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amphtaminedreams · 4 years ago

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J.K Rowling & The Echo Chamber of TERFs: Why Nobody Wants your Transphobic “Opinion”

TW// Discussion of Sexual Assault and Transphobia

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I’ve seen the term “allyship fatigue” going round a lot lately on Twitter, since the issues of police brutality, institutional racism, and now transphobia have taken central stage.

And it’s weird. To be honest, hearing other white cis people calling themselves “allies” has always sounded kinda self-congratulatory. Taking this to the level of martyrdom that the phrase “allyship fatigue” evokes makes me want to heave. It’s shit that anyone even has to be saying Black Lives STILL Matter, but it does seem to unfortunately be the case that every time there is a highly publicised murder of a black individual by police, the explosion of us white people calling ourselves allies and retweeting and reblogging statements of solidarity only lasts so long before half revert back to being complacent with and uncritical of a world seeped with casual racism. Is that what “allyship fatigue” is? The excuse for that? Not only does the term take the focus off of the marginalised group the movement is centred around but it makes supporting equal rights sound like some kind of heroic burden we’ve chosen to take on rather than addressing a debt we owe and being not even good but just plain decent human beings. WE are not the ones shouldering the weight here, and if your mental health is suffering, that is not the fault of the people asking for their rights. Log off. We have the privilege to do that. It just doesn’t need to be a spectacle.

At the same time, this public onslaught of ignorance and hatred that the coverage of the Black Lives Matter movement has triggered (that let me again emphasise, black people have had to involuntarily be on the receiving end of their whole lives) and the frustration and anger that comes from seeing these absolute trash takes from people with no research into the subject who build their argument purely on “what about”isms is do-I-even-want-to-bring-children-into-this-fucking-world levels of miserable. In terms of earth beginning to look more and more like the prequel describing the events which lead up to a dystopian novel, the chaos of the last 4 weeks or so (2020 has not only shattered the illusion of time but also danced on the shards, I know) is the tip of the iceberg. I saw a thread about what’s going on in Yemen at the moment, which I had no idea about, and immediately felt consumed by guilt that I didn’t know. With the advent of social media, there’s been this sudden evolutionary shift where we’re almost required and expected to know about, have an opinion on, and be empathetic with every humanitarian crisis at once. I think young people feel this especially, which is why I say that sometimes it’s worth talking to an older person before you brush them off as a racist or a homophobe and see if they’re open to hearing different opinions-in general, I think we’re a generation that is used to being expected to consume a huge amount of information at once. They are not. For a lot (NOT all) of the older, middle-class, white population, ignorance isn’t a conscious choice, it is the natural way of life. The parameters of empathy until very recently have only had to extend just past your closest circle of friends to encompass people you “relate to”. That doesn’t mean they aren’t capable of caring about other things, and sometimes we owe them a chance to change their perspective first, if for no reason other than to advance the cause of, well, basic human rights for all.

So where does J.K Rowling come into all this? I hear you ask. Why doesn’t she just stop rambling? You potentially wonder. Well, I’m getting to it.

J.K Rowling isn’t an unconsciously ignorant people. She is what I would call consciously ignorant. And of all weeks to flaunt this ignorance, she chose a time when people are already drowning in a cesspit of hatred. The woman whose whole book series supposedly revolves around the battle between good and evil didn’t even try to drain the swamp. She instead added a bucket of her transphobic vitriol into it.

Let me preface this by saying that I wouldn’t wipe my arse with the Sun. What they did with the statement she made regarding her previous abusive relationship, seeking out said abusive partner for an interview and putting it on the front page with the headline “I slapped J.K”, whilst expected from the bunch of cretinous bottom feeders who work there, is disgusting. That being said, the pattern of behaviour J.K Rowling has exhibited since she first became an online presence is equally disgusting, and just because the Sun have been their usual shithead selves, doesn’t mean we should forget the issue at hand, that issue being her ongoing transphobia and erasure of trans women from women’s rights.

As I’m sure is the case for many people on Tumblr, J.K Rowling has always been such a huge inspiration for me, and Harry Potter was my entire childhood. My obsession with it continued until I was at least 16 and is what got me through the very shit years of being a teenager, and that will forever be the case. I’m not here to discuss the whole separation of the art from the artist thing because whilst I ordinarily don’t think that’s really possible, at this point the “Harry Potter universe” has become much bigger than J.K herself. I was so pleased to see Daniel Radcliffe, Emma Watson and Rupert Grint all affirm their support for trans rights-I was raised on the films up until the 4th one which I wasn’t old enough to see at the cinema, and the DVD was at the top of my Christmas list. They were always my Harry, Hermione and Ron. It was only between the fourth and fifth films that I started to read the books to fill that gaping in-between-movies hole, but as I grew up, I read them over and over and over again. Any of the subtext that people are talking about now in light of her antisemitism and transphobia went completely over my head, though who knows, whilst I can sit here and write that I’m certain I didn’t, maybe I did pick up some unconscious biases along the way? The art/artist discussion is a complex one and I don’t know if I’ll ever read the books again at this point.

There was absolutely no subtext, however, in the “think piece” on J.K’s website addressing the response to her transphobic tweets. There wasn’t all that much to unpack in the first tirade, they were quite openly dismissive-first that womanhood is defined by whether or not one experiences menstruation (I currently don’t due to health issues but I’m betting this wouldn’t make me any less woman in her eyes), and second, regurgitating an article which furthers the fallacy that trans women simply existing erases the existence of cisgender lesbian women. Rowling’s initial response to the backlash was to blame it on a glass of red wine, I think? Which is such a weird go-to excuse for celebrities because not once have I ever got drunk and completely changed my belief system. If you’re not transphobic sober, you don’t suddenly become transphobic drunk. What you are saying is that you’re not usually publicly transphobic (which isn’t even the case with Rowling because this is hardly her first flirtation with bigotry via social media) but that whoopsies! You drank some wine and suddenly thought it was acceptable!

Now what is her excuse for the formal response she wrote to the backlash, dripping with transphobic dog whistles and straight up misinformation (UPDATE: and as of yesterday, blocking Stephen King quite literally for replying to her with the tweet “trans women are women”, in case you thought that this whole thing was a case of her intentions being misconstrued)? Drunk tweets are one thing but if she managed to write a whole fucking essay whilst pissed I imagine there’s a lot of university students out there who’d pay her good money to learn that skill.

Here is the bottom line. TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN. There is no discussion around that. And if you don’t understand why, at the very least, you can be respectful of the way a person chooses to identify, especially when that person is an already targeted minority.

Obviously, sex and gender are complex things. Based on the fact that we don’t walk around with our nether-regions out, we generally navigate our way through the world using our gender and the way we present our gender. Gender of course means many different things to many different people; some see it as a sliding scale kind of thing whereas some people can’t see themselves on the scale at all, and choose to use terms other than man or woman to express how they identify. But, whatever gender one chooses to identify as, we live in a modern world-with all the scientific advancements we’ve made and all that we now know about the brain, using what is between people’s legs to define them is an ignorant, outdated copout. You’ll find that a lot of transphobes can live in harmony with trans women who conform, who have classically feminine features, maybe facial feminisation surgery, trans women who keep quiet about how they’re seen by cis women and don’t kick up “too much of a fuss” (which is in itself still a perfectly valid, brave and understandable way to live your life after years of feeling like you don’t fit in btw). The trans women that Joanne and her friends take the most issue with is the ones who want to expand what womanhood means and stretch the boundaries of what is and isn’t acceptable, destroying the confines of simplistic model that TERFs feel comfortable operating within. The ones who fight to be recognised as no “lesser” than cis women. Calling a person a TERF is quite literally just asserting that they are someone who wants to exclude trans women from their definition of womanhood, or in other words wants to cling to the old, obsolete model. If J.K Rowling cannot let the statement “trans women are women” go unchallenged (which we’ve seen from her response to Stephen King’s tweet she cannot), then she is by definition a TERF. It’s not a slur. It’s a descriptor indicating the movement she has chosen to associate herself with. Associating the descriptor of the position you so vehemently refuse to denounce in spite of all evidence and information offered to you with the concept of a “witch hunt” when trans women are ACTUALLY brutally murdered for an innate part of their identity is insulting, at the very least.

Let’s get this straight: despite transphobes trying to conflate sex with gender and arguing that sex is the only “real” identifier of the two, our existence on this planet and our perception of this world is a gendered experience. It is our brain, where the majority of researchers agree that gender lies, which decides and dictates not only who we are and how we feel but also how we interact with everyone around us. I don’t think it’s an outlandish statement to say that when it comes to who we are as people, that flesh machine protected by our skull is the key player. PSA for transphobes everywhere: when people say penises have a mind of their own, they are NOT talking literally. The more you know.

Gender is obviously a much newer concept than sex-it is both influenced by and interacts with every element of our lives. It’s also much more complex, in that there are still many gaps in our understanding. I assume these two factors combined with the familiarity of the (usually) binary model of biological sex are a part of why TERFS fundamentally reject the importance of gender in favour of the latter. Yes, most of the time, we feel our gender corresponds with our sex, but not always, and nor is there any concrete proof that this has to be the case. Most studies tend to agree that our brains start out as blank slates, that we grow into the gender we are assigned based on our bodies. In other words, our sex only defines our gender insofar as the historical assumption that they are the same thing, which in turn exposes us to certain cultural expectations. To any TERFs that have somehow ended up here-if you haven’t already, I suggest looking into the research of Gina Rippon, a neuroscientist whom has spent a large portion of her professional career analysing the data of sex differences in the brain. Whilst she originally set out to find some kind of consistent variance between the brains of the 2 prominent sexes to back up the idea that the brains of men and women are inherently different, she found nothing of significance-individual differences, yes, but no consistent similarities in the brains of one sex that were not present in the other. Once differences in brain size were accounted for, “well-known” sex differences in key structures disappeared-in terms of proportion, these structures take up the same amount of space in the brain regardless of sex. Her findings are best summed up by her response to the question: are there any significant differences in the brain based on sex alone? Her answer is no. To suggest otherwise is “neurofoolishness”. Not only does her research help put to bed the myth that our brains are sexed along with the rest of our bodies during development (this is now believed to happen separately, meaning the sex of our bodies and brains may not correspond), but also the idea propagated by the patriarchy for centuries that basically boils down to “boys will be boys”-a myth used to condone male sexual violence against women and even against each other on the basis that it is inherent and “can't be helped”. That they are just “built differently”. Maybe at one point in human evolution, men were conditioned to fight and women were conditioned to protect, but whilst the idea remains and continues to affect our societal structures (and thus said cultural expectations), we’ve moved on. I mean we evolved from fish for fuck’s sake but you don’t see us breathing underwater.

Gender identity is based on many things and admittedly we don’t fully have the complete picture yet. The effects that socialisation and gender norms in particular, as much as we don’t want them to exist, have on our brain are huge; there’s evidence that they can leave epigenetic marks, or in other words cause structural changes in the brain which drive biological functions and features as diverse as memory, development and disease susceptibility. Socialisation alters the way our individual brains develop as we grow up, and as much as I’d love to see gender norms disappear, they’ll probably be around for a long time to come, as will their ramifications. The gap between explaining how socialisation affects the brain of cisgender individuals compared to the brains of transgender or non-binary individuals is not yet totally clear, but as with every supposed cause and effect psychology tries to uncover, there are outliers and individual differences. No, brains are not inherently male or female at birth but they are all different, and can be affected by socialisation differently. In one particularly groundbreaking study conducted by Dick Swaab of the Netherlands Institute for Neuroscience, postmortems of the brains of transgender women revealed that the structure of one of the areas in the brain most important to sexual behaviour more closely resembled the postmortem brains of cisgender women than those of cisgender men-it’s also important that these differences did not appear to be attributable to the influence of endogenous sex hormone fluctuations or hormone treatment in adulthood.

Maybe dysphoria is something that evolves organically and environmental factors don’t even come into it. Like I said, we don’t have the whole picture. What we DO know is that for some people, as soon as they become self-aware, that dysphoria is there, and the evidence for THAT, for there being common variations between the brains of cisgender individuals and transgender individuals, is overwhelming. You can be trapped in a body that does not correspond with how your brain functions, or how you wish to see yourself. Do individuals like J.K Rowling really believe it is ethical to reinforce the idea that we are defined by our sex and that our sex should decide the course of our lives, should decide how we are treated? That we should reduce people to genitals and chromosomes when our gender, the lens through which we see and interact with the world, could be completely different? Do they not see anything wrong with perpetuating the feelings of “otherness” and dysphoria in trans individuals that results from society’s refusal to see them as anything more than what body parts they have? In a collaboration between UCLA MA neuroscience student Jonathan Vanhoecke and Ivanka Savic at the Karolinska Institute in Sweden, the statistics collected pointed to what trans activists have always been trying to get at-the areas of the brain responsible for our sense of our identity showed far more neural activity in the brains of trans individuals when they were looking at depictions of their body that had been changed to match their gender identity than when this wasn’t the case; when they saw themselves with a body that corresponded with their gender identity, when they were “valid” by society’s definition, they felt more themselves. When J.K Rowling tells trans people that their “real identity” is the sex they were born with, she is denying them this right to be themselves and due to her large platform, encouraging others to do the same. YOU are doing that, J.K. And who knows why? Where does your transphobia come from? Peel back the bullshit layers of waffle about feeling silenced and threatened, which you know you are directing at the wrong group of people, and admit it’s for less noble reasons. Taking the time to unlearn the instinct embedded into your generation to see people according to the cultural status quo of biological determinism is effort, I know-but you wrote a 700+ page book. I’m sure you can manage it. Or is it an ego thing? You don’t want to admit that you may have been uneducated on gender and sex in the past, and now have to stick by your reductive position so your image as an “intellectual” isn’t compromised. I don’t know. Only you do. But your position is irresponsible and dangerous either way. You can make up bullshit reasons as to why the link between trans individuals and the incidence of suicide attempts and completions isn’t relevant or representative of the struggle that trans people face due to the hatred that people like you propagate but it is there, and you J.K Rowling, someone who has spoken in the past about the horror of depression, should know better. You should know better than to CLAIM you know better than the experienced researchers who have found the same pattern time and time again-that the likelihood of trans individuals committing suicide is significantly higher than that of cis people.

No, Rowling’s transphobia has never been as upfront as saying “I don’t believe transgender people exist” but she continues to imply that when she makes claims such as womanhood being defined by whether or not one experiences menstruation, and the completely subjective concept of whether an individual has faced sex-based violence from cisgender men. I’m sure she’d be out here taking chromosome proof cards like Oysters if it wasn’t for intersex individuals throwing her whole binary jam into a tailspin. Yep, there’s even suggestions that the binary biological model might not be so binary these days-just because two people have, say, XY chromosomes, does not mean that these chromosomes are genetically identical between individuals-the genes they carry can, and do, vary and so their actions and expressions of sex vary.

Ideally, what TERFs want to do with their language of “real womanhood” is create an exclusive club that trans women are left out of when they too suffer under the same patriarchal society that those who are born female do. Yes, they might not experience ALL the issues a person born with female genitalia do, but no two women’s life experiences are the same anyway. Trans women also have their own horrible experiences with the patriarchy, and are often victims of a specific kind of gendered violence that is purported by the idea of “real womanhood”. Don’t throw trans sisters under the bus because you’re angry about your experience as a woman on this planet-direct your anger at the fucking bus. Don’t claim that “many trans people regret their decision to transition” when the statistics overwhelmingly show that this is the EXACT FUCKING OPPOSITE of the truth (according to British charity organisation Mermaids, surgical regret is proportionately very low amongst gender affirmation outpatients and research suggesting otherwise has been broadly disproven) because you’ve spoken to a selective group of trans individuals probably handpicked by the TERFS you associate with to confirm their biases, and then have the nerve to claim that trans-activists live in echo chambers on top of that. Don’t use anecdotes and one-off incidences where “trans women” (I say trans women in quotation marks because we’re pretty much talking about a completely statistically insignificant group of perverted cis men who have, according to TERFs, somehow come to the conclusion that going through transition will make their already easy-to-get-away-with hobby of assaulting women even...easier to get away with?) have committed sexual crimes to demonise and paint as predatory group who are largely at risk and in 99.9% of situations, the ones being preyed on. It’s a point so disgusting that trans activists shouldn’t even have to respond to it, but the idea that an individual would go to the pains of legally changing their gender and potentially the hell of the harassment that trans people face, the multiple year long NHS waiting lists to see specialist doctors, just so that they can gain access to women only spaces is ridiculous. It’s worth noting here just how sinister you repeatedly bringing up this phantom threat of cis men becoming trans women in order to assault women in “women only” spaces is. The implication here is that they should use the toilet corresponding to the sex they were born as, right? Because it’s all about safety? Well, statistically speaking, far more trans women are abused whilst having to use men’s toilets than when they use women’s ones and the same goes for trans men, and yet you don’t mention it once. Your suggestion also puts people born female who identify as women but maybe do not dress or present in a typically feminine way at risk of being ostracised when THEY need to use the women’s bathroom. The idea that by ceasing to uphold values like yours we are putting women at risk is quite simply, unsubstantiated; the legislation to allow individuals to use the bathroom corresponding to whichever gender they legally identify as has been around since 2010 in the UK and yet we’ve yet to see the sudden spike in the number of women being assaulted in bathrooms you imply will exist if we create looser rules around gender identity and let people use whichever toilet they feel the need to. Similarly, in a study of US school districts, Media Matters found that 17 around the country with protections for trans people, which collectively cover more than 600,000 students, had no problems with harassment in bathrooms or locker rooms after implementing their policies. If cis men want to assault women, they will. They don’t need to pretend to be trans to do so. Don’t pretend to be speaking as a concerned ally of LGBTQ+ individuals when you’re ignoring the thoughts of the majority of individuals who come under that category.

(Just Some of the Trans Women Murdered for Being Trans Over the Last Couple of Years, L-R: Serena Valzquez, Riah Milton, Bee Love Slater, Naomi Hersi, Layla Pelaez, and Dominique Fells)

Trans women are not the threat here. Bigots like you are the threat. HOW DARE you use your platform to reinforce this rhetoric that gets trans people killed when there are so many much MUCH more important things going on right now. Two black trans women had been murdered just for being black trans women in the week you wrote your essay defending those initial tweets. This is an ongoing issue. As a cis woman, my opinion should read as sacred texts to you right, Joanne? Because I’ll say with my whole chest that I feel far more threatened by bigots like you who do not care for the harmful impact of their words than I do by trans women. I do not feel threatened by trans women AT ALL. And yeah, to me, unless they tell me otherwise that they like to go out their way to affirm their trans-ness (which I completely respect-it takes a lot of courage to be proud about your past in a world that condemns you for it), they’re just WOMEN like any other. Yes their experience of “womanhood” may be different to mine but no two individuals experiences are the same anyway and our gender related suffering has the same cause. As a rich, white, cis woman, it’s wild that you are painting yourself as the victim in this debate when trans people can face life in prison and in some places a death sentence for openly identifying with a gender different to their sex in a lot of countries. Nobody is saying that you can’t talk about cis women. Nobody is saying you can’t talk about lesbian issues either, though it’s a bit of a piss-take that you like to throw that whole trans women erase lesbian existence argument out there as a kind of trump card to say “look, I can’t be a transphobe, I’m an LGBTQ+ ally!”, an argument akin to the racist’s age old “I can’t be racist, I have black friends!”. You know from the responses you get to your transphobia that majority of the LGBTQ+ community are very much adamant that trans women are “real women” and that the same goes for trans men being “real men”, so don’t claim to speak for them. You cannot simultaneously care about LGBTQ+ rights and deny trans people their right to live as who they are, however veiled your sentiments around that may be. The whole gay rights movement of the 60s and 70s exist partially BECAUSE of black trans women such as Martha P Johnson if you didn’t know, and though it’s kinda common knowledge I’m doubting that you do because very little of what you tout is backed up by any kind of research. The articles you retweet, echoing the views of lesbians who also happen to be TERFs do not count-the idea that trans people existing simultaneously erases the existence of lesbians only applies to individuals such as yourself who don’t see trans women as women in the first place. That is the problem! Most people don’t have an issue with the fact that you may have a preference for certain genitalia, but I would argue that ignoring exceptional circumstances related to trauma or some other complex issue, relationships are supposed to be with the person as a whole, not their “organic” penis or vagina and it’s kind of insulting to anyone in a same sex relationship to reduce their bond to that.

Back to my point though, of course there are issues that cis women and lesbians face that need talking about, but trans people are affected by the same patriarchal system. You don’t need to go out of your way to mention that they’re not included in whichever given specific issue when there are also cis women who may not have experienced some of the things TERFs reference. You especially don’t need to act as if trans women are the reason we need to have these discussions in the first place. As I’ve said, as MANY women have said, repeatedly-they are NOT the threat here. It is disgusting to see someone I once had so much admiration for constantly punch down at a group that is already marginalised. It’s 2020, J.K, there’s so much info out there. YOU’RE A FULLY GROWN WOMAN. There’s no justification. We get it, you had a tomboy phase. You weren’t like “other girls”. You didn’t like living under a patriarchal system. So you think you understand the mindset of people who want to transition. You think you’re not doing anything wrong by helping to slow the advancement of trans rights because well, you turned out fine? But you clearly fundamentally misunderstand what being trans is. It’s not about your likes and dislikes and having issues with the experience of being a woman (god knows we all do but I doubt anyone truly thinks for one moment that being trans would be any easier), it’s about how you think and feel at your core. It’s such a complex issue, and all the majority of trans people are asking you to do is LISTEN to them. You may be determined to live in binaries, yet the bigger picture is always more complex and fluid and it’s ever-changing, so all we can do is keep an open mind and keep wanting to know more and gather more evidence. If you’re capable of the mental gymnastics required to retcon the piece of work you wrote in the 90s to make it seem as if you were “ahead of the diversity game”, to the extent that you are now claiming Voldermort’s snake has always actually been a Korean woman and see nothing wrong with that when paired with the fact that the only Asian character you originally included was called Cho Chang, then well…I’m sure you can put your ego aside and do the groundwork to understand what trans people are trying to tell you too. You inspired a lot of children and teenagers and even adults, and got them through some very difficult times, taught that the strength of one’s character matters far more than what anyone thinks of you. You claimed you wanted to stand up for the outcasts.

Well, stand up for the outcasts. Now’s a better time than any. And once again: TRANS WOMEN ARE WOMEN AND TRANS MEN ARE MEN. They shouldn’t have to hear anything else.

Lauren x

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#transisbeautiful #trans pride #trans lives matter #blm #black lives matter #jk rowling #trans rights #gender identity #gender studies #trans women are women #politics #socialism #safe space #all are welcome

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hymnsofheresy · 5 years ago

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I saw a post of a radfem who (in a nutshell) wrote this: "i support and respect trans people but trans men are born men so they're still men. MtF have a male education and shouldn't have access to women's bathroom." What do you think?

That’s bullshit. How would a “male education” (as this terf put it) interfere with the abilities needed to use the bathroom? Wiping your ass and washing your hands really isn’t gender-specific. It’s the fucking bathroom.

I (a cis woman) go into the men’s bathroom all the time because I work with children. Oftentimes the boys want me with them so I can guard their stalls. Most men understand when I explain the situation and they go on with their day (Again, it’s not a big deal. The bathroom is where you shit and wash your hands). I’ve seen how adults of all genders can hurt children; yesterday, I had to report a child predator who harassed one of my male students. I am sorry but I am not letting a young child be in the bathroom by themselves with a bunch of strange adults.

Gendered bathrooms suck. Ask any parent or guardian who is the opposite gender of their charge. My mother was shaking every time she sent my little brother into the bathroom alone. My father had to go into the women’s bathroom all the time because there was no changing station in the men’s room.

The idea behind gender-specific bathrooms and the (transphobic) discourse around who is or isn’t allowed in them doesn’t do anything to prevent actual sexual harassment against the most vulnerable. I pray for the day that single bathrooms and private gender-neutral stalls are the norm.

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goldenfield · 5 years ago

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Yesterday I followed a bunch of random blogs with cutesy themes/posts; already had to unfollow like 90% of them because I started getting TERF shit and violent fandom purists bragging about harassing CSA survivors on my dashboard.

Yeeeeah... I think I’ll stick with “anti-anti nasties” who actually keep dark thoughts strictly on fiction and don’t fucking suicide bait irl people. jfc

#personal #fandom discourse

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bluemoonpunch · 6 years ago

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BTS Soul/Energy Map Healing - Please Participate.

The Moon and Venus align at 7 degrees in Libra on August 14th at 12:49PM EST

Surprise! The BTS Soul/Energy Map does, in fact, have a purpose and was, in fact, not shoved into my brain just to torture me. Groundbreaking, I know. If you've been on the blog recently, you know of the fuckery that's been happening and you know of the recent events involving a "transfer" of the low-vibe energy into the lower part of the BTS Soul Body. I will do something in the near future to explain all of it, I swear to you, but for now, there's, like, actual fucking work to do, lol. The purpose of the Soul Map really is to use it as a map, and yesterday it was explained to me how we are meant to use it and why, and what will (hopefully) come of it. I wanted this to be way more of a group effort and I had tried to film a video to explain things, show the map, give all the details start to finish, but my phone was acting up and my laptop is not the best for such things apparently. Bit of a bummer, but I have looked into what else you guys can do to help us out with this. ANYONE CAN PARTICIPATE — You don't have to specifically belong to the BTS Soul Group (most of you are, anyway), even if you just happen upon this post, you are more than welcome to join in with this. Below the cut, I have provided a bunch of different ways for different people with different skill sets and different comfort levels to join in in any way that they see fit. This will be taking place August 14th, 2018 at 12:49PM EST (check your timezones) when Venus and the Waxing Moon align in Libra at 7 degrees. I was shown that this is a "point" or a "portal" and HAS TO BE used for this. The time of day for me (12:49) adds up to 7, the moon and venus line up at 7 degrees, 7 members, 7 positions on the soul map, and this work is meant to be done through all 7 chakras aligning and channeling through the Heart Chakra. I will have energy lines extended to continue funneling high vibrational frequencies into the Soul Body Structure until August 16th at 5:30AM when the Moon leaves Libra and enters Scorpio. More info and ways to participate are listed below. The most important thing you can do is literally allow yourself to feel love for BTS as a whole, all seven of them equally, and send out positive vibes to them with the intention of helping to heal, realign, and balance the Soul Body structure. Thank you for helping.

++ So, I've been given very specific directions of how to go about doing this and I've shared them with @lunar-lepus who has been about 80% of the brains in all of this. We're both good with energy and trance work, so I feel very confident with our ability to channel the energy that is accumulated from this alignment. I will provide info here on what exactly is happening, what we will be doing, and what you guys can do. The main issues within the Soul Body: The low-vibrational beings that had broken through the net and threw off the balance by loading the lines between the energy centers with Fire energy and over-stimulating their Divine Masculine influence have found the other opening in the Soul Body. This opening is the midway point between the accumulation of vibration of the Soul Body and physical manifestation. This means that they are infecting Taehyung and Kook's position in the Soul Body. They have specifically targeted Taehyung because of planetary shifts (Retrograde Mars going into Capricorn — Taehyung is a Capricorn, and is also an incarnate of the "product of Mars", AKA Mars’ child, just as Kook is an incarnate of the "product of Venus") This is the same tactic they used to latch onto Hoseok when the Eclipse energy was in Aquarius and all of those planets were in retrograde (they still are), except his was much worse as he is EXTREMELY sensitive to cosmic shifts. It’s his place in the Soul Map to be a filter for those energies. They found this opening towards the "feet" of the Soul Body because I posted a preview of the Soul Map and the transmission of this map was solidified in the 3D wavelength where these low-vibe beings exist. Basically, I fucked up and showed them right where they needed to go. That's why I wasn't supposed to show the map. Kook is being affected in the sense that he is being blocked off from me and they are trying to block him off from Jimin. As an incarnate of the "product of Venus" he clings to Jimin's energy (Jimin = Libra = ruled by Venus), that is where that Parent/Child vibe comes from. Because Venus is in Libra and because Jimin is currently in a clear mental space, he and Kook are both balancing each other, so Kook is not as vulnerable as his Soul Brother, Taehyung is. Taehyung's manipulated energy is being "thrown" in Kook's direction though. The space where Taehyung and Kook rule is where the projected energy is, it is where the "vibe" of BTS comes from. Objectively speaking, I think we're all aware of the fact that out of everyone Kook and Taehyung tend to be people's favorites, usually because of their looks and specific characteristics. This is why. They are the conduits through which the energy, vibration, frequency, transmission of BTS meets the physical world. This is why they are looked at more than other members, they carry more vibration in the 3D and therefore attract your subconscious attention. Becuase this space is now infected, this projected energy can be manipulated very easily. Again, the low-vibes’ terf is the 3D, this is where they rule. They have a much easier time fucking with shit at this level. What they are trying to do is literally mess with the projected energy so that the perception of those who pick up that projected energy will be altered. This is why I warned against playing into any rumors that come up, especially about Taehyung, and why I said to keep an open mind with the album. If they succeed with what they are trying to do, they can cut off a huge number of the soul group and drop the vibration of the soul group, the BTS Soul Body will deplete, and there will be a steady decline with them IRL, thus making it difficult or even impossible for them to fulfil their group purpose and implement and maintain a shift in consciousness and awareness for their MASSIVE soul group. This tactic that the low-vibes are using is literal psychological manipulation on members of the soul group as well as the general public. This is what they are best at. Hoseok is not in his proper position in the Soul Body. He is meant to be on the left side under Namjoon and across from Yoongi. He is now in the center of the Soul Body. I was seeing it like they were using it as an infirmary like he's being healed there. Energetically speaking, he was in bad shape because of how much energy splitting took place due to the planetary/cosmic influences as well as the energy manipulation. Yoongi and Jimin are the ones healing him. Again, Jimin is a Libra, he carries that energy entirely in his core. Libra is ruled by Venus, and Venus is now in Libra. This gave him a lot of energy and this is why I was going to wait until the end of August to check back in with them all with the Outlook reading. I wanted all of this energy to settle and see where it took them. I was right in assuming that Venus going into Libra would help as Jimin is one of the balancing pillars in the Soul Body, the other being Jin. Jimin and Yoongi (Air and Water) literally cooled Hoseok down and pulled him towards them, which is why he's now in the center, and are putting their energy into healing him. I was shown that Jimin and Yoongi are going to build something. They can't do it while they are healing and balancing Hoseok, and even then they don't have enough energy to do it with just the two of them — they are the only ones in the Soul Body who are both engaged, balanced, and aligned properly. The energy work I am going to do while restructuring the Soul Body is going to funnel in energy that these two are going to use to build whatever it is that they want to build. I have no confirmation, but I'm assuming they are going to build some kind of wall around the Soul Body to keep this from happening again, but they will need all 7 members to be fully engaged, aligned, and balanced in order to keep it enforced. Again, this is something I'm going to help with through the energy work with the soul group. Namjoon and Jin are both absent at the moment, as in they are not engaged in the Soul Body. I was shown it as them being in "sleep mode". I don't really know why, but there was nothing there that made it seem like this is a bad thing. What I am doing: I was given instructions on how this needs to go:

Direct the energy.

Figure the path.

Realign independent structures.

Those are the main things. The realigning of independent structures is what will take me the longest to do. This means balancing each and every line combination between all 7 energy centers. We are also going to "flood" the lines with Water. It's a cleansing process, but I think it is also going to "cool down" or lower the Fire energy that is being poured into them. (They are not supposed to carry Fire energy, the whole point of Jimin and Jin's position is to stabilize and weaken the high vibrational, white-hot energy that the Rap Line triad creates through their weird little system of transmitting, translating, and transmuting thing they do.)

I will then go through the same Chakra alignment process that will be listed below and raise my personal vibration, except I will follow that up by anchoring in the energy that you have sent out to the Moon. I always use the Moon as a sort of focal point for group work. It's literally a satellite, so once you send something up, we'll be able to tap into it and use it. I'll pull that down and go through the process of pushing that energy through the lowest access point, which is where the low-vibe energy is right now between Kook and Taehyung and basically flood it out. Then every single line will be washed out. I will take as much time as possible with this to be sure that everything is out.

Once the lines are clear and I'm at the "head" of the body (Namjoon) I will pull down the EXTREMELY high-frequency vibrations from the line that extends past Namjoon's placement to... you know... where they come from, I guess? I will pull that down through each of the energy centers and charge the lines. This is the energy that the low-vibes literally cannot touch, this is what is supposed to be in the lines, to begin with.

I will then spend as much time as I need to in order to make sure that that energy is in every line and every energy center. After that, I will continue to pull it down into the Soul Body until it extends past the outer layer of the Soul Body. Their Guide's will use this excess energy to repair the net that they had cast around them to keep shit like this from happening in the first place.

From there I will finish off with making sure Hoseok's energy center is put back in its rightful place and that Taehyung and Kook's energy fields match up the way they are meant to so that neither is overpowering the other in any way. I'll make sure Jin and Namjoon are out of sleep mode too, I guess, lol.

I'll be closing out of this by putting curtains or a blockade around the opening at the feet of the Soul Body so that nothing can get in, but what needs to come out can still come out.

@lunar-lepus will be doing this as well. I kindly ask that you guys don't direct your energy into the Soul Map. We have visuals and are using the map as it is meant to be used and would appreciate no interference in that. All we need from you is any of the contributions from this list below.

These are what you guys can do to help — I've listed them in order of time constraint and capability. Please do not feel the need to do more than what you are capable of or more than you know you are able to. Again, these can be done any time before August 16th, 2018 5:30AM EST — this is when I will take down my energy lines and will no longer be acting as a channel to the BTS Soul Body. All of these engage your Heart Chakra, be mindful of that. Love BTS — everyone should do this.

Engage your Heart Chakra and literally just watch crack videos or listen to their music. Do something that lets them bring you happiness, and with that joy (high vibration), send some of it out to them specifically with the intention of returning the favor in a way. Just send them some of the good vibes they give you.

Lend your energy

Simply declare out loud or by writing it down on a piece of paper that you would like to lend some of your energy to this energy work. Declare it with the intention of contributing to the healing, realigning, and balancing of the Soul Body. Visualize it in your head as a little ball of pink, white, or gold energy coming from the middle of your chest. Say again that you want to lend your energy and see it shoot up into the sky or something like that. Your Guides will take care of the actual delivery.

Engage in personal alignment and energy work

This is the chakra alignment process that I will be doing and you can do this as well if you have the experience, capability, and the time. Take your time with all of these if you choose to do it.

1) Draw in energy from the Earth's Core into the lower 3 Chakras (root, sacral plexus, and solar plexus). Stabilize.

2) Pull down energy from Source into the upper 3 Chakras (crown, third eye, and throat). Charge.

3) Merge these two energies in the Heart Chakra in your chest. Let them spin together in a clockwise motion. Focus on the joy that BTS has brought you and the joy you would like for them to experience. If you are not a BTS fan and you are joining in with this, just focus on what makes you happy and the kind of happiness you would like to spread to other people. Let this fill your chest. Breathe into it. Let it heal you. If you start to cry, or laugh, or even feel sexually stimulated in some way, don't freak out, that's extremely normal when you activate and align the Heart Chakra.

4) When you feel like your vibrations are high and you feel good about extending it out. Send out a line of energy from your chest, your Heart Chakra, and direct it towards the Moon. Again, it will be anchored there for me to use, trust in that. You can let it merge with the other high vibrational energies that you may meet there.

5) Allow yourself to relax when you are finished. Lay down and breathe. You might need to ground after this, so take your time with that. If it helps, go outside and look at the sky, and if you are able to, walk on the grass/dirt with bare feet, this will pull any excess energy that is lingering outside the body to be pulled back in.

Here is an image to help you visualize a little better:

I will do an update around the end of August for sure when this is all said and done, but this will need time to settle in.

#bts #btssoulmap #soul group connect

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throwaway5436854678 · 6 years ago

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The average TERF experience

Sunday was warm and sunny, just how I always fantasized it would be when I finally went through with it. I stared walking to the dumpster again, I think about 2pm, and I was really excited and nervous. I felt butterflies in my tummy, just anticipating what I was about to do.

The dumpster is in the alley behind a restaurant near my house. It gets emptied on Tuesdays, so by Sunday it's pretty stinky and there are flies buzzing around. Which means there are things rotting inside there and that's just perfect for me. A few times in the past I climbed into that dumpster and masturbated. Nothing too intense. Most I'd ever done was take off my pants and hump against the dirty garbage bags. And one time I laid there with my legs spread, watching the flies land on me.

So anyway, I walked down the alley to the dumpster, and as usual I made sure nobody was around, just to be extra careful. You have to go behind a tall wooden fence to even see the dumpster, and the restaurant is closed on Sunday anyway, so I knew I wouldn't be noticed. But this time there's no way I want to be disturbed. I climbed up and over the side and onto my hands and knees into the mass of plastic garbage bags and other miscellaneous rubbish. The bags felt warm from the sun. The smell in there was extremely foul, much worse than usual, and I knew it was because of my rotting meat. I sat and tried to get myself to relax for a few minutes. There was no reason to hurry. When I was ready, I calmly took off my sandals, my jeans, and my panties. Both pairs. I was wearing two pairs of tight panties with a bunch of my panty liners in the crotch, which keeps anything in my vagina from coming out when I move around. But I was going "all the way" this time, so I went ahead and got completely naked. That was a weird feeling, being totally nude inside the dumpster. It seemed very erotic to me. The sun felt warm on my skin, especially my boobs, which pretty much never see the sun.

I took a pair of rubber kitchen gloves out of my pants pocket and put them on. There was no way I could bring myself to actually touch a maggot with my bare hands. Lying with my back against the side of the dumpster, I fingered my pussy. I was really wet already. I knew I would be. The sensation of the rubber glove against my clit felt unusual, and I kind of liked it. I did that for a little while, just thinking about what I was about to do, while staring at the smaller garbage bag in the far corner of the dumpster where I'd left it yesterday. I still felt the butterflies in my tummy. I kept thinking to myself that I can't wimp out, that I had to go through with this. I wished for a moment that someone else was there to force me to do it, but decided that it was somehow much more sick and depraved to do it to myself willingly. And I thought, yeah, that's me. That's what I want. I deserve this. And so I knew it was time to do it

I got back on my hands and knees and crawled to the other side of the dumpster. I sat down next to my garbage bag, gently picked it up and placed it in front of me. The terrible smell was already stronger. Carefully, I tore the bag open. And there they were. There had to be thousands of maggots, kind of beige-yellow with little black spots on them, all writhing in a large mass. I couldn't even see the rotting meat underneath them. Dozens more maggots clung to the inside of the black plastic, which was coated with a thick light-brown slime. It was such a repulsive sight I thought I was going to throw up right there. But I didn't. I took a few minutes to get control of myself, fingering my clit while staring at the maggots, trying to work up the courage to continue.

I scooped up some of the slime on my gloved finger and brought it to my nose. I knew what it was from the reading I'd done before. It was digestive juices from the maggots, full of bacteria. And it smelled just horrible. I thought to myself, that's what I'm going to smell like. That's the stench that's going to come from my vagina. I want that, I thought, spreading my legs wide apart. I dragged my slimy finger between my pussy lips. My clit felt like a hard little pebble beneath the slime. I didn't want to cum right then, though, and I was still right on the edge of gagging, too. But I knew there was no turning back now, so I let my fingers lightly touch the top of the maggot mass. The maggots felt like nothing I'd experienced before. They seemed to have such energy, totally different from picking up an earthworm or something. And they felt so alive. I was fascinated and nauseated at the same time. Sinking my fingers into the mass, I felt the solid meat beneath. Gently breaking it apart, I could see that the meat had turned gray except for the very center which was still pink, and that the maggots had penetrated into it but not too deeply yet. There was still plenty of food for my filthy little babies. I broke off a small chunk of meat that was covered on one side with maggots and held it for a moment while I fought back another urge to vomit. It was finally time, I thought. I leaned forward, and holding my pussy lips apart with one hand, I gritted my teeth and pushed the maggot-covered chunk of meat into my vagina. And then, totally without expecting it, I had an orgasm. A quick, sharp one that only made me want more.

And more was coming. I broke off another small chunk of meat, along with another part of the maggot mass and pushed it inside me. This one had more maggots on it, and I stopped for a moment to see if I could feel them inside me. I wasn't sure I could, but it didn't matter. I wanted them all. I needed to take them all inside me. With that thought, I went sort of wild. I started pushing bigger chunks of meat and maggots, and even handfuls of just maggots into me, over and over. I was practically hyperventilating, too. I wasn't thinking at all about the noise I must have been making. But now I could definitely feel the maggots squirming inside my vagina. Just the idea of it made me cum again.

Finally, once I had crammed all of the rotten meat, and all of the maggots I could inside me, I felt so filthy, so disgusting, like I'd turned myself into some low, depraved sort of beast. And that made me so incredibly hot, together with the constant movement of the maggots inside me. But it was time to go. Holding my hand over my crotch, I slowly crawled back to my clothes and managed to get dressed again without anything coming out. I put the gloves back into my pocket and climbed out of the dumpster. And right then I could hold back the revulsion of what I'd just done no longer. Holding myself up against the side of the dumpster, I threw up. Ever vomited while you were horny? It's weird.

Walking home down the alley, I felt like I was in a daze. I kept asking myself how I could have done this to myself, but then asking why I'd waited so long. I had to walk slowly to make sure nothing got squeezed out of my vagina, but also to keep from cumming again. I found myself amazed at the whole thing, that I'd stuffed the most intimate part of myself with these things that were too disgusting to even touch without gloves. And that I was totally getting off on it.

Once I was home, I locked myself in my bedroom, took off my clothes, except for my double-panties, and got into bed. I closed my eyes and just let myself feel the maggots squirming inside me. For a while I tried to watch TV, but I could really pay attention to it. The maggots were too wonderfully distracting. I skipped dinner. Later on, when I really had to pee, I did it by taking down my panties and holding my hand over my crotch, wearing the rubber gloves, of course.

The next morning I called off of work after being awake most of the night. I mainly stayed naked in my bed all day masturbating, barely getting up for anything. I wanted to do nothing but let my nauseating little babies grow inside my pussy. Pretty early, though, I realized the smell was getting really horrible. I opened the window. I also wet a bath towel and stuffed it under my bedroom door. I didn't want my parents to get suspicious.

A little later on I realized that I didn't need the panties to hold the maggots and the meat inside me. The mass pretty much stayed in place as long as I laid kind of still. I thought hey, I guess that means I'm infested, which made me cum again. I was always right on the edge of orgasm, and it didn't take much to go over the edge. I also noticed that the maggots seemed to be more active if I kept my legs apart and realized that they probably needed to breathe. So that's how I stayed a lot of the time. I did get up and read my email and posted an update on my web page but I couldn't seem to think clearly enough to write much. Then I had to pee again, but I just didn't want to get up. So I just peed in the bed. It made me cum. I just wanted to keep feeling the maggots moving. And they were. They seemed even stronger, in anything. I was totally in heaven with it. I didn't eat at all, either.

I heard my parents come home from work. During the evening my mom said hello through the door and wondered why I was staying in my room like a hermit. I said I was reading a novel all the way through at once, which I actually do sometimes. She left me alone. I hoped she didn't smell anything. I surfed the Web for a while that night and looked at porn. I came a few more times. I decided to go ahead and take a shit in my bed, right where I was. That just made me more turned on and I ended up smearing some of my shit over my thighs and my pussy and cumming again. I noticed that the maggots started coming out a bit. Maybe they liked the shit. A couple tmes one would creep up on my belly. I'd just flick it back down between my legs.

I was getting tired at that point. It really was time to sleep and my vagina was throbbing and kind of sore from all of the attention. But I was most worried about making sure my maggots could breathe while I was sleeping. Somehow, I managed to find the energy to place a chair on either side of my bed and use sheets to tie my ankles to them. That would keep my legs apart during the night. I pulled the blankets over myself and dozed off lying in my piss and shit.

For the most part I slept through the night, but I kept waking up sweating, with my vagina throbbing worse. I knew I was getting a bad infection from this, but I didn't care. I was not thinking right. I could also feel maggots crawling all over me. I guess I decided I liked that and I'd play with my clit until I came again. I don't know if I realized at the time that I wasn't wearing the rubber gloves anymore. I'd fall back to sleep and wake up again later with little phrases running through my head. Other girls have babies but I give birth to decay and filth, I'd keep thinking to myself. Or I'd say I'm probably ruining my womb and I don't care, I want to be ruined. I know I must have been hallucinating from the infection. I was hoping the maggots had given up on the rotten meat and were eating my vagina instead. My fingers were buried inside my vagina, with my fingertips against part of the meat. Whenever I pressed on it, the maggots would squirm faster and I'd climax again. I could do it over and over and keep cumming.

Finally it was Tuesday morning and sunlight made me wake up. I knew I was really, really sick at that point. I felt weak and dizzy, I knew I had a fever, and now my whole lower belly was sore and throbbing. Despite all that I was still horny and I was still right on the edge of cumming. And then for some reason, all I wanted to do was see my maggots.

I pulled the blankets aside and saw that I really did have maggots crawling all over my body. I was so whacked out I loved it. But I also saw that I had a rash spreading over my tummy and my thighs, and I was soaked with sweat. And then suddenly I needed to see what it looked like between my legs. I sat up a little, picked up the hand mirror I have on the table next to my bed, and held it between my thighs.

My pussy was totally gaped wide open. I'd never seen it like that before. It reminded me of a mouth in a sick, gagging expression. My inner lips were swollen and dark purple, almost black, while my outer lips were cherry red and I was losing a layer of dead skin, like a sunburn. A stream of the light brown slime was oozing from inside my vagina and down my butt crack onto the shitty mattress. Although I could still feel a large mass of maggots and rotten meat inside me, there were maggots everywhere between my legs. Hundreds of them.

And then I saw my fingers on my pussy. They plunged deep into my vagina and dragged out a wad of slime and maggots, which I pressed hard against my clit. I remember having a huge orgasm right then, and I must have passed out. I think I was sobbing too, but I'm not sure.

That's all I remember until I woke up in the hospital.

#terf #tif #tim #radfem

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thedeadflag · 7 years ago

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Hi I just want to thank you for being there yesterday I was having a bad time coping. Reading so many dismissive attitudes about things like the g!p issue knowing it boils down to most people as don't like it don't read it. Just bc its tagged doesn't mean it isn't doing harm. So many are supporting writers who know better but blatantly use it in a public forum makes me feel like i can't even be here sometimes. 1/2

2/2 I was thinking what if there was a popular genre that involved depicting/fetishizing black women with large breasts and small brains? What if that was a thing? Would ppl stay quiet bc its tagged? Wld ppl speak out? Thinking of all the things that ppl never speak up over but pretend to be allies? This performative allyship? It makes me sick. THIS is the toxic side of Tumblr. Thank you for being here.

It really is an issue of performative allyship vs actual allyship. Lots of people with “No TERFs” on their blog headers, folks asserting up and down that trans women are women and are “obviously” included in women’s spaces.

But then they fill those spaces with cissexism and transmisogyny and trans fetishization, and all sort of attitudes and behaviours and words that make it clear to us that we’re not truly accepted and seen as women, that we’re only welcome on their terms and that our voices don’t mean anything. So who are they supportive of? Who are they welcoming of within the spaces/communities we’re supposed to be able to safely exist in? It becomes intensely conditional. We’re accepted and welcomed so long as they get to demean us, misrepresent us, expose us to (and sometimes encourage) harm and sexual violence and social hostility, see and treat us like cis men in dresses they can put on a pedestal every once in a while for ally points.

If trans women are only conditionally accepted in women’s spaces, then our womanhood is being treated as conditional. It’s that simple. And it’s really clear that’s the case among those reading and writing those trans fetishistic works.

As for your example, I don’t need to use anyone else as a barometer for what’s acceptable in fandom, or how folks would react. Racial fetishization is distinct from trans fetishization.

But I do have a strong feeling that if Amber Riley had been thinner, if she’d fit the fetishized “thick girl” figure…I guarantee that we would have seen that sort of thing blow up in the Glee fandom. She was already treated as shrill, loud, and brainless/small-minded (misogynoir at play). Being fat disqualified her from being treated as a viable character for most sexual works (classic fatphobia), but yeah…if she’d been a “thick” girl with large breasts, yeah, absolutely people would have treated her character as a mindless sex receptacle. I’m not even sure anyone would be so kind as to tag their works with anything specific, outside of maybe the shudder-inducing “eb*ny”, since that seems to be the norm of how black women are treated in sexual media.

I doubt much of anyone aside from black women would speak out, or do anything about it. Hell, you’d probably get a bunch of folks who’d think it was positive rep. You’d get her paired up with all the white male leads in pursuit of pregnancy fics with mixed baby fetishization. And you’d get a slew of g!p fics in femslash portions of the fandom, with her as the ‘voluptuous’, ‘primal’, ‘aggressive’ partner with the BBC to ravage and fill up all the nubile, innocent white female leads. The fandom mostly shoehorned in Santana to fit that role, as the predatory mindless sex pot, but I don’t doubt that they’d have jumped on the possibility of using Mercedes if they’d seen her as viable. And fandom would have done nothing about it, because they didn’t do anything about it with Santana, dismissing criticisms left and right, and even trying to use canon material to justify twisting her character that way. Latinx fans were vocal as hell, and were roundly ignored and dismissed.

So yeah, in your given example, that’s exactly what would happen. Had racial fetishization been done in canon material, fandom would have maybe rallied a bit against that harmful rep (they did a few times in Glee to events.portrayals in canon, certainly), but when the finger’s pointed at them? Nope. Fandom, by and large, would not give even half of a shit. But they would be vocal here and there about being against racism, of how there needs to be more support for woc, especially in wlw fandom. Calling out #BlackLivesMatter while gleefully fetishizing black women is something I absolutely suspect would be common.

There’s a lot of issues in fandom. Trans fetishization is just one issue among a great many others. It’s the one I focus on, because it affects me directly, and I can speak on it and educate on it, but there’s absolutely racial fetishization in fandom. It’s rampant. And fandom spaces for LGBT+ fandom really do tend to mirror real life spaces. They’re white-centric and cis-centric for sure, to name a few pertinent issues.

And they don’t think they’re transmisogynistic. They don’t think they’re racist. Many of them can’t even get a sniff that there’s anything wrong with the works they love that fetishize and dehumanize real marginalized groups of people. And there’s all that toxicity right under the surface, and too many aren’t willing to do anything about it.

“It’d cause too much drama for my liking”

“I don’t want to rustle feathers”

“I don’t want to get anon hate”

“I don’t want to upset anyone.”

“I don’t want to lose any friends”

“I come to fandom to escape and have fun, not to argue”

Except for those of us being dehumanized and fetishized and excluded, we don’t have the luxury of dipping into fandom all peacefully and comfortably. We don’t have the ability to just ignore the harm being done to us and move on, nor should we have to.

Like, in real life, when folks see transphobia, or racism, and they do nothing? That can at times be understandable, if unfortunate. But online? There’s zero real risk/danger. There’s always, always ways to help. But people still shy away. When there’s practically an epidemic of people not commenting on fanworks, who’s going to put in the effort to fight these fights that isn’t already directly affected? Hardly anyone.

And I’ll admit there are times I could have done better, done more. I need to do better, there’s always room for improvement.

I just need to hope there’s enough out there trying to make things better for some sort of positive change to happen. It’s just hard sometimes, as you know.

I’m here if you need me.

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mag200 · 7 years ago

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here u go

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you?

uh i tend to either doubt the existence of everyone including myself, or doubt my own existence but not everyone else’s

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you?

like 1 or 2 i live for the night bicth

3. The person you would never want to meet?

this is hard because even people i truly hate i would want to meet so i can fight them. so maybe jrr tolkien bc my expectations are probably too high and meeting him would be like “oh right ur a just a real and regular person that existed righto”

4. What is your favorite word?

probably “fuck” lets be real it’s just so flexible

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be?

i have been asking myself this question my entire life and i cannot yet answer with certainty but i rlly relate to swamp maples

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought?

“damn im good at cutting my hair” (i chopped my bangs last night)

7. What shirt are you wearing?

a feminist tee shirt my cousin’s girlfriend made

8. What do you label yourself as?

a goth bitch. a gay motherfucker. a sleepy boi.

9. Bright room or dark room?

uhh i like a lot of natural light, i don’t have blinds on my windows so it can get bright but the best is early morning or evening when its pretty dark out and i have my string lights turned on. so i guess low-to-neutral lighting.

10. What were you doing at midnight last night?

sleeping lol.

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far?

18 was reeeaal good but i’m gonna be 21 next and i am looking forward to that i think it will be a fun time

12. Who told you they loved you last?

my dad or my stepmom like yesterday probably

13. Your worst enemy?

not to be an edgelord but. my own brain probably.

14. What is your current desktop picture?

usually a pretty nature picture bc im a basic bitch, rn its this

15. Do you like someone?

um i like taylor swift

16. The last song you listened to?

the 10 hour version of “weightless” by marconi union (its my background music for nanowrimo)

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?

hahah um idk if i can say this without the fbi showing up

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?

no one in particular in this exact moment but. if a nazi shows up.

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do?

im uh not comfortable with this concept

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional)

idk maybe my eyes i like my face a lot but i also like my arms a lot but also my hairy legs? beautiful.

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do?

first of all it would be pretty lit bc i’m genderfluid and i’d have a great time looking physically masc. so ideally i’d have long hair and a beard and i would just go for a hike and write and be beautiful.

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it?

i dont have anything thats a secret to everyone but like most people dont know that i used to snowboard all the time and was real fuckin good at it

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of?

that theres a monster in the toilet thats going to reach up and grab me while im peeing

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal.

alfalfa sprouts, sharp cheddar cheese, hummus, cucumbers, spicy mustard, turkey, and figs on rye bread

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it?

tattoo definitely

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go?

ICELAND

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be?

i literally have no idea what i like so. i would pass the offer on to my dad he is much wiser in the lore of alcoholic beverages than i am.

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?

no TERFs.

29. What is your favorite expletive?

mother of fuck.

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno?

uh my journals

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

jesus christ. um. no im not getting into this shit here tbh i didnt read all these questions before reblogging this thing sorry.

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world!

iceland here i come.

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?

of course Death is a cool entity you dont have to tell me that. anyway i have not yet lost someone in my family to death that i was super close to so. i’d bring back carrie fisher.

34. What was your last dream about?

i was in a deep crater trying to climb out to look beyond the rocks... i knew the ocean was supposed to be there and i was supposed to be able to see japan from there if i could climb up?? but when i got to the top and looked out, the ocean was gone and a barren landscape lay before me, images sliding into place like a powerpoint presentation superimposed on the sky of the apocalypse that had struck during my exile, the art and culture that was lost, the demise of the world. i climbed back down to chill in the bottom of my crater.

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]?

yes i am a good.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital?

yeah only three times i think but all within the same year.

37. Have you ever built a snowman?

hell yeah

38. What is the color of your socks?

not wearing any right now but the last pair i was wearing are orange, brown, and tan

39. What type of music do you like?

uhh lots of kinds but my top 3 are taylor swift, my chemical romance, and hayley kiyoko

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets?

sunrises but if i lived on the west coast and could watch the sunset on the water i might prefer that

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor?

chocolate

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer)

i dont care about sports teams buddy

43. Do you have any scars?

yeah i have a bunch from just playing and doing weird shit in the woods and a lot from picking at bug bites for too long, but i also have a couple self-harm scars from a while back

44. What do you want to be when you graduate?

idk exactly but im going back to school soon for environmental science and i’d love to do anything that lets me be outside and work with plants or animals

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

i’d either be born DMAB or have a brain that isn’t so goddamn forgetful

46. Are you reliable?

u mm idk i try to be but i am not for everyone

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be?

what do u regret not doing

48. Do you hold grudges?

i do but very selectively, only for like one or two people

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create?

um idk maybe i could combine goats and turkey vultures into some kind of goat/dragon/bird of prey. think of the mayhem.

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had?

i genuinely cannot remember sorry. but it was probably in an online forum in 2007 during the height of random humor.

51. Are you a good liar?

uhhh doubtful but i used to think i was good lol

52. How long could you go without talking?

i’ve gone a couple days without talking before and im sure i could go much longer, maybe months or years even altho it would not be healthy for me.

53. What has been you worst haircut/style?

junior year when i thought i knew how to cut my own hair (but i really didn’t) and i wanted to look like a knockoff brand Skins character (and i really did). that wasn’t rlly good but it was fun and i dont regret it.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake?

nah im not really a cake person

55. Can you do any accents other than your own?

i can sometimes do a british accent which i’ve been told is convincing to american ears but is probably very overdone. i can’t speak other accents but my brain gets stuck thinking in scottish or like a cowboy accent from old westerns a lot of the time.

56. What do you like on your toast?

lots of stuff depending on my mood but my fav is a runny egg where the bread can soak up all the yolk.

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of?

eleven from stranger things

58. What would be you dream car?

i rlly rlly miss my old car that had to be junked almost a year ago. i don’t remember what kind it actually was but it was from the 80s and was a faded baby blue and small and boxy and the seats still smelled like cigars. any car from that time period but with a modern stereo + aux cord is the dream. or a big lesbian pickup truck like what bella has in twilight but with decent gas mileage. the dream.

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain.

yes but only if im home alone. what i do most in the shower is have imaginary conversations or pretend that i’ve been trekking through middle earth for four months without bathing and this is the first opportunity i’ve had to clean myself and i enjoy the shit out of it. or i pretend i’m a dragon.

60. Do you believe in aliens?

yeah dude definitely

61. Do you often read your horoscope?

no ive done that like maybe twice ever

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet?

R its just so good

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons?

dragons but i fuckgin love dinosaurs dude

64. What do you think about babies?

i’m a little awkward/insecure around them but i feel deeply protective when i hold one and in general i think theyre pretty awesome

65. Freebie! Ask anything interesting you can think of.

hah motherfucker u forgot to ask me one

#i cannot believe #anon #answered #long post //#about

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janiedean · 8 years ago

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this may be a weird question, but, you mentioned that you're here for fandom stuff and not social justice, but you get most of your traffic for sj stuff. are you happy that many people want to hear your opinion on sj topics or do you wish you could focus only on fandoms? (also I'm kinda curious as to how this shift happened)

well it’s half and half tbh, it looks like I’m getting more traffic for sj because GOT isn’t airing yet but when it is it goes back to famdom ;) anyway in order

I’m happy that people actually hold my opinion into that much consideration, what I’m not happy about is that sometimes I end up with idiots parking in the askbox for more than one day and I want to headdesk until my forehead bleeds (ie the brexit anon and the wave of terfs from last month fffffffffff never mind that completely insane history discussion from last month as well but let’s pretend it never happened) which is honestly why as stated yesterday I’m a lot less nice about it than I have been in the past. because if I’m not maybe they’ll leave before making me lose any force of will xD but like if I wanted to focus on fandom I’m just drop the politics talk and be done with it and like, nah.

I mean sadly for me I’m the kind of person who always believed that if you explain shit to people it helps make the world a better place rather than like fighting them and since tumblr is a blue hellhole that gives me 1984 groupthink flashbacks 90% of the time... okay wait that gets clearer in the next answer

how the shift happened: tldr, until january 2015 I tried to keep the sj talk to a minimum also because I didn’t want to get unnecessary arguments/alienate people because I know that my opinions on tumblr are Highly Unpopular so I stuck with stuff that was like, completely openly fucking stupid (like no one with a brain could disagree that ‘anne frank is overrated’ is complete crap. or I mean, I’m italian, I’ll have the rights to say italians are not *pocs*). the only time I had an exception was the infamous dante/divine comedy gate but admittedly that was arguing about whether or not the divine comedy was fanfic (blergh) so like it was a niche wank. then charlie hebdo happened and tumblr turned into completelyfuckingcrazyland with americans trying to explain how it was racist and whatnot and like if there’s one thing that will get me going over wanting to keep the peace is saying it’s acceptable to kill someone for their opinions and I went out in the open and like, it was... weird because I lost a bunch of followers but gained three times the amount (it was when I went over 1k) and a lot of people were like ‘omg I’m so glad someone isn’t dancing to tumblr’s tune’ and whatnot and like I’ve spent one damned month more or less blogging about that or about us centrism or about what’s completely fucking wrong with tumblr’s toxic af concept of social justice and at that point... meh I didn’t really wanna go back because honestly I have limits to not saying what I think, it seemed like people actually appreciated the politics talk and the fact that I most likely won’t insult you if you ask for explanations (BAR EXCEPTIONS LIKE THE FUCKING BREXIT ANON or people who look like they want a fight or shit like that). so... I mean if there’s people here for the politics fine I don’t mind at all. also because I mean I actually like discussing politics so.

the problem is that on tumblr it’s like talking to a darned brick wall 90% of the time but that’s another problem entirely. and that like, since the main point of me getting a blog here wasn’t politics I’ll give it the time I can spare but if I can do fandom stuff instead I’d rather do that and I can’t write essays every time I have to reply to someone but like nah I’m fine with having politics talk. and tied to the question above, the thing is that when you’re in a toxic environment like tumblr is BECAUSE IT IS, someone is gonna have to speak out if they think it’s wrong or others might not get it and honestly I felt like gritting teeth every time I did that before CH and now I don’t because at least I know someone is reading it, so. like, if everyone who thinks this pseudo social justice movement is shit on here was louder maybe they’d be less loud but anyway tldr I don’t believe in stifling your opinions in general so I don’t do it anymore and who cares.

that’s it basically xD

#politics tag #Anonymous #ask post

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evelyntransitions-blog · 7 years ago

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Day 15 and 16

Here comes days 15 and 16 an early two and one holiday special. It’s like Christmas it’s not even fucking Christmas time yet. Hell it’s not even racist turkey and mashed potato day. Seriously why the hell is thanksgiving a holiday? Actually don’t answer that. So here’s yesterday in a nutshell. I got the hell up out of bed. Achievement unlocked! I went to work. Oh yes. Then...I did a whole lot of...work. I went and got some taco bell on my lunch break at work. Went home for that lunch break and had my mom get “up my butt” about getting boxes to move. Very anxiety inducing indeed. Went back to work. Did more work stuff. Ran into various scenarios in which I got boxes by sheer luck, which include -A customer leaving banana boxes behind -Getting to do some new optional stock work for one the managers (she was super cute and peppy when I said yes) -Having the closer for the night have extra boxes. I came home with this small army of boxes, and with that in mind made a song about boxes ″Boxes boxes I got so many of you. Boxes boxes what will I do? Boxes Boxes pack stuff inside of you.” I sang this like 20 times between taking the boxes to my car and then back home after leaving work. Needless to say I took a well deserved nap after that, then woke up...took meds, and another longer nap until morning. Okay Today. Today mostly sucked. I woke up at like 8am to work on my English Argument Essay because I decided to be a lazy ass the night before. Needless to say, it was awful. I had to go through and fix all the citations, edit all the grammar, rework all the paragraphs and eventually print it. I felt kinda bad because later that morning my mom wanted to spend time with me or talk with me or something and she just peers into my room, only to see me hunched over my desk going “GRAHHHH.hmmmmm...errrr.” to which responds “I was wanting to know if you wanted to.... actually I better just leave alone.” I got it “done” though, and took it to school. I wasted a shit ton of money that morning buying a bunch of snacks to de-stress because class time was supposed to be spent going over our Essays even more. Believe it or not I found even more errors and ways I could reword things that I missed while scarfing down potato chips and chugging one of those plastic cups of water. After a good amount of time in class I realized that there was another student who needed someone to check his paper the other day and I was the one person who had spare time (well not exactly) so the teacher offered me over to him. Turns out he found someone else to look at his paper.

I wound up caving and asking the teacher if I could just take my paper to the writing center, which she was weirdly cool with. I found the poor writing tutor stressed out of her mind grading other papers, but at this point all I could do is ask. She said “After I finish this one, fwoo i’m on the last two paragraphs” as she held her head in place. I told her to take as much time as she needed and thanks her throughly right after she accepted. I thanked her while she graded the paper too and after. Poor gal. I said to her “Remind me to get you a Christmas gift” to which she said “Aw, you don’t have to do that now.” I’M TOTALLY GOING TO GET HER A CHRISTMAS GIFT. (Assuming i’m not broke as fuck by then). The writing teacher marked the hell out of the paper and though she did say she liked it, she gave me a list of things I needed to fix. The most important thing being the flow of the paper, in which my thesis needs to fit my points. I gotta stay on topic...which is a weak suit for me. I had to hurry back to my English class because there were just so many things to go over with the paper, that it took up a ton of time. I flashed the newly marked paper to my English teacher saying “Blood sweat and tears.” My English teacher responded confidently “You’ll get it done.” I’ve got a 98 and a 95 on my last two assignments, so i’m pretty confident too...if only I could just get off this tumblr. So um...work. Work was weird. I spent a lot of time moving these shelf things that hold the dvds and keep the soda machines in places because one of the regional managers got really upset because there was dust on top of the soda machines. It was also a coupon day in the middle of the week which was weird. On one of my breaks two of my co-workers had a joking/no serious conversation on how to woo a girl. This included... -A giant boombox

-Flowers with cocaine inside them

-An uber driver that did cocaine

-Warm Cocaine flowing out through the air vents of the car

-Pepsi to balance out the “coke”

-a mini fridge

and a water bed.

The rest of the night from there on out was mostly boring. I told some stupid jokes to customers and after a good number of regular conversations one very uncomfortable conversation happened. There was this younger guy with short hair that came though my line who started talking about prices. This was normal, considering where I worked. He then started talking about deals, which is also very normal. Different stores? Okay check...normal. He then brought up Target which he said he doesn’t shop at anymore because of the bathrooms. “The Bathrooms?” I inquire. I had a feeling I knew where this was going and unfortunately I was right and no, there was no poop just the other kind of shit. Transphobia. The worst kind of shit. The guy himself wasn’t that bad, he just didn’t know exactly what he was talking about. (Thank God). He says that he stopped shopping at Target because his girlfriends and some of their friends were uncomfortable with men going in the bathrooms. That they were worried about their daughters. That any man could just say they could ask to go in the bathroom and they could. Now the guy wasn’t coming off as arrogant and cocky or even preachy, but at this point i’m obviously fucking mad. So I say in a cold dead voice “Transwomen aren’t men. They’re women.” The guy didn’t say anything to me, he just kinda eyeballed me and kinda fiddled around with his groceries and then paid. He then went back to bagging his groceries and only cared about his groceries. He didn’t come off as putt off, more so as he didn’t care much one way or the other. He was kinda absent minded, and I don’t mean that in a mean way. I gave the subject another go, and I said “You know some people who are trans look like men, and they just haven’t had all the surgeries. That and like perverts are gonna go in bathrooms no matter what, just gonna be shitty for trans people.” He just kinda shrugs and says “Yeah I could see that too, that sounds like it sucks.” Then there was a :l from me and :l from him. And that was that. Did piss me off though.

It wasn’t bad, but it was awkward. I can’t be mad at the guy for not thinking about things, it sucks his girlfriend and female friends are being terfs at worst and just not thinking much themselves at work. Like i’m glad people are worried about keeping their kids safe, but safeguarding bathrooms with a bunch of prejudice isn’t the way to do it, especially with all the trans women who’ve already been using the women’s restroom. I kinda wish every bathroom was just a family bathroom. Also why does no one ever think females can be perverts? Also x2 why don’t people ever worry about their sons being pervered on? Eh stupid.

My shift didn’t end long after that. I went home right after. Mom was pretty cool in the fact she made some spaghetti. She didn’t say much weirdly enough, nor did my Dad. I think they went to watch a movie, which is quite nice. I was half expecting them to be nagging me with questions about moving, but nah. I just got on facebook, listened to some music and talked to some of my friends about bad stuff going on in their life. There’s unfortunately a lot of bad days goin’ on, so that stinks. But eh’ at least I got some time to relax now, I think I might watch some “Stranger Things” and just take it easy from this point out.

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