#they're showing up in edit just not in post hmmm

[sparrowmoth]

Tagged by @jazzythursday to share the last lines I wrote! <3

The last lines I wrote are from the 11th chap of my Wesper internet friends to lovers fic, i feel like i've known you (but we've never met), but I think the very last lines give more away than I want to, so I'm gonna pick some from slightly before the actual end of the chap.

Maybe I want him to hate me. Maybe I want him to, because… I hate him, and it eats at me. I shouldn’t hate him. He’s my father.

Tagging (no pressure): @waterloou @kindness-ricochets @oneofthewednesdays @sunfl8wer @tinyarmedtrex @wespertilionidae @fizzysugarwater @nerdlingmerchling andddd whoever else wants to do this, feel free to say I tagged you! <3

[destinygoldenstar]

🍀A Night With Nina🍀 - Total Drama Viewer Reacts to Disventure Camp Season 2 Episode 8 “Nightmare At Tipiskaw”

TRIGGER WARNING: BLOOD & GORE

Okay, this italicized part is an EDIT after the reaction. I need to put up a trigger warning for this episode as a reason why I might not show as many images as usual.

I don't think it's as bad as it could've been, otherwise I think OddNation would get demonetized. But to be on the safe side, THIS EPISODE/THIS POST IS NOT FOR THE HEMOPHOBIC.

I WILL put a TW in the tags as well so they don't see the post. But in case your account doesn't have the filter for this sort of thing, HERE'S YOUR WARNING.

Been awhile since the events of my life yaddy yada.

I don't have an intro.

Enjoy the reaction:

OH NO THE GO KARTS ARE BACK XD

Those karts are gonna be the DEATH of someone. I swear.

They almost killed a kid once.

"I'm the one who does the accounting. Remember?"

YOU?!

So that's where our taxes go...

"Because if I do it, I would be admitting that I was wrong!"

Dang. She's a brat.

But I get why. So I'm interested.

Oh the doll is recapping XD

Okay I like that. That's a good twist and shake up.

OH CHRIST

OH THAT ACTUALLY JUMPSCARED ME. OH MY GOD.

THIS DOLL'S GONNA KILL EVERYONE, I SWEAR.

"In fact, I was thinking of getting a tattoo when this is all over."

Okay, Lake, honey, I think that's going too far.

WAIT WHOA WHAT

WHERE THE HELL DID YOU GET THAT?!

WHAT?! THERE WAS NO BUILD UP!!

"Attention campers, an immunity totem has been hidden somewhere in the camp!"

An idol is back?

T h e i d o l s a r e b a c k . . . ?

WELL THEY DIDN'T HAVE TO KEEP IT A SECRET FROM THE AUDIENCE.

What was the point of keeping it a secret from the audience?

I WOULD'VE LOVED TO KNOW ROSA HAD AN IDOL.

I-

I'm losing my mind already.

Just by LOOKING at an idol. I lose it.

I'm going to abstract. I have PTSD with idols now.

GET THAT IDOL OUT OF MY FACE!!!

"I found the totem minutes before the queens challenge started."

Wasn't Riya with you? Shouldn't Riya already know about this?

Considering, you know:

"You had a couple of hours to find the totem, and just minutes before the challenge started, it was finally found."

Wait what?

We didn't see who had it?

Are they keeping it a secret on who found it?

KRYSTAL SAID THAT. I REMEMBER IT.

I DISTINCTLY REMEMBER IT BECAUSE I REACTED TO THAT LINE.

Riya should already know. Right?

Unless she's secretly planning to steal it.

OH GOD THE COUNTER IS BACK.

STEAL THE IDOL FROM ROSA

NO SHE HEARD ME.

She's like "Yeah Rosa. Bold of you to trust me with that info. Not like I could think strategically, see you and Lake are threats, and steal that idol from you to dump your asses! I AM A FAMOUS AC-TOUR AND I WILL NOT BE INTIMIDATED BY POWER!"

Why did I say that with a British accent? SHE'S INDIAN. COME ON ME.

I'm sorry for the disrespect, Riya! You can slay! This is my way of saying sorry, queen!

I love Rosa and don't want anyone to slay her, but I'm also like "DO IT YOU WON'T. DO IT YOU WON'T."

"I was searching with Rosa that day, and now that Lake is in the alliance is when she decides to reveal that she found the totem?! Why didn't she tell me before?! Does she not trust me?"

EXACTLY. THEY'RE ADDRESSING THIS.

Now Riya thinks her only 'friend' is going to blindside her and backstab her and leave her behind.

MAYBE YOUR PROBLEMS WOULD BE SOLVED IF YOU STOLE THE IDOL? HMMM? JUST A SUGGESTION?

"Maybe we should have focused that afternoon on the game so we go far together."

UH, YEAH, THAT WAS ON YOU GUYS.

Are they better or worse than Reality TV's Stupidest Alliance? I can't tell. But that's up there.

DON'T BLAME TESS FOR ANYTHING. SHE CHOSE TO ACCEPT HER FATE.

BLAME ANYONE, BLAME THESE GUYS.

"Meet me at the race track in fifteen minutes."

UH, SIR. I DON'T THINK THAT'S FIFTEEN MINUTES.

"Sorry for the wait, Marcus had a little accident."

DID THE DOLL KILL HIM?!

I can believe that, actually.

"I am more than happy to invite all of you to my fun game."

OH NO IT'S SAW

"Have you already forgotten that the puppet spoke when I held it?"

"I'm pretty sure that thing is a demon that's gonna kill us."

"Best thing is to ignore all of that and enjoy this night off."

Rosa, I love you, but you have a death wish.

"Let's go to the lake to see the stars."

"Great idea, Lake!"

Ah, AH? I get the pun.

"But first, I'm going to take a shower."

Well, we know who's dead.

"How about we watch... a horror movie?"

James, you secretly enjoy this, don't you?

OH NO AND THEN HE PUTS AN ARM AROUND HIM...

AND THEN THE CREEPY MUSIC PLAYS?!

LIKE GOD, YOU CAN'T NOT TELL ME THAT MAKES THE GESTURE SINSTER!

"Maybe when we're done and you're scarred, we can go behind the bushes and MAKE LOOOOOVEEEE..."

"HASHTAG EXPLICIT AO3 FANFICTION!! FOR THE GAY SERVICE!"

James. You make me uncomftorable.

OH GOD SHE IS A DEMON. SHE HAS HIM CAPTIVE.

I don't like how he's tied up...

XD

Okay that bitch slap got a laugh out of me. XD

Why is the popcorn already in the pan like that?

If it was left out there, I don't want to eat it.

"I'm following you."

XD

Okay, my brain went to, "I'm following you... ON INSTAGRAM!"

And James reaction is, "Oh neat! You follow me on Instagram? Great!"

PLEASE tell me that's the joke!

"Ew. Another follower who gets my number."

Oh... close enough.

"Do you like them better than your boyfriend Aiden?"

Why do you care about that?! Hello?! ANOTHER predator?

"He's not my boyfriend..."

Oh really? So what was the kiss? What was the attitude? What's with sleeping together? THESE AREN'T FRIENDLY GESTURES MATE.

This man's a predator, I swear to god...

You know what? GET HIM SERIAL KILLER.

Man, if only Yul was still here. Then I could watch hm get killed.

That would've been an excuse to keep him, at least.

OH JESUS CHRIST. WTF?!

I DIDNT EXPECT THAT. HOLY SHIT

HE ACTUALLY DIED?!?!?

Oh shit…

IS THIS VR AGAIN?! IS THAT WHAT THIS IS?! HUH?!

That's actually creepy holy shit...

Why does that remind me of something from FNAF?

Okay, why are we watching her shower? Come on now. We know she's dead.

Yep. There we go.

Bye Allyson.

RULE NUMBER ONE OF SURVIVING A HORROR MOVIE, NEVER TAKE A SHOWER.

GOOD THING THE SERIAL KILLER WAS NICE ENOUGH TO PUT A TOWEL AROUND HER XD

THAT'S NICE OF THEM.

Why was she wearing shoes in the shower?

"That puppet..."

Okay I know he's supposed to be angry, but he said that so DEADPANNED and I cant take it seriously.

Welp, Hunter's dead.

The doll just killed him herself XD

Oh you poor, poor, stupid boy.

The best girls can take em!

OH GOD

HEEEEEERRE'S JOHNNY!!

NO RIYA!! NOT THE QUEEN!!

"Do you know how to start the car without keys?"

"Yes, and don't ask me how."

Oh geez, Rosa. How many crimes did you commit for your child?

"You're going to be screwed for what you did, bastard!"

YES. SLAY QUEEN. AVENGE YOUR QUEEN.

LET ROSA COOK.

ROSA NO DON'T STAY BEHIND. NO QUEEN! DON'T!

"I grew up in a neighborhood where seeing assholes with weapons threatening others was the daily norm."

Geez, what a backstory. BEFORE DEATH.

HOW IS ROSA SO GOOD?

NOOO ROSA!!!!

YES LAKE!!! FIGHT EM!!! SAVE YOURSELF!!!

GET OUT, QUEEN!!!

OH SHE'S GOT EM

"That's for attacking my friends!"

"Auf Wiedersehen."

Guys? Lake is AWESOME? THE HELL?

NOOOO LAKE!!! NOOOOOOO!!!!

Oh they're alive.

I mean I knew it. Still. HOW IS THIS POSSIBLE WITHOUT VR?!

I'm so confused.

BRUH. SHE'S NAKED STILL.

This is kinda uncomftorable

"Ketchup?"

Okay but why play dead though? I don't get it.

"Tranquilizers?"

Oh okay.

I still don't get it.

WAIT WHAT THE HELL?! HELLO?!

I THOUGHT YOU WERE GONE. WHAT THE HELL?!

WHY ARE YOU BACK?! WHY'D YOU AGREE TO DO THIS?

"But the producers gave me the opportunity to get back in the game if I cooperated for a challenge."

She's back?!

WHY ARE YOU BACK?

I didn't want her back. WHY?

"I hope that from now on, we can get along."

YOU KILLED EVERYONE.

"She also has immunity for her and two people of her choosing."

What? Come on now. Are you kidding me?

"Sorry guys, but the immunities go to Ally and Hunter."

Of course. I kinda figured.

IT'S PLOT ARMOR. IT'S BLATANT PLOT ARMOR.

They didn't even win. But the game became RIGGED to keep them around.

"We will have to vote for one of the girls. There is no other option."

BULLSHIT. LAKE WAS ROBBED.

TWICE.

"Which one would you vote for?"

"Lake?"

And now they're gonna boot her.

GODDAMMIT.

"I think we'll be voting for different people at this ceremony."

WELP. So James is screwed. Bye James.

"And as if that weren't enough problems already, Karol returned who hates us!"

"I mean she KILLED us for crying out loud!"

"I was the one who accused her in front of everyone."

And yet you take this so casually that you're gone tonight as a result?

"Of course I remember, and not once have I seen her blame you for it."

I mean, she should. He outted his own plan in front of her.

"She went to me! Only to me! She called me a traitor and she wants me out of the game!"

Really? Where was that scene?

"I hope you leave soon, Aiden! You are a traitor!"

🙄

James makes Aiden's life worse. I swear.

OH GOD.

KAROL JUMPSCARE.

"Aiden, calm down. I will not vote for you, nor for James, so don't worry, okay?"

Oh? Why?

"I'm just trying to turn the page and start over."

Are you serious? I can't tell if she's honest or not.

"But my therapist says that resentment is a drag on the road to recovery."

Oh. Maybe she is serious.

"How about Lake? There are already two challenges that she was very close to winning."

And the game was RIGGED AGAINST MY QUEEN.

Doesn't matter though, cause Rosa has an idol and can play it on Lake.

"I wanted to propose that we vote together in this ceremony."

Oh god no...

Riya the traitor?

STEAL THE IDOL YOU WON'T. STEAL IT YOU WON'T.

"Hmmm, who would it be?"

And the fact that she's intrigued.

The worst part is that it's not actually a bad strategic move. James's only lifeline is Aiden, and Aiden is a damn floater who would crumble without him. And if Hunter and Allyson are gonna work with her to take out two bigger threats, then...

Shit...

"Well, if what Ally said is true, Lake could be voted out tonight. I could tell Rosa to save her with her totem, but I have to think if that's really what I want..."

Oh so this is a test for Riya.

Friends or money? Hmmm...

"If someone has an immunity totem and wants to play it, now is the time to do it."

Ooh...

COME ON. PLAY IT. PLAY IT.

PLAY THE IDOL!!!

"Well, no one, so lets read the votes."

GODDAMMIT NOOOOO

'JAMES'

I hope it's James. Honestly.

'RIYA'

Wh-who voted Riya?

GODDAMMIT AIDEN. YOU DOOMED LAKE BY DOING THAT.

'LAKE'

There it is.

'JAMES'

'LAKE'

'JAMES'

Oh? Riya didn't flip? Or is that Karol?

'LAKE'

OH GOD NO...

NOOOOOOO GODDAMMIT!!!!

WITH AN IDOL SHE HAD ACCESS TO AS WELL. THAT'S THE WORST.

GIRLIE WAS ROBBED. SHE SHOULD'VE WON THAT IMMUNITY.

"Lake... it can't be."

DON'T ACT SURPRISED. YOU THREW YOUR VOTE.

YOU COULD'VE MADE IT A TIE. JUST SAYING.

"So sad you have to go, Lake."

That sounded so fake.

"Oh no... who could've predicted this? Sooooo saaaaaaaddd... Here's my sad face of pity.😪"

That's a better Indian accent I guess. I'm not good at Indian accents, I'm sorry.

"I'm sorry, Lake. I should have used the totem to save you."

Yeah. You should've.

"Now I am free, thanks to you."

Awwwww.

"I love you, Rosa."

"Awwww, I love you too."

AWWWWWW, MOTHER DAUGHTER

Riya's like "Uh... YEAH... I love you too Lake... no I didn't betray you what are you talking about?"

That was Episode 8.

GODDAMMIT LAKE NOOOO.

Lake was robbed. I will not be convinced otherwise. That was a very unfair elimination.

Karol's back. And... nice now? Even though she killed everyone? Idk.

I don't know why she's here.

Rosa has an idol. Riya decided to be a dirty traitor.

Which I'm intrigued by.

I made a JOKE in a previous reaction. Idk which one. About Riya being the evil queen. DID I CALL IT?

We'll see. Idk yet. But that's funny if I DID call it.

I SHOULDN'T HAVE PUT THE BEST GIRLS IN THE HEADING.

Hunter and Allyson officially have plot armor. You can't convince me otherwise.

STEAL THE IDOL RIYA. YOU WON'T. DO IT YOU WON'T.

[bluedalahorse]

POV: Young Royals is an early 2000s Web 1.0 juggernaut megafandom

During my hiatus earlier this week, @heliza24 and I had a conversation about what Young Royals fandom would be like if it were not a modestly-sized tumblr fandom in the 2020s, but rather an early 00s juggernaut megafandom like the kind you saw on livejournal and individual web pages scattered throughout the internet.

Note: the tone here is 100% silly and inspired by a) my personal history in long ago fandoms and b) repeated viewings of fandom history videos by @strange-aeons. The internet had a bit more of a “wild west” feeling back in those days and you will see that reflected in our ideas.

A lightly edited transcript of my conversation with heliza about fanfic archive names and potential early internet dramas follows…

~

blue: So here’s a topic of discussion YR fandom hasn't done yet. What would each pairing's archive be called if we were watching this show in 2003? I feel like Wilmon would have a few archives, each with a different flavor. Like there'd be a catch-all archive that's pretty friendly and welcoming, an archive just made up of fics where they're adults, and then something for kink and/or dark fic (or those would be separate)

heliza: Our weird multi shipping poly archive is called sprucewood obvs!

blue: Oh there'd probably also be a Wilmon archive that's Edmar RPF-friendly

heliza: One of them would be called The Frog Prince and the Popstar. Maybe that's the RPF favorable one, idk.

blue: Originally was going to say the catch-all, but I think you're right. The catch-all friendly archive would be The Fish Tank.

heliza: Yes love that ahaha. Is the kinky one like Fuck the Monarchy or something like that?

blue: Something like that. Although. Okay there might be two adult archives, but only as a result of an intense fandom schism I feel like there'd be an offshoot of Fuck the Monarchy for people who want King Wilhelm and Prince Consort Simon. Something like King & Consort.

heliza: Ahahah yes perfect. I think there would be a separate Sargust archive! What would you call it?

blue: Yes! With a little cordoned off adult section with its own name. Hmmm I haven't thought of a name yet but I feel like the web design of it would be very Goth.

heliza: Absolutely.

blue: Black backgrounds. Blood red rose incorporated in the web design. Horses, naturally.

heliza: ... The Stables?

blue: Secret Stables

heliza: Yes good

blue: The adult section of the website would be called something extreme like ~Bit & Bridle~

heliza: Perfect

blue: The Stedrika archive is called Lavender Crush because of Stella's hair in S2. It's small but the webmistress is very dedicated and very transparent with her updates.

heliza: yes haha and she's always trying to convert people to femslash. I feel like she would eventually let Sara/Felice and Maddie/Rosh in as well.

blue: I think she co-runs a second site called Manor House which is all YR femmeslash.

heliza: oh right of course

blue: The other webmistress of that site is her wife ten years later.

heliza: Yessss. Strangeaeons makes a video about them. Because there's enough drama but then they end up together

blue: Yes! I think the other mod ran a Rosh and Ayub fan page. Oh there'd be a general fandom archive called Hillerska Skolan Library or something, but it would be a lot of cross-posting. 

blue: I feel like we need a Forest Ridge archive too.

heliza: Is that where the Walty and Nilcent goes?

blue: Yes. And like. Alexander being shipped with various people. I feel like it's 2003 so there's lots of combos. And some Wilhelm/Simon/Henry? It would exist, don't ask me how I know, it's just vibes.

heliza: There's a renegade writer who keeps writing Wilhelm/Nils and one who posts August/Simon and it sends the site into an epic fight because there are some mods who insist that this is for ALL THE BOYS EXCEPT SIMON AND WILHELM. And some of them don't mind.

blue: Omg there'd be a small August/Simon archive too

heliza: The lavender crush people are like "wow those boyslashers are intense"

blue: But it's all cross-posting with Forest Ridge… Oh god. Oh god I just thought of the name of the Simon/August archive help.

heliza: Go on

blue: Ok ok… it's a rowing pun… forgive me… it'd be called… Take Out Your Cox

heliza: АНАНАНАНА INCREDIBLE

blue: There's actually a violent schism among sargusters about whether it's ok to also ship Simon/August or not. This schism lines up almost exactly with one's sargust kink preferences and ability to have a sense of humor.

heliza: "It's incest if you ship both!!!"

blue: If a sargust has written dom August, then they are against Simon/August. If a sargust writes Sara domming or writes them switchy, and they have a sense of humor, they definitely write Simon/August… also is the Forest Ridge archive just called Forest Ridge? Wait. The Forest Ridge Archive is called On The Table.

heliza: Oh yes perfect.

blue: OK ALSO—IT IS 2002 OF COURSE THERE IS AN INCEST ARCHIVE SIGH. "Royal Family Affairs" or something.

heliza: Wilhelm/Erik would be big I think

blue: Wilhelm/Erik, Erik/August, any number of other things. Ok but is it primarily dudeslash. Do they shut out the Kristina/Carl Johan shippers? Is that on fandom_wank?

heliza: I feel like the mods would have to let it on because technically it fits the description. But there would be a side chat bitching about it. Wilhelm/August!!! There would be that too.

blue: The mods who are against Kristina/Carl Johan would bitch in an AlM chatroom. Eventually screencaps are leaked, and the Kristina/Carl Johan people start their own archive called Unfortunate Romance.

blue: Ok one more thing. We need a name for the Felice specific archive. Where the Felice/Wilhelm/Simon polyshippers hang out in abundance. I grant this one to you, heliza.

heliza: Is that not Sprucewood? Or a different name?

blue: I leave it to you!

heliza: We haven't used sprucewood yet so I think we should!

blue: Sounds good to me!

heliza: Or if it's just Felice centered it could be Modern Nobility. I think Sprucewood is a reactionary thing actually, where the mods specifically say that all ships are allowed after drama has gone down at enough of the other sites.

blue: Yes. Sprucewood is also the most poly and kink friendly of the sites.

~

That’s all for now! Stay tuned for polls later today about which archives you would have frequented! (And if anyone is better than me at photoshopping/edits/etc and wants to make mockups of what the layouts of these imaginary Y2K websites would look like, down to the “this website contains SLASH, which means hot man on man action, don’t like don’t read, click the third comma in the second paragraph tp enter!” lengthy disclaimer page, then go forth. I think it would be funny.)

[reitheist]

bucchigiri ep 10 thoughts:

shindo is doing the absolute most 💀 chill out sweetie we all know you're evil

matakara seeeeeems back to normal but he's def not. zabu is gonna catch on I think

so is ichiya taking over matakara like a full possession thing or is it a 'warped' version of matakara

more catboy storytime let's goooooo

ok since reading that one utena greek choir post about these segments I've been trying to look harder into them. basically, the customer is arajin and jasmine is matakara. arajin is figuring out he wants matakara in his life, but matakara is already too far gone off the deep end of despair and inferiority to care (ie. 'seeing other customers') also might have something to do with ichiya 'shopping around' bodies to fight senya with, witch matakara or shindo being the customer?

ahh it's still matakara he's just very emotionally fucked up i see

oh shit is marito finally gonna have something to do again?

the monster thing is backkk

my prediction is matakara is going to beat kenichiro maybe?

ichiya's smile is pretty and so evil I'd let him possess me in a heartbeat

mint chocolate chip ftw

holy shit the fight animation here is so good

arajin DO SOMETHING

the lighting in this scene is very pretty. the colors in this show are always top notch

aww marito cares in his strange way

zabu is a good friend to matakara, but matakara is letting his fear get in the way and being an asshole as a result. direct parallel to arajin and matakara's friendship fallout.

komao standing up for zabu hell yeah

does this school have any staff? besides the cat teacher, I mean

matakara's eyes are so empty it makes me sad

LMAOOO he couldn't even keep ara in class

i think this is supposed to be a little intentional character moment for arajin here. at the beginning, he wanted to have an average highschool life and rejected being absorbed into the delinquent social hierarchy for as long as he could. now, he's running from normal school responsibilities and intentionally embroiling himself in a conflict for matakara's sake

so is it mandatory that the merging mark thing has to be near/on the ass or

as sad as I am for matakara I am very excited for him fighting merged with ichiya

senya fights with punches, ichiya fights with kicks

matakara, mahoro is not gonna be on your side much longer if you keep kicking the shit out of her brother (how is mahoro going to play in the finale I wonder? if she isn't completely sidelined, that is)

senya FINALLY shows up and we don't even get to know what he's gonna say until next week ughhhh

pretty good episode, but not quite as tight as the last two felt imo. feels like this was mostly setup for our final two episodes. I expect matakara is going to face kenichiro next episode and win. senya is gonna explain the whole deal with ichiya to ara next time, as implied by him appearing at the end. (though im not sure I have a clue where he's been all this time? just hiding?) I think it'd be a good beat for senya's story to resonate with ara and lead to him resolving to help (ie. fight) matakara

edit: just saw the after credits hmmm. they're def gonna play up ken's emotional duty to protect matakara next episode as they facedown. maybe ken is going to bring up matakara's brother? interesting.

[themarginalthinker]

Can you you tell us some fun/weird facts about some of your more obscure (not main) nossie characters? Like weird habits, likes/dislikes, fun facts etc? I know you have Jenn, Sandy, Daina and Tanner. From an old post you did. Forgot some others.

Hmmm well, considering they're not main characters, and some of them don't show up much in the main storyline, I'm not sure what I can say, but I suppose I can think of a few things!

-Jen (one n) and Fen have a rather large collection of helmets from various countries and military conflicts from around the globe from the past hundred years. Just a thing they like to collect lol.

-Dana (not Diana) is from Mexico, and while I haven't had a chance to play/watch a lets play of VTM: Nightroad, I will say that she was closer to the Reremous situation than she feels comfortable with which is partially why she fled north

-Tanner does a lot more in the Twin Cities than just run a successful Kindred nightclub/lair. He's also something of a bridge the Nosferatu of St. Paul and Minneapolis maintain between the nominally Camarilla Warren, and the more scattered 'Red Nosferatu' ie, those who openly side with the Anarchs. Tanner himself, as well as his coteriemates are more of an Independent little group, maintaining their independence through doing what Nos do best: playing all sides of the field.

edit bc I forgot Sandy lol:

-Sandy is a computer programmer, as I've mentioned before, but she's also a rather fantastic knitter/cocheter! (if that's a word lol.) She makes all her cats little sweaters bc they are hairless and it gets cold in the warren sometimes lol

[queer-cosette]

“Anyway,” Veronica says softly, a little smile tugging at the corner of her mouth, “I’ll be kissing her aerobicized ass on Monday, but right now I just want to cuddle in bed with my new boyfriend and maybe fool around a bit more if he’s up to it.” JD and Veronica never go to Heather Chandler's house the Saturday morning after they hook up; instead they get the morning after they deserved, and maybe the chance to fall a little more in love with each other while they're at it. It's probably a lot easier to find a reason to make yourself better when playing God with Drain-O never presents itself as an option, after all. (Also there's the added bonus of there tending to be more sex when you don't kill the mood by covering up murder with suicide. I'm pretty sure that's just a given.)

...Yeah, so I decided to post the first chapter of this.

I've been working on this fic for a month or so now and I really like what I've written; unfortunately I have no idea where it's going, so I was a bit hmmm about posting it, but I think the first chapter is done being edited now, so here it is.

This... may well be some of the cutest shit I've ever written. I'm pretty happy with it, and I hope anyone who reads it will enjoy it too.

AO3 info below the Read More

Rating: Explicit

Archive Warning: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings

Category: F/M

Fandom: Heathers: The Musical - Murphy & O'Keefe

Relationships: Jason "J. D." Dean/Veronica SawyerHeather McNamara & Veronica Sawyer

Characters: Jason "J. D." DeanVeronica SawyerHeather Chandler (Heathers)Heather McNamaraKurt KellyRam SweeneyMartha Dunnstock (Mentioned)Heather Duke (Mentioned)David (Heathers) (mentioned)Peter Dawson (Heathers) (mentioned)Big Bud Dean (mentioned)

Additional Tags: Porn With Plot, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Demisexual Jason "J.D." Dean, Jason "J. D." Dean Loves Veronica Sawyer, Jason "J. D." Dean is Not a Villain, They never go to Heather Chandler's house, Smut, Fluff and Smut, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Mild Angst, Chapter 1 could probably be rated M, but Chapters 2 5 and 6 are E, First Crush, First Time, Loss of Virginity, Morning After, Vaginal Sex, Hand Jobs, Falling In Love, Kissing, Motorcycles, I read 3 cosmo articles for this, First Time Blow Jobs, Cunnilingus, I was a theatre major and it shows, Other Additional Tags to Be Added, I don't know where it's going but it's gonna be happy, Heather McNamara is a Good Friend, Victor Hugo move over there's a new king of run-on sentences, Making Out

[clare-with-no-i]

20 questions for fic writers

Thank youuu @isahorcrux for the tag! it's been so long since I did one of these omigoddddd

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

37!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

392k. a bit crazy that the next chapter of theogony will put it over 400k. wauw!!!!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

publicly? Harry Potter and Percy Jackson. privately? I have an entire folder on my laptop called 'other shit' which is just one-shots for about fifteen different fandoms which I will never publish <3

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

god. this is really making me look at my statistics page which I actively try not to do lol. but it's one long day, I will carry you, color theory, foreigner's god, and growing pains. what can I say, the ppl love the they lived AUs!

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to but I'm terrible about it which is a personal failing. I am so sorry. a new strategy that helps with this is that with my WIPs I try to respond right after the next chapter is posted so the person gets a nice lil notif and they have something else to read!

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

oh hmmm. I guess the derelict art of letting go ending was angsty, but the whole thing was angsty. the end was bittersweet. maybe Invictus? ok new problem is I can't remember what I've written

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

foreigner's god! it's always clare why did you write all of that sad stuff into foreigner's god clare why did you write their deaths in such brutal detail clare I made my roommate read this and now she won't stop crying blah blah and it's never hey clare thanks for that nice ending scene where they're just married and lying in bed and vibing!!!!!!!!!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

yeah I do and I think under viking law I'm legally permitted to fistfight the commenters!!!!!!!!!!!! step up cowards!!!!!!!!!!!!

9. Do you write smut. If so, what kind?

god. lmao. yes I do! not often, though, I'm afraid. I tend to write an extremely narrow niche which is just exorcising trauma through sex and personal intimacy. I have no chill :)

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

no I actually usually dislike crossovers lol. like theogony is a fusion of the outlander premise but I can assure you that James Alexander Malcom MacKenzie Frasier will not make an appearance. crossovers stress me out and I like to keep my little fictional words separate, if I can. ok edit: on further review I've concluded that I enjoy premise swaps (these are just AUs lol), but I can't deal with characters from multiple pieces of media interacting. it's too much. stay in your lanes, my god. this isn't super smash bros.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

not a whole fic but someone basically copy and pasted a bunch of lines from NAR into their story and then a bunch of drama ensued. it sucked and I don't like looking at NAR because it reminds me of it. I still think about the anon who told me about it, though. they were so lovely and so caring and kind to me. I hope they're doing well.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes! both with my permission and without. ha ha.

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

babes I can't even finish the stories that I'm writing by myself

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

percabeth or zelink! or any doomed/short-lived/five seconds of screen time couple in a tv show or book. seriously idk why but I always fixate on the less important characters

15. What's a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I renounce this question in the name of christ. amen.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I exist not with writing strengths or weaknesses but instead a secret third thing (stupidly recognizable style)

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

see above

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I actually have a WIP where James lives in Spain to play quidditch and he speak Spanish in it :) eso me asusta mucho pq no he practicado mi español hace muchos años pero…sea lo que sea

19. First Fandom you wrote for?

percabeth! my ffnet account is still out there somewhere with ~four percabeth stories that are terrible :) just very bad :) no good :) horriblé :)

20. Favorite fic you've ever written?

theogony or foreigner's god! or suze's bday fic but that's because I have never tailor-made something for someone quite like that fic and she was so sweet about it eye can't deal

tagging my internet wife @thequibblah bestie...knocking at ur door...standing outside with an edible arrangement...

[nalyra-dreaming]

(pt1) This'll be unpopular, but book!Lestat (esp. in book 1) was no better than show!Lestat. They aren't carbon copies, and yes the DV was more brutal than anything he did to Louis in the book. But even post-IWTV, Lestat admits to blackout rages where he's capable of anything. His seeming lack of remorse felt like a bigger change to me - I do think book!Lestat would be truly sorry for harming Louis & would apologise more sincerely, but tbh even that opinion is informed more by the later books.

I agree!

And I keep repeating that they are following the book very closely in theme, and narrative. And in book IWTV, especially the first half, Lestat was... the "villain". The one Claudia tries to kill. And she/they had her/their reasons for it.

As we are entering the second half of the book now this will likely change, as it did in the book (slowly).

A little note re the DV, because it's been going round my head:

The DV in episode 5 felt jarring, but they already set it up in episode 1. They did show Lestat's anger issues, plainly, and quite clearly, imho. For me it was clear that they would go there. And that it would be painful.

This said - I think there are always the grand storyline of the show to consider as well. AND the changes they made to it.

The "fight" in episode 5 is roughly split into three parts for me. (I've discussed the implications of why and impact and used imagery elsewhere, this is just in regards to the split of it, and imho, obviously)

The parlor fight. A heightened version of the quote I shared in the other ask yesterday, adapted to the sheer fact that Lestat is so much older here. I see that part up until Claudia hears Louis telling her they're "done". Rather straight book adaption, imho.

Then there's the first half of the second part, the... dragging. Lestat is weird here. I think a lot of people saw that as OOC because... it kinda is. Not just the action itself, but his words, too. Even while writing the fic „Love the…“ though I was thinking about the Dubai storyline, and the adaptions to the overall theme - we are on a much, much more condensed timeline. We know that "you know what and who" can influence vampires, and thrives on blood and violence... and that the process of becoming aware... was a difficult one. Since Lestat has been by Those Who Must Be Kept and Rolin has already referred to Prince Lestat... EDIT: @lestatthelittlelion reminded me that Lestat drags Armand and then holds him by the neck in TVL, which again is not exactly the same… but pretty close. Might be worth to consider in combination with the next point, too, since…:

And then the "flight". Said before by various people, and me, too, that Louis did not experience a fall like this at that point in the books, but both Armand and Lestat did - if you consider that Armand is there in Dubai, and has obviously influenced Louis in some kind of way that "before" applies. Lestat's words obviously fit very well but the drop... hmmm. It just seems too... fitting, if that makes sense.

Now, I said it before, I can obviously be wrong with all of this, and I am not sure if they'll revisit this at all, nor am I sure if they should. In a very real way I just want them to go forward, and let the story unfold, slowly, and with people needing to follow its twists and turns.

I would prefer that to a retelling.

[eldritchmochi]

b m u y ! letter ask game

B - A pairing–platonic, romantic or sexual–that you initially didn’t consider, but someone changed your mind.

i fully blame seize and gem for getting me on the shadowidomauk train, regardless of the teif personality. seize especially has me in a chokehold re: their lucien and essek combo in one of their fics, which i have not read nor do i even know if its been posted but they keep sending me snippets like MOCHI YOU WILL LOVE THIS IT HAS ALL* YOUR KINKS and by dog they're right (*it is not actually "all" this is impossible as i have Too Many Kinks but)

also gem's essek-owns-a-boujie-coffee-shop au that has shadowidomauk as end game is cute as shit im sorry gem that i haven't had the spoons to edit more (its so good aaa)

M - Name a character that you’d like to have for a friend.

i answered M with "ashton" over here in this post the other day but another character i would want to be friends withhhhhhhh hmmm lets say asterion. no i have not played the game but from the lore i have absorbed via cherry he is very much the kind of gay i would have fun having catty gossip with while also being the sort of rock for him to lean on and like..... not therapy him i hate being peoples therapist but the immovable object he can bounce trauma off and figure out How 2 People again. i think he would appreciate my bluntness and the way i set clear, explicit boundaries but am otherwise unflappable, and i would certainly appreciate his humour, and we can bond!! over the whole being ace as a result of trauma!! :D

U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.

answered U over here with ashton, kylo, and bucky over here but lets do it again!!

lets kick it off by going Old School with the Original Husbando ^TM: vash the stampede. you have no idea how jazzed i am about the new trigun anime (no i have not watched it i merely enjoy the smut on twitter) because vash is like, my og blorbo. did i have blorbos before? yes, kind of, but my Wants in a man* (*fictional character) had not yet developed so they were but proto-blorbos. vash tho... he has it all: tall pretty boy happy go lucky twink who is secretly Full Of Trauma but shoves it down super hard by being just so upbeat and goofy, and just really wants..... love and peace lmao. a lot of my blorbos historically have similar vibes in the "puts on an act to cover deep severe trauma" way lmao

next up: more anime i guess, but modern: i honestly super fucking love all might???? like SO MUCH he is such an interesting character and i desperately want to read fic of him grappling with his severe health issues alongside his image as a hero AND his mentoring of midoriya (preferably with that guud guud smut, but i have no clue who i'd ship him with, i only got two seasons in lmao). unfortunately, everything i like about him isnt even in cannon its just stuff that i, a cripple, can extrapolate from the worldbuilding and lil snippets we get of him but MAN i am o b s e s s e d

third!!! more comics: loki, specifically the agents of asgard loki. i am 100000% planning to cosplay that loki (i have the hair after all) and i am very excited because he is just so very Gender. it was the first time i saw a genderfluid character in mainstream media and his "i AM gender queer, i IDENTIFY as a bitch" like is something i quote constantly to describe my gender. also hes just such a dick who is obviously trying to do better and unlearn bad habits and god, i dont remember specifically what its about but he has a big fight with his earthside contact roommate buddy helper person over something and then comes crawling back and does this big speech where he talks about how he knows hes a fuck up but he's trying and he values her friendship so much even if he's been shit about showing it and it is chefs kiss

Y - What are your secondhand fandoms (i.e., fandoms you aren’t in personally but are tangentially familiar with because your friends/people on your dash are in them)?

dragon age. just... i know so much vague dragon age lore from listening to cherry talk about it because it is their BIG love for video games (pending bg3..... not sure if itll overtake da but theyre very sad they cannot play it again til monday lmao). i absolutely instigated a convo with someone on okc asking if xyz thing was a da reference and i was rIGHT it secured me a date lmao

similarly, mass effect, batfam stuff, haunted mansion, nbc hannibal (dont ask me why its a fandom in law still i cannot explain), s8 infinity (???? i only know matcha blossom), the final fantasy mmo, taz......

you can ask me more of these letter questions!! i have much time to spare!! maybe!!!

[inactivegaz]

^^ me when i lie // under the cut there is about 2 THOUSAND words of just rambling about 6? of my ocs.. enjoy! (there may be a photo of my 🐈‍⬛ son at the end)

sometimes i post at 3:30 am and go nuts and do other things but here we go !!! (edit 11/24: this was posted and drafted nearly a YEAR ago. my b.)

Let’s start with Florence, my Red Dead OC. She’s chill, she’s morally alright in terms of what the gang does (in a way).

i believe that she joined either With or around the same time as the Callanders, thus she was really close with them and Jennie. And losing all three of them really took a toll on her in the mountains/the prologue and into chapter one.

I think she's primarily a hunter for the camp, a cook too (she knows her way around a deer and other animals well enough). She's also someone I could see them relying on for an extra gun in some scores where they may need a further numbers advantage.

Her and Javier, prior to the game starting, have been like dancing around each other for well over a year. I think they also, once they do get together, kind of have this moment where they talk about what they would do if the gang did settle down and get their own plot of land and just lay low. It really made her think, she doesnt really know if she could walk away from this life fully but with Javier, she'd be down to try it if he would as well.

Know this about Florence Howard: she understands a losing situation. and I think once she makes plans to get the other girls and Jack out of Beaver Hollow, she's totally checked out of the Gang. Like?? Sean's dead, Hosea's dead, Lenny's dead, Dutch is acting afool, Arthur is clearly unwell, they're wanted in two states, they took the worlds worst cruise and got stuck in Guarma, and now NOW her man is buddying up with the camp racist, she's done, and she has plans and money set aside for herself to gtfo and hopefully she could knock some sense into Javier.

Now Aster "Ripcord" Wendell. my love, my heart, my pick for the Apex games. There's two things in the world she does not play about and it's her sister and it's her money.

I think when she joined the games, her and Bang meshed really well in terms of team synergy and the fans loved them. I think they became acquaintances then kind of friends then they were fucking for lack of a better term.

That was a thing until Loba showed up and when they were finally ready to start dating and really getting to know each other, it got kind of fucked. Not to say its bc of Loba (bc it's NOT) but with Lo being around, Aster's past was really brought to light.

With that, lets be real? If her and anita wanted to get serious, aster shouldve told her that she was a criminal, a good one with big scores under her belt and is also a former? gambling addict.

And with the past being exhumed, Anita kind of (at that point, I feel) tried to take the moral high ground and it kind of backfired but maybe worked?? bc Aster is just not having it and just kind of takes her own jabs at Anita and her, at the time, proud IMC involvement. It's truly fucked, they both need to take a mo, smoke a joint and evaluate their thoughts and feelings and come back to have a conversation when theyre feeling less... hostile.

That being said, I think their relationship is really strained off the back of the broken ghost storyline (and following events) and it shows in their performance as a team in the Games. They will eventually find their way back to each other I feel. (thats my way of saying: i've been thinking Thoughts 🫣) Also having Aster/Anita being a thing (kinda) really makes the Valk/Loba/Bang thing even more convoluted.. but thats for another day.

hmmm.. Vaughn, little miss may-be-named-after-my-RDO-horse. Where do I start.. my COD oc may be one of my favorites right now, she's great. She has a big heart and she understands that in her line of work, that's not a great thing in a lot of situations.

quick fun fact, she's actually named after my Bell from my first play through of BOCW.

She gets offered to join the 141 that night in Chicago by Price directly. Like, while the team is there at the bar trying to chill out for a moment after that mission. She says yes ofc, now she's their espionage/(the only term i can think of right now is entry frag.. which is not it..& i dont feel that CQC is the right term either) person.

Her and Gaz met on a job in Paris and they hit it off right away, but they didnt meet again after that for another 4 months. kyle had time off and vaughn was on an extended leave and was staying in london and they ran into each other and hung out and started dating and that was that, kind of.

She's called Cowboy bc of some ROTC folks she was in college with and it really stuck, especially when a few years down the line she ran into one of them on an assignment she was on and while she was in the CIA, no one really called her that, but it is listed in her file and now in TF141, she is simply Cowboy.

I think once they really are actually working together, her and kyle's relationship moves fast. like at the time of mw ii taking place she's basically moved in at his place, she's met his parents and his sister, he's tentatively going with her to montana for thanksgiving to meet her family. I even stated in you can see me as a secret mission that when they fully tell the team that they're together and all that: they're engaged. And I stand by that and I think they're gonna get hitched quick after that.

I think by the time she meets Gaz for the first time in mid-2020, she's known Price for a couple of years. Pre-MWII, I think she knows Soap and has been on assignment with him only a handful of times but she adores him. On the other hand, I think she only knows Ghost by reputation, she never got the chance to meet him before they were on their way to Las Almas.

I have a concept of a concept of a character that I want to pair with Ghost. I only have a codename for them: Crow/Aandeg. I have no clue why I so badly need them to be called Aandeg but maybe one day it'll be their time.

I think they also wear a mask but like a gaiter/hunting balaclava vibe where it's covering mainly the lower part of their face. That's all i know so far. i've seen them in visions and my dreams and it's probably a byproduct of my thirst for ghost being at an all time high for whatever reason.

KIPPERNIA CALPURNIA ZIMMLAR MY SUN MY MOON AND MY STARS MY BG3 TAV

LOOK AT HER!! she is not a gnome anymore, I thought for a while and with how in love wyll and her are, i felt it was quite tragic to have human wyll with gnome kipper (due to the lifespan diff). also when i made my second tav, i never intended for the outcome to have a full blown oc, i just wanted to play a gnome.

i don't really know too much about cal, what i can say tho is that she's a kind person, often to her detriment. she struggles to make what would be the right, tactical call and it's hard for her to put her feelings aside.

she meets wyll at the grove and is instantly taken by him, she fell first but he falls harder kinda vibes.

Alystin Mysek,, my number one girl.

she is a lover with the vibe of a hater, she can be quite cunt-y but she does mean well. i think she has a mean rbf with a side of asshole voice.

alystin isnt really socialized..? like shes not sheltered but she doesnt have that many friends at home and she does have an air of gullibility about her. she takes what people say to her at face value early in the story and just goes with it. that is something she does end up growing out of.

i think she really does love astarion and caught feelings for him really early on but.. when he tells her 'hey originally i was using you so i had assurance that i'd be protected,' it does hurt her a lot, but at that point she does know enough abt astarion that she feels like that wasnt all that it was and when he even says as much as she does believe him.

although.. it hurts her when he does kind of call her a fool for trusting him so quickly, but if she went back and knew then what she knows now, she'd probably make the same decisions with him time & time again.

but this moment

this moment, she still falls for his shit and says "i just want you to be happy" even though he's using the voice and just wanting needing that confirmation that despite what he just did and how he lied to the other spawn, she'll still be by his side and help him take down cazador.

omg yall want a bonus oc?? let's grab my mcu oc lenny and talk abt her in insomniac's spider-man. a spectralverse situation. if u will.

also shhhh... i know it's the same fc as cowboy. but she was lenny first :)

lennox slater is one of peter's best friends, the way that she is in every universe. they've been going to school together since they were 8 or 9. theyve been through a lot together, but he has never told her that he is spider-man.

lenny starting dating harry in college after they pined over each other throughout most of high school and they even got engaged during their final year in college.

unfortunately, she is the only one in their friend group that knows harry is sick and how sick he is and she literally can not say anything about it.

i think once harry fully grasps the doom and gloom of the situation he's in, he wants to break up with her bc he doesn't want to put her through what his father went through after emily passed. he doesn't actually pull the trigger on that idea, not for a lack of trying (i don't think lenny would let him break up with her just for that).

before they found out he was sick, they had plans for the year after they graduate college and they were going to move to europe and work in the Oscorp EU offices. Lenny ends up being in a whole new continent by herself, and she experiences a whole different kind of isolation.

Not only is she alone in a new country, new job, she also doesn't really contact anyone back home, citing time difference and a really odd schedule. like you can send a text to her but do not expect a reply for the next 12-15 business days (it is less for her mom) and i feel like that's mostly due to the fact that she can't tell pete or mj what's going on with harry. they fully assume he's with her out there.

i think norman likes lennox and really think that's she's great for harry (he was ecstatic when they told him that they got engaged) and while his son is in stasis, he kind of takes care of her in terms of the job.

she does end up getting transferred back out to the new york office in early january 2019 and when she finds a place, she let's peter stay with her. she doesn't know that peter Knows about harry, so she lies to him and tells him that Harry broke up with her last summer.

And lenny, I think is a super smart girl, but holy hell is she oblivious. like she lived with pete for 6 months, maybe more and she has ZERO clue that he's spider-man. even when peter is so careless as to accidentally leave his mask in the common area of her apartment. i fully think she believes he's a cosplayer.

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thanks for reading! i know this was really long and rambly but it is mostly thoughts and ideas and introspections i had on multiple late nights that i had while, maybe, i was procrastinating. there's also a couple of ocs missing here, namely max st. clair, teagan king, quinn silva and mabel wendell. one day it'll be their turns. i may have to go through another fc5 or gta v phase for 3/4 of them first :)

fuck it.. yall are gonna know abt my viddy game ocs <333

[wundrousarts]

What do you think happens when a unit fails their Loyalty Trial?

Hmmm, I've been thinking about this one and it's interesting! I honestly don't think there's any further punishment besides not being allowed to continue at Wunsoc/being kicked out?

Like, the history and purpose of Wunsoc isn't revealed until units start their second year, so if students flunk out bc of failing their Loyalty Trial in the first year, they don't really have any deep dark Wunsoc secrets they can share with the outside world. This makes me wonder if any students were to be kicked out in their later years (which, while threatened often, likely wouldn't exist unless something of like, Courage Square Massacre proportions happened, etc.) if their memory might be altered or something, or something is done to them so they can't spill Wunsoc secrets, idk.

Interestingly, while it's something that Wunsoc has put into place as a possibility, I don't think a unit has ever failed the Loyalty Trial before? There's a part in Wundersmith where Dearborn refers to 919 as part of an "unbroken line," with "unbroken" making me think that there has never once been a Unit that's failed or gotten kicked out. Also, we saw it with 919 all throughout their Loyalty Trial– no one wants to get kicked out of Wunsoc! These 9 children each year spend a year beating out tons and tons of other Nevermoorian children to gain their spots, and they're not about to knowingly give that up not even one year into the society. They all know the benefits that being a society member awards them, and they don't want to lose it.

Also, I don't think Wunsoc would really want to get rid of any society members? They need folks to keep up C&D all across Nevermoor, and to further spread their reach and influence. I feel like in the same way that Wunsoc members (in this specific case, students) don't want to give up their position, Wunsoc Elders and other higher-ups don't want to lose them. However, their motivations might be a touch more... corrupt or selfish. Could be fun to see Wunsoc dismantled and/or expanded by/at the end of the series to become less exclusionary and pretentious!

Edit bc Socc pointed out some stuff when I asked for opinions in the Discord: The stuff in this post was me mostly just thinking about students specifically and how they're valued both by themselves and by Wunsoc as they continue their studies. Obvs there's cases like Alfie, who's no longer in the society I believe bc he lost his knack. Then there's Mildmay, who betrayed the society by stealing knacks and people and trafficking them and etc etc etc. who was then banished from the society. So I think the qualifications for being kicked from Wunsoc are something like 1. not being worthwhile/useful anymore, like no longer having a knack that can be used (exploited?) by Wunsoc or 2. betraying the society, such as Mildmay with his scheme and Squall with the Massacre. New unit members have already initially proven themselves as useful through the Show Trail, so that's qualified in one way, and the Loyalty Trial is seeing if they qualify as people that won't betray Wunsoc for selfish reasons. Again, I don't think anyone has ever failed the Loyalty Trial bc of everything listed above, but still. Interesting to think about!

[jaynovz]

every third question for the fanfic meme

3. favorite line/scene you wrote this year? (copy pasted from other answer :D)

The break-up scene from the Silver backstory is… I worked on it for so long guys. I worked on the fic itself for 7 months and it gave me FITS. And then like, the dynamic wasn’t quite right for William and John so I had to revamp it.

But yeah it paid off.

Uhhh honorable mention is The Epic Dog Pun Callout Speech Flint does in petplay.

6. least popular fic this year?

Sadly, and unsurprisingly, that would be the FlintMadi boat smut . I know this isn't a super popular pairing but like yall, it's def There. I have stared at canon and like. Yep. Here's a good excuse to go read my FlintMadi pieces b/c they're very good if I do say so myself. And I'm planning a non-sexual BDSM one for @calamitys-child ;)

9. longest wip of the year?

The Blacks Sails Post-canon Fix-it Fic! it's like 15k or something. It was the very first writing/collab project Brinn and I started on and we sure were Ambitious. I maintain that it will get finished eventually. By sheer force of will.

12. favorite character to write about this year?

That would be my terrible horrible sad pretty and complicated bundle of snakes lad, the one and only, John Silver.

everyone: surprised pikachu

I've left it all on the page (cough cough Silver backstory). Or in the shitposts, meta, playlists. I think yall have heard it all by this point lmao. But by all means, if you ever want my Silver opinions -gestures-

15. something you learned this year?

Well I sure learned I could write again! Also that I can make edits, and podfic, and art. Like. The creativity output has been absurd. Thank you pirate show and pirate fam, it's been great. I'm stunned, overjoyed, grateful.

18. current number of wips?

Hmmm.

Cupcakes. Becalmed au. Sex pollen v2. Break up mod au. Fix-it fic. Gorgon au. SoftVerse Series. Siren sequel.

Eight!

21. most memorable comment/review?

oh gosh. so I’ve recieved many wonderful, thoughtful comments, and I genuinely treasure all of them. But perhaps the most memorable is one on my very first published Black Sails fic, in over our heads.

I had basically never published fic before that point and was just. Not used to comments and didn’t expect any. And I can still remember how just over the MOON happy I was to get this one.

Thank you!!! It pushed me to write more for that story immediately. The comments are why flogging fic got three dif chapters <3

24. favorite fic you read this year? (copy pastin from other answer :D)

God what a difficult question tho… Let me go find the ones I’ve reread the most times.

Mkay so the two series that I’ve reread the most are:

Let me see you in your darkness by ember_firedrake which is a s1-s2 series where SilverFlint fall into some BDSM and then catch feelings.

and

Any Port in a Storm by Farasha which is a Very Similar vibe where they fall into a sexual relationship that def contains some Major Powerplay and BDSM elements and catch feelings XD

As you have seen… that is Supremely My Shit. I go back to these two series CONSTANTLY. They have basically everything I love about that dynamic. But for real just… Lookit my bookmarks.

27. favorite fanfic author of the year?

This is an extremely hard question but I gotta go with: @vowel-in-thug (ao3) for sheer quantity of amazing stories. I have literally read every single one of her Black Sails stories. Multiple times. And love each and every one to pieces. ESPECIALLY ORANGE VERSE. Thank you for your words. <3

30. favorite fandom to read fic from this year? (copypasta)

Well it’s PIRATES of course! 2021 is All Pirates All The Time babeyyyy. (Black Sails for those not paying attention :P)

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Gosh that was a ton of questions, bless you!!

[storiesofsvu]

10, 15, 20, 4 & 9 (randomly chosen) for the writer asks!

10. top three fave fic tropes?

not sure if they're "tropes" per-say, but I enjoy writing the following:

-secret relationship

-the "we fucked on a one night stand and it turns out you're the new kid at work the next morning" trope

and

-the "we've been dating and head over heels in love/fwb/whatever and it turns out you're related to/work for/used to date my ex/parent/sibling/boss"

15. what's your favorite plotless fic you have written?

hmmm.... You Can & You Will w/Rita. or Christmas Bonus with Calex x reader

20. do you work on a single project or many at the same time? how does that work for you?

oof. okay. so in the past, I have worked on 2-3 series at the same time, and done my best to rotate writing/posting. like, I had a time where Cabot/Barba/Rita were on rotate with their series. i also used to write a fic/chapter, an immediately post it, like, there was no queuing, I had no "wips" per-say.

NOW...I've decided to change things up. I'll start something, and if I feel like I don't want to finish it, I'll leave it be in word and start something else. Or like, if i'm writing something that's going to be smut, but i don't feel like writing the smut right away, I'll pause and move onto something else. I've also gone through and outlined the current fics I have been writing/posting (nanny and peach) so i know where they're going and I'm trying to have more stuff written before posting, so i actually have wips in word, and more ability to edit/alter as i haven't posted it yet.

i like to have a variety at all times, it helps swapping genres, or straight passing vs wlw relationships, or even ships vs reader inserts. and fandoms. like, jumping around helps me stay focused and stimulated (i will tell ya right now. i'm pretty fucking rita'd out....i could barely even get through a couple of her eps i tried watching the other day...like...not that i'm over her, i just need a lil break)...

4. Do you have any OC's? do you have a story for them?

okay, so earlier on, no. or at least, not really. like, occasionally a sister or parent shows up that we haven't met in canon, so we technically do have Cynthia Calhoun: Rita's toxic af mother.

Natasha will be an upcoming OC, but ya'll have met her in the version of yn in Classified Affairs/Bruised Peach, so you know that backstory already. and more of it will be coming out later, though the story she's in won't focus on her.

9.Thoughts on cliffhangers?

oh i fucking love them. let it be dramatic. i love leaving a bit of mystery in shit. like, i LOVED SSS with y'all trying to piece together who the wife was, and CA trying to figure out the foreshadowing and how things were going to end up with Heather. i love shit like that. and i do my best to not have a cliffhanger and not have the next ch started so it isnt too long between updates.

thanks for playing!!

Yet Another Writing ask.

[cattles-bians]

Damie Vibecca exes AU part 4

post directory

[em note: this one is LONG i had to split it!!!]

obsetress: deflecting to viola protecting becs

obsetress: once they are dating

obsetress: and thinkin thoughts

em: viola asks rebecca if she wants to put a hit out on peter and rebestiecca is like????

em: that’s hot but

em: u can do that? also maybe don’t. but mostly that’s hot

obsetress: i was literally gonna say peter is still her ex and he's a persistent fucker even though it's been a year at least and viola's response is... not far off from canon!

obsetress: becca just stares at her for a minute and then she's cupping viola's cheek and murmuring "come here" and pulling her down

obsetress: they're like kissing or whatever and rebecca's murmuring "that was hot, you know" between kisses and viola's like "oh?" and becca's like "don't be cheeky, you know it was" and vi just grins against her mouth

em: I’m Really Invested In This Crack Ship

obsetress: ok but rebecca tells jamie and dani about vi offering to put a hit on peter and they're both understandably and reasonably aghast and rebecca's just like (takes a sip of wine, ducks head, smiles to self) i think it's sweet

obsetress: dani and jamie look at each other out of the corners of their eyes

obsetress: (later, dani agrees how absolutely out of line it is but also admits that it sure does feel nice to be so taken care of sometimes)

obsetress: (jamie throws a pillow at her)

obsetress: also thinking about secret soft vibecca are sometimes and how horrified dani and jamie are the first time they see it with their own eyes

em: jamie and dani excessive PDA queens get a taste of their own medicine

em: it’s so funny that i’m like. always on the verge of viola horny posting but as soon as it’s vibecca i’m like look at these babies. these beautiful babies

obsetress: viola and rebecca kissing one (1) time at brunch and jamie, arm slung around dani’s shoulders, is like “oi, no one wants to see that” and dani, leaning into jamie, one hand in her lap, crinkles her nose and rebecca’s like “y— you’re kidding, right?”

obsetress: also like. we talk a lot about what vi does for rebecca but also like

obsetress: vi massive abandonment issues and rebecca just

obsetress: she just stays

em: ur gonna Kill me here lies em

obsetress: i know i didn’t mean to and then i just

obsetress: i can’t think too hard abt them or i will Melt Down but just like

em: look if rebecca can see the best in someone as awful as peter

em: viola isnt nearly as terrible

obsetress: esp vi post dani like

obsetress: she’s obnoxious and haughty and neoliberal but

obsetress: radical love goes a long way!

obsetress: rebecca grounding her thru touch and rebecca slipping her hands around vi’s and easing them loose when vi’s hands start to clench and rebecca just pressing a kiss to viola’s temple and murmuring “i’m here, yeah? with you. not going anywhere”

em: like i just think after eddie dani wouldnt like, just go w the flw any more. like i think abt her challenging viola occasionally

em: lovingly! gently

but like, holding her accountable

em: also violas absolutely little spoon

em: like i know blah blah viola top rebecca top leaning switch but viola little spoon

obsetress: “actually viola” (vi always knows she’s in trouble when dani calls her viola) “that was really hurtful” “i’m sorry you feel that way, dani, but—“ “i don’t need you to be sorry for how i feel. i need you to show me you’re sorry for what you did”

em: dani calls vi the Full Name and viola knows shes in trouble bc thats at least 4 extra vowels w danis midwest accent

em: it is always v surprising how much like, working w kids equips you to work w adults. b/c at least w kids you dont have layers and layers of social nuance to work through. u can just say 'hey. that was hurtful and your apology sucks'

obsetress: meanwhile dani’s over here trying to explain to vi intent vs impact and how no, it’s not semantics or nuance, it’s actually kind of a chasm

em: i kind of love like um. look viola is terrible but she wasnt born terrible

obsetress: she just has a lot to unlearn

em: and id belive that even if i wasnt a ghostfucker thats just rogers theory of self actualisation babyeee

obsetress: dani viola big fight n dani's like

obsetress: "i'm sorry and i love you but it's not my job to fix you, vi" and she just breaks down and she's like "it's not"

obsetress: jesus why did my brain take THAT turn

em: wrow

em: its ok i was gonna be like 'so they obvs break up at some point....'

obsetress: anyway viola just stares at her for a second and then she's like "you put the 'i'm sorry' before the 'i love you'"

obsetress: and dani just stares at her for a long time and she's like "yeah. i guess i did"

em: HANNAH

em: BESTIE

obsetress: i KNOW what the FUCK

obsetress: anyway dani's like "i guess i did" and vi's like "is that it then?" and dani just looks at her with her puffy eyes and is like "i think so"

obsetress: dani clayton queen of saying "i love you" over and over in the midst of breaking up w someone

em: well! she has a lot of love to give but, she also has to love herself sometimes!

em: i was thinking abt scenarios n i just remembered that. whole video rental shop thing so i think that slots in nicely

[em edit: u can read here]

obsetress: god i love that lil scene

em: dani sends viola a tentative little meme peace offering and they get back to talking and its nice but maybe a bit awkward and viola mentions like, going to therapy and seeing someone for help n its

obsetress: vi's stewing on "i can't fix you" for weeks and then she's begrudgingly. BEGRUDGINGLY calling a therapist

em: like its still awkward and dani is still nursing some wounds but she can ALSO be happy for someone she used to care about

em: still cares about!

obsetress: she's always gonna love her in some way or another

obsetress: but yeah also like. smth to viola being too stubborn to do anything she doesn't wanna do except suddenly when dani clayton gets involved and that feels p canon in its own way too

em: 'i cant fix u' weird bc every time i see viola im like 'i can fix her'

obsetress: it's like ur in my head bestie

em: how do u think viola and rebestiecca met

em: not that u think abt it or anything

obsetress: MAN i was just thnking

obsetress: in this universe how did dani and jamie meet but i guess it can still just be bly tbh

obsetress: as for vi and bestiecca hmmm

em: am so caught up in the joy of fucked up interpersnal dynamics i forgot a meet cute

obsetress: honestly part of me wants to be like

obsetress: on some dating app but a dating app for posh people yk

obsetress: but then i'm like

obsetress: that takes all the meet cute fun out of it

obsetress: oh GOD

obsetress: i got it

obsetress: ready

obsetress: so like viola landlord we know this

obsetress: and then i was watching whatever ep three the other day and bex mentions wanting to do public law right

em: oooooh

obsetress: bex public housing attorney

em: OOH

obsetress: they meet at some conference

obsetress: hit it off prob fuck lbr

obsetress: and then

obsetress: comedy of errors

obsetress: whoever stays the night, they sleep together again in the morning, breakfast in bed, bex is like "so what do you do, anyway"

em: hjgbjshmdnfbmngbmhnbgs,hndg m,shndgds

em: YES

obsetress: and then they just

em: WHEEZES

obsetress: also i like to think rebecca invites vi back to her hotel room and vi is so charmed by her taking charge ("""taking charge""") that she lets her

obsetress: and then like

obsetress: god for a while what if they just like

obsetress: they're so mortified and morally and fundamentally at odds but like

obsetress: the sex is so good???????

obsetress: that they keep just meeting up and then

em: romeo and juliet situation

obsetress: yk how it goes

obsetress: the sex is good and they see each other as like

em: thats so fucking good thank u hannah

obsetress: super rare intellectual equals whatever

obsetress: thank u i am exceedingly proud rn

obsetress: honestly at this point i'm

obsetress: rebecca and vi uhaul change my mind

obsetress: like not too quick because isabel but, quick enough to be considered

em: so the joke is like. obviously 'extremely pda damie' but when rebecca and vi are alone they Also cannot get their hands off each other

obsetress: they both just. worry about appearances too much meanwhile

obsetress: tweedle dee and tweedle dum in the overalls and mom jeans dgaf

em: accidentally seeing ur friends compromised is just part of the package of being friends w damie. however jamie accidentally catches vibecca in the act and shes Horrified

em: hypocrits

em: danis like yeah what do u. think theyre doing

em: dani is nonchallant bc shes dated viola of all people

obsetress: i mean could you imagine

obsetress: between vi and dani's just

obsetress: insatiable libido

em: HADNT IMAGINED UNTIL NOW BUT YEAH

obsetress: dani, very seriously: jamie, when two women love each other––

em: dani likes dating jamie bc it means she can top occasionally :) maybe even more than occasionally

em: jamies like ooh my god i knw i know how are u so casual about... rebecca... and ... viola... (dani just pulls her in fr a smooch)

obsetress: they have each other's clothes half off and dani's like "i'm so casual because i dated her too, babe" and jamie's like "can we not have this conversation right n"

obsetress: also i still have this on my clipboard from earlier we bopped around so fast but

obsetress: vi and bex hooking up early on:

obsetress: rebecca knocks on vi's door at, like, 6:00 pm after work, vi opens it, rebecca just grabs her and kisses her, vi pulls her in, becca kicks it closed behind her, vi shoves her against the door and they're kissing against it, then vi's ducking her head to kiss along rebecca's neck and rebecca's like "how many people did you evict today" as she angles her head and then viola's finding her lips again and tugging at her lower lip with her teeth "probably not as many landlords as you shortchanged today" and rebecca's laughing and pushing her backwards down the hall as viola tugs at her blouse

em: GOD. viola is probably like

em: ok, disclaimer: fuck all landlords

em: but at least in this fantasy world perhaps viola is 'fairly' 'reasonable' n shes absolutely playing it up for the hate sex angle n rebecca Maybe Assumes shes lying but

em: stupid morons in love

obsetress: yeah

obsetress: i think i've mentioned this before but like

obsetress: now that it's more fleshed out

obsetress: then they're at drinks one night (and when did it go from just sex to drinks? neither of them could tell you) and viola's kinda quiet n moody (n rebecca already knows she Gets Like This sometimes and that she'll usually say whatever she's thinking eventually) and finally she's like

obsetress: "i have... a daughter" and rebecca's just like "tell me about her" like it's the easiest thing in the world

obsetress: and viola's head snaps over and she stares because she was.... not expecting that

obsetress: and so viola does

obsetress: and rebecca's just like "i'd love to meet her one day"

em: soft.....

obsetress: they always turn back to soft

obsetress: like they have a fuckin mind of their own

em: rapidly oscillate between horny and soft

obsetress: that's the mood

em: violas probably like. yknow, rebecca's young and up and cming n she probably assumes rebesticca isnt interested as something as full on as a kid but shes like 'do you have any photos'

obsetress: fuck!!!!!!!!!

em: rebeccas like do u think i didnt. see the photos at ur apartment lmao

em: theres a childs drawing on the fridge

obsetress: rebecca has known almost from the jump but was

obsetress: giving viola her time

obsetress: also smth smth giving her time instead of time wearing her away etc etc we're all in hell

em: cracks knuckles

em: bestie....

obsetress: pls

obsetress: it's what i deserve

obsetress: first tho

obsetress: consider

obsetress: the way viola's face lights up when she's talking about isabel and showing rebecca all the pictures

obsetress: hold pls

em: soft......

obsetress: this one chief

obsetress: right here

[grethan-allmance]

Reaction to today's podcast? 🔥😊 love ya!

Lol all right.

Thoughts on podcast:

We both broke our what??

I dunno why but the podcast felt cute. Like, their argument felt much more playful than usual. I dunno, it's cute and they sounded really happy/in a really good mood and I like it.

Them talking about scents and the scent award is nice. I like that little insight in their Wakeheart business. Like, it's pretty cool they met with owners of those named fragrance brands.

"Sloppy greasy monster"🤣🤣

I kind of wonder how do fragrance company work? Also, they credited the perfumer for their signature scents, but I wonder if that means the same person also helped them with the other fragrance or if there's another perfumer for the other collection? Like, is there a perfumer contracted specifically to their company or do they work more like freelancers? Like, maybe only contracted for specific collection/scent? Hmmm...

Grayson bitching about his toes and them arguing about who gets to tell the story if Grayson's stubbed toe and keep getting derailed to other things 😂😂

Ethan editing the scene of the stubbed toe accident and posting it on Grayson's instagram 😂 1. Does that mean they have access to each other's instagram? 2. Does that mean Ethan did the ass close up on purpose? 😂😂😂

Ethan has a lot of talents lol

They break so many bones omg....

Grayson is a freaking little shit and Ethan really enables that 😂😂😂

Grayson gonna bite Ethan's toes? When he's sleeping? 😏😂😂

Seriously, they break so many bones... Oh my gosh.😳

"Don't jinx yourself, bro!" Lol he sounded somewhat actually concerned, I dunno why I love it.

I guess it is a really freaky coincidence that their injuries mirrored each other. On one hand, they're reckless people. And they break a lot of bones. I'm still a bit awed and concerned about that. On the other hand, I guess we can say they really do feel each other's pain. 😂 Just maybe in delayed way.

Picking rooms from where the toilet paper side were on 😂😂 It's good that the rented house have that happy coincidence, but I don't think that can be done everytime. 😂 It's cute though. Also, that'll last forever? Like, you gonna live together forever, aren't you? 😂

I'm kind of glad they can joke about that time when Ethan punched the glass door now. And Grayson remembering the detail about Ethan still having glass in his palm anyway despite his closed fist is, I dunno, really detailed? I kinda imagine Grayson immediately checking on Ethan despite himself having broken fingers.

Grayson wanting to make a table out of the core wheel collection is kind of really a Grayson thing to say. Sentimental and building. 🤣

That's a nice backstory on how they started on Vine. I think it's not just longboarding, there are probably a bunch of other things that influenced them, but it was a part of it.

Yeah, they probably do have more friends than they showed. Their better friends seems more like from outside the Youtube space, so that makes sense.

For some reason, I can actually see Ethan probably sleeping standing up in front of the fridge 😂

Ethan joining the baby-fever along with Grayson. 🥺🥺

Grayson having another podcast in his head 😂😂

Grayson mispronouncing another name 😂😂 aw he's so cute 😂

Seriously they're having so much fun in this podcast.

I wish it was 1 hour and 10 minutes 🥺🥺 it's not long enough 😂

And them talking in Dora style omg 🤣🤣🤣🤣

[isi7140]

till break of day

So. This is a thing I wrote about my Masks character, who died back in January and I’m still not over it. For people outside the group, it’s a teenage superhero game, and this is a good rundown of the team. For the Pack... well. I love you all.

This has only minor editing but I’m tired and posting it anyway.

(tw: child death, not described)

It was her mother's screaming sobs that woke Jenna, first. Her head hurt, and she was cold, and her mom was screaming.

"You—you—WHY! What did they—you—" Her words choked off into a sound Jenna had never heard her mother make before, and something slammed into a wall.

Jenna forced her eyes open, blinking away stinging, sticky heat. The shattered TV, flickering wildly, showed her— showed—

Her father was crumpled against the far wall.

"That's a little unfair. I came here for you. They're just... loose ends, shall we say."

Jacob, and oh, God, Bri—

Jenna's legs wouldn't hold her, her knees slamming painfully into the iced carpet. Her mom was sobbing incoherently.

"Now, where are you keeping that drive? I need it for a personal project."

Lily. That bracelet was always a little big on her.

A different chain snapped. Jenna's mother gasped "you—", and the light went out of her eyes.

The woman who'd killed her family turned, frost crackling around one hand, opening her mouth as if to speak—

Jenna screamed, blue fire tore through the world, and underneath the burning she thought she felt her heart stop beating.

(they danced in the air, alone with the moonlight and the music and each other, and Nightingale let herself forget about fate and the future and the deep ache in her chest. For one evening, she let herself dream.)

"Darkling, do you have any threes?"

"Nope! Go fish!"

Butterfly made a face in disappointment and drew a card from the deck, arranging it in her hand. "Your turn, Sundog."

"Hmmm..." Sundog bobbed gently up and down in the air as they thought. "Clubs, do you have any twelves?"

"What? No. There aren't any twelves in this deck, you shouldn't have any."

"But I have two sixes! Six plus six equals twelve, all I need is another and I win!"

"That's not how the game works, Sundog."

"But it makes perfect sense!"

"Then you ask for sixes, not twelves!"

"I don't have any sixes either. Go fish."

"Sundog, give me your sixes! I win!" Darkling slapped their cards down on the table.

"Congratulations, Dorkling."

"Hey!"

"Ok, ok, I'm sorr—oof!" A pillow to the face cut off the rest of Butterfly's apology; the rest of the Pack immediately dived for their own weapons and the room devolved into chaos.

(Later, sore from laughing and lying in her hammock, Nightingale thought oh.

I almost forgot what it was like to have a family.)

"A–are they okay, are they alive?"

"They're—they're oka—"

A collection of unread letters:

Clubs, I hope you're doing all right.

I hope you don't have to read this for a while.

It's all right, I knew.

To the Pack: I'm sorry. Sundog knows.

Clubs, I'm sorry I didn't tell you.

I love you. I think I've always loved you.

I hope you can forgive me one day.

Thank you for everything.

Please, be happy.

"Sundog, can I tell you something? Something you can't tell anyone else. I just..."

"Anything."

Nightingale threw her hand up, fingers spread, freezing the hooded man in midstride. He struggled, but a second later Butterfly delivered a high kick to his jaw and he went down hard.

"Nice!"

Butterfly flashed a quick grin in Nightingale's direction before diving back into the fray. At her back, Clubs grunted as he returned punches; from somewhere on the other side of the room she heard a cheerful "hi, I'm Sundog!" before sunfire cast shadows across the floor. Several of the robed figures tripped as their feet sank into the flagstones.

Gritting her teeth, Nightingale threw another cultist back into two others. They landed in an undignified heap. A fourth joined the pile a second later, his robe smoking and his hair standing on end. Behind her, Clubs landed a blow and his opponent crumpled.

"You doing okay?" Nightingale glanced over her shoulder.

"Yeah. You?"

"Good so far." She dragged a cultist with a particularly impressive beard closer, right into Clubs's fist. "We're almost done. Then we can call Aegis and get out of here."

A shadow fell across the hall as the wall sconces blazed to life.

"Or not."

Together, they readied for battle.

One by one, the others fell. Dynamo, Butterfly, Sundog and Darkling. The scene set, the pieces falling into place, every second telling her what she had to do.

Of course she would do it. A million times over, for them.

"Who are you and what are you doing here?"

"'M wet and cold. What do you think? Just w-wanted a dry corner to wait till morning."

He is cold. Soaked, shivering hard enough to interrupt his words, bare feet leaving wet prints on the concrete. Looking up at her like he expects to be thrown out.

Nightingale has never seen him before in her life, but somehow, she recognizes this boy.

"Okay. Okay, you can stay."

She makes hot chocolate. Explains hot chocolate to him (where did he come from?). Offers him a blanket.

She asks his name.

He blinks in surprise, then pulls a beat-up pack of cards from his pocket and shuffles through them. "Clubs." He holds up the Jack of Clubs, as if to explain. "What's yours?"

She's been going by Nightingale for a month or so now, she hasn't said her real name since that night, but somehow it feels completely right when she says "Jenna. My name's Jenna Clarke."

Clubs smiles, small and shy and honest. And in that moment, Jenna finally feels her heart start beating again.

I regret nothing. About this, anyway. i regret many, many other things.