faraday was severly depressed after finding out the love of his life and his children were probably dead and I wanted to hug him

The whole tonists in Africa section made me physically sick

ROWAN AND CITRA NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE TO FARADAY

however the reunion between my babies was great

i almost threw my book

the scythe who just wanted to be left alone to be beautiful is an icon

and Citra just being like OH YOU FUCKING UGLY GOD made me cackle

I do wish there was more Rowan POV it felt like it was a afterthought for the book

also Rowan just abdonding his family for space

which i only have a problem with cause he joined the lone star region is part to protect them but then just runs soooo

Thunderhead making another thunderhead sections were fucking fascinating

scythe morrison got so much better from the last book omg

loriana is a queen

GREYSON CALLING THE THUNDERHEAD UNSAVORY

HE ESSENTIALLY CALLED GOD UNSAVORY

ill say it again

ICON

also the FAILSAFE WTF ORIGINAL SCYTHES

I mean

its definetley better than people MURDERING OTHERS but still

faraday doing sympathy gleanings just magnificant

In conclusion, I wanna fight the dude who did this to me, in a Tesco, specifically in aisle 7. However, this series i think is probably in my top 5 series I've ever read. I thought the characters were extremely well developed. And it really just shows both the good and the bad in humantiy, especially with the fact that I'm not sure this future is entierly impossible with the way AI is probably gonna go

[hogwartslegacypics]

HL rewrite: instead of Seb casting crucio on MC (he can't in this rewrite, he cares about them too much), or MC casting it on him (the feeling is mutual, so they can't cast it either), MC casts it on themselves while Seb and Ominis are trying to figure out what to do. All of a sudden, they hear screaming coming from behind them, and they find MC lying on the floor. Imagine their shock and horror. The door still opens, and the rest of this quest goes as usual, but now the boys need to carry MC around because they're too weak to stand.

I HC that the cruciatus curse MC/Seb casts is much weaker because neither of them want to hurt each, which is why we see Natty react much more extremely when she gets hit with it from an actual hostile person. So now that MC has cast it on themselves, fully intending to make it work, it hits a lot harder, weakening them severly. I'm still on the fence on whether or not they would take them to the Undercroft or the ROR, or maybe even the nurse (there's an appeal in the boys being desperate to take care of MC, even at the risk of very big consequences.)

Either way, we should have gotten more options during that quest. Well, all quests, really.

omg yes i’ve always wondered what would have happened if they were unable to cast it on each other. like imagine if it took place later in the game when mc and seb are closer and have had more time to bond and/or if mc and seb were in a relationship and were both just straight up unable to cast the curse. they would have been so fucked. that is such a good idea though and i could see one of them attempting to cast it on themselves and perhaps being able to will it to work just by knowing that the only alternatives are dying in that room or hurting the other. i do wonder if they could cast it long enough though because i highly doubt one would be able to continue casting it once the pain hits. if you touch boiling water for example, your immediate instinct is to flinch away. just a second of it may have been enough to trigger the doors to open though.

i think they would take mc to the undercroft and ominis would stay with mc and attempt to comfort them while sebastian sneaks into the restricted section to look for any books that could provide some info or remedies for after the cruciatus curse. no way the restricted section doesn’t have any books about that. i could also see them being so worried that they take mc to the nurse too though. i’ve read a few fanfics where they do that. i can also imagine them being a little concerned for the mc even after they recover too because of the fact that they would have wanted to hurt themselves in order for it to work at all.

i 100% agree with your headcanon! the degree of pain definitely depends on how strong the intent is. seb/mc didn’t actually want to cause pain, they wanted to get out of there alive. it also was their first time casting that curse whereas dark wizards have casted it numerous times. i’m ignoring that the game made it look so effortless for them because they for sure must have had to really will and mentally prepare themselves to be able to cast it. “if i don’t cast this curse on him/her we are going to die in here, so i NEED to cast it.” i wish it would have failed at first too and taken multiple attempts because it would have made it more realistic.

also wanna add a headcanon of mine that i don’t think sebastian was planning on casting it, i think he was planning on enduring the pain. when he said “i know what to do. it’s going to be difficult” i 100% believe he was referring to ominis casting it on him. he wanted ominis to cast it because of experience (also obviously seb wasn’t going to cast it on ominis) and he knew mc didn’t know it. no reason to teach mc if there were two willing participants, and i highly doubt that after convincing mc and ominis to go there with him, he’d expect mc to be the one to take the pain of the curse. then when ominis refused to cast it, seb didn’t just go “well looks like i have no choice but to cast it on you” to mc, but he offered to teach mc so they could cast it on him. when mc has no choice but to be the other participant, he lets mc choose what they’d rather do.

now i’m imagining what if mc didn’t want to learn it and didn’t want to experience it/seb didn’t want to cast it on mc so seb would have to cast it on himself

but yeah i wish we had more options with quests and that our choices would actually make an impact besides just getting a slightly different cutscene or slightly different dialogue. i wanna see the lasting effects of our choices

[escapismcoric]

Finished "Junk" by Melvin Burgess and omg did it hit close to home on so many levels.

I've never been addicted to so called "hard" drugs. But I've been addicted pretty severly to weed for years (sober for 3 years now) and still struggling with alcoholism.

The spiritual beliefs that enable addiction, the relationship that are tied only by substance abuse, the mood swings that come with cravings, the beautiful bond that you have with people that rot away because you're getting consumed by substances, fuck, I've seen it, I've lived it. Some things the characters said, especially Lily and Gemma, were so word for word shit that I've said and heard it was like a stab in the heart. And I'll never know the hell and sickness of h use, but at least I can understand that. It really stirred up painful memories. But in a sense, I see how far I've come now.

I've read my fair share of books about drugs and this one is, I think, the most well written that I've read so far. It was a hard but wonderful read.

[haydenthewitch]

i've got shit to say ( positive) about the new percy jackson series, but i haven't watched Ep 3 yet, so keep that in mind

i read the books back in third grade and boy fucking howdy did i resonate. i'm not dislexic, but i am nurodivergerent (got that adhd in me babbyy) and i wasn't yet dignosed, but i'd only ever heard bad things about the "creative but can not sit still" kids. i was also, severly bullied, becuse i was the "overweight kids" (i'm not fat, and i never was, but when you tell a bunch of 2nd to 5th graders that your diabetic, some assumptions get made.) so seeing other bullied, nurodivergent children get reveried as heros did a lot of good in my kid brain.

seeing the new series has reignited one of my earlyest hyperfixations. percy jackson was my first intrest in actualy reading, and it got me into a lot of diffrent books. i now can resonate with it even deeper, being well and truly queer. (i love good old rick and his allyship of trans and queer pepole.) and i LOVE seeing other pepole getting into the fandom who wern't originaly in the book fandom *weither reading the books now, or just watching a good adaptation of the books in tv form.*

as much as i love the movies (eyeroll) i LOVE THE CASTING OF THE SHOW and how young they all look. like, it SHOWS that percy/annabeth/grover is 12. percy is just a sassy 12 year old and i love him. annabeth does act a little muture, but it's grounded with a 12 year old likeness and that push into the water is so 12 year old sister energy. she's my baby sister i love her so much. anyways yeah, it just hits you in the face of like, these are children about to rebel against the gods, fight monsters, and deal with luke who is truly, truly, a young highschooler who's a little shit but still so charming to percy.

yeah they have all these powers, yeah they are fighting battles, but percy burns his jelly beans to talk to his mom in the middle of a forest like he doesn't want to be caught. that is such peak young child energy who doesn't know what to do. (cute, and so sad it makes me want to cry.) he is my son and i will protect him at all fucking costs.

also can i just say, the kid actors are doing such a good job. like i keep going back to annabeth's little push and percy going "hey what was that for??". it's peak book energy, and it feels like such a realistic thing for two little 12 year olds to do. they are so good.

i truly can not wait for the interaction where little percy sasses off the greek god of war. like in the book he's just like "fuck you" (paraphrased) and i can not wait for percys actor to bring that energy in interacting with gods.

anyway, the tv show is good. it's good.

[b3ndy]

ask ganeeeeee Do you dislike your source? Does anything in it bother you?

TL;DR - I love my source but I love critiquing it too, there are many things that bother me all across the series.

Ohhh boy,,, I love batim as a series but I do have a lot of issues and I'm very critical of certain parts. Batdr bothers me for a lot of reasons,,, bad writing, retcons, the redesign of me (they said i looked too stupid to be in the new "super serious and dark" game in the archives, of course that's gonna sting), too many new characters with no purpose or development, etc.

And in batim I'm mostly unhappy with how chapter 5 went,,, but other chapters have their own issues. I'm a lot more positively biased with batim so I find it hard to remember what was bad but like. Everything past chapter 2 was kinda,,, lower quality in a way yknow.

And the books,,, the creators are afraid of making them canon but I am bendy ink machine himself and say they are, so I'm right actually /j. But like. Fuck, the books are great. I really don't agree with me being able to open my mouth so I regard them as semi canon for that. If I could open my mouth we would've seen it in game for sure. Anyways I do love the books, the lost ones was kinda Not jds related for a while though which was eh... fade to black was wonderful, minus Ollie, the literal child having "hallucinations" of me being an asshole. That was severly uncomfortable to read about for me pffh.

Anyways thanks for reading if you did, started to infodump a bit past a certain point. I really enjoy critiquing the games for some reason,,, I love them but fuck I wanna say when they mess up and how I'd fix it pffh.

[moodymisty]

Just to fill my angsty, misery porn loving heart. And not including if Erebus and Kor would kill this person instantly if they realized...or did they? In a very rare case, anyway, which is probably never. But let's return and allow me to cook/ramble a bit, I guess?

Since from what I remember from "The first heretic" (which isn't much), the World Bearers primarch was only contacting Kor and Erebus. And we all know what would happen later on. Sure, there was Cyrene, but I sincerly doubt that he confessed to her anything beyond that talk. Maybe see her as living ghost from her past, casually going and looking, but never got close with her. Or to be that full of the confesser. Though withing those burned documents could be everything and reader shall never know, only speculate if there was more beyond him deciving out of good heart that she'll regain vision. And that's all that I can reach within my mind considering the book.

But returning to the scenario/possibilty that brewed inside my head. Either platonic or romantic, sexual or not. Doesn't really matter here.

What would happen If Lorgar with all Monarchia business all over again and with those five custodaes on his side, there's no fucking way that the banana ruler sended in the meanwhile other people to inflitrate Colgrisian court (not all at once of course, maybe he had convinced some native to spread the other word, since I doubt in this time he'd trust the foreign due to custodaes, could he also bribed someone already in the area) , maybe even...get closer to Lorgar, trying to slowly groom him away from worshiping the Emperor. Of course, to make the drama happen it has to be unsuccesful or partialy succesful with him...beginig to fall off, only to realize that your friend that seemed to be more appreciative of your work, giving some constrictive critique, telling how he's really missunderstood and in the right, sort of, but there are more thesis made - to all to be just a facade to fall. What then? To kill them? They certaintly say that, if they did not got onto it themselfs by ordering someone to kill such person. Would that cause him to get along with chaos even quicker than with just them after the realization.Maybe it would get longer, getting even burning hatred for his fatherWould he just kill the person, try to "convert" them under the force or what? Forcing them to daemonhood out of "concern" and partially caring about them, even if worldview shattered? I mean he did not exactly resigned about the godhood of his father, but the perspective changed severly. I was always an atheist and sceptic don't know the psychology of the choir boy lol.

The biggest thing with Lorgar no longer worshipping the Emperor, is he has to replace that void with something. He can't just walk around not having a higher power to act in subservience to, or to worship, it's just the way he is/was groomed.

In canon he replaces emps with the chaos gods, but in fanon you can do whatever you want ;3 And I think he would force them into daemonhood, if it reached that point.