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shadow0-1 · 1 year

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Ferns loomed as I lay

#call of duty #modern warfare #call of duty modern warfare #MWII #CoD MWII #blender renders #Simon Riley #Simon Ghost Riley #damn ghost being dramatic #what else is new #this bangs if i do say so myself

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minamill · 1 year

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🧸 Simself 🧸

b/a under the cut

#genuinely proud of this one #my bangs are curly but the rest is spot on if i do say so myself #time to work on the lookbook 😎#ts4 #ts4 edit #sims 4 #sims 4 edit #simself

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im-too-emotionally-involved · 2 months

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I forget it's the Internet and people don't care

#GO #SAY #HI #TO #PEOPLE #talking to myself in the tags is crazy #anyway to everyone i either do or dont interact with i live yall <3 #even if I dont show it #yall #are #so #freaking #awesome #*bangs head on table*

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jerek · 1 month

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It's gonna be so weird when I have real life friends trying to explain that I used to only be able to say my life is dogshit once or twice a week without clogging the vent channel that we all used to say our life was shit because it was all unanimously shitty for all of us and it was considered rude to bring it up too often even though unanimously it was shitty in ways that we could not control and affected us daily

#Anyway I regularly have to flush toilets for my siblings bc our toilet doesnt flush the same as a functional one and they never bothered to #learn how to do it properly so theres regularly piss or shit in there that I have to flush myself #And ofc 20 seconds after I sit down. At least once a day. Someone comes in and bangs on the wall next to the curtain (no door)#And asks “HELLO?” and i say hi and they say “WHEN ARE YOU GONNA BE OUT?” and i say in a minute and they leave and then another 20 seconds #later they come in again #“HELLO?” today it was on my moms business call #And still. Still #Nobody wants to fix the house.#Unless I'm paying for it.

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jopzer · 4 months

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jopzer........ good ship.

#beebles #sometimes i forget #and then the terror makes me crazy again #sometimes two lackeys should have a weird strained relationship where one calls the other a class traitor #and then and and then they. and they #good heavens #i should finish things lost things found #good fucking fanfiction if i do say so myself.#thomas jopson and solomon tozer. you are in love.#idc if they never interacted on my screen. they're crazy making.#i used to be number one jopzer poster on ao3 but i haven't written for the terror in like a year lol #and hickeytozer caught my eye.... just a little....#marv got me out of terror slump with baby bang i need them to do some shit like that again

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fisheito · 9 months

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wondering if there's a character who HASN'T done the Do in heels. ????

#absolutely this thought came up bc i saw shadow lineage yakumo bang eiden while holding him up against the rocks #i looked down and saw yakumo was wearing heels!? for the first time??#ah. no wonder he was extra tall this time #i was saying to myself... how? doesn't it hurt your legs? GEEZ yokai heel wearing abilities are something else #i find heels extraordinarily painful. idk if it's the untrained calf muscles or what #so i had to sit in admiration and awe for a bit. wow! look at him go!#then i wondered... have ALL of them accomplished this impossible (for me) feat?#Quincy would never ? probably??#is it because they're impractical? not great for traversing rough terrain?#idk i'll let the quincy experts weigh in #but i started listing off the characters who HAVE done the do flawlessly in those painful shoes #edmond naturally. kuya of course. maid blade.#i haven't unlocked enough rooms to know #does garu wear heels? would he hate them? would he wear them and be completely unbothered bc his calves are the most powerful of all time?#DOES EIDEN EVER WEAR HEELS?#eiden in stilettos when???#i am torn between eiden beautifully strutting around with the confidence of a drag queen #and eiden tripping after a single step on slightly elevated heels #he can do both. depending on his mood #and depending on who's nearby to conveniently catch him if he were to fall oh so dramatically

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spikedru · 4 months

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i genuinely miss taking walks thru my campus cemetery. sigh

#anyways made a pretty banging risotto for dinner tonite if i do say so myself

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bingobongobonko · 7 months

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dose anybody got experience with suddenly not being able to draw a lot, is this a normal thing now.. maybe two years ago i think i would draw an entire piece every 3 days to a week and to be completely honest with you i was working a pretty heavy job so it isnt that i was working. and now i can do a line like every 2 days. ykwim.

#am i normal or is this bad #just kind of sad #i think i was severely using art as a crutch for my bad mental health and nowadays im doing better so im not always drawing to get away #but also less art... do you get what i mean #banging head against wall #i want to create #im not saying i want to go back to a very intense me tho #cuz i was like. ignoring people shutting ppl out just to focus on art and only art #and that sucked #thatss on the cyclothymia baby #but also i feel fine so why arent i drawing. poking myself with a stick

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rapidhighway · 1 year

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I didn’t go to sculpture again……

#please please please I have anxiety I have a mental illness #I can’t make myself go there it’s hell idk why I’m just so nervous every time I make myself feel sick #and then I get another excuse not to go becuase I literally feel like I’m gonna throw up #I’m not going to pass if I don’t start going there…….#and I cannot handle repeating a semester #I live in fear #and it doesn’t help that I have intermedia class later today which is my second greatest enemy and just as dreadful #banging head on the table #I need to be wrapped in a blanket and go to sleep forever #god even if I go there I’m never going to be able to come up to my prof and talk to him about my project I get physically I’ll at the #slightest suggestion from my friends that I should finally do it #everyone’s done it already #I will literally cry if anyone talks to me #the profs just intimidate me so badly I feel like they hate me #and everyone says they’re super nice but I can’t make myself believe ittttt they will eat me alive #but if I never go I won’t pass the class and repeating the semester will cost money #pleas I have the stupid project idea ready but I just can’t do it I’ve thought about just emailing them and doing it all through email but #I couldn’t do that either I’m just in panic mode instantly #so yeah I’m just venting not asking ppl for solutions 😶✌️ I just don’t want to text my friend again bc I’ve been putting way too much on #them #they do practically everything for me anyway bc I can’t do shit by myself #uh ok I just need to put this SOMEWHERE #I’m gonna curl up and draw metal or whatever #ugh I know I’m making things worse by not coming #but I can’t make myself I just cant I’m gonna have an anxiety attack ✌️#no one look at me #I being sensitive and vulnerable here

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thecrenellations · 1 year

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plotting montage, Nirvana in Fire ep. 28

#nirvana in fire #lang ya bang #xiao jingyan #mei changsu #this one turned out well if I do say so myself!#nif drawings #something i #my art now

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ankhisms · 1 year

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can i be emotionally vulnerable with you all in the torture dungeon

#anyway. keep feeling weird in a specific way but not really wanting to talk about it with anyone but also not talking about it makes it #feel like its crawling under my skin. and its not necessarily a bad feeling i just have a fucked up traumatized brain that makes #feeling things weird in general. i feel things so strongly or else im numb and outside my body and often struggle #with being super aware of myself because of this. where its also like im in survival mode constantly know and it can be easy #for me to go numb and not feel things or else be just going into panic panic panic hell freakout but beyond that it can be very hard #for me to identify feelings and such and having sat with this feeling its like. ok i think ive identified this but it feels #weird for me and i dont know what to do with this. should i do anything with this. probably not. and that carries its own #various baggage and relation to other issues im realizing i said i was going to be vulnerable but now i am just being very #vague about everything im saying. as you can tell i have problems and am noy good at being vulnerable #tldr feelings are weird. ive been feeling weird lately in specific ways that i dont know how to deal with but its not really bad but does #relate to certain issues i have with myself but idk really what to do besides just feeling it and letting it pass #but sometimrs iy has made me want to bang my head against a wall

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derpinette · 7 months

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whenever a guy approaches me i start wishing i had a giant forehead tattoo that reads "I AM NOT & WILL NEVER EVER BE INTERESTED LEAVE ME ALONE PERMANENTLY" so i could flash it at them

#you know since i have bangs #just leave me alone freakazoid LEAVE ME ALOOOONEEEEE #they always say i seem scared Hm probably because i am now PISS OFF #guy two days ago ( skipping today & had a free day yesterday ) entered the same class as me & tried to chat me up #did not look back at him or bother to remember his name but i shook his hand:-/ i feel compelled to not leave people hanging #felt like self immolating after He was like are you always this stiff & quiet you seem scared do you have problems #yes i do & that problem is you FUCK OFF & now he knows my name & face but IDK his i am so goddamn retarded #i just kept answering in shrugs & IDKs but what i should have done is use my FFP ( Foreigner Face Privilege ) & pretend not to understand #but since i am an english major he would have just switched to bothering me in english UGHHH WHY CAN I NOT SAY NO #i feel really disgusted with myself RN #skipped today because i am too freaked out about everything trying to come down from heart palpitations i really hate when this happens #i always feel too anxious to go after i wish i lived in a female only world but also i feel really ugly lately too #which means it should be illegal for me to go outside #also i missed my bus right by like 5 seconds the moment i was about to cross the road it flashed away so...#i took it as a sign to not go ( after waiting for ~15+ minutes... sorry i am a quitter but not that fast )

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bunnihearted · 8 months

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apparently im in my audiobook era now.... ૮꒰⸝⸝> <⸝⸝꒱ა

#like the only books i get thru atm are audiobooks #i used to have such a hard time w them #i only listened to horse audiobooks when i was a kid lmao #and then there was a period where i listened to audiobooks when i had a migraine nd used a coldpack T-T #but then my neighbors got too noisy so i stopped that #buuuut now bc of all the constant noise i cant rlly listen to music anymore #music makes my heart race nd so many sounds in it makes me think it's my neighbor banging smth skksks #so that made me get back into audiobooks bc i need to listen to smth that isnt music #nd podcasts dont work bc.. i find them boring + if they laugh or suddenly yell i get stressed out #i cant say... im 100% following along in the audiobooks but i do get the overall story #at least im still reading books one way since i cant focus on actually sitting down nd reading myself bc of all the noise

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higgsbosom · 19 days

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cut my hair btw

#and phase 2 of coaching is starting tmmrw yay #this is genuine btw i am excited 4 it phase one had been boring the shit out of me #got curtain bangs!! i look sooo cute if i do say so myself

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orcelito · 2 months

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I'm being like astoundingly social lately. Starting from Thursday last week, I saw my girlfriend, then spent time with family on Friday, then saw my girlfriend again on Saturday + some of her friends, then watched a movie and drew stuff with friends on Sunday, then had a session 0 for new dnd on Monday, then watched anime with a friend on Tuesday. Off day on Wednesday. Then on THURSDAY I hung out with my girlfriend, had a study session with friend group (with mixed success at the studying part), AND watched anime with a friend again. And then today, watched a different anime with a different friend.

And TOMORROW I'm going to a concert with family and a friend, Sunday I'm hanging out with my girlfriend, then Monday I've got dnd thing again (probably? Need to double check). And then potentially more hangouts to come.

It's insane. What is this new social me. I don't think I've ever hung out with this many different people in such a short time before.

#speculation nation #it's fun though i probably will need to slow down a bit to not tire myself out bfkshfkd #the concert and the family thing last weekend are not normal occurences at least.#the movie and the study group were both from my discord server. tho with mostly different sets of people.#i think im at like... in just the past week ive hung out with... well...#3 on friday (plus saying hi to others at the temple but i dont rly spend time with them)#7 on saturday... i think it was like.. six? on sunday? i think. then Uhhhh #4 on monday. i think. 1 on tuesday. thursday had 3 new with 3 repeats from earlier in the week #and today was another person i hung out with earlier in the week #which puts me at TWENTY FOUR....... different people ive hung out with this week....holy shit....#granted on saturday 6 of them were my girlfriend's friends and im not very good at talking in a group irl #so i mostly talked to my girlfriend there. but even if U didnt count them that's still 18 people i hung out with #crazy. mind boggling. im a total introvert so this is like unprecedented.#I SWEAR I DONT NORMALLY COUNT PEOPLE LIKE THIS..... im just like. trying to put it into context for myself #and surprisingly i dont feel That exhausted by it... it helps that only 3 of these days had in person interactions #bc thats more tiring to me than just talking online. physical space takes more energy to emote etc etc #i think this is good for me honestly. spending time with people. not just wasting my life away with video games. you know.#tho i do need to balance it with writing.. i havent written anything since i posted the itnl update #and i rly need to get that reverse bang fic finished....hmmmmmmmm #ah well. i'll try to get lots of writing done next week. next week for sure..!!

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madd-nix · 7 months

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never gonna be enough for my dad

#vent #rant #me talking #i keep trying to put in applications and he says i need to do even more acting as if it's my fault that im not getting hired #as if im not trying hard enough #and on the rare occasions that i do get an interview #which have so far all led nowhere #then he just tells me to keep looking while i wait to hear anything and that even if i do get a job #i still need to keep looking for better and better careers #and when i finally was able to do a commission he just said 'cool then do more keep going'#first of all i need to wait for clients #and second of all cant you say youre proud that i was able to do one? that i was able to make a little extra money?#no of course he can't #it's always about moving on to the next thing and pushing myself more #oh yeah and i got my hair cut the other day #and sure i did tell the hair stylist to get it as close to a full buzzcut without being an actual buzzcut #cuz dad refuses to let me buzz my own hair and im too tired to argue at this point despite being an adult #but when he saw it i could tell he didnt like it #he gave the vague 'oh well it's different! showing more forehead. i liked it better when you had longer bangs but thats just me...'#nothing i do pleases him #im tired of it #and i dont know how to tell him that he's part of the reason i constantly feel like a fucking failure #and there have been times where i'll see a car approaching me as i drive to work and for a split second i wonder what would happen #if i hit it hard enough to kill me. then i wouldn't have to disappoint my dad anymore #although knowing him it would still be a disappointment cuz i fucked up driving so much #but i never actually consider doing it #obviously id never want to hurt the other person and if i simply swerved instead to hit a tree #where only id die #i couldnt just let myself die when i have so many others that i care about #but anyway sorry this is a lot i have a headache i promise im not gonna hurt myself it just sucks rn

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