#theres a 9 year age gap

[rainybraindays]

One of the most confusing things for me growing up was the fact that one of my brothers kept dating all the other brothers ex's and friends

[tantamounttoflirtation]

If they announce a s4 I genuinely might have to log tf off. I don't even want to see what sort of dumpster fire it would be. Maybe I'm just being pessimistic, but I don't see much hope for it being good or worthwhile. I'm going to rant in the tags so if you disagree with my opinion thats cool you can just ignore me and continue scrolling :)

[hauntedhappenings]

d'ya ever just know that you think characters have an important dynamic but you can't quite pinpoint what it is? and then you have an oh moment where you figure it out?

[aprilmayverse]

mayverse dash simulator 2 but this time its if they had a fandom

💀 winered Follow "we need more complex mentally ill female characters" you people couldnt even handle june july.

💄 october-november Follow why are we all acting as if april was in the wrong for not wanting to traumadump on a literal child?

👠 pinkbitchnamedbreakfast Follow she literally did not tell her anything

💄 october-november Follow did she not tell her about the poisioning.

👠 pinkbitchnamedbreakfast Follow yeah, nearly half a decade after it happened

💄 october-november Follow well was she just supposed to tell her as soon as it happened? june was like 8 or 9 at the time

👠 pinkbitchnamedbreakfast Follow i'm just saying it's fucked up of her

��� ithinkihauvejaundice Follow june and dys did nothing wrong. "what about the murders" god forbid a couple middle school girls have some sleepover fun. those people deserved it anyway

⛅️ evil-wifeguy-lesbian Follow june july was the realest bitch out there because if MY girlfriend needed someone dead i would do it in an instant

☀️ peacenloveonplanetsapphic Follow i don't want you to murder people for me dearest we've been over this i don't need anyone dead

🍂 littlejester Follow

🌎 thefuckingwizard Follow "february march gaslight gatekeep girlboss" this and that. wheres my february cringefailgirl truthers

🕷 thirdsilliestvriskakinnie Follow i think that if i lost a bad bitch to an arranged marriage i would do what dinah did too

🕷 thirdsilliestvriskakinnie Follow i think i hauve a mental illness

🐬 celerytheworld Follow was it casual when you promised we were going to get married as kids, were my first kiss, told me you'd be in love with me and marry me and take me on dates if one of us was the opposite gender, told me you'd love me more than your husband if we ever got married, told me you'd rather hang out with me then get married to a man, told me i'd look beautiful in a wedding dress, and then killed yourself?

🧑 normal-guy Follow op are you ok

🐬 celerytheworld Follow

🩸 murderenjoyer Follow inherent homoeroticism of killing someone together

👻 yaoifreak Follow pascal may x mr thorgett. old man yaoi anyone

🧢 whitemormonwasted Follow when i said pascal may did 9/11 this isnt what i meant

🕷 thirdsilliestvriskakinnie Follow june july is a vriska

🧣 februarymarches Follow christly shippers dont fucking interact with me! for obvious reasons! theres a four year gap there!

🌎 thefuckingwizard Follow i dont ship them but like...op how many years do you think are in between 15 and 17?

🧣 februarymarches Follow it's an eighth grader and a senior yall disgust me. four year age gap. proshitters dni is already in my bio, stop shipping a literal child with a high school senior

🕷 thirdsilliestvriskakinnie Follow 15 is not a "literal child" op

🧣 februarymarches Follow >14 in bio

⭐️ stars-discourse-sideblog Follow you're both wrong it's three years

🔥 sometimesthorgett Follow 9/11 MENTIONED

👻 yaoifreak Follow christly are both straight men anyway. if u want yaoi try pascal x thorgett

🧢 whitemormonwasted Follow those are two different characters + pascal had a wife

👻 yaoifreak Follow https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bisexuality

🕷 thirdsilliestvriskakinnie Follow 2001 and 1999 were two years apart i don't think they taught anyone on this site to read

👻 yaoifreak Follow READ?

🪼 dysapppointment Follow just saw june july's ilb design and holy shit not to be a lesbian but

🍋 thosedamnlemonstealingwhores Follow username checks out

🎱 tragedyenjoyer Follow ogigugh calendar siblings december sisters badmann siblings shiz siblings collins siblings what if i Died

🧣 februarymarches Follow just so you guys know op is a dacarol shipper. don't reblog from them.

🎱 tragedyenjoyer Follow i have bad news about the creators of the thing you're a fan of

🍂 littlejester Follow trudy cryme more like tru-deez nuts gottem

🛍️ poetrynjoyer Follow mayverse is so interesting bc you have beautiful heartfelt writing about love and loss and hope and family and friendship and romance and tragedy and loving despite with such complex women and you also have shit like "monk clickbaiter fraggot" and "9/11 porn games on steam" and whatevers going on at jms

🧲 whysoyurious Follow MAYVERSE HIT 100K F/F FICS ON AO3 WHO CHEERED

🎀 apricotmayonaise Follow making a list of who could and couldntve possibly done 9/11 in the mayverse, is doing 9/11 a sin in dana's cult?

🐝 incoherentbee Follow

YES?!??!?!?!?

[panic-and-procrastinate-writing]

Batfamily ages!

im trying so hard to work out batfamily ages.

so far i have damian being 15 in current continuity. he was 10 when he became robin, and i think tim was 17, so theres a 7 year age gap, same as jason and dick.

i think i remember dick saying that he was the same age as bruce when dick made damian robin, parallelling bruce and dick to dick and damian. bruce was like,,,,28? when he took in dick at 12. theres a 16 year age gap between them. if damian was 10 at robin, then dick was probably 26 years old....

(dick has to be taken in at 12 years old or none of this makes sense okay?? tim was 3 when he watched the graysons fall, and there has to be a 9 year age gap between dick and tim or everything else falls apart. dick has to be 12 for the rest of the ages to make sense. stop commenting about dick being 9 years old, he isn't in this!! and also i'm farly certain they bumped up his age again to be 12 when he watched his parents die anyway, so stop commenting that he's 9!! he's not!!)

babs i think was 16 when she became batgirl, and dick was like 13, so theres a three year age gap.

Steph is one year older than tim right? and cass is at most a year older than steph? shes described as older than jason at some point but also has been frequently thrown into the same age bracket as tim and steph but i swear is like, 6 months older than jason? god idk,,,

jason.... died when he was 15, and tim became robin at 13, so theres a 2 year age gap there. he's also 7 years younger than dick. - he got ressurected after 6 months, and was in a walking coma for a while,,, he also trained for 3 years. im gonna say ressurected after 6 months -> walking coma for another 6 months -> lazarus pit -> 3 years training -> 19 when he came back to gotham as red hood.

i have no idea what duke is doing. he's paired up with cass a lot right? is he the same age as her? Edit: after reading urban legends #18 it shows Duke in college, so hes at least the same age as tim, or older.

anyway onto the maths! [disclaimer, i had to retake maths so please be nice guys im not a genius]

if Damian is now 15, and theres a 7 year age gap between him and tim, Tim is now 22? Steph should be 23? and if theres a 2 year age gap between tim and jason, Jason is now 24. Cass is also 2 years older than tim, but shes 6 months older than jason, making her 25. (Duke is maybe 23? he's paired up with cassandra so often that i want to put them in the same-ish age bracket, but i do achknowledge he used to be younger than tim although he has apparently been aged up so im making him same age as steph instead.) Dick is 7 years older than jason, so Dick is 31?? and Barbara is 3 years older making her 34. Bruce is...47???????? that feels too young. like way too young. bruce you had so many kids at such a young age the hell have you been doing you slutty old man?

okay anyway i feel better now that i think i have some solid ages. [for when i look back at this post in several years, it is 2023, and i am ignoring every retcon of their ages that makes them younger. bc fuck that.]

[salon-maiden-anabel]

the more i think about your mom lucy hc, the more i really adore it. if you don't mind me asking questions about it, what's her general dynamic with kieran & carmine? is she a single mom? how does dahlia fit into the picture?

SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG TO REPLY TO MY BRAINS BEEN. TRYING . the thoughts are disconnected but by god there are thoughts everything below the readmore

But! Hi hello welcome to Oh lord this family needs therapy and counselling . ! Honestly I have been going into everything with the idea of her being a single mom w/ them! It;s very much a situation of like.... Parent that works away from home constantly, so the relationship is just unfortunately naturally more strained kinda thing .

With all this i go with like.... The idea that they were very much born in Hoenn and lived there with Lucy until Carmine was approximately 9 or so, and Kieran was 7 [I do like to imagine they're 16 and 14 respectively as of the dlcs]. Work being so remote and stuff plus worrying about their education and all just led to living with their grandparents in Kitakami being the best decision for their development as yknow, People. I like to imagine Lucy visits periodically throughout the year and such to check in :> just takes a bit of coordinating. Also shes absolutely the reason they're able to go to blueberry for highschool via both making sure they Can go there financially and putting a word in to a battle focused school of them being kids of a facility head :p even if realistically Lucy isnt the strongest head by any means lol . it's kinda like if an E4 member put a good word in situation. And we can see with Lacey and Drayton both going there... gestures. I wouldnt be surprised if more children of different league figures go to it or schools LIKE it. But thats besides the point Lucy absolutely like, struggles with her emotions and such. Even from the small bits of dialogue we have from her? Maybe its just my autistic ass reading too much into it LMAO but . gestures .

i feel like if this werent a kids game she'd just tell you to fuck off to your face here

sorry just more quick looking too much into dialogue but. cmon. CMON. ...She's . definitely influenced how carmine and kieran act at least somewhat .

Carmine might be the easiest to point a finger to as being like her mom but i genuinely think that it;s actually Kieran who ended up the most Like her, yknow it;s incredibly obvious to point a finger at Kieran during indigo disk and how he talks as being her fault a little bit :p anyways thats just me vaguely mumbling abt that. AS FOR. DYNAMICS. Kieran isnt as close to his mom as Carmine is just due to everything with living with their grandparents. Theres also absolutely like.... Very much a gap because he stopped seeing her as much when he was younger, while Carmine was only a year off of being like. Legally start being a pokemon trainer age. And its just Awkward, relation wise, just because of how little she actually sees them through the years, especially when the discussion would slowly shift to more "How are your studies?" "How are you doing in school?" "How is your pokemon training going?" once they start going to blueberry. Which i don't think was ment to come off as uncaring for them and only focusing on training as it did from Lucy's end, but I dont really think she knew what else to ask and all, because she stopped being able to really pick up on their interests as much as they got older. Plus thats just kinda How she talks... With the importance on strength and luck n all that. Then with all this I imagine she like. Probably only called once maybe twice between the dlc plots n all? And once again with just mainly the training questions it was just a sour spot. I wouldn't doubt Kieran would also struggle with not wanting to be in a shadow/the nepo baby accusations /j that I fully think if Drayton knows about he'd tease him and Carmine about. So like. All that with the instilled importance of ones strength :sob: Lucy you were not helping the Kieran situation. Hell I don't really think she would of even known about anything going down between Kitakami to Blueberry with Kieran just because neither of them wanted to tell her at all? Because again just that Awkward connection between them, just the permanent fog on all communication that feels like someone said something wrong at all times and it got too awkward to finish. IDK I think im waffling on I don't know how to formulate my thoughts the best LMFAO BUT I THINK... DYNAMICS WOULD CHANGE POST-MOCHI MAYHEM ESP. Bc i KNOW she'd find out after carmine and kieran nearly fucking DIE in the underdepths and everything hits her in the back of her head at once that she needs to repair what she can w/ them because she almost lost them. Probably means taking an extended leave from working at the Pike so she doesn't have to worry about scheduling to see them in person for only a short period of time. Especially if the times line up for them having any extended break from school . It's never going to be perfect, far from it, with their dynamics and all but. gestures. Briar needs to sleep with one eye open for a bit at least. in short

AS FOR. DAHLIA im in turbo hell because I can not see? the siblings ending up like they did if she was also around? Shes such a force of positivity as a person im just. blinks a bit. Im in hell bc i adore the ship as my big rarepair ill die on a hill for but nobody expected the kitakami siblings especially not me so . i think if they ever do get together it'd be somewhere nearer to scarvio era which just. yeah. see image below

[postmoderntongues]

I will forever stand by as somebody who knew him in a previous life from having similar interests in a small web community that i do not believe that by the end of his life Soren Hayes was fully cognitively aware that his narrative was fabricated and theres a real possibility that he was being manipulated by a charlatan 80's satanic panic style false-memory implanting psychosis validating abusive unprofessional therapist who actively exacerbated his condition and deepened his gap from fact and what was his brain's honest perception of reality at that point. Behavior that we have evidence that is considered shocking now was considered common and unremarkable in 4chan-dominant autistic oldweb late 00s emo edgelord culture. While a lot of their references and elements of their narrative have been traced back to media including 90s indie cult horror, guro manga, bandshipping MCR yaoi fanfiction (which got dark) SRA testimonies, and creepypasta and even potentially some writing that I showed them at the time based on my own intrusive thoughts and a lifelong paranoid delusion. it is not unheard of or even uncommon for people with psychosis to have delusions related to media they've consumed at some point especially when you throw in autistic special interest levels of fandom. I also believe something really bad DID happen to soren. At one point theres a post with a line of photos going through the years as a child and in two of the young photos maybe around age 9 or 10 which was the age that the most obvious fabrications/exaggerations in the narrative happened. Between two of the pictures something just changes in his eyes or facial expression. Given my own history with mental illness, I was around a similar age when the frequency and intensity of my violent intrusive thoughts and antisocial fantasies began to disrupt my everyday functioning in a way that i not only could no longer deny but was having trouble hiding and beginning to face social ostracization for voicing these thoughts and also first faced exclusion for being neurodivergent although I didn't have the medical or sociological language to describe it.

Weirdly relevant to our participation in the MCR fandom, Soren and I were also close enough in age that he likely carried some degree of cultural trauma from 9/11. living less than an hour outside NYC i remember the event being very traumatic including believing for days that my father had died because he had a mental breakdown and didnt contact anybody and just started helping pull bodies out and my mom made us kids all go in the basement and drink boiled water from a spackle bucket and shit/piss in another spackle bucket and eat room temperature canned food and pray very loudly and sincerely for a little under 72 hours, and im not sure if it's related to that age in my development or in part triggered by that trauma but within a year I started almost all of my self destructive behaviors from SH to Purging to household substance abuse. I also had an odd response when the event was explained to me that hinted at foreshadowing my cluster B diagnosis in adulthood; I was very upset that the terrorists died in the plane crash and suffered the same amount as the American passengers did and didn't survive so their punishment and suffering could be worse than what they caused "my people" (worth mentioning that my father is and especially at the time was an out and proud white supremist with public ties to racist organizations within my community especially in the cultural surge in racism against Muslims and middle eastern and west asian people who a few weeks after 9/11 showed me grainy low quality video footage of a clitoridectomies being preformed on a little girl, explained what id seen, and told me that the people who did 9/11 who we were going to war with were going to do that to me if we didn't win the war and make it illegal for me to go to school (which was my refuge from a household with a severely mentally ill alcoholic criminal parent) and stop me from reading or writing ever again so I couldn't fall for tricks pretending we can all be friends because thats what they will do to me if I don't possibly even personally kill them first when the time comes. My brother regularly downloaded and a few times even included me in viewing war gore on websites like Ogrish and Rotten.

For a long time all non-child specific age-contained content on the internet was held only and often not even to the strictest most technical definition of free speech law and assumed to be fair game for adult content with no content warning. This was before monetized social media when anonymity existed even between burner accounts (its was a very common lonely millennial autistic middle schooler pastime to larp dramatic mary sue OCs on gaiaonline and AIM chatrooms. My best friend from my teens even once created a fake cute emo boy with photos of Alex Evans, dated me over AIM including pretty serious plans to run away together, and then killed the character off in a dramatic car accident along with his twin sister who were an Americanized ripoff of Hansel and Gretel from the anime Black Lagoon in a convoluted attempt to get me to admit that I was neither straight nor cis) and nothing was cleaned up for advertisers and unless a community became a hub of obvious in the open illegal activity very few website owners wanted to shell out the costs of a moderation team. There were pro-suicide forums, NAMBLA had an early internet presence with their propaganda as did hate groups like the Westboro Baptist Church and hundreds of flavors of white cishet male supremacy, Ive mentioned 4chan which at its height was actually quite mainstream, early fetlife which myself and lots of other minors I knew were active on and was for a long time the only transgender-specific community larger than a few dozen regular members that had a space for just FtM people where most trans-related forums were dominated by selfie-obsessed transwomen, livejournal and eventually early tumblr pro-ED anti-recovery anti-harm-reduction communities, recipes for chemical weapons and bomb-building instructions, the rise in the normalization of hybristophilia and violent sexual practices once considered niche like BDSM (everybody into something weird could suddenly connect with a relatively large community of people into the same thing for the first time and the social validation within these communities emboldened predators and exhibitionists) the rapid escalation of taboo content in internet porn, the subculture surrounding shock videos, the availability of films like Salo or August Underground or gunea Pig or cannibal Holoaust that big chains like Walmart and blockbuster refused to carry or distribute. Like the way my parents talk about the normalization of psychedelic drugs growing up in the 60's and my grandpa talked about spending his childhood playing in the woods for 12+ hours a day and how awesome it was to have that much freedom as a child compared to what he saw me have after the child abduction panic of the late 80's/early 90s driven by cases like Adam Walsh and Johnbenet Remsey and Etan Patz in addition to the increased frequency of reporting of both abductions and severe accidental injury due to local and 24 hour TV news needing to fill the air and being used as a tool to raise awareness in missing person's cases and sensational court trials. Like yeah he saw one of his friends drown in a creek in elementary school but he wasn't part of a generation of indoor cats like I was. That's how it was with obscenity laws in the 00s. If you hit your teens after 2010 you missed out on a completely different cyberspace culture.

Being autistic I doubt he had an entirely positive social experience as peers became more aware of his symptoms. As an autistic kid i always felt and still to some degree feel more comfortable existing in cyberspace where not only are interactions easier for me to process given I have both an auditory processing disability and a speech impediment but especially in the days of the oldweb there was a majority ND population especially among heavy users who did most of their socializing virtually. being able to abandon your identity at any time with little to no consequences after a major soial faux pas and rejoin a community with a fresh slate, having complete control to the information other community members were able to gather on you, and I think most importantly for a lot of AFAB teens especially those of us who struggled with gender dysphoria or body dysmorphia or the impossible photoshopped beauty standards of the 00s that was so severe that the body positivity movement originally caught on as a response to how insanely body-negative beauty culture had become, it being normal to not do face reveals or let anybody know your physical appearance at the time and often not even announce that you were female (which immediately drew both public socially acceptable sexual harassment from the males in the community and accusations of something called GOTIS or Girl On The internet Syndrome popularized when a user named Augucat revealed herself to be female and made a sex joke but was later found to be a normal looking slightly chubby girl instead of a victoria secret model and was driven off the internet).

This community was also extremely hostile to trauma survivors, one infamous example involved the mass cyberbullying of an 11 year old Dhavie Vanity SA victim who is now a trans man but at the time was known by the name Jesse Slaughter escalating into his father slapping him while on camera for continuing to use the internet and him being taken into state custody for the crime of telling the truth about his assault by the celebrity to an online drama community. These claims were later proven to have been true but references to the incident including lines such as "you dun goofed" "cyber police" and "ill pop a glock in your moth and make a brain slushie" are such commonly referenced pieces of early meme culture that a lot of people making the reference today don't know the dark orogin, similar to the use of the phrase "Mods are asleep, post sinks" and its variations. Audio clips from the original video posted on a YRYL thread on /b/ are even fairly popular samples unused in millennial EDM music that ive personally heard dropped in clubs and raves enough to consider its use cliche.

If you think tumblr users behave badly with anon privileges it didn't hold a candle to what behavior was considered unremarkable on not only 4chan but eventually anonymous message websites like formspring or the fact that exhibitionism on anonymous/random video chat platforms like Chatroulette were so common that it was the major cliche cultural reference joke about such websites. Cybersex and explicit roleplay and minors trading explicit pictures for in-game currency was commonplace even on what were considered to be reputable well-moderated teen-appropriate websites like gaiaonline.com and a lot of people adopted a dont ask dont tell attitude toward sexual interaction with suspected/alleged minors. I started participating in this activity in 4th grade when my website of choice became gaiaonline instead of the strictly moderated and fairly advanced filtered Neopets. Like I said behavior that is shocking today was unremarkable and often even encouraged in oldweb spaces.

Soren likely did not feel safe telling the truth about whatever trauma he did experience, at least not as himself (females discovered to have any physical flaw were deemed liars because "i wouldnt fuck her if she let me" and ones considered physically attractive were told that they invited or consented to their assault by not making themselves unattractive to potential predators). Tori Amos became a meme for her song "me and a gun". Everybody into horror was talking about A Serbian Film and Maichan's Daily Life. Googling the word "rape" was as likely to get you a porn video as it was to get you a news article or crisis hotline. The word itself was a punchline and colloquial metaphor for any act of violation, dominance, or extortion from winning a video game to getting ripped off by an unscrupulous auto mechanic. This did not create an environment where survivors felt comfortable identifying ourselves or even in many cases understanding that we'd been victimized at all. Frat house gang rapes of girls with alcohol poisoning and supposed confessions of incest and pictures of female children wearing bathing suits or Halloween costumes or warm-weather fashions with sexually explicit captions became the bread and butter of websites like Motherless.

A lot of people's brothers and brother's friends went off to war and came back all fucked up and lot of them became opiate addicts or committed suicide. Kids who were around a certain stage in development when this massive cultural trauma took place are likely to display similar symptoms, which lead to the emo subculture and the commodification and glorification of mental illness as an identity and severity and medical confirmation of debilitating symptoms was social currency and earned you clout within emo subculture. From the timeline of photos they gave, the event that caused the visible signs of traumatized body language could have potentially in theory been 9/11 especially since as an Indian person he would have likely faced anti-Muslimism racism or at least bullying from racist whites who can't tell the difference between Eastern ethnicities. He had a very obvious complex about his race and often complained about gender-trenders, cosplay/fandom communities, and aesthetic tropes associated with white/Eurocentric supremacy and on top of that he was adopted as an infant and likely subject to some degree of neglect in early infancy if he was a toddler or almost that old when he was adopted by a rich white family which in a white supremacist society comes with all sorts of psychological complications and power dynamics.

Just statistically, its unlikely that by the age of 17 when what became the narrative was first recorded to have surfaced, about a year or two after I fell out of contact with him, he had not experienced some adverse sexual event in his life. IDK if it was online grooming or a random violent attack by a stranger but Soren painting "The Bad Guys" with the same sinister anonymity as the SRA panic painted satanists or qanon weirdos paint "the Elite" which leads me to believe he likely knew the person that encroached upon him and had some sort of relationship or implicit trust that was violated by this incident and wished the crime had been committed by a morally unambiguous stranger. he tells in the original narrative what he WISHES happened instead. he wishes hed been a tall thin white grunge model who met patriarchal feminine beauty standards who people would not only believe and sympathize with but possibly even martyr or eroticize, and also that the trauma was more physically extreme and sensationalistic to justify the severity of his symptoms which impaired his day to day functioning and provide an explanation less stigmatized in online circles of the time than PTSD or verbal autism without significant IQ deficit.

it is also necessary to understand that a lot of female parahelia is the misinterpretation of a physical defense mechanism. Unlike male sexual arousal where the body prepares to penetrate, female physical arousal response mainly exists to reduce the potential harm that can be caused to the mucus membrane during penetration. Thoughts of violent penetration often produce a stronger physical arousal response not because the female desires it but to protect the body from the possible harm it could cause. Purity culture especially in religious communities also creates a disconnect where women commonly develop "rape fantasies' to indulge the fantasy of experiencing sex without being at fault or losing standing within the community or potential value as a future wife. Romance/Dating/hookup/Party culture is also just heavily rooted in not just the normalization of using physical forces to get sex but to coerce or influence the state of consent with things like money or substances or the implicit cultural threat that you MIGHT respond violently if she refuses so she may as well negotiate or even the promise of emotional labor. Females even when we are not abused are aware of sex and the fact that people want to sexually abuse us to some degree or another even if we dont have the specific vocabulary for it from the time we are sentient. That in and of itself is fucking traumatizing. We grow up knowing of it as something horrible that males want to do to us. Then in our teens we are suddenly expected to change our view of sex from a lifelong association with violence to an act of intimacy and romance and also a precious finite resource that we must distribute strategically. A lot of ND people, myself included, have a hard time disconnecting sex from violence and re-assigning it the context it is supposed to take on in our teens and as a result associate feelings of anxiety or pain with arousal or develop inappropriate responses to violence.

From both his posts and our conversations, I think there is a good chance that like me Soren had some degree of OCD and experienced violent intrusive thoughts. Contrary to popular belief, enjoying or responding positively to an antisocial intrusive thought is not what separates it from a fantasy and a lot of people with severe OCD's brains cope by responding positively to all intense thoughts and stimuli indiscriminately. Desensitization to violence is also a common but little discussed OCD symptom which I suspect is why all the descriptions are so over the top, he's thinking of things that hes not desensitized to and still considers shocking which by 17 had escalated to splatterpunk territory but this theory would also explain the escalation between the first and final narrative.

Another reason autistics struggle to form a healthy sexuality is because we tend to be developmentally immature in an emotional and social sense. In American culture, your mid to late teens are supposed to include certain milestones and there's a lot of shame around not meeting them; driving, your first part time job, high school graduation and moving away from home for college, certain intensity of friendships and romantic relationships, substance experimentation, pop culture bildungsroman staples, crisis like most people's first peer death, disordered eating, bullying/peer abuse, very special episode type stuff that he really ruminates on. he wants to have lived these milestones but his only references for them are fiction. He wants to have been in such intense love that he can never love again and therefor will never have to explain his romantic struggles. He wants to have not only had a normal adolescent sex life but to have been sexually experienced so much earlier than his peers that his "advancement" in terms of experience would in and of itself be shocking enough to shut down and discussion of the topic where he didn't feel he could control the narrative.

His use of hard drugs is debatable since he did have funding and basic knowledge of Tor and substances like club drugs and controlled substance prescription medication with recreational abuse potential were easily available through the mail and as somebody who didn't party socially I wouldn't be surprised if he had some experience with opiates (not IV tar and her use of slang was regionally and anachronistically inconsistent so i don't believe she ran in those social circles). he also had a record of being prescribed both adderal (pharmaceutical meth) and benzos and mostly lived in blue states with easier access to weed but i don't believe he ever habitually used let alone was addicted to street drugs or socialized with other hard drug users in person with any regularity. I don't think its impossible that on occasion he sold his pills to other nerdy kids. if he did struggle with substances they were prescription and he claimed to be on street drugs for more shock/clout/to further the charade of having what he considers to be interesting life experiences. I don't think he got 'tar" in a gum packet through airport security, maybe his boomer parents were lucky enough to score an indefinite opiate prescription back when those were still a thing and he sometimes swiped their pills for a buzz. Like I said his knowledge of Silk Road and it's convenience and ease of use for a while makes it not impossible that he tried street drugs but IMHO less likely than abusing his prescriptions.

SingitForDanny and catfishing with Ashton Drew's photos and the beginnings of the character of a girlfriend who committed suicide and left him a note which he posted on his blog faceclaimed with some red haired girl who was NOT ginger who i have never seen in another context were the lies he was telling when I knew him personally along with (like myself) open participation in anti-recovery SH and Ed communities that was NOT a LARP i don't even think those two things were that exaggerated. Compulsive lying is not uncommon in trauma survivors. Again hes telling how he wishes it was; he's all alone not because he struggles socially but because all his friends who were the closest people ever died tragic trendy topical deaths.

I strongly believe that from the escalation of the narrative and his tying his identity to this character that he built but unlike every time before this time the web had advanced enough to where most people knew how to reverse search an image and identities were no longer as disposable as they once were. it was the truth because it had to be the truth because the social implications of being exposed in this kind of a lie to his entire social circle was more than his brain could cope with. It was easier to believe about himself that he was experiencing a recovered memories Sybil Dorsett situation from unspeakable trauma than that he lied about something that horrible. Often compulsive lying, a highly stigmatized symptom, is a phenomenon beyond the person's control. it is not calculated or a moral choice and usually serves no practical purpose beyond a momentary immediate dopamine reward and temporary increase in intensity of attention from the person he is attempting to socialize with but does not know how to form a more intense connection with appropriately. In males this usually manifests as aggression and instigating fights because a negative social interaction is still a social interaction and provoking and receiving a negative reaction is safer and more predictable than attempting to provoke a positive reaction and the attempt being rejected. In females it often manifests as compulsive lying or dramatizing of minor events and other symptoms that define whats currently known as HPD (a lesser-diagnosed cluster B disorder).

If hes not a survivor it could also be part of the compulsive part of the theorized OCD which I struggled with as a pre-teen and overcame by forming a pattern of real behavior so shocking and self destructive that i had enough real crazy things to overshare about and didn't need to make them up after my social standing was compromised by a reputation for making shit up. Still today I have a real problem with lying by omission because I've had enormous shameful secrets since Ive been sentient. I also don't think compulsive lying is even totally developmental inappropriate boundary testing behavior and being autistic and not forced into learning socialization for survival through the public school system he just might not have grown out of it. my father never socially or emotionally developed past whats typical for a 8-12 year old child. I maxed out at 14-16. Some autistic people function on the level of an infant or small child. But if the lying was an OCD compulsion and not poorly socialized overly-sheltered autistic arrested development that comes with SO MUCH shame and self blame and stigma and carries such a heavy moral assignment and is still so poorly understood as a phenomenon. Why was he having all these sick thoughts and inappropriate responses and unable to stop insisting these things were true unless maybe they were and he was really remembering buried memories. it makes as much sense as "your brain is doing it because it is malfunctioning and chronically ill and you lost a genetic lottery and theres no real reason or satisfying explanation for why you are experiencing these life-ruining symptoms other than fuck you".

I believe he was severely mentally ill, had made serious attempts on his life although probably fewer than he claimed but had absolutely spent extensive portions of time especially during his formative social years institutionalized in a community where his severe symptoms were more socially acceptable. I also believe his delusions were encouraged by Ellen Lector whose website has at points contained some suspect-sounding articles or conferences. I do not believe he was fabricating his claims of DID, i think he was in the beginning of the current pop medical trend of slapping the DID label on autistic people with rapidly-fluctuating ability levels if we have A comorbid PTSD/CPTSD/Cluster B diagnosis and any cognitive disability related to struggles with memory or attention/alertness. Schizophrenia was over diagnosed in the 60s, ADHD was over diagnosed in the 00s, autism was over diagnosed in the 2010s, there was a female cluster b swell in the last decade, gender dysphoria had become the first rout of diagnostic investigation when addressing pediatric mental illness which Im not totally personally convinced isnt a sugar coating for a eugenics movement to steralyze the mentally ill as children, now the trend is DID. diagnostic fads move through the mental health world just like diet fads do with physical health communities where every other week eggs are going to either save or kill you. These therapists are encouraging psychotic patients to "get to know the cast of their headspace" by indulging fully in these masks as different beings with in a religious sense different souls in one body. Similar to a lot of modern theories about gender dysphoria being caused by a soul being "in the wrong body" this approach to mental health first and foremost insists that diagnostic science officially validate ad recognize the religious concept of a soul or spirit. They now insist indulging it fully is the only way to achieve 'headspace integration" like DID is the vines from harry Potter that strangle you when you wiggle.

Basically in conclusion Im convinced that, by the time he died, Soren was no longer LARPing or lying but believed his version of reality and that there's a plausible medical explanation for his seemingly inexplicable behavior. If King Or Cooper Or Sotos or Welsh or Burgess or Woolf or Ketchum or Plath had access to the oldweb as a teenager they might have behaved similarly (King infamously sold violent stories about his classmates as a kid, which I also did but for free post-columbine so I got suspended and had to talk to cops and then a court-ordered therapist). Soren's poetry and taste in media shows creativity and some sense of understanding art and it is a tragedy that his symptoms became terminal before he was able to settle into a healthy career as an artist. He was also a pretty nice kid in general when I knew him. We need to do better as a society for people with severe and/or stigmatized symptoms than was done for Soren. His symptoms were enabled/neglected at best and potentially exacerbated by a psychologically abusive therapist. Watching the record of it unfolding and his deterioration between the time I knew him and his death is medically fascinating in the same way that gore is but it shouldn't be any funnier than pictures of late stage cancer patients.

[astrosxxz]

Not even gonna say ANYTHING becuz of the fact I'm also writing this sleep deprived & half adleep AGAIN!!!

This is a remake of the other 1, where I wrote it as two characters w a s/o YOUNGER, but in the request it said OLDER... Atushi & Akutagawa (seperate) x reader

No warnings.

9 years ago gap.. hes 20, you're 29,

At first, he didn't know how to really do relationships like this in general,

He always thought it was weird seeing age gap couples, but when he saw you..

He fell second, BUT HARDER

At first he refused to believe he loved you, and would call you 'disrespectful' names regarding your age😭

"Old hag"

"Depressed Emo."

Back and FORTH bro,

You may be older than most and seen as a mother figure by a lot of people,

But you grew up w/ sass & attitude

If someone insults you, you insult them back

Even though your insults kinda suck its okay!!

He grew up being naturally afraid of older people, growing up mostly in the slums & the mafia, old people weren't always the greatest

And adding that onto the fact you're more of a physical person, holding hands, hugs, etcetc,

He never thought you guys would get together at all,

And so he pushed the feelings down until one day, you decided to tell him you're own feelings instead of waiting

"I love you"

"Oh." OH.

Literally didn't know how to respond,

Also did I mention how you will sometimes be 'shipped' with older people,

Lets say you work in the ADA, THEY SHIP U W RANPO OR EVEN YOSANO

Akutagawa got so pissed about it

He would've walked straight into the mf agency if it wasn't for you telling him not to

"I'm gonna kill them." "AKU NO---"

"Whos she, your older sister?" "Shes my wife." "Yea, im his- wait what"

You're 25, hes 18, 7years

Sometimes people think you're his adopted mother due to how concerned you act whenever hes hurt, but really you guys are dating.

It sometimes makes both of you uncomfortable with people comparing your relationship with a mother and son one,

But you guys learned to ignore it and move along with your day,

He sometimes thinks about the fact that you're probably gonna die before him, and he gets so scared

"I'm not gonna die so soon sushi..." "But what if---" "No."

Atsushi is incredibly shy, & often overthinks, ESPECIALLY when it comes to you,

He sometimes thinks about the fact that maybe you should date some one you're own age, like yosano or ranpo, or even kunikida!

"No sushi, I love YOU, not them"

I can imagine you viewing Kyoka as a daughter figure to you, and so you basically steal her and beg atsushi to adopt her

You're lowkey REALLY fucking rich..?

You'll sometimes give him hundreds of dollars just because,

"Sushi! Here---!" "[name], why did you just hand me 296,556 yen.." "296,556? I thought I gave you more.."

Andddd, theres the end. !!<33

[lggy]

Irene dimension/non irene dimension is weird but none of it’s like, super bad from what I can tell. Something like S2 Dante/Laurence isn’t inherently problematic, it’s just you have to be fine with the kinda large age gap for it to not feel weird.

Plus the age gaps (ignoring the ramifications of missing 15 years) depend on what ages the other characters were. Like if Dante was 19 and Laurence was 25, then post-Irene dimension that’s only a 9 year age gap.

[This isn’t supposed to be like arguing w you or smth it’s just I could talk to length about this because I’ve thought about it a lot]

nods nods yeah. its hard (for me) to imagine the s1 non-irene dimension charas with the ones that did just bc the jarring "we said hi yesterday" "i forgot how your face looked" rebuilding of a relationship. ooh angst potential.

also this is what i love about s2 garrance angst bc laurance grew up and learned a lot about himself in the year-ish that garroth was trapped.. to garroth, the friendly face he knew yesterday is cold and broken and distant today

anyways yeah theres like not much potential to even be problematic w the timeskip to my knowledge thank GOD

(i still love travlyn and think its not weird at all since they never met before timeskip)

[alicentsgf]

i cannot for the life of me figure it why so many people think rhea was older than daemon when they married. there is not one mention of her age or birth year in f&b or the rogue prince that i can find, and it isnt listed on the offical wiki either. i truly have no fucking idea where people are pulling this from. please someone find me a solid quote from canon if it exists.

all we know is daemon was 16 when he married, but I'm struggling to see how this suddenly makes him rhea's victim specifically, rather than just a victim in general, when we have no understanding of how old she was or how much agency she had.

and then theres the fact that overwhelmingly people are discussing the hbo show, which aged daemon up and cast a woman nearly 10 years younger than matt smith to play rhea. like. we have nothing in the show canon to suggest the victim narrative for daemon that people are Choosing. daemon is 31 in episode 1 so assuming the length of his and rhea's marriage wasn't altered then he was at least 18 when he married. and if the actors age gap is mirrored in their characters then rhea was 9... do I have any evidence for this being show canon? no. and realistically its not going to be show canon. but thats literally my point. because do you see how dumb i sound going "daemon was actually 18 and rhea was 9 soooo" just based off these broad assumptions? and i have just as much "evidence" as people saying he was a child groom to an older, predatory rhea

[patamonstan]

Ninjago Age Headcanons

I can't find the post I made on them a few months ago, so alas here I am. Making it. Again.

We are excluding Pilot because I believe that they are the same age as season 1.

SEASON 1:

In order for this to make sense, the Ninja must have begun in their early/mid-teens, then later became older, except for Lloyd, who started as a child.

I've seen many headcanons of Jay and Kai being the same age, I'd have to agree, it does make a lot of sense.

Zane I'd say, from what he's aware - he'd be one year older, while Cole - who was the leader when Lloyd wasn't around - is the eldest, standing 2 years ahead of Kai and Jay.

Nya would be one year younger than Kai, but with how enamored Jay was with her, I'd say the maturity difference wasn't as huge - unless Jay is a creep at heart. I will admit - some things Jay has done or acted like, were kinda creepy, but not the kind of 'I go after people who are obviously far younger than me.' And I think we can all agree that Kai would kill Jay if that were the case.

So I'd say the answer is pretty simple.

Cole: 16

Zane: 15

Kai: 14

Jay: 14

Nya: 13

Lloyd: 7

SEASON 2:

Obviously, this is still within the same timeline, maybe a few days after season 1 finished - so I'd say they remain the same. Except for Lloyd, who once gets hit with the tea - is much older physically, but mentally remains 7, just becomes much more mature, unfortunately. I'd like to think that Nya and Lloyd first gave off older sister, younger brother vibes, but now gives off twin terror vibes, so Lloyd would physically be the same age as Nya.

Cole: 16

Zane: 15

Kai: 14

Jay: 14

Nya: 13

Lloyd: Physically - 13, Mentally - 7

SEASON 3:

I'd say that this takes place a few months if not a year after the overlord is defeated, so of course, the Ninja are older now, just by one year, why Wu would ever have them teach at this young you may ask? Well, he never really did make sense, did he?

Cole: 17

Zane: 16

Kai: 15

Jay: 15

Nya: 14

Lloyd: Physically - 14 Mentally - 8

SEASON 4:

I'd say this takes another year later, the first few seasons appearN to have lots of gaps between them, but then the newer ones tend to happen quicker together in my opinion.

And now finally one of our ninja is a legal adult! Woo! And with PIXAL starting to make quite the appearence after rebooted, I must say, she should be included too, I'd say her body is very young, but mentally shes about the same age as cole. She doesnt have a body at the moment, so until she does, theres no body age.

Cole: 18

PIXAL: 18

Zane: 17

Kai: 16

Jay: 16

Nya: 15

Lloyd: Physically - 15, Mentally - 9

SEASON 5:

possession is a very dark time for Lloyd, but judging by how everything is and by how Wu's tea farm seems to be quite new - I'd say that only a few months have passed and that they all remain the same age.

Cole: 18

PIXAL: 18

Zane: 17

Kai: 16

Jay: 16

Nya: 15

Lloyd: Physically - 15, Mentally - 9

SEASON 6:

I'd say that the Ninjas are all older now, but only by one year. (The legal age of consent in Canada is 16 so I'm trying to make it better for my poor disgusted mind by Naddikans actions towards Nya.) And Zane has joined the legal adult train!

Cole: 19

PIXAL: 19

Zane: 18

Kai: 17

Jay: 17

Nya: 16

Lloyd: Physically - 16, Mentally - 10

SEASON 7:

I like to think, that after Jay wished it all never happened in season 6, that season 7 ends up taking place as opposed to season 6. So therefore, all the Ninja remain the same age. AND PIXAL HAS HER BODY REVEALED! But I'd say that she had already had her body for about a year or so, just kept hidden.

Cole: 19

PIXAL: Mentaly - 19, Body - 1

Zane: 18

Kai: 17

Jay: 17

Nya: 16

Lloyd: Physically - 16, Mentally - 10

SEASON 8:

OUR BOY LLOYD IS GROWING! Its been a year now since season 7, and therefore, guess whos joined the legal adult train! Kai and Jay! And apparently it was Lloyds pubertys time to shine! (All my brothers had hit ouberty heavily between 10-12, so Im going off of what I know from them lol)

Cole: 20

PIXAL: Mentally - 20, body - 2

Zane: 19

Kai: 18

Jay: 18

Nya: 17

Lloyd: Physically - 17, Mentally - 11

SEASON 9:

Obviously season 8 and 9 are very closley connected, so I would say they remain the same age, and Kai mentioning how they are all teenagers, I'd say that he was just being nice to Cole in the moment, whom has already entered his 20s, and was no longer in his teens.

Cole: 20

PIXAL: Mentally - 20, Body - 2

Zane: 19

Kai: 18

Jay: 18

Nya: 17

Lloyd: Physically - 17, Mentally - 11

SEASON 10:

Final part to the 3 season oni trilogy, so obviously they remain the same age.

Cole: 20

PIXAL: Mentally - 20, Body - 2

Zane: 19

Kai: 18

Jay: 18

Nya: 17

Lloyd: Physically - 17, Mentally - 11

SEASON 11:

They become lazy for a year. Theyre ninja, and yet, they let themselves slip, smh, they really decided to ditch what beautiful abs they had on the dark island. Nya has hopped onto the Adult train! Lloyd is now physically an adult! But hes still a child in the others eyes obviously - but still their leader!

Cole: 21

PIXAL: Mentally - 21, Body - 3

Zane: 20

Kai: 19

Jay: 19

Nya: 18

Lloyd: Physically - 18, Mentally - 12

SEASON 12:

I'd say that this doesn't take too long after season 11, as the time difference between the realms must have made season 11's mission actually quite quick.

So I would say they're all the same age still.

Cole: 21

PIXAL: Mentally - 21, Body - 3

Zane: 20

Kai: 19

Jay: 19

Nya: 18

Lloyd: Physically - 18, Mentally - 12

SEASON 13:

I'd say it's been another year or so, and we FINALLY got a Cole season! So you know the role call, +1 to all the Ninjas ages! Most of the Ninjas are now old and in their 20s!

Cole: 22

PIXAL: Mentally - 22, Body - 4

Zane: 21

Kai: 20

Jay: 20

Nya: 19

Lloyd: Physically - 19, Mentally - 13

SEASON 14:

Judging by how the season starts off, I think that it's only been a few months since season 13, so the Ninja remain the same age, will they ever catch a break?

Cole: 22

PIXAL: Mentally - 22, Body - 4

Zane: 21

Kai: 20

Jay: 20

Nya: 19

Lloyd: Physically 19, Mentally - 13

SEASON 15:

Bless their poor souls, suffering after Nya's sacrifice. For a whole year, they were separated, just like after Zane defeated the overlord. And bless Lloyd's poor soul for giving into his Oni side. Now all of them are physically in their 20s, but Lloyd would have started high school.

Cole: 23

PIXAL: Mentally - 23, Body - 5

Zane: 22

Kai: 21

Jay: 21

Nya: 20

Lloyd: Physically - 20, Mentally - 14

[heatwa-ves]

who is the most recent oc you've made? 🤲🤲

I think beck? I say this tentatively because she's not completely a character yet but if not her then it would be her sister lou so I'll just talk about them both 😛

lou (louisa) is the eldest child and beck (rebecca) is the second child, they both had a pretty bad childhood because their dad was shit and it was a whole thing whatever. anyway dad is finally out of the picture when uhhh lou is 12 and beck is 9?? I forget their ages. whatever. I haven't decided how he leaves but he does and the kids are understandably traumatised... a few years later (15 and 12?) their mother remarries and this guy is actually great 10/10 dad, he's really close with lou but doesn't have a good relationship with beck because she doesn't trust him, she processes the childhood trauma as anger whereas lou just bottles it all up and pretends nothing happened. a few years later their half sibling (undecided name) is born and it's all great until new dad falls really ill and is hospitalised for the foreseeable future, the kids are around 18/15/2 at this point (big age gap I know but just go with it) so all their dreams for the future kinda go out the window.

lou wanted to go to university to study marine biology and eventually work for marine life conservation and beck is really into art and wants to go to art school, but once their stepdad was hospitalised they had to move to a new place close to the hospital so rent is high, their mother can't work full time because she needs to look after unnamed small child, so lou puts her uni plans on hold and starts working full time to support their family. beck is still in school at this point but she has a part time job too. anyway all this is background to lead up to the current part of their story, Lou is 21 and has entirely given up on her dreams, beck is 18 and is leading up to finishing her a levels (they're british. btw. also they're mixed because I do what I want) and there's so much conflict between the two of them, beck is really bitter and angry and lashes out at people and stays out too late and her mother and lou are worried but theres not much they can do about it with everything else going on, beck is determined to not be like lou and give up on her dream she'll go to art school even if it kills her and they have so many fights over this where is she gonna get the money for school how can she leave her family in such a difficult time how will she manage to live alone with no money etc etc. lou is also angry but being lou she bottles things up...etc etc. they're having a hell of a time

other things to mention uhhh

lou briefly dated another of my ocs amie they broke it off and had a big fight and amie moved away to go to study astrophysics

I have a very vivid scene in my mind of beck having an awful day and drinking for the first time when she's with her friends and comes home and realises what she's done and has a whole breakdown because their dad used to drink and like..yeah..you get me. and lou comes in and she's like fuck off but lou doesn't leave and they just kinda sit there together and beck is crying and it's the closest they've been in a while

beck was so jealous of unnamed child when she was a bit younger because child had a much happier early life than she did

beck and lou do genuinely care about eachother but their life is just so shit rn so they end up fighting a lot and they have conflicting ideas and whatever

beck will kill anyone who calls her rebecca.

idk if any of this makes sense but I love them very much

[hertwood]

dts s2 e8-10

ep8: -this is cool to watch with the context of nico back in f1 today -theres just something so funny about when drivers get told something they dont wanna hear over the radio and its just dead silence. theyre real for that tho -nico/cyril jet "therapy" conversation is so iconic TO ME -i now know how alain prost is yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy -i think both of daniel's one year teammate tenures (nico & estie) are both sooooooooo interesting. ship wise fascinating. underrated as hell. -neurodivergent daniel propoganda "nico huuuuuulkenburg" is 100% a vocal stim -ESTIE my beloved. the original Toto Wolff's Special Lil Guy™ -no its so nice to see him in this gap where it was all up in the air knowing how much he's cemented his place in formula 1 now. (like i KNOW that alpine is a shitshow rn but he could easily find another seat. even if not he's made his mark :) -this makes me excited to see nico in the new season. he makes pretty good tv and it'll be cool to see how much of that has changed with age! -another narratively well done episode. nico's only episode and a wonderful one. i also noticed the music a lot, i think they way they used music to build tension was rly cool and not something i've noticed in general. really really good episode

ep9: -"george, i think, is a one-in-a-million driver" claire i LOVE U. ur brain is so big and correct -hes such a BABY here -i really really need a return of a williams focused episode next season. badly -claire you are so strong and brave for surviving this shitshow i dont know how yall did it -i wish this episode was put earlier in the season, i dont know why they didnt? since it focuses a lot on preseason/testing drama why is it episode 9? i know its never perfectly chronological but they couldve at least tried

ep10: -the pierre v alex narrative is so silly when clearly red bull sees them as disposable. like babes neither of you are EVER gonna be enough because youre not max :/ like 2 women fighting to be the favorite mistress of a man who will NEVER leave his wife!!!!! -"if [mclaren] continue this trend, they could be competing with the likes of red bull, possibly ferrari and mercedes for podiums" i just love a good quote that ages well. thank you will buxton -this sebchal crash is SO canada 2010 sebmark coded TO ME -the dread that filled my body when i realized. oh this is the lewis stops alex from getting a podium episode. pain incoming -seeing how happy pierre is abt the podium is So Nice knowing whats coming!!! (monza 2020) he deserves everything -while i dont particularly like carlos i think this first podium story/celebration is so cool and i'm so glad netflix were there to immortalize it -oh my god the "what about everyone else?" placard cracks me up every time aldkjfslkdfjalksdjflksfjd -pre teammate dando crumbs make me INSANE wuv them -"i think they ignored me the whole year, so [Netflix] can fuck off." Dany is barely in drive to survive ever BUT WHEN HE IS he serves cunt 😘 -lewis almost being eaten by an automatic door is an ICONIC dts moment it makes me INSANE every time i watch its so fucking funny -talkin abt how 2020 silly season is gonna be crazy bc most drivers are out of contract; thinkin abt how this year is gonna be the same 😬 -long hair lance my beloved

and thats a wrap!!! on to season 3!! (i'm 3 episode behind 😬)

[witchcraftandburialdirt]

SHIPPING INFO // ANSWER THE FOLLOWING FOR YOUR MUSE SO PEOPLE KNOW HOW SHIPPING WORKS ON YOUR BLOG.

――WHAT IS YOUR OTP FOR YOUR CHARACTER?

If you've been folllowing my blog for more than 10 minutes you'll know my ships as I frequently interact with them on here! Robin has two ships that encompass all of his verses: ― Khada Jhin @curtain-cxll in his league verse and various skinlines ― Danny Johnson aka The Ghost Face @bells-of-black-sunday for his modern verse, his alternate legaue verse (Locum Tenes) and other private verses.

Haruko has 1 ship and that is with Tarhos Kovács or "The Knight" @bells-of-black-sunday for all of their verses.

――HOW LARGE DOES THE AGE GAP HAVE TO BE TO MAKE IT UNCOMFORTABLE?

Haru and Tarhos have a 12 year age gap, and Jhin and Robin have about 8-9 years so... I'm very loose about it, as long as everyone is an adult, consenting, and mature enough to be with one another I'm pretty alright with anything.

――HOW FAR DO STEAMY MOMENTS HAVE TO GO BEFORE THEY ARE CONSIDERED NSFW?

I'm actually quite shy with writing NSFW but my writings with Spuk have really helped me realize that I don't have to be guilty about those topics. Howevever I still am very quick to put "Read More" on the post if I think it might even lead to something spicier. Usually this occurs when kissing starts getting more intense and hands are placed on one another; it isn't so much that I consider it NSFW, but I like to tag what is going on just so people can decide for themselves if they'd like to read it!

――ARE YOU SELECTIVE WHEN SHIPPING?

I have absolutely no issue with saying that I'm very picky when it comes to shipping any of my characters, I can generally pretty quickly pick up when characters have chemistry together but it takes time for me to be invested and keep interest. Robin has a lot of complexities that tend to not work well in shipping situations and Haru is....an experience. So I tend to be very selective with shipping, there's only a few exceptions to this like how me and Spuk have a lil Frank/Haru thing going on despite Haru being shipped with Tarhos, its a one-off and fun and since most of my ships are with Spuk anyway well...I feel comfortable to explore that with him without worrying about "Ohhh but Tarhos!"

――WHO ARE OTHER CHARACTERS YOU SHIP YOUR CHARACTER WITH?

quiet cough nightbringer yasuo and whatever-bringer robin are pretty fruity ngl

Haru gets along really well with Durkos, Sander, and Alejandro! While I don't view them as romantically involved with eachother (thats a convo I'd have to have simply bc I never considered it) I do know that they deeply care for eachother and have had some sexual encounters.

――DOES ONE HAVE TO ASK TO SHIP WITH YOU?

I generally like to confirm with my shipping partner that they feel the same way - just because I can see something doesn't mean they do, or vice verse and that's completely fine. While chemistry is, mostly, extremely obvious in a lot of cases, I still just prefer to confirm it.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE SHIP IN YOUR CURRENT FANDOM?

To be completely honest I'm so horrible with shipping that I didn't even realize people really shipped things within the game; particularly since Riot isn't the best with making new champion interactions. I enjoy my mutuals ships, frankly, but I don't know if they would ever be something I would have thought of without them. Although a ship I DO love and absolutely delight in is GaloLio from Promare!

FINALLY, HOW DOES ONE SHIP WITH YOU?

I realize I probably sounded super professional but IN ACTUALITY if theres chemistry please feel free to reach out! If you're enthusiastic about it and the chemistry is there then I'll feel comfortable! I love talking dynamics even past romantic shipping, so if you want to do a friendship or familal bond I'm down for talking about that too!

tagged by: @agonizedembrace @misstantabismuses @saviourofzaun ((thank you!)) tagging: I'm REALLY late with this but @bells-of-black-sunday ♥ and @sxlemnity @piltover-sharpshooter @arkyn-iceborn-vindication @the-flame-blade @thegoldentigress @noxfortid @magicshadowkitten

[6ftkyle]

Kyle? For the ask game

fffinally doing this ask game :3 i didnt forget, ive just been having a real Time lately.

1: sexuality headcanon gay! homosexual! every fleeting interest he's ever had in a girl has been comphet! im usually pretty flexible on sexuality headcanons but this one is like. phew. that is a homosexual.

2: otp its so so so hard for me to choose between k2 and kyman as my kyle otp. ive been into k2 for so much longer, but there's not nearly as much content for it, so kyman is on the brain constantly.

3: brotp stan and kyle. i really and truly love their friendship so much, i think they're bizarrely codependent besties who can hardly make a single choice in life without filtering it through each other and bickering about it.

4: notp also style i think. not that i outright hate it, i just cant get invested in it as a romance, really. mal reminded me kybecca exists so im gonna say that actually, sowwy

5: first headcanon that pops into my head i like to think he's a lil bit colorblind, as a personal coping mechanism for how clashy his ugly lil outfit is. he can't see how bad it is, it's a nice lil fall color combo to him.

6: favorite line from this character "I'm nine years old, and I have a hemorrhoid, Stan. I have a hemorrhoid, and Cartman has his own theme park." i am never not thinkin about this one, fellas

7: one way in which I relate to this character :^ ) well. theres a whole lot of ways but im gonna go with the fact that the age gap between him and ike is about the same as the age gap between me and and my brother. his relationship with his foul mouthed gamer little brother reminds me of my relationship with my own foul mouthed gamer little brother a lot of the time

8: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character uhhh i think the whole crushing on heidi arc. embarrassinggggggg

9: cinnamon roll or problematic fave? problematic fave, its south park, theyre all problematic faves

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Here's some art for an old rarepair I used to ship

I'll color it in if you guys can guess who they are 👀 here's some info I'll give you to help:

-I drew them in their UA years. This is not canon design

-They have a 9 year age gap so technically this couldn't be canon, but nobody cares about canon

-Theres only 1 to 2 other fanarts of them. REALLY RAREPAIR

-It's in no way illegal so those gross people better not give any answers