#the yearningTM

[that-gay-computer]

Aghhh i wanna be someone's bf ><;;

[thewayhavenchronicle]

i cant stop thinking about ava and ruth...... I'm in love with them so much....

[magicomens]

Jeez, Arthur, at least let him have his dramatic confession scene

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[levemetal]

Dual calamities Qijiu AU save me.... save me Dual Calamity Qijiu...

Yes they are wearing each other's former coats/outer layer and tons of matching accessory and garment pieces why do you ask

Details under the cut/Rambling ahead

Dual calamities AU, post pidw. SJ kills himself on the shards of Xuan Su by swallowing them. Qijiu end up entwined into one ghost amalgamation, their combined regrets hatred spite and resentment and everything creating a nearly supreme/calamity level ghost. They go off indiscriminately murdering in the demon realm in a mindless unaware rampage, consuming ghosts and demons alike and becoming stronger until they are strong enough to be aware once more.

Luo Binghe becomes aware of the new calamity too late, due to his distraction with the Bingge vs Bingmei extra happenings, and ends up regretting it as he fails to catch up to them time and time again, despite attempting to chase down the new calamity that slaughtered half the demons in a mindless rage.

It could go down the Bingqijiu path or be simply Qijiu retreating somewhere to live in peace. Maybe being annoyed later on by Hua Cheng and/or He Xuan, maybe even Bai Wuxiang once. They kick Qi Rong off a mountain once, when he comes to annoy them for the title only to prove that is not a calamity (unfortunately for him, ily stinky green ghost). SJ is gonna have the time of his life roasting his ass. Qi Rong will leave both in pieces and tears.

Their only disadvantage really is that they cannot seperate too much, physically. But I imagine after being in each other's brains after the soul merge they don't particularly care to be (nor would they want to be. This is Qijiu we're talking about.) It's Qijiu's codependant dream. Xuan Su sewed them together and actually they are very very codependant and possessive after everything so this is just fine. They probably even have a Xuan Su blood weapon, that heeds both their commands and calls. While fighting they synchronise, with YQY being the strength and SJ the brains.

I imagine YQY is able to conjure the arrows that pierced him as spiritual projectiles, and SJ chains that bound him in the water prison. Their strength was cultivated by absorbing and devouring other ghosts and demons.

@ace-shenanigans came up with the lovely title "jade dragon stalks bamboo" which is a much better title than I could ever hope to come up with. Thank you for listening to my mad ramblings

I've been wanting to draw and think on this for a while, of how grotesque to make the initial ghost + the later higher cultivation form. But basically the kiln and everything would count them as one ghost, probably a dual title too. They'd be like a myth amongst the realms, retreating to a comfortable mountain peak with bamboo, occassionally off to hunt down slavers.

[shieldmaiden19]

The Bridgerton boys really are all hoes.

Anthony - the ‘so intense it makes him stupid’ hoe

Benedict - the ‘hoe for a good cause’

Colin - the ‘self-absorbed, dumb of ass’ hoe

[blatantlyhidden]

thinking about girl always always always

[flyinghome-againstthewind]

I'm so tempted by several, but I'll go with Amnesia AU 🥺🥺

I keep telling myself I'm not gonna write this one and I keep having scenes for it drop into my mind unannounced 😭 But I am not immune to the Trope of it all. Or the YearningTM!!

There was a moment that she remembered with stunning clarity — though how she’d retained it between periods of drugged sleep and being barely conscious, she’d never known. Before they had assessed her condition — before anyone knew what was wrong — she had glanced through the doorway of the hospital room and spotted a man sitting out in the hallway with his elbows on his knees, his head in his hands. She saw that man and something ached within her to reach out and comfort him. Some intrinsic healer’s instinct, she supposed; even when the wound was clearly of the heart, she couldn’t help wanting to soothe an ache.  And she saw a little girl.  A red-haired, cherubic little girl stood beside him and returned Claire’s stare, smiling with a wave. At least he is not alone. It was her last thought before she succumbed once more to sleep and woke to a life that wasn't hers.

[ask me about my current wips]

[rainbowpridedragon]

That feel when "girlfriend" *sighs wistfully*, Sapphic YearningTM, Can't look away from the wlw pictures but might cry from them, ✨️Women✨️ *gay sobbing*, Will I ever find a partner, girls girls girls, it's 1 o'clock why am I thinking about this *continues thinking about it*, lonely gayness that one girl in your class, girls girls girls girl—

[il3x]

copin with yearningTM by drawing and writing the Weirdest Fuckin AroAce Relationships... just the most incomprehensible unconventional intimacy... and what fits the bill better than lisa/*ziz?

*not platonic not romantic not sexual not queerplatonic but a secret fifth thing. thematic.

yeah I nerfed the simurgh's size but that was the price to pay to redraw the statue it is based on.

an important thing abt my lisa/*ziz art is that lisa is always gonna be higher... the simurgh is reaching for her. the simurgh is a shard construct; her purpose is to collect data, and she collects it from people, like lisa. she needs lisa (metaphorically) to be fulfilled, in a way that lisa doesn't need her. the simurgh sought lisa out, chose her; lisa spent most of that time just thinking "ohgod oh god when can I get away from scary bird lady". no voluntary seeking out on her part! also, the simurgh is younger than lisa, and she's a shard construct. she doesn't yet have a fully realised, independent sense of self [might be headcanon, but that's how I see it]. she is learning humanity from lisa. she is the dependent one in this relationship

based on a statue by: Giovanni Scanzi (1840-1915) [finished by Luigi Brizzolara (1868-1937) upon Scanzi's death]Twice25 & Rinina25 uploaded: 2006-12-1, CC BY-SA 3.0 http://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-sa/3.0/, via Wikimedia Commons

[unfamd]

the thing abt wangxian is they're both category five Sad Bois for like the whole of their respective upbringings but for like, equal and opposite reasons. like wwx is an orphan and semi-sort-of-adopted (????) and has capital letter Issues, but he's also learnt to cover up every single negative emotion he experiences by immediately pushing it into Being Funny and Annoying To Anyone With the Misfortune to Encounter Him. and lwj is like, the kind of sad that makes support dogs run up to him bc they can sense emotional distress and he is a walking black hole of undefined yearningTM.

[johaerys-writes]

Gotta love how Fitz is like, "I am not gay. I'm the most heterosexual straight man you will ever meet. I have never desired another man carnally in my entire life" and yet each time he lays eyes on the Fool he's one impossibly poetic and eloquent description of his best friend's beauty away from self-combusting from the YearningTM

[mischas]

With the ask about THG AU I ended up thinking how much Marissa and Ryan would fit into a Normal People AU. Idk if you’ve watched/read/liked it but in case you did I’d love to hear your opinion on this idea.

Ooh, yes they would!! Sometimes (oftentimes) I imagine them as this years-spanning, never-quite-making-it-work couple. I love the angst and yearningTM (actually a big part of why canon RM works so well–we know they're ending up together but everything in their path makes the journey aggravating). I read the NP book and watched the series maybe a year after the show came out so I was late. I'm not sure if it was you who asked me about it at the time but someone did point out the similar vibes! Whenever I write fic I usually stick to sweet endings because that's what they deserved at the end of the day and it helps me appreciate the universe more than canon ever did but I've always wanted to write the Great American Angst Fic that delves into that. And that's not to say NP is all about its ending, it's not, but it's more emotionally resonant because of it.

Marissa going to Greece and potentially attending university abroad gives me Marianne/Sweden vibes. And keeping a thread alive in their romantic/friendly communication but just barely. Growing up in the same town, one is wealthy and the other isn't, some real avoidant personality traits, sprinkle in some depression and family trauma, this constantly trying to move on from the other person thing, etc. They're super similar.

[theroguemedusa]

ah shit here it comes

the YearningTM

[fernandothefox]

Idk if anyone else experiences this but i think one of the most, not important but most visible thing/experience in my queer life, to me at least, is the YearningTM for what Not Queer people have.

Growing up in Texas, i always thought I would marry a man. I was confident i could marry a guy who wouldn't want kids but I was 100% convinced that when i became an adult I would be married to a man and probably be a house wife. I would have the house wife life with my working class blue collar husband and that was that. I would cook and clean and probably have a side job to keep me busy since we wouldn't have kids, but this was something I and everyone around me was convinced was my future.

And the thing is, this wasn't something I feared, i didn't hate it or want different, i was actually looking forward to it bc i wanted that love and place to belong that husbands and wives are supposed to have. I knew that I could do other things, i didn't HAVE to be a house wife or marry but i also didn't mind being or doing those things.

So to then find out that actually i'man asexual lesbain that has trouble opening up emotionally to people completely blindsided me. It iver turned my entire life as I knew it, i wouldn't have a husband or any of those thing that for 18 years of my life i thought I was going to have. All my planning, day dreams, and waiting was for nothing, because that wasn't for me.

And I hear you now, saying I can have all that with a women and yes I can! But it won't he the same, i won't have that picture perfect life I thought i was going to have for the longest time and that's a type of grief people don't talk about.

I have to morn my dreams and my expectations and that's hard. I still think about that life i can't have and I don't necessarily want a husband (as i don't like men) but i do want the emotions and life style that i thought I would have.

I don't know how else to explain it, i'm not sad im queer, im not sad i'll be marrying a woman eventually, what i'm sad about is the fact i won't get want 10 year old me thought I would i guess? So i yearn for that type of life and yet i know i will be deeply unhappy if i get it, yet in my mind it's still the perfect life i grew up thinking about.

[owlfacenightkit]

Welp. The YearningTM