#then stopped at around page 600 just bc

[jameslongforjimshortforgabriel]

this book has fucking ripped my heart out of my chest, read its soul out loud to me, and then sowed back into me i fear

[queenofallimagines]

Alexis ness x witch reader

A/N: WHY THE FUCK DID I NOT THINK OF THIS BEFORE?? I TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO MIX MY WITCH HCS WITH BLUE LOCK AND OFC THE EX HARRY POTTER KID WITH THE STEM CAREER PARENTS WHO CRUSHED HIS DREAMS WOULD FOAM AT THE MOUTH!! Was word vomiting onto a page and this came out and I’m like??? Fuck yeah??

TAGLIST: @priv-rose

Alexis Ness:

- I am SO excited for this🗣️

- First of all fuck Harry Potter and fuck JK rat ass Rowling

- Good now That’s that’s out of the way

- He would literally be star struck like he def wouldn’t tell you he believes in stuff like that bc of his childhood

- But like when he sees your so chill he might joke around with superstitions

- But when you know more of them than he does,,,,?

- “Don’t forget! Salt over your left shoulder!”

- “Plant rosemary by your garden gate,lavender for luck and blow cinnamon into your house on the first of the month.”

- “I- what?”

- Putting some sigils for focus and luck in the shoes

- In the inside of the compression suit

- Reading incantations before a game to help(aka mumbling them while pressing kisses to his face)

- Putting a hex on the other team or players you don’t like (Kaiser)

- Kisses as a good luck charm

- Kissing isagi eyelids and forehead so he can smell his goals😔💕

- Charming a necklace he wears during games

- Putting something in his phone case for good measure so he can accidentally not respond to his family or kaisers texts💕

- You could put a little soccer ball charm on your altar for him🥺

- Alexis ness: Love please don’t hex the opposing team I want to win on my own

- Also ness: so like if you COULD hypothetically make isagi twist his ankle,,,,,

- He’s so funny and silly

- Asking you to turn people into frogs

- “It doesn’t work like that beloved”

- I like to think he would go to haunted places and drag you along

- If this is before he knows you’re a witch

- He pretends he just wanted to see the location and he don’t belive in ghosts n stuff

- Even tho he researched like 600 ghost protection methods before yall got here

- The two of you go in, joking around and having fun in the worn down building but the two of you stop dead in your tracks as you hear something?Footsteps...that aren't yours or his.

- Ness clutching you like a damn lifeline

- Your hearts are both pounding in your chests as you walk through the halls, unsure of what is making that noise that doesn’t sound like it’s coming from an animal…

- Mama ain’t raise no Bitch

- So you just straight up yell💀

- “Fuck off! go bother someone else!”

- Poor baby Ness quickly clamps his hand over your mouth, his eyes wide at your outburst. Whatever was making noise in the abandoned hospital immediately stops making noise tho 💅🏿

- Ness gives you the “you’ve lost your damn mind” look

- “Hey! Maybe don’t make whatever it is more pissed off-!”

- “That’s how you banish ghosts! so unless it’s something more dangerous you can tell them to kick rocks! We’re technically on their territory but like same thing I guess. They can’t do much but scare us and I’ve got like 10 protection charms they can’t really do much.”

- Pause

- Rewind

- Excuse me?

- “Y’all got about three seconds to get the fuck up out my way and two of ‘em are already gone because I don’t count shit but money so get to stepping Casper!”

- He’s going to propose to you

- “ Wait! You’ve got protection charms-!?”

- Ness is side eyeing you hard asf rn😭

- Not in a bad way but a “when was this??” Type of way bc he knew nothing of this

- “Ok then…but what about those ghost hunting shows! like there’s those that say that if they get pissed off they can hurt you for being on their ‘property’ if I remember correctly..”

- Like he’s pulling out his ghost busters encyclopedia lmao

- “Those are fake and I’m a witch they can’t fucking touch me. I’ve talked to demons🙄Some old grumpy spirit can’t do much but give me nightmares and even then they’ll have to box me about it”

- Lmao he’s like full stop staring at you wide eyed

- Kaiser baby you’ve been dethroned I fear

- A new emperor about to spin the block😔✊🏿

- Oh! And not let him hear you WORK with deities

- He will be like a kid in a candy store

- Like trauma suddenly gone lmao

- His ugly ass momma saying all that vile shit to him as a baby suddenly never happened

- He’s living his Peter Pan dreams!!

- Ness’ jaw drops to the floor as he hears you list out the demons you’ve worked with.

- Kinda thinks you’re making fun of him at first so he bristles at you but when he sees you’re not even smiling about it he’s even more shocked

- “So..you made a deal with them or something-? If you did that’s like….your soul is basically his now, right!?”

- “Not really? I just had to ask nicely.”

- Lmao he’s like trying to rewire his brain right now

- Nagging voices at the back of his head telling him

- Magic isn’t real and there’s probably a logical explanation for all of this like you’re so clearly kidding

- “Y-You’re like…a legit witch? Like you can do magic and summon stuff!?”

- “Yep”

- He stares for another few seconds before a smile creeps onto his face, his eyes going wide with amazement?

- Like you can actually see the stars

- “Dude this is SO COOL! You’re like a bad ass witch! Wait…CAN YOU DO MAGIC RIGHT NOW!?”

- Dragging you through the hospital as suddenly he done forgot about the shorts or whatever

- You flinch at something dripping but he don’t even turn around to look at it he’s rambling to himself for the most part

- “Alex baby It’s not like Harry Potter but I do curse people and do old ancient spells and stuff. Like I’m technically doing magic right now? I have a protective charm on us so nothing can try anything funny-“

- “A PROTECTIVE CHARM?! YOU CAN DO PROTECTION MAGIC TOO!”

- Lord

- He grabs your hand and starts yanking it

- Chill out???

- he’s excited about this magic stuff and as he holds your hand, he seems so innocent and curious about all of this now.

- “Show me some magic…PLEASE?”

- “Like what spell do you want? And again not like flying magic. It’s more…I guess stuff close to that? Still within the realm of reality. But I mean technically your parents do magic too right? They’re scientists. And just before you know how something works doesn’t mean it’s less magical yknow?”

- Ignoring the fact that last part is what sparked this entire head canon I’m right leave me alone

- “Eh..scientists are just nerds who figure out how things work, not really magical.”

- He’s gunna start pouting, he didn’t really believe in his parents nerdy sciencey stuff

- but your magic that’s WAY more interesting! Magic! Actual magic! How cool is that!

- “Magic isn’t just something you can’t understand. Like think of it. We don’t know shit about gravity and it’s still just a theory but if I drop something it falls right? Same principal. Things seen and unseen in this earth are magic. Like you can use chemistry in spell work all the time. like urine and bleach make chloramine gas and I’ve used that in curses.”

- See he only heard that last part I’m afraid

- was DEF not expecting the last part to come out from your mouth

- “I’m….You…put piss…into your curses?”

- “I WILL call the ghosts to come jump you on my behalf…”

- That got his ass In check real quick lmao

- “like the possibility that I CAN. Like it could be for a nightmare curse. Throw in some poppy seeds for mental unrest and nightmares, vinegar to sour their mind and maybe black pepper to get them to leave your life really fast.”

- “Huh…so piss, seeds, vinegar and black pepper in a mixture makes a nightmare curse…”

- “Why did you write that down….”

- Hope your grimore or whatever isn’t like private bc he WILL dig through that every chance he gets

- Got all the books on your shelves unorganized and fucked up be he done ran through them

- Like can you have some class??🙄

- Sits and stares at your altar for hours

- Like he’s looking at everything on it to see if he can figure it out

- No that table cloth is blue because that’s all I had leave me alone!!

- Back to deities

- He will always be polite

- Nothing if not a gentlemen

- Will say hello to them before YOU walking into the crib

- Like you know when a boy is so polite he talks to your whole family before even remembering he came there for you?

- That’s him

- “Hi great grandma! I bought you some of that liquor you like”

- Leaves more offerings then you I’m afraid

- He’s so baby deer coded they love him

- Everyone and they momma will ride or die for him.

- So like don’t let Kaiser be within a one Mile radius of your house and talking bad to him

- Matter fact? Don’t even watch his games in your home

- Bc now everyone mad

- “Why is he disrespecting my baby like that?”

- Like house is in shambles

- “Go give this to him”

- “What? But wasn’t this mine-“

- “Did I stutter?”

- He’s so beloved

- “I call him old man a lot. Or like Lucy-“

- “Lucy….king of hell, devil incarnate, Lord of the Underworld, and one of the most infamous fallen angels. And you call him LUCY?!”

- Jokes that your food is made with love but like now he’s not sure it’s a joke at this point….

[wwasted]

me, lying here wide awake at 4 am unable to stop thinking about a clegan social media high school au. so here’s a thousand words of Thoughts so maybe I can sleep tonight.

Gale’s instagram isn’t all that telling when you’re viewing it. He doesn’t really post himself that often because he doesn’t find himself that interesting to look at despite how the girls at school react to him. It’s all pictures of endless Wyoming skies in shades of orange and pink, animals he sees while he walks home from school, and Marge. The few photos he does have of himself are giving artsy indie folk all americana boy, the tousled blond hair and blueblueblue eyes. John’s page on the other hand is chaos. He regularly posts memes that make absolutely no sense, like he’s def got deep fried brain rot. He has notifications turned on for the nutter butter TikTok account. It’s a lot of him at parties hanging off people because he’s tactile and loves being a good time boy. And then even more prevalent is him in his baseball uniform. Which is how Gale finds him one day, when he pops up on his popular page and he just about throws his phone out the window. For a minute he almost panic refreshes because his mind is not ready to confront the fact that he’s definitely fucking gay judging by the way he felt like he was falling out of a plane without a parachute at just a glance of John. And honestly who could blame him? The tight baseball pants tucked into long socks, the shirt that looks way too tight to actually be something the guy can wear to play a sport, the serious determined look he has. And Gale refuses to believe this dude isn’t a fucking actor or a model or something because who the fuck looks like that as a teenager? Yeah Gale got an average height and decent voice from the puberty lottery but he sure as fuck wasn’t built like that. And then he clicks on his page and realizes that John has 600 something followers (which is crazy, bc Gale has like 60, he can’t imagine knowing that many people) and is definitely a high school student judging by his bio. And he just kind of dies a little bit? He feels light headed, like he’s been struck dumb by just one picture of this kid. And is it possible to fall in love with someone from just one picture? Gale doesn’t want to deal with those thoughts. So he just turns off his phone and stares at the ceiling, willing himself to sleep so he can’t forget about John and baseball pants. He doesn’t even fucking like sports.

But he definitely remembers John’s username (even though he’d rather not and it’s probably something weird so he really shouldn’t) and he’ll come back a few times a week and check to see if John’s posted anything new. And John doesn’t disappoint. He’s much more open about sharing himself and his life than Gale ever could be. And he’s content with having this crush from afar because he’s absolutely never following this guy (yeah he has a lot of followers, but not enough that he wouldn’t notice if someone new followed him) and it all goes according to plan until he’s sitting with Marge at lunch one day, and she’s hanging off him, arm around his shoulders, talking to one of her girlfriends. And Gale can’t resist sneaking a peek at John’s insta. (Cue Gale frantically googling whether it’s possible to be addicted to looking at a person) and Marge just happens to glance down when she feels the change in his body language and it’s totally innocent, she just thinks maybe this is some guy Gale is talking to, she knows he’s been trying to discreetly explore his sexuality more and is trying to be supportive, so she says “oh he’s cute” and reaches down and double taps a photo of John leaning against a wall with a red solo cup in his hand, head slightly tilted back so his neck is exposed in a way that’s fucking indecent, especially with the way the collar of his black shirt is loose, like someone grabbed it and pulled so there’s just a flash of strong shoulder and collarbone. Somehow even worse he’s kinda sweaty, curls a mess, smiling at the person taking the picture like he just got away with something. And Gale loses it lmao like he’s not mad because he hates getting mad but also what the fuck and he quickly explains all this to Marge who feels absolutely terrible but also tries to talk Gale into not unliking the photo “it’ll just make it even more weird, I promise, he probably won’t even see it or he’ll think it’s someone he goes to school with it’ll be fine” and she’s so calm and reassuring that Gale starts to believe her (even tho in the back of his mind he realizes that he couldn’t have liked a more incriminating photo if he tried, he sneaks a glance at the likes and comments the photo already has and it’s almost all girls with a few guys sprinkled in which duh the photo is fucking pure sin and absolutely should not be perceived by people but Gale thanks whatever higher power there is that John doesn’t seem to realize that)

And so he goes home and is content with the fact that it’ll probably be fine. He’ll take a tolerance break from looking at John and in a week, everything will be normal again. He’ll quietly thirst from a far and work on getting the hell out of this town. But then right before he’s going to bed, he gets a notification from instagram. And he assumes it’s Marge sending him cat memes like she always does so he’s not really thinking anything of it until he wakes up his phone and his mind completely crashes out bc that is definitely John’s fucking username with a DM attached. Gale doesn’t think he’s ever moved so fast in his life, quite literally catapulting himself from his bed and immediately FaceTimes Marge while silently screaming. And she’s trying so hard to be supportive and not laugh at Gale’s reaction, but she can’t help it. He’s worse than she is when she has a crush. She slowly coaxes him to at least read the preview of the message, even if Gale is adamant that he’s not opening it, in fact he’s deleting his instagram. He’s deleting all his social media. He’s getting rid of his phone and he’s gonna hike into the mountains of Wyoming and live off grid until he dies.

“hey do I know u?”

—

Also i imagine gale’s profile picture being something like this:

bc like i said artsy lil indie fucker and when John (who is very comfortable in his bisexuality) sees it he can’t believe that’s a real person in the world (which funny bc Gale doesn’t view himself as someone who would be attractive to others, in his mind he’s average, maybe below average bc of his anti social tendencies) and John is just hoping that this is some new kid at their school and he’s absolutely going to r u i n him so he hits the follow button and sends that message, hoping hoping hoping.

—

Does Marge talk him into replying? How does Gale explain himself to John? If he does, how does John take the fact that Gale lives almost 16 hours away from him?

Next time on dragon ball z or smth

[imaginespazzi]

you’re such an angel from heaven😭 definitely my favorite series after ucla im addicted and if you ever write a real book i would be first to read it, it could be 600 pages and i would read every single sentence 💗 my first time ever giving little notes on your series, so i am so sorry for my rant!

ok some of my favorite things from this chapter

-stephie always mentioning miss buecks

-stephie telling azzi about her interaction with miss buecks and being so hopeful that miss buecks will join her mamas team😭

-valks being a quick pit stop💔

-nothing will ever replace the special place in my heart that is made for stephie and azzi💗

-them being at the gym and miss buecks still being brought up

-paige’s and stephie reunion again after working out with her mama, when azzi realized the luminescent smile paige broke out in when she realized it was stephie ahhhh😭

-AZZI TELLING STEPHIE PAIGE COULDNT GO GET ICE CREAM BECAUSE SHE PROBABLY WANTED TO GO CELEBRATE WITH HER OWN FAMILY😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 LIKE AHHHH NOOO NOT STEPHIE AND AZZI BEING THEIR OWN LITTLE FAMILY W OUT PAIGE😭😭😭

-the tension in the car ride, azzi alwaystalking about paige to stephie and stephie letting paige know- kids man☺️

-PAIGE PROTECTING STEPHIE AT THE SHOP AND AZZI SEEING AND WISHING IT WAS ALWAYS LIKE THAT😭😭😭

-paige being scared to say her fav ice cream and azzi already knowing it, their little inside secret of ice cream being the best

-paige already recruiting stephie to uconn IKTR

-FUCK THE PART IM DREADING, PAIGE MEETING STEPHIE FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME, PROBABLY SEEING HOW MUCH SHES AZZI TWIN, WANTING TO STEAL HER, CRYING WHEN STEPH SAYS HER NAME😭😭😭😭😭😭 and fuck azzi seeing the ring😭😭😭💔💔💔

ok some things i would like to see if it’s possible for the plot💗

-paiges reaction to first ever finding out azzi was pregnant-bonus if we get how stephie was made and w who

-katie and tim reunion with paige seeing her interact w stephie especially bc ik they have stephie wrapped around their finger

-a part where theyre still very platonic but paige is at azzis house and stephie asks miss buecks to put her to sleep

-WHO TF DID PAIGE MARRY AND WHAT HAPPENED

-maybe a part where something happens (not too bad because stephie is my baby) and paige steps in and protects stephie at all cost making azzi realize how much stephie means to her

-azzi and paige having many more sweet moments as they realize they shouldn’t but all they want it to be together

im not thinking to much about the ending right now but i know you love us and will give us a happy ending😇😇 and when you do JUST SAYING a scene with granpa geno, azzi, paige and stephie where geno tells them shes going to be a star at uconn will cure all my depression 💙

ok i love you so freaking much and seriously thank you for being such an angel and writing so amazingly and giving us this master piece💗💗💗💗

Oh my god babes never ever apologize for giving me notes, no matter how long they are like y'all don't get it, the longer the ask, the bigger my smile. Also if you're gonna do this after every chapter (you don't have to but I'm a whore for reviews so I would love it if you did but no pressure of course), do you wanna claim an emoji, that way I know it's you?

-I love how everyone's favorite moments are rooted in Stephie like she really is the star of the show

-The Paige and Stephie reunion was so fun to write cause you had Paige and Stephie being all adorable, meanwhile Azzi's dying and that's just a fun dynamic to write

-Protective!P is one of my favorite tropes and when it comes to Stephie, it's enhanced by a million

-I really ruined y'all with that last part huh? I'm sorryyyyy

Babe you might be in my head cause a lot of the scene you wanna see are already blooming in my head!

-There will definitely be a flashback of Paige learning about Azzi's pregnancy and I will at some point tell y'all how Stephie came to be (after I figure it out myself that is...)

-Lots of Fudd Family scenes coming up I promise (mayhaps one of Azzi's brother is getting married right before the W season?)

-I had a really evil Stephie thought at some point but idk if y'all will be able to handle that so maybe I'll do something a little milder

-And of course lots more Paige and Azzi fluff and angst and everything in between!

I love YOU so much and I'm so thankful you wrote out such a detailed review and it truly did make my day <3

[firelord-aub]

Sooooooo. I'm late to the voting part, but I wanna drop my number bc it's funny. To preface this, I have cleared my history before, and I made my account in November of 2019. I don't remember the last time I cleared my history, but it was probably sometime in 2021 or 2022. (Buckle in, I did some math here my dudes)

My history is currently 1020 pages long. That comes out to roughly 20.5k fics. And if I work with the general assumption I will be that I read about half as many fics in the last two years as I did in the first three of my account being open, I probably at least doubled that number when I was still deleting my history. I think I was averaging somewhere around 20-30 pages of fics each week when I deleted the history on Fridays. Thsi varied obviously based on outside obligations, but 27-32 is the numbers I remembered seeing the most often while clearing it.

Doing the math for that fic-wise, and going for the mid range of that number in the poll at 30 (600 fics) a week for two years (we'll leave out the last two months of 2019 for ease here) that comes out to about 62.4k fics in those two years. Adding that to the number currently in my history we get about 83k fics, that I might as well round up to 85k because I genuinely can't remember when I stopped deleting my history and there's the extra two months in 2019 I just cut out.

Now, adding a bit more math into this, I'm cutting that number into thirds, because let's be honest here, I only actually read about a third of the fics I click on. The other two thirds either get dismissed within the first chapter due to reading incompatibilities or a lack of interest in the actual story. That gives me about 28.3k fics read in just over 4 years.

Now that's a lot of fics. When I was backing up to calibre (I still do sometimes but I don't feel like pulling out my old laptop to check my numbers) the backup was somewhere close to 40k fics, but I can bring that back down to 30k pretty easily when I know there were several series in there that were very long and had several fics that I wasn't interested in, nor wanted backed up at all, but it was easier to grab the series than pair it down manually when backing it up, so I'd say that's pretty damn accurate for that number.

I have 2041 bookmarks on my account, but I also have a few collections saved that would count towards that and several of the bookmarks are series with anywhere between two and I think 289(? I'm pretty sure there's one that's in the 1000s but I can't place the name right now so I don't want to count it right now). Not all of my subscribed fics are bookmarked either which raises that number even more.

Anyway. I read a lot of fics. And if I'm not bullshitting right now (which I'm fairly confident that I'm not? Sometimes I pull numbers out of my ass without realizing it though) "a lot" means about 30k, or about 7.5k a year/20 a day.

Which... actually sounds like a shit ton written out in simple numbers, but I suppose I tend to read several oneshots in a day and they usually average between 4 and 10 minutes of read time, so getting through 20 of those in a day wouldn't even take two hours. And that's not even talking about the series that are just longfics but the chapters are different fics instead. Realistically if we're talking how many stories I read in a day it's probably closer to two or three assuming I haven't gotten lost in a longfic that takes me a week to finish.

[icharchivist]

I haven't played Dragon Age before btw but I think Veilguard looks really interesting. I hope I can get into it despite being a complete beginner

oh damn

I hope you can too.... from experiences while th DA games clearly follow heavily on one another, the fact each entry has it's own protagonist, they usually use it to really go "we can't assume you know what happened previously so here's a run down". I've seen people who never played the previous games get fully entranced by da2 or dai, and i have no doubt da4 will do the same on that regard, so if this is the way you want to go about it, i'm sure the game will be accomodating. and the game does look a hell of fun.

Personally i think it's a terrible idea but i'm also a person who has been living those past 8 years on the incredible high DAI's ending left me on with its major plot twist that literally changed everything, all while actually having been set up for all 3 games that going back to any of the prev game is a treat in term of treasure hunts of how "everything was there all along, we just didn't know any better" and genuinely i'd be saddened by people being introduced by the twist /first/ when the games have set this beauty up in 3 games.

The current promo cycle revealed also very early 20mins of the gameplay (not the very beginning and it skips around on a few scenes, but it's basically huge part of the prologue), and they will throw you into it right away (and there's no way it won't spoil the prev game, like, at all lmao), which is... so exciting as a long time fan, but is going to be a lot of biased exposition dump too.

("biased" bc the person who's going to fill you in on the situation has a history with the character it's about as well and the chara in question is so incredibly built through all of DAI and is such a nuanced, interresting character, that describing him in a few sentences is. very likely to get you the wrong idea about him. *mumbles* not like playing DAI has ever stopped people from being wrong about him, but,)

(Because yeah also 2 major characters/companions from da2 and DAI have been confirmed to coming back, as well as one of the most detailled secondary characters from DAI becoming a companion in DA4, so there's a lot of history there. The concept arts also teased a lot of returns from possible DAO, DA2 and DAI characters as well.

Not to mention they also confirmed the protagonist of DAI is coming back for a considerable portion of the game to "finish their story with [one of the major character of DAI (and possible romance option) that is going to be super important in DA4]" and has been mentioned to have a significant part to play/that sometimes you'll have to play them.)

But hey i'm talking from the place of someone who spent the last 8 years replaying the three games so often i have 700 hours on the first game, 600 on the second, and nearly 1500 hours on the third one (i've been replaying it those past few weeks, i'm 130 hours in and i am still "early" ish in the plot lmaoooo, and i already planned to replay the game when i'm done.), and have diven into everything the saga has to offer, from books to comics to movies to TV shows and webseries.

(speaking of TV shows, Dragon Age: Absolution on netflix was released a couple years ago and it was a great entry. It also has spoilers from DAI but if you decide to still going on with playing DA4 despite that, you can also watch DA:A to see if the universe compeels you to get deeper into. The show is short, 6/8 episodes? And the full cast (aside from Fairbanks being a big npc on dai and the cliffhanger refering to prev games as well) are new characters so the story can work as a stand alone thanks to that. and it's 2D animated, it's lovely)

point is i'm fully biased and the one thing that thrills me more than anything else about the game is really just rereading the pages of lore and seeing how they connect, so while to me the twist is 100% worth discovering in full, it's also just /my/ concern personally.

(and i can't even begin to touch on the specific high i've been on for the past month by the fact the trailer + gameplay showcase already went on to confirm theories i've been having for /years/ and there's a specific type of high that comes from "oh my god i picked that up!!! i did!!!! holy shit!!!" that would be lost on a new player who's introduced to it right away)

but it's MY way of experiencing DA and i think if you want to go into da4 first, esp since the other games are intimidating in some way (and god knows i've tried to drag ppl into DA and they all ditched early in DAO because DAO has some slow gameplay and some slow built before really hooking you in, so while i can't relate i know it's a deal breaker for some people when i say "no please start from the start"), i'm sure you'll still be on for a treat and everything.

If you end up getting into da4 without playing the other games, if you have questions my inbox is opened. I tend not to talk about DA much on main bc i can't stand the fandom esp on here and don't want them to find me at all (which is why every single of my completely unhinged rantings about DA have been confined to private conversation with friends and spamming my private twitter account i mostly have my IRLs on), but at least in term of lore clarification i should be able to help o7

anyway sorry lots of thoughts about it but i've been thinking about it a lot lately especially as i'm replaying DAI and i'm constantly crying just playing exploration phases because i'm just so enamoured with the way the game saga grew and rewards you for caring yaknow? and how as happy as i am people are interested in DA4 because i do want the game to do well and personally i feel in every fiber of my body that it's going to be a blast, but it saddens me to think the whole saga and the way the twists and turns affected one another will not be experienced fully by newcomers.

but again. ranting of a raving fan, and the game itself will surely ease you through it, so don't mind me too much about it.

I genuinely can't wait, my brain has been only DA for the past month.

happy it got your interest though <333

[jelzorz]

All righty we're gonna do this BC apparently someone's been making the rounds again and there are a bunch of new fans here who are getting that as their welcome to the fandom and that's just not on 🤦‍♀️

Got a weirdly aggressive anon in your asks? Have they got some really weird takes that don't make any sense? Do they seem weirdly obsessed with Callum being a traditional, weirdly OP protagonist whose Sky Mage Powers give him Enhanced Speed and Agility?

You may be dealing with this fucker!

Dickface McGee over here has been around for a little while and has made a name for themselves because of their 600 sock puppet blogs that they use because people keep blocking them after they've been harassed. They've been known for a bunch of Internet Crimes including but not limited to:

Plagiarism (copy and paste of wholeass paragraphs and dialogue from fic with few to zero edits), and then shitting on the work they plagiarized from

Impersonation, including using your email address to create new sock puppet accounts

Paying for commissions before you have agreed to do the commission on an attemp to force your hand

Attempting reset your password on Tumblr and ao3 after you argued your point with them

Aka we really are talking the scum of the earth here, and they're a pain in the ass bc you can only do so much and this asshole doesn't give up.

Unfortunately, the only true way to get them to leave you alone is to ignore them, and even that results in getting an anon in your askbox once a month with a weird fucking ask about Callum's Princely Duties or something weirdly anti-Rayla. You can recognise them in a number of ways bc my dude over here isn't Smart, and continues to

Use buzzwords like Speed and Agility, Princely Duties, and Sky Mage Powers

Keep referencing a single page from the artbook

Lack general reading comprehension skills and thus will argue with you over points you haven't actually made

Have a weird general dislike for rayla and how significant she is to callum

Keep making brand new blogs with nothing or very few things in them to bypass being blocked

Most of this is outlined in the linked post and there are others who've made their own posts bc this guy just doesn't know how to stop being a creep.

Please be safe fam! Just block and move on! DO NOT get yourself into an argument this guy because once you're on their radar, they WILL NOT leave you alone. The original PSA post was written in 2021 as a result of continuous harassment from 2020 so PLEASE just don't engage. It's not worth it.

[albertserra]

I'm the anon who sent you the bits from the letters. RE: whether such a violation of Bogarde's privacy is allowed... I agree, I started off watching The Private Dirk Bogarde and the first part was okay to me because he interested me as a subject, but after the second I just felt his family had basically betrayed him. Stomped on that trust he and Tony had placed so carefully on their hands and treated him like a liar who was too scared to live his life honestly. They were all very fond of him, and in fact spoke highly of both Dirk and Tony, but my impression was that.

I only read A Short Walk From Harrods completely, and I wasn't planning to read his letters (my main interest in them was actually Losey), but once I started reading them I couldn't stop. It's a 1700+ pages long book, and I've read over 600 pages in a couple of days. At first I was horrified with myself, but honestly after a while the disgust wore off. The family allowed this first. Does it mean that we're entitled to his private correspondence/life? No, of course not. But it's there for the taking, and the temptation proved too strong for me.

All in all, both Dirk and Tony are dead, and the book is already published. If we take out the big chunk of 83-88 which is around the time Tony gets ill, the book is an interesting snapshot of historical events and all that. Plus a lot from Visconti, Fassbinder and Losey which I found very interesting to read.

However, I don't think Dirk would have liked the book to exist. We know he did his best to talk about himself as much as he could before anyone else did. But his family thought best to pull him out of the closet post mortem, and me or you reading the book or not doesn't change that. But it's good to bear in mind... how entitled are we to him? Or anyone? A part of me regrets reading the book, but at the end of the day it doesn't matter much, does it?

absolutely no judgement against you for reading it, i mean ill be the first to admit i found the snippets very interesting and touching and ofc i love his telegram to Losey about Accident. the book exists the letters are out there its really beyond the control of me making these posts about my personal hangups with the whole situation. but yeah thats what im saying about his family/estate perhaps not honoring (intentionally or not, as you said they seemed to regard him highly but made their own decision about outing him) what he would have wished for himself and the self that he projected to the public. esp bc even in that snippet you sent about him publishing a short walk to harrods, "because I have to remember that it is to be read by strangers. Sometimes hostile strangers at that. I did’nt want in any way to spoil what was for me the most perfect relationship of my life. The sheer ‘goodness’ of Tote had to be preserved at all costs." like we ARE those strangers perhaps not the hostile sort but strangers nonetheless. and exactly theres nothing we can do about it now. we know he was gay we know tony forwood was his lifetime partner whether dirk wouldve liked us to or not. idk! its all very strange and hard to work through. and they're dead now anyway. the blame whatever that would even mean in this scenario would lie on the shoulders of coldstream and bogarde's family/estate

[blurglesmurfklaine]

Motorbike

Klaine, AU (I guess idek tbh), pure fluff it came to me in a dream no regrets

Some characteristically oblivious Blaine bc I’m a slut for it and no other reason than god told me not to and I did

~600 words 

Read on AO3

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Kurt is being one hundred percent sarcastic when he shows Blaine an ad for an atrocious lime green motorbike that for some ungodly reason weaseled its way into his fashion magazine and asks him, “Should I buy this?”

He shouldn’t be surprised when Blaine sets his phone down (likely reading a new Star-Wars fic Sam sent him, if he knows his boyfriend at all) on the bedside table and looks up at Kurt with round and earnest amber eyes. “Well, I guess it depends, hon,” he starts, being completely genuine.

Kurt usually knows not to be too dry with his humor, since Blaine can’t always tell when he’s being trenchant if he is.

He’s about to set the record straight and say that he was joking—and really, he should be offended that Blaine would think Kurt would even consider such an ugly vehicle—when Blaine says, “Do you think you’re ready for such a big commitment?”

Kurt... thinks for a second, blinks a few times before the corners of his mouth turn up into a supple smile. “Yeah, I am.”

“I don’t just mean financially,” Blaine explains. “Though, that is something to consider.”

“Of course.”

“And if you really do get it, it’ll be around for a long time.”

“Well I would certainly hope so,” Kurt tries to keep the giggle out of his voice, with marginal success.

Blaine gives him what Kurt’s sure will be the first of many confused glances tonight before continuing his spiel.

“Can you picture your life with a bike like this in it?”

“I can’t really imagine my life without it.”

Blaine furrows his eyebrows and puts out his hand to take the magazine from Kurt, humming thoughtfully upon taking a further look at the pages. “Okay. Well, uh, there’s also maintenance and damage repair to consider. I know you know about cars, but what if something isn’t working right with it?”

Kurt shrugs. “Then I’ll do whatever I have to do to fix it.”

Blaine stares at Kurt, lips pursed, Kurt’s prophecy of confusion fulfilled. “You seem really sold on this idea.”

“I don’t think there’s anything you could do or say to talk me out of it at this point.”

“If you’re really sure about this, I can pull up a catalog on my laptop or something. That way you can browse all the options.”

Blaine moves to get out of their bed, but Kurt grabs a hand to stop him. “No,” Kurt says firmly, tugging on Blaine’s arm until he settles back onto the mattress next to him. “I definitely want this one.”

Blaine glances at the ad dubiously, then back up at Kurt. “Are you sure?”

“Positive.”

Blaine just shakes his head in mild disbelief. “Okay... whatever makes you happy makes me happy.” He smiles at Kurt and leans in for a quick peck.

Kurt knows he’s staring and smiling like an idiot, but he can’t tear his eyes off of Blaine for even a second, not even when Blaine asks, “What?”

“I just... really love you,” Kurt says intently before pulling Blaine back in for a deeper kiss, one that’s more than just part of their bedtime routine.

He picks out a ring the next day.

[in-a-cave-with]

Can you recommend me a list of comic of the principal's chronology? I'm tony's centric but also I want to read the rest. I just finished Iron Man (1998), the invencible Iron Man and Superior (I really don't know why I read it) Thanks, I love ur account. ❤️

hi! thank! 

also, uh, 616′s timeline is…..very convoluted and not as easy to discern as ults, plus there are a bunch of people who have, you know, read more comics than i have who know more about What’s Going On. however you can parse together a vague understanding of events through just reading avengers comics and the crossover events some issues tie into. (you could also read Basically Everything, in which case i recommend following this guide written by a person with far more comic book knowledge than i will ever possess probably). 

so anyway here’s the marvel 616 storyline after iron man (1998), told through only avengers comics, iron man comics, and big Events. however if you don’t want to read some of them then reading the wiki page is ok too especially for stuff like. civil war 

also: a lot of other solo comics that i’ve read that don’t involve tony don’t really…tie into the “main” storyline that much?? hence why this is just a list of avengers comics + when iron man comics take place around them. there are also tony comics that don’t tie into the main story a lot but i still put them there bc some of them make more sense w/ context

avengers team breaks up: avengers disassembled (2004) 

wanda apparently erases mutants???? idk i didnt read this im confused: house of m (2006)

avengers team gets back together again, tony gets the power to control computers: new avengers (2005) #1-20 // iron man (2005) #1-12 

*sigh* civil war. new avengers break up: civil war (2006) // iron man (2005) #13-14 // new avengers (2005) #21-25

cap’s side of the avengers tries to avoid being arrested, tony is miserable: fallen son: the death of captain america (2007) // new avengers (2005) #26-31 // iron man (2005) #15-32

oh shit there are skrulls (tony has no idea though): invincible iron man (2008) #1-7 // new avengers (2005) #32-39

SKRULLS INVADE: secret invasion (2010) // iron man (2005) #33-35 // new avengers (2005) #40-47

norman osborn becomes director of SHIELD because of fucking course. also tony deletes his brain: new avengers #48-60 // invincible iron man (2008) #8-19

tony gets rebooted after he deletes his brain?? i have no idea how stark disassembled fits in the timeline honestly: invincible iron man (2008) #20-24

norman osborn invades asgard: new avengers (2005) #61-64 // siege (2010)

steve and tony realize that they still do like each other actually: avengers prime (2010)

THE HEROIC AGE! EVERYTHING IS BETTER NOW but tony’s life still sucks: invincible iron man #25-33, #500-502 // avengers (2010) #1-12

evil norse mythology forces attack earth: fear itself (2012) // avengers (2010) #13-17 // invincible iron man (2008) #502-509

avengers do their thing. however have i mentioned that tony’s life sucks?: invincible iron man (2008) #510-527 // avengers (2010) #18-24

the avengers….fight the x men?? what the fuck??? why?????: avengers (2010) #25-30 // avengers vs x men (2012)

avengers find an old friend….and lbr this is THE best arc in this comic: avengers (2010) #31-34

tony fucks off to the moon and other weird shit that he does in his free time, a collection: iron man fatal frontier (2013) // iron man vol 5 (2013)

somewhere along the line the illuminati realize the multiverse is collapsing and different earths are colliding with each other. they put together their infinity stones and have steve wield the gauntlet to try to stop the incursions, but he fails. the illuminati decides to wipe his memory of ever knowing about the incursions because they know that he will object to their only other option which is aiming a killer weapon at any other earth on a collision path with 616: avengers (2013) // new avengers (2013) // original sin (2014)

tony turns into an asshole: superior iron man (2015)

the incursions keep happening. earth 1610 (ultimates) is on a collision path with 616: avengers: time runs out (2015) // secret wars (2015)

something happens with dr doom and miles morales but i don’t exactly know what, but 616 gets rebooted and now miles lives on earth 616 now

all new! all different!: all-new all-different avengers (2015) #1-12 // invincible iron man (2015) #1-11

also tony finds out about his adopted mom: international iron man (2016)

*deeper sigh* civil war part 2 electric boogaloo. anad avengers break up: invincible iron man (2015) #12-14 // all-new all-different avengers (2015) #13-15 // civil war ii (2016)

on the bright side, riri williams. and victor von doom!: invincible iron man (2017) #1-11 // infamous iron man (2016)

ok so let me get this straight. steve was HYDRA the entire time?? and was the main reason behind c*vil w*r 2? and now he’s CAPTAIN HYDRA and TAKES OVER THE COUNTRY???? also fuck you nick spencer leave ai tony alone: secret empire (2017)

riri and friends go on a journey because TONY IS ALIVE: invincible iron man (2017) #593-600

original avengers are FINALLY back on a team together: avengers (2018) #1-17

tony is rebooted once again and has this cool new VR tech that backfires obviously: tony stark - iron man (2018) #1-12

evil norse mythology forces attack earth part 2 electric boogaloo: tony stark - iron man (2018) #12-13 // war of the realms (2019) // avengers (2018) 18-20

and honestly that’s..pretty much where we’re at in this point in time. tony stark - iron man’s gonna lead into iron man 2020 which is another big comic event but i DO NOT want it at all

[iampikachuhearmeroar]

actually another point that really pisses me off with extracurriculars (also called ECs in this post) and ESPECIALLY the ECs while I was in uni, was the fact that nearly all of them required a distinction (75-84) average/high distinction (85-100) average to actually participate. like this counted for even general tutoring where youd suppose a credit average (65-74) should be enough in arts subjects at least lmao.

like the most irritating ones that required the distinction/high distinction averages were like “leadership” workshop presenters and even uni promoters who’d travel to schools around my district and sometimes further afield to talk about study or the uni. but the most infuriating thing with that is that they also looked at your ATAR- ie. your uni entrance score or what would be the equivalent to like the SAT score in the US/A levels in the UK or the IB score internationally. and the ATARs usually hd to be in like the 80 zone to do anything with tutoring or leadership/study workshops etc.

like my ATAR was low back in 2013 when I did my hsc- coming back as 38.25.... but I still managed to pull through undergrad with a credit average and get into my post grad diploma. but is that enough to talk at elevate study workshops? apparently not. apparently the only inspiring people for these study and leadership seminars are people that are loaded with money (usually bc most attended tutoring during school.... if I remember my elevate workshop from year 10 correctly) so that they could achieve great marks to get into uni and know how to maintain them while they were at uni. they have the resources to do serveral extracurricular things and even some community work to boot. in short, they had EVERYTHING to get them to uni.

for me, i found the above super hard to relate to in year 10. and hell, even now. like I didn’t have the home environment or a great chance of doing anything really (or at least that’s how my 17/18yo self viewed it from her depressed and anxious thoughts in 2013) at all during my hsc to get good marks in those final exams. like in year 10 in 2011 before the hsc, for the school certificate, i basically almost had to repeat bc i’d stopped handing in assessments. one of my friends actually had to save my ass for me by writing half of my english speech for me so that I didn’t fail and have to repeat the next year. all through year 10 i was threatened by teachers telling me that my (now defunct) school certificate wouldn’t be marked bc if I wrote by hand myself.

it was the same in years 11/12. but my teachers were so tired with fighting the board of studies for a laptop for me to use during my final exams, that they relied on the BOS to tell me that I’d got one. but the BOS never told me, so I went in without studying and believing that everyone around thought I was too fucking brainless to achieve anything above a 50 atar without studying. I did have a computer for my final exams though, but I didn’t know UNTIL THE FIRST DAY OF MY FIRST ENGLISH EXAM when my community and family studies (cafs) teacher FINALLY decided to tell me.

like after all of that bullshit, I came out with 38.25. I moped and cried and hated myself bc I didn’t get a good atar and had to go to business college instead. bc they were one of the places that didn’t judge on ATAR at all. I hauled my ass through my fucking advanced diploma of marketing and got into uni. I did over 600 pages of work in my AD, with my longest assignment being fucking 75 pages!!!! like y’all I wrote a whole (super poorly) written textbook in a fucking year!!!!! like how fuckin ridiculous is that?????!!!!

like yes. I struggled like fuck through undergrad... in fact I wanted to drop out halfway through second year bc I felt like I’d done my whole 3 years already. but I pushed on through that finally graduated in oct 2018. now I’m half way through my grad diploma. like yes during that i only did one extra curricular, which was attending toastmasters sporadically when I remembered/felt like going/or my class schedule permitted. I tried the blogging thing but never interviewed anyone bc i was too shy... I basically did the blogging thing bc IT WAS THE ONLY THING that didn’t require the atar/some uni grade average to do it. it was that or a multimedia newsroom assistant that didn’t need a grade average... other than some career programs. so I focussed on career building workshops instead. after all of that I came out with roughly a credit average according to my undergrad uni’s WAM calculator.... my wam was about 68.8 or something by the time I graduated.

but like. the whole time i was at uni I was met with the question “how did you even get in... if your atar WAS THAT LOW???? you couldn’t even get into the uni college with 38.25.” i constantly got that from careers advisors and stuff. and I had to say “well it was my advanced diploma that got me in bc it was a pass/fail course.”

like why isn’t that considered more “inspiring” as opposed to shitty, snobby kelvin or henrietta over here who got all straight A’s through school, did several sports and other ECs; did a fuck load of charity and community work, did the duke of Edinburgh award by working at a retirement home for a year as a conversation giver or whatever they’re called. like I find that so fucking unrelatable bc I didn’t have the time and money to do any of that. like yes my hsc marks were abysmal and so were most of my marks in junior school (but let’s not count math and PE for this post, considering i went into arts lmao)... like surely the stories of lower achieving students that get into uni and eventually pick themselves up off the floor to get some shit done are 10billion times more relatable than Goodie-Two-Shoes My Parents Are Loaded AF Sally™️ or My Parents Sent Me To Over-Priced Tutoring That Sometimes Did My Homework For Me But I Turned It In As I’d Done It Myself Jerry™️ that are both selected as presenters for these programs.

like fuck off with your “how did you even get here if your atar was so low and how are you even still here?” Janice in careers central. or elevate leaders conference. let lower achievers speak and have a chance to do some fucking extra curriculars that involve public speaking etc.... so that they can inspire and relate to the lower achieving kids to maybe attend and finish uni..... and come out on top of the stupid rich cunts like henrietta/sally/jerry/kelvin who are usually the ones who are more likely to drop out half the time.... because they realise that they’re just doing it to make the parents proud.... bc it turns out that it’s not what they ACTUALLY WANTED TO DO in the first place.

so yeah. I think more ECs at universities should be more accomodating to people in the lower mark ranks (like credit averages or people who got lower atars than the standard 70 for most courses)..... and especially the ones that are about “leadership” or “study” or whatever.... bc like i didn’t do my advanced diploma probs wouldn’t‘ve gone to uni until much later in life (i think anyway idk). and people should be kinder to others who got into uni via alternate pathways like a diploma from an outside institution and not be all snide like “how did you even get here if your academics were so low?” like learn to acknowledge that people have problems with getting high marks or will usually nowadays get hit with bad depression/anxiety in year 12 over marks and thus not achieve what they probs could have.

anyway there’s another academia/extra curriculars rant done lmao.

[lesbienneanarchiste]

Tah Dah!! DONE!!! This post is a twofer bc I decided to DNF one. This was a really good way to get through some of my owned TBR so I’m sure I’ll be working on further bingos in the future. Maybe not with this card, but still. 

Title: The Future of Ice  Author: Gretel Ehrlich Genre: Nonfiction, Nature Publisher: Vintage Year of Publication: 2004

Synopsis: Gretel Ehrlich is a writer who spends most of her time in extreme cold climates around the world. The book is about her relationship with cold, the future of climate change, and existence in the iciest places on Earth. 

Why was this book on your TBR? I picked it up at the local remainders book shop ages ago because I love a good nature book and it was short and pretty. Sounded like my kinda thing. 

How long had it been on your TBR? A year? Maybe two? Closer to two. 

Was it everything you’d hoped? No? Yes? It was very weird. It wasn’t what I expected at all. It was less about the science behind climate change and more about Ehrlich’s personal relationship with cold. It was really interesting, especially because I DON’T like cold. And her writing is beautiful, truly lyrical. The whole damn book reads like prose poetry. Which gets exhausting. For such a short book, it took me ages to get through because Ehrlich writes like she’s packing maximum punch into every single sentence.

Rec it or forget it? Overall, rec it. 

Favorite quote: 

“Love life first, then march through the gates of each season; go inside nature and develop the discipline to stop destructive behavior; learn tenderness toward experience, then make decisions based on creating biological wealth that includes all people, animals, cultures, currencies, languages, and the living things as yet undiscovered; listen to the truth the land will tell you; act accordingly.” (from Goodreads)

Star rating: 3.5/5 stars

Title: The Wind-up Bird Chronicle  Author: Haruki Murakami Genre: Literary Fiction Publisher: Vintage Year of Publication: 1994 (my edition is from 2015)

Synopsis:  “ Japan's most highly regarded novelist now vaults into the first ranks of international fiction writers with this heroically imaginative novel, which is at once a detective story, an account of a disintegrating marriage, and an excavation of the buried secrets of World War II. In a Tokyo suburb a young man named Toru Okada searches for his wife's missing cat. Soon he finds himself looking for his wife as well in a netherworld that lies beneath the placid surface of Tokyo. As these searches intersect, Okada encounters a bizarre group of allies and antagonists: a psychic prostitute; a malevolent yet mediagenic politician; a cheerfully morbid sixteen-year-old-girl; and an aging war veteran who has been permanently changed by the hideous things he witnessed during Japan's forgotten campaign in Manchuria.” (from Goodreads)

Why was this book on your TBR? For the last... idk decade or so I’ve been hearing great things about Murakami and this sounded so right up my alley that when I finally found a GORGEOUS paperback edition last summer I picked it up.

How long had it been on your TBR? A few years, maybe 5 at tops.

Was it everything you’d hoped? No way. I ended up DNF-ing this one at 100 pages because I got too much other shit to read to waste my time on a 600 page novel that bores me and pisses me off at the same time. I have, since buying this one, seen other people highlight problems with Murakami’s writing and I see it. He’s not for me and frankly the whole misogyny thing just puts me off his other work as a whole, which is so disappointing. 

Rec it or forget it? forget it

Favorite quote: N/a

Star rating: 1/5 stars

[lilacs-world]

I have: Diagnosed ADHD combined type and I'm suspecting that I have some form of autism bcs my bf keeps telling me that some stuff I do are traits of an autistic person

What is my crispy ADHD consisting of you ask?

getting distracted by everything

can't focus for goodness sake

when I am reading something I read but then I realize my brain didn't save anything what I read till that point

forgetful 9001 - like rn I remembered I wanted to go to the toilet 4 hours ago ._.

talking a lot when around people i am comfortable with

when talking never noticing that at some point I am almost yelling bcs I am so excited about the topic or what I am telling and then people ask me if it is necessary to yell and I'm like uhm was I yelling??? ._.

wanting to clean my room for ages but never able to do it bcs of executive dysfunction :(( and i really need to clean my room tho hhhhhhh

brain super active between 9pm and 5am whuuuut????

not being able to sleep properly

can't organize shit for the love of god

never able to make a proper routine

making a dozen of to do lists never completing them

keep buying journals and bujos and those cute to do list things - have like 20 unused ones laying around atm

anything shiny i see will make me drop anything and look at shiny distracting me xD

when having great ideas or dreams never writing them down and then regretting it later

time is a strange concept for me. ex: hm it's probably 9pm looks at time and it's actually 4am

worrying being late so till I had the appointment I can't do anything in a relaxed state and only can relax is after appointments

being a batshit bubbly and nonsensical person

brain goes brrrr with random lyrics and tiktoks and vines and yt videos and random intrusive thoughts 24/7

hyperfocusing at times like reading a book I enjoy and not stopping to read till I finished the book aka 6h? 8h? Depends I keep having this thing where I read 500/600 page books in a day and not doing anything else besides of reading

fast typing and fast reading where people end up asking me "dId U eVeN rEaD wHaT i SeNt U???"

in convos blurting out what my brain connected with the other person telling me

when in a convo zoning out and then snapping back in and not knowing what the other person said ._. and then getting stressed

overthinking

rsd oh boi... intonation is off?did something that made me feel rejected? not answered with same enthusiasm? getting yelled at? Instantly feeling like everyone is hating me and i am horrible and the person rejected me and then having sometimes a meltdown crying

forgetting things and plans and then people being mad at me

What is my suspicion on autism consist in you ask?

not getting sarcasm, irony or jokes and having to ask what that meant

loud noises is a no no only loud music is fine bcs that makes me feel alive

changing a thing without letting me know? Oh boi I hate that very much and my day is ruined

spontaneous things? CAN'T for my life it throws me out of my routine and makes me very anxious

socializing is draining and people don't get what I say so then i have to translate to neurotypical and then what they said back in neurodiverse and that's just plain exhausting so i rather avoid people irl

not getting when a person is bored in a conversation irl when i should stop

idk when I am annoying and when not

screeching randomly and very random echolalias like "een vierkant is geen driehoek", "pigon", "jij bent een banaan en ik ben een kiwi" , "go commit die", "YEET" , "yeehaw", "my dudeee" , *screeching noises pretending being a pterodactyl* , "banana" , "godverdomme" , "tuinkabouter" , "doe maar niet" and more but my brain is fried

when someone screams i instantly feel guilty and can't deal with it

when overstimulated at times my brain gets a blue screen of death and errors and it has to reboot but it still has a meltdown and sobs

facial expressions is difficult

am very empathic tho but at times very ruthless and not empathic it fluctuates

specific food textures make me gag like fried eggplant I hate that texture, meat I can't tolerate any meat texture only like chicken is okayish in like nuggets or in crispy stripes. Eggs can't eat them hard boiled. The white part is fine but the yellow *gag* and semi cooked egg where the yellow is soft bleh 😅. Omelette and Scrambled eggs are ok if I have ketchup or anything next to it bcs the egg taste is *shudders* not pleasant.

can't stand any fish smell I will automatically gag and need to avoid fish section in grocery store

rehearsing of things before saying them bcs that anxious not wanting to fuck up

hate calling with people i don't know well enough and I hate making phone calls

not knowing when it's my turn to talk and when it's my turn to stop

oversharing a lot

being smart but too dumb to use my knowledge to implement it irl

knowing exactly what I have to do but not being able to do it

when something is overwhelming me and i am not fine I go silent out of the blue and won't say anything anymore

eye contact nopedinopenope it's making me very uncomfortable and can't focus like that, only with my bf it's manageable and I'm fine with that

stimming a lot with my tangle toy, my hands flapping them, playing with my tongue piercing, my legs bouncing, my feet wriggling, rocking myself, using my plush polar bears furr texture against my lips bcs that's calming as fuck I did that since I was a baby and actually rubbed or sucked the etiquette away

being rude unintentionally and saying whack shit that might be socially not okay

many hyperfixiations that then randomly die

when nervous biting my lips, licking my inside of my teeth with the tongue, biting my inner cheek

i cry a lot out of nothing

verbally i hum a lot and make random noises that feel nice

need to know what is happening in a day to feel like i have the control over it and if not knowing or not getting any heads-up i end up anxious or panicking

brightness of my devices is set on low bcs I hate the very bright light so I have everything that works with dark mode in dark mode and I have a blue light filter from 9pm till 9am

cutlery on plate scratching triggers me and makes me get constant goosebumps waves (just thinking about it is giving me a goosebump wave which happened rn when writing)

forget to eat in time or anything at all when I am hyperfocusing

collecting plush toys and loving to cuddle my big plush lion it's comforting a me a lot

i chew on everything mostly I try to remember to chew on my tangle toy and not anything else.

despise clothe tags or itchy clothe texture but loooove soft blankets and love heavy blankets

for my life I can't sit properly or lay properly down i either sit like a weird gremlin or I'll lay down in a very weird position

dissociating a lot when overstimulated or overwhelmed

amnesia due to stress and bcs of being 7in1 people which makes everything harder

keep forgetting what I told one and what i didn't and thats oof

collecting stones and plushies and moon things and tarot cards and donald duck comics

time blindness 2h passed since i start writing this whole ted talk about my adhd and suspected autism

masking a lot since I am little bcs I kept getting told u have to behave you can't be this rude to guests you can't say this you can't do that and in school I was the weirdo so i masked and oh people for some reason called me agitated blueberry idk why wtf

never getting the intonation right in people voices or when talking

not being able to estimate shit correctly

bad balance and very clumsy

i keep overthinking what to say if I say the correct thing bla

when something is bothering so much and i can't fix it that very second meltdown and i either get mad and cry or i throw things I have in my hand that very moment or i punch stuff or i bite myself

curling into a ball when shit goes wrong and crying often

too compassionated can't say no easy

dbdndndn (fell asleep while typing this and idk what I wanted to say here so yeah I think this is enough bcs I am overdoing it again)

I'm sorry for shit I shouldn't be sorry for bcs not my fault

Hey friends with adhd and autism!!! (and other neurodivergent ppl too ofc!)

I’d love if we can turn this into a chain of our differences to show the spectrum of neurodiversity!!

List what you have and what you think makes you that thing!!

It can become a huge masterpost resource for people who doubt their label because they think theyre not “neurodivergent enough” and for people who are denied a diagnosis because others around them don’t know what a spectrum these things are!!!

I’ll share my example with a rb!!

Pls reblog my example !!! I think this would be a huge help to the neurodivergent community and would improve neurotypical ppl’s understanding of what it’s like :)

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Tom Evans and Kate James, from Liverpool, have faced a battle to keep their 22-month-old son Alfie Evans alive. He is at Alder Hey Hospital where he has been hospitalised since December 2016, dealing with chronic seizures of an undiagnosed disorder. The hospital have fought Alfies family yet again over night as his father was told he would be arrested for assault if he touched Alfie despite gaining last-minute legal documents granting him permission to remove his baby boy from the clutches of the hospital who still refused to release him ahead of plans to switch of life support machines keeping the toddler alive.

Alfie Evans Saved?

FRIDAY APRIL 13

ITV presenters covering the races live at Aintree have just been talking about the Alder Hey Children’s Charity Handicap Hurdle at 14:45 and said:

“Right let’s mention Alder Hey the great hospital and the race winner today look there it is number 13 on Friday the 13th.

“A grave winner.

“They do such good work there I have got a child, a local family who have a sick kid there and what a job they do.

“Lets hope the children, staff, doctors and nurses are watching, they really are absolute heroes and heroines they truly are”.

The city of Liverpool is currently involved in a spiritual war with Alder Hey Hospital over the treatment of Alfie Evans

During the day the commentators and presenters kept highlighting how the horses were going down to the post 4 minutes early and having to wait, it happened twice 44.

The number 44 signifies deception and sacrifice, a stab in the back. The assassination of Julius Caesar was the result of a conspiracy by many Roman senators led by Gaius Cassius Longinus, Decimus Junius Brutus Albinus, and Marcus Junius Brutus. They stabbed Julius Caesar to death in a location adjacent to the Theatre of Pompey on the Ides of March (March 15), 44BC. Liverpool Football Club was founded on March 15, 1892, today they were drawn to face Roma in the Semi-finals of the Champions League (911). This weekend also marks the 29th anniversary of the Hillsborough disaster (29 is 911).

Alfie Evans

APRIL 12, 2018 – SOMETIME THIS MORNING:

This morning I got up to look out f the window thinking a military helicopter had flown where I live, I did see it but I never got a good look at it so I just pondered on it. It was travelling away from the Mersey, inner city and could of been heading towards Aintree Race Course or John Lennon Airport but it was not heading in that direction.

THIS AFTERNOON:

As I was writing an email to Merseyside police regarding my Alice Day campaign I realised the last numbers in my phone number 314431 Which to me is just a blatant 444. So, instead of looking at bad meanings I went for a more light heated numbers explanation and it is then I interpreted it as a message of some sort . This from my Facebook page today. Angel Number 444 asks that you pay attention to your intuition and inner-wisdom as your connection with your angels and the angelic realm is very strong at this time.. Angel Number 444 is a message that you have nothing to fear in regards to your life, work and Divine life purpose.

ABOUT 7PM:

I had just been the shop and my purchases cost £4.88 and after my earlier Facebook post about my phone number being 444 I was thinking £4.88 is another 44444 with the £4 and 88 being 44 44. Then the same helicopter flew over my head as I was thinking about these 4’s. I am still not sure if it was military or somebody being picked up from Aintree Race course but it was seen flying over Liverpool in the opposite direction towards the the River Mersey by another person at around in a 3rd sighting at 14:00.

9PM:

With the Syrian Conflict and Members of Parliament having a cabinet meeting to decide if we should begin military action in The Middle East I found myself checking the gematria on the word War which brought up a host of usual Satanic suspects.

While I was there I was talking about Alfie Evans to a friend my stomach was turning as I said I’ll not be voicing my onions for at least 6 months out of respect and compassion towards the whole family. Its too sad and causing a lot of pain in the city. After seeing 4’s all day this is what came out when I searched Alfie’s name though all of the numerology categories. Satanic came out as 444, I now knew why my stomach was turning and why I had seen 4’s all day, this is where they lead me to.

More 4’s

Today is April 12 which is 4/12 or 12/4 in American format.

4/12 is 4444 with the 12 breaking down to 3, 4’sand the other 4 representing April.

April 12 is the 102nd day of the year (103rd in leap years) in the Gregorian calendar.

In freemasonry they do not recognise the zero so 102 becomes 12, 12 is 444.

Maybe a good sign for Alfie’s fight and why I believe I have been seeing the number 4 is some say seeing the number sequence 444 or 4444 repeatedly is a “Cosmic ‘No!'” that “indicates a ‘No’ to absolutely anything”.

After seeing all this I now know why I have seen 4’s all day, they have been signs. And to see lead to Alfie in Satanic terms just confirms what they are trying to do to the poor baby. The people deciding Alfies fate have fought tooth and nail to murder him and have it take place in April on Friday 13th, just as the city is flooded with visitors attending the Aintree Racecourse for Ladies day on Friday ahead of Saturdays Grand National.

March 22 marks the start of an extended season of sacrifice From which runs until May 1st.  Within this period there is another significant timeline which plays from the 19th of April to the 1st of May. This is a 13 day season of Sacrifice when child sacrifice is required I have written about this a hundred times even people who do not pay attention to my posts will of seen me talk about April 19 and April on a whole as a high time of sacrifice. It has been my most active month with writing etc. The 1st week of May is Beltane when the fires start burning for 6 days I’ve told everyone how this is why Liverpool suffered The May Day Blitz in 1941. During the Blitz, Mill Street Hospital was bombed and the maternity ward was hit killing a large number of new born babies, mothers, nurses and medics Injured soldiers in the next ward escaped any injury at all which has always lead me to believe a bomb was planted in the maternity ward and that was another child sacrifice to Ba’al as depicted in the image below.

As I was finding this out about Alfie, a protest was breaking out at Alder Hey hospital after his father, Tom Evans went live on Facebook to state that he had obtained a document giving the right to remove him instantly whilst removing the duty of care from Alder Hey. Tom was with a team of his own doctors who had ventilators and duty of care was to be handed to the Air Ambulance who would then fly Alfie to Italy to begin treatment. The family are fighting to save their son from the somewhat blood thirsty Merseyside NHS establishment who have shown they have not moved on since the days of the baby organs scandal which came to light in 1996. It is believed doctors are intending to switch off Alfie Evans’s life support machine at 12:00 on Friday 13.

Tom Evens also called for for members of the public to gather in a peaceful crowd close to the hospital and request the release of his son after they refused the lawful action and called police to assist in stopping the removal of Alfie. In his live stream which has had over 600 thousand views, Tom says the police have been called to help Alder Hey by standing in the way as they make preparations to murder his child. He was told if he touched Alfie he would be arrested for assault.

Tom went on to say: “Look what the world is coming to, sitting waiting eagerly for them to legally release our boy

“Here is the documentation, they have phoned the police, they have phoned the police over a child, look how innocent the boy is.

“He lays there still not diagnosed, eagerly awaiting his trip home.

“How can it come to this”.

Tom’s powerful plea was followed by demonstrations outside the hospital with hundreds of people demanding the baby is allowed to leave the place that seems intent on killing him.

LADIE’S DAY AINTREE & ALFIES DAY ALDER HEY PLANNED FOR APRIL, FRIDAY, 13, 2018?

At the start of the week I noticed we had Friday 13 to look forward to with intrigue and with the world famous Ladies day taking place at Aintree Race Course on day 2 of the annual meeting which reaches its climax with Saturdays Grand National. This prompted me to make this post again on my Facebook profile. This was on Saturday, April, 7, 2018.

My post read as follows: Uh Ohhhh its Friday 13th next week which means it is 13 days after the April Fools Easter. April 13 is the 103rd (13+13=26) day of the year. There are 262 days remaining in the year which is a 26 62 mirror. The 13 13 we have in the date of April 13 and it being 13 days after Easter Sunday means it is worth keeping an eye on events such as Ladies Day at Aintree Race Course and Saturday’s when the famous Grand National is held on the 14th which breaks down to a 77 which is the code for a false flag hoax attack used by Freemasons. Think of the 7/7 London bombings and you will see the jig-saw come together. 6 days after the 13th is the 19th, April 19 marks the start of what is known as the as the 13 days of preparation for Beltane Fire Festival which runs from May 1st to the 6th. During these 13 days events will happen as they have each year. Victims will be killed or kidnapped and held until their sacrifice. This build up to Beltane is ended by Pagans lighting the the flames of the Beltane fire festival which burn for one week. This whole period is highly associated with child sacrifice. Fires have been seen this during the first week of May for as long as I have covered these subjects. It is also with pointing out that the Fordica Festival on April 15 which is most acquainted to the Hillsborough sacrifice is on the 3rd Sun-day of the month of April which began with an April Fools Ishtar. 

Looking at the picture above you see an image of the bell of Beltane, she has flowers in her hair making up a decorative hat on her head. I have done a video about the flowers in girls hair Facebook filter tired and the sinister meanings are hidden behind it all are on display at Aintree where we will see thousands of ladies with flowers in Their hair over the three day event.

If you think they do not foreshadow these events then I will prove to you that something has been going on regarding and imminent event in Liverpool and I have tracked sins for a couple of years at least now and this past year has been unlike any 12 months I have known when it comes to predictive programming with Liverpool being shown in many of the mass media events we have seen.

Here is some more examples you may well remember, and again you will have even more pieces of that jig-saw you thought about before.

MANCHESTER BOMBINGS – MAY 22, 2017

EMMA STEVIE PARSONS GREEN SEPTEMBER 15, 2017 – “HILLSBOROUGH” “CRUSH” “STAMPEDE”

OXFORD STREET INCIDENT 4 MONTHS AGO – LIVERPOOL PREDICTIVE PROGRAMMING

LIVERPOOL ECHO ARENA CAR PARK FIRE 14.000 CARS BURNT IN FIRE? – NEW YEARS EVE

CHINESE NEW YEAR LIVERPOOL LAND MARKS LIT UP IN RED UNTIL OCTOBER

FLORIDA SCHOOL SHOOTINGS – DAVID HOGG’S GIRL FROM THE HOOD BEATLES FAN SIDEKICK, YEAH RIGHT

KEN DODD – MY BIG FAT FREEMASONIC FUNERAL – VIDEO & ARTICLE

http://enchantedlifepath.com/2018/04/03/ken-dodd-freemasonic-funeral/

ERIC BRISTOW – DIED IN LIVERPOOL IN APRIL

LIVERPOOL F.C THROUGH TO CHAMPIONS LEAGUE SEMI’S  33 YEARS AFTER HEYSAL DISASTER, 6TH EUROPEAN CUP ON ITS WAY TO ANFIELD?

Heysal was 33 years ago. We won it 5 (2.5 2.5 77) times (Baphomoet) on May 25 2005 which was 13 years ago. This year I have suspected it will be 6 (33) times the final is held on the 26th this year. 26 is 13 13. 34 (7) years ago we played Roma in the Final. May 26 is the 146th (111) day of year with 219 (1119) remaining in the the year May 25 is the 145th with 220 remaining (22) We see The King of Egypt we spoke about in the summer with the signings and Firmino (Firmament) scoring tonight and who else but Gabriel Jesus number 33. The first game was 3 – 0 the second was 2 – 1 (3 or 777) this is another 33 in the scores over two legs. Its all over it.

I mentioned the Champions League Semi-final draw at the start of the article. Here is proof this is all linked in and planned, even the draw which placed Liverpool and Roma together, what a surprise given the Merseyside and Roman connections not only on this article but this whole website is full of them, I have dedicated 4 years to showing Liverpool what we are surrounded by, teaching you who runs the show in our very Masonic city. This image below shows a post on Twitter from Liam Faircloud who tweeted prior evidence of UEFA corruption around the draw which meant these to cities of The Empire will meet 34 years after Liverpool beat Roma at The Olympic Stadium in 1984. 3 + 4 is 7 which is the code for hoaxes and false flag attacks.

A storm erupted around the governing body of the Champions league last night when Roma Fans were sent emails by the club which asked if they would like to select their seats for their Champions League Semi-final with Liverpool. The obvious problem here is the draw had not happened. When the clubs were then pitted together for the semis, claims of corruption which could be seen all over social media were justified.

The draw was today at midday, the same time Alfie was to be killed by Alder Hey, the draw was fixed here is the proof, ps, be sure to note how the Liam Faircloud’s Twitter account was instantly suspended.

Twitter users were all over it and posted their opinions about the seemingly rigged draw and wondering about the whereabouts and safety of Liam Faircloud after his account went missing shortly after exposing the draw as being staged by UEFA.

Others replied as the mystery became a concern to everyone but the obvious nature of the hoax draw was not to be ignored in a host of tweets throughout the day. I must add that all these tweets, including Liam Faircloud’s came BEFORE today’s Champions League draw.

On an article called Winter Olympics Feb 9 – 25 & Valentines Ritual Watch,  published, Feb 9, I named a set of key dates that are usually ear marked for events such as terror attacks, fires, active shooter situations and Satanic Cult Sacrifices. The dates were all taken from my Freemasonic Liverpool research article in a section I refer to as the Liverpool attack map where I show a sequence of dates that directly effect or have hidden references to Liverpool the city and Football club. I have kept track of these dates monitoring synchronicities as they get closer and closer to the place I was born and raised. In the timeline I mention February 14 as a certain date for an attack and I explained once again about how it will be in celebration of the three hearts of Lupercalia.

Feb 15 – Lupercalia – The Lupercalia like most of the dates discussed here requires human sacrifice and was a very ancient, pre-Roman pastoral festival, held on February 15 to honor Faunus, pagan god of fertility and forests. Lupercalia subsumed Februa, an earlier-origin spring cleansing ritual held on the same date, which gives the month of February (Februarius) its name. As well as human blood offerings a male goat is also sacrificed at the Alter of Lupercalia as well as  a dog. The ritual was observed by Jupiter’s high priest. It is also a celebration of how Rome got its name when Romulus killed his Twin brother Remus on one of the seven hills of Rome. The twins were raised by a wolf called Lupa. This date also falls one month before the Ides of March  which is when Julius Caesar was stabbed in the back as Rome was liberated in 44BC. Two months later on April 15 it is the start of the Willow Tree month along with the Fordica festival when a pregnant cow was sacrificed, the calf fetus burned and the ashes saved for the Parilia festival. Fordica was marked with the Hillsborough disaster in a modern-day ritual leaving the highly masonic number 96 etched into all our memories.

Liverpool FC was founded on June 3rd, 1892 although first became a club earlier in the year on the 15th March 1892.

There are 96 years between June 3rd, 1892, and the day of the Hillsborough disaster – April 15th 1989.

From 3/6/1892, Liverpool founded, to 15/4/1989, Hillsborough disaster, = 96 yrs plus 96+96+96 days and 96+96+96+96+96+96+96 hours. (96 yrs and 316 days.), 96 dead.

The image you see above is of Romulus and Remus who was killed by his brother as Rome was given its name. It is the same image that is on the Roma club badge and was seen around the world this week as they knocked Barcelona out of the Champions League before being drawn against Liverpool. Remember where The Pope lives? Do you see the mockery of Alfie Evans in his tweet now? Do you see the game played by UEFA? Look at the Roma badge. It is all linked.

Romulus and Remus were twins, we see Liverpool Football club with the Twin Flames on is logo which were added to the badge after the Hillsborough disaster to remember the 96 victims who were killed on April 15, 1989. Liverpool as a city has had to endure a lot of pain over the years as this article has explained. It has always been our price for success but it may not be as simple as that. These people who inflict trauma on our city actually get off on it. They attacked the Twin Towers in New York which was built 811 (8×11=88 Twin Serpents) years after Liverpool was founded. Liverpool and New York both share Twin Towers as a theme of memory of the world famous waterfronts and this gives me a chance to explain how the Liver Buildings are Liverpool’s Twin Towers and how our city is built on curses.

Liverpool Foundation – 1190

Liver Buildings – Opened: 1911

Travel time from Liverpool to New York, World trade Centre – 9 hours 11 mins

Liverpool, New York (USA) Daylight hours in December 9 hours 11 mins

Liverpool May Day Blitz (Beltane Fire Festival) 119 other explosives such as incendiaries were used.

Alfie Evans – Enchanted LifePath – Liverpool

The infamous World Trade Centre stands in our memories as a symbol of terror, I spotted another synchronicity when looking at the Royal Liver Buildings, Liverpool and the World Trade Centre, New York, both landmarks overlooked world famous waterfronts, both had the twin theme running through them, but Liverpool’s Twin Towers will of gone generally unnoticed as twin towers before now, so what does water and twins link to?

This makes me think of Gemini (Twins & The Creator) and Aquarius.

Aquarius is the eleventh astrological sign in the Zodiac, originating from the constellation Aquarius. The water carrier represented by the zodiacal constellation Aquarius is Ganymede, a beautiful Phrygian youth.

Gemini is the third astrological sign in the zodiac, originating from the constellation of Gemini. Under the tropical zodiac, the sun transits this sign between May 21 (3) and June 21 (3). Gemini is represented by The Twins Castor and Pollux. 11 x 3=33.

The Liver building opened in 1911, the building is the purpose-built home of the Royal Liver Assurance group, which had been set up in the city in 1850 to provide locals with assistance related to losing a wage-earning relative. One of the first buildings in the world to be built using reinforced concrete, the Royal Liver Building stands at 98.2 m (322 ft Skull & Bones) tall to the top of the spires, and 50.9 m (167 ft) to the main roof.

It is located at the Pier Head and along with the neighbouring Cunard Building and Port of Liverpool Building is one of Liverpool’s Three Graces, which line the city’s waterfront.

THE LIVER BIRDS

Liverpool has many well known landmarks with the city having made a lasting impression on the world stage through the Football Clubs, The Beatles and the Slave Trade of course. We live in a very symbolic city (as I am showing you here on this article) with one of the great visual icons being The Liver Birds which have sat proudly on top of the Royal Liver Buildings since 1911 (9/11). But again, there is a story behind the Liver Birds that is hidden in plain sight and yes it is another song and dance about Sun Worship and sacrifice.

As with all secret traditions and beliefs systems which herald from ancient Greece, Rome and Egypt they carry a mythology with them through generations with the whispers of the people keeping stories alive by telling children the tales of the past. As well as Liverpool being steeped in in symbols from those mythologies for example, you only have to walk around the city centre to see the Neptune statues and carvings in a lot of the buildings, but Liverpool has its own mythology in the story of the Liver Birds. But where did the story originate from? Let’s take a look at the Wikipedia version first.

After King John founded the borough of Liverpool by royal charter in 120, the city The borough’s second charter was granted by Henry III in 1229,  giving the townspeople the right to form a guild with the privileges this came with, including the right to use a common seal.

This was the birth of Liverpool’s association with what is known as the Liver Bird, but what type of bird is it and what else does it symbolise?

The Liver Bird is thought to of originally been an Eagle which was used as the symbol of John the Evangelist who was the namesake and the Patron Saint of King John ( St Johns Market). Records tell us The plant sprig is interpreted as broom, a badge of the Plantagenet dynasty. Also visible on the seal is a star and crescent, one of King John’s personal badges.

In the 17th century, the birds identify had been forgotten and started b to be known as either as a cormorant, a common bird in the area, or as a “lever”.  It is when we look into the cormorant bird and mythology around it when we start to see why it is looking down over our city.

The amount of secret references to Satan discovered on this article regarding this city is beyond belief but this next one is something which will again highlight just how these crafty bastards code the devil into almost every detail within our surroundings.

The cormorant bird features in biblical teachings in the Garden of Eden when Adam and Eve are watched by Satan from on top of the tree of life having turned into the bird after leaping down from Mt. Niphrates toward Earth. Observing Gods creations from the Garden, he found it’s beauty fascinating, yet, weighing up his role in the world, he decided his best option was to either destroy Gods Kingdom or at least divide it as he chose Evil. This came before he presented himself to Adam and Eve as a serpent having seen their love for each other as a symbol of Gods image he then set about to destroy their peaceful life in paradise with temptation to eat the forbidden fruits from the Tree of Knowledge.

Cormorants feature in heraldry and medieval mythology, usually in their “wing-drying” pose, which was seen as representing the Christian cross, and symbolising nobility, sacrifice and greed.

This is what is looking down over Liverpool with the Liver Buildings representing the tree of life and the city being the Garden of Eden which Satan has set about to ruin. The devil deceives, this is why instead of a Lord’s Cross on top of the Liverpool Twin Tower Liver Buildings we have a bird which featured in the Bible before the serpent. This is why this city is cursed, these are the spells placed over us all each day as we go about our lives earning our daily bread, our home is built to celebrate sacrifice and sin.

We have just learned a couple of things about the Liver Birds which not many people are aware of so let us take a moment to look into the meaning of the eagle which is what the Liver Bird was originally thought to be.

The Eagle is symbolic to the Scottish rite of 33rd degree Freemasonry and is used on masonic logos by secret societies who have carried on the mystery teachings of ancient Babylon. There is proof of their existence all around us it is just a matter of training your eyes to be able to spot the signs and symbols, in a way, you need to learn how to see backwards to decode it all.

The double headed eagle is associated with the concept of Empire. Most modern uses of the symbol are directly or indirectly associated with its use by the Roman/Byzantine Empire, whose use of it represented the Empire’s dominion over the Near East and the West.

To understand why the eagle is a satanic symbol I have to explain the story of Nimrod, the Sun God to you briefly.

The Freemasonic eagle with two heads looking left and right, east and west, is symbolic of Nimrod in the role of Eannu. Eannus, is said to have held the keys to the doors of heaven and he was the sole intermediary between God and humanity.

Nimrod (the great grandson of Noah) followed in his father’s footsteps (Cush) and rebelled against God with his wife Semiramus. Nimrod was sentenced to death and his body was chopped up into pieces and parts were sent to other cities as a warning.

His wife fled in despair, after claiming her husband had ascended to the Sun she went around each city collecting the parts of her beloveds corpse and was able to collect all except for his penis which is why we see the phallic symbol on world landmarks and is the true meaning of the Christmas tree also with Nimrod’s birthday falling on December 25th. This proves the festive season to be just another repackaged ancient Babylonian mystery teaching like everything else we celebrate blindly.

Semiramus gave birth to a son on December 25th and claimed it was the reincarnation of Nimrod who had returned to rule the world, this time of year is known as the birth of the new Sun. The dance of creation and destruction is riddled throughout this story and that brings us to the sun and moon worship and how the Liver Buildings have this same theme etched into them.

The Liver Birds face east and west. The male looks over the city to the east (the people) while the female looks over the River Mersey (Prosperity) to the west. Anybody who lives in Liverpool can look at the sky every day and see the Sun rise in the east and watch it follow it’s path right over the city before setting over the Mersey to the west, this is what the Liver Birds are depicting. They are honouring the sun and moon as they travel across the city.

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I mentioned Neptune earlier, Neptune was the name that ancient Romans gave to the Greek god of the sea and earthquakes, Poseidon. He was the brother of Jupiter (Zeus) and of Pluto (Hades). Below is an image of the Liverpool Coat of Arms and look who features with his pitchfork along side our flying friends….

The ambassador of Liverpool, the Devils brother himself, oh what a lovely tea-party.

The next word I want to show you is liver as in the first half of the word Liverpool this is something I have been eager to get to, and as always I did learn a thing or two myself. So here goes with one of the most revealing parts of the article as it confirms Liverpool is under a spell and how we are caught up in a spiritual war which Alfie has been caught up in and how most of this information is unknown to the masses.

This is a cryptic corker if ever I have seen one and the numbers don’t lie. Straight out the bag we have 30 in the Full Reduction but Freemasons do not recognise the zero so this drops down to a 3 and 3 is the magic number which is a reference to the Holy Trinity and the Rosa Mystica which we will get back to later when we look at Nelsons Monument on the grounds of Liverpool Town Hall, and believe me it is loaded with 88’s.

Reverse Full Reduction of the word Liver gives us the number 33 which is not good. The Reverse Ordinal is 69 and this brings us to the 69/96 as above so below mirror. This is seen on every Masonic Lodge entrance and is symbolic of the Royal Arch. The number 96 has left an ever lasting pain on The City of Liverpool with the victims of the Hillsborough tragedy tallying up to the occult number. The diagram below shows the number 69 on the Royal Arch. Can you see the hallmark of the Freemasons all over Hillsborough? I can.

  In case you wanted more information on the Royal arch, here is a screenshot from the Liverpool Group of Lodges & Chapters website which you can click to be directed to the page that explains all. Who do you think make these decisions? normal people like me and you do not sit in these offices making these choices, all this with Alfie is from higher up, much higher up than you can imagine.

To finish off on he liver we have Chaldean 17 which is 1+7=8 which is a Saturn reference, I will cover that subject later on in the article but we end the numbers game on English Ordinal 66.

In Greek mythology, Prometheus was punished by the gods for revealing fire to humans, by being chained to a rock where a vulture (or an eagle) would peck out his liver, which would regenerate overnight. (The liver is the only human internal organ that actually can regenerate itself to a significant extent.) Many ancient peoples of the Near East and Mediterranean areas practiced a type of divination called haruspicy, where they tried to obtain information by examining the livers of sheep and other animals.

In Plato, and in later physiology, the liver was thought to be the seat of the darkest emotions (specifically wrath, jealousy and greed) which drive men to action. The Talmud refers to the liver as the seat of anger, with the gallbladder counteracting this.

The term “Talmud” normally refers to the collection of writings named specifically the Babylonian Talmud.

In other biblical and spiritual references the liver also signifies interior purification, for the liver purifies the blood, but the intestines purify those things from which the blood is derived. This denotes the good of the external or natural man, is because by the bullock, in which is this caul, is signified the good of innocence and of charity in the external or natural man (AC 9990).

Elsewhere the liver signifies the external good of innocence such as belongs to infants, because before the rest of the viscera have been fully formed for their use, which is the case when the infants are embryos, these are nourished through the liver, all the nutritious juice is brought there through the placenta and the umbilical cord from the womb of the mother. This juice corresponds to the good of innocence.

Do you understand this is why Liverpool has so much pain over the years? This is the reason we endure tragedies like Hillsborough, whilst the families have been forced to fight these Freemasons for Justice for the 96 for almost three decades. This is why Alfie and his parents have been put through hell?

It has been said before that you can’t knock Liverpool down and keep it down, the people will remain strong spirited through the darkest days and these people who initiate this pain on our city know this. They have us placed in an emotional loop of which they thrive on the negative energies it creates. Yes our city has had its good times but they have come at a price. The founders of Liverpool struck a deal with the devil in return for prosperity and the pain inflicted since has been the price to pay for success. it is coded into the name of the city it is in our faces day in day out. We live in the liver loop. The liver (spirit) regenerates the pool (people) after purification of the blood occurs (sacrifice) and it will go on forever (loop).

They are playing sick games with us Liverpool and I will do all I can to bring you the information to open your eyes to it all. I  understand this is difficult to take in but please just keep observing and learning, then pretty soon it will all make sense.

Writing this article for you and highlighting so much darkness surrounding our city is not nice, it is draining and this has  been so sad to see what I see and not be able to make enough of you aware. For the past 24 hours we have all been part of a collective consciousness with us all hoping, praying and wishing for a happy outcome in the life of Alfie Evans and his loving family. I have tears in my eyes because  I know they have been put through this ordeal by design and to see my city stand up to the powers that be the way we have has made me proud to be able to present you to the world in my own unique way.

We are still awaiting Alfie’s release but given the amount of energy we have put into this effort at the last minute, I can not see how they can carry out the horrific murder of the 2 year old boy who we have on our minds more than ever right now but we do live in a sick world where these people lust off human and child sacrifice.

I am telling you the city is fighting pure evil head on.

I hope reading the article helped you ti understand why this is happening, it will be difficult for many, but there is a lot of people who will get exactly what I am saying. You will not see this point of view anywhere else. This 6000 word article with videos and pictures tells you why Alder Hey continued to stand their ground on plans to murder little Alfie as of Friday, 13, 2018. This now means we are likely to see crowds gathering outside the hospital to grow as more people have time of work to join the protest which has received world wide coverage via Facebook Group Alfies Official Army. This is the one main weekend of the year where the city would usually unite in memory of the Hillsborough victims. 29 years after the horrific day in Sheffield, Liverpool faces another weekend of despair when April 15th arrives, but this year there are fresh wounds being inflicted, and all our thoughts are with Alfie Evans and his parents along with their immediate friends and family.

Alfie Evans Alder Hey 444 Sacrifice Ritual Attempt In Liverpool? Friday 13 Tom Evans and Kate James, from Liverpool, have faced a battle to keep their 22-month-old son Alfie Evans alive.

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hello, hales. i don't know if you have already answered this question, but how do you deal with lack of inspiration? bc i really want to write something (like, right now i'd be happy to write literally anything), but everytime i open the google docs i just keep staring at a blank page and i just cant write anything. and that's so frustrating bc i really like to write and the more frustrated i get the less i feel like writing and everything sucks.

Ahhh, personally, the first thing I’d do is get the fuck off docs. That blank page can be extremely daunting, no matter how bad you want to write, and the last thing you want to do is make yourself frustrated to the point where you just walk away. 

So my advice is baby steps. Something I see a lot, which I’ve noticed I do, is I try to plan the end before I even know what I want to write. I encourage looking up prompts. Some tumblrs that I love for this include alloftheprompts (for something small and simple, try this tag), and writing-prompts-list. Or, you could try picking a song you love, picking a lyric, and making that the first sentence or theme of whatever you want to write. Aim for 500 words, of just writing whatever comes to mind, basically, don’t worry about how it sounds, nobody has to see it unless you want them to; if that goes well, try to reach 600, 700, then 1k. Stop when it feels right, this is just a good way to push you over into the void that can sometimes stand between wanting to write, and actually writing. 

I’ve mentioned it before, but I have a notebook, where I generally outline something I plan to write, BUT, I also use it for character ideas, such as what they look like, what they study or their job (or both), and, for some reason, I always start with who their best friend is LOL but this helps me because I can see the character, and when I can see the character, I can see how they fit into their world in whatever I’m writing. You can even pick one strong, solid characteristic, whether it’s like, a personality trait, a habit, or a job, and build a character from there. 

Like, let’s say (IDK MAN) Taehyung is a gamer, and he makes Youtube videos - now, does he go to school? Does he work? How does his gaming interfere with his responsibilities or vice versa? Does he live with someone, and how do they interact? Do they play games together? Does Taehyung plays games all night, does he stop for coffee in the morning before work/school? Or does he take night classes, and stop for dinner at the convenience store, or at a fast food place? Has he met friends online from gaming? (If it’s a romance thing) how does he meet them? Online? At the store? In class? At a video game store? Asking all these questions about your characters will help with inspiration - if you love your characters, you’ll want to write them. 

AND OUTLINES CHANGE. Don’t worry about that; let the story right itself, if it really wants to. 

I also, as silly as it seems, daydream. I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before, I might’ve, but I just forget writing, whether it’s on docs or by hand, and just think. I just play different scenarios through my mind (thinking about the prompt I’m working on), while listening to music or even just in silence, until I can’t NOT write it down (if that makes sense). This won’t help you sit down and write a 10k fic, but it will help you write a scene, and you can kind of develop a story or characters around it; use it as your foundation, basically. I personally take the prompt (if it allows), and think about that scene; when I come up with something I like, I outline that, then go from there, including how the characters me, how they interact, what they’re feeling, etc. I do this countless times while I’m writing, too. I don’t always include it all in the finished work, but understanding my characters and the world they live in is crucial to keeping me inspired. Plot, in my experience, aside from those main scenes, comes from how your characters live and interact in their daily life. So a strong character can help the author build a strong plot. 

Most importantly, write what you love; if you love college au, write some college au. If you love fantasy or sci-fi, write something based on your favorite movie or book. I can’t think of anymore examples because all I do is write college and/or fantasy LMAO but you can Google AU’s, and there are dozens of them. 

Stay within your comfort zone, until you get in the zone, then branch out, be risky. 

This has been writing inspiration with Hales, thank you lmao THIS GOT LONG BUT I HOPE IT HELPS AND GOOD LUCK ANON