#they are going through soo much shit and the other person doesn't understand

[maria-eve-falcon]

I thought that last post was personal so I was concerned.

it is kinda personal.. not in my life but yeah..

thanks for being concerned. it means .. actually means a lot

[slackerlifewhere]

random thought #3

[Minor SPOILERS for the first part of TCF]

Cale treats his ancient powers like they're his friends. Some would say he "stole" them for his own benefit but I just can't see it that way after everything I read in the novel.

Cale, former Kim Rok Soo, made a connection with these people. To me, they're not just powers to him. In fact, it feels like he understands what happened to them and if he doesn't, he quietly listens to their stories. And the way he talks to them also feels less like a selfish person who wants to use them for his own protection and greed for power but more like giving them the chance to see a beautiful world that became peaceful because of them. It's like he's comforting them after they suffered so much in the past (which is also connected to the healing thing I talked about in my other post).

Like yeah, he's annoyed at them most of the time but he doesn't blame them whenever he gets hurt or bleeds way too much as a backlash after using them. Instead, he simply helps them achieve what they couldn't do when they died.

“I’ll come back tomorrow.”

Cale said goodbye to the rumbling tree as if it was a person and exited the fenced area.

- Chapter 5: They Met

If he truly didn't care about them, he wouldn't get angry for them or at one point, he would've let their voices disappear in favor of getting stronger.

I like his relationship with them. Like they're the voices inside his head (lmao) and it might feel like he has wireless headphones attached to his ears 24/7 but he treats them the same way he treats the rest of his friends and family and it's really nice to see.

This is kind of the reason why I feel a bit weirded out(?) when fanfiction authors would completely erase Cale's (OG KRS) existence in the fic and replace him with OG Cale and give the other the ancient powers. Like I get people like OG Cale, I do as well, but it feels kinda wrong to see them with another person after seeing Cale bond with these people. In fact, I can't imagine them being with anyone but Cale, this chaotic little shit who gives Super Rock huge headaches and makes the others go violent for or with him whenever he's fighting with an asshole. Aside from one ancient power (if you know, you know), I just can't see him having none of them with him after everything he went through with them.

I keep remembering his almost one-sided conversations with all of them because most of the time it's chaotic but the rest are just as emotional with a feeling of deep understanding coming from him. It feels like he always has someone with him so whenever they're silent, I feel like the air is too heavy (like those few incidents when I just want to hug Cale).

I think the best description for Cale is that he's full of empathy.

So yeah, this is a random topic I thought about chaotic Cale and his equally chaotic ancient powers. Yes, I'm including Super Rock who isn't normal either. He's tamer than the rest but he's definitely not normal 🤣 I swear some people who think they're normal in the story are probably in denial like Cale is.

It just popped in my head when I saw the line about the tree in Chapter 5, which I quoted above ☝️

[Note: I'm not saying these authors are doing anything bad, by the way. This is just my opinion and I usually just skip those fics when I see them. I won't stop others from reading those fics just because I feel weird about this one thing about the ancient powers]

[Second note: This is about the first part of TCF, I dunno what happens in the second part yet but I hope to see more of his interactions with them]

[nightswithkookmin]

SEVEN BY JUNGKOOK PT1

Disclaimer: this review is from a shipper's perspective and it's objective is to rebut a few misconceptions about 7.

When I first heard the song was gonna be titled seven, I rolled my eyes- like how many times are these boys going to pander to Army with the whole 0T7 agenda right? Here they with yet another song about how much they love eachother like come on! I love BTS, I do but- I mean yall had the tattoos and the cute meet ups, and heart wrenching sappy goodbyes- isn't that enough why yall gotta make yet another song about your bond and friendship WHYYYYYY yall don't have nothing else to talk about? I thought season two was yall on tour grown grown shit- how is this growth if you singing bout the same thing over and over- right? BOY WAS I WRONG ABOUT THAT!

It's a good thing I didn't come out here to rant about that cos that would have been the biggest embarrassment of my life and I would be eating my words right about now while penning several apology letters to Jungkook- anonymously.

Seven thus, to me, is surprisingly good. Not at all what I had thought the song would be about so when I tell yall I was screaming up and down in my living room surprised and amazed clapping and cheering on as if this was the best thing I ever heard- yall wouldn't even understand.

It is why the first thing I love about the song is the title and how creative it is in as much as it doubles as a play on the word and teases out his connection to Bangtan- say whatever you want but I think that was hella genius and creative and reflects Jungkook's personality for someone who has always been creative in this way from his use of color contrasts in his GCFs to tell a story right down to choosing ABCD as his IG handle.

The MV had Jungkook written all over it- playful, goofy fun yet delightfully hot- it's the memes for me.

It was nice to see him be himself in a music video- nothing felt forced and contrived to me nor seemed out of character and that's what gave the song the flair I think it has. Jungkook pulled this off smoothly.

His acting was spot on- I loved the female character in there (in spite of yall saying they didn't gat chemistry) that's just because she's my type so thank you for that Jungkook. Mean cold emotionally unavailable, physically intimidating- yea no, I'm in love with her not gonna lie🤧

And I don't know what it is but she reminds me of Park Jimin too. And I sorta kinda like Jimin soo🥴

Is it the cheek bone?

Or the neck and shoulders

Either way, she invokes the same feelings I get when I look at Park Jimin- strong alpha female😌 may be it's because they both give off masc/fem androgyny energy and I like that shit- eat it up nom

She played her role very well and helped sell the story.

Those saying they lacked chemistry yall never seen BTS around girls huh cos it doesn't get better than this😩😩😩😩😩

Don't know if yall were expecting them to be flirting and shit- at least this female lead played center I'm still trying to find the female lead in JMs MV😭🤣🤣

I'm actually surprised how good Jungkook's acting turned out in this MV. Whatever they were doing in the restaurant- I'm sold.

And I know alot of people aren't too enthused by the plot of the MV- a young man hopelessly in love with their partner to the point of clinginess and obsession- look, may be if I were looking at this concept from an outside in perspective I would find issues there with that narrative too but as some one who has been following these men almost through out their music career and have had the privilege of consuming content beyond the music they do- I kinda find it hilarious 😂

Hilarious because it's everything fans, and BTS accuse Kook of- it's giving me war flashbacks to the perila leaf conversation they had, to all the times he and Jimin have been caught sneaking into each other's hotel rooms because CLINGY, to Jimin complaining he comes into his room at 1am just to sit on the bed and do nothing, to all the theories about Kook being the clingy one in Jikook- hate to say I told ya😆

It's almost as if he's saying we'll folks yall are not wrong I kinda is clingy and I'm not ashamed🤣🤣🤣🤣

He's a hopeless romantic and he hasn't made that a secret at all. To me, what this is is he's owning the narrative- that is if this was a conscious decision and artistic choice by him.

I had to look up the director of the MV and this is the first time in my life I've genuinely cared about the director behind any project for that matter cos how much of a coincidence is this to cast characters who complement each other so well and craft a narrative which is not a narrative at all!

Their website says they blend "youth and pop culture with high concept storytelling." Well they pulled that off. The plot is simple and easy to follow and reflects pop culture. I wouldn't say this is exactly ground breaking though, because it's been done over and over again- but I think Jungkook rejuvenated the concept by adding his own take and personality to it. It was done well and I must give him high praise for this.

If you are a fan of pop culture and pop music this is consumable as fuck. The song is really catchy. And that's just the thing, there is a market for this genre of music whether you like it or not and he doesn't have to cater to everyone's taste all at once. However to me, this is a step in the right direction for his career especially if he is to position himself as a global artist.

People may know BTS but not everyone knows Jeon Jungkook and this right here is him carving a niche out for himself. He is not trying to ride on the success of BTS. He is not trying to be the solo version of BTS. He is trying to be JEON JUNGKOOK.

His music is gonna play in every teens living room, every adults bedroom, in the club on the streets- he's reaching places even BTS struggled to reach and that's the power of his brand.

He's making waves and he's only just begun. And it's about damn time too!

I don't have much to say about Latto other than give that bae some grammy just for the titties😩 the explicit version of the song makes so much sense why she was so freakylicious up on a BTS song😭😭😭😭

First I was like gurl what? Slurp what??? Then I heard the fucking you right version- I said carry on. My mistake chilee. Jungkook ma n*ga you wild.

It's refreshing to see him step into his power and own his image and his brand and control the narratives- if not capitalize on them.

Overall I think this was a great pop song and Jungkook carried it so well. He's gonna go places. It's high from here and nothing less.

While on the subject, let me address some of the remarks people have been making about the song. To anyone complaining this is yet another pop song- with all due respect, he is not Beethoven he is not an Opera singer he is a freakn pop artist 😩

If yall are tired of pop music just say so and go but don't come for a pop artist doing what a pop artist is supposed to do- and don't let a lie slip out of your mouth it's a great pop song that bops. Seven freakn days a week.

No other kpop artist have come this close to breaking into a western market much less come this close to dominating it. And to some of us, this has always been the dream. I have spent so many sleepless nights meditating and praying for BTS particularly Jikook to gain a strong foothold in the western music market, beyond Korea and Asia and when finally they are making attempts and moves towards that goal yall want to tear him down- fuck yall opps HE IS FREE BITCH.

At this point I really don't care whether people like the song or not because we have moved past that stage where their in their progress in their career was contingent on people liking their shit. How are you gonna like a song if you've never even heard it? Now more than ever, what's important is reaching as many listeners as possible and to that end I think they are all on a right truck.

Jungkook is out to make a name for himself and solidify himself as one of the top pop artist in the world and I don't think his language or country should hold him back- asking him to stick to Korean songs is holding him back from his full potential. Faulting him for for branching out and reaching for the stars is equally holding him back and putting him in a box- well burn that box would you.

I really hope seven is the first of many English pop songs he will make because we want to see more of him, all of him and especially what he can contribute to the genre he dabbles in. His best is yet to come.

And for those complaining seven is nothing new- understand IT IS NEW FOR JUNGKOOK. It is new for many of us who are seeing him do this for the FIRST TIME AS A SOLO ARTIST.

His English keeps improving with each new song, his delivery gets better and better- yall just leave him alone please and thank you.

My final thoughts, as the main vocalist of BTS HE SURELY LIVED UP TO HIS REPUTATION WITH SEVEN. HIS PERFORMANCE WAS AMAZING, COSTUME LOOKED GREAT, SET WAS FANTASTIC AND HIS VOCALS WAS FLAWLESS.

If this is the start we are off to a good start.

The MV to me gave him opportunity to showcase more of his goofy personality, to show people he really doesn't take himself too seriously and has a great sense of humor.

As a performer he nailed his role. Definitely understood the assignment. And it's a good thing they casted a strong female lead cos them damsels in distress be getting on my nerves.

Do we need more of this? Yes AND YESS AND HELL YES!!!!

Between Jimin's Angel and this, you guys have no idea how excited I am for their journey. I want to see more collabs, I want to see them take more risks and build their individual brands.

Jungkook should definitely consider acting. A cameo in a popular American series wouldn't hurt his career.

In fact, the entire maknae line should.

[fishhjuice]

What do you think Beika and Ichiya's home/family life was like?

Oh i was prepared for this question!!! I talked to my friends about it so all of this was prewritten except lil additions!!

Beika is the child of a single parent, Nagisa "Nagi" Kabayaki Onaga. Havs you seen that tumblr post thats like "I could never be a parent because whenever my kid did something nice i would go "Oh shit little dude thats sick as fuck". He’s that. He was very supportive and tried his best at all times, and Beika had to doubt Nagisa's love. This doesn't make him a good parent, and Beika's childhood was never one i call easy.

As how it goes, more about him and also Ichiya’s situation under the cut.

To give you a bit of context! Nagisa used to be the black sheep of his family until he decided to voluntarily exile himself from the Onagas after a fight he got into with his father, who would be Beika's (and Frye's) grandfather. But of course people aren’t privy to Onaga's private family life, so as far as people know Nagisa got disowned by Dadaji Onaga. And because no one wanted to anger the head of, you know, one of the most influential families of the region, most people refused to help him out or show him any kindness to stay in good graces with Onagas. So he goes from a clueless rich boy to a guy who has to earn everything in the most difficult ways. He was just miserable by himself, he was tired of being treated like scum of earth wherever he went because of Onaga influence. I figure he missed being loved. So when the opportunity to have Beika presented itself he just took it and Beika's mother left very soon after. She made it very clear that she would take no part in it other than. Egg.

So, these kind of circumstances were the circumstances Beika was born into, to a barely adult dirt poor social pariah dad who loved the idea of his kid very much with very few means to provide, which Beika all inherited. Other than the obvious stuff like how impoverishment would be hard on a small kid, Beika also dealt with the social exclusion Nagisa was subject to. I think it was the kind of situation mothers and fathers of her classmates would not wanting their kid to talking to Beika, and when Beika grew up there being no jobs "available" for her, and when C-side couldn't book a gig they should absolutely have been able to as if they were blacklisted before they got to do anything pre-fame. (I think Nagisa never regretted having a child but he has a lot of regrets about having that child be His child and go through all of. this.)

Nagisa couldn't be there most of the time, which he didn’t really account for. He spent a lot of his time basically trying to earn their living from whichever jobs he could get (mostly unsavory ones, like salmon run but with local firms that cut corners) which also made him miss out on a lot of parenting too. And by the time he had time Beika was a fully realized person. And he didn’t stop willingly either, he lost that arm of his and when he forcibly spent time with his kid it was like oh she's a person now and I was there for none of that.

Nagisa, when he was there, was very loving but unequipped. Nagisa had a lot of ideals on what kind of parent he should be, Like He would be soo good he would never put that much responsibility to his kid like His dad did or try force the kid into anything she didnt wanna do he was gonna do good he was gonna do great he would get his shit together. Because he wanted to be nothing like his dad, and because he couldn't cope with the idea of making Beika as “miserable” as he was (even though it would be momentarily and necessary, as parents tell kids no and give them responsiblities sometimes) it made him too permissive of a parent, and it made him treat Beika like a friend and not like a child who needs rules to live by and help managing her impulses. Not to mention, he himself due to his troubled upbringing had a harm time coping with his emotions and understanding them, which is to say he himself couldn't teach how to approriately approach and deal with feelings, and couldn't react appropriately to Beika's feelings and support them either. He himself forced himself to go through the motions of negative emotions and move on from them as soon as possible to Never look back thank you very much, and never showed his negative emotions ever, which in turn meant there was no example Beika could learn off of.

Like, when one of only friends Beika has ever made leaves her, replaces her, rubs it in her face, "That's rough, buddy", said with the most genuine tone. And when Beika carries that hurt to adulthood, "you're all grown up now, why do you are so much? You two were best friends you should talk it out like adults. I don’t want you to make yourself sad for no reason" said in the most sincere, puzzled way.

Beika is very aware of Nagisa’s faults, so is Nagisa of how often times he failed Beika. But i think Beika doesn’t really fault him for it. In their best days it’s very easy for them to love each other because its two of them! And in their worst days it felt like an obligation because, its two of them. Who else did they have?

As for Ichiya, i think his family situation was in some ways better, so this will be a lot shorter. I headcanon him to have been raised by his aunt Niika Gessou.

(Art by @/kikuracside, my lovely boyfriend)

The reason for this is I imagine Ichiya’s parents to have been from a band that got very famous and fell out of fame very soon after, and continued it’s existence catering to a very niche audience that toured around a lot, so they didn’t really have the time to take care of their kid(s, as I headcanon Ikkan and Ichiya to be half-siblings). Niika was the kind of lady who wanted a kid but had no luck dating, so when her brother was having a kid she very gladly took on the responsiblity herself. She was also somewhat permissive and didn’t want to upset Ichiya, and quite often spoiled him, with no bad intentions of course. But it was mostly Ichiya’s mother, Maki that put the ideas of being a prodigy rockstar in Ichiya’s head, which Niika supported in every way she can, perhaps too much.

I think she sees everything that happened with Ichiya during SQSQ and how abrasive he can be, and now Ichiya’s current state, him being so upset with himself, and wonders where she failed him. But I think Ichiya does not think in any way Niika failed him, at all. They love each other too much.

I also headcanon since Ichiya and Beika were so close, she babysat Beika a lot. I think despite their kids’… rough relationship, Niika and Nagisa are still very… close. Beika is just grateful he Nagisa someone other than his coworker/work partner that he can call close, and also that he is a grown ass man and it would be wild and selfish to try control what this grown ass man does. Ichiya does not like this at all and wishes Niika would not talk to Nagisa at all.

So, yeah!

[lisaas2418]

My thoughts on Chapter 7

I fucking finally managed to fully watch the current chapter 7 translations and oh boy I have many thoughts about it.

(First off I deleted asks related to Chapter 7 but don't worry I will answer their questions here)

-Its an emotional wreck. I thought Chapter 6 regarding Idia and Ortho was already heartwrecking but dammit Silver's breakdown broke **me** down. Especially the part in one of the flashbacks where ChildSilver gifts Lilia an acorn-braclet while saying that it will give him a long life and that they always be together (That sentence broke my heart so much). It made me so sad and so mad that Silver kept saying that Lilia can't love him since he is the son of the enemy, like no my boy ofcourse he loves you like a son you idiot (I felt like Sebek and that means something)

-The Shroud family dynamic is so fucking sweet I can't. The father being more rational and the mother being more emotional, yet both love their sons deeply is so heartwarming (calling humanoid Ortho their son aswell and loving him like they do with the other two made me cry)

-All in all Ortho and later Idia definitly carry the segments in Reality and in Dreamland. Ortho's new gear looks so fucking cool, him outsmarting OverblotMalleus twice was so funny, Idia noticing the signs that everything in his dream is fake at the beginning just shows how really smart he is, the brother drama, fucking PhantomOrtho showing up (didn't expected that), IDIA FUCKING OVERBLOTTING AGAIN (my jaw dropped) and last but not least Idias decleration of war against Malleus for causing all this was soo epic (even though the reason was his mother searching through his files, like what did you there to react that way Idia?)

-Lilia's dream segment was sooo cool. Maybe a bit long but cool nontheless. It made me like Sebek more then I did before, I could definitly understand why people would simp for General Lilia and Baul Zigvolt, Melenaor is very pretty and being a great mother to Egg Malleus while also sometiimes acting like a child throwing a temper tantrum (like mother like son let me tell you), Lilia's backstory is full of injustice, prejeduce and classisim towards him it made me really mad (overall the conflict between humans and fairys), also the Senate can go to Hell and stay there I fucking despise them, the reason why Malleus hatched in the first place was so sad and wholesome at the same time (speaking of Malleus...)

-Look I may will get hate for this, but I have a right to voice my opinion. I understand his story is tragic, I really do. But as the overblot boys before it doesn't excuse shit. Him putting everyone (forcibly) to sleep and make them have happy dreams that aren't even real is just....no, also I'm not sure if that's true but it seems like he has no idea that his magic is expanding to whole Twisted Wonderland (also the moment Ortho said that the bodies may die of not getting their nutrieses by being asleep for so long, I just began to fear Malleus), overall the fact that he doesn't see anything wrong with this action and behaviour is really terrfying more then what the others did (atleast for me). All I'm saying it that at the end of the Chapter I am not sure if I can forgive him for this because all my sympathy that I have him is overshadowed by how reckless his actions and behaviour is (also he tried to kill Ortho, like wtf dude?!)

Now since the chapter isn't complete yet I won't say anything regarding GameYuu yet and I have decided to wait till it's over before I say anything about my Yuusona. I know that I kinda already did this but for that I would like you to forget the information I said about my Yuusona regarding Chapter 7, that would be nice.

Now regarding as to does Maleficent knows about what happend to Malleus mother. Yes she kinda knew what happened. Her opinion is a mix of "she died protecting her kingdom and her son, which is digniful" and "she was a close person to Lilia so I understand why he felt that way". Also if the Senate weren't dead already she would have burned them or stroke them with lightning alive. Yes she is evil but not disgustingly classist like some fairys are (or human in that regard).

Well this was long overdue but I'm finished for now with Chapter 7. Hope you liked reading and see you till my next post ^^

[thuganomxcs]

❝ poltergeist report: *  ―  𝑪𝑶𝑳𝑶𝑼𝑹𝑭𝑼𝑳 𝑰𝑵𝑻𝑬𝑹𝑽𝑰𝑬𝑾. | client: @bravesung | 𝙼𝙸𝚂𝚂𝙸𝙾𝙽: [ ruby ]  give one random fun fact about yourself. [ tangerine ]  do you speak other languages? if yes, which? [ amber ]  which is your favorite season? why? | 𝙰𝙲𝙲𝙴𝙿𝚃𝙸𝙽𝙶.

[ ruby ]  give one random fun fact about yourself.

I'll admit that this was a tough one cause I'm NOT sure if I already told y'all about this but if there's ONE fun random fact about me is that I can actually wiggly both my ears. IF that's doesn't count and y'all already know about it then another thing I can say is that I'm flexible for a person that doesn't train to be flexible. I'm not sayin' you finna see me do some inosuke shit but like I can pretty much maneuver in ways that'd make the average person go 'wtf'.

[ tangerine ]  do you speak other languages? if yes, which?

Yes I can actually, back in my day (LORD giving out my age) the curriculum will pretty much have you learn THREE LANGUAGES. Those languages were Dutch, English and Spanish. My native tongue is called Papiamentu so that's my fourth language. Now if I'm really with you whilst I can understand spanish enough to get me through mexico from point a to b, I'm not fluent in it to actually hold a conversation that'd last ten minutes. Other languages I've gotten in my culinary path are French and Latin but I've fell off the wagon concerning both. Dutch and Spanish i picked up pretty good but English had been a struggle, notably the GRAMMAR as most of y'all have probably already noticed.

[ amber ]  which is your favorite season? why?

Winter, and yo boy will give you the reasons why. FIRST OFF the place is TOO hot for snow soo I can safely say Jack Frost keeps his pale little ass away from my home but what we do get is tons of rain and lots of wind and it's the ONE time the island is SOO DAMN wonderful through this damn global warming. Growing up I'd actually say fall was my favorite time cause that's when it's an equal feel of a little bit of warmth with the coming cool air of the inevitable winter. THESE days it's like we skip that shit, just Summer then Winter.

[fkinavocado]

i just reread chap 25 of DI and i just wanna say dreea this is my comfort story.attention to every detail,dysfunctional family,not a saviour lover,but a supportive lover,how support and love can save people ,such a lovely love, such a monumetal but a the same time simple but beautiful love story ,it healed me,it made me believe that someday i can have this too no matter how damaged i am and how damaged the other person is ,there is someone out there that will love me through everything , you reminded me of it and i can't thank you enough for that, but i just saw people's reaction to it recently in your blog and it truly breaks my heart cause i see so much of a person's emotions poured into it so whoever wrote al those criticism,remember that dreea wrote a very realistic story with trauma and sensitive issues ,she never said it was a fairytale,the way she's writng it ,thats how life is and when ur critisizing it you are ignoring that a lot of the emotions ,incidents,things that are happening in the story ,how the story is going could be reimaginations of the author's real life emotions,(maybe),but when your reading a realistic fiction/fanfiction you should know that nothing ends like a fairytale and when ur asking the writer to stop at somewhere when they put so much of themselves into the story ,its no longer feedback or criticism its just something very wrong.you're not only taking away a writers will to write but also invalidating the writer's heart that she poured into it thus ignoring her feeling AND also the feeling of the readers that relate to it.this might be a new perspective but a perspective nonetheless so please think hard before coming here and criticising cuz at the end of day an app like tumblr,and things like fanfiction ,writing /reading is for escapism people come here as an escape ,away from all the criticism not to drown more in it we have enough critics out there as it is let's not bring em here too how about that!

but alas could go on forever about this but im just gonna say dreea pls whater you do with DI i want you to do what you would've done initially ,what your heart wanted initially, not what others want because remember we,the ogs, loved the DI that you created from your heart not the one you will make just to satiate other's expecations of you.DI is your most lovely baby.i love you and i'll wait for you however long it takes for your heart to beat like it used to for DI again.love you soo much!!XD

i'm literally crying reading this. i finally feel like someone GETS IT. i feel whole again after reading this. i swear to god. i've had other ppl reassure me and send me love for DI and encouragement, but you worded it perfectly and i just-- i don't know how to thank you. like, i swear it healed me.

everything you wrote is 1000% correct, that's exactly how i feel about everything. y'all don't understand how much this fic means to me... and how much it's been killing me to feel like i was being told their story was wrong, invalid, irrelevant etc. even if those exact words were not used, that's what it felt like.

it was my story to tell, and people were slapping their palms over my mouth telling me to quit it with that nonsense. they didn't want that. they wanted the fairytale and i wasn't delivering!

it made me upset. but mostly, it made me so sad. this was always a story about two broken people finding eachother and healing themselves by being together. and now it felt like people were mad at me for not having them be perfect all of a sudden. "there's always something wrong, something bad is always happening to them, problems from the past haven't been solved yet and others are already being created etcetc". like-- yeah. because just because you're healing and found your soulmate (because this is what i think they are) doesn't mean life is just gonna be hunky-dory from there on out. life is still gonna throw shit at them. the real challenge now is to face obstacles together and not let them ever set them apart ever again. to prove their growth through the lessons they've learned the hard way.

i just felt like nobody was getting what i wanted to do with the story.

again, i'm generalizing because i know so many others have been there for me too, and i thank them also and have been amazing supporting me all throughout and ever since that happened. i'm not taking away from the importance of their presence here at all- please don't misunderstand me! but i'm just saying- this particular person that wrote this ask put it into words perfectly and it all just clicked within me. like it finally feels right again...?

i'm still crying. i'm so happy.

thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. i don't know who you are... but i'm forever indebted to you for reaching out and telling me this. i really needed to heart it. i can now finally finish telling their story the way i always intended to!

i truly don't know how to better express what i'm feeling. i'm so grateful to you. and to all of you who have stuck around ❤️❤️❤️❤️ it means the world to me.

i'm going to pin this post to my blog cause this is what i'm most proud of- i've got lovely, big-hearted, like-minded people here that get me, that appreciate my work and this is the reason why i'm doing this in the first place!

all my love to you ❤️

[loco-warehouse]

What was Britney's relationship with the turtles like?

HUEHUEHUEHUE

Master Splinter kinda acts like a stand-in parental figure for Britney. She's gone through so much and he acts like a soft landing for her, so she can have time to process the current state of everyone's situation. Splinter also takes a realization that Britney is NOT cut out to be constantly going out fighting the Foot Clan or Kraang, but understands that she's too stubborn to be left behind. So, he assigns Leo and himself to start training her, in hopes that Britney can have SOME sort of defense. All in all, Britney has a huge amount of respect for Splinter, but isn't 100% sure how to connect with him, especially since she was taught opposite values that he has. Splinter finds her to be a bright girl with a wonderful future, and he just wants to make sure that he gets a chance in this world. Before his death, one of his last, personal lessons for her was teaching forgiveness. Both Baxter and Angela have taught a sense of holding grudges and seeking vengeance to fuck people over, and Splinter is the first to help break that cycle. She misses him, dearly.

April is like, her main sense of normalcy when living with the turtles. She was her apartment neighbor, so the two have a connection already. April acts as a sort of older sister/cousin. She attends her track meets, her parent conferences, etc. They'll even have "girl days" where she takes Britney out for lunch, shopping, and getting their nails/hair done as a treat!

Casey, is like the shitty older brother she always fight with. He'll wet willy her often, give mean nicknames, and all in all, a little shit. Britney returns the same teasing, by covering his hockey uniform in pink glitter and stickers. The two butt heads but have alot of fun.

Leo and Britney are SOO geeky! The two act serious when he needs to tutor her in fighting, in which it's hilarious bits of Leo deepening his voice to give some wise, out-the-ass, lesson, and Britney is like, trying to follow along, only to make fun of him. After training though, the two geek out over Space Heroes and other shows.

I think I'm gonna go a different route for Donnie and Britney. The two aren't fans of each other. It's a battle of prodigy minds, and she's constantly criticizing his contraptions. There's also a sense that because she's basically a Stockman, he doesn't trust her too much in the beginning, especially when she starts living with them. They do a lot of mind-fucking with each other, always trying to be the one above the other, so it leads to a lot of sibling rivalry. The only times they get along is when she needs help with homework and he the only smart one who gets what her homework is. Tiny one off, but Britney does ask him to turn her dad back, and Donnie response was basically, "Why would I do that?"

Raph and Britney are competition buddies! They like to be aggressive with each other alot, and always fighting to be on top. Raph and Casey do help her train outside of just fighting, such as her track races. They sneak into the football field and have alot of races, and Britney is determine to beat him one day. Other than training and track meets, they play alot of video games, pinball games, and even sneaking her out to play DDR. They keep each other busy :)

Mikey is her absolute best friend in the whole, wide world. Since meeting in early season three, the two were able to instantly click. He truly is a older brother, both having extreme interest in each other hobbies and ideals. He teaches her how to skateboard and roller skate, she teaches him how to have a better intuition, and the two can have ridiculous amounts of fun and connecting. They share comics, toys, games, everything! Tiny headcannon, when Mikey threw the retro-mutagen at Baxter, then proceeds to punch him, it was because he knew it's what Britney would've wanted.

[starlightshadowsworld]

Ok.

If the 2012 boys (the turtles + Casey) had superpowers,

What do you think those powers would be, based on their characters?

This is the best thing ever and I put waaay to much thought into this sooo bare with me.

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Leo: Weapon transformation

The ability to turn any part of his body into weapons.

Leo's the "Perfect son, perfect warrior" and thid just feels like the perfect visualisation of it.

Also it's one of my favs.

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Raph: Sheild construction

Able to create and generate sheilds and sheild like objects.

Raph is the "angry one" but he's also the protective one, and I like seeing that explored more.

And him having a defensive power is just interesting to me.

Tho he could also use them projectiles if he'd like. They definitely have spikes on the outside.

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Donnie: Quintessence

The ability to generate your own energy.

The man can power all his inventions. He can enhance his own physical and mental skills.

While also being able to utilise that energy into projectiles and blasts in battle.

Also it fits in with his whole smart guy thing and the whole if I don't have this power am I really an asset sorta thing.

Because Donnie values his mind so much and also feels inferior when he can't solve everything.

And will get stretched thin if he doesn't take care of himself soo.

Fitting.

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Mikey: Aura manipulation

Aura is the energy formed from one's achievement of spiritual power through extreme mental focus and strong emotions.

Those that use this power can increase their natural abilities, attract and repel another person's aura, sense the aura, and project it.

I know the focus part might not fit but to me it represents how others view it.

That you need strong mental focus to manipulate aura.

But for Mikey it's through his emotions, what people say makes him weak but in truth makes him strong.

Mikey touches the hearts of everyone he meets and him being able to know someone on a fundamental level just by seeing their aura.

Fits to me.

Like dimension X Mikey who just understands how shit works without it making sense to others. And being able to use it battle, see people's true intentions and it linking in with him growing up.

Still retaining who he is but growing, learning.

And it being undoubtedly powerful even if it doesn't seem so.

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Casey: Magnetic projection

The ability to use the pressure of magnetic fields to propel metal as projectiles.

It uses Casey's ability to think on his feet, use his own smarts and the mad scientist shit I absolutely adore for him.

Because only Casey Jones would go let's fuck with magnetic fields, that'll be fun.

Being able to turn something others would find useless like scrap metal and magnets and being able to turn into a unconventional but fucking awesome shit is so Casey.

That and the idea of Casey being able to create a fucking rail gun is everything and it sold it for me.

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I tried to word these best I could if you have any questions go for it 😅.

[dumbbitchdoestwitch]

We came, we saw & now there's a baby

Let me start by saying the post is brought to you by my current fever and my latest dose of robitussin. We're gonna talk about monster cock again but significantly less because tbh there was a lot less of it in the second Opal Reyne book. Spoilers ahead~

This is a long one and I don't have enough steam to shorten it soo strap in!

The second book is called A Soul to Heal (ASH) and I liked it - in some ways more than A Soul to Keep (ASK) and in other ways, a lot less. First of all, ASH has soooo much lore! Which is freaking amazing! I love it! Give me ALL the lore!!! I'll take it any way I can get it every day and twice on Sundays.

It's definitely still a horny book too but with a lot less pay off. Realistically, we have a ton of sexual tension and only a little bit of monster fucking. Part of that is by necessity for the characters & some of it feels like it’s to give room to explore a different dynamic.

In ASH, our characters have a very different situation than what we had in ASK. For one, our fmc, Delora, was tied up and tossed into the Veil as punishment for killing her husband and his mistress. Unfortunately, the mistress happened to be the mayor's daughter and the mayor felt he needed to use Delora as an example to solidify his power. Since Delora ended up in the Veil very much not by choice, she needed a bit more time to adjust to her relationship with a Duskwalker. Not that Reia had like the most choice either but slightly different than being tossed in, bound and gagged.

Anyhow so Delora falls into the Veil, lands on top of a Duskwalker just as that Duskwalker is wishing the perfect human for him would fall from the sky. The Duskwalker, who later is named Magnar by Delora, figures out how to heal Delora's injuries simply because he wants to learn something Orpheus doesn't know yet and because he finds Delora beautiful and wants her to be his bride. Once healed, Delora gives her soul to Magnar pretty much on the basis that she's going through some shit. She's sitting with a lot of self-loathing due to her recent double homicide and figures handing over her soul can't be any worse.

Just like Reia before her, once her soul is handed over, Delora becomes a creature in between life and death - a phantom. This enables her to have a physical form that bleeds and can die, a nonphysical form much like a ghost that can't be injured, and enables her to "respawn" on her Duskwalker in the event of death or if they are too far apart for over 24hrs. Regardless, after some run-ins with local demons, Magnar decides it would be best to move from his cave to the house he's been working on building. There, he has his personal protection ward covering the home and surrounding forests, and he can keep his precious bride, and her soul, safe.

The relationship in this one is a bit different because Magnar doesn't have as much humanity as Orpheus from the first book. Magnar is still very "green" to his urges and how to care for a human and communicate his needs and understand theirs. However, I will say their love is soft and tentative which was a beautiful contrast to their rough circumstances. I definitely preferred Orpheus but if you like cinnamon roll monsters who are absolute beasts in the sheets (err nest?), then Magnar might be more your speed.

For the monster fucking itself - it's a mixed bag. The scenes themselves are very well-crafted. That certainly remains constant. They're also very primal and passionate which is a nice contrast from the soft/tentative relationship we see during the day. The only one that rubbed me the wrong way (pun intended) was the first one. For me personally, that first steamy scene is a little rough because it feels like Delora may be taking advantage of Magar's naivety a bit. This thought is even brought up in Delora's perspective (because just like the first book - Reyne really tries to address everything). Later, we see this isn't really the case, but, initially, it feels conflicting. I will say that inner conflict is also a large part of the scene for Delora, so maybe it's a big plus that the emotion comes through so strongly. Take that as you will and definitely give it a read if you like your monster fucking to have ~layers~

Now, being unaware Magnar would need the knowledge so quickly (& because Magnar was hiding his bride on purpose), Orpheus failed to share the spell for preventing pregnancy. So as many such unprotected nights of passion before it, this one leads to a baby. As we learn from the Owl Witch (a guiding being for the Duskwalker's in both books), the pregnancy will be extremely fast and exceptionally difficult for Delora.

After a short, uncomfortable pregnancy, out comes baby Fyodor who immediately tries to eat Delora because they are, surprise, surprise, a baby Duskwalker. At this point, we learn very clearly that Duskwalkers are born without features, genderless, insatiably hungry, and very triggered by the scent of blood. Some of this information isn't new, but, with a partially human mother who just gave birth, it makes Fyodor very dangerous. There's a sizeable section after this that reads like a recounting of a kind of post-partum depression stemming from Delora's fear of her child and her rapid pregnancy, but, from there on, the majority of the story is about raising Fyodor and finding out where Duskwalkers come from.

I will say that throwing a baby in the mix is not my favorite way for a monster fucker book to turn, but it definitely did sate my need for more lore about this exceptionally built-out world. We learn so fucking much about the world as Delora and Magnar navigate it together, and it's absolutely a wonderful way to get a crash course of the world it all fits into.

I also deeply appreciate how much these books set each other up. It always feels so organic when they introduce the next Duskwalker, and I really can't wait to read the next one. I'd also like to add that it was also lovely to see Orpheus and Reia again - so gosh darn cute and in love, and to see Orpheus step into a big brother role for Magnar. So, if you like your monster fucking with a crap ton of lore, love watched a sweet, soft love grow and don't mind having a little bit of a slow burn while our mc's are raising Fyodor, I'd highly recommend diving into A Soul to Heal.

[flames-memory]

Monday morning

BC took me to this cool fancy mall, and we had dinner. It was fun, just nice to have a cozy moment, have dinner. We went home and snuggled to sleep.

Night

Billy asked BC to run the club tonight, he had something come up. She did great, people were dancing and moshing. The music was great. It wasn't the big crowd of opening night, but I thought it was decent. BC was worried it was too quiet.

Tuesday morning

Mistress took me back to the same club as the first time with Faye. I wrote the blindfold, and I could hear all the people there, but it didn't matter. I didn't care as much, since I couldn't see them. It was intense and, of course, amazing.

Tuesday

I am NOT. Soo... Weird dreams. Eliza was there with BC when I woke up, they had dinner ready, or mostly eaten. It was nice to chat, but for some reason I didn't really want to..

Yeah that's a lie. I didn't feel as comfortable around Eliza. I think she's nice, but I'm not fully comfortable with her, knowing how she prioritized BC recently. I don't need her in my problems.

Sniffing, running, city, trees, Hellions... Smashed.. ha.. fire doesn't hurt... Searching... But not.. no.. no longer desperately. Curiously. Familiar. Uncomfortable.

What's all that? That's all I got right now. That and.. "Not". I am Not. A name??

Whatever. I'll figure it out. It doesn't seem to be imminent disaster.

I need a better schedule. When Eliza said she was going to Black Cat, I wanted to throttle her. WTF?

I don't understand people.

I can't straight out understand, so my brain comes up with maybes.

Maybe Eliza is mad cuz I butted in.

BC been busy a lot, really, the last few weeks. With Faye, with other people sometimes. I never know for sure. I certainly didn't mind, I was aware when I got involved with her that she was a busy person. At least I could look forward to seeing her when she wasn't . Everywhere we go out seems there's someone she's close to. Some of them are friendly. I finally have a few people i'm starting to 'know', people I can have a conversation with. I'm seeing Mark around more, and Andres and I are slowly becoming friends, although he's a busy little spark himself.

I feel like I year Max as backup. His plan b joke been bugging me, since he's not all wrong. I tried to make it up to him, even if he didn't mean it, by giving him some focus, and luckily, BC turned out to have 'throuple' dates with Eliza and Sebastian a bunch since they been back from Paris, so it worked out pretty well.

Till today.

I took a job I didn't have to, thinking she had movie plans with Eliza. Why? I think she did one night, way back when, and somehow Tuesdays are always weird, and other than it one night at the movies, I just thought it was like, their thing.

And I hate to say it, but I'm not eager to hang out with Eliza yet. I guess I have to forgive her for putting BC through some unnecessary shit first.

If it had been Faye, it wouldn't have been the same. Although... Here's more maybes now.

Maybe things seem weird and tense cuz we're worried about Faye. Maybe Faye being missing means suddenly, BC has a bunch of free time. Maybe I'm not sure where that thought leads, but I wish Faye were back, so I didn't get too used to BC being bored and lonely, for ME to get used to having so much of her time before Faye comes back. Faye's going to be around a lot more, which means everything will change, as far as our schedules and when we see each other, I think.

I'm not good at this stuff. I wish I was. I know I love them, but I'm scared I'm not enough for both, and I'm not willing to lose either. Imma just fuck it up till one chooses to leave me, I guess.

[lotuslol]

Me: I wish I could go back to my interests again instead of feeling so preoccupied by things that make me sad, that happened when I was in the awake mental coma called dpdr, which makes them hard to mentally absorb or process because it all feels sudden to a part of me like someone just dropped a lot of mental baggage for me to handle all at once while actually it took 8 months of immense pain and 10 of illness.

This makes me go through that awkward moment where I talk to my patron saint and I feel soo blessesd and glad yet in so much pain simultaneously.

Brain on dpdr: well say no more!!

*gets "blessed" with painful numbness that doesn't work anyway* WHYYY?!!

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Me: sad and in pain where I can't reach mentally from dpdr

Brain, in desbelief: you have a patron saint who loves you, why are you sad?!

Me: *face palm*

*****

Me: *heals a little more suddenly and realise my life without dpdr is quite kind and nice actually*

Brain: well, that makes your life better than others, no need to complain about your illness since it's not as big as other people's issues! (eventhough I am still ill and going to hurt eventually after that moment of breathing air for once!)

Me: *visible confusion and immense frustration* why...do you hate me?

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Dpdr is the emobodiment of dehumanizng torture :')))

You are going to be flipped upside down, feel immense pain that is one step away from being fully physical, feel sexual sensations when you usually don't feel them and you don't know why!!, be broken in places you never realised could break at all in yout soul, lose a lot of yourself and be unsure if you will ever return back to normal, lose most of your brain's ability to reason and cognitively function, having a hard time recognizing your face and when you do you remember all that happened and feel awful, regain everything slowly and painfully in months.

AAAND ON TOP OF ALL OF THIS?! you get your personal abuser who suppresses your emotions for you, gaslights you into believing you are a boy or gay, ridicules you for being in pain and scared and existing and wanting to be yourself again, forces ypu into fixing life issues when you are not stable to handle them properly, guilt trips you so painfully you feel kicked out of God's mercy for messing up while trying to deal with your life issues and you do something wrong or sin accidentally.

And all in the comfort of your own home where no matter how much you try to explain your pain, no one not even your therapist will understand because your linguistic skills dropped so bad and you are panicking so much you can't talk about it without triggering yourself so bad, and unless you feel it you can't comprehend it, and you are sure you are glad they don't understand because it is something you don't wish upon anyone, but you need the rescue so bad it hurts that no one would have come to save you, not even God unless you ask for it? I don't know, it felt like I sniffed drugs from a dirty toilet :'( (I have never tried high drugs before, but I imagine it felt like that if you reacted negatively to them)

My cousin who is a college student thinks I am so comfy because of sleeping enough and I am like "I wish..."

I sleep a lot but it isn't enough because it isn't actual healing :'( it' s trying to compensate for the exhaustion I am going through and so numb to realise

On top of all! I go to job training in a private retail pharmacy where my employer thinks I can't handle shit on my own at work, and so I am demoted from employee to trainee (I go full hours but don't get paid to get enough experience before I can actually get paid), that demotion made my superior decrease the work demand off me (work that I am capable of doing well and she could ask me but she decided not to because I am a trainee eventhough when I was a possible employee she askes these things from me) and she puts all the load on the other employee and the other employee looks visibly exhausted and irritated and I am like waaaat????

Besides in retail pharmacy I do more as a pharmacy acountant than an actual pharmacist and it is so stressful because a monetary loss or gain demands attention to detail that doesn't involve my academic skills or research skills or creative skills and a mistake done is so demanding and stressful when your employer asks you "why do you think we have a monetary loss there?" and I am like idk?? I was busy trying to keep up with the customers demands and the unorganized work that feels like chaos if I am a little weaker than usual that day and my weak math skills and you ask me to try to remember the day's details?

This all makes me think maybe the medical rep field wasn't that bad until I remember that I am required to commute around for insane amount of hours to convince people with a product as a job and if I don't do that I will face the possibility of getting fired from my job, and I am the kind of person who respects people's opinions on these things so I am like wut? Not my thing at all!!

Augh this feels messes up :'/

I don't want to go to "work" if we can call it that

And ALL of this are beside that one or 2 childhood traumas about my body that I will not address here so yikes, talk about the ride of my life in a year!

I was looking forward to be 23 like my patron saint but no I spent it being in pain :'(

I am suddenly 24, which makes me glad because it means I survived a year to see myself be 24!!!

But I missed out on adding 23 to my years (something kind tells me that I didn't miss out, and once I heal I will remember all the cool things I did despite my illness and I will feel glad about it despite everything)

I miss feeling like a part of my life...I miss the ease of living as myself.

Now as I return as myself, I remember all the mucky things I did without proper will and out of pain to relief myself from the pain, it makes my face not as bright as it uses to be in the mirror when I was in college.

"Take courage, you will meet brighter days like before" I feel, and it's kind enough to save me from falling to some form of despair. Not as dark as dpdr but I deserve some kindness from any form of despair now.

[gangrenados]

Do you have any thoughts on soft yandere dick? I feel like this has soo much potential! Personally I picture him as being soft in the sense that he worships you. Like completely idolizes you to point of obsession and would do anything you asked. He also doesn’t have a lot of boundaries you probably catch him peeking through your panty draw a lot, and that’s before you even get together. But his casual obsessiveness is also charming. Like you probably haven’t and won’t ever find someone as dedicated as to you as he is. Also I feel like soft yandere Dick would never pressure you. Like he may want you to fall in love and have kids with him and he’ll be honest about that, but if that’s not what you want he’ll respect it. Basically as long as you let him in your life, even as a friend he’s fine. Just don’t expect him to not be clingy and very open about the fact that he loves you.

Sorry that kinda turned into a Drabble lol thoughts?

Okay yes and no at the same time. Let's do this in points and I'm talking about general Dick btw

Tw: yandere themes.

How he sees you: Dick idolizes you, you're put high in a pedestal and he's blinded by his love for you. However, that doesn't mean Dick will do anything you ask as if he were a pet.

He might be delusional, but Dick still is conscious about his choices and what will benefit this relationship and your safety, even if that's against your will.

He firmly believes he's doing the best for you and the fact that no one in this world would look after you the way he does. You're his number one priority and that position sometimes puts in a place of weakness and vulnerability since, in his eyes, you can't take care of yourself.

How he treats you: Dick is sweet and charming with you that will make you question if he actually deserves the cold shoulder. Even though he kidnapped you and forced you to live with him with the excuse that "it's better this way since you'll be safer and that he loves you", Dick is extremely patient and loving with you.

He's understanding, but not permissive and therefore if you do something wrong you'll be punished depending on the gravity of the act.

He wants to be fair and firm with you, but he believes that if you give the hand then people are gonna grab your arm so trying to push Dick and bend that patience to your advantage might end in isolation or as he calls it "time out" cause in that way it doesn't sound so severe, maybe even the use of a little bit of violence in some cases.

How far they're willing to go: Dick is not afraid to hunt you down and chain you if that means making you stay with him.

He'll drag you back with him no matter what and keep in mind that it's extremely hard to get ride of him, I mean, he's a genius detective with a ton shit of connections, trying to escape is a lost cause.

Also I know Nightwing is not known for his violence, but he's willing to end someone's life if they've hurt you.

Misc: Dick is probably one of the most sweet and patient yanderes out there, yes he's manipulative and intense, but unlike others, Dick won't force you to fully give yourself to him.He just wants to be by your side and take care of you. That's it.

Souvenirs: it might sound weird, but Dick has an small collection of your belongings, the adrenaline of stealing them and the fact that their yours makes it even better.

He always goes for the personal belongings rather that you use the most, clothes are the most priced stuff since they smell like you.

Red flags:

•Extremely manipulative and king of gaslighting: Dick is smart and knows how to make his way to get in that pretty brain of yours and fuck things up.

He's so sweet and charming you wouldn't even realize what is he doing!!

•Overprotective: He's afraid someone is out to get you and you getting hurt in general. Living in a vigilante environment hasn't done any justice to this trait.

•Doesn't know about boundaries: Dick knows every little thing about you and all of your relationships (family, friends, etc), he's also not afraid to put a tracker in you or put security cameras on your house to see if you're doing alright. He cares too much.

Also has the habit of stalking you, like in a physical form, you know taking some time to go check up you either dressed up as Nightwing or himself.

Also personal space? What is that?? Dick is so clingy, he craves your touch and attention as if it were a drug. He loves it and will force it even if that means tying you up and make you cuddle with him.

He won't cross that line with sexual relationships though, he wants the sex to be a real and pure thing. Forcing it would only make it dull and lifeless.

•Control Freak: he grew up with Bruce, what were you expecting? This is closely related to our prior point, so there's not much to say besides the fact that Dick likes to be in control of pretty much everything.

It gives him a sense of relief and calmness to know he's the one taking the strings of all of this. Even though he doesn't want to admit it, Dick control the majority of things you do now that you're his darling.

He thinks it's better this way since he's the only one who knows how to take care of you, he likes it that way. So if you wanna do a new thing like a hobby or get something for yourself you have to ask for his permission.

•Jealousy and lack of trust: Dick hates when you talk to people he doesn't know, it irritates him since you're breaking his need of control.

The fact that he doesn't know that person irks him, he hates it and he hates it more if you give him that damn attention he wants.

The most unhinged version of Dick might stamp this person's face against the concrete repeatedly , but soft Dick just gives them a cold stare full with hatred and judgment....he's holding back

[peanut-booi]

Thank you @lovebillyhargrove for tagging me <3 i’m honored

Let’s go ! :D

1. Do they get together before the mindflayer possessed Billy or after shit goes down (or maybe during😲)?

I like to headcanon that Billy and Steve were together between season 2 and 3 maybe friends with benefits that ended up to lovers, but Billy freaked out about the all falling in love feelings so they've eventually broke up in an emotional argument, and through season 3 they still have feelings for each others but doesn't assume them, they deny them ;~; sooo season 4 reunion, they'll definitely kiss hard, tears and sad giggles because they've missed each other so much q~q

2. Who kisses who first?

I would say Steve, he's romantic and just wants to be in love with someone that he cares for and makes him feel fulfilled, so he shows it. Billy will not assume himself being gay, falling in love with someone like Steve feels impossible so when his feelings are reciprocal it just feels unreal.

3. Where do they have their first sex? (Location) (HJs and BJs count)

I don't know what HJ and BJ mean ( edit: now I'm aware of the meaning 👀 ) I would definitely say a party or Billy's camero, their sexual relationship has started softly/slowly with HJ/BJ to see if each other was into it, and maybe for more.

4. Who says 💖 I love you 💖 first?

Like I said, Billy wouldn't feel confident enough to tell Steve. And Steve would not hide his feelings and love thoughts :3

5. Bottom!Steve or bottom!Billy?

I believe in them switching ^^ if it's bottom Steve it would be dominant bottom Steve for me, I don't really like Steve being powerless or seen as a virgin when he's a bottom Soo :3

6. Do they give gifts to each other?

Not at first, they are just friends with benefits so presents are out the table because giving something to someone would mean having feelings for each other. And that’s something Billy wants to avoid unintentionally. They would potentially give each other mix tapes. But if do end up being together, they would give each other little stuff like jewelries, tapes, maybe even do clothes sharing :3

7. Where do they end up living? California, Chicago, Hawkins… idk. Alaska?? Any other location?

Away from Hawkins for sure, maybe California ? at least somewhere where they could be happy, proud of them and enjoy like near ocean to surf or swim :3

8. What are their future jobs?

ah hard question, i’ve remembered someone mentioning Steve as like a nurse or something similar and i like the idea of Steve becoming a caring person, wanting people to feel better and to protect them; If not, maybe a small job in a little shop/market at least feel good where he works. As for Billy, mechanic Billy is always the first choice, it fits him :3 Maybe Lifeguard again ? as a partial job ?

9. Who’s a better cook?

Uhh i don’t know, i feel like Steve will only know the basic meals but he would mostly order food since he lives “ alone “ and with school and all, you don’t want to waste your time cooking big meals for you when no one is here to at least congratulate you :/ Billy knows how to cook basic meals too for Max and him when their parents aren’t home. He maybe knows special meals that his mom was cooking for them or him especially :3

10. Steve Hargrove or Billy Harrington?

Billy Harrington, Billy hates his father so changing his last name for Steve’s one is a way to end the family descendants and annoy his father, which can also annoy Steve dad.

11. What’s Max’s reaction when she hears they’re together?

Confused, she would not believe her eyes or ears x) “ you gotta be joking “ She definitely would not understand how Steve ended up with Billy because he’s gross and quite “ selfish “ with himself you know ? ( admiring himself and being proud of the way he looks ). She’ll probably makes comments everytime she sees them together but deep down she’ll be happy to see Billy slowly changing and being happy, same for Steve even though she’ll be annoyed to see Steve waiting at the front door or trying to enter by the window x) 

12. Describe in one sentence Hopper’s reaction when he hears the names Hargrove and Harrington mentioned together? 

Annoyed, if he doesn’t know that they are together or friends (w/benefits) Hopper will be annoyed and mad to go separate them fighting until he arrives ready to give them a lesson, and find them having a moment 7w7 he goes from annoyed to embarrassed to understanding ( with a bit of annoyment ) 

13. Does Robin like Billy or does Robin hate Billy?

She’ll be annoyed first, because Billy is the new King of the school and she definitely doesn't like popular guys, being bullies and who are putting themselves under the spots like they were better than anyone. But she will start to understand him, know him and she will like him but still thinks he’s gross, making gross comments about what he’s doing with Steve and comments on Robin about how she should move her ass to go get her crush. Billy will be playful with her but if Robin needs support, advices Billy will be serious about it but add jokes and funny comments to de-stress her :3

14. What about Dustin?

ohh Dustin ?! Just like Max but he still would not accept the fact that Steve fell for someone like Billy Hargrove, sometimes things can go well when they talk about nerd subjects that Steve isn’t into ot interested into, it can end up in big arguments with middle fingers/confused/disapproval looks and sometimes they do agree with each other. But Dustin will be jealous deep down of Steve and Billy being together.

15. Fave harringrove AU?

uhh i don’t know, i like them all in their own way. I love the classic one with Billy surviving or avoiding season 3 :3

16. Billy + Camaro =…?

Love, he likes his car because it represents him, highlights him, translates his personality and it’s probably the only thing that reminds him of good times in California. ( i think he might even been meticulous with it like my brother x) )

I’m tagging @memes-saved-me @ihni if you want to do it and any one who wants to do it ^^”

[healpeony]

𝐁𝐞𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐚𝐥 𝐈𝐈

𝐄𝐫𝐞𝐧 𝐘𝐞𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐑𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐀𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐧 𝐀𝐫𝐥𝐞𝐫𝐭

Part 1

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Some of you guys asked and you shall receive! So here is part two!

Warnings; memories of sex, cussing, "cheating", slight choking, loss of virginity.

Gif not mine

Eren couldn't believe what y/n said, with Armin out of all the people inside the walls it was him that she decide to cheat on him with?

"Why him?" Eren asked his voice turning from the anger he felt, to a emotionless whisper

He felt so betrayed, he didn't think Armin out of all people would do that to him. Armin knew how strong his feelings for Y/n, he had no right to feel the way he was feeling after all he did, but he couldn't help feeling that way.

"It happened randomly, I didn't expect it to happen" y/n lied, putting on her clothes

"But you did choose to loss your virginity to him" Eren pointed out staring at her while she moved around the room putting her clothes on

"I did." Y/n said stopping her movements

She could remember everything from that night, it was so special, she felt so loved.

She didn't know how they ended up like this, her and Armin sharing longing kisses, they were just speaking about how hard everything is going, they were just trying to cope with everything, Eren leaving and so much more and they ended up in this situation

"I don't want to take advantage of you y/n" Armin had said, but he still didn't stop kissing her neck while moving her against his clothed cock

"It's ok Armin, I'll tell you if I'm uncomfortable" she answered out of breath and moaning

Armin nodded, biting the flesh of her neck, while standing up grabbing her thighs, squeezing the firm and strong flesh.

He walked over to his bed, gently putting her down while kissing her soft lips, his hands went into her inner tights massaging the area causing more wetness to pool on between y/n legs.

"Armin.." she moaned, no words could describe how she was feeling right, she could knew that her inner thighs were a sensitive area of hers, but having someone else touching her there was just soo incredible and new to her "Please touch me more.." she begged

Armin teased her a by not complying right away, but eventually give him and cupped her cunt through her pants causing her to moan, not used to any person touching her in such an intimate manner and place.

"You're so sensitive aren't you?" Armin said, staring at her face while rubbing her through the fabric

Her face was flushed from both pleasure and embarrassment for reacting like that so easily, she bit her lip trying to keep the noises in.

Armin put his unoccupied hand around her neck , adding pleasure to both clit and neck "I want to hear those pretty noises"

"Are you thinking about him?" Eren asked pulling her out of the memories, standing up from the bed covering the hurt in his voice with an emotionless one

"No." Y/n said trying to make her voice firm

She wasn't so confused about her feelings, what she felt for Armin after that night was so special, something she felt when she spoke to Eren for the first time.

"Do you have feelings for him?" Eren came up behind her, grabbing her arms and turning her around forcefully "Just because he fucked your needy and virgin cunt? That good for nothing goody two shoes, did he even got you off or did you faked" he spoke out of jealousy, he didn't mean to speak of Armin like that, but he couldn't help it

She was surprised by the way he spoke to her, she thought that he only would speak to her like that during their intimate time "Watch your mouth!, I didn't fake anything. He showed affection for me! He was there for me.." she snapped at him glaring dagger into his eyes, her voice lowering into a whisper at the end because of the dangerous look in his eyes

"So you're saying that I didn't show you how much I love you?, You want to go at it again?" he questioned, his grip on her arms tightening

"What? No! What the fuck is wrong with you. You know it was a mistake, I-" she try to explain herself but she however was cut off by him

"A mistake?, Oh so you didn't feel anything?" he interrupted y/n, who was struggling against his hold

Her movements stopped as she remembers how she felt apart from pleasure during her time with Armin.

"It hurts" she said tears going down her cheeks as Armin continued to push in

"Shhhh, it's ok. The pain it's going to be over soon" he said a encouraging smile forming on his face

Y/n nodded at him, silence words telling him to continue which he did.

She felt like she was loved, Armin stroking her cheeks with affections while entering her, how gentle he was being. The hand wrapped softly but firmly around her throat, a reminder of who was in control of the what they were doing.

"Y/n.." he softly moaned, his cock all the way in now "I love you" he said before he started going in and out of her at a slow and deep pace

Her mind was filled with millions of questions, but she didn't ask them out loud and neither does she repeat his words back to him not knowing how to respond.

Had he always liked her?

"He had feelings for you" Eren said letting go of her arms "probably even before I did, he never said them though"

"Then if you knew, why did you asked me out?" y/n responded stroking her soon to be bruises arms

"I didn't know about his feelings for you until a while after I started to date you" Eren responded trustfully "I noticed how he gave us sad glances when he thought we weren't looking, or how he looked like he wanted to hit me when I yelled at you"

"I see your point, but that doesn't mean anything" y/n said continuing to put her boots on

"So he didn't say anything that night? Not even a 'I like you'?" Eren curiously asks

Y/n looked down before answering "He did"

"Well then what more prove do you want?, Don't you have enough?" Eren said rolling his eyes "Soo do you like him back?"

Y/n slowly look over at Eren seeing him staring straight at her too with a raised eyebrow.

"You like him." he concluded "ok"

"ok?, That's all you're going to say to me?" y/n asked

"Yes, he doesn't have much to live, so you would be unhappy anyways" Eren said casually

"So now you want me to be unhappy, just because I want someone else?" Y/n stated, not really questioning him

"Armin isn't just someone else, I grew up with him. He was one of my best friends, he really betrayed my trust by doing this"

"Oh so now you're saying we betrayed you when you  have no right to say that about him!” y/n responded, pointing a finger at him with anger in her eyes “He killed people!, even though he felt guilty after it, and didn't even want to do it in the first place, he did it for you, for Mikasa, for me, for Paradise! He was always there for all of us and has always been the smart mind behind all our successful plans!”

Eren couldn't argue with her there, since he knew she was saying the truth. The way she spoke about Armin, and defended him hurt him more deeper than he had been. It was like she loved Armin.

“And if you think that defending him means I like him in any way other than platonic!, then guess what?! I probably do..” she continued saying

Eren's heart stopped beating at her words, no she couldn't, it was just one night with Armin, how could she like him all of the sudden, unless she had liked him before their one night stand.

“Since when do you feel different about him?” Eren's question came out as a whisper, but loud enough for her to hear him, he look at her in he eyes again

“Since we saw the ocean, while you were focused in the enemy, he was trying to make me happy with his laughs and his smart jokes” Y/n said softly, Eren could see a small smile forming on her beautiful face

“So why were you with me?” he asks

“I guess it was because I missed you, and I was Jealous of Armin speaking to her” she answered truthfully

“I was just a way to forget your pain?” Eren questioned

“Don't look at me acting all hurt, like you probably didn't just used me for your own pleasure” she said scoffing while rolling her eyes at him

“Leave” he turned around going into the bathroom

“Gladly” she said standing up and going straight out of the room

When Eren was sure she was far enough and wouldn't come back he broke down, hot wet tears rolling down his cheeks as he grabbed and pull at his own hair.

“Why?, I love her...” Eren said “I don't want to let her go” he said shaking his head

Upon arriving to her destiny, Y/n knocked on the door, the wood door was shortly opened bye a blue eyed, blonde haired boy.

“Hi” was the first thing the boy said while she throw herself into his arms crying into his shoulder

“I told him the truth Armin” she said

Armin didn't need to ask, because he knew who she was talking about.

“You did?” he asked caressing her hair

“Yes but..... I... I slept with him..” Y/n answered pulling away from the hug, feeling disgusted with herself

“It's ok, we're going to be ok. You, me and our baby” Armin said smiling softly while putting a hand on her stomach

“I hope that's true”

Second if you don't understand why she is denying her feelings for Armin and why she slept with Eren when she was in a relationship with with him here is why, she was afraid that Eren might do something to Armin, and the reason she slept with him was because she thought that he could possibly hurt her and end up hurt her baby as well.

Part 3

So there is few things I want to say, first sorry for any mistakes and the long wait.

And third, I might do a part 3, about the domestic life of Armin and y/n after all the shit goes down and the baby is born.

@cowbunnypop @46inpm @annieisyes @sofi-yeager you showed an interest so I figured you would like to be tagged.

[landonkirbyappreciation]

Am honestly so tired of crying/stressing over Landon honestly, in the show they treat Landon like shit !!! And am gonna blame the writers, Landon as soo much potential to be a great character (he already is don't get me wrong) but look at how aria played malivore badass malivore so why can't we get a badass Landon too + his phoniex side??.. There is Soo many more instresting plotlines and storylines Landon could get and one that doesn't involve him dieing every second, using him as a meat suit or wrapped up in realtionships all the time ( I love handon Soo much don't get me wrong) but Landon as soo much potential outside of it all...

Nobody cares about Landon both the writers and other characters (expect for hope & raf) and it shows alot through them, if the writers don't like how they write Landon's character or even like Landon at all why not just re adjust his Character (not saying they should change his personality on how he cares about others even if they don't care about him or how he would risk his life for others) but at least write him a little better they fcked up his character from the very beginning and it's even worst in season three they didn't even show what Landon went through in the prison world and he was gone a whole season🤦 but the writers lazy enough to even care🤦..

My heart hurts Soo much where Landon is concerned and I honestly can't take it, he's gonna be in season 4 he's in 4x06 he anit gonna die for good, Dani said handon is gonna be on a pause and there's gonna be a readjustment period where they might have to find there self out of the relationship but it won't. Be forever. so during that pause I want them to actually grow is character explore him a little bit more give him some storylines etc then both hope and Landon can come back stronger than ever.. Brett said this season is gonna be darker so they need to drop the childish mentally when it comes to Landon because all they doing with is character is Soo fcking childish, it's time for maturity now you understand??.. in 4x06 he's gonna get a supprise visitor only people I can think of from the top of my head is his mom, Clarke or raf whoever it is Landon needs time for himself...

They even doing more for Cleo's character than they did for Landon's the whole show and see they even showing what Cleo is going through in the darkness which we didn't even get to see with Landon and it's sad, it's all obvious there tired of Landon's character so why not just write him off then ( tho that shit would hurt my soul even more ) but am just tired!!.. they bring new characters in like finch and Ethan and when they get them for what they need is like they don't remember there in the show there's no storyline or plotlines there just there🤦.

Landon gets hate outside of the show for stupid reason sometimes it's all because he's in the way of there ship.. So I try my best to stay on the handon side of the nation where there's majority of them some under quit but there's alot of handon's and you all love Landon so you get less negativity there when it comes to Landon...

I only watch the show for both hope and Landon as a couple and as individuals and if they keep treating him like this I don't think am gonna be able to continue watching cause my heart honestly can't take it 😭...

Sorry if this is long I feel safe here..

Me too, and seriously, the way they treat Landon is sick. And yeah, I already think Landon is a great character, I don’t need him to be a badass (though I’m not opposed to it), and I would love to see him with his phoenix side again. They really have completely wasted so many opportunities for Landon. And the thing is that they had these incredibly interesting storylines for him all set up that would’ve been amazing to see and they did nothing with them. Landon was in Malivore, which we could’ve seen more of, but they only chose to show him dealing with the Necromancer (which was better than nothing, but still). Then they show him having to do something he’d never do and beating up the Necromancer in order to escape. Then he’s trapped in the prison world and gives this whole speech about how he’s gonna get himself home no matter what it takes. And then they show NONE of it! It was the perfect storyline for Landon for s3, where they could’ve shown him learning how to fight and survive on his own, and who knows what he had to do to escape and how it changed him or affected him mentally and emotionally. There was just SO much, it’s still insane to me that they threw it out the window. And then the fact that he escaped but also somehow got possessed, which we still don’t know exactly how or when that happened. And then he was possessed for weeks, Malivore was hiding doing who knows what, and they don’t go into any of it? And they could’ve been showing Landon inside his mind this whole time too. Why are they not letting Landon participate in the fight against Malivore when he could be fighting him mentally? It’s just... it’s crazy. And they could also be focusing on his trauma as well, which could be another really interesting and important storyline for him and something they definitely need to do once he’s free, but you know they still won’t even address that after all of this. And then of course his phoenix side is a whole other thing they could explore too, actually explaining the details of what he is and what it all means, but once again, they do nothing. You’d think as writers they’d want to explore all these things, but no. So they actually have had amazing storylines for Landon, the issue is the fact that they didn’t actually show any of them. So it’s basically for nothing, at least in regards to Landon himself and his own growth and character arc. He literally had the most interesting and significant storyline in s3 that he might end up having in the entire show but it’s like the writers did everything they could to avoid showing any of it on screen. Because they clearly don’t care about him and have made the characters not care about him as well. And who knows if it’s even about them not liking how they write him, I mean, they’re the ones in control. So it’s their own fault if they don’t like him, it’s their responsibility, but they’ve done this all on purpose and who has a clue why? It feels like they’re just trying to appease all the haters, honestly. I’ve never seen anything like this before in any show, with them treating the male lead this way. But I think Landon as a character is written well, I don’t think they’ve screwed his character up. I think it’s the fact that they’ve neglected him almost entirely, his whole s3 storyline, his trauma, his growth (which we know he surely must have had), everything basically. So, to me, it’s not so much that they have to write Landon as character better, they just need to actually SHOW the story they have written for him and how that’s impacted him as a character.

So yeah, I feel you, I really can’t take all that they’ve done to Landon either. It’s definitely painful to see. And yeah, he’s in 4x06, but we also know he’s in 4x05 as well. So we know he won’t be gone for good, but yes, Handon will have a pause for whatever reason. And I agree, I hope they’ll do something to actually focus on Landon during the pause. I think he’s already grown and he’s already had more storylines but again, we just didn’t see any of it. If they were gonna do it right, they’d somehow go back and explore what happened in s3, in flashbacks or something. I think it’s so crucial for Landon’s character and to know what happened to him and what he went through. And then also focus on his mental health and his healing and recovery, while also hopefully exploring his phoenix side eventually as well. But I feel like we’ll be lucky to get any of that tbh. I’m not expecting anything at this point. Maybe his phoenix powers, if anything, but I feel like they’re gonna continue to pretend like nothing happened to him in s3. And it really is childish mentality, they don’t wanna address or explore anything that’s actually important regarding Landon. I seriously wanna know what goes on in that writer’s room... And yes, I guess Landon will get a surprise visitor. I just wanna know where on earth Landon is even gonna be after 4x04? Will be dead again and come back? If not, why would he be away from Hope? But yeah, I think it would make the most sense for the visitor to be Raf or Clarke or Seylah. But this is Legacies, it could be Santa Claus for all we know. 🙄 But I do hope that they’ll give Landon time to heal after all he’s been through, and that they’ll actually acknowledge that he’s been through something.

And ikr? They’ve done more for Cleo in this short period of time than they’ve done for Landon in 3 seasons. And yep, they’re actually showing Cleo in Malivore while completely ignoring Landon, who is literally possessed by Malivore and has been for how many weeks? Not that they’ll acknowledge his suffering at all. I just— it’s truly infuriating. But NO, I would not be able to handle them writing off Landon’s character. I’m tired too, believe me, but that would just make it all tons worse. Then it would just be done and over with no chance of anything good ever happening for Landon. And I get what you mean about other characters they add to the show as well, they just don’t explore other characters well at all and it is as if they’re just there? It feels like the writers don’t know what to do with the characters so much of the time, it’s very odd.

And yes, there’s been so much hate for Landon in the fandom for so long, and for the dumbest reasons, mostly just because of ships. I try and just stay on the Handon side of the fandom as well to avoid the Landon negativity, so that does help.

But same, I only watch the show for Hope and Landon as well. So it just makes it worse when they treat Landon how they do. That, plus where things have been going with Handon, it definitely makes me feel like I can’t watch anymore because it’s so disappointing. But I also feel like I’m always gonna want to at least see Landon, but it might be even more painful, idk. I guess we’ll see how it goes, but I understand where you’re coming from!

And no worries, I totally get it, and I’m glad you feel safe here, anon! 🥺❤️