#there is just so many weird instances

[sapphicfandompirate]

In hindsight, there was so much foreshadowing about Ciel not really being Ciel

He's been consistently lying to Lizzie about what he remembers before the Incident, and she confirms it here.

[xxjayzayxx]

Its so funny to see ppl railing against "X male character" being called a twink/babygirl/etc.

Like... Okay?

He's fictional bestie, he doesn't care

[silly-lil-scribbles]

woag was just going into settings to look through my asks and apparently i lost like over 100 followers somewhere in the past like week or two????????????? i mean im not upset, my posts and art suck ass and idk why anyone follows me to begin with and nobody is obligated to stay but im just really confused if i did something now

[quietwingsinthesky]

Do you agree w/ the fandom interpretation that john was so homophobic he’d have beaten up and abandoned his sons for being gay? Cause sure, he grew up in the 60s as a mechanic and then later became a marine during the vietnam war, but i also don’t think homophobia would’ve necessarily been a priority for him? Like obviously he’s not gonna be the full on supportive and politically correct loving dad, but i think that the fandom’s general opinion on that is pretty warped by people’s relationships w/ their own fathers

I do think this is one place where people tend to project. I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that; working out our issues through fiction is healthy and good! I don’t think there’s any canon proof of it beyond, as you said, him being a marine from the sixties who would probably not be super knowledgeable about being queer, maybe a little apprehensive about it from what he’s absorbed through the culture he grew up in. I think we’d be correct to point out that if Sam or Dean were queer, he might be uncomfortable about it, he might try to avoid the topic, which is in of itself hurtful.

The thing about me is: I fully disagree that John was ever physically abusive towards his kids. At most, I will bend this interpretation to say he was probably too harsh on them while teaching them to fight and that maybe he and Sam have traded blows before when arguments got too loud (by blows, I mean, probably shoving with the yelling, you know, assertion of physical space. It seems realistic to me that two people who have been using violence for a long time to protect themselves, and for John, his family, down to the hierarchal power he’s put in place of him -> Dean -> Sam, would resort to it when things got too heated.)

(I also think that sometimes fandom’s insistence that John had to be physically abusive can sometimes get a little insulting because it perpetuates the idea that emotional abuse does less harm and can be overlooked and for flattening out John’s character in a way the show very literally pointed to and said He Did Not Do That. This is the entire point of Max’s episode in s1, for the show to point out that their experiences of abuse were different. How well it was handled is arguable, but I take it as clear evidence that when we talk about John’s relationship with his sons, the focus should be on the emotional abuse, the codependency he developed with Dean from a very young age, his neglect of them both, his attempts to suppress Sam, etc. And I appreciate this about the show, because you can’t talk about any of those things without also talking about why they’re happening, why John thinks this is necessary, how he loves his sons and isolates them to protect them and ends up doing more and more damage that will never leave them through their entire lives.

I’m sure there’s depictions of John being physically abusive that handle it with the same amount of nuance that the show handles him being emotionally abusive in canon. I have not seen them, unfortunately. I’ve seen John being physically abusive 90% of the time just being used as shorthand for him being Bad and Evil and A Terrible Father. Which does not interest me. So I will remain here as a staunch defender of He Would Not Fucking Hit His Kids.)

Sorry, okay, we got off topic there this is about gay shit.

The point of All Of That was for me to be able to say, John’s not going to react to his sons being queer by beating them. He’s definitely not going to abandon them. Hello? John Winchester? Abandon his kids? John Winchester, the guy who has been keeping them in warded up motel rooms their whole lives and moving them across the country out of paranoia the demon who killed his wife could find them if they say anywhere too long? John Winchester who only trusted one or two people to ever look after his sons when he went on a hunting trip too long? We think that John would ditch his kid because they’re queer???

Like I said, I think the most realistic reaction for John, (if not just flat out him going ‘that’s fine, now load this gun while I time you because that’s more important for me to know that you can do’, because. He kind of has bigger priorities to worry about here. Like werewolves.) would be discomfort and pushing it out of his view, ignoring it. Which would still fucking hurt! And would have horrible effects on Sam and Dean both, would encourage Dean to repress it if he thinks his dad is ashamed of him, would push Sam away if he trusts John with this fact about himself and can’t be accepted easily.

I just think this is truer to John’s character.

Anyway. If nothing else here persuades anyone reading that John Would Not Fucking Do That, well. He thought his kid was demonspawn, remember? He thought Sam was corrupted and might not be able to be saved. I don’t think you can get more clear queercoding than that, and you know what John’s very telling response was to that information, to finding out something a thousand times more terrifying than Sam being gay ever could be? To refuse to look at it. To insist to himself that whatever Hell wanted with Sam, he wouldn’t let it happen. To tell Dean to take care of it, because even when John is certain that his son might literally become a demon, he could never bring himself to pull the trigger on him. Because he loves Sam.

So like. He literally would not do anything for the much smaller realization that Sam is gay. His son has demon blood that might turn him super evil, and John still wouldn’t hurt him.

I guess what I’m trying to say here is, I try to keep the fact that John loved his sons at the forefront of my mind when I’m writing stuff about him, because I think if you let that slide out of your head, you can very easily make him much worse, much more flat than he was in canon. The real picture of him is just an extremely flawed man in a terrible situation who fucks up his kids as much as he protects them.

And also he wouldn’t care about them being gay because JohnAzazel real and true and they fucked sloppy in that hospital basement-

[born2b-beheaded]

Something I've been thinking about a lot recently is that in the beginning of fall while I was waiting for the bus, the air felt the same as it did when I was in 7th grade. I don't know how to explain it but you know what I mean. I got like. flashbacks to 7th grade and I was like "woah" and I started laughing. I didn't think anything of it. But these past few months I've been drawing So many similarities between this (school)year and 7th grade. Things like major depression, being suicidal, feeling more like a guy, my music taste, the red hair, messy ass room, and more and more. Hell, I'm even living in the same pants that I was back then. It's weird. It feels like that day back in fall was foreshadowing.

[lordsardine]

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[lesbiansanemi]

It’s been like a day & I still cannot stop thinking about that Renkaza art you reblogged immediately followed by that post about cannibalism being a metaphor for love. I have no clue if that was intentional but djsklaa that’s so real omfg

Haha, it wasn’t really, but cannibalism as a metaphor for love is one of the big reasons I adore renkaza (as well as most kny ships involving at least one demon). There are so many fun things to explore with it!

One of my favorite headcanons is that demons have a difficult time discerning pretty much any strong emotion from hunger. Their wires get crossed because “hunger” is a demon’s main state of being. Cannibalism as a metaphor for love for them works so well because it’s difficult for them to figure out if they love someone, or just really, really want to eat them (this is one of favorite things to consider when it comes to Douma’s relationship with Kotoha and eventually Shinobu. He claims to be emotionless, and it doesn’t help that the emotions he does feel loop right back around to hunger, which inevitably leads to him eating these women. Sorry. Tangent over Lmao)

And again, for demon/human relationships especially, you get to play with the idea of the demon wanting to devour them, loving them so much that that’s what they desperately want, but in Akaza and Kyojuro’s sake (I think I have actually gone over this in fics before), Akaza stressing that some parts of him desperately want to eat Kyojuro, but he loves him too much to do that, because as wonderful as he would taste, that would mean he’d never get to see him again

AND THEN!!!! You have the whole other fun angle of cannibalism as a love language, in scenarios where Kyojuro becomes a demon himself. “I love you so much I am willing to become a monster, I am willing to become a cannibal, I am willing for our dinners together to consist of humans.” That love being so encompassing that it becomes hunger. It’s like food as a love language but way more metal

I have the fic where Akaza licks Kyojuro’s wounds. The fic centric on biting being their love language. Pretty much everything that happened in as sweet as blood. The one smut-shot where Kyo transforms and uh, chows down on Akaza while they’re fucking and Akaza loving it because of how intimate it is. Romanticized cannibalism is something I love exploring!

And it doesn’t even necessarily have to be romantic or sexual! Like some of my all time favorite “cannibalism as a metaphor for love” scenes I’ve ever done are in my role swap AU. Like Mitsuri’s backstory, when Kyojuro, Senjuro, and Kanae feed Mitsuri the villagers that condoned her execution right after she transforms, when the whole fic had been about them feeding her and helping her recover from her eating disorders born from her internalized sexism and the torment she faced for being strange and a “bad” woman. It’s Sanemi going out and killing and butchering men to feed Shizu when his blood is no longer enough to tide her over, because he loves her more than he dreads being a killer, and Shizu loves her children enough to become a cannibal to halt the risk of her harming them. It’s Tanjiro telling Nezuko he hopes her hunts go well, because as horrifying as it is, he doesn’t want his sister to go hungry

Wait until you see what I have planned for Kyojuro’s demonic transformation in his corruption arc fic. Because oh man… I am dialing up the romanticized cannibalism so high for that one

[faunandfloraas]

inadvertently stopped using my freckle fade cream without thinking.... right around the time i started making gifs of felix.... coincidence?

[houses-snowglobes]

I've been thinkin about the Synths in FO4 and how much fucking cleaner the writing would be if they just made them a Red Scare allegory instead of the slavery thing they got going on

would it be perfect ? no probably not but it would make so much more sense + make the factions a bit more "equal" in terms of morality

maybe this is just a me thing, but it's hard for me to go a BoS route or an Institute route considering one is like "I love killing slaves" and the other is like "I love having slaves." The Railroad is flawed, but it's hard for me to not side with them considering they're like "Hey guys I think slavery is bad actually" which yeah no shit. Changing the allegory to the Red Scare though makes it more complicated and (potentially) better written

The Railroad's cause suddenly becomes more questionable and less "obviously" moral, and makes the question of "How sentient are Synths and are they worth protecting?" a much more interesting question. The BoS becomes at least less egregious in their Synth hatred. I wouldn't call it GOOD but at least I understand it more in a Red Scare context. And the Institute doesn't fucking own slaves anymore

[jamlabs]

Being a GG fan in queer spaces is so exhausting sometimes bc every time I try to talk about it transfems always make some sort of joke about Bridget like. Okay I'm glad you like her and I WILL fight transphobes to the death for her but she isn't even in my top 15 gg characters?

Like can you guys maybe stop enjoying this media at a surface level and making the same jokes at me, a person who is known to be insane about their interests? Me talking about how much I love guilty gears music is not an invitation to ask "is the town inside you" like no. That's a super mid song. I am talking about the metal, the hard rock, and the fucking pipe organs . I was literally talking about how much I loved Necessary Discrepancy? And love letter to the future? HELLO?

Idk I'm just. So fucking tired of people engaging with GG on the most shallow level and then attempting to joke with me about it. Yeah haha brisket whatever

[gaydryad]

so for Writing Reasons I've been going back through all my old personal writing (including some very old social media posting) and the sheer force with which I wanted to dress up or roleplay "as a guy" from ages 12 to 15 is truly stunning. WHILE BEING AWARE OF TRANS AND NONBINARY PEOPLE. AS A OPTION. FULLY ZERO-BRAIN-CELL AWARENESS-ZERO ASS EGG

[ghostcrows]

that damn web comic is rattling around in my brain ...

[absul]

it’s all ‘pronouns don’t always equal gender let ppl use whatever pronouns they want!!!‘ until a he/him trans woman, she/her trans man, or she/her and/or he/him nonbinary person exists huuh

[anti-transphobia]

Twitter users have learned the term "weaponized incompetence" and of course are using it wrong and it's pissing me off. The latest example of "weaponized incompetence" is a husband who decided to make crescent rolls but didn't realize he needed to roll them up so he made large crescent chips instead. Literally just a mistake. Y'know. Those things people make?

Another recent example is someone's fiance being asked to clean up hot sauce. Now this could certainly more likely actually be weaponized incompetence! The very slow movements very much says "look at me do this and fail. You should just do it next time, it's easier." But you know what it also very much says, something that is just as likely? The movements are slow because it's more than he expected and he's trying to figure it out. I struggle with this, and have gotten better with practice, but what else are you supposed to do? Sometimes there's a puddle of something and you put a paper towel on it and it absorbs but is not nearly enough. He specifically examines how full of hot sauce it is after the first soak and how much more there is. And when he starts smearing it around...how else are you supposed to avoid that? It's still cleaning it so long as the smears aren't left behind

As I said, weaponized incompetence or someone genuinely trying are both likely there. The thing is, I'm not making assumptions about it. And neither should other people. Those types of slow, unsteady movements as I figure things out are extremely common for me. I am autistic and have struggled to process physical tasks (how to accomplish things that require my body to move in a certain way, including running and jump roping etc. didn't learn how to jump rope until I was 18) my entire life. This is how I figure shit out. If someone assumed me literally doing my best to complete a task was weaponized incompetence, I'd be pissed. In fact, that happens all the time!

My mother, while I was growing up, pretty much weaponized weaponized incompetence, without using those words. She would ask me to do something. I, being an autistic child, would try my best. I'd fail or do a poor job because I'm a child. She might try a few more times with me but because I didn't get it instantly or it struggled to click she'd visibly get mad at me and tell me not to bother and that she'd just do it instead. As I got into my teens she accused me of doing things badly on purpose so I wouldn't have to do it, when the reality is she just gave up on me and asked me to do things less and less frequently with age. Then at around 16, and ESPECIALLY 18+, she started expecting me to do ALL kinds of things. Saying "you're an adult, you should know this". How? Adults know the things they do because they have experience. I don't. I've had to play such hard catch up for everything I've missed because people (not just my mom) find it easier to not bother with the disabled child.

I'm not saying the man in that video is autistic, or anything else! But what I said brings another point into play: he's an adult and simply doesn't know how to do it. That's a problem! Now why would he be an adult incapable of doing what should be a simple task he should have already learned? He wasn't taught. It reminds me of the guy who got a ton of shit online because his mom did his laundry for him all his life so when he first lived out of the house (I think with a roommate) he had to learn how to do his laundry. He wasn't refusing to do his laundry, he wasn't whining and complaining about it, he was just texting a friend about it. It would be a problem if he didn't bother to learn. If someone is LITERALLY TRYING TO LEARN HOW TO DO SOMETHING it's not weaponized incompetence! I don't care how old they are!

And honestly it does play into the whole "the patriarchy is bad for men too" situation. If a man doesn't know how to do something, such as laundry or cleaning up spills, as an adult because those jobs were always deferred to women, he is now incapable of caring for himself when alone. And then when with someone else, accused of weaponized incompetence when trying to learn by people learning new words to run into the ground. Or once again, maybe it's not a situation where he didn't learn because the women specifically always did the cleaning, he just generally might not have been taught. I don't know!

The very point I'm trying to make is that you can't make those kind of assumptions based off of a short clip, or a picture, of someone doing something poorly. Even if there's a CHANCE it could be weaponized incompetence, it is so BEYOND horrible to go on and on about how it HAS to be weaponized incompetence because no one could be that stupid. It feels awful to be a disabled person seeing people being mocked and called abusers for making the same kind of mistakes you've made. It feels awful to see something, think "oh I've messed that up too", and then see 50 different comments about how it has to be weaponized incompetence because no one could be THAT stupid

Can we please stop forgetting the existence of disabled people and people with generally different life experiences than you, thanks. There's a huge difference between weaponized incompetence and learning (or someone doing the best they can and being physically unable to do things more efficiently because of being disabled)

[drowningindango]

What the…

I was scrolling through my art archive, looking for a specific post, and afterwards scrolled around a bit and–

–found this??? What is this? 🤣 What would you call that, same pose syndrome???? (What also really gets me is that they are chronologically right next to each other.)

[baited-beth]

I saw a man I grew up with last night at a party.

He said to me ‘remember how I used to do this’ and pinched my knee. It was like this weird muscle memory - he used to do it to me all the time in lessons and I totally forgot about it. Him doing it last night was fine as somehow it became a bonding moment of a shared childhood? But at the time I hated it. Due to alphabetical order we were sat next to each other in practically every lesson, meaning I never had an escape from him pinching my knee as and when he liked. If I ever tried to assert boundaries, I pretty much got bullied for being over the top and making a big deal of nothing.

I don’t miss being a teenage girl. But I also know I’m lucky that I work in an environment where this doesn’t routinely happen to women.