#there goes my 15 minute break at work lol

[lavender---sunshine]

im applying for jobs i do not want but absolutely need, because even though i love my job i get paid crackers

[munch-mumbles]

ive been a little upset about it all night so i need to write out all the things that happened at work today and are bugging me so i can TRY to get it out of my head and actually RELAX bc i just keep pacing in circles around it instead of just accepting it and moving on

[featureenvyproductions]

happy new year time for me to bother you with a TRAILER for my short animated film about a mars mission 🎉

surprise I have cobbled together shots I have done from my [traditional] animation I'm working on along with a TEST recording (which is why it sounds like it's being recorded in a toilet that is also a cathedral) of some of the music clips. I tried to edit it like a Real TM Trailer but the pacing is a little weird bc it's a silent film sorry

OK LOTTA BACKGROUND INFO UNDER THE CUT

So if you haven't seen my other posts, I sort of have this thing for doing projects I know damn well shouldn't be done by Just Me however if there's 3 things I enjoy it's exacerbating my wrist problems, traditional animation, and social isolation so last year to get my mind of the trash fire of an election season I bought a bunch of cels and paint and started working on this short film. It's gonna be maybe 10-15 minutes when done and, aside from a handful of tweaks*, it is all traditional 2d animation - hand drawn AND painted (which is why the frame rate makes even the recycled clips in 80s he-man cringe) .

Anyway if you didn't gather from the intertitles, this [a FICTIONAL STORY WHERE EVERYONE IS FICTIONAL PLEASE NO ONE SUE ME] is about the US and Russia collaborating on a mission to Mars where they're gonna send some folks up there to hang out and do research indefinitely until another mission happens. While the crew - comprised of an astronaut Adam and a cosmonaut Yuri - is in transit, war breaks out between the US and Russia back on earth, snapping the ever tightening rubberband of willing cooperation between the countries. Everything goes to hell, and in this case it also threatens to compromise the mission, meaning an uncertain future for the crew, who have to choose between loyalty to the death cult of blind nationalism, or loyalty to science and each other.

I am aiming to finish this in 2025...The story has been in the works for a while, but I only recently felt like "huh I kinda wanna animate this"

Im sorry the music is so....Like That lol. I wanted to get this done today before I go back to work and like I don't think anyone who follows me really minds if it's not perfect rn. See I only have a keyboard at the moment and I was trying to do an aux cable from it to my laptop to keep from recording the UNMANAGEABLE CLOMPCLOMPCLOMPITYCLOMPPP of the keys but it just made the sound toilety uhg oh well. Anyway I am writing some original stuff for the eventual whole film, but for this trailer I arranged some snippets of Tchaikovsky's sleeping beauty for piano (the score is in the public domain fyi...My arrangement is my own...). I've got some other bits of that in the works as well which will also show up in the full film.

Oh another thing is, most of the technical stuff should be fairly grounded in science (maybe aside from some Artistic License Engineering for story/ease of animation reasons, but....). So there's that. I don't think it makes much of a difference for the trailer but IM TELLING YOU BECAUSE I DID SIT THERE AND PAINSTAKINGLY RUN A FUCKING ORBIT PROPAGATION ALGORITHM TO BALLPARK WHERE THE SHIP SHOULD BE AT CERTAIN POINTS IN THE NARRATIVE AND YOU WILL KNOW I SUFFERED. FOR YOU, THE AUDIENCE.

*full disclosure by tweaks I mean stuff it's barely noticeable to you but impractical for me bc cels are REALLY expensive, so stuff like blinking and mouth movements I drew in photoshop because that's probably 100s of mouth-or-eye cels I can't really afford to waste, and you can only scratch paint off and reuse a cel so many times before it looks like crap. Some of the panning I also did by scanning the hand drawn cels and then changing the subject position in photoshop for each frame because I'm compositing frames essentially by sticking them face down in a stack on my scanner bed and haven't found a good way to do it yet. I've attempted to built a little track before but can't get it flat enough for the cover to make contact with the frames and smash them into the glass. If you have a solution for this, let me know.

anyway the target audience of this is people who liked Apollo 13 but wished it was worse quality and was more gay and anarchist so if you are vaguely that please enjoy and follow for updates on this costly and questionable venture

[sseatherny]

I THINK HE KNOWS

📷 05 — I'll be in your care

You find yourself waking up earlier than usual. Your mind is immediately consumed by thoughts of everything that may unfold later in the day. You couldn't help but feel excited. After almost 3 years of pining, you're finally given a chance to talk to Sae.

As you rushed to get ready, you noticed that you were putting in extra effort into fixing yourself. For some unexplained reason, you felt the need to look your best. Shaking your head, you looked at your reflection in the mirror and whispered, “I'm only doing this for the project.”

Upon your arrival at school, you spot Bachira and Rin, with Rin seemingly getting annoyed by Bachira's antics. You approach the duo and pat them both on the back, prompting Bachira to tease you, asking you why you aren't wearing a wedding gown. Just as you were planning to respond, your alarm goes off, causing you to feel embarrassed.

Quickly shutting off the alarm, you hear Bachira let out a laugh. “Pfft, dreamy jazz, huh?”

You glared at him, and Rin sighed, watching the both of you. “How mature,” he thought. He checks his watch and says that it's time for class.

“I'll see you later.” He waves goodbye before heading off, leaving you with Bachira, who is still laughing.

[ 📷 ` ]

As the lecture came to a close, you felt a sense of relief wash over you. You had just endured a grueling 4-hour lecture, and you were eager for a break. As you were about to bury your head in your arms, your phone vibrated with a message from Rin.

“Who is it?” Bachira asked out of curiosity, tilting his head.

“It's Rin. He wants to meet us outside,” you replied as you began packing your things.

Bachira didn't ask any more questions and soon followed suit, packing up his things as well.

While the two of you were making your way out of the room, Rin was waiting for you outside. Already looking impatient. He began to walk before you even had the chance to say something.

“Where are we going, Rin?” You asked as you tried to catch up with him.

“I thought you wanted to talk with Sae?” Rin answered, furrowing his brows. Upon hearing his response, you froze in your spot, feeling nervous and excited all at once. Bachira, who noticed your nervousness, made an attempt to lighten the mood.

“You look like you're about to take a dump, lol,” He said, trying to make you laugh.

Of course, it didn't work.

“Shut up, you're not helping,” you glared.

After walking for over 15 minutes, Rin stopped and looked at you.

“Ready?” He asked. You gave him a thumbs up and tried to force a smile. Rin didn't say anything and just walked towards the door of Sae's class, which, luckily, was open.

Shidou, who was zoning out, saw the younger Itoshi outside, causing him to tap the older Itoshi's shoulder, getting his attention.

“What?” Sae replied, looking irritated.

“Your brother is outside,” Shidou answered, pointing at Rin. Upon seeing Rin, Sae stood up nearly immediately and walked towards him.

“Someone wants to talk to you,” Rin said to his brother.

“It's not a fan that's going to confess their love to you. Don't worry,” Rin added before turning to you, nodding his head, and signaling you to start talking to Sae.

“Hi! My name is Yn, and I'm a student in Ms. Rosedale's art class. We've been tasked with finding a model for our final project, and Ms. Rosedale suggested that you would be perfect for the job. So I was wondering if you'd be interested in being my model for the project. No pressure, of course! Feel free to decline if you're not interested. I completely understand.” You speak politely, forcing yourself to not smile like an idiot while speaking to Sae.

“Is it right now?” He asks as you finish speaking.

“Oh, no, no. It doesn't have to be right now,” you replied, shaking your head.

The student model asked several more questions about the project before finally nodding.

“Alright then. I'll be in your care. I look forward to working with you, Yn.”

SUMMARY. After being assigned the task of finding a model for a project, you, a student photographer, have to face the challenging task of approaching and persuading Itoshi Sae, whom you have a crush on, to be your model. Working with Sae is a huge opportunity to add a renowned name to your portfolio. The pressure and responsibility are real, but so is the chance to achieve something great.

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NOTE If your @ is in italics, it means that I can't tag you. :⁠-⁠(

[alfredojesta]

OC post but it's for jason the toymaker rewrite (THIS IS NOT AN OC X CANON POST I WILL BREAK DOWN SOBBING IF ANYONE THINKS ITS OC X CANON THANK YOU) (TS IS UNHEALTHY AS FUCK!!!!!!!) i wanna provide some info because i've been chipping away at this rework for a bit now and i've got. the basics if you will.

Margarethe is basically my version of Maggie (from Jason's OG story if you've read it you know) and Lizbeth is her sister (she acts as the replacement for Daisy. again if you've read the story you know LOL). they're VERY different in the rewrite. the only part i kept the same was Maggie's amnesia and dead parents

Marge is a 30 smth y/o woman with amnesia and she starts dating Jason who then proceeds to gaslight her for 3 years straight in an unhealthy relationship that ends with Marge getting turned to yet another doll. she works at a daycare before Jason tells her to quit because. erm. her job isn't that important anyway. Jason only dated her because she reminded him a lot of Amelia (and my version of Jason is always looking for a new Amelia to fill his void). Jason used her amnesia to his advantage, constantly demeaning her for her shitty memory and then reassuring her that her health problems don't make her any less deserving of good things

Lizbeth is Marge's fun-going half-sister who's a year younger. she's married to a wealthy guy and therefore uses his money for anything and everything. she met Jason first! she was like "WOAH YOUR TOY SHOP IS BEAUTIFUL MY SISTER WOULD LOVE IT HERE I'VE GOT TO BRING HER" BUT. the time between when she met Jason and when she introduced him to Marge was like... 7 years. because Marge was in a coma from when she was 15 to when she was 20. then for 7 years, Lizbeth forgot Jason existed until she was strolling London with Marge. only then did Lizbeth go "HOLY CRUD!!! I WONDER IF THAT TOY SHOP IS STILL OPEN!!!" and dragged Marge to the toy shop

anyway Jason doesn't like Lizbeth. funnily enough he always thought her name was Elizabeth which goes to show how little he cared about her LMFAO the last thing he ever said to her, when Lizbeth came to his flat sobbing about Marge being missing, was "I never liked you, Elizabeth." (then he shut the door on her and she stood frozen for a good minute.)

Marge loves Jason like she thought it was so cool he started his own business but it slowly dives into concern. As it always does. she gets confused abt his motives. she has so many memory gaps and Jason is alw telling her what happened (she can really only trust his word) she's left alone a lot but Jason also isolates her from others. she works until Jason tells her its better if she takes time off bc of her health. Marge cant say the same for Jason even tho hes constantly working. she in fact wanted to make connections with other people, and that is when they started to argue frequently. Jason became frustrated because why the hell is he putting so much effort into this woman (and then he decided, after a bit, he needed to fix her so he turns her into a doll.)

(There is no world where Jason can have a healthy relationship with a woman as long as Amelia is apart of his life. Jason sees all the women in his life as projects to work on and perfect. That's why he wants to keep them and gets angry when they try to leave. At that point, they've broken themselves again. And the only way to then perfect them is by turning them into a doll.)

this is also where mr. bunny comes into play because Marge wanted to purchase him and that's how she interacted with Jason for the first time. the fact Marge was a daycare assistant meant she was able to get free toys from Jason LOL it's sweet in theory but Jason thought acts of services were just ways to keep Marge at bay ^_^ so she wont consider leaving. god bless his stupid fucking brain and its dumbass way of thinking

n e way their relationship was toxic as fuck but was Jason's longest relationship . he only saw her as a replacement for Amelia though so it's safe to say he never truly loved her.

[skimmingmilk]

your writing style is awesome man how do you approach new work? does it start with other scenes written then formed together or everything from the start? what's a writing rule you personally follow?

Thank you so much! Sorry it took a minute to get to this, but I really appreciate the question and wanted to give it some thought.

For me, the majority of my new works are usually inspired by a single scene. Something that really stands out and has an emotional impact in my brain or just seems like a cute idea I'd like to try and capture with words. If it seems like a small enough thing, I can usually just write a one shot about it, but a lot of the time I'll wait to see if another scene or two come to mind that would fit well with the initial scene idea. Like collecting pieces of a puzzle.

For example, with "Relative Dissonance," I think the first scene I thought of was the flashback scene of Tails with the collider and the portal. The second scene was him closing the portal in that new dimension, knowing he would never be able to go home again, but doing it anyway because it was the only way to save the world he ended up in, with the Underground triplets, and trying to say goodbye to Sonic. Then the third scene was the triplets initially finding him at a service station in the middle of a desert landscape when their van breaks down, lol. Once I had those, I started piecing together the rest of the story, trying to figure out "how did Tails get here, why does he have to close the portal forever, how would he react to Underground Sonic and Sonia and Manic, how would they react to him, what happens when he leaves, do they have their own Tails in this universe?" and then I write to find a way to answer those questions.

Sometimes I find out that a story beat doesn't work because it just doesn't answer any pressing questions and doesn't make sense if there isn't a reason for it being there. It's really tough to decide to cut a scene, but in the end, it's all for the sake of coming up with a tighter, more cohesive story. And sometimes it paves the way for a better scene!

Even when I cut them though, I don't delete scenes entirely. Even if I don't end up keeping it in the fic, I put it in a scrap folder so I can reference it or pull ideas from it later. I'm pretty sure something I've cut from one story has come back in modified way for a different fic. And that applies to my original fiction, too! I have so many old folders on my computer, some of them over 15 years old! You know, just in case ;P

But there always exceptions! Especially with fanfics. There are some scenes that I originally cut and ended up putting back in just because I liked them! I'm doing this all because I love it and I want to see these stories on paper and share them with people, while also practicing my skills and growing as a writer in the process. Writing rules are important to know, so that you know precisely when it's a good time to break them :) That goes for characters, pacing, tone, everything. It's a creative art form for a reason. If we didn't have the option to subvert general writing rules from time to time, I personally think it'd take a bit of the fun out of creating.

So, personally, I try to write in a way that serves the story, but will occasionally override that if I really, really want something to be a part of it. I'll work hard to make sure the story elements that make me happy get to stay :)

Hope this was helpful or interesting to you! Thanks again for the ask! :D

[justmeinadaze]

Take It Out On Me Part 15 (Steddie X Plus Size Reader)

A/N with Warnings: Daddy Steve/ Sir Eddie and Plus Size Sub Fem reader, No Smut today but all the angst and fluff. Readers Ex makes an appearance and goes about as well as you would expect lol These three talk about their insecurities but the reader more so when it comes to them (feeling guilty about school and stuff like that), she also talks about her weight and how people see her (including her ex) in a negative light.

Please never forget, you are so beautiful. From top to bottom no matter what you look like you are gorgeous and I love you <3.

Word Count: 4766

“That’ll be $1.15.”, Steve grins as the two girls in front of him try to contain their laughter as they hand him their money and he returns their change. “Thank you, ladies, and have a nice day.” His smile immediately falls as they giggle and run off. 

“Way to go, Popeye. You really know how to get the girls going.”, Robin mocks with a grin on the other side of her window in the backroom. 

“To be fair, I’m not trying to. I just look fucking ridiculous in this…thing.”, he gestures at his uniform. 

“Yup, company policy sucks but just remember you’re doing it for love.”, she grins as she pokes his nose. “Speaking of…” Robin points behind him and as he turns, meeting your beautiful face his whole demeanor changes.

“I’m taking my lunch.”, he announces, throwing the hat he was wearing behind her. 

Coming around the counter, he promptly lifts you in his arms, squeezing you tightly to his chest. 

“Whoa!”, you giggle. “Are you ok, babe?”

“Yes, I’m just ready to sit with you and take a break.”

You take his hand as you both walk to the food court in the mall the boys work in. “Eddie should be on his lunch in a few minutes. When I passed the record store, he was almost done putting the cassettes away.”

After grabbing your food, you both make small talk as you wait for the metalhead. Small talk for them is the usual check in for you. They’ll ask how your day was and if anything new happened in class. You always felt a little bad talking about school especially with Steve since he had genuinely tried to apply to places before getting rejected. But when they asked you something you were supposed to answer so you did with as minimal details as possible. 

“It was extremely boring with the same old basics we did for four years already.”, you roll your eyes and he chuckles. 

“Have you thought about a major yet?”

“I’m still not sure. I really like my English classes…I was thinking maybe I could teach or something.”

“Well, you were always good at teaching us.”

Suddenly, headphones are placed over your ears as Eddie threw his body into the chair next to yours and pressed play on the cassette player in his hand. 

“Um…what is this?”

“Its garbage is what it is. My store keeps fucking playing it on repeat and it’s like a stab in the heart every time. I’m not a big fan of Bowie or Jagger but what the fuck?”

“’Hello Y/N and Steve. How are you today?’”, Steve taunts in his friend’s direction who scowls in response as he lightly pulls off the headphones from your head careful not to tug your hair.

“Hello Y/N. How are you today, princess?”

“I’m ok, baby. Thank you.” You grin as you lean over to kiss his lips. 

***

Life since high school hadn’t been easy but being with them was the perfect type of Novocain. You could have the worst day in the world and be absolutely ok as soon as you landed in their arms. Sometimes when they slept, you would lay there and just trace Steve’s back with the pads of your fingers or caress Eddie’s cheek as you brushed his hair back. You never told them but you still had some insecurities when it came to them, the biggest one being “what are they doing with me?”.

It always made you feel guilty, hiding those things from them, but they had already been through so much. You didn’t want to add anymore burdens to their minds. 

“What are you thinkin’ about, hon?”, Masie asked as you push the library cart forward so she can grab the next set of books to put on the shelf. The school library was hiring students when the two of you went job hunting and you were thankful for the opportunity. It didn’t pay much but it was on campus and you got to work with your best friend. 

“The guys.”

“What about them? Trouble in paradise?”

“No. Nothing like that. I just…I’ve been keeping some things from them and I feel guilty.”

“Things like…”

“How much I actually enjoy a lot of my classes and my job with you. I’ve also been…insecure…lately.”

“Mhmm. I swear to God Y/N, if you tell me you think you’re ugly I will slap you.”

You both quietly laugh as you move forward. “No. I don’t know. To me they’re perfect, you know?”

“Yeah, they are definitely not perfect and very much pains in the ass but they’re YOUR pain in the ass.”

##########

Eddie sighed as he flipped through the magazine at the counter. With it being a Monday, most of the kids and shoppers were in their respective places so his record store was boringly quiet. The bell chimed as someone stepped in and casually headed for the front counter.

“Hey yeah, welcome to Hawkins Records. If you have any questions, feel free to ask.”

“I have one actually.”

The metalhead glances over at the man in the military uniform standing before him. When his eyes finally land on his face, his anger boils over. 

“Get the fuck out of my store.”

“Look, I just want to talk, man. Is Steve Harrington around to?”

“We don’t give a fuck what you have to say, Christian. Leave. Now.”

“Let me talk to you both. As soon as I say what I want, I promise I’ll disappear.”

Eddie glares as he heavily exhales and reaches for the phone to dial Scoops Ahoy.

***

Both men scowled at the boy sitting across from them in the food court. Thankfully, you had class around this time so you weren’t able to eat with them on Mondays. 

“I imagine Y/Ns told you about me.”

“About how you hid her and humiliated her? Yeah, she did.”, Steve spat. 

“I deserve that. I’m-I’m not proud of what I did. Those two years in the academy and then signing up for service… I’ve learned a lot and grown up. I want the chance to apologize.”

“Great. We’ll tell her you said sorry.”

“I’d like to do it in person.”

“No fucking way. We’re not letting you anywhere near her.”, Eddie growled.

“I know where she works. I could have talked to her already but I chose to come here first out of respect.”

“No, I think you came here first because if we found out you tried to talk to her we would beat your ass.”

“Really, Munson? Beat my ass? I’d love to see you try.” Eddie began to stand but Steve grabbed his sleeve, bringing him back down. “I am going to talk to her whether you like it or not. This is just a courtesy.”

“Haven’t you hurt her enough? Leave her alone.”

“Me, Harrington? The way I hear it, you two ruined her life way more than I ever could. Hell, you got her kicked out of her house and the entire student body calling her a whore.” Rising to his feet, Christian gathers his things, turning towards them again. “Ask her if she’d want to talk to me and see what she says. I’ll bet you anything she does.”

***

“Hey, guys. Did you have a good day?”, you beam at them from your spot at the table where you were doing your homework. 

“Yeah, baby, we did.” Steve came over to give you a kiss as Eddie did the same, gently brushing your hair back. 

“Are you alright, Sir? You look sad.”

“I’m fine, sweetheart. I just missed you.” After kissing your forehead, he heads for the kitchen to grab a beer. “Should we tell her?”, he murmurs to his friend who’s leaning on the counter next to him. 

“No. She doesn’t need that stress right now.”

“Or ever.”

“What are you two whispering about?”, you giggle. 

“We were just trying to think of what we should get for dinner. I’ve been craving some Chinese food. What about you, honey?”

“That sounds good, Daddy. Do you guys want to watch a movie while we eat?”

“Sure.”, he grins. 

Your head ticks to the side at the action. Something’s wrong with his smile. They both seem on edge but you can’t tell why. For the moment, you let it go, assuming whenever they are ready they will tell you what is on their mind. 

##########

“Hey, space cadet!”, Robin raises her voice as she waves her hand in front of Steve’s face. “I asked you if you could go to the back and refill the chocolate for me. What’s up with you?”

“Y/N should be here by now. My break is in five and she always meets me here beforehand.”

“Maybe she got caught up with Munson or class ran long.”

After doing what she asked, he threw off his hat and headed to the food court, shocked when he found Eddie sitting by himself. 

“She’s not with you?”

“Naw, dude. She usually walks down here with you.”

“Should we go to the campus and—”

You shuffled around Steve without saying a word and threw your body down into one of the chairs at the table in front of them. 

“Where have you been? Are you alright?”, Eddie asks as he reached over to touch your face. You grimaced at the action and abruptly pulled yourself away. His eyes narrowed in your direction, trying to control his tone in this public setting. “What’s got your panties in a knot?”

Your fury filled gaze shifted from him to Steve who had sat down across from his friend. This was completely new to them. They had seen you angry before but never this angry. 

“Something you wanted to share with me, Eddie?”

It wasn’t uncommon for you to use their names while you three were at the mall. It was always usually crowded and they understood that anyone may catch you using their titles. But the way you said his name just then was like you felt he didn’t deserve the title he was given of being your Master. 

“You need to control that tone with me, little girl.”

“No, then? What about you, Steve? Anything?”

The man’s jaw tightened as his palms clenched into fist. “He went to your work, didn’t he?”

“Very good. Yes, Christian, the man that broke my fucking heart suddenly appeared without warning at my job to say he wanted to talk to me. If that wasn’t startling enough, what really threw me was when he asked if you two talked to me yesterday about speaking with him. It’s funny because I don’t remember us having that fucking conversation. Do you?”

“We were trying to protect you.”, Steve mumbled. 

“Liar.” His head turned furiously in your direction. “You weren’t trying to protect me. You were protecting yourselves. He’s the only other person I was serious with before you two. The only person I really fucking cared about.”

“Tread lightly, Y/N, because you are about to be in a lot of fucking trouble.”, Eddie warned.

“More than you already are.”, Steve followed. “Do you really think we’re that insecure? If you want to run back to that fucking dick, be our guest.”

“Tread lightly, Steven. Eddie played this game with Billy Hargrove and last I remembered you both hated it.”

“No, honey, you did. Don’t you fucking forget that we are the only people who took fucking care of you, protected you, and fucked you properly. Everything we do, we do for you.”

“You should have told me he was in town.”

“We had no reason to. You’re not fucking talking to him.”

You chuckled sarcastically as you rose to your feet, pausing when Eddie’s hand grabbed your wrist. 

“We aren’t done here.”

Yanking your arm from his grasp, you scowl at him as you try to control your emotions. Yeah, you kept some things from them but nothing like this. It hurt you that they didn’t tell you about Christian. More than anything it killed you that they didn’t seem to trust you enough to make that choice on your own.

“Yes, we are.”

***

You showed up to Enzos early, fearing that history was going to repeat itself, but after finding the courage to walk in, there he was, sitting at a table in the back.

“Christian.”

“Hey, Y/N. You look beautiful.”

“No.”, you cut him off before he could continue. “That’s not what this is. You said you wanted to talk to me so I’m here to hear what you have to say. This isn’t a date or anything like that.”

He nods, tilting his head as he watched you take a seat before doing so himself. 

“I can respect that. I, uh, I was a real jackass back then. I know I hurt you.” You snicker at his last sentence as you reach for the glass of wine in front of you. “I’m so sorry, Y/N. I should have taken you out on more dates and showed you off. I shouldn’t have told Bobby Rushmore that you were just my friend. I…I shouldn’t have humiliated you that night…at the party.”

Christian’s hand reached across the table to try and grab your own but you immediately tugged it away. 

“What did you do?”

“What?”

“At that party. What did you do? What did you say?”

The man leans back in his seat as he crosses his arms over his chest. “I said some mean shit about your weight.”

“Christian. What. Did. You. Say…”

He sighs in frustration as he shrugs. “Does it matter? I’m not like that anymore.”

“You said that she was obsessed with you and you did her a favor by dating you.” Eddie comes out of nowhere, spinning the empty chair at the table around and straddling it as he takes a seat. 

“You also said that she was too gross and ugly for anyone to even want to date her.” Steve angrily threw himself down across from his friend.

Your eyes never left Christians as they spoke. “You don’t remember that do you?”

“Exactly? No but I guess you do.”

“You spineless bastard. Why did you really come back because it wasn’t for me. Not to apologize at least.” When his hazel eyes found yours, you knew. He didn’t need to say it. “Well, please. Enlighten me. What surprised you more? They fact that I wasn’t still sitting at home alone crying over you or that not only had I moved on but I was with two people?”

He smirked as he shook his head and rose to his feet as he began putting on his jacket. “Honestly? It wasn’t the fact that you were with two people but who you were with. Knowing that you lowered your standards so low to fuck the freak that even Steve the king Harrington was able to get a free ride… I thought I could have another turn. Maybe help lift that self-esteem.”

Steve’s fist flew before anyone else could do anything about it. You and Eddie stayed in your seats as the other boy lifted Christian by his collar and shoved his back onto the table.

“Apologize.”, he growled.

“Fuck you, Harrington!”

The restaurant went quiet as he punched him again. Grabbing your own jacket, you finally stood up and gripped his now bloody face in your hand. 

“The only time I ever lowered my standards was when I dated you. It was good to see you, Christian.” When you let him go, you spit in his face before walking out the front door, not even caring if the boys were following you or not. 

***

They both entered the apartment a little after you, Eddie slamming the door behind him. As you exited the bedroom, you waved Steve to the table as you set the first aid kit on top of it.

“You know, we are really going to have to get more antiseptic and gauze if you guys and my family are going to keep punching people for my honor.”

Your tone was calm as you began cleaning his hand and it was making Eddie angry.

“That’s all you have to say? After having an attitude today and then still having dinner with your ex.”

“I don’t know if you noticed but no one ate at that table.”, you sneered. 

Steve’s jaw tightened at your tone. “Vanilla.”

You paused your movements, not looking up from his hand as he said the safe word. “Do you want me to let you go?”

“No, Y/N, you don’t have to. Eddie, come sit down.”

The metalhead cautiously took a seat across from you both as his friend sighed. “I wanted the three of us to have a civil discussion with the safety net of the word because I don’t know about Munson but I am extremely angry with you right now, honey. And… knowing how we are…I can’t guarantee I can keep my emotions in check if this led to us playing.”

After wrapping his hand, you leaned back in your chair, folding your arms as you glared at him. “You have no right to be angry.”

“Excuse me. We have every right. We told you not to go.”, Eddie scolded as he leaned his elbows onto the table.

“And I respect that but that’s not how OUR dynamic works. The three of us talk about things before we do them! This choice was mine to make but if he had come to me first, I would have told him I had to talk to you two.” You chuckled lightly under your breath. “Actually, I’m lying. I still would have told you he came by but there would be no need to have a discussion. I wouldn’t have gone. I had a feeling that was his motive as soon as I saw him.”

“Why did you go tonight?”

“Because you pissed me off.”, you sigh. “It…it hurt when I found out you didn’t tell me. I wanted to hurt you to.”

“Why do you think we thought you’d want to fuck him?”, Eddie growled out his question, hating even the thought. 

You pointed to Steve before moving to the metalhead. “Everyone has a motive and everyone is going to leave.” They both roll their eyes as you shrug. 

“Wait a minute… if you thought that we would ever think that that means you’ve thought about it to.”

“What the fuck are you talking about, Steve?”

“Y/N, we swear on our lives that it didn’t even cross our minds that you would take that asshole back and leave us. Honestly, we know if you ever left us it would be because you thought you were helping us.”

“Like a few months ago, Miss IM-A-Burden.”, Eddie follows as his eyes scan you over. “Sweetheart, are you afraid we’re going to leave you?”

“No.” You tried to say it as confidently as possible but it came out more like a little kid trying to hide something. “Not exactly.”

“What is it exactly?”

You bite the inside of your cheek as you turn away from Steve, your eyeline promptly running into Eddie’s. 

“Wow. Really, Y/N?”, he sighs. “After every fucking thing we’ve been through.”

The other boy’s eyes shift between you both. “How do you do that? How do you read her mind?”

“It’s not so much mind reading as it is knowing her history…and feeling the same way.” Your eyebrows furrow together in his direction as he nods. “Oh yeah. You seriously think I fell in love with the most beautiful girl in Hawkins and DON’T wonder what the fuck she’s doing with me?”

“I’m not the most beautiful but thank you.”

Steve’s fingers abruptly grip your cheeks as he forces you to look at him. “Don’t ever let me hear you say that again. You hear me?” After a couple of seconds, he realizes how he’s holding you and lets you go. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay, Daddy.”, you whisper.

“It’s not just your looks, sweetheart. I mean from head to toe, yeah, you’re fucking gorgeous but you’re also so smart. I like when you eat lunch with us and tell us about class. I kind of wish you opened up about it more. Sometimes I worry you’re struggling because you aren’t as animated as you used to be.” You grin as he mimics your expressive hands when you speak. 

“I don’t want to make you guys feel bad. I know you tried so hard to get into school especially Steve.”

“Baby, no. I love seeing you get excited about that kind of stuff. Don’t ever feel like you can’t tell us things. Y/N, you can talk about anything.”

“Do…do you ever think that? Wonder why I’m with you?”

Steve leans back in his chair as he exhales. “Kind of. It’s not so much why you’re with me but why you even gave me a chance after everything. When we first started our thing, I thought it was just sex. Not like…that…you know like…you just liked having sex with us…” You smiled as you watched him stumble over his explanation. “Then at night, I’ll wake up and feel you running your fingers along my back, reminding me of that first night we fell asleep together. I think ‘if she did it then to maybe she did have feelings for me. Why?’”

“A vicious cycle.”, you giggle and he smiles.

“Why do you do that? And come to think of it why do you trace his back but touch my face?”

“Jesus. I seriously thought you guys were asleep when I did that.” You hide your head in your hands as you blush before facing them again. “You don’t lay on your tummy as much as he does! I don’t know. I think as long as I can touch some part of you both, it helps ground me and reminds me that this isn’t a dream. That you both are really here with me. That’s when those insecurities push through.”

Your eyes scan Steve over as he heavily exhales and you continue. “It wasn’t just sex. Honestly, I didn’t know what it was but, you guys always said you found me fascinating…that’s nothing compared to how I felt about you two. Mr. King of the popular kids and resident bad boy of Hawkins…every day I learned something new about you two that just surprised me but what shocked me most was the softness.”

“Softness? Like we weren’t assholes 24/7?”, Eddie chuckled.

“Kind of.”, you grin. “After that first night, you gave me your shirt and then fixed mine. Baby, you literally took the time to sew the buttons back on. Steve for most of junior year always seemed so tightly wound. At his party that night when he fell asleep, I moved some of your hair out of the way and your face immediately calmed so I crawled in to hold you. That next morning after we…you laid your head on my stomach and Eddie held my hand and I just…I felt safe. I never felt that with Christian.”

“I’m sorry we didn’t tell you he was here.”

“You were right, sweetheart. We should have said something. We really were just trying to protect you.”

You smile at them both as you shrug. “It’s ok. I’m going to go to bed. It’s been a long day.”

“Y/N, baby, can you please eat something before you do?”

“Yes, Sir.”, you whisper exhaustedly as you head for the counter to grab some fruit before pausing. “I’m sorry. I assumed Vanilla was lifted. I should have asked.”

“Do you want it lifted? Not saying like we’re going to run there and tie you down or anything.”, the metalhead grins trying to lighten the mood.

“Yeah, of course. I’m ok.”

“Y/N?”

“Yes, Daddy?”

“Do you want us to sleep out here tonight?”

“God no. It feels weird sleeping without you two next to me now but I, um, I understand if you want to though.”, you give them one final smile as you head for the bedroom.

As you stand in front of the mirror, you can’t help but stare at your reflection. You were being honest when you said you had figured out Christian’s intentions as soon as you saw him but that didn’t mean it still didn’t hurt. Now that everything with the guys was sorted out, you were now able to fully feel your feelings when it came to him. 

When Eddie and Steve touched or looked at you, you knew they never saw a plus sized girl. They only ever saw you which is one of the many things you loved about them. It never made sense to you, however, how some people like them could see a strong, beautiful woman and other people like Christian or Steve’s dad saw a pathetic, disgusting, desperate girl.

Looking away, you headed for the closet and grabbed one of Eddie’s shirts before climbing into bed. As you laid down, you glared at the wall on the other side of the room, replaying those months you had been with your ex. How unhappy you had been contrasted to how you felt since you’d been with the boys.

The bed dipped on both sides of you as the metalhead threw off his top and placed himself in front of you on his back, tugging you to his chest. Steve wrapped his arms around your waist, placing soft kisses along your shoulders. With the hand that you had on Eddie’s chest, you extended your finger and traced his tattoos the same way you did with the other man’s back. 

He pleasantly sighed at the feeling, moving his own palm out of the way so you could reach more of his stomach. His head turned slightly allowing him to place his lips on your forehead. 

“I walked the ward for you, babe A thousand miles for you Now who dried my tears of pain, babe? A million times for you, for you.”

You smile as he wraps his arm around your neck, tugging you closer to his face as his lips scrunch and he continues to sing. 

“I'd sell my soul for you, babe What's money to burn for you, for you I'd give you all, and have none, babe Justa, justa have you here by me Because…”

Giggling, you lightly fight against his hold not wanting him to really let you go. Steve raises the arm that’s not under your pillow into the air as both boys sing in unison. 

“In the midnight hour she cried more, more, more!”

“You both are so dumb.”, you grin as you roll onto your back and Eddie turns to face you. 

“I hear that in the store and it makes me think of you. To be fair though, everything makes me think of you.”

“Same especially since I don’t get to listen to music or anything like that so I literally spend my afternoons waiting for you.”

“I think about you both to but especially you, Daddy.” You turn towards Eddie and pretend to be talking only to him but loud enough so Steve can hear. “Do you think you could be serious when we play if he was wearing his work uniform?”

“Hm…is he wearing the hat?”

“Oh of course.”

“I think I could do it.”

“Yeah, ok, keep making your jokes but you can’t say you don’t find it sexy.” Steve wiggles his shoulders as he runs his fingers down his chest sexily making you giggle. 

“Maybe next time? If you guys aren’t too exhausted.”

“Never too tired for you, princess.” Eddie leans over to kiss your cheek as Steve wraps his arm around you again. 

“Wait a minute. I just realized none of us have eaten. The fuck are we doing in bed like an old couple?”

“I ate!” The metalhead reaches behind him and flashes the one bite of the apple you brought in with you. “That’s technically eating.”

He raises his eyebrows in playful warning as Steve jumps out of bed. “I’m assuming Enzos is out but we have some frozen pizza.”

“Can we eat in here? I’m still tired.”

Eddie smooths your hair as kisses your temple. “Oh, they are doing a B movie marathon tonight. You know how much Harrington loves those monster movies.”

“I can hear you!”, Steve hollers as he comes back into the room. “But I don’t mind those black and white ones. They’re so stupid.”

You softly smile as you watch them talk to each other so happy that they are yours. 

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[anime-chick]

thank you @improvised-chaos for posting that interview!

i continue to love kanata hongo:

Hongo : Yusuke and Kuwabara are humans, and Kurama is also in human form, so Hiei is the only pure yokai out of these four. So, I wanted to maintain a coldness, or rather an inorganic feeling, or a feeling of being alien when standing side by side with humans, so I always tried to keep a single wall between them as I played them. From there, as we fought together, little by little, I began to open up my mind to the idea that maybe humans are okay too.

and

Hongo : In addition to the sword, there were a lot of parts to attach to the waist and hands, and there was special makeup, so I was the only one who got in earlier than everyone else. Kitamura : I looked at the schedule and felt sorry for [him] (lol) Hongo : Even when the lunch break ends, everyone is supposed to arrive at the site about 5 minutes early, but I'm the only one who comes in about 15 minutes early and puts on one item at a time, and if I make a mistake in the order, I have to start over. That was a little difficult (lol)

also also

Hongo : Hiei is a character where a sense of speed is important, so he didn't make his body any bigger, but he practiced a lot of the actions he had to actually perform, such as swinging his sword, and his arms and legs were always pumped up. In the original work, Hiei is a little smaller than everyone else, and I wanted to keep that in mind as an image, but since I can't shorten his height, I have to change the way he holds his sword when he's fighting. I made it about 2 steps lower than normal. I fought in a state where I was constantly squatting, and my legs hurt a lot. Everyone goes through hard times and overworks their bodies, and I think that's what makes it so good.

[adventuresasmrsfindley]

I am v tired.

My husband is so pro-kids sports and like that's fine. It is good for him. But I would much rather do it on the weekend. It's such a long day when I work a full time job, also have to entertain the kid solo while working said job, then get off work and have to rush to a practice, then rush home and make dinner, clean up, get him bathed and in bed, etc.

Not to mention he is so painfully shy. He loves wrestling so we are doing a 3 day camp in the evenings this week. It's an hour and 15 minutes. It took us 30 minutes and sooooo much convincing before he even stepped foot on the mat tonight. ��� He did so great once he got out there but omg. Having to be a supportive and calm parent when I just wanted to scream GET OUT ON THE DAMN MAT!!! drained me lol. I was proud of him for finally getting out there and hopefully tomorrow goes much smoother since he knows what to expect.

My husband is going THROUGH IT mentally with all the back stuff and thinking about switching careers because of said back stuff and like I am trying so hard to hold it together for everyone but today I am struggling. A few more days and then I get a break and I know I will miss them once I'm gone but right now it cannot come soon enough.

[johnwickb1tsch]

14, 15, & 24 Plz 🤲🧐

Wire!!!!! 😊😊😊 Thank you dearest! Um I apologize in advance🤣 but here goes: 

14. Favorite book you read this year?

I fell in love with the Crazy Rich Asians trilogy by Kevin Kwan this year. Those books are SO funny and interesting and smart, I had a blast ripping through them and I definitely want to reread them again soon. Rachel Chu & Nick Young’s lovestory is like the purest thing ever, I love them so much.  

15. What’s a bad habit you picked up this year?

Welllllllll…. 😂😂😂 *sweats* There were definitely times this year when I was so obsessed with a story I was writing that I couldn’t bring myself to do Adult Tasks that really needed doing. I had a genuine mental block, I just couldn’t make myself do it. I put off a lot of things to the absolute last minute 😂 like taxes and various work tasks (i’m self employed, so if I don’t do it, The Things do not get done). I did manage to pull it off but maybe with some erm added stress that was totally my own fault.

I was thinking about this even before you asked, like what the fuck was my deal? Because I’m definitely feeling different/better now, despite the stress of the holidays. I usually don’t have a problem getting stuff done. I always turned my homework in on time LOL like I feel like once upon a time I had my shit together.

But I think the pandemic warped my brain. I was the primary breadwinner that year and the year after, i didn’t have any time to do any art at all, I didn’t get to chill at home because I work at home, it was just GRIND GRIND GRIND trying not to drown in bills and take care of my family. This year I got a little break and my brain was like “bitch you’re making THE ART!” Maybe this is way more information than you actually wanted 😂 i'm sorry.  There is probably something really telling here, like is this why I'm drawn to stories about scary rich men who kidnap reader and take care of everything for her whether she likes it or not? 🤣 Being a Girl Boss is haaard!    

24.  Did you keep any New Year’s Resolutions?

Usually I do make some resolutions but I don’t remember making ANY last year 😂. My auntie took my husband and I on a cruise around South America to Antarctica last December/January. It was so surreal being surrounded by icebergs on a big ass ship I don’t think I was thinking about resolutions at home at all. 😂 I was thinking about penguins and shore excursions and being sea sick and John Wick fic 🤣🤣. And I haven’t finished EITHER of the fics I was brainstorming about then! The NurseHelen x John one, and the Helen’sSisterReader x John one. Maybe that should be my resolution this year? I guess back in October I decided to get back into jogging/exercising and I have been keeping up with that. So that’s cool… 😬 Wow I feel like a fucking mess here 🤣 this is probably way too much information but I want to be honest with you guys, so this is Behind The Scenes here at Julia Inc. Here have some penguins:

[white-weasel]

Ideal Hypothetical Saw Film Reroll episode(s)

(This is something I’ve been thinking about as I’ve watched through the movies and @afoxnamedmulder also formally asked about it so I took that as full permission from him to just start spewing my every thought about these two things together. This post is hyper niche and for literally like 3 people but idec lets gooooo)

So the first thought is if the Film Reroll crew were to ever reroll Saw it would obviously be the first one. It’s the most culturally relevant one and the one that most fits with what I can see the show doing. In the case of rerolling Saw I, ideally the players would not have seen the movie. Like I said, since this is the most culturally significant one this might be hard but I’m gonna go off of both vibes and play style for this one and just hope that it works

For the GM it’s gonna be Paulo. I just feel he could do the cramped space of the bathroom justice and bring in new “challenges”/obstacles to keep things moving.

Playing Lawrence Gordon, and this is gonna sound crazy please bear with me, I think we get Carolyn Faye Kramer. My reasoning for this is that the Lawrence of Saw I is someone who, despite his task being to kill Adam and cut off his foot, does not actually have the ability to do it until the very end when his family is threatened. If we put Jon or Scott here, Gordon is shooting Adam within the first 15 minutes of the movie. Carolyn I feel can play someone very conflicted about the choice and also won’t immediately jump to trusting whatever Jigsaw is saying on the tape. She’s willing to cooperate with her fellow player and only if she’s pushed to take things into her own hands will she start trying to make moves, which I feel is fitting. (Also she’s the only cast member I feel like we can say 100% has never seen these movies lmao lest we forget the infamous Friday the 13th “I know who the killer is” fiasco” happening because she doesn’t like scary movies)

My first choice playing Adam Faulkner-Stanheight would be none other than Joz Vammer themself! I think they could really get the tone of the character down full stop. The mixture of outbursts and jokes, but then also throwing things at the wall to see what sticks in getting them out of there. I feel like Joz also would not accept the zero sum game presented by Jigsaw and would work to find a way for both Adam and Lawrence to get out together, which is really what you need for this movie. In my heart I feel like Joz has seen the movie, but for this scenario I would hope not because…

The twist in this reroll would be there has been a 3rd PC the whole time: Zep Hindle. I would LOVE for Tim to play Zep. He could 100% play this quiet, envious guy given instructions to carry out his part of the game. My imagining for this would be he and Paulo had a session before the main game that was all about how Zep handled the set up stuff with Alison and Diana.

And then I’m envisioning the bathroom game sessions are happening on a Zoom call or the like, and Tim is sitting with Paulo in his apartment, letting him know what Zep is doing if/when phone calls to the outside world are happening and stuff. Also Paulo could totally call for “breaks” in recording where he’s actually conferring and rolling with Tim on what Zep is doing. The knowledge Zep gets is basically the equivalent of him getting to know stuff because of the camera set up in the movie. This would probably be a logistical nightmare to actually record, but I like to think that the payoff would be awesome. Like it gets revealed there was a secret third player in the episode, Joz and Carolyn are shocked, and then the edit goes back in time to show key tidbits of Tim’s turns and such. They could even release the full audio of it then on Patreon lol

The reveal at Zep being a PC rather than an NPC also kinda parallels/coincides with him not actually being Jigsaw from the original movie too. He’s not the one actually making things happen, he’s all a pawn in the game as well

HOWEVER I also had the thought - if the crew does Saw they don’t HAVE to do the first one. They didn’t do the first Friday the 13th and hell, their first episode is literally Back to the Future 2, not the first movie. If the crew just wanted to do a Saw episode to focus on the trap aspect when they’re playing, I think they could play as the Fatal 5 from Saw V (blatant Saw V bias showing here, don’t look at me, but also I genuinely think this is the group game most conducive to being rerolled). It’s also very likely that none of them have seen Saw V, so the “twist” with the traps being all survivable wouldn’t be known to them

It was between Saw V and Saw II because those are the two group games where all of the participants are free to work together and it’s not reliant on one person. I like Saw V better because I feel it can be self contained more than II. With II you have to deal with the fact Amanda is in on all of it and idk I feel like that just doesn’t work as well for a ttrpg setting. Casting for this one is a lot more vibes based and I have less concrete answers, so I’m open to suggestions

GM - Paulo once again. King of making this all work

Ashley Kazon - Carolyn (don’t know too much about Ashley but I want Carolyn in this movie and feel she could work this)

Charles Salomon - Scott (he could do it. He could bring the smarmy vibes and even though he wouldn’t know the line “I’m an Investigative Journalist for 👆The Herald👆” he would know it in spirit)

Luba Gibbs - Jon (first of all, we don’t get Jon to play women enough on this show. I love him playing Annabelle in Jumanji. Secondly, I think he can play Luba’s cut throat nature well. However I also wouldn’t mind Lisa in this role. I think she could play it well also)

Mallick Scott - Andy (he might be a bit too sedate for this, but also he’s the one I trust the most to play into the inevitable guilt complex that would be put on his sheet so)

Brit Stevenson - Kara (she could 100% do corporate woman who cares only for her own survival until she realizes that she doesn’t HAVE to care only for her own survival. I believe in her)

No twist in how the gameplay happens here, the only fun thing would be to see if the cast would be able to figure out Jigsaw’s message in that they can all actually work together to get through the traps.

FINALLY the most self indulgent thing and the thing they would never actually do because it technically wouldn’t be the movie itself is they would give us an apprentice campaign with the mainline apprentices working together before the start of Saw III/Saw IV, each of them with their own specific, secret objectives they’re hoping to achieve:

GM/John Kramer would be Paulo

Amanda would be Joz (Fairly self explanatory I feel. They have the range to play her. They would GET her)

Lawrence would be Andy (I feel Andy could pull off apprentice Lawrence. Lawrence strikes me as someone in the shadows during his apprentice work, biding his time, and I can see Andy bringing that sort of thing to Lawrence. At the same time there’s some room to develop apprentice Lawrence’s motivations and character so I would be interested in seeing what he’d do for him)

Hoffman would be Scott (Hoffman was the hardest for me to pin down in this line up but I think I like Scott as my pick for now. Open to more thoughts about this one though.)

In every scenario there would be will rolls up the wazoo. I feel like will stats in this would be fairly normal, it would just be the penalties that would make the rolls hard. So I like to imagine that cutting your own foot off is probably a -5 penalty or something, but if you’re in immediate, imminent danger or you have credible reason to think your family is in danger you’d get some bonuses back to make it a less tricky roll. Also numerous fright checks would also be on the table I’m sure, as well as senses of duty or different traits people will have to resist. I think building the character sheets for this would be fun, though it would be interesting to see how it would get balanced out by Paulo when actually playing

[punkinvsblogging]

2025.02.05.

Me levante, casi eran las 2 de la mañana y hablé con mi amigo de México

Ended up exercising for 2 hours and finishing 15 minutes before work

Work

Nap

Work

Greater, larger, more powerful nap

Books and bracelets (Is this my life now?)

reminded myself that it's okay to take breaks from books about history because it's rough out here

Miré Cesta de Frutas

I got fired maybe last week? I had my last session with a client today. He was new. He said that he wanted to work with me next week. I was like oop lol Everything is recorded there. I hope someone hears that. Even if they don't, that was a nice way to end things. (Been) Ready to move on. <3 I got stuff to do and a Fall Out Boy in show in Mexico to go to lol We make things work!

Speaking of making things work, it’s been really hard to make myself apply for jobs. I’m sure it’s just because it’s been just one thing after the other, and I need a break. Thankfully, a friend said they’d monitor me actually trying this Friday, so we’ll see how that goes. We make things work. We got goals to achieve out here. I'm still taking a break tomorrow, though. Or at least I'll try.

[chil-aglia]

Hello! I have an Angst Prompt Idea if you wanna try and write this one!:

• Angst Prompt: #37: Hooked

• Characters: Giovanni

• Plot: Basically it’s set in the Eyes On You AU, and the Hamato Family all decide to go on a summer vacation because they definitely deserve it after everything they’ve been through lately, including Giovanni. The Turtle Bros explain to Giovanni what a vacation is and he ends up getting excited about it and is looking forward to it. They all decide to go to Tahiti for their summer vacation and Leo ends up portaling them all there, safely of course. The vacation goes really well and everyone has a good time, including Giovanni, up until Giovanni ends up meeting this really attractive/nice human guy that’s the same age as Giovanni, and the two of them end up hitting it off after getting to know each other (and Giovanni ends up getting a small crush on the human guy lol). During the course of the vacation Giovanni ends up getting hooked on wanting to visit/see the human guy every day even though it’s supposed to be a family vacation and he should be spending more time with his family, and his family definitely reminds him of that. Eventually the vacation ends and Giovanni doesn’t want to leave because he doesn’t want to leave the human guy that he met and Giovanni gets a bit upset about leaving but his family convinces him that he’ll be okay without the human guy and that if the human guy is still in Tahiti next summer then they’ll all go to Tahiti as a summer vacation again next summer.

ooop. Giovanni getting a crush? Wonder how that’ll go—

(The human guy is gonna be called “Y/n” so feel free to call him whatever. I also gave him a brief description of his appearance but you’re free to think whatever you like of him)

Summer Sadness (Giovanni oneshot)

Warnings; Bit of angst (but not much, this is probably way more tamed than my other angst prompt fics)

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“Vacation! Vacation! Vacation!”

The boys all chant, throwing their hands up in the air as they run around all excited. Splinter had just informed his sons that they all deserve a break from fighting crime and whatnot.

Giovanni watched with owlish eyes. Tilting his head to the side, he didn’t quite understand what a vacation was. But it must’ve been good considering how high in spirits his brothers were in. “I suggest we go to Tahiti!” Mikey exclaims as Donnie gasps and nods, “Yes, the sewers there are fabulous!”

Leo chuckled as he glanced over to his older brother but gave a little “huh?” when he saw his confused look. “You okay there Gio?” He asks, walking over and swinging an arm around Giovanni’s shoulder, the latter nodding softly in response.

“Yeah, just….what's a vacation?”

Everyone stops and stares before Raphael gasps and gently shook his shoulders. “We haven’t told you?!” He exclaims in bewilderment, Mikey having to pull him away, so he didn’t accidentally make Giovanni sick from getting rocked back and forth.

“A vacation, hermano, is when you can go anywhere you want and just relax for however long you need. No fighting crime, no danger, just fun and relaxation.” Leo explains in simple terms the basics of a vacation, to which Giovanni slightly perks up at this.

“So…no work basically?”

“Exactly!”

Giovanni lightly smiles, unaware that his tail was slightly wagging in eagerness. “Well, now that you know…everyone pack your shit up, I’m teleporting us to Tahiti in say…15 minutes?” Leo announces, immediately everyone went in different directions to grab what they wanted to bring.

Giovanni remained where he stood. He didn’t think he needed to bring anything.

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Leo had safely and successfully teleported his family to the wonderful place that was Tahiti. Of course, this would be both his and Giovanni’s first time coming here. The two sliders both looking around in awe as Raph and Donnie had to be the ones to get everything sorted, such as where they will be staying for the time being.

Splinter was just going with the flow, keeping an eye on Mikey who wanted to run and jump around.

“We can stay at the sewers from last week were here.” Donnie suggests, Raph nodding as he hollers the others to stick with each other, using the shadows of buildings to remain hidden from people.

They get to the sewers with no issue’s, it was abandoned but Donnie wasn’t wrong. For a sewer, it was relatively clean. “Aw, how I missed this place.” Donnie sighs dreamily, hugging the wall. “There’s enough room for everybody to have their own individual rooms. So, go ahead and claim your room, I’ll start unpacking.” Raph states, everyone doing as requested, not without Leo and Donnie fighting over the biggest room, which Splinter kicked them out of and declared it as his space.

Giovanni walks around and chose his room. He didn’t have anything to unpack so he waited for the others to be done. But that could take some time, so he ventured around for a bit and paused when spotting the manhole cover.

He climbs up the ladder and gently lifted the cover up to take a peek outside. It was fairly busy with people roaming about and shopping away. He made eye contact with a baby making him sweat and gave a tiny awkward wave as the baby babbles and pointed over at him.

Giovanni silently closes the cover and made his way back to his family who were all waiting around, each wearing different style of clothes that suited for an island getaway.

“Dude, did you pack anything?” Leo smirks playfully as Giovanni frowns slightly, feeling quite out of place. “Don’t worry hermano. I’m sure my clothes will fit you.” Leo chuckles, gesturing for Giovanni to follow him to his designated room for the vacation.

Leo rummaged through his clothes, Giovanni standing awkwardly before he flinched when Leo threw some clothes at him. “This should work.” He grins proudly at his choices, but Giovanni cringed slightly when he realised, he actually had to wear stuff.

“Do I…have to be in clothes?”

“Oh, right…you’re not a fan of wearing of clothes.” Leo blinks as he hums in thought. He then snaps his fingers and grabs a hat.

“Wear this. I’m sure it’ll be fine. Just uh…make sure no one gets a good look at you. We’re going to the beach, and Donnie said he knew a spot that we can all be at without any humans seeing us.” Leo explains the situation as he lays Giovanni on the shoulder and brought him back out.

“Let’s vamanos!”

Leo slices open a portal, one by one everyone enters through. Giovanni being momentarily blinded by the sun shining down, he blinks a few times to adjust as he looks around in awe.

Leo had teleported the family to the far end of a beach, where Donnie promised, no humans would see them. “Beach time baby! Whoo!” Mikey announces, making a beeline to the ocean with a floatie of a dolphin in hand.

Raph runs after with a beach ball in hand. Donnie and Splinter set up an umbrella and chairs as they decided to relax in the shade. Leo puts his weapon away with his brother and Splinter and jumps into the ocean.

Giovanni didn’t know what to do. So, he took his spot on the sand, grabbing a stick nearby and drawing mindlessly. 

-----

This went on for some hours, he’d eventually even moved from drawing in the sand to making sandcastles with his family, even burying Splinter at one point as a mermaid.

The sun had begun setting, but that didn’t stop the fun. The brothers were playing volleyball with Splinter as referee.

Giovanni chose not to play due to being a little overwhelmed with the brothers competitive natures. Instead he took this time to slip away from the other and venture around the beach.

He doesn’t realise he was quite far away from his family. To the point he would’ve be able to see their figures if he turns around. 

He was distracted with the beauty of the beach. Crouching down and picking up seashells, smiling and watching crabs make their way back to the water.

He gave a little chuckle when he saw one small crab trip onto its back. “Funny little things, aren’t they?” A new voice spoke up from ahead, making Giovanni jump back and stumble down onto his ass.

He froze when he looked up to see a young man, shirtless with a surfboard in hand. He was human, with short brown hair and tan skin with hazel eyes. He was fit, considering he seemed to like to surf.

“Whoa…” The guy gasps out when he saw a better look at Giovanni who shakes in panic. He didn’t mean to get spotted by a human!

“What are you?”

Giovanni didn’t know what else to do, so he did the only thing that came to mind. He retracts all his limbs into his shell, hiding as much as he could. The hat Leo gave to him flying off.

“A turtle huh? That’s so cool!”

Giovanni blinks, slowly popping his head out from his shell as the human grins down at him happily. “Never seen one of you before. But I heard there were these…I guess mutants? Around in other places. Most notably being in New York.”

“You…know about us?” Giovanni couldn’t help but ask, his arms and legs coming out as well as he was back to sitting on the sand and looking up at the stranger.

“You can talk?”

“…yes?”

The guy chuckles and stretches his hand out. “The names Y/n. And you are?” He asks, patient with the mutant who seemed hesitant in accepting the hand. But Giovanni eventually took his offer, and he was helped to stand on his feet.

“Giovanni. But um…I can be called Gio for, uh, short.”

“Interesting name.”

Giovanni relaxed a bit; he didn’t really sense much of a threat from Y/n. “Wanna hang out?” Y/n suggests, to which Giovanni nods. “Yeah…I’d like that.”

-----

Since the moment Giovanni met Y/n, he’s been having a great time in Tahiti. He’s been more excited lately and goes out every day. At first his family didn’t think much of it, mostly because they were just glad, he was so comfortable.

But it was Leo who began getting suspicious first, and then his family followed pursuit. Even going as far as stalking Giovanni who had briefly informed be going to explore a bit.

Giovanni always met Y/n at the beach, the same spot they first met. And then the two would walk around together and just speak about whatever came to mind. Giovanni would notice that his heart would flutter, and he’d get a little clammy around the human.

He wasn’t sure why, but it felt good. He at first panicked but he got used to it pretty quickly. 

“So let me get this straight. You have turtle brothers of different species, and a rat as a dad?”

“He was human first. An actor.”

“Really? Which actor?”

Giovanni was briefly hesitant, but he didn’t see the harm in letting Y/n know. “Lou Jitsu.” 

“Oh! I remember him. Wow, he like completely vanished off the earth.”

Giovanni sheepishly smiles and nods, “Yeah, that’s my dad.” He informs once more, unaware of the watchful eyes of his brothers who were stalking the two from afar, all shocked that Giovanni was talking with a human they’ve never seen before.

“Uh…should we stop him?” Donnie whispers as Raph shrugs his shoulders. “Well, I mean…he seems to be fine.” Raph sweats in uncertainty, Mikey tilted his head, “Plus the guy doesn’t seem bad?” 

Leo scoffs and pointed over at Giovanni and Y/n. “Guys, did we all forget that it’s Gio? He doesn’t understand most things still. This human could be trouble for all we know. Besides, don’t you know the saying, stranger danger” Leo announces, but had to quickly slap a hand over his mouth as he got loud and didn’t want Giovanni to hear him.

“Look, I say we talk to Gio later today. We’re meant to be on a family vacation after all.”

-----

When Giovanni bid Y/n goodbye, he headed home. Or at least to his temporary vacation home. He descends the ladder and walks the sewers briefly before arriving back home.

“I’m back.”

“Oh, welcome back Yellow! The boys are still out right now but I’m sure they’ll be back. Did you enjoy the walk?” Splinter greets, walking up to his oldest son who nodded with a smile.

“I did…”

With Y/n.

“Excellent! You have been going out a lot more since we arrived. Bush exploring the island?”

Giovanni sheepishly nodded, rubbing the back of his neck. “I guess so.”

“Or maybe the fact you were hanging out with a stranger!” Leo’s voice suddenly announces, making both Splinter and Giovanni jump at his voice and look over to see the brothers had come back.

“Stranger?” Splinter repeats in question, as Donnie steps forward, clearing his throat. “We may have followed Gio around because we got suspicious as to why he was always going out.” Donnie explains and Leo nods before narrowing his eyes and crossing his arms. “Yeah, and what do we find? The fact that Gio here is hanging out with a human guy that we don’t know.”

Giovanni gulps and hesitantly steps over to his brothers. “Guys, I—“ He tries to speak but was cut by Mikey who frowns at him. “Look, we get that you want to explore and get out of your comfort zone. But talking with a stranger? Not a good idea.”

“Yeah, and plus this is suppose be a gaming trip. And yet you haven’t really contributed to the family part of it.” Raph adds making Giovanni slightly bring his head down into his shell in shame.

“He’s a nice guy….” He mutters quietly but Leo shook his head, “Look, I’m sorry, but you’re gonna have to cut contact with him. This is our last day here in Tahiti.” Leo states and Giovanni knew the reasons and understood why his brothers were upset at him.

But…Giovanni finally found someone he could talk to. Someone that makes him blush whenever they laugh or smile at him. He felt…normal.

“I don’t want to leave…”

His brothers and father all share a glance in concern, Splinter walking over and gently placing a hand on his arm. “My son…we all have to leave at some stage. We cannot stay here only because you found a new friend.”

“I know that…but I…” Giovanni didn’t know how to explain himself, instead he had tears dripping from his eyes as he sniffled.

He felt pathetic. Crying over this.

“It’s not the end of the world big bro…you’ll have chances to make more friends. E-eventually that is.” Leo gave a strained smile, Mikey sliding in in with some optimism, “If the guy is still here in Tahiti, we can all come again next summer! Yeah?” He grins excitedly but Giovanni didn’t reply back, he slowly nods and dragged himself to his room, laying down.

“Let’s, uh…give him some space guys.” Raph softly spoke, the sounds of footsteps leaving Giovanni as the mutant closes his eyes tightly, holding in his sobs.

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Hope you liked this. This one was a little hard to do but hopefully it was good nonetheless.

Sorry for grammar mistakes and whatnot. Typing on a phone is fr so annoying.

[inkofamethyst]

January 12, 2025

I'm really gonna miss tiktok. Lots of good memories. Fun, unique memes. The doomscrolling was an unfortunate side effect, admittedly. Which is why I will also feel a bit freer without it? Maybe a little aimless to start out with, but I'm not actually dreading the 19th. There isn't really another platform that has captured my attention in the same way currently, so I don't plan to migrate anywhere else to get that same kind of dopamine kick. Which is probably for the best. I'll likely spend the next week getting my affairs in order (saving important videos, noting down favorite creators who I don't want to lose, sending a letter confessing my affection to my chinese spy in recognition that our six-year tryst has come to a close as it was never truly meant to be) and then maybe I'll just be able to get back into reading a lot more. I will probably feel a bit lonelier, not being as plugged-in to my generation's epicenter of content.

That's not to say that I will entirely shun other platforms. Instagram has been decent recently for finding new crochet patterns for my wishlist or getting fashion inspiration, but I'm pretty much always ready to go when I'm timed out after 15 minutes. Same goes for facebook and its marketplace (the groups have not been quite as strong a feature since covid restrictions waned, unfortunately). Reddit can be fun for fifteen minutes every few days. Same with tumblr. Nothing has had me glued to my screen in the same way.

Perhaps this is the kick we all needed to go touch grass. Meet new people in real life. Pick up new hobbies or revisit old ones. A new year's dopamine reset (government-mandated edition).

When I was home over break I saw my mom completely sucked in to instagram reels one evening. It was really.. weird to see from the outside. Zombie-like. It's pernicious.

I am going to miss discovery on that platform. Learning from experts (and learning to fact check even people who call themselves experts). New foods, new causes, new tips, new music, new realizations, new jokes, new news, new ways of thinking, new perspectives. But even if I'd consider these things to contribute to a net personal positive, I can't ignore the time sink, the misinformation, the maladaptive use as escapism.

I'm also having complex feelings about being a US citizen. I never fully bought into the whole american exceptionalism thing. I'm still not convinced why I should be sinophobic. Maybe it's the distance lol. Or maybe it actually stems from some form of american exceptionalism ha. I dunno.

Today I'm thankful for waking up to snow! And it lasted all day!! So cozy.

Did not accomplish all I wanted to this weekend (did do some things though!). I blame the snow's beauty. In my procrastination I finished crocheting the base of my grandmother's scarf lol. Needs edging and blocking which will take time. I may put it down for a second and start working on this one short rows cardigan I'm a little obsessed with. I'm not a huge fan of drop sleeves (they look frumpy and cheap to me tbh), but the design is worth it.

[alsjeblieft-zeg]

047 of 2025

01087 - YOUR JOB/CAREER

This survey was not credited at first when I took it from someone else, but I’ve found out it’s made by [lionna].

Firstly, who do you work for?

The big French rolling stock manufacturer whose name starts with A. You got it.

What is your position?

Senior electrician/line feeder.

What are your responsibilities?

Wiring control racks and underframes, also restocking parts that we use when the warehouse delivers them.

Do you enjoy your job?

I love it. I can't imagine doing anything else.

Do you work with other people, or solo?

I work in a team of 9 people.

What are your co-workers like?

Well, we were a great team, until someone's attitude has changed. The majority of the team is great as always, though.

What is/are your boss(es) like?

The current one is okay, the previous one was great, and the previous one before the previous one was the best of the best.

Do you wear a uniform?

We have to wear work clothes, safety boots and helmets.

Are you usually very busy, or is it slack?

Lol it's always busy. We are several trains behind.

Do you get paid minimum wage, or above?

Somewhat above because we're the best paid industry in Belgium right after the chemical industry. I also got a raise several times, plus all the benefits for working longer than 5 years.

What time of day do you usually work?

I work day shifts, they start at 7:30 and end on 16:00.

How many hours a week do you get?

Only 12 because I'm on disability, so I work 3 days a week, 4 hours each. Normal time here is 40 hours a week.

Would you like to keep this job your whole life?

Definitely. I love this job and this place too much.

Why are you working this job right now?

Because I wanted it. Working with trains has been my dream.

Are you saving or spending most of your money?

Well, I have bills to pay and I still need food as I have family. My spouse works as well, my stepson earns a bit of money, too, but still, bills and food and all cost money, plus half of our salaries goes directly to taxes.

Do you deal with customers or clients?

No, I don't. I'm a factory worker.

Are they generally agreeable?

N/A.

How do you react when they are not agreeable?

N/A.

Have you ever been written up? What happened?

No, I haven't. Only did when I was working abroad, but it was fake and the person who did it got fired soon after.

What are some things that you absolutely CANNOT do at your job?

Drink and do drugs lol. You also cannot take it for granted. You can't wear long earrings or rings because it puts you at the risk of losing or tearing a body part.

Are there any risks involved in your job? What are they?

A lot. First of all, there's a whole long list of safety rules that we have to sign. There's a risk of being electrocuted, especially if you're working on the roof (it happened to our quality inspector last year, 3 kV kicking him, thankfully he's alive and well). There's a risk of falling from great heights. There's a risk of heavy parts falling on your head while being transported on a bridge. There's a risk of hitting your head, that's why we wear helmets. There's a risk of a forklift running over your foot, that's why we wear safety shoes. There are dangerous chemical substances we use that might cause cancer. And the list goes on.

Have you ever forgotten to do something important? What happened?

A lot of times lol. But it wasn't so important to stop the whole factory if I didn't do it. Typically I forget to check or count something. I usually catch up on it later on, the other day.

Are you allowed to read/watch TV/play video games on the job?

You kidding me, I work in the factory. No one watches TV or plays video games in factories. The supervisors are watching.

What are your breaks like?

First one at 9:00, lasts 15 minutes. Second one is at 12:30, it lasts for 35 minutes and is not paid. The third one is at 14:00, lasts 10 minutes. My shift these days ends at 11:30, so I have only one break.

Do you ever get really bored at your job?

No. I don't have time for it.

How do you keep yourself entertained?

I do my job, simple. If I really have nothing to do at the moment, then I clean the tables and shelves. We all do it here.

Is your workplace clean? Who cleans it?

We have professional cleaning company for the toilets, canteens and such, but it's the team's duty to keep the workplace clean. We take out the trash, we clean the tables, things like that.

Is your job physically demanding?

Every factory job is physically demanding. We carry heavy boxes, heavy cables and such things.

What would happen if a robbery took place?

Lol who wants to rob the factory. Can you imagine thieves pushing a train carriage? XD

What are your customers/clients’ biggest complaints?

NMBS complains that we're not fast enough with deliveries, but it's often not our fault.

What’s the strangest thing you’ve ever seen happen at your job?

I think I mentioned it in another survey, the sandwich thing that got two guys fired. Absolutely disgusting.

Tell us about the time you were most upset at work.

When I heard my sick note will be expanded so I couldn't go back to work, and I was on the verge of being fired for "medical reasons".

If you’re upset, do you act any differently towards customers?

I don't see customers. I'm from doing the labour.

The phone rings, and you have to answer it. HOW do you answer?

"Met Joeri, goeiemorgen". Standard. Unless I know who calls, then I answer in a joking way.

Is there a duty you really despise doing?

Collecting PMA parts. Utterly boring. (Surprisingly, I have no problem with picking other parts).

Is there a duty you love doing?

Making notes in a notebook, the documents and work instructions, and wiring the racks.

Is there anything you are scared of at your job?

Yes, electricity. I'm an electrician and I fear electricity, but this is the reason why I respect it and I never break the safety rules.

Are there many things to laugh at?

Yeah. Without some jokes and humour, things would be unbearable at times.

What are the bathrooms there like?

Standard. Male and female separated, plus one for disabled people because one of our engineers is a wheelchair user (main engineers work in the office).

How long do you plan to keep working there? Why?

Until I retire (or the factory closes) because I love this place.

Has anyone ever screamed at your job? Why?

Nope. I'm appreciated there.

Do you ever need to mentally prepare yourself for work?

Yeah. But once I get there, I'm happy.

How do you wind down after a hard day’s work?

I take a nap with my cat next to me.

Is your job stressful?

It can be. There's a lot of pressure on getting things well done at time.

Who would you recommend your job to?

Anyone with technical diploma or degree, and those who love trains and are not afraid of hard work.

[campbyler]

ok. a genuine question. how do u guys write 20-30k *chapters* bc i will outline fics minutely or i will just let myself start writing based off a vibe & either way i will get 600 words out of maybe. two hours of work. on a good day with no distractions/interruptions, & i very much do not have an uninterrupted two hours to write very often, so you can imagine how slowly things get written T_T so i’m interested if there’s any aspect of any of your writing processes that really enables u guys to write so much or if it’s not really something you think about? anyways i really like ur guys’s work, & thank you for deciding to write for byler bc i know me and a lot of people enjoy it a lot. thanks!!

hello !! this is a super valid question and i’ll try my best to answer it for you 😗✌️

andi infamously writes a lot faster than thea and i do (she finished draft 1 of chapter 3 in like. two days. which was so scary. i’m in awe of her fr) but she has also spent a lot of time editing ch3 so it’s definitely not like these chapters are publish-ready in a short amount of time by any means! it took thea a couple of months total to fully write + edit ch1 and it took me about 3.5 weeks to write ch2 and another two weeks to edit it which is part of the reason we’ve spaced out our posting schedule like we have — we put a lot of effort and care into these updates and we want to give ourselves as much time as possible to get ahead before all 3 of us inevitably get so super busy with work and/or school in the fall!! so while we do write a lot, please don’t think we are so insanely speedy about it because unless we are having Really Good Writing Days, that’s definitely not the case. sometimes we do have days where we are really in the zone and write more than usual, but at least for me, this is so so so rare. whatever i write in this time gets heavily edited because so much of it was nonsensical brain vomit LOL

as far as writing process goes, i think one of the things that motivates us a lot is that we genuinely do just talk about this au constantlyyyyy like we’re always coming up with silly little hcs or drawing for it or adding to the Lore ™️so we’re always getting inspired to write! all three of us are definitely people who use writing as a way to relax or even reward ourselves after a long day; we would probably die if we had to go too long unable to :/ messages like “i can’t wait to get home and write after work today” or “i’m going to write a little bit of ___ before bed because i deserve it” are very commonly found in our gc because we really just look forward to it so much! as for our scary word counts, i feel like there is a lot of worldbuilding in this universe specifically, and pacing is really important to us — we want to make sure introductions and set-up to a scene and character interactions are meaningful and flow naturally, and building tension (which is a hallmark of this fic hehe) does take some time, which can definitely add up word count-wise.

for the most part, none of us usually have a solid few hours to sit and write either (unless it’s on our days off or after work if we’re not too tired) and we get a lot of writing done in chunks! we hold each other accountable for short check-ins (“ask me for a snip in 30 minutes”) which is super helpful when you’re stuck, because it kind of forces you to get Something down without worrying if it’s super polished and edited and perfect. if you’re writing on your own, something i’ve started doing lately is setting a 15 minute timer and just seeing how much i can get done in that time, and then setting another and doing it again (up until however much time you have to write that day). i’ve found that the artificial deadline helps break the monotony of sitting in front of your computer for Hours on end with nothing to show for it bc TRUST we’ve all been there and it sucks so bad 😔✊

this got super long so i apologize but i hope at least a little bit of it was helpful! it definitely helps that we are constantly feeding into each other (i.e: having brainrot) and offering inspiration and advice, which does wonders for creative flow tbh. we’re definitely not cranking these chapters out as quickly as people might seem to think — thea started chapter four, which won’t be posted for about a month, maybe a week or two ago. i just started chapter 5 — about 6 weeks away — yesterday lol so we do take our time! don’t be scared by the giant chapters, we just had a lot of content we wanted to include in each one and are in too deep to take anything out 🥳🥳 thank you for the question! good luck with your writing we believe in you 🫡