#they’re also really pretty what can I say?

[seasidefallenangel]

now say i'm the only one you need

ranking the bllk men on how good of a boyfriend they are ft. isagi yoichi, bachira meguru, chigiri hyoma, nagi seishiro, mikage reo, itoshi rin, itoshi sae, karasu tabito, otoya eita, yukimiya kenyu, michael kaiser, alexis ness

song from here listen to it to get a kiss from me

༄ isagi: 10/10

one third of the “perfect boyfriend trio.” he’s incredibly attentive of all your needs and overall is very good at balancing his soccer career with your relationship. dictionary definition of “walk him like a dog.” anything you say goes and he’s more than happy with things being that way. actually has a pretty high tolerance for whatever things you might put him through, he tends to be good at solving problems before they can spiral out of control. the most you’ll have to deal with is the fact he can be kind of on the more awkward and shy side of things, unsure how to really be in a relationship. he wasn’t really popular or well known at all before blue lock, so at most he had crushes that were one-sided. his friends joke and tease about how you’ve got him wrapped around your finger. he doesn’t even care that they’re right.

༄ bachira: 9/10

the thing with bachira is that you’re not gonna date him unless you’re okay with all of his quirks, so there’s really nothing “bad” or unexpected going into the relationship. at his worst he can be clingy and a smidge overbearing, but he’s terrified of you deciding you want something more, better than him. he’s very easy going because of this, and really won’t have any disagreements with whatever ideas strike you. you’re actually a rock in this life, and he feels safe confiding all the thoughts clawing at his mind when he’s being held in your arms. despite what people may think, he does have a calmer temperament to him - generally after practice or late at night. he’s a big cuddle bug and will most likely fall asleep on your stomach, clinging to you so you can’t leave him.

༄ chigiri: 5/10

rose-glasses off, chigiri kinda sucks. he’s very selfish without the whole egoist thing going on, and it’s confirmed in canon that a lot of people get turned off by his personality after being drawn in by his looks. he obviously has some interest in you if you’re dating, but that doesn’t mean his bad traits magically go away. his mindset is very “me before you.” if you’re arguing he’s going to bring up points for the sole purpose of hurting you because he has to be right. he has too much pride to admit when he's wrong but also to apologize for his actions. on the opposite side of that, though, is compliments and the like are easy for him to give you. he’s pretty open with his opinions so if he likes a certain thing about you he has no qualms with telling you as such. he would never deny you're dating and generally likes to show you off, wanting everyone to know he bagged an incredible person. he’s not the worst person to date, but it probably won’t be worth anything as a long term relationship.

༄ nagi: 6/10

nagi is my favorite character and that’s why i need to say this. he does have some merit for what it’s worth. he’s very physically affectionate and is also really easy to be around. i see him as being more open to compromise if you’re stern enough with him. he might complain a bit but he’s not that hard to convince. the biggest issue with him is that he just… doesn’t care. if he goes to a new cafe with you it’s cause you asked him, not because he wanted to. it’s not that he doesn’t love you, he just doesn’t process things like this in his brain. the concept of ‘doing things for your partner before they ask’ doesn’t click. he’s not a mind reader, so isn’t just being vocal about what you want the easiest? he doesn’t really expect much from you as a partner so easily grows confused at why you have these random demands and expectations from him when you know exactly how he is. it might not be a dealbreaker, but it does make you question if he’s ever actually enjoying his time with you.

༄ reo: 8/10

reo’s biggest issues are 1.) he's absurdly jealous and 2.) his money. the thing with his money is the fact he uses it almost as a deflector of sorts. if you have a genuine problem you need to sort out with him, he's giving you new jewelry, designer bags, dinners at michelin star restaurants instead of talking it out. he doesn’t want to give you the chance to bring up your displeasure in regards to something he’s done. it’s his default answer because it’s the only thing people have wanted from him. reo is actually very scared of conflict. he’s worried you’ll leave him at the first sign of him not being the picture perfect boyfriend that’s expected from him, which ties into the jealousy. if someone has a trait you admire, he’ll mold himself to fit that thing you seem to like.  he hates when you even acknowledge other people’s talents or attractive features  (save for nagi.) speaking of nagi, it’s played out but i do believe he’s the only person reo will share you with. if nagi wants to cuddle, kiss, act like your boyfriend, reo has no issue as long as he’s involved too. when you’re someone reo truly loves, he’ll let you do pretty much anything to him with no repercussions. it’s very easy to take advantage of him as long as you promise stay by his side.

༄ rin: 7/10

no matter how much he denies it, rin tries very hard to be sae. he wants to be the nonchalant boyfriend, never losing his cool and making it seem like you’re always running back for more. in truth, he couldn’t be more obvious about how badly he needs you. he has this sort of non-stop identity crisis going so he’s going to have this front of “fine with you, fine without you.” he wants you to think he doesn’t need you that bad because he’s worried you’ll see him as weak. the thing that makes it obvious is that when you’re threatening to leave because he’s just too hot and cold, he caves instantly. teeth gritted, he’ll ask what you want him to change, what kind of person should he be for you? after sae, he became so desperately starved for love that the second you started dating  he felt like he was suffocating, always needing your validation but unable to ask for it. similarly to reo, he’s easy to take advantage of if you insinuate that you’re unhappy with something currently in your relationship. be gentle because you can break him apart and he’ll always think it was his fault.

༄ sae: 9/10

i’m gonna go against the grain and say that sae is actually a great boyfriend because he wouldn’t bother getting into a relationship to begin with if he didnt think it’s worth his time. he’s an incredibly self assured person so he has no reason to be all wishy-washy with who he’s interested. sae’ll make it clear he wants to date you and obviously you’re reciprocating because duh, he’s sae itoshi. from the get go he’ll remind you that soccer is his career, his lifeblood, and while he loves you more, his priorities lay there. the fact he straight up admits it instead of letting it become a festering issue is exactly why he’s so good because neither of you will have wasted time in the relationship. he’s also easier to talk to than one might think. sae generally believes drawn out arguments are pointless  and wasting energy on them doesn’t help anyone, so any that you two have are squashed pretty quickly. affection comes pretty easily to him but he can be a little emotionally absent at his worst. it’s not really something that changes over time, but he has other methods of making sure you know he adores you. it’s very “what you see is what you get.” if you’re acquainted with him at all, there’s really no negative surprises or unexpected twists that put a damper on the romance between you both. if nothing else, he makes sure the whole world know exactly who you belong to, and it leaves you with no room to doubt he plans to keep you by his side forever.

༄ karasu: 10/10

one third of the “perfect boyfriend trio.” this is generally a shock to people who know the kind of company he keeps around but the thing is that karasu doesn’t approve of otoya’s behavior. he goes from insinuating otoya could be doing better things with his time than leading girls on to flat out telling him he’s pathetic for not holding down a relationship. most of the girls who have their hearts broken by otoya fall in love with karasu right after from how kindly he treats them and the way he apologizes for his friends nasty habits. karasu holds a lot of respect for you as a person since he’s attracted to people he can analyze and read into. a common bonding activity is just him asking your opinions on certain topics or how you’d approach a theoretical situation and he’ll sit back and listen, trying to dig into your mind. he’s also very self aware of his flaws and will admit he isn’t perfect but is always working to better himself (“his weakness is that he can't be nice to people he thinks are mediocre and knows he needs to fix that.”) it’s not like you’ll never have issues, but he always resolves them in a way that doesn’t add tension or doubt to your relationship. he’s also good with all 5 love languages and prefers to show them all to you, but if you have ones you prefer or dislike then he can easily adjust. he’s always listening to you, learning about you, wanting to be the best version of himself he can for you.

༄ otoya: 6/10

the glaring bone of contention with otoya is obvious to anyone who knows him - but not in the way you think. otoya can be a good boyfriend if he wants ; he knows what girls like, what makes them happy, how to keep them satisfied. he’s had enough practice for it to be second nature. once you're in a genuine relationship with him, he’s going to treat you pretty well. thing is - that’s exactly his problem. in the back of your head you know why he’s so good at this. you know you’re an idiot for thinking you can change him despite the fact you did. it’s just impossible to believe. every time he tries to reassure you that yes, you’re his only, he doesn’t want to go back to his old ways, you’re just staring at him thinking to yourself, ‘wonder how many times he’s used this line on someone.’ you’re just never going to have a sense of security with him because there’s always this lingering "what if" bouncing around. the worst part is that it’s not an unreasonable line of thought. mindless paranoia is one thing, but there’s so much proof against him that you’d be more humiliated for assuming he isn’t cheating on you - you can’t date a serial cheater and be really that mad or shocked if he does. you know what you signed up for accepting his confession, so your entire viewpoint is that it’s a matter of ‘when’ and not ‘if’. you can never ever say with full confidence he's 100% yours, even when he is.

༄ yukimiya: 10/10

one third of the “perfect boyfriend trio.” i know it’s like beating a dead horse since this is a commonly shared sentiment but he really is incredible. a big part of the reason why is actually the fact he’s emotionally mature. he’s in tune with how he feels and knows how to convey it respectfully but isn’t so set in his ways he can’t see what points you want to make if you were to disagree on something. something else is that he’s very good at reading your micro-behaviors and can fall in line pretty well with how you act without compromising his own personality (in comparison to how someone like bachira or alexis would.) if you tend to be on the shyer side, not really one to defend yourself, he has no issue stepping in and solving whatever problem is going on. on the flip if you are more outgoing and not scared to bite at people then he'll fall back, only intervening when he can sense things’ll get ugly if he doesn’t tug on your leash a little bit. something he particularly enjoys doing is picking up hobbies or skills that you enjoy or would appreciate. he’ll learn how to cook if you hate it or asks you to read your favorite books to him at night, wrapped in his arms while he presses a gentle kiss against your temple. 

༄ kaiser: 4/10 to 8/10 

the thing with kaiser is that he’s a really good boyfriend, but you have to go through hell to get to that point. he has so many walls and has all these little “tests” where he tries to catch you using him for his money, status, looks, etc. kaiser wants to convince himself that love obviously isn’t real ; look at his parents for god’s sake. so he’s always trying to plan some “gotcha” thing and catch you in the act. the issue is, he doesn’t. you’re really like this from the bottom of your heart and he can’t wrap his head around that fact. so he goes to the emotion he knows best - anger. he’s lashing out at you for lying to him, accusing you of all sorts of things because surely there’s no way this is real, that he has something fully his, someone who cherishes him and sees him for his best. this entire process isn’t a few months either - this is a good two or three years. he has a lot of built up trauma to navigate both on his own and with you. if you somehow have the conviction to get through this then he’ll be a really incredible guy to have around. he loves you so fiercely that he’d rather die than let the one good thing he’s been gifted to slip from his fingers, but everyone in your life is going to hate him by then and insist he hasn’t changed, feeling like you’re going to eventually be broken by him.

༄ alexis: ?/10

alexis is actually pretty similar to bachira, just more extreme. in any other context, his obsessions would be viewed as something of concern or distasteful but dating alexis means you already would know about it and in turn only get into a relationship if you were okay with it. it’s not as if his attachment to kaiser is a secret. if you’re going in with the “i can fix him” mentality then you’ve doomed yourself already. you have to already accept his quirks and such to really reach him in a way that matters. a relationship with him is this unending back and forth. you're actually not really going to be viewed as this untouchable deity because he's already yours. he doesn't have to prove his worth like with kaiser. the thing is that kaiser molded who he is now so kaiser is kind of his tie to humanity - without him, alexis doesn’t really have much keeping him tied to earth. don’t think you’re not important to him because and he’s going to insane lengths for you to accept his unhealthy outlets of showing his love and devotion to you. he feels so much more human with you because you’re giving him the attention that he has to beg kaiser for but without the requirements to earn it - you just love him naturally. he’s not trying to prove that he deserves your love, he’s trying to prove that he loves you just as much back but he doesn’t know how to do it normally. he doesn’t know how to offer himself to you in a way that isn’t self destructive. he’s stuck in this non-stop cycle of you trying to convince him he doesn’t need to like earn your love and him thinking that it’s you saying he’s not doing enough to to earn your love and thus he goes to more extremes. if you can handle it then he’s great for you, you’ll never question that he’s madly in love with you. but if you get overwhelmed then he grows more unstable, and you’re stuck trying to make him better while he makes himself worse to hopefully get you to finally praise him for shattering who he is.

[wbbpls]

Platonic Plus One

Chapter 11

Word count: 4300 another day of them hopelessly falling in love and being dumb about it. Only 2 more days before the wedding day...will they figure it out?

After getting massages, Azzi met up with the wedding party to finish planning the party tomorrow night. Then, the girls spent the rest of the day by the pool. The wedding is in three days, so they’re enjoying the calm while they can before going back to school. Azzi was floating on an inflatable, quietly enjoying herself—almost too quietly. As soon as Azzi started considering why it was quiet and where Paige might be, she was suddenly flipped over into the water. 

When she came back for air, she immediately recognized Paige’s laugh mixed with her brother's. 

“What the hell?!”

“Sorry, baby, we just had to. You looked too peaceful.”

“It was Paige’s idea!” Jon and Jose say in unison. 

“What?! Bro, it was deadass not my idea.” 

“Really, Paige?” Azzi gave her a stern look, trying not to crack a smile. 

“No, no, it was Tim’s idea! I swear on my knee.” Jose and Jon can’t stop laughing, and they can hear Tim cackling in the background. 

“It doesn’t matter who’s idea it was. You still did it. Plus, you got me all wet.” Azzi crosses her arms.

As soon as Paige smirked, Azzi realized the words had left her mouth. “Oh yeah, did I?”

Azzi starts blushing profusely. “You know that’s not what I meant.”

“You sure bout that, mama?” Paige puts her hands on Azzi’s waist, pulling her in. 

“Ew, dude, that’s my sister.” Jose splashes water at Paige, getting Azzi even more wet. 

“Okay, that’s it! I’m done here.” 

“Ugh, see what you did?” Paige splashes him back. 

“Nah, just go be your simp self, and she’ll be fine.” Paige rolled her eyes and went to the edge of the pool, watching Azzi walk and sit down on the lounge chair. 

“P, stop staring.” Paige put her head down on the palm of her hands, smiling back at Azzi. 

“Nah, I’m good.”

Azzi couldn’t stop herself from smiling at the flirting and attention she’d been receiving from Paige since their massage. “Alright, Paige, c’mon. Come join me.”

“Gladly, pretty girl.” Paige pushes off the side of the pull, showing off the muscles in her arm, then the tightening of her abs. Azzi couldn't look away even if she tried. As Paige stands up, she notices Azzi looking down her body and smirks. 

“Enjoying the view?”

“W-what, no! Ugh you’re so cocky.” 

“Mhm, sure.” 

Paige grabs a towel, half-dries off, and sits next to Azzi. 

“Paige, you’re getting me all wet again. And don’t be a smart ass.” Azzi throws another towel at her while Paige bends over laughing. 

When she catches her breath, she shrugs and says, “Hey, I guess I just have that effect on you.”

“Not another word, Bueckers.”

“Alright, alright.” 

Azzi picked up her book to continue reading. She got through one whole page before Paige started bothering her again. 

“Hey, Azzzzziiiiiii.”

“Yes, Paige?”

“Wanna do somethin’ fun tonight?”

“Hm, like what?”

“I don’t know. Maybe there’s an arcade or somethin’ nearby. I have felt lost without competition these past few days. I could really use beating you at something.”

“Okat first, rude. But also, that sounds fun, so fine.”

“Aye, that’s wassup.” Paige excitedly stands to gather their stuff and, sadly for Azzi, puts her clothes back on. 

“Yo, Jose and Jon! We goin’ to an arcade tonight. Wanna come so I can beat your asses?”

Azzi mutters under her breath, “Oh god, what did I just sign up for?”

“Nah, baby, it’s gonna be fun. Wanna invite some of the wedding party and make it a thing?”

“Sure, Paigey, I’ll text Jake, and he’ll probably get everything together,” Azzi replies softly, enjoying the term of endearment. 

“Bet.” 

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The girls, Azzi’s brothers, Jake and his girlfriend, and a few other people from the wedding party joined them at a local arcade. This isn’t typically Azzi’s scene, but Paige turns into a happy little kid at arcades, and who is she to deprive her of that?

“Oh, shit they got laser tag!” 

“I call dibs on shooting Paige and Azzi!” 

“Damn Jon, you were a lil too ready go there,” Paige says as she fills out her waiver. 

They all start to put on the vests as they listen to the instructions. Paige leaned over to whisper in Azzi’s ear, “Don’t worry, Princess, I’ll protect you.” 

It’s like Paige has been determined to get Azzi to blush this entire day, and each time Azzi gets flustered, it gives her more and more confidence. Might be time to humble her a little bit.

“Oh yeah? You gonna be my night in shining armour?” 

“As long as you’re my princess.” Okay, yeah, Paige won that one. 

The teams split up, starting on the respective sides of the room. Once the buzzer sounds, telling them to go, Paige screams at the top of her lungs “LETS FUCKIN GOOOOOOOO!”

It's moments like these that Azzi finds herself falling for Paige. Moments like this tell her that Paige isn’t just a best friend. Paige is sprinting, jumping, and rolling as she dodges and shoots everyone. Azzi will never tell her, but she’s surprisingly good at this. Azzi got both of her brothers out twice, so now they were on the hunt for her. They started to sneak up on Azzi, and then suddenly Paige dove in front of her, shooting both of her brothers and getting shot herself. Azzi runs to kneel down next to Paige.

“Paige! Are you okay? I can’t believe you just dove like that to stop them from shooting me. You could have gotten hurt!” 

“Anything for my princess.” 

Their eyes are locked in as everything around them fades away. Paige’s eyes dropped down to Azzi’s lips. “Do I get that true love’s kiss for saving you?”

“I think that can be arranged.”

Azzi closes the gap, softly kissing her. Paige moves her hand to go behind Azzi’s neck. Before either girl could deepen the kiss, their vests light up red, and they hear a loud beep. When they break apart, Jon and Jose are standing over them with evil smiles. 

“That’s what you get for bein’ a simp!” 

“That’s it. Y’all better run.” Paige books it towards them, and Azzi adds this moment to her list of reasons why it's so easy to be in love with Paige. Azzi froze, realizing the thought she had. She just admitted to herself that she’s in love with her best friend. And for the first time, that didn’t scare her. 

The lights turn back on, signaling the end of their game. Their team won by a landslide, thanks to Paige, giving her an ego boost no one needed. They all split up, playing games until Jose comes up to them.

“Guys, there’s basketball! Bet I can beat you both.”

Azzi laughs, “That’s actually comical. Let’s go beat these idiots.” The girls high-five and make their way over. 

Jose pushed Jon out of the way, “I call takin' down Paige. You can deal with Azzi.” 

“Bro, you know that’s not even equal.”

“I’m literally right here.” 

Azzi couldn't help but laugh at their banter and rub Paige’s back. Azzi grabs Paige’s chin, turning her head to kiss her. “You got this, baby.”

Now flustered, Paige scans her player card to start the game with a dopey smile on her face. She’s still smiling at Azzi and doesn’t even notice the timer started. 

“Distracted over there, Bueckers?” Jon laughs at her.

“Oh shit.” Paige focuses in and starts draining shots, catching up to Jose. In the last second, Paige lost by one point. 

“I BEAT PAIGE BUECKERS AT BASKETBALL!”

“What, no?! You cheated.”

“How did I cheat?”

“I was distracted when we started.”

“It’s not my fault you’re whipped for my sister.”

“Nah, rematch. Right now.” 

“Whatever, fine. Azzi, maybe you should leave so she can actually shoot.”

 “My girl ain’t no problem,” Paige winks as she wraps her arm around Azzi’s waist. “How about another kiss for good luck?”

Although caught off guard momentarily, Azzi got excited by the idea. “I don’t know...that last one wasn’t too helpful.” 

“And?”

Fair point. Azzi leans in to close the gap. As Paige went to move, thinking it would just be a peck, she grabbed her face and pulled her in for a longer kiss. 

“Now that’s lucky.”

“Can you guys stop making out so we can play, jeez.” Paige kisses Azzi’s temple and moves to scan her player card again. They both zone in, and without any distractions, Paige beats Jose by a landslide. When the buzzer goes off, Paige jumps up and down and then runs over to Azzi, picking her up and spinning her around. Giggles take over as Paige trash-talks Jose and leans against the table behind them after she puts Azzi down. 

“Okay, okay, Azzi, you’re up. Get ready to lose.” Jon says as he trades places with Jose. Paige leans against the table behind them after she puts Azzi down. 

“Real confident for someone who misses every other shot.” Azzi starts to walk over but then feels hands wrap around her wrist, pulling her in. She spun into Paige, settling between her legs. 

“Kiss for good luck, mama?”

Azzi beams and kisses Paige again. If you could even call it that, considering she can’t stop smiling. She pulls back and kisses Paige on the tip of her nose. “Thanks, cutie.”

Paige couldn't take her eyes off Azzi, mesmerized by her smile and confidence. She didn’t miss a single shot, and each one was all net. 

Standing next to Paige, Jose is smiling in disbelief. “Damn, that was—”

“Hot.” Something about hearing Paige so openly call her hot made her mouth go dry. 

“Dude, that’s still my sister.” 

Without taking her eyes off of Azzi, Paige responds, “The truth is the truth, Jose.”

“Okay, we can’t do this anymore. You guys are gross.” 

After a few more games, the group makes their way back to the property. Most of Azzi’s family is chatting in the lobby and drinking wine. The girls each pour a glass and join in. Azzi sits next to Katie, and Paige joins Tim on the other side of the room. 

“Hey, sweetie. How was the arcade?”

“Really good. We beat the hell out of Jon and Jose.”

“Real shocker there.” 

“Hey, Mom, can I, uh, talk to you about something?”

“Sure, wanna go for a walk?” 

“Yeah, that would be good.” 

Kaite and Azzi stood with wine glasses while walking around the large lobby. On their way out, Paige caught Azzi’s eye, offering her a smile as if to say, “I’m here.” 

“I really need to tell you something, and I don’t know how to, so now I’m just so confused.”

“Just say what you need to say, Azzi.”

“I’m in love with Paige.” 

“Okay...? I’m sorry, but what’s the problem here?”

“Paige and I aren’t actually together.” Katie looked at Azzi as if she had two heads. Azzi started babbling off an explanation as fast as she could, “I know, I know, I can explain. I just was so tired of the whole family constantly hounding me about my dating life and everything thought we were dating anyway so I went along with it, and now we’ve been pretending to be together all week, and nothing about it feels fake, and I don’t know what to do.” Azzi lets out a deep breath once she finishes explaining everything. 

“Wow, alright. That’s a lot to take in.”

“I’m really sorry for lying to you, Mom.”

“It’s okay, Az. Our family, especially your aunt, can be annoying, so I can’t even blame you. Look, I get all of this can be confusing, but honestly, I’ve been waiting years for you guys to finally get your act together and admit to being in love with each other.”

“Wait, really?”

Katie laughs at Azzi’s shock. “You guys have always just clicked. There’s something special there, so of course, once you guys cross that line, it opens up even more feelings.” 

“What if she doesn’t feel the same way and I ruin everything?”

“Azzi, I love you, but if you really think that girl isn’t head over heels for you, then you’re not as smart as I thought you were.”

“Gee, thanks, Mom.”

“You never noticed that any girl Paige started to date got jealous of the two of you, and the second they weren’t nice to you, she dumped them?”

“Okay, well, they objectively sucked.” 

“Fine, what about how many flowers and little gifts she buys you?”

“She’s a giver. She gives to everyone.” 

“Where are my flowers then?” 

“Ugh, if she really wanted this, she would have said so. She’s so much more experienced with this stuff than I am and always so confident. She would have made a move by now.” 

“Azzi, you and I both know that’s not true. You’re just using it to validate insecurities.” 

“Well, you don’t hold back, do you?”

“You’re everything to her, Azzi. What if she’s scared of ruining everything, too? You’re her constant. You’re what keeps her safe. You’re one of the only people she lets see her, really see her. Sure, Paige is all confidence, but how much of that is protection?”

“I guess I never thought of it that way. I know I’ve always seen her differently and Caroline has been on my ass about it since forever, but like, everyone saw this but us?”

“Dumb and in love, I guess.” Katie smiled at her daughter and pulled her in for a hug. 

“Thanks, Mom.”

“Of course, kiddo. Let’s get back to that crazy blonde. She’s probably hit her limit on time away from you.”

When they returned to the main area, Tim and Paige sang loudly as they poured another glass. 

“How long were we gone, and how many drinks have they had?”

“AZZIIIIIIIIIIII!”

Azzi giggles and walks up to Paige. “Hi, drunkie.”

“Hey, babygrl, I missed you.” Paige kissed the side of her head and pulled her onto her lap. 

“We’ve been together all day, P.”

“Okay, and? You didn’t miss me?” She says with a pout. Azzi’s heart melts, and she brushes her hair out of Paige’s face. 

“Yeah, I missed you.” 

“I had a lot of fun tonight.” 

“Me too, P.” Azzi traces her fingers down Paige’s arm and plays with the hair at the nape of Paige’s neck. The feeling of Azzi all over her sends Paige deep into the clouds. Maybe it wouldn’t be like this next week, but she would take advantage of it while she could. 

“Mm, that feels good, Az.” Seeing Paige’s eyes flutter closed as she relaxed into her made Azzi think about what her mom had said. They’ve always been each other’s safe space. Why should this be any different? Azzi leans in to kiss Paige. She very quickly kisses Azzi back. They’re still aware that Azzi’s whole family is around them, so they break apart and lean their foreheads on each other. 

“You’re really good at that.”

“You’re not so bad yourself, P.”

“Yeah, but I think I’m gonna need some more practice.” 

“Oh, yeah? That could be arranged.”

“It’s a date.”

“A date, huh?”

“How about dinner tomorrow night?”

“The dinner provided by my cousin?”

“Hey, it’s food.” Azzi rolled her eyes and went to stand up, teasing Paige, but she was quick to pull her back down. 

“Wait, I promise to buy you a legit dinner, just us, after the wedding, okay?”

“After the wedding?”

“Yeah, Az, after.”

“I’d like that.��� The girls smile at each other and then return to the conversations around them. Once Paige finished her fourth glass of wine, Azzi stood up, grabbed Paige’s wine glass, and pulled her by her hand. “Alright, I think that’s enough for you. Goodnight, everyone!”

“Hey, I was drinking that!”

Azzi ignored her and kept pulling her towards the elevator. Once she pressed the button, Paige wrapped around her from behind and whispered in her ear, “You coulda just said you wanted alone time, mama.”

The elevator doors opened, and Paige wouldn’t detach herself from the younger girl. Once the door closed, Paige started to give Azzi open-mouth kisses on her neck, causing Azzi's breath to hitch.

“You’re so fuckin pretty, Az”

“Mm, P.” 

Azzi turned around, connecting their lips, taking her time kissing Paige. Paige pushed her forward, letting Azzi’s back hit the wall. Their kiss becomes deeper as their breaths become heavier. Paige bit Azzi’s bottom lip and sucked, causing a loud moan to come out. Azzi grabbed Paige’s hips and quickly changed their positions, pushing Paige up against the wall. She immediately attached her lips to Paige’s neck.

“Fuck, that feels so good.”

Azzi kisses under her ear and whispers, “You like that?”

“So fuckin’ much.” Paige moans out breathlessly. 

“Mm, good to know,” Azzi says smugly. She goes back to kiss her neck, but then the elevator dings. The girls start laughing, and Paige grabs her hand. “Let’s go, beautiful.” 

There’s a thick tension between them as they walk down the hallway. While Azzi unlocks the door, Paige’s phone starts going off. Suddenly, Paige’s entire demeanor changed. 

Paige’s whole body tensed, seeing all the headlines about her. Will she be able to bring home a national championship? Does she really deserve to hold the #1 draft slot? The past month, the pressures of everything have been crashing down on her, crushing her underneath endless expectations. She’s been so good at pushing it all aside, but those glasses of wine certainly didn’t help. This past week, being with Azzi, she forgot about it all. She finally felt like a normal person again. 

“You okay, Paigey?”

Paige snapped out of her thoughts, remembering how much she enjoyed Azzi. 

“Y-yeah, for sure.”

Azzi looks at her phone, reading the same headlines Paige read. 

“Paige, you know all that stuff is just outside noise, right?”

“I mean, is it? They have a point. How can I be #1 pick with no natty? Like, even saying that out loud sounds crazy.”

“Because you’re amazing, Paige. You’ve earned that spot, with or without the championship.” 

“Yeah, whatever.”

“No, not whatever, P. C’mon, talk to me.” 

Paige knew she should just talk to Azzi about it all. But telling her how she’s felt makes it all too real. Azzi has been nothing but supportive to her; she doesn’t deserve to hear all of Paige’s ungrateful complaints. Paige starts to feel heavy in the silence between them, so she does the one thing that’s worked all week. She kisses Azzi. 

Azzi was caught off guard, but then kissed her back. She could not resist Paige, but she could feel the frustration, anger, and sadness in Paige’s kiss. She pulls back, “Paigey, talk to me.” 

Paige shakes her head no while focusing on Azzi’s lips with dilated dark blue eyes. She’s so tired of feeling like this, like she has no control over her life. She just wants to not feel like this for one minute. She pulled Azzi back in for a rough kiss, pouring any emotion she had left into the kiss. 

“Pai—”

“Azzi, it’s fine. I’m fine.” Paige pushed back, grabbing at the back of Azzi’s neck to kiss her again. Azzi has no idea what to do. She’d never seen this side of Paige before. If she doesn’t want to talk, she takes it out on exercise and finds her way back to Azzi by the end of the day. Azzi kisses her back because it’s evident that’s what Paige needs right now. But the voice in the back of her head knows this isn’t how it’s supposed to go.

Azzi pulls back harder this time, sternly saying her name, “Paige.”

“Please, Azzi baby, I need you right now.” Something about the vulnerability takes over the logical voices in Azzi’s head, and she kisses Paige back. Paige smiled under Azzi’s initiative and pushed her against the wall, kissing down her neck. She stops right under Azzi’s ear, biting and soothing the sting over with her tongue. 

“P-paige, fuck.” This just spurs Paige on, and she shoves her leg in between Azzi’s and starts grinding into her. 

“You’re so fuckin’ hot, mama.” Paige displayed her strength by picking Azzi up and walking her over to the bed. Azzi grips at her shoulders, taking in the feeling of Paige all over her. Their kisses turn sloppy as their tongues fight for dominance. This is all Azzi has wanted, but something feels wrong. When her back hits the bed, the voices warning her to stop this come front and center.

Azzi moves her lips off of Paige, which Paige takes as an opportunity to kiss her neck again. Paige is lost in her head, desperately trying to push back all her negative feelings. But any insecurity and doubt she’s ever had is fighting back full force. Azzi is the only thing she’s ever had that is good and pure. She needs all of Azzi. Paige starts to move her hand down to the top of Azzi’s jeans when Azzi’s brain finally catches up with her. 

“Paige, stop.”

Paige freezes, her dark blue eyes now looking so lost. “You don’t want this, do you?”

“W-what no, Paige, hold on.”

“Fuck, I’m so stupid,” Paige says with tears ready to fall at any moment and removes herself from Azzi, to sit at the edge of the bed. Of course the one thing Paige thought would always be good in her life, she fucked up too.

“Paige, stop, that’s not it I jus—” 

“Azzi, it’s fine. I messed up; no need for you to fix this, too. Just drop it.” Paige feels guilt more than anything now for putting Azzi in this position. She was so desperate to run from her feelings that now she was just hurting herself and her best friend in the process. 

“P...”

Azzi isn’t even sure what the right thing to say right now is. She wants to admit her feelings for Paige. Let her know that she’s all she wants, but there’s obviously something going on that she can’t understand. 

“I’m sorry for fucking this all up, Azzi,” Paige whispers and drops her head into her hands, resting on her knees. 

“Paige, you didn’t fuck anyhting up. Please, just listen to me, baby.”

Paige’s tense shoulders relaxed at the term of endearment as Azzi rubbed her back. Maybe she didn’t totally push her away.

“Look at me, P.” Paige hesitates but finally turns to look at Azzi, feeling some sense of relief and fear at the look in Azzi’s eyes. She’s not sure she can handle any more rejection. 

“Paige, please, just talk to me. You’ve been on and off reacting like this all month, overdoing workouts and spending all night in the gym. I want to be here for you, Paigey, but I can’t if you don’t let me in. 

Paige lets that sit, really sit. She knows Azzi is right and feels like she's ripping at the seams and trying to hold it all in. 

Azzi almost didn’t hear Paige respond with her tear-filled whisper, “I’m not good enough.”

“Oh, Paige, come here.” Azzi opened her arms, and her best friend fell into her, sobbing. “I wish you could see yourself like I do. You’re more than enough, P; you’re everything. People will always have something to say, and half the time, they’re not even right. You constantly have so much pressure on you, so please let me take it off you.”

Azzi lets the older girl sob in her arms. “Let it all out, baby, I’ve got you.” 

“I-I’m s-so scared to f-fail.” Paige grips onto Azzi’s shirt like it's her lifeline, desperately trying to catch her breath between her tears. 

“It’s okay to fail sometimes, Paige. It’s what makes you stronger. It’s what makes you the Paige we all fell in love with.” The Paige I fell in love with is on the tip of Azzi’s tongue. 

“I’m so scared of letting everyone down.” Paige finally looks up at her, with her beautiful bright blue eyes filled with tears streaming down her face. 

“I know, love, it’s a lot to hold onto by yourself. Let me hold onto it with you. If you let fear take over your life, you’ll find yourself at the bottom of a hole you dug yourself. We need to find your drive and passion again, and I promise you that the rest will come naturally. You’re never alone as long as I’m here.”

Paige lets her words settle, really taking them in before whispering, “Okay.”

“Okay,” Azzi says softly, cradling Paige’s face. Something about it felt like a promise. 

“C’mon, P, let’s get you to bed.”

The girls get in their PJs and slip under the covers. 

“Az?” Paige turned to face her best friend.

“Yeah?”

“Can you, uh, c-can you hold me?” This isn’t the confident Paige everyone is used to seeing. This is the Paige only Azzi has the privilege to see. 

“Of course, P.” Azzi opened her arms, and Paige immediately shuffled her way into Azzi, grabbing her shirt again for comfort. 

“I’m sorry, Az.”

“Don’t be. You’re always my best friend before anything. I’ll always be here for you.” Azzi squeezed her tighter, emphasizing her words. 

“Yeah, best friends.” Paige shoved her head further into Azzi���s neck, holding back more tears. Azzi runs her fingers through Paige’s hair and kisses her temple. 

“It’s gonna be okay, P.” 

Azzi isn’t sure who she's trying to reassure more, Paige or herself. 

[lily-sofii]

Hii! I am in love with your Raf nsfw alphabet. I can't imagine him being any other way cause you were so accurate. If you want, could you write a Caleb version? Thank you very much anyway byeee

Caleb NSFW alphabet

I am madly in love with you anon for this ask, we should get married fr

Warnings(?): I'm not the most familiar with his personality yet so it might be ooc, Caleb being weird and obsessive, slight mentions of drugging without your knowledge (just like canon lmao), the fanfic is just 𝔣𝔯𝔢𝔞𝔨𝔶, step-brother Caleb

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Caleb would rather die than to not treat you like a princess after sex. I mean, what kind of step-brother doesn’t want to take care of his sister? He does everything and anything you ask of him. Do you need a shower Pip-squeak? You got it. Want a snack or a drink? Caleb is on his way already! Wanna just fall asleep and stay in bed? Caleb will wash you down and cover you with the softest blankets. Don't worry about him, you're the only important one right now.

B = Body part (Their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Caleb's favorite body part of his is the one which you like the most. Do you like his hands? So does he! Do you like his abdomen? He does too!

(Although if you did force him to pick a part himself, he'd pick somewhere where you left a lasting mark on him. Like the bite wound on his hand from when you were both kids)

As for his favorite body part of yours?. He'd say everything, he doesn't need one favorite part when he can just love all of them. But truly? He's obsessed with your chest. Any time of the day he grabs your chest, his hands sneaking under your shirt and your bra. His brain is addicted to how soft your breasts are under his fingers, how your nipples harden under his touch.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum, basically)

Caleb will cum inside of you, no matter what. Everytime you two are in bed, he cums inside automatically, not even asking. The only way for you to get him to cum anywhere else is to push him off of you just as he's about to cum or to say that you'll forever hate him if he cums inside.

D = Dirty secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

When you were teenagers and both still lived under one roof, he'd always jerk off to the thought of you, his lovely step-sister. Now, of course his friends and he used to talk about pornography and porn stars all the time, but Caleb never understood it. He tried it, he really did! But nothing could compare to the thought of you being with him as he was jerking off. Did he feel disgusted? Absolutely, I mean, he's jerking off to his step-sister. But it felt the best.

A dirty secret from the present? He's obsessed with the idea of feeding you an aphrodisiac. I mean, he's given you pills before without your consent, why not try it more? Although it is worth noting that he hasn't done it yet, nor will he have the courage to do so in the next 6 months or more.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

Caleb knows what he’s doing because he knows you. He has no experience outside of you, because as cheesy as it sounds, he was saving himself for you and you only.

F = Favorite position (This goes without saying)

Caleb is okay with any position as long as you like it, although he does prefer positions where he can see your face. He enjoys seeing the pleasure on your face, the pleasure he’s giving you. Plus he also enjoys kissing you non-stop, leaving you out of breath.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Caleb is as serious as he can be in the moment. Sure, if anything embarrassing happens he’ll laugh at it, but otherwise he’s rather serious.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

I was gonna say that he only trims his hair, but in his design it is implied that he shaves, as seen here:

As for the hair itself? I’d say it’s slightly darker than the hair on his head and that it is thicker.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment? The romantic aspect)

Caleb is romantic with you 24/7, and it does not change when he’s intimate with you. If anything, it ten folds.

J = Jack off (Masturbation headcanon)

He'd jerk off almost every day when he was a teen, always thinking only about you. But upon becoming a fleet officer he didn't have time to do much. The only time he'd get to jerk off is when he had a free day (few days a month), and once again, his head would only be thinking about you no matter how hard he tried to think of anyone else.

As for the present? He jerks off anytime he gets needy and you’re not there. No matter where he is. Is he in a meeting and you text him? Well, he’s already hard and making his way to the bathroom to rub one out.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

Due to Caleb's profession, I think he'd have a thing for bondage, especially handcuffs, and he'd be into uniforms, along with marking, like bites and hickeys.

For handcuffs, he'd cuff you and never let you cuff him.

For the uniform, it wouldn't matter. Sure, he loves to wear the uniform and to act higher than you, but you wearing the uniform turns him on the same, if not more.

Also, I am convinced he'd try to make you levitate up to his face to eat you out with his Evol while jerking off.

And there’s a slight chance that he has Dacryphilia, but he won’t admit it.

L = Location (Favorite places to do the do)

I honestly think he’d want to do it anywhere if he was needy enough and if it was private enough. Most often he takes you in his home since it’s private and you barely leave anyways, but there have been times (far too many times) where he bent you over the control panel of the fleet’s airplane, or on a random wall in a public space where no one could see you two.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

YOU. Anything and everything about you is what gets him going, innocent or not. Oh, are you wearing his shirt? It's because you love him so much you wanna look like him, right?

N = No (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

I believe he’d try almost anything for you, as long as it gives you pleasure/turns you on. He just loves you so much that he’d do it even if it was odd to him,

Although a thing that he’d never do, is take you with anyone else. You’re his, just his. No one else can ever see you in the ways he does.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Caleb loves giving oral. Sure he enjoys it when you give him oral too, but he’s much happier giving you the pleasure.

As for his skill? Well, given the fact he has no experience before you, I’d say he’s definitely sloppy in the start. He does get better with time, noting how each of his movements make you louder or quieter.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

This mainly depends on Caleb’s mood. He’d rather enjoys slow and sensual sex, but if something happens when he’s at work, he’ll come home and fuck you until you are on the verge of passing out.

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Caleb most certainly prefers to take you in the confines of his home, taking his time with everything, but that isn’t too common due to his always-packed schedule. Thanks to him being a fleet officer who barely gets any time off, there are many times that quickies between you happened, much to his dismay.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)

Caleb isn’t the biggest risk taker, but he does take them sometimes. I mean, whenever he asks you for a joined ride in his airplane you end up bent over the control panel with Caleb fucking you from behind, your face pressed against the glass of the front winndow.

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for? How long do they last?)

Caleb feels like he has infinite stamina, being able to go all night long if not longer. Although, if you start feeling exhausted, too overstimulated or like you’re gonna pass out, he will stop for you.

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

When he was a teen he tried to DIY a fleshliight/pocket pussy, but failed horribly due to being terribly untalented in the crafts. So he just continued jerking off with his hand and until now that had stayed the same. Sure, he had the idea of buying a fleshlight, but he’s grown accustomed to simply using his hand.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

As much as Caleb loves to have soft and sensual sex with you, he also loves to tease you. And as much as he’d hate to admit, he finds it utterly hot when he makes you cry with his teasing.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

The first few times you were intimate, Caleb was rather quiet. Although after you asked him if he’s even receiving pleasure during intimacy, he let his voice go. Now most of the times when you have sex he whines and whimpers as he kisses you, moaning in your ear when the kisses break.

W = Wild card (A random headcanon for the character)

I think the step-sibling aspect of your relationship turns him on beyond belief. The forbidden aspect of it fueling his love (obsession) for you even more

X = X-ray (Let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Caleb is much bigger than average, and much thicker too. His cock has a curve to it with the tip being an angry red color.

And for the record, he knows more than well how to use it. Well, after the first few times at least.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Before you? It was honestly low (not counting when he was a teen) and he’d actively have to get himself horny but now? He’s horny almost 24\7 when he’s with you, when he thinks about you, or when you text him.

Z = Zzz (How quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

Caleb makes sure you're okay. He watches you as you fall asleep and if you can't? He's gonna get you a nice drink that assures you will sleep. After all, he doesn't want you to be tired tomorrow, does he?

It also is rather common for Caleb to not sleep much himself. He just loves watching you sleep. Sometimes he can spend the whole night just watching your chest rise as you breathe calmly. He'd love to watch you like this every night, but he is the fleet's commander after all, so there are bound to be distractions.

Idk @scarasdarling wanted to be tagged, there ya go bud

[icaruspendragon]

Take on snakes?

one time I was kayaking with some friends and we came around a bend that had a little beach. the bank held a few families with little kids. all of whom were having a grand time doing river beach in bumfuck, tennessee activities.

as we were out in nature, there happened to be a little snake guy swimming through the water, just minding his business doing river snake in bumfuck, tennessee things.

upon spotting the little snake guy, one of the adults calls the kids back to shore. not an unexpected move as there are several venomous snakes to watch out for in the south–namely copperheads, rattle snakes, and cottonmouths. cottonmouths are also referred to as water moccasins, a moniker earned as they are frequently found in/near bodies of water. most children in the south are taught which snakes to avoid pretty early on. and so understandably the snake warning makes the kids scared. my "brother" skylar was the closest to our slithery little guy. he calls out to the bank that the snake is harmless.

now. as a kid who grew up in bumfuck, alabama watching animal planet I love little creatures.

my childhood summers were spent exploring creeks and swamps looking for crawdads and little fishies and lizards and turtles and snakes and pollywogs and salamanders and frogs.

did this love for little creatures cause an inadvertent introduction of an invasive species? yes. but sometimes childhood curiosity causes whoopsie-doodles.

my love for little creatures never went away. I was curious, not afraid. and as fortune favors the bold, the snake swam my way. once the little creature was close enough, I gently lifted it from the water with my paddle so I could get a better look.

it looked like a snake.

my friend slid off and back into the water, swimming closer to me, under my kayak, then popping up on the other side. now that it was near enough, that childhood curiosity came back in full force. I did what I thought anyone in my situation would do.

I gave my snaky friend a couple of light strokes on the tail as he swam away.

once we were a ways around the bumfuck, tennessee river beach, skylar turns to me and furiously whisper-shouts, "why the fuck did you touch that thing?" confused by his ire I say, "because he’s a little guy? you said he was fine.”

he gives me a look that can only be described as incredulous before speaking again, "yeah dumbass. I was lying because I didn't want those kids to freak out. the adults knew what kind of snake it was."

brow furrowed, I demand, "then why the fuck didn’t you tell me not to touch it?"

that's when my husband, who previously hadn't been listening to our conversation asks, "wait? did you really touch it?"

I give him a Look. "of course I did, that shouldn't be surprising."

our party stops paddling, all eyes are now on me.

"you touching a snake isn't the issue. the issue is you touching a water moccasin."

it's my turn to be incredulous. "how the fuck was I supposed to know that? skylar said it was harmless, so of course I touched it!"

"all skylar does is lie to fuck around around with people, something you most definitely know."

skylar chimes in once more, "to be fair to myself, I thought she knew I was lying."

I did not.

but to answer your question my take on snakes is that i think they’re neat.

[nerdgirlbutinpink]

so i did say you guys would be feed some joaquin worries head canons while im writing part 2, so here they are!

ˏˋ°•*⁀➷ 𝗛𝗘𝗔𝗗𝗖𝗔𝗡𝗢𝗡𝗦 | 𝗷𝗼𝗮𝗾𝘂𝗶𝗻 𝘁𝗼𝗿𝗿𝗲𝘀 𝘅 𝗚𝗡!𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗱𝗲𝗿

𝗱𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗵𝗶𝗺 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝗹𝗶𝗸𝗲

↳ you guys meet at a coffee shop — hear me out though! the beginning scene from anyone but you, he fakes you being his wife so you can use the restroom

↳ but this one doesn’t end as you two bring mutals and being enemies, this is the happy ending of you two going on an actual date

↳ he’s actually really good at picking spots to go to for date nights, you two go to places you don’t even know exist

↳ for those nights you two stay in? oh my gosh, when you say that he’s the best cook ever? you mean it.

↳ he cooks you all kinds of mexican dishes, he makes enchiladas, tortas, tacos, sopes, mole and pozole

↳ enough with the food talk now

↳ he’s SUCHH a family man, you don’t even understand

↳ when he takes you to a family gathering, you’re so nervous and about to jump out the car

↳ “what if they don-“ “they’re going to like you babe, they like everyone!” in the conversation you both have in the car before getting off

↳ you two walk in and you swore his mom looked at you angry then a sense of joy came upon her seeing you were with her son

↳ joaquin’s mom? nah. that’s your best friend now! you two have been talking and texting nonstop since you met her

↳ even when it’s not about joaquin, you’re always asking her for cooking advice or even advice about joaquin

↳ “he’s been acting strange, he goes away when we’re not together, he never answers the phone when he’s gone, and hes a little too secretive about his second phone”

↳ besides him being a little odd when he’s away, he’s such a gentle man

↳ ever since you met him, he’s never let you open any door for yourself or anything, and he makes sure of it too

↳ when it’s that time of the month? gone or away, you’ll receive his own little care package he made himself of stuff he knows you like, down to the candy, a pair of socks, a heating pad and even a blanket sometimes

↳ you always swear you’re going to marry him

↳ he gets you a puppy for your guys’ anniversary

↳ he says it’s for when he’s on his oddly long periods of time …. and you bring that up too

↳ “joaquin?” you say with the cutest smile on your face, “yes y/n?” “where do you you even go in those times you just leave me alone?”

↳ that starts a pretty heated conversation, you get worried on if you two would break up but it ends in him admitting he’s the falcon

↳ honestly you didn’t see or believe it at first since you didn’t notice any similarities between the two

↳ then when he pointed out when you’d see the green suited man on the news … the same times he’d be gone

↳ everything had just made a bit more sense now

↳ honestly you couldn’t even be mad at him, because you’re boyfriend being a superhero? holy shart

↳ you soon forgive him to getting angry at the fact he would disappear, all was now okay knowing he was safe in these situations

↳ but then you hit him because he didn’t tell you sooner, “why would this be a secret!?” he explains he didn’t want you to worry

↳ you weren’t even mad at that part, you were just mad because that’s such a cool thing to hide

↳ “you make me seem lame, my super secret is that i eat all the nutella when you’re gone!” “so that’s where it goes…i know im not crazy”

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a/n: please lmk if this was any good T-T also i want to start a taglist but im not sure how to make the link, but once i find out ill make one for each character i write!

[dollwhite]

𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇

𝐌𝐚𝐝𝐞 𝐛𝐲 𝐃𝐨𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠

P.s all works made by me, will be under the tag ‘dollings work’

ALSO my new theme for my blog is Blood rose <3 my blog will be changed on the first. If u were wondering?

Ik this doesn’t scream blood rose buttt close enough!!

I imagine posison ivy is like 30-35

Something you didn’t expect was your close friend poison ivy to call you. You two were very close even with her being 34 and you being 24.

A ten year age difference didn’t seem like a lot, and in reality it wasn’t.

As you answered the call, it felt like something was wrong. It HAD to be ivy, I mean you don’t really have many “close” friends. And you and your family were close but you guys didn’t just call each other on a regular. Unless it’s an emergency like a death in the family.

Plus you come from a small town on like the other side of the world. Your home town basically doesn’t have internet.

“Hello?..” you say the words flowing softly out of your lips.

“[ reader ] heyyy.. you know how about a month age, I did that big favor for you? And u said ‘ Oh Ivy I owe you big time!’” Your friend Ivy said her words coming out a little bit slowed which was a bit weird as she’s a normally fast speaker.

“Hiah..” a little chuckle came from over the phone, you could tell the person was a woman and that she was maybe over a feet away from Ivy. That was also strange Ivy only had a hand full of friends that she could count on one hand.

Now Red Robin was back in the batcave, and he was getting scolded.. All because he decided to check up in that stranger, he gets it he really does but.

Being grounded from patrol, In a huge villain attack?? What is Bruce thinking? It’s obvious he needs all the help he can get. He already has Superman on standby, maybe he also has the justice league?

Who knows.. who knows.

Now time for Tim to get looking for some info on this new stranger. It’s clear she just moved to Gotham, maybe a few weeks back? But that doesn’t matter because he’s going to find out.

Everything.

“Just like the seedd, I don’t know where to go.” A beautiful woman’s voice echoed across the room.

Startling Harley, “now what in the heck was that!”

“That my dear Harley, was my friend.” Poison ivy said. “Now come on, we have to hurry” she added.

Grabbing Harley by her hand, leading her to the cafeteria exit.

“I——what about the guards?” Now don’t get Harley confused, she loved going by the flow.

But Ivy was more of a ‘think now, do later’ type of person. And also she has other friends??

Why didn’t Harley know about her, or-them. Hey! Harley doesn’t judge, if you wanna be called a guy.

But if you look like a girl, she’s going to call you a guy!

“Through dirt and shadow, I grow. Just like the seed”

As they both were passing through the exit, Harley took notice of this weird acting guard.

Matter of fact, all the guards in the cafeteria were acting weird, and the other inmates as well.

Like they’re under some sort of trance? But whatever it was, she didn’t care as long as she gets to lease to your voice she’s good!

……………………………………………………………………

Yeah yeah ik, i have been gone for like what? A month at least. And I can’t promise you guys that I’m going to be posting more often, because we’ll school has fucking kicked the shit out of me, and I had a very difficult situation with two of my close friends. So in all life has been shity to me, this is an old drift I never got around to post, and I’m pretty sure you guys can tell. Cuz it’s low-key trash, because when I made this I was like what half a month of getting into writing. Also I have been spending my time in the hotd fandom! (My favorite characters are the Hightower siblings!) and I might try and writ for hotd, because it’s just interesting to me yk?

But I’m here to say that…. Idk when I’m going to be able to get my ass to write something for you guys! And I hope that you all don’t mind that, I’m also going to try and finish my drifts. Also ao3 has got my heart at the moment(no because there’s so much love for Alicent Hightower there🤭)

See you guys maybe never again! But um y’all known what y’all were going to be getting into when you fucking followed me! And I haven’t been that interested in the batfam, so I might not continue any of my stories on them…..

[lottielee-altar]

THIS!! Liking the Melissa plot line doesn’t mean you can just brush these issues aside.

Personally, I think shauna and melissa’s story is interesting, but it’s not interesting enough for me not to be bothered by how they treat their poc characters. Considering how two out of three from their main poc characters (lottie and travis) have been pushed aside and the only other poc main character isn’t handled with the same care as the other white main characters, it’s just disappointing.

Adult Travis dying in season 1 without us even getting to know him is heartbreaking considering everything that has happened, but it can be just because certain decisions made for his teen counterpart was made after his death so they couldn’t really reverse it. This seems unlikely for such a well-planned show, though, but sure, let’s just say the character grew bigger than what they intended.

However, Adult Lottie dying when there was still so much ahead of her just for the other adult characters to have some conflict?? It really shows how carelessly they’re handling her character. I know that it’s also very possible that maybe we just don’t know what really happened yet and that’s why it’s not clicking into place, or maybe there are real life factors and limitations affecting how they’re handling the show, but is this really the only direction they could’ve gone with?? Adult Melissa showing up and causing ruckus amongst the other survivors could’ve been the main conflict of the season without them killing Lottie off, but it would be too evident that they also didn’t put much thought into handling Melissa (which is also disservice to the two amazing actresses who are giving their best despite what they’re given).

The way they’re treating Taissa is on a whole other level. Her dealing with being trapped in her own head and other Tai doing things to protect her would’ve been more interesting if they showed the two lives that she is living. The life that she built with her wife and their child, and the life that she couldn’t escape because it was too much for an 18 year old girl to face. They could still bring Van in because she is one of the main survivors after all, but Simone and Sammy disappearing completely?? Again, there are probably limitations to resources or whatever, but they’re pretty much completely off the narrative too. Shauna is dealing with her present family collapsing and Melissa coming back, but Tai can’t have the same treatment with her picture perfect family facing a hurdle this big and Van coming back into the picture??

While I do see some fans pointing these things out (majority are poc themselves, like I am), it feels a lot like it’s also brushed aside by the fandom after a few hours. It’s like we’re in a bubble acknowledging these issues and the fandom would agree only to not really talk about it beyond that, if that makes sense.

When other Yellowjackets fans, majority who are poc themselves, talk about how weird and frustrating it is that the writers introduced a random yte character and gave them a storyline when there were two (technically three but they killed off Lottie even when there was an opportunity for more) woc, who have been around since s1, that could've fit the mold instead (like Mari) and have actual personalities outside of building up/being the lapdog for another character. Or how often times many of the, limited, poc characters are often either treated poorly and killed off, or pushed to the side (Simone, reduced to the disposable black girlfriend trope and is nearly killed by her partner because she's in the way of a ship; Travis, since s1, had his trauma dismissed or ignored and was overly hated but no one talks about how he was SA'd by the girls he's now stuck with on top of having to eat his brother and not be able to grieve over it). How Taissa's whole storyline is just revolving around Van even with all the potential, especially given she's fighting to be free from her own mind, how Lottie's mental illness is treated so poorly as if it's not the butt of a joke then it's met with heavy criticism (and the only time she is met with sympathy for it, it's through the lens of a yte character embodying her and having an emotional conversation with her father). How you can have all of these reasons (and more) for being annoyed by Melissa's character or the direction of the show, and be met with #those fans downplaying these concerns, or just being overly antagonistic just because they find yte character #243 entertaining so obviously these conversations don't have merit. But this fandom has always had an...."interesting" way in which it discussed the poc characters on the show, so I'm not surprised.

[midnightswaltz]

a post from earlier made me want to share this

(It's not super long, but long enough I put some under the read more)

“So, I have a question.”

“Bell, you can just ask the question,” Rook said. “We don’t need a warning.”

“Right. Okay. Hiring a Crow is expensive.”

Neve snorted. “Depends on the Crow." Neve flashed a curious look to Rook. "How much did your Talon charge for your services?"

"More than you could afford," Rook replied. "But not Demon of Vyrantium money."

“So, they’re super expensive. Like stupid expensive.”

“Oh, yes. No doubt.”

“How are we paying for this again?”

“Well,” Rook said, “you remember Varric Tethras was a very famous author.”

“Of course.”

“As well as Viscount of Kirkwall for years.”

“Uh…” Oh, she didn’t know that.

“He was also a really good business man. And he, Harding, & I were getting a stipend from the Inquisitor, who may not have the power she once did, but her pockets are deeper than you’d think. And we lived under nose, pretty cheaply.”

“Right…so Varric could have afforded this person, but how’re we?”

Rook opened her mouth to explain that Varric had left her his accounts in his will. An iron force wrapped around her throat, cutting her off. His will? She tried to reach up to break whatever had a grip on her, but her hand remained limp at her side. Rook’s whole body rang like a bell. The ground under her vanished. No. Why was she worrying about his will? Because... there had been a letter from the Inquisitor about... A rushing noise invaded her ears traveling through her brain. The sharp lightning pain of a knife in her side. A knife in her hands. Blood on her hands. All she could smell was blood. Nononono. Varric?

“Rook?”

The pain evaporated. The stones were under her feet again. The sounds & smells of the market returned. Her voice was hers again. Her hands were clean. Right? At least tonight. Neve & Bellara were staring at her matching concern in their faces. “Hmmm?” Why was she worried about wills & blood? What…what had she been…? They had been walking she had been explaining… “Sorry, what was I saying?”

Bellara bit her lip, rocking on the tips of her feet. She opened her mouth a couple times before sighing & settling back down. “How we’re affording the rate for a super expensive assassin.”

“Right, Varric gave me access to his accounts ages ago. There’s more than enough in there.”

“That wouldn’t be…a problem?”

Rook laughed. “I doubt he’d care if I used it to buy out a brothel. So, long as we get the job done.”

[starlightwoofwoof]

Hello, I got one idea…that's about DW×MLB AU and Akuma!Astro…Well, recently I remembered that you like the idea about "collective dream by Akuma!Astro". That time lore wasn't decided and the reason would be work if it was "gameverse" but now we are fully stick on a "toonverse". But I have one idea. Also related to the guilt(lol)Imagine that after Daydream Lullaby(aka Akuma!Boxten) was defeated Astro would be…felt guilt about that. If he noticed that Boxten was having a nightmare, he could prevent it all. And that guilt pushes Astro enough to be akumatized(ironic isn't it?)I'm sorry if it was too confusing and every possible typo and incorrect using of words (English isn't my native language)

oh no no, it’s okay!! I get what you’re saying lol

anyway, here he is, I finally made a reference for him!!

Info :

Eternal Night has the power to cause everyone to go into a deep sleep, and he traps them in their dreams

Not sure if the incident with Boxten would be enough to cause his own akumatization but I mean, maybe idk- I mean, it probably has to do with at least something with his guilt and insecurities

Eternal only whispers when speaking, as to not wake anybody up (even though they probably wouldn’t be able to hear him anyway)

His non-star eye is usually closed, but I like to think it looks really cool when it’s open

You can usually find Eternal in his “dreamscape lair”, where he monitors everyone’s dreams and makes sure they’re happy in them

Eternal also usually just … cries to himself, holds someone’s dream in his hands and apologizes to them, even if he didn’t wrong them at all (also, again, they probably can’t hear him anyway-)

Eternal Night is apart of THE BIG GUY CLUB ‼️‼️‼️ (he’s pretty tall, I think he’s the tallest out of all the akumas so far, or at least one of the tallest ones)

His hat and body underneath his blanket is made out of this “galaxy dust” stuff

Yes, the star on his face is an eye-

He does have four arms, by the way! (I like the headcanon/theory lol so it’s canon in this AU)

I like to think Eternal is one of the akumas that has good intentions, but doesn’t go about it in the best way

alright I think that’s it- here’s some doodles, I could really only think of doing one where Eternal’s just really sad and uhh

that

oh ye random thing, I think I might want my next post about this AU to be some random fun facts about it, if I can think of any, so stay tuned!! :D

maybe you guys can leave me some questions that could lead to fun facts if I can’t think of any- idk-

I still need to catch up on my asks

[k1mbe3rly]

+ yeon si-eun nsfw alphabet too plsss

Yeon Si-eun NSFW alphabet

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

He doesn’t do much after sex since he’s also tired, maybe just a few head kisses and cuddles with you but definitely after he’s done sleeping or waiting for you to wake up he’ll clean you up since he’s already not tired that much

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

His favorite body part about you is just your body and face, he’s dating you because he truly likes you and has a huge interest in you, also deep down he’s super in love with you but doesn’t know how to explain it to you, he admires you from afar

His favorite body part are his hands, he likes how skilled he can be during fights and impresses himself sometime

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

He pulls out, or he just wears a condom and cums inside of it while still in you

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

he doesn’t have much of a dirty secret only that he would tell Suho about it

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

he’s not experienced, he was a virgin when he met you but once yall did it he slowly started knowing what to do and what makes you feel good

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

missionary, he likes to be face to face with you so he’s able to see every expression and is able to read what you like and don’t

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

no goofiness, he’s straight to the point and if you crack a joke he just stares at you and goes back to kissing your neck or whatever he was doing

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

he doesn’t really care about groomed but he does shave every now and then and doesn’t let it get too long

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

he doesn’t do much he just gives you kisses to let you know he loves it since he rarely shows emotion

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

he doesn’t jerk off and if he does it’s rare

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

he doesn’t have kinks just plain sex

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

The bed

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Nothing really gets him turned on maybe just dirty talking and seeing you play with yourself

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

anything to hurt you or anything that makes him uncomfortable

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

he loves to eat you out, it’s his favorite thing to do but he gets nervous to ask so he just does it in the middle of the moment

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He can go slow and fast, but usually he goes at a medium speed, when he’s mad he goes fast and rough

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

he will do quickies, just not a lot of them

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

he can take risk but he doesnt mind that much

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

he can last a long time, but usually he knows you get sensitive and overstimulated so he usually stops on the 4th round

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

no toys

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

He doesn’t tease

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

he’s quiet, he doesn’t make much noise and he usually holds them in

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He would force his bullies to watch or send them videos

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

A good big veiny 7 inches

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

Low, he doesn’t really have much thoughts about sex nor gets horny since he so focused on school

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards

Sieun is the type to not even fall asleep, he just watches you drift off and lays there next to you and waits for you to wake up

[mazzystar24]

Eddie "I'm straight, I'm single" desperately needs that Luke Danes moment can you see her his face

Like, really, single? No ties? No one you'd go home for? Who are you calling every day? Who do you let yourself be vulnerable with? Who would you die and kill for? Who helped you raise your kid for years and now is just sitting on the sidelines? Who do you miss? Hmm

Miss maam are you spying on me

I watched this episode literally this week and had the same thought

Like I shit you not ask Sarah and Louis I was going THROUGH it this week so I was watching Gilmore girls like crazy to power through

Like we were talking abt how storyline wise single parent meets person who makes their life better would be Luke as buck and lorelai as Eddie but no the personalities work so much better the other way around

I was also talking abt the ep where Rachel leaves and is like it’s lorelai (tho Tommy is no Rachel he is a Christopher haden and that’s an insult) then like the same ep or ep right after Rory runs to her grandparents when her and lorelai argue over max being back and then Emily is kinda a bitch to loralie over it being like oh she can stay in her room and lorelai is like no her room is here in stars hollow and I legit texted the gc being like Tim minear robbing two Gilmore girls eps in a row😔💔

Then there is also max and Luke’s lil like measuring contest where Luke shows up when max and her are abt to go on a date and then he’s like basically flexing how well he takes care of her and helps her - what should’ve happened in the boils scene frrrrr

Also to add to your Luke moments Eddie Diaz needs to experience:

- eight years

- not totally lukes side but do you remember Luke’s custody battle for April and how lorelai wrote that letter abt how she never felt like a single mother cos once Luke’s in your life he’s there for good? I NEED him to say something like that abt buck please pretty please I don’t care about the context

- Literally any of the general lukeness- Tbf they both do be dropping bangers that match well

- that fucking door way kiss lives in my head rent free and while I am a slut for couch scene or kitchen scene for first kiss buddie DO keep having really significant and recurring doorway scenes so if they wanna pull a Luke and lorelai first kiss I would not be opposed

- AHHH WAIT AS IM TYPING

fic where Eddie comes back a lil earlier than what I think they’re planning for the show or maybe even their timeline doesn’t really matter but basically he comes back he’s dropping his hints badly like Luke did like “wooing” Buck but not actually saying it and buck sorta knows the way lorelai sorta knows but they’re still in that awkward in between place THEN tommy comes back in Jason fashion so then buddie have the like and lorelai argument and first kiss

(Sarah hasn’t watched Gilmore girls so I can’t even force them to do it I’m so mad everyone boooo Sarah)

[yunsound]

C-drama Recommendations

I tend to like watching TV shows more than movies since I get more content to watch, so here we go!

Keep in mind the following dramas aren’t really made with the same limitations of being “understandable for a Western audience” as the movie rec list I made. Thus, some of these dramas may be utterly incomprehensible even with English subtitles. Watch at your own risk, I guess. 

This post is very long. I recommend you read the whole thing, but if you're too bored, to, I will give you right here the top 5 ranking I think you should watch these shows in.

Empresses in the Palace (Zhen Huan Zhuan), the Tale of Zhen Huan (available on YouTube with English subtitles)

Nirvana in Fire (available on YouTube with English subtitles)

The Bad Kids (available on YouTube with English subtitles)

Joy of Life (available on YouTube with English subtitles)

The Story of Minglan (available on YouTube with English subtitles)

All the other dramas on this list are also worth watching! You'll just have to read through my yapping. Sorry.

I WILL PREFACE BY SAYING.

In recent years, I have seen people recommending a drama called 如懿传, or Ruyi's Royal Love in the Palace.

DO NOT FUCKING WATCH THIS SHOW. IT IS SHIT.

If you liked it, I have no words. You do you, I guess. Just... why???

This isn't even just my opinion either. It's widely known across literally every Chinese social media site that this show is terrible. I have ZERO IDEA why people overseas recommend it. It's the "sequel" to Empresses in the Palace, Zhen Huan Zhuan (which is arguably the most iconic historic TV show in Chinese history) in that it tells the story of what happens after Empresses in the Palace, and the novel si written by the same author.

I will elaborate on why you shouldn't watch Ruyi in a different post, which I will link here once it's up.

Let's begin. Sorry for that rant.

甄嬛传 Empresses in the Palace (or The Tale of Zhen Huan), 2011

Starring Sun Li, Ada Choi and Chen Jianbing

This is widely-regarded as the most popular c-drama. It’s also my personal favourite c-drama, I’ve rewatched it ENDLESS times and I think I can recite the lines and mannerisms from memory. 

It’s a palace harem intrigue story, set in the late Qing Dynasty in the court of the Yongzheng Emperor. His harem of concubines (yes, Chinese emperors had harems) frequently fought and battled with each other for favour or political strength.

The titular character is named Zhen Huan, who is a young girl selected into the harem. She is beautiful, smart and looks very similar to the Emperor’s deceased first wife, Empress Chunyuan.

Zhen Huan (we affectionately call her Huanhuan) quickly rises through the ranks of the harem with her wits. She is politically and socially savvy- a true girlboss. Along the way, though, she encounters much opposition, from other jealous concubines (most notably Consort Hua, who is the haughty, beautiful and favoured younger sister of a grand general named Nian Gengyao). 

The reason why Empresses in the Palace is so good is because not only is Zhen Huan almost the perfect MC (she’s incredibly smart but she has practically no plot armour- her failings and success are entirely her own merit), but the other characters are all written very well. 

None of them are truly evil, per se, but despite their petty and often cruel actions, you want to sympathise with them even if they do bad things. 

Also, the set and costumes and props and actresses are all super pretty! 

Like, look at these costumes and accessories!

It's such a visually-stunning show, and Sun Li is so beautiful and likeable as Huanhuan.

The whole show is on YouTube with English subtitles. I don’t know how I feel about the English translations, but they’re not bad per se. 

Prior to watching, I’ll include a list of the rankings of people in the palace in case you get confused. From highest to lowest:

皇帝 Emperor = 太后 Dowager Empress (even the Emperor has to listen to her sometimes, even though the Emperor is technically higher ranked)

皇后 Empress

皇贵妃 Imperial Noble Consort

贵妃 Noble Consort

妃 Consort

嫔 Concubine

贵人 Noble One (or Noble Lady)

常在 Attendant

答应 Answerable 

官女子 Palace Lady

Being granted a title rather than using your surname (for example, Consort Butterfly is higher-ranked than Consort Smith) is a great honour.

GO WATCH THIS SHOW! It’s so good! The original novel is like, kind of shit. This is the only time the book has ever been worse than the adaptation. It’s very long (like, 70 episodes) but I swear it’s worth it!

琅琊榜 Nirvana in Fire, 2015

Starring Hu Ge and Liu Tao

It has been a LONG time since I’ve watched Nirvana in Fire and I’ve basically forgotten everything about it (I watched it when I was younger and was not paying attention). Regardless.

At its core, it’s a political thriller about the rise of an underdog politician in the warring states period. What makes this drama so good is the chemistry between Hu Ge (the main actor, playing Mei Changsu) and literally everybody else.

The plotting, the scheming, the subterfuge and espionage and battle and justice-pursuing epic machinations: I really liked this drama even if I’ve forgotten literally everything.

You can consider it a little bit like Game of Thrones? If not nearly as huge a mythological universe, the overall themes are somewhat similar. 

This show is just generally very popular even without me advertising it, but go watch it if you haven’t! 

知否知否应是绿肥红瘦 The Story of Minglan 2018

Starring Zhao Liying, Feng Shaofeng, Zhu Yilong

Okay, the translation for the title of this drama is really bad, but I suppose it is hard to translate it. 知否知否应是红肥绿瘦 is a very famous line from a Song dynasty poem (by a very famous female poet). Translated directly:

You know, you know? This should be green fat, red skinny.

The actual meaning: Did you know, did you know? This should be a time for green shrubs to blossom, and red flowers to wither. 

The main character, Minglan, is the daughter of a high-ranking government official and his concubine (ancient times, noblemen had multiple wives). Since she was not born of the primary wife (and thus is considered an inherently lesser person), Minglan is often mistreated. She is extremely clever and strong-willed, but learns to hide her smarts and personality behind a seemingly-weak and dim-witted mask. 

Minglan’s family all battle for their own self-interests. She has many siblings (there are lots of wives and concubines). As Minglan grows up and comes-of-age, she learns to subtly manipulate people, fend off her enemies and experience romance. 

Minglan, just like Zhen Huan, is smart and accomplished. She has her wits about her and isn’t blindly in love with anyone, nor does she tolerate people who try to hurt her. However, she’s kind and generous, not cruel, and isn’t annoying or loud. It’s just very satisfying to see her go about her life and live well for herself. 

隐秘的角落 The Bad Kids, 2020

Starring Rong Zishan, Shi Pengyuan and Wang Shengdi

The Bad Kids was released as part of a series of TV shows including The Long Night (the next one on this list). The main character, 15 year old Zhu Chaoyang, is the young son of divorced parents. His stepfather and half-sister Zhu Jingjing often do not treat him well, and although he excels academically, he has a cold and unfriendly personality.

Chaoyang’s primary school friend Yan Liang escaped from their orphanage with another little girl, Pupu (a nickname, I don’t remember her actual name). Chaoyang, Yan Liang and Pupu enjoy their time together playing and goofing off and doing slightly-illegal activities (nothing bad! Pupu and Yan Liang are technically missing runaway children, so they’re being pursued by well-meaning police officers trying to return them to the orphanage, and Chaoyang is letting them stay unlawfully at his house without letting his mom know). 

One day, while playing in a park across from a mountain, they take a video of themselves singing a popular children’s song. Later, they realise the video contains evidence of a murder.

The murderer is a teacher whose wife wants a divorce, his name is Dongsheng. Dongsheng is a terrifying character. He seems so normal (he’s even quite handsome) but everything he does is just… subtly off. He feels so wrong even though there’s nothing outwardly out of place. 

The three kids are terrified at the news and want to turn the video over to the police, but they realise that means Yan Liang and Pupu would be sent back to the orphanage. 

Dongsheng and the kids engage in a game of desperate cat and mouse to get the video, get money, and get an alibi in place. However, as the story goes on, you can’t truly like or hate any of the characters. The plot is written very well. 

Chaoyuan, who seems like an innocent kid, reveals he has some darkness in him as well. Dongsheng, who is a coldblooded murderer, develops an attachment to the kids and begins to bond with them. 

The entire drama is incredibly tense. The three child actors do a terrific job. Literally every actor does a terrific job. Not only is the plot well-done, the acting and pacing is great too. A very good drama!

沉默的真相 The Long Night, 2020

Starring Bai Yu, Liao Fan

This is the other drama that went viral in 2020 with The Bad Kids- it’s part of the same universe.

Yan Liang, now grown-up and a detective, investigates a mysterious murder case.

The killer was caught by police when trying to get past subway security with a suspicious suitcase- it’s revealed the suitcase included a dead body. He confesses to the crime and pleads guilty, but on the day of the highly-publicized trial, he reveals that he has a perfect alibi for when the murder occured.

The victim was once a prosecutor who dedicated his entire life to solving a particular crime. He was sentenced to two years in prison for corruption and bribery. As the story progresses, you begin to wonder who exactly is a murderer, and who exactly is the detective. Who is the victim? Was it the person who died? Was it the person who killed them?

Regardless, the entire drama is incredibly tense. Your brain has to work overtime to keep up with their deductions, but it’s done brilliantly where you want to know and figure out what’s happening with them, instead of getting bored or confused. Every new discovery opens the web of conspiracies up!

In the end, the entire murder case seems like an incredibly long play. You’re left not knowing if any of it was worth it, or if you (and the characters) have wasted away your time, youth and energy on something that was always inevitably a tragedy. The epitome of doomed by the narrative. 

This is a very good show. All I can say is, don’t watch it if you want to be in a good mood, but it’s thrilling and gripping and very well-done. 

长安十二时辰 The Longest Day in Chang’an, 2019

Starring Jackson Yee, Lei Jiayin

A former army soldier is given 24 hours (or twelve shichen, hence the Chinese name of the show, Twelve Shichen in Chang’an) to uncover and dissolve a terrorist plot against the capital of the empire, Chang’an. If he manages to solve the problem within 24 hours, he will be released from prison (he killed important people) and if he does not, he gets executed. 

The terrorist plot is to take place during the Lantern Festival (not CNY, but similar) which is the biggest holiday. As such, the stakes are pretty high.

I never finished this drama, it’s pretty long. I remember the plot being pretty good, though the costuming and some of the action wasn’t amazing. Jackson Yee is a great actor, though! 

Again, this is a very tense thriller show. My main complaint is that it’s too long and not fast-paced enough. If you can watch it to the end, I think you’ll like it- I certainly enjoyed it well enough.

庆余年 Joy of Life, 2019

Starring Zhang Ruoyun, Li Qin, Chen Daoming

Based on a popular novel, a transmigrator from the 21st century is born as Fan Xian in ancient China in the fictional Qing (a different Qing than the other Qing Dynasty, this one is 庆, but there is a 清, which is the Manchu Dynasty and the one in Empresses in the Palace) Dynasty. 

He is raised as the bastard son of the assistant minister of finance, Fan Jian. Fan Xian’s mother, Ye Qingmei, was a genius inventor who created the Inner Department (a treasury of production of surprisingly-modern goods like soap, etc) and the Overwatch Bureau, basically the CIA. 

After Fan Xian experiences an assassination attempt, he heads from the rural manor he was raised in to the capital to find out who tried to kill him. 

While he is originally a carefree person who thinks himself unimportant, Fan Xian eventually finds himself involved in many conspiracies and political battles for power, particularly between the princes of the empire, who vie for ultimate control and to one day succeed the throne. He also discovers some choice facts about himself and his mother. 

Fan Xian is an excellent main character. He’s humorous and light-hearted, but also very smart, righteous and kind. The story involves many conspiracies and plots, and you never know just what anyone is planning. 

The seemingly-lackadaisical Qing Emperor is also a very charming character. He’s a complete bastard, is what I’ll say, a bit of an asshole, but not in the I-do-bad-things-way. He just fucks with you. A gremlin. 

He does do bad things, though, and is pretty ruthless, but he’s an emperor, so…

If by the end you also fall in love with the Second Prince, consider yourself part of the club, everyone loves him even if he's a bitch.

鬼吹灯之精绝古城 Candle in the Tomb: The Lost City of Jingjue, 2016

Starring Jin Dong, Chen Qiao’en, Zhao Da

An adaptation of an incredibly popular series of tomb-raiding novels (like Lara Croft), Candle in the Tomb tells the story of Hu Bayi, a former soldier from a line of tomb raiders. He and his friend Wang Kaixuan (nicknamed Chubby) are hired by the mysterious wealthy Chinese-American daughter of a dead Wall Street businessman Shirley Yang to go on an expedition to find the mythical ancient lost city of Jingjue.

Hu Bayi and Chubby, secretly tomb raiders, want to find some treasures and sell them on the black market, but their expedition team is full of government archaeologists.

The city of Jingjue is said to be in the Taklamakan Desert in Xinjiang. They first stop at the icy Kunlun Mountain Range to try and retrieve a notebook from an archaeological team that is said to have already gone there, but seemingly died on the way.

Along the way, they encounter multiple dangers and ancient treasures, and the lost city of Jingjue becomes even more mysterious. As the team faces many perils first in the icy mountain range then in the harsh desert, they finally make it to the lost city, only to encounter a place so mysterious they wonder if they are hallucinating.

Jingjue City is so strange that by the end you don’t even know if they were truly there or if the whole thing was almost like a dream. If it was a dream, then when did they begin dreaming? 

This show is pretty good! My family really likes Candle in the Tomb, so we’ve watched all the adaptations, but the Lost City of Jingjue is still my favourite. The acting is good and the characters are charismatic and likeable. Chubby is annoying, brash and is prone to having offensive biases, but he's good at heart even if you don’t like him. 

繁花 Blossoms Shanghai, 2023

Starring Hu Ge, Ma Yili, Tang Yan, Xin Zhilei

I will start by saying Blossoms Shanghai is not… a show that I would think is understandable to a wider audience. It was filmed entirely in Shanghainese. It is very heavily steeped in Shanghainese culture (very distinct) and Shanghainese nostalgia, so even other Chinese people don’t get it. My mom loved it and I liked it as well, but we are both Shanghainese, so even if you’re Chinese you might not understand most of the references it makes.

Still, it’s very good.

It takes place in the 1990s in Shanghai, an era of unprecedented economic growth. People could get insanely rich overnight, but also lose everything just as quickly. Exports and stocks were beginning to grow in the Chinese market, and the main character, A-Bao, rises from a nobody to the wealthy and respected Mr. Bao (宝总- literally, Boss Bao. “Boss” or 总 zong is added to the end of a businessman/businesswoman’s name to signify their rank) through both his wit and the mentorship of the elderly and mysterious Uncle Grandfather (I know the name is a little weird- you can refer to him as Uncle Ye). 

Mr. Bao deals in both stock trading and exports. In that era in Shanghai, most business deals were conducted over a fancy dinner in a restaurant on one road in particular, Huanghe Road (Yellow River Road). As such, the owners of restaurants on Huanghe Road were considered middlemen and business brokers as well. 

Mr. Bao’s companions include his old friend, the hot-tempered but pragmatic Ling Zi, who manages a small restaurant owned by Mr. Bao called Tokyo by Night (she studied in Tokyo), as well as Miss Wang, a respected exports broker at the official government exports office. (Back then, in order to deal in exports, you needed a government official to make the deal for you and ensure you weren’t doing anything shady- this is no longer the case)

Mr. Bao’s business faces ups and downs, but he is always able to navigate the market with ease due to his smarts and Uncle Ye’s guidance, as well as the assistance of Miss Wang. However, a new restaurant opens on Huanghe Road, owned by a mysterious woman named Li Li- her intentions, origins and business practices are unknown. 

The plot centers around Mr. Bao’s various business practices, which sounds boring but is really quite exciting. Business is shady and high-stakes, so it’s almost like an espionage film. Every character is very well-written and true to life. 

With that, I conclude my c-drama rec list. Obviously there's more shows I like, but these are my personal favourites. I know there are much more shows that are MUCH MORE popular (honestly I think Empresses in the Palace and Nirvana in Fire are the only ones on this list I would deem "top five best/most popular shows".

[cartoonguy08]

helmet party

I ship it 🤙🤙 pretty cute actually, I don’t draw it much but I got my two cents

What made you ship it?

Honestly just a ton of fanart! Anytime I see them on Tumblr they’re so wholesome??? I also just love the idea they may be one of two things: They balance each other out in terms of personality or they just make each other worse (in the best way possible) 💀🙏 Engineer is INSANE but just really good at hiding it and Soldier is also INSANE but probably doesn’t know he’s being batshit crazy half the time. Either Engie calms that bit of craziness down in Soldier or he makes it 10x more batshit by ALSO being crazy with him (just being more subtle about it). The chaos these two can create guys…..I love it lol

What are your fav things about the ship?

The differences between RED and BLU are possibly there. Because I kinda differentiate BLU Engie (a little more caring) with RED Engie (oh he’s a super villain in the making he just hasn’t shown us yet 💀) there’s gonna be some difference in how the ship is portrayed with Soldier. So let’s say if it was RED Soldier and RED Engie, things will be INSANE. If it was RED Soldier and BLU Engie? A little more fluffy. And as a guy who can’t get enough of mushy lovey dovey ships (it is my bias) I’m a SUCKER for when I see it with RED Soldier and BLU Engie, or just BLU Soldier and BLU Engie. Please guys I’m on my knees make them sweet I love to see it I NEED TO SEE IT- (I need to draw this more actually)

Is there an unpopular opinion about your ship?

I mean there’s not much except for how I’d like to see the differences between RED Engie and BLU Engie with how it’s portrayed. But that’s just a personal opinion I think, I got nothing controversial :]

[maxthejew123]

When you say play together are you talking couch coop or online multiplayer. What type of games do the two of you enjoy playing? One I’ve heard really positive things about is, “it takes two” i think I can do both couch coop and online, civilization 6 is another banger that does both, especially if you have it with all the dlc you can put hundreds of hours in it together. If you want some online coop games, hell let loose and helldivers 2 are also both pretty solid games with fun combat. Minecraft and terraria are also options, same with gauntlet and broforce. I’ll also second the kingdom heart games they’re pretty fun and enjoyable generally. If you’re wanting to play some single player games and switch off on deaths, levels, or something like that the uncharted games are an absolute blast and reminiscent of old Indiana jones and dime novels. Armored core 6 is great. The ps5 has backwards compatibility with the ps4 so the library is decent enough you should be able to find quite a few fun games yall would enjoy together.

Fellas I need help. My girl got me a PS5 and she wants to know what games to get me for it.

I don't know fuck about dick on the Cinco de PlayStation tho.

No Man's Sky is already downloaded, she got it so we can play together, she has a PS4. So anything we can play together is good.

[mistyaquaart-oocmustafa]

I used to not get reader fic but, the idea of the (core 4) Judgment Day coming to my My Little Pony themed birthday party in costume and making me feel loved and appreciated - caring about my interests - actually sounds wonderful, thanks 🥲

If you’re wondering:

Rhea - Nightmare Moon

Damian - Tirek

Finn Balor - Discord

Dominik - Sombra

[laurrelise]

why have i never seen the painting up close before. this is like seeing an ancient artifact you’ve only heard murmurs about