#these will mever change
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two constants in man city games
1. kovacic giving me a headache
2. ruben having his shorts so high up they may as well be thongs
#these will mever change#footy rambles#man city#manchester city#mcfc#ruben dias#kovacic#mateo kovaÄiÄ
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ruby doodles
#rwby#ruby rose#rwby ruby rose#frosen steel#frosensteel#nuts and dolts#nuts n dolts#whiterose#i love drawing from memory i will mever change i will never improve#also i did these at likee 4am so i was barely awake anyway#RUBY ROSE YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME !
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In the community movie, they should mention that Abed's saw analysis is now at least 4 hours long because of the new movies in the franchise. Like Troy should just casually mention how he spent a whole afternoon just listening to Abed talk about saw
#i feel like abed would have so much to say about jigsaw and saw x#like with jigsaw i think it'd be a whole rant about it#and with saw x i just know abed would have a lot to say about all the character moments it gave us#like the relationship between amanda and john and amanda attempting to change johns mind about gabriela#the fact that i will mever be able to hear his saw analysis is upsetting#nbc community#abed nadir#community
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Hair
They say that hair holds stories, that the style is what makes a man.
They say long locks make you a pansy and a real man should have it short lest they be mistaken for a girl.
Where I grew up, every man buzzed their hair down.
It was a shame for it to be long and shaggy, and mothers would fuss over you, insisting upon a haircut.
For girls, it was fine.
They could have hair as long as they wanted or as short as they needed, so long as it wasnt buzzed as short as a manâs.
Being anything else just wasnât a thing round these parts where churches chimed every sunday, pastors clammoring around resturants and filling their quotas in a single lunch.
So I buzzed mine.
I tried as hard as I could to seem as manly as possible
To appear as bull of a brute as any cowboy should.
I wore all the boy things and had all the short boy hair.
My scalp was sensitive anyways, so I thought it didnât bother me.
It was better shorter.
Wasnt it?
I still gazed and clammored about the anime boys I saw on screen or in Otome games though.
I gushed about how pretty they were with hair down their backs like a silken curtain, or whipping wild through the air like the mane of a lion.
Legolas was never deemed as not manly enough
Beither was Zen or inuyasha or the undertaker.
A crush, I supposed.
Because of course thats all it was.
I was a gay little boy with gay little crushes and my type was men with long, Beautiful hair.
Right?
My hair was a dull, discolored brown from the shimmering blonde it used to be, the blonde I remember from kindergarten.
I tried to return to that blonde with bleach.
My school didnt allow unnatural colors, so anything was better than that matted, oily brown.
Shaved short and as platinum as a ken doll, I should have been as man as ever.
4 years, I stayed like that, and while the short hair was easy to take care of, I felt as hideous as a pile of sludge.
It didnt matter if I was loved for my looks, I supposed.
Wouldnât that be too vain of me?
Boys werenât supposed to care about what they looked like, they werent supposed to coo and admire Beautiful hair or seethe in jealousy that their sister looked so much better and has such long, goregous hair.
It wasnât until after high school that I began to explore.
Covid let me grow my hair out more, though I still trimmed the sides.
I let my bangs grow long and shaggy over my face, like a veil to hide me from the world.
Eventually I dyed it again, this time going with that green I had always wanted to try, the one I had seen on my favorite youtuber growing up, fluffy and emerald.
Still, for years more, I kept it short. Only allowing that fringe to hover over me as some sort of style.
Recently though, Iâve realized I want that hair that those anime men had.
I want that soft curtain rolling down my back like waves of an ebony river, flecks of mossy green dotting it like a miasma of toxin flowing through the oily black stream.
I want the hair like the ring girl
The people around me are foolish and prudent to think the length of ones hair makes you more or less of a man.
I know that now, and Iâm glad I do.
I want to stop pretending not to like things
#long post#personal#idk what else to tag#hair#trans#transgender#just thinkin about How different i treat my hair these days#its more beautiful than its ever been and keeps being beautiful#iâve been dying it for 8 years now#and i wouldnt change a thing#except maybe the length#ive always loved long hair#i just mever felt like i was allowed to have it as a man#because i was worried it would make me less masculine#and to some people it does#i get called maâam a lot#even with my chin scruff#i have a high voice when i speak to customers#but none of that matters#this area wont recognize me no matter what i do#so im just gonna do things i like#and hope that those i love will respect me and how i wish to be called#which i know they will
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maybe i will play that new furry game
#atlyss or whatever its called. i need something a bit brain-off and colourful#sorry followers i can mever be a furry becuase i like computers too much. and im afraid if i were to create a non human sona#it would have to be some sort of conputer. and not an animal#however maybe that will change
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having little creatures in your home is great because sometimes they snuggle with you and lick your face and other times you have to get up out of bed and find out why theyre making horrible noises in the other room like right specifically now EVEN THOUGH IM ALL COSIED UP AND ITS BEDTIME AND YET - AND YET!!! I STILL HEAR SOME STUPID NOISES OF THINGS BEING TOSSED TO THE FLOOR AND NOW I GOTTA GET UP AND FIND OUT WHAT IN THE ROTTEN WORLD THEYRE DOING
#it never ends and mever changes#all creachers is the same#im going to rip their little hands off i sweater god#im SLEEPY COZY i dont WANNA go check damages#grrrrr#litter box
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This is purely my own headcanon but I truly am a âif NRMT were to be canon and itâs not and I hope it never is bc I donât trust capcom or like most ppl who I find annoying who also like these twoâ but Miles confesses first in my as close to canon as possible brain. He went on a year long death journey and his words to Phoenix at the end of JFA about how he helped him and all that shit. COMBINED with the utter and total surprise of Phoenix âI trust him?â Wright. Like yes that was his childhood friend who he wanted to help and he DID but that guy wouldnât know romantic feelings for Edgeworth unless the man hit him with his car and proposed afterward.
Miles truly is fell first, fell so hard he broke a bone, spends another decade doing his job that I have many feelings about, helps get Phoenixâs badge back, another year of being back in LA. And then confesses.
I love romantic Phoenix as a concept but that man is so. He has very specific ideas of people and the placement of them in his life he probably doesnât see Miles as a romantic option and just does not open that door. Itâs probably there. But itâs all being filtered through strained friendship and he just doesnât notice what stuff goes into the romantic love door and what goes into the regular friendship door. So when Miles confesses he needs a week to open the door and unpack all the shit he just did not process to even sort out if he feels the same. And then if he does how the fuck does he handle it.
But yeah Miles Confesses First I donât write you all the time but know youâre the truth in my heart
#narumitsu#I could make a whole video about Miles and his job and me projection onto him about how he feels proud but stuck#blank slate means we can think up whatever#but yeah Miles may suck at casual conversation when they first meet again#but he didnât have to go all out with his post trial confession in the wake of Nickâs anger and betrayal#But he did and I think that means a lot#AA1 Miles would MEVER say that shit#so yeah him being more open as time goes on#and Nick being more closed off during and after the gap#they shift and change and I think Miles would have to be the one to bridge that new gap#He might feel obligated but I think he truly just Wants to do it for himself as well
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I could not care less about Wicked
#im sorry#but as ever#i am a hater at heart#and that will mever change#ive never seen it#never intend to#that song is annoying#hillyspeaks#hilly hates on another musical
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Do u think my teacher will notice if I make the erik a butch lesbian in this phantom of the opera piece im doing for class bc i dont think he will i think i can get away with it
#i wanted to play erik so bad when i was little and i mever addressed why i might want to âpretendâ to be in love with a woman#yes i know it is toxic yes that play changed me as a person
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What is intelligence?

Leonid Pasternak  (Ukrainian, 1862â1945) - The Torments of Creative Work
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I hate being in my brain. Get me out of here.
#I hate that I resent people for being nice to me in situations where I want to earn their approval#I hate that something hugely good can happen but if it's surrounded by even minor bad things I can't feel happiness#I hate that I will always focus on the negative even when I'm ACTIVELY TRYING to focus on the positive#I hate that I will always feel weighed and shackled by my inadequacies and that I'll never feel like I'm good enough#I hate the fact that I play secret games I know I'll never win#I hate that it's so. SO fucking hard for me to be truly happy#I hate whatever parts of me cause everyone to leave and abandon me even though I don't know what those parts are#I hate that the smallest of things insurmountably change my mood for the worst#I hate that I can't feel joy like normal people#I hate that I'll always feel second rate#I hate that even when I have people I care about and talk to I have a hard time seeing them as friends and can't believe they enjoy our time#I hate that I'll never feel good enough#I hate that I have unrealistic expectations of people and I hate how when they inevitably fail to meet them I feel gutted#I hate the void in my chest that threatens to swallow me whole#I hate the tightness in my throat that comes so close to choking me but it mever does#I hate that I can't do anything right#I hate that I can't just make myself do simple tasks#I hate that I'll never have proper judgement of myself or my surroundings#I hate the fact that I never know what to think#I hate that I have to live feeling like this#I hate the fact that I have to live at all#I hate hating myself so much#I hate that I can't do anything about it no matter how I try#I hate how worthless I am and always will be#I hate how I just wish I would die
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scrapped the brick path i was making đđđ working on pastel rainbow pavers instead
#gf originally wanted to go for a city theme#and i rlly like pastel + colorful kidcore like city towns#and have mever made one bc ive only had my 1 island in the 5 years ive had the game akdhsjs and i rlly like that ones theme#its like home to me i cant change it#but on gd island i can do as i please :3 so i wamna try out cute n colorful city#think citytown from hello kitty island adventure
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Beginning to crawl out of my holeâźď¸
#no way#thing ks#is*#um#like#i guess like mg tumblr is the place im the most expressive ever (kinda)#so#I'd mever do this kinda bs anywhere else#especially right after i woke up đ#small things changing life for the better i suppose#naes brain posts
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Defending Aziraphale cause I KNOW yâall are gonna come for him:
1. a lot of people say that him deciding to go back to heaven is a character regression and doesnât make sense- but it does! aziraphale has 6000+ years of repressed trauma from doing what heaven tells him! and even if he does seem to be taking steps forward (shades of gray), he never fully takes that big leap away from heaven (very LIGHT shades of gray). you canât just recover from it!
2. also, we never actually see him get over the demons bad angels good thing. crowley is the only exception to this rule, in his eyes. he still views the Fall as a bad thing, which is why he wants them to be angels together!
3. people are also saying that itâs crazy ineffable bureaucracy got together so fast without too much internal conflict, unlike the (now divorced) husbands. but it makes sense because GABRIEL AND BEELZEBUB RAN THE SYSTEM. AND CROWLEY WAS CLEARLY A HIGH RANKING ANGEL WHO FELL VERY EARLY ON, MAKING HIM VERY DISILLUSIONED WITH THE SYSTEM. aziraphale mever got that chance- he was a lower ranking angel that was beaten down by this system, and as such doesnât see that itâs the system thatâs corrupt, not just the angels within. he still believes that heaven is a GOOD place filled with BAD angels, because he has literally never had the chance to learn otherwise.
and this is why it narratively makes perfect sense for him to become the supreme archangel- heâll finally be able to see that the idea of heaven is corrupt because heâll be in charge of it!
4. aziracrow have also been shown to be a direct parallel to nina and maggie. in the last episode, nina says that theyâre not ready for a relationship because she just left her incredibly toxic and abusive partner. aziraphale and nina are in very similar situations! he literally just left heaven, which was incredibly toxic and abusive, and might not be ready for a relationship with crowley yet! however, unlike nina, he doesnât fully believe that his previous situation was toxic, so he goes back- because he hasnât seen enough to understand!
5. he clearly wants to FIX the system, not just be a part of it, because he is intrinsically such a selfless being. he still hasnât learned to put what he actually wants before what he thinks everybody needs yet, because, again, he doesnât understand how heaven works!
in conclusion i love aziraphale and i havenât slept because iâve been thinking about the finale so lmk if this doesnât make sense but i will not be changing my thoughts about aziraphale
ALSO KEEP REWATCHING GOOD OMENS WE NEED SEASON 3
#good omens#crowley#ineffable husbands#aziraphale#good omens spoilers#gos2 spoilers#good omens 2 spoilers#spoilers
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Previous weight: 127.2 lbs/57 kg
Morning weight: 126.6/57 kg
Loss: 0.6 lbs
So close to my pre-binge weight! I was 125.8 before binging and I'm like a hair away from getting there again. Yippieeeee.
Yesterdays Workout: None lol
Todays workout: Probably just 20 mins of hiit
Additional thoughts: I was thinking of doing a WIEIAD as a "junkorexic" cause I think it'd be comical in a way, and also I've never seen anyone do that. I've never tracked calories but I'll try. It also might push towards eating more healthy cause since ive mever tracked, I dont really know how much I'm consuming caloric wise but if I really knew maybe It'd be easy to make a change. I also still need to learn how to cook.
#ana rexx#male ed#ana y mia#ed blr#3d diary#i need to be th1n#3d relapse#âď¸rving#âď¸ve#ed bl0g
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Hi! Would you like to do a part 2 of "I'd Mever Do That to Ypu" (Jess Mariano)? Maybe the first time they visit Stars Hollow and readar meets Luke, Lorelai and Rory? It's okay if you don't, I just really love your writing!
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After confessing your feelings to each other, Jess was desperate to take you to Stars Hollow. He wanted you to see the little town and he wanted to introduce you to Luke, knowing that his Uncle would love you straight away. And he was right. The moment you walked into the diner, you were greeted by a tall man, wearing a baseball cap and a flannel shirt embracing you in a bear hug.
âYou must be (Y/N),â he said, pulling back from the hug and smiling at you.
â(Y/N), this is my Uncle Luke,â Jess introduced, taking one of your hands in his.
âItâs nice to meet you, sir,â you said.
âI donât think Iâve heard anyone call you sir,â a tall, dark-haired woman said, getting up from her table and walking over to you, wrapping one arm around Luke and holding her hand out to you. âIâm Lorelai.â
âNice to meet you,â you replied, reaching out to shake her hand.
âCome and sit down, you want a coffee, hun?â Lorelai offered, walking behind the counter and grabbing a mug and the coffee pot.
âGet out from there,â Luke said, walking over to Lorelai and pulling her back around the counter.
âShe doesnât work here?â you asked, leaning into Jess slightly.
âNo, sheâs dating Luke,â Jess explained, leading you over to the table where Lorelai had been sitting on her own. Taking your seats, Lorelai filled three mugs with coffee before sitting back down and talking at a breakneck speed, wanting to know everything about it. It was when she mentioned Rory that you felt yourself go cold.
âYou know Rory?â you asked politely, taking a sip of your coffee.
âWell, Iâd hope so, sheâs my daughter,â Lorelai joked and you gave a weak laugh in response. âWhy? Do you know her?â
â(Y/N) and Rory briefly saw each other at the open house in Philadelphia,â Jess explained. You managed to make it through the rest of the afternoon, talking to Lorelai as if nothing was wrong before you and Jess decided to call it a day and head to the apartment above the diner (Luke having offered it to you both while he stayed at Lorelaiâs).
âAre you okay?â Jess asked after gently closing the door behind him.
âSo, this is where you lived?â you started, looking around the small apartment, trying to change the subject.
âDonât change the subject,â Jess said, seeing right through you as he wrapped his arms around your waist and held you close. You sighed before leaning your forehead on his chest.
âI just hate the way she treated you,â you said, your voice muffled by his t-shirt. âShe led you on and I know you said that you donât have feelings for her anymore, and I believe you, but she was the first girl you loved and she ruined it. You know I wonât do that right?â you asked, moving your head to look at time.
âDo you know what Luke said to me earlier while you were talking to Lorelai?â Jess asked softly, bringing his hands up to gently cup your face. âHe said that youâre good for me. That he can see how happy I am when Iâm with you. And I agree with him. Thatâs all that matters, right?â
You couldnât stop the butterflies in your stomach at his words and you smiled up at him, reaching on your toes to press a kiss to his lips.
âRight.â
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