#they would have fun in the activities weve had

[takethebodymarc]

forever wanting to make the server fun for all the creators that havent logged in🤧🤧🤧

[itsalwaysdark]

thank GODDD the doctor is taking time to work on himself maybe now he can stop ruining womens lives .

[lilysaus]

im back with another gravity falls headcanon

so, im sure weve all noticed how dipper, mabel, and practically every kid in gravity falls has four fingers instead of five, right? but the adults all have five (excluding ford, he is an outlier and should not be counted /ref) and we all just brushed it off and assumed that it was just a simple stylistic choice, that its a normal thing to see, you know, all that jazz. its common in cartoons for animators to give young people one less finger. their hands are smaller, so it makes it easier to animate.

but what if thats not the whole story here? i mean, this is gravity falls, where even the tiniest details, such as the windows on a mansion in the distance that you had to KNOW IT WAS THERE or be LOOKING FOR IT to notice it.

my theory is, after ford and fidds activated the portal for the first time, something weird happened to gravity falls. kids started being born with four fingers instead five. this being gravity falls, where the people are stupid/crazy/irrational/all of the above, people just started telling their kids, and each other, that this was normal! there is nothing strange about this!

and then one day, on some kids eighteen birthday, he wakes up and has FIVE fingers instead of FOUR. to keep him from panicking, his parents say this is normal too. they tell him that "youre supposed to get your missing fingers when you become an adult! i mean, look at us! we have five fingers, right? well, now you do to!"

and thats what they all start telling their kids.

now, here come dipper and mabel. "but op! they werent born in gravity falls! why do they have four fingers?" ill tell you why: birth defects. not only does dipper have that birthmark, but he also has only four fingers on each hand. thats why they were constantly ridiculed when they were younger, always singled out as the "weird twins". because they were different.

and then one day, stan gets a call from their parents saying that theyre gonna spend the summer with him. they say "oh, and, stan? theyve got that birth defect, remember? please dont make fun of them for it. and defend them when kids start bullying them. theyre self conscious about it." and he just kinda laughs to himself, cause all the kids in gravity falls have this same situation, so they arent gonna be made fun of! and he would never do that to his own family. he messed up once, hes not gonna do it again.

anyways, do with this what you will. just wanted to get it out there for yall to comtemplate like i have been for the past several days

[enden-k]

btw now that i can get to it (was busy and had someone over) i can babble a little abt zzz and give my thoughts so far on it if anyone is still wondering whether they should try it or not

first thing i have to say is, to me it feels like a cozy casual kinda game. and i love it. i think thats the part i saw some ppl complain abt

it reminds me a lot of P5 w the overall vibes etc (i played on first release years ago but not the additional stuff afterwards so idk if there were changes to the plot or anything with whatever royal is about) and it was a comfort game for me back then so yea. this might add a lot to why zzz feels like such a comfort game to me

the siblings are not active, playable characters in combat since theyre the proxy guiding and supporting the playable characters (agents) in the hollows (compare it to domains). outside of the hollows you run around with ur chosen sibling and whoever you picked, the other doesnt disappear or becomes irrelevant. they are a unit, run their video store together, theyre one proxy, supporting each other. i already love how trailblazer is more vocal than traveler but the siblings are active, talking parts in cutscenes and whenever theres dialogue choices, your chosen sibling ACTUALLY SAYS IT. this is smth i wished for a while in gnshn so seeing it in zzz made me super happy. it gives them sm life and gets me into it idk how to say it

(this is them btw. pretty mfs)

anw its not overwhelming like gnshn feels to me. gnshn has sm to explore and sm story and its smth i both enjoy and feel exhausted by. now, if you played persona or are familiar, its easier for me to use for comparison. you get to run around as the chosen sibling in the city but the fighting (w the agents you pull from the gacha) all happens in the hollows (similar to when you enter the metaverse). it runs with a day-night cycle and depending on the time, npcs and quests pop up. you can pass the time if you need a specific time of day for an objective, by doing hollow exploration or simply resting in ur room. theres side stuff you do, like running your store and visiting the arcade and play snake akjscbk

the combat itself reminds me of HI3 and wuwa and feels super smooth and fun to me

it has cutscenes etc but the story parts in between are illustrated and presented in a comic/storyboard kinda way? which fits the whole video/movie aesthetics well. its pretty cool

overall, if you didnt try it out yet bc you think it requires lots of energy and time like gnshn, its nothing like that at all. ofc im not through with everything but so far it feels like a very nice game to play casually, w a big cozy bonus when youre spending the day freely in game. i play only on pc or on console when i wanna lay down but this game even i would play on phone or ipad to chill akjscbk

the characters are also pretty fun and cool looking! like, look at them, so far we got

the most chaotic ragtag group in all of new eridu (they share one braincell and its anby who is in charge of it)

fresh looking heavy industry workers (they have a bear)

classic horror housekeeping service who will poison ur tea ig

motorcycle gang (oggling the glasses guy and boss lady super hard, they will be mine when playable-)

public security (they have an actual catboy in case weve got catboy enjoyers here)

special hollow operation elite squad aka the coolest strongest mfs out there taking care of hollow disasters

ALSO THE NPCS!!! LIKE!!! look at the cook!!! tinmaster running the coffee shop!!! the girl selling gadgets or the bunny person running the arcade!!!

even the regular npcs just roaming the streets. theres lots of cool details and life in every bit, its really cool

anw!! idk if this helped or made sense, this is also just my own impressions and feelings so far so yeee. if someone decides to play, i hope you will have fun and get whoever you really really want!!

[lilbabybutts]

Have some asks! Seriously, this is like, the best ask game thingy ever!

7) Do you have a comfort item?

7) What are the names of your little's stuffies/dolls?

10) What is the meanest/hardest punishment you've ever gotten?

10) What is the naughtiest thing your little does or has ever done?

12) What's the first time you ever felt Little?

12) When did you know you were a Caregiver?

Big hugs, Sunset @pinkducttape

7) Do you have a comfort item?

I do! I've mentioned him many times here before hehe his name is Wentworth! A blind, trans masc teddy bear and former mafioso who just aged out of the game. But he still consults for the family.

 He's kind of like a wise body guard for me. A body guard that cuddles me to sleep every night hehehe

I also have a homemade pillow made out of denim that I always sleep with. Both make me feel very very comforted!!

7) What are the names of your little's stuffies/dolls?

Weve got quite a few that I haven't had the honor of meeting just yet, but the ones I do know are Wentworth (he's fav fav) then bella (their dolly gf) and Elenore which is the first stuffie I got them! It's a lil frog

 10) What is the meanest/hardest punishment you've ever gotten?

I would say any time daddy spanks me with the ruler and makes me count the spanks! I lose track and he makes me start over and it's not fair!!!

10) What is the naughtiest thing your little does or has ever done?

I really can't tell you the naughtiest, they tend to bratty but not naughty. They use grown up words which is a no no and they also talk back quite a bit but I would say there's nothing that stands out as the most naughty just lots of brattiness 

12) What's the first time you ever felt Little?

I think the unfortunate answer is when I was with my abusive ex. It was nice when we first did it but it quickly turned into a coping mechanism to get my brain away from the bad things. It took a long time for me to be able to be in the little headspace without feeling very scared. Luckily my ptsd is much much better now and I can enjoy being little and feel safe and happy and loved!!!

Sorry I know that's not a fun answer

12) When did you know you were a Caregiver?

I didn't really know, I just kept ending up in relationships with littles but wouldn't find out they were little till months in and then boom cg activated

Thanks Sunset!!! I really appreciate your help with making the questions!

[planet4546b]

4 22 25 for whatevr you want

4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

honestly i block so readily that i dont even know. as soon as i see a post i slightly disagree with i just block them

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

im still such a destiny 1 lore enjoyer......i think we should be talking about the destiny 1 grimoire all the time i dont even want to like. analyze how its relevant in the story now i just want to talk about how cool it is and the fun worldbuilding and the stories and how they affect the vibe of that game!!!!! i dont want it to be relevant in d2 (im going to mad about maya/lakshmi FOR FUCKING EVERRR) i just want to appreciate it....

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

actually this one is related to the above. how on earth are we STILL saying that d1 lore is inherently worse than d2 lore becuase it wasn't physically in the game and you had to go online to read it. weve been having this conversation since 2014 and now d2 has massive chunks of its in game story that is actively important to the plot completely not available in game and people are STILL SAYING that d1 lore was bad because it wasnt in game? because there wasnt a tab for it in a random menu??? that i never even use because why would i spend my time in game reading???? i cant do it anymore ive been seeing people say this for NINE YEARSSS

[unholyxvoid]

back with another late response again. wow, mental health sure does something to you, huh? but anyways, in response to our previous conversation:

still trying to work up to the whole being known and seen thing. still am deciding to stay on anon for a bit longer! hope that’s alright to do.

yeah, it’s funny to me too knowing his source and all. it’s just funny that it’s a yapper. it’s silly more or less to me. i also get that feeling! i often get telepathy kinda in what people want to say, or i get the general feelings but not exactly the words, so it takes a minute to work through the words. we don’t have that many nonverbal headmates or anything, but i think our general autism has some effect on verbal communication or communication at all.

no, i get what you mean! i always find it super interesting to compare experiences with others that have this disorder. it’s all fascinating, and plus you find ways you aren’t as alone in it. i haven’t ever really either talked to anyone about pdid specifically, just the did spectrum as a whole, the system experience as a whole. it was be nice to talk about eventually more in depth once we dm, but that time will have its place in the future! (i mean this lightheartedly)

that’s also not my problem, thank you for offering that though. it’s very sweet and it’s appreciated. thank you for being considerate. it goes a long way. <3 (again, this is meant lightheartedly)

new thing i wanna say: your black hole posting is making me look at it sideways and be like “damn, maybe that’s me too.” because i always forget i can be/am just things sometimes. we are also pretty nonhuman, which i personally have recently come to the realization of. so it’s just not exactly a thing on my mind of that i am all these different “weird” things. and that’s fun! i will look into it more but i definitely could be black hole. feels very me. though, this could be our vessel talking as well. it is not human in any sense of the word. been very nonhuman around here lately!

i’m not sure what else to add to this or talk about, i’m rambling a lot, so feel free to ask me/us questions or anything. we’re pretty open about anything. we’ll also communicate if we’re not comfortable answering something too, we won’t have hard feelings about it either. just an offer that you guys can take at any time (or not).

anyways! i hope you are doing alright.

-maw 🪽

you can stay on anon for as long as youd like , i love getting nice anons like this . it very rarely happens so its pretty exciting when it does

theres only a few of us here and iv seems to be the only mostly nonverbal one so far . at some point we had vessel appearances and he talked but he hasnt been around in months , only like twice at the beginning and then vanished so i dont really count him as a headmate or anything . then again our newest headmate which i havent really mentioned here at all due to not knowing shit besides their name and vibe also has not yet said a word nor have they really made themselves too known , i just know theyre around

yeah id love to see in what ways were similar or different , because weve mostly only had did or osdd experiences to compare to , rarely actually pdid and im so glad theres a few pdid blogs around now even though theyre not super active

im a black hole in the way that i am literally just the void , anything darkness related and that does include black holes which im especially connected to sometimes . would love to help you figure that out if you ever need help with it . and same yeah we pretty much have no humans here , all of us are either demons or demon adjacent , with the exception of the newest dude which seems to be an angel ?? idk lmao

i think ill probably get questions as we continue talking bc if i try to come up with shit on the spot when im told to ask questions i just blank and go braindead and forget what the fuck a question even is 🥹

also sorry if this is kinda messy and if i forgot anything were at work and like half dissociated so yeah fun times ig hskdhdk

[nineliabilityrisk]

⭐ do William also :3

[ send a " ⭐ " and i will list muses i would be interested in throwing at yours ]

[ asked by @trapton ]

WILL WILL WILL WILL

would you believe me if i said that i had absolutely zero interest in william as a character until i joined this community. but then i got introduced to you and nicole and ur guys' portrayals of him uh. successfully converted me. literally half my muses are obsessed with him. its your guys' fault. william afton my unhinged little babygirl i want to wring him out like a towel.

since this blog is solely for will, im just gonna list out my muses and then the possible verses / situations they could interact with will in

all the animatronics are pretty much a given, of course. what "version" of will it is just depends on the time period ofc, id love to write with any of them!! some highlights would probably be og freddy + bonnie with him, or the puppet or the funtimes . maybe even lefty or molten freddy for mr peanut if he feels particularly talkative

mikey ofc ofc - teen / younger mike is always fun to write even if its. a little difficult to do sometimes. like emotionally. (same with evan tbh i love writing him with will but he is IMPOSSIBLE to write if i dont have the muse.) and then of course fnaf 3 or pizza sim era with post ennard mike and springtrap or scraptrap,, plus i gave mikey a sb verse now! so! make him deal with his dads bullshit AGAIN! he will never be allowed to rest! never ever!

cassie maybe?? - i know TECHNICALLY nothing she did in ruin was related to him in canon but CMON. if you feel like yknow. subjecting her to MXES / glitchtrap or burntrap or ur like. literally anything. i feel like him having to deal with this bitchy little child would be incredibly fucking funny.

henry. henRYYYYY henry henry henry. - i need more of him and henry immediately right now like stat. fredbears family diner era or earlier or having them somehow meet in pizza sim era without one of them ending up dead. i do not care i just. i need them in any possible capacity. they r everything to me they r the reason i have had the phrase "doomed old men yaoi" stuck in my head for the past week and a half. it will not go away. i am in hell.

ciarán - are you kidding me. you KNOW how insane i am over them. also the benefit of ciar being an oc is that he isnt constrained by timeline. we could put him ANYWHERE. you wanna write springtrap? he could be there with him. glitchtrap? sure why not. literally anything. we dont have to stick with just this era weve sorta picked for them i can drop him ANYWHERE. i love their dynamic so so so much i am never not thinking about them

josh - i know mike was the only nightguard at fazbears frights and therefore the only one around while springtrap was Active, but also. josh is the type of guy to get assigned fucking Springtrap Maintenance Duties. subject him to the horrors thats literally what hes there for. he gets dropped in whatever awful job i decide to give him solely to have the absolute worst time of his life. get a little silly with it.

birdie - glitchtrap glitchtrap this ones for glitchtrap <3 a whole ass help wanted / sb centered muse. he has like 4 verses already planned out and i can always set up more i cannot WAIT to show you her blog i am always thinking abt her

[borom1r]

I wlllld just like to hear whatever you want to talk abt regarding lizard! like a fun fact, an aspect of his design you're super passionate abt, stuff like that! as for lawyers: favourite miles moment so far & maybe (if yr feeling up to it) how you see phoenix & miles getting together!! (I'm abt to be high too in like an hour I have edibles bfjejehr I hope you're having fun!!! you can save this ask for later if you want also)

BESTIE i get. drinks from the local vape shop and theyre usually rlly good (the purple lemonade had a weird grassy flavor and i mean duh but it was REALLY noticeable but otherwise. gr8 luck) but the uh. the major problem is they dont have consistent stock EXCEPT the purple lemonade. so i uh. like last time was a super mellow chill high and today was. waaaaaaaaaaaayy more than i was banking on. fully zonked.

ANYWAYS. LIZARD. obvs hes a juggalo (miracles came on shuffle and im so. yea the world IS fuckin beautiful thank u violent j and shaggy 2 dope) uhhh fun facts! his face paint is actually that. face paint. you uh. think abt trying to use greasepaint on fur lol. he is also ACTIVELY DECAYING. for the most part hes holding up alright and nothing would really kill him. he's Undead. but he just. doesnt heal anymore.his eye is scarred bc he was missing it before he died but what his fur conceals is the fact that his arm is just. fully a fresh wound. 2 skin flaps stitched over what boils down to a mushy scab. he literally only stitched it up bc he was Sick of Bleeding everywhere. it's gross. hes gross.

aspect of his design im passionate abt— his CLOTHES!!!!! ofc for his design i used a base but the clothes were modified + ofc colored by me :3 his hoodie is based off this one + his shirt is Also a real shirt!! also ofc his facepaint. idk if i ever posted the mockup of it so here:

anyways like i think i said earlier he'd be more likely to rep Yum Yum Bedlam bc she represents punishment for corrupt desires and he was a lot lizard (which is the reason for his name— he chose it after he died and figured he needed sth a lil more... fitting for a an undead juggalo werewolf lmfao). but on the flip side, he'd be more likely to be judged by Fred Fury since while he was alive he would just roll with the punches and didn't ever really make a stand for himself or fight back. he was much better at laughing things off even if it wasnt sth he really.. should've.

+ NOW. LAWYER TIME~~

favorite Miles momentttttttt

HIS CONSTIPATED LIL SMILE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGHGH!!!!! BESTIE IM WRAPPING HIM UP IN A TOWEL LIKE AN UNRULY KITTEN AND TORMENTING HIM WITH AFFECTION. SUFFER. IM MAKING HIM TEA AND LETTING HIM INFODUMP ABT STEEL SAMURAI AND LAW SHIT.

yeeeeeaaaa im feeling up to or at least im on the edge of being super paranoid sooo im just gonna answer lolol. ANYWAYZ.

like weve been talking abt in dms at the start we r dealing with. Miles "so unused to expressing genuine emotion that if i say anything remotely affectionate i will experience all 5 stages of grief simultaneously + flee" Edgeworth and Phoenix "shockingly oblivious for being a defense attorney/investigator, also with the like. worst sense of humor" Wright. Phoenix would need it spelled out to him like like yr teaching a baby how to spell "cat." and alternatively you couldnt pry Miles' real feelings from his cold dead lips. feelings r messy and imperfect after all. it gets so bad Maya starts googling "how to introduce cats to each other" half-jokingly bc between Miles' need for emotional exposure therapy and Nick being. Nick. she's gonna HAVE to coordinate their meal times and slowly let them get used to spending time in the same space for them to ever get anywhere.

part of me is like. Maya HAS to help in some capacity n i think at bare minimum shes EXCELLENT council for Phoenix when he bolts upright at 3am one morning when it hits his unconscious mind like a ton of bricks that the reason hes been having shoujo anime intro ass dreams abt Miles for months is bc he MIGHT be gay. big of heart dumb of ass. YET. on the other hand. 3-Hour Steel Samurai Lore Deep Dive (she nd Miles would be BESTIES. she slow-blinks at him enough to develop a bond. they need to hang out more. HE PAYS HER BAIL!!!!!! mission critical that they drive Phoenix insane Together)

yet at the same time. n what i think is so sweet, is that it just. happens. frustrating 4 everyone that for like. a whole entire fuckin year u could find Phoenix bringing Edgeworth tea, sitting w/ their knees touch while they discuss notes, Phoenix playing w/ Miles' fingers or hair, Miles asleep on Phoenix's shoulder after a long day— and if anyone asks if they’re dating they’ll get a very cheerful "nope haha ^_^" from Phoenix and maybe just a little huff from Miles so LIKE. Phoenix slowly and gently dismantles Miles' walls and could be sitting there holding his hand staring dreamily at him while Miles flips through a book w/ his free hand and inside Phoenix' head is just MACINTOSH PLUS - リサフランク420 / 現代のコンピュー 10 Hour Loop until again, bolt upright in bed sweating bullets speed dialing Maya's number to as her if she thinks hes gay.

so by the time they label anything Miles already has a toothbrush in Phoenix's apartment and has FORCED him to at LEAST buy a 2+1 shampoo/conditioner with a Separate body wash. please Phoenix he is BEGGING. and then they're dating. and Miles realizes the thing Phoenix has been saying when he does things like. buy a bathroom organizer and everything he needs for his Exact skincare routine as a surprise for when Miles spends the night next time is "i love you" and that he must've loved Miles for a very, very long time even if they are both Oh So Dense (extremely affectionate)

[thoughtsfromthebeehive]

the aftercare part of sex is really nice i think. typically, when my partner finishes i get my toy and try to finish too but usually because of my antidepressants im not sensitive enough for it. its hard to get my head in the zone. sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt, its best when i have some weed gummies or alcohol to get me to a normal level of sensitivity. 

but anyways, sometimes, particularly when he finishes in me, i start to cry really hard. not because im sad, or that it wasnt pleasurable, its just very hormonal and emotional for me i guess. its a good cry basically. 

so i think its sweet that he strokes my back or pets my hair and says its ok, im here, just breathe, stuff like that. and always makes sure im not crying because im upset. and then we go take a shower together and wash each other. sometimes he washes my back or my hair. i think he likes to make sure i enjoyed it. i think he gets anxious that he pressures me. and he says, i dont want to have sex with you if youre neutral, i want to have sex with you only if you want to. so i say, sometimes im neutral, but because i care about you and like making you feel good it leans me towards the wanting sex if he wants sex. i dont think theres ever been a time weve had sex when i didnt want it. i actually think its kind of fun sometimes if he tells me he wants it because usually he lets me initiate or we kinda melt into it together. im more than comfortable with telling him no if i so wish. maybe sometimes i feel a little pressured, but again, if i definitely didnt want it i would say so. i find the act of sex itself to be fun, so i usually enjoy it no matter what. he told me once in the shower that it was emotional for him too. which i think is very sweet. 

i think its good to have a mixed view on sex -- by that i mean, partially “sex is deep and emotional” and “sex is fun and light”. I think both can exist. im not usually horny, so it usually feels more like a ritual to display love and care for my partner. sometimes its fun to just fuck. fucking and love-making are two different things. its a fun activity and good exercise. but its also emotional and sensual and intimate. thats just how i personally view it. its nice to feel close to someone. things feel so natural with him and have since i met him. being with him is the most natural thing ive ever done. like ive always known him. its nice to be able to click with someone like that, like your personalities fit together like puzzle pieces. 

[tigerdrop]

hey i just wanna say the long posts genuinely make my day. also can you talk more about gordon freeman character because the way you write him makes me quake in my gay little boots

i would love to talk about gordon freeman. thank u for the opportunity

the first thing i need to communicate about gordon is that this dude sucks. and i say this in the fondest way possible. he is a bitch from the moment he drops into the world until the moment he goes out. if you dont believe me, give it another watch! gordons mouthy and rude for no real reason, at least so far as “being a regular dude on his way into work” goes, and this dude goes around calling his coworkers names with zero provocation. (of course, we all know that the reason is because its a funny guy improv stream that borrows a bit from freemans mind, but im talkin from a character sense.)

but my argument isnt just that gordon freeman sucks. its that he sucks in a very specific way that i find insanely endearing. i love this dude. i love to hate him. hes awful in a very mundane sense - weve all known a guy like this, at least if youve spent too much time online - and its cathartic to watch him suffer because of it.

gordons a smart guy. as written, hes gotta be - hes a recent MIT grad, on his way to work at a top-secret research facility to do weird shit with crystals and theoretical physics. but the thing about smart guys is that theyre often......selectively intelligent. we can see this in the way that he has a hard time navigating his surroundings, and needs the science crew to guide him through it and keep him alive.

this is one of those things that is a natural consequence of somebody going through the game for the first time, but that i am interpreting as “gordon is kind of stupid sometimes”. its uncharitable but its not like he doesnt deserve it. he likes to boss around the crew as if he knows what hes doing, when he often very much does not, and is fond of demeaning their intelligence. hes real bad about this with tommy in particular, treating him like hes a kid whos playing at being a scientist when tommy is actually a decade older than him. all i am saying is that gordon ought to stay humble. hes awful cocky when he perceives himself as better than others.

which, i think, tracks with how cocky he gets when he gives up on the whole “well-meaning citizen” thing and just unloads bullets into people. he puts up a front of being a Nice Guy, you know, just some dude caught in a bad situation who doesnt like seeing his companions obliterate every NPC they come across, but that doesnt stop him from cackling like a fucking madman and mowing down aliens (and soldiers) every once in awhile. when he stops seeing himself as helpless and starts seeing himself as the one in control, the gloves come off. he gets mean. and i think thats very sexy of him

this, among other things, is why i am insistent that gordon freeman is a control freak. he desperately wants to be in control of the situation at all times, shepherding around the science crew primarily by bitching at them, but its of limited success. its futile. sisyphean. tommy, coomer, bubby, and benrey exist almost to torment him with exactly the thing that would make him suffer the most: a gaggle of people running around causing problems for him, but he cant go anywhere without them b/c hes reliant on them to make it out alive.

its perpetual suffering, and its cathartic to watch. and funny, too. and if youre a little weirdo like me, its very, very enjoyable. how twisted up he gets when nobodys listening to him! how sweaty and frazzled he must look. its cute, and it also makes me want to reach through the screen and shake him and tell him to just be a little nicer. he wants control but he doesnt know how to attain it, he doesnt know how to play nice like a real leader. i think its a neat contrast to gordon freeman as we know him in HL2, where he literally is the leader of the resistance and has to live up to it. this is gordon freeman but if he was moe through helplessness.

“helpless” is, i think, a great way to describe him. a core bit of imagery in half life is this sense of railroadedness and helplessness, with gordon freeman being put into play like a chess piece and having no choice but to move forward. and this iteration of gordon leans into that by being totally dependent on the science crew in order to make progress and Not Die. and hes also subject to the whims of benrey, local eldritch weirdo who has basically made it his life mission to fuck with gordon.

gordons anxieties dont help with that. if he wasnt so fun to stress out and fuck with, the science crew probably wouldnt do it so much! too bad for him that they like fucking with him so much that he was driven into a panic attack (multiple times, even, depending on your interpretation). hes got that real neurotic mindset. always worrying about shit that could go wrong, and attempting to exert control over his surroundings in an effort to control the anxiety.

IMO the real way to nail the Neurotic Gordon Freeman Experience is to combine the ever-present anxiety with his pervasive sense of self-loathing. he openly states that he has no friends and nobody seems to like him, and to that, i really gotta say, i wonder why. he doesnt really seem to factor in that hes kind of a bitch, and has way too high an estimation of his own intelligence relative to everybody elses. its really one of the worst ways to be: aware that people dont like you, but unaware of exactly why. if he was like, 10% nicer, he probably wouldnt have had half as many issues getting through black mesa, but also, its funny to see him squawking his way through the game. so, you know.

its stuff like that that makes me headcanon him as a dude with low self-esteem in general. convinced that hes not likable, not attractive, out of his element......impostor syndrome, except that theres some truth to it. this is a guy who truly does not realize how good he has it: he really is just an average shitty dude, and yet, somehow, benrey took a shine to him. some poor motherfucker out there actually likes him and wants to suck his dick. thats dedication

also, i keep bringing up “repression” when i talk about gordon. and hopefully, what ive been talking about helps explain why. he has a strong desire to be a regular dude, not just murdering his way through black mesa, but if hes pushed hard enough he leans into it. gets bossy. picks up a cigar off a dead soldier and takes a long drag, before smacking forzen around with a pistol and ordering him around. gordon freeman is a regular, kind of anxious guy who likes competitive swimming and streaming on justin.tv and making anime references, and he is also a guy who takes a filthy pleasure in making a trained soldier his bitch. and i didnt make up any of this shit - this is purestrain canon, baby. this is a guy with problems

to me, this screams the kind of guy who represses a lot of shit b/c he doesnt feel like its morally decent. you run into this guy a lot online: the wokeboy, the online leftist, the guy who spends too much time on social media websites. (like reddit. i think he would actively use reddit and he would never get any appreciable amount of karma but he never stops posting. its sisyphean! cathartic.) from the way he talks about “bootboys”, i think it tracks. he knows about imperialism, he knows about feminism, but at the end of the day hes your average american white dude who struggles with internalizing it.

a lot of those dudes struggle with sex and gender issues. (dont we all.) when youre trying to be a Good Person(tm), you spend a lot of time thinking about your own relationship to sex and kink and all that shit. and i maintain that a too-online dude who buries a lot of his control freak tendencies would also try to bury a lot of weird sexual shit in an attempt to seem Normal and Well-Adjusted and not like a little freak. i justify this by the sheer number of times gordon blurts out weird sex shit as a joke. there are only two outcomes to making that many piss jokes: either youre secretly a piss guy, or you lathe-of-heaven yourself into becoming one. i will stand by this

ive talked a lot about why this dude sucks. now, let me talk to you about what makes gordon so much fun to write. first things first: hes funny! a subjective evaluation, yeah, but both in- and out-of-character, hes aiming to be funny. and being the straight man to everybody else plays into that whole “helplessness” thing.

secondly: underneath it all, there is a good dude under there. gordon worries when his companions get hurt, he tries to clean them off and patch them up, and hes got his lil leftist heart in the right place. you could even read a lot of his bossy, bitchy demeanor as him wanting to make sure everyone gets out okay and doesnt hurt themselves. when it comes to animals and anti-imperialist sentiment, gordons a pretty good guy.

hes the kind of guy who would probably see a dog on the street and get excited and play with it, but would get really prickly about the correct way to put dishes in the dishwasher. control freak tendencies.

finally, subjecting such a miserable, tormented guy to even more psychological anguish is really, really fun. you feel a little bad for him, but he kind of deserves it. so many problems he goes through are purely of his own making, and if gordon would just relax and quit trying to hard to maintain control - of himself, of the people around him - and own up to having Problems and Issues, he would be a happier guy. but thats why its fun to bend him until he breaks. being a little control freak myself, putting gordon freeman thru psychosexual torment is cathartic.

when it comes to writing his thought processes, the fact that he is canonically some kind of psychotic (yes, i am boldly claiming this. suck me) and i am also canonically some kind of psychotic makes it easier to write what i think his thought processes are. i just give him my brain issues of “getting lost in thought” and “overthinking fucking everything”. a touch of paranoia helps. even if i dont explicitly label him as schizophrenic please know that i am writing him as a paranoid little nutcase at all times because, uh, you write what you know.

paranoid. anxious. of the mindset that everyones out to get him (which isnt helpful when everyone is out to get him). repressed and deeply Not Normal but trying so very fucking hard to be normal and well-adjusted. a control freak with sadistic tendencies who also really, really likes getting bullied by his best frenemy. a hapless little nerd who sounds really cute when his voice starts to break from nerves. and, most importantly, a dumb jock. do not ever forget this.

thats gordon freeman, babey. hope that helps

[the-writers-bookshelf]

hello! happy friday! i have lots 2 share this week and im VERY excited

SO i got to hang out w my friend and we talked a LOT about worldbuilding but the main thing im gonna talk abt (bcos otherwise this post'll be like a thousand words long) is the planet!

so originally the planet was just like. a flat disc (or as flat as a planet can get while still obeying the laws of physics) but u know what weve got now?

doughnut planet!!

which is cool as hell if i do say so myself :)

it took a good several hours research to figure out the exact parameters but we've got a pretty good handle on it. its at abt a 23° tilt (same as earth) which means it has proper seasons (and some Really cool sunsets in the hole)

the main problem we had was that a doughnut planet at a 23° tilt would have Big poles, and since our planet has roughly the same climate as earth that means big ice caps, which wasn't really what we wanted because we wanted a lot more biodiversity BUT we figured it out

the planet is more or less split up into four sections on each side, the desert (on the outer rim which is always exposed to the sunlight), the land (between the deserts and the ice caps), the ice, and then the oceans, which are mostly on the temperate inside equator (in the hole)

the land and the ocean both have a lot of seismic activity due to the tectonic plates being forced together (especially in the hole) but that means lots of cool mountains! and islands!

that layout STILL didn't give us the biodiversity we wanted (which were mostly rainforests if im being honest) BUT we found a solution!

caves. BIG caves. REALLY BIG caves

under the ice-sheets (and most of the land) there are these enormous caves (the main ones we have currently are underwater caves, rainforest caves, crystal caves, and mushroom caves) which have people and animals and all that fun stuff and because they're like. magic we can go a little ham. its great! its fantastic!

anyway this is getting super long so that's all for now! thanks for reading! have a great day!

(also if it looked like I randomly followed u earlier i hit the unfollow button instead of the ask button in my excitement whoops)

that. is. AWESOME!! So many details! So many layers!!! And your enthusiasm and excitement is INFECTIOUS!! :D I want to dive into your planet and explore it myself! :)

[rowanelliis]

hey hi hello i’m SLATER ( they/them ), twenty-five, currently living my worst life on the left coast ( pst ). i bring to you my twitchy, lonely son, ROWAN. he’s a part-time antique lover, part-time dishwasher, full-time ghost whisperer. ( or something like that,, we’ll get to it later. ) he fills the alone ranger plot, and you can find his bio/questionnaire HERE  &&  some quick stats HERE. follow me under the cut for a TL;DR bio and wanted connections !! @phqextras​

oh hello again ! as promised, here is the summarized bio, bc i get that it’s long and you have shit to do. that said ! if possible, i would really love if you read THE BIO before/instead of this. it’s just,,, better. and better is better.  anyway, here we go !

rowan was born in pleasance to a 22 yo anita ellis and a father who bounced shortly thereafter, but we don’t care about him

he sees dead people! always has. they vary in shape from faded human to amorphous eldritch horror, and they’re supremely unhelpful. they mostly dont talk and the ones who do dont really answer what youre saying, they just say whatever they want. they moan a lot tho. its annoying. he hates them. kinda.

anita was a fraudulent fortuneteller and genuine psychic. she just knew stuff. rowan figures whatever he is, he got it from her.

he loves her sm guys. she was the mf BEST MOM. we’re talking blanket forts. we’re talking homemade stews. we’re talking going to alby’s to try on outrageous outfits they couldn’t afford and then shoplifting some little treasure to delight rowan with on the way out. the BEST.

when he was eleven, he spent an afternoon in the sequoia grove and when he got back he learned that to everyone else, hed been missing for five days

so that was a whole thing

following a years-long downward spiral of her mental health, anita showed up at rowans high school in the midst of a full-on psychotic episode. he was taken away by cps almost immediately and sent to a group home a couple towns over.

when he got back to pleasance at eighteen, she was gone. missing, not dead.

since then hes been devoted to the cause of finding her but its been eleven fucking years and no one else seems to care so he do get down abt it sometimes

his main theory is that it has something to do with the sequoia grove. he thinks that maybe whatever happened to him as a kid happened to her, but on a larger scale.

he currently lives in the house that he grew up in and that his grandparents built, a giant ugly thing that hasnt been updated in any way since the 70s

hes bad at holding a job. hes bad at feeding himself. hes bad at sleeping. hes bad at forming and maintaining relationships. basically, hes bad at being an adult human.

ok so maybe he doesnt see ghosts. maybe his mom wasnt psychic. maybe theyre just crazy. that is a possibility. but its also possible its true. you dont know. leave him alone

ok now the fun part ! here are some connections id like to see for rowan:

actual friends (one or two, three TOPS. hes a loner ok)

i honestly debated whether i wanted him to have any close friends at all but yknow what! hes been in this town for nearly 30 damn years he can treat himself to a friend or two. these would be people who believe him, or at least have an open mind. they could be from way back or more recently. just people he’s comfortable around, and maybe goes to specifically for comfort. he needs a lot more of that than he’s getting.

hookups (past or present)

i think hes kind of slutty?? not in any active kind of way, hes definitely not aggressive or even confident, but he’s so starved for affection that i think he’d have a hard time saying no to anyone offering it. his sexuality is Undeclared but Not Straight, so he’s up for grabs. he’s also weak for...... how do you say..... les milfs. i mean he would never use that word but it is what it is. mommy issues doesnt even begin to cover it. on a related note! if your character is on the amoral side of the spectrum, this guy would be wildly easy to manipulate. just like, brush his hair with your fingers or call him good or whatever. he’s Weak.

exes (maybe one serious, no more than a couple more casual)

here are some great reasons to dump rowan:

will not remember your birthday or anniversary or anything

obsessed w his mom

sometimes sleeps with his eyes open which is creepy as Fuck

usually broke

lives in that fucking house

kissed someone else at your birthday party bc they had really pretty eyes and were standing really close and kinda smiled at him and he got overwhelmed

routinely talks to the air, sometimes aggressively. thinks hes covert abt it. is not.

love interests (look im not actually into planning ships it just felt fair to rowan to balance this out a little)

here are some great reasons to date rowan:

will never, ever laugh at you or make you feel small

will give small, thoughtful gifts for no reason

cute floppy hair, doe eyes

once he feels safe with you, he will do anything for you, any time, forever

lives in that fucking house

you never knew a kiss could make you feel so wanted

maybe he’s special, you know? maybe he’s just something special

( ok that was gay ! now back to your regularly scheduled programming )

people who think he’s crazy (as many as possible tbh)

i know weve got a lot of believers here but honestly,,, even among believers i think hes kind of an outcast. the mf talks to himself. there are like 8 agreed upon stories around town and hes seen waaaaaay more ghosts than that. and non-belevers?? fuggedaboutit. i kinda see this as part of the reason he was rejected from the mystery gang. maybe someone it was like ‘ok im into checking this stuff out but that guys fucking nuts’. idk. what is life without struggle?? without conflict?? boring.

people who are using him for the story (whoever wants)

this could be a writer or reporter, but it could also just be someone whos interested in this kind of stuff. OR again, could be a non-believer who just thinks its entertaining to watch him. could be honest about their motives or straight up manipulating him into thinking theyre a friend or whatever. pretty open, i just think he would be a figure of interest to certain people.

someone who was present when his mom showed up at the high school (someones?)

this isn’t even a connection really so much as just A Thing I Want. i want someone who saw a tiny, angry-crying sixteen year old rowan drag his screaming mother down the hall of the science wing with their own two eyes. student, teacher, visiting alumni, parent or sibling who was at the school for some reason idk. maybe they pitied him and approached him later. maybe it was the thing that made someone decide hes a lost cause. it doesnt even have to ever come up. i just want someone to have that image in their brain. i want them to see it when they see what a mess he is now.

a final note! when rowan was a kid he was pretty open about the ghost stuff, mostly because his mom always believed him w/out question and he didn’t know it was something to hide. after the whole woods incident and the reaction of cps + the cops to his story, he learned to keep that shit to himself. unless he knows your character well, he probably wouldnt have discussed it w them directly. however! anyone around his age might remember the stuff he talked about as a kid or his mom showing up at the school (honestly that was dramatic enough the story may live on in the halls of nwhs today in some form or another). anyone around his moms age (40-50) might know how woo-y and sketchy she and her child were. there are certainly rumors about both of them. also, most people have probably seen him behaving strangely, ie. suddenly rerouting on the sidewalk to walk around what seems like nothing, telling something to fuck off under his breath, or just flitting his eyes over to a seemingly empty space over and over. he really does try to appear as normal as possible, but it’s difficult. i think most people see more than he knows, and more than he would like them to.

[ask-the-party-god]

Ask The Party God - Timeline

the pre-terezi-gang timeline post is here

height references over here

hi, im jade! everyones favorite party goddess and trans doggy girl~ but you already know that! if youre reading this, it means youre interested in learning more about my reality, because paradox space is fucking weird like that and you cant really be sure all the time

as far as im aware, everything up to the point where we beat the game happened without deviations from the alpha timeline? so this is what rose has talked about as a ‘terminal timeline’, or ‘post-canon’, or whatever the hell that is supposed to mean

we got to earth-c, and i settled in the troll kingdom because trolls are cool, dave and karkat were in the neighborhood, and the caverns are close by so i can visit rose and kanaya speedily as well! i still do have my old tower out on an island, with my workshop and garden, but i almost never sleep in it, too far away and isolated from everyone...

then one day i found this old active server in the furthest ring keeping tumblr active and i thought, hey, why not have some fun? ;D

as for the others...

my darling sis june egbert! she lives in the consort kingdom, but has been thinking about relocating elsewhere lately! she went through a rough patch right after the game, unsure of what to do and full of all sorts of doubts and questions, but shes doing a lot better nowadays! specially now that terezi is back, shes been a lot more peppy and hanging around with the lalondes particularly!

rose rose rose rose~ happily married to her wife kanaya, duh, but that doesnt make her any less of a flirty cutie! a while back she got really sick for a bit, and weve been keeping an eye on her just in case it happened again, but its been all good ever since! she helps kanaya at the caverns a bunch, which makes her schedule busy busy... and you didnt hear this from me, buuuut words out on the street that she and kanaya may be warming to the idea of having a kid! <3 well see how that goes!

one cool dude~ daves a little bit of a shut-in honestly! and honestly i dont blame him? he must be tired after all the timeline and time travel shenanigans, so he spends a good chunk of his time hanging out in his and karkats house! hes kind of awkward about opening up with feelings and stuff, and ive been trying to nudge him to be more open for a while! but with all the craziness thats been going down lately, and more people coming and going and getting together, hes starting to consider things he hadnt before~ hopefully, some specific someones? ;)

janey! my uh... ecto-mom, technically, although we see each other more like cousins than anything else! she still owns crockercorp, but ever since jasprose has been around, she has been spending a lot more time at home and just hanging out with her friends, which really, sounds a lot healthier than the big business thing she had going on a while back! she enjoys teaching me baking stuff, but doesnt have much patience for my decorating skills ;p

grandpa! and grandson technically, hehe, jakes kind of a weird case, hes a mixture of a shut-in, a celebrity and an adventurer! he can spend up to weeks at a time without leaving his manor, but then hell have full weeks of interviews and hiking, and thats not to say anything of when he and dirk put out another episode or two of their dumb comedy talkshow... hes often busy with stuff, but hes still a good pal and can clear his schedule in seconds if we need him for something!

one sweet nb dude! rox really is... something else, really! fun to tag along at a party, fun to chill at home playing games, fun to talk about more serious stuff and open up with him, he really is just solid as they come! hes been hanging out a lot more with june since she got out of her depressive slump, but sometimes i wonder if junebug finds weird to get flirty with roxy, considering im pretty sure we made out in front of her at some point or two... hehehe

dirk! if daves a bit of a shut-in, hes a shut-in times two, which is weird because youd think someone stuck in post-apocalyptic earth for so long would want to hang out more? not to say he DOESNT, though! hes around jake often enough, and keeps close to jane, roxy and dave specially! we dont see each other too often, but we HAVE been messing around with robots and planning out to upgrade our respective self-bots for funsies!

aradia! we only met briefly in dreams for the longest time, but i knew already that she was a riot! she came with terezis group after she finally found vriska, and seems pretty happy just... kind of... being around and watching shenanigans ensue! i actually dont know where she lives, but she drops by occasionally, because im apparently pretty ‘fun’... cant say i disagree ;)

sollux is blind, and not dead, and WILL kick you in the shins if you keep prying about how exactly he ended up like that, which is fair enough! he spends a good chunk of his time with aradia, and im not sure if theyre dating or not...? but hes been around the other trolls a bunch! specially kanaya, apparently theyre good friends that go way back! i guess they both DO style their hair similarly, with the side spike thingies...

the other half of the dave-kat duo! swooooon~ really though, i cant remember the last time i said “dave” or “karkat” without talking about the other shortly after... buuut theyre just roomies, and hell get awkward and grumpy if you even so slightly IMPLY otherwise, despite the fact everyone knows they fall asleep leaning against each other during friday movie night! roooolling my eyes~ with the rest of the living trolls having arrived, hes been a lot more willing to go outside, which im glad for! its healthy to get some fresh air from time to time, and specially hang out with friends!

oh-la-la, miss maryam-lalonde herself! kanayas the matriarch of the caverns, and quite the busy gal, having taken it upon herself to supervise her entire species reproduction and well-being... in my opinion, she needs a good vacation from time to time, and to be less of a workaholic! >:o ive been helping her occasionally in the caverns, and as of late weve begun trying to mess around with ectobiology for some troll-human crossing experiments with... not good results so far... but hey, rome wasnt built in a day!

terezis back, yes! after spending YEARS out there looking for vriska, she managed to find her and come back, the madwoman! personally im not sure why anyone would go to such lengths for... her... but also, its not my bond, not my place to speak, she obviously really loves her a bunch! with vriska no longer lost in the middle of the furthest ring, shes started to catch up with everything going on with earth-c, and i think shes really going to like being around! specially with how much june and the rest have missed her ;)

troublemaker extraordinaire herself! shes... well, shes vriska, im pretty sure she stole that eyepatch from sollux? so you just know she up to no good already >:/ speaking of her eyepatch, im not sure WHY shes wearing it? whatever kinda wound she got, she doesnt like mentioning it, despite bragging about defeating english at every chance she gets! terezi says they found her popping in and out of consciousness in the furthest ring with some messy wounds, and that shed probably been hovering out there after the fight for years... doesnt seem to have humbled her in the slightest <.<

callieeeee! theyre super sweet and wonderful but also really shy and awkward! they live with roxy but manage to outdo dirk in terms of shut-in-ness... they also totally like roxy but is unsure about approaching those feelings considering the whole species thing and whatever, ive been trying to get them to open up for a while now! weve written fanfic together and drawn grids, so i can definitely tell theres some attraction there, even if theyre afraid of acting upon it just yet <3

jaspie is roses bane, and the one cat that made me get used to their smell enough that i dont bark at them instantly anymore! im pretty sure she crashes at janes often, and is just as outgoing and flirty as i am around earth-c parties and bars, which is saying something honestly! i wont let her dethrone me as the party god, though >:)

and finally davepeta! theyre staying with june for the time being until they can get settled around and see what they want to do here! theyve also dropped by dave and karkats a bunch, which i most certainly dont mind! i definitely appreciate some help in bringing a romantic vibe into those twos lives~ ;o

and thats about it! theres also the nannasprites and tavrosprite and arquius, but they pop by so sporadically and rarely that i dont know what theyre doing a majority of the time... we lost track of gamzee after the session so hopefully hes totally gone, and we havent heard any message from caliborn in years... and with the furthest ring broken and the black hole sealed, leaving a weird white empty space right in the middle of reality, im not sure what our chances of bringing back the other trolls are :( but still, we keep living on happily over here and having our fun slice of life ending together!

id say after everything weve gone through, we deserve a big break, dont we? hehehe <3

also, particularly important events that happen and are recorded in this blog will be tagged as timeline shenanigans!

[pandawritespoorly]

With Time: Chapter 7 - The Best Group Chat

Author’s Note: A short chapter - just a quick catch-up. Next update will be Saturday, and oh boy we've got another akuma. If I'm so insistent on writing them I should probably figure how to actually write fights.

Chapter Summary: Some text interactions of the Quantics and Felix and what they've thought of Marinette up to this point.

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Kid Mime: So!!!! Wat do you all think of our new frend that weve had 4 a weeekkkk!!! Because I love herrr!!! We r going to keep her right!!!????

  Melodie: Oh you bet we are. I’m a little worried about her though, I mean did you see that bruise? 

Melodie: Also she is precious and very sweet. If she doesn’t seem uncomfortable with the arrangement, we should keep hanging out with her. 

  Felix: Are you referring to the bruise on her face? It did seem unlikely to have been caused on accident.

  Melodie: WHAT BRUISE ON HER FACE?!

  Kid Mime: SHE HAS A BRUISE ON HER FACEEEEE?! MOMMM SOME1 HURT UR NEWEST CHILD!!!

  The Mom Friend: Wait wat? When did you see that Felix? r you sure?

  Felix: On Thursday, when she seemed overly tired. She was falling asleep in class and her palm wiped some make-up off of her face. She excused herself to the bathroom when she realized, but I did see a rather concerning bruise on her face, and there seemed to be scratch above it. I assume you were referring to another bruise?

  Kid Mime: HOW MANY BRUSES DOES THS PRECIOUS ANGLE GIRL HAVE!!!?

  The Mom Friend: enuf that im concerned

  Melodie: The make-up means that she’s hiding it, and come to think of it, she is dressed rather warmly for the current weather.

Melodie: I meant the bruise on her arm, it was pretty big.

  The Mom Friend: yea long sleeves an pants in early spetember is kinda wierd

  Felix: While I find this to be disconcerting, we would do best to avoid jumping to conclusions. It would also be for the best to avoid mentions of her past school - when it was mentioned on Monday, she seemed rather uncomfortable.

  The Mom Friend: yea we don’t want to make assuptions and i don’t want to upset her

  Melodie: She’d better have just fallen…

  Kid Mime: Al’ no murder

  Melodie: … 

    Kid Mime: DOES ANY1 NO HOW 2 GET OUR AMAZING MARI TO HANG OUT W/ US??? I ONLY GET 2 SEE HER AT ACHOOL AND IT SADDENS MEEEEEE

  Felix: She may just be shy, it would be best to give her time to adjust to her new environment.

  Melodie: I do hope she decides to join us soon though. I think she seems like a pretty cool person, especially if she could get out of her shell.

  The Mom Friend: allegra, give er time dont want to force her it might make her uncomforable

  Melodie: I know, that’s not what I meant, I just worry about her. 

  Kid Mime: Im with u there. i wory about her sometimes something just… i dunno

  Felix: It is understandable to be concerned. It seems likely that she may have rather low self-esteem, and lacks confidence in herself. That, as well as the fact that we still do not know where she got so many bruises.

  Melodie: I think we were right about why she was wearing longer clothes, did you guys notice she’s wearing short sleeves now.

  The Mom Friend: poor thing at least she heeled now

    The Mom Friend: does anyone no y mari was so tired today

  Lovable Grump: I noticed, but she did not mention any reason in particular.

Lovable Grump: …

Lovable Grump: Claude, I’m changing my password again.

  Kid Mime: NOOOO pls we all have fun nicknamesssss

  Felix: Your nicknames have a tendency to be longer than my actual name, which makes them unnecessary.

  Melodie: Accept your fate Felix. Claude can not and will not be stopped. Also Allan, I don’t know know about Marinette. She did seem pretty tired today though….

  The Mom Friend: hmm…

  Kid Mime: FEEEELLLIXXXXXXX NOOOOO UR NAME IS SOO BORING NOWWWW!!!

  Felix: That is unfortunate for you.

Felix: It is not the first time that Marinette has seemed overly fatigued. She does commissions does she not? Perhaps one of her projects kept her up.

  The Mom Friend: maybe she should take on les if shes being overworked

  Kid Mime: *mom instincts activated*

  The Mom Friend: im just concerned about her health

  Melodie: He’s got you there, Allan.

    Kid Mime: I CANT WAIT IS SCOOL OVER YET

  The Mom Friend: only a little longer

The Mom Friend: then to mari’s

  Kid Mime: I KNOOOOOOOOO

Kid Mime: I CANT WAIIIIIITTTTTTTT

Kid Mime: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

  Felix: Claude, you should calm down. You do not want to overwhelm her.

  Melodie: I’m excited too! She actually wants to hang out with us after school and she invited us over to her house!

  Kid Mime: do u think i can finally get her number

  Felix: I doubt she’s interested in your memes Claude.

  Kid Mime: but i cant even send her cute baby animal oictures

Kid Mime: or texxt her good moring

  Melodie: You mean texting her good morning like five minutes before first hour? After you’ve already seen each of us in person anyways?

  Kid Mime: YES!

  The Mom Friend: all of u guys need to pay attention in class

  Kid Mime: :(((((( fine

    Melodie: Why did she give us a bunch of pastries and thank us?

  Felix: Perhaps she thought we were rather nice guests. Though I will admit I thought it rather odd as well.

  Kid Mime: as much as i like baked goods i don’t get it??? I feel like were missing something? It seemed liek she was thanking us for soemthing else????? all we did was come over

  The Mom Friend: did anyone notice that there was a school right across the street?

  Melodie: Hmmm.

  Felix: As much as I wish to get satisfactory answers, it is not our place if she does not wish to share.

  Melodie: Fine, switching topics: Thoughts on Adrien?

  The Mom Friend: u mean the boy you accused of bullying her

  Melodie: >:(  I just thought he seemed suspicious

  The Mom Friend: u meant well

  Kid Mime: PERSONALY I DONT NO Y SHE HID SOME1 SO GREAT FROM US

  Felix: Marinette was correct. The two of you should never have been introduced.

  Melodie: He seemed nice. (Besides the puns) I liked him

Melodie: He’s got my approval

  The Mom Friend: thats good i dont think it wood be good if two of her friends didnt get along. He seems to understand when shes upset so thats cool very good

  Kid Mime: does our mom have another child now?!

The Mom Friend: …

The Mom Friend: …maybe

  Kid Mime: :)

  Felix: Moving on, I’m impressed with the connections she has at such a young age.

  Melodie: RIGHT?! WHAT KIND OF BEAUTIFUL TALENTED STAR HAS BEEN GIFTED TO US?!

  The Mom Friend: allegra stop snooping on the internet we just agreed not to do that sort of thing

  Melodie: …

Melodie: Fine…

  Kid Mime: i still didnt get her number :(

  Felix: Perhaps you could ask her at school.

  Kid Mime: BUT THATS SO FAR AWAY

  Felix: It really is not.

  The Mom Friend: let him be dramatic

The Mom Friend: its his middle name

  Kid Mime: it is

Kid Mime: as my unofficial official mom, he wood no

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Author’s Note: So basically, they're worried, but want to respect her privacy. I could have just said that, but I love their interactions.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  They're all just such sweethearts.

One thing I forgot to put in the note at the end of chapter 6 was my reasoning for Marinette getting to that point. I forgot one big reason (I'm sorry. This is why i need to write things down.) But for the most part it's that Marinette often takes the blame/apologizes for things that aren't her fault, so I feel she is quick to blame herself. That, combined with how she sees the good in people, I think she could have trouble identifying that she isn't at fault for how things turned out at her old school.

Okay, so this past weekend I was struck with the ability to write - don't ask I don't understand either - so basically now I'm writing chapter 11. Yeah, I managed to write the next 4+ chapters in a day. As much as I'd love to post them all now, I need to keep a regular schedule for the sake of my sanity and still need to edit them a bit. But hey, at least there's no chance of waiting too long now.

I really love seeing your comments so don't be scared to write one! I can assure you that it's one of my favorite parts of this.

Thanks for reading, and constructive criticism is welcomed! See (well, not 'see') you guys Saturday, with an akuma that doesn't like being lied to.

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[royz-yade]

Because so many people asked for a translation... but I can’t translate everything word by word (especially... staring at you, Subaru......) I made partly word-by-word and partly summery-translation.

This takes a lot of time >_< so please be patient for the other parts!

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Royz History Vol. 01 (English Translation)

0.20 Royz’ Formation

Tomoya: “Kazuki and I have been in a band together and when we disbanded I talked to Kazuki and we decided to form a band that is focused on melodies.”

0.40 Koudai joins

Tomoya talks about how Koudai and a vocalist joined them and that Koudai decided on various things for example also on wanting to decide for a date for their first live and book that at a live house. But at that time something has happened between Kazuki and their vocalist, so the vocalist fired Kazuki. Tomoya: “And when we thought about what we shall do as three members, the vocalist backed out.” Koudai: “And we were like: Okay, we’re two now. There were only me and Tomoya left.” Tomoya: “We thought about what to do. There was only the rhythm-team left so how shall we give a concert like that? But since we’ve formed that band I also wanted to continue. We talked about it and decided that we want to keep on going with Royz. So we called Kazuki back!“ (You can see Kuina doing nothing but smoking a cigarette at 2.20 xD because he doesn’t have anything to say about that band period because he simply wasn’t there yet! xD)

 2.25 Subaru joins

Subaru explains how he talked to Koudai at Mixi and on the phone afterwards. Subaru tells him that there already is a member he promised to be in a band with. Tomoya (3.50): “Koudai told us that he found a good-looking vocalist at Mixi.” He says how cool it is that Koudai is a person who gets things done rather than just talk about it. Tomoya’s first impression of Subaru was really that he’s good-looking and therefore that he probably also is good at singing. “We wanted to hear him singing, so we went to Karaoke together. And I thought: “Well, it’s pretty normal!” (laughs)” Subaru’s first impression of Tomoya was that he was riding on his bike so often.

 4.30 Hoshi ni negai wo

Subaru: “I was so moved by it! I remember listening to it on the phone and wanted to record this song. […] There was no time for recording it at all. Between meeting the members and giving the first live there were two weeks.” Koudai explains that the first try of their recording was still fine and since they had no time at all to do it over again they decided that it would be the end product. Tomoya talks about how they burn it to CDs at home with to professional equipment. (Kuina still smoking at 6.00 … because he still wasn’t there yet.)

 6.05 First Live

Subaru already had a few Taiban before, so he wasn’t scared at all. Koudai says how Tomoya wanted to make the live only 100 Yen so more people would come. In the end about 5 or 6 people came for them. Tomoya: “Hoshi ni negai wo, no fate, kuroageha and koihanabi. We only had these four songs, so we HAD to play them.”

 7.30 Kuina joins

Tomoya and Kuina had been in a session band together of a label boss that sponsored a session band live. Kuina’s first wondered if Tomoya was really into Visual Kei because he didn’t show it openly. Tomoya: “When Kuina’s band had decided to disband he asked us if we don’t want another guitarist, since he knew about Royz. He told us he wanted to join. I talked to the other members about this guy wanting to join.” Subaru’s first impression of Kuina was that Kuina was really doing that Visual Kei Subaru wanted to do and that Kuina is one level ahead of him. He was glad when he heard about Kuina’s band disbanding [so he could join Royz]. Kuina says that his first impression of Subaru at a live was really strong. When Kuina saw Kazuki for the first time he wondered if Kazuki is a host because of his make up and hair make.

 10.20 haru no yoru no yume PV shooting

Tomoya: “It was quite all of a sudden. I had work that day. I did my part time job until the evening and then there was the shooting at Koudai’s university in Himeji. I went there by bike. It was really a lot of fun back then!” Subaru tells us how they got their make up close to Koudai’s house. Kuina was happy about it and that it felt like they were finally doing something [like, growing as a band and moving forward]. Koudai talks about how it took time and money to do the shooting but how happy he was when he could gold this first CD/DVD in his hands.

 11.50 pain

This part is about Subaru running away from home and living with Koudai in Osaka for a while. Koudai talks about how Subaru didn’t know anything at all about (band) life and stuff like that. That it was so hard that he wanted to quit Royz. Koudai was like: “What the hell is he talking about?!” but Subaru was explaining under tears to Koudai that he didn’t know what to do anymore. Koudai and Subaru talked a lot then and Subaru decided to try it once again. Koudai: “I was realy happy about that! But I also realized what a sensitive person Subaru is.”

Subaru explains actually again how he lived with Koudai. “We went to Shinsaibashi together because we had nothing to do. And spend time there together. It made me confident in talking to Koudai.“

 15.20 AREA

Koudai: “Holiday Osaka helped us a lot with that. They payed the cost for recording this CD.” Tomoya: “The other members did the recording while I was working.” Kuina: “My strongest memory of AREA is how we performed it once, before we even recorded it. And back then the vocal melody was different from what we wanted to record. Thinking about it now, we were stupid to do that! (laughs)”

Subaru and Koudai were working on this song with Koudai’s guitar in Koudai’s room. He remembers that it was the first time he properly did something like that. Koudai: “That was the first time we met with tatsuro [mix engineer] and this CD could be produced thanks to many people.” Here there’s the interview with tatsuro where he says he met them the first time in 2010 in Shinsaibashi when they all brought the instruments along.

 17.00 First tour

Tomoya talks about the small size of car they rent and how they had to fit in 5 Members + 1 Staff and all the luggage. And how he thinks they rent the wrong car because that wasn’t what they expected when Kazuki reserved it. The staff even had to sit on a very tiny front seat in the middle.

Koudai tells an episode on how the air con didn’t work properly and everyone in the front was freezing while everyone in the back was sweating.

 18.45 B.P.RECORDS

Tomoya: “The PV for haru no yoru no yume was a failure.” Subaru says how the staff of like an Edison Osaka introduced them to the one of B.P.RECORDS. Koudai says that they had to show them songs because Royz wanted to make B.P.R produce their next PV. The boss of B.P.R thought it’s good and talked to Takemasa from Kiryu about it.

Takemasa: “I was so happy that we could have Kohai! When Kiryu started being active there were barely anyone we could call “kohai”. So it made us go: “Even this band [Kiryu] can get Kohai?!” And we were so excited.” He also says that he didn’t really hear anything about Kirakira Kei before he heard of Royz. It was the first time he heard that expression. Tomoya talks about B.P.R boss who wanted to see them live before starting to work with them. So they invited him to a concert.

Kuina knew about him coming to a live but when he saw someone in the 2nd row filming the concert he went like: “Who is this? >___>” but it was BPR boss. They went to have dinner together then and also met up with Mitsuki and Takemasa from Kiryu there. They also talked a lot on the phone after that day and Koudai got the impression that they all seem pretty cool and that it would be cool to join the label. Kuina tells us how he went to school properly only until 1st grade of middle school, so he didn’t really know a lot about all that Sempai-Kohai-thing.

 22.25 Kiryu Opening Act

This is actually just a lot of talking about how happy Kiryu were to have Kohai now and that Royz got along pretty well with Kiryu xD