#there's gonna be a surprise lesbian in this tv show

[thir10th]

too many shoes - October writing challenge day 4

summary: moving in together was the best thing that could happen to you, however there'a this one thing you've been avoiding tw: none, this is pure fluff a/n: this is probs one of my most favorite things I’ve written, so make sure to lmk if you love it just as much! ❤️

It's only one week that you've been living together but most of the boxes were already empty and things are on its place, it was almost a miracle considering the amount of free days you have, and how effectively you had both worked it all.

The living room was for sure the hardest to put up, but since it was done, it was the centre of the house.

The big couch is enough to let you both lay comfortably on oposite ends, or at least it would be if you didn't prefer to be completely wrapped up on each other.

Emily's head rests comfortably on your shoulder, and you play with her hair absentmindedly and the movie almost finishing up.

"I'm never getting tired of it" you said, the rom com with the ending credits rolling on the screen being one of your favorites.

"yeah it's nice" Emily says with a smile plastered on her face, you kiss her on the head, sitting up to grab the remote.

"you know what i wish they did?" she says, grabbing a pillow and hugging it.

"hm?" you ask, turning the tv off and looking at her, her hair all sprawled out, her Yale hoodie and sweat pants, the pillow on her lap and a blanket over her shoulders. She looks so cuddly liked that.

The image of Emily like that- so sweet and calm, it's one you couldn't picture anywhere else that wasn't your now called home, you smile at her, that comforting feeling of your shared space feeling warm on your stomach.

"lesbian romcoms" she says, taking you out of your head "they don't do lesbian romcoms like this, only the sad, coming out, historical dramas, they're all so sad" she complains.

"yeah, you're right" you agree

"it would be so sweet to just have a silly meet-cute, or a love triangle, or an opposites attract with lesbians, i would watch it" you love her rambling so much, it makes you smile how she only choses to show that side of herself with you.

"I would gladly watch that with you, my love" you lower to kiss her lips softly, she grabs your face softly and you feel her smile against the kiss, her hands feel warm despite her usual cold fingers.

"you know what? I've got an idea" you say, separating from the kiss.

"do you wanna make our own lesbian romcom?" she asks, lifting one eyebrow seductively, it makes you laugh.

"no- I mean, yes, but later" you peck her lips and hold both her hands "we are gonna do... the closet" you announce, and you can see the moment it sinks in.

"oh, right now? c'mon, it's too much work, we got home early today, why don't we watch something else? a lesbian thing this time like The L word or something" you pull her, but she uses her body weight to stay sitting on the big couch.

"Oh c'mon Em, we'll do it together, and it will be super fast, c'mon let's go, i don't wanna shuffle through another box for my work clothes tomorrow" you pull her up against her efforts of staying seated, but eventually gives out, standing straight, wrapping her arm around yours for support.

The closet is big. Bigger than any other closet you've ever had. The walk in space can easily be divided for you and Emily.

The amount of boxes is probably bigger even than the kitchen boxes, which shouldn't come as a surprise considering the amout of shoes Emily has.

"ugh, we will never finish with all of these, it's too much stuff" she complains while shuffling through another box.

"we won't with that attitude, i'm sure, and also not with the amount of shoes here. Do you really need another pair of black boots? I swear you have like ten"

"First of all, that's an exaggeration, I only have 6, and second, yes, I do. Each one has its own personality.” she grins, crossing her arms against her chest.

“Ah, of course. I’d hate to stifle their individual identities.” you laugh, mimicking her tone.

She giggles "now you're catching up."

Emily reaches over to grab an item on the pile of clothes she's been separating. "Hey, have you seen my top that goes with this pants?" she asks, and you lift your sweatshirt to show her the small shirt"

"Oops" you say, and she smiles knowingly.

"I don't even know why we bother separating if you keep stealing all my clothes" she shrugs.

"Hey! You steal my clothes too" you try to defend, but Emily laughs, you know she was just teasing you.

"it's ok baby i don't mind, you do make everything I own look pretty irresistible.” she smirks.

“Flattery isn’t going to save you from this" you grab yet another thing from the pile of clothes.

"Oh, c'mon, i already came out of the closet when i was young, i don't want to enter it again" she smiles proudly of her own joke, and shakes her shoulders.

"And funny is not going to stop me from donating this one.” you say, throwing a shirt at her playfully.

“That was from when I was in Rome! You can’t get rid of my history!” she mock gasps, dramatically clutching the shirt.

“Fine, fine, it stays. But the next hoodie you leave on my side of the closet is officially mine.” you accept, folding a hoodie.

“Deal. I’m not even mad about that. You look cuter in them anyway.” she says, leaning over to kiss your cheek.

Teasingly, you raise an eyebrow “You just like an excuse to see me in your clothes.”

"Well, you're not wrong" she smirks, grabbing another shirt to fold.

After a while, you notice her eyeing a particularly vibrant red dress, its fabric shimmering slightly in the closet's light. She holds it up, letting it sway gently in front of her. “You know, I wore this on a date once. I thought I’d impress this girl, but she ended up being more into my friend,” she laughs, the sound light and airy.

“Hey, I’d be into you in that dress,” you say, the playful challenge hanging in the air.

“Really?” she teases, her eyes sparkling with mischief. “You think I’d look good in it? Maybe I should try it on for you...”

You chuckle, your heart fluttering at the suggestion. “I think it’s more than just the dress that would impress me.”

Emily’s cheeks flush a shade deeper as she bites her lip, her gaze playful yet earnest. “You know what? I think I will. And while I’m at it, we should plan on making our own romcom after this...” she adds, her eyes shining with excitement and mischief.

You nod, appreciating the thought. “Sounds perfect. I could use some of that after all this heavy lifting.”

“Oh yes. You're still wearing my clothes after all” she laughs, and winks at you, and then with a playful glint in her eye, she slips the dress off its hanger and heads toward the bathroom. “I’ll be right back!”

You watch her go, heart racing a little at the thought of her in that dress. A few moments later, she emerges, the fabric hugging her curves perfectly, the neckline just low enough to be enticing without being over the top.

"oh fuck-" that's the only thing that comes out of you when she steps back in.

“How do I look?” she asks, twirling playfully, the dress swirling around her.

“Like you just stepped out of a movie,” you say, your voice a mix of admiration and sincerity. “Seriously, you look stunning.”

Emily beams, her confidence radiating off her in waves. “I feel like I should be on a date or something.”

“Or starring in our own romantic comedy,” you suggest, your gaze steady on her, drinking in every detail—the way the dress accentuates her figure, the way she moves with such ease.

“Right? Like, imagine a silly meet-cute where I trip over my own feet and fall right into your arms,” she laughs, her eyes sparkling. “And then it turns into this wild adventure where we fight the odds and end up together, just like in those movies.”

“Definitely. You’d have to make it a happy ending, though,” you reply, stepping closer to her, feeling the magnetic pull of her presence.

Emily bites her lip, a smile tugging at the corners of her mouth. “Oh, I wouldn’t have it any other way,” she murmurs, glancing up at you through her lashes.

You take a moment to soak in her words and the beauty before you, feeling her playfulness. “You really could pull off that whole leading lady vibe,” you say softly, your heart racing as you lean in just a little closer.

“Maybe I could use a leading lady to match,” she replies, her voice dipping into something a bit more sultry. “What do you think? You up for the challenge?”

You can feel the warmth radiating from her, your heart pounding in your chest. “I think I can handle that,” you whisper, and without thinking, you close the distance, capturing her lips in a soft kiss. It’s tender, electric- the domesticity feeling so natural you could melt against her any second.

As you pull back, Emily smiles shyly, her cheeks still flushed from both the kiss, and the thought of it. She grabs your hand and pulls you outside “c'mon, let's come out of the closet- again"

You laugh softly, pulling her closer to you. "We don't need the straight romcoms while we have each other." you kiss her again, she hums against your lips, agreeing with you.

"And the L word, of course" you add, making Emily laugh.

“Sounds perfect,” she replies, her smile brightening the room, making it feel less like a space filled with boxes and more like your own little world, where everything was just right.

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[letmesleep8]

even if I die screaming // elliexreader

CHAPTER 2: To Someone Special

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chapter 1 | chapter 3 | AO3 gets it first

content warnings/tags: subtle homophobia; friends to lovers; christmas love.

notes: hello again, buddies! <3 chapter two is here, thank you for the notes! let me know in the comments in case anyone wants to be tagged in chapter 2 btw

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"Every second counts, I don't wanna watch tv anymore"

— Bags, Clairo

December 24, 2038 Winter

Dear diary, 

Christmas is FINALLY coming up! I've always been a big time Christmas girl but this year it's extra special: Ellie suddenly realized she would not self-combust if she showed up at one of my Christmas parties just once! Well, it's not exactly a party. Mama's gonna be on patrol on the 25th, so I called Ellie, Dina and Jesse over to watch some movies. Dina and Jesse decided they'd spend the holiday with the boy's parents this year for once and Ellie, I believe, felt pitiful and decided to come by. 

I like her. She can be closed off, but she's fun. Cat said she is easy to like when she makes a bit of effort. They had a fight last week and I think I saw them kiss once, maybe twice. Mama's not the biggest fan of Ellie, she says she "doesn't think that's normal". How does she fight literal zombies every week and her biggest fear is a lesbian?

Gonna do some baking now. Hope Ellie likes pie.

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I placed some blankets on the couch and put the best holiday movie I could find next to the player. Our house was always incredibly tidy, I can't stand dusty places. I lit a candle and put the star I made myself on top of the pine. I'm committed to having a Christmas tree every single year, it doesn't matter how hard I find to bring it inside by myself. To me, it's a glimpse of what life was before the outbreak, and I also realized that my mom finds some sense of normalcy in these things. In a world like this, we lack some tradition. My kitchen timer rings and I run to the oven, the apple pie I've made looks great. I carefully take it off the heat and place it on the counter.

"It's a blizzard out here!" I hear some knocking on the door. "I am about to freeze to death!" I walk to the door to find Ellie all bundled up, her tiny nose red from the cold, the calluses on her fingers covered by navy blue wool.

"Come on in, sorry for the waiting", I reply as I brush some of the snow off her shoulders. She enters the house, a thankful gaze as she sees the lit fireplace. The girl takes off some layers of clothing along with her shoes, sitting on the couch.

"You should stop wearing sneakers on the snow, your feet are soaked", I threw her a blanket. "You're gonna get a cold."

She scoffs, "Well, if I ever do I know that I can count on ya' as my doctor", a slight smirk present on her face, still red from the low temperature. I smile and roll my eyes at her, maybe slightly blushed, 'cause my face definitely feels hot. 

I cut each of us a piece of pie and joined her on the couch. “You like Christmas movies?” I smirk. Of course she does, who doesn’t like Christmas movies? Well, I am quickly surprised by her, who admits she’s never watched one.

“I’ve never really been into Christmas n' shit”, Ellie shrugs her shoulders, “not really any holidays at all.”

I look at her, mouth wide open in disbelief. How does one live without ever watching Home Alone? “We’ve got a lot of catching up to do”, I exclaimed, excitedly. I get up from the couch and run over to my dvd shelf. A few seconds later I came back with three more movies for us to watch.

Our plan was to watch all the movies this afternoon but we soon lost focus. We talked for hours while “A Nightmare Before Christmas” repeatedly played in the background, we kept hitting “restart”, saying we were gonna actually watch it this time. Instead, we discussed the simplest of things, drinking tea and sharing Stevie and her warm fur on our laps. 

“Okay, I am not saying they're all dead”, Ellie’s out of breath laugh filled the room. To me, it seemed brighter all of a sudden, as if we had lit the third homemade scented candle of the day. “It’s just a probability, we wouldn’t even know”, she continued.

I threw my head back, laughing. “At least they’re voice actors, it wouldn’t be as weird. Could you imagine running into an infected that looked just like the girl from Pulp Fiction?” I shook my head, trying to erase the thought. “I think I’d pass out.” She laughed while shaking her head.

“You really do not like to fight, do you?” She grinned, teasingly. 

“I don’t think anyone does”, I replied. “Would you still do something like this if we were born before the outbreak?”

She nodded her head “no” without hesitating. I raised my eyebrow, wondering if she was going to elaborate. A moment later, Ellie continues: “Astronaut, I’d like to be an astronaut, maybe a musician.”

I smiled softly, she seemed to have previously thought about this. After a while I, too, respond: “I would like to be a writer, perhaps a teacher. I really like kids.”

I could see in her eyes that had softened her demeanor. She looked into the floor, smiling. “I think you’d be a great teacher, you’re all bubbly and… fucking gentle”, she stated. 

I looked into her, my eyes whispering “is that bad?”. She then gave me a smile that, to me, said “not at all”. Her slow approach asked “can I come close?” My worried gaze declared “this isn’t right”, but the sudden free will of my hands shouted a crystal clear “I object”. My left hand touched her right,I could finally feel the warmth of her fingertips. A good liar could pretend it was only a distasteful accident but I am as true as the sky is blue, so I trace the patterns on her index finger with mine until I could find rest in her palm.

Ellie moved her hand, she was going to hold mine with her palm. My heart is filled with anxiety when, as subtle as a lightning in a dark room, my mom bursts the front door open. “Merry Christmas”, she yells across the room to us with her welcoming smile. I don’t think it was honest.

Some minutes later, Ellie decided it was time for her to go. Mama insisted she took a piece of pie for Joel, so she did. The cold hugged my body as I opened the door for her and she quickly disappeared into the same blizzard she came from. 

[madamefeu]

Here’s what your favorite Hazbin Hotel character says about you! I had a lot of fun with this one:

Alastor: You're either a simp, or you're aro-ace and are grateful to have some representation in the form of a main character, even if said main character is a murderer and a cannibal, and not a soul in between.

Husk: You're a furry, first and foremost. Daddy kinks are common, but you have a grandpa kink, and your ideal man is someone like Paul Hollywood. Or you're a massive Keith David fan and you simp for every character he's ever voiced. Ok, maybe not EVERY character. But definitely Dr Facilier. Come to think of it, if you simp for Dr Facilier, you probably also simp for Alastor

Niffty: You know that girl who looks sweet and innocent but has a criminal record, and has written depraved fanfiction that would get you on an FBI watchlist? This is her

Charlie: Hello, Disney princess fans! Charlie is a Disney princess who cusses and you love that about her

Vaggie: You've supported the 'Vaggie is a fallen angel' theory since day one, and you loved saying 'I told you so!' when it was made canon

Rosie: Hello, Radiorose shippers! Don't worry, I'm one of you. Rosie and Alastor are platonically married, your honor. You also wish you had a supportive cannibal mom

Angel Dust: How's that unresolved trauma that you process by lashing out at others working out for you? No, but seriously, therapy would help you, or at least, it would be a healthy alternative to your substance abuse problem

Sir Pentious: You watched Phineas and Ferb as a kid, and you loved Dr Doofenshmirtz, so it's no surprise that you love a character who is basically him in snake form

Cherri Bomb: Your type is party girls capable of handling enough cocaine to kill a bull elephant. Either that, or you are a party girl capable of handling enough cocaine to kill a bull elephant. Your nostrils will not survive your twenties

Vox: You used to be an Alastor simp but then Vox came along, and now he's your new favorite tumblr sexyman. You never thought that you'd find a TV sexy but that hasn't stopped you from simping for him

Valentino: You've never made a good decision in your life, and you don't intend to start now. Your taste in men is horrible, and you always date bad guys in the hopes of changing them, and you need to stop, because they're not gonna change for you

Velvette: You're the mom friend, and you hate it. You never wanted to be the mom friend, but you have to be because your two friends who are dating can't mediate their own relationship and they make that your problem

Adam: See everything I said about Valentino, because it applies to him as well

Lute: You wish you could be the Y/N in every single boss/employee romance. You fantasise about dating your real boss on the regular, and no one can stop you

Emily: Is Charlie not sweet enough for you? Then it's no wonder that you like Emily instead. Emily is your precious bean

Sera: Lesbian with mommy issues. You're into a very specific type of woman because you have a poor relationship with your mother

Mimzy: Hello, former Steven Universe fans, more specifically the ones who loved Spinel. Mimzy is just a cussing Spinel, and you love that about her

Baxter: You're disappointed that he didn't get any speaking lines in the show. Don't worry, maybe he'll get some in season 2

[pruesgaultier]

We Might Even Be Falling In Love

“And it feels like

I’m gonna know you for the rest of my life

It’s safe to say that we might even be falling in love.”

We Might Even Be Falling in Love (interlude) — Victoria Monet

also on ao3

part 1 of ?

Clarissa Dovey and Leonora Lesso are two names you see together often. Whether it’s playing a couple in movies such as Mrs and Mrs Smith and Long Shot or most recently, playing a couple in the hit tv show Scandal. Their characters Savannah Washington and Victoria Theron, dubbed Therington by fans, have decided to let all those feelings blossom into something more.

However, in even bigger news, the two actresses have revealed they’re dating and have been for the past 6 years. I sat down with them to hear all about how Dovesso and Therington came to be.

It’s a breezy fall afternoon when I knock on their door. I’m greeted by Clarissa Dovey wearing a yellow long sleeve with red detailing and a brown belt around her waist matching the brown skirt she was wearing. Her normally blonde hair was now black and pulled away from her face, which had a warm smile on it.

“Hi, come in, come in.” She greets opening the door wider for me and the crew I have with me. She leads us over to the living room and makes sure to greet every crew member individually with a smile, making sure to learn their names and jobs before asking if we want anything. We’ve all heard rumors about how sweet she can be to the crew members of the projects she works on, but to see it in action is surreal. There’s a noise from upstairs followed by a thud and giggling. “You’ll have to ignore all the chaos, Nora and the girls like to play around.” She shakes her head, but there’s an endearing smile on her face.

Footsteps cause everyone's heads to turn as a newly blonde Leonora Lesso comes down the stairs in a dark blue hoodie and a darker blue silk skirt. The most surprising part of her appearance is the children, one in her arms and another on her back. “Princess, please get Aggie, Sophie refuses to be put down.” I watch as Clarissa grabs the child off of Leonora’s back. “Come here, little one.” she says softly while grabbing her.

We all get settled in the living room and prepare to begin. “I bet you have so many more questions.” Leonora says mischievously and I nod, speechless.

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CD: So, do you want to start with our relationship, Scandal, or the children?” The bluntness of her question surprises me, however I quickly recover.

RM: Let's start with your relationship. You met on the set of Mrs and Mrs Smith, what was that like?

LL: There was an instant connection. We did a chemistry read that day and just clicked. She was wearing this yellow dress and I just instantly thought she was the most beautiful woman I’d ever seen.

A blush covered Clarissa’s face before speaking.

CD: Nora stop. Anyway, I had gotten there early and when I saw her walk in, I was stunned. Not only by her beauty, but also by the fact that I felt so comfortable with her and we had just met.

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2010; The Meeting; undisclosed location

Clarissa Dovey sits on set at her chemistry read waiting for her potential co-star Leonora Lesso. She had heard of the woman, but never met her in person. Many people had good things to say about her, so Clarissa hopes her reputation precedes her. The blonde turned her attention back to the script in front of her with intrigue. The movie is a lesbian action-comedy movie where she and her co-star will play a married couple who are spies, but they don’t know that. Her character is Jasmine Smith, a ‘senior accountant manager’ at an accountant firm. She takes another sip of her tea while reading the script when the door opens.

Leonora Lesso, who prefers to be called Leo, walks onto set script and coffee in hand. She had read the script front to back and she was very interested in her character of Jane Smith, a ‘tech consultant’. She was badass and had a team of women working with her which made Leo love the character more. Clarissa Dovey was a name she had heard, but never got to really know, but Leo could work with anyone…within reason.

As she walked further into the room, she made eye contact with a blonde woman and physically stopped in her tracks. She’s gorgeous. Leo thought to herself. The yellow of her sundress complimented her skin beautifully and her blonde curls framed her face nicely. Leonora watched the blonde blush under her gaze and she realized she was staring at the other woman. She had heard many things about Clarissa Dovey, but no one had told her how beautiful she was.

Clarissa’s first thought about Leonora Lesso was that she was tall, she easily towers over herself with or without heels. Her next thought was that she was stunning. The black pants fit her perfectly and the white tank accentuated her arms which Clarissa definitely wasn't staring at and her red hair was such a gorgeous color.

“Hi.” Clarissa greeted, standing up and meeting the other woman halfway. “Hi.” Leo said back, before reaching out to shake her hand. The second their hands touched, the women felt a spark. Green met brown and it felt like the entire world disappeared. The women jumped apart when they heard a door open and the director walked in.

“You two have met, great.” Doug the director said, walking closer to them. “Now, I want you to stand on the X and do one of the scenes from Jane and Jasmine’s first meeting. Remember, let the scene guide you, but make it your own. Do whatever feels natural.Focus on each other.”

They put everything down except their scripts and sat in the chairs, standing in close proximity as they’re supposed to be close to one another.

INT. JANE’S BED – NIGHT

(Jasmine)

I can feel you heart racing

Clarissa places her hand on Leonora’s chest, looking deep into her eyes.

(Jane)

I don’t want it to slow down.

Leonora places her hand on top of Clarissa’s.

(Jasmine)

Stick with me, it’s not gonna

(Jane)

Promise?

Leonora reached her hand to cup Clarissa’s cheek, caressing it gently.

(Jasmine)

Cross my heart.

Clarissa smiles.

(Jasmine pulls Jane closer, the two leaning in before the screen cuts to the next one)

“Good, good.” Doug says, interrupting them. Once again, Clarissa and Leonora have to snap out of their own world. “I knew you two would be perfect for the role.” He says, smiling. “The natural chemistry you two have is perfect. I’ll email you your schedules and everything else. Have a nice day ladies!’ With that, he left the room, excited about how big this movie was going to be.

Clarissa and Leo were still reeling from the scene. Never had a scene felt so natural with another person nor an attraction so intense. It was unnerving to both of them to say the least. “Um,” Clarissa started, still feeling the effects of the intense scene. “Would you like to go out to lunch with me? Get to know each other better?” The blonde’s voice was shy. The redhead was stunned, but eager to get to know the other woman better. “Of course. Meet me outside in 5?” Leonora agreed. “Yeah, I’ll be out soon.” Clarissa said before turning away.

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“So,” Clarissa started, “if you could travel anywhere in the world right now, where would you go?” Leonora’s eyebrows furrowed in confusion at the unusual conversation starter, but decided to indulge the blonde. “Maybe Italy or Greece. What about you?” “Costa Rica or Aruba, somewhere tropical and sunny.” Clarissa replied.

“Why the weird question?” Leonora asked curiously. “Because, I hate the small talk and getting to know you questions. They’re so boring and unoriginal, I want to know the little things; what you hate, your second favorite color, your favorite movie you watched and that you’ve been in. I wanna know the real you.” Clarissa expressed with enthusiasm and Leonora thinks she might have just fell a little in love with the woman across from her.

“I never thought of that.” the redhead said, intrigued. “If you could completely get rid of one month out of the year, which would it be and why?” The blonde tapped her index finger against her chin while she was thinking of her answer and Leonora thought it was the cutest thing she’s ever seen. I’m fuckedddddd. she thought to herself.

“July or August because they both have 31 days and mess up the flow between the months with 31 days and the months without.” Leonora faked offense, “Well, you can’t get rid of August because my birthday is in August.” Clarissa rolled her eyes playfully, “I guess August can stay.” she said with a smirk.

The two of them sat in the corner of the restaurant completely enthralled with each other for hours just talking and laughing, as if they were old friends. It was truly the start of a beautiful friendship and maybe, something more.

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[9w1ft]

Hi 9! I've been supzr busy and its hard to catch up. I'm wondering if "we're watching a specific date rn or if there's a new pattern of hints from Taylor that we're examining?

hello!

don’t worry, i think it’s hard for anyone to stay on top of stuff these days!!

for me, i’m not watching a specific date at this time, but i have my eyes on november in terms of a potential tv announcement somewhere. i just have a feeling that taylor will probably announce a 2025 release date for either rep or debut or both while she is still touring. and i think she might also announce another tour movie before the tour ends, maybe on the final night. she has concerts until december 8th, hence why im interested in november! she’s giving us plenty of reasons to continue to tune in.

let me summarize some of the stuff i’ve noticed skimming twitter while watching the miami show livestreams

i did see on twitter that a swiftie has a theory that maybe she’ll release rep during one of the indianapolis dates? which i thought was sort of interesting? so you can take a look at that if you’re interested.

more generally i saw more than a few people (i think gaylors?) point out some stuff about the timing of lent (the religious holiday) or about how new orleans is the location for mardi gras, and mardi gras is also known as “fat tuesday” and is held on the day before lent starts (“ash wednesday”) and is supposed to be a celebration where you eat a lot in anticipation of fasting for lent. lent is a period of time observed by christians leading up to easter, a period to reflect on jesus’s death and resurrection. taylor sang guilty as sin? at this last concert before going to new orleans, and there’s the line “what if i roll the stone away? they’re gonna crucify me anyway” which to me is a direct reference to the bible story about the stone door in front of jesus’s tomb rolling away with his resurrection, which ties to lent kinda… just this idea that maybe she’s gearing up to do something big?

for a lot of gaylors that something big is assumed to be a coming out i think? at the recent miami shows, she debuted a new reputation outfit, and she wore new surprise song dresses that were widely seen as being bi colors and lesbian colors, so i think this is contributing to the hype. so would she do some sort of death/resurrection arc in new orleans… and then come out in… *checks notes* …indianapolis? i’m not too sure about that but i had a mutual point out to me that indianapolis *is* home to the indy 500, so, race cars..getaway cars.. a checkered flag, mayhaps?

anyway, as i’m sure you know, i’m not expecting anything huge but i do think that we have prime conditions for a content drop of some sort, so, ive been keeping one eye open for something like that 🥴

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there is a limit of 12 answers for polls, and on this blog one of those answers will always be 'show results,' to allow for people that the poll doesn't apply to to see without skewing data. so in reality you have a maximum of 11.

there's also an 80-character limit on the options

SO, if you go over those limits, know that I will take it into my own hands to decide which answers to omit and/or how to re-word it to fit the limit.

even otherwise, expect that the wording of your submission may be slightly altered in order to be more inclusive (when it doesn't affect the data), or because i think you missed an option that you probably meant to include, or just to make it sound less clunky. if you have an issue with any changes upon posting, i'm happy to hear you out.

currently there is no wait time, but if things go as expected, soon enough it'll likely be about a 4-5 day wait between the time you submit and the time it gets posted

if your poll is addressing a very small group, don't be surprised or angry when the 'see results' poll is the biggest. that needs to be there to keep data from being skewed by anyone's curiosity.

Base Guidelines For Submitting:

poll must be related to gayness in some way. it doesn't have to be directed exclusively at gay people, but it should center same-gender attraction. if you have a poll in mind to direct specifically at bisexuals, there's @mspecpolls

it CAN be a general LGBT poll, but if it's specific to something that has nothing to do with gay attraction, you're better off submitting to another blog. there's @transgenderpolls for trans stuff and @aspecpolls for ace/aro stuff.

it CAN be directed at a specific type of gay person, such as gay men, lesbians, specifically trans lesbians, nonbinary mlm, gay poc, disabled wlw, etc - literally you can address any specific gay group you want, just make sure to say so.

...this DOES include 'cis gay men/women/people' but tbqh you're gonna have to provide a good reason to be excluding trans people from the poll

in general if you want to explicitly exclude people who have a nonconforming relationship with gender, you better explicitly say so AND have a good reason. otherwise it'll be assumed that all sorts are included and if your options don't reflect that, i will change them or reject the poll.

it CAN relate to sex (i expect many polls here will be), just try to be tasteful about it. like, as long as it sounds like you're trying to collect data rather than arouse people lol

What would make me NOT post a submission:

as mentioned previously, if it's excluding subgroups without a good reason

if it's an opinion poll about the validity of any particular type of gay person. "validity" is a moot topic and i'm not going to encourage it, and in any case i'd like the focus of this blog to be about recording experiences (real, undeniable, forever in stone) rather than opinions (always changing, meaningless)

pride discourse polls, lol

anything that tries to pit issues against each other. no "which intercommunity issue is more important to you? ableism? racism?" like cmon

if it's just way too niche and would make a pointless poll. if a poll is "who's your favorite lgbt character" and then you've got 11 options from different TV shows, you gotta know that most of the ppl who see that poll will NOT have seen ALL those shows, so they'll really just be voting for the show that they know. it's just dumb.

if it's something like "gay people: do you like pineapple on pizza?" or some other question that doesn't actually have anything to do with being gay. if you wanna send something like this, make your case for why it's relevant that the poll is directed at gay people.

if it's some other obviously offensive shit, obviously. no racism or whatnot here.

FAQ:

Who counts as gay?

Like most of these guidelines I'll continue the same sentiment from the trans polls blog: We self-define here. But I will stress answering in good faith and understanding what any given poll is asking and what definitions they're using. If you're, say, nonbinary and bisexual in a way that makes all your attraction gay, or you're gay in a very specific way (like nb4nb), or you call yourself gay bc you're mostly gay but you're technically bisexual, or you're definitely homosexual but don't actually like to call yourself gay, etc, it'll likely just depend on the poll. It's totally up to you to decide if it includes you or not, or you can always ask if you want to be sure.

Though if it's not explicitly stated that the poll excludes transmasc lesbians or transfem gays, or other trans/nonbinary gay people, you should still for sure assume it includes you.

Why isn't there an option for X?/You missed an option.

Sometimes I may genuinely miss an option, but 9 times out of 10 the lack of the option is either due to the poll limits on tumblr, or because it goes against the point of the poll. For example, if the question begins with "If you're in a relationship," then "i'm not in a relationship" isn't going to be an option. If the prerequisite of the poll doesn't apply to you, then what you click is "see results." If it's something a little less concrete, polls will usually include some kind of "other" option anyway.

Can you make more polls for X type of gay person?

*I* make polls based off what I'm personally curious about. If you're curious about something, submit it!

Do you know that some people are gay in very unconventional ways that your polls aren't accounting for?

Yes, I know. When there's room on the poll, I try to be inclusive, but often there's not, and that's really the main thing there. However, I will admit that a secondary reason is that when a poll is addressing exclusively gay people, the fact that they're only attracted to one gender is relevant, regardless of whether or not it would still be gay of them to be attracted to more.

Can you get rid of the 'see results' button? Or can you not include it on this particular poll? I only want X people to respond. This poll is ONLY for X people.

If a poll is on this blog, it's for everyone, questioning and simply curious people included. It's also not going to stop curious people from clicking if there's no 'see results' button. It ensures that the data doesn't get skewed, and gathering data is what polls are for. It doesn't hurt you to see a big see results bar. The data is still there. If the bar does wind up obscuring more significant data, that means the poll was addressing too small of a group to begin with. And that's NOT the end of the world. This blog is far from the only place where you can get information about other gay people's experiences.

[sketchfanda]

Kirishima’s Mystique: Cousin 21

Now Maya was no stranger to Mina being full of surprises, after all the acid making girl managed to make her part of a threesome couple, with an absolute unit of a stud boyfriend. On top of their shared love and kink for hooking up with other women, to say nothing of his luck for getting into situations that ensured he was going to be naked, balls deep and taking some hot sexy piece of ass to Satisfaction Avenue in Bonetown. But it was always something new to learn about Mina, case in point meeting her cousin Vomi Ashido, the star actress in the role of android 21 as part of the cast of the well received live stage shows for the much beloved Dragonball series. The fact she bore quite an uncanny resemblance to the character no doubt helped.

But digression aside, the shapeshifting hottie was plenty surprised to find Mina answering the door to their little love nest and acting more giddier than a kid in a candy store as she squee’d and greeted their unexpected guest with a big hug. Seems Vomi was in town for a little R&R and decided to visit her favourite cousin for a little quality time and some catching up to which the acid maker was only more than happy to oblige. Suffice to say Maya found herself getting along famously with her girlfriend’s cousin who was just as much a walking case of fun personified as much as Mina and much like her character had quite the sweet tooth, Especially for macaroons. The trio of stunners enjoying a nice bonding session of some tv, gossip trading and junk food as they had themselves a little slumber party.

Mina:”Oh, my god, I knew the players for Krillin and 18 were a real couple,I goddamn knew it!!” *Vomi giggled at her cousin’s excitement over feeling vindicated with her shipping being confirmed. Seems Mina was still pretty much a romantic and a Cupid at heart. It made her curious to what her own relationship was with this Maya girl besides being roommates. As well as to how and why their place seemed bigger than just the two of them living here.* “You could just feel the chemistry between them, there was heat!”

Maya:”Babe course you always been a K18 shipper, she ever tell you she doesn’t read the Super Manga because she feels the writer is biased?”*Oh Vomi was all too aware, Mina wasn’t the first or last person to hold contempt towards Toyotaro. She had the emails and fan letter complaints to prove it.* “Speaking of romance, how about you babe? Bet you must beat the guys off with a stick…”*Hell with how she looked snd her modest personality? It’s a wonder Vomi was somehow still single.*

Vomi:*pouted adorably before giggling playfully as she scarfed down a macaroon. Chewing away on the sweet treat before she enlightened her cousin and Maya's curiousity.*"Oooh nono,no relationships in my profession are just a hassle...not gonna lie though, it's been a while since I just had a casual fling, I mean this dry spell keeps up, who knows? Might take up being a lesbian like you two...assuming it is just you two living here of course?" *The snowhaired pink hottie asked as she subtly began her probe for a few intimate details in regards to her cousin. Who simply blinked before she and Maya looked at one another and began to sport some growing minx-like grins on their faces, their eyes twinkling with mischief.* "What? Was it something I said?"

Kirishima:"Hey girls, I'm back, sorry to keep you waiting. I know I'd ask if you're both decent but who am I kidding, ri-Oh uhm hello? Didn't know we had company...."*Vomi's query was left unanswered of course by the sound of the door opening and closing, followed by the voice of the cause of it announcing his presence. The source of said voice showing itself as Vomi's ocean blue eyes found themselves gazing upon and drinking in what had to the hunkiest tall drink of water she'd ever seen. Pulse racing a mile a minute, a noticeable blush on her cotton candy coloured face as she found herself unable to look away from this Adonis before her. Decked in what was clearly gym wear, a gearbag slung over his shoulder making it clear where he'd just gotten back from as he fidgeted a bit from the candy pink stunner's staring.*"Uhm is there something on my face?"

Mina and Maya of course giggled at their hardheaded redhead himbo's adorkable nature, their eyes once again twinkling with mischief as the gears turned in their lewd synchronised brains. Oh they could practically feel the heat of growing lust radiating off of Mina's cousin, they knew first hand how bad any woman could get for their man on first sight. And Vomi had it bad, no doubt it had to have been quite a dry spell for her and oh how could they possibly pass this chance up? The shapeshifting hottie shooting her co-girlfriend a wink as mina got the idea and spoke up to break any pending uncomfortable silence.

Mina:"Oh don't worry Eiji, nothing you did wrong, say have I ever told you about my cousin Vomi here? I'm sure you might recognise her, she's kind of a big deal."*Vomi blinked as she shook her head, her cousin bringing her back down to Earth as she blushed, realising she'd been ogling hers and Maya's roommate, a guy surprisingly enough or perhaps not as it made her brain imagine some peculiar, downright kinky implications. But she figured there was no way it was anything like what she was thinking, after all life wasn't like some porn movie or erotic novel, right? The quirked actress distracting her thoughts and attention as she reached out to pick up and scarf down another macaroon.*"But of course why tell you all the boring details when I think we all know a more fun way for you and her to get to know one another, right?" *The tone and implied indecent proposal in her cousin's words and voice were about as subtle as sledgehammer smashing a cinder block, making Vomi nearly choke on treat while Kirishima shot his acid-maker lover a deadpan look in spite of his own blush of course, he was used to this from his girlfriend duet after all.*

Maya:*Grinned a sensual catlike grin as she slid closer towards the alien-looking actress, draping her arms around toned, stunning form in a casual yet very intimate manner. Hands caressing her curves as she purred and hummed, taking in the rather sweet scent radiating off of her.*"Awww you know you'd love it red, much as we love you. Besides, V here is family and wouldn't it be such a fun way to make Pinky happy? Getting all hot, wild and sweaty with her cousin here? You know she's still single? That's just a shame but nothing a REAL MAN can't fix and handle, right?"*If there was one sure fire way to persuade their muscly teddy bear, besides riling him up into being a sexual caveman? It was appealing to his personal code of Manhood and it was always guaranteed to get results.*

Now of course at this point in their relationship, Kirishima knew his girls well enough to know they were playing him and it was from experience he knew resistance wasn't ever an option let alone an exercise in futility. Rolling his eyes and shaking his head good naturedly as he dropped his gear bag and shed his tanktop, Mina and Maya making wolf whistles and catcalls in appreciation of their himbo's dedicated and well sculpted torso on display. Vomi all the while felt her eyes widen and her jaw drop, her pink face a full red glowing blush at the sight of those firm pecs and those washboard abs that looked so cut, you could grate cheese on them as she could feel her libido kicking into overdrive. Taking the helm of her brain as it outright demanded she take Mina's offer on board and and let this chivalrous Adonis rock her goddamn world.

Before she knew it, the actress found her body moving by itself like it had gone into autopilot, Mina and Maya's eyes glued to her as they watched her strip off her clothing. Her toned bombshell, exotic alien-like figure on full display in all its nude glory as she bit her lower lip sensually, any sense of hesitation or shyness kicked aside by a primal desire to get intimately acquainted with this fine specimen of a man who had to be quite something to be with two women at the same time and please them both sexually. God she could only imagine the field day the tabloids would have if it got found out Vomi Ashido, the famed Android 21 actress was about to commence with a deed like right out some cliche porn movie. But right now that was about the furthest thing on her mind as she strode over with purpose towards Kirishima as she awaited his embrace.

Oh she was certainly shocked and surprised at Mina's sudden offer out of nowhere to have her fuck her cousin's own boyfriend but hey that meant he had to be a beast in the sack. And it really had been far too long since she really got any and if this guy recognised her or not, he was hiding it every well since far as he knew, she just happened to be Mina's very pretty sexy cousin. Here she was walking over naked towards him and yet he wasn't visibly ogling and dry humping her with his eyes, he was already proving himself quite the gentleman. unlike some of her fans especially that creepy Grape-fruits guy with his far too detailed and explicit letters he kept sending her.

Christ some of that shit was enough to make you want to pour bleach into your eyes after reading it but forget about that for now, she reminded herself mentally. As she soon found herself pressing up against that Herculean body, her pink tits rubbing up against that broad chest of his as his sculpted arms wrapped around her. Pulling her in for a kiss to which she gladly obliged, their lips locking as she found him quite the artist at seizing initiative when it presented itself. Feeling his tongue invade her mouth as it danced with her own in a sloppy dance of spit-swapping, making her moan and squirm as she felt his hands reach down to grab and squeeze the bubbly buns of her well toned pink ass.

Oh there was no doubt he liked what he was seeing and felt as he could certainly tell she and Mina were cousins alright, kissing her was like tasting several flavours of fleet candy all at once. Not that Vomi was being idle herself of course with her own hands exploring and caressing Kirishima’s muscles before they made the plunge down the waistband of his shorts and boxers to grasp and feel his cock. An awed moan escaping her luscious lips as she found he had quite the length and girth which only grew in her grasp as she began to stroke and jerk it off. The making out pair’s libidos taking them along in the momentum of passion growing between them as Kirishkma was soon as naked as she was.

Mina and Maya of course weren’t too far behind them as the bubblegum duo scissored their pussies together, idly making out as they watched Vomi on the couch with their boyfriend. The exotic pink hottie moaning with wanton as deepthroated cries of passion escaped from her. Her waterfall mane of white hair swinging and flying as she bounced on Kirishima’s cock, waves of orgamisc pleasure running through her every nerve with spine tingling ecstasy as he squeezed and smacked her jiggling pink booty. His hips pumping and thrusting away as his length and girth hammered away into the welcoming embrace of her warm, wet folds.

Now as said before, Vomi hadn’t expected her free time today to wind up havin sex with her cousin’s boyfriend but she’d be damned if it wasn’t the best experience to ever happen to her. Especially the thrill of doing it raw and bareback, Christ a part of her was rather hoping she’d get knocked up. It was a primal desire that just felt so right, she hadn’t felt this kinky and horny since, unknown to Mina, she had also been in a threesome with the actors for Android 18 and Krillin, what could say? Don Juan Sanchez was a stallion and Kirishima was proving to be on his level.

Of course the fun got more ramped up when Mina and Maya decide to make it a four way, after having let her enjoy some one on one fun with their man. Ambushing her with gropes and caresses, their hands massaging and exploring her body as she bounced a on him cowgirl style. Being kissed and licked on her face, lips and her hypnotically bouncing tits as she felt Kirishima fuck her harder as if the presence of his two main ladies motivated and aroused him further much to her delight of course. She hadn’t feel an experience this sweet compared to the first time she ever tried and tasted macaroons.

From taking it doggy style or missionary as she ate either Mina or Maya out to a three on one blowjob, it was a rotating sea of bodies working through a combination of positions and tandems. 3 on 1 to 2 on 1 to pairs, it was a fiesta of erotic pleasure. Made all the better with Kirishima being such a damn stamina freak as Vomi found herself, Mina and Maya getting cum in and on them, time flying by with every blissful, mind numbing orgasm. The foursome finally concluding their fun as exhaustion finally caught up to them, the pink and blue babes laying atop their stud as they basked in the afterglow.

There wasn’t any doubt that they would,pick up right where they left off soon as they recovered snd restored their energy of course. Vomi was certainly already looking forward to the next time she looked to spend some free time with her cousin if she could get another round of this wonderful experience. Hell she knew for sure there were some relatives of theirs who’d also love to “meet” Kirishima like this, to say nothing of a few of her co-workers and co-stars. After all a thrill ride was always more fun with a few more bodies to ride it…..

[milfzatannaz]

the increasing likelihood that season two of sandman isnt gonna do game of you anywhere near what it deserves is the main reason ive lost interest in watching the new season. like i was so hyped for the show, i managed to luck out and get into the early online viewing thing and i loved it, but the fandom got wayyy to obsessed with hob and i massively soured on the wider fandom [yall and other sandman comic readers not included<3] and given how they seem to be approaching game of you... yea i might give it a watch at some point if i have the time but im not gonna rush myself.

also your art is amazing and i am in awe of your drawings, from the klimt to the art neuvo ones you make banger after banger and i love how you draws death and zatanna but i have a soft sopt for how you draw johnstantine when you do johnzee<3

ugh, I totally agree. I think the tv show cannot capture why I’m drawn to the comics, and the tv show really exists in this sort of comic book adaptation industrial complex. the fandom is tiring. the racism is surprising and demoralizing and so is the misogyny……sigh. I love death but it feels so empty now that they’re not adapting my lesbians. a game of you getting excluded is just fucking awful bc it’s like they don’t even care enough to update the outdated parts and keep what made it so memorable.

(and ty sweetheart I rlly appreciate this message <3)

[wheelin-after-midnight]

41.

What's your name?

Vickie.

For how long you have this account?

Not long. I gave up doing surveys for a while, but then came back to it. I also used to have a writing/poetry blog here. Might put it back up eventually, idk.

Favourite food?

Mac and cheese (homemade, not the boxed stuff) and pizza.

Favourite drink?

Coffee, sparkling waters.

Do you have any siblings?

Three. Twin brother, older half brother, older step sister.

Do you have pets?

I do. Nippy says hi! 🥰

How old are you?

32. Almost 33.

How many languages do you know?

Five.

What's your all time favourite movie/tv show?

Army Wives, Empire, You, Me, Her, Wynonna Earp.

What are you enjoying to do in your free time?

Singing, going on little adventures with Brittany, playing and hanging out with my cat, writing and acting, though I've not done much of the last two for a while and miss both.

Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

It depends. I can be both. I'd say more introverted though.

Your favourite music genres?

Most of them. I just listen to metal the least, I think, but I don't hate it.

Your dream place to visit?

South Africa!

Something you wish you were better at?

Being enough in the eyes of my mum, being normal. No matter how independent I've had to be in life and the point I've gotten to, I can't take or will my disability or any of the secondary conditions it caused away. I wish I didn't need anyone. I wish I wasn't a burden on others. I wish it were easier not to feel that way and to confidently ask/go to people for help and count on them.

How long do you take to respond to texts?

Depends who texts me. Sometimes I don't respond at all. If Brittany or babe text me I'll almost always respond right away, though.

Do you have any tattoos? If not, would like to?

I have two. My third is planned and ready to be booked when I can afford it.

What's your sexuality?

Lesbian.

Do you like reading? If yes what's your favourite book?

I do. I used to be such a voracious reader. I fell off a lot in the last almost five years since my Nan died, though. I could never choose just one favourite book, but Christina Haag's Come to the Edge is one of them.

Have you ever been in love?

I am.

What's your relationship status?

Taken.

Have you ever been heartbroken?

Of course. Many times. Not just in the romantic sense. I don't think any of us get through life without that happening at least a little bit.

Best memory you could think of?

Pa building me a bike I could pedal with my hands and he and Nan surprising me with it, the day I got Nippy, when we went to California, my first concert.

Worst memory you can think of?

The day my Nan died, assault, harassment, stuff that happened between my parents when dad was drunk, stuff that happened between dad and I while he was drunk, my surgery and everything that came after, Nan and Pa's funerals, my last break up.

Do you have any fears?

So many. Who doesn't? How this move is gonna turn out, disability making my body/life worse as I age and impacting my quality of life and having no way out.

Are you a morning or a night person?

Night.

How many pictures you have on your phone?

Thousands.

Who was your favourite childhood crush?

I don't have a favourite childhood crush.

Are you a romantic?

100%

What’s your dream date?

Doesn't matter as long as babe and I get to be together. Simple things, spending time together.

What are your hobbies?

Singing, writing, acting, reading, sometimes coloring, watching things, caring for/playing with Nippy and going above and beyond in giving her the best life possible.

[alexissara]

My Favorite Movies/TV/Anime of 2023

Going into 2023 I've done a lot more taking in art then in previous years and this section is all about the audio/visual/auditory art I've taken in this year and enjoyed. In fact it's a content and clickable top 10 list! Wow so engaging, much content, please enjoy. This is gonna be inclusive of movies, cartoons, anime, TV shows, etc because I don't engage any one of these mediums alone enough to make a nice little list, at least not this year.

These are roughly in an order by how much I enjoyed them but these are different pieces of art that hit you in different places for different reasons and no one piece of art here is like "Better" than the other. Ask me at a different hour let alone day and this list could be all scrambled.

Adolescence Of Utena

So I finally watched some Utena, I mean I watched a little but of Utena before, just a few episodes with some friends but I watched the full ass movie now so that counts for something. The anime is really artful and it's a very compelling queer coming of age story with all the messy trauma and feelings attached. It's a weird movie, a girl turns into a car, and that's amazing, 12/10, another girl can also turn into a car, we're really just living the dream here. Finally true lesbian representation is when a girl can turn into a car and I am here for it. It's a really great piece of art and I am glad to have finally got to take it in and enjoy it.

Glass Onion

So this is probably the biggest surprise on the list for folks who follow me but one of my girlfriends really loves mysteries and so a Glass Onion I did watch with her. It's super funny and fun, it's just good. The cast has good chemistry, the jokes land, the mystery has fun twists, and it's just a good experience overall.

One Piece Film Red

I am not a One Piece fan, I do not care for One Piece, It's like fine Shonen. However, this movie fucking slapped, it was a good fucking time. Uta is One Pieces best character and she should show up and take over the final arc of the manga because she is so good. The music was fucking killer with Ado slaying every single fucking song and it really just hit. Every song is so good on it's own and in it's context. It's what you want from a truly killer musical experience and every song being from "the villain" is just extra fun. The power of friendship and bounds is really great here, it's just good and well animated even if the women all have the same exact body.

Everything, Everywhere, All At Once

I finally watched this movie after all the hype had died down and well, it was worth the hype, it isn't my favorite movie of all time but it's a good movie. It's funny, amazingly acted, well shot, silly and just in general a good time. It touches on a lot of good themes of family, trauma, homophobia, expectations, and parental relationships. I think the queerness coulda been better in the movie and have complaints on how that is displayed here but I mean it was at least a little bit queer and that's more than most movies. As a former actor who really loves the craft I envy everyone involved too for getting to be in such a fun film, I can only imagine what a blast it was to see the final product of what I am sure was a ton of hard work to make something so fun.

Gundam The Witch From Mercury - Season 2 

Gundam ended on more of a whimper than a bang to me. Which is both not uncommon for a Gundam series to have a shitty ending but also not shocking given this series was given it had a much shorter run time. Regardless of me thinking this half of the anime is much weaker than the first half it still undeniably striking in it's animation, stunning visually, engaging to watch with a cast of very endearing characters to watch in the dramatic stakes of it all. The very end was not terrible but the time we spent to get to the final epilogue moments were questionable. Regardless, this show did not kill off Prospera, Chuchu, Secelia or Rouhi and they all were in a lot of these episodes so like an 8/10 cuz their all fucking brilliant and I really like Sulletta a ton too, I am just probably Mio's weakest solider among lesbians preferring my sweet little nervous lesbian settle down with a nice earthian girl or make use of her second hand to be polyamarous.

Kakegurui Twin

I never have and likely never will watch Kakegurui's main series but the twins series female focused cast and yuri energy captured my attention and so I turned it on. Wow, what a fucking ride. This over the top gambling game is Jojo's bizarre adventure, is sports anime, is card game anime, it's the raw spirit of these things radiating in the horny submissive lesbian factory and served back in animated form. The fucking faces these women get to make as they smugly battle in bounts of gambling is just so delicious and the tension they manage to put into each of these games of chance as the fucked up students try and cheat each other and win is just brilliant.

Harley Quinn 

HarIvy is a ship of all time for me, it's hard to have the concept of a show be "HarIvy comedy" and me not to at least kinda enjoy it and I enjoyed it a lot this new season. At the start of the season I wasn't click with it, it felt weird and forced for Harly and Ivy to be placed in these really binary hero and villain roles but in the end that's what it was really about. Neither of them are traditional heroes or villains and the show actually recognized that and let them trying to fit into the strict mold of the universe as an active issue for themself, their sense of self, their relationship, the world and more. From time to time they felt fairly out of character but I am just happy to see this arcs over all themes and the work they put into that.

I’m In Love With The Villainess 

While I would have rather had a tighter pace that went through the first two books of the series rather than one and some tiny jumps into the second book I'm In Love With The Villainess still managed to be one of my favorite things to watch this year with me viewing it multiple times. Rae's Isekai fantasy of being bullied by a hot rich woman and the eventual need to confront her own internalized homophobia and self pity as blocking her path to happiness are fun to see. Rae is really good in the anime adaptation and in it more than any other adaption it feels like everyone is friends and cares about each other which fits the light hearted comedy tone better than the light novels Rae will kill anyone for Clair, she has no friends mindset.

Scott Pilgrim: Takes Off

This was the biggest surprise of the year. I had grown out of Scott Pilgrim, while I was a fan of the comics before the movie was even a thing, I watched the movie before it even released, I even at some point was collecting the colored editions, I eventually soured on the series and sold everything I had of it. I wasn't excited about the anime and felt more like "let it go" then "OMG thing from when I was young" but hearing the good things I heard about it and about the Scott twist along with seeing the great animation in the OP I decided, fuck it why not give it a shot. So I did and wow, it's really good. It's a great take down, commentary, adaption, whatever it is of the original work. It is Scott Pilgrim having grown up alongside me, funnier than ever and a lot better about everything. I really loved all the changes and it still felt very true to the heart of Scott Pilgrim which is messy adults trying to fix their fucked up selves and relationships.

The Magical Revolution of the Reincarnated Princess and the Genius Young Lady

This certainly sits among my favorite anime of all time and very highly if not number one. MagiRevo mastered a light novel adaptations tempo perfecting how to make one season of what would be a nothing slow burn with no pay off at the novel and mangas pace into an exciting action packed yuri with more gay kisses in it than the rest of the years anime put together. It's funny, charming, fun but it also captures some really hard emotions too, I'll never forget the scene with Anis being pressured by old men to have children and stuff and the utter disgust she has at being treated like a piece of meat as she attempts to fill her role to the kingdom. It is devastating and heart wrenching and it just makes all the joy feel so strong.

If you want to help me enjoy more art then consider checking out my Patreon or Ko-fi and giving me a little bit of cash so I can do more of this kind of writing but also like make lots of my own art, art is hard to make and costs money and like maintain my chronically ill and trans body also takes money so anything helps, thank you. If you want more details on any of these I do have reviews for many of the pieces of art above but you can also let me know you want more and maybe I'll write more.

[teddy-stonehill]

Top 5 books read in 2023

I'm gonna claim I was tagged by @thevagueambition lol

Somehow 2023 was actually the year I started reading books again, so it was actually a little bit difficult for me to narrow it down to 5 favorites, but I did my best. In no particular order:

Ammonite by Niccola Griffith

Ammonite has the feeling of a true classic golden-era sci-fi novel, and has an almost cliche high-concept sci-fi premise: What if a mysterious disease wiped out all the men on a planet, and the women who were left somehow evolved to survive as a species without them?

But the way Niccola Griffith approaches the concept is far from cliche. She takes an anthropological approach to it, rather than a bio-essentialist one. Often, writers will use single-sex societies as a sort of excuse to explore and highlight the specific things that they think make women fundamentally different from men or vice versa, and it ends up being a roundabout way of enforcing our societies naturalized ideas about the gender binary. Niccola Griffith doesn't do that. Instead, she takes the opportunity of a single-sex society to ask other questions, like, "How might a society organize itself if sex was not a viable category to define people and assign them roles by? How would the notion of 'family' change if the whole process of pregnancy and childbirth was fundamentally different? What other sorts of differences between people emerge, if sex difference is removed?" and so on.

And more than that, it's just an incredibly well-written book that also very thoughtfully explores themes of colonialism, imperialism, and capitalism. It has compelling characters and one of the sweetest, most tender lesbian romances I've ever read.

When I recommended the book to my parents I described it as a Robin McKinley style fantasy book (thinking particularly of Dragonhaven) meets and Ursula K. Le Guin style sci-fi novel. So if that means anything to you, that might tell you a lot about what's going on here. I highly recommend it!

The Care and Feeding of Waspish Widows by Olivia Waite

I actually read the entirety of Olivia Waite's Feminine Pursuits trilogy this year, and while they were all enjoyable enough, The Care and Feeding of Waspish Widows was by far my favorite. It's standalone enough that I would actually recommend reading just that and skipping the rest of the trilogy, unless you're very into historical lesbian romance (as I am) and out of stuff to read.

The Care and Feeding of Waspish Widows is a romance about a printer and a beekeeper, both of them on the older side for romance-novel protagonists (which I appreciate). Agatha, the printer, even has a grown adult son. The book takes a really grounded and thoughtful approach to the historical elements, and the romance blossoms really naturally out of their growing friendship.

If you end up looking it up, don't let the goofy cover fool you (although I actually really like the goofy cover lol). This is a very sweet and down-to-earth novel in a way that I found pleasantly surprising in the genre.

The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet by Becky Chambers

This is also a book that took me by surprise. I wasn't really sure what to expect from it when I started it, but what it ended up being was a novel I would compare to a season of a really good ensemble sci-fi TV series.

The plot structure was oddly episodic for a novel, which is part of what enhances the "season of a TV show" feeling, but somehow I found that I didn't really mind that. The characters, worldbuilding, and themes were all strong enough to keep me engaged throughout. I especially appreciated the focus on the labor which would be required to make advanced technological civilizations function in this kind of a setting.

And if any of that sounds appealing to you, you'll definitely like this book.

Every single book ever written by KJ Charles

Okay, this is a slight exaggeration, because I haven't quite managed to read every book ever written by KJ Charles just yet, and some of the more fantastical ones of hers don't really interest me that much. But in a year where I read a lot of gay historical romance fiction, KJ Charles stood out as, consistently and by a wide margin, my absolute favorite author currently working in the genre.

In particular I want to shout out Proper English, Think of England, Band Sinister, The Gentle Art of Fortune Hunting, and The Secret Lives of Country Gentlemen as my absolute favorites of hers. Yes, I know including 5 favorite books nested within my list of 5 favorite books is cheating. I don't care.

The Tombs of Atuan by Urusula K. Le Guin

It honestly is shocking and shameful that I had somehow never read the entirety of the Earthsea books before this year, and I'm sure none of you need me to tell you that Ursula Le Guin is a good writer, but damn... Ursula Le Guin is a good writer.

The Tombs of Atuan in particular was SO extremely up my alley in every single way that I actually at times felt genuinely jealous that I wasn't the one who had written it. I only hope I can one day write something at least half-as-good, because holy shit.

Honorable mention to The Mercies by Kiran Millwood Hargrave

I haven't actually finished this book, partially because it's SO far up my alley that reading it is such an intense experience that I've had to be careful about when I'm actually feeling up to reading it. It's a fairly dark book, and difficult to read at times, but it's also beautiful and compelling and again, just so grounded and well-researched in its historical setting it's incredible.

If you like slow historical burn tragedies about women trying to survive in difficult circumstances... you gotta read this. You just gotta.

I won't tag anyone, but if you want to share your favorite books of 2023, make a post and say that I tagged you! I'm genuinely interested in hearing about what people are reading, because I'm running out of stuff to read and I want to know what's out there. :)

[pickledpascal]

New Perspective

Chapter Ten: The Calm Before the Storm

Warnings: a bit of family angst and fears of transphobia

Word Count: 3.3k

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Avery sat cross-legged in the middle of Jensen's bed, a notebook in her lap and her laptop in front of her. It became a habit after a little while of Jensen living close by. She scribbled something down as she glanced up at her computer screen.

"What class is that for anyway?" Jensen asked as he sat next to Avery. He took in her laptop and her notes but still didn't understand what it was for. 

Avery chuckled at Jensen. "I'm doing notes for what my professor wants for my last project. He finally posted what he wanted us to do." She explained as she jotted down some more notes.”

"What does he want you to do?" As much as Jensen was far removed from college since he hadn't been in college for over twenty years, he still liked to hear what Avery was doing. How she liked her classes, what was her favorite professor, what kind of projects she had to do, and if she liked them. It was nice to hear her rant about whatever. 

Avery glanced down at her notes and shrugged. "He wants us to write a two hundred to three-hundred-page story. Doesn't matter what it's about, just nothing non-fiction." Jensen's eyes widened. That sounded horrifying. More horrifying than half the shit he had to face on a certain TV show. "I'll probably do two hundred because he wants us to change the format to A5 anyway." Avery didn't seem too upset. She'd written two hundred pages in the span of a week once. And that wasn't even for school. 

Jensen was surprised. He knew Avery wanted to be an author but her teacher was basically asking her to write a book as an assignment. "What is it gonna be about?" He asked. 

"I got a few ideas. Both pretty gay." Avery winked. "One's basically like Romeo and Juliet but they're lesbians and set on another planet where one of them is royalty. 

Jensen commented, "Love a good sci-fi lesbian story." 

"The other is about a trans woman navigating her life. May or may not be based on my own experiences but I'll be taking a few creative liberties." Avery hummed, making a quick note. 

Jensen thought about which one he'd want to read. He liked both ideas but the latter seemed more personal. He knew bits and pieces of Avery's life before college but never the full puzzle. It was hard to talk about, Jensen knew that. But he wanted to know every part of Avery's life. She'd tell him on her own time. And he knew that too. 

"Do you have any plans for Thanksgiving?" He asked softly and they hadn't really talked about it since he moved. Her break for the holiday started in a few days. 

Avery was absentmindedly writing a few things she wanted to add to her final paper. "Nah. Roomies will be gone, my friends will be too, and my brother's gonna spend the day with my parents." 

Yet another small detail. Jensen's eyebrows furrowed. Her brother was still in contact with their parents? Even after they seemingly disowned Avery. He wondered if Avery felt betrayed. Apparently not. 

"Do you want to come to Texas with me? I usually do Thanksgiving but…" Danneel planned it. "So my parents are taking over again." Jensen didn't want to force Avery to come, he knew she'd be fine on her own but his parents specifically extended the offer to her. He was weary of them. They knew she was his girlfriend but what else did they know about her? What else had they found out?

The faint noise of pencil scribbling on paper stopped. Avery looked up at Jensen and studied his face for a moment. She was hesitant. Texas was fun when she didn't know anyone and went to tourist locations. She had no desire to have a conversation with someone who wouldn't like her if they found out she was transgender. 

But Jensen's family was important to him. Avery heard the slow, easy Texas accent come out every time his mom called and saw the faint smile. She wondered if his mom knew about her. If she would consider Avery "unnatural." Even worse, she wondered what his father would think. She didn't want to deal with another father figure who thought she was somehow mentally ill for knowing she was a woman trapped in the wrong body. Would Jensen defend her as he said he would? Doubts plagued her mind. 

Why the hell not? There wasn't any reason not to find out. At least, then, she'd know for sure. "I'll go." Avery said after a while. 

Jensen's eyes lit up with surprise. "Really?" 

"Yes, really. Now go away! I'm trying to focus." Avery pushed Jensen away. She unintentionally pushed him right off the bed so he fell with a thump. Her hand flew to her mouth. "Sorry!"

Jensen laughed. The wind was thrown out of him but he couldn't find it in himself to care. Avery was adorable when she thought she might have hurt Jensen. "You ever think my neighbors below us wonder what the hell we're doing?" He asked as he sat up with the help of his elbows.

"Fucking." Was Avery's immediate answer. She lived in a first-floor apartment for a year and, half the time, that was what the people above her were doing. 

Jensen picked himself off the floor and stood to ruffle Avery's hair. "I was gonna say rearranging furniture but that works too." 

"Rearranging furniture is code for fucking." Avery pointed out.

Jensen shrugged with a small laugh. 

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Being in Texas again was weird as hell. Avery didn't have her friends with her. No one to rant to about how nervous she felt. Jensen was there. But she didn't want to bother him. He likely had other things on his mind. Avery was glad Jensen opted to just stay at his house instead of his parents. At least that would be familiar. 

As they settled into his room, Avery stretched onto the large bed in the middle. "No wonder you didn't want to sell this house." She hummed. To an outsider, she might have looked calm. 

Not to Jensen.

He sat next to Avery and brushed a few hairs away from her face. It was an excuse just to touch her. "We could always cancel tonight." Jensen whispered.

His parents wanted to meet Avery before Thanksgiving and before the rest of his extended family. His brother and sister would be there too. Thanksgiving was tomorrow. Jensen was dreading it as well. But not for the same reasons. He didn't want anyone to make Avery uncomfortable. And he wasn't sure if he would be able to stop that feeling. She deserved to be loved by everyone. Not just him. 

"No." Avery sighed. As much as the idea was appealing, she wanted to be prepared for tomorrow. She thought of this dinner as her putting her toes in the water, feeling for the temperature to make sure she could jump in. "I'll go. I just need to shower." She sat up. That always cleared her head. Unless it was one of those times she just felt numb and tired. 

Jensen smiled softly. "I could join you." He suggested. He didn't have any ulterior motives. Maybe he would have come up with some if she said yes.

"I'm good." Avery laughed half-heartedly as she grabbed some clothes from her suitcase. She decided on a button-up sweater combo with jeans. Nothing too fancy but respectable. 

She wanted Jensen's parents to like her so badly. She didn't know why. Perhaps it was because she was missing what a lot of other people had. A real family. Avery had carved her own little family but it wasn't the same. She didn't have people to go back to when Winter Break came along. She would just text her friends, see what they were doing, and plan a small Christmas party after the break was over. Hell, even Jay had a family to go to down in Georgia. 

Occasionally, Avery would get a Christmas card from her brother and a small gift but it wasn't anything meaningful. However, she did save every card he sent. Perhaps they were meaningful but not enough. Not what she wanted. 

Sometimes Avery wondered what life would have been like if she never came out. Her parents would still love her. Their perfect, third boy. But she'd immediately shut those thoughts down. She would've never found the friends she had. She never would've met Jensen. 

Avery caught a glimpse of Jensen as she closed the door to the bathroom. Maybe they would have met but it never would have been like this. She never would have stood in the middle of his king bathroom getting undressed and ready to take a shower. 

elena: if avery rants to me about your family, just know i know where you live

Jensen: Love you too elena

Jensen let out a breath. Elena may have acted like the child of the group but she was very protective as well. If Avery was hurt, best believe Elena would want to have a "word" with whoever did it. Jensen wasn't scared of that. Well, maybe a little bit. He wouldn't want to hurt Avery if he could help it. He just hoped his family would understand he was happy and leave it there. 

When Avery came out of the bathroom, her hair was still damp but she was dressed and had her makeup done—just some winged eyeliner and blush. She tousled her hair to dry it best she could. She preferred air-drying her hair instead of using a hair dryer.

"You don't need to try so hard." Jensen chuckled softly. He had a feeling Avery intentionally grabbed some of the more modest clothes in her closet.

Avery crossed her arms and pouted. "Would you rather I went to your parent’s house in a short skirt and bralette?" 

"You got me there." Jensen held his hands up in a surrendering gesture. "But I wouldn't mind seeing that." 

Avery shook her head, a smile unintentionally making its way to her lips. "Of course you wouldn't." 

Jensen smiled as he stood and pressed a kiss to Avery's temple. "That's my girl." He tilted her chin so she faced him. "I haven't seen you smile in a hot minute." She was nervous and Jensen knew why but he wanted to be her shoulder to cry on. And vice versa. 

"If something happens…" Avery swallowed thickly, face serious. "We can leave?" 

Jensen's eyes saddened as he pulled Avery into his arms. "Of course, sweetheart." The words came out on instinct. Avery was his whole world. The metaphorical light at the end of his dark tunnel. He held her close, clutching onto her as if she would slip from his arms.

Avery set her chin on his shoulder and sighed, eyes tired. "You give good hugs." She mumbled softly. She simultaneously wanted to fall asleep in Jensen's arms and felt energized. Like she could run a marathon. 

They stood there for a few moments, Jensen rubbing at her back before they pulled away. Avery took a deep breath and held it in for a few seconds before she let it go as Jensen put his jacket on. Her heart calmed. But her brain did not. 

The drive to the Ackles' house was surreal. Every single home in their subdivision had the American and Texas flags flying in the front. Avery's stomach churned with each one. She leaned her head against the window to feel the coolness of it and she might have wanted to get a small concussion with each bump and pothole in the road as her head thumped against it. 

As Jensen parked in the driveway, Avery pursed her lips. The house itself was very normal. Two stories with a double car garage and a sidewalk off to the side that led to the door. Like the others. She wasn't sure if she should feel safe or uneasy. Her brain went with uneasy. 

The pair got out of the car with Jensen setting a hand on the small of her back as they walked to the front door. Avery wondered what she should say. Hey,  I've had a crush on your son since I was fifteen. Isn't that crazy? The thought almost made her laugh. 

Jensen pressed on the doorbell to be immediately greeted by his mother right after. "Jensen!" She smiled with delight and gave him a tight hug. 

"Hi, momma." Jensen's Texan accent slipped out as soon as he opened his mouth. Avery simply enjoyed watching the interaction.

Her eyes shifted to Avery, less warm but still happy. "You must be Avery." 

"It's nice to meet you, Ms. Ackles." Avery offered a hand only to be pulled into a hug as well. 

Jensen's mom squeezed her tightly. No wonder Jensen's hugs were so soothing. He got it from his mom. "No need to call me that. Call me Donna." She said after she let Avery go. The hug left her winded. "Your dad, Josh, and Mackenzie are waiting for you." Donna waved the couple inside. 

As Donna turned inside, Avery glanced at Jensen who just smiled at her. Avery expected coldness. Not this. It was jarring. She stepped inside the house and was hit with Thanksgiving smells. Pumpkin pie, ham, and sweet potato were what Avery could discern. It had been so long since she had a proper family gathering that she forgot what it felt like… besides all the politics talk and picking apart the meal when the host was gone. 

"Jensen's here! Finally. I got here hours ago and momma didn't let me have even one bite." A woman Avery recognized as Jensen's sister, Mackenzie, complained. But it was a fond complaint. She stood from the island in the kitchen and gave Jensen a hug.

He chuckled softly. "Always nice to see you again." 

Mackenzie glanced from Jensen to look at Avery and gave her a smile. "You must be the girl my brother can't stop talking about. Nice to finally meet you. I'm Mackenzie." 

Avery couldn't form words in her mouth. She hadn't expected Jensen's family to be so… nice. They had to know. Maybe they just didn't care. That would be nice. 

"Did you break her on the plane ride here?" Mackenzie joked, nudging Jensen's shoulder. 

Jensen had to refrain from making a joke. His family didn't need to know about their sex life. "Nah. She's just nervous." He rubbed Avery's back. 

"Sorry. I get anxious when I meet new people." Avery admitted after her brain started to work again. 

"No problem, sweetie." Mackenzie smiled in understanding. 

Avery glanced at the other two people in the room. Jensen's brother and father. She forgot that not only would she be the most queer person in the room, but that she'd be the youngest. They looked as if they were sizing her up. So this was where she'd feel an immense amount of dread. 

Sometimes Avery wondered if she became a woman just because she hated men so much. It wasn't the main reason. But perhaps it was part of it. 

Donna started setting ceramic trays on the dining room table. "C'mon. Sit! Let's eat." She encouraged with a wide smile. "Would you like anything to drink?" She asked as Avery and Jensen sat. 

"Um, I'd like—"

"You know where it is, Jensen. I was asking Avery." Donna wiped her hands on her apron. 

Avery's eyebrows raised. "Oh, uh, do you have any apple cider? If not, water's fine." She felt dumb after asking. Apple cider was a child's drink. Why would an older couple have some? But it was her favorite drink when fall came along. 

"Oh, yes! Alan, can you get it? I think it's in the fridge in the garage." Donna set her apron on a hook hanging from a cabinet before she sat down. Alan simply stood and left to procure the cider without a word.

Jensen could sense Avery's surprise and leaned to her ear to whisper, "One of my mom's friends has an orchard so they get cider every year." 

"Oh, cool." Avery hummed. Sometimes she was bad at showing her enthusiasm and she forgot that people who didn't know her deeply didn't know that. It was just something that would happen. 

As the table started to grab servings of ham and mashed potatoes—the menu for that night since Donna had saved everything else for the next evening—more conversation started. 

"So, Avery," Jensen's father started. "What's your plan after college?" 

Avery had a feeling he thought she'd leech off of Jensen. She played with her potatoes a bit. They were delicious—nicely seasoned—but she was missing her handy garlic salt. She wanted to taste something familiar. "I want to get my doctorate. At my university, they have this program where I can teach as I get it so I'll probably do that. After that, I wanna write. Be an author." 

"For Avery's final project for a class this semester, she's basically gonna write a book." Jensen added. He was proud of Avery and he wanted to show it. He could never have even thought his next partner would be nearly as wonderful as Avery. Her ideas, her weird sayings, how she was still able to love even after all the things she went through. 

Josh decided to speak then, interest piqued. "A book? What's it about?" 

Avery didn't feel hungry anymore. They hadn't brought up the elephant in the room yet and Josh had done it accidentally. "I have two ideas. Haven't started writing it yet." She tried to deflect. 

"Which one are leaning more towards?" Josh pushed. Not hard. It was an innocent question. But it felt suffocating.

Open the can of worms. "Uh, one's a lesbian love story and the other is based on me. As a trans woman." Avery knew she could've lied. Come up with two perfectly "normal" topics on the fly. But she didn't like lying. She wanted to know what Jensen's family was like. No more dancing around.

Josh sat back in his chair, deflated. "Oh." Was his very eloquent answer. 

Tension rose from zero to a hundred. The table was silent for a while. 

"Does anyone here have a problem with that?" Jensen outright asked, his gaze hardened. He wouldn't take any shit if they did and he'd make their own Thanksgiving dinner at his house if he had to. 

Alan knew the look in Jensen's eyes. It was similar to the one he wore when he played Dean and he had to put on a brave face to save someone important to him. "Are you happy?" Was his response. 

"You have no idea." Jensen's eyes softened.

"Are you happy?" This time, the question was aimed at Avery.

She was shocked Alan would ask her. She tried not to let it show. "Very." 

"Then I don't have a problem with it." Alan said with a knowing smile. Josh and Mackenzie agreed.

Donna chimed in with a soft smile. "Jensen, we don't care who you love as long as they love you too. And, Avery…" She frowned for a moment. "I'm sorry if you felt like you couldn't talk about yourself. I understand we are in Texas and it's not the safest for you here." 

"Look, if Jensen's busy tomorrow doing whatever and one of our aunties or something is getting on your case, come to me. I'll fend 'em off for you." Mackenzie said, a fire in her eyes. 

Avery almost broke down. Her eyes welled with tears but she was able to keep them down. She was accepted into the family and that felt good. 

avery: i think I'll be good tomorrow

elena: why? no transphobia found?

avery: no

avery: well, at least not in his parents or siblings

elena: okay minute slay 

elena: however i will drop everything if i sense an OUNCE of transphobia in that house tomorrow

avery: i look forward to it <3

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taglist open here !!!

[our-bisexual-experience]

I too am a minor but tbh my bi-awakening was so freaking weird. Like, tell you what I was so sheltered from the queer community when I was young that I didn't even know it existed until I was 12. Even in my country gay people as well as bi people are taboo and are considered dirty, they are always shown as prostitutes and always having wild sex, they are always in adult movies and TV shows and I have never seen a normal, comfortable gay romance in my life. I only got to know about it on the internet. It amazes me how my parents are still trying to shelter me from this side of the world but also know and think that I know everything about it(It's the matter with everything honestly they never show me or talk to me about things like even normal things like studies and other things but expect me to know about it and if I don't they are surprised). At first, I thought I was a lesbian then I ventured out more and thought I was Pansexual but then with realization I think I am a comfortable Bisexual. All throughout my life I either didn't know what LGBTQIA+ was made to believe it was something "bad and dirty" but then I fell for my own straight best friend (tough days, will never tell her) then I fell for another one of my friends who was actually bi too, we flirt with each other a lot, I even asked her out on a date, it was pretty much settled but I couldn't tell my mom about the whole "date" thing and so I said just a casual meet up and study session and she declined and so I missed my chance, then afterwards the exam pressure started, I didn't have any time to do anything but study and then turns out she started dating another guy(Stings more because a few days ago she asked me if I had some beads for a bracelet, because she wanted to make couple's bracelets for her bf I had to painfully decline) but I think I am slowly moving on from her, though the progress fails each time I look at her again. But now I think I might have found someone on this webbed site, we are the same nationality and we have a ton of chemistry, but because of problems and that we are both minors there is no way to progress this relationship sadly :( (Also yes I am bi because I am still attracted to guys, just the wrong guys since the guy is an asshole with a nice face and great manners and flirtation skills, the problem is he's dating a girl I've knows since I was 12, but they got together on a fucking dare, tell me how long that's gonna last, still the amount of shit I've heard on this guy is terrifying and there is no chance whatsoever, pretty sad but oh well not the last guy)

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[twelverriver]

gonna go with the obvious and say buffy for the tv show ask game (also saw you reblogged some ouat and dw so if you want to do those too 👀)

hello lovely anon i'm gonna do all three shows thank you for asking!!! see below this is gonna get LONG

buffy:

Favourite character: buffy summers <3 the one and only!!

Funniest character: look buffy isn't the pun master for nothing!!! she's working hard on those!! i gotta appreciate good effort

Best-looking character: okay so the thing is here at jana summrsbuffy no one is suprised when i say buffy a third time but ALSO it's faith for obvious reasons but also it's s6 willow but also it's cordelia in every scene she's in same as jenny & tara & so on and so on

3 favourite ships: buffy x faith, buffy x spike, buffy x cordelia (also special mention to spike and dru bc literally WHO is doing like them. they said we're just gonna redefine your definition of love & vampirism on this show real quick. they said what if we're just a wifeguy & his vampiric seer wife and we were sooo insanely devoted 2 each other n also hot <3)

Least favourite character: oh many!!! my first thought was warren and i'm sticking with it

Least favourite ship: hmmm i don't really like buffy x riley, no surprise, i also don't like buffy x xander, i think that's about it???

Reason why I watch it: buffy summers is the actual love of my life i'd trust her with my life more readily than anyone else fictional or real <3 okay but also bc it's gotten a hold on my brain that literally no other show has done it is literally changing my brain chemistry it is so good it is so rich in neurodivergent and queer characters. i love characters with Such Issues <3

Why I started watching it: my sister watched it and i just started watching with her sometime and then i was like wait. this is actually cool i need 2 go back to the start and see everything

doctor who:

Favourite character: river song!! also twelve. it's river for when someone asks me but it's also twelve in my heart <3

Funniest character: hmm i think bill and rory are underrated comedic geniuses actually

Best-looking character: river song duh. also this is so rude to ask bc there are sooo many good looking women.... i keep getting tormented with choosing the prettiest girl...

3 favourite ships: river song x the doctor (especially river x twelve) is my favourite ship of all time and it probably always will be, the doctor x the master (especially twelve x missy) and rory x amy . all of them rotate in my brain like crazy

Least favourite character: okay choosing a least favourite character for a show this vast seems soo impossible... i'm not the biggest fan of clara i also dislike donna's mom... i don't know i'm not a hater at heart :/

Least favourite ship: oh definitely the doctor x clara no doubt no doubt 0/10 ship. also for a less serious note i heavily disliked ten and the woman he was married to in fob though that was mostly on her... anyway it Counts.

Reason why I watch it: it's my favourite show it's my special interest it's soooo !!!!! i love doctor who so much i've rewatched it plenty of times, it says such beautiful things about being human, space but mostly about LOVE !!! life is all about the beautiful things and having a friend actually so true <3

Why I started watching it: my best friend watched heaven sent years ago when i came over and she said hey do you mind me finishing up this episode while we eat lunch and i was immediately intrigued and then watched all seasons <3 she literally changed the trajectory of my life forever <3

ouat:

Favourite character: REGINA MILLS !!!!

Funniest character: hmm also regina also zelena has her moments

Best-looking character: sorry for going regina a third time but i'm also a lesbian and i love regina milfs ok

3 favourite ships: ouat is the swanqueen show to me, i don't really have any other ships :/

Least favourite character: hmm probably mary margaret ngl. i take my further statement back i AM a hater when it comes to ouat <3

Least favourite ship: uhh i don't really like emma x killian they're like spuffy but with much less flavour and spice... ok actually i think zelena and hades annoyed me more for the short time they had. okay final answer is rumple x belle i can't believe they weren't my first thought...

Reason why I watch it: for regina mills and for swanqueen <3 also it had a musical ep. what more do i need 2 say

Why I started watching it: my sister! also my best friend at the time was also a big fan and rewatched it

[tutuandscoot]

I didn't watch Ellen show (it was never on TV in my country and I didn't have interest to watch), so I didn't have any opinion about her, but after the interview I started to dislike her so so much that I thought I was getting crazy because everyone loved her and loved the interview. She didn't respect them, not even for a minute, Tessa is better at hiding, but she didn't look comfortable and Scott was looking like he rather be dead than be there.

💯 agree with you. I watched it a bit as a kid (my mum had it on tv so I just saw it occasionally) and thought it was fine but yes later on I started to notice how BS it was. If an actor I liked was on it I’d watch (not the whole show just the interview) but everytime unless it was one of her besties (a middle age white woman) she was so disrespectful, roll her eyes, just ask the dumbest questions and then ruined it by pulling out some farce (like scaring the guest- thank fkn god she didn’t do that to Scott I would have killed her).

So yeh I watched the VM interview when it aired and you just knew she was gonna be so disrespectful. As I’ve said I’ve never subscribed to the shippy stuff so no amount of dumb arse Ellen asking over and over was gonna convince me it just made me mad 😡. No way she actually watched their performance or bothered to learn anything about them- she would’ve just been briefed on them being super sensual and their performances making people tweet that they were pregnant. She just perpetuated all the shippy stuff by only talking about that and not acknowledging their athletic achievements. And people get mad at vm for always answering with ‘we worked so hard and so much care and trust goes into it, we are so proud of how we have managed our careers and worked together we take such pride in that’ which for the record I love when they said that because ITS THE FUCKING TRUTH and damn straight they would be proud of it and each other and it’s so ignorant of people that they could t just accept that.

TS were obviously so uncomfortable. That she kept pushing the ‘they dated when they were 6+8’ bit is BS coz I don’t care what anyone tells me THAT IS NOT “DATING” in the respect it means anything- it’s cute but they themselves say they don’t know wtf was going on and didn’t even talk, their siblings ‘set them up’ and they just went along with it so a 60 year old woman continuing to push that when there is nothing there or nothing relevant to TS now being 28 and 30 is just feeding the insane people (sorry I’m ranting over and over I have a lot of grievances about this).

If TS were to have done any American interview I’d much rather they did Colbert or something. There would’ve maybe been a joke but then he would’ve moved on because he actually has class and respects his guests and knows how to interview people- I think Scott esp would’ve been much more comfortable coz he had mentioned watching the daily show (which Colbert was on). I mean Adam Rippon did Colbert after the olys so it was just coz VM had that “relationship” question going that they got pushed into doing Ellen because it was those people- mostly middle aged white woman in that audience coz sorry they are so gullible and tabloid media is literally made for that audience, they’ll believe anything no matter how fantastical it is (apologies I’m generalising here but you know what I mean- just look at the statistics for the middle aged WW who voted for T****).

And yes on a more personal note I can’t stand her. All the charity stuff and advocacy for gay rights was great but it just got out of hand I’m not surprised at all that all those things started to come out about her being a tyrant and a bully, honestly when you (sorry but she is a lesbian) have an audience full of screaming middle aged woman worshiping you… idk I don’t want to get nasty but yeah that can go to the head.

I feel so bad for VM and I don’t want to say that they had nothing to do with the decision to go on Ellen obs it was their choice but there’s a very good chance their manger/s were taking advantage of the buzz they got post olys. (I’ve complained before about just how much media they did esp morning shows where sorry but the hosts and producers tend to not be that intelligent (basing this off those kinds of shows in my own country). Obviously TS knew who Ellen was but I can’t imagine they knew it would be that bad with the way she treated them (they are used to the ‘relationship’ of it all but nothing this bad) you know, they trained all day every day (no time for day time tv) and not that I’m from there but I have a feeling there isn’t that hype for these kinds of ‘American celebrities’ in Canada- they seem to have more of their own identity in their pop culture despite the close proximity (idk that’s my take on it obs isn’t the same for every person)

So yes anon I was disgusted by it I hate that it happened.. I don’t blame VM for it they were only doing their job and to their credit they always pushed the truth of their partnership and shone a light on the strength of their team and the Canadian team and how proud they are to come from where they do and be really wonderful representatives of their country. Ellen is a troll I hate her I’m so glad that show is over she had no class or respect and I’m sorry I know I try to refrain from talking about people like this but the fact is she is true “celebrity” who is really just famous for being famous where as people like VM are real people who didn’t ask for any of this fame, why worked so hard at their very specific craft and are incredibly kind people who got all this crap for simply doing their job (skating) and chasing their goals. I only take comfort that in these difficult situations they have each other and take refuge in each other which unfortunately only made people go crazier. I wish people would just respect them for who they are.

*catches breath* 😰. rant over

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I was tagged by @charthanry tyy i love doing this type of stuff.

THREE SHIPS

i’m just going to put three ships i’m really loving right now and then three ships i consider my top three of all time (which is so hard to just pick three, but i’ll try).

top 3 that i’m enjoying right now:

peeta and katniss from the hunger games

tinn and gun from my school president

claire and cam from the clique series (this one is so random but they were one of my childhood ships and i’m rereading the clique series so i’m remembering how much my childhood self loved them 😭😭)

top 3 of all time:

lois and clark from smallvile

ricky and gina from hsmtmts

stiles and lydia from teen wolf

i missed so many that i love but i’m adding rory and jess and lwj and wxx from the untamed and and all the other depictions as runner ups bc i was struggling between stydia literati and wangxian to put for number 3

FIRST SHIP

i can’t remember my first real ship but i’m just gonna name ones that i remember wanting together so bad when i was younger (i’m going with ages 7-12) from the shows i watched or books i read

sam and freddie from icarly

rikki and zane/cleo and lewis from h20

claire and cam from the clique

 mason and alex from wizards of waverly place

lois and clark from smallville

piper and leo/phoebe and cole from charmed

quinn and logan from zoey 101

 luke and lorelai/jess and rory from gilmore girls

miley and jake from hannah montana (ik jesse is the better option now, but i loved jake and miley so bad when i was younger)

stiles and lydia from teen wolf

matty and jenna from awkward

jake and addie from unfabulous

eli and clare from degrassi

LAST SONG

i’m listening to alien blues by vundabar right now as i type this but i also have a playlist (that i’m not done adding songs too i’m just adding them as i listen to music and think it fits) that i’m listening to right now called “a very specific vibe i can’t explain” and the songs on there are:

washing machine heart by mitski

cigarettes out the window by tv girl

steve’s first bruise by briston maroney

jealous by eyesdress

alien blues by vundabar

 LAST MOVIE

the last movie i watched was the hunger games: mockingjay - part 2. it was the first time i watched it which i know is surprising, but for some reason in my 22 years of life i’ve only seen the first one. and i never read the books- i have no idea why but i watched all the movies and i loved them.

CURRENTLY READING

right now i’m reading the clique: best friends for never. for some reason i really had the urge to reread the series so i’ve been doing it and hopefully i finish it. there’s like 13 books or something like that but they’re relatively short and they’re literally for middle schoolers so it’s not that hard to read (not hard at all actually). i’m still finding them as entertaining as i did when i was younger (definitely less but still entertaining) but i keep thinking about how much this series probably affected my insecurities. i can’t believe middle schoolers were reading this (me included) 😭😭. also massie is literally a lesbian and in love with clare

CURRENTLY WATCHING

there’s a lot of shows that i’ve either put on hiatus or i watch sometimes but i’m not even gonna bother listing them. shows i am literally keeping up with at this moment are:

the last of us (aka the show where it’s just me sobbing every week)

abbott elementary

gap the series (technically it’s over but i haven’t watched the last episode yet)

never let me go

my school president

moonlight chicken

also i’m rewatching hsmtmts with a reactor on patreon

i don’t know if it counts but since i’m watching it on patreon instead of just listening on spotify - back to the barre which is a dance moms podcast by christi and kelly who were two of the moms on the show

CURRENTLY CONSUMING

nothing right now but i’m probably going to eat my leftover mcdonald’s fries and apples with caramel. and maybe coffee and water.

CURRENTLY CRAVING

my leftover mcdonald’s fries 😭😭

ONWARD TAGS

i’ll tag @isakmikhailoflorenzi and anyone who sees this and wants to do it