#theyre doing choreography as we speak

[suncakeartcive]

smugs jocks and peppies have solidarity of learning those dances from music videos due to pure fixation

[silv3rswirls]

Silence

Pairing: Park Jimin/Reader

Summary: Afraid he’ll never be able to hear you say you love him again, Jimin breaks down.

Anon asks: It says on your bio that requests are open. And i was wondering if you could write something involving jimin and reader where hes sorta stressed and pressured about works and sorta calls them clingy and says like theyre loud and talks too much and if they’ve ever shut up. And then like reader gets into an accident and like loses their ability to speak. Sorta of like a ploy on be careful what you wish for. I’ll leave the ending to you ☺️ thank youuuu

Note: It feels like this took forever to finish! I really liked working on it though, and I hope you enjoy. Thank you so much for the request

Warnings: angst, unspecified injuries

Word Count: 2.9k

“Y/n, I said leave me alone!”

“But I just wanted-”

“I don’t care, I want to be alone!” Jimin snapped again, glaring up at you from where he was sitting on the sofa, phone in hand as he was once again going over the latest choreography. You weren’t sure how long he had been mulling over the video, over the mistakes he had caught as he danced. He had been a bit more sensitive than usual, stressed out about work as things seemed to be so hectic. He had already told you he wanted to be alone for a bit, and for hours you spent entertaining yourself until you decided to come by with a small snack and a warm drink for him. You thought he would’ve appreciated it, but his attitude seemed sourer than it was earlier.

You had set the drink and plate down, crossing your arms with a frown. Jimin looked tired but wound up pretty bad. “I know you’re really busy, but don’t you think it's best to take a break? You look horrible, why don’t you come watch a movie with me and just relax? I made you some-”

Jimin’s frustrated groan cut you off. Jimin pushed his hair back, rubbing his aching head for a second before slanting his glare back at you. “Can’t you just go away? You’ve been annoying me all afternoon! You were being too loud earlier and now you just won’t stop talking! I have a headache, just shut up!” You stared at Jimin, dumbfounded as he went on muttering to himself about how you were always like this, how you never knew when you just be quiet.

“I just…”

“I can’t do this Y/n, you’re just too clingy. Give me some space to think.”

Your face burned in utter embarrassment at how Jimin was speaking to you, but you couldn’t find the words to argue back. You already felt like crying, so you decided to just go for the night. Clearly, he wasn’t in a rational mood, so you slid your shoes on and grabbed your keys before heading out. You figured you’d go for a walk, give Jimin some time alone to cool off. Maybe you’d call a friend and stay with them until the morning just to be safe. 

“Are you going to apologize?”

Jimin quirked an eyebrow at Taehyung’s question, the two of them currently warming up for practice alongside Jungkook, who had quietly listened to Jimin tell what had happened last night. “Why should I apologize?”

“Well, if she hasn’t come home or contacted you since the fight, she’s probably really upset.”

“It didn’t sound like a fight,” Jungkook said, “You said some pretty mean things to her.”

Jimin shrugged, “you don’t get it, she’s always like that. She’s always talking and making noise, even when I ask her to be quiet. It’s like she doesn’t care if it annoys me.” He huffed, “and you guys have said it before, she is kind of clingy.”

“I guess…” Jungkook muttered, feeling a bit bad for Jimin’s poor attitude. Even if you were talkative or clingy, he believed Jimin was still a bit mean in his approach. “You still care about her though, don’t you?”

That caught Jimin’s attention, causing the man to turn and look Jungkook right on with a small frown tugging at his lips. “Of course, we just need some time apart. I’ll call her tomorrow.” He explained, “I still have a lot of work to do tonight.”

Taehyung hummed, “as long as you talk it out, but it’s better to handle these things sooner than later.”

Jimin had opened his mouth to say something but was cut off with Jin’s voice calling to him from the other side of the room. He looked over to the eldest, finding him standing near where he had dropped his things holding his phone. “Your phone’s ringing like crazy” he pointed out.

“Probably Y/n.” Jimin groaned, “I’ll call during the break, we’re starting soon.”

Jin nodded, leaving the phone aside while Jimin went back to warming up. Jungkook got up to join Hoseok and talk but was pulled away at the sound of his phone ringing lowly in his bag. He checked quickly, a bit surprised to find one of his friends calling. She was friends with you as well and you had met Jimin through her and Jungkook some time ago. Jungkook didn’t talk to her much anymore, just life and drifting apart, so he answered the call to see what she could want. “Hey- what’s wrong? What do you mean?” Jungkook nervously shifted his eyes to where Jimin and Taehyung were caught up in conversation. “Where is she?” Jungkook had gone to shake Jimin’s shoulder for his attention, looking down at him with eyes glazed over with worry and shock. 

“What is it?” Jimin tilted his head to the side slightly, furrowing his brows at Jungkook’s behavior. “Is that Y/n?”

“No- she’s...h-here.” Jimin took Jungkook's phone with apprehension before asking who he was speaking with. His heart jumped a bit at the sound of it being one of your friends, and while he wanted to believe they were just calling to tell him to apologize or something; he had a feeling something wasn’t right with their depressed tone.

“The hospital?” Jimin blurted in shock as your friend told him, “What kind of accident? Is she okay?” Jimin had stood, scurrying to grab his things and passing Jungkook his phone back.

“Jimin, is everything okay?” Namjoon asked, watching the dancer hurry out, seemingly ready to start running if needed.

“No, something happened to Y/n. I have to go.” Jimin didn’t wait around for Namjoon or anyone else’s response, as he was out the door and calling for more information.

Jimin sat nervously in the waiting room. His hands balled and picked at his clothes, his leg bounced on and off and he found it hard to distract himself with anything. He was waiting to see you, filled in on some details on what happened, but still struck with shock and confusion. Two days ago the two of you were laughing over lunch, last night he was yelling at you, and today he was sitting in the hospital. He tried to cheer himself up, the doctors said things could’ve been worse, that you were very lucky to come in the way you did. You would still need time to recover, small injuries here and there and then there was the matter of your voice. You were still asleep, but the damage was clear and they predicted you having trouble speaking- that was if you could even speak at all. Things were still unsure, it would be touch and go for a bit, but Jimin told himself that you weren’t really going to lose your voice. It would be unlikely, unbelievable- just plain cruel on fate’s part.

He hadn’t seen or spoken to you since that night and his nerves were on fire as he was directed to your room, where you were assumed to still be asleep. Jimin stood for a moment outside the door, trying to come up with what he should say, should he run to you as he wanted? Were you still upset with him, should he give you space? Should he ask how you felt or apologize immediately? Shaking his head Jimin opened the door, he would let things happen naturally, that was probably the best way for you. 

He crept in quietly, coming to your bedside and looking where you lay. He cringed, you were banged up pretty bad with bruises and cuts, even sleeping you looked exhausted with bags forming and your hair a mess, pushed lazily away in the rush of being admitted. Jimin sat down, the gravity of what was happening set in deeper. He waited there for a bit, just twenty minutes or so until you woke up. Your eyes fluttered open, squinting and darting around the unfamiliar room before settling on Jimin. You took a few moments, pushing yourself up while Jimin stood and came to your side. “Y/n?” he asked, voice hushed as his eyes searched you, struggling to read you.

You peered up at him, the realization of where you were setting in as your brow knit in concentration. Your lips parted to speak, but you stopped yourself for a moment, unsure of what to say. You were aching, in discomfort, and still sitting with a jumbled race of thoughts. And here was Jimin, your loving and caring boyfriend- your best friend standing before you. You should’ve been overwhelmed with happiness or something, right? Why was your reaction so lackluster? He was here for you, waiting for you to do something yet the last memory you have of him was his lashing out. Calling you clingy, annoying, wishing you would just shut up.

It made your heart hurt worse than any of your injuries. You opened your mouth to speak again, but the only thing you heard was haggard breaths that tried so desperately to form words. Again your brown knit in confusion and then your eyes filled with panic as again you were unable to call out to him. “Y/n it’s okay” Jimin tried to soothe, “the doctor will be here soon- something bad happened and your voice- I-I’m so sorry” Jimin sputtered, thoughts racing as he clicked again and again for the doctor, someone, to come.

And they did after a few moments. The doctor came and Jimin sat back down as he explained what was happening to you. Still, in shock you listened, nodding along now again as you took the information in. You could barely remember what happened after you left the apartment. To have it all told to you under these circumstances wasn’t ideal. The doctor left you, unable to talk and still processing until you felt Jimin take your hand in his. “It’s a lot,” he said, “are you okay?”

You stared at him for a long moment before shaking your head and pulling your hand away. There were so many emotions running through your mind. Anger, confusion, fear, resentment. You remember very clearly how Jimin had treated you and despite the circumstances, you still felt a swell of sadness sitting heavy in your chest. You searched for your phone, but couldn’t find it so you swiped a pen and notepad from the bedside drawer. With shaky hands you began to write to Jimin, unsure of what to say but fueled with newfound anger. Anger towards Jimin or what was happening right now? You weren’t entirely sure. 

Looks like you got what you wanted.

Jimin’s face turned in confusion.

You wanted me to shut up. Here you go.

His face grew red. “Y/n I- I’m sorry, but you can’t possibly think I wanted this?” Your head remained turned from him. “You’re kidding me, right? Do you think I wanted this?”

It was clear how annoying you thought I was.

“I was just frustrated- I’d never want something like this. I’d never want you to get hurt in any way! Don’t think this Y/n- don’t think anything I said was true- it wasn’t, I love you!”

You rolled the pen in your hand, frustrated that you couldn’t shout back at him. It wasn’t fair. So what if he was frustrated, was that an excuse for how nasty he had been? It wasn’t. Just because you were hurt you’re supposed to forget it even happened? Hell, would you have even gotten hurt if he hadn’t been so mean that night? You weren’t sure if that was fair. To hold that thought above your image of Jimin. To point the blame at him for this happening, but you couldn’t help it. You were angry, still hurt.

Can you just give me some time alone?

Jimin gave you a look that said he didn’t want to leave, pleading eyes that asked you just to take a moment and listen to him, but you didn’t feel like listening. You were tried, mentally and physically and you had barely begun to let all your thoughts and feelings sink in. Jimin only sighed, getting with painstaking slow movements until he reached the door. He looked back to you, telling you that he loved you and that he would come back tomorrow afternoon.

So you were left to sit alone, pondering over your current situation for the rest of the night.

You followed the same routine for the next few days they held you in the hospital. Jimin came in the afternoon and spent hours with you. After some time to think and cool down, you had warmed up to him again, smiling and talking the evening away. Your friend had recovered your phone and brought it to you, so instead of scribbling in the notepad, you took to texting Jimin instead. It was easier, but you weren’t content with it. Over time your voice could come back, or it could stay damaged. It was a chance for either or, which left Jimin happy and optimistic, while you were stuck. It was hard not being able to express yourself through words. It was discouraging every time you opened your mouth to speak only to remember your situation. When you were finally discharged from the hospital Jimin had taken you back home, where you remained in bed most of the days.

Jimin had to keep going with his schedule, thankfully it wasn’t too packed at the moment. He tried his best to cheer you up, spark your optimism for the situation, but you were despondent to most of his attempts. He understood it would take time, but he wanted things to be the same as they were before the fight. Everything had been perfect until his outburst. To know that the last thing he said to you was that you were too loud and clingy hurt. It filled him with immense guilt.

“Y/n?” Jimin whispered one night, laying stiff beside you. Your back was turned to him while he had been staring at the ceiling for the past forty minutes or so since laying down for the night. He felt you shift, turning over to look at him, still wide awake. “Do you really think I meant what I said?” He listened as you rustled around for a second, searching for your phone, so he grabbed his as well to wait for your message.

I know you didn’t, but it still hurts.

Jimin reread the text a few times, lips pursing slightly as he tried to formulate his next words. “There isn’t a single excuse for what I said to you.” He spoke just above a whisper. “I shouldn’t take bad days out on you. You’re not clingy I just- I love you for you and…” You could tell by the shake in his voice that he was tearing up, so you scooted closer to him, taking his hand in yours. “You haven’t told me you loved me since everything happened and I just want you to know that it’s okay if you don’t love me anymore.” 

Of course, I still love you.

This is all just so hard. I’m sorry I can’t just bounce back for you. 

Jimin sniffled, rolling onto his side so that he faced you. It was dark in the bedroom and you couldn’t tell if he was crying or not anymore. His hands met your face, cupping your cheeks. You shivered a bit, his hands cold, but you leaned into his touch. “I just want to hear you say you love me one more time” he broke down, stray tears sliding down his face and his voice cracking. “I want to hear your voice. I-I hate how quiet it is now. It’s not fair, you don’t deserve this!” Days of guilt hit Jimin like a tidal wave, washing away any act that things were going to be okay. Things weren’t okay. He never thought he would ever yearn so badly to hear your voice. How could have ever thought he wanted your silence? This was nothing less than torture upon you and him. 

You mustered a smile, blinking away your tears as you moved to embrace Jimin, who curled into your warmth and grasped at your back as if you were going to leave. “Y/n, I love you.” He murmured, “I’m sorry, I love you” he repeated, though quieter, to himself.

You pressed a kiss onto his head, hugging him tighter as you did. You wanted to tell him that it was going to be okay, that the two of you would get through it somehow. You wanted to tell him you loved him, but you couldn’t. So you just held him throughout the night.

[insomnihan]

han’s Entire Thoughts & Feelings on Dreamcatcher’s “BEcause”

WE ARE F UCKING UNDER ATTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there are no read mores here so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ALRIGHT SO-

THE SONG WHERE DO I START WELL- I SAW A COMMENT SOMEWHERE THAT WAS LIKE ‘THIS HAS GOODNIGHT CREEPINESS WITH RED SUN ESSENCE’ WHOEVER THAT WAS YOUR BRAIN IS GINORMOUS™ AND WRINKLY- IF YOU LISTEN TO IT THE SLIGHT SUMMER VIBE IS TOTALLY THERE YET THE PIANO AND THE HARP (MAYBE I DUNNO BUT WHAT I DOONO IS THAT IT SLAPS) THE PRE CHORUS BUILD UP FAST AS HELL THE DRUMS ARE FAST AS S HIT THE CLOCK IS SO CREEPY THE GUITAR IS JUST ASDFFJGHLHKL;;’ THE DOUBLE TIME DURING DAMIS RAP THAT WAS LITERALLY™ AN ATTEMPT TO TAKE MY LIFE (they were this 👌 close istg) AND THEN THE BRDIGE…………………… SOMEONE TAKE THE WHEEL-

AND THEN THEIR VOICES POWERFUL AS ALWAYS AND THAT F UCKING DISTORTION S HIT DURING ‘FOREVER LOVE AND FOREVER MINE’ IS ACTUAL DR*GS- i dunno what it is but the instrumental being like that and then (to me anyway) theres such a sweet undertone (???) in how they sing and then knowing the lyrics likE I KNOW THEYRE OBSESSED- B O I DO I MISS A FAST DAMI RAP P L E A S E I FEEL LIKE SHES THREATENING ME I LOVE THAT PSYCHO NOISE B ICYJ- THAT BRIDGE IS F UCKING CRAZY SIYEONS AND HANDONGS AND YOOHYEONS GENTLE VOICES AND THEN S U A!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUREALLYGOTTACOMEOUTOFTHELEFTGODDAMNFIELDWITHTHATICANTSTANDYOUHOWDAREYOUJUSTAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hello hello for the dance section i will be using THE mcountdown performance yEAH THE ONE POSTED BEFORE THE ACTUAL MV/ALBUM DROP- FIRST OF ALL THE INTRO sorry i have to talk about this theyre so creepy and doll like and jiu is so menacing lIKE WHAT THE F UCK IS THAT (someone answer me what iN THE F CUK did she feed yoohyeon)- NOW ANYWAY I HAVE THINGS TO SAY ABOUT THE ACTUAL DANCE-

OFF THE BAT THE MIRROR INTRODUCTION IS *CHEFS KISS* and then gahyeon choking jiu?????????? LORE????????? IN CHOREOGRAPHY?????????

LISTEN. L I S T E N. ALL OF THEM LIFTING YOOHYEON AT 1:29 LIKE THATS INSANE AND SO FITTING FOR THIS SONG AND VIBE plus yknow………………… handong doing a lot of the lifting………… 👉👈

this specific video doesnt show it during suas verse (which is like Rude™ but fine they show it elsewhere obv) but when shes singing and the rest of them are dropping down slowly………………… yeah-

THE CHORUS EVERY👏SINGLE👏F UCKING👏TIME👏 LIKE THE POSE THEY DO FOR ‘BE’?????????????? THE POWER AND THE GENIUS™ OF IT??????????????????????

DAMI UNHAND ME UNHOLY DEMON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the bridge…………… the rocking from side to side…………… whatever the f uck handong and yoohyeon are doing…………… it was almost like sua was controlling everyone right like deadass im scared-

THE DANCE BREAK PLS LET ME BREATHE

the ending with everyone bowing but gahyeon…………

BICTH……………… BICHY- THE VISUALS JUST KEEP LEVELING THE F UCK UP THATS LIT RALLY INSANE I LOVE THAT FOR THEM- the moment that mystery code was revealed and we were getting demented creepy carnival i waS V I B R A T I N G™ WITH EXCITEMENT the creepy scenery of the  dark hotel lobby and the rundown carnival with the merry go round and teacups AND WITH A CULT and the hallway with the mirrors and the lights (like the use of SO much red and green……… the symbolism………) JUST EVERYTHING IS SO F UCKING ABANDONED AND S HIT- THE LITERAL MIRRORING AND DIMENSION S HIT WHAT THE F UCK!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT CREEPY ASS ROOM WHERE THEY KIDNAPPED GAHYEON IN AND SIYEON WAS ACTING ALL TWITCHY OR WHATEVER WHAT WAS THAT-

TIME TO SHOW WHICH SCENES I LIKED

THE WHOLE GODDAMN THI-

(jk ☺️)

OFF THE BAT GAHYEON MAIN CHARACTER I KNOW THATS RIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

…………………… i just wanted to put this here-

i just wanted to put this here too-

HOW DID YOU EVEN GET HERE

id like to think that the real handong is one getting dragged away and the one standing is the doppelganger (for Plot™ purposes)

W H A T T H E F U C K

I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY OTHER THAN IM SCARED-

G OD WHAT IS HAPPENING HERE THIS PART WAS SO WEIRD WHAT DOES THIS MEAN WHAT DOES IT MEAN

HELLO??????????????????

yeah sure let me take this apple from this broken mirror where another me lies within the walls of this creepy hotel anD EAT IT

W E L P-

………………………………… F-

T H E M

I DUNNO HOW IM BREATHING RN-

JIU

whaT IN THE F UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS SCENE IN THIS SCREENSHOT IS ALREADY A LOT the way she looks seemingly unassuming and harmless in that reception desk that brown and white outfit (is her hair in like………… pigtails???) and then the smile to the instant glare you jusT KNOW youre gonna d*e in that place- MAAAAN BANGS OR NO BANGS SHES STUNNING EITHER WAY AND THATS SO RUDE………… the white dress and those red ACTUAL TALONS will be the d*ath of me

SUA

if i counted correctly she had three (3) different outfits??? outside of the dance ones??? white and red then black and purple then that green and black one??? i think of all of those i really like the red and the green one theres SOMETHING ABOUT THEM i think the green one with the big puffy sleeves more NOT BC ITS MY FAVORITE COLOR I SWEAR the green looks silky and then she also has the thing on the side of her face the pearls in her hair- AND THEN THAT RED ONE with the white sleeves and the frilly collar dude whAT THE F UCK LIKE I KNOW WE SAW IT A LOT BUT I WANNA SEE MORE THO……………

SIYEON

OKAYOKAYOKAY LOOK- THIS OUTFIT IN THIS SCREENSHOT I FEEL LIKE I SHOULDNT LIKE IT YET I DO????????????? two completely different looking patterns that animal print and the strips and then that big ass belt (???) around her waist like this shouldnt be like a GOOD look i dont think……… truly only She™ could make this look work 😔😔😔 i got A LOT A LOT to say about the red and orange plaid crop top and skirt with the different colored clips in her head but the only thought going through my Dumb of Ass Stupid Brain™ iS HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA-

HANDONG

HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY NATURAL BLONDE BELOVED this white dress and the BLACK BOOTS AND THE CHOKER SHE BETTER S TOP- AND DO NOT I REPEAT D O N O T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SPEAK TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ON THAT SHORT WHITE DRESS WITH THE WHITE BOOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHOEVER STYLED HER YOU DONT CARE ABOUT ME AND THE OTHER HANDONGISTS YET I ALSO LOVE YOU SO MUCH the one with the pink dress dont talk to me dont approach me donT EVEN F UCKING LOOK AT ME IM GOING THROUGH A LOT RN

YOOHYEON

im really Dumb of Ass™ i thought that one pink and (maybe???) super light blue dress had a clock on it- BUT MOVING ON FROM THAT the space buns and whatever those accessories those are and the pink makeup this is sO- then the white dance outfit with those (mesh??? lace??? i just know that its see through-) sleeves and those big ass earrings THAT LOOK AT 2:24 the boots (yeah i gotta mention that first since i just ALWAYS have to mention them) the white blazer all those pearl long ass necklaces and whatever that is on the side of her face why do her visuals HURT SO BAD-

DAMI

bicth…………………………………… B I C T H- WHAT HAS THIS WOMAN BEEN DOING??????!!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!??!??!?!?! THIS OUTFIT IS SUCH AN ATTACK I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT THAT IS ON HER FACE THIS WHOLE LOOK IS SOMETHING ELSE™ her tattoo 🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵 that bottom part of her hair is kinda clapped tho honestly- the pig tails?????? braids?????? in the dancing part on the black and white tiles IM DOWN YALL IM DOWN SO BAD AND ITS F UCKING RUDE™ THAT WE DONT SEE S HIT OF THAT DRESS AT THE END-

GAHYEON

IM GONNA SAY IT AGAIN LEE👏GAHYEON👏MAIN👏CHARACTER👏I👏KNOW👏THATS👏RIGHT👏👏👏👏👏👏👏!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS RED HAIR IS A BLESSING (especially in that high ponytail i-) SHE IS ATTACKING ME BUT YKNOW WHAT THATS OKAY- im SURE theres a plot significance to her two different dresses the mostly black and the mostly white but my brain can only register WOMAN PRETTY that white one in particular…………… the choker with her hair up and those boots…………… i saw it clear as day and im d wording over it-

BONUS TIME: B-SIDE TRACKS (thoughts and parts i liked)

Intro

i usually expect the intro to be like SUPER HYPE AND INTENSE yknow which it kinda is! however it is consistent that it fits very well and captures the overall vibe of the entire album the calm beginning with the bell like were walking into an establishment and at the halfway point it picks up its intriguing and the ‘i like you’ adds a subtle eeriness that adds just enough to make one wanna continue listening its v good 👌

Airplane

LISTEN……………… LISTEN- this is the VERY LAST genre i expected out of this group YET im not even a little bit shocked that they did this like this cutesy izone-esque summer bop of a song is a DREAMCATCHER™ song……………… YALL- THE AMOUNT OF SEROTONIN THAT ‘AIRPLANE LALALALALALA~~~~~~~’ BRINGS IS SOMETHING SO PERSONAL THIS SECOND GENERATION SUMMERY ASS INSTRUMENTAL WHAT IN THE F UCK- I FEEL LIKE IM RUNNING ON THE BEACH I FEEL THE COLD WIND OF THE WATER BUT THE HEAT OF THE SUN AGAINST MY SKIN AND IM PLAYING WITH A DAMN BEACH BALL WITH A COCONUT DRINK (I F UCKING H*TE LEAVING MY HOUSE) JIU AND DAMI SOUND SO F UCKING PHENOMENAL

Whistle

im pretty firm on believing these b sides represent different times of a summer day and this is the late evening or twilight like not nighttime but CLOSE- i thought i wasnt gonna like the whistling part but that only makes it catchieR THIS SONG IS MAKING ME YEARN AND TRYING TO RECALL LOVELY MEMORIES I DONT EVEN HAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then again……………… theres always usually a song on their albums that make me unlock and feel hidden emotions………… THIS SONG GOT ME MISSING A PERSON THAT ISNT REAL this is such a mellow yet so powerful in the way they sing and express each syllable- they all did so good on this song but i gotta mention dami again for her part like oH mY gOoOoOooOoOOOooOD

Alldaylong

JIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the way this song was inspired by a hug jiu got from yoohyeon…………… THIS IS NOT A JOKE she said ‘i wanna try city pop’ anD SHE DONE DID IT- i have NO IDEA how this song managed to hold so much joy and light happiness in every word and instrument used in this but im :ccccccc i literally wanna hug someone after listening to this 😔😔😔 this also makes me yearn for something but at least this one isnt unrealistic or unobtainable i dont think! there are some songs out there that make me cry from its lyrics and its sound but THIS ONE the lyrics and just how happy this song is bro reading the lyrics im about to cry for like the fifth time- they who im love so much… :ccccccc doesnt it make you just wanna hug someone and tell them you love them????????? that you appreciate them??????????

해바라기의 마음 (A Heart of Sunflower)

i knew FOR A FACT FOR👏A👏FACT👏 that they were gonna have a ballad for this album bc road to utopia didnt have one i will admit i was one of the 🤡 that thought jiu would be credited on this song 😬😬😬 ANYWAY- AGAIN WITH THE DAMN YEARNING FOR SOMETHING BUT THIS TIME IM F UCKING SAD AS S HIT why must this song be so powerful to make me emotional before i even got to read the lyrics to fully grasp it……………………… now im truly yearning in the Sad™ way and waiting for some imaginary person who i dont even know will even come back…………………… those damn adlibs are pretty as hell it was sua (and i have to mention dami again okay shes really killing it on this she woNT LET ME LIVE-) who got me feeling this the most like yeah…………………… i am a fool…………… im a fool for loving and missing someone who just disappeared from my lifE G O D D A M N IT-

LIKE this is COMPLETELY surprising album BUT IN THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE as its described it really is a ‘special’ album as while the title track still has their music style and sound theres still an element of summer (a very Terrifying™ summer BUT a ✨Summer✨ album nonetheless) like the b sides are SO different and COMPLETELY caught me off guard when i listened to the highlight medley YET this group of seven amazing and talented women pulled it off!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! its extremely obvious at this point that their steady and organic growth has grown VERY HIGH this time and (although im still very confused by how everything was released and announced BUT i digress) this different kind of method in performing the song the day before seemed to work?????????? I DUNNO WHAT TO SAY ANYMORE this section could literally be summed to just I LOVE DREAMCATCHER SO MUCH 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

IN CONCLUSION: LISTEN TO THIS ALBUM BECAUSE ITS BOMB AS F UCK

AND AS ALWAYS

[bionic-penis]

Here it is! Before we get into it I'd just like to say that I sent this all in discord and so i dont use the most academic language and i also had to cut out some bits where I was speaking/replying to friends :)

Okay so maybe Yang and Blake are just good friends, I can see that, but the storyline and all their major character events are so intertwined that it wouldnt make sense not to make them a couple

Spoilers for literally everything

But in my defense its been seven years

Anyway Yang and Blake's stories dont start getting seriously interconnected until around volume 3, but we do see them being closer to eachother than the rest of team rwby (save for Yang and Ruby but they're sisters so it doesnt count)

When Blake is stressed out over the White Fang in Volume 2, it takes Yang to snap her out of it

Also a lot of people have mentioned this but I'm gonna say it again for those who havent heard it but colours and weapons matter in rwby. They're a key element in the show

ahem

Colours play a big part in the design and storytelling aspect and rwby and its no coincidence that Yang eyes are purple and Blakes are yellow, which are eachothers like signature colours outside of Blakes black

But even more than that is weapons

As we learn from Ruby in the first Volume, a lot of students make their own weapons and, as it is constantly reiterated, weapons are an extension of the self in RWBY. They're not just a tool to be tossed around

In the show we see little instances of people interacting with and using other peoples weapons. There's that one scene where Ruby uses one of Penny's swords to defend Pyrrah, but that was out of necessity. however, over and over again we see Yang interacting with Blake's weapon, Gambol Shroud

As someones mentioned before, an entire moveset of theirs is dependent on it

So it's clear that these two characters are incredibly close

Moving on from that point, Id like to analyze the incidents thst occur in volume 3 and following events that further Yang and Blakes connection

In volume 3 after Yang "breaks" Mercurys leg due to Emeralds illusion, she sits in the dorm room surrounded by her teammates, yet the scene singles out Yang and Blake. When Yang asked if they (her team) believed her, Ruby and Weiss are ready to say yes, but Blake hesitates. Yang and Blake then share a moment where Blake explains that shes trusted people before who turned out to be cruel. She asks Yang to look her in the eyes and tell her that she (Yang) is telling the truth. Yang does so and Blake believes her this level of affirmation from one another is so unlike the rest of Team RWBY and even Team JNPR

Ofc in the dorm scene the person Blake is talking about is Adam, her abusive and possessive ex. Obviously your relationship with an abusive person effects any and all interactions/relationships, regardless of their extent, but I think it bears mentioning

Continuing on in the events of volume 3 when Beacon is being attacked and Blake is confronted by Adam, he has her pinned down and says something along the lines of "I am going to destroy everything that you love". Unfortunately this is when Yang happens to stumble into the scene. Horror is prominent on Blakes face. Yang sees Adam over Blake and yells at him before charging forward, which is when Adam cuts her arm off. It's a very emotional scene imo. Blake then uses her semblance to get her and Yang to safety

So let's analyze this

Adam specifically singled Yang out

Ofc yang was the only one there at the time but Adam didnt say "starting with your little teammates" he said "starting with her". Ofc this could just be me cherrypicking but I think that word choice has meaning

Regardless, this is an intense moment for Yang and Blake that really welds their stories together, romantic or not

In volume 4 Yang and Blake take a break from one another-- Jk but theyre separated. After the events at Beacon, and especially after what happened to Yang, Blake runs. And we get to see both women dealing with this and trying to come to terms with it. Yang is bitter. She's angry that Blake, specifically, left her. And Blake feels like she had to run away to keep everyone, specifically Yang, safe

In Volume 5 we dont get much interaction at all between Yang and Blake aside from the same feelings represented in Volume 4, but these are put on the back burner for Blakes White Fang arc

However these feelings take a forward play in Yangs mind and she even voices these feelings to Weiss and Ruby

I take a deep breath

Volume 6, Blake and Yang are together again but tensions are high. They have to learn how to be together again. When Blake and Yang finally have alone time in the shed, Blake expresses how she won't leave, which comforts Yang. However, Blake continues on to say how she will protect Yang to which Yang gets mad and the moment is ruined.

Despite this, Yang and Blake are still going strong and trying to make things work by being there and supporting each other

Yang and Blake's arc for Volume 6 reaches its peak in the fight against Adam. In this fight we see both women fighting the actual source of their trauma. One thing id like to note about this fight is that Blake starts it alone but is joined by Yang, who tells her to catch her breath. This fight is the first major fight Blake and Yang have fought together in a long time. And its amazing. During the fight, Adam screams at Yang in anger and jealousy, asking "WHAT DOES SHE SEE IN YOU?" And saying that she (Blake) cant protect Yang to which Blake replies "I'm not protecting her. And she's not protecting me." MIRRORING the conversation in the shed

the fight ends with Yang and Blake stabbing Adam through with Gambol Shroud, killing him

Now theres some little things id like to point out with this fight, aside from the amazing chemistry between Blake and Yang and the awesome choreography

Its during this fight that we learn about Adams semblance (magic power basically), which is that any hit he absorbs with his sword, he can return with greater force. This is a corruption of Yang's semblance, where any hit she takes herself she can return with greater force

Now why do I think this is significant? Because rwby is all about symbolism. I think Adam's semblance was specifically chosen to mirror Yangs. Adam doesnt have to deal with pain, he just deflects it, which is how his relationship with Blake plays out. She tries to let him off easy, she tells him to leave her alone, but he just can't take the hint, just like he can't take a hit. However, Yang does take the hits. Yang takes them all and it makes her stronger. She empathizes with Blake and works with her. Adam doesnt have to deal with the pain his actions cause because he doesnt care. This reflects Yangs extremely empathetic personality. Yang knows what consequences her actions can have. She can take the pain

Another thing id like to point out is Adam's behaviour during the fight. He lashes out as Yang for getting in between Blake and him, blaming her for his flaws. He targets her just like in Volume 3. I think this was done purposefully

Another thing is Yang runs Bumblebee off the cliff to help Blake! Her bike! I think this is important bc yang loved her bike. It was part of her brand for the longest time. Perhaps running it off the cliff in the fight vs Adam is a nod to growing by letting things go? Idk I just feel like its an important beat

In Volume 7 we see Yang and Blake working together more regularly again with even a few flustered glances (maybe). Marrow even mentions that they never pair up with anyone else to which they respond with a cool fight scene this feels like the extent of their interaction since Volume 7 focuses more on ruby

Volume 8 isnt finished but there is one line that I think is important which is when Yang asked Jaune if "she'll think bad of me if we fail?" To which Jaune responds "Ruby's your sister" and Yang says "yeah... Ruby..." LIKE EXCUSE ME?

[I take some time to riff with my friends and partner before continuing]

ANOTHER THING

Adam BREAKS Gambol Shroud during their fight, mirroring how Yang, once again, works with Blake and Gambol Shroud. This is yet another example of Adam being violent and abusive towards Blake where Yang is sympathetic and kind. Theyre set up to be narrative opposites

Even though both Adam and Yang are both hot heads, utilize a similar semblance, and both have a deep connection with Blake, they are not the same bc Yang trusts and appreciates Blake while Adam does not

Also Adam and Yang both share the same sentiment of "Blake left me" but whereas Adam lashes out at Blake, Yang is mostly frustrated. Unlike Yang, Adam never attempts to work it out with Blake, which is where the two differ greatly. Yang is willing to listen whilst Adam is not

TLDR: uh give me Bmblb content right now Roosterteeth or I will suck the marrow from ur bones

[gaymergals]

31-35

((thank u for choosing literally the best ones to ask lmao))

31. What is your OC's go to dance move?

((Ritu has her own special style of dance that's made up of 25% tiktok dances she's seen other people do online, 50% freestyle that is surprisingly good and incorporates a lot of pop/r&b music video choreography influence mixed with some real funky original moves she's invented, 20% feverish skanking that no one remembers teaching her but seems to just be her default state of movement above sea level, and the last 5% pure unadulterated Groove, but she would insist its a very important 5%))

32. Your OC has access to a boat and 5 million dollars, now what?

((depends on if its a riverboat or a Real Big Boy Boat; the former has her bringing the Moonlighters and Marie on a fun all-inclusive riverboat adventure down the missouri river till theyre on the ol mississippi bringing them all the way down to New Orleans to eat themselves to death and get to see all the cool parades Ritu has heard are very fun. Can you tell Princess and the Frog is one of her favourite Disney movies? If its a big boy ocean boat, the squad's gettin dragged down - with all the high-end tech needed for non-sea dwellers to make the trip - to the rural ass-end of nowhere outskirts of Atlantis to meet Mr & Mrs Savalani, Marie is long overdue to meet her future in-laws.))

33. Your OC accidentally dyed their hair purple,

now what?

((Are we sure it was an accident? Because it sounds very plausible tbh. If anything I think they'd be excited to try a new look.))

34. What would your OC's reaction be if there was a giant dog that came to them with a huge bone as the dog wags their tail in excitement?

((OH WE THROWIN THAT BONE BABEY. Ritu LOVES a good pupper, all land animals are her favourite animals, but dogs especially share many of her excitable qualities and she would feel confident calling herself a "dog person" - just dont tell Marie and sweet little Fae Fae, as much as Ritu loves the cute little kitten who shares their apartment, Fae Fae is certainly a handful, and seems to love using Ritu's braids as a scratching post))

35. A frog appears out of nowhere and starts to critize their life choices, what does your OC do?

((this is the best case scenario in terms of having your life choices criticized tbh. Ritu would 100% listen in rapt attention, maybe take notes, and also ask several questions of her own; namely how it learned to speak and if it would consider coming to live with her and Marie and be studied for the advancement of science, and if it would like to be friends.))

[minijeong]

can you go more into what makes yena a smart dancer/what textures are and how she used them in the vampire opening? i know nothing about choreo but i love reading your thoughts and insights on it!

ya no worries! literally all i talk abt is dance anyway so i never mind explaining

sometimes dancers look like theyre super light, sometimes heavy, sometimes like they’re going through water, sometimes super fast with no resistance, etc. these are textures! you use different textures to match different music and tell different stories. little decisions that dancers make consciously or unconsciously are what make choreographies so versatile and open to interpretation. dance moves are like the words you speak in a sentence, while textures are the articulation and intonation that give your sentence meaning when you speak it.

in my opinion, there are two ways to be a good dancer - physically and mentally (smart). i would say that chaeyeon is more of a physically good dancer than she is a smart one because she’s developed a style that looks so good and is so physically impressive. (this is not to say that chaeyeon is not a smart dancer - it is just that the physical part is more noticable). on the other hand, there isn’t really anything flashy about yena’s dancing that would make her stand out physically. however, she uses a variety of textures to make her dance interesting to watch and to tell a story. if you notice her in every dance practice, she finishes all her moves (i.e. rather than seeing the dance moves as separate dots, she connects them all into a line), no matter where she is in the formation (center, front, back). also, im pretty sure we all know that yena is queen of hand gestures for her parts lol. but this isn’t because of the gestures she comes up with, but rather how she executes them in a way that matches the music really well. a lot of the time her dancing really seems like honey imo

but i also want to make it clear that another way i know that this isn’t something she ‘naturally’ does is because she did not dance like this in pd48. something definitely clicked between pd48 and their debut when she figured out how to dance like this and it probably takes her a lot of practice to drill it into her bones for the stages. (this part i can tell because in her hit cover with chaeyeon, they practiced and filmed in one day, and she didn’t use textures like she normally does). 

the first three seconds of vampire… she sets the mood so easily. two sharp snares, then she puts her arms out with a thick texture, goes back sharp with her hands at her head. 

then for that move she goes in sharp while biting before dragging it out and flexing all the way to her fingertips until she finishes the move completely. it’s so easy to breathe with her dancing and that’s what makes it attractive and captivating, the push and pull of the textures. she also knows exactly where to put her attention with her eyes and tilt her head to play with the audience. (gifs dont rly do dance justice but i put them here so u know what im talking about)

in summary, out of the hundreds of thousands of decisions u can make as a dancer, yena always picks really good ones that will give her dance meaning and make her stand out on stage. 

this clown uses her brain more than we think 

[grandma-kei]

I love Sound Horizon concerts so goddamn much you guys. They’re always so fucking extra and theatrical like this because every album is a story and the songs are connected via a certain theme and/or the main character. And some characters are recurring and appear in other songs from other albums or there are outright different lyrics in the song vs in the CD booklet that changes the meaning entirely?? It’s aaaall connected going all the way back to the doujin album era from the early 2000s.

This is the first song from the Marchen concert. This dude is Märchen von Friedhof and he fell down a cursed well we a kid and fucking died then he woke up as an adult with a cursed doll named Elise and they just go around the medieval german countryside helping various ladies from modified Grimms’ fairy tales take their revenge on the people who wronged/killed them. And every single act of this concert is just as extravagant and soulful as this one bit.

We got backup dancers, niceass costumes, theatrical everything, some fight choreography, random german lyrics, goofy looking graphics that I assume you can only see in the Bluray version, Revo going hard spinning and shit. Elise is voiced by goddamn Hatsune Miku when she sings and her doll rolls around on some roomba thing in one part. Marty Friedman from Megadeth is there. Oh yeah and they just have one single dude around (Sascha) to do narration in german sometimes just because. That’s the same guy who speaks german in all the Attack on Titan OPs by Linked Horizon and the 3rd ED, Akatsuki no Requiem. Because Sound Horizon is Revo’s original band and then he founded Linked Horizon because he wanted to do music for anime and games while maintaining his brand so he made a side band. There’s also a single guy who they just get to do narration in english sometimes too (Ike Nelson, godspeed).

In short Sound Horizon is really fun and I want more people to know about this band and suffer with. All credit for the video translation goes to Kaido The Laurant��you’re doing the lord’s work. If anyone knows where I can get blurays or rips of the concerts with subs dm me I need it.

[sontagfag]

ok quickly before i go to bed, thots on be more chill:

- the production design and choreography are both very fun and campy, i like it

- they have a THEREMIN in the pit which is like... how to win me over in 0.2 seconds

- the main character i found to be super super whiny and not relatable at all, like not outright annoying but he can be a straight up selfish asshole not even w the squip

- it’s super cliche which is not neccesarily a bad thing but it hits basically all the plot beats you expect it to and all the characters are just not real people

- to that point though, they do camp it up to a level that makes it fun to watch even if it feels totally unrealistic not even with the crazy brain computer shit

- rich burns down the house... so fuckin funny... id like the show a lot more if they embraced the absurdity of the situations like in this number

- justice for michael tbh... michael in the bathroom is the best song and a big ass mood. once they got to that song i got a little angry bc it made me realize george salazar has a good fucking voice that is way underused

- just in general i feel like theres a good story here but the writers gave up halfway thru and just forgot to write compelling characters

- also i soo wish that jeremy got some consequences for his actions... like in my hypothetical rewrite of the show i would have had christine end up w jake and reject jeremy because tbh he barely fuckin knows her and not every girl you like will like you back

- also in my version by the end of the show michael doesn’t forgive him. he gets a new friend who isnt such a piece of shit

- when rich goes at the end “actually im bi” i literally wanted to barf this entire show is like exceedingly heterosexual but this part in particular. like crazy idea but maybe theres a way to add a gay character without doing it in the last 5 minutes and then playing it as a joke

- OH i must say i loved the squip as a character tho and how he gets more badass costumes as he goes on... that guy is great. also i love how it gets all fashy at the end thats cool.

- speaking of the sequence where hes describing the pill and theyre all in the crazy suits dancing was greattt like thats what i mean about playing up the absurdity those r the best parts

- in general the best parts of the show were the comedic or the absurd parts. none of the emotional beats except for michael in the bathroom hit 4 me. also i like big musical numbers so that but i’m just a gay person that doesnt mean its good

- also as soon as i found out will roland is 30 i wanted to scream... literally hello fellow kids .jpg

- justice for all the female characters... depth? never heard of her, we only have two bimbos, a gossip, and an “lol so RANDUM” girl

- seriously though christine was a terrible character she has no personality outside of being weird, liking theater, and being jeremy’s crush. like does she ever even have anything in fucking common with jeremy? the one time they connect its bc hes drunk and says nonsense noises lol

ok thats all im schleep folks

[fantasy9nation]

FANTASY SURVEY 2018 COMMENT REPLIES

 (Thank you all for dropping in your comments! We’re truly grateful for all of them so I’m gonna reply to them here! I apologise if I miss out your comment. Thank you to all who sending us love and support <3

That bias question is evil. The correct answer is ALL OF THEM.

sorry man it had to be done SKDJHF

If you do this again it might be neat to add bias wreckers and which member they noticed first, it'd be really interesting to see how those compare to biases! I look forward to seeing the results, seeing this kind of statistics is fun! :)

I will make sure to keep that in mind, thank you for suggesting!! the results are out now make sure to go check it out!!

thank you for putting this together!! it's always cool to see the fandom dynamics! have a lovely rest of the year! c:

no problem dear its our pleasure ❤️ have a lovely last few days of 2018 to u too!!

I love SF9!

me too :’)

hi

hello!

hwiyoung deserves all the love in the world

you’re right

yeehaw hi krystal 💓💓 its diana uwu

hi bby uwu ❤️

They're an incredible group already. And DANGEROUS. And Zuho is a big dang problem!

theyre amazing!! and yes watch out my friend

i love you!!!!!!!!

i love u too!!!!!!!

i triple bias my dudes (rochanseong) it's not being called indecisive it's called having a lot of luv to give 😇 keep up the great work!! 💕

i triple bias jaetaebin u aint special SKDFJHSK you are the cutest thank u so much angel!! 💓

SF9 is god tier.... everyone of them.

SAY IT LOUDER TO THE PEOPLE AT THE BACK

Stan sf9 you cowardly angels

been in this sf9 trap hole since 2016 >.<

I love SF9 so so so much they make me happy and I think they're really amazing & lovely so I just want to say thank you to you all for helping so many fans keep up with them <3333 you're doing an amazing job & Merry Christmas i guess since this is until the 25th :')

you’re welcome bb aaaaa ❤️thank u so much and merry christmas!!!

i want to eat youngkyun 🤤🤤

my baby hwi is still a miNOR ( not in korean age BUT HE STILL MY BABY)

Nice survey! Well put together, congrats! You just got me on the "favorite title track" and "favorite album era" ones because uugghhh i just can't pick one, they're all so good asdghj

thank you so much!! i understand how u feel man i cant pick either SKDFJHDJ

Interesting survey! Lovely work you guys are doing, much love ❤

thank u so much!! <3333

you guys are so great for running this blog and it's a true delight to see the content you share with us all about our 9 dorky boys, thank you~

we are still trying hard to update as much as possible :’) no problem!!

You nice, keep going! ;)

thank u ;)

You rock! Keep posting. There are not so many tumblr fansites that bring quality, unique content. Fantasy needs you.

thank u!! god we have been pretty inactive but we are trying to stay active T_T

Thanks for the fun survey! I love seeing FANTASYS being connected in things like this!

hehe no problem!! its our joy to bring FANTASYs together!!

I lov u :*

i love u too uwu

Can Hwiyoung be in a hair commercial? ♥️

am on the phone with their manager as we speak

I wish SF9 got all the attention they deserve . . . Also that they would stop puting HwiHwi in the back of choreography & that he had more lines.

they have so much talent but lowkey wanna keep the fandom small and less toxic :’) homeboy got so much attention despite all the crap FNC puts him through YES HE NEEDS MORE LINES

i miss them where are they

in FNC’s basement

I love you guys uwu❤

we love u too uwu

Much love :)

lots of love back to u <3

Keep with the good work guys, fighting <3 !

thank you!! <3

You guys are great 😃

so are you :D

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR RUNNING THIS BLOG i used to run a fantakens blog like this for another fandom (keyword: 'used to' rip i couldn't keep it up by myself after a while) so i know how much time and dedication it takes and i want to thank you for continuing to do this even though you just !! got into an accident omg i hope you're doing okay i hope you get well soon!!!!! please rest well!!!!!!! have a happy holidays!

the struggle is real man i was so close to closing this blog down ;-; and thank you so much TvT im recovering well from my injuries!! happy holidays <3

Keep up the good work 💖💖💖💖

thank u!!

Tell them they're doing an amazing job and they should keep going. Fighting! :3

will do!! thank you <3

[thisselflovecamebacktome]

Kurt felt his feet scraping across the ground as he forced himself down the hallway. The last few weeks had left him feeling so small. Dave and Santana being outted, Dave’s suicide attempt, losing out on both class presidency and the main role in A West Side Story; every bit of life seemed to be weighing him down recently. And then there was Blaine.

 Ever since Blaine had enrolled at McKinley, the two of them seemed to be parting ways more as each day went past. Of course Sebastian’s arrival hadn’t helped the situation, but deep down Kurt knew those same issues had been festering for a while. At times, Kurt found himself wondering if he was mismatched with Blaine; if Blaine would be happier with someone like Sebastian, someone more… spontaneous. Or at least someone who would answer his calls. Since that night, the sheer sound of Blaine’s voice was off-putting to Kurt. All that would come to mind was his hands spreading out and grabbing at Kurt, taking as much as he could like a kid with a candy bowl. The memory left a bad taste in Kurt’s mouth; almost as bad as remembering he had apologised for rejecting Blaine’s advances. At the time, Kurt had convinced himself that Blaine was right, that he had just been spoiling the fun, but the bad taste remained nonetheless.

 The one positive that had come out of the last few weeks was that the New Directions had reunited. To the surprise of everybody, Rachel had suggested giving others a chance to sing at Nationals, as long as she got her solo of course. It did mean, however, that all choreography the group had begun to work on prior to the girls coming back now had to be changed. And with Rachel’s two left feet and Tina’s quieter nature, Kurt was called in by Quinn to help choreograph and teach the new routine.

 On better days, Kurt didn’t mind helping out. Today was not one of those days. After the hypocritical mess Blaine pulled singing It’s Not Right But It’s Okay, Kurt was in no mood to see the glee club. Regardless, both Rachel and Quinn had insisted that with Nationals coming up, every chance they can get to practice had to be used.

 As he entered the room, Kurt could all but feel the atmosphere change. Quiet whispers stopped as Finn stood up. Giving signal to the others, Kurt watched as they followed him, each one of them approaching him as Puck closed the door.

 “Why are you all acting like you’re about to give an interve… oh my god, this is an intervention, isn’t it? Look I know Blaine gave a messed up image of us but it’s not going to affect the tea…”

 “We just want to talk,” Finn interrupted, gesturing Kurt a seat.

 Kurt bit his lip before shuffling his feet over to the seat. The awkward silence continued. Filled with uncertainty, Finn’s eyes shuffled between the boys’ and Rachel’s before she sighed and spoke up.

 “What’s going on with you Kurt?”

 The others scolded the brunette’s bluntness before being reminded that no one else was willing to ask. As they begun to quarrel, Quinn shut them down.

 “What Rachel meant was is everything okay? You’ve had a tough year, not to mention everything you’re still dealing with from last year and we just wanted to check in. If our conversation after Karofsky taught me anything, it’s that none of us should assume that people are coping when they’re in strife.”

 “I’m fine.”

 The words sped out of Kurt’s mouth like a horse belting toward the finish line. Kurt could feel how untrue the statement was as he spoke the words, yet he still found himself faking a smile in hopes to convince the others. It didn’t work. As he looked over at Mercedes, her disappointment hit him, forcing him to look at the ground.

 “Honey,” she started, “the truth is you haven’t been yourself for a long time now. And it’s clear that Blaine going behind your back for the West Side Story role has made things worse, especially after his performance today. We got to hear his side, now it’s only fair we hear yours.”

 Kurt stuttered for a moment before falling silent. His head went back and forth arguing over what to say next. On one hand, this was his relationship. It wasn’t any concern, or business for that matter, of the others. Not to mention Blaine was already upset with him, why make things worse? But at the same time, they were his friends and they were there trying to help. Even Santana and Puck had shown up. Regardless, Kurt couldn’t find the words.

 “It’s nothing, I’ll fix things up with Blaine later on,” He lied before sighing, “Thank you though Mercedes, for setting this up.”

 “It wasn’t me,” Mercedes smiled, looking over at Finn.

 Kurt blinked before staring at Finn.

 “I’m your brother Kurt. I’m worried about you. Nothing you say is going to change that. I, I just couldn’t find the words to say that, so I called in these guys.”

 Silence filled the room again. Kurt find his eyes shuffling back to the ground. Mike moved next to Kurt, placing his hand on Kurt’s shoulder and assuring him it’d be alright.

 “You’re wrong about the show being the issue,” Kurt started, “Around the time the role was allocated, Sebastian came into the picture…”

 “The jerk from Daltons who was trying to get onto Blaine?” Tina enquired.

 “Yeah him,” Kurt muttered, “except it wasn’t just him trying to get Blaine. Blaine was responding and meeting up with him behind my back. The night before the opening day of the show, Sebastian invited us to some bar. Blaine spent the whole night getting drunk and dancing with him until it was time to leave. I got him to the car and he wouldn’t stop touching me. I yelled for him to stop, but he, he just wouldn’t. Eventually I shoved him off and he yelled at me before leaving, but things just haven’t been the same since.”

 “That hobbit tried to rape you?” Santana shouted.

 Kurt shook his head as he began to stutter. Being barely comprehensible, he started saying it was his fault and how he had apologised the next day. As the eyes of those around him widened, Quinn interrupted.

 “You shouldn’t have.”

 “Quinn’s right,” Puck jumped in before looking at Quinn in guilt, “It’s not your fault he tried to take advantage of you after knowing you had drunken.”

 “Actually, I was the designated driver, so I was sober.” Kurt explained.

 “Dude it doesn’t matter,” Finn said, “He doesn’t get to treat you like that.”

 Unable to find the words, Kurt fell silent. Deep down he knew Finn was right and that once upon a time, there would be no way Kurt would let himself be treated like this, but things were different now. The realisation of dying alone had plagued his mind. He didn’t expect Finn or Rachel or any of the other straight members to understand. Finding a partner for them was like finding a penny. The opportunity was always there. Hell, even Santana and Brittany didn’t have to worry because they found the love of their lives already. But he hadn’t. The two gay men Kurt knew were Blaine and Karofsky, a boy who physically assaulted him for years. The thought that he may never find love crushed Kurt, but at least Blaine was something.

 Before anyone spoke, a phone began to blare. Reaching in his pocket, Kurt noticed the number straight off, leading him to sigh.

 “That’s him now,” he started, “I should probably get going.”

 The group went to speak out, but Finn just shook his head at them. As Kurt gathered his things and started to walk out of the room, he heard Brittany’s voice come from behind him.

 “Don’t forget we love you Kurt.”

 Closing the door behind him, Kurt walked away. Once out of the building, he looked down at his phone, sighing as he pressed the number of the missed call. Before he was able to say anything, a voice cut in.

 “Where are you Kurt? I called your dad when you didn’t answer and he said Finn told him you were at a glee meeting which clearly isn’t where you are. Are you with Chandler? Is that why you refused to answer my calls? I knew Finn was threatened by my talent but to help you do this is next level petty and you dragging him into it is just as bad.”

 The voice continued rambling, cutting Kurt off as he tried to answer. Moments of incoherent rambling passed, lowering Kurt’s patience until all at once, it disappeared.

 “Blaine, stop,” Kurt started, “I’m not with Chandler. The fact that you think so little of me as to not only accuse me of that but bring the glee club into it with your performance today shows just what you think of me.”

 Stutters from the other end of the phone fell silent as Kurt pushed the red button. Stopping in his tracks, Kurt felt a sigh leave his chest. Confusion and guilt begun to set in as Kurt realised that despite his frustration, the sigh had been in relief, not despair. As the phone in his hand begun to vibrate again, he found himself clenching harder as he walked away. After minutes of nonstop ringing, Kurt hung up one final time before clicking the messaging button.

 ‘I’m sorry okay. Just give me time.’

 Disgust hit Kurt as he pressed send. He continued walking as he thought about how things had gotten so bad between him and Blaine that the person he could tell everything to had become the person he felt he had to lie most to. The phone continued to buzz as several messages came through. With his patience falling, Kurt placed his phone in his bag, making sure to do so in a way where it would not noticeably vibrate off anything else.

 As he reached his house, Kurt went straight into his bedroom, closing the door and grabbing out his phone. Upon seeing the endless stream of messages, Kurt ran his fingers through his hair, grasping then slightly yanking at it. His fingers began typing at the phone before deleting and typing again for several minutes before stopping and deleting it once more. He typed one final message.

 ‘We need to talk to someone Blaine. Meet me in Emma’s office tomorrow.’

 Before Blaine could respond, Kurt heard his door twist. Placing the phone back in his bag, Kurt stood up. The door opened, leading Kurt to relax.

 “Don’t come in unexpectedly Finn. You startled me.”

 Finn stared at Kurt in silence for a moment before speaking.

 “I just wanted to check that we’re cool after what happened. Look, I know I should have spoken to you privately before bringing in the others like that. I just didn’t know what to say. I think you need to tell Burt and my mum though, you know, about what Blaine did.”

 Kurt felt his throat tighten with each word that came out of Finn’s mouth. His eyes began scanning the room, looking for anything else to talk about. Maybe an unclean surface to attend to or homework to do. But nothing came to mind. With an awkward expression on his face, Kurt looked back at Finn.

 “We can’t tell dad. You heard about what he did to Karofsky and that was just some bully. Blaine’s my partner. He’d put him in hospital.”

 “Maybe he should.”

 Finn’s words came off louder and more abrasive than he had meant them, causing Kurt to flinch. In response, Kurt let out a sigh whilst saying Finn’s name. Another silence came over the room before Finn spoke.

 “Kurt, we’ve gotta tell someone who can help you.”

 “I don’t need help Finn. I’m fine.” Kurt lied.

 “So you’d still be calling it fine if I did that to Rachel then? Or what about if Sam did it to Mercedes? Because that definitely wasn’t the case when you were telling me that what happened to Quinn was Puck’s fault and his alone.”

 “Blaine didn’t get me drunk Finn. Plus, after what happened with Puck and Quinn, I know you’d never do that to Rachel, nor would the other guys with their girlfriends.”

 “We never thought Blaine would do that to you Kurt.”

 Finn’s words hit hard. Kurt tried to find words, but none came to him. Silence began to consume the room only to be broken by the vibrating sound coming from Kurt’s bag. Nothing was said, but the sympathetic look in Finn’s eyes made Kurt just uncomfortable enough to look away. Finn considered reaching out for Kurt’s arm before another vibrating noise from Kurt’s bad stopped him. Instead, he clenched his fist and sighed.

 “At least tell mum.”

 “You say that as if she wouldn’t just tell my dad.” Kurt said.

 “She wouldn’t,” Finn started, “She’s been here before Kurt. I mean not sexually from what I know, but when I was little she had a relationship that really messed her up, the same way Blaine is messing you up right now. She’ll be able to help… Just think about it, yeah?”

 With that, Finn walked away. Kurt sat back down on his bed, grabbing out his phone. Blaine had sent several messages stating why they didn’t need Emma involved and how everything was going to be okay. Kurt stared at the final message, a simple ‘I love you’, for several moments before placing the phone face down on the bed. Pulling himself up from the bed, Kurt walked over to the door, checking down the hallways for Finn before closing it. As the door clicked shut, Kurt felt his body slide down to the ground as began to cry.

[neo-shitty]

toffee!

ah yeah i suppose ur right. yeah i think quarentine has had that sort of effect on a lot of people :( sorry to hear abt ur strict parents, hopefully ur friend will be able to come back soon. small outings (even with family) are still good tho, make sure ur taking care of urself toff.

youre totally right! ah yes thats good advice (/gen) ill try and use that when im in a slump ty. any music suggestions?

lol sames. even some of the stuff abt seungmin, innie etc is a little uncomfortable, like theyre grown ass men for sure, but at the same time, theyre still young, still just over being a teenager in the grand scheme of things. (on that note, i do struggle with worrying that im infantalising them, obviously theyre adults but at the same time, theyre still young. i do treat all fictional characters as my children, but i guess its different when its real people. idk. what do you think?) yeah some stans rlly need to take a chill pill, some are rlly walking the wire between 'ah theyre attractive/that look rlly suits them' and making fucking smut fics abt minors, like... they do not see a problem with that?? yeah tbh i feel like unless theyre 18 they shouldnt be put into the spotlight, weve seen what it does to peoples mental health, but modern day kpop industry is a lot like old hollywood with a lot of popular child actors -_- hopefully the big companies will learn but i agree, its unlikely

suuuuure toff haha. ill go searching for them, but idk if ill be able to find the fluff needle in the angst haystack (jkjk) yeah, fair i groan and complain but you do write angst etc rlly well, so if its what ur comfortable with, then pls continue, it is one of your strong suits, well as you write fluff aside

ah okay good! ill continue to send you essays then

THE ALBUM YES. so ive been looking forward to it for literally months, this is actually my first skz album release as a stay (since the last on was 9 months ago) i was sitting there hitting refresh on my spotify the second 6pm kst came around. (speaking of which, how did you do the release? i couldnt decide whether to watch or listen first but i ended up on listening cos there would be more material) okay: so cheese was super cool, very skz ya know? tho i almost wish theyd made domino the title track, tho obv it was a more experimental track and would have been a bit controversial (much like whistle for bp) i looooved domino and thunderous was absolutely impeccable. all the songs were amazing but standouts were- secrets, secrets which lowkey made me tear up idk why, red lights which almost killed me (it did not have to go that hard, but it did) and OT8 WOLFGANG omgggg i wasnt sure if hyunjin was going to be included in it but i was hoping and, ya know people had said hed be in there, but the further i got in, the less i was sure and then BAM hyunjin started what had been jisung's part and i just sat there grinning for about 5 minutes. surfin was absolutely adorable and gone away almost made me cry AGAIN. star lost was so touching, almost a nod to hyunjins little star? silent cry was relatable beyond anything. SSICK was funny? for some reason I was laughing while it was playing, idk the combination of added cheering and minhos aggressiveness and the totall seriousness they sung it. but i rlly enjoyed it. sorry i love you showcased their vocals like nothing else. the view is THE BOP of 2021, absolutely going to be stuck in my head for the next decade, that hook is genius. what did you think?

also did you watch their grow up performance? with all the stays and ALL THE TEARS? ;n; i feel like this is the end of an era of skz and tbh im kinda happy but also sad. super excited for their promotions but super bummed they wont get to tour. ah well

<3 w.a. 🐺

answer under the cut bc i gave an equally long answer to this already long ask HAJSH

oh yeah, abt quarantine having an effect. my friend and i talked about this earlier actually. i didn't realize the world was moving so fast until the pandemic happened. being in quarantine gave me time to think and i got to know myself more. it's just the sole good thing i got out of the isolation lmao. and abt my strict parents, ironically i got to go out today so i got to hang out with a few of my bestfriends. i had fun but my legs are a bit sore from walking. but they're a different set of friends. i'll get to hang out with the others when my getaway driver comes home in december.

hmm music recommendations for writing? depends on the plot you're writing. care to share what story you're working on and i'll try to rake my brain for a song that might match the vibe. i listen to classical / lo-fi if i don't have song inspo for a fic because lyrics sometimes distract me.

i don't think that's infantilizing tho. for me, it has something to do with my environment and the way i was raised. maybe it's the same the other way around? like this certain age (for the ones above 18 but below 20) is thirst-able for them. idk really. it's just not for me ?n? what i do NOT condone is writing smut for minors??? like get checked : D // i agree with everything with the idols being 18+ before they debut simply because it's for the best for their well-being like. how can young idols decide that this shit is the thing they want to do for life? or at least until their contracts last. idk :// it's unfortunate that it's unlikely to happen.

WELL. i have a list so you won't have to go search for them! in class (minho), in the rain (seungmin), gladius maximus (chan) and you've read five star already. and i just realized that most, if not all, of my upcoming fics are fluffs and i'm fond of all of them :D i used to focus a lot on angst because fluff disgusted the living shit out of me. i think things changed when i wrote champagne problems and hurt myself so bad i wanted to drop angst entirely. i didn't, of course, but i allowed myself to be self-indulgent now.

for the release of the album, i was on twt and watched the vid at 12 views (if i remember correctly, i watched back door at 14 so HASJH) i’m gonna talk by track so it wont be too confusing? bc i wrote this in paragraph format and it just ???? beware im very picky with tracks even if they’re my ults. so no offense if we have opposing opinions and i’m not fond of reading lyrics so these are all music wise.

cheese - oh god i hated cheese at first listen but it grew on me easily. i was singing the yeahyeahyeahyeah bit all day today :D

thunderous - i cant say that it’s my favorite title track. it felt really dry sometimes, both mv and music wise. but at the same time, it’s not that bad. the choreography carried the song tho o.O it’s so fucking cool. but like go live, another track has my heart and it’s

domino - AND YES I AGREE THAT THEY SHOULDVE MADE DOMINO TITLE TRACK UGHHHHH WHAT A WASTED FUCKING OPPORTUNITY. WORDS CANNOT EXPRESS HOW FOND I AM OF THIS SONG. it stands close to the level i love easy.

ssick - was a skip on first listen too because i found the chorus underwhelming but it grew on me? not that much but i can bear listening to it.

the view - it’s something the gen public like, hence its something i dislike. im not fond of songs that are structured like this? it’s not a bad song, just not the type of song i like. but i agree that the hook is very not catchy but it would get stuck in ur head.

sorry, i love you - it’s not as sad as i expected but i actually like it??? i can’t wait to write a fic out of it (1) HAJSHAJ it’s like a 3/5 for me. it’s angsty but chill?

silent cry - i’m pissed at this song bc it hits but sometimes it doesn’t?@?#!? but it’s starting to grow on me but definitely not my fave track.

secret secret - glad i found a secret secret enthusiast because my irls thought it was a skip?$?#@$? it gives me ikon vibes and i’m a huge fan of ikon’s discog so this was a win for me T_T +

STAR LOST - gives me bigbang song vibes and now im very sad :(( in case u didnt know, i’m a hUGE yg fan and 2ne1/bigbang introduced me to kpop so when i heard this track that gave me yg feels i just <3___<3 and it’s one of my favorite tracks anw moving on,

red lights - I WANT TO SKIP THE FIRST TEN SECONDS OF RED LIGHTS EVERY TIME IT PLAYS LIKE IT MAKES ME FEEL AWKWARD KDSJFSK but fine. i’m adding this to props and mayhem’s playlist LMAO it’s more aggressive than sexc tho. more enemies to lovers o. O

surfin’ - this coming right after red lights just wasn’t the best decision arrangement wise because how did we go from ooh sexc to aigh pARTAY. felix saying sheesh T___T it’s such a fun song i want to go to the beach ;n; do you like beaches?

gone away - i have yet to read the lyrics because i’m using this as inspo for a jeongin fic jskjash it’s not the type of ballad i like but it’s so fucking sad to listen to :’ ) the pitch change caught me off guard? still does. it’ll grow on me prolly.

wolfgang - I YELLED WHEN I HEARD HYUNJIN IN WOLFGANG. i didn’t like this song until recently. it gives me the confidence boost i need to pick myself off self-esteem crashes.

and no i haven't watched that performance and i prolly wont because i’ll cry. i’m excited for the promotions too. do you think they’ll still have a repackage?? i cant fucking believe that i just finished waiting for 12am kst for skz teasers and now i have to look forward to 12am for nct 127??@?#? NOT A SINGLE DAY OF REST FOR THIS STAYZEN

[atuzbee]

DEH 10.5.17

-general-

OH MY GOD HERE WE GO

So there was the obc except for larry/michael park who was understudied by Asa Somers

Mike looks at individuals in the audience, he speaks to them specifically

i think Will uses this technique where you look at the back of the heads of people/back of the theatre, its used for speaking to the whole theatre 

and can i just say, will does NOT get enough credit for his entire performance, while yes his comedic timing and stuff are AMAZING, he cries while on stage and brings a lot of emotion that i did NOT expect but it was so good

Ben kinda does both, god his voice is so good, its so much better irl if thats even possible

connor has a braided leather bracelet

If mike says that he’s not a strong singer 1 more time im gonna cut a bitch

his voice is so clear and he hits every note perfectly

dude. the sets are so pretty ughgugh

Mike Faist is a beautiful human like. pictures dont do him justice man, he looks good in them but irl hes like. !!! wtf hes so pretty

bens outfit changes are so quick how does he even do that wtf

LISTEN TO ME DO NOT SELL YOUR TICKETS BC THERES AN UNDERSTUdY

-act 1-

after connor says fuck you to zoe ,, mike gives laura a teeny tiny smile right before he puts his head down 

oh my god speaking of smiles the are you high smile is SO FUNNY

the part in waving through a window where theres the break and then the  “ON THE OUTSIDE ALWAYS LOOKING IN”? that is so powerful irl like. dude the sound vibrates through you and its so good

connor tries waving to evan during waving through a window but evan didn’t see, im fine this is fine

I started crying during waving through a window and I didnt stop till after the end of the show

Evan starts crying during writing the letter and he also doesnt stop

sincerly me has so many pretty harmonies

JARED SAID IT, HE SAID IT INSTEAD OF HOT I LOST IT

KiNkY

Zoe bounces her leg and bites her nails

Evan bites his nails, fiddles with his shirt, scratches at his palm, and picks at his fingers

the actors bring so much to the characters its so good!! its so good omg

AFTER SINCERLY ME FINISHES AND THE LIGHTS GO OUT CONNOR FLIPS OFF THE AUDIENCE ITS SO FUNNY

all you gotta DO

i could see the cellist from where i was sitting and she was rocking out to sincerly me and mouthing along it was great

right before requiem zoe like, rushes over to the letters after holding back and pushing cynthia away, its so deperate and powerful oh lord

okay so Asa brings so much to the role of larry, from what ive heard Michael is very stoic all the time but Asa like, is just really tired of life more than anything. 

Asa’s Larry for sure isnt a good guy but hes not the bad guy either. He fucks up as a parent for sure, and what he did to connor was not okay but like… man he does care even if he tries not to show it

during you will be found larry breaks down, he starts crying oof it broke my heart

Ben Platt is so good, his emotions are so raw, fuck, 

-act 2-

so, you and zoe,, ?? 

OH WHAT A NICE GLOVE

to break in a glove is so funny and sad at the same time

larrys voice breaks on “or if you’re tryna do whats best”

and he yells the next part, hes like on the brink of tears

Sincerly me reprise is a fucking bop and connor looks mildly uncomfortable about how many kids end up sucking dick for meth

we all know it but WILLS LAUGH IS A BLESSING

nYehHEHHeHEHhE

its so funny holy shit

YES THE INSANELY COOL !!! JARED KLIENMAN

a part of the saucy friendship we had ;)

i like the choreography for the reprise too its kinda different from sincerly me ??

larry drinks bourbon and some expensive looking wine

jared invites evan to his party with lots of alcohol like. he makes a big fucking deal out of the alcohol

ok so after the scene where jared accuses evan of having connors death be the best thing thats ever happened to him, jared storms off and evan kinda lingers after him on stage for a solid 30 seconds before being pulled away by zoe

evan starts dressing more and more like connor till theyre in almost the same outfit

evan has funyuns stashed away in his little headrest storage thing

after only us zoe kisses his and they lay down and wowie some things are heavily implied there

oh god so when heidi is at the murphys house and evan finds out he shrinks into himself so much 

will screams FUCK YOU EVAN, ASSHOLE with so much emotion in his voice you could feel everyone react

jared like, stomps his foot and screams silently during good for you, he starts crying and you wont see it if you dont look for it but man. that fucked me up.

heidi crys so much

okay so during the did you fall or did you let go connor yells at him almost as if he’s angry

during the finale ben seems like hes talking to everyone who’s ever wanted to kill themselves and it. Made me CRY

this is such a lifechanging show holy shit

[insomnihan]

han’s Entire Thoughts and Feelings on Dreamcatcher’s “Deja Vu”

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

MY TIME HAS COME 2.0!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FULL INSOMNIA MODE DONT. LOOK. AT. ME.

there are no read mores here so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

ALRIGHT SO-

THE SONG OKAY LETS JUMP RIGHT INTO IT i wasnt expecting something lowkey sad BUT im not mad at it!!!!!!!!!! i had conflicting emotions when i desperately wanted to cry but also headbang?????? HOWEVER thanks to force and air the tears in my eyes were drying as i headbanged- LIKE this song really PUT ME THROUGH IT like that chorus didnt have tO DO ME LIKE THAT™!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT THEN THE VERSES AND THE PRE-CHORUSES WERE SLOW (and the bridge but bridges be like that in nearly all songs) WHICH IM ACTUALLY REALLY INTO it was like being in a roller coaster with the verses being the slow hill and the chorus was the fall THAT PIANO GOES HARD...................... but like in a soft way????? DONT ASK ME WHAT IM SAYING IS IM A HOE™ FOR PIANO THOSE DRUMS DURING THE CHORUS STOP IT I CANNOT I FELT THEM VIBRATE THROUGH MY BONES

like i DEADASS have nothing to criticize or change about this song its PERFECTLY FINE AS IT IS (except for like more gahyeon and dami????? pls??????)

siyeon starting the song.......................... thank you.............. I STILL STAND BY SAYING I WOULD LISTEN TO HER VOICE FOR LITERALLY FOREVER HER VOICE DURING THE CHORUS QUEEN OF SINGING CHORUSES OH BUT THEN THAT HIGH NOTE ARE YOU KIDDING ME??????? SHE DIDNT HAVE TO KILL ME LIKE THIS BUT THANK YOU SO MUCH I- and now....... im in the deja vu P L E A S E

gaaaaaaaahhhyeeeeeooonnnn her voice is so pretty!!!!!!!!!!! BUT I WANT MORE!!!!!!!!!! HOWEVER youre the second one to sing with this beautiful gentleness of a part and to be honest this part paired with siyeon starting it really eases you into the song and its quite the blessing to hear thanks- and then yknow this part right after handong........................... Heaven™

SPEAKING OF HANDONG LISTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE AMOUNT OF LINES SHE HAS MAKES ME WANNA CRY OKAY THIS PART RIGHT HERE............................. PLS.............. (i think its just me but theres a smaller voice singing like right under her voice????) HER PRE-CHORUS PARTS ARE LITERALLY THE BEST PARTS IN THE WHOLE SONG TO LISTEN TO pls believe me when i say this its NOT bc shes my ultimate bias like i genuinely like her parts the most

sua pls i was already prepared for softer vocals and you really gave that to me and then this is absolute perfection they were beautiful and amazing OF COURSE got me feeling like i was floating on actually clouds god TAHNK YOU AND THEN YOU JUST HAD TO HIT ME WITH YOUR PART RIGHT HERE???? i understand its just the chorus but I Felt That™ okay!!!!!!

JIU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i stand by saying how your voice be powerful as hell still even during these lines VERY short but VERY effective and very good leading into the chorus i love- and then your bridge....................... B I C T H really put me in my feelings but i welcome it with EVERY FIBER OF MY BEING and with open arms.......................

YOOHYEON AKA THE OTHER QUEEN OF SINGING CHORUSES I MEAN..................................... I LITERALLY DUNNO WHAT TO SAY!!!!!!!!!!! LIKE THEIR BEAUTIFUL SOUNDING HER VOICE GOES WELL WITH THEM like i really like the parts she sings after siyeon like................. Y O O F if a feather became a voice-

i need more dami too..................... P L E A S E like obviously with their other songs i was expecting dami to be in the second verse and with a smooth rap section and the former was correct HOWEVER to my pleasant surprise SHE SANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her singing voice suited this SO MUCH and im actually glad there wasnt a rap part at all in this song especially that SECOND PART.................. Heaven™ 2x

my favorite lyrics (x): i know i said handongs were my favorite to listen to but i like these lines dont hurt me

난 이 숨결이 허락되는 날까지 As long as I can breathe 다신 너를 놓을 수 없어 I can’t let go of you again 우린 모든 순간 함께 할 테니 We’ll be together for every moment 내 곁에서 beside me

THE DANCE OKAY IM GONNA DO SOMETHING DIFFERENT ill be referring to THIS PERFORMANCE can we pls talk about how loud the fanchant is im crying and really take it in and all of their talented glory ANYWAY OF COURSE the choreography F UKCING SLAPS just so many different position changes and just alwaYS SO IN SYNC WITH EACH OTHER ITS INSANE ill just list them briefly and keep the points short this is long enough:

THE BEGINNING AND THE END BEING THE SAME...................... CERTAINLY DEJA VU-

SIYEONS TUTTING THING THANKS

handongs majestic spin

this and this with how the formation changes and how their arms swing AND the kick

ALSO in those parts in the last bullet i dunno why but i like that move jiu does when she sings IT HITS

i recall sua spoiling literally the first move of the chorus dance in that vlive THE CHORUS DANCE ALL THOSE FORMATION CHANGES LITERALLY MESS ME UP and THIS most important move in the entire choreography and they line up and its SO COOL to look at

when they lie on each other doing yoohyeons lines

handongs part again when theyre in the line and how satisfying it is to watch

THE ENTIRE BRIDGE

LITERALLY THE ENTIRE DANCE FROM START TO FINISH

QUEENS OF STABILITY

sidenote: can we talk about how handong and dami?????? literally spin during their parts????? and they sounded super clear??????

THE VISUALS SO.......................... if you had asked me two days ago (maybe a little bit of yesterday) about how i felt about this video.................. i wouldve mentioned some unpopular opinions regarding the videos look............ i mentioned to gwen @loonapunk that i wasnt TOO into it............ BUT- after finally sitting down to do this long ass post i dont hate it!!!!!!!!!!!! i think bc i have to remind myself that this song (album???? well song-) is for that kings raid game and all the visuals AND story are based off that????? i dunno BUT WHAT I DO KNOW IS I LIKE TO WATCH IT

IM TOO BIG STUPID™ TO COMPREHEND THIS STORYLINE AND COME UP WITH MY OWN THEORIES EVEN NOW AND I WOULD L O V E TO EXPLAIN IT TO YOU BUT THIS IS LONG ENOUGH AS IT IS SO ILL REDIRECT YOU TO THEORY POSTS (TWO (2) FROM MY GALAXY BRAIN MOOTS) THAT I LIKED:

@highsomnia NITAS POST WHICH I PERSONALLY FOUND ENJOYABLE TO READ SO IF YOU COULD READ THIS YOU SHOULD ALSO READ THAT

@in-somnias ELENAS POST WHICH WAS ALSO AN INTERESTING READ RIGHT HERE

AND THEN THIS ONE THAT WAS ORIGINALLY FROM TWITTER i dont follow her so im not gonna @

AIIGHT IMMA GO CRAZY WITH THESE SHOTS (with only small one/two sentence captions this is LONG ENOUGH):

BICTH I SAW THIS AND KNEW I WAS GONNA GET GOT™ like its just super duper INCREDIBLY PRETTY TO LOOK AT

THIS WILL BE FOREVER ICONIC™ DONT ARGUE WITH ME

this is what the calm before the storm looks like

went back to the mv film making video and turns out they got slippers on under that table love that for them

how in the hell am i supposed to interpret this exchange

okay longer section i think im supposed to interpret this more as a sister bond than a romantic one?????? i remember being taken aback and believed this to be something gay BUT 99.9% OF INSOMNIAS say its gay subtext so ill just put it like that i dunno but like i just wanna say they have beautiful smiles and im love them!!!

a youtuber reacting to this mv saying it just looks like theyre shading each other.................... anyway-

i CANNOT i repeat I CANNOT EXPRESS TO YOU how Shook™ i was when i saw this for the first time i basically jumped out of my chair i couldnt i-

this mv really led me to believe jiu was the evil one.............................

POETIC. CINEMA.

THE WOMAN. THE MYTH. THE LEGEND. THE FIREBENDER. THE WOLF. LEE SIYEON. pls light me up

Symbolism™................ SYMBOLISM I CANNOT COMPREHEND GO TO THE THEORIES

MORE SYMBOLISM GO TO THE THEORIES

T H E M

NOT ONLY IS THIS VIDEO SUPER AESTHETIC™ BUT THE SEVEN (7) MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN IN THE WORLD BLESSING US ONCE AGAIN WITH THEIR PRESENCE AND ALLOWED THEIR ROYALTY VIBES SHOOT INTO THE MESOSPHERE INTO REAL LIFE KILLING ALL OF US

THE DANCING SCENES WITH THE TEASER OUTFITS...................................... AT EASE.....................

LITERALLY NO COMPLAINTS MOVING ON:

JIU

L I S T E N KIM MINJI YOURE A FULL PRINCESS this pink fluffy dress with the flower crown in this picture............................ i may have cried- like a lot of people were trying this look to persephone and im HERE for that concept for her and like the white outfit AND black outfit is probably super symbolic again im too Big Stupid™ anyway when i saw that black outfit in the teaser........................... i was attacked jiu with a sword is just EVERYTHING i wanted and more

SUA

LITERALLY I CANNOT- her hair being wavy looks SO GOOD on her THIS BLACK DRESS WITH THE FLOWERS she is always a Serve™ WE KNOW THAT but her visuals just HIT DIFFERENT this time lighter colored hair really suits her and then of course she looks FAN-FREAKING-TASTIC in the dance scenes in the white and the black that low pony tail pls

SIYEON

purple on this woman just shoulders and collarbones out being Beautiful™ ALL THE WHILE staying ON BRAND with herself and was wearing pants good for her G O D i just love the way her hair looks in the white and gold outfits like it just LOOKS PRETTY to me i dunno how to describe it also her with a pony tail WHAT ARE YOU SO PRETTY FOR-

HANDONG

i just................... want closer shots of this.................. CLOSER SHOTS IN GENERAL OF HER ACTUALLY like LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL™ SHE LOOKS HERE I WANNA SEE MORE OF IT??????? PLS??????? nothing gets me weaker than her hair being styled exactly like in the picture i just love that her royalty and regal vibes and looks were FINALLY realized and WAS BROUGHT TO THE FOREFRONT

YOOHYEON

THIS MV MUST CONVINCE ME SHE IS EVIL BY SHOWING HER FOREHEAD first of all the first outfit turning her into an Actual Entire Princess™/Queen™ that red one i dont really understand SHE MAKES IT WORK THO THEN THAT BLACK OUTFIT LISTEN yo it was like getting hit by a whole truck full speed i wasnt ready and i just wanna admire that yoohyeon and gray colored hair is an actual match made in heaven i just have to say-

DAMI

i love this suit and the patten on it so much this outfits color (what is that teal????) and her hair color is such a GOOD PAIRING and on her SHE JUST KILLED ME WITH HER SOLO SCENES i wish i had more to say about her and her outfits but what else can i say other than that she is INSANELY ATTRACTIVE AND I WANT HER TO STEP ON ME???????

GAHYEON

she really broke my neck when i saw her the first time LIKE DEADASS LOOK AT THIS PICTURE i had fallen for her and i cannot get up when i saw this outfit in the other shots like the black top and the see through sleeves but her skirt is like different colors she really Served™ in this outfit bangs usually look cute but in her solo parts she was coming for my heart like miss lee gahyeon pls-

BONUS TIME: B-SIDE TRACKS (just short thoughts and point out specific parts i liked lmao)

Intro:

their intros always slap are you kidding me-

The curse of the Spider

i wasnt ready for this bop to slap me in the face on my spotify that chorus didnt have to do that to me THAT GUITAR DIDNT HAVE TO DO THAT TO ME i love the way dami and handong sound in this song i mean wrow-

favorite lyrics (x):

소름이 끼칠 만큼 It’s chilling 도망치고 싶어질 it makes me want to run away 그런 두려움일 테니 such is this fear

Silent Night

B I H C T i knew when i heard this in the highlight it was going to be my favorite one IT REALLY WOKE SOMETHING IN ME these lyrics i cant- gahyeon and handong hurted me with their lower registers Y AL L YOU KNOW WHAT ELSE HURTED ME THAT D R O P DID

favorite lyrics (x):

겨눈 칼 끝은 a blade directed at someone 결국 돌아오게 돼 eventually returns 더 다가오지 마 don’t come closer

Polaris

this song is as if i was wrapped in the thickest blanket i got and im resting on the softest bed in the world with a fireplace going nearby and i could finally rest peacefully bc the lord knows i need it- i really cried a little bit listening to this pls leave me be i legit cant pick a specific member i liked the most for this song i just love it and everything it got

favorite lyrics (x):

그게 너라서 행복해 I’m happy that it’s you 그 많은 인연 속에 Among those numerous connections 수많은 사람 중에 Among those numerous people

LIKE im so completely satisfied with every song on this album and im completely in love with it!!!!!!!!!! the only ‘issue’ i really had was with the mv visually but as you read i warmed up to it lmao LIKE IM JUST SO PROUD OF THESE WOMEN AND HOW TALENTED AND HARDWORKING THEY ARE like i have to say the japanese release?????? and this????? being so close to each other????? you telling me they learned TWO (2) different choreographies one after the other???? i absolutely love this album and i desperately desperately DESPERATELY want so much more success for them bc ITS WHAT THEY DESERVE!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is supposed to be just about the overall mv and deja vu but i might as well just type what i feel lmao

IN CONCLUSION: MY INSOMNIA ASS IS BOTH ALIVE AND DEAD BUT MOSTLY ALIVE I LOVE THIS IM STREAMING

i have to bring this back its relevant again:

[sorikkung]

Well it's hard to equally distribute the lines and One and Only You wasn't my time to shine but!!! LOOK IS OUT NOW *dabs* and I look and ofc sound pretty amazing in it, if I can say that about myself. - Double B

you’re so positive omg inspirational…if i got only 4 secs of lines id c R Y lol

YEAH I SAW IT HDSJKSJKSJKSJKSKJJSKJDKSFHJDS hOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOly shIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIT……boy you snatched my wig so hard it’s orbiting the sun as we speak. i don’t even have a wig. AND THAT SNEAKY DAB IN THE CHOREO HDSJKSKSJ okay but like ?? the song??? was so??? refreshing??? and??? rejuvenating??? I FUCKING LOVED IT??? 

okay im going on a ramble fIRST OF ALL the instrumental was absolutely gorgeous to the ears, bless leader jaebum and his producing/composing what a bloody legend that man i could go on about it for AGES. the weird glitch noises in the chorus, the weird bridges after each chorus that sounded like a bridge but it happened like after every chorus and was used to end the song i was so confused??? BUT IT SOUNDED SO GOOD????

and the VOCALS UGH like usual, the vocals went straight to my heart i felt so many feelings but your part made me sPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST B O I i’m so used to your rapping/singing being more towards the high pitched side (not quite as high as yugyeom but you know what i mean) bc that used to be your natural voice back during fetus era lololol but like you definitely grew out of it but it was still higher compared to like, mark or jackson, or jinyoung? it was your style yknow like double b. BUT THEN. YOU JUST DID THAT. your voice was all low and like dragged out thIS BITCH FUCKING LOST HER SHIT OKAY i am literally so far from being okay right now oh my god it was one of the hottest things ive ever heard i had to replay in like at least five times. i want that verse tattooed on my face. not to mention i thought that verse would be your only lines in the song but bless, you actually have lines im gonna cry what an era mark’s voice also set me on fire and jackson’s threw me into space but yours flung me into the sun

VISUALS. VISUALS!!! CAN WE TALK ABOUT VISUALS I FUCKIGN NUTTED not just was the cinematography and camerawork amazing and i swear i was fangirling over the sets so much bc they were so aesthetic??? the colours??? the sunsets??? skies in general??? every shot was screencap worth iSTG BUT ALSO!!! MODEL7, VISUAL7, YOU FUCKING NAME IT YALL JUST SAID FUCK YOU TO EVER MODEL EVER THEYRE LOSING THEIR JOBS AS WE SPEAK there was not a single tragic look this era NOT EVEN JAEBUMS MULLET which i despised at first but boy has it grown on me, its still not my fav but damn he can rock it better than i thought and like blond mark is back can you bELIEVE in a leather jacket too???? running his hands through his hair like its no-ones business??? i DIED and and!! youngjae’s hair omfg my precious sunshine baby with amazing vocals ??? god im so emOtional and the wAY YUGYEOM LOOKED AT THE CAMERA DURING HIS PART!! MY HEART WENT BADUMP BADUMP!!! jinyoungs vocals at the start too and him leading the choreography i lOVE THE LEG THINGY THING oh and jaCKSONS VERSE WAS LIKE AMAZING I LOVE JACKSONS VOICE AND HIS SET WAS SO PRETTY TOO AND HIS OUTFIT REMINDED ME OF OKAY??? AND THAT LOOK ON HIS FACE PLS TELL HIM TO STOP

ofc i have to put the best till last, bambam your fucking visuals had my ass on the fLOOR YOU BROUGHT BACK THE BLUE CONTACTS AHHHH I LOVE THEM and like im still upset that you dont have black hair anymore bc that was my fav but I LOVE THE RED AND!!! THE HAIRSTYLING TOO!!! SUITS YOU SO WELL and your expressions hdfkjksdDSHDSKJKJ THAT LIL SMILE WHEN YOU WERE SNIFFING THE ROSE???? IM DEAD!!! literally at that small clip i deadass screamed THE INTENSE LOOK WHEN IT WAS ON FIRE and so was i??? IM DEAD!!! AND DONT THINK I DIDNT NOTICE ALL THOSE CUTE LITTLE SMILES DURING THE CHOREO AND YOUR VERSES THAT YOU COULDNT HELP BUT DOING. IM SO SOFT OH MY GOD. BUT ALSO YOU JUST LOOKED HELLA FINE IN GENERAL I LOVE ME A WHOLE ASS VISUAL

dont even get me S T A R T ED on the other songs in the album oh my god this album was so good not a single track let me down. istg these b-side tracks of yours only got better and better with each album, i must confess there were a lot of b-sides from earlier albums that took a long time to grow on me and i still see them as mediocre, but theyve improved a shitton ever since the flight flog trilogy where they just kept getting better and better and 7for7′s b-sides were amazing and these ones too like i think its bc now jyp is actually letting you guys make your own music I LOVE HEARING YOUR SOUNDS!!! YOUR INDIVIDUAL SOUND!! YOURE ALL SO UNIQUE AND PRECIOUS AND AMAZING AND I WANT TO JUMP OFF A BRIDGE.

thank you for both completing and ending my existence, this has been a rant. honestly bams im sorry i talk so much lmao

[ask-svt-hearteu]

college! Jun

Anon requested: “hullo!!! can i request a college!au for jun? (in the point form and stuff) thank you && i love your aus and posts in general <3”

Genre: fluff

Word Count: 2541

A/N: I legit thought this AU would be easy to write. Turns out, writing someone as a college student when you're not a college student is hard af. I apologize in advance if this was written poorly and didn't reach your expectations lolol -admin soph

double majoring in Performing Arts 

particularly in Dance Focus just like Minghao 

and a Theatre Arts Major in Acting 

has a scholarship so double majoring made it possible for him

having double majors made him really busy all the time 

but he still manages to have time for his friends 

whenever he has free time,

can always be seen in the picnic area of the Campus with his other major friends 

or usually with Minghao, Joshua, and Wonwoo reading in the corner of the university library 

talking about how the author should’ve just done this or that 

when they really should be reading up for the upcoming semester exam

"I dont understand why we need to learn about the history of tap dancing for a whole week." 

"Because the professor likes to give us busy work get over it." 

"Honestly just slap stuff on a paper and he’ll give you an A" 

"Shouldn’t you guys be studying on your upcoming Music Theory test." 

"Shush Joshua." 

or in the studio going through the choreo he, Minghao, Hoshi and Chan made for a performance project and the upcoming winter recital 

or just staying in his dorm, catching up on sleep 

when a show is announced to happen 

he works double 

like seriously

the shows are where theyre able to showcase their talents and what they major in 

so performance majors and theatre majors are made to perform on the same day 

and it stresses him out a lot but he always make sure to do his best 

he has to make and memorize like 2 choreographies with his dance team for the dance performance and has to memorize his lines and get into his character for his acting performance 

even with all these work he would still try to try other things 

like singing and rapping ∙

he can sing pretty well to be in fact but just like Minghao, people wont give him vocal lines for shows smh

outside his major classes, he only chose to take one minor course and that was Linguistics in Korean Language 

thats the only course you both have together actually 

youre an Astronomy Major 

and the only courses you take outside of your major is Linguistics and History 

you have been in Korea for some time now but you still haven’t mastered the language so you thought the Linguistics course might help

you and Jun dont talk much though 

the only time you two were able to talk was when the professor partnered the two of you together and made you guys differentiate different satoori accents 

and that one time you bumped into him on your way to the library 

you also always see him in the picnic area with his friends when you wander around different departments 

sometimes you would sit either on a bench or under a tree, reading a book and you would hear music coming out of a speaker near you 

and you'll see Jun with his dance team practising 

you also noticed how different he is when he is with his friends 

in class, he is this quiet reserved guy sitting at the back, listening to the professor while spinning a pen around his fingers 

with his friends, he is really outgoing and a huge dork 

you would hear him exchanging jokes with Wonwoo and you would quietly laugh at how corny it is 

"What did the dog say to the wall?" 

"Jun stop it's now funny an-." 

"Wolwol" woof woof" in korean

"Aish. Why am I even friends with you?" wonwoo mutters as he quietly think of a better joke

you also would hear him messing around with Joshua 

"Im still offended that you didnt want to go biking with me again after what happened last semester." 

"Hyung. When we got back I honestly thought I was going to pass out right there and then. And you kept leaving me behind." 

"Because you kept taking selcas whenever we took a break, istg Junhui."

and you would hear him talking about a dance he found on youtube with Hoshi 

"They werent hitting the beats on time." 

"Yes but they were expressing the lyrics with their dance." 

"But hitting the beats with the dance moves would look better. And with the dance moves they’re doing, its possible." 

and mostly him just annoying Minghao 

"Jun I swear, stop."

"Were getting all thug now are we?"

"wE AGREED TO NEVER SPEAK ABOUT THAT." 

okay so you were just sitting alone in the University Library, studying for your upcoming test about Astronomy History 

when someone just sat down infront of you 

causing you to slightly jump back from your seat 

"Oh jesus christ jisoos chirst Jun, you scared me." 

"Sorry, my friends wont let me study in peace and all of the tables are taken and you’re the only one I know. I was just wondering if I could study here instead?" he softly smiles at you hopefully

your internally squealing at how adorable he looked with that smile with his messy hair and black hoodie and sweatpants asdfdksla

"Yeah of course, no problem." 

"Thank you." 

and with that, he brought out his books and you both were studying quietly

you can see him looking at you every once and a while 

it made you anxious tbh 

because you thought you had something on your face 

a few minutes later he just put down his book and spoke 

"We don’t talk that much, what major are you?" 

"Im an astronomy major" you replied as you close your book 

"You study space. Wow. Well, I double major in Performance Arts and Theatre arts. " 

you nod, "yeah I see you in shows and recitals. " 

"Oh so you watch me," he smirked, teasing you

you try not to let the blush creeping up show, but before you can reply,

"Im just kidding~ " he chuckles, smiling at you 

"just study" you huff, jokingly being annoyed, that pink flush on your cheeks

 you wont deny that Jun is pretty handsome

and pretty dAMN HOT

and you were pretty sure that you were just attracted to his face since you still dont know him that well 

so you were confused as hell as to why you were blushing and your heart was beating so fast

minutes passed and you still were thinking about why you and your face reacted like that

you didnt even notice Jun looking at through the top of his book

and glancing up, you looked right back at him 

both of your gazes meeting 

you wanting to look away but his eyes, they sparkled like the shining stars you see through a telescope

it looked like a whole different galaxy 

you were able to regain your self-control and you averted your gaze back to what you were reading 

so you didn’t see him stare at you longer for a moment, dazed by your eyes

tired of studying, you have just been rereading the same paragraph over and over again 

you just wanted to go to the student cafe and get a mocha latte 

somehow, Jun read your mind 

"You have been staring at that page for forever, you wanna take a break and go the cafe?" 

"Did you just read my mind Wen Junhui?" you chuckle

"What if I did y/l/n y/f/n?" 

"Then you should already know my answer" you wink playfully

he just grins at your response 

on the way out, you guys passed by Junhui's table of friends 

one of them was a girl 

so you figured that it might be one of his friends girlfriends 

"Me and y/n are going to the student cafe, if you need me, I'm there," Jun said to them before waving goodbye 

the whole 10 minutes walk to the cafe was filled with a lot of talking 

Jun told you about how he met his friend Minghao 

how he literally spat on his face on their first meeting because of his braces 

you told him why you decided to move to Korea 

why you decided to take Astronomy 

arriving at the cafe, you both ordered your lattes and sat at a booth near the window

as you both were talking, the conversation got kind of serious

Jun told you about why he chose two majors 

because he didnt want to limit himself to only one

and that he also found his passion for dancing growing through the majors he took 

the two of you talked about how its hard to be away from your loved ones 

mostly about yourselves was the main topic 

after hours that seemed like minutes of talking, 

you both exchanged numbers and went back to your dorms 

you both started hanging out a lot after that 

he memorized your schedule, you memorized his 

knowing when the other was free, the two of you also had this cycle 

he would visit you in your department, get a latte, and walk to the library 

sometimes you would be the one who would visit him 

but the cycle goes on 

you learned a lot about him 

you learned that he is basically this tall cat person who is a big dork on the inside 

he would text you lame ass jokes at 3am 

he would even call you at 3am just to remind you that he is handsome

which is true, but he didnt have to wake you up at 3am to remind you that

and the more the two of you hung out, the more your feelings for him deepens 

he is just this precious dork that you want to protect 

today was Jun's free time 

before you could text him and ask if he wanted to hang out, 

he beat you to it 

‘A little birdy told be were both free. Do you want to stop by at the studio and hang out with us? :>’ 

‘Sure Hui. Are they okay with me being there?’ 

‘Of course, dont worry about it." 

"Okay see you in a bit." 

you decided to buy lattes for everyone before going to the studio 

they’ll be tired from practising so you really didnt mind buying 5 lattes 

when you got there, they were sitting in the middle of the room, sweating and panting 

you greet them and hand them their lattes

"Thank you y/n~ Jun your girlfriend is the best." Hoshi giggles, making you stutter

 "I-I’m not his girlfriend,” you say half chuckling

"Yet." he whispers, you not hearing

you have only hung out with his friends a few times 

but they already made you feel like you were part of the group, talking with them for hours 

they even let you watch the recent dance they made for a project

and ofcourse, they kept teasing you and Jun

"Jun how dare you let your girlfriend walk around campus alone." 

he glances at you, with a look you can’t decipher

"She isn’t my girlfriend."

after a while, you decided it was time to go back to your dorm 

you said your goodbyes to them before going 

"You like her. Be honest." Minghao says as he nudges Jun 

"Maybe I do, she doesn’t feel the same." Jun sighs

"Theres only one way to find out." Hoshi points out, grinning 

"Ask her out." Chan says as he pats Jun on the back 

"I will." Jun smiles at them, trying his best to be confident 

okay so your request of using the observatory room has been accepted

today was your free time, so what better way to spend it other than stargazing 

you invited Jun but he still hasn’t responded 

so you went there on your own 

you honestly liked being alone with the stars 

it made you feel at home 

after staying there for a while Jun texted you saying that he’ll be there in a few minutes 

when he came, you were laying down on the floor and just looking up in the sky 

so he just lays down next to you 

it stayed like that for a few minutes 

"Did you know that we’re basically made from stardust? Its amazing to think that those beautiful stars are made from the same thing." you say, breaking the silence 

"Is that really true?" he asks, turning to you 

"I like to believe that its true” you say softly, continuing to stare

"It probably is. Because ever since we talked, you have been my brightest star in my darkest days." he said in a whisper like manner,

but you still heard it 

you didnt say anything else 

your heart was beating rapidly at this point 

you were honestly biting the inside of your cheek just in case you were dreaming 

WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING 

you were basically freaking out inside 

"What?" you ask nervously

"....I was just wondering...if you want to go have dinner with me sometime?" he asks shyly 

"Like a date?" you say, turning to stare at him

"Doesnt have to be! Lets just pretend I didnt say that" he says quickly 

"Oh, too bad. I was gonna say yes." you reply, teasing him

"....really?" his eyes brightening

“Yes Hui." 

with you still laying on the floor, he sits up, grabbing your hands

staring down at you

"Then I take it back,” he smiles happily, “Will you go have dinner with me sometime?"

"I would love to Junhui." you reply, smiling back

and so he lays back down, closer to you this time

your shoe grazing his leg

his hand gently looping your fingers in his

when Junhui told his friends that the two of you were dating, 

almost in unison, "WE KNEW IT!!" 

after a while, it started spreading across Junhui's department and yours 

you honestly didnt know it would be this big of a deal 

Jun would always visit you 

AND I MEAN ALWAYS 

even on days where he is really busy, he would still visit you 

you find it really sweet 

and loving that smile that would light up on his face, 

you would also visit him at his studio 

the boys have taken you in as one of them 

it feels like you’re a part of this big family 

and Jun being cheesy, for the first and last Saturday of every month,

he would reserve the observatory and you two will spend your free time there 

he would put a blanket on the floor and bring food 

and you two would stargaze, eat and talk for hours

or Jun saying pick up lines for hours

"I must be the Sun and you must be Earth, cause the closer we get, the hotter you become." he says winking 

"Jun...why." you say, covering your face in slight embarrassment

"No~ dont cover your face. I want to see the way stars shine in your eyes." he replies cheekily

"Jun one more I swear. Where do you even get all of these?” 

you say questioning why you fell for this huge dork

as you blush really hard

“from my love for you”

Jun honestly loves making you blush 

looking at you, awed by your rosy cheeks

pulling you in close and wrapping his arms around you 

he kisses your head 

“My love for you is like the universe. Incredibly big and expanding vastly everyday."

MASTERLIST

[yutark]

achievement guide/tips

< warning > : i am neither a mod or a professional at this, but i know a lot of people get confused and lost over achievements. these will not work for everyone, not to mention its your muse and time and you should do what you want or think is best for your muse, everyone is different and wants their muse their own way. no one is wrong or right, but this is simply some tips on them. every muse will find their place and will be valued, achievements or not -- so do not stress. 

rookies is an roleplay and for fun, first and foremost.

first notes

the first thing to note for everyone, from the rkachievements blog: “lots of achievements =/= lots of skills.” there are two examples of what this means on the blog if you want to check them out, but the basic idea is, some people will have a lot of achievements and some people will have a lot of skills, and having both types of people in the company is good since they cover different things. neither one is better than the other, it is up to you how you want your muse to be. 

but i, as a non-mod*, would believe a mix of achievements and skills creates for a better rounded muse. 

this is my own personal guide, that means that the mods could see things very differently, but i know a lot of people who are very lost and confused on achievements and feel extremely overwhelmed with what to decide or do with them. in the end, everyone needs to do what makes them happy and what suits their muse, and i encourage people to ignore this if they do not think it suits them.

this is for people who need a little guide and help, and if theyre still lost, i’m certain the mods will explain anything they’re uncertain of to the best of their ability. because they, just like me, want you to focus on what makes you happy and what makes it enjoyable for you.

last note, achievements are a good character development tool outside of all of this, they are one way for you to track your muses growing love of writing songs, or their bane of having to dance, or their growth in confidence as they learn to model. they are what you make them to be and that is just as important, if not more.

base achievements

this is where i’m going to start: base achievements page. for a short explanation, these are some of the skills your muse has when they arrive after being signed. there is only 35 points to use, that means there will be skills that you will have to not do -- this does not mean your muse doesn’t have them, but simply that the company recognises or knows. 

for example, yuta only has advanced english, but he was both taught english from kindergarten to graduation, and worked as a translator, japanese/korean/english, for seven months. in my head, he is likely more fluent in english that advanced would entail, but the company only knows he has advanced. so if this achievement decides something later on, the mods will only see advanced english. if/when yuta does achievements later on for english, he’s “proving” his skills so the company can tick off that he actually has them.

back to the base achievements, 35 points is not a lot, especially when you have to put in languages. an expert level in your muses mother-tongue is going to cost you 6 of those. so it’s important to work out what matters to your muse and use these points to their best advantage. these are some tips:

note which achievements have six levels and which do not. most have six levels of skill: novice, beginner, intermediate, advanced, master and expert. some have less and these cost different base points: ballad singing, voice acting, theatrical acting, abs and drag, all have 3-6 weeks of training and cost two points to complete them. those with levels: novice = 1 pt beginner = 2 pts intermediate = 3 pts advanced = 4 pts master = 5 pts expert = 6 pts remember you cannot put: the mandatory achievements, stamina, creative direction or solo training.

put down the languages first. yuta grew up in japan, the first language i put down was japanese and the second, korean. followed by his english and his chinese. his japanese is expert, his korean + english is advanced, and his chinese is beginner. first, determine if these will help your muse debut. and to be honest, yuta could go without english and chinese. he does not necessarily need them. in fact, he could even go without his japanese. what he does need to debut in korea? at least beginner-intermediate korean. why? if you read this page on languages, beginner lets him record music in korean and intermediate lets him participate in events/variety shows/etc in korean. both of these are almost necessary to promote as a singer. most/all people put their mother-tongue to expert. languages are one of those skills that are one, easy to explain ( since you do need to explain why your muse has a skill and level ) and two, it’s not very interesting character development for a muse to be stuck earning achievements in their mother-tongue to prove they have a skill, they should logically have already. it makes sense to put it on there and im pretty sure everyone does. as you can see, i gave yuta his japanese and korean, plus his english and chinese. then i had to decide who i was going to divide points and pick levels for them and i did that using the nifty language page again. expert level = eligible to act in dramas or movies within that language. what chance will yuta have on act in chinese or english dramas? very little to be honest. he doesn’t want to act. on the other hand, he does want to be able to translate english for his group on the chance that they promote in english, and that requires advanced level english at the very least. since there will be time before yuta debuts, and even more before he does promotions in english speaking countries, i have time to work him up higher if i want to. for his korean, i used the same thinking as i did english: yuta doesn’t have plans to act in korea at this point, advanced lets him translate if he needs to. he needs a minimum of beginner to record music in korean, and intermediate to be in korean events, but it mattered to yuta that he have a certain level. josh was different, josh had expert in english and korean, and advanced in french. why? these were skills i could explain for him to have. he doesn’t have many performance skills. in fact, he ended up with only 4 performance skills, one of which is guitar. on the other hand, his background and life grants him expert levels in two languages and an advanced in french. these skills mattered to josh, even if he’s almost completely unlikely to be singing or promoting in french speaking countries. as i said, every muse is different. but the important thing is to know what each level of skill means and you can find them on almost every achievements page.

if we continue with yuta, he has gone from 35 points available, to only 19 points. he’s used up 16 points in just languages. next, i crossed off any skill yuta was likely not to have -- instruments, melisma, theatrical acting, etc. he has no reason to have these, he hasn’t studied or learned any of them. it would be a lie to say he has.  on the other hand, he would have skills like acting, leadership, speed/lte rap, live singing, flexibility, jazz/contemporary and hip hop.  i read up on all of these pages, trying to determine what would logically be a level yuta had and how much these were going to cost me. and then i added them up. it did come to more than the 19 points he had available, that meant there would need to be some scraping down done. so i broke it down to how many weeks they meant: novice is one week of work. beginner is three more on top. intermediate is four weeks more.  advanced is another four weeks of work. but then advanced to master is six weeks. and master to expert is seven weeks.  i avoid giving my muses any base achievements of novice. with one week of training, they could get that and it feels very pointless when that 1 pt could be +3wks for any other level. the reason to get novice on a base achievements, like i have done with josh and harmonisation, is its a way around the requirements. harmonisation requires +100 singing points and +50 charisma points. its a skill josh will likely need as a main/lead vocalist, and something i would like to work on soon after he’s done his mandatory and got his +50 debut points. on the other hand, i’m not sure if he will have the requirements to get it in a normal workshop. getting him novice on the base achievements, means i don’t need these requirements and can work on it on weekly workshops sooner, rather than later. the only other way that i know of around requirements is through events and evals where you’re able to get that achievement. there is always a chance of an eval lining up well, but like josh, his latest two evals would not give him harmonisation. 

from the top of my head, most achievements at beginner to advanced is enough to do most things. expert is generally not going to come up as an idol. for example, hiphop, is a very focused skill for one and “very few idols reach advanced/expert level hip-hop, and there’s really not a lot of call for it.” expert level is something like jay park or bap’s jongup. and considering most of the trainees will be debuting in groups, the chance of that skill being shown on stage, is limited. on the other hand, it’s likely good for variety shows and a certain level is required for choreography. really, getting expert level in hiphop is for bragging rights. ( it’s not my fault yuta likes to brag and ended up with master level. ) so although the value of a 1 pt goes up as the level does, the value of that level might not mean as much as you think it does. expert sounds cool, but how often do you see idols get to show it? unless my muse values an achievement a lot, it might be better to put that expert achievement aside to work on later, and give yourself an intermediate or advanced, which leaves you that 2-3 pts to put somewhere else -- get an intermediate speed/lte rap, or beginner leadership.

probably the last things to consider with base achievements, looking at skills past their titles/levels and how they work together. i don’t think most people know but leadership at beginner level = a “moodmaker” of the group. yuta does not and has no plans for leadership, on the other hand, he does care that he can make people feel good and happy. this also is a charisma based achievement and i’d like to think yuta is pretty charismatic. it could also be seen as likeability. people like, and viewers/audiences like, someone who makes them feel good and has a good personality. whether this is how the mods see it, i’m not exactly sure. but it’s another thing to consider when deciding. and consider, especially with charisma based achievements, how they may work together. someone with an expert modelling could be looked over because they need to act in cf’s, and someone who divided their points advanced modelling and intermediate acting, might appeal more.

take your time and check out everything. and consider less about needing expert to beat someone else and more on what matters to you and to your muse. in the end, it’s literally less about competing with the other people and more about working together towards debut.

working on debut

the first page to refer to is the rookies trainee page. for the short cut on what i’m going to focus on, it’s mandatory achievements and debut points. this will be a minor section, but it’s important that i brush anyone who is unsure or confused on it.

there are three mandatory achievements.

public interaction

sns management

sex ed

these are the first achievements i suggest every trainee go for. public interaction needs to be take three times, sns management and sex ed need to be done once. it’s five weeks of workshops, but it means once your muse has +50 debut points, they are eligible for ‘experimental groups’ and the more people who are, the more likely there will be a chance of this happening. not to mention, once they’re done, as long as your muse behaves, you don’t need to really touch them again,

my system for doing the debut points and the achievements is to get my muse to 45 debut points. each week i do one of those achievements earns me +1 debut point, so five weeks is five points and then i have +50 debut points and all three achievements. some people do their achievements first, which is completely fine to do. i generally do them later because sometimes evals or events might pop-up where my muse can earn one through and it saves me one week later down the track.

deciding on achievements to work on

this is likely the hardest part for most people: what achievements matter and what don’t. and to be honest, i can’t tell anyone. i’m neither a mod or an admin, and how they decide things is a secret. i think its good to keep it a secret, as it means people can’t tailor their muses to fit the mods and instead do what is right for their muse. but it does mean people who haven’t spent hours thinking about it are very lost.

but i will try my best to give some tips for anyone who is really lost and explain a reason for why i think that.

every trainee likely* needs:

beginner/intermediate in a dance achievement: hiphop or jazz/contemporary ( unless a group is doing a band concept, every idol group dances and having basic skills is useful for every trainee. even josh with his +2 dance points will likely need to have some dance achievements and its one of the first things i will focus on for him. )

beginner in charisma achievement: modeling, acting or variety ( idols have to go on variety shows, they have to model for their albums/events/etc, and they have to act in mvs or even in interviews -- as we have seen with this latest eval. i don’t know if you need all of them, but they will help your muse. )

intermediate in korean ( it’s the language they are promoting in, singing in, and they will obviously very much need this if they do not have it )

beginner/intermediate in singing achievements: live singing and* harmonisation ( live singing is important, since its that skill of singing while dancing, and nearly every idol group does that. and harmonisation is also a versatile skill that is needed in every group. it likely doesn’t matter if you’re a rapper or dancer, having these will benefit you. )

( for rappers* ) beginner/intermediate speed/lte rap should be enough as a starting goal and you should get that as well. 

specialisations

this is probably where everything gets the most murky -- you want your muse to be a main vocal or the lead rapper, or a dancer, but you don’t know what to get them. i am as blind as everyone is on this and only trying my best to work out too. 

but for some general tips and ideas on this, i will try my best. please remember i am not a mod and am only trying to help give some guidance.

referring back to the first thing on this extremely long post, “lots of achievements =/= lots of skills.” so its best to have both skill points and some achievements in your muses focus.

to go a little nerd on you, if yuta was a dancing magician, his skill points are his stats: his stamina, his agility, etc. his achievements are his speciality: hiphop ( lets make it fire, becauses he a pyro ) my aim for his dance % is 30%, so he’s a decent dancer i would imagine, above average. from the rookies point spreadsheet, i can nail him down in the top 40 of dance %. he could kick some butt if he needed to but it’s not going to be super easy. he knows what he’s doing and he can likely get down most pop choreography well. he’s got decent stamina, he’s got decent agility, he’s got some decent spells and can use most of the scrolls he comes across to a good degree of success. my aim for his hiphop dancing is expert, so he’s very much a super cool pyro mage who could burn down entire cities if he wanted to -- but guess what happens if he has to go burn down atlantis, his fire is utterly useless underwater and is mute. he has to rely on his skill points to get him through this. in some areas, he will be advantaged by his achievements and others he wont. he’s still a super cool pyro mage underwater, but he’s soaking wet and someone with a higher skill points would do better than him. thats why its important not to value skill points or achievements over one or the other, they have different ‘effects’ and are used differently. this would work if they needed a jazz/contemporary dancer and not a hiphop dancer. the jazz/contemporary dancer is an electric or water based magician, and when they went down to atlantis, they were in their element, using the water against atlantis by electifying it, or capable of using super powerful water based skills to reign destruction.

deciding what achievements you want to focus on or if you want any achievements at all, is up to the mun and what they think their muse is going to be. there is no right or wrong way to do this, it’s very much a, ‘you do you’ situation. eventually as debut groups are made the admins will give you more direction, but for now, do what feels right for you muse and do not worry what anyone else is doing. maybe you do not care about a pyro mage and just want to be a super skilled mage who is more versatile but doesn’t specialise, you focus on skill points. 

my suggestion is, and will probably remain, focus on rounding and balancing.  focus skill: get some achievements around advanced and keep going for skill points. but don’t focus on only one achievement entirely. josh, as a singer, will likely go 4-5 of the singing achievements to bolster up his 40% of singing points but probably only go for expert in one of them. if you combine that, with the basic trainee skills above, and you have a muse who has their focus but can hold themselves in other areas needed to be an idol.

last words

if anyone has any other tips, just let me know and i will add them on here. 

the mods use different variations and ways of deciding anything, and its important to remember that they have a lot of different things to factor in, not just points or achievements or percentages, and this guide is not a cheat sheet for how to get debut or to be ‘better’, its just for those who might be a bit lost and unsure about what they’re doing. the last thing to note on achievements is this post here. this involves an explanation of how something was cast once before -- and why achievements hold value/benefit. i’m not sure how it works for dancing/singing/rapping, as the mods will change it depending on what the spot needs/requires. but basically achievements let you stand out in an area. but i did not want this guide to focus on competition. this is a starter guide to help people grasp and get into achievements.

( also sorry this is extremely long, but i want to make sure anyone who reads it, can have a better understanding of everything going on. )

a breakdown

do your base achievements, consider wisely! expert might not be worth it!

get to +45 debut points, then work on the 3 mandatory achievements

work on the basic achievements every trainee is likely to need

( if you don’t meet requirements, use evals to get around them )

then work on other achievements and earning bragging right badges

remember! you can continue doing achievements even after you debut