#therapy is fun ig

[lucyfrostblade]

sitting down with a cup of green tea for my nightly session of thinking about everything wrong that could ever happen

[cyborgcatboys]

-- TAKING A BREAK --

hewwo, im gonna be taking a break from tumblr for the next while.

ive come to realize that im on tumblr wayyyy too much bc of my (newly found) ocd so im leaving for a while to try and deal with it (+ other stuff in the op tags)

i'll be back once im satisfied w/ my progress, but there is a chance i won't be back for months, so if u want to stay in contact send me a DM w ur discord or smthn, i'll check them a couple of times in the next couple days, but after that no tumblr at all.

so yeah, byebyes & i'll see u people later hopefully <3

[telesodalite]

Sort of a ramble, sort of me just writing my thoughts out while I'm stuck with writer's block, but I keep thinking about how Fulcrum was in stasis for roughly 3 million years??

Like, that's a long time, even for Cybertronians. Not a really long time, not an entire lifespan. But still, it's a large chunk of a normal lifespan just gone. Poof.

One second you're crawling across the pockmarked terrain of an alien planet, surrounded by the sound of gunfire, and the shouting and screaming before and after each earth shuddering impact of another k-con hitting the ground. And then it's quiet. You're not there anymore. You're drifting somewhere between not alive and just asleep. Preserved somewhere in the background of a doomed body, ignored by time and space, still here, but also not.

And then there's sound. Not gunfire. Not shouting or screaming. Not the sounds that'll haunt you till your dying days, your own death sentence pounding in your head. No. Just voices, talking, standing out against a silent, dead world. Wondering. Joking. Bickering. Familiar. Just, not familiar to you. And you're awake. Pulled back from the nothingness you've been frozen in, consciousness tugged forwards with the yank of a fuel pump and the nearness of life.

These two moments are roughly 3 million years apart, but only minutes, maybe even seconds, to him. From a hectic harrowing battlefield, to an old silent graveyard in one blink.

How long did it take to really sink in? I mean, he seems to just roll with it. He doesn't seem particularly bothered. But like, what happened outside of what we see? How did he really feel?

Also, his body aged without him. While his mind preserved itself, freezing him as he was right then, his body was left to weather Clemency for all those years. No wonder it crumbled to dust when he jumped off the world sweeper. It's probably a miracle of some kind that it didn't just fall apart each time someone leaned on him.

And even after they rebuild him, give him a better, newer body. His spark, it's casing, all the irreplaceable core bits that make up their inner bodies, it aged in the time without him. Does he feel it? Does it make his body even more foreign to him?

Then he's also a technician with information that's 3 million years out of date. Lucky him that the scavengers probably weren't working with top of the line material. But still it's gotta be weird when faced with anything brand new, because a lot can change and progress in 3 million years, and now some of the knowledge he once prided himself in is obsolete.

Besides those things, his view of the galaxy, of the war, of their kind, of other kinds, is one of the few things actually pointed out when it comes to him being stuck in the past. So, how often were his old views challenged? Facts of life he held close proved to no longer true? There's 3 million years worth of new science, new beliefs, new words, new terms, new views.

And sure, some of it can be familiar, because they're an ever evolving kind, and they have patterns, core beliefs, repeating behaviors, but a lot of it's gonna be unfamiliar at the same time, because it's 3 million years worth of catch up, it's not like missing last week's trend.

In a way, it makes him a living relic of a bygone era for Decepticons. It would've been really interesting to have had that explored a little more.

[schemelin]

every now and then i experience brief moments of self-awareness telling me to make major changes to the fusionsprunt story

[doginasillyhat]

SILLYHAT VENTING AGAIN???!! what is new

anyway. couldn’t do any assignments this semester lmao. my english prof was so kind and gave me so much support but even then i’ve been trying for weeks to get these assignments knocked out but i just physically cannot. this is the second semester out of four that i’ve failed completely. both times the biggest issue was mental health, because when im able to do my work im really good, so it’s not totally like im just not doing it. because im trying! i really am!

i cannot get myself to lock in. i can’t articulate my words well enough

feeling like a HASHTAG FAILURE!!!!! i rlly want to drop out and find like a tafe course or something but i RLLY RLLY want to go into archiving!! and it’ll make my parents angry and disappointed AGAIN if i drop out of a second university degree!!!!

sad hat moment :(

[silverselfshippingchaos]

the line where he asks r.yoma to spar with him is so cute

[meraki-yao]

Today on Meraki's daily rwrb brain rot

I agonize over the promo that we lost daily but I started wondering how would the Instagram character accounts go down

Because we have Taylor and Nick, who are real people in the real world with real accounts

Then you have Alex and Henry simulation accounts

But at the same time Taylor is Alex and Nick is Henry

So how the fuck would they interact? Would Taylor and Nick comment under firstprince's post? Would they just reshare the post on their Instagram story without caption? Do they exist in the same plane as firstprince the way some comments play into the story and say stuff like "acd why are you showing up to prince henry events all of a sudden" and "Your Highness you've been in the states a lot lately" and "I bet you ended someone's hunger" (the comments under the polo posts are unhinged) or they exist as our world seeing this as fiction? Would they interact with the accounts at all? How would this universe crossing work?

Am I overthinking this? Definitely. Am I mad at Prime for not doing more after the strike. Absolutely. Am I fixating on any aspect of rwrb I can think of? 100%

But seriously how would that work oh my god

[azrail-has-a-vendetta]

my college gives you free therapy however you only get six sessions for free. So imma speed run therapy

This is the start of my presentation on all the trauma from my childhood to teens :)

[sophiethewitch1]

If it's not obvious I have a poor relationship with the concept of rest and recovery

[brutal-nemesis]

get ready for my shitty wips

i uh. i've never had. a lot of wips. so this feels a bit silly but whatever it's for fun ig ✨ ty @toyybox

Rules: Pick a bunch of your WIPs and summarize them as badly as possible, then ask your followers to vote on which one they'd be most likely to read. Multiple/all/none options are completely optional.

Open tag because I'm eepy （；´д｀）ゞ

[binch-i-might-be]

sorry im on anon because i don't want to directly get involved in the drama but. what the fuck is wrong with that person?? genuinely what the FUCK?? i'm so sorry this happened to you ray but the bible verse alone is making me think it's a troll now?? like holy shit why do these things happen to you

yeah I get that! no worries

well what I've gathered from her responses to tumblr user @dianaisangry who is brave enough to engage with her (and kind enough to defend me <33), she just genuinely doesn't understand this community and has a massive victim complex. I oddly almost feel bad for her because I don't think she understands what she's doing wrong? but also she's a grown adult so she SHOULD understand what she's doing wrong. you know

thank you <3 honestly the bible verse didn't even register with me, that shit is just random gibberish to me and I very much did not look it up lol. but yeah that is 100% troll behaviour

I still have no idea why she decided to do what she did. I would get it if she chose to harp on my post that admittedly vagues about her behaviour or one of my jokes about A dot Ham but no,,,,, she chose to make fun of me being like "I go to therapy now" 😭

[merevide]

how it feels to post a sad music link and get over 2 likes

[mchiti]

my friends i usually don't make post like this because I choose peace usually n I don't like to indirect ppl but like. I guess i've reblogged a total of 3 old posts in recent times from aj*x gud days and I only went to check on one of those acc out of curiosity and I saw them posting about finding this amusing/weird. as in "what's up with the nostalgia from fans of these players, it's been years, u weren't even watching aj*x" (i guess this was about the ziy-ech ona-na post from yesterday lol) and on one side it was funny bc i watched *counting* 5+ years worth of eredivisi-e I should get a medal for that alone. My usb drive full of old memories I occasionally go through to feel happy. u want to know something about aja*x those days I have everything at ur disposal. 16 april 2019 in ams, I was there. I mean just to say we can't really assume what people liked or didn't like before just to shame strangers having fun u know

[whump-queen]

favorite color? favorite trope?

if you woke up tomorrow and found yourself transformed into a giant beetle but were still aware of everything, how would you react?

(for this ask game)

- Favorite color(s): probably pink and orange but lately purple starting to look real tasty too 0.0

- Favorite trope: oh my god I dont even know where to start I have so many...  but right now im very obsessed with mouth whump, masochist whumpees, electricity, humiliation whump, obsessive/yandere whumpers, blood and fangs and biting... I could go on.

- Ah, the ol Kafka scenario. I would be super pissed. MEGA pissed. how DARE you take away my hot demon bod >:ccc   I’ve read Metamorphosis and the descriptions in that book are so gross (I hate bugs so much, major squick terrority), it would be a big nope from me.  I’d probably never go in public and live the rest of my life as a sad lil bug hermit on the internet. lucky for you itd probably mean Id be churning out content for this blog a lot faster. 

[astrxealis]

sometimes (often) i think about the characters i kin or relate to and then the realization comes in again and again that i need therapy (/lh?)

[director-yomi-hellsmile]

do i stick with the funny cat books for the time being or do i (re)read the funny dragon books............ the fandom is insufferable and the books are mid except for the time where they come up with some of the most interesting concepts i have seen brought up and resolve it in the shittiest most underwhelming way possible. also people are annoying about darkstalker. its either "he's done nothing wrong and if you don't like how he tries to commit genocide then you hate abuse victims" or "he's pure evil and irredeemable and hates all women and his mom should have disowned him and its actually very good that he got all his memories wiped and turned into a rainwing child by the good guys in fact he deserved worse" like jesus christ im beginning to think none of you read the books and you just looked over the pretty text and picked out whatever you wanted to remember. anyway albatross best character i will not be fought on this hill, and "legends: darkstalker" is the best book but not in the way everyone else thinks it is legitimately so fucking tragic for me to be the only person into wof with the correct takes on it and i don't even interact with the fandom because its a fucking tar pit. what was i talking about again