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#man i passed out :c#i guess I was more worn out than i realized.#sighs#:'(#yesterday was just a really long day#im sorry :c#im really really hoping today will be better#im going out and i have tickets to the game tonight and im.hoping the house holds together while im gone#things will be okay theyve gotta be#my face still hurts from yesterday:p#pavi talking
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i love my friends so much. i feel like yesterday i had a lot of shit going on in my head and i woke up to my friend explaining things in a way that put my mind at ease. i dont feel as anxious anymore because i know i was overthinking. i think my dad said it best when he told me that he thought my wonderful brain of mine just wants to think problems are bigger than they actually are. he is right! im just inexperienced in life and half of the time im scared im doing something wrong but- HEY. i need to be more confident in making mistakes. making mistakes doesn't define me as a person!! i need to stop worrying about doing life right and just live for the sake of living and doing what makes me happy!!!!!!!
#thank u blake. u really helped#also nessa!! thank u for that reblog about your perspective on my one post about feeling lost career wise#it helps me to know im not the only one living this life because holy fuck i can feel confused sometimes because.. am i doing this right?#and you know what? theres no correct path that i think there is but im just not good without a direct direction. it makes me a little#anxious about things#i dont know if its because i have some form of a disorder but i function better when i plan stuff out and give myself something to#decompress the problems and thoughts because in my brain theyre just all stuck and clumped together#and that can get a bit scary and overwhelming!!!#im just glad i have people that care about me. it means literally everything to me#so even if i dont 100% reply dont think i dont care because literally any ANY advice or kindness you show to me means the world#we're all just living this little life and we might as well make the best of it#people care..... thats just.... its good... it makes me feel less alone that people do#i love my friends so much#evennnn if we dont talk every day or are only mutuals in passing!!! it literally means a lot if people show me kindness#like holy shit!!! your older than me? and your dealing with a similar experience??? and your telling me that its okay??? and that itll be#okay?????#like#just the reassurance that things will be okay and work out and that im not the only one dealing with a feeling like mine#idk sometimes i just feel like im crazy and like my thoughts make no sense?? you know?? but yall get it#im glad that i have people who are older than me in my life cause yall have experienced stuff that i can use to be better#like your life experiences can help me in a way that can make a difference on my perspective on things#its why i like talking to my coworkers. because theyve seen things and done things i havent and their perspective can teach me potentially#i just dont feel so overwhelmed with life when i talk to people who understand#i feel so young and yet old enough to know but even the people who are older dont know so im sort of on the right track i suppose depending#on how you look at it#so- im just gonna live my life and smile because!!! you gotta.#you gotta surround yourself with people who can enrich you and teach you things for the better and make you want to grow#some of you are like that#you may not know that#but that kindness means so much
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I dont know much about your sep!au but raph sounds like he needs a nap
PLEASSSEEEE 😭😭😭😭
hi yeah absolutely that is the best conclusion to come to about him. he's really not as silly as he is in canon because he's had to be more responsible for a lot longer, and despite having less siblings to handle it's a lot more work to shoulder (if i can find a way for him to ACTUALLY work a job that would make sense, i'll go for it. genuinely i wonder wtf donnie is doing in canon to get them money dawg). it really means that i've upped his dichotomy with leo a lot, the only connecting trait between them is that donnie and mikey think they're both fucking crazy LMAO
and that's because for both of them, they're actually a lot more trigger-happy than in canon, which says a lot for raph in particular. his sense of justice is fully intact, if not stronger, but there's this kind of solemn quality to it instead of determination, which means he's not afraid of making necessary sacrifices, or even killing. he's not actually there for the events of the first episode (its just mikey and april..... mikey just wanted to get coffee 😭) so the whole mutant crisis is a surprise to him, especially because mikey kept his involvement hidden, for the exact reasons you'd imagine.
he doesn't take to it with the same kind of childish determination. there's this underlying sense of obligation that trumps everything else, because he's spent his whole life working through the exhaustion in a really similar way. it's just another way for him to fall back onto the same coping mechanisms he always does.
old sad sheepdog. he very quickly turns to the "us vs them" mentality against draxum/leo/donnie without any space for changing his mind, he's not the same kind of open-minded as he was about draxum (for mikey's sake) in canon. he WARMS UP to donnie, but only barely, and only because donnie begins to get comfortable working against draxum and the foot and in their favor (there is a moment deep deep into the plot where donnie falls to the floor in tears and raph adopts him Immediately though... sometimes the guy is weak, but its also very justified considering the situation. spoilers). but with leo oouuuuuhhhhh oh my goddd you will not BELIEVE how fucked up that shit gets. that dude is his nemesis. he doesn't trust mikey anywhere NEAR him and around the final stretch of the plot he only begrudgingly puts up with him because donnie is there to mediate. donnie is the only one they all like for a while and it's very exhausting especially because he's trying so hard to be patient and mikey is so ANNOYED about raph and leo's bs LMAOOOO he's gonna snap
i havent rlly thought about how the kraang/events of the movie would go but if i ended up going there i'd probably make it mikey and leo centric instead of A team centric, because raph and leo do come to a very neat and tidy conclusion but im realizing leo and mikey dont have a Moment like that planned yet. they get along eventually but not well, and leo feels super threatened by mikey for most of the plot because he feels like he's being replaced, so idk something for me to chew on later (it also means brains and brawn b plot... the temptation)
#ask#where we went wrong#mikey and leo's dynamic gets the least amount of focus which is such a shame#early on mikey thinks he's INFURIATING which is the funniest thing ever because its MIKEY#leo does some bs and he's like OH MY GODDDDDDD#but afterwards i could see them being chaotic together. kinda similar to canon#maybe with more fire#theyre connected by growing up as the rebellious ones of their family#even if leo was still kind of protective from the start he's always been a little shit#he'll enjoy giving splinter more gray hair (somehow)#actually ouuhhh leo would lash out and be awful in an attempt to make splinter be terrible to him because he was used to it with draxum....#okay thing to explore later#actually itd be funny if mikey and leo in this version of the movie had to band together because raph and donnie BOTH got taken#nobody to mediate them now. they gotta do this shit on their own. get fucked#(also another chance to address the responsibility theyve been forced to shoulder via their absence... its my thang)#also casey jr is there :) i dont know how the bad timeline would go either so maybe he'd be different lmao#i think itd be funny if the three of them collectively shared one braincell#i'll consider
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i got so excited about getting an email that my stamps have shipped
is this what being an adult is like?
#anyways gonna have stamps hopefully by thursday so i can send the rest of my things out#im getting two in the mail tomorrow as they are priority and rest when the stamps get here#..and that big one when i overcome social anxiety and take it to the post office to confirm how much it weights so i can ship it properly#which will hopefully be next weeks tuesday since im in town#but yeah! bracelets should be going out soon finally! i didnt get the last ones back after sending them so its a good sign!#tho its been almost a week and now im concerned where are they since i havent been told theyve arrived so...#need to remember international postage is slow ough#but yeah. all should be good at least. so excited to finally get things to people ���💜💜#which means im motivated and inspired to make more soooo hopefully another shop update by friday. maybe sneak peeks early? 👀#and comms are open ofc if you want something specific 💜#okay no more ramble time i gotta eat and take care of few important things before i can sit down to make bracelets ough#night is an absolute mess on main
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how the ebon hawk crew would react if you asked them if theyve smoked weed before
revan: "fuck yeah, you want some?" (pulls out a comically large bag of weed)
bastila, crossing her arms indignantly: "no, i do not seek out such things that would negatively affect my constitution. only a fool would deal in such substances"
carth: "i tried it once but its not really my thing"
mission: "no, i went through the dare program"
zaalbar: "no, i am afraid i would see the haunted phantoms of my past coming back to torture my spirit"
juhani: "i admit that i have partaken a few too many times. i fear that it contains dark side energies, energies that would bring me back to a past to which i am afraid to return"
canderous: "do you take me for a fool? the only high i seek out is the thrill of battle"
jolee: "yeah, i dont see any harm in it. revan and i have had some deep conversations after smoking a bit. oh, and there was this one time i smoked with my wife, and it ended u-"
hk-47: "condescending answer: do i look like a human to you? i do not have human lungs, and, thus, cannot process the compound tetrahydrocannabinol."
exile: "yeah. i mean, you gotta find some way to cope, right?" *pops an edible*
atton: "you know, i used to be a stoner back when i was a teenager, but a couple weeks ago i greened out and i think i heard god and now im scared to touch it again"
kreia: "such a substance can bring about much good or much evil. the true fools are the ones who use it in excess, or forbid its use through cheap fear tactics. so long as one does not adhere to these foolish, strict principles, i see no issue in partaking, and i have experienced no such issues in my private affairs with the substance"
bao dur: *takes a hit of his thc pen* "its for my anxiety, okay?"
disciple: *looks at you incredulously* "N-NO!"
i dont know the rest of the crew in kotor 2 well enough to complete the headcanons but once i do, i will update this. maybe
#kotor#kotor 2#star wars kotor#knights of the old republic#sw headcanons#kotor headcanons#revan#darth revan#bastila#bastila shan#carth onasi#mission vao#zaalbar#juhani#canderous ordo#canderous#jolee bindo#hk 47#star wars exile#meetra surik#atton rand#kreia#bao dur#disciple kotor
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The arc with the resistance in ml season five???? Is so good????????????? The way that???? Its been going on low-key for a while????? But theres this Massive Shift this season where literally the entire miracuclass stops running away from akumas or hiding???? And its like???? The fear is GONE by the end of the season???? Theyre not scared anymore theyre just pissed off????? At the system???? Not at the akumatized victims???? But also its not a “babying the akumas” thing either like when gabe is akumatized theyre like “WRONG BAD” at him????? Same with chloé???? But like the entire class will see a butterfly and start running TOWARDS it because theyre like “oh no someone needs help goddamit i gotta get there before hawkmoth” and they dont always win and they dont beat themselves up about it???? Like in confrontation, Juleka got akumatized despite their best efforts and theyre all like “ugh this sucks” but no one’s giving up hope or anything???????
And!!!!! The way that the anti-akuma charms work in that episode??????!?!??!?? The way the fandom has this trend of thinking like,,,, the only way to escape akumas is to push emotions away deep deep down,,,, thats how marinette and adrien have kind of been operating?!???? But then it’s revealed on no uncertain terms that the powerups of the anti akuma charms are reactive to emotions?????!?! That pushing things down doesnt help?? you have to Fight Back and FEEL on your own terms and accept others’ help and feelings?????
Juleka shutting down and curling up into a ball and trying to disapear didnt work!!!but her yelling about how its not fair and shes proud of mr damocles despite it all???? like??? Catalyzed the entire anti akuma charm shield thing???????
The way that this season has shown time and again that it’s okay to be mad and frustrated and hate the system and its okay to feel trapped and scared but you have to learn to reach out and find a good outlet for those emotions even if that outlet is yelling with your friends???? instead of isolating yourself and pushing away people who have your best interest at heart????? And lying and pretending it’s okay doesn’t help but looking for bits of real joy and support amidst the chaos does???
The way that ladybug and chat noir started this season as The Most Alone Theyve Ever Been with the miracle box stolen??? and realized by the end that no one needs powers to be heroes??? they just need to be able to trust each other and take turns carrying Hope for the group and remembering whats worth fighting for!? and as long as theres a drive to fight theres always little victories to celebrate??????????!??
(Also the way that Nino—who heads the resistance—literally calls everyone in his group including Bustier Comrade and the way that they talk about how sometimes it feels like no one’s listening and revolution is the only way?? and the way they address fears about spyware and technology only benefitting the elites and the school system being designed without students’ well-being in mind and environmental terror and the police being corrupt and they take all of that and they say “it is Still a worthy battle and it sucks but you are going to be okay,,, just do not give in to hopelessness… find the people who will help you keep fighting and keep believing in a better future and Cherish Them”)
People complain about this show going “off the rails” as it’s switching its target audience and addressing more “mature” themes or whatever but like do you guys understand how much every single narrative decision makes me scream
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Omggggggggg that was so good!! Pls tell me you’ll actually continue that drabble, you took that request and rannnn omg the suspense is definitely there
well now u make me wanna continue so here’s a ??? continuation????? (mind u im just freestyling/improvising as i go)
this is really lengthy my bad. i just cant stfu for the life of me
ps: this takes place about 2 weeks after the first drabble!
taste of a poison paradise | jjk (m) #2
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“who was that?” you ask your friend slash classmate, eunbi, with a nod to her phone
she had left the room to pick up a phone call which she usually doesn’t do?? so ofc ur intrigued.
not to mention the smile on her lips like she just won the lottery??
“hm?” she looks a bit out of it before she realizes what you just asked. “oh. no one.”
hm.
you don’t like that.
your curious nature doesn’t like that.
“oh, come on,” you whine as you nudge her hip with your foot from where you’re laying in her bed
it’s not any of your business but you want to know
life around here is boring okay.
“stoppp,” she giggles as she slaps your foot away before tucking her phone into her jeans
“oh, my god. are you seeing someone?” you sit up the moment you notice her cheeks reddening
she shakes her head. “nah.”
hm. what else could it be?
“ex?”
“hell no. she’s blocked on every thing.”
yeahh… her ex was a fucking weirdo.
“sneaky link?”
she doesn’t reply to that.
she doesn’t REPLY TO THAT.
sooo. it’s a sneaky link.
you reach for her wrists and tug her down onto the bed. “who is it?”
she lets you pull her down and she groans but she can’t help but smile
you know you’re being pushy but you need to know NEOW
“look at you being all giddy! you have to tell me now.” you just need a bit of juice and gossip tbh
it’s been too long since something interesting has happened in your life
about a month ago your own sneaky link cried on top of you while he was balls deep in you because he missed his ex
what a fucking bitch 😭
she finally says, “you don’t know him, he’s not even in our year.”
not in our year?
but you’re seniors in uni.
that could only mean that..
that he’s younger.
“not in our year? okay, cougar.”
“stop! this is why i didn’t wanna say anything,” she huffs as she pushes you off but you pull her right back
“i’m just messing with you, sorry, now tell me!!”
she sighs and sits up straight, tucking a lock of her short black hair behind her ear
“his name is jeon jungkook and he’s a junior, but he…”
the rest of what she says doesn’t even reach your brains anymore
there’s no fucking way
there’s absolutely no fucking way???
you cut her off mid-ramble. “jeon jungkook?”
she glances at you and her smile slowly fades. “you know him?”
you blink at her in disbelief for a few moments.
“are you…?”
huh?
oh god.
is she
is she implying you’re also having sex with jeon jungkook?
“what? no! gross.” you shake your head. “he’s my friend’s friend.”
she frowns as she listens to you but then you watch the realization set on her face. “oh, that’s right, you’re good friends with taehyung.”
you slowly nod but you can’t seem to ignore how dry your mouth has gotten
what are the fucking odds…
“i didn’t know he was fuckin’ like that.”
“that’s because he tells all the girls he fucks to keep it to themselves.” she says it so nonchalantly that it’s got you a bit confused. “so don’t tell anyone!”
ALL THE GIRLS HE FUCKS?
there’s gotta be some kind of camera in the corner, recording you getting pranked
besides this being about jungkook, it still doesn’t make a lot of sense
“why would he do that? don’t guys get off on flaunting how many girls theyve fucked?”
she shakes her head and kisses her teeth loudly
“not him. you wanna know why?” she looks around the room as if anyone’s eavesdropping
you automatically lean in closer
you can’t help it, the curiosity gets the better of you
not that you’re interested in him!!!!
you’re just… down for some juice and gossip
“he doesn’t fuck girls for the validation of other men.” she smirks as she leans back on her palms. “he fucks girls because he loves fucking them.”
…
?
oh
ha.
haha
😂😂😂 okay
that singlehandedly knocked the air out of your lungs
HUH???
but eunbi is not finished
no, she keeps talking
“like.. he’s obsessed with eating pussy. and he’s so fucking good at it.”
alright. that’s enough
“okay, i get it, jesus.” you hold your hand up, motioning for her to stop talking
she laughs loudly. “i thought you wanted to know?”
your karma for being a nosy bitch.
“are you sure you’re not pranking me?” you ask her, still unable to process half the things she just told you
“why would i be lying?”
you fight the urge to stare at her with a blank expression and say Girl.
“eunbi, he looks like he naruto ran in his school hallways until 10th grade.”
she chuckles and shakes her head at your assumptions about him.
“you’d be surprised, y/n. i’m pretty sure he’s fucked most girls in our year.”
WHAT?
there’s no fucking way
what the hell
so he really doesn’t want people to know?
is it a reputation thing?
maybe he’s conservative.
in theory at least?
cause how else would that work
and now you’re intrigued.
that intrigue dies about an hour later when you’re bored out of your mind and decide to go bother tae
“there’s my fav girl!” he yells into the corridor as he swings the door open
you slap your hand right on top of his mouth. “your neighbors, you idiot!”
“oh, right right.”
he’s so dumb seriously
he lets you in and you go to sit on his bed, it’s more comfortable than his couch
“are you expecting anyone else?” you ask, plugging your phone in his charger. you haven’t seen joon in a while.
he thinks about it for a moment. “jungkook’s coming over in like 5 minutes.”
ah
lol
alright
well
perfect opportunity to see if the rumors are true, no??
he’ll break like a dam under pressure
he can’t even look you in the eyes. it’ll be a piece of cake
and then you get an idea to get tae OUT.
“ughhh, i’m really in the mood for some doritos.” you hope he’ll offer to go to the store so you can have a few minutes alone with so-called pussy king jeon jungkook
he shoots up from his couch. “i got some in the kitchen.”
fuck
new plan
you kiss your teeth with a loud smack. “do you have ice cream?”
he thinks about it. “i have a ben & jerry’s tub in the freezer.”
“what kind?”
“strawberry cheesecake.”
bingo
“ughhh, i was really craving some chocolate chip cookie dough.” you add a whine to your tone in hopes you can sell the act
“i’m pretty sure you can order some on uber eats.”
for fuck’s sake
how annoying
“it’s so much more expensive, though.” you try to reason with him
he frowns at you. “so, what do you want me to do?”
you flutter your eyes innocently at him. “will you go to the nightshop?”
he groans
loudly
“you want me to go there for a tub of ice cream?”
“i’m starting my period soon, tae. pleaseeee.”
your period actually just ended but he doesn’t need to know that
a loud sigh leaves his mouth. “alright.”
you blow him a kiss as he leaves through the front door, keys, wallet and phone in hand
not long after tae leaves, the doorbell rings
heart drops straight into your ASS
why are you nervous YOU WANTED THIS
why are you nervous IT’S JUST JUNGKOOK
you swing the door open and well..
there he is
jungkook is a bit startled
he definitely did not expect to see you here
“oh.”
you tilt your head to the side as the surprised sound leaves his lips
his pretty pink lips
the wide cupid’s bow and the double lip rings in the bottom right corner of his mouth
wait
what the FUCK are you doing
SAY SOMETHING DUMB BITCH!!!
“hi.”
… bitch.
hi. REALLY?
“hey,” he chuckles, big black eyes softly squinting at you as his lips stretch in a smile
if you knew him better you’d say that was … mockery.
but wow. that uhhhh was pretty hot
STOP THINKING
“is he here?” he asks, peeking into the seemingly empty apartment
“he’s picking up some snacks from the store. do you want anything?” you step aside to let him in
he walks in and kicks off his shoes
the moment he walks past you to go sit on the couch drives you up the fucking wall
cause he smells
so
fucking
good
“no, thank you.”
you shut the door behind him, wondering why now all of a sudden your heart is beating a mile a minute
he reaches for a controller but comes to an abrupt halt. “d’you mind if i play till hyung gets here?”
hyung
HYUNG
constant reminder that he’s younger than you. GRRRR
you chuckle and wave your hand at him in dismissal. “it’s not like you guys do anything different anyway.”
he glances at you for a moment before deciding not to comment and starting up the console, switching the channel to one of the hdmi slots
another stupid idea
you slowly approach the couch and sit next to him
his eyes slowly shift a few centimeters in your direction but they never reach your figure
he must find it weird cause you ALWAYS claim the bed
ALWAYS!!!
nonetheless, he starts up his video game
“what game is that?” you find yourself asking him something you’ve never given a shit about in your entire fucking life
why would you do that you dumb bitch😭
he slowly glances at you, eyes lingering on your face.
his eyes drop to your lips for a split second before he returns his gaze to the tv. “it’s an rpg.”
hm.
right!
you don’t know what the fuck that is
“what does rpg mean?”
to that, he frowns. this is the most you’ve ever talked to him and you wanna talk about final fantasy?
he answers anyway. “role-playing game.”
ha.
lol.
don’t do it
don’t you fucking do it
“ah. you into role-play, jungkook?”
FOR FUCKS SAKE
oh and the way you said his name YOU NEED TO BE SEDATED
he fully turns his head to you, a blank expression on his face. you can’t tell what he’s thinking at all
just as he looks like he’s about to answer, the front door swings open and it makes him scoot away from you.
….you didn’t even fucking notice he’d gotten closer
FUCK
taehyung appears in the doorframe with a plastic bag in his hand and his usual chirpy expression. “what did i miss?”
to..be…..continued???
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do you have any davris headcanons?
i saw this ask the instant it came in and i could not believe my EYES. trust when i tell you ive been typing FURIOUSLY in the meantime okay. okay headcanons. -dave has always been a little genderweird and vriska putting makeup on him when she was bored one night unlocked his third eye and now he cant stop putting red shit all over his eyelids -vriska has also always been genderweird and you can see where im going with this. -she steals his clothes ALL the time -he pretends to hate it when she gets her disgusting $5 perfume stink all over said clothes but you know he loves that shit (and she knows it too) -flaming bisexuals -once theyve been together for a while they are THE most "i am going to have the longest silent conversation with someone across the room you have ever seen in your life" -they both think they can read each other like a book but in truth its only about 60-70% accurate -the inaccuracies are always funny as fuck though and 9 times out of 10 its some entirely off the wall MADNESS due to their upbringings they think is entirely normal. the conversations that directly follow these revelations are legendary amongst the extended crew and every single one thats happened in a public memo has been screenshotted by basically everyone they know -speaking of which. i dont think they dm for basically anything ever. they either have conversations right in the GC (sometimes in the middle of other conversations, which karkat fucking HATES, especially when they flirt with each other) or they speak in person/over the phone. no in between -they flirt with each other all the time and its disgusting but its incomprehensible to literally everyone else. vriska tells dave she found some gnarly roadkill and sends coordinates and dave is like "babe stop not in front of everybody" -she used to send pictures too but that got shut down real quick and now thats really all she dms him for -i dont think vriska likes it for the same reasons dave does but he did absolutely get her into the weird and wacky world of vulture culture. dave likes the wet specimens the most but vriskas a fan of bones and taxidermy -speaking of which. this is more vriska/troll-centric but i love the idea of vriska being able to eat bones. dave gets the same schoolboy "oh my god this is so cool" kick out of it every single time -im well aware that music is a time thing but i genuinely cannot comprehend a world wherein vriska is not a music girlie. this definitely did a lot of the heavy lifting in The Early Days because when youre emotionally constipated sometimes you gotta let a song do the talking FOR you -vriska 100% introduced dave to crunkcore and he got way more into it than she ever did. he listens to 3oh3 religiously -dave samples vriska on his tracks all the time because she CANNOT shut the fuck up. he also likes taking pictures of her but even after years together he still kinda keeps those to himself and gets flustered when she finds one -man i just really love the idea of them being fucking obsessed with each other. they rag on each other ALL the time because thats just how they feel the most comfortable being affectionate but at the end of the day they snuggle up all soft and quiet and just enjoy being with somebody who understands how hard it can be to even allow that to happen in the first place -they ARE super casually affectionate with each other though, even in group settings. i dont think theyd like grand pda like kissing or saying 'i love you' in public but personal space just doesnt really exist for them. they hang off each other and sling legs over laps all willy nilly -they also stim on each other. dave likes to play with her hair while hes talking and vriska likes to play with his hands/fingers when shes bored this post is so LONG i could keep going for days. please always ask me about davris, especially if youve got more specific questions!!!
#homestuck#dave strider#vriska serket#vriska#davris#davevris#we8comic#ironies in the fire#q+a with vel#Anonymous#SORRY I KINDA WENT OFF#please everyone talk to me about davris For Ever
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i saw the words mark winters and like a spell cast over me i started thinking about him again. anyway mark winters hero and ashe villain in that villain oneshot. how does this happen. fucking EAsy. mark gives ashe up.
consider it. there has GOT to be some program with the WATCH for parents who are overwhelmed by their children's dangerous power and need help. this is basically what happened to william. there's gotta be different circumstances and different levels of interference- but ashe isnt even a teenager and he already has a kill count. there is NO WAY he's not being removed from the household for at least the majority of the year until everyone has a better understanding of what he can do and how he can Not Do That Again. in canon, of fucking course mark wouldnt do that. that's mark winters. he'd lose his entire family in less than a week and thats his kid. he cant be sure theyre taking care of him out there or if he'll see him again or whats going on. if ashe leaves, then what is there for him to live for.
but villains mark. hes still mark. he's still hurting. and maybe its not him who's got that heroic little spark- maybe it was his wife who thought they were cool, or he wakes up to ashe sobbing too many times after a nightmare, or he cant stop looking at that fucking book and hating it and he starts to worry that resentment will spread to ashe too. he wants what's best for his kid and the one thing he knows is that ashe won't find that here.
so he picks up his phone. and he calls WATCH.
its rough for both of them. theyve both lost their whole family now. they call every night, then ashe gets busy (because he has friends here, and every time some instructor is harsh with him or something is hard he resents his dad more and more. he knows why he was sent away, but it gets in his head that his dad was scared of him, and thats hard on him. why wouldn't he rather hang out with his friends) and stops picking up the phone as much so it's once a week. then once a month.
mark thinks about killing himself a lot. he lives in a shitty little apartment with horrible neighbours and he goes out to eat every night and he thinks about drinking but he has to stay sober tonight- what if ashe picks up the phone? he cant let his kid hear him like that. and i think he gets offered jobs here and there and he takes them because hey, ashe is gonna come back at some point. he's gotta make sure the kid gets a good present for christmas.
and he gets wrapped back up with overlord.
but the big difference okay. the huge difference. is that he is not responsible for keeping ashe alive. he can take more risks. he can hold grudges. he doesn't have to do the same things that canon mark does - he doesn't have to break his moral code down to its barest essentials (don't hurt kids) like he did in canon. he gets to be fucking PISSED at overlord, and the scientists who hurt him, and every motherfucker who has made his shit life even worse.
thats how he meets tide. they fight a few times, ofc, gotta have that tidalwave viciousness. but then tide has more information than mark does, and mark knows more about the power structures than tide does, so they start working together, and then they dont stop. mark does less and less crimes- tide is valuable as an ally, and his moral code is a fucking pain in mark's ass. he hides his crimes, and then it's more convenient to just stop doing them. tide more often than not has the resources that they need through WATCH and it means that mark gets his ass kicked less often. win/win.
even after overlord goes down, they keep working together. mark never officially agrees to join WATCH but tide quietly keeps giving him new gizmos and gadgets. he gets one of those weird fucking communicator bracelets and tide pretends not to notice how mark modifies it. in WATCH itself tide starts getting scheduled as "tide and wavelength" because where one fucker is the other is too. tide is mark's only friend.
fucking . the clinginess of villains au mark for tide paralleling the clinginess of ashe for the pd in canon ^^ consider. tide feels similarly too he's been lonely as Shit since he stopped getting along w his brothers. they find comfort in each other. they start having beers with each other after work and they start sitting next to each other all the time and they dont talk about it but things Do get more desperate every time one of them goes down in battle. tidalwave ‼‼‼‼
ashe, meanwhile, is getting more powerful. he has mentors who don't snap at him for using the book. they dont try to take it from him or destroy it. they let him keep notes, let him study it, let him learn what monsters are too dangerous and what he can handle. he's learning a lot and he's getting good at it.
and he misses his dad.
mark still calls sometimes, but ashe never picks up. mark sends him cards for birthdays and christmas, and ashe keeps them stashed away in drawers he's scared to look at. he is scared and angry and he is full of many emotions. canon ashe never had to doubt that his dad would help him but au ashe thinks that his dad abandoned him. he's a monster and his dad hates him. its a fuckin stack of dominos where things just fall into place to upset him more and more and more (including the guilt at never picking up marks calls and maybe its not marks fault. ashe Did kill his own mom. of course mark was scared. but ashe can control it now. ashe can protect mark from the book. he can leave, and they can leave, and be a family again and ashe will never have to think about WATCH ever again). so ashe runs away.
he follows the address on the letters and he walks inside and he doesnt see mark. he sees tide. he had been so relieved when he'd finally found mark's apartment- scared and guilty and excited and a thousand different teenage-drama scenarios running through his mind. his dad yelling at him or rejecting him or sweeping him up in this big bone-crushing hug or crying or running or- or- or. the one certainty ashe had was that he wouldnt have to deal with anything WATCH. not here.
but tide is on mark's fucking couch. and mark is asleep on tide's fucking lap. and tide's hand is in mark's fucking hair. ashe had never considered his father getting close to anyone after his mom, and now he's gotten close to tide.
now imagine a teenage tantrum with the power of Big Arms and Rage Without Direction and Abandonment and Hurt and Loss and Super fucking Scary Book. tldr: ashe tries to kill tide <3 mark tries to stop the fighting <3 ashe thinks that he's turned against him <3 tide gets capital h Hurt. ashe runs away again. mark is once again left in the ruins of his own life and just has to fucking deal with it.
#pd#pd villains#yeagh that oneshot made me normal#so does mark winters#its important that ashe isnt pure villain the way that mark isnt pure hero#to match the way they dont perfectly fit into either role in canon too#but it IS important that mark cant protect ashe and ashe cant trust him#because i said so#every time mark hears about ashe in the news it breaks his fucking heart#he doesn't give up on him he keeps trying to find him again#but ashe is full-teenage Angsting now#and doing really really shitty things to avoid both watch and his dad#he doesnt go Full Villain until he meets up with the pd team tho#something something peer pressure#hes having fun tho so its all good
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okay the monkees timeloop would go something like this: theyre filming an episode that they hate and they know will never air and its one of the most absurd theyve ever done and while the plot isn't very timeloopesque, a lot of the direction and the things that happen onset foreshadow what's about to happen. mike and peter are the only two who get stuck at first. theyre forced to relive the same of day of filming over and over . something something two musicians who didn't know what they were signing up for the most at war with the monkees phenomenon peter with his guilt abt being fake and his innate desire to make the monkees a real band and mike with his "im better than this shit" attitude and his strong belief that they will never be a real band . they try to tell micky and davy on multiple occasions but micky half believes them and davy is like stop fucking around and everything resets. they try again and micky believes them and he starts retaining his memories when it resets around and begins to experience the loop. mike and peter fight about telling davy because peter is certain the only way to break out is if davy joins them but mike is like no we gotta figure it out ourselves meanwhile micky is still recovering from a mental breakdown over this whole thing <- science nerd who doesn't believe in god or fate or any of that. eventually they tell davy. He's a) furious that he'd been excluded this whole time and b) shocked and amused that they hadn't figured out a solution already. peter starts to formulate the song do i have to do this all over again. mike/peter tensions are high throughout the whole thing but don't ever really get resolved. davy spends the whole loop bullying mike. micky eventually recovers and ends up having a ball on this bitch and leads them in finding the solution cos he eventually becomes the only one who's taking it seriously enough to fix it because peter has slightly given up and is on the verge of crying at various points. something happens that means they can finally break out but i haven't figured out what it will be yet. something kind of humiliating for them but also very heartfelt and by the end they're pretty close but it's bittersweet because it's implied that once they leave the set everything they went through together becomes a thing of the past and none of them know how to deal with it properly so while it has a lasting impact on their psyches and their relationships it doesn't actually fix anything . okay that's my vision thanks everyone for listening
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okay so i just got ps plus which has opened my world to a lot of new games. now some of you may know im a big shill for square enix. i love their games and have since i was like 6. so naturally i was super excited when i saw stranger of paradise in the games catalog, especially given its high rating on playstation.
im now 7 hours in and i gotta say, im quite happy i didnt spring the £70 that the game usually sells for. im actually kinda disappointed. a lot of the levels ive played have felt grand and ostentatious but so empty. theres these huge halls with nothing in them. it feels like a waste of the space.
i know that open worlds can be expensive and resource intensive so im not upset about that. however, i thought that given its not open world, it would give the artists and level designers more freedom to make the individual levels more solid and interesting. and some genuinely are! theyve nailed the forest location and bikkes cave. but every other level seems to be one of these towers with huge empty rooms with a little chest off to the side.
as well as this, jacks character just seems so... boring. there is no substance to him. i am supposed to align myself with this man who has one goal in mind that he doesnt shut up about. and 7 hours in, thats still all i know about him. or any of the group for that matter. in 15, whilst i know that reception to it was a bit mixed, part of what made that game for me was the banter between the team mates. you dont really get that here.
i also dont really care about 'killing chaos'. there is no real explanation as to what or who chaos is and we keep going back and forth on whether chaos is even real. i dont know and i actually dont care. i feel like the developers were trying to go for some big, crazy twists with this but its not really all that engaging or fun to keep arguing about this chaos thingy.
this doesnt really feel like an appropriate entry into the final fantasy franchise. maybe because it feels underdone and flat. final fantasy, to me, is about those big, bubbly, clashing characters and team dynamics and genuinely interesting worlds to explore. i feel a lot of this is missing in stranger of paradise.
i think the gameplay is really the only thing that holds this game up for me. the combat is fun and rewarding and i genuinely feel great after defeating a boss. if the gameplay wasnt as solid as it is, i think i would have stopped already. im having fun with the combat mechanics.
i would have been really upset if i paid £70 for this.
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What are the guild members weird/out of ordinary/embarrassing habits. I mean there’s gotta be something that Lime wouldn’t be caught dead doing, even Mochi can’t know about it. We know Mochi already collects weird shit but when she’s bored late at night does she play with her potion ingredients like dolls in elaborate complex soap opera plot lines?
im just imagining one of their classmates overhearing this one phrase as they walk by mochi in the halls and being like "........................huh?"
BUT !!!! hmmm.......to be honest i never really thought about this.... especially for mochi and lime, in my head theyve always been the type of friends that know everything about each other!!!! i dont think lime has anything he hides from mochi out of embarrassment or otherwise, its part of why he likes her so much is because he doesnt feel like he needs to keep up any kind of image around her!!! when it comes to habits/interests/etc, in his mind he figures "Well she already saw me at every single one of my top 10 most humiliating moments of my life, at this point theres nothing that can deter her (plus I have enough dirt on her that I dont have to feel bad about having any cringe interests)."
as for mochi.........she deadass doesnt think of that stuff. maam mochi was raised a witch, born to be an outsider, literally was not taught to give a fuck about what anybody thinks. ie, she does whatever she likes and figures "If they think I'm weird, I'm actually not, its just that I'm a witch!" even for things that are actually fucking weird even among witches. "Did you just....lick that fucking beetle?" murda says to her, and mochi goes "Huh? That's normal right?" "IT'S NOT!!"
even when it comes to lime, the same mentality applies!! even if she reflected back and thought "Huh, I did weird shit in front of him..." it would gradually become "But he hangs out with me anyway so I guess its okay?" (she asked him once if he though she was weird. he flat out gave her a "Yeah. Very." but then added he likes her better when shes being a weirdo than if she would try to be normal)
as for mochi playing around with her spell ingredients........i can 100% see her doing that. shes definitely the type to give them very unoriginal names like "Mr. [ingredient]" and uses magic to animate them. bonus points if lime walks in on her in the middle of act III, part II, and watches and/or joins her (throws in ridiculous plot twists and spin-offs and they start arguing if the young family he manufactured for Sir Moss is necessary to the storyline)
(the only thing they dont tell each other about/never talk about is love, for obvious reasons. theyre both nervous as fuck. also, neither of them have brought it up before so they both think after a while "Well they never talk about it so maybe I shouldn't ask..."
lime knows boys never ask mochi out. ever. he didnt want to bring it up if it was a sensitive subject for her (no one wants to talk about how no one finds them attractive, and he figures theres nothing he can do about it so he leaves it alone). same with mochi, she knows lime flat out rejects all the girls who come to him and is too afraid to ask why. she doesnt want to know the answer if its something like "Yeah I don't care for a relationship, period." shed rather live in delululand)
#lore#text#bpp#my best couple...#(clenches fist)#the only thing from lime is a beta from a looooong time ago#which is that young lime (13/14) had a thing for those anime cat girls#but i think mochi must know about that.....maybe...#maybe he never told her to maintain what dignity he had left#and fell out of it as he grew up and realized cat girls werent real#and then cat mochi............................(eyes emoji)#but i really think they have a very mikoshiba/nozaki level friendship where the most cringe of interests are normal topics between them
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a rollercoaster of fucking emotions
911 thoughts s7 e5
- HAND MAN
- alien hand ?? lmao
- hen and her knowlate 🫶🏻
- lmao pleasee they’re struggling so much lmao
- oh bucks being choked
- bobby 🫶🏻
- oh eddie… um
- HES CHOKING BUCK AGAIN ??? oh dear
- kinda funny… those poor guys
- HENREN 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻 MOTHERSSSS
- THEYRE GETTING A LITTLE GIRL
- i’m so excited this is aaaa
- NO WHAT 😭😭😭
- they’re ??? not ??? getting a little girl ????
- i’m devastated they can’t do this to me i was so excited why would they do this to me
- another girl ?? a nine year old :((((
- they’re the best chance :((( aaa
- THE DATE OH MY GOD
- HERE WE GO
- they’re going to a movie 🥹🥹
- evan.
- HES SO AAA
- the 118 was a regressive place… you did that ngl but it’s okay
- “i’m not lying” BUCK BABY
- “date with a dude” 😭
- A RAINBOE ON HIS INSTA HES SO CUTE 😭😭
- “i guess it’s just me that makes you nervous” IM GONNA AAAA
- HOT CHICKS buck stop ??? help
- SHES MOVING IN ??? HELP MEEEE NOOOO
- EW I CANT
- CLOSET SPACE “right evan” IM GONNA DIE
- he’s so awkward :(((
- “it’s mine”
- “i think you’re adorable but i don’t think you’re ready” IM SOBBING NO
- BABY BUCK NO PLEASE IM SNSOSBSKSBSSI I CANT DO THIS
- aaaa henren again 🥹🫶🏻
- the blanket is the only thing she has left :((
- hen understanding non-verbal i’m going to CRY
- denny is so sweet im aaaaa
- karen getting emotional me too babe
- THE TEDDY AAAA 🥹🥹🥹
- lied to eddie…
- BUCK
- a date…
- he’s not saying it…
- OUTNOF THE WAY
- “this person” he’s so 🫶🏻
- a MARRIED WOMAN IM SO
- “who it is isn’t the point”
- “HE”
- BACK GO THE PRONOUN
- IM AN ALLY BUCK STOP
- “more than an ally”
- “didn’t think that’s where you’re interests lie” eddie diaz
- CHEKC OUT A HOT GUYS ASS
- “EDDIES FRIEND”
- he came out to maddie… kinda im shaking
- THE HOT PILOT BAOSBSOSDB
- eddie and … her… ew
- IM GONNA DIE I CANT DO THIS
- STOP THAT
- i need him to find something dumb
- THE CACTUS “you’re kinda cool” he’s a loser i love him
- A NUN ??? NO WAY SHES ACTUALLY A NUN
- SHUT THE GUCK IP THATS SO FUNNY
- HES QUESTIONING HIS WHOLE LIFE
- IMAGINING HER AS A NUN I CANT IM CRYING
- karen 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
- oh the teddy bear:(
- mara are you okay :((
- oh she’s :(( poor baby :((
- buck at the stationnn
- EDDIE IN THE GYM
- GYM SCENE GYM SCENE
- “you are here early” buck you are literally so awkward
- a avoid not having sex ??? what
- CATHOLIC GUILT OH MY GOD YOURE DAY
- “SHE WAS A NUN” “oh”
- he’s so angry about her past as a nun im crying
- not the cross help…
- GO TO CAP 😭😭😭
- “you looked like you wanted to tell me something” uh
- hen and bobby time
- talk about mara :((
- that poor baby :(
- i hope she realises she’s safe she deserves it
- oh denny :( he’s so sweet i can’t
- karen kinda side eyeing her… don’t make me dislike you :(
- her blanket is her safety net 😭🫶🏻
- “this isn’t working out” NO YOU GOTTA MAKE HER SAFE
- i need this storyline to work out good it’s got to i need this
- BOBBBY TALKING TO EDDIEEE
- second thoughts about moving in BOBBY YOU ARE GOOD
- panic attacks mention
- a commitment phobe
- SHANNON
- demisexual eddie diaz i WILL have you one day
- “only you know that” but i don’t think he does tho
- go to confession hehe
- a dog attack …
- ARE THEY COMPARING A DOG TO THEIR FOSTER GIRL ??? STOP THAT
- they’re literally comparing a dog and a child i can’t
- and they’re vets now ???
- is this twice they’ve saved a dog
- dog :D
- they asked athena 😭😭
- “are you sure” oh my god i’m gonna cry aren’t i ??
- “i don’t want to be another name in a long list of people who failed her” 😔😔😔
- THEYVE ASKED MADDIE TOO
- her little voice oh my heart is breaking
- oh my god :(( mara you poor sweet baby i hope you get the love and safety and happiness you deserve
- i’m crying i can’t do this
- “she was afraid we weren’t goig to wake up” ILL SOB
- LOFT
- LOFT
- LOFT
- “she wants to know what i want for dinner” lmao
- DO I??? stay in the loft 🤭🤭🤭
- NOT WITH GOD WATCHING LMAO
- “i’m gonna have to break up with her” omg best idea you’ve had
- “you and tommy have the best idea”
- IT WAS A DATE
- OH SHIT
- OMG
- WE WERE ON A DATE
- “really?”
- “WAIT TOMMYS GAY” IS SO FUNNY ???
- not questinging buck but tommy 😭😭😭😭
- “is that weird” “NO ABSOLUTELY NOT”
- this do in t change a thing between us
- “he dumped me”
- HE CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HIM :((((
- “you should call him”
- ONCE HE GETS TO KNOW YOU
- i’m so happy aaaaa
- TURN AROUND AGBTHE DOOR
- VOME HERE
- HUG
- “call tommy”
- not them exiting with a parallel lmao
- hi eddie
- “heyyyy” hes so awkward
- dinner with her brother girl-
- HES SO AWKWARD STOP YOU LOSER I LOVE HIM
- “guy who needs a minute” eddie diaz im in your fucking walls
- DONT YET HER ILL KMS
- EW
- STRAIGHT EDDIE GET OUT OF HERE PLEASE
- “can’t wait to move out” me either LMAO ME
- karen my love 🫶🏻
- the blanket slowly coming down, like a barrier coming down
- “you’re safe here even if it doesn’t feel that way yet” :(((( AAAAAAAA
- SHE SPOKE :((( baby spoke im so proud of her im not okay
- CRYING RN
- BUCK ????
- did he call tommy 🤭🤭
- omg hiiii
- coffee date aaaa
- “mmm so not like that” LMAO
- “i would like to change that” aaa
- “i didn’t want to pressure you” AAAAAAAAAAA
- “i don’t know what im ready for but i am ready for something” i can’t do this
- “COME WITH ME TO MY SISTERS WEDDING” BUCKA AOSJDODBDDIS
- “evan.”
- HOLY SHIT
- DATE TO A WEDDING
- “i need someone to dance with” HOLY SHIT
- HUH
- STOP WEDDIGN ????
- EVERYONE STOP
- OH CLIFFHANGER
- BUCK AND EDDIE WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED
- 80s THEMED PARTY
- THE WEDDING IS THE CLIFFHANGER
- WHERE CHIM???
#what just happened#i need someone to shout at#bisexual evan buckley#911 buck#buck 911#evan buck buckley#buck coming out#i’m completely normal#911#eddie diaz 911#eddie 911#bucktommy#straight eddie scares me put him the fuck away#henrietta wilson#karen wilson#henren#hen and karen#911 season 7#911 s7 e5
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okay okay okay i gotta say some theory bullshit
in sunrise, it says "And as the weary hound, once more at its master's feet after so long", and the next line is also dog related (fur warming its fur, breathing its last) but is cerebus even in the scene pre-vault opening?
so what if ulysses was cerebus? and they were sent out as ashes' guard/dog to do things? and ashes assigned them jobs? and the final job ashes gave them was to fuck w the suits (and then eventually mechanise them but then they killed themselves)
- decimal anon °◦=͟͟͞͞ʕ̡̢̡ु•̫͡•ʔ̡̢̡ु ☏
oh this is such a cool theory! poor ulysses though - theyve got it so rough
- mod ismene
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Hello not so local character analyst may i ask you on your opinion on roswaals and beatrices relationship? Imagine finding out your homie has been chilling by your side all along when you thought theyve been dead for centuries
yo YO hello!! :O ok it took me a while to answer this bc i was like "man i want to think on this..." and then i ended up rewatching at Least one and a half season two episodes. (i DO actually like the english dub of rezero for the most part okay...... sue me... HAH)
but okay!!! beatrice and roswaal are characters that i feel like i dont know as well. but i adore both of them for the depth they have - i mean to this day i still feel like i dont 100% understand roswaal (i will eventually i swear. gotta get through all those side stories ljslfj) though i enjoy the absolute duality he has hah between showing he does care for others (LIKE BEATRICE.) vs um. insert all of arc 4 and all the body hopping bc that shit is insane for sure. but as for beatrice and roswaal specifically you put it super well - "Imagine finding out your homie has been chilling by your side all along when you thought theyve been dead for centuries". thats a HILARIOUS way of putting it lajsdlfjs but its true!!!
beatrice in the beginning of her story Basically has this little family with echidna and ryuzu and roswaal—echidna is her mother of course, and ryuzu and roswaal are almost like her siblings. roswaal though—because he has this. Odd relationship with echidna (because shes his tutor and she acts motherly towards him too but also Romantically. its. yeah we all know how messy that is), youd think roswaal and beatrices relationship would skew a little odd, but with what little screentime they have in their early days, ros and beatrice act pretty comfortable with each other? like you could easily compare it to subaru and beatrice—ros likes to tease her and shes a tsundere about it, but theres a clear fondness there!! it really gives off the energy that ros is like beatrice’s big brother? but you know. it doesnt Exactly last because of everything that goes down at sanctuary and in one fell swoop, beatrice essentially loses her three closest companions—ryuzu and ros and echidna—and, as we know, she goes to the forbidden library to wait for “that person”.
its a sad beginning to a story. beatrice thinks shes lost the people shes been closest with, and the people she essentially looks up to. with her personality and the fact that echidna is her mom, she was Absolutely the baby of the group. now shes stuck in a limbo almost, of Waiting. Alone. but—you know, ros starts doing his body hopping thing. and theres a certain detail about this that gets to me, which is—ros Definitely visited beatrice. over and over again. ros’s character wiki says that hes read every book in the forbidden library which. makes sense. he wants knowledge, his dear teacher loved knowledge, theres a convenient library right there connected to his dear teacher thats just in his house, etc etc—but the fact that hes read Every book in that library implies visiting the library Repeatedly.
because ros still stays fond of beatrice over the years— even as beatrice has grown increasingly closed off and abrasive bc of the situation with That Person shes waiting for, it seems like for ros he still sees her as the person he knew then, too. this is Probably added to with the fact that beatrice is an immortal spirit that looks the same no matter how much things change around her, but ros Still continues to think of her fondly time and time again. i think its similar to how he thinks of his teacher and how he wants to bring back the Original. he doesnt want her copies, he wants the person she was when she was alive—the person he remembers. and he remembers beatrice as the person she was when he was in his original body, i think. sweet and well meaning even if she pretends not to be.
for beatrice though—YEAH she thinks ros is dead. long dead, once time passes, and shes just seeing roswaal’s descendants pop up over and over again. its Gotta be haunting, knowing your dear friend is dead and has been for a while, but his children keep returning to visit and they all look like him. they all have his name. they all sound so similar and im Sure that they even act like theyre a little familiar with her. im sure that for beatrice its like seeing a Very Insistent ghost—and she most likely acts aloof with all of roswaal’s incarnations bc the emotions that would bring up would be a bit T^T overwhelming, probably. we see her act distant with roswaal through arc 2, for example—shes likely acting this way bc of 1. the aforementioned Haunting feeling of seeing your dead friend’s descendants and being So Close to your friend yet so far and 2. being distant with said descendants probably makes it less painful bc—no pesky emotional attachment when theyll be eventually replaced by another ros and 3. beatrice thinks these are all different people each time. as much as they look and sound and act like HER roswaal, theyre not her roswaal. so, in a way, both her and roswaal focus on “the original”… ros wants the original echidna. beatrice wants the original roswaal, not any of his descendants.
and another thing thats interesting is that when roswaal reveals the body hopping to beatrice at the end of arc 4–that he IS the original roswaal she knew—beatrice and roswaal look at each other and finally reunite and the anime specifically emphasizes it with this:
as you may already be familiar with, the anime uses this motif of characters looking at each other and Seeing the other person in their eyes to show that they TRULY see each other for who the other person is. and yes, of course ros sees beatrice because hes known her all this time for the past four hundred years. but beatrice? the reflection in her eye is roswaal’s original appearance, just as she remembered it. shes making the connection between her roswaal and all the other roswaals shes seen throughout her life and the fact that theyre all the Same Person. beatrice and ros foil a lot—beatrice looks the same, but shes undergone the drastic change of finally leaving the forbidden library. roswaal has tried to look the same over time, but hes also changed bodies and identities over time for his consistent goal of trying to bring back his teacher—beatrice’s mother. they have the similar weight of four hundred years of various Pains and seeing various people come and go and theyve both been Deeply affected by the same person (echidna of course) who has driven their actions for so long. theyre simultaneously older and younger than they look—beatrice still acts like the child she appears to be, but shes also simultaneously matured bc of her long lifespan and Suffering. roswaal, too, but hes still the same young man chasing after the woman who saved him physically and mentally. theyre two immortal characters who Now know that theyve been so near each other this whole time. even if beatrice didnt realize, ros was Right There. right near the forbidden library.
i think its interesting that its after 99% of arc 4 that ros chooses to tell beatrice that its always been him, the original ros, this whole time. im not entirely sure on Why roswaal waits until this moment, but i think its because now beatrice has left the forbidden library for good and shes Let Go of That Person. shes like a butterfly spreading her wings. and im sure with her distance towards roswaal’s various incarnations as well, she wasnt Exactly open to hearing roswaal out until Now. because now that shes a free and changed person and the two of them are finally seeing their echidna’s tomb, roswaal knows that she’ll hear him out now. he even talks to her about how she got out of the library too, and he iirc either assumes or asks if its bc subaru made beatrice his number one—but beatrice replies that no, thats not why. its bc she intends to make him her number one. which is something that roswaal can see and agree with bc echidna is his number one.
i think its also interesting that beatrice has ros kneel down so she can hit him, and bc ros has. an a bit of a Terrible image of himself and Knows hes done bad things, he assumes its bc of the terrible things hes done in both season 1 and 2. but beatrice replies that no its bc he burned down the forbidden library!! and i think its like. shes ultimately glad to have her dear friend back, and when you spend four hundred years with someone, thats a whole kind of Closeness of its own. and also just. she knows that roswaals lost already. but hah she had to get her bit of justice in for him destroying the library—bc even though she was mentally trapped in there waiting for That Person and wanting to die, it was still kind of her home. for four hundred years. and her mother was the one who put her there.
she also says later that ram has terrible taste in men which. HAH. well beatrice is aware shes been near ros for four hundred years and ros’s actions have hurt subaru especially, who beatrice is now close with. but i also really like that line bc its giving little sibling telling the person crushing on their sibling that they have shit taste akdndndn but no yeah beatrice is aware of roswaals misdeeds. shes aware about the damn body hopping. for crying out loud. but shes overlooking it a bit which is fascinating!!! not entirely sure why (could be just bc shes close with ros therefore she overlooks it near automatically bc of that) but i think the relief of my dear friend was here by my side all this time won out for sure!! we all know immortality is inherently lonely, and the inevitable loss that comes with life is Dialed Up bc of ur long lifespan, but now beatrice knows that she wasnt 100% alone.
roswaal was there for all those four hundred years. they are straight up the ONLY two people who can understand each other with their extremely specific shared history + immortality + complicated relationships with echidna parallels.
so. um. tldr: you know that trope of a character duo where one character is immortal and the other character keeps trying to find character 1 in each of their different lives/incarnations? HAH ros and beatrice are a weird version of that!!!
#rezero#beatrice#roswaal l mathers#this is so not coherent probably but HAH#i find both beatrice and ros incredibly interesting <333 like ros of course does. TERRIBLE SHIT. but HAH. he has layers ok. he cares about#people and he has these moments of softness and weakness and hes Very Human. super fascinating#however i do not think i am big brain enough to figure Both of them out 1000% yet but im trying for sure HAH#AND YES I DO LIKE THE REZERO ENGLISH DUB... I THINK ENGLISH BEATRICE AND ROSWAAL SOUND VERY NICE...#ok smth i didnt add in this post exactly is that one bit in arc 2 where subaru got accused of killing rem and ros briefly shows his. Power.#while beatrice defends subaru according to her contract.#i do not have much to add on that but thats definitely another interesting layer to all of this for sure.#and of course both ros and beatrices relationships with subaru <3#ask
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I'm so sorry guys. I really hope that our presence didn't attract any of the attention. We were really fucking careful, but we are known enemies of the council, so I'm so afraid that we might've invertedly helped start this somehow. I shouldn't have tried to come to this thing if there was any chance it'd hurt you or anyone else.
Look... my friend (is it okay if I just call him Mortimer? I feel like I'm going to keep bringing him up. I know that's almost 50 of the population's name, but most people I've met don't like the full version) is really fucking good at medicine. Bedside manner, nonexistant, but he knows exactly what he's doing and has a lot of experience working with limited supplies.
The problem is, well, can you imagine them handing out a medical license to a Morty around here? I think we're in a lot deeper shit than you, so it'd probably work out better if we just distanced ourselves, but, you know, if they're gonna treat you guys like criminals anyway... what's the difference? We're willing to help if you want it but we're not sure if our help will be more harm than good.
(we could also anonymously donate some supplies, but no guarantee on how those were obtained, so once again, don't wanna get you guys in deeper shit)
gotta be honest, i dont think you guys are the reason we got in so much trouble. theyve had their eye on us for a while now.
everyone is just gonna keep getting hurt anyway. the candlelight vigil is still going on, it should be easy to find because its right near our venue from yesterday. if you ask around, it should be pretty easy to find out where the people who need medical attention are staying. you and mortimer are more than welcome to come by, especially if youll be helping out.
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