#these have no cohesion but I don't have the attention for that right now lmao

[shiraishi--kanade]

I loved reading Picture Wrap but also I think there's part of it that gets overlooked a lot and it's that it's Nene and An AND Akito. Like yes golden retriever X skittish anxious cheetah but there's also Akito Shinonome in there are he's IMPORTANT.

Because Nene can't exactly handle a bright person like An without preparation- An literally calls out to people the moment Nene requests something for the movie and Nene can't handle that much attention without exploding. Also An is slightly obsessed with her and is trying her hardest to get Nene to like her and enjoy herself.

Akito is what makes the entire dynamic possible. When Nene gets too many ideas he steps up and tells the classmates that they shouldn't pressure her, he gets some burden off of her and calms her down. Also Akito is 100% used to dealing with Ann's sunshine energy, which makes the cohesion between Nenean easier.

An is the golden retriever and Akito is the German Shepard that makes sure the cheetah stays in place and doesn't bolt out and goes nuts from the attention and pressure that's put on Nene's shoulders. He's like a soft pat on the back for Nene and he fits in the trio SO good.

Oh yeah you described it so well too! I definitely don't mean to leave Akito out I'm just Nenean brained lmao. But now that you put that to words you are right and I don't think it would have worked if not for Akito there. And on the reverse I don't think Akito & Nene would have worked either without An's ginger cat single braincell energy either. 2-A I love you so much never change

[wheelercore]

The Curious Case of The Dead Wheeler Granny

Also known as: I need to make a cohesive post that actually has context so i can add it to the ✨ master post ✨. So basically if you already know, you know. idk.

So... recently have been thinking A Lot about weird "production errors" (tm) and creel home fuckery + wheeler parallels. Its no secret that there are Many references to the creel home in the wheeler home for whatever reason, from the piano to the wedding dress to even the clock chimes (?) close to the the door way of the wheeler home.

However one of the most fascinating Choices was when the main urn that sat on the wheeler mantle place since s1 suddenly changed to a completely different urn during the convergence of the four gates at the climax of s4. What was the reason for this? It's also no secret that ST is riddled with what we can call "intentional" errors in objects, peoples positions, etc etc. But why a seemingly random object that has been sitting in the background of the home for 4 seasons w/o any special attention? And why at the important climax of the season?

Season 1

Season 4- before the climax

Season 4- after the climax

(and this isnt even to mention the fact that the wheeler dining room is covered in rose vases that mimic the OG urn)

If you reference this back to the mantle place in the Creel home... there is something quite interesting:

A few little trinkets, weirdly placed and evenly spread out. There is a little bird (dove?) statue like how the wheelers have two geese statues sitting on their mantle place. Next to that though? A strange looking golden vase. Mind you, this is happened when Virginia is having her "holding up the mirror" moment. As in this mirror is right there reflecting Virginia and this little urn-looking vase trinket and the rose-y wallpaper behind her (which is interesting given that the OG urn has pink roses on it with a framed picture of pink roses next to it).

Put the Virginia relation in your back pocket for now. Lets go up to the stuff in the Creel attic, which are heavily referenced in the wheeler home, in particular the wedding dress:

Where has have we seen a piece of a brides clothing in s4? In Suzie's home, where her sister Tabitha is wearing a wedding veil, and you guess it, a pink floral (roses? Honestly the color scheme is very similar to the creel wallpaper mentioned above) dress:

In which Tabitha pretends to die. She's not really dying. The joke here is that Tabitha's father had thought she was dying though ("it looked genuine"). And oh... is that the edge of a grandfather clock I see right outside the doorway framed right there this scene?

If I was extra weird about it I could also point out that the letter blocks on Tabitha's bracelet kind of spell out (M?)AMA. But its super blurry and I cant get a good shot of it so take this with a grain of salt:

A little sprinkle of Petergate here but Tabitha is a woman who was raised from the dead by Saint Peter:

Which I mean... If we're going to talk about lying about moms dying? The "Nanas got cancer" gag in s3 in which... Hopper lies about Mikes Nana being sick but then goes onto say:

There's nothing wrong with Nana

Mike then proceeds to repeatedly call him a liar. So... nothing's wrong with Nana? Would that explain the weird trend of people specifically lying over the phone about having a sick family member also in s3/s4?

(credit: screenshots from this @/heroesbyler post - unrelated to this theory, I just think its neat)

And if we're talking about lies:

(oh holly girl... wearing that pink + white outfit and that rose shirt lmao)

And of course: Papa lies.

(don't even get me started on how the grandfather clock most likely represents Brenner ("maybe hes a clock maker?" and s4 literally starting with Brenner setting a timer))

But this begs the question... If, by all accounts, nothing is wrong with Nana, so much so it would be like she was raised from the dead, then who's ashes do the Wheeler's have on their mantle place thinking that its their granny?

Could it be, thinking back to the weird trinket on front of the mirror in the Creel home, Virginia's ashes instead? Quick question, where exactly are Virginia and Alice buried? Did Victor get a say in his wife's funeral arrangements?

And if Nana Wheeler's death was a lie designed to conceal a truth and Papa lies... ah who am i kidding it was martin brenner. it was fucking brenner who else would do some weird shit like this. it was him.

Anyways things like this really make me question why exactly the Wheelers are one of two main families in the show. As far as I know they didn't do much in TFS, so hell, why not Patty? Bob? The Sin Claires?

Regardless, I would really like them to be kind and rewind back to whatever is going on here if you know what I mean

[ddarker-dreams]

🤔 or 🧐 I forgot which emoji it was lmao

🥺, 😈, and 🤯

[ask game]

🧐 Do you spend much time researching for your stories?

oh god absolutely yes. i love to learn so it never feels like a hassle though!! i typically break my writing research down into two categories: character and setting. character research consists of me combing through dialogue, reading through their history multiple times, and figuring out what their core principles are. i want the character to still be consistent and recognizable even if they're being placed in scenarios they normally wouldn't be in canon. i'll also look at the creator's interviews where they share their thoughts on the character if there are any out there.

then there's setting research, which i consider equally important. when you're writing fanfiction (unless it's an AU, but even those tend to retain qualities from the canon universe), the world itself is a 'character' too imo. it has rules to follow and an establish history. getting things wrong can break the reader's immersion. getting things right though makes your story seem all the more grounded. i remember simply losing my mind when i was like, 13, because i read an attack on titan fanfic where the author had the characters using oil lamps as their light source. i went feral over the detail and thought it was the coolest thing ever.

paying extra attention to the time period and culture creates this very pleasing cohesive effect. i also think it's crucial to do extensive research if you're about to write for a culture you're not familiar with, otherwise a disconnect can form. i have East Coast American Brain™ and i try to stop it from oozing into my writing whenever possible. like no. no one in genshin impact is gonna say "the whole nine yards", stop it brain. >:(

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

honestly everything yandere i write is probably playfully mean HKGKMEGR although i do try to find a balance. i want the powerlessness that comes from yandere stories to be frustrating, yes, but like. sexily frustrating. is that a term? it is now. for example, the yan might be saying something condescending, but there's this underlying flirtatious nature to it that makes you feel frustrated yet flustered. even if the situation itself is hopeless, i let the MC retain some power through their ability to converse/make choices. the MC can also get into the yandere's head, play along, act purposefully aggravating, etc etc... this give and take is what i find the most interesting. so my goal is to be a little playfully mean, but like, in a way that makes you twirl your hair and giggle.

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

ACTION!!! it's action. man. i can write a full story where two characters talk about a rock, but make me do an action scene and i'll crumble. i'm so bad at it. it looks so cool in my head, so dynamic, then i go to write it down and it's like. the dude goes to punch. you dodge. you kick. dude dodges. zzzzz. zzzzzz. how long do i make the sequence? what clever tricks should be used to gain an upper hand? i don't know. i have no clever tricks. i know i need to practice it to get better but it's physically painful for me. please let me make them talk about a rock instead. i'll do better at that.

🥺 is answered here !!

[mellxncollie]

alex you really had to go and do this again, didn't you? (which is wonderful because i cut a few gifs from this set and now i get to share them!)

well damn i wasn't planning on another ao3-style comment but nooooo, you had to go make another beautiful gifset (lmao i love both you and your gifset so much!!) literally saved this until i can fully appreciate it, i feel like a little kid wanting to open a present slowly to keep the suspense longer, like i'm trying not to look at the gifs first (impossible) because i want to give you my FRESH response. i adore colour palettes (to no one's surprise)!! so excited for the ep2 gifs!!

obsessed with the fact that you waited to look at these!

gif 1: NIKO MY BELOVEDDDD. i love love love the green-pink contrast, i feel like that is just very niko!! we see her in other colours, sure, but in my mind they're her main two. obviously the pink is the sprites (and the lesbianism of course lmao) but the colour palette just really draws attention to it which is soooo pretty. and the yellow and greens!! the way her school clothes actually look green makes the whole thing SO cohesive and satisfying. also also the different shades of pink, like if i didn't look closely i would've thought it was one shade of pink except the colour palette made me look! *heart eyes motherfucker*

the main connecting colors that make this episode cohesive were pink and yellow, with a hint of green. and it's so perfect for niko! because you're so right, niko and pink is just... meant to be :) the whole flashback/memory sequence has those pink/red floating shapes and my brain definitely edited them out the first couple times i saw the episode, so i can totally relate. only really noticed the pink when i made my first gifset of the scene (all the way back in may, holy shit i've been at this for a while)

gif 2: ohhhhhhh my god turquoise+gold my beloved!!!!! sooooo in love with this palette it's not even funny. everything is so turquoise and kinda monotone with the funky lighting, and then you just have a few gold lights to give the whole thing life ough. (also a fun callback to the ep1 cat leash, aka the conflict they're headed towards??)

love the connection to the cat leash, definitely didn't think about it but now it's all i'm thinking about!

gif 3: HI LESBIAN NIKO HI! i love how the animations reflect in her eyes omg, i wonder how they did that? the purple that's the reflection of the light on her hair :o i never noticed it!!! and the other non-pink colours, the sort of pastel-y light green and yellow is so perfect for this scene WOW, actually all of the animations seem to be all pastel-y! and the green coming from the background (window?) is SO COOL

funny you mention lesbian. because. um. i title all these gifs "palette-[keyword].gif" and the keyword for this gif?

oooh so i also never noticed how the animations reflected in her eyes but now looking at it (and this is kind of a technical answer) it looks like the reflections in both eyes are the exact same and they don't reflect on her sclera, just her irises and pupils. i suspect that they just added the reflections as an overlay, and then masked around her irises, and it's not too hard to have those masks shift with her slight movement using keyframes for that short scene. so... probably added in post.

also the green!! i eyedropped that from the animations actually, i totally missed that it also matches the background window!

gif 4: hhhhhhhh SUCH a fun base shot but not one that i think is usually giffed? at least i haven't seen it around. it's really lovely to get those scenes like little treasures! and the greens!!! god i love a good green and these are the BEST. the monotone? *chef's kiss* (also i think i said something about it in the ep1 reaction and i know there's an aesthetic reason for it BUT it really does make the boys feel more ghostly since the only colour on them that's represented is the greenness of the forest reflecting on them. it looks amazing, basically)

funny that you mention this one as not usually giffed. because i have made soooooo many gifs of this exact shot, it's one of my ultimate favorites in the whole show actually, but i almost never publish them. i think this is the only gifset i've published with this scene. and the only other time i've used it was for the cover of the cinematography post:

little secret: it's not actually a monotone scene at all, i totally fudged it for this set. the ground is all yellows and reds, and there's a ton of blue and magenta lighting around it too. i didn't like the blues and magentas in this shot anyways, so i adjusted them to be more green and desaturated, and then ended up changing the rest to be more monotone.

gif 5: oooooh neutrals + gold? did not expect it, but i LOVE. also very fitting for the bathroom as this sort of very mundane place. nothing supernatural's going on in here, no sirree. also also very fun camera angle! something something about the light itself being white, but the light it casts being this warm gold? also the reflection of the light in the water, never noticed that!! i know the water is for crystal to splash her face with, but it just gives off scrying vibes and i am such a big fan. they should let the gang explore more supernatural methods in s2! but i digress. (oh and crystal being much more present, the dark colour picking up in her hair as well as the tiles, and the beige and white in her rings, just like the taps! crystal is so alive)

i barely noticed this shot before making this set actually! ended up being my favorite gif in this set though. something about those neutrals and the pop of yellow and the texture of the tiles. it's all so very satisfying :) love the thought of scrying vibes!

gif 6: another green with some red this time!! lmao it's like an optical illusion, my brain refused to see the reds until i actually stopped and looked for it. so nice and autumn-y <3 again the accent colour being the most prominent example of that colour is SUCH a vibe. also. they are so teeny-tiny omg who let them out to solve cases T-T

yep this one definitely is way easier to see the colors if you zoom really far out. i can see the red better in the little icons on my desktop than i can in the full size gif. had a few iterations for this one, including a version with a more muted color palette and another with the same palette but a slightly different yellow.

this was anther shot i didn't ever really pay attention to until making this set, but it's sooo cool. definitely love the autumn vibes and the scale!! yes!!! they look so small!!

gif 7: PIIIIIIIIIIIINK (god i love a good monotone) plus the (weird) perception we have of pink as this innocent colour vs this horror that niko's going through?? the good sauce man! also i love how the pink shifts until the middle colour basically fades against the background, that's really fun

oh yeah this one is really interesting because of that color shift. i initially made the palette eyedropping from one of the first frames but when i played the whole gif, they looked out of place by the final frames. ended up pulling colors from vastly different frames across the gif to get more balance.

gif 8: sprites sprites sprites! lmao i love them, they're terrible but at least they're funny about it <3 the colours?? obviously the greens, the gold in the coins and litty's dress, the white in their hats and clothing (and litty's highlights, damn girl), but that blue?? iconic. i probably wouldn't have seen it if not for the colour palette omgggg

i was actually thinking of you when i made this one and picked that blue. reminded me a bunch of the palette gif on the tube from episode one and the blue in the lights. i was having a hard time picking out a fifth color for this and was deciding between a few but ultimately picked the blue (probably subconciously for you).

overall: i didn't expect you to be able to surpass the ep1 colour palettes but i should never have doubted, oh my godddd olly!!!! just. WOW. loved all the nikos! loved the bright colours! loved the monotones! loved the greens! loved the pinks! loved the golds! (honestly it might be faster to mention everything i don't love, which is..... nothing) THANK YOU FOR GIFTING US MERELY MORTALS WITH YOUR DIVINE GIFSETS <3

to be totally honest, i wasn't sure if this series would work for the rest of the episodes. episode one has such a cohesive look in a way the others don't, and does way more things with lighting and colors than the rest. so i was anticipating the rest of the episodes to be more of a challenge. it ended up being a bit more difficult to find shots, but not nearly as hard as i expected! loveee that you picked up on the green/pink/gold colors here, which make so much sense thematically (niko=pink, green/gold=dandelions)

i ended up cutting four gifs for this set. the first two since they didn't totally fit the green/yellow/pink colors that i think make this set work

and with these next two, the first was cut because i already had 3 forest scenes. the second because i didn't love how the colors cover up esther's face

thanks a bunch for doing this alex!!! i adore hearing your thoughts on these and the little bits of meta you drop are such brainworms. going to be thinking about the connotations of pink as well as crystal and water scrying for a while <3

Dead Boy Detectives (2024) 1.02 — The Case of the Dandelion Shrine (insp)

[booasaur]

So all the Kacy joy made me optimistic enough to check up on New Amsterdam(BAD idea lmao)I should’ve probably seen this ending coming after the season 3 finale but because the bribe and post breakup plot/writing was SO strange, I thought there had to be a bigger picture. Instead they just shitted on Leyla more and more as the season went on :( Like after 4x10 Leyla was so extremely out of character and callous and it didn’t even track. And not even just her, everyone was acting out of it and ridiculous like the show went from wholesome and a little cheesy, to like, actually painful to watch?1

Instead of just ending things or having Lauren own up and letting them fix things(awkward coworker was right. there.)they made Leyla take from Lauren to somehow make Lauren the sympathetic party in all this?! It’s just so…I mean Lauren’s in the wrong here so why demonize Leyla? Was that really the only way they saw to make Lauren ‘good’ again? I was so excited to see Leyla as a SE Asian lesbian and now idk I wish they’d never happened. And not to mention Helen’s whole thing like the way they handle women, especially woc on NA is disgraceful.2

I know, I know, I can't say anything to that. I don't know what changed behind the scenes and why, from the middle of season 3 onward it's been this show when before that it was earnest and watchable.

Characterization and vilification of characters, at this point I'm not even paying attention to that, it hasn't seemed a cohesive, consistent story for a while. We've been taking the good and ignoring the bad for a while now, maybe there'll be a bit more of that in this last season, but who even knows. I guess we'll see by the end how it all shook down.

[bucketofchum]

Psychiatrist update!

I saw him this morning. He's really...mediocre lmao. Honestly doesn't inspire any strong emotions in any direction, which I suppose is better than being actively evil, like my other one.

He asked me about general things about my life, which I was all too happy to tell him about. The rest of my life is going fantastically - I am honestly in one of the best places of my life rn. Social interactions, physical activity, income, health. It's all good right now. The only thing I'm struggling with is my ADHD (I can't think for shit).

Eventually after he was done with his dry questions, we could talk about what brought me in - the fact that I can't form a single complete cohesive thought and have not been able to work for like 5 weeks since coming back to work (I was off work for a month so technically it has been 9 weeks since I've worked).

He suggested that I try to do something else whenever I realise my brain is getting fucky and like....yeah lmao. I do that. That's what I've BEEN doing. But every day for like 5 weeks I've been doing this. At a certain point like.. I actually have to work lmao. I have deadlines. I have been coping unproductively for 5 weeks now lmao. I mean it's a GOOD suggestion - and it's one. Actively employing. But it doesn't address my issue.

Then he considered giving me Zoloft. Isn't that an antidepressant? Yes, he responded, but it might also increase attention. I wasn't so convinced cuz honestly I'm in a good good place in my life rn aside from my slightly nonfunctional (or overfunctional) brain and I'm not sure if an antidepressant is really what I need.

So he wrote me a prescription instead of low dose Ritalin and we'll see if that does the trick! Here is to hoping!

Also I'm back in the office again so that should also improve things. I am feeling good!!!

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Edit: looked into it a bit later and found that often times Zoloft EXACERBATES ADHD symptoms. I don't have depression or anxiety (not chronically at least) or OCD, which are all things that Zoloft would treat.

Other interesting thing is that he said Ritalin might cause a sleep inducing effect. That'll be interesting to see. I'm supposed to take 1 tablet in the morning but if it makes me groggy or sleepy, I can change it to the evening time.

I'll see him again in a month to see how it goes.

[sanstropfremir]

second part of that long ask from ur swf anon :)

after the main dancer was chosen for each class, they would complete the choreo and decide formations for their performances. one of the benefits of the main dancer was that they were always center. they also had the benefit of wearing more embellished clothing to stand out (most noticeable in x class, where rian the main dancer was wearing orange while everyone else was wearing green). here is the full list (mnet truly has the WORST camera angles, so i only included the full cam ver of the performances):

1. assistant class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aF2evLz98h4&ab_channel=MnetTV

2. leader class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=srjJzRVVmxc&ab_channel=CHANNIECHANNEL

the judges shared that even though no:ze was the main dancer/in the center/had the most shiny outfit, they didn't really see her. all the other dancers, in their opinion, stood out and overpowered her.

3. sub class: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mY_3E7W8v30&ab_channel=CHANNIECHANNEL

4. x class (i'm not sure what this class was called): https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fC-_8fbn_s4&ab_channel=Whatthejess

judges shared that lip j was the stand out of this class. she's the girl on the far left at 0:36. (it was originally her choreo but rian was chosen as the main dancer so that's why she is credited.)

*i only included comments that were stand outs.

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i'm not sure how much creative input the main dancers were given regarding stage design... they didn't show it in the episode so i'm assuming that mnet just told them to show up and perform (because like, the rainbow thing they shot at the end of the leader's performance seemed so random? it didn't match what they were doing). after each performance, the main dancers from each class were asked to pick someone who they thought was the worst dancer. in doing so, the person chosen would lose points for their crew.

judges also chose an mvp crew they thought were the best. prowdmon (monika + lip j + others [sorry i don't know their names. the show really only focuses on these two]) was selected and this gave them the advantage of choosing which crews went against each other in ep4. so, it wasn't a random lottery draw! in the episode, they only showed the part where prowdmon chose to go against wayb (context: no:ze, the main dancer from the leader class, chose monika as the worst dancer. and this made her mad so she was like we're going against wayb - no:ze's crew). i'm not sure why they didn't show how the other crews were paired up. because ya, coca n butter + hook is definitely an interesting match.

also like, wayb was eliminated from the show after ep4's mission.

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and it seems like from here on out, there will be a mission each episode to determine who will be eliminated. i'm honestly not too sure. for their next mission, they're doing a mega crew mission and mnet doesn't really explain it; but it seems like each crew is doing a performance on a larger scale (with more members added to their crew). also, like mnet is ass and doesn't upload all the performances onto their channel..... they only upload the ones that were the most popular/had the biggest public reaction which is why i had a hard time finding the clips for the classes mission. hopefully they do from here on out.

another v long post. thank u again for reading and sharing ur thoughts! always love hearing them. (also, pls let me know if i'm oversharing. u mentioned not caring for the competitive nature and drama so i'm not sure if i was adding too much. there really isn't drama imo. mnet tries to do their best to edit and make it seem that way but when u watch the show, the girls truly root for each other and are friends.)

mnet truly has the worst camera angles i hate them so much. also why are they still streaming on a goddamn potato. the quality is SO bad i can barely see anything!! there's a lot of me complaining in this one i'm sorry in advance.

1. assistant class

i have to assume that whoever they chose as the main dancer is the one that stays in centre because i cannot tell from the clothing at all. i don't think she was a standout performer here, but also the camera and the fire effects are WAY too wild to actually get a good grasp on who even was the standout. i also have to assume that the dancers have no say in the design because design is not a big part of street dance and this kind of chaos screams m 'too-much-money-dont-know-how-to-use-it' net. they built this massive set, barely used it, and didn't leave enough room for the proper formation spacing!! ugh. i hope the judges actually got to see a locked off version of this without all that fire in front of the camera because if i were them i would be squinting down the end of my glasses like a grandma at the screen. that's what i was doing anyways but still.

2. leader class

i have to agree, i don't think noze stood out as the main dancer here. and geniunely i cannot tell that they embellished her costume more. like damn, that stylist took a masterclass in subtlety, because i was easily paying more attention to whoever was wearing those massive thigh high cutout garter stockings and woven bodysuit combo. i am assuming that the point of these challenges was probably to be noticed the most so that they can score points and pick who they went up against for the elimination round? i'm not entirely clear but my point remains; ngl i don't really like this method of creating performance because it means that no one is there to create a performance, yanno? troupe/group choreo like this thrives on teamwork to actually make it a good performance. i know it's a pretty classic method of weeding out people for auditions and stuff like that but personally i find it a wholly uncompelling viewing experience, especially when it's a fully produced stage like this. i know everyone very likely gets along behind the scenes but the incohesion of intent is very obvious. also what's up with the assistant class getting a massive set and the leaders getting a bunch of cars and some smoke pyrotechnics? i mean, i am glad they filmed it during the day, but i am confused by the disparity.

3. sub class

i wish i could describe how poorly mnet shot this. it's not a fucking mama stage, it's a dance stage!! we need to see the choreo properly!!!! and together!!! obviously i don't care about stitching together different takes for the final edit but just...not having a continuity at all in the choreo is a bit jarring. again, i am also not sure how one is supposed to evaluate how well these dancers did, because i can barely see what people are doing. or who the main dancers are. i know i'm railing a lot on mnet here but i can't give an accurate reading of the dancers because legitimately it is so hard to tell what's going on. if they want to bill this as a legitimate dance show, why are they shooting it like a kpop performance? the camerawork for kpop serves a specific function: to add to the visual spectacle and to highlight the idols' faces. you don't need either of those things for shoot choreography, so why do we keep getting closeups of dancers' faces? not that these dance videos aren't spectacle-y or fun, because they very much are, but they really suck at their one primary function, which is displaying the choreo.

4. x class

this is definitely the one where the camera work is the closest to what it should be, but then they go and fuck it up by adding rain! just the groundwater would have been fine, but noooo they had to add the extra rain so there would be extra water drops on the lens!! this is my favourite choreo of all four of these, i think there's the most cohesion and (excluding the rain) it's got a good mix of spectacle with the water and the blacklight and the right camera angles to show the choreo mostly well. i still don't understand why they cut in those sections that don't fit with the rest of the flow though. why. you could have one-taked this and it would have looked dope as fuck. i agree that lip j stands out the most, obviously it's her choreo so it's the best suited to her character and abilities.

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if it wasn't a random lottery draw they should at least have the courtesy of showing people why who picked who!! that's the most interesting part! and i'm not that surprised about wayb being eliminated, prowdmon really stomped them into the ground with that revenge energy. i'm interested in this larger scale performances concept, because i'm not really sure what that looks like in this particular context. if they do end up on youtube i will review them! and you're not oversharing at all, the context is fine! i don't mind reading it as information, i just don't like actually watching it with my own eyes. i can't watch that kind of thing in reality tv because it makes me want to sit everyone down like a kindergarden teacher and go "ok, now why are we all yelling?". too many years of tense rehearsal conflict negotiation and i just want to whack everyone upside the head. it's not very cathartic for me lmao. i have no doubt that everyone is friends because dance scenes are small and i'm sure they've all worked together lots, but even just the editing sets off my fight or fight reflexes.

[topconfessions]

The American music market is indeed very strange. If women don't show their ass, sing/rap about it or enhance it, they won't come very far apparently. America in general has this severe toxic body positivity movement going on at the moment. Don't get me wrong, it should be said to everyone to accept themselves as they are, embracing their flaws and loving their favorite features but Americans are trying to push down everyones throat that you have to love every single part of your body, which is not possible or healthy. I think it's called body neutrality. If there's something you want to fix, you should get plastic surgery for that but most women who get the BBL just want some clout on IG and are chasing an unrealistic beauty standard, which will 100% change in the next 10 years or so and unpopular opinion, most women get plastic surgery to appeal to the male gaze in hopes of attracting a partner. But you can't expect husband material chasing after you while walking around with a cartoon ass. And if you critcize them, you're called fatphobic or whatnot lol.

But artists these days are so messy and post everything on social media. They can't form one cohesive sentence meanwhile artists in the 80's were able to perform 16 minutes songs and do interviews high on coke lmao. As long as the 16 years old fans see that you're flexing with your fake diamonds and leased Lambo, you made it lmao.

I think because fans want to have the delusion, that they know their fav well and are best friends or boyfriend/girlfriend with them, they expect the artist to put all of their info and secrets out there for the world to judge. And if they don't want to do that and don't show much skin, they're being called flops. People care more about authenticity and looks than talent.

It also has something to do with the bad music that artists put out. I truly think that if an artist would make a good song, people wouldn't foucs on anything else the artists could offer. I hope we can get some refreshing new stars because I don't see it for any of them, most of the music they release is now with Tik Tok trends in mind. We've seen that superstardom is possible for someone like Billie because she was so outside of the norm, although I dislike her whisper voice, and she's more like an Avril Lavigne, the anti-popstar while Olivia Rodrigo has the sound of Avril and is basically a mini-Taylor Swift.

There is enough space for a black superstar, who isn't a Beyonce clone but I wonder what happens if said superstar would be a mixed black person. I think Lsa and Twitter would start a riot lol.

this ^ my fave confession so far. I don't pay attention or listen to current much anymore. It's all lame and yes so many rockstars and artists were high off their ass, mentally ill or coked up / in abusive situations and still carried on intelligent / decent interviews. Scandal was frown upon now it's welcomed. You don't even need the merit or talent anymore like god fuck. hollywood is just a money grab now. I miss the world 1998-2010. It went to shit after that. Billie would't be shit if today was 2004 and that's a fact. She'd be somewhat cool but more indie level, she is captilizing off of the current generation and how the world is now. right persona t the right time but look at her recent blonde lingerie shoot where she looks dead in the eyes. she's a sellout herself and this rodrigo industry plant girl may replace her.

Beyonce is the john cena of music she made it hard and impossible for other black women to share the spotlight with her cause she's trying to michael jackson it out and not have competition at all. idgaf what her stans say as someone who watched her every destiny child video up until now as a grown ass woman, she is partially to blame for this. Just like how wwe is dependent on roman reigns cause Cena buried a lot of people behind him he felt was a threat. Oh LSA and twitter would get heated and they already drag Doja to filth. Rihanna is the last one who came close and there will never be another Rhi we need to accept it

[shinwhoohoo]

ok~ since I don't really have anything to add to your contract post (as always, I agree 100% with what you said) and I don't really like talking about serious stuff (i'm always emo, but for some reason when i say it out loud my sarcastic ass always make it sound like idk about anything even though i'm LEGIT crying when I'm alone in my room or in the bathroom at work god) I was just thinking I could name a couple of random things I just thought about, just to share the love and lift the mood(1/5)

since the break up I couldn’t really listen to their songs without feeling sad so I just didn’t (that was like, what?, 6 months without hearing b1a4), but yesterday I finally had the courage and I’m so happy that I did. before I knew it “because of you” came on and man do I love that song like shinwoo rapping and voice is so on point and everyone sounds so lovely and urghh I was singing along and smiling, and since we are talking about great songs can we talk about the best EP to ever exist(2/5)I’m talking about what’s happening of course, I was going to mention starlight song, but who am I kidding I could talk hours about good love too???? it’s such a good song??? gongchan singing the first lines is pure art. Also I was reading your cnu megapost and you said that you didn’t fall for him right away, and it’s funny cause that’s the mv that did it for me lmao the absurdity of that video, how freaking CUTE they looked, gongchan little curls so adorable, baro and deul being extremely (3/5)funny, jinyoung being awkward ofc and, probably what started my love/want to punch you story with him, that freaking scene with him smiling in prison, like dude seriously? I’M WEAK his perfect little face drives me mad. and lastly, but not least, the long hair styled like that (I really liked those braids i’m sorry lol), the glasses, those playful winks and lip bites.. his beautiful smile idk more than anything else I just found his face really attractive? and while I’ll forever treasure (4/5)and miss those times, I’m ready for new and better things. I guess at the end of the day, I just want shinchandeul to be happy, to remember the past with love like we do but also know that sometimes things don’t go how we plan them and that’s life, we can get mad and cry, but we need to get up again. they will always have our support, i believe in them (that’s it, play road, suddenly i’m an emotional mess again) god this ended up being extra long im so sorry i just got so excited (5/5)

me reading your asks:

the biggest YES ever to all of this, bless you for spreading some much needed positivity and good vibes~

And I literally agree with everything you say here like I’m not even kidding ‘Because of You’ for the longest time was one of my favorite b-sides (I mean it still is one of my faves) and CNU’s rap is so cute and charming in it. Totally underrated everyone should experience how sweet that song is.

And ‘What’s Happening?’ EP?? Literally the best, most cohesive EP they have. It’s always been in my top three albums, sometimes trading places with ‘Good Timing’ album for 2nd place. AND DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON ‘GOOD LOVE’ OH SHIT THOSE TRUMPETS AND SYNTHS GET ME EVERY TIME. Admittedly, I’m partial to ‘How Many Times’ though myself, I think that’s my fave b-side on the EP. I mean ‘Starlight’s Song’ speaks for itself though, literally one of their prettiest tracks. That shit’s just fukin gorgeous and luckily (and unlike ‘Good Love’ and ‘How Many Times’) I feel like ‘Starlight’s Song’ is at least more known and appreciated. Damn that mini was just… gold. I mean ‘What’s Happening’ is and will always be my favorite era so I cannot say a single bad thing about it. There was just so much… good energy and good vibes. So much growth. Ah I gotta stop or I’m going to get emotional now ;;;;

Yeah like while ‘Beautiful Target’ made me fall for them as a group (largely cause of the reasons you listed and lmaoo totally agree about Jinyoung even then with that swarmy smile that was both so handsome yet infuriatingggg) CNU def didn’t grab my attention initially with that MV…. it’s so strange cause you’d think I’d remember the exact moment where it finally clicked and I was like ok I love him he’s my bias but I don’t really… all I know is that it didn’t take too much longer lol by the time 2012 rolled around I was already pretty smitten… *sighs*

Same as far as A3 too… in a perfect world, I just want them to be able to look back fondly on their days as five, as rookies and trainees up until their 7th year anniversary as wonderful times of growth and development, along with friendships that they formed that will never be replaced or forgotten– but in the same vain, I want them to be able to cleanly move forward with no regrets as three, and follow the new paths that they want, knowing that us fans will always be there supporting them~ 

Thanks so much for reading my contract megapost, and for sharing your thoughts here! I’m glad you’re back (and able to listen to Bipo again~), I missed talking to you!! ♡ ♡

[waltenfiled]

how do you make them so squishy?????????

i don't like calling them squishy but i'll allow it for the sake of me showing off my art process ^_^ + this is NOT cohesive im sorry

okay okay, first of all; i dont use the ball and shield method, i find it really hard to really make the characters turn and make them, make sense if i use the ball and shield method, i use the bent paper method but the ball is in my mind, it's just completely invisible, i don't draw the circle, it's a fucking square, i think, it has corners. okay?

i draw a square that's turning to a specific side, really picky with this because if i dont draw the lines properly it'll turn to a completely different, perspective? and it'll ruin the drawing for me lmao

in specific perspectives, everyone has a thing?? like, cheeks, the cheeks stick out!!! everyone has those i think idk but, yeah

at this point i mostly do the proportion lines now, and the chin because i think, <- or ithink it's called the jaw, anyways, the proportion lines differ with each character because it tells you the exact place for eyes and noses and mouths if the character has that, and characters and people that are humanoid, vaguely for the lack of words, all have proportions - i also mark out where the ears are!! the little circle, the ears are always close to the eyes or exactly lined up to the eyes they're, there, the ears and eyes, anatomy things no idea

okay so this is when you put the detail. you do the perspective and all that stuff and you try to make it look cohesive, now i dont do perspective well, i would rather die but i just try my best. which is where the selection tool comes in!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the selecting tool is my friend and with YOUR help, it can be YOUR friend too ^_^ no seriously it is the most helpful thing i would cry if it wasnt there

do you see that part?? at the, at the top, i circled it to point it out because i forgot what it was called, we're gonna put the hair there and i have this segment because the character im drawing requires hair and i love hair, i love drawing hair but you can skip this part if your character doesnt have hair or yeah!!!!!!!

you see that part where i also circled it in, that's where i guide my hair?? i dont, do that scalp hair guide thing, my art style kinda just ignores that part and i dont really care that much but yes, hair

now i find the neck and that's just, really it!!!!!!!!!!! i dont really want to share the other parts of my art process because it's insignificant but that's hwo i make them look 'squishy' ( i dont like calling them squishy i will die on the very hill i stand on before i say that unironically, please )

ALSO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I TURN THE CANVAS, I TURN THE CANVAS, I KNOW. I KNOW. IT'S TERRIBLE, but look look, i went ahead and did the horizontal mirror canvas thing and i adjusted it

okay, i gotta admit, there's no difference because when i flipped it there wasnt really much. wrong with it, i guess i did something right lmao

it even looks better this way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, but it does bring attention to the other ear, which makes me realize that i need to find a way to make that work in the lineart stage. fuck

EDIT EDIT EDIT, FUCK FUCK FUCK THE EYE THING IS OFF, THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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