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This drives me up a WALL. Jason just says the quiet part out loud and no one corrects him. Like... this takes place during the Ric arc, Dick has AMNESIA, and they basically kicked him out of the family for it! You can argue that everyone, especially Jason, is emotionally volatile bc of how they just lost Alfred and are grieving, but Dick seriously doesn't deserve to be treated like this.
Actually, how many times has he been kicked out of the family, or rejected/treated like an outsider by them?? From what i can remember, Dick was: fired from Robin twice, ran away at least twice, kicked out of the manor twice, was treated like shit during the entire n52 especially during Spyral, then the Ric arc where he was kicked out AGAIN, not to mention the many times he's been left uninformed (Jasons adoption, becoming Robin, then death and funeral, not being told about the Harold Allnut guy moving into the batcave, not knowing Bruce tried to adopt Tim, there's probably more examples lbr).
Like, Jesus, no wonder Dick doesn't seem to think his place in the family is guaranteed. Because it kinda isn't?? Idk for being the supposed 'golden boy' he's really not treated like it
#felix (host)#dick grayson#nightwing#jason todd#red hood#dc#dc comics#i swear any time he doesn't live up to expectations he's like immediately kicked out#or he does something theyre not happy with#Jason fr said the quiet part out loud and no one said a WORD#Jason ffs you know what it's like to be rejected and turned into an outsider by the bats#don't turn around and do the same thing to Dick??#anyways these are all things scapegoats deal with#the rejection may not always last a long time for Dick#but it happens.. surprisingly frequently#if anyone has any fic recs addressing this please lmk
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"We can get through this by working together, reach out to your friends, community is all we have, a social network will be your security in the world, now is the time to lean on others!"
I do agree, and it's scientifically sound (pretty sure there is data about how people with better social networks live longer and etc) but also....augh..... what about the severe social issues, difficulty to leave the house, physical issues which lead to like zero socialization energy a majority of the time, etc. etc. Social support can be a replacement for structural support, but.. I guess I just wish it didn't have to be. Community is extremely difficult to build, even moreso if you're someone who has issues with social cues or group conversations or even just being around others in the first place. And blah, nuance, of course I'm just complaining or maybe being too negative or maybe misunderstanding, but, I hardly have the energy to brush my hair once every 2 months.. how am I supposed to maintain a wide social network and be active in a Community and Join Groups lol... sometimes it kind of feels like "er.. well if thats my only option then...... ruh roh". It's overwhelming
#Kind of like some post I saw a long time ago talking about how even the meanest shittiest most difficult to get along with#elderly people or whaever still deserve to have some sort of systems in place to support them so they're not just relying on the#grace of relatives or etc. who may not be able to deal with them. Not saying that I'm like mean and cruel or anything#but the fact of the matter is in most social situations either I am compromising or the other person is. Not in like an ~`ouuu im so weirdd#nobody willever understand my quirky swagg hee heee~' way but like a.. Just factually the things that make me happy and comfortable#are often incompatible with people. The way I communicate and process things is different from the way other people do and that#is always a barrier. I cannot have ''easy''' interactions. Even with 'understanding' people there is nearly always a significant#amount of effort. You can't walk into a group of people and then be like ''okay you guys all have to wear#masks and you also cant play music too loud and also we should communicate turns of speaking very clearly so group conversations#arent too stressful. and also i need this and that and we have to do this and that and '' etc. etc. You CAN. And some people will#go along with that. but they will ALWAYS secretly resent you for it. You will be the one person they're relieved to not have to be around.#theyre glad when you dont show up since they can go back to doing things however they want and not masking and all these boring#annoying things. OR you can say none of that and just deal with the loud music and the talking and the unmasked people. but then#YOU'RE compromising. and no matter how nice they are it's exhausting to be around and youre just further alienated#while in the presence of people and uncofmrtoabel the whole time.#Which I'm not saying the only form of community is a group setting specificially but just giving that as an example lol#I just wish there were a better option than ''well learn to socialize normally or just suffer then'' . Which I know is not what people are#saying. I guess I just always feel a bit scared when 'community is the answer'. Since its not like 'oh im just socially anxious and need to#get out of my shell~!' or something thats really that remedy-able. It's like.. my mostly unchangeable physical health issues combined#with the mostly unchangable literal way that my brain processes sensory informationand other things means that interacting with#others in a normal and easy way is incredibly difficult and often exhausting especially to maintain in any longform fashion. So then#when it's like ''the answer to staying safe is to maintain longform social connections!! :3 just reach out!!'' then.. ermm... O_O#also I'm not even one of the cutesy shy emotional hermits that's nervous. I'm the Bad Stereotype emotionless robotic cold seeming#looms in the corner of the room type of thing so people have less pity on you in that way. -_- ANYWAY gghj#I need like.. a designated social representative or something.. When I did work in that bookshop forever ago they gave me a#person who basically was just with me to help communicate with others on my behalf and supervise me and stuff. I need that.. Some#more extraverted person I can latch onto and they can maintain the Social Support Network for me and I can just be their +1 to all#of the Social Things and community. I have helpful skills I can contribute to other people and stuff it's just like.. I cant socialize lol#I cook food or something for you.. then you keep me in contact with Community.. a deal. (but then what about when I'm too sick to#contribute? as is often the case. there's not much place for people like me in communities sometimes i fear.. sigh.) ***
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Saw some of the grossest parenting today in the bus
#this dad was on his phone the whole bus ride ok#and his two kids were screaming arguing#at most he would periodically tell them to lower their voice while still on his phone#one time he told them to stop the one sitting next to him hit him 😭 and he went back to look at his phone with no reaction#my guy something is seriously wrong with you#your kids are screaming at each other doesn't even matter all that much that we are in the bus rn#theyre not just being loud kids you need to do smt!!!!!! its too early for this!!! i could hear them even with my noise cancelling headphone#anyways#ive never seen smt like this#and i work in a mall i see lots of parents and kids#idk smt really disgusting about a parent just not even interested in engaging with their kids#dude no wonder they're loud they probably want ur attention#also this one lady once who came in wjth a big stroller#and the store where i work has little moving rooms between the aisle so this woman decided TO LEAVE THE STROLLER WITH A KID INSIDE AT THE#FRONT OF THE STORE#the kids started crying and his hrother (toddler not in the stroller but not following the mom for some reason) started exploring and i#i had to watch them until the mom came back but like the woman just left them there???#i just stepped in but what if i hadnt??? lady?????????#i see lots of cute interactions of course#like this little girl who came with who i think is her grandpa and he asked me to help her chose her next manga read 😭💖#i basically work in a book/toy store#theres a lot of candy as well the kids love it#idk i like seeing kids being happy ok it is healing#like all the kids sitting on the floors deep in their books while the parents shop 😭😭😭 makes me smile every time top tier behavior
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lime hearing theres gonna be an awesome meteor shower visible from the capitols outskirts and hatching a whole plan to take mochi on a stargazing date. hes over there pulling all the stops, bringing pillows and blankets and a pop-up mattress, (somewhat) forcefully getting taffy to lend him his truck, bringing snacks and picnic dinner, the whole time thinking "Hehe, the perfect date idea. She's gonna eat this shit up and fall in love with me no problem."
but then of course like a hundred other people had the same genius idea as him so the location has tons of people. including the other guild members. (he didnt tell them where he was taking mochi so they couldnt follow him. by coincidence they also went to the same place. maybe not coincidence, limes idea for a spot isnt exactly a hidden location)
#poor lime...maybe next time#he was like (this date is gonna be so nice i swear to god)#had a whole mind image of setting up a cozy bed in the back of taffys truck and cuddling with her under the stars#watching the meteor shower all romantic#plans foiled by the general public#some dude barbequeing. another playing music on a loud stereo#he wants to kill everyone there#marshal and clarinette show up like (hey guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!)#poor lime#and a disappointed mochi because she wanted to actually go on a real date with him#he went through the whole (hey so... [leans against wall] i heard theres gonna be a meteor shower on saterday...)#(i thought maybe we could go grab dinner and watch it together or something...[trying not to fall apart])#dont worry she still (subtly) sits close to and leans on him while theyre watching#snuggle under a blanket...#they get a little bit of romance time#quickly diffused by taffy asking who has the box of crackers#anyway. random ideas i have
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I'm using a blow dry brush and it's actually working!?!??!!?!?!?!?
#IM SO HAPPYYYYYYYYY#FUCK I NEED TO SLEEP I DIDNT NOTICE THE TIME#its ok if i ont sleep this on ce right#oh fuck my poor neighbours i forgot tht my hairdryer is loud....#this is why i should wake up at normal times#well whatever i didnt like them anyway theyre super fucking loud too#and its ok to sacrifice oke nifhts sleep for myhair#it wont result in a all out insomnia thingy again fs i think#aaaaa im so happyyyyyy#WAITTT THE HUMIDITY IS HIGH MY HAIR WILL DIE TMRW :((((
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having to explain to people things like. if i have to go out to do something and run errands i need to have it all mapped out and planned w like. at least a week in advance. and if i go out that day i cannot do anything else because That will be it. if i have multiple commitments that cannot be put on the same day i need one full day in between those commitments so i can rest and be recharged for that next thing otherwise i might have a breakdown in the middle of the street (again) and then That will render me unable to function for like a whole three days. and then people look at me like i choose to live like this?
#txt#audhd tag#just venting a little#its crazy because ppl around me are like I understand your limitations However why dont you-#So you dont understand my limitations?#like okay yeah i understand that it must be Weird for people that are not Inside my brain and hard to understand that i PHYSICALLY CANNOT>#do things that they dont even think about. alright! but to sit and tell me Yeah we get it! but then try to either fix it or >#> come up w a New Incredible Way To Fix Me as if half of what i talk abt w my therapist isnt Exactly This#like yeah i dont fucking like it either. i wish i could do shit like other ppl do. i wish i could remember things.#i wish i didnt feel exhausted all the time i wish simply leaving my bed wasnt the most difficult task every single morning#but it pisses me OFF when people try to talk me through these Limitations i have that They Understand<3 like. can you be accommodating or no#one of my closest friends and oldest friends since i was like 5 had her bday on friday and she ljterally messaged me like#Hi we r having something w my family but theyre rly loud and extremist on the right wing side and i barely wanna be here u dont have 2 come>#> but i wanted to invite u anyway so u dont think ur being left out! and i was like Yayy nice thank u bc lbr i probably wouldnt go anyway.#and she KNOWS that. and she literally was talking to me like she alwahs does and That felt accommodating and understanding and i felt loved#cut to my mom last night trying to make me feel guilty for not going because Shes my friend and i should have gone anyway.#i told her off and she backtracked but thats still innmy head like. that shit is so irritating#okay sorry vent over im just aboht to get my period so this is making me sick#want to yell into the void and forget about it. Hits post
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these things are always happening to the ones i like :////////
anyways the lighting in this dungeon is so nice
didn't get any good pics bc i was too busy dungeoning but so pretty...best dungeon music so far goes to snowcloak though btw
#ffxivposting#i knew it was coming bc i tried to use the google search bar as a spellcheck for his name (LOL) like a DUMBASS because in the suggestions..#i was like no!! no!! but he's so funny!!!!!! and the second he showed up in game again i started taking screenshots of me n the bestieee#it wouldnt be accurate to say that i am Emotional about this but i am like aw man...but he was so funny...insert montage of All The Memorie#was crazy seeing her looking so distressed in a cutscene. girl me too! he was so funny </3#the loud ass screenshot sound effects throughout the cutscene were funny though.this is who i am#altogether i have like 150+ screenshots of this game thus far.serious shit#IN OTHER NEWS:#- i cant stop laughing at finding out that a.lphinaud is in fact 16 years old. like i was guessing he was 17 or so but man it checks out#so hard. smart fella or not of course the sixteen year old boy naively founded a private army. it checks out so hard. hes cute :)#- since the tail end of arr patch quests ive been checking npc dialogue of relevant characters and thats a bit of a goldmine sometimes#- the first time aymeric(?) (not double checking via google ive learned my lesson) showed up i joked that he was going to be an akc type#and well no. he's really not. but i did cackle when it was revealed that he was a bastard child. clocked him on accident#- addicted to dalamud red dye. was funny when estinien started rocking his blood red armor like omg now we're Extra twinsies!#funny to me when they acknowledge the whole drg class stuff. like ah yes the Other azure drg. sorry estinien this feels like stolen valor#this is just what happens when u play f.fiv multiple times when u are r like 6. and also just think lances are sexy.#- can't wait to find out where tf the rest of the scions went. hi guys. you wont Believe what happened while you were AFK!#that's right! dragons! and then theyre like I Haven't Seen The Light Of The Sun For An Ambiguous Amount Of Time...cowabummer!#i keep joking abt needing to do a wellness check on urianger but honestly hes fine hes living it up in the sand. hes doing fine#- anyway can someone do a wellness check on ysayle(?).#- i've unlocked flight in a couple zones! thankkk god. some of these places are ROUGH to navigate without it sometimes.#- my keybinds are rough. also i have a gauge now. havent gotten to use it bc of level sync but anyway this feels like school#dont worry chat i only do duties with other real players when i Literally Have To Because They Make Me#- anyway. very ? about what theyre going to do with the rest of this story. intrigued. and quite sleepy i must say.
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Gonna sleep some more. Got class and also maintenance ppl are coming at 8am!! Hopefully they aren't too loud!
Also, complaining about how tumblr keeps putting "ad free is tumblr premium" on the bottom of my dash! Gtfo. I already wasn't gonna buy it, but now I REALLY don't want to!
#nimo's sheeko sheeko time#also complaining again: autocorrect is garbage? rn they tried to correct my 'hope they arent too loud'#with 'hope theyre arent too loud' or 'hope they'll arent too loud' wtf is that 😭#this thing is a mess! it does that to me all the time!!!#I remember I turned it off for months but sometimes words look fake and wrong so I brought it back to help me AND YET FJDJDJD#oh anyway I need corporations to understand that invasive ads actually deter ppl from wanting to buy from you!!!
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somehow these current roommates we have are the worst that ive known yet and last semester we literally had a girl who smoked cigs IN her bedroom. list of grievances below lol
#first of all they turn all the lights on all the time. the other day i was hanging out in the living room w one light on bc it was light#enough outside thru the windows and one of them walked in and flipped another light on automatically. then walked through#the living room right to her bedroom... girl youre not even using this room and i was clearly fine with the light level??#they always have all 3 kitchen lights on when they cook and dont turn them off plus none of them have lamps#they all use the Big LED Ceiling Light in their bedrooms which is baffling to us#they dont know how to organize the kitchen and they took up so many of the cabinets with bullshit. like 3 pans here a few plates there#we have like 4 cabinets worth of food and even more of pots and pans and shit bc this is everything we own#and we cant afford to use disposable everything like some of them do#theyre always leaving the fridge open while they cook too and i have to physically hold myself back from becoming my mom#and yelling at them to close the fridge when theyre not actively getting smth out of it!! like theyll stand there cooking and have it open#for 2 minutes straight#theres only room for one water filter pitcher in the fridge and one of them brought a big one which is nice but theyre always forgetting to#refill it which defeats the purpose of even having it#and they always somehow start cooking right when we decide we need to eat#one of them sent this long sort of condescending post abt ants and how it stresses him out when the kitchen is messy so we all need to clean#more and try harder to keep ants away as if 1) ants care at all abt dishes in the sink or stains on the stove and 2) as if the ants will#stop coming around if theres no food out in this building where there are notoriously always ants even on the 4th floor#(we are ground floor this time) and 3) as if he isn't one of the people leaving food around and not taking the trash out#nobody responded to it in the groupchat lmao bc he sounds like a fucking cop!! and is dating an rotc guy??? and also is a streamer or just#likes to play games on vc with friends bc hes always very loudly doing that#but obviously we have sex all the time so we're at a sort of loud noise stalemate where neither of us can complain abt the other#to be clear this is in no way the absolute worst situation theyre nice enough people and havent reported us for anything (they both work for#student housing -_-) and generally things go okay in the apartment#but like. ive never been this annoyed this often with any other roommates#ALSO someone spilled soy sauce all over our designated level of the fridge door where we had all our little bottles of stuff#but also a carton a Paper Carton of milk and a pack of butter standing upright which soaked up the soy sauce and for several days#even after id cleaned the bottom of the carton the best i could i swore it tasted like soy sauce from it soaking into the bottom or smth#but it's still all over everything in there bc it was so much it like. pooled in there and splattered on everything#like. u see that happen u clean it up wtf.??#anyway i just felt like i needed to complain and see if im being silly or if these things really are so annoying
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harvard a lame school i bet aoki never got woken up at 11PM because his roommates were blasting music cause everyone a square there
#snap chats#hi everyone.#i finished WMA3 :) still couldnt tell yoou what happened but it was still fun..#love the montage moment... theyre my fave in the WMA movies...#oh right. the post. //screams//#I WAS JUS LAYING IN BED THINKIN BOUT HOW IM GNNNA GO IN THE CITY TOMORROW#AND I FALL ASLEEP AND NEXT THING I KNOW I HEAR MY ROOMMATE AND HER FRIEND IN THE LIVIN ROOM#BLASTING MUSIC AND IM JUST. UU 👁️👁️#scariest moment was when her friend rattled my door cause apparently she used to stay in my room last semester#BUT STILL MY GOD i thought someone fell so i go out and shes like Are We Too Loud <:)#and i. like any self respecting adult. said no <3#honestly i probably could sleep through this. my sister used to have parties all the time in highschool and i slept through those#tho those were in the basement...... and theyre right outside my door ☠️#anyway i hope harvard DID have cool ass parties nd aoki never got invited to any of them and he just kept getting waken up eveyr night#yall think he dormed or did he just live in a house/apartment nearby.... ive always wondered that...#if sawashiro was there with him then i'd imagine a house/apartment#tho would there be a point in getting a dorm if he already lived close by ? prob not#im not thinking about it rn i just wanted to complain LOL
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im gonna meet my new roommate this weekend........i hope that they r normal
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#for context last yr (or this yr . but last school yr) i had the most insane roommate#she was like an insane clean freak and she was also really loud and kept moving my stuff and I SUSPECT she even stole smth but idk#she also lied to me a lot and attempted to gaslight me to turn me on our other housemates . she made me cry multiple times </3#i lived in an apt of 5 ppl and everyone all hated her but i shared a room with her. and the thing is that they all liked Me but not Her#so whenever there were arguments id end up having to be the middle ground like even when i went home for summer vacation#i was called over on the phone to solve household disputes bc yknow she only listened to me and i was the only person capable of not-#-like blowing up on her bc she'd say some pretty unreasonable things sometimes and my other housemates r all pretty hotheaded#(my roomie included) but i . i do not get angry like ever so im able to calmly deal with things#when i tell you i do not get angry ever im so srs i know i say shit on here but my housemates have never seen me angry even once in 2 yrs#but anyways sometimes my housemates take me out for drinks and theyre like are u sure ur okay lan how do u live with her 💀💀#anyways yeah last yr was a shitshow i hope my roommate this yr is normal like just the bare minimum is fine#ive only ever had insane roommates like my first roommate was a party animal and shed come home drunk at like 4 am#there was even a pregnancy scare once but anyways at least i got along with her rly well#i miss her actually :(((#my second roommate tho. she scares me
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What are some common things you incorporate in your fics? Themes, feels, scenes, imagery, etc.
MY BAD it has taken me a little while to get to every fic writer question ive been asked pfft but i appreciate all of them and theyre really fun to answer :o and alright ok common things—character psychology is a big thing in all of my work :o aa every time i write a characters pov i try to do at least some research into their personality, backstory, etc etc bc my writing is almost always like?? character study type things?? i Really like delving deep into how characters think!!! :o so a lot of my works are like. you Will hear almost every thought in their head HAH. ive been told i have a very recognizable writing style widndnd but i do try to switch up internal dialogue at least a little bit depending on the pov character. i dont know how effective i am at that but i try HAH plus i think its fun trying to capture how someone thinks in the same way that youd try to capture how they speak in their dialogue. i think the most obvious example is probably my recent reinhard stuff—i tried to sound more formal with him? even with little kid reinhard i wrote his internal dialogue kind of formally because i figured that Might be able to create that bit of Dissonance that reinhard has as a character, you know? hes uncanny.
and uh because i focus on internal dialogue a lot, by the nature of things i kind of Have To slap the unreliable narrator tag on the vast majority of my fics HAH but unreliable narrators are fun and i love playing with them!! and i think its realistic in the sense that even a character thats very fair and just and honest may still have the wrong information at times or have emotion cloud their judgment or be a little unreliable for those reasons. that and i tend to pick the mentally fucked characters (which is pretty easy with the rezero cast HAH) whenever i write Very detailed internal dialogue so!!! unreliable narration and spirals into madness it is!!! i just really like exploring like. the humanity behind each character and all their nuances <3 and i Love having to squint at internal dialogue and add that up with a characters thoughts and actions and figure out who this person Actually Truly Is Like?? its like a puzzle :o !!
as for themes. i went into this a lot in another fic writer ask thingy but Definitely like. when characters change as a result of shit hitting their fan and/or their own choices and now theyre Different from the person they used to be. they came back wrong so now what are they going to do? how are the people around them going to treat them now? how will they treat the people around them? i just really like going into like. identity crisis… and um…. suffering that triggers massive self searching bc. the character changed in some way in order to survive through it physically and/or mentally. like seeing characters change for the worse and seeing them either try to crawl their way out or they. keep going down. it can be hopeful or very tragic!!! (bc i love hurt/comfort and tragedy a lot ajdnd) and complicated relationships are a huge favorite of mine to tackle. fascinating multi-layered stuff that i want to study under a microscope!!! i like when multiple contradictions exist within a dynamic or like. a character and their journey. the complexity feels very real to me and i find it intriguing :o
i also love queer themes but due to um. some of the toxicity in this fandom i do hesitate to do stuff with that in this fandom but i DO love queer themes its just not in most of my work atm but thatll change eventually 👍 ill at least slip in a little bit every chance i get 👍👍 (i have exactly one fic with queer themes atm wjdnd)
motifs/random imagery i use a lot also!!!! mostly bc i find them cool and fun but. yes theyre there for a reason. in my first pride otto fic i used second person pov and avoided using his name at points to emphasize that hes 1. being dehumanized and 2. hes dehumanizing himself too as a result. i uhh have also used star related things for subaru a lot bc Of Course. butterflies and moths for emisuba things…. economics themed titles for my pride otto multichap…. bugs for general pride if things…. comparing the knights uniform to bird wings in my reinhard and heinkel fic… i like to describe outfits in general too (pride otto vs main ottos outfits, also felix not wearing blue in the 2 seconds of screentime he has in my pride if fics atm wkdndn) etc etc :o
#this is such a long response but wkdndnd hope this all made sense HAH#i almost decided to study psychology in college!!! atm i am not doing that but it is still a possibility i suppose.#i have no idea what im doing. but anyway!!! yes this is a good summary of the stuff i usually like writing pfft#i will like the skrunkliest characters im so sorry thats why i keep otto and heinkel posting KANDNDND#but it IS nice writing side character content if only bc ur one of the only people doing it in the fandom on ao3 so its almost kind of??#free reign??? they dont have as much like. fanon tropey things bc theyre not as Big. u know?? so absolute freedom to go buck wild writing#fic for them wofndndnd#and im also so starved of content ill make it myself just so i dont starve 👍#like its def a little less of an uphill battle to write uh for example. otto pov vs emilia pov. bc at least with otto pov i dont feel like#im fighting against loud fandom opinion + tappeis opinion. if that makes sense.#like i try to be as canon compliant as possible at all times but WHAT do i do with emilia is 14 yrsand 18 yrs and 100+ yrs at the same time.#sometimes i want tappei to shut up a bit HAH#i do hope to see more content for side characters tho fr 🙏🙏 otto fics where are u…#ask#and also rip if ur writing in depth content involving any rezero kids bc u have a 99% chance of having to wade through tappei being weird#about kids. cries.
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I ranked them guys
#okay so#I can give reasoning for some of them#buster rocket and sci-fi sword aren't that good skins theyre just like#I think theyre special#snowboard and hoverboard are in their respective places because of an argument with my friend#the hyperlaser skins at the top are the skins I use#wellI dont use yulaser I dont like his sfx#sticking with witchlaser for the time being#OKAY so mildly related but does anyone else notice that with different skins as hyperlsaer the shots feel like#they take different amounts of time???#am I crazy???#like I try playing normal hyper and I miss all the shots cus I expect them to go earlier but they DONT#AM I JUST BAD OR SUM??#okay yeah continuing#I miss with betagraft had a really loud chainsaw noise as its ult#that was really funny#like right after the phest ended#so for that funny they get instant S teir#rocket just looks plain bad to me#and the stargazer rocket PISSES ME OFF#IN EVERY OFFICIAL PHOTO OF HIM HIS MOUTH IS IN A DIFFERENT PLACE#I HATE IT#All the furry type skins are S tier cus yes#except vinesplash but eh#I dont like shuriken outside shurifin#they all just look eh#anyway rant over have fun folks#phighting#phighting!
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the mortifying ordeal of opening up about myself to someone i look up to is coming for me i need to dye my hair and leave the planet
#me.txt#sometimes i talk or want to talk about some of the ways my brain works and then i remember that nobody normal is like this#and then i explode a million times#i really wish my brain didnt decide making fake memories based on fake guys is how itd make up for ripping all my real memories into shreds#because now everyone who finds out who doesnt already know me very well . judges me. in a not fun way#and to be fair i guess what i do is extremely abnormal and probably cringey or whatever but i didnt. choose this.#i didnt control the way my ptsd manifested. i didnt ask to have these identity problems#i dont know. am i that embarrassing for clinging desperately to whatever memories my brain lets me hold onto? even if theyre…not real?#even if theyre of being someone else?#who knows. i dont. anyway thats enough talking out loud. i need to go work on comms now
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finally making a story about a person whos obsessed with another person in their life to the point where they now have to learn how to be a person and figure out who they are when that other person isnt around
#my post#the lore is stored in the tags#the wondrous oc tag#misc oc tag#i used the word person too many times just now. ANYWAYS#so it starts out like. idk what the storys about yet actually.#but the important part is the narration. generic 3rd person pov. follows around one person and can only see that persons thoughts.#and then that person dies. and the narrator is distraught. it doesnt know what else to do because its whole world just died.#so it sits there a while. a long while. and at some point the narrator becomes tangible and real. an actual physical being.#and with its newfound life it decides it has to find a way to bring their person back from the dead#and idk the details but it happens and it works. and theyre back!#but the narrator doesnt just fade away again. the narrators a person now.#and shockingly its person does not like that some Thing has been following them all their life and just. describing what they do??? and#its really fucking weird that narrator still does that. out loud. and just always follows them around. and so the person basically tells it#to fuck off and leave them alone#and narrator once again doesnt know what to do. no more story to follow no more person to observe.#and this is where narrator has to figure out who they are. form their own bonds. be a person#and im so excited for this story :D#ive wanted to write something like this for a long time
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silly robin rambling below cut :p
i was an insanely quiet child to the point teachers would ask if shit was going on at home [kind of was kind of was a myriad of other problems too] to the point where its taken since i was 16 til even now to be comfortable being loud and taking up space and letting myself get excited and have fun but now im an Adult im expected to behave the way i did when i was too young to be acting like that i feel like i will never get to exist in that carefree way because i missed my CHANCE like i am overexciteable im silly im almost unburdened for the first time in my life but i have to STOP!!!
#going insane friends i am all of a sudden too much and not enough at the same time#something abt childhood trauma and neurodivergency and the two blurring together to the point theyre nesr indistinguishable#it doesnt matter i should just. be loud anyways men can be loud anyways#i think ive earned being loud and immature and silly#something something post 20 age regression real
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