#they also both have daddy issues but thats a different post

[dubacheryking]

its so important to me that tim and damian BOTH have mommy issues just completely different varieties. tim's mommy issues are "i need my mother's approval so i will become my mother" flavored and damian's mommy issues are "i need my mother's approval but also hate my mother so i am going to fuck my mother" flavored. hence why they fuck nasty and damian calls tim talia/mother like 17 times during

[corrodedcoffins-blog]

OK BUT SPENCER'S AND BAU TEAM REACTION TO TTPD????

spencer reid x famous!reader

warnings: miscarriage (will put a warning before and after), im basing most of the mention/emotions of miscarriages with my experience with my sister who has gone through a couple while she was trying for a baby as well as research i did, mention of weed

note: this has taken a while to write cause i wanted to interpret the songs on my own time before applying then to the au, so i hope it was worth the wait!

this quickly became my analysis of the songs (in the context of the au) rather than the bau's reactions

feel free to send a message to my inbox about what you think their reactions would be/fav songs i love hearing about that stuff from y'all 🩷

Fortnight (ft. Post Malone)

I don't picture this song to be about Spencer. I see it as more fictional in the way folklore and evermore were more fictional inspired by different things that have happened in her life. Also I feel like Emily likes Post Malone so she was excited for this song, and Penny love the ai fortnight but love the real fortnight better.

Spencer is always worried when a sadder song comes out that it's about him, but reader always reassures him that it's not and that she loves him.

The Tortured Poets Department

THIS SONG IS SO SPENCER REID CODED. "you're in self-sabotage mode" !!!!

I feel like this is Rossi's fav off the album 🤷‍♀️

I said this in an ask a while ago but sometime in 2020, maybe 2021, they had a sort of break and this song was written during that time for sure.

"but you told Penny you'd kill if I ever leave, and I said that to Jack about you so I felt seen, everyone we know why it's meant to be, cause we're... crazy" I feel like this line really explains the break they were on. Like they were so co-dependant and loved each other so much that it was the problem. Everyone knows they're meant for each other but they still get in their own way, Spencer with not wanting to get married when reader did, and reader not wanting Spencer to spend so much time with work. And they just weren't thinking of the same things at that time.

My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys

"He saw forever so he smashed it up" reminds me of "i wouldn't marry me either" but in 'you're losing me' she's blaming herself for the break whereas in this song she realized that it was Spencer and his commitment issues. Which always makes me think of the line "I'll tell you that he runs because he loves me" which can be seen as a really sad line but I think in this instance it's that she wants to accept him for all his faults, he's going to run sometimes when he gets scared but he always comes back, and they're working on that.

"Once i fix me, he's gonna mix me" reminds me very much like 'you're losing me'

"Stole my tortured heart, felt all these broken parts, told me I'm better off... but I'm not" do I have to say commitment issues and self-sabotage again?

Down Bad

Emily loves this song. She loves the vibes, she loves the lyrics, just everything.

In my eyes, it's about Spencer. Reminds me of "told me I'm better off... but I'm not."

So Long, London

Penelope's favourite part of the album is the opening of this song, first time hearing it she said it sounded like wedding bells.

In Virginia there's a town called New London thats 2hrs from Quantico... It's meant to be.

"Pulled him in tighter each time he was drifting away" you guys gonna make me say commitment issues every time?

She's clearly talking about her side of when they both weren't communicating and how he hurt her when he couldn't commit.

She really thought it was over when she wrote this.

But Daddy I Love Him

The shock in that room when she said "I'm having his babies!"... Derek found it hilarious, the girls were having a heart attack.

I think she's not not writing about Spencer in this song. Idk how else to explain, like it's kinda about backlash from every time she gets in a relationship no matter with who, which happened with Spencer so she's talking about that but not that exclusively. Does that make sense?

Fresh Out The Slammer

I think this song is about getting out of a relationship and now you're free to be with someone else who you've had your eye on. This song was written so long ago it's basically a rep vault track. In this au when reader and Spencer met reader was with Tom (i think??) but still gave Spencer her number and called him after she broke up with Tom, and that was the birth of this song.

Florida!!! (ft. Florence + The Machine)

Written about the idea of getting away, taking a break from life, while her and Spencer were on their break. She needed a break, all her friends were either single and smell like weed or they had kids and she wanted kids, but Spencer wasn't ready, so she had to get away from what reminded her of him.

Guilty as Sin?

"What if he's written 'mine' on my upper thigh only in my mind" she's imagining what it would be like if they got back together.

Is the second half of this song when she says "they're gonna crucify me anyway,,, i choose you and me, religiously.." And the song sounds like it ended but they she comes back in with the chorus, cause she thought it was over but now they're back better than ever.

"One slip falling into a hedge maze" a labyrinth is a hedge maze, because she fell back in love.

The last "Am I allowed to cry" is almost like can I cry from relieve? Relieve that it worked.

Who's Afraid Of Little Old Me?

This song is Spencer Reid coded.

Derek and Emily love badass-ery of this song. Pen loves the production "I love the production of this song!" "I'll pass that along to Jack."

Spencer just can't help but tell her he loves and is proud of her after hearing it.

I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)

This is about a past relationship, no way can I see this to be about Spencer.

I feel like JJ really likes this song.

loml

This song was written, probably not too long after 'you're losing me' when they had that break and she was in the depression stage. She wrote this when she thought she lost him, she thought she did all she could and still lost him.

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart

warning!!!miscarriage

I had written down the idea of them having miscarriage in my notes app a couple weeks or maybe even a month before the album, cause of the song 'bigger than the whole sky' and when I heard this song with this in mind it broke my heart, that I knew I had to do it.

I'm thinking they were trying for a while and having lots of trouble, then stopped when the tour idea was falling in place, but she ended up miscarrying during the practice for the tour while not knowing she was pregnant. Likely she didn't know because she was on birth control and because she was working so hard and so busy with Midnights and the tour.

So with all the trouble they were having trying to get pregnant, Spencer was grieving in his own way, sadly it hurt reader a lot. He was angry, he probably said things he didn't mean, they were both feeling so much sadness and anger and they couldn't handle it. I think at this time, they were still going to bed every night together, but it was off and they no longer spent time together. Spencer needed the time to himself, when all reader needed was time with him (want to be clear no one is in the wrong in this situation, it's just a fucking bad situation)

"He said he'd love me all his life, but that life was too short" has two meaning (they were having a boy)

"I can hold my breath, I've been doing it since he left. I keep finding his things in drawers, crucial evidence I didn't imagine the whole time, I'm sure I can pass this test." 😭 Like referring to her baby, and since they'd been trying before they had a couple baby things like clothes that she couldn't stop herself from getting in hopes 😭😭😭

end of warning

The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

Every verse I see as being about a different relationship. Working on re-records it's bring up old feelings and I think she just collectively put all the feelings into this song.

Spencer was beyond scared it was about him, he was already apologizing for making her feel that way before she could tell him it's not about him.

The Alchemy

This idea I have is so silly, that I think it works???

Spencer once said off-handedly that his job was kinda like football, it was strategy, and you failed a lot but sometimes things just fell into place like a puzzle. And reader ran with that idea, like she couldn't sleep that bight and just had the silly thought of Spencer, her Spencer, playing football and wrote this. Little off topic but I also think this about 'Miss Americana and The Heartbreak Prince' lol

Clara Bow

The self-name drop. The team's jaws were on the floor, their eyes were wide. When Pen realizes she's like "DID YOU JUST DAY YOUR OWN NAME??!?"

The Black Dog

Maybe like the team was seeing how Spencer was down recently and brought him out to a bar after work.

And Spencer didn't 'forget' to turn off his location he never did because he still had the hope that the relationship wasn't over, that this was just a rough patch.

imgonnagetyouback

Spoiler alert: she got him back.

Because no matter how much they hurt each other they're in love. And it reminds me of a boygenius lyric "You could absolutely break my heart, that's how I know that we're in love." that lyric in bodies them.

The Albatross

This is like a sister song to 'peace'

This song to me is obviously about the narrative that she's the problem. She's the one destroying all her relationships.

And she's telling Spencer in this song "I've been through this before, it doesn't matter."

Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus

This song is her thinking about them seeing other people. Her imagining him with other people, how much that hurts.

And around 2020-2021 maybe there were rumours about her seeing some athlete or something cause of 'And you saw my bones out with somebody new, who seemed like he would've bullied you in school'

And maybe not the entire song is about him (that's me trying to make him sound better) I see it as mostly her thinking off some what-ifs.

I think they both caused each other a lot of pain, but their love out-ways that completely.

How Did It End?

Written the same night as the Black Dog and she's thinking about what Spencer tells the team.

I see the fact she says 'it's happening again' instead of 'it's happened again' tells us that this is not a sure thing, she's thinking about what people will think if it does end.

So High School

What if it's just a lover vault track lol.

I Hate It Here

I think Penny really likes this song.

It's definitely written in the state of mind of the prophecy, that she's just not meant to be loved but she wants to so badly. So she escapes into her mind which I picture is folklore/evermore.

thanK you aIMee

They love the petty vibes, probably was Penny that first showed or sent a TikTok of North listening to reader's music and was like "girl, you see this yet?"

I Look in People's Windows

In this au I see this as a folklore or evermore vault track.

The Prophecy

Very similar to 'how did it end' and 'i hate it here'

Cassandra

Again it's very similar to 'mad women' so maybe she chose which one to put on folklore and put the other on this album.

Peter

I think she wrote this as a break up song, with a lot of metaphors but what sticks out to me is in the bridge.

"Cause loves never lost when perspective is earned, and you said you'd come and get me but you were 25,,,forgive me peter please know that i tried to hold on to the days that you were mine."

Spencer was 25 in this au when they met and it's so perfect and sad and I love it.

The Bolter

In this au the 'She' in this song is reader.

Robin

I feel boring by saying I think it's another track written in the fictional world of folklore and evermore, but for the au that's what I think!

The Manuscript

In the directors on directors interview she called the All too well short film script 'the manuscript' that's all the evidence I need.

Spencer encouraged her to write this song, because he saw all the emotions she was dealing with while writing/directing the short film.

[mazzystar24]

While I’ve seen a lot of criticism of the date scene/daddy kink joke (admittedly I also didn’t care for it), most of what I’ve seen are people criticizing the writing itself and not necessarily Tommy.

For me (and I think a lot of others), it’s frustrating to see what could be a very interesting and important relationship for Buck fall flat in a lot of areas. The writers had every opportunity to make it a very vulnerable and open scene but they didn’t take it. And I do very much understand joking about trauma; I do it all the time. I think that’s what Buck did when he mentioned the daddy issues, though I saw that as deflection through humor and not flirting. Daddy issues don’t automatically mean kink (though they can! I just didn’t think that was for sure the goal here). I just think that Tommy could have either made some light joke in return, instead of saying no I don’t have daddy issues (this I thought was odd since he mentions earlier in the scene issues with his own father), OR he could have said something sweet about being glad Bobby is okay or showing support for Buck.

It wasn’t the kink joke itself that was off putting but more the tonal shift of the scene and the missed opportunity. We have seen so little of their relationship and it’s development, so that kind of a scene is weird to see between a couple as assume doesn’t know each other very well. We really haven’t seen them be sweet and supportive together, and it’s infuriating that there have been so many opportunities to create scenes for them to do so but the writers haven’t.

Long story short: begging the writers to develop LIs better, especially if they’re sticking around for over a season.

THISSSS

like imma go point by point real quick:

• YES THEY COULDVE MADE THE BUCKTOMMY THING A MILLION TIMES BETTER AND MORE INETERESTING AND DEVELOPED BY SIMPLY MAKING VERY EASY AND OBVIOUS WRITING CHOICES

•same with the trauma jokes like I do it to myself and specific friends of mine do it to me too (and vice versa) - yeah honestly like I do see it was more humorous deflection but I guess that CAN be interpreted as flirting with the “both” which is why I call it that in the other post

• YESSS THATS WHAT I WAS TRYING TO SAY LIKE A JOKE ABOUT DADDY ISSUES IS DIFFERENT THAN A JOKE ABOUT DADDY KINK THEY CAN GO HAND IN HAND BUT THEY ARE DIFFERENT (but media does often make it synonymous -and ofc there is a real correlation but anyways that’s a whole tangent- so I get the confusion)

• but yeah that’s what I keep saying like the joke isn’t what’s bothering people it’s the execution of the joke and the tone of the rest of the scene and episode catches people off guard in a jarring way

• yes like what the writers have used the very little bucktommy screentime for has been A CHOICE so please writers redeem yourself in s8 and give me Hannah from bones energy I beg😭😭

[lunar-years]

I could possibly have stomached James being back and forgiven apparently, if it wasn't for the casually dropped in statutory rape, what on earth?? The writers were probably trucking along with their "everyone deserves forgiveness" train, meanwhile anyone with a jot of common sense had air raid sirens screaming "DO NOT LET THAT MAN NEAR JAMIE". I'd have been angry with the forgiveness side anyway (we see no signs that James is trying to be a better person or even that hes not going to try and beat the shit out of his son again, for all we know thats a court mandated rehab), but I could have sort of understood it. Adding in that fun little fact made James go from terrible horrific abuser to just completely unforgiveable.

honestly i completely agree with you. I know this is a very divisive arc and there were people who genuinely loved where they took it because it resonated with them in some way, especially for some people who have been through similar experiences and appreciated the recognition that someone like James could successfully change. I really try to accept and understand fans who have that opinion and I want to be very clear that I both recognize addiction is a disease and think there is nothing inherently wrong with wanting to or actually forgiving your abuser. Each situation is different! People suffering from addiction can absolutely recover! Individuals need to do what is right for them in their real actual lives, etc.

That said, the parts I loathe about the Jamie & James arc, from my own personal opinion, are:

any sort of relationship Jamie and James may have moving forward post-canon is inherently a complex one, but the writers did not address the conclusion of the arc complexly. At all. Instead it was "oh everything conveniently worked out and here they are happy and together" wrapped up in a 10 second flash-forward which is just...no.

there is absolutely no evidence that James' violence stems directly from his addiction. there is nothing to say a sober James isn't every bit as abusive as a drunken James. There is no indication that Jamie isn't putting himself back into a situation that is downright unsafe, or that he isn't at risk of coming into harm and being deeply hurt all over again. there is nothing to say James hasn't tried rehab before, and relapsed.

James never apologizes or owns up to his actions onscreen.

Jamie's decision to forgive his dad comes at a time when he's in a very vulnerable place mentally, having just come off a canonical depressive episode. He consults no one about forgiving his father apart from Ted, who is quite literally the worst person on the show he could have consulted (no offense, Ted, it's just that the man is incapable of being objective when it comes to Jamie and the father&son of it all). The decision isn't being made in a healthy state of mind and Jamie hasn't rallied a support group around him before taking the leap. From what we see on screen, he seemingly doesn't tell anyone that he's going to visit his dad in rehab.

there's a way that all of this can make sense. I can make sense of why Ted, with his own heaping helping of daddy issues, would give Jamie the advice he does. I can see why Jamie (again, in a vulnerable place) would take it! why he decides the right thing to do is to reach out to his dad! I can see him going to visit. I can imagine that visit going well or going poorly, can see James' stint in rehab being mandated, or also him checking himself it. But at the end of the day, those scenarios are all imagined! none of that nuanced context is provided on the show. Rather, the presentation and messaging are hasty and in my person opinion, flat-out dangerous. They lead the casual viewer to read Ted's advice as good (it categorically isn't), and Jamie as Doing the Right and Responsible Thing, when it's a hell of a lot more complicated that that.

it is also weird and complicated to have Jamie take Ted's advice over his mum's, who in the same episode, mind you, told him James was never ever going to change. again, we can jump through hoops to make sense of it, but we shouldn't have to.

there's absolutely a pattern of abuse being weirdly minimized on ted lasso/victims forgiving their abusers and i think that's gross. you can't claim to be a comedy show that dares to tackle real, tough issues in one breath and then expect us to laugh off abuse (Jane/Beard) in the next. Sometimes it's like they change what kind of show they want to be scene by scene, lol.

as you point out, in my opinion it is completely batshit on the writer's part to have introduced "btw Jamie's dad, who we've previously established beats him and verbally abuses him, ALSO proxy raped him when he was 14!" in the same season in which you plan to have Jamie forgive said father (with next to no buildup or context) just a few episodes later. Like, yes, let's add even deeper layers to Jamie's tragic backstory before we wash it away in feel-good reunion tosh! just, ew. what on earth were they thinking.

So all in all, I think the arc could have been successful if the writers had known where they were going with it from the beginning of the season and given it the kind of care that sort of storyline demands. However they didn't do that, and the end message is incredibly harmful as a result.

[nicegaai]

Su-san anon here I love you and your opinions sm. SuIce is so tasty I agree, personally I think Ice should have the most embarrassing daddy kink known to man and Swe should be eaten up by remorse bc of how much he enjoys little Aisu-kun calling him that when they fuck. When they're done Ice feels mortified and wants to hide from the world while Swe feels nauseous and thinks he should hand himself to the police. But they end up fucking again regardless lmao. This is my ideal dynamic for them, I'm afraid.

im holding your hand and we're skipping thru a beautiful meadow...

this boy needs a father figure so bad!!!!! dare i say ice has preexisting issues about den in this scenario ...

aikun and susan are the two most repressed gay men in the subarctic and i need them to bond about it So Bad i dont care HOW but i want it to GET WEIRD i need sweden to be the only one who rly listens to him and is a supportive mentor who sees himself in ice, and ice can look up to him like the father he never had (sorry den u werent very present..) and a role model and they both develop a thing for each other that they try and mutually keep repressed ...

and at first sure they have their cute little affair sans daddy kink and its already on the edge of appropriate. they can justify a few encounters and just not want anyone else to know — norway and denmark would freak out, swedens kids dont need to know hes getting laid, iceland is not universally recognized as an adult and thats problematic, its just casual and theyre private people... whatever reason. swedens into younger men and icelands into older men and there was a lot of lowkey sexual tension and now theyre fucking and its great.

im obsessed with the extreme guilt angle youre giving them though, ughhhh thats absolute kino. i have no idea how the daddy kink would START but i just KNOWW that their communication skills are rough and post coitus they wouldnt talk out their guilt/shame/embarrassment very well. they each retreat to stew in their mental illnesses... neither can confide about this in anyone else either, theyll hold their problems inside until they die. OR until theyre horny enough to go back for more, which im sure is what their love life relies on anyway... and then the cycle continues........... hot. option 1, ice coming back to apologize really flustered and asking if that was wayy over the line.. OR option 2, sve coming back like umm heyy...(sexual intent) like hes decided that if ice was into it then its ok, and ice being like d-d-dont look at me ..... and then they fuck.

anyway i went looking for every time they interact for Evidence

hes docile because he's daddy svi's little boy and he cant be mean to him.. he'll be getting a reward for good behavior laterrrr

look at that physical contact theyre basically canonically in love. also the size difference ....... think about it...

i dont know how to end this post. suice forever

[thegayestdiaz]

Quick preface: i am being legit 100% genuine and just kind wanted to put my thoughts out there. This is not like me trying to call you out or be mad at you specifically or anything like that. I just like saw one of your posts and it kinda touched a nerve, in a way that felt like you definitely didnt intend for it sound or be like, and i wanted to like idk engage civilly and talk about like word choice and semantics lol. Thats also why im like sending this via ask and not a comment or reblog of the post, so like you have the choice whether you wanna engage with it publicly or privately or not at all.

So like in the post youre talking about how in the 7x10 BuckTommy scene that tommy’s sarcastic humor doesn’t land. And like and that’s literally totally fine. But its also like your opinion. Just like my opinion that it does land and that they do have chemistry yk? Its just like :/ when people (not just you like as a greater trend in the fandom discourse) state their opinion as fact when it is an opinion.

And like, to get all evidencery, i would say that Buck reacts to the sarcastic jokes by smiling and laughing and reciprocating the humor, which tells us that at the very least he likes it, or/and that the writers intended for it to be read that way. But thats still just my opinion of my interpretation of the scene.

The other big thing that made me kind :/ was when you wrote

“it’s the fact that they’re trying to claim that bummy have this close, intimate relationship without showing us any vulnerability or intimacy.”

(and again not saying youre like a bad person for writing this or anything like that, just being a nerd that likes talking about linguistics and semantics and how people communicate and wanting to do that better)

So like i know its just how ppl talk, but again its saying that its a “fact” when it is your interpretation. One that i like whole heartedly disagree with. ESPECIALLY in regard to the “daddy kink” scene. Like as a bisexual man who very much is into kink, talking about kinks with new partners is Incredibly intimidating and intimate and vulnerable and difficult. And yeah, we often talk about it using humor because especially when its connected to traumas its often easier to talk about it with a lighter air. But that doesnt take away from the seriousness or intimacy of whats being discussed. When i watched that scene if felt like really genuine and legitimately representational of what its like trying to feel out how your partner feels about kinks, and especially the fact that buck is the one to start it by asking tommy if they both have daddy issues, masking his nerves with a flirty jokey tone, it was so real and great to see.

And i get it, not everyone has the same relationship with kink or queer subtextual flirting, but that kinda the point. Scenes hit different for different people, ships hit different, and thats fine, thats how it works. I dont expect everyone to get like teary eyed over a daddy kink joke or absolutely love BuckxTommy, but i do wish people remembered more that other people have different experiences and connections to stuff like this. Like sure i ship buddie, but im 1000 time more excited by the fact that Buck is a fucking canonical bisexual character. Would buddie be cool, hell yeah! Would i love to see Eddie figure out hes like gay and deconstruct his comphet HELL YEAH. But rn bucks the one thats actually queer, and hes getting his queer storyline and im fucking excited for that! And them bringing Tommy back, whos entire character gets a whole other level of gay angst with the context that he was deeply closeted in the flashbacks we saw him in before, like i love that to!

And again i very much do not think you are like willfully or wantonly trying to do anything bad, nor am i trying to tell you how to engage in fandom or how to talk. I just wanna like share my thoughts and feelings about fandom discourse and communication. (also like very chose to send to you cause i like your posts and think youre chill lol)

(Also also not trying to be like the word police, just a hey btw: lots of queer guys in the fandom myself included are p uncomfortable with ppl using “bummy�� as a shipname. Its like a lil to close to the like “bum boy” slur and just yeah feels 😬)

this sat in my inbox for so long i forgot about it i’m sorry.

i think talking about kinks in a new relationship is basically essential so that wasn’t my problem. it’s about the context. if the conversation had been in a kind of flirty, sexually charged scene it would’ve been completely fine. it’s that he chose to make the joke when buck was having an emotional moment about bobby almost dying. like if it was him being a little awkward and trying to lighten the mood and he kinda went “sorry i didn’t know what to say so i tried to make you laugh,” i would’ve found it cuter but because the scene takes itself seriously it feels like such an out of place reaction. and he starts out with “but your dad’s alive.” i don’t understand the writers’ intention there because it comes off as dismissive since he just moves past that when he had a great opportunity to have a conversation about buck’s feelings towards his parents. overall my feelings have nothing to do with the joke itself and if they had put it anywhere else it would’ve had more appeal. you say people have different experiences when talking about kink but honestly who wants to be pivoted into that conversation after they’ve just decided to be open and vulnerable with their partner about something as serious as death and parental issues? it would’ve been nice to have tommy comforting and reassuring buck, maybe expanding on the story of his own parental issues like the scene alluded to. that would’ve made it clear that yes this man takes the situation seriously and genuinely cares about buck without a doubt. and besides the two scenes i mentioned from 7x04 and 7x05 tommy spends most of his screen time killing buck’s vibe. the closet joke which was funny in the moment but would’ve outed buck if eddie wasn’t the most oblivious person on the planet, leaves buck on the sidewalk because he “wasn’t ready” (why even date a newly discovered and not out bisexual man?), doesn’t dress up and dismisses buck being upset, getting their medals and telling buck to “enjoy it while it lasts” when he was excited. besides the hospital kiss what other close and intimate moments are there?

and in regards to the ship name i got it from other queer people and i use it because shippers come into my inbox complaining i’m in the official ship tag spreading hate and it was the first ship name people came up with.

[llynwen]

What got you on the Pascal train? I see you've posted about him before but really seemed to get into him maybe last month? Was it TLOU?

funny story actually so all the way back when i was like 14 i got really into game of thrones (very child appropriate i know) and in this one season they got that guy in a yellow robe and he like fucks both men and women? yeah that mightve been my bi awakening. anyways a couple years pass and i find this show called narcos and i watch it and im like holy shit this funky little guy compels me. so i become an avid javi enjoyer and watch the show a couple of times but i also enjoy it for plot reasons and specifically the culture and vibe of colombia? so then it comes time for me to choose a uni major. and my horny ass goes "yeah ive never learned a word of spanish in my life but choosing spanish as my major seems like a good idea" and so i did. choose my uni major. because i had the hots for pedro pascal. I have since changed majors because it turns out learning a language from zero to fluent in a year is not doable for me, but the love for the guy stayed. so then tlou gets announced and everybody is talking about it and im like hmmm i dont really like zombies all that much so maybe ill wait for the reviews to roll in before i watch and then the reviews were Very Enthusiastic so im like aight might as well and i watched the first two eps and im like holy shit this zombie show got hands And Then i remembered this conversation i had with one of my friends all the way back in 2020 about this game they really liked about this dude who adopts a feral little girl (inserting screenshots)

my daddy issues are Through The Roof so i was like No Thanks back then but after i watched the pilot i Connected The Dots and am like well if the show fucks and its got accidental child acquisition then maybe i should play the game because coincidentally my stepfather had it on the ps5 already. and i binged the game in like 3 days and then im like. If The Second Part Goes On Sale Im Gonna Ask Mom To Get It For Me For My Birthday. and then it did, and then i played it. and thats how i got ptsd for my birthday. anyways back to pedro umm basically since game joel and pedro joel are two different beasts in my head i didnt catch the pedro joel hyperfixation but two seperate, pedro And joel ones so now im stuck with wanting to simultaneously fuck a middle-aged actor and a bunch of pixels. hope this helps.

[archer3-13]

There enough of a gloat of asks here that im just gonna bundle a bunch of ya'll anons into a single post. sorry in advance.

Anonymous asked:

God, save me. seriously ? we are talking about dragons. while intys could still justify that since the dragons are deities they can fuck their sibs, we don't know how dragons makes babies in Engage. maybe they can stay in a platonic relationship all their lives. Veyle and Alear did it.

technically dragons arent actual gods, just very powerful beings that get worshipped as if they were gods. especially in modern fe.

Anonymous asked:

"though the anons as of late have also weaned me onto a sombron x mirror sombron crack ship. so. thats a plus. i guess."

which raises the question of how their respective kids would react to that ?

probably with absolute horror and utter confusion, which is honestly an aspect of the hypothetical ship i really enjoy. the utter bafflement from the kids.

Anonymous asked:

It probably is better if it discourages people. asides from the fake incest kink the game placed him into, could you imagine what would happen to regular Elyos if Alear married Rafal and then hurts their finger ? this would be the end of the world.

see, the issue doesnt lay on whether the eng translation is discourging it or not as both versions come to the same conclusion: its not incest because the two sombrons are different. Rather, the issue in terms of translation as i understand is that the eng version in its eagerness to over clarify the matter accidentally made it more confusing, thereby doing the opposite of what they intended.

Anonymous asked:

I would dare to ask : even if banging the counterpart of your potentially dead half siblings was incest, who cares when Sombron can bang his other self ?

hence why i ship the two sombrons anon! see you understaaaaand.

Anonymous asked:

Reject Sombron x alt sombron, embrace Sombron x Lumera.

No i dont think I will.

Anonymous asked:

"I suppose it would anon yeah, though i believe others have also pointed that out in this endless parade of asks." doesn't surprise me, when you try to expand their reasoning you obviously comes to this conclusion. and also to the conclusion that the 4 winds are just as guilty as the 4 hounds since they "are the same person". and using the "it would just not be the dad they knew" argument is the same thing as saying they have different dad. that aside, why is everyone obssesed with Sombroncest ?

thats the joke anon as to why i and a handful of anons are obsessed with it, its hilariously fucked up and more interesting then twinlear incest discourse.

Anonymous asked:

Alright, how would the engage cast reacts if : 1) they were given a chance to bang with their mirror self 2) given the chance to bones their sibling's mirror self 3) the reaction of Celine seeing her brother hooking up with her evil twin 4) the fell twins and fell siblings reaction in seeing the Sombron orgy

the only definitive i can give you is that goldmary is the most pro clone fucker of the main playable cast, and everyone would look upon the great sombron orgy with horror and probably a little bit of shameful hidden lust.

Anonymous asked:

I honestly would give an arm for a fanfic about a family dinner between the fell siblings, the fell twins and the two Sombron... just level of cringe exploded. (bonus point if Alear demands daddy to pass the salt, and that 3 hands try to grab it : Sombron, alt Sombron and Rafal)

Honestly that sounds like a pretty good fic anon. id keep that on the backburner of possible writing prompts to go for.

Anonymous asked:

"Its an inherently nonsensical and difficult to defend position if were actually looking at it from a textual angle."

well that's what happen in normal times when you decide to not listen to what the canon says. i am actually surprised they even tried when Alear and fell Alear are a thing.

I suspect its because twinlear is low hanging fruit well fell alear requires familiarity and ya know. playing the game.

Anonymous asked:

This whole thing is just another "this ships makes me uncomfortable I need to explain why but my arguments are crapp because they don't align with the canon" like we had with Robin x 2nd gen or studenleth. not liking a ship because it feels weird is fine but when you try to fight the canon, you already lose as you are not the writer of the story and only can rely on AU (and yes, there is already people who don't like the whole deal so they rewrite the twins's backstory to get rid of sombronian shenanigans). I can understand why : shipping Alear with Clanne feels more disturbing to me than seeing them shipped with the twins. I cannot explain why though

i certainly dont blame people if they dislike the ship, but your right that it looks silly and is real Sisyphean task at that point when one tries to stumble ass backwards into an argument as to why one is superior for disliking a ship.

Anonymous asked:

I wonder who is bored enough to try to prouve that the dating options in a game that is rated pg 13 is actually incestuous. I mean they tried with Awakening and Fates and then brough up grooming with Three Houses but geeez. the only way to back this up are dna nonsense the game never mentionned and clearly doesn't care about. I honesly think this would never have happened if Female Alear was allowed to bone Male Alear.

anon your last sentence there threw me for a loop, but to answer your question i dont think its necessarily an indication of some lacking aspect of character to get hype fixated on things. i get hyper fixated on things all the time, and fandom wouldn't exist without peoples hyper fixations. i would say in cases like these though its less 'people are bored enough to argue' about these things and more 'people are trying to control fandom space like a school pecking order'. in fandom.

Anonymous asked:

It's maybe not so bad, after all. I mean Nel is cute and sunshine, but rafal, even though he is not the kid of or Sombron, still looks like and reeks yandere vibes as much as main game Sombron... i don't want to imagine what would happen to Alear if they went "i can fix him" other than the "you're the most jealous men I ever knew" meme. oh, and if Alear died, Rafal would destroy the world... twice.

hey, the yandere thing has its appeals in fictional ships and some people like the obsessive angle in their fictional characters makin out. a lot of people like that angle really. ship what ya wanna ship at the end of the day though.

sides i can't talk considering half of the things i do ship are insane obsessive weirdos being insane about each other.

Anonymous asked:

Sombron x Sombron is really crack because you don't know if it would happen with them in human form or dragon form. speaking of dragon form, how do ya find the dragon design in Engage ?

I actually always rather like sombrons cobra design, it helps distinguish him among the villainous dragon designs and i think it suits his character in the manner that he's less about raw powering his way to victory and more prone to subtlety, manipulation and playing it smart [even if he is a powerhouse at the end of the day, and the writing of his plan doesnt always make sense]. in that manner hes a solid combo of medeus and gharnef which makes sense and works in his favour.

as for the other designs, nel and rafal are sombron lite designs that work for what their going for, and well i really wish we got to see more of lumineras dragon design what we do get to see is fairly standard but work well.

tikis is pretty obviously based on her warriors dragon form design but more fa'ish in the sense it looks more chickenish this time. which, i dont mind cause the chicken destroyers of worlds are adorable.

the generic enemy dragons ya come across are fine for what their suppose to be, though it does make me wish we had a manakete unit to play with in the base game. that woulda been cool.

Anonymous asked:

The choose to make fell dragon looks like king cobra and made quite a choice because those are the species that are monogamous and protective of their kids when Sombron is far from that... the only thing they have in common is that female cobra lay between 20 and 40 eggs but we don't even know if fell dragons are born from eggs... are they ??

DID YOU LAY THIS EGG SOMBRON!!!??!??

joking aside, i imagine they went with the design less because of the biological nature of a king cobra and more so because of its cultural and symbolic significance. namely hypnotism which sombron uses rather prominently in the plot and which cobras are often connected with due to portrayals of snake charming. aside from that its also a very distinctive snake with its frill thing and a poisonous one.

Anonymous asked:

people saying that this is "just as kaga intended" are wrong. Lord kaga would never take such roundabouts way with incest, never offering a "techincally it ain't incest" and thus denying all canon relationship with the characters. by the way, do you think FE 4 remake will be M rated ?

idk anon, kaga if anything set the precedents for skirting around incest implications but in a very obvious way in fe that the series has dutifully followed to this day. deirdre and arvis are if anything more of an outlier being a very direct case of incest.

but speaking of fe4, i seriously doubt it'd get slapped with an m rating. putting aside the incest, well its a dark game its not any more explicit then any other fe in terms of content, and taking the incest into consideration even thats not particularly explicit in its depiction. it undeniably happens, but even then its a while into the game before its clarified that it did indeed occur and its treated with a tragic gravitas as opposed to being hyper sexualized.

Anonymous asked:

what you say about tree houses is true though. now when people stumble on the og support and ending for Veyle and Alear they think the og had implied romance in it because "partner " in japanese doesn't necessarily means romantic but if you cut that word that has a certain conotation in english, it becomes suspicious. same with the dragon child mentionned in their ending : the fact that the localization emphasized it was an orphan make it souns like they censored it because the jpn dub was being less clear about it, hence they believe that Alear and Veyle made a baby. in short : you can't win with the fe fandom, everthing backfires

You certainly can't win if ya go about things the way treehouse does. I dont doubt there would be discourse over these things mind, but ever since treehouse got involved in fe translations these matters have been particularly egregious. so i dont largely blame the fandom outside the bad actors.

i blame treehouse for making things worse.

Anonymous asked:

when recycling the future past dlc but with mirror dimension instead of alternate timeline backfires into fandom fight. Real question since Engage has a manga adaptation, do you think they will put the twins (I hope not because how is it gonna make sense ?)

i suppose it depends what happens with the manga adaptation, where it goes and what it might alter to fit its format. its possible we'll see them, but in a completely different context for instance.

Anonymous asked:

wait a second.. if the parents of your alternate self are also your parent does this means you are your alternate self's brother/sister ? and if their siblings are also your siblings does this means you are your own siblings ?

i dont know about that last little bit, but according to anti/puritan logic i suppose you would be your own sibling anon. thereby making it both selfcest and incest if ya fucked your mirror alternate self.

Anonymous asked:

people be fighting over a dlc that is not even well written. like if Alear is Lumera child in mirror verse than it means they must have had a different name since Past Alear says it's main game Sombron who gives the kids name according to their dead biological mama that sadly aint Lumera. (and I think that the 3winds had different parents to explain why they don't have the same name, but it's just me being clever, i doubt the dev though of this)

I agree the internal story logic is confused anon, but i would note that a story need not necessarily be logical to work if the emotional appeal is there.

and in that regard fell xenologue is a mixed bag, admittedly in part because its internal consistency is kinda muddled. fighting the mirror royals, seeing and engaging with their personalities, the atmosphere, even the intellectual implications of the twist all work i would say [atleast for me they do]

but how we get to this points is underwritten, the twist doesnt quite work in implication because of the questions it rises, and the actual heart of the story going on there with nel and nil and rafal feels somewhat disconnected from its world and sloppily handled.

i would have been fine with a delay on the dlc if it gave em time to hammer out the finer details of the xenologue, but as it is... mixed bag.

Anonymous asked:

it's always the funniest ship that get "moral outrage" like sure dating someone who looks like and is possibly genetically composed like your dead half sibling is super awakard irl but in a fe game it opens the door to gold comedy scenario. And Sombron x Sombron would just add comedy because if the twins end up dating Alear secretly when their dad are busy "doing stuff"

some people just dont appreciate fine comedy, as one can point to many historical and contemporary examples to prove.

though i dont begrudge people who seriously do ship the twinlear stuff, as its pretty harmless overall at the end of the day.

Anonymous asked:

if their only argument is dna, then screw. there is no evidence at all within the game that Sombron and Sombron have the exact same dna information. One could make the argument that Alear is still Alear yet they both are very different genitically, same thing for Zephia and Zelestia since Zephia is more OP than her mirror self. One coul perfectly make the argument that Sombron and Nel are different than their mirror counterpart when it comes to biological info using whatever argument precisely because the game never mentions DNA and no one could prove it wrong, all the more so as we don't see miror sombron's face and have no idea of how regular nel looked like if she did existed but I find it weird that Nel knew there was a other version of herself in the regular world since she never came here. just to say : anyone can play this little game. and since the canon text never mentions dna, no one can prouve that Sombron is genetically the same as his mirror self other than using the design but even that can easily be swayed by the other informations that the game gave us.

its Schrodinger's incest at the end of the day, which is in part why its silly for people to try and logic their way through it. except ya know, the fact that textually they dont even have the room to begin with.

Anonymous asked:

And here I though that Marth was Alear's dad this whole time

marth adopts all manner of divine dragons, so he can be alears foster father. caeda whole heartedly supports this and the two of them spend a lot of their free time supporting and hanging out with the kids. jagen considers it a headache but goes along with it anyways cause he secretly likes being the gruncle of so many divine dragon kids.

[1111jenx]

Thoughts on lilith in 10th? Your blog is wonderful💞

Hi there!

Thank you for your kind words:) I'd get right into it with yall! Check out my other series lilith in the houses here

Lilith in 10th house🍷

The 10th house, aka the house of status, social hierarchy and authority figures.

Ruled by Saturn and the sign of Capricorn, the 10th house values reputations, honours, esteem, fame, popularity, wealth.

In my last post I mentioned how Lilith may not enjoy Saturn's limitations and restrictions, however we should always remember, the 10th house also talks about power. It is this quality that Lilith desires and will use against others.

Natives with Lilith in the 10H hold immense personal power, they were pushed into the spotlight and seen as the "Lilith" the eyes of public. Their darker side is either loved or hated. The public is quick to change their mind on these natives.

Parents, teachers, community leaders, employers, government or any positions of power/authority and these natives usually don't get along well when they were younger.

They were the scapegoats in public. Therefore as they grow up, they may subconsciously project their hatred on people who remind them of their bullies. They carry the wound in them like no others.

While Lilith 11H was rejected by their community, Lilith 10H simply was rejected everywhere they go. It seems that people just see them as someone who's "bad" or may rebel anytime.

The og daddy issues. They may have felt as if they were rejected by their father if there are more harsh aspects to Sun and Saturn or 10H ruler. It's as if their fathers never tried to understand them. Their father rejection of equality in terms of power result in their deep need to rebel.

One or both parental figure may have suffered with addictions, abuse or personal issues and left them to grow by themselves. Their family's history may have not been the best if there are more 4H/10H being afflicted, this can also result in their tainted reputation.

However once these natives grew up, they grow into their Lilith. They stop rejecting the crazier, more sexual and dominating side of them. They step on men and people in power like no others.

Will make money or a career out of their ability to control, dominate and their sexuality. They are the true sugar babies. Older men are drawn to them like magnets. A smile from them is like a blessing for others.

Dominating. Dominatrix placements. The only difference between these people and Lilith 1H/7H/8H in terms of sexuality is that Lilith 10H individuals can become successful for their power play. I'm so serious.

Think cinderella from a small city who finally walk into the spotlight and indulge in the capital's glamour and coloured lights. Men with power love them. They just do. The type that can actually make men leave their families for them. If they wanted to, they could be the home wreckers. Remember, Venus may charm you, Mars may please you but Lilith will burn you and you'll come back and beg for more.

Deep down, these natives pity men who stupidly follow them. It's as if they're doing this as a big fuck you to their pasts and family.

If well-aspected, we have women who refuse to rely on men and will call out anyone thats dare to cross them. They're actually extremely career-dominated.

Lilith 10H adds a desire to be the best in everything they do. Their ambitions know no limits. Once they have a taste of power, they will not stop.

Power. Money. Power. Money. They thrive under the knowledge of them standing high at the top. Only then can they feel they have partially let go and heal a bit of their trauma.

Power hungry by nature. They have the ability to manipulate and play with their images and the public's perception like no others. While others may feel like they're so raw and real, 10H Lilith is simply showing them what they want them to see.

Their partner need to be someones who is willing to kill for them. There I said it, they need someone who is as successful as them, who's on the same level professionally and internally. They need someone who can offer them warmth and sense of belonging, who they can cry to in private, who won't be fazed by their overbearing nature in public, who will spend time understanding them and appreciate even the ugliest part of them. Their partner has to be fine with them leading sometimes, who can offer them the middle ground and grow with them. They don't need someone to "save" them. Only they can do that.

Here are some of my observations:) Rb this and lemme know what you guys think!!🖤

love,

saint jenx🥀

[darlingkay]

ikemen opinion 7/?

it's me! i'm in the mood to write some more so i bring you yet another ikemen route review!! this week's suitor is... hideyoshi toyotomi from ikemen sengoku. hideyoshi was the first ever cybird suitor i ever romanced so i have quiet the soft spot for him. you know the drill, spoilers below!! i might add more to this later, i always have moe thoughts after posting.

i've decided to start leaving links to both the previous otome post and my masterlist! getting boujee out here.

previous post: yves kloss (ikepri)

otome opinions list: masterlist

*disclaimer* : please keep in mind that these are my personal opinions which will of course differ from others!! i’d also like to disclose that i do in fact pay to play, but i only pay for that i deem worth it. i don’t spend money on events or for chapter tickets.

character: hideyoshi toyotomi (ikemen sengoku)

route: romantic

rating: 7/10

overall thoughts: i liked hideyoshi a lot, he's very sweet and caring which is something i really like probably because of my daddy issues but that's irrelevant. there's just a couple things i didn't love in the route like his overwhelming devotion to nobunaga, but nothing too serious. honestly, a great starter suitor if you're new to otome games in my opinion.

highlights:

like i said before i do like how sweet and caring that hideyoshi is. i also like that you have to prove that you aren't a threat to unlock that personality trait as well, because otherwise i think it would be boring if he was like a doting older brother right off the bat, it just gives him more depth and shows how intense he can be. damn emmie, overanalytical much??

i loved his dynamic with mistunari. mitsunari is only a really great character, especially when you play kenshin's route, he really steps up as a supporting character.

although you all know im a hoe for a tsundere, hideyoshi is refreshing. he's cute, sweet and doting. i just like how sweet he is because he really does make you blush and feel cared for in his romantic scenes.

not really about the story but i love his design. he is so handsome and confident looking. he's just so good looking and put together. the colors they chose for him are just so nice and yeah i just love his design. 10/10 cybird.

even though mitsuhide is a rat i like that he was worried about hideyoshi's happiness and sent mc's letter to him. kinda doesn't make sense since he's a rat and all that, but it was still nice. wouldn't have the same effect if it was anyone else in the oda.

dislikes:

i don't hate that he was so devoted to nobunaga, i mean that's like his main personality trait. i think i just hate that he doesn't really overcome that obsessive dedication?? maybe that's just me i mean i don't wanna sound like i'm against dying fopr what you believe in but like,,, boi we can't raise a family if you're always taking an arrow in the shoulder for fun

didn't love the older brother thing. i know that obviously mc and hideyoshi aren't related, but when you insert that dynamic it's a little weird regardless.

sometimes the dynamic felt weird because of the relationship that nobunaga had implemented between mc and himself and then the obvious romance between mc and hideyoshi. just because of the whole "im oda nobunaga and i own you because you're my good luck charm" and "im hideyoshi and i'd die for you nobunaga, you breathe my air".. just that.

the whole plotline about mitsuhide confused me a little. i know thats accurate to history but it's just weird in comparison to the other stories because he isn't an antagonist in ieyasu's which i think is weird, but i know the stories are all going to be different. im just being difficult i think.

honestly the main reason hideyoshi doesn't rank higher is because of personal preference. im much more of a ieyasu type of girl. i havent played nobunaga's rout, but im sure i'd like him if i could get over his misogyny since hes such a dom like chev (ikepri).

favorite memory: i think my favorite memory is mmmm i don't know i really like it when hideyoshi is like girl how tf can i scold you if you're 500 years in the future???? or something like that. that premium story was worth it overall, sweet and steamy, just how i like it.

[wondermentishere]

Okay so, I think that I’m a lesbian? But Im conflicted because guys can (and have) made me cum (also important to note that Ive never actually had sex with one). I think some guys are cute but like... in a detached way. It does not compare to my attraction to women, thats for sure. The thought of being with desirable women takes control over every part of me. Everything about her can and will drive me insane without my permission. I never feel that way about guys even if they are physically and intellectually attractive. Right now, Im also noticing how I intentionally left out “emotionally attractive” while describing men. I can truly stand on the fact that I have never felt emotionally intrigued, satisfied, or attached to a man. I have never looked to them to be fulfilling in that way. I don’t even think I have the capacity to view them as people who are capable of connecting with me like that.

Is all of this pointing back to daddy issues? Ummm I dont know. I have mommy issues too so I wouldn’t be too quick to blame the disconnect on that. Im extremely emotionally detached from both of my parents, but yes, my dad more than my mom. I think proximity is the primary reason for this though. Perhaps proximity plays a factor into my sexuality as well? I dont know. I dont think so. Throughout the course of my life Ive had close friendships with both girls and guys. The way Ive related to them both has definitely been different though... Honestly, this entire conversation about emotional closeness is hard for me to even dive into because Ive always been an emotionally rejected person lol. In general, men have rejected me more but its never felt personal. The times I have been rejected by women truly have hurt me the most.

Why am I so vulnerable to women and closed off to men? Am I shaping my experiences with people or are people shaping my experiences with them? I will say that alot of heterosexual relationships are more duty based and shaped by heteronormative systems. It would definitely be “easier” to be with a man. Sometimes I conflate easy with healthy as well. My biggest problem in relationships tends to be my unhealthy attachment to my partner. If I dont have the capacity to be attached to men it should be less difficult to make the right decisions while dating them... right? When it comes to relating I definitely would feel an ease with men.

*wow i have no idea when i wrote this but imma just post it cause its been sitting in my drafts lol*

[nepenthendline]

Mental Health Headcannons - Tsukishima, Kageyama, Ushijima, Tendou & Bokuto

All these are from my knowledge and based off of each character’s actions haikyuu, this is all my opinion so feel free to discuss other thoughts! I’m happy to talk about each more in depth if anyone would like it :) this is just me projecting my own problems on fictional characters

You can also message me if you wanna talk about these too!!

This is going to be long

TW: Mental health, learning difficulties, eating disorders, self-harm

Tsukishima - Depression, Anxiety & OCD

Tbh someone else (I’ve been trying to find their username to tag them but I can’t find it, they’re called something like theguessmonta but idk) has amazing posts about Tsukishima and his mental health which I totally agree with all of it so some of this is going to be pretty similar

I think his mental health problems started when he was quite young, around the time when the Akiteru drama happened so he’s been dealing with these for a while

Having depression can often make a person seem very disinterested/sarcastic/negative as a way of pushing back emotions and self-protection which explains a lot of the way Tsukishima acts towards some people (I have a whole post on how he isn’t just some asshole)

His anxiety stems from a place of terrible self-esteem and self-image, it’s clear to see he has a bad sense of self-worth when he talks about how people are obviously a lot better than him, he’s just there to ‘stop trouble happening’

Tsukki suffers from panic attacks quite regularly (especially when he was a bit younger) but he tends to shut himself off then they happen, he doesn’t want anyone else to see him like that

His anxiety and overthinking is often why he keeps his headphones on him at all times, listening to music helps drown out the sounds around him and those in his head

His OCD got worse over time - first it was things like turning the light switch on and off repeatedly until it felt right, or tapping on his desk before he went to bed, but as his anxiety and self-esteem got worse it developed into him needing himself to be perfect

This included only eating a certain amount of calories a day (no where near the amount he should be eating) or getting a very specific grade on an exam, where even one number over or under set him into a panic

Things got to their worst for Tsukki around the age of 13 - this is where he was much too underweight and self-harming on his hips (so no one else could see)

Probably also thought about suicide a couple times around this point

He has tried a couple different types of anti-depressants in the past, however none have seemed to help

He likes a lot of time alone - he gets too overwhelmed dealing with other people

The only person besides his family and Yamaguchi that knows about his OCD is Kageyama - they both noticed each others odd, repetitive habits until Kageyama asked him about it one day, while they don’t get along too well, they feel some comfort in each other understanding their actions

Kageyama - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

wow what a smooth segue 

this boy is like a walking definition of ASD - coming from a person with ASD

Kageyama was diagnosed with Type 1/High-functioning Autism when he was very young (probably around 3-5 years old)

He struggles with social interaction, knowing what to say to people and most importantly, how to say it, e.g. when he smiles people often think he looks angry

Kageyama has never had many, if any, friends before Karasuno, as he has often struggled with conversation and speaking in an inappropriate tone that may make some people uncomfortable or even scared

He isn’t very good when it comes to remembering academic studies but if it relates to his fixations (volleyball) he is extremely intelligent - this is seen clearly when Daichi shows their team hand gestures and Kageyama says he remembered them in a day

Kageyama uses masking a lot - it’s a technique people with ASD tend to do which involves copying other peoples actions in order to understand social situations, he does this many times in the anime/manga such as his awkward BBQ song dance, or high-fives

He visited a social worker once a week while he was little until he started middle school, resulting in his behaviours getting worse

Towards the end of his first year at Karasuno he went back to therapies regularly and has anger-management training in order to help him express himself in a manageable way - he probably won’t admit it but it helps a lot (key note is that having anger-management training often does not have anything to do with anger, simply just managing emotions in general but it often a great type of therapy for those with ASD although he is a bit of an angry boi sometimes)

ASD comes with repetitive, almost OCD-like tendencies - two examples include filing his nails every single day and having a very specific routine before going to bed that consists of drinking milk, putting on pjs, laying in bed and throwing + catching a ball, brushing his teeth and going to bed on his left side - if he doesn’t do these things at the right times/in the right order, he gets extremely anxious and agitated

It is important to remember people with ASD tend to also have another mental health issue, such as anxiety or depression

Ushijima - Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD)

autism buds with kageyama

I kid thats probably a bad idea

Ushijima was also diagnosed with Type 1/High-Functioning Autism when he was 5

Unfortunately due to the stigma around Autism, his family (besides his father) were not very accepting of this and he was put into therapy at a young age

While this was actually helpful for him, his family insisted his therapies should ‘cure’ him and were dismissive of the many times a doctor told them that ASD is not a curable disorder

Outside of therapy he does not receive much support from his family, except his father who got him a pair of noise-cancelling headphones he used to wear until he 8 whenever they went out together - he was only allowed to wear them if it was just him and his father, the rest of his family thought it made it too obvious there was ‘something wrong with the child’

Extending on this, Ushijima was very sensitive to sensory input as a child, and while he still is, it has become easier to manager as he has gotten older

His ASD is most prevalent in his lack of understand ways of communication, such as sarcasm or jokes, and tends to take things very literally 

@simp4satori and I came to the conclusion that if you were to call him daddy during sex, or ask him to ‘punish you’ the poor boy would have NO CLUE - would probably call your dad and tell him you needed to speak to him, or say you can’t watch anime for a week lol 

He is extremely direct when he talks, to the point where it comes across rude or hurtful but he doesn’t realise this until someone mentions it

Tendou probably helps him rephrase things from time-to-time in order for him to get his point across

He gets very anxious when faced with things he doesn’t know about or understand (this is mentioned by Tendou in the manga), this can include people, going to new places or trying new foods

It is important to remember people with ASD tend to also have another mental health issue, such as anxiety or depression

Tendou - Depression and Anxiety (also a highly sensitive person - that’s not a mental health disorder or illness but it does affect him)

Tendou’s mental health suffered from a young age due to bullying in school

This caused a lot of low self-esteem and low mood, and he was later on diagnosed with depression and anxiety

Only his family, Ushijima and his coach know about this, and even then, only his family know any details

No one would really expect Tendou to deal with such mental health issues as he always keeps a bubbly, happy persona around others - he doesn’t want people to think he is weak or cowardly

It is also hard for others to see and he is someone with high-highs and low-lows, so when he is happy or excited his emotions are quite extreme

Tendou’s anxiety relates a lot to his image, mainly his appearance and the way he acts, but he is also a general over thinker

He doesn’t have panic attacks as often as Tsukishima does, however they do happen occasionally when things just get too much

He often thinks that people are staring at him, or talking about him whenever he goes out, and he tends to hid this by seeming overly cocky or sardonic

When his depression hits, he tends to just feel sad or hopeless instead of numb, which tends to trigger his anxiety too

Tendou used to self-harm often around his hips/thighs however he hasn’t done so since the end of his first year of high-school 

Probably makes a lot of dark ‘jokes’, especially around suicide and people semi are like ‘...dude...you ok?’ and he’s just like ‘hahaha yeah im fine what’

He doesn’t like alone time too much as he tends to get trapped in his own thoughts

As expected of the guess monster, he is extremely good at reading and understanding people, which is how he finds it easier to help and communicate with Ushijima

Bokuto - ADHD

A lot of people at Fukurodani think Bokuto is just stupid, however he actually has ADHD

He was diagnosed a lot later than the rest at 12 years old

Bokuto tends to struggle with his studies as his attention-span is very low and can get distracted easily - either by things in the classroom or his own thoughts

He’s very forgetful, often forgetting his lunch at home or forgetting to do/bring in his homework, and this goes into volleyball too where he forgets how to do certain moves

Taking exams are the worst for Bokuto, he hates having to be still and quiet for such a long time and is very sensitive to little sounds or movements that distract his attention - you’ll often find his bouncing his leg or fiddling with his pen

He tends to butt into conversations or interrupt people when they are talking, he just gets a bit too enthusiastic to share his thoughts

He has extreme mood-swings too which we see often in the anime, especially when he is stressed or someone mentions his behaviours

Is very reckless - Akaashi has probably had to stop him from leaning too far out the window and almost falling to look something

The whole Fukurodani volleyball team are aware of his ADHD and do their best to help him and make him feel comfortable or accepted

They are the only people allowed to call him stupid - they will fight anyone else

I think there are more characters with mental health illnesses or disorders, such and Yamaguchi, Yachi, Kenma and Asahi having anxiety so I might write more at some point!

[writing-for-me-at-this-point]

About that last post you rebloged about like, pronouns n inclusivity in fics: I find it really differes. I cant say a whole lot about things like eyecolour/skincolour/haircolour n type etc but I have experience with the pronouns stuff.

I have just about every x f!reader tag that you can think of blocked. From general, to specific fandoms to specific characters.

I will go into a character x reader tag and not only be bombarded with f!reader that isnt tagged via hashtags but also shows NO indication that its f!reader.

Even worse, Ive had times where something was tagged gn!reader, and was just straight up using language clearly indicating an afab body. When I said this, they responded with "I tagged it."

I understand that writers cant make re-writes of every piece with every pronoun changed etc. All I ask is clarity about things. Make it clear what it is.

I will go in x reader tags and find more f!reader content then gn!reader, whether its not tagged or wrongfully tagged as gn!reader doesnt really matter, they are both still there.

Reader is gender neutral word.

But thats my view on this whole thing. Im not a writer but I understand that you guys do this for fun and 9/10 dont get a lot out of it. Its just hard to curate your experience when theres no way to actually weed out what you dont want to see.

This isnt directed at anyone inparticular btw, and espessially not you bee, judt my general, rambly thoughts

Okay but that is completely understandable. That's blatant mistagging or just shows the need for better tagging. Shit, I know sometimes I forget to tag things, or that I mistag on accident. But if anyone spots it I have no problem fixing it. I'm sorry about the writer interaction you had, and I hope that more fics get tagged properly as well.

I do agree writers need to fix how they tag. And people who have this issue either don't tag at all, or are beginning writers, who don't know how to do it properly. It's a learning experience, but I empathize with you completely. If I ever mistag or something, I'm always open to fixing them :)

Also I RANTED here:

I remember when insert fics used to be the typical blonde or brunette that's skinny with light eyes and pale skin. Or when things are tagged as x reader and they're blatant OCs. It's gotten better though, and eventually you get an eye for it too.

And I have the tagging issue especially with smut. Nobody tags kinks or puts them in warnings. Nobody puts long ass 100,000+ character posts under a readmore. Like I'm tired of reading a fic and suddenly mister fuckmaster II is making me call him daddy and treating me like a child :/ or when I'm reading a fic and some hard-core BDSM pops up like:

Like please, tag your fics. Mister Fuckmaster II will be able to piss and shit on those who are into the fic if you tag it properly, and significantly lower any hate/negativity that comes your way.

And I understand how the fic community has a lot of afabs and fem in general. From my understanding, girls and females are the biggest market/take up most of the writing space too (in fanfic/fandom). And there's an unconscious bias there too, but mistakes are normal and should be handled respectfully.

My issue was that I see A LOT of people, who aren't writers or content creators, ask for a lot of things when it comes to fics... but they're also the same people who don't interact with posts.

I know I have a lot of ghost readers, or people who just throw a like at max effort, and while I usually don't care, I will admit it doesn't help me with writing or keeping things consistent. What's the point in posting if no one acknowledged the fact I wrote it, ya know? The whole point of social media is to interact. Most of my posts, with the exception of a few, have a 90 to 1 like to reblog ratio. No one comments, either out of like or constructive criticism, and anons now are scarce. But I can understand that because I was gone for a while, but this was happening even before I went on hiatus.

It gets annoying when all I see is "writers need to do this" and "writers should do that" and said advice is just... so dumb. And people demanding shit most of the time aren't even writers, or people who interact with writers.

And it's a simple fix too. Just make a side blog. Put all your shit in there. Your reblogs, your comments, your interactions- if you really want to keep your aesthetic or hide the fact you read fics.

And just because I haven't posted these anons, it doesn't mean I don't get them. I've had people demanding I write more smut, more fluff, less dark content, darker content, extereme kink/abuse... all while being just super rude. Some anons I've got telling me I need therapy or I'm disgusting for writing dark content is the tip of the iceberg.

I guess this is just a rant on how people just demand, demand, demand, and then ask why writers leave/are leaving. Why quality has gone down. Why writers abandon blogs.

I leave anon on because that's how most people interact with me, and because it makes people comfortable, but I assure you if I shut it off, I'd probably get 3 or 4 people in my inbox on average.

I wanna write stuff and see people comment, reblog, or even just leave an anon. I wanna talk with people about my work. I put effort because yall deserve it. Majority of my readers are amazing. And you guys keep the blog alive. Trust me when I say that, because I was planning to abandon/delete after I lowkey left the Obey Me Fandom a year ago. Twst got me back into writing and that community was great. Genshin is great. And all the smaller fandoms I've written for are welcome too. I've accepted being a... honeypot of fandoms lol.

[rebelpeas]

sending this again so u can post it if you'd like!

hello dearest rebelpeas. it is i, fifteen_pounds from ao3 and i have come to bare my heart, soul, and excessively long notes app about devil town. this is updated as of ch 12, enjoy:

DEVIL TOWN

weird dreams list

• techno - tommy dream (2) and arguably the forest (multiple)

• quackity - forest dream

• karl quackity bad dream buddies (same night)

just going places (woods) and not remembering

• quackity

• karl

-> update! he's possessed by the forest

• techno my man

forest fuckery

• weird dreams (techno quackity)

• quackity is a tree (quackitree)

• tubbo forest related trauma

• karl quackity techno show up there sometimes smile

• tommy there question mark

• ranboo spawned there (potential)

• karl tried to kill? sacrifice? drag? quackitree into the woods

• can read minds

• maybe the forest is simply collecting boys and who are we to disobey its leafy, boy-oriented will

• gun? gun bullet someone else who isnt karl in the woods potentially?

-> maybe thats where ranboo went hes on a boy hunting exccursion

church

• murder site (or not)

• ppl live in basement (tommy? probably not but ?? someone probably. ranboo even???? surely not)

something weird with schlatt and quackity and tubbo

• maybe the pastor that killed his wife and tried to kill the two kids

-> not schlatt pastor but what if

• tubbo quackity very involved in church :///

• tubbo -> doesnt think of quackity as his brother (or tries not to think of him like that)

tommy disappearance

• tubbo and tommy were up to something before they got back home (wednesday)

• maybe he died not dead in the forest techno dream

• forest (they?)

-> techno they same as karl they? karl voices?

• hoodie blood forest (not his? question mark)

• trail far away

• tubbo saw him put on hoodie (inconsistent with went to bed angry) -> connor tape

• an exchange of boys

philza minecraft problems

• extant and numerous

techno

• voices (different? from forest/dream voices?) (multiple)

-> similar to karl voices (alleged)

• does techno have a psychic link of special brotherhood magic with tommy and/or the forest

-> techno magical murder princess arc

-> i mean he does have a knife

• told tubbo voices

• something wants someone (probably tied to the exchange of boys)

wilbur

• whats up with him and tubbo

-> maybe related to schlatt quackity and tubbo

-> it was the quackity bullet gun kill father incident huh

• cry related to family bad or maybe tubbo old house (pastor murder kill death)

techno wilbur

• know an awful lot about guns

tubbo

• weird about wilblur

• lived in house too close to woods? house trauma woods trauma combination house woods trauma

quackity

• daddy issues

• dad fucked up (bad)

• really into karl and sapnap (ages)

ranboo

• fucking weird

• liar who lies

• mask?? weird face??

-> scar (on face)

-> scratch from woods? trees mad?

• parents weird

-> are they even real (this was a joke but its probably correct huh. man did just spring up from the dirt one day. man straight up spawned and went yea that one (tubbo))

• odd boy

• probably tied to tommy disappearance

-> saw it? question mark?

-> exchange of boys one normal boy for one weird boy

• stain shirt shirt stain stain on shirt

• how long he's been here discrepancy -> popped out of the woods one day (forest boy boy from forest) (weird)

• everyone thinks he's weird (tubbo wilbah techno)

relationships

• karl and sapnap together (seems like quackity likes them both)

-> just kiss dumb idiot

• dnf real (not clickbait)

• tubbo and quackity bio brothers potentially

• techno and wilbur twins (adopted? if not kristin dead? but techno calls phil phil?)

• tommy and tubbo adopted

• everyone's got wilbur problems ig

theme

• concept of home/returning home

-> wilbur and quackity

• concept if cycles and how things change

-> also wilbur and quackity but to an extent everyone

-> also sort of how techno thinks about tommy going missing (less cycles but it feels similar)

• the unknown

-> the woods and various mysteries

• brokenness and hurt

-> everyone really

-> church stuff with tubbo and quackity

ps. hope u dont mind that i edited some of the formatting :p i realized it messed up the first time

HI FRIEND THANK U FOR RESENDING!! 💖

look at all these fun notes n theories guys :3 i loved reading over this, the way you phrased a lot of these are soso funny AND very interesting to think about. i’m so honored you took the time to make notes about all this stuff!!

[kamari333]

I had to actually look back to see if I made any tumblr posts about these guys. I couldn’t find any??? So I guess this is my oppertunity to scream about these absolute fucking bastards.

Now. Um. Forewarning: I don’t actually know a lot about the original dreamtale. Or, I don’t keep up with it, at least. I read the first origin comic (and a bit of the cream ship comic) one time a while ago and... i dunno. found it lacking? I liked the premise but there was something distinctly missing in it for me. So these headcanons are more like an AU (an AU of an AU, surprise surprise, I’m on my shit again XD) that I thought up to help me enjoy the concept more when writing it. I’ve been calling it ‘Dr33mtal3’ in my head, but a friend named it ‘Dryad Dreamtale’ so either of those names work.

So. Dream and Night are tree spirits shaped like skeletons, born of the tree of duality to be its guardians. They were made to be more like monsters to better protect the tree and put its power to use.

Now, plants and gods (and especially god-plants) have very different ideals, morals, and expectations than mortals and humans and monsters. Dream and Night are half plant/god, but they are also half monster/mortal, so they cannot relate entirely to their tree mom or completely understand her. Likewise, she could not completely understand them. Thus, the twins understandably had a stressful, dysfunctional childhood and have long lasting mommy/daddy issues.

They also suffer from significant other kinds of trauma inflicted on them by their villager guardians.

So they are both psychologically fucked up.

They both have “wings” and “tentacles” but Night hides his wings and Dream hides his tentacles. Night’s wings are smaller than Dreams.

they aren’t actually tentacles though. they are roots and vines. because they are tree spirits. using those roots/vines, they can directly soak up energy and water. likewise, the “feathers” on their wings are actually leaves (except near the base and ridges, which are more like flower petals). they use these leaves to breathe in ambient emotions.

when injured, they bleed resin. that goop on nightmare? excess sap/resin he’s overgenerating thanks to consuming so many apples.

usually only strong internal emotions would make them do that. its only because of such strong internal emotions that nightmare continues to do that even after a thousand years.

i think that, being plants (which are terribly spiteful and innovative creatures) night and dream can control the consistency and nature of their sap and resin. dream keeps his sweet and sugary at all times, but nightmare switxhes between spicy-like-ghost-pepper-in-the-face caustic and rubber, and mild maple syrup, depending on his mood and how much he wants the person he is touching to hurt.

i think that dream is both terribly selfish and painfully selfless all at once, both kind and cruel. i think he is a very seelie fae who will never break a promise, but will not let you go unpunished for breaking yours. i think he has no problem breaking your legs if it means saving you from something else. dream will happily beat someone within an inch of their life, then nurse them back to health, if he thinks for a moment it is for the greater good.

nightmare goes to great lengths to make people hate him. at the end of the day he is as disgusted with himself as anyone else, but he does it and will keep doing it because if no one fears him, they will destroy him. nightmare is a terrible unseelie fae, but he will never speak an untrue word or break an oath once struck. it is not in his nature. he will rule with an iron fist, but he is just as capable of selflessness as he is of cruelty.

i think dream is so concerned with the big picture he sometimes forgets little details. i think he is the type to take in strays before he has a home to keep them in. he befriends ink and ink makes him a multiverse home to keep his people safe in. dream then takes it upon himself to make sure it stays operational, despite eventually accumulating a city’s worth of people in what was originally a 4 bedroom townhouse. lucky him that ink has his back, continually expanding as needed.

i think nightmare is far more artistic and clever than folks give him credit for. i think he enjoys making things. i think he is the type of man to take great pride in building everything he has himself. his castle is made out of his own power: stone made of his own resin, hardened into amber; wood grown from his own bones; tapestries woven of textiles made from his own leaves, pets, and processed wood. his castle of black amber is constructed of his own blood, sweat, and tears, lovingly handcrafted art for him to live in. all natural. all his. (such a shame he never got around to furnishing all of it, having only enough time and drive to do the first floor with how long handweaving the carpets took; such a shame no one noticed or cared because the fear for their lives overshadowed any awe they could have had upon seeing the delicate craftsmanship of the arching ceilings and looming statues).

i think dream and night both love fresh water and sunlight. they get incredibly sleepy if its too hot or too cold. they are terrified of fire, squirrels, fungi, and insects. they dont like birds much either. they easily get jealous of other plants (comically so, to the point of sassing or threatening or passive-aggressively insulting non-sapient rose bushes or fica or succulents they come into contact with). they are scared of mistletoe (being a plant that eats other plants, kinda).

i hc that dream with faint dead on his feet if he gets too scared, and nightmare screams like a white girl in a horror movie.

i like to think that because they are trees, they have a “season” (like heat, but for trees) where they are very pro-affection. their leaves turn pink and they involuntarily cover themselves in pink pollen that drives nearby creatures’ libido into overdrive. neither brother likes this, so when their season hits they hide away so nobody notices (night because he does not want to seem weak, dream because he does not want to inconvenience anyone else).

i like to headcanon that a holdover from their human attributes means each brother can only formulate one set of sex organs. i’ll give you a hint: nightmare is trans in my hc (be gay do crime). he takes great pains to make sure nobody knows this.

i like to think that both brothers hide all of this, hide all of their tree-ness as best they can, and instead hide behind the aspects of being an angel and a tentacle abomination in order to throw off anyone who might look for weaknesses. so nobody knows what they really are.

These are all superficial HCs of course. The big thing is that i wanted their natures to be... more complicated than simply good and evil. They believe and say that they are guardians of positivity and negativity (and in a way thats true), but only in its most simplistic of forms.

Dream is the aspect of Giving: he radiates pollen and magical influence to embue those around him with his power. He can give them emotions. He eats positivity, thats what sustains him, but his power is to give. He could just as easily give his people bad feelings as good ones (not that he knows this). However, Dream only knows and cares about giving positivity. So he does. He leaves his magic and influence on the souls of anyone who will give him the oppertunity, and once the door is open, he will continually feed them his power to make them happy. He will eat/breathe that happiness, converting it to energy, perpetuating the cycle.

But unmitigated mania has its drawbacks. There is a price to be paid in the end.

Nightmare is the aspect of Taking. He takes and takes, taking the emotions and energy of others for himself. He can even take the entropy out of an injury to heal a wound. Nightmare can take positivd feelings out of others, but for some reason his body doesn’t like him doing that and makes him sick/hurt. He has a much easier time taking negativity, draining away the hurt and fear and exhaustion, leaving a calming emptiness behind. Nightmare cannot process or use everything he takes for himself, needing to expell it as a waste product. He converts negative feelings (and the wasted energy disipated through entropy) into energy, which lets him continue his taking.

You cannot fill a hole that is already filled, after all. You must empty it first.

These two aspects are neither good nor evil in and of themselves. There are good and bad things about them. But these aspects have been oversimplified and misinterpreted by those around the twins that even they themselves do not fully understand what it is that they are.

and i think a story about them coming to understand themselves would be so much more interesting than a simple story of good vs evil.

[shippyboi]

Kiddney patch Notes, as a treat.

I know i haven't posted any of my writings in like, ages, but i was looking over my Kiddney patch notes. Basically me and @shikkearu (my bestest finnish lady in a box) were talking about Kiddney and she oh so graciously gave me these that i was talking of.

Quickly before i paste it.

-A few characters mentioned are like fill in ocs/side jokes

-Its an AU. Set in modern day Finland. Thanks.

-since this is a conversation thats why its formatted like this.

Enjoy lads

Kiddney

- Idiots love each other but are like "buh buh age gap"

-"why would she want a little boy :("

-"who wants an old lady :("

-bickering every chance they get

-kidd bumming in her restaurant atleast 3 days out of the week

Kiddney

-Bonney acts like she's in her forties compared to Kidd because she doesn't understand that just because she met him in highschool when she was a young adult and gained a crush on him as an adult isn't predatory

-Kidd has wanted to bang since he met her at 17

-Kidd was probably an orphan that got out of the orphanage at 18 and that explains some of his flaming anger issues

Also the first one looks bad, when he was an adult she wasn't perving on him as a kid

-Kidd has been told throughout his life he'd be a woman beater and it scares him that he has real feelings for someone

-Bonney tries to act like she hates him but it backfires all the time (especially when she gets drunk which is a lot.)

-Idea that we could use; Bonney might have like a binge eating disorder (or possible bulimia considering she eats a lot all at once) that we could reveal slowly

-Bonney's parents are really traditional and she feels bad that she doesn't wanna get married (kidd eventually just makes them rings and they wear them.)

-Kidd is very territorial (this is in ways like watching his friends get hurt, telling all his friends s.o. s not to hurt them or else, and getting pissy when a male breathes in Bonney's direction.)

-Kidd knows it's wrong but he can't find out how to stop. He just is really close to all of them and he can't stand the thought of any of them getting hurt

- Kidd is a manly mans man and he is proud. He makes weapons out of everything and breaking into his house would be like breaking into a military base

-Bonney is pretty tomboyish and has a hard time meshing with girls (one reason she really wants to become Perona's friend.)

-Her personality is really brash and all

-infact both of theres is

-Bonney always feels bad for being mean to him but since she feels like a creep for her feelings she doesn't know what to do

-Bonney is prideful, so is Kidd. If you doubt her at all she'll mcfreaking wreck you by doing so damn good

-Bonney consults Hawkins a lit since they are the same age but in two different levels of maturity

-Side note: Basil loves all his friends and is ready to be all of their big brother. 

-Kidd and her eventually at the same time pull a 'fuck it i can't deal with this anymore.' And it goes like this

-'i love you!'

-'i love you!'

-

-

- 'u sure'

- 'ye'

-Kidd and Bonney actually end up hunting and fishing together

-They have probably made out in a deer stand

-They have a place to smoke meats and boy do they

-Kidd will eat straight off his knife

-Bonney really likes his house. Its unique and very outdoorsy

-kidd's crew could be his orphanage mates, especially like Killer

-Kidd is a mix between goth bf and country bf and that's really sexy of him

-Bonney's parents probably hate him

-Kidd definitely has silently loathed Law from the start

-Kidd has probably been arrested at least once

-Bonney learned to cook from her aunt

-Bonney is constantly angry that people she cooking as a girls only thing

-"DON'T LOOK AT ME I'M STRESS COOKING *Tastes* NOT ENOUGH S A L T"

-Bonney is a power bottom not up for discussion

-A lot of people think Bonney's a lesbian

-Kidd really loves Bonney's cooking and that's his guise to bum at her restaurant

-Kidd can actually cook pretty well and has got up to make her breaky and its cute

-Angry sex? Happens more than you think

-They are both ticking time bombs

-not towards each other to everyone else

That's everything that hit me. I'll wait a bit for extra bits

-kidd definitely goes and checks on the kids he left behind. He's big bro

-Bonney lived close to hicktown 👀 (oh my god, what if her mom is hicklady.)

My mind won't stop on kidd.

Imagine this. 16 year old Kidd. Went fishing  and brought back a bunch of fish. Gets told to throw them out. Tells them to bite his ass and goes into a secluded spot to make a fire and cooks the fish and then younger kids come out hungry and he feeds them the whole time having a "iim so damn done" Look on his face.

I gotta document it now before i forget lol

Kidd probably is salty at religion like; where were my damn parents and why did i get to watch all my friends leave. Why did i have to deal with the shitty adults who looked after us >:(

We get to develop hick lady. Bonney isn't religious in my eyes but she knows how to fake it

Kidd's parents probably dropped him off on the orphanage steps. Then he got neglected by the caretakers then the people he made friends with got adopted. His family are the younger kids that never got adopted as he grew up and eventually left. He still checks on em.

Kidd lives out in the boonies so he can weld in peace. He is the only welder prolly in the area (also prolly has some skill as an electrician.) So he makes good money. He might be with a company as well but idk how to set that up. 

It's sorta like Armstrong's house placement.

His house is kinda small. One bedroom one bath, stone floors. A fireplace. And basic appliances. And he only has one door for the outside so cold doesn't creep in. The rest are curtains to his rooms. He uses his fireplace and space heaters. Has a king size bed to cry alone in. And lights. His living room is pretty big. His kitchen is average. He definitely has hung up deer heads and prolly stuffed ducks he killed. He probably has a hunting dog that lives inside with him. Its a lot of gray and brown. He has a bear skin rug and he's proud of it.

He's got himself a place outside so he can smoke meats. And a furnace and anvil and all that in a building right next to his smoke house. It's all connected. A wooden porch he built. He probably has a lake in his backyard.

Like i'm thinking he bought a shitty house and a chunk of land and spent a fortune making it how he likes it. Which took a long time.

Bonney probably has a small apartment close to her restaurant. She has to spend a lot of money on rent and pay. But it's a pretty popular place. She's a good ol chef of course. Again she lived in hicktown and moved to the big city ™.

She rarely talks to her parents (i think her dad planted an image of a woman in her head and it made her bulimic.)

And even though Bonney is pretty and such she has major self confidence issues. Because her dad and her mom just let it happen. But she sees them on holidays coz her other family is there. And the only one who doesn't judge kidd hard at first glance is her aunt. Family holidays are drudges for both of them

Lets develop hick lady holidays will always be fun.

I guess she sorta looks like old ass lady Bonney and her dad is op background character 7

Also; Kidd has two dogs. A fully inside dog that's a small little basset hound and then his hunting dog which is a curr. He loves them both

Also they prolly stay like a week- three days on big holidays and hick lady is like "You aren't sleeping in the same room."

Kidd: look lady i've been trying to get to this status for years fuck you

I wanna name her dad James so his family calls him JJ and Kidd's like "What grown man goes by jj" And Bonney's like "just look away."

I think we have a solid plot to start with. And i got the lore pretty well.

The plot is basically~

Kidd and Bonney have a mutual crush on each other but both don't realize and have some perceptions that aren't true (Kidd scared of love coz of what he's been told, thinking he's too immature, Bonney thinking she is too old, not thinking she is a 'real' girl.). They are kinda aggressive to each other (especially bonney) to try and ward their emotions off. Until they eventually both just crack and are shook ™

And we got lil side things. Anger issues. Her eating disorder. His mommy and daddy issues. Her family problems ect.

Hannah

Ina

Connie

Kayla

Lois

Annie

Daisy

Yennifer