#thinking So many thoughts soo many

[zer0point5ive]

lawrence is just. such a lawrence to me like larry is a completely different person. lawrence is the gay repressed doctorguy and larry is .. not him. he’s a larry to alison but he’s also lot of things to alison that aren’t true hmm. something about adam calling him lawrence .. how ‘your wife was right larry’ ‘face it larry we’re both bullshitters’ changes to ‘lawrence get up i need you’ ‘lawrence calm down’. lawrence this lawrence that. hmm

[introspectivememories]

too many of you guys think nico is the loser and not lewis for letting the divorce go on for so long. like they're both losers about each other. emotionally constipated idiots who can't talk about their toxic homoerotic friendship that imploded on itself like 8 years ago and are now making it everyone else's problem. yeah nico's on television or in beer gardens talking about lewis all the time but like every other month some reporter is like "lewis, what's your favorite moment in your career?" and lewis no hesitation is like "oh man, karting, y'know? everything was simpler then" and then spends another six months skirting around nico's name. like this whole thing they're doing in the media isn't some kinda extended foreplay for them. they're both still pressing on the bruise to make sure it's still there!!! every few months, they're literally just asking on public television, does it still hurt for you like it does for me? and like clockwork, someone will release new information about them or one of them will say something about each other (in my heart, he's still my best friend/yes... and teammate) and the answer will remain the same, yes, of course, always.

[buqbite]

keep your guard up, buddy

[dumb-doll-lips]

Maybe controversial, but on posts about being dumb where girls are like saying ‘but I’m actually smart.’ Like tbh, I don’t really believe them. Like if you’re smart why does feeling dumb feel so good or hot or whatever to you then? I kinda feel like it’s having an excuse to let go of trying as much as you would be when you’re saying your smart. If you’re like really actually smart, I don’t feel like a break from ‘being smart’ would be such a relief or like as appealing.

[curi0uscreature]

* Ty GGG for having butches and an it/its user that is an important character

[tacomicyuri]

I will literally never get over the fact that Microphone went in front of Taco’s readied gun. She knew she wasn’t going to hurt her. She knew even though Taco was showing her bad side, she wasn’t going to put any harm on her (physically, that is). And she goes into her line of fire. it’s just so UUGGHH I hate them so much. Microphone wouldn’t just do that no matter who was holding the gun, she’s constantly showing she’s afraid of conflict and confrontation throughout the season, but she put her trust in Taco. I’ve seen people say Taco and Mic never formed any type of bond and I just do not get that. Throughout ep13 Mic tries to get Taco to talk about what happened in the lab because she’s Concerned about her. Taco gives Mic an apology (not the most sincere thing you’ll hear, but she tried) and Mic appreciates it. In the beginning of ep14 they’re literally laughing together as they talk. They had formed a bond over time and they both cared about each other. One sided tacomic is cool or whatever sure But I just don’t see it. They both relied on each other in their own ways. And to the people who think Taco didn’t care the entire time I don’t get that either. Sure in the very beginning when the partnership initiated, she went after Mic solely because she saw something in her that she thought could help her win the money, but over time she started to care more and more about her. There’s that whole thing about how she went against her word in ep14 to try to give Microphone what Taco thought she had wanted and then Mic leaves and Taco is Devastated. Why would taco be so genuinely distraught over the fact their partnership ended and Mic was leaving her. She’s sad because not only is she going to be lonely again, but she’s losing her friend. Her only friend left. The only person who gave her trust and support for years. She’s Sad. If she only cared about the money she wouldn’t be so sad, she’d be Angry, she’d be trying to get Mic to reconsider, she’d be getting other plans to get this money, in ep15 she says she doesn’t care about the money anymore. She lost the one person who cared and she realised this is about a lot more than just money

[nerdreid]

i don't really go here so feel free to push back on this but. as funny as the "i'm an ally!" line is i also think it's such an interesting manifestation of the specific struggle buck has with his sexuality. like, he's not using it as an identifier label for his identity per se. it's more of a deflection/denial of the root of his discomfort.

it was already clear at the restaurant but it became so evident in his conversation with maddie. buck was clearly nervous about going on a date with a guy, he had never done that before, and when eddie walked in he panicked even harder, lying about it being a date. and he feels so bad about it. but despite mentioning himself that it's his first date with a dude, he can't seem to make the connection that that's where his reaction is coming from. "so why do you think you did that [lying to eddie]" "i don't know"

because he's an ally! he's cool with gay people! so the not-straight thing cannot possibly be the problem. "shouldn't be, right?" he has a hard time grappling with how he feels and how this might change things for him. and i just want to grab him by the shoulders and tell him that it's okay to feel weird about your own newfound queerness. these are your feelings, it's new, it's different. being okay with yourself is a whole different beast than being okay with others.

[zer0point5ive]

something about lawrence being autistic will always ring so real and true to me

[puhpandas]

its been so long since human content/new content with no book relevancy even the youtubers and theorists like dawko and john are getting restless😭

[angelsdean]

ok so i was a liar who lies (did not finish s2 rewatch last night. did not even finish 2x20 rewatch last night 😔) i got overwhelmed and then sleepy! anyways, will attempt again today✌

[thegreatyin]

And with that, The Doomed Scientist has completed his ambition!

Part of it, anyway. We're gonna have to wait for the epilogue. But oh, what an epilogue it will be. What an epilogue indeed.

As I said when I completed Heart's Desire- thank you all for following me on this adventure. And my condolences, as always, for clogging your Tumblr dashboards with Fallen London posting.

I'm not sorry. It will happen again.

I have a lot of thoughts on Nemesis as a whole and what this ending will mean for Caeru, but. Well. I'll save all of that for when he receives his reward. There's gonna be... a lot to unpack. Both in meta and RP terms.

And, of course, now that Nemesis is done...

...it's time to have a lark. And steal a very special diamond.

[chemicaljacketslut]

okay random but. what ACTUALLY scares y’all?? i’m about to run a ten candles (tragic horror ttrpg) anthology series thang at my college and i am soo nervous tbh lol i want to make it actually scary and a good experience. me personally im scared of the ocean (vast unknown… giant thangs swimming under u while u can’t see them and are totally out of your element and can’t escape quickly) also shit like that one creepypasta about the goatman thing that kept sneaking into the group without them knowing (this one). i’m also thinking body horror a la junji ito. any other ideas for like actually chilling material? + any experienced GMs feel free to give tips lol

[bonetrousledbones]

ACTUALLY you know what i am ALSO going to recommend all of you this really really good fic a while ago that I meant to post about but forgot to lmao

this one has no cursed words but it DOES have papyrus being sad and lonely and really i think that's what truly matters. the day the final chapter was posted i reread it about three times and then i went back to the entire fic and reread THAT three times too. and then twice more like a week later so uh it is a very good fic i think

[tigerplushh]

(Arcane s1 ep3 spoilers) why have I seen. Nobody talk about this scene because it actually drives me insane

[mangysah]

one part of me is a bit upset that mogami arc isn’t recognized in full ever again and we don’t get to see anyone bring it up even though it’s like definitely traumatizing and can be talked about in one way or the other, but the other part of me is also upset that people seem to not understand the full significance of the arc and chalk it up to “mob sad boy forever…” instead of the fact that bc of this arc he is so grateful for his actual life and the people he’s surrounded himself with

[majikuriboh]

first of all this is crazy the fact that Yuki can make herself a black hole and destroy everything is insane but of course fits her special grade status.

Second i can't believe after her sacrifice Kenjaku lived and absorbed Tengen it feels like she died for nothing.

I just feel like Gege wrote her off so quickly, she barely had any screen time in the manga and there's so much questions about her

also what about Yuki's plan to get rid of cursed spirits for good? She's been researching and trying to find ways to to do that. I thought Yuki was so interesting because (aside geto and gojo) she was one of the few adults who was trying to make change in jujutsu society.

and it makes me wonder why Yuki wants to get rid of cursed spirits? did something bad happen at the time she was a star plasma vessel? did she witness a death of a loved? did she realize the unjust system of jujutsu society and how the elders are taking advantage of young sorcerers and she wants to end that?

also interactions with other characters and especially her student Aoi I really wanted to see them reunite and even fight together.

I genuinely thought Yuki was gonna play a larger role in the manga, but unfortunately her time was cut short.