#there is also good yaoi to be had in the fandom ofc

[the-girl-from-another-place]

phantom of the opera really has me writing m/f ... i don't like the person i've become

[ca-suffit]

I was going to say this off anon but I have a second blog for iwtv and I don't want the og one out in the fandom kind of. But I never understood why people say Louis was abusive to lestat and the instances they point out are a) neglect b) not being affectionate c) withholding affection. Which like. Ok. Maybe my inexperience but I just don't think not giving love back in this instance is abusive. Because I genuinely do think he wasn't capable of love in those times. Like early on we see him lying to his family juggling 3 roles to spend time with lestat and shopping dates and what not. He was loving. And then HIS CHILD RAN AWAY. i don't think any caring parent is capable of love in that time. And then there's his malnutrition which ofc lowers his sex drive and the mental toll malnutrition takes is depression and anhedonia. But to call that manipulation??? To call that abuse?? Withholding affection as abuse in this case? Like mf What makes you think he was capable of love you can't deny something you don't have/aren't capable of!? His child is missing. His child is gone do you get it??? He's supposed to be making date plans??? Ik withholding affection and then lovebombing is a thing for abusers but ffs. He's depressed that's why he isn't loving when you're depressed you're literally not capable of it because your brain has drained all of it out WHAT DO YOU MEAN WITHHOLDING LOVE? Same with Armand. His child is dead. A part of Louis died with her. Is he supposed to be ffs. I don't want to type anymore. And ykw both these partners have the power to leave at any time. If you're not getting love that's what you do i get lestat why he wouldn't in America like he'd be pretty much alone and Armand always had that choice too. It's their specific personalities which made them stick with him but at the same time.my guy you're both more powerful than him fucking leave if it's so bad. But that's what love does and they stayed but at no point was it abusive on Louis' end?? At no point did it justify the abuse he's met with at lestat's or armand's hands??? And there's always intent behind abuse and if Louis' is not loving it's not because of some scheme. No his child is missing. The child.is also female and tiny we know what happens to them when they're alone how tf do you not get what state he'd be in?? And to expect love from him? And that's what's actually funny to me about both lestat and Armand like they really didn't think about what the loss of a child would mean to both their respective relationships with Louis. Like they really thought a parent could chill live laugh love with them while his child is gone. Ok. Sure why not. Um yea. Sorry for the long rant. Anyway I just don't think withholding affection applies to anyone here least of all Louis and never Louis no matter what the "pAtTeRn" is with him. No the pattern is depression brought on by the loss of his child. If you had actual brains you'd make that connection but no. No. Since this is the abusive partners yaoi show we have to see abuse where it isn't and minimize where it is. It'll be wonderful when Marius the guy who does loooooooove children will show up. Then we'll surely talk about love and loss and see the connections

ppl just made shit up bcuz they needed to soften lestat tbh. then armand to a degree too.

the angle never was "what are louis' partners doing to help him thru these bad times." it was always "louis isn't loving *them* enough!!" louis is also younger than *both* of them and comes from a different life experience which is still alive for him too, unlike their individual experiences and/or traumas. armand is still experiencing racism but it's not like the antiblackness louis and claudia face.......which then ends up in the trial too?! which *both* louis nb partners have a part in???

u bring up a good point for the marius angle too. this fandom makes me sick lol.

[eliotlime]

I saw at least one edit of your 2024 "Make A Terrible Comic Day" entry, but would it be okay if I (or anyone) made their own redraw of it? (With an @ and the original in the post ofc)

On one hand it touched on a similar experience I had with a different fandom trope as a teen, on the other I recognize that you got really overwhelmed by the attention that comic got and I get it if you don't want to be "the I wish I was yaoi comic guy" and/or have your own experience memed on like that

I didn't know it was still circulating tbh I've had notifications for it muted on all platforms. Are people still being weird about it 😭 ??

I privated/deleted most of the posts i made when it was blowing up but do you guys know I don't even read yaoi? or BL even? It's crazy how the word you say with your friends all the time can be interpreted differently by a wider audience. It did drive me insane, to be misinterpreted like that and also realise how WEIRD about sex everyone is.

I JUSST feel like people aren't really getting the point of that comic. But I also understand that's kind of not my problem. I'm whatever you want me to be at this point, non-binary comic guy, good om*ns animatic guy and now I'm just the "i wish i was yaoi" comic guy.

I think.. you can do whatever you want forever. You don't really need permission but it's nice that you're asking at all, it's more respect than I'm (or anybody is) really granted with this kind of thing.

While I love a good redraw every once in a while, I really rather someone not just copy things one for one? Maybe put your own spin on it, even just changing the angle of it maybe. I feel like it's ironic that people are redrawing/editing a "terriblecomicsday2024" challenge. A challenge solely made to encourage original comic making. What's going on guys?

[dirhwangdaseul-archived]

a rant

man y'all lead some real weird boring ivory tower lives with very little thought into your morality like very superficial morals really, i always knew the bl fandom was like that to more often than not the point of amorality with how easy they participate in certain dynamics supposedly in the name of fiction and romance, a conversation for another day like you ever think you could have more out of the text you're being given? cause man every damn time there's a bl with a dynamic of power that involves labor, consent is never part of the conversation, like is it even possible for palm to consent, is it even sth they can call part of the reality of the couple's love with how much the world is gonna try to tear palm and nuengdiao apart, like how does the commentary on labor escape the discussion of the messages of the series proper of what that means for two people to have to participate in said dynamics by force with one being less in the eyes of an empire than that of the king he protects... nor is it participant in the conversation what it means for a character to diminish themselves for the hierarchy of that empire which is maintained through the power money entails like ever, and being quite honest it's not isolated to bl using this kind of setting that this happens, years of romance exist before yaoi, where bl has its roots and which ofc simply borrows from straight romance things we still see in the feminization of one side of the couple but also a conversation for another day...

like, this all to say that i saw someone call nueng's mom a good mother in the tags man and i had a moment of why are stories never understood to be the sum of its parts rather than one isolated moment, and i really had to double check it was the actual never let me go tag because i don't think we're watching the same show people, i think you're showing how much you have sold yourselves to romanticizing capitalism and the hierarchies it creates to the extent you don't see or think about what it really means for palm to have to become subservient to someone else's literal life, to have to give up his life because another's is being held above his own, that palm knows that he will always be less than nueng whether nueng wants to accept the circumstances of their reality or not, and that nueng keeps wilfully ignoring it.

that this has been plotted by their parents together escapes you in its full magnitude like so much of what palm's dad does to palm flows from tanya, just because she's warm to nueng while she tells him that his life and worth are forever tied to an empire that has taken over the lands and livelihoods of thousands of people? it doesn't erase the weight of her entitlement, control, and thus her power, and that instead of creating trust in her own family, she decides to burn all bridges to isolate nuengdiao while also pronouncing the treatment of palm as a servant like i don't know where to fault the writers and where to fault the character because i believe a good dose of self awareness would serve either in trying to convince me and palm that his life is worth less than the money that is gonna be given to his father or to him before palm indeed has to die for nueng like if he turns i won't wonder why because idc there's no universe in which one life can be traded for some capitalist bitch's ambitions, this isn't even the mafia which entails cult like understanding as well of a rough world and trading one's life for some fucked up higher purpose, and like even there it's some sick shit to feed romance, like tbh the world has to justify it for me at least, but there the violence of what they have created justifies in some level laying one life for another person like the understanding of that higher purpose, but here for nueng and palm, here where money is so visible as the root of despair and separation.... palm doesn't get to have that fucking luxury, not in this story, he's falling for the charm of his charge, sadly, the romance is there for him baiting his very innocent understanding of life, how could it not bloom and be in him in such fucked up circumstances where nothing yields love for him, and yet, yet a part of him screams... servant... for he understands his degradation whether nueng sees it yet or not

SERVANT... one of the two in this sweet sweet sweet couple is dehumanizing himself in the performance of his labor AND the romance being joined together, his worth is tied to someone that sees him from the outside, but who chooses to obscure his eyes to who he really is, like again this is part of this supposed romance, palm's participating happily in his own dehumanization and somehow i'm meant to find the romance in how little control palm seems to have of his life and how much the creation of meaning is coming from nueng like it's insane how this commentary is there, the creation of a soulmate of a sick and twisted fairytale, and yet i do see some of you acting like the divine right of kings when it comes to nueng's position and his blindness towards that power, and just because tanya sells it with a warm smile and kind words doesn't make the destruction of land or the dehumanization of her workforce any less fucked up, tanya accepted her son, good for her, that should be the norm make no fucking mistake tho, but honestly let's go back to thinking into the fucking structure of the story, what choice does she has anyway i wonder???? when she has denied other families into her own, when she has denied her own family, so now even a tension now runs between chopper and nuengdiao over it, tanya is not a good mother, and honestly with the way the grayness of the show and jojo tichakorn's other works usually go....

i would just stop trying to categorize the characters as good or bad if you even believe there's such a way to see people in general, cause man live long enough to know you get the chances to be all, and like that's what gets me about fandom and stories like this, since for example where your eyes linger which clearly laid out freedom as the only means for this romance to work with a happy ending and not some romanticized worker abuse and people still preferred the power dynamic to thrive over getting to a moment in which both characters could consent freely in their meeting, and like i wish we actually got a better characterization for palm till this week when maggie stepped in finally to talk some sense into him because boy was he just reacting to everything only and he keeps falling for the beauty of his charge without caring for himself, like with all the messages of anti capitalism id expect a more critical view of the levels of the relationships and what their carefully crafted images present to us that's all like that's all im saying, my thoughts in the end but honestly i just don't believe tanya to be a good woman, she's just warm and kind in her life, but that hides how much she and her husband fucked up and are leaving an empire of shit to nuengdiao, i honestly hope he and palm get out, but most importantly i want nuengdiao to wake up to the fucked up amount of power he has, like for once i'd also like the writers to take this shit seriously if they're also gonna refer to real world politics...

[22degreehalo]

So I'm back to watching Assassination Classroom but I had to put out some laundry earlier so I looked up to see if there were any Karma/Nagisa podcasts (there are two!) and I got to thinking about what a surreal setting that fandom is and how much I love that and that got me thinking about a thread on /r/Ao3 about writing fic where the characters have weird names and how I was bummed I only got to thread when it was many hours old (as usual) so I didn't bother to leave a comment but I just felt so strongly about calling the characters 'Black' and 'White' or, like, 'America' and 'Lithuania', because some writers like to use their 'human' names but it's so much more meaningful and interesting IMO when it really is The United States of America and The Republic of Lithuania locking tongues, and then I imagined a person from Lithuania being really startled to see their country referenced out of the blue 'cause maybe they're young or old but either way they're not really familiar with Hetalia, so then I had to mentally write out a whole long comment about how Lithuania is depicted in that fandom (to my memory; it's been a while) and why I ship America/Lithuania, and I'd have to share some fic because there are some REALLY good ones, and there are the Lithuania genfics ofc and the one puella_nerdii and mithrigil wrote, but then there was another that I reread a few years ago when my phone screen broke so I had to use my first smartphone for a couple of days and I found it saved tot he device (never transferred on) and was surprised to find it even better than I'd remembered, so then I had to try and look it up and by now I'm about to have a shower because it's hot today and I know the fic's on my tablet but I only have my phone with me and I'm just standing there naked in the bathroom for ten minutes scowling down as I repeatedly google "How does your garden grow?" and various combinations of 'livejournal' 'lithuania' 'fanfiction' 'usliet' 'rec list' and eventually I got to my tablet and found it but I guess I didn't include the author's name when I copied it to a word document??? So now I had to go look up my del.icio.us recs because thank god I'd sorted that all out earlier this year and even refound this exact fic (but didn't bookmark it to ao3 for some reason), and after all that I had to give it a re-read, didn't I? Since it took so long to track down and, like, I didn't want to accidentally rec a super offensive fic to this made-up Lithuanian redditor. 'cause when I thought about it, the idea of America being this really nice guy who makes Lithuania really happy probably wouldn't fly so well in 2024, huh?

but I did read it and

it's so....... fucking good ;_________;

I want to go to Lithuania... I lolvve that fucking country so stupidly much oh my god. so fucking cringe that Im getting this worked up over a dumb gay anime fanfiction about wacky ww2 yaoi fascists but here I am and it's' actually still probably one of my favourite fics ever tbh. unironically.

so uhhHHHHHHHH that's how my afternoon went and also please read 'How Does Your Garden Grow?' by zempasuchil 🙏🙏🙏

[knxfesck]

Whos your favorite tf character and why

I legit just noticed that I had shit in my inbox (SORRY) but uhm. uhhhhhhhhhhh. hm. This might need a read more.

Out of the more "classic" characters I like starscream because 1) plane 2) villain. I think his character arcs in idw were pretty good overall and even though he's often used for comic relief (esp in g1) I like that he's a villain who doesn't know what he's doing all the time, who's desperate, who's kind of a mess, who keeps making bad decisions and who ultimately has to try and turn his life around himself, and its HARD and he shows that.

ANYWAYS he's not even my main favorite my main favorite character is Drift-formerly-Deadlock and I'm calling him that because I honestly find deadlock more interesting. I find I relate to him a lot in terms of how he sees and navigates the world, the anger that he tries to decide is righteous or not. His patterns of addiction, and especially his comittment to the decepticon cause. If this is what you decided was right and its falling apart what else do you do except go down with the ship? etc etc. Also the way he earns megatrons utmost trust but almost doesn't recognise it? like he's willing to leave whatever isn't working for him behind and megatron has this almost worshipping attachment (which is something I've experienced in relationships).

He's kind of on his own plane of reality and I like that that idea is taken further with his transition into being Drift and redemption. It gets a little muddy here because of Roberts' narrative plans for him that got scrapped but I am. A Huge fan of the whole Who do you have to be to redeem yourself? who are you redeeming yourself to and why? where is the line between the you that you are, the you that you want, and the you that you project so people will see you a certain way?? Can you get lost in becoming better? if you're lying to yourself and everyone else its just delusion right? How do you know you aren't lying if that's all you've ever known? thing.

Drift is so searching, he wants to find a way to make the world right and then he wants to find himself and that's a journey that will never end completely, no matter how agressive or determined he is about it. You finally put down the gun and you take up the sword, and you need to know what's stopping you from going back to bullets when shit gets tough, yk?

His design from drift: empire of stone is one of my favorite designs in tf (even though I'm biased towards deadlock and his fangs and lego block shoulders lol). The crossover part of my brain reaaally likes that he turns into a jdm racecar because. I like those a lot. Speaking of racecars I also find his relationship with rodimus really compelling because of their similarities and differences. I think it would be interesting to have a rodimus in my life. And ofc he's in a gay marriage with ratchet which is pretty cool even if it ascends him to fandom yaoi mischaracterization glory.

Overall I think my attachment to him is probably based more on other people's similar neurotices than on his comics even though I've read 95% of them (shoutout to @weapon-up-wallflower haha). Funnily enough I don't have any drift models or figures but I'm hoping to change that soon.

There are a lot of other characters that make the favorites list that I'd be able to tell you more about if I brushed up on my comic knowledge (cyclonus, sixshot, skywarp & TC, tarn, misfire, brainstorm, etc) but I think this is enough text.

But yeah, thank you for asking and triggering my long lost transformers brainrot :)

⬆️ the empire of stone design I was thinking of bc I'm not a huge fan of his mtmte bbl

and my favorite official art for deadlock

[floaromaxtowns]

Pairing/Shippy list!

REPOST, DON'T REBLOG

Here's the rules:

1. List your top seven ships 2. Put all of them in order of your love for them; 7 to 1, 1 being your favorite. 3. Name their fandom. 4. Supply photos for said people.

7) Shadow the Hedgehog / Tikal the Echidna - Sonic the Hedgehog

They never met in canon, so no shot of them sharing a scene together lol

Very nostalgic ship for me. This was practically my entrypoint into the world of shipping as a whole TBH. My first contact with it came through the 2006's era of AMVs, and ship tribute videos. I may no longer be into STH, but I still hold this ship very dearly to me.

6) Solid Snake / Samus Aran - Smash Bros.

It's another trip through memory lane. Similarly to Shadikal, I also got introduced to Snakus via those old AMVs. Although, I was a bit older by the time I learned about this ship, than I was with the latter. By the time I had taken my very first step into Deviantart, and I remember spending HOURS scouring the website, for anything and everything related to them. Good times lol

5) Alucard / Richter Belmont - Castlevania

If those ships were my entrypoints into shipping in general. This one was my entrypoint into yaoi/mlm/BL ships. This ship isn't ranked higher because, I have a funky story with it. From my enjoyment of it being quite flaky, from going on and off constantly. At the time I learned about it, it coincided with the peak of the whole Seme/Uke tropes, which practically killed the characters to me. It was bc of that type of character portrayal, that drove me off from reading fanfics altogether.

4) Dawn/Barry - Pokemon

Whenever I say that Shadikal was my introduction into the world of shipping, what I really mean is that... I'm unsure who really takes the cake on that. As seeing how back then I was into both Pokemon AND STH, so I came across ship videos to both Shadikal and Twinleafship at around the same exact time. Anyway, gen 4 as a whole is very nostalgic to me, so ofc these two are also very special to me.

3) Priest Mahad/Priest Seto - Yugioh

It's way too funny how much I fell in love with this ship, at the very end of my interest in YGO. I just think they have a good chemistry....... I promise it is there, somewhere. I'm dead sure, I clinged onto YGO for only a little longer, because of those two. And here we have a proof of my love for small and mostly unknown ships, in most fandoms I land myself in.

2) Plo Koon/Commander Wolffe - Star Wars

Sorry Fandom, I didn't catch the memos on the babyfication of Wolffe and the rest of the 104th clone legion, neither was I interested in seeing people's daddy issues that they are projecting onto Plo Koon. I was really disappointed to see how little romantic content there was of these two, bc ppl decided to do that with them, for some reason lol. I'm in the trenches with these two. Also, these two were the reason I got back into reading fanfics LMAO.

1) Taurus Aldebaran/Aries Mu - Saint Seiya

🎉These two are currently holding my braincells hostage🎉

Head empty there is now only Aldemu. I'm going to indulge myself in over 20 years of fan-made content, about these two, see you all around. I think what really hit the nail in my brain about these two was learning how, even one of the former directors for some of the episodes within the Hades arc, also enjoys these two and has posted some of his drawings of them. To me, that's almost as good as making them canon (and let me clear, regardless of whether or not they're canon, it wouldn't affect my enjoyment of these two).

I'm just happy the Brazilian guy is tied to a popular ship, and is gaining love via it.

Honorable mentions:

Pisces Aphrodite/Cancer Deathmask - Saint Seiya

Commander Cody/Captain Rex - Star wars

Morty/Eusine - Pokemon

Alucard/Maria Renard - Castlevania

Bob Richards/Julia Chang - Tekken

Yugi/Seto Kaiba - YGO

Feel free to steal it!

[alister312]

4, 12, 13, and 14!

:O an ask………… thank u for letting me have a proper opportunity to gush………

4: Do you have a favorite South Park creator in the fandom (artist, writer, cosplayer, etc.)? If so, who?

Okay as someone who has only ever existed on tumblr, ff dot net, and YouTube as a SP fan, I do not know if there’s any super cool people on places like insta or twitter (or even ao3 really except for saturnpanther). HOWEVER. My absolute beloved author is petroica traversi on ff dot net because her Gregstophe content is!! SO GOOD!! And that was my second ever South Park ship and I fell very hard for them. I also remember enjoying fallingwithstyle and angel-of-gryffindor, and ofc hollycomb is a classic.

Speaking of classics, in terms of art, I think we as a community owe our life to preoprix. They have so much incredible work out there and I was thrilled to see that south-park-fanart-archive is reblogging so much of it right now. I don’t remember a ton of other old artists I liked during my initial phase… there was someone who’s signature was like “LZ” and I liked their art a lot? And I’d be lying if I said the zombie apocalypse AU fic I used to have wasn’t inspired by tuckerenthusiast’s Craig of the Dead designs. As for current artists, almost literally everyone I see is so talented. Buuuuuut I’m especially enjoying content from miraco, ameangel-sp, chaaistheanswer, bunypark, sn33z3s, stankyles, meuhhjelly, cheesym0rgue, fuzzylampnecklawyer, and emilyartstudio-s!! There’s definitely others I’ve seen and spam reblogged but like. If I just name dropped every single SP artist that would be a bit much imo. But all those above people are producing art that I'm in love with the styles of who I always reblog stuff from if I see it.

As for YouTube there’s literally just one person but they were integral to my first SP brainrot so shoutout to Mihoshiii. Also this video, living rent free.

12: Who’s the first character that caught your eye when you first watched the show? Or: Who was your first favorite character?

This is very hard because I had an unconventional introduction into SP. When I was younger I was really into Let’s Players and I watched one of them do a LP of The Stick of Truth, which made me want to watch the show. So I was just generally pumped for all the characters as soon as I started watching? I will say, I have a vivid memory of searching “South Park” on google images to find fan art. One of the suggested search results was “South Park Yaoi” and I thought that was funny as hell so I clicked it. Very first image was Kenny leaning out of a bus and kissing Butters and I haven’t known peace since.

13: Do you have a favorite minor character? Who?

OH BOY DO I

Back in 2017 when I was much more active on Cartoon Amino, I literally made a bunch of South Park Top 10 lists, one of which was about minor characters. Christophe was my number one, partially because I was edgy and partially because I was correct. He makes such an impact with such little screen time and I would have LOVED to see more of him. Which is why I write so much fanfic involving him, I think. However, as I’ve gotten older, I’m less sure about giving him the number one spot. I think he’s tied with Gregory?

I do have so so much love and so many thoughts about both Gregory and Christophe, it’s hard to choose which one I love more! I’ve found that I’m much more able to get into Gregory’s headspace when writing though because we have (conceptually in my head) more similar upbringings. But maybe I like getting into his headspace because I like using him as a way to study my thoughts on Christophe. The two are honestly so much a part of one another to me, I don’t know how to separate them.

Besides them, though, I’m in love with Kevin Stoley, the Goth kids, and Corey Lanskin. Every time I think about them I’m ☺️😊

14: Do you have a favorite female character? Who?

For sure Bebe. I also think that Karen is such a sweetheart and Nichole deserves so much more and my fanon interpretation of Red is the best buuuuut Bebe is best girl. I almost cried during the vaccine special when she FINALLY got a line after so long without one.

I just think it’s funny that much of fanon (at least, old fanon) reduced her down to “dumb girly blonde stereotype” when she is so much more than that. So it always makes me very happy to see her being used in any other way. Or when she’s used at all, which is oddly rare considering she, at one point, was the only girl besides Wendy listed among SP characters on the Wikipedia page. I want to see her hold a gun again. She deserves it.

[cesca-untoldstories]

Idk if you're still doing the fandom opinion thing, but Cesca would have a very mixed audience, and unlike the rude anon, I have reasons.

On one hand, people would love her for being a badass female figure in a male dominated anime. They would ship her with everyone besides Jotaro tho, probably women bc all Jojo girls are shipped with women (even Shinobu and Suzie Q, the only one who isn't is Erina). Jojo fans tend to ship everyone with anyone that isn't their Canon partner. But there will be a group of devoted Jocesca shippers who love it and do cute couples cosplays.

On the other hand, some people would hate her. Think about all the hate that Jotaros Canon wife gets. And she wasn't even shown that much. If jealous Jotaro fans/yaoi shippers had Cesca as a Canon character, she would be hated to hell. People would pretend she doesn't exist, or worse. Also, assuming that Jolyne is still Canon, they would consider her to be a homewrecker and the sole reason that Jolyne didn't have a father.

my askbox is always welcome for people like you my dear-!

Ok! let me start with how I love how you put my thoughts too but into more coherent words and not just a mere simping. I love to read that there are more possible ways of seen Francesca in this "rude and raw community" because of course, we are a self-oc community and everything is lovely between us. but there is also the yaoi shippers, the incels talking only about males that rule the world in Jojo's and hate the women in there, and well some others that are in the same "big jojo community" but are just minors that want to tell everyone they are mature and "look at me I'm watching jojos to get some attention"

for the Good side of Francesca... you are totally right, often Jojo woman characters are shipped with another women and frankly I wouldn't be mad about it. Francesca is a flexible character and been shipped with anyone she will act and be pretty the same. I totally add to your thought that maybe in Stardust they would ship her with Jotaro tho. because in stardust she is not the kind of character that is "protagonist's love interest" they are rivals, they "hate eachother" such as Abbacchio and Giorno, Rohan and Josuke, Caesar and Joseph but they are mostly like the last friendship. they have a lot of differences that make the "shipper" want to get them together with the "NOW KISS" thing. I really love that Araki (If francesca was canon ofc) would play a lot with her character and that's kinda why I choose her path in her life, I think it would happen to the one that is watching the same what happened to me. when I started watching jojos already known about jolyne's exsistence and she was Jotaro's daughter so It would totally be like: -"Oh! so there she is, Jolyne's mom!" and the friend that already watched jojos been like -"hahaha just watch it, but she is not"

and the more you think about them actually working so well as been partners, the more hate you get about not letting them be partners at the end. in the Araki way of making us take off our hair due things that works but actually they can't. so Jonas in stone ocean and in the last part that I drew long ago showing that is really Jotaro's son would let the viewer shouting more at the end of stone ocean like: "I knew it, I KNEW IT. MORE THAN 10 YEARS OF ARAKI PLAYING WITH US, TO FINALLY SHOWING THAT IT WAS CANON AFTER ALL"

hahaha I'm just rambling but I kinda see fans like that, making theories of "they should be together" but actually both married with other people, Jonas origin, that dates doesn't fit well... to then show the actual truth.

for the bad side of Francesca... Oh lord the haters, you said it all in that one, I really like how well you knew this jojo fandom to understand that she will be hated just because she is a woman in a shonen. the same hate Jolyne got when manga was out about "a jojo woman? weak and lame" and ofc. not forget about the shippers, the yaoi shippers, not even saying the ship we already know, been nasty and rude. but not just because she show emotions and feelings towards characters but a ship fight of "what would be better...idk Jotacesca or Keicesca" something like that, and constantly fighting what is right and what is wrong. but something I totally need to add to your clean analysis is: she would have the "Nami" issue. (one piece) someone that is only seen as a sexual thing. she indeed is strong, she is inteligent, she is the navegator of a whole crew yet people only talk about her having big booba and a sexy body type. like: "yeah Francesca is a surgeon, she is a doctor and working as a headmaster of the health area of the speedwagon foundation. she has been through a lot killed a lot of vampires since 14 years old, she is traumatized too..." "haha yea, Francesca big booba"

thank you so much for your opinion dear, I really love it and I'm saving this for later talkings! sorry for the big ramble I wrote too but I just spoke my mind <3

[my-artblog-is-ssjumi]

16, 19 and 22?

16. A fic you're very proud of?

overall i’m proud of pretty much anything i consider good enough to upload it for how well it satisfies a specific aesthetic itch i couldn’t get scratched elsewhere.

i mean, ofc it varies greatly how long i will stay satisfied with it but. even if i’m not particularly interested in rereading it again a couple years down the road, there’s usually always something i will stay proud about in one way or the other.

like.

there are a few older stories i wouldn’t consider well-written anymore nowadays but i still very much like their concept and some of the scenes.

other stories i... also wouldn’t wanna recommend based on the quality of the writing alone but on the context of which fandom i posted them in in what, uh, fandom climate at the time? like that “Seto/MarySue BUT ALSO Ati/Seto” fanfic i posted in the mids of the “straights vs yaoi fans - fight!” times on the respective German fanwork archive.

or that one more recent story i posted in RPF fandom about how RPF fandom would have probably ruined the very thing it liked to imagine if that thing had been real. and all the other stories to that fandom where i was trying to make a point of how the dudes our characters are based on are just flawed human beings who fuck up all the time and not ppl to be put on pedestals and either worshipped or hunted for sports with no in-betweens.

and then there are stories that i almost forgot about until i get a comment that tells me i did my research well or at least really nailed a specific emotional aspect of something that i should’ve done more research on in retrospect so maybe in that particular case it’s more like. relief??? XD’

idk

it’s a complicated question lol

i just like writing and filling in gaps that i feel others haven’t filled to my satisfaction yet and. somehow stories happen XD’ if i don’t like the result i don’t post it, so pretty much everything by me you can find online is something i’m still either proud of or in some other way find. hm. necessary to exist in the fandom space it’s in.

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19. Where do you write?

at home w my laptop on my lap. i used to mostly write in bed bc i only had a bed, but now i have a living room and a couch XD

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22. Favourite part about writing fanfiction? 

getting to read it afterwards and basking in how perfectly i catered to my own taste :,)

[astharoshebarvon]

Good books

Almost a year later, I finally got Ten Count volume 6. I had to give myself a pep talk that it doesn’t matter if the bitch is part of the volume, just forget about her horrendous self.

In the end, my love for Kurose and Shirotani won and I bought it.

I am just so happy to have it in my hands!!! I love this manga so much! I can’t put into words how much I adore this series.

I also got Ameiro Paradox/ Candy Colour Paradox because I love that too. It’s funny as hell and is a wonderful read.

Did I mention how excited I am for Ten Count anime and Given movie? I can’t tell how thrilled I am that Given is getting a movie. I don’t know how many times I cried seeing Given anime, and the lyrics of the title song— just drive a knife through my heart why don’t you.

Fair warning, I am going to vent now. These are just some things which I don’t like in the slightest in stories and fandoms. If someone does, fine. Just remember, everyone doesn’t.

Let’s start with Ten Count. I saw some comments on a manga site that literally said the bitch ( I am not going to dignify her with a name. The slut doesn’t deserve it )  looked nice standing next to Kurose.

–She is cute even if she is evil.

–Yeah, I get what you mean. They look nice together.

I was shocked. I was so shocked. I was at a loss for words. Just because she is a girl some people are ready to forgive her for what she did and say ridiculous things like these. She ruined Shirotani in every way possible. How can someone even say that? I can’t put into words how disgusted I felt when I read that.

Do people even realise what OCD is? It’s not something to laugh about. What she and Shirotani’s father did, it wasn’t okay. I am glad Shirotani at least got the courage to talk to his father but that doesn’t erase the father was in the wrong too. Wasn’t he fucking a student?

My main problem is, why can’t people accept that some female characters are horrible?  What’s with this crap of not calling bad fem characters bad? And she wasn’t even good looking, she was creepy.

The girlfriend of Halstead in Kyou Koi wo Hajimemasu, she was a monster. She actually said Kyouta tried to force himself on her when he didn’t do shit. She was the one coming onto him like some slag. She destroyed two boys friendship and what, we shouldn’t say she was bad because she is a girl. She was horrible.

I adore Hinohara Meguru’s works, I really do. I love love love Secret XXX and I am definitely going to buy it next April when it’s released. I adore Itsuki and Shouhei so much !!!

I will buy Therapy Game too because I love it. I am hoping Kamisama will be licensed soon. I really want to buy it. Rin is so darn nice, he has to be with Chiharu.

But whatever nonsense that was shown between Yuka and Shizuma—it’s unrealistic.

People don’t even look at people like Yuka after they break up with them. Regardless of the fact they are in same college or work at a same place.

It’s pathetic at best the way Shizuma says he is weak to her voice.

Not to mention she was a fucking stalker and what? They are friends? Even after what she did?

She was sleeping with someone else and they are still friends. She cheated on him, hurt him emotionally, hurt his feelings and he still talks to her.

Wow.

That’s not how the world works for any relationship.

Get out of here.

She was a bitch and I have a very bad feeling she and Shizuma’s other coworkers will create problems for him and Minato in the sequel being serialised now. Minato was so uncomfortable in the first chapter.

I don’t understand why no one said this is not reality. This is stupid.

If you want to defend female characters even if they are horrible and bad, fine.

But then, you shouldn’t write things like these :  “This shows reality of gay couples.”

Pick up any tragic yaoi/shonen ai where one half of a couple marries a woman and the other is left alone. The reviews of the story have this line.

Those works are praised and applauded. Why? Is that really the reality of all same sex couples? Or are you just happy that one male got to be with a female.

If some people like reality so much, they should just go and see the news.

This reality factor isn’t present when female characters do horrendous shit (Yuka’s case). I didn’t see people saying, this is bull. Why does he even talk to her? And what the fuck does he mean by he is weak to her voice?

Dude, seriously. She cheated on you and you are weak to her voice????

This nonsense is present everywhere. Movies, books, novels, anime, manga.

Take Vampire knight for example. 

The author should have been honest and said somewhere along the line she started shipping Zero and Kaname, but since Yuuki is the main girl she couldn’t put the two boys together. Zero/Kaname is a far better ship than Zeki or whatever Airen thing the author is trying to show now. It’s laughable at best, both Zeki and Airen.

I don’t like Ai, she loved Zero and now she is after his daughter. It’s weird.

Just because Ai is yume’s daughter doesn’t mean she is wonderful. I don’t like her or Ren.

You know what, it’s not even about like. I feel nothing for them. When I saw the new cover, I was like, yeah, it’s very pretty, and it’s very sweet. I am going to save the larger version when it becomes available.

That’s it.  I could care less whether they are together or not. 

 Maybe there is a reason for Ai’s stupidity. She was raised among losers like Ruka and Aidou. Is it any wonder she ended up being weird as hell?

Ruka Souen was a horrible character, she was disgusting and I don’t understand why her husband, Akatsuki always threatened Kaname instead of talking to his oh so great love.

Dude, tell your girl to stop trying to get another woman’s man’s attention. Kaname doesn’t give a fuck about anyone except Yuuki Kuran, his love of life.

Ruka and Aidou were pathetic. The fucker even encouraged Zero to take Yuuki from Kaname, and this was supposed to be Kaname’s friend.

Yeah right. Hell, all of Kaname’s so called friends told Zero and Yuuki to get together, except, Takuma.

Have I mentioned how much I love the guy? He is the only real friend of Kaname. He had guts to say to both Zero and Yuuki what would they do if he said he had some reservations about their relationship. He brushed it off later though but at least he said it.

Except for Yuuki, Takuma and Seiren, Kaname held no feelings for anyone in this whole goddamn manga.

The only reason I am still reading this series is because I want my Yume happy ending.

Canon is shitty many times. Don’t force people to like a story or a movie. Or everything that happens in a story. Sometimes one just doesn’t like some things.

Whatever nonsense that was shown in avengers endgame (Steve–Peggy ). That was disgusting. It made my mother and me so uncomfortable that we didn’t even bother going and seeing the movie again. I saw infinity war twice but endgame – it was a horror fest.

If the movie makers wanted to show Steve with a woman that badly, well, Sharon and Natasha were right there. Why Peggy? It didn’t make sense and came off as creepy and gross. We get it, they became so scared of Stucky’s popularity that they had to show Steve with a woman. We get it.

For all three CA movies, Steve was all Bucky, Bucky, and Bucky. That’s it.

And he didn’t even talk to him in endgame. Right.

Steve/Nat was a good ship, they could have been together but what we got was some gross uncle - aunt - niece shit. Steve kissed Sharon right after Peggy’s funeral, that’s a fact. Where did his love go then?

Then again, this is the same character (Steve Rogers) who married female Tony Stark in one universe but otherwise fights with all male Tony’s.

God, could the writers get any more homophobic? Or maybe Steve saw Natasha Stark as a replacement for Peggy Carter too. I wouldn’t be surprised if that was the case. Brunettes, women.

Yeah, that does make sense.

That’s why I hate when people genderbent one half of a slash couple. It’s inherently homophobic. Stop trying to justify your reasons. Don’t give ridiculous excuses like you wanted diversity and all that crap. You are only making yourself look stupid and dumb.

This rubbish need for diversity never arose with FM couples. So, please don’t.

Where are Female Tony and Male Pepper fics, where are Female Clint and Male Natasha fics? Oh, sorry, they don’t exist. Neither do female Tony and Pepper.

If they do, they aren’t that popular. And I am sure female Clint and Natasha doesn’t exist.

But one can find plenty female Bilbo, female Harry, female Tony fics. All these OC females paired with males. They are OFC. They aren’t real.

Some people just can’t accept them (Thorin/Bilbo, Steve/ Tony) as an MM slash ship so they change their gender.

It’s MM Slash. No matter how many times you write in fics, this is Fem Harry, this is Fem Tony, Harry is a girl. This is not slash in capitals.

Stop.

You are only coming off as desperate, nothing more.

Stop trying to undermine the MM slash ship. It’s a slash ship, it will always be slash.

Is there any female Ron and male Hermione story? Yeah, Granger wouldn’t look like a God now would she if Male Hermione attacked female Ron because Ron didn’t want to date him?

Another example.

Let’s turn Merope Gaunt into a man and have him rape Tom Riddle Sr who is a female. No one would give a fuck if Merope was abused then. Merope raped Tom Riddle Sr and I am still astounded by the fact she was portrayed as a tragic figure while Tom Riddle Sr was shown as arrogant.

Excuse me?

Nobody cared about him in the books. Did he deserve to get raped for months by Merope because he was what? A man? Arrogant? Fuck off.

Since she was abused that gave her the freedom to douse the man with Amortentia for months to make herself happy. What rubbish excuse is that?

He owed her nothing. If she was abused, that doesn’t mean he was obligated to like her or care for her. And after what she did to him, he made a wise decision to run away from her.

Merope Gaunt traumatized Tom Riddle Sr. The man never married, even after escaping from her. His fate was even worse than Merope’s.

I can’t believe that this was completely swept under the rug. No one felt sorry for the man. All sympathies were for Merope.

Many things in HP don’t make sense. Couples, characters, their decisions etc.

Its fine if many people love it but there are many who don’t like it too. Stop trying to tell everyone what they should like or not. If someone doesn’t, respect that.

Genderbending one half of a slash couple is annoying and irritating. It’s homophobic and will remain that. All the dominant male keeps on saying in those dumb fics is how much they want to fuck the female/genderment male or are enamored with her chest and body. It’s revolting to even read that.

And of course they want lots of babies. That’s a must. Hetero sex and babies. That’s the crux of almost all gender bent fics. The dominant male wants to see the OFC with his babies.

Great!

Slash haters don’t hate this, do they? Isn’t this fetishizing female anatomy? Or have you actually deluded yourself into thinking female Bilbo and female Harry exists. 

They don’t.

Harry Potter is a boy, so is Bilbo Baggins. Hell, Tony Stark is a man except for in one universe.

Steve can’t fall in love with Tony if he is a male. What did he fell for then? Fem Tony’s body?

Gender bent isn’t even crack, its worse than crack. Either these original character females are docile and nice or are BAMF’s like anything.

And don’t say don’t read if you don’t like it. Why not? Why shouldn’t we make fun of these stories?

These same people have the audacity to whine about slash ships on many platforms. Even in FM stories MM is not shown as something normal. I’ve come across many FM stories which literally made me want to throw something at the screen. Some were blatantly insulting to same sex relationships.

And let’s not forget genderbent FM stories which have this rubbish line: we are okay with fem slash, but not with MM slash.

Okay, fine. Good.

What the hell does that even mean?

Hmm, maybe that’s why genderbent FF couples don’t exist. This change is only meant for MM.

Right. Wonderful.

Yikes !

This ridiculous sentence is written on many fic writers profile and these same people changed one half of a MM slash couple into a female, with this lovely sentence at the beginning of their stories: This is not slash. It’s not SLASH. We can’t stress enough, it’s not slash!

How many times do these people  have to tell themselves that it’s not slash?

It’s MM slash and will always be that.

[hcpefulmarshmallow]

Komahina

Ship Rates

NOTP || Just no || Meh || Neutral || Good Potential || Ship it || OTP || JUST FUCK ALREADY  

I spoke about this one a while ago, but there are a lot of new people since then, and I’ve refined some of my earlier points, so… *cracks knuckles*

 First of all, promise you’ll read to the end, guys. I’m not trying to hate on the ship – but I will say that it doesn’t deserve to be the go-to ship for the fandom. AAHH OKAY BEFORE YOU KILL ME, it’s not because because I think it’s worse than that. It’s because I think it’s better. 

 Komahina is treated like this inevitable thing because, to some degree, canon implies it. That ofc, the two main men, all but confirmed super duper not straight, should wind up together. But if that’s your view then, in my humble opinion, you’re missing the point. 

 I don’t base how I feel about this ship off their main character/s status, and only a very little in part off that confession scene. I think that rushing these two into a relationship misses the whole entire mark of what this could grow to be. Grow, being the key word here. 

 I don’t think we can dump these two in any old coffee shop, and expect a beautiful romance to blossom. While the attraction is there, it’s not the driving force between them. At first, it’s all about understanding and identity. Hajime just doesn’t get Nagito, but he wants to. It’s not inherently romantic, but it’s a valuable emotion nonetheless. But Nagito also frustrates him to no end, (and so say all of us). This ultimately drives Hajime to do some pretty nasty things to him. Such as abandoning him in the beginning of the second chapter, tied up and unable to eat. I’ve spoken before about how much I hated that punishment, but that was the icing on this very bitter cake for me. Also, abandoning him again during the Despair Disease thing, when Nagito said, in the only way the disease would let him, that he wanted Hajime there. Just because he said some things Haji didn’t like. Despite…having the liar’s disease. Come on, Hajime. You’re smarter than this.

 Oh, but don’t think our protag is the only idiot in this scenario. What draws Nagito to Hajime is the fact that he feels like they are very similar, which is both a compliment and an insult. It’s implied multiple times that Nagito has a way of sensing talent, so it’s very possible he sensed from the beginning that Hajime had none. In fact, he says as much outright. Being (in his own mind) an untalented nobody around wonderful, untouchable talented Ultimates is incredible for him, but also exhausting. He wants to establish some kind of interpersonal connection, and along comes someone who is actually on his level, and seems to make an effort with him. For Nagito, that’s mind-blowing. And somewhere along the line - and here, we have the best thing about this whole damn ship that everybody misses - that became more important than talent. At the end of the OVA, when Nagito wakes up, we have that adorable parallel of Haji standing over him, just like Nagito at the beginning of DR2. And Nagito recognises Izuru first - but then corrects himself to Hajime. And thereafter, despite Hajime claiming that he is both Hajime and Izuru, Nagito continues to acknowledge Hajime over, oh, the LITERAL EMBODIMENT OF TALENT. I could write a whole other post on that. In fact, I may have.

 But I digress, because Nagito pulled his fair share of bullshit, too. Aside from literally trying to kill everybody, and providing on a silver platter an opportunity for Teru to begin the killings, knowing he was the most vulnerable - Nagito repeatedly shows instances of not quite getting how his words can hurt. Which, by itself isn’t his fault, but he also shows no remorse or desire to change it, either. He’s constantly putting the consequences of his own beliefs on others, and Hajime often cops the brunt of it. You know, Protag Privilege. And pardon my own personal headcanons, but I feel as if, after the whole Neo World thing is over, Nagito will ultimately take out a lot of his guilt and frustration on Hajime, too. Who better, than the Reserve Course nobody who did what he never could, surpassed Nagito himself, who may be trash but still technically has a talent, became Ultimate Hope, survived until the end, thrived, and wasn’t drawn in to Monokuma’s trickery like he was? 

 So, yeah. This isn’t exactly what you’d call a natural relationship. Like I said in the last one of these, I’m a sucker for ships that come from individuals improving themselves personally, whether that improvement is inspired by the ship itself or not, and coming together to make a great couple. I think that a lot of their issues come from the same place of low self worth, abandonment issues, and generally just feeling like the scum of the earth. They could do one another wonders, but as we’ve seen, they can also do one another a good disservice. This isn’t an effortless ship, and it’s not a given. The attraction is there, but they would need to sort out their personal issues, and the roadblocks between them, in order to forge a functioning, healthy relationship. Attraction is good for a one-shot or two, but realistically, it can’t see a relationship through the long term. And Danganronpa is nothing if not realistic, amiright. (That was sarcasm, in case you missed it.) However, assuming they can work together and work on themselves, I do believe there is so much good they can give each other, and so much happiness they can find together. 

 This got longer than I meant for, so tl;dr: Komahina make a better, believable, genuine couple with faults and pitfalls than they do a yaoi doujin. Give the ship some credit. 

[jenovacomplete]

I mean like. Yeah u can hyperfixate on yuri but once uve read all the manga volumes like..its over....i mean ive had periods where i was hyperfixated on yuri in general but theres no like. Specific yuri series that lots of people make fancontent for that you can consume for months on end??? theres so much fanart for mdzs, and its specifically a danmei. and theres more than just fluffy romcoms....!!!!!!besides citrus..!!!!!!!! I have a manga on my desk rn called "killing me!" abt a vampire hunter and a vampire or "after hours" which is abt adults and one of them gets the other into DJing, and even series with "fluffy" romance can be a lot more nuanced than ud think and tbh i think its a lot healthier to have mostly fluffy stuff than mostly sexual content (gay teens deserve wish fulfillment stuff, also not saying mdzs is sexual i mean ? I dont know if it is? Just yaoi in general) but i agree the worship of """""" purity """"""" is gross but the difference is that its made mostly by wlw. Also i wasnt being accusatory, like i know ur gay, its just funny bc idk like. i feel like everyone got into chinese bl of a sudden and I dont rly get the appeal even tho theres more to it, its kind of like the three kingdoms (i assume theres like politics and battles ?) but magic and gay thats nice!!! That sounds sarcastic its not i swear. i cant watch series that have 50 min long eps but I'll take ur word for it that the untamed is good

hyperfixation has nothing to do with fandom and as someone who's hyperfixated on obscure shit for years at a time if there's no content you can make your own. like I completely get what you're saying but that's really not how that works

ofc there's more than fluffy romcoms -- however most wlw content tends to be of that type bc of the obsession w women being "pure" n shit like that. it's the same reason why most content of gay men tends to become hypersexualised -- it's just another manifestation of homophobia. that kind of content doesn't appeal to me, so when it comes to yuri I often have to look harder. I don't even like romance as a genre (generally hate it actually) which is why I've been going on about tgcf so much -- it's the first romance-centric media that's made me Get It

I get what you mean about how gay kids deserve better n I agree!! hypersexualisation fucking sucks and I wish we didn't have to grow up in a world where we're seen as commodities. however mdzs and tgcf are both what I'd consider 18+ books and any adaptations remove most sexual elements. I really don't think you should pass judgement on them without knowing anything about them. that's not a case of "uh you haven't consumed it so how can you judge!!" but instead hey maybe you could like, ask me what they're about... do a basic bit of googling... also BL isn't yaoi. BL and GL stand for boy's love and girl's love respectively and there's nothing inherently sexual about either of them. I get the feeling you've gotten confused on some terminology

honestly no idea where you're getting "everyone is into danmei now" from bc the group of people I know who're into it are VERY small lmao your social circle is not the entire internet. it's okay to feel confused by the changing tides of fandom and it's okay to feel left out but it's really not anything deep mate. it's okay to not be interested in something other people like, you don't have to justify it. although your concerns about the sexualisation of LGBT people are a legitimate discussion and I'm interested in having it within this context it's just not working bc (as you've admitted) you don't even know the media you're using as a springboard. what I'm hyperfixating on is none of your business and it's not something you should feel comfortable going on anon and basically telling me I should feel cringe for, holy shit. your argument is lost bc you are approaching this as if you have any right to the media I consume! I'm sorry if this sounds mean but I just woke up and I'm really tired and stressed and you're projecting ideas onto me that I have no way to deal w because They Have Nothing To Do With Me

[kyungpom]

Hi, I don't really look that much into fanfics but does people prefer b*ttom!Soo for some reasons? The usual 'he smol' kind of stuff? Just wondering because like I said I probably won't go and do my research myself. Have a good day/night

yep! and you don’t need to do research when i can tell you what i know :pidk if you’ve noticed but fandom tends to assign sexual positions to nonstraight couples based on physical appearancethat are stereotypical to hetero/yaoi couples. you know, like

the shorter, prettier/cuter, softer=bottom

the taller, more handsome/traditionally masculine, muscular= top

therefore kyungsoo=bottom, baekhyun=bottom, kai=top, chanyeol=top, kris when he was in exo=mega top. even if sometimes the difference is minimal. in society (straight, homophobic society) bottoming is seen as inferior, shameful, unmanly/a girl thing, something to joke about. ofc i’m not saying everyone who likes seeing the boys in the popular positions thinks that way but there’s a lot of close minded ideas surrounding shipping that create a negative environment for those who step out of the popular opinion (ppl will go as far as to harass writers ((LGBT+ writers ffs)) and even fests for having the popular “bottoms” as “tops” can you believe!!). all the bottom jokes and dominant fic preferences reinforced the idea that kyungsoo “couldn’t” or “shouldn’t” or that it would be weird do something as normal in fic as sticking his peepee in another person’s hole. but it doesn’t just stop at fic because some people take fic and headcanons very seriously and this idea has also been dragged out into real life shaping up his image for new fans to learn and spread.

this is a very uncomfortable topic in fandom that would require a lot more time and energy than i have but i thought i’d try to explain this briefly because it’s good to be aware of it and have an idea of why places like this blog or the bottom!yeol, bottom!kai, top!soo or top!baek fests exist (for people to fic in peace and to normalize something that shouldn’t be seen as abnormal in the first place)fandom trends have been veeery slowly opening a space for top!soo over the years. here’s how i’ve seen the progression:

2012-2013: 99.99999% bottom

2014: top became more frequent (and good!!)

2015: top fic raised in popularity due to his body changes (more muscular and closer to traditional masculinity)

2016-2017: top is more easily accepted than it used to, not 50-50 and prob never will be but it’s more common and easier to find within the more popular ships but it’s still rare for the other pairings

i started reading fic in 2012 and grew disappointed of the way he was usually portrayed and figured out that if i wanted to read something different i’d have to do something. i started bookmarking any fic i read where he topped for its rarity and i liked it so much (because it allowed him to be manly, strong, in control, a caregiver and many more things that i associate with him that most other fic didn’t) that i started hunting it down and posting it here. ugh sorry if this is too boring and long but it sounded like you had a hunch and i thought this would make it more clear

[fangirlandiknowit101]

1, 34, 47 and 50 :)

Thank you for asking!! :D

1. What was your first fic and could you stand to reread it today?

My first fic is still on ff.net, called Unsuspicious title (which has absolutely nothing to do with the plot, I just thought it was funny) and it’s Sasuke/Naruto ofc, but honestly, I love that fic. It’s the fic that got me into writing in the first place, and it’s such an excited fic? Like, I was very excited when I wrote it. So when I read it again I remember those feelings of being really hyped about writing and convinced I was amazing at it, but it’s also just a very cute and just feel good high school au type of fic with lots of silly jokes (even smut wow!). It was easier to write back then when every word felt like perfection haha. There are other fics I like less tbh so yeah good memories! 

34. Was there any fic that you wrote that really surprised you in the fandom reaction? Was it just by the numbers or did they take it an entirely different way?

Hmm there’s nothing major I can think of, but one example is when I was writing Results of a shitty day (yeah, back at it again with those totally-but-not-really-funny titles lol) and wrote Sasuke and Naruto switching between top/bottom in the smut scenes. There were a lot of strong opinions on who should really be the top and bottom between the two of them, and I wasn’t really much part of fandom in the tumblr etc. sense back then so while I knew some people had preferences, it was kind of a surprise how upset some people would get. Tbh it still surprises me when people so surely point out a top or bottom character when it’s done seriously and with an inability to consider the opposite happening. Being a “top” or “bottom” is not a personality trait lol. Oh and when I wrote plus drew my silly doujin/fic thingy, I was surprised that some people actually liked it hahaha!

47. If someone you know in real life who isn’t involved in fandoms asked to read your work, would you let them? If yes, what would you recommend they read first?

Well, it really depends on who asks haha! I have shown my fics to a few people outside fandom, for example I sent my mom a few fics on her request but I have a feeling she never read them lol (she reads a lot of gay books/yaoi tho so idk, maybe I should ask her if she wants to read one....or maybe not) but like, grandma asks a lot about my writing but there’s no way I could show her any of it bc 1. she wouldn’t understand most of it I’m sure and 2. I’m her precious firstborn grandchild I can’t let her know my dark secres lol. I think it’s hard to let non-fandom people read a fic because it’s such a specific genre that kind of needs you to know the characters beforehand or at least know what fic is like already. Maybe Missing pieces is the fic that feels the least fandom-ish? Or Lessons in Love because it’s impossible not to love yoi so I’m sure they would like reading it hahaha

  50. Has writing fanfic had a significant impact on your life? Would you say it’s entirely positive?

Writing fic has changed my life in a million ways!! It gives me an outlet for my creativity that I’d forgotten about (I used to write lots when I was a kid but then forgot about it) and I made so many friends through my writing (as well as my longest lasting relationship) so it’s really hard to imagine what my life would have been like if I didn’t start writing fics. I think my life is a lot better by writing fic, to put it short. Writing is also about figuring people (characters) out and putting yourself in someone else’s situation, I think that does a lot for me as a person. The only negative thing is the suffering of writer’s block and the frustration when I can’t update as much as I like haha. 

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REVIEW OF : YURI ON ICE

I should probably be guilty of watching this anime just a week before my exams but i am not.Hearing from friends and tumblr ofc that it is a yaoi anime,yuri on ice definitely made it to my watch list.And i wanted to wait untill summer vacation but my favourite anime reviewer Gigguk(please check out his youtube channel,he is awesome) had exaggerrated so much about how gay this anime is,i decided that i need some yaoi in the life.But what i saw was completely different from what i expected.

Yuri On Ice had me within the first 10 minutes of its first episode when i saw Yuri crying in the bathroom.As a high schooler i wouldn’t say i haven’t done that before more than once.When he was talking to his mom i thought his mom was being rude to him or something,but that outburst of tears was so genuiene,the feeling of disappointing everyone including yourself,and thats where Yuri had me.The japanese clearly know how to make their characters more human,it is these human emotions that most dramas and movies neglect to play the plot but this is where the director fails to make a connection with the audience no matter how good their actors are.Back to Yuri on ice,seeing that yuri has just an amazing family supporting him throughout was purely heartwarming,although i couldn’t connect with yuri on that note caz i personally have no family support but for someone as indecisive as him who doesn’t even have 1% confidence in himself,his supporters play such a vital role in his life which was evident throughout the show.Even if they didn’t get much screen time,they were alive as ever,because when u cant live for yourself u live for others.Also,when he met eyes with victor and victor thought he just wanted a photo,when u come this far only because of your idol and he fails to recognize u for your strenght and ability,its just like salt in the wound.When yuri went back to his hometown,its like starting fresh from someother again.Yuri not only pays tribute to those kids who want to grow up to be like their idol but also to those with low self esteem issues and failures,its as sporty as it can get.

Now coming down to Victor,i was so impressed by how foreign he looks and not just a regular gray haired anime guy.The detailing in each charcter was done to perfection!When victor moves his hands through the air,HIS HANDS ARE SO FUCKING BEAUTIFUL THAT I WANT THEM INSIDE ME!He would soar in the ice like an angel without wings but the emotions attached with every movement was so lively,it is actually the best performance i have seen come from an anime.Then their is yurio,not your typical tsundere or 15 year old anime kid.That grit,the anger in his magficient green eyes,the lucious blonde hair and that precious smile he tries so hard to hide,everything just made this 15 year old evolve into a mature character the audience had to take seriously,who still had feelings of a 15 year old,but the boy had someting else,TALENT,not only hardwork and passion,but the fact that this boy was a masterpiece was transparent through his performances as he would glide on the ice like a swan.Plus he is a total fuckboy material and its so major cute that he loves his fans(well,sorta)and calls them angel!

All the other unique and distinct characters,they all had such different stories and backgrounds and their own reason of wanting to win.Its safe to say non of them seemed extra,but as significant as victor and yuri.They truely did depict fellowship and family.I usually am pretty pssessive about the anime guys i like,but this i am like”nah,i cant have yurio,he belongs to otabek!”With enough said i must add that the character development in yuri was pretty obvious as we all so his potential in the beginning and wanted him to keep doing better and better.What was expected was the development of relationship between the characters as they get involved with each and every one of the participants emotionally.The relationship of yuri and victor as a teacher and his student was absolutely beatufiul and so strong,and here is where i wanna comment about this anime being called yaoi.As someone who has watched hardcore yaoi before,i didn’t find this the typical yaoi material and thats a good thing!Ofcourse as a yaoi fan i ship victuuri ,but honestly,victuuri more than yaoi material,the relationship is extremely pure.Why? because victor got attached to both of his student emotionally and sacrificed his carreer to see his student suceed,thats love.Victor was all flirtly with yuri and seduction totally runs in his personality.Victor knowing that he is yuri’s idol,he played every one of his seduction cards to get yuri DOWN ON HIS KNEES(to suck his cock)!!*naah being a yaoi fan again* ........ to get yuri:where he belongs.I found this important to say that Yuri On Ice is not Yaoi on ice because i think the guys in the anime fandom are absolutely exaggerrating TOO MUCH  about how gay this anime is and i want them  to take a closer look at how beautiful the relationship development is.Sure we yaoi fans would’ve made this anime yaoi even if some of the romantic scenes were not there,but there is just so much to learn about love and companionship from Victuuri.Victor was yuri’s guardian angel,God came down to help this boy get up,THAT was Victor.But the way fate and feelings were brought upon Victor and Yuri to color their black and white lives was very realistic and magical.And that is something,we dont get to see in this “Netflix and Chill” era.

The anime opening and endings are just... THE BEST ANIME OPENING AND ENDING EVER!!Since 2013 i was waiting for anime to bring edm in it!Well as a viewer of anime for a long time ofc i love and approve of j rock but edm truely adds the element of excitement in the anime and yuri on ice executed it to perfection.The opening song is just inspiring and salutes the heroes and talents of this generations and encopurages them to keep dreaming,keep believing.I dont at all think crunchyroll exaggerrated with giving the awards to yuri on ice at all.After the anime and oing a little research,to see that the production team played so much attention to figure skaters around the around,took inspirations from real life atheletes and picked the character’s facial struggles from real life actors,atheletes and reporters too,yet coming up with an absolutely original story,ALL OF THAT MUST BE AWARDED..its a very pure anime,and most imporatntly ITS VERY REAL and thats whats important.No outdated phones this time but legit smartphones and for the first time i got to see g-mail and social media beginning talked about in an anime,thank u lord.Japan has finally come out of its fantasy world for once and have us something very modern,very new,veryINSTAGRAM,very 2016.THEREFORE...YURI ON ICE WAS CLEARLY BORN TO MAKE HISTORY!!