#there are doodles and stuff but im not counting them
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justewil · 1 year ago
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2/4 of the times i've drawn hershel he's wearing a dress .what does this mean
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collophora · 1 year ago
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Do yourself a favor and go read the entire fanfic work of @fanfoolishness
(In order: Under sun and shade, Blind Side, and Breathless (patching up is one of my fav too, I just had no cool sketch idea for it)
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cent-scratchnsniff · 3 months ago
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doodles and stuff. struggled with painting until i gave up
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#i GUESS? carmen and ayins face is a whole thing and stuff.#oh wait hello silly first life stuff. yeah that counts. tee hee?#angela and benjamin are technically there but theyre kinda small compaired to the rest of the drawings in inclusion so im not sure..#ill do angela since she isnt covered#angela lobcorp#carmen lobcorp#ayin lobcorp#netzach lobcorp#it mustve been so prominent. the feelings of affection. those memories of ayin smiling so gently and warmly to her. to Carmen. than angela.#for it to be the very first thing brought up. the very first thing to actually recall from the copy of Her brain. a warmth she would never#be able to see upon that face. a warmth she knows and can recall but never for Her. a man who adored carmen to have such a face shown to he#that now cannot even bare to look at what isnt her what could never be her yet depending on a creation he loathes#for its similarities. for being close to him. for not Being Carmen enough. for being a bastardization of what once was. holding#justifications and trying to convince the self in order to continue forward. its just a machine. a machine must behave as a machine#how miserable. how trapping. how stuck and desperate. ever inflicting cycle of pain. anyways PLATONIC GIOCARMEN!! 🔥🔥#i canot speak upon ayin for there isnt enough room. GIOVANNI!! wanted to draw some interactions w them.#there was a scrapped doodle of carmen talking abt pain levels for beaking bones with a smile on her face while pointing to his body#bc day 48 and decidedly factually stating things with a smile as if it wasnt even personal. even if it is distressing#women in stem 🔥 have her bring over diagrams for him to have as reference. gio helping skim and find pages for specific quotes or a section#to bookmark. just happy at her glee and determination. carmen is holding up a clipboard w a diagram from the red book by carl jung but its#really small and hard to tell what it is. tee hee. there is more rambles but nay. i shant. twas for fun in between stuff#ever constant fear of misconstrued words. prithee. accept my offerings.....#spoke abt them before. i think? so content inside her warmth and joy. alive at her pride. feeling a part of him ripped away at her listless#expression. erased vanished faded from the world back to the murky color of gray further when she left the world. its so. ahngbh.#ill make a rb after this comes out and i wake up on the side blog nieranddear of just more rambles on it all that couldnt fit here#lor spoilers#... maybe. maybe on the rambles. if i dont get embarrassed and dip out of fear. whatever. go my queued post
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patchyworx · 3 days ago
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Back with more stupid tv crap, this time ! It's even more cringe
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v Bonus back view because mmm Tenna Ass.
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st4rstudent · 2 years ago
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i think no on earth would ever say this but...
rocky x count erclaim?
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i'm sure you're not the first! have some amoebas
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masked-artist-xp · 2 years ago
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They are 100% a slut...
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Me fr:
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squidpedia · 1 month ago
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if it's fine with you, could you draw more aimee? I just adore them and you can draw them as doodles or colored or etc I really just wanna put them as a phone wallpaper I LOVE THEM OKAY. They're so scrunkly and yeah ALSO do you have angst planned for the future ANYAAYS BYEEEEE
1. Unfortunately i dont think these make the greatest wallpaper buttttt i do have a bunch of aimee stuff lying around!! Hereeeeee thank you for liking themmmmm (bare in mind some of these are olddd and design is a little outdated. Most recent ones is any where they are colored and have the blue colored eyebags. First image is most accurate in terms of current hairstyle)
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Rambled about this to oomf recently but like when it comes to making oc’s im prone to base them off of specific memories usually. thing that inspired aimee was when family decided to screw with 9 y/o me and print out photograph with photoshopped ghost face onto it and swear it was real. Went to bed and felt sensation of something rubbing my shoulder for the next 12 hours. And also crying sobbing because i wasnt sure if “the bad man with the red eyes” was gonna get me first or the manananggal. Aimee wasnt built to survive i think
2. i think so?? I have a lot of comics i really wanna make and i just have to bring myself to finish them eventually,,,,,i think a good chunk of them count as sad but also have ok resolutions to them, i like my angst content combo’ed with promise of healing :)
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thebitterbeanjuice · 7 months ago
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INTRO POSTT‼️‼️
i go by many names.....which are avery, cas, iris, or v/vee (pronounced like the letter)!! she/they/he but i’m cool with neos too
(pronouns card)
i like a lot of stuff mainly mcr, hamilton (lams esp), green day, arcane, b-182, byler, riordanverse, spiderverse, and marauders (i listened to half of hadestown but im not getting into it until i hear the whole thing at least once (this is taking a very long time apparently)
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blinkies made on blinkie cafe 📢📢
SIDEBLOGS
@averys-blob-blog for note spam 😼😼
@gender-detector my first gimmick 💕💕my child
@mcr-as-outer-space my contribution to the mcr ecosystem that i definitely remember to post on 💔
@your-younger-brother-official run by my friend but i go on there sometimes too
dni lists dont do much for me just dont be bigoted and please dont ask for money i have none and am a minor etc etc. bE KIND 👹👹
i also LOVE ASKS please send me them even anonymously
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also PLEEEEEAAASEEEEE dont be afraid to talk to me!!! i can be awkward/not pick up on things at times but i love to talk to anyone about anything i love making friends!! likewise if you want me to shut up just. say so.
i do tend to curse a lot and type in caps. and keyboard smash
french speaking = coloris (color/colour)
i am a self-proclaimed nerd. also a geek
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my current tags: #just a bean doin weird shit (for my silly stuff), #avery's art stuff (for MY ART which i never post😔), #v's canon events (irl stuff), #cas pay attention (important stuff i wanna go back to), #avery's being weird again (im a creeeeeppp im a weeirdooooooooo), and #the people have spoken (for asks)
i am 1828370923446529101 years old. and a minor
and since i am a minor i go to school which is boring as fuck so if youre like. not there pleease send me fun asks or doodle ideas or fic recs or cool music!!
~cool border~
MY FRIENDOS AND THEIR TAGGGGGSSSSSSSS
#joy bean for @but-aint-this-texas!!!! my parent and also one of my best friends in the entire universe :3
#fag gayme for @jameslongforjimshortforgabriel very cool and very gay fellow hamilton enjoyer (and my first moot 📢📢)
#paladin of the pillow fort for @fawn-fur illi obsessed and the creator of the im-not-okay-verse community!!!!
#moonflower for @your-local-starstruck-dreamer fun twinkly/twinky energy drinker!!!!!! cronchy cookie defender but its ok....i guess......... /silly
#the wonderful wizard of oz for @ozzysboneyard *agressive headbanging* the ozzman
#ray of frogshine for @d3m0l1t10n-r4y fellow nonginger ray defender :>
#tater tot for @homocidalpotat the tater ever :0
#chris for @dumb-chrissy-hoffmann im gonna get a better tag i swear but you now appear on the introoo
#piggeon for @pigeons-and-pebbles my big brother in law :3
#count von count for @lolomustdie literally twin but waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy cooler
#jiminy cricket for @c0nstantlyscreaming get underpantsed biatch :3
i definetly have more tags for people but i forgot them so gimme a few decades to find em lmao
!!!also!!!! if tumblr shuts down or gets banned or some shit my discord is 'the_ghost_of_avery' without the quotes obv OK GUYS THIS IS STILL TRUE BUT MY MOM DELETED IT SO IM TRYING TO FIND IT IN MY EMAIL BUT STILL SEND FRIEND REQS!!!
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yep that’s all for now thanks for reading this mess <33
[hands you a star] (∩^o^)⊃☆
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cario55555 · 1 year ago
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Gonna be taking a bit of a break from art and such and so, specifically cotl stuff mainly because i got abunch of wips in the backlog and others stuff to doodle but also i like this little freakshow im making too so have abunch of fun facts about the funny lamb universe i got goin on for now under the cut
⁍ The Lamb would canonically win in a fight against 4 Leshy's or 2 Heket's, but not 3 Shamura's or 2 Kallamar's. ⁍ The Goat literally just walked into the Cult and acted like he already knew everyone. This somehow worked for 3 years. ⁍ I have no idea if Narilamb is canon in this or not, but if it was then it would not end well for anyone ⁍ Plimbo is the best character, this is a fact and you cannot dispute it. I tried designing him like 8? times and I just couldn't get it in a satisfying way. this is because he is without flaw. ⁍ The Lamb was fully aware of the prophecy before the beheading. They were counting on it. There is blood on their hands. ⁍ Sozo is very dead. Whatever's walking around the Cult, that's not Dr. Sozonius. ⁍ Look at this thing I can do ☺ isn't that wild ⁍ It takes place in a permadeath save. This means that the Lamb's delusions of power definitely weren't helped by the fact that they BARELY even knew Narinder, and the fact they killed 5 gods without sleeping. ⁍ Also Lamb killed Narinder lol ⁍ Mystic Seller is named "That Which Takes" ⁍ Leshycat's canon but I'll never design them its just gonna be like in Tom and Jerry where they're just slightly offscreen at all times ⁍ Midas that rat fuck owes me 20$ ⁍ Surprisingly, Heket got the closest to killing The Lamb. She wears this as a badge of honor, or as a means to make fun of the other Bishops. I forget which. ⁍ I might make a fanfic one of these days based on cult of the sham but it'd literally just be an always sunny episode lol ⁍ Webber is literally the exact same as the one from Don't Starve. They had to put him down because he kept placing spider nests all over the Cult, and Pigs kept trying to throw down. ⁍ A little gnome just ran behind you when you weren't looking. ⁍ The Lamb is ambidextrous, this is because I keep forgetting which hand to have them hold stuff with. They also have no idea what this word means. ⁍ The gnome ran behind you again you gotta pay more attention to this stuff ⁍ ☺sorry i didn't mean to do it that time ⁍ Clauneck and Kudaai like switching clothes and acting like eachother to fuck with people, it works every time without fail. ⁍ Aym and Baal are hanging out with Forneus. The Lamb didn't let them do this, they literally just booked it as soon as they got the chance and Forneus totally could beat the shit out of The Lamb. ⁍ help its red now ⁍ nevermind we're good ⁍ Ratau was driven mad by the crown. He's had the knowledge of the gods ripped from his skull and delicately placed onto some psychopathic woolen beast. He's not all there. ⁍ Any time I'm working on COTL stuff I'm usually listening to King Gizzard and the Wizard Lizard. To get the general tone I try and set, listen to their album "I'm In Your Mind Fuzz". Good stuff. ⁍ The Industrial Meat Grinder incident was an inside job.
thank y'all for all the support, means the world that people actually like the delusional ramblings that come out of my brain at...
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yeah that tracks.
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also one more little mini preview for a drawing that might get finished one of these days idk
why is webber there i genuinely do not remember???
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rmgkyle · 6 months ago
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@tiredsmashbros
OHHHH TOMM HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Christmas special
HERE YOU GOOO
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
I'm going to honest, I generally think I'm not going to be there for the party since I'm dealing with some stuff rn😞
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Tomm, man I LOVE UR ART SO MUCH, ESPECIALLY THE COMICS. Your comics are top amazing in general that I can eat them one by one and ur arts? Oh man they are so delicious and I love ur cartoon style eeee it makes me want to look at it everytime you post. Another thing I like about you is your silly little obsession with South park and Scott Pilgrim. I'VE BEEN DYING to see someone in the fandoms, its like I'm trying to find someone with the same fandom as me through the popular ones. I've been ur fan for a long time now and I was so excited/nervous to meet you! I love when we talk and yap about anything ESPECIALLY when we talk about our favorite fandoms. You make me smile and sequel everytime I see u in Vc's or channels in your discord server, it makes me feel special and happy to get to talk with you even if I'm being annoying. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! 🥹🥹🥹OH AND U LITERALLY MADE ME SCREAM WHEN U MADE A LITTLE DOODLE DOODLE OF RMG GIVING BURGERS TO TSB AAAAA I STILL LOOK AT IT AND HOPE I GET MORE DOODLES, THE FACT UR A COLLEGE STUDENT I UNDERSTAND WHY U CAN'T MAKE STUFF FOR PEOPLE RIGHT NOW SINCE UR BUSY WITH OTHER THINGS!!! BUT I WILL BE PATIENT AND WAIT ✋ I PROMISE . Also, you just lighten my mood and I'm so glad I found someone with the same energy with me because EVERYONE IS GETTING SERIOUS NOW?! IM JUST A LITTLE SILLY KYLE. I want to thank you for yapping to me because I just adore u so much it's making me go koo koo HEHEHEHEHEHE.
I'm collecting all the yellow hearts u gave me and I think I counted them all /j
I'm so happy that I get to hang out with you and make silly jokes with you since I'm to comfy around you. Like, when I talk to someone I'm so shy but when I got a little closer to you IM SILLY HEHEHEHE. I was going to make more fanart but I'm pretty busy with a comic coming up. Speaking of comics, IM GOING TO STRANGLE YOU WITH THE "comic" YOU ARE MAKING. It's such a relief to join in the VC with no one except radiant, blue, or even doodle because that's the time I get to Yap to you or even make you laugh. WAIT HOW DO I EVEN MAKE U LAUGH?!? AAAAAAAAA. I LOVE LOVE LOVE UR INTERESTS BECAUSE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH PEOPLE HAVE POPLAR FANDOMS BUT HERE WE ARE STILL OBSESSED WITH SCOTT PILGRIM AND SOUTH PARK.
You made me keep going on my art after seeing yours, obviously because you are my idol and I would do anything just to Yap to you again. It's such a great fact that you love RMG, she is just a basic deer jeezzzz /j
Anyways! I hope we can be good friends someday!
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im-bored-so-i-draw · 11 months ago
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unecesarry post at 3 am but i just feel like it ig
theres a few inaccuracy but i cant be bothered anymore. we ball.
more notes (i need this) below cut that i wanted to put on these doodles
not the fastest dragon but its still up there
idk this shouldnt count as dragon?
fein personally choose this because he dont feel the need to be flying around on a dragon. he can do it on his own with his arrow magic thing
or elytra idk how much of minecraft will be rooted in
he needs a fast chest carrier to assist him
again. this could work for AA stuff but idk
(killing an ender dragon is a job theyre so invasive in here)
fein wasnt so fond of dragon before but this one got a pass
his favorite even 👍
this dragon is rather a quiet one (extra points)
all the glass like feature is so sharp
thats why weapons or any cutlery made from their glass features are high in quality
taming one is not easy
this dragon specifically feast on smaller, slower creature
but sometimes they also hunt down bigger dragons
see how dragonfly flies to get a vision on how this one flies
fire breath as per usual but. not so much.
mainly focuses on using their glass feature to strike
usually found in highly dense forest next to a large clearing
be careful when walking in wide paths in the middle of the woods
their wings might be a throwaway but since its semi transparent, they can kinda blend in
fein never named his dragon. well. not until a certain event that. lets just say. high death risk :3
ok im done this getting too long what am i even yapping about
highly active. please be prepared.
somehow is so loyal to fein >:0 how >:(((( did he enchant it with loyalty or something
known for being so rebellious hence why most people who owns them have them on leash or something similar
which brings up the question again. how did fein managed to pull this off.
fein is really the "we dont need a dragon" and then silde two with him affectionately praising the dragon
OK FR IM DONE BYEEE
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attyslittlespace · 1 year ago
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TAKE CARE OF YOU (SAM X LITTLE! READER)
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WORD COUNT: 813
Authors Note: This is my first time writing! I made it for fun so sorry if it isn't perfect 😖
Warning(s): Sam cusses like once lol
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It was friday, and even though it was only 2nd period, the day had been extremely stressful. First, you didn’t hear your alarm go off, so you had less than 10 minutes to get ready and leave. Then, you spilled water on your shirt on the way to 1st period, and by the time you cleaned up yourself and the floor, the bell had rang and you were late. Finally, by the time you got to class, you realized there was a test, a test you didn’t study for. So here you are in 2nd period: Stressed, tired, annoyed, and upset. Fortunately though, your friend Sam was in that class to cheer you up. As usual, he wasn’t doing any work, just leaned back in his chair and reading a new comic he bought at Frog’s Comic Shop.
“You know, I’d allow you to borrow any of my comics if you were ever interested in reading them.” Sam looks at you, smiling and closing his comic book to pay attention to you. “Mhm..” You reply, mustering up a smile and a slight nod. You weren’t really in the mood for conversation. You were nervous. In the privacy of your home, you usually regressed to combat stress, and it was always voluntary. So when you felt yourself slipping, you were confused and nervous. You had never regressed involuntarily before, and what made it worse was that it was in front of Sam. What would he think? Would he make fun of you? These thoughts were running around your mind when you finally hear a familiar voice snap you out of it. “Hey… is everything ok?” Sam speaks up, tilting his head that has a concerned expression on it. He rests his hand on your back and leans in a little closer. “Just… stressful day… n… noth…” You try to speak, but everytime you do your voice starts slipping into your little voice. You try to stop it but your brain does it anyway. You regressed. He giggles at you. “Are you regressing?” He asks, his contaigious smile flashing his teeth at you. Your eyes grow wide. He knows what age regression is? He tells by your facial expression that you are and laughs. “I do that shit all the time!” He admits. You just look at him im awe, some because of his response, some because toddler brain. He grabs your hand and holds it. “Hey… you can regress in front of me… its okay.” He tells you, his voice gentle.
The bell rings and it’s now free period. “Do you have anywhere to go?” Sam asks, picking up his stuff and throwing his backpack on. “Nuh uh.” You reply, also picking up your stuff. “Then you should hang out with me, I’ll take care of you.” He takes your hand and leads you out of the classroom. He takes you out to the courtyard and you both sit under a tree. It’s spring in Santa Carla, so it’s very bright and sunny outside. Sam reaches in his bag and pulls out a pink marker. He always had different stationary stuff in his bag to doodle with in class instead of pay attention. “Gimmie your arm cutie.” He uses a petname on you and you cant help but smile and giggle at him. You give him your arm and he starts to draw on it. He draws hearts, stars, and, of course, the superman symbol. You watch him, kicking your legs and mindlessly chewing on your thumb. You quietly babble and giggle to yourself, to nothing and everything at all. Sam stops and looks up at you, giggling with you. “How old are you silly?” He asks, taking the thumb out of your mouth. “Uhhh…” You reply, smiling and shrugging your shoulders. He giggles are your response. “Well you're definitely too little to be at such a grown up school!” He teases, making you just giggle more. “Someone got attacked by the giggle monster today didn’t they?” he coos at you. ”Nuh uh!!” You protest, but your uncontrollable giggling just proves his point. He goes back to drawing on your arm until you slowly unregress. It’s about 5 minutes until next period.
“Hey, sam… thank you…” You tell him. He stops drawing on you and looks up, realizing you aren’t regressed anymore. “Of course! I would want someone else to do the same if I regressed at school!” He replies, smiling and putting up the marker, your arm now covered in drawings. “So… you regress?” You ask. “Yeah, for fun, but I’ve never accidentally regressed like you just did.” You both stand up and gather your things. “Well, if you ever did I’d take care of you.” You smile at him, hearing the bell ring.
“Thank you, cutie.”
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acidrefluxblog · 5 months ago
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hi guys, sorry i havent posted all that much lately. i have a lot of stuff in theatre going on rn, and im spending a lot of time thinking about life. i wanna post more tho!!! its just hard. i also wanna improve a lot this year, so ive really been locking in on studying rendering and shading and stuff like that. i realized that since i was able to improve so much last year, that it is entirely possible i could improve that much in another. thank you for your patience!
anyways, heres some doodles i did in class. most of them are of count bleck from super paper mario. ive been thinking a lot about that game lately cuz i played it as a kid. i really thought his design was cool so i kinda gave him this cool zombie appearance headcannon. i hope you all enjoy. i think i drew him digitally too, but im not at home rn so i’ll have to post it l8er
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HOLY SHIT AS I WAS TYPING THIS A BIRD LITERALLY APPEARED RIGHT NEXT TO ME WTF THIS IS SO COOL. ANYWAYS BYEEE!!!! <3
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smuggonifico-lmao · 2 years ago
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ok listen, i genuinely actually only wanted to like, do a silly doodle of potential raphowl and hummikey, but then is escalated and now the girsl are fighting, its 4:30am and im tired but its ok, theyre pretty bird turtles i love them, i think thus might count as an au of an au of an au cause the crownardo is an au of swanatello which in my opinion is pretty cool but now we got: Dissapointed but not suprised Raphowl and very amused and absolutely an enabler, Hummikey
im just gonna at both of you cause like, its your aus and stuff, im tired
@dryad-druid @tangledinink
hah, the girls are fighting is so suitable for this
im gonna link a song that i think is very fitting for them
Knife fight by Lemon Demon
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cxsmicvega · 2 years ago
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so many things to share! soso many!
Let's go ahead then!
I believe the wally recording links spell out "I will help you understand soon." But I could be wrong!
The links for the videos tell you what number they are out of 14, i will watch them in order later, and the last two letters are the initials of the characters speaking.
Obvious, but all the videos cut out after they say Wally's name.
SEARCH FOR THE BUGS AND DOODLES, V IMPORTANT
Wally is no longer looking at the viewer in the count image.
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Despite so many of Wally's art no longer looking at the viewer, the stickers for Wally and Home still are.
It has been confirmed that the doodles on the guest book aren't by the team
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Zoom out on the pages
The vinyls for the recordings also look like eyes
in the little divider used for wh, Wally and Home are the only ones not separated by a heart
Poppy's accent drops in the phone call recordings [Link] when she drops the phone, idk if that means anything but good to keep in mind.
Franks garden is dead.
The answers to the safe coincide with the worksheet answers in the playfellow exhibition [link].
Home is def speaking in morse code again in this audio [link, heavy spoiler for those looking to find stuff on their own] and if anyone has figured it out lmk, i tried but im a lil Substance Induced rn and my friends couldn't figure it out either.
Somethin is up with the question answerer, maybe try hovering over the word answer here and there to find something!
Remember the "you" page in the neighborhood, don't skip it.
Spend some time on the error page. For funsies yknow : ) (there's something there)
Remember to check the guest book!
Weird af that they asked a puppet about his dating life in the live interview [link] but maybe it's just a muppet thing? idk!
That's all for now I think, at least what I wrote down. Remember to take breaks for snacks and such! Ily!!!
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candy8448 · 29 days ago
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I genuinely don't get what im meant to get my dad for fathers day.
Neither of my parents have interests, no popular series like star wars or something they like, no hobbies, no sports they like or even like chess or something. They are both just on their phones all day in the house.
Yet if i dont get them anything, im called by both of them and my older sister a terrible horrible child who doesnt care about them.
My mum will cry because we didnt get anything for them, my dad will guilt trip with "if they dont care about their dad enough to get them a gift then its fine" all the while my sister is there telling me how terrible and uncaring i am.
Can't even make them handmade stuff anymore. It was fine when i was too small to go anywhere on my own but as soon as i turned old enough to leave the house on my own and have pocket money im constantly told how drawings and cards and crafts are useless (my mum hates then and inly keeps them somewhere she doesnt look at them ever again, dont know what my dad does with them) because i dont care enough because i didnt spend money on the gifts, mocking when i say i put thought into the handmade thing (menwhile if my mum crochets something simple it counts as a gift, if i make an illustration then it doesnt count)
(Of course it has to be money, coming from the parents who think that the only form of love they need to ever provide is the fact that they feed us and dont throw us out and buy us clothes and buy something we want in the blue moon i gather my courage to be jealous for once and buy something for £5)
As if they even put effort into their gifts, as soon as we became old enough to stop believing in santa they gave up. On christmas they got us tote bags... tote bags that my mum only hought of once she saw someone carrying one (she told us that). They just ask what we want and we have to do all the searching and send them the link to the specific one (painstakingly searched to be the absolute cheapest one) and they buy it. They have never thought once about what they would give us, meanwhile im expected to think of something after i have no idea what they even like because they have no personality. This christmas for once in their lives they thought about and got us presents as a surprise, and it was nice stuff that they got, but it was the only time ever they have done that for any christmas or birthday.
I hate gift giving, its so stressful, i do best with handmade gifts but even if i make them for my friends (who appreciate it) they have to interogate and inspect what ive made and make me feel awful and have to go buy anything else so its worthy enough to be a real present. I hate gift giving, which makes me feel so guilty because i love recieving gifts and treasure even the smallest doodle i recieve, my bedroom is a capsule of all ive collected and recieved in my life and i feel so bad that i just cannot return that, at least i can have some idea what to give my siblings because they HAVE INTERESTS but i hate that three times a year (mother/father's day, their birthdays, christmas) i have to stress constantly about what to get them. These five times a year are not spread out enough so im for some reason in this specific kind of stress (not even with all of the other junk piled on my mind because of their abuse and school but-). I just freaking hate gift giving
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