#they're just so soft but also bad at feelings. i love them so dearly.

[necrotic-nephilim]

for ask game: casstim, post war games

Tim's first heat starts in Bludhaven and, alienated from all familiar bonds, he invites Cass into the nest. but it turns out that despite everyone thinking Cass was a beta or delta, she's an alpha stuck with the presentation due to starvation as a child. and being close to an omega in the heat provokes her first rut.

for the ask game!

post-War Games CassTim my *beloved* god. especially with Omegaverse it's all so good bc i *love* playing with how Cass' upbringing could affect her presentation-

the isolation of everyone post-War Games is a lot of fun to play with, especially how it affects Tim and Cass. they don't see eye to eye about how things should've been handled. and worse, they're both grieving Steph. it makes being together awkward and full of long silences neither of them know how to fill. but without any other options and trying desperately to just fix things, Tim invites Cass to his nest. mostly because he doesn't *expect* her to say yes. i like the idea of Cass being pretty averse to all things secondary gender because of her own complex about (assumedly) not having one. everyone defaults to assuming she's a beta, but there's never been any proper confirmation. so it's a last-ditch effort for Tim to find *any* kind of companionship after everyone he's lost. his first heat has him feeling awkward and vulnerable. so when Cass says yes bc she's also just lonely and vulnerable, he's so started he didn't expect it. he happily makes room for her in his nest, but it's a bit awkward at first. Cass is just going through a checklist, making sure Tim is eating and drinking enough, cuddling him, but still holding an emotional distance. part of it is her unresolved feelings and part of it is her stunted presentation, it all makes her very confused and awkward no matter how much Tim tries to connect to her.

i'm personally a big fan of heats not being "out of your mind horniness" but more so being "emotional distress and physical discomfort". sure Tim is horny and could really use a good fuck rn, but mostly he's just cramping and craving an emotional connection, especially as his first heat without a real pack. the Batfam have vaguely acted as a pack before, but now they're so fractured it sends Tim's hormones on an emotional fritz. he doesn't like that he's an omega having his first heat, he doesn't like that his pseudo-pack is such a mess, and he doesn't like how something is clearly wrong with Cass. she's trying to hide it, but Tim can tell she's getting more and more uncomfortable the more they hang out in his nest, just watching movies. she keeps shifting around and getting up for some reason. and the worst part is, *she* doesn't know why either. she doesn't know why Tim's scent is so distracting and why she's suffocating in this need to protect and hold him. she almost feels bad about it, like she's objectifying an omega in heat who just wants her company. Cass doesn't fully understand social dynamics, but she knows omegas are seen as vulnerable and fragile during heat and Tim came to *her* for help, and now she's messing it up, somehow. she can smell the distress on his scent as he's so worried about her when she's the one who should be taking care of him and clearly, she's doing a bad job of it, no matter how much Tim is trying to convince her otherwise and just talk to her.

i think it's fun if Tim notices first. Cass wouldn't have any idea what these feelings are and she's often so disconnected from her body's signals she's not processing the attraction and arousal from her rut, just this burning need to protect Tim, which she had already. it's when Tim has his face buried in the crook of her neck that he frowns and actually smells her. and he awkwardly asks if she's an alpha and Cass has to tell him no, bc everyone knows she's assumed to be a beta. and so Tim has to very awkwardly tell her that he's pretty sure she's an alpha and he's *definitely* sure she's going into rut. and now Cass is *more* uncomfortable. because she's so used to her body being used to hurt people. and she's heard the stories, how alphas go into ruts around omegas and use to as an excuse to assault them. and that's the *last* thing she wants to do when Tim has trusted her with such a vulnerable moment. i'm just very fond of Cass fearing intimacy because she doesn't know how to use her body for pleasure, only for pain. she tries to pull away, saying she'll find someone else to keep Tim company. but Tim is promising her it's okay, promising he knows she wouldn't hurt him and that they don't *have* to do anything. his instincts are begging for sex, but he won't push for that unless he knows she wants it too.

the sex takes a while for them to build up to. maybe Tim's heat lasts a couple days and Cass is in and out or her rut the whole time as her body adjusts to presenting as an alpha. they're helping each other through it. Cass is trying *hard* to hold back her urges, she's taken the worst kind of pain the world has to offer, she can handle some hormones. but the more Tim's heat lasts the more the nest smells like both of them and she finally breaks, whispering a soft "please" in TIm's ear, and that's all Tim needs to understand. the sex is taken slow and a little awkward. Cass functionally understands how sex works, but concepts of foreplay are utterly foreign to her. i like the idea of Cass being the dom, but still needing guidance from Tim as to what feels good for him, how she should touch him. i love the idea of Tim guiding her to eat him out bc it'll make it easier for him to fuck him and Cass enjoys giving Tim head so much for the taste and all the noises that he makes that she drives him into overstimulation, coming over and over on her tongue until he's sure he's gonna pass out. she fucks him hard, but her words are so gentle in his ear and it's such a dizzying contrast. when Cass finally knots Tim i think she cries. the overwhelming emotion just finally gets to her and they hold each other like that while Cass cries and feels loved.

in the aftermath, they *try* to go back to normal. both of them agree mating would be a bad idea that could overcomplicate things. but they can't seem to stay away from each other. they end up sleeping in each other's beds, always visiting each other. it's very normal for Tim to wake up to Cass crawling through his window to climb under his sheets. they smell like each other so much that everyone can tell Tim is seeing an alpha but no one realizes it's Cass for a while because no one realizes she's an alpha. the truth eventually comes out because Tim and Cass end up glued at each other's hip. it takes a few years before they officially mate, but everyone knows it's an unofficial official sort of thing. Tim's heats are always spent with Cass and they're ferally protective of each other. they definitely don't have an easy relationship- there's so much unresolved trauma between the two of them that they struggle with emotional vulnerability with each other. sometimes they end up arguing and not speaking for days and *everyone* can feel the tension. but they always make up in the end bc they will always seek each other out for company and comfort.

[gabessquishytum]

Thinking about warprize cat!dream having king cow!Hob's bigheaded baby.

Cats do tend to hide when it's their time is it not? So I imagined Dream slinking (waddling) through the corridors when he feels the first twinge, and suddenly he feels like he has to press close to the wall. Everything is just so vast and open, TOO vast and open, and it makes him extremely uncomfortable. Cow architecture is made to fit many people at once because they're extremely sociable, high ceilings, big rooms, big windows, big everything. Dream feels slightly nauseous, even if it didn't bother him before.

So he hurries through the castle, searching for something, not quite knowing himself for what exactly, when he gets closer to the servants areas and happens upon the first (huge, built-in) linen closet.

In the blink of an eye, Dream is inside and curled up. It's narrow, dark, soft, and smells good, and the best thing is that nobody's around.

This changes of course when, a few hours later, the contractions get worse and he can't keep quiet anymore. Also the whole castle is searching for him because he just kinda vanished.

The first poor servant who tries to open the closet gets their face full of claws. The light hurts Dream's eyes (and he's hurting enough already, thank you) and also he needs to be safe.

Through the haze and his own pained sounds Dream can hear more people arrive and then leave again, and then there's a soft, soothing voice, reassuring him that nobody's gonna disturb him, that that is gonna be okay.

It's Hob. Hob sits himself in front of the closet and keeps watch, and talks the whole time to keep Dream grounded (and has a hard time not opening the doors himself with all the sounds coming out).

He's rewarded when, after a particularly nasty hour of screaming, he's tugged into the closet by a weak paw, the doors shutting behind him.

His eyes have a hard time adjusting to the dark and the air is thick with the smell of amniotic fluid and sweat and blood, and then something squirming and slimy and warm is pressed into his arms. Hob's entire existence screeches to a halt the first time their child drinks from him.

He's kinda lost to the world, cradling them in one arm, Dream in the other, half asleep and drinking from his other teat.

That's probably why, when someone tentatively tries to open the closet again, he decidedly shoves it closed again with his foot.

(The linens are kinda ruined, tho. But that's a price Hob is absolutely willing to pay.)

(🦒 anon was kind enough to let me know that this one came from them!)

I absolutely adore this idea. And God do I feel bad for Dream. However many months of carrying Hob’s huge baby have truly done a number on him already, and he's so ready to not be pregnant!!!! He'd dearly love to be back in the cat kingdom now. They tend to set up special nooks and crannies like catperson sized cardboard boxes for their pregnant individuals to retreat to when the time comes. Cat midwifes are also very "hands off" - nobody interferes unless there's a serious problem. To be honest, Dream wouldn't mind a helping hand just to haul the baby out by it's adorable little horns. But he knows that it's best to let nature take its course.

The labour is worth it in the end, because the baby is perfect. Dream even finds himself thinking that another one wouldn't be so bad. The sight of their little one suckling enthusiastically from Hob is truly one that Dream will never forget (and he is very grateful that his husband is a portable source of milk, because he really needs it right now).

Hob finally emerges from the closet hours later with the baby latched on firmly to his teat, and a very exhausted Dream wrapped around him like a deflated serpent. At this point he's thinking that they'll just remodel the closet into a birthing suite... because the way Dream keeps looking at their newborn so adoringly, he gets the feeling that it won't be the last time it's needed!

[mysticalsoot]

dadbur hc's to feel something

a/n; I am struggling to write full fledged fics rn so I let the brainrot win and I've now done...this. don't ask. also, thank you to lilly and elliot for decided what hc's I was meant to write, y'all are awesome and I love you both dearly<3

warnings; not much!! mentions of pregnancy, health issues (just general idea), pain mentions, this may worsen baby fever, sorry not my fault, blame wilbur.

reader is gn but in some cases afab!! (it's optional to read those parts, dw!)

masterlist (requests are open btw!)

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- absolutely hated children as a teen and early 20-something

- babysat one baby of his friends and it was over for him

- absolutely adored that little baby and nearly cried when he had to leave them

- now as a husband, he wanted a kid so bad

- constantly gushing when he passes by baby shops or just melts when he sees a baby

- horrible baby fever. sorry to you.

- won't ever push the issue, but still mentions it and communicates clearly that he does want kids but he especially wants kids with you. heart melted

- if you don't want kids at the moment, he will absolutely respect that and will definitely do his best to shut up during bouts of baby fever

- I mean how could he not!! they're so adorable!!

- once you do actually have a kid, regardless of what way—he's doing anything and everything he can to prepare.

- he's buying parenting books; how to create healthy habits with your baby, how to raise a compassionate child, what to do and what not to do when becoming a parent

- he bought soo many baby outfits and onesies—all the way up to a year old. even grabbed some premie sizes, just in case.

- the nursery was set up almost immediately, a nature theme. he suggested a Minecraft theme but you shot that down immediately. there was pouting involved.

- but, you came to a compromise; dark green walls, light yellow accents, browns, etc. you even let him make Minecraft bees out of those wooden blocks and you thought they were the cutest thing ever. there were also stuffies of Minecraft animals scattered on shelves and on furniture. (please take Amazon away from this man, it's so dangerous).

- in the case of pregnancy; he was very insistent on being sure that both baby and you were in perfect health. and he never let you do more than he thought was appropriate.

- dishes? nope that's a father's job. going down the stairs? right by your side, watching your every step and yes, will make you hold his hand.

- to most others he was overbearing—but he was always like that and the whole pregnancy thing just enhanced it

- Wilbur is anxious and he never does well with medical or health things at all, his mind constantly running wild with various possibilities. it was scary for him.

- so yes, you'd get off dish nights and would be chaperoned down the stairs.

- but he also made sure you had your medicine on time, he documented every pain and complaint you had.

- he had already learnt the face you made when you were in any sort of pain—so he was right on top of it almost immediately.

- asking what hurt, what number of pain, how he could help, etc.

- he is an absolute sweetheart all of the time, but his softness was brought out by the entire experience.

- when the baby was born, or rather adopted—whichever way it happened—he cried. he cried a lot.

- he held the little one so gently, but so tightly in his arms

- he was insistent to not push gender roles onto the kiddos, but he did have two names picked out for a boy or a girl (or rather you picked them out and he agreed with them before you told him the reasoning)

- Willow for a girl and Spencer for a boy

- you didn't tell him until after the name was finalized that both options were after him

- he was so flustered and jokingly scolded you, but in reality, he loved it

- he felt so happy and so proud

- so joyful that you felt he was worthy enough to indirectly name a child after him, your child, his child.

- he was an absolute sweetie to the little one, and they took very quickly to him as well—immediately grasping onto his fingers as soon as they had the ability and cooing any time they saw him

- it melted his heart each and every time and it never stopped

- when the little one was older, they often took up the habit of grabbing at his hair or his glasses and sometimes his ears

- you found it to be the cutest thing ever and so did he he cried almost every time

- they absolutely adored their father, and if you didn't know better, you'd say they liked him better than you!

- when it came time to go back to work, to back to gigs and shows with Lovejoy

- Wilbur took off two weeks of work entirely beforehand, just to spend with you and the little one

- obviously he'd been on some sort of break since the baby was born/adopted/etc, but he still did things here and there, streamed a couple of times, went into the studio occasionally, etc

- but now that he was going to be physically gone a lot more, he knew he had to spend it wisely. and wisely did he spend it.

- most of the time was spent lying in bed with you on one side, him on the other and the baby lying on their back between you too.

- you'd both coo at them, tickle them, and talk to them

- oh did Wilbur love to sing to them, anything at all!

- he even came up with a few lullabies for them

- you'd watch from the door of the nursery as he'd rock them to sleep, humming a tune or singing the lyrics he came up just for them

- it killed you and totally didn't make you want another

- he was overall the sweetest father, and it became more evident when he had to leave for a while

- he'd call every morning, lunch and dinner as long as he didn't have anything

- and he would be so so sure that it was that time for you, it didn't matter what time it was for him as long as it was that time of day for you and his little baby

- he may have FaceTimed you and the baby during a few soundchecks, shh don't tell Dave!

- he would smile so big at the camera and wave at your little one

- he'd show them off to his band mates and they'd all coo at the little one, talking about how much alike they look like you and wilbur

- you personally thought they looked most like their father, his eyes, lips, ears. they might as well have been a spitting image of him! you looked at baby photos too

- Wilbur, on the other hand, begged to differ. he was very very insistent they looked just like you and nothing like him.

- it was most likely perception and bias that caused you both to think this way, but neither of you really cared all that much

- on days he couldn't call, for whatever reason, sometimes you'd play one of his old streams on the TV.

- the little one always responded to his voice and it seemed to calm them, usually into a sleep

- so just chatting streams and ycgma were go tos for sleepless nights lovejoys stuff kept them up and giggling

- when he was there for sleepless nights, he'd walk them around in his arms and talk about the most random things until they fell asleep

- he even offered to baby wear a lot more than most fathers did

- he just wanted to be close to them, and it always gave you a break, so he thought it'd be a double deal

- and it was! you'd get your nap, and so did the baby and Wilbur would just be gushing over his little one a few tears always shed

- he would sit with the baby on his leg when he was at his desk working, one arm snaked around them and his other on his mouse or keyboard

- at first, working was very cumbersome with the kiddo but he eventually found a work flow that worked and bouncing them on his knee helped keep things calm

- you were both hesitant to show your child on the internet and you didn't for a very long time, while people knew of them, it wasn't like photos were posted or they showed up on stream

- until, when the kiddo was about 2 or 3, they decided they missed their daddy and went running into the office when you weren't looking (I'll be using Willow as an example)

"Daddy!" Willow yelled or rather screamed out in that typical toddler way, running over to her dad's office chair.

She didn't know her father was live or working and she was much too young to understand it anyway—and the color drained from Wilbur's face when he realized. It was much too late now, chat was already spamming "Dadbur?!?" and "Baby Gold!!!"

Willow did her best to climb the side of her dad's chair before he sighed, a big smile on his face and he lifted her up by her armpits and placed her on his knee, first facing him so the camera didn't see.

"You wanna be on camera, sweetie?" He asked, realizing now how much trouble he may get in with you—but the giggle from his daughter and the smile on her face was so worth it, he didn't care.

"Yeah! Yeah!" And so he turned her around to face his PC and the camera.

"Wave to chat, lovebug!" He snaked his arm around her waist and waved with his own hand, his head dipped down to watch her. He had the softest, most loving smile on his face. He loved his little girl so so much, and he knew how it showed.

Willow waved and giggled, "Hi chat!!" and chat began spamming; "Baby Gold, hi!!" and "WILLOW!!"

It was the cutest thing he had ever seen.

And he desperately hoped he wouldn't get in too much trouble.

He spent the rest of the stream talking to chat, but mostly looking at his little girl as he conversed with her.

- it was over by then, and the little kiddo would make an appearance as much as you would allow

- and you were far from angry—you cried when you saw the clips—you were just frustrated he didn't go to you first yet you realized, he couldn't. your kid was much too like his father and much much too like you. stubborn and energetic.

- they only got more sassy and opinionated as they grew, and they most definitely became a spitting image of wilbur

- maybe #2 would look more like you

- oh, and don't let him wear plain tshirts unless you want more kids, that's all I'm saying

tags; @lillylvjy @lvrboysoot (if you want to be on a taglist thing, just send an ask and I'll add you!)

[elitadream]

I'm a huge fan of Encanto and their magic doors, and I wondered...

What gift could fit the Mario Bros and the princesses (imaginary or Canon) ?

... Sorry, it's just- (goes away and slam the door with a mad blush)

Hmm... So many possibilities! 👀😅

For my personal interpretation of Luigi, who's exceptionally perceptive and a formidable listener, I think the ability to hear others' thoughts and/or feel their emotions at will would be a fitting gift for him. Being very respectful and discreet with personal matters, yet also able to speak on those would make him the ideal person to trust with this power, and arguably the most suited one to use it too. 💚💭

I see Peach as being deeply nurturing and having a remarkably soft presence, so I believe that her being able to induce calm and bliss upon others -even when they're sad or upset- would be a very good complement to her healing powers. Her innate desire to alleviate her friends' fears or pain would manifest in the care she can directly provide for them. 🤲✨️

And for my Mario... who deems every moment spent with his loved ones infinitely precious, who often finds himself lost in contemplation and dearly wishes he could always prevent anything bad from happening, I would picture his gift as him being able to slow down time for a brief instant. It would be an increasingly draining power the longer it would be used, and he would sometimes push it at his own risk; but he would do it gladly nonetheless. ⏱️🌅

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 21

chapter 36:

1. “It's been so long. Oh, there you are, here you are, hi,” *deep breath* AHHHHHHHHH

2. 😭😭😭 “Remus keeps a firm grip on him and turns around to promptly leave, which is probably a little rude, considering that the others are here and may wish to greet him, but he honestly can't bring himself to care about that right now” i would expect nothing less

3. WOLFSTAR REUNION!!!! I AM IN SHAMBLES!

4. “On the way, James glances back with a grin, internally wishing Sirius all the good things, because no one deserves them more.”

oh. wow. that’s such a soft line. it’s literally making me melt

5. “Remus could not be more in love if he tried.” shit shit shit shit sobbing. wolfstar deserves the world

6. “He does love Sirius, though. Loves him dearly, with every defiant bone in his body. This man, who doesn't even realize the importance of what he's just done by giving Remus an unopened envelope. Remus, who owns nothing. Remus, who has nothing. Remus, who is not granted privacy or freedom for anything like this, for anything at all.”

i am on PUBLIC TRANSPORTATION and i am BAWLING my eyes out as silently as i possibly can. y’all don’t understand the restraint i have right now to not loudly sob

7. the LETTER has me CRYING

8. THE SECRET MESSAGE

9. oh, okay. remus killed an auror/greyback. it’s honestly not as bad as i thought it would be. also, i love the lily and remus duo. they’re so iconic

10. i LOVE LOVE LOVE that zar made a point for sirius to have the discussion that his demisexuality is NOT because of trauma and he’s always been that way. it’s beautiful <3

11. “”You can ask Regulus and James; I walked around for a solid month making everyone call me Mr. Sirius Macdonald."” STOP PLSS THATS SO FUNNY

12. SIRIUS JUST TOLD REMUS HE LOVED HIM!!! this is literally so sweet

13. andjskjdksksjsms the authors note:

“sirius, internally: a guillotine could not sever the head im about to give this man. good for them 😌”

chapter 37:

1. i’m starting a gofundme to get regulus a balcony

2. "”Sirius doesn't let me drink," James replies flatly.

"Well, don't say it like that, James. You make it sound like I'm a strict parent, or a controlling spouse," Sirius grumbles. "And I do let you drink, in moderation, when you're in a safe environment and in a good mental state. Don't forget to mention that you only let me drink within those same rules."”

i bet james is upset with the rules he made for sirius so long ago. came back to bite him in the ass

3. describing sirius as “ruffled like an offended bird” has done wonders for my mental health

4. james, remus, and sirius are all hanging out and i am beyond angry that peter doesn’t get to share this moment

5. pandora is such an angel and doesn’t deserve this pain

6. pandora and reg friendship >>>>>>>>>

7. their outfits for the night!! every last one of them is slaying so hard

8. “There's a tense moment where a group of murderers all stare around at each other, not opposed to adding a few more names to their lists. Oh, and Pandora is there, too, startlingly calm despite this.”

yaxley needs to shut his fucking mouth and stop implying that sirius will fuck his way through issues

9. “"You know what they'll assume we're doing."

"Running away," Regulus mutters.

James sighs in exasperation and fond amusement. "No, Reg. Fucking. They'll assume we've snuck off to find a corner to go fuck in."”

😭😭😭😭😭 i love reg. he’s so ready to leave

10. jegulus is getting their shit together and improving. i’m so glad

11. “James swallows. "They're—they destroy things now, when they never did before. They're rough sometimes. Bloody."

"Warm," Regulus counters, pressing another kiss to James' shaking fingers. "Steady. Strong. These hands hold the people you love. These hands care for them. They're gentle. Tender."”

this is love. what they have is love. it’s messy and broken and so difficult, but they’re trying and it’s love

12. and once again we have wolfstar my true loves ☺️☺️

i feel like nows a good time to add to respect bizzarestars’ wishes to not have the fic reposted or reuploaded a different site. i can’t remember his wishes about bookbinding, but respect those as well.

thank you, lovely people

[underdark-dreams]

If this is considered a request, feel free to ignore it, but do you have any Headcannon’s on either Lia or Cal??

One of mine is Cal is definitely strong (He has a strength of 16! Holy shit) but has a soft middle. I dunno why I just think that would make him a great cuddle partner.

Another is Lia actually being sappy if she gets drunk enough and would definitely tear up as she tells Cal and Rolan that she loves them dearly. Then she would pretend that didn’t happen lmao

Lia and Cal my beloveds!! I love both of these headcanons, anon!

Cal having 16str at level 3 is honestly uhhhh something I am not over. 😳 Him being a little soft in the middle is so perfect. There's no way his cuddles could be bad either way, I am with you on that

And Lia being soft when she gets drunk! PERFECT. She is so strong and tough but she loves Cal and Rolan to death. 🥺

Personally, I've always thought Cal would be a good cook. Like that was his 'chore' when they were growing up, but he loved it. He strikes me as one of those enthusiastic experimenters in the kitchen when he first started, like half of what he made was inedible and half was the best thing you've ever had. Now that he's honed his skills, he's just a solidly A+ chef

I also think Lia would love animals!! If she had the space for it, I could see her fostering lots of animals or taking in injured ones until they're ready to go back in the wild. Rolan would put his foot down about what was allowed in the Tower, but I could totally see Lia raising a dire hawk from a little hatchling, caring for it and training it, and eventually having a loyal dire hawk battle familiar that just lives with her and eats table scraps

[try-set-me-on-fire]

AAAAAAHHHHHH okay I changed my mind the 'pretend they're not dating' idea please!!!

Hahahaha okay so I have like? Set pieces? That I plug into various aus sometimes? One of them is a specific burn injury of Eddie's (it's made an appearance in this soft prompt drabble which in itself is secretly part of proposal fic au). They're fighting a fire in a big building, the floor goes out from under him, he's knocked unconscious so can't move himself out of the flames and it takes a minute to get to him so he ends up with pretty severe burns on his arm and thigh, a little less bad on his side.

The concept for this fic is that he's laying in the burn unit really out of it and in excruciating pain and he begs for his mom and Buck, who is his emergency contact and power of attorney and who also has been his boyfriend for a while, is like fuck. Fuck. I have to call his parents. So Ramon and Helena, who Eddie is NOT out to and who have no idea how big a role Buck has in his and Christopher's life, come to town to help in his recovery. So Buck has to like sneak around his own life, like he's already living with Eddie at this point and his stuffs all over their house and Christopher treats him like a second parent because he is one and he sleeps in Eddie's bed and he has to find excuses for it all. I'm staying here because Eddie's hurt. I care for Christopher because me and Eddie are real good friends. Eddie can't move too well right now so I'm sleeping by him in case he needs help in the night, we all share a room in the bunks at work, ha ha.

So he's exhausted dealing with lying to Eddie's parents and also with Eddie's injuries and how much pain the love of his life is in (he usually changes the bandages but there will be a scene where Eddie asks Maddie to do it just to give Buck a break, which Buck later feels inadequate about) and of course he feels guilty that Eddie got hurt in the first place even if there's nothing he could have done, and like Eddie's parents aren't stupid it's pretty clear how much Buck loves their son and Helena confronts him about it and how she thinks he shouldn't be taking advantage of the situation to be close to Eddie like this and Buck doesn't know what to say because. Eddie never came out. He didn't tell his parents about them for a reason. So he doesn't even defend himself he just heads off to work and has a bit of a breakdown there. Meanwhile Helena is telling Eddie he shouldn't let his gay friend take so much liberty with him and Eddie damn near shouts the house down injuries or no, and is horrified that she might have said something like this to Buck, who he declares is his partner, who he loves so dearly, who he intends to marry some day.

And so Buck comes home to find Eddie's parents are at a hotel or Pepa's house or just somewhere not here for a little bit and they have some time to themselves and Eddie is getting better he's a little stronger now he's sitting on the couch and doing okay, they're going to be okay and he's sorry for whatever she said and he's sorry for what a mess this all is and Buck forgives him for all of it because it doesn't really matter as long as Eddie is alive and here with him.

But it does kind of matter, Eddie and Ramon have been really working on their relationship the last few years and Eddie is kind of shocked at how poorly Helena took this and he wants to like just talk to them. He'd love for them to be happy for him because this is the happiest he's ever been. He'd love for them to like Buck because he's here to stay for good. He was planning on telling them eventually and he expected better from them and he tells them that, and that they can still be a part of his life and he'd like that but they better be willing to accept all parts of his life. So they're still in town but they're at the house less and it's kind of weird and awkward and bad sometimes but Buck can stand up for himself a little more and Buck and Chris and Eddie can live their lives how they actually live them and Eddie's parents can see what a good life they've built here and eventually when they leave back to Texas it's not on the Best terms but it's not awful either. They'd like to come to the wedding, whenever that may be, if Buck and Eddie would have them there. Maybe they will. It's something they'll figure out together.

So yeah more emotional and physical meat grinder content from me your pal ahshshhs I just like drama! I like when people intentionally and unintentionally hurt each other! I like to stress poor Buck out!

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I HAVE THOUGHTS TO SHARE.

THEM AND THEIR hypothetical POKEMON TEAM (i would like to hear other people's thoughts because i am unsure and i plan to post this on the subreddit eventually)

explanations under the cut (its gonna be extensive so be prepared) (this has been rotting in my brain for a while)

KYBORG

he has a secret soft spot for his pokemon, if they faint or get injured he worries really badly

he likes to bond with them during training :D he pesters the others for pokemon battles

umbreon, poochyena - i feel like they kinda just have the same 'mysterious, dark' vibes that kyborg wants to have has!! but funnily enough, they're not as scary as they seem. very affectionate!! like dogs!! kyborg loves them

riolu - okay so think with me here.. riolu/lucario can read auras and emotions and so they know that kyborg isnt a bad person and they know when he's trying to mask his emotions ??!!???? so riolu would be understanding of him n they'd be pretty close

also i'd just like to think riolu (and the rest of his pokemon) enjoy battling alongside kyborg

scorbunny/froakie - when i see these pokemon i think of athleticism and/or dexterity and i couldn't decide between the two :'3

scorbunny/froakie would go on runs / exercise with kyborg, they have a similar personality type where they're both brash, energetic, enthusiastic and they click easily like that!!

though i imagine froakie is more calculated in battles compared to scorbunny whos more impulsive

alolan vulpix - SPOILERS FOR EP 33 (?)

this vulpix, alongside hannibal (perhaps a dragonair) and gumbo (the linoone), was fighting against .. lets say abomasnow?

and during that fight lets say gum gum and kyborg interfered by sending out their pokemon and assisting in the battle n kyborg became really fond of the vulpix and decided to keep him as a per

WHY alolan vulpix? idk i think it'd be fitting since kyborg has some ties to snow and ice and also because i believe the region they were in during that arc was snowy !!1

BART

he performs little shows with his lute and his pokemon!! and he also occasionally has pokemon battles

he loves his pokemon dearly tbh and i feel like all of them appreciate music in some way :3!!

pikachu - one of the pokemon he's owned for a long time! his pikachu particularly is quite fond of his trainer and his quirks n music, it helped the crew during the time bart was on the jebediah!!

i have no explanation for this one actually but a fun thought is that pikachu would evolve into an alolan raichu (look at the little guy surf!!) and this would mean that bart would live in the alolan region so who knows honestly... LISTEN HE JUST HAS A PIKACHU

chatot - a gift from marrrge to bart, passed down because the two started to bond while on the ship. they sang together n marrrge could tell they really had potential so boom kapow wachow

ALSO ABOUT THE MIMICKI NG THING chatot can mimic voices (from what i remember) and i think it'd be funny if it mimicked kyborg like the kenkus from that one library and it annoys kyborg to no bounds

mantine - caught during his time on the ship! mantine sometimes swim near ships in little packs and i suppose this one took a liking to bart, and bart was pretty fond of it as well :D not much to say here except for the fact its a silly little water guy

tauros - bart got like.. a baby auroch or something right?? idk i forgot but either way he is (weirdly) fond of beastly bulls and i suppose a tauros is a good substitute

i also like to imagine bart likes mounting (strange wording) his pokemon since it just means he doesn't have to walk much and he likes being a bit higher up than he usually is n tauros (and maybe mantine) are good for that

would he own the notorious pokemon? that is but a thought left for the audience.

GUM GUM

he's weirdly lucky, seems to have a good chance at finding shiny pokemon and other rare things

wonder why

anyways, his pokemon r kinda just companions that he likes to hug and hang out with :) occasionally he does battle with them

floette - flower buddy!!! i'd like to think that gum gum likes to spend time in flower fields when he has the chance and the one thing he's honestly pretty knowledgeable in is flowers

so he might've met a flabebe or a floette and they became buddies! he had no idea it was a shiny until maybe one of the party members mentioned it

bulbasaur - okay so i struggled on this decision but then it came to me that bulbasaur is PERFECT idk they have the same vibes and it eventually starts growing a little flower when it evolves

i can't explain this one they just have the same vibes and energy. i think they'd go well together

tyrunt - so let's imagine that for some reason there were some fossil pokemon that kinda just escaped and that's how we explain the dinosaur encounters from rhe campaign

anyways he befriends the tyrunt in typical gum gum fashion (kyborg is SHOCKED because out of all the pokemon this one was a shiny) and they become friends! it loves hugs but it often initiated them running full speed and knocking over the victim (which is fine for gum gum, not fun for anyone else though)

yamper - SPOILERS FOR GUM GUM'S ARC

despite gum gum's bad experiences with rum rum (WHICH BY THE WAY rum rum perhaps was a rockruff that evolved into midnight lycanroc or a houndour/houndoom and that bite wouldve HURT) he's still fond of puppies n yamper helped with this slight uneasiness he's felt

idk i think gum gum deserves a silly little puppy

all his pokemon r very cuddly :)

MUDD

prefers mellow, calm pokemon since he finds it a bit tiring to keep up with high energy pokemon (unlike the other three)

his pokemon are quite well trained!! he's caught a lot of them and they're all very well taken care of

despite his pokemon being pretty strong, he doesn't find much use in pokemon battles

snivy - got the snivy during his time with his family! royal background buddies!!! snivy is a very calm pokemon (but it shares the same sass that mudd has), they're pretty close :D

linoone - GUMBO!!!!! at first, linoone wasn't too big of a fan of mudd but they gradually becamw closer! they do everything together, if you look at mudd linoone would always be on his shoulders or being carried

lycanroc - its the vibes honestly..

midday lycanroc is calm and loyal, and maybe mudd has raised it since it was a rockruff so they're also pretty well bonded!

idk i think they'd get along well

lapras, gogoat - both pokemon that remind me of mudd's personality

i cant explain this except for the fact that theyre correlated to some of the pokemon he's wild shaped into so ....

archen - i think it'd be funny if mudd just had a feral little pokemon . end quote



[thetavolution]

I made my character Bex from @thebonnevillegame a character in BG3!

I thought she'd be perfect as a tiefling in the BG3 world. I plan on doing Laura, Minty, and Ingrid very soon.

BEX

Full name:  Rebecca Elspeth McQuoid Name meaning:  Rebecca: to bind or tie; Elspeth: chosen by God; McQuoid: son of Uad (Gaelic form of Wat, short for Walter) Pronouns: She/Her  Race: Tiefling Age: 36  Orientation: Pansexual Romance: Astarion Class: Bard Subclass: College of Swords Origin: Entertainer Theme Song:  Smoke and Mirrors — Gotye

Personality Bex is intelligent, but flippant. Not very many things upset her, but when they do anger her, she goes from 0 to 60 in the blink of an eye. She can typically diffuse tense situations simply by a lack of reaction or by telling a joke. She generally keeps a cool head, so much so it seems like she doesn’t care. In reality, she’s tired. She’s seen some shit and she is over it.

Her philosophy is life is hard, why make it harder? She’s way too tired for that shit. She tries to help people out and, while she’s not perfect at it, she tries to be encouraging. She's friendly yet apathetic to most people when she meets them at first.

She doesn't hate a lot of people either. Someone would really have to press her buttons or give her a reason to hate them. She’ll hate someone as vile as Cazador with her whole heart, or she’ll just really hate someone like Naaber due to pure annoyance. She’s the type of person who prefers to stick up for the underdog.

She struggles to trust people on a deeper level, yet she continues to seek out connection with others. Under all her bluster, she has a good heart. She's just used to taking care of herself with little to no help from anybody else. Some people see her as trashy and she'd tell them they're correct.

Although not cruel, she doesn’t always do or say what someone needs her to. She’s blunt, but she’s never intentionally hurtful. Sometimes she just sucks at wording herself. She’s never been one to brush off someone else’s hurt feelings with “I’m just being honest” either.

Although she’s intelligent, she’s good at playing dumb in order to get what she wants. She knows how to game the system and happily teaches people she trusts to do the same. When she feels wronged, she won’t hesitate to be cruel in retaliation. She can talk people into things and her charisma can get her out of sticky situations.

Background Bex is originally from my show @thebonnevillegame, but think of this as a multiverse situation. This is what would happen if she were born in Faerûn as a tiefling. Not to worry, there are not spoilers for Bonneville here.

Bex was born in Baldur’s Gate. Her family is, unfortunately, well known for being plagued by drama and heartache. She’s the bastard child of Garrick, a half-elf carpenter, and Sharon “Sauci”, a tiefling barmaid. Sauci believed that, if she got pregnant, Garrick would stay with her and they would live happily ever after. He didn’t.

Sauci was left to raise Bex alone, but she didn’t have much interest in being a mother. So, Bex spent most of her childhood taking care of herself.

There is more to her backstory, but I can’t reveal much else. It mirrors her backstory in The Bonneville Game a bit too closely. But she did start running with the wrong crowd and it would eventually bite her in the ass. She was also betrayed by someone she trusted and loved very dearly.

But prior to getting a tadpole in her head, she was working as a cook in Baldur’s gate.

Likes: Money, cooking, baking, discovering new foods and recipes, animals, working out, being outside, collecting cookbooks, and reading

Dislikes: Most authority figures, debt collectors, working directly with customers, large crowds, and being seen as “soft”

Fears: She’s afraid of losing her freedom and losing herself. She believes she deserves every bad thing that’s come her way, but it still scares her. 

Quirks: Bex doesn’t usually bother to remember names at first. She gives nicknames or identifies people by specific quirks they have. I.E. If someone likes grilled cheese and pickles, she might refer to them as Pickles.

Once she thinks you’re sticking around in her life, she’ll remember your actual name. She’s too used to people coming in and out to let herself get attached too quickly.

Astarion: Knives Gale: Rocky (she found him in a rock) Wyll: The Hero or just Hero Lae’zel: Green Bean (how she survived being killed by Lae’zel, we’ll never know) Shadowheart: Shady Halsin: The second she found out he’s called Daddy Halsin, she grabbed onto that and refused to let go. Karlach: Firestarter

Mental Health:  Bex has a wall up. She has been hurt by various people in her life. She struggles to let people get to know the real her. She has an easier time helping people with their problems. It distracts her from her own and it means people ask less questions about her. She’s terrified of falling in love due to past trauma which means Astarion is trouble for her. 

Halsin is less scary to her, at first, due to assuming he’s just a horn dog.

Favorite Foods: Homemade Bread, Potato Scones, Brownies, Macarons, and Paella

Favorite Drinks: Coffee and Mermaid Whiskey

Favorite Flower: Poppies and Selûne’s Tear

Height:  5’6”/ 167.64 cm 

Skin: As a Tiefling (she’s a human in her OG story), she has pink skin.

Hair:  Her hair is a brighter pink, contrasting with her skin. (In her original story, she does dye her hair pink. In BG3, it naturally is.)

Eyes:  Demonic Orange.

Color Scheme:  As a pink being, she tries to find colors that complement her tone. Sometimes she defaults to black, brown, or grey just to avoid accessorizing. However, she’s a fan of blues, teal, and sage. She doesn’t like to dress in too much gold, but she thinks it makes for a nice trim on clothing.

Fashion Sense: She shifts between lazy and all dolled up when getting dressed. Some days she will just throw on whatever is in arm’s reach. Other days, she takes time for her makeup and clothing. When she knows she has a full day of cooking ahead, she prioritizes efficiency and comfort above all.

Family: 

William “Will” McQuoid Bex barely knows her father and they haven’t interacted very much. He has quite an extensive criminal history that dates back to when he was 14. He’s gotten in trouble for fights, drugs, robbery, assault (including assault at a funeral), and a number of petty offenses. He’s a violent person, but he’s good at coming across as friendly when you first meet him. 

Sharon “Sauci” McNamara Sauci is a terrible mother who is more focused on herself than her kids. She only had Bex because she believed it would make her father stay. When it didn’t, Sauci lost interest in her. She’s even been known to try to flirt with the people her daughter is dating.

Siblings Who even knows what’s going on there. Sauci only has one child, but Will has no idea how many he might have.

[lostonehero]

What remains after eternity

Leaving

Jonny hugs the last of his kids standing outside Aurora. "Look, I know you guys are waiting for the rest of your crew. My offer is open now and forever. I love you guys."

Trevor broke from the others. "Fuck it." Eyes look to him. "It's been over fifty years, fifty fucking years, and they never are this fucking late. You guys can wait, I'm heading out with dad and you fuckers can find me."

Janet broke next. "Fuck he's right, and I already left a note in the cave. I wanna travel with dad. I still have questions for Raphaella and Ivy, and Brian is from that weird nightmare planet."

Thomas launched himself at Jonny. "I don't want to say bye yet."

Jonny could feel tears fall down his cheeks. "For fucks sake you brats just get in. You still have to meet your great aunts, and I'm sure Tim would love to have you guys around."

"I get first dibs on rooms!" Alex runs inside.

"Fuck you! You don't even have your stuff!" Mae runs after them.

"Hey! That's not fair! You got a headstart." Janet huffs running after both of them.

Jonny pulls away. "Go ahead." He watches both his sons run onto Aurora.

"I have room for their crew." Aurora sounds smug.

"Don't fucking push it." Jonny smiles wide. "You asked for this. They're my kids. I hope you're happy."

Aurora beeps and chips like an excited child.

"You're as bad as them." Jonny walks in as the hatch shuts. "Thank you." He says softly.

"Nastya says you're soft." Aurora hums.

"So what?" Jonny smiles, following the sound of his children.

.......

Janet stares at the open panel, revealing a screen. Alex is next to her also staring.

"Janet D'ville and Alex D'ville, what can I help you with?" Aurora's voice chimes.

Janet hums. "Ok I have to ask are you fucking Nastya or was dad lying."

"Dad doesn't lie to us." Alex rolls their eyes.

"Nastya and myself are in a relationship, yes. I have attempted to court your great aunts, but they don't leave your grandmothers ship." Aurora pauses. "Why do you ask? Do you not have an ai on your ship?"

"We do..." Alex makes a face. "However, they aren't um... he..."

"So there's this thing called hate sex, and our pilot Izzy well." Janet thins her lips.

"Izzy and Hal, get along as well as a house on fire." Alex pauses. "Do we need oxygen masks if you get into fights with Nastya?"

"I can not turn off the oxygen due to our garden and Gunpowder Tim. I have tried." Aurora hums.

"Weird." Janet shrugs. "What's your policy on violence?"

Aurora chirps excitedly. "Allowd!"

"You answered that way too excitedly." Alex looks at Janet.

"Don't look at me, I think Mae is going to try to start her game again." Janet shrugs.

"Game?" Aurora questions.

Janet and Alex smile at each other.

"You'll figure it out." Alex snickers.

"I highly doubt she'll win even if it's been a while." Janet crosses her arms. "Wait, wait, wait, Aurora, do you have any hallways covered, or is it all metal hallways?"

"Except for Jonny's and your kids' room being carpeted, my halls all have smooth metal halls."

Janet giggles.

Alex rubs her hands together. "I know our plans tonight."

Aurora chirps excitedly ready for chaos. She misses the violence dearly.

.........

Jonny ducks, and there's an arrow embedded in the wall next to him. "I appreciate your wish to keep playing your game, but you're going to have to try harder than that. Also, Nastya is normally in the vents and try not to bother her." He sips his mug of tea.

Mae groans and jumps down from the ceiling. "How did you even know?" She whines.

Jonny chuckles. "I've been at this."

"I've been at this a long time, Yada Yada." Mae huffs. "You can't just say that for everything."

"Watch me." Jonny smiles, taking another sip. "Points for the silent weapon, though."

"Stop being supportive. I'm trying to kill you by surprise." Mae huffs.

"I know, and I love you, my little hammer head." Jonny chuckles again as she groans louder.

Mae put the bow on her back. She gently side headbutts her dad.

"What's on your mind? I know you're not mad or even annoyed about losing again." Jonny gently headbutts back.

Mae sighs. "Are you ok with us? With me?"

"Why wouldn't I be? I'm annoyed about the gods, but I'm not mad that I have you guys back." Jonny faces his daughter. "Im proud of you guys. You all became better than me. You have your own crew, your own ship, and your own family to cause chaos."

"I'm kind of a slut." Mae rubs her arm. "I've murdered for nothing, gambled, and lied."

"I've been there and done that." Jonny smiles and presses his forehead against hers. "There is nothing that can make me hate you guys."

Mae presses back. "I just.... dad, I never thought we would ever cross paths again. There's so much I want to tell you. I want to show you so much. I just... I'm scared that you'll be disappointed."

"Sallie Mae, the only way you could disappoint me is if you sleep with Ashes. I don't care what you've done, but I will not allow you to become another notch on their belt. They've been trying to fuck my mother too." Jonny sighs and smiles hearing Mae start to giggle.

"Grandma is kind of a milf." Mae chuckles.

"Don't you start." Jonny headbutts them hard and and walks off.

"W- wait." Mae giggles louder. "How about I sleep with Brian?"

"I'm done with this, you brat." Jonny was grinning.

"I can always sleep with another cop." Mae walks next to her dad.

"A cop really? Marius is bad enough with Lyf. I raised you better. Fuck the police, Sallie Mae, not fuck the police." Jonny laughs as Mae pushes him.

"Instructions aren't clear." Mae laughs along.

........

"On your left!" Alex giggles sliding past Lyf.

Lyf jumps back. "I uh... Aurora, did you get waxed floors?"

"No. New Texans have feet made for hot desert sands and rocks. Rough terrain and those features do not translate to flat, smooth surfaces." Aurora sounds bemused.

"Is that why - Whoa!" Lyf stumbles forward as Janet slides on his other side.

"You make a better wall than a path, space cop!" Janet shouts, holding up her middle finger.

"She's right!" Trevor uses a cane to stop himself. "However, that doesn't much matter."

"Why?" Lyf stares at him.

"It's fun and a fast way to get places. It pisses Aiden off as well back on our ship." Trevor sighs. "How's Marius?"

Lyf frowns. "Still out of it. He's in Raphaella lab if you want to say hi."

"Is Carmillia there?" Trevor frowns when Lyf nods. "Then no. She scares me."

"She creeps me out as well." Lyf pauses. "Do you know about this acolyte stuff?"

"Of course I do." Trevor raised a brow. "Do you not?"

"Just because I am one apparently doesn't mean I got instructions." Lyf scowls.

Trevor nods. "Alright, sure, I can tell you the stuff I know. It's not a happy tale, though. Our crew are all ones of different gods. Didn't touch me or my siblings in that way. Hope they never do." He pulls out a pair of socks with rubber bottoms. "There's a common room, right?"

"Yes." Lyf motions for him to follow. "We can talk there. Raphaella will have Marius for a while."

Trevor nods and follows behind.

......

"So?" Lyf watches Trevor pull his knees up, getting comfortable in the corner of the couch.

Trevor frowns. "After the god killer, the gods got smart. Izzy calls it an infection, she felt it happen, and she tried to cut out those parts and replace them with machines it didn't work, but we found her in a lab. She doesn't talk much about it. She was once known as the most brilliant scientist of her galaxy before she went mad, but going mad would have been much kinder." He rubs his arm. "Izzy is kind. I help her with her mechanical parts, but it's getting harder and harder to tell where they start and the flesh ends."

Lyf pales. "She felt it happen?"

"She tried to fight it." Trevor sighs. "We found her by chance. We were tasked with finding the missing scientist. Nobody bothered to check her lab."

"Oh gods." Lyf covers his mouth. "Why haven't I changed?"

"You have." Trevor's tail flicks back and forth like a nervous tic. "Your blood is like rainbow static, ain't it? It's not so much of a physical change as the others, but you have the power of Yog Sogoth on your fingertips. It's a part of you."

Lyf looks away. "I rather not think about it like that."

Trevor nods. "Lazarus was the first to join us. He can't tell you what he looked like before the god Scratch got involved, but he thinks he was human once, but that's all you'll get out of him. He's old he talks about a ship called Apollo, whatever that means. He's close to Thomas, and they don't have a label, but everyone knows they have a thing for each other. He's weird, but he makes Thomas happy. Don't ask him about earth, though. It always makes him upset."

"Noted, but I think Tim would be the one to ask about earth. He's the only other human I know." Lyf hums. "He knows his god?"

"He always says, unfortunately, when asked and never elaborates. He has a cross too, it's old, like really, really old. He never takes the thing off." Trevor shrugs. "As I said, he's weird. He has complete co troll over his powers if you ever want a lesson, but I think that's because he's been at it a long time."

"That's good to know. I will have to learn what I'm capable of eventually." Lyf sighs.

"There's...." Trevor stops as the sound of violin comes through. "I um huh." He spots Marius eyes unfocused, and he was playing as he walked. Raphaella was behind him.

"How curious." Raphaella smirks and writes something down.

"Is he ok?" Lyf gets up quickly.

"Healing has halted the virus has changed, but it hasn't gotten worse. I just have to change my approach. I've never dealt with a virus that evolves to fight a cure. It's quite amazing, actually, but I took enough samples, and I... well, his questions hurt." Raphaella doesn't need to elaborate.

Lyf nods. "Why were you following him?"

"I wanted to see where he was going." Raphaella pauses. "He seems to know where you are for what that's worth. I'm going to go back to my lab and try again. If I need any more samples, I'll come to collect them."

Trevor watches Raphaella leave and then look back to Marius, whose back was to them as he played. "Maybe when Izzy comes by she can help."

"That would be nice." Lyf sighs. "We can continue this another time, I have to make sure he eats."

Trevor nods. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be." Lyf smiles sadly. "I made a promise to the man I love, and I'll be there till it's impossible, but impossible isn't something I ever plan on finding."

........

Mae walked down the halls, stopping hearing violin and gutair. It could be her siblings, but the voice wasn't... someone was singing. She followed the tune to a music room. Tim was strumming on his gutair, and Marius was playing his eyes were unfocused like he really wasn't there. He was singing something, but in a language she didn't understand.

Tim didn't notice, Mae creep in. He was focused on playing.

Mae wasn't certain Tim was even aware of Marius next to him. A screen popped open with text.

"They have been playing for hours. Your father is unavailable, and Lyf is asleep. I can not get them to stop."

Mae pales realizing both men's hands were bleeding. "Dad wasn't..." She takes a breath. "Wait a moment." She runs off down the hall and returns with Thomas.

"I don't think this will work." Thomas looks uncomfortable.

"You're the only one of us who can mimic dad's voice perfectly." Mae frowns. "I don't like this anymore than you do, but dad's busy, and you remember what Trevor told us."

Thomas sighs and nods. "Ok ok ok. I don't even know if this will work."

"It's worth a shot. Dad always told us stories about his days with Tim. I mean, dad even calls him his husband." Mae shifted uncomfortably. "His hands are bleeding."

Thomas grimaced. "They are." He takes a breath. "Don't tell dad."

"I won't." Mae frowns.

Thomas clears his throat, and his voice perfectly mimics his father's. "Tim the fuck are you doing?"

Tim misses the next note, and his hand rests blood dripping to the floor. He looks up at Thomas. The only warning was a loud beeping from Aurora, and they were shoved out of the room as a vine went through the solid metal door.

Thomas skittered backward, and so did Mae. He grabs her hand as a second vine goes through the door.

Mae shakes her head as alarms begin to blare. "Fuck! Fuck fuck fuck." She pulls her twin up. "Run!"

Thomas didn't need to be told twice as they ran hands locked.

........

Valerie frowns as she puts her mug down. "What's wrong?"

Jonny furrows his brows. "Auntie Audrey, why do you look worried?"

"The alarms have gone off in Aurora." Audrey crosses her arms. "Unfortunately, I do not know why."

Jonny gets up. "She doesn't do that unless something is wrong. Fuck did some assholes try to board us?"

"Don't worry." Valerie smiles. "We can handle it."

"Damn right, my kids are on board. I ain't letting them touch my babies." Jonny started to run to the exit to get on Aurora.

"He did not take a gun." Audrey raised a brow.

"I don't think he needs one." Valerie walks after him. "He also knows his kids can handle themselves."

"You raised him well." Audrey smiles. "He's a good dad."

"Damn right." Valerie chuckles.

........

Janet stumbled back, watching Brian get torn in half. "Shit. What the fuck did you two do?" She held a gun in her hand but bullets did next to nothing against the vines.

"I just wanted to fucking help." Mae pulls Janet back from another vine. "Aurora asked me to help."

"Well it didn't fucking work." Ashes huffs as their flamethrower is taken and broken. "Fuck, Raphaella any...." They stop as they are splattered with purple blood. "Nevermind."

A rainbow static sputters as Lyf is grabbed, and his arms forcefully rip from his body. He screams in pain as he is slammed against a wall.

"He really sucks at his power control." Alex suddenly shrieks as a vine goes through their shoulder, pinning them against a metal wall.

"No!" Mae runs with a growl. Barely making it to Alex, she chops through the vine and pushes Alex away as one goes straight through her chest.

Alex stared up at her sister. "Sallie?"

Mae wheezes. "I'm... I'm..." The vine twists. She screams.

"Liar!" He growls he goes to attack once more.

Thomas's leg is ripped off. "F-fuck." He falls to the floor.

Trevor took a breath as Ivy's attack did nothing, and she was ripped to shreds. He really didn't want to do this. He reached in his mouth and pulled out a tooth. He winced but held it firm. "This is going to suck." Before a vine can even touch him, it disintegrated.

A female voice is heard laughing. "Darling sweet baby boy." She has short white hair, red eyes, and purple skin. A long tail six arms and two rows of spines down her back that seem to spark.

"Li -" He turns to a pile of ash, leaving mechanical eyes in the pile.

"Really?" Thomas groans. "Really Trevor?"

"What else did you want me to do? Mae is impaled." Trevor points to Mae, who just looked annoyed.

"Yeah, under my heart and between my lungs." Mae shudders as it is healed. "You really had to summon her."

"You still have such a cute little attitude." She giggles like nails on a chalkboard and explodes Carmillia and Nastya.

Trevor wipes the blood off his face.

Thomas crosses his arm as his leg regrows. "Ok, first off, it's not like we were going to die, you fuckers won't let us."

"True even that you've found the mechs and your father, speaking of which." She turns. "Hello Jonny."

Jonny looked at the carnage. He takes a deep breath. "Why the fuck is she here?"

"You know her?" Jonny's children stare at him.

"Do you really think we haven't faced a god or two in Aurora?" Jonny pinched his brow. "Nexus what the fuck do you want?"

Nexus giggles. "What I always want." She licks her lips with a very long tongue.

"Disgusting as always, the answer is still no. Mae, what happened?" Jonny steps over a severed arm.

"I asked for her to-"

"I didn't ask you, Aurora." Jonny sighs on a disappointed tone.

"I heard guitar and violin, so I followed the sound, and I saw Tim and Marius playing. Both of their hands were bleeding, and Aurora asked me to help since you were with grandma and Lyf was asleep. I asked Thomas to help because he can mimic your voice and you always talked about how you two were close and it did get his attention and he stopped but he didn't like that it was Thomas and not you." Mae looks away.

Jonny frowns. "Next time, please get me, and I'll handle him. I told you that Tim's still recovering and some days are better than others." He sighs, helping Mae up. "I'm not mad you did the best you could with what you knew, but there's a reason why I haven't told you or any of you what really happened to him."

"Dad, I'm i." Mae stops as her father hugs her tightly.

"We'll have a talk, but in the meantime." Jonny glares at Nexus. "My mother will be here shortly."

Nexus pauses. "Ah." She snaps, and all the gore vanishes, leaving just the mechanized parts. Trevor holds his mouth as the tooth is replaced. "Yog Sogoth is such a cunt." She vanishes.

Lyf gasps as he sits up. "What.... what happened." He looks around and freezes seeing Marius's arm on the floor.

"They're fine." Jonny sighs. "Trust me, I've thrown myself into a volcano before. It doesn't stick." His children stare at him as he picks up Tim's eyes. "Come on, I'll tell you what happened. I'll make you guys dinner."

The five follow silently.

Lyf hugs Marius's arm as Valerie finally enters.

"What happened?" Valerie frowns.

"Tim was upset, but I don't know what happened after." Lyf takes a breath. "Jonny took his kids to the kitchen."

Valerie nods and walks over to sit next to Lyf.

"Aren't you going to follow?" Lyf takes a breath.

"He can always explain it to me later. He's allowed to be a father to his children." Valerie pats Lyf's back. "He'll be back within the week."

"Thank you." Lyf sighs in relief.

"And unfortunately, Carmillia will be back within the hour." Valerie rolls her eyes.

Lyf gives a small smile. "That is unfortunate."

........

Jonny slices the meat on the table for a final time, creating his plate as his kids look horrified. Tim's eyes have stared to get bloody, so he put them on a towel. "That's the truth. Humanity is a different, more awful type of species when it comes to cruelty to their own kind."

"I'm...." Thomas stops as Jonny holds his hand up as he sits.

"None of it is your fault. None of this is any of your faults." Jonny frowns. "You did what you thought was right, and I can't fault you for that."

Alex takes a breath after finishing their food. "You know Nexus?"

"She's gross." Trevor crossed his arms and sits back. "I hate bringing her here. I panicked, ok!"

Mae smiles softly. "Fuck with my impalement I would rather her than someone else appear."

Thomas grimaced. "Yeah fuck that at least she's something we're used to."

Janet blinks. "Wait, why did grandma make her leave? Not that I'm complaining, but it's weird."

"That's a story for your grandmother to tell you guys." Jonny sighs. "And for how we met, it was right after the death of King Cole. We stumbled upon a church that we thought had the making of another story. It didn't really turn out like that. She found us charming and did her best to keep us, but it didn't work. Now, this is the only story of the last that I can think of that I will not tell fully, and I'm sure you can figure out why. However, I will tell you not to trust a single thing Nexus claims albeit her power or what she's done with us."

The five nod.

.......

"Are you awake?" Aurora's voice chimes.

Nastya blinks, staring at the ceiling. "How did I get back in my room?"

"Ah, Sallie Mae carried you back when there was enough to carry. Jonny's children have helped clean up the mess and carried the rest of the crew back to their rooms except Tim and Marius." Aurora chirps. "You are the first to wake. Shall I tell the ones who were not affected by Tim's rampage?"

"What happened?" Nastya pulls herself up to sit.

"I asked Sallie Mae for help with Gunpowder Tim. The outcome was not forseen. However, we have kept the course to Marius's planet that Jonny confirmed was his planet." Aurora pauses. "Are you alright?"

Nastya nods. "Yeah, Jonny's ok?"

"Yes, he is." Aurora hums. "Would you like me to set up a video call?"

"Please." Nastya takes a breath as the screen comes to life.

"I'm following the fucking directions." Jonny huffs as giggles are heard.

Valerie pinches her brow. "Obviously not because you set the fucking batter on fire."

Nastya clears her throat. "What are you doing?"

Jonny rubs his face. "Baking."

"No, he's creating a health hazard." Valerie corrects. "Welcome back."

More giggles and laughter in the background.

"You have no right to laugh. You brats ate my baking." Jonny huffs.

Nastya smiles softly. "How is Tim?"

Jonny frowns and crosses his arms. "He isn't awake yet. You're the first to wake up. Lyf is with Marius, I don't think he has properly slept since."

"He hasn't, but I'm sure once Marius is awake, he will." Valerie raised a brow. "Why is it moving?"

"Will you stop.... oh, it is moving." Jonny thins his lips. "It's never done that before."

"I'm honestly impressed." Valerie blinks. "Kids, how about you go check on the others, and I'm going to figure out how to kill this thing with your father."

"That would be smart." Jonny has a look of concern on his features. "Anyway, we have to go. Talk to you later, Nastya." He cuts off as something pounces on his face.

"I did not like that." Aurora sounded concerned. "Jonny is now banned from baking. I will inform Ashes of this new rule."

"Agreed." Nastya looked somewhat horrified. "I will take Tim rampaging any day. Fuck me I'll even take another moonbeast."

"Yes." Aurora chirps.

.......

Someone was speaking, and Lyf didn't understand. He furrowed his brows as he opened his eyes, and the brown of Marius's stared down at him. He curses as he pushes himself back so he won't hit him as he gets up. "Marius?"

Marius blinks and tilts his head. He begins to speak, but it's a language Lyf was not familiar with. He points to his metal arm and continues to speak.

"Common? Marius, I don't understand what language you're speaking." Lyf frowns as Marius stopped matching the confused expression.

Marius pointed to himself. "Byron." He then pointed at Lyf. He motioned for lyf to say his name.

"Lyf." Lyf shakes his head. "Marius i-"

Marius points at himself again. "Byron." He repeats. He points at Lyf. "Lyf."

Lyf takes a breath. He does recall one of the mechs saying offhand that Marius want actually Marius's name at one point, but he really thought they were fucking with him. They weren't, and he needed to focus. "Ok, Byron, do you know where you are?"

Marius blinks, not understanding a single word spoken.

Lyf pinches his brow. "Aurora, do you know what Mar - Byron's native language is, and can you translate?"

"Marius's native tongue is not in my database or any known records. I have no ability to translate for you." Aurora chirps back.

"Fuck." Lyf takes a breath. "Is Ivy up?"

"Yes, she is with Raphaella in her lab." Aurora hums. "I shall inform them of the situation."

"Thank you." Lyf gets out of bed and cracks his back. "I miss the violin." He turns to Marius. He was dressed with the clothes he put on him, a bit more dressed down actually like the entire outfit was too much. "Ok, Byron."

Marius looked at Lyf and nodded.

Lyf holds out his hand, waiting for Marius to take it.

Marius reaches with his metal hand but hesitates and switches to his flesh one. "Lyf."

Lyf nods and pulls him out to the halls.

......

"So you never took Marius seriously when he described his home planet or when he tried to show you where it was, nor did you either of you ask him about his language." Lyf looked ready to pull his hair out.

"Marius kept telling us about a planet that was long abandoned due to colonizers polluting the planet to the point that no viable life could even live there. It's irradiated as fuck not to mention the toxic waste, and bio hazard materials that litter the surface." Ivy crossed her arms.

"I would have to make specialized suits for us to just land and explore on that planet which I am working on because Jonny insisted that's the correct place. I'm scared to even set foot there, and I don't even want to test anything on that place." Raphaella frowns. "Frankly, whatever happened, I don't even think I'm ready to push past that limit of science."

"That doesn't excuse any of you just ignoring the fact that Marius is a different species with a different culture and language. Maybe you shouldn't have discredited him. His species seems so fucking weird don't you think the environment is why?" Lyf throws his hands up as Ivy looks away embarrassed.

"We didn't even get along in the beginning." Ivy huffs. "I mean... um.... sorry, Janet, you know the language." Ivy stared at Janet, who was in a conversation with Marius, Carmillia was also there, but she had no idea what they were even saying.

Janet says something before switching back to common. "Yeah, I mean, I kind of expect I should know it when I was first taken by the gods I was flung onto a ship run by his kind. They called themselves pirates, but they were more like humanitarian aid workers. I'm a bit rusty, but Byron git the gist of everything." She points to Marius, who nodded. "It's kind of cute he has a crush on you, Lyf, and was shocked when I said you two were together. Anyway I'm going to take him to the kitchen to make some food and stuff. Surprisingly, he took to the whole mechanism thing pretty well." She switches back to the other language, and Byron nods, waves goodbye, and follows her. They seem to be in a deep discussion about something.

Lyf blinks.

Ivy opens her mouth than shuts it trying to process this.

"I have so many questions." Raphaella rubs her temples.

Carmillia hums. "Yeah, I was going to have Janet work on something with me, but then they just started talking. Also, do either of you have a sample of Jonny's baking disaster creature?"

"What?" Raphaella looks even more lost.

"I'm just going to take that as a no. I should ask Valerie. I want to replicate it." Carmilla just turns and walks down the hall.

The three exchange glances and head down the hall to corner Janet and Marius.

.......

"For the last time it's my turn to make lunch." Thomas scowls.

"You always make the food too bland." Mae huffs.

"You over spice everything! Sometimes, I want to actually taste the food." Thomas scoffs.

Mae rolls her eyes. "That's because you're a fucking baby and can't handle flavor."

Thomas growls and tackles Mae to the floor. "At least I have taste buds!"

"Oh fuck off mine are obviously better than yours." Mae headbutts him.

Ashes cracks open a beer. "And you're here because?"

Jonny sipped on a smoothie. "They asked me to come. They expect me to refree their fights, but they are adults and they haven't changed from when they were kids."

"So who normally wins?" Ashes pursed their lips.

"Neither of them." Jonny rolled his eyes. "What normally happens is either myself or one of their siblings make food while they fight. They can go at this for hours. Neither of them are right."

Janet steps around the two. "Hi, dad, Ashes." She motions for Marius to follow. She switches back to the other language.

Marius nods along and continues the conversation as Janet begins to pull out food to cook.

"You weren't kidding." Ashes chuckles.

"For as much as they have grown and changed some things, just don't change." Jonny chuckles. "Don't forget to make the idiots food."

Janet gives a thumbs up.

.......

Byron raised his brow. "Is this normal?"

"My siblings can be idiots. They do this whenever either one has cooking duties, which on our ship they are removed from that list." Janet hums. "So are you ok with I told you?"

"I have evidence I can not refute, but I can not imagine why I would become a doctor. I am much better with machines than the health of others. But are you certain that man is my partner?" Byron crosses his arms. "I can accept this metal arm, It's not unheard of for a soldier to lose a limb, and I know my mech wasn't the safest thing. However, how in the galaxy did I get that man to fall in love with me? We aren't even the same species. I could kill him by accident. My blood is toxic."

"I think he would think it was cute on how concerned you were for him. He can't die, and I know he has probably tried to. You can't either." Janet pauses as Byron snorts. "Even if you don't believe it, it's true. The gods won't me or my siblings die either." She motions to Jonny. "That's my dad. He can't die either. He's really different than how he once was. I've met him before us. Time travel is weird."

"I can agree with that. Does he know that?" Byron pauses when Janet shakes his head. "Will you tell him?"

"Probably not." Janet sighs. "He already feels guilty about us, but it's not his fault. The gods are awful, selfish creatures."

"I can agree with that." Byron sighs. "So, can you tell me more about this crew? The ship. I've never been somewhere this... I don't know what to call it. It's so empty."

"Yeah, I can tell you. My dad's told me countless stories about you guys, and now living with you guys, he wasn't wrong either." Janet smiles, handing Byron a plate. "We can discuss over food."

"That sounds quite nice." Byron nods. "And do tell me more about that, Lyf. I want to know about him and where he's from. I should know if we are together. I have to make an effort. I'm not even a doctor. I hope he won't mind that."

Janet chuckles. "Again, if only he could understand you, he would probably be embarrassed on how much that would turn him on. Just how you're acting."

"You flatter me, miss, but I can assure you confusion isn't that attractive. I'm not even confident in my own abilities compared to this older me." Byron rubs the back of his neck. "I'm good with machines, not people. My siblings would tease me mercilessly for this situation."

"That I can relate to." Janet chuckles.

.......

Lyf spots Marius finishing his meal. He sighs in relief. "See, that's all I wanted to do is talk to him."

"He seems perfectly fine speaking to Janet." Alex crossed their arms. "And.... fuck you two already finished fighting. I wanted to watch."

Thomas and Mae stick their middle fingers at them.

"Damn." Alex snaps.

Lyf sighs and ignores the conversation approaching the table with Marius and Janet. "May I sit?"

Janet translates and pauses as Marius answers. "Of course, but he wants to know if it's ok if I stay so I can translate for him."

"Oh yes, of course." Lyf smiles and pulls out a chair. "So I didn't excatly introduce myself properly, I'm Lyfrassir Edda, former first class inspector of asgard. I know you don't remember, but I wouldn't mind telling you how we met."

Janet translates wiggling her brows.

Marius's face lights up in a dark blush. He mutters something to Janet.

Janet snicker. "He doesn't know how he could have got someone like you to like him. He's very insistent that he is just a dumb engineer and pilot soldier. He's also very concerned that he has hurt you because he is poisonous."

Marius covers his face.

Lyf lights up with a rainbow static blush. "You have absolutely no right being shy! Fuck you look adorable."

Janet shakes her head. "I'm not going to translate that. However...." she begins to speak to Marius again.

Marius uncovers his face and nervously looks over at Lyf. He pauses and takes a breath before he begins to speak.

Janet nods. "Lyf, you seem like a fine man, but I can't be the man you knew me as because I'm not him, but if you like, we could try this for however long I'm here with you. Not that I know what I'm doing, but if you would have me, I wouldn't mind."

Lyf lights up again brighter. "Y-yes." He quickly nods and covers his face which does not help the glowing.

Marius quickly starts talking again.

Janet nods and reaches out. "Byron is very concerned that the glowing is hurting you, and he's sorry. He didn't mean to hurt you."

Lyf groans. "He needs to go back to the fucking man I know because I'm about to jump him across the table.... wait WAIT!"

Janet has an evil smirk and begins to tell Marius that Lyf wants to bend him over a table if he keeps being cute.

Marius's tail slices through the back of the metal chair he is sitting in. His face is all blush.

"You really are Jonny's kid." Lyf groans. "I don't need a fucking translator to know that you said something completely different."

Janet giggles, giving finger guns as she gets up. "Have fun."

[keikeu]

run2u :: park jongseong

19. apology

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this was the first time in a while that noel and jay had been so awkward in each other's presence. jay had asked the two of them to meet up and talk, somewhere close to noel's dorm since it was dark outside, but also somewhere private. the girl found a park nearby so they settled with that.

they both sat on a bench, the big tree behind them blocked most of the moonlight, but the lamppost was enough to make their surroundings clear. by now, the two of them would have been having a good conversation, making silly jokes, and laughing with each other. but instead, it was so quiet, noel felt she could hear her own heart beating with anticipation, waiting for him to say something. jay seemed hesitant though, so she broke the ice.

"so, what did you want to talk about?" her voice was a mumble as she turned to face jay. he let out a soft sigh before turning to her too.

"about us. and our relationship. fake relationship, i mean." he started. noel could hear the apprehension in his tone. jay hadn't been that anxious in a while. it was almost like his heart was going to explode. he wanted the ground to eat him up so he never had to face noel again, but that would be impossible. it was too late to turn back now so he pushed through with what little courage he had and continued.

"i... want to know how you're doing. the things they're saying aren't nice. i want to know how you feel." he said, placing his hand on hers. noel gave him a small smile. she was happy he cared and was going to hold back her tears a bit longer just to show him that she was strong. there was no denying that the comments had made her feel horrible, and jay knew that, but she could put on a brave act for slightly longer. it wouldn't matter in the end though, as she'd always break down to him.

"i'll be honest, they've hurt a lot." noel started, letting out a dry chuckle, "it's not fun seeing people turn on you, saying stuff like they expected this or that i look like someone who gets in other people's pants for popularity." jay frowned at her words. he felt his heart shatter. how could people be saying things like that about someone like noel? he didn't understand. she had constantly shown how kind and caring she was. how funny and hard-working and passionate she was. how could they say such horrible things to someone he loves so dearly?

"i'm so sorry." he said, pulling her hand in his. he felt guilty. he felt so guilty. if he hadn't been so impatient to announce a fake relationship with her, none of this would have happened. none of the comments or articles would be there.

"i'm sorry for being so eager to get into this and not considering what you wanted. i'm sorry for all the shitty things people have been saying. i'm sorry for not asking how you were doing sooner. i'm sorry for everything. i made a lot of mistakes. i acted selfishly and i feel very bad." the tears he was holding back were already falling once he had finished his apology. and noel couldn't help it, when she heard him blame himself, she started crying too.

"jay, please don't feel guilty for what's going on. it's not your fault, and i don't blame you." noel wrapped her arms around his torso, and he placed them on her waist. he rested his head on her shoulder as she gently rubbed his back. he didn't expect to cry. it came naturally. and now slowly he was returning to a more composed state after hearing her words. he felt relieved. he needed reassurance and when noel gave it to him, he felt calm.

"sure, you were very excited about the two of us fake dating, but still i don't blame you for anything." jay chuckled, pulling from the hug and wiping his tears. noel did the same, now giving him a small smile.

"so, do you want to end this? they said we could after a while and it's been a month." jay said, his hand still holding hers. she looked at their fingers intertwined with each other, then made eye contact with jay again.

"you know, i kinda enjoy this. besides the things people say, i mean. we have an excuse to text more and i like that." jay smiled, taking her words as a sign she wanted to do this for a bit longer. he knew it wasn't the real thing, but deep down he was still hanging on hope that one day, noel would reciprocate his feelings and they could be a real couple. for now, he was happy with what he had.

"i'll walk you home." he said, getting up from the bench. all the way to noel's dorm, they continued to hold hands. it was almost like a habit. to reach for each other's fingers, lightly brushing them and then finally connecting their palms. this time the silence they shared was comfortable. they were both happy with the outcome of their conversation and for once after a hectic month, they felt at ease in each other's company.

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a/n :: no more sadness from now on guys, i promise😊 and sorry for making noel so dense, girl has problems okay

©keikeu

[south-sea]

Gimme Aruna's love language. You can't just say "And if you really want to make my day ask about Aruna" in the tags of your nov 18th post and leave me hanging.

i had to go digging for it but anon is referring to an old ask game post

that tag was more of a general anything-goes for aruna asks but rolling up sleeves alright let's tackle arguably one of the most difficult (delighted)

it's tricky because as a mobian, this guy is ~15+ years out of context, and 13 of those years were spent under circumstances that left him empty and just trying to survive (again, but worse). even in a kinder setting now with a new community and support system, he doesn't really act out of love so much as habitual responsibility.

he cares for the settlement he's taken up residence in and the people in it, and certainly some of that care is more personal on an individual level than others, but he doesn't view it as "love". he does those things because that's just what you're supposed to do? it's the same as how he'd act in his capacity as black doom way back when with his hive, just with slightly more emotional distance. a lot of what he does is ultimately still self-serving.

he helps build up this settlement and the people in it not because he wants to see it specifically succeed, or see them thrive, but because he lives there. but he's also not doing it just because he lives there and wants a safe place to live/for the people to feel compelled to treat him well. and while that's definitely how it started--he had to learn new etiquette rules and such to fit in and be more generally likeable enough for them to accept him--he still lacks a certain emotional investment in them.

like, yeah, it's love in the most basic sense, but it's hard to articulate why it's also not? they're his people now, in a sense, and he knows he belongs there, and recognizes when they show him love, but for his part he's just operating normally. he can't just be a freeloader or treat them like he's their leader instead. that's not how things work here. and besides, he'd go crazy without anything to do anyway. so like i said; most of what he does is still self-serving at its core. he just balances that and acts in such a way that it benefits more than just himself.

he lacks empathy and is selfish, but not in a way that damages others--and ensuring he keeps that balance is deliberate for the sake of staying in people's good graces. it is the literal definition of manipulative, but he's not doing it out of malice (anymore). he just wants to raise his chance of survival. he has nothing to live for but himself and the memory of his people.

in the present, if you shove all of that aside, and squint really hard past his barrier of invulnerability and neutrality, he shows it to specific individuals the most in what he lets them get away with. he hates being touched. is not very gentle or soft or kind in how he speaks. but he can be patient, and affords people close to him (especially children) some of his learned softness. he lets these chosen people hold his hand (even if he doesn't understand why) or hug him for their own sake (even if he's not particularly keen on the idea) or talks them down from anxiety or an upset (even if he is so, so bad at empathy and lacks the type of experiences that would help him navigate delicate situations).

back when he was still just regular black doom with a hive is different, though. i should preface this with the fact i write the black arms, especially in the context of aruna's hive, very differently from canon; they were all individuals with their own culture, and the hivemind was more of a shared telepathy ability rather than ant-like.

he was not overly-affectionate or outwardly sentimental, but he loved them all dearly in his own way, and it showed in subtleties. he was their leader, yes but they were everything to him. he would forego meals if it meant feeding a youngling instead. wore rings of the fallen and cycled them out with the most recently-lost to honor their memory. allowed younglings to get a bit clingy even though he hated being touched even back then. helped raise a lot of them, mourned the loss of the adults with the culture-appropriate equivalent of funeral, never forgot a single one of them, kept their stories alive until he no longer could.

all he has left are scraps and a monument the present-day settlement helped build. but he respects the settlement and acknowledges himself as one of theirs enough to integrate some of their funeral rites with his own due to being unable to put what remains of his kind to rest in the way he normally would.

[crow-talks-hockey]

end of season opinionated rankings of nhl teams

so i'm now completely settled into being a fan, ofc there's still more to learn about all teams, but it's nearing the end of the season so i wanted to do this again for funsies and give explanations this time :3

colorado avalanche- my family team, overall i love them the most and i'm the most attached to them idk why necessarily

pittsburgh penguins- oh boy did this team grow on me, mostly because of my good friend @beagss , i've learned to love them very dearly but i also have no clue how it happened lol

carolina hurricanes- this team is just fun and generally good, i'd be okay if they didn't make it too far unlike with the pens or the avs but it's still great seeing them succeed cos i really like the team and j think they're super underrated

seattle kraken- my family's secondary team+ they have burky so i can't not like them, and their vibe is immaculate too. i also have grown to like many of their players such as matty or geekie or mccann

minnesota wild- i like their players and they have flower, which is nice to see him on a team i generally like. i don't like them when it comes to being division rivals with the avs, but out of all teams in our division i like them the most and can tolerate them cos they're cool

calgary flames- they have good vibes honestly, idk about most the players but they have naz now so i have a soft spot for them. they're chill with me i guess :)

edmonton oilers- this one's weird because they're a team i'd say i love to hate when it comes to playing them, but i also want them to succeed?? like, i like their players and mcdavid and drai deserve a cup at this point tbh. they seem alright, very middle of the road as far as how i feel about them because it tends to shift day to day for me.

vancouver canucks- some people i follow like them a lot and they seem pretty cool, i want them to do well. i also like their players and overall i feel like they deserve to be treated better lol, they really got to me after the horvat trade and the bruce situation.

new jersey devils- i love so many players on this team ngl. it's nice to see them doing well this season given their less than great past. also my good mutual @toothlessdudebros is a big fan, so how could i possibly hate them?

buffalo sabres- another team i just want to do well, especially with the players they have. another huge reason? josty. that's it. just jost lol. (miss you king)

toronto maple leafs- oh you guessed it. i want them to make it past the first round, i feel bad at this point. they have a great group of guys that i've come to like quite a lot. as much as i like to poke fun at leafs fans, it does have to suck and i know the feeling

ottawa senators- they have a bright future i think, i like brady tkachuk and a few other guys there so i'm rooting for them a bit.

tampa bay lightning- another team i love to hate. i like their players, but playing against them is the worsttttt and it makes me wish florida would sink into the ocean forever lmao. you have to respect the back to back runs thiugh, definitely what i've looked to as a hopeful avs fan. there's some things that really annoy me about them, but i'm more lenient to say i'm okay with them than not.

arizona coyotes- idk about y'all tbh, i am aware of your existence but like are you really there??? if ykwim. i had some guys i liked there but they all got traded lol. most mid team ever, also what on earth is that arena???

washington capitals- you guys have some players i like, especially in kuemper (miss you) so you're alright. idk about ovi, also the old pens vs caps rivalry has made me less than lenient to be alright with y'all' lol. still have a legend there tho, so i gotta respect it a little bit.

new york islanders- bad cos of the rivalry(?) with the pens, but i like barzal and now beau is there so it's alright. some people i follow like them, so they're just okay

florida panthers- matthew tkachuk. that's the reason i like you. and i guess barkov is ok too. but honestly who *really* likes florida anyway? bring my boy ratthew back to calgary. please.

winnipeg jets- morrissey is cool? also jesse from bardown likes you guys and he's cool so you're alright with me. other than that? not much to say lol

anaheim ducks- should have kept the purple and teal jerseys smh. bring them back. do it. i dare you. other than that there isn't much to say since they've just been bad lol. i like zegras tho :))

columbus blue jackets- who the hell places an nhl team in ohio? i always forget you exist i'm not gonna lie. i'd be okay if you guys got bedard i guess???

san jose sharks- why are there three californian teams, it's worse than florida lmao ':] karlsson is your only redeeming factor.

chicago blackhawks- i... don't like y'all? idk the vibe just isn't right. being bad also just doesn't help the situation of me not liking you, sorry blackhawks fans. the avs have the superior toews anyway.

detroit red wings- old avs rivalry instinct says not to like y'all. larkin is the one redeeming thing, but being located in detroit might as well cancel it out

montreal canadiens- i know lots of people sympathize with you but.. idk i can't. i like lots of the players but, the vibe is so meh that i can't really bring myself to care :/

la kings- again, why three californian teams??? doughty and fiala are alright, but in the end i think i'm still salty over some avs and pens and canes losses lol

new york rangers- your fanbase gives off the complete wrong vibes for a team that hasn't won a cup in a hot minute. i know there's some good rangers fans out there, but man the view i have is so skewed from seeing bad fans. please prove me wrong. i like some players tho, if that's anything :>

dallas stars- weird. goofy. but in a bad way? idk how to feel about you guys... but i don't get the best vibes, also the avs and stars are division rivals and that doesn't help it at all lol

nashville predators- playoff hatred leftover from last year+ the duchene betrayal and karma *reassuring thumbs up* :)

boston bruins- shared family dislike. how are y'all so good? criminal. terrifying. gotta respect it... but i simply don't wanna <333 if it's anything's, i hate you less than i did at the start of the season.

philadelphia flyers- pennsylvania rivalry=bad. also youre vibes are just so.... off. i also am not a john tortorella fan

saint louis blues- i could write an ESSAY on why i despise y'all. the fanbase vibes are all off and your only redeeming quality is in kyrou but that is way overshadowed by how much i hate b*nnington with a burning passion.

las vegas golden knights- tbh idk why i hate y'all so much, i just do. i simply loathe y'all. always have, probably always will. sorry but not sorry

[mncxbe]

First time meeting your parents₊✩‧₊˚౨ৎ˚₊✩‧₊

𝑫𝒂𝒛𝒂𝒊, 𝑪𝒉𝒖𝒖𝒚𝒂, 𝑨𝒌𝒖𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒘𝒂, 𝑭𝒚𝒐𝒅𝒐𝒓 𝒙 𝒇𝒆𝒎!𝒓𝒆𝒂𝒅𝒆𝒓

𝑨𝒖𝒕𝒉𝒐𝒓'𝒔 𝒏𝒐𝒕𝒆: some quick headcanons of what I think the bsd men would do when they meet your parents for the first time. it got a bit silly but I tried to keep it as in character as possible. enjoy♡

𝑫𝒂𝒛𝒂𝒊

he postpones meeting your parents for a looong time because he's scared they won't like him, but he eventually caves in. he knows he can't avoid the visit forever

he prefers meeting them at their place over dinner or brunch, in a more homey atmosphere

if he's anxious (trust me, he is) Dazai doesn't show it. he has no trouble charming your parents with his usual gentlemanly behaviour and jokes, although he has to physically refrain himself from making any comments and jokes about double suicide

Dazai only has good things to say about you so that helps make a good first impression. + he's such a sweet talker

"Dear Y/N is such a wonderful woman. It's clear that you raised her well– no, really, I'm serious. She's the most lovely person I've ever met"

he's quite evasive when it comes to discussing his job and past. he brushes off all questions by saying that his work at the Agency is top secret and his childhood was a✨️dark time✨️ that he doesn't want to talk about

but besides that all convos go super well. Dazai's a very smart person and he just knows how to talk to people

overall he makes a good first impression, but your parents are a bit weary of him since he's so secretive

-1 point cuz he starts lightly squeezing your thighs and touching you under the table just to see you squirm (this man is shameless)

𝑪𝒉𝒖𝒖𝒚𝒂

takes your parents to the fanciest restaurant in the city– his treat of course, around half a year after the two of you start dating

he does show he's a bit nervous but it's super cute

Chuuya, just like Dazai, is willing to talk about anything except his occupation and childhood. he may twist some stories from his past and make it sound like he had a normal family growing up but he feels bad about it after

he keeps getting phone calls from his colleagues so he constantly gets up and leaves the table, which spoils the mood a bit but it's nothing major

Chuuya is the definition of a gentleman so your parents love him. he also doesn't refrain from telling them how amazing you are and how happy you make him

after hearing so much about your relationship your parents naturally want to know if you're going to take things a step further and oh he's so flustered

"Well um... we haven't thought that far yet but maybe in the future if things go well... yes I'd be happy to make her my fiancé"

if your parents do give him the blessing in advance his heart melts. and it's so obvious how grateful he is

at the end of the night he drives your parents home. yes, he rents a fancy car just for that purpose– and thanks them for agreeing to meet him

i feel like Chuuya would be very moved by the whole interaction. it's only been the first time meeting your parents and they already welcomed him in your family. he never had that growing up, didn't have the luxury of sitting around a table with his parents and just chatting and eating dinner like that and it truly makes him soft. he wants it again

he can barely sleep that night– just lays awake in bed and watches you sleep, thinking of how lucky he is to have you. he realizes that maybe your parents are right, maybe he should propose to you. after all, he does love you oh so dearly and knows that you're the only one for him

𝑨𝒌𝒖𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒂𝒘𝒂

protect this man at all costs he's so anxious when he meets your family for the first time

right off the bat he doesn't make the best first impression– he's too tense and lowkey a bit mean. he's in foreign territory and he gets defensive

considering that he's been on TV before your parents know that he's part of the Port Mafia so they're also a bit awkward

neither of you know what to say or talk about at the beginning so Akutagawa excuses himself to make a phone call just to gather his thoughts. naturally, you go after him to reassure him that everything is fine but it doesn't really help

"I can't just relax, Y/N. They hate me, literally hate me. This was such a bad idea we shouldn't have done this."

"No, no Ryuu it's alright. They don't hate you they're just... weary of you. You knew it'd be like that but you just have to show them who you truly are" you encourage him, giving his hand a light squeeze "I know you can do this."

once you return to the table he composes himself and actually tries to chat with your parents. he's respectuful enough and when your parents warm up to him he fully relaxes

sweet boy rambles on about antiques and mentions Dazai at least once. other than that he doesn't talk much about his private life

overall 7/10 experience. bonus points cuz he helps your mom do the dishes and clean up the table

he needs a few days to process everything. for a while, Akutagawa truly believes that he fucked up the whole meeting and you were going to break up with him. ofc that's not the case but he's still overly anxious

needless to say the next time the four of you hang out he's much more relaxed and plans different conversation topics in advance so he can be prepared for anything

𝑭𝒚𝒐𝒅𝒐𝒓

he comes over at your parents' place too. he brings flowers to your mom and some "homemade" cookies (he bought them from a bakery then put them in another box) so you can have a little snack over a cup of tea

he compliments your mom so the first impression is great

"My, my, madam, now I understand how your lovely daughter turned out to be so beautiful. She has your eyes"

man plays mind games with your parents and speaks in riddles so he comes across as a bit of a pompous ass😔 his menacing aura doesn't really help much either but besides that he's super respectful

he really impresses your parents with his knowledge but they still find him a bit shady since he doesn't share anything about his occupation and upbringing

if they really insist with questions Fyodor straight up lies– and it's scary how nonchalant he is about it

after you all drink a cup of tea and eat something he plays cards or chess with your dad so they can have a 'man to man' talk

at the end of the visit your parents like him. Fyodor manages to paint a nice picture for himself and gets their approval– but it's mostly half thruths which naturally upsets you

so once you're back to your place and you confront him he just says it's for the best they don't know the whole truth. ofc that starts a little argument

"Myshka, please understand that I cannot divulge important information about what I do"

"I know and I'm not asking you to. I just don't want you to lie to my parents. You put me in a very uncomfortable position and now I have to keep lying from now on. It's not fair."

"That may be the case... but don't worry your pretty head over it. I'll take care of everything."

"Okay but then how do I know you haven't been lying to me too?"

"No, no, my dear. I would never lie to you"

[sunshineyuuji]

Surprising Facts

IkeVamp suitors with an s/o who randomly says interesting facts

Characters: Leonardo Da Vinci, Isaac Newton, Arthur Conan Doyle, Le Comte de Saint-Germain, Johann Georg Faust

Warnings: maybe ooc since I don't know their personalities well, bad English (?), some facts may be a little disturbing (Isaac's part), gn!reader/fem!reader.

Notes: hello~! It's great to write again! I hope you're all taking care. This is the first time I write anything that has to do with the Ikemen series, so I hope you like it (╥﹏╥). Also, this is a tiny bit too much inspired by things I say to my friends and family so enjoy this little random facts I know, te-hee~.

Leonardo Da Vinci

"Did you know that Samuel Morse, the creator of the telegraph and Morse code ran for mayor of New York, but was against Catholics and immigrants?"

"I beg your pardon?"

It's really fun to have them around, though he sometimes doesn't understand some of the facts they throw at him and asks them to explain.

He learns more about future events through their random facts than asking the other residents.

He gets caught off guard by some of the facts his s/o throws at him though.

"Nutmeg is a hallucinogen."

Sometimes tries to ask them things that he thinks may be difficult for them to know, but he always fails.

"Actually, Sudan has more pyramids than any other country in the world."

His s/o never fails to impress him and he loves that.

They’re just cute darlings full of knowledge! They’re pretty and smart!

Secretly wishes to surprise his s/o with something they don't know.

Perhaps his unconditional love for them.

"And did you know, tesoro, that I love you dearly?"

I'm sure they didn't know that one, did they?

Isaac Newton

"Did you know the human stomach can dissolve razor blades?"

"Y/N, please, PLEASE stop with the creepy information."

Look, he's glad they’re drenched in information, but WHY do they choose to tell him the creepy ones?

He knows some of the facts his s/o tells him, others are more modern so he asks them information about it.

But when it comes to the creepy ones...

"Acids can dissolve a body more completely than lye, liquefying even the bones and teeth."

"And why do you need this information?!"

Let's face it, it's a bit weird that they know that, but they’re full of information!

Although they always have one or two that make him smile.

"Did you know the world's longest marriage lasted 86 years?"

Isaac looked up at his s/o with intrigue.

"Why don't we break the record?" they smiled at him and laughed when they noticed his cheeks blush.

Arthur Conan Doyle

"There are four law books bound in human skin at the Harvard University Library."

"Bound in what?!"

It feels like a competition.

He wants to outsmart them in saying something they don't know, but never finds anything.

"Video cameras were invented in 1891."

"Mmm that was the movie camera called Kinetograph, but in 1888 Louis Le Prince invented a single-lens camera that created the first and oldest motion video in existence."

"Bloody hell, Y/N!"

Don't worry, there is one thing he can do that leaves them with no answer.

And that is at flirting.

"You may be a little know-it-all, but you're still my cute dove, aren't you?" he chuckles. "Oh yes, I always win in the game of seduction."

Always uses the little random facts they give him on books.

Like that one time when his s/o told him that hydrogen peroxide dissolves blood!

Comte de Saint-Germain

Let's be clear, this man knows quite a lot thanks to his time travels.

But that doesn't stop his s/o from saying a thing or two.

"It's interesting how people often paint you as a time traveler and an immortal being without knowing they're right. Isn't it ironic?"

Asks more about future events like wars that are soon to come or any type of information that calls his attention.

"In your time, which is the most famous book?"

"Currently the Bible. It's the most recognizable and famous book that has ever been published."

He always has this soft smile whenever they tell him anything out of the blue, either because of amusement or because he loves how they smile whenever they tell him any random fact.

It's adorable to say the least, and he will make sure to always make them feel proud of their knowledge.

"Ma chèrie is very smart and knowledgeable. I sure am a lucky man, aren't I?"

Johann Georg Faust

Let's be for real, he's a smart ass.

He knows quite a lot about alchemy and other stuff.

But what about modern stuff?

"You know, I wanted to watch the play that goes by your name. I read it though! Very tragic indeed."

"What are you talking about?"

Yeah, yeah, he’s smart and stuff.

Really cool.

But his face when they tell him something he doesn’t know?!

Priceless.

Even if he does know, he’s more surprised on the fact that his s/o knows that type of stuff.

For example:

“Did you know that injecting 35% hydrogen peroxide can cause inflammation of the blood vessels at the injection site? The oxygen bubbles that block flood flow and lead to gas embolisms, leading to the destruction of red blood cells.”

“May I know why you know this information?”

Secretly likes it. I mean after all, his s/o isn’t just some pretty face.

Doesn’t stop him from teasing you though.

“Your knowledge won’t help you get away from me now will it? Hm, thought so. Now come here before I make you regret it.”

Will make a quiz full of questions regarding history out of spite.

They pass flawlessly. (Yeah, just with random facts from the internet. Leave me alone, I did that once.)

“You are proficient with your little data. Well, I can't expect less from my partner.”

[vampdxllie]

IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT - Lee Heeseung

Finally wrote some angst hehe hope u enjoy !!!

WARNINGS: Some mature language (ig?), small makeout (?) TELL ME IF THERES MORE !!!

KEEP IN MIND English isn't my first language so sorry of there's any grammar or typo mistake <3

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Silence filled the room as we kept staring in each other's eyes. My eyes glistening in the moonlight as they started back at him with shock. How could I be so stupid. I ruined everything. Way to go Y/n...

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Lee Heeseung.

The one and only heartthrob between the ladies and my best friend since childhood. I'd watch him collect girls with only one look their way and then drop them as soon as he wasn't interested anymore. I wasn't a big fan of what he does but I couldn't do anything. Throughout the years, becoming closer and closer I couldn't just not devolop feelings for him.

It really was hard not to. I've always had a crush on Lee Heeseung. He was perfect in every way other than the fact that he was a player.

When his long-term girlfriend broke up with him, so sudden that he wasn't expecting it, nor was I, I was with him through his heartbreak. I was always there for him. I was actually so happy he broke up with her, yeah guilt ate me up but it hurt me seeing him with someone that wasn't me. From that night on our bond got bigger, and that's how I painfully watched Heeseung turn into a player.

And every time he felt like he needed someone, no matter the time or the place, with one call from him I would always be there and every time it happens I fall harder and harder to the point where it just hurts. It hurts so bad knowing after the night he would go back to whoring around with girls, not noticing that there's someone that loves him dearly next to him.

And now, here I am. In the middle of the night, in his room. He called, crying and I didn't waste a second getting my keys and driving to his place. I had a spare key so I got in easily and found him in his room, on his bed, with salty tears running down his beautiful futures. I also didn't think twice before rushing over to him and hugging him tight, holding him close as always. I sigh and hold back tears from falling.

"It's gonna be okay." I cupped his cheeks and looked him in the eyes. His bambi, red, swollen eyes sparking in the moonlight. His lips parted as he was catching his breath from all the crying. The urge to kiss him was building up in me but... was it worth the risk? I didn't want to risk anything with him. Our friendship, the bond between us, but it was hard fighting back. Eyes traveling to his lips and with a soft smile I leaned in, capturing his lips with mine.

After a while of him not kissing back he pulled me away as he stood up from the bed. Now tears were building up in my eyes as I also stood up after him. How stupid of me. There goes the person I love...

"Hee I'm so sorry, I-I don't know what go into me." The tears had already fell. His eye staring at me in shock, his tears were now dried but his eyes still glistening. The way he was looking at me I really thought this was the end of our friendship. He didn't say anything, just stared back at my crying self. Please say something please...

And as if he could hear the pleads in my mind, his soft voice spoken up.

"Don't do this Y/n... please." he said as he approached me. I shook my head as I looked down. "I can't Heeseung, I can't hide anymore. Do you know how much it hurts me?" I finally said. He sighed, still looking at me. "Y/n you can't." he says soflty. "Why Heeseung? Tell me. What do they have that I don't?" I ask, trying so hard to not let the tears get in the way of me speaking.

He titled his head at me and smiled. Lifting my chin up with his fingers, I once again stared into his eyes. "You have so much that they don't Y/n." his voice a whisper as he continued. "They're nothing compared to you love. Nothing." "Then why Heeseung...?" I wanted answers. I was desperate.

His tired eyes looking back at me while staying silent for a few moments. "I don't wanna risk it Y/n. Not with you. What if I fuck it up all? What if I'm not enough for you? You're too good for me darling and I can't ruin you." Now he was the one fighting tears back. I let out a small laugh, my cheeks still stained with my tears. "You could never. You're perfect no matter what and I can assure you," I grabbed his cheeks once again. "you could do nothing wrong. Just stop hurting me like this." What I meant with that was: I wanted him to stop being with a different girl everyday.

Nodding his head at me he bought me into a sudden kiss, catching me off guard as a gasp left my lips and onto his. I kissed back, of course, his lips were irrasistable. The kiss was slow and passionate and slowly turned into a makeout session as he guided us to his bed. Me laying on it as he was on top. His hands didn't leave my body and his lips were connected with mine. As our breath was getting shorter and shorter we pulled apart.

"It was all a distraction. I wanted to lose these feelings for you but it's so hard." he caresses my cheek softly. "You're hard to resist." Was the last thing said before his lips found their way on mine again and they won't be leaving anytime soon, that I'm sure of.

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