#there are reblogs there so i can't delete it
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Note
i really appreciate your kind words and willingness to listen! it's a really shitty situation and i don't want to distract from the main purpose of your blog, but i've seen too many people say Zionist when they really mean "Jew who is ultimately harmless but has opinions I don't like." Ultimately it's best to look at what a person actually has to say about what's happening, and not on what other people call them. Anyways, sending you lots of love from a very tired Jew <3
i just wanted to say i accidentally deleted my reply from your last ask while trying to delete something else because my eyes suck, but i appreciate you coming back again!
of course, and no honestly, it's a great time to talk about it, especially what with it being Hanukkah now. i just hate how this website wears its antisemitism on its sleeve. people will freak out the SECOND they see a Magen David and i'm so sick of it. like idk how to tell you that you kinda can't make any kind of jewish pride flag with a Magen David on it without it looking similar to the Israeli flag because of how simple the Israeli flag is. a Magen David over a queer flag does not instantly mean that person is saying they're Israeli/pro-Israel
people on here will just find every and any reason to proudly display their antisemitism and i absolutely fucking hate it. i hate how people on here water down or just straight up make up their own definitions of Jewish terms and then use things they don't understand as an opportunity to attack jews like it's so painfully obvious. i hate it so much. y'all deserve better
i just. really don't like that you can't even reblog a post on here that says "i love queer jews" without people suddenly being like SO YOU SUPPORT ISRAEL????????????? like. ok. people are just using this as an excuse to be antisemitic like how did you just forget that tons of other jewish people exist. like what we're just gonna pretend they don't exist now ... ? it's gross. i don't like this shit. i'm sorry you have to deal with it. you don't deserve it. and thank you for giving me a chance to learn, that's what i'm here for.
if you observe, i hope you have a wonderful Hanukkah, same goes to all of my other Jewish followers. you deserve love and kindness
48 notes
·
View notes
Note
Link to the other thread about this topic for anyone who hasn't read that version of the post. It explores stuff about Japanese spelling, unfounded expert bias, accepting mistakes, accepting other people, the whole acephobia discourse, etc. including responses from @rikeijo. Massive thanks to them for their take on the situation.
Anyway, I've been thinking about this reblog for a bit, and it's also not 4am now, so I'd like to add some context to this whole "off-putting attitude" discussion for those who aren't in the trenches. First, here's a link to the anon ask and answer mentioned by prev in case anyone hasn't seen that. If Samurai is reading this and is rushing to delete or alter that post, too late, I have it all as a screenshot. If anyone wants that screenshot, feel free to DM me. Feel free to DM me about anything regarding this or anything else tbh, whether it's to get a deeper explanation, to share your own screenshots without wanting to become part of the drama publically, or to rip my head off and call me a bigot. Use your free speech. Chop chop, Filip and give this debunker boy a treat to read (if you get that reference, I love you).
As has been established, Samurai cares a lot about engagement and has publically posted about this many times, specifically lamenting their inability to retain readership and whining about people not being eternally loyal to their fics. See below screenshots from their BlueSky to get an idea of what I mean:
(Fig. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9)
Break for those who want a usable dash.
Now, you might be wondering why I'm going so hard on this. Everyone wants engagement online, why is this bad? And you're right, it's not bad if that's the whole story. The issue I have with this is the eternal whining about people not paying enough attention but then also not actually acknowledging when people give you genuine criticism about why your way of posting is off-putting. And like prev said, there's absolutely nothing wrong with using your social medias however you please, but you also have to be aware that the readers you're trying to retain read these posts too. They see all of them just like they see the story updates and funny posts. That sucks, yeah, but that's the nature of posting everything on the same socials. If you want to separate your personal posts from your writing posts, you have to actually physically do that by having different accounts. Then the people who only want the writing updates can just not follow the personal update account.
And you have to realise that if a reader continuously gets updates from you that whine and moan about how you can't retain readership and how maybe you're just boring or how your fics are flops, they're going to feel accused. I don't care that you don't intend to do that. That's how it comes across. If a loyal reader is inundated with posts about how the support currently being given isn't enough and that that's making the author sad, then that reader is going to feel ignored and like their support is being belittled. I'm sorry, that's just how it is. You cannot both insist that you're an ignored underdog (see Fig. 16) that no one likes and hope to retain a large fanbase. That's not how humans work.
(Also the (I'm not fishing for compliments) addition under a post that's about AO3 bookmarks being treated like the end of the world is quite rich to me. You're allowed to be upset, of course you are, but removing a bookmark isn't necessarily a personal attack. People's tastes change. They clean up. Maybe they just don't like you anymore. With how many posts and statements you have about blocking people you don't like, I'd expect you to not take offence to others doing the same)
I'm also going to put these posts here. They just amuse me a lot considering who's posting/reposting them.
(Fig. 10, 11, 12, 13)
For anyone wondering about the post being referenced in Fig. 10, this is the one. I've already talked about the ace stuff in this post so I'm not going to repeat myself here. I just thought y'all should have the full context.
(Fig. 14)
And then there's this repost which is RICH coming from someone who routinely insults and belittles other members of the fanbase for simply having different takes. Yeah, Samurai. Stop being so critical. It's boring.
(Fig. 15)
Am I being petty? Probably. Do I care? Not really considering real people have been really hurt by this person's actions. They belittle the fandom they claim to be a part of, they criticise people for simply not approaching fandom like a master's degree, they claim to be so mature and yet is far more immature themselves to the point where I thought they were a teenager due to their seeming inability to take accountability and understand that their word is not law. I don't care that you like academic approaches. I don't care that you're sad you missed the "top-tier analyses" (Fig. 16) made in the past. This does not give you the right to demean an entire community simply because you're so high up on your horse that you can't just let people be and enjoy fandom however they please. You champion your own right to approach fandom how you like. Stop belittling other people's right to do the same.
If anyone is questioning their attitude towards the current YOI fandom and their percieved place in it:
(Fig. 16, 17, 18)
(Side note: Fig. 18 is such an underhanded dig at the fandom, I'm slightly flabberghasted that someone would actually type this with such a post history and general attitude. This is honestly embarrassing and kind of hurts to read. Don't even get me started on Fig. 17.)
And then this is the end of their pinned post on their blog:
(Fig. 19)
I'm sorry, but you can't whine and hide behind "I'm insecure" when people get mad at you for treating them like rubbish. If they have to be kind, so do you. The rules apply to you just as much as they do to other people. I unfortunately don't have a screenshot, but on BlueSky (iirc roughly a month or so ago?) you at one point posted about having anxiety and depression, and that's too bad, but I really do not care. Having a mental illness is not an excuse to treat others poorly (have diagnosed and highly medicated anxiety myself and don't look down on others for not doing what I want. Funny how that works). It might explain poor behaviour, but you're still responsible for your actions and rectifying any bad behaviour you display. You have to say sorry even if you did something on accident or while in a bad headspace. Just to make it extremely clear to you:
YOU DO NOT GET TO PICK AND CHOOSE WHEN THE RULES APPLY TO YOU.
They either apply to everyone equally, or they don't apply at all. And don't come in here going "But what about this very specific case?" That's called whataboutism, and I frankly do not have the patience for your whining attempts to derail the discussion. I don't know whether you're even reading this, Samurai, and I don't actually care that much. I don't believe you have enough ability to introspect to understand what I'm trying to tell you, and this post is a lot more for the people who you've used and manipulated than it's for you. I don't believe I can get through to you. But I do believe I can get through to your mutuals and followers and anyone else who might be reading this, because they don't deserve to be dragged into whatever this shitshow that is your online presence is.
It's frankly embarrasing for you that you're in your 40's. If you were a teenager, I'd just have ignored you, because you'd probably have learned how to not be utterly insufferable with time. However, you might be a parent to people the age that you act like, and while I doubt this thread will make any real impact on your behaviour, I'm hoping someone else can take this information and use it to make sure they don't fall for your tricks or anyone else who might be more dangerous. You're not a dangerous person. You're frankly just an immature embarrassment, and I cringe at the though that any children you might have have to deal with having a parent as childish as you. Do better. You owe the world at least that much. And if you can't change, then don't come whining to the fandom you belittle when you get what's coming to you.
In case anyone isn't familiar with Samurai's type and how they present themselves, here's an introduction Samurai wrote in a Tumblr comment section (that I unfortunately don't have a link to but you get the idea):
(Fig. 20)
Don't fall for this. Regardless of whether Samurai believes they're actually like this, it's not how they actually act. "[...] try to dispel the myths that have been circulating in the fandom for ages." is code for "I don't respect other people's opinions and interpretations of canon." Samurai likely disagrees but I'm sorry, Samurai, that's what this is. That's what this means in terms of your behaviour. The same applies to "You won't find any weird takes on my blog." This is a classic example of someone having absolutely no selfawareness of the fact that their opinion of "weird" is not universal. It's an absolutist statement of an opinion as if it were fact, and as I mentioned in my original reply to Blonndiec's ask, that's not a new thing for Samurai to do. It's very much a pattern. Don't fall for it. If ANYONE (including me or people you trust) says stuff like their blog being free of "weird takes", do not listen, and do not believe them. That is an opinion. It is not a fact. Don't take it as one.
And just to add some more fuel to the fire, here Samurai is accusing someone of plagiarism:
(Fig. 21, 22)
(Link to Vic's analysis btw)
What's so bad about that, you may ask? Plagiarism is bad and should be called out and yes, that I agree with. The issue is that the plagiarism being alleged is, and let me make this very clear, an analysis of a canon event that is just about the most analysed even in a 12 episode show. I'm not saying plagiarism isn't real just because a scene is popular or a show is short, but this scene is literally about a minute long and is, again, a very talked about scene. Coming to the same conclusions about the same one minute of runtime is basically guaranteed to happen every once in a while, especially when you have eight years of fans doing this. These two analyses being posted close to one another in time is just as likely as it being intentional plagiarism. Calm down. You're not important enough for people to bother plagiarising you.
And considering Samurai believes their interpretations are the most correct according to canon and that anyone who doesn't share those views is illiterate (I can't find that screenshot rn, you're free to doubt my claim), shouldn't it be good that Vic came to the same conclusions? Doesn't that mean that Samurai's analysis is being backed up and that Vic is not illiterate? But Vic's analysis gained more traction and that's apparently enough to accuse the fandom of being a waste of time and energy (Fig. 22).
I'm sorry, Samurai, but as someone who claims to not be new to all of this, I thought you'd know that sometimes traction is random and doesn't have anything to do with quality or correctness. Sometimes you're just unlucky, and that's no one's fault. Or maybe the world is actually out to get you, and you're a victim of the universe and everyone in it. I can't prove or disprove that. But I will say that I don't blame anyone for not wanting to interact with your posts. I haven't seen your version of this analysis so I can't comment on how you phrased yourself or whether Vic was directly lifting your words into their own analysis, that could very well be, I have no proof for or against that. If anyone has a link to Samurai's meta (I didn't happen upon it in my scrolling for whatever reason), I'd love to read it and compare it to Vic's. But regardless of Vic's behaviour, I would not be surprised if the reason people aren't interacting with your post is because they find your tone and general demeanour off-putting. And, to be very clear: you do not have a right to people's engagement. People can choose to engage or not for literally any reason and they don't have to explain that reason to you. It is not a crime to simply not interact with people you don't like.
You talk about blocking the haters and yet when the haters block you, you get your nickers in a twist. Why do you care? Don't you hate them? Why do you want them to interact with you? In Fig. 8 you hypothesised that the person who took you off their "super-duper fic rec list" was a "dick" so why are you upset about no longer being in the recommendations of someone you personally dislike? I wouldn't want to be recommended by someone I dislike for the same reason I don't want to be associated with bigots. I don't want my name in any way tied to them or their awful behaviour. It feels like you're crying about nothing and making it everyone else's problem. But feel free to explain yourself if you want (assuming I'm not already a blocked hater which would only prove my point that you absolutely understand just removing things/people you don't like from your life. But apparently that's only okay when you do it. Funny how that works).
Oh and just as one last thing before I end this giant reblog for now, and because I'm petty. They've repeatedly talked about how you don't need an account to view their Tumblr posts (Fig. 22) but this is what pops up when you access it without an account now. Not so confident people won't see you for what you are anymore, are we?
(Fig. 23, 24)
Oh wait, right, you have less confidence than Katuski Yuuri (Fig. 18). I wonder what could be the reason for hiding your blog then if it isn't your confidence rapidly crumbling. You're just a little anxious fella who likes academia afterall (yes, I am being exceedingly petty, thank you for noticing, I hope you enjoy).
Hey, just wanted to reach out to say that I found you pointing out and calling this person was really great and you shouldn't have apologized. It was incredibly true what you said, and to be honest it seems out of touch with the reality of a great deal of the japanese fandom, the nuances and their culture. Also, it was as you pointed out, extreme and may I say rude. I want to mention too that the way it was written, as if entitled of the knowledge and the 'explanation' made it all worse in context of the 'fucked up'. The original poster always gets away by using the 'well-written academic'' statement of their 'metas' as an excuse to do or say and make everyone else agree and if not, uses victim narrative and discourses exactly selecting wording for people to agree on it or feel bad.
I don't know if they tagging you in the way they did made you reblog and apologizing/backing up, but no one thought bad about you pointing it out. On the contrary, a lot of people had been bullied and discriminated by this person when they called them out/disagreed going onto lenghts of sending their friends to harass people, and the other persons can't even defend themselves because they are effectively blocked. To quite a few people in the fandom has been done, even accusing them as 'acephobes' (when they're not) or even Nazis by spreading lies. So yeah, I just wanted to say that. I think you were right to call them out publicly.
Thank you very much for this ask. To be completely honest I agree with everything you said here and don't actually feel bad about pointing anything out. I mainly apologised because I didn't want any potentially poor phrasing from my side to cause unnecessary hostility and because I myself have gripes with this person's behaviour but didn't want to cause a scene.
My honest opinion is that they have a serious issue with taking accountability for their own mistakes and highly overestimate their own intellect. If you're reading this, @thegirlwhorideslikeasamurai, sorry if I seem harsh, but it's true. I saw your post lamenting how you're the only academic meta writer / fan in the fandom and I didn't interact then because I honestly do not care enough to start that drama but with the information Blonndiec has just given me, I think it's necessary that someone calls you out.
You're not an academic. You're not beyond the mental capabilities of other fans. You're actually incredibly childish in your metas and analyses and I am not kidding when I say that I was halfheartedly writing essays more academic than every analysis I've seen from you when I was barely a teenager. I don't know how old you are and I frankly don't care. You're not as clever as you think you are.
Also, don't think I didn't notice that you didn't reblog my correction (link here to my correction and here to their "response" for those who didn't see that exchange) of your post so that you could control what your followers saw of the exchange. You're the opposite of an academic. You control information to tailor the narrative, you don't cite your sources properly if at all, you don't format your posts in anything close to how an academic analysis would be, you make unbased claims, you reference posts and canon material without in any way indicating where that information is from, you reference your own (equally unacademic) metas and your conclusions from them without indicating what post it's from or that it's your own theory this new one is based on and instead present it as a common fact, and I could go on and on and on. Your posts are also riddled with logical fallacies and you talk in absolutes and opinions when there's no canon basis to claim such things. I'm sorry, but that's not academic in the slightest.
To be clear, you don't have to be an academic to post on the Internet. You don't have to be anything at all. You could up front be a genuine idiot with no remorse and that's fine. But when you claim to be an academic and also put down the rest of the fandom for not being on your level, you have to be able to back that up. It'd still make you sound like a prick but at least your arrogance would have a basis. It currently does not.
I haven't personally seen the discussions that Blonndiec is referencing and I'm not going to claim anything definitive (because that would be unacademic of me, take notes) but if what they're saying is true and did happen as described, which I have empirical, if anecdotal, evidence to believe could very well be (a friend of mine has personally been blocked by you after they criticised you without actually mentioning your name which I of course can't prove is the reason for the block but the timing is awfully convenient), you should know that you should be ashamed of yourself.
If there's context missing, feel free to enlighten me and call out any incorrect accusations. You have every right to defend yourself. However, I encourage you to cite your sources since you're such an academic. If you don't, then it's just your word against Blonndiec and anyone else who might comment's word and that doesn't prove anything. Don't misunderstand, acephobia and nazi rhetoric should absolutely be called out but only if it's actually happening. False accusations can ruin lives. I hope you know that.
I'm not a fan of calling people out publicly and, again, thank you for this ask, Blonndiec. But considering many of the issues I've personally seen and those I've been informed of by second hand sources were posted publically, I don't really feel bad about calling this out. I could do a full breakdown of just the insulting "academic" comments alone and how there's no academia to be found in said academic metas and, Samurai, if you give me reason to, I will show exactly what I mean point by point (and academically just to give you an example of even low level academia).
If you respond to this, do it in a reblog. That's what a real academic would do. If I'm wrong and you can prove it, you'd have no reason to not show my post in your rebuttal. If I'm right, you'd have every reason to be upfront about your mistakes and how you intend to rectify them. There's nothing wrong with being wrong but there's a lot wrong with refusing to admit to it in a way that lets others peer review you (academic thing, look it up) and come to their own conclusions about the situation. That's what you did when you just @'ed me instead of reblogging my response. A true academic wouldn't hide a peer review. You'd know that if you were one.
I swing in many academic spaces and yet that doesn't make me any kind of expert and I don't claim to be one because I'm not. But since you want to be one so badly, reblog this with a response and show us all how smart you are. I'm dying to know what your academic take on this is.
#sorry for the extreme length of this but i had a lot to say#and a lot of pent up frustration#thank you to anyone who read it all#anyway i have life to attend to#i cant wait to be blocked <3#reblog#yuri on ice
80 notes
·
View notes
Text
Full version! 👏🏻
(Thanks for the help/suggestions!!)
#trigun#trigun stampede#vash the stampede#my edit#my post#it's a bit messy oh well.#i added a link for this complete version in the previous post#there are reblogs there so i can't delete it#i wish tumblr was more like twitter in this regard#i delete the original post and all the reblogs get deleted as well... i wish
111 notes
·
View notes
Text
˚₊ A treat to myself for being able to draw again ₊˚🪻🌹
PREVIOUS ONE:
#hollow knight#hk#alecz'makingz#troupe master grimm#pure vessel#grimm#the hollow knight#grollow#?#THK#the improvement makes me happy#got shaped again#its okay you can call grimm a hoe no one denies#size dif became even more noticeable but I can't complain#I'm still happy about the decision of giving them this type of legs#TYSM FOR THE RESPONSES ON THE WIP POSTED I WILL NO LONGER DELETE IT TO PRESERVE THE REBLOGS BUT UR SO SWEET#ily guys
251 notes
·
View notes
Text
I've noticed that, too. I don't know if they think they can get away with it because they're small or if it's a genuine misunderstanding about intellectual property, fair use, etc.
Especially with virtual photography since it's a newer artform and pretty niche. There's a not uncommon perception that we don't own our work because it's taken in a game made by someone else, but that's not how this works. I also think there's a lot of misconception about the time and skill that go into VP which leads to it being sort of devalued. It's "just a screenshot" that "anyone could do" so who cares, right?
I did see a now-deleted comment from one person who was suggesting that I was just mad that no one saw my shot before and seemed to be insinuating that I should be grateful that someone liked my shot enough to steal it, lmao. I've seen that sentiment before with all kinds of art theft, and the mental gymnastics there are always something else. (Also kind of funny in this case because I found out about this situation specifically because someone else saw my work, recognized it, and told me about it, lmao.)
But good news! This person did credit me after a little back-and-forth. They insisted they "always credit their images," and I just missed it, but there was definitely no credit to me until this morning, and I didn't see any credit on any of the other videos either. I know I've seen that Panam shot before, but I can't remember who took it, so I'm sure the BG3 ones have been yoinked, too.
Anyway, since this particular situation is resolved, I'm gonna turn off reblogs on this post, but if anyone recognizes any of the other shots, feel free to send this to their respective creators.
why are youtubers like this
61 notes
·
View notes
Text
I love the little hat emoji people use to represent luffy, the android version has a pretty purple bow 👒
#one piece#luffy#monkey d. luffy#fooldles#experiencing the art horrors right now but the urge to draw him grabbed me by the neck and threw me through a window#anything for you pirate king#EDIT: I FIXED HIS HAND OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE IT WAS BACKWARDS#THANK YOU ANON FOR TELLING ME#haha i mean whhattt??? it was like this the whole timeeeeee#i don't think deleting a post will always delete the reblogs so i'm just editing#backward hand luffy will haunt me until i die BUT LESSON LEARNED
218 notes
·
View notes
Text
The Seunghan situation was the last straw. I thought about it and I will boycott the whole company.
They never do shit to protect their artists like when they forced Taeyong to apologise for the bullying accusations even tho he was innocent and was receiving tons of hate. They made Karina apologise for having a bf and she was forced to break up with him because the hate was too much. Not to mention the slave contracts and the unfair treatment the Chinese idols face in that company. There are many many examples but this is not that kind of post.
SM always puts money aka crazy obsessive fans first and their artists second. They keep enabling them and make the problem worse. Unless they change ways I won't support them or their groups.
I'm glad I see a lot of international fans feel the same and even tho we are not as strong as asian fans maybe we can have an impact.
~giving lot's of hugs to fellow ot7 briizes 🫂🫂🩷
#I have still many posts of SM artists in my queue so I can't go and delete them but i won't be rebloging and new ones#i won't blame anyone that can't boycott right now as I know kpop can be a form of escapism for many people#but if you stan SM groups and think this doesn't affect you or them think again#riize#sm#seunghan#aespa#exo#shinee#tvxq#snsd#f(x)#red velvet#boa#nct#of course the idols that left sm are okey to listen to (their recent releases at least)
13 notes
·
View notes
Text
A little peek at some current WIPs for GT + a AA an GT crossover ~
#ghost trick spoilers#ace attorney 5 spoilers#ghost trick yomiel#( made it so this can't be reblogged for my comfort <3 )#( will possibly delete this once I finish these art pieces ^^ )#( I have...a lot of Yomiel WIPs welp )#( meanwhile other GT art ideas still remain in my head )#eye contact /#blood /
72 notes
·
View notes
Text
I feel like being mutuals means so much less than everyone makes it seem
You literally just follow each other, that's it
Most of my mutuals probably don't even remember who I am after I stopped drawing for them
Edit: the rant in the tags is more about being annoyed with people who tell me they like my art and follow me, but that's it, no art support at all
#the tags are gonna be a bit of a vent bc I think about this a lot#maybe it's because most of my mutuals only ever interacted with my post when it was art for them#I don't get notifications that they liked my art but they tell me they like seeing my art#I see them reblogging bigger artists than me and it's a little discouraging in a way#they talk big about my art on discord before following me for emphasis#but then they never liked any of it#they sometimes reblog my reblogs#but that's it#it just feels gross to me to act like you support and love someone's art so so much and they're “cool” to you#but then it stops at just words in a server#actions speak louder than words#I don't want to sound entitled or spoiled#I just feel a little deceived that they said they like my stuff but I get no evidence of that#ofc I love seeing my mutuals that do like my stuff more than anything#I do have regulars that do support me and I try to support them as much as I can#but I can't help but feel weird trying to support someone who doesn't even look at what I do as they talk about liking it#They don't need to say any of that but they do and it feels like lies#ofc this is all so whiny and I know it's so stupid#I'm probably going to delete this later#I just wanted to say it finally#vent#tw vent#vent tw#vent posting
9 notes
·
View notes
Note
hey ! just wanted to jump in and let you know jacksfilms moderations have kindly asked not to spread around images/videos of sniperwolf outside of his home ! they've asked so for privacy reasons (even if it's censored)
yo!! I don't wanna violate anyone's privacy by circulating sensitive info / stuff being saved for legal reasons, obv that's why I used a screenshot where almost everything is censored except her caption and username- but I checked on his twitter to see if he posted/liked any statements about asking ppl to delete posts w that pic, and the video he posted a couple hours ago also shows another censored version of that same screenshot of the front of his house. so I'm not sure where that info is from? that said, if it is true then I can delete the post where the censored screenshot is posted but. like. since this is tumblr, the post and the imbedded images are still going to exist on ppl's reblogs of it, even if I deleted it all wholesale. it's not like on twit where if you QRT something, and it's deleted later, the tweet you quoted turns into a dead link while your comment still remains.
#I know the footage from his stream when the events were happening In Real Time has been pulled#to potentially be used later if he takes legal action and he's asked people not to post clips from it#but the (censored) pic of the street he lives on is also featured in his own vid. so I'm not sure why that's something#that is meant to be not circulated?#like there could be a post I missed but I mean. if jack put the screenshot in his own video I don't think he wants it Private.#but yeah if I deleted the post it would just mean you can't view it on my blog but you'd be able to see the post#in full on anyone else's blog who also reblogged it#sergle answers
70 notes
·
View notes
Text
sh*t when I rant on here I do not want people to come tell me I'm wrong 'kay? that's not what complaining is for.
#in other words someone found a rant from like two weeks ago and now I feel unsafe#and I don't want to know what their full comment was but I feel I won't be able to rest until I do#and I can't even delete a reblog like I could anything else and forget about it so woohoo#therese rants
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Mmmng I'm really, possibly, in need of a break bc wtf did i do to myself?? Got so excited yet anxious to post the fic yesterday, then a little mishap happened to the post (posted before i was done, had a huge panic to fix that) and the pain in my chest from that scare latest till 4am-
Now it's only a dull pain, but dear god i woke up with a tense pain on my jaw and it won't go away even if i relax it. Also my left arm feels a dull pain as well?? Idk what that's about lmao
So yeah, i might like, need a break bc getting excited does not help one bit 🙃
#might delete later#plz no reblogs#but uhm shit man what is this???#like I'm generally an anxious person#I'm filled with anxiety for almost every moment of my life. that anxiousness to posting the fic is like nothing new#i was actually alot more excited than anxious to post it!! like super proud of it#but that activated whatever issue this is??#i dont have much i can do about it rn so rabting anywhere rn is the best i can#can't help but feel anxious about the pain itself tho i never felt this before#cake talks#vent
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
I want to apologize to anybody who ever send me an ask that I didn’t answer, I am offering you a little kiss on the forehead
#Sometimes I get asks but I can't think of an answer#or I can't think of an answer right away and then i get self conscious abt it being a while so I delete the ask out of shame#or I reblog some kind of prompt bait and then lose motivation to work on them#;;;; sorry#especially if u included a compliment to my writing#Know that I have read them and appreciate them#the inbox is now empty clean slate
66 notes
·
View notes
Text
i find the type of people who scour who people reblog from and that kind of stuff really creepy tbh. it's very panopticon-ish
#my only dni criteria is for the Moral Panopticon type now lmfaoo#like i know a lot of people delete their blogs periodically so everything on there represents who they are Right Now but ive been on here#for 10 years on this same blog lol...#plus i sometimes reblog from random people if its like an old post or something. plus following someone doesnt mean you know and#passionately love every single one of their opinions? sometimes people i follow here reblog posts that piss me off and you know what? idgaf#like i just ignore it or filter keywords... its rarely bad enough to warrant an unfollow its just a minor difference of viewpoint#but a lot of people can't even handle having friends who are slightly different in views/interests even if theyre broadly similar i guess?
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
Today I am very bitter. Excuse me rambling in tags below
#tumblr is different these days#people only seem interested in my most recent post and ignore everything i did one month ago or earlier#almost as if no one was scrolling blogs anymore and only looked at the dashboard#are y'all aware it is okay to like and reblog older posts???#are y'all aware it is not forbidden to enjoy stuff made some time ago???#so sick and tired of this trend where only the newest stuff is considered interesting#i am not able to provide new posts on a weekly basis!!!#and i still think my old posts deserve attention!!!!! if they were not good i would delete them!!!!!!#it used to be easier a few years ago ffs i could stop posting for weeks and still every day i got a few notes in my activity#and now whenever i have a bad time i can't even count on random people enjoying my posts. zero notes = my bad time lasts longer and longer#i did not spend hundreds of hours drawing expecting people to look away once the post is one week old. i am not marvel studios
15 notes
·
View notes
Text
the sun is a painter. every morning, it casts the world in warm yellow haze. for the rest of the day, it stares at its creation, slowly viewing it at different angles. until at night it covers the world in a soft red glow, before going to sleep and doing the whole the over again tomorrow.
#dostxt#okay so I had this in my notes app dated June 8 2022#and I can't remember if I wrote it myself or I copied it from somewhere#and like I'm 99% sure I didn't copy because I likely would have reblogged it or at least written the name of the poet and title#and I have a lot of other poetry I wrote in my notes app#and exactly zero copied things because I deleted pretty much everything that I didn't type#(apart from hard to type emoticons)#back in 2021#so I'm pretty sure this is mine#but I can't remember for absolutely 100% definitively for sure#so uh... if it's not then please let me know and I'll delete it
26 notes
·
View notes