#the woes of an emo fic

[marypsue]

Because TJ opened the floodgates, have some Fun Facts about the vampire girl gang:

There are three of them, because that's a proud tradition for Evil Woman friend groups from Greek mythology on down through Shakespeare all the way to Mean Girls. (Speaking of which, as of the time of the fic they appear in, they are of course actively engaged in trying to seduce a dark-haired, naïve newcomer to join their group and the Dark Side. What else would they be doing.)

Each of their characters' design is inspired by a specific era of alternative fashion - Leah, the leader, is styled after 2010s nugoth fashion, Taylor after 00s scene and emo, and Shae after Stevie Nicks and also 1990s romantigoth.

Their primary hangout is a dead mall, where they've...extensively redecorated what used to be the food court. They sleep in the service hallways behind the actual storefronts, where no sunlight can get in. Woe betide any urban explorers who break in trying to get cool pictures of the neon lighting and murals, and linger a little too long past sunset.

Of course they ride motorbikes.

[licorishh]

Woe, "Your favorite character who's probably just autistic and quiet and not very sociable and often speaks very plainly and in a more direct and blunt manner is now mischaracterized by the entire fandom as a sexy emo possessive no-nonsense 'I hate everyone and everything except for the weird quirky girl cause I'm the only person on Earth who knows she's super hot cause everyone else says she's ugly even though she's actually extremely conventially attractive' serial player who essentially treats every female character in the particular piece of media like his personal slave and is the subject of countless x reader fics, so much so that it makes you feel ashamed to tell people he's your favorite character because you don't view him like that in the slightest but literally everyone else in the fandom does so you're afraid you'll be lumped in with those people" be upon ye.

[stephpuppet]

binge read your norrington/elizabeth fics and im OBSESSED. you briefly mentioned having an au in your head where james and jack are brothers — do you have any more thoughts about that? i’d never considered it before and now you’ve put the idea into my head i can’t escape it!!

Hi Anon! Thank you for the ask!

I really love the James & Jack dynamic in the film series because it's quite an unusual protagonist/antagonist dynamic (which one's which is up for discussion!). There is actually a fic on fanfiction.net where James and Jack are brothers, though I can't remember the title for the life of me, so it has been done before.

I'm going to spend too much time gushing about what I would do with the concept, so I'll put it below the cut to avoid clogging anyone's feed.

I haven't managed to put it in a fic yet but I really like the idea of James having a really poor relationship with his father. Because then you can play with the idea that James's career ambitions are either 1. a way to prove himself to a father who will never think he's good enough, 2. him trying to succeed to spite a father. If Jack is his older brother this adds in another interesting dynamic of there being a black sheep in the family that James is trying to escape the shadow of but is also somewhat envious of, because Jack has the freedom of not caring what other people think of him and also being very successful in his own right.

Focusing on Jack for a moment. I think that Jack is a character primarily defined by his selfishness and in the films we rarely see him do something that isn't at least a little self-serving and the moments where he does do something unselfish are really nice. I like the idea of Jack having someone that he does actually value above himself, because (as far as I'm aware), we don't ever see that in the films. Jack debates becoming Captain of the Flying Dutchman himself before ultimately giving it to Will, but it wasn't like he had his heart set on the idea. He votes for Elizabeth to be Pirate King, but doing so didn't do anything to his own chances - he wasn't going to get voted in. I want to see him truly sacrifice for someone else.

If I had ever been able to write this idea I think it would have gone something like this.

Curse of the Black Pearl happens as normal just with a touch more "I'm going to arrest my law-breaking brother because I am the GoodSon(TM) and he keeps flirting with my girlfriend" and "hey bro, long-time no-see, whoa what's with the hostility? anywho I have things to do, let's catch up later".

James still goes after Jack in Dead Man's Chest, still on the "I must prove myself to Parental Figure That Sincerely Does Not Give a Fuck" bandwagon. Hurricane happens, only this time Jack and the Pearl go back to fish him out of the water. Cue lots of James being "I hate you, you're the worst brother ever, please leave me to die" and Jack being "Idgaf, I love you and you're going to stay on my ship and I'm going to take care of you while you have your existential crisis/breakdown."

Will and Elizabeth individually turn up for their respective plotlines and Jack deals with them with James just in the background still in his emo-teenager "life is meaningless, woe is me" phase.

From here it gets a bit fuzzy. In this verse, James doesn't steal the heart and betray everyone because, despite all his very dramatic angst, he does actually appreciate that someone gives a shit about him. I think this is one of the tragic aspects of his character in the films - he doesn't have anyone that cares for him. Governor Swann kind of does but I imagine that relationship dissipates when James is no longer a prospective son-in-law. His men respect him but I imagine a lot of that again goes when first he loses the Interceptor and a load of men in the attack on the Isla de Muerta and then again when the Dauntless is sunk in the hurricane. Elizabeth ditches him for Will. He just doesn't have anyone.

That's why I really like the idea of Jack and James being brothers, because it can give James someone that will love him unconditionally and it can give Jack someone he values as more than just a means to an end and also (crucially) something that he can lose. If you think about it, all the consequences Jack faces in the films are temporary - he dies and comes back, he loses the Pearl and gains it again.

I'm not sure when or how it would happen, but I like the idea that James still dies (possibly at the end of Dead Man's Chest) and Jack just loses it. His motivations during At World's End change from the rather impersonal 'Save Piracy and Stop Davy Jones', to 'Find Someway to Get James Back and Fuck Everyone and Everything Else'. There's now a solid motivation for him to try to become Captain of the Flying Dutchman and I feel it would be really interesting to see him sacrifice his principles and screw over people he cares about to achieve his goal. Like all bets are off, the ends will justify the means. And not just his innocent "Yes I betrayed you but it all worked out in the end", but legit life-ruining, "we will never forget or forgive this" betrayals.

I like to think in the end Jack succeeds, potentially without having to become Captain of the Dutchman. Like maybe he's able to make some deal with Davy Jones (and/or the EITC??, prob not though). He gets James back but at some huge cost. Would be super interesting if Elizabeth ends up dying because of Jack's actions and he has to lie about it to James because he knows James wouldn't forgive him if he knew what he had done.

Anyway those are my extensive thoughts on the subject. I like the ideas but I'm not motivated enough to commit them to paper and write the fic.

[quicktimeeventfull]

hey besite

🌞 Do you have a preferred time of day to write?

💖 What made you start writing?

❌

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hello!!

🌞 do you have a preferred time of day to write?

nope!! i just write whenever. i often go by a coffee shop after work, though.

💖 what made you start writing?

re: fanfiction in particular, i was extremely obsessed with beyblade as a child & was absolutely devastated, destroyed and mentally broken when the first season ended. i did not have any concept of what to do with myself. it was like this:

but then i learned, presumably through neopets although honestly i don’t actually remember, that you could simply go online and read more stories about beyblade. there were like, hundreds. so i did that. however the stories did not have, in my opinion, an adequate quantity of extremely emo stories about kai hiwatari having agonies and woes, so i decided to take matters into my own hands and create some.

❌ is there a trope you would never write?

i can’t really see myself writing a story people get like, healed and fixed by love or tbh even fully healed and fixed in general. i like when they end up in a better state than they started but there should still be a little mess left over u know. i’m a chronic angst & agonies enjoyer so this is always a balance that comes up in things i’m reading & writing. i recently read a really good fic called throw me in the deep end, watch me drown which to me is like the gold standard of recovery-centric fics — it’s about people Getting Better but they’ve still got plenty of residual issues. that’s the good shit!!!

🧐 do you do a lot of research for fics?

yes and no!! tbh most of the stories i write don’t actually require a lot of research but i’ll throw myself into it if it comes up.

by and far the thing i’ve spent the most time researching in a serious way is forensic pathology & related subjects on account of being really into both beyond birthday and horror. i feel like when you’re engaging with violent horror there’s a weird balance to strike between like, being entertaining and being dismissively gleeful about what are ultimately real things that happen and it’s a lot easier to get it right if you’re grounding it in reality. idk!!! i don’t know if i always succeed in that respect BUT that’s what’s in my mind when i’m doing research. ethics of horror etc etc etc.

at this time though the very excellent lightyaoigami has been very generously offering me so much fascinating information about new york which is eventually going to go into a fic about light being a new yorker & also framing his husband for murder. that’s not research gfkjlgf bc it’s mostly me being blessed with monica’s knowledge but i feel it bears mentioning.

🎃 do you write fics for certain holidays? what is your favourite holiday inspired fic?

yes!!! hand me your hand (heavy tw for eds) is about a new year’s party and ghost stories is about christmas at the wammy house. i think hand me your hand is my favourite of the two.

i’ve also got two supernatural christmas fics — shame those stars and peculiar things plus canticle for the rightious man which isn’t technically a christmas fic but is very christmas flavoured. tbh i don’t really like peculiar things, i wrote it for a gift exchange & didn’t really budget my time well so it’s a bit of a mess, but i still really like canticle for the righteous man.

[schtorytime]

I'm giving myself some little at home literary workshops (thoughtful rambling about my own writing under the cut, idk)

I dunno if anyone else feels this way, but I think writing in a fandom that - and no shade here, I'm just being objective - has a pretty low bar in terms of fic quality has made me a little bit complacent or given me this false idea that I'm a better writer than I am. Not that I thought I was the best writer in the world to begin with or anything, but I think regularly sifting through the piles of steaming garbage that makes up such a huge portion of the tags on ao3 (and this might be a mcyt thing in general, or it might be because I only read one ship and said ship is in fucking dire straits, idk) has made me feel a little too comfortable or something. Recently I've discovered a few authors that are like - genuinely good at the craft, and I've realised like... holy shit. I am so MEDIOCRE LMFAO. And I don't mean it in an emo oh I'm never writing again woe is me kinda way, that's not really my style; it's in an 'i'm inspired to improve' kind of way. Like sure, I can write in the basic sense. I can create an idea and see it through and get the basic point across; I feel very confident in punctuation and grammar etc. I feel very very at home in writing dialogue that shit comes as easy as breathing. Characterization also comes super easy to me; I find it easy to grasp what a character is about and the way they think and how to predict what they would do or say in any given situation, but everything else outside of those two things?! Mid. Just so painfully mid. My description skills are so flimsy, symbolism and metaphor are virtually foreign concepts to me - I feel like I write really *simply*, and I think the stuff I do write is good! Like it's good in the simplest form, it is, but it's still just... *simple*, and that frustrates me. I know it's enjoyable, I know it's *nice*. But I don't want it to just be nice!! I want people to walk away from my work like, awestruck. I want people to be so immersed and taken back in the same way that I feel reading some of the stuff I have in the last few months. I think I'm in this weird place where I realize I have potential and I have some of the tools and ingredients to *get there* at some point in the future if I really work on it, but I'm also a little lost I'm like how the fuck do you get from point A to point B. I'm such a 'I want a clear route cut out for me and explained to me' kinda person so when I'm left floundering to figure out how to improve by myself I'm like ... where the hell do I start. I wish I'd read more growing up (I did a little as a kid but then by my early teens I'd basically stopped) - I think I'd probably be further along if I had. Kicking my younger self, stupid boy. I dunno I dunno, I'm very inspired I feel restless. I know the answer is just practice but I want to be there NOW D:< I've been doing a little studying and reading some stuff and just thinking how the fuck did you come up with that what the fuck. I just feel like I write so simply, I dunno how else to explain it. I do too much telling and not enough showing and I probably over explain things the same way I do in real life speaking (anxiety havers rise up) but I also write from characters perspectives that I think would also do that, so I don't wanna tip it too far away from that and make it feel unnatural somehow, but I also don't want it to be so BASIC I don't even know if I'm making sense anymore I'm just frustrated but almost in a good way. I think you have to feel that way to make any actual improvements. Hmmmmmmmmm.

It's like in my head I think and see in images and movie scenes and I THINK?? (Maybe I'm a narcissist) that those images and movies are fucking genius, like I'm a genius in my brain, but when you hand me some sort of writing device and ask me to get those movies in my head on to paper???? I plop my ass on the floor and start drawing nonsensically on the walls like a toddler. Okay maybe it's not that bad, but in *comparison* to the stuff in my head - it is. Source : just trust me guys It's weird being very self aware but struggling to know what to do about it. Hmm. Idk, idk. Ignore my ass. HMMMM. Much to think about..

[just-some-random-blogger]

part 2 you were waiting for lifetime for! (hope no) ig ive told abt all the big things so now im gonna go for the text. oh! and!! a moodboard TT youre so sweet TT i appreciate the amount of efforts you make for this🥺 it expresses the events really good! oh no another thing!! the previous life references from the reader! love them. the portrait and all lines she say to aemond (a lil stupid though bc? he knows nothing and not connected with this but ok) and king? love targ brothers interactions sm! vissys presence makes so much sense (beside developing the plot). it feels so much more complete w/him. have only realised it. AEMOND WAITING FOR AEGON AT NIGHT TT WHY so cute??? TT like they bicker and almost fight over a woman but hes still waiting for his bro TT it made me cry rn. also this little feeling of woe between them while theyre talking abt the woman theyre both pining after and whos never to be with either of them... WHINING DRUNK DAEMON TT im a simp. can imagine his glossy eyes and smudged kisses on whatever skin he can find bc of the yearning for close proximity. love it, so soft so tender so A. but his greezy ass😡 thanks again for not making it nsfw. i love how she rejects his flirting GHHDHD she needs to preserve her maidenhood till the wedding night, after all. (sorry IK its bad, sorry:( ) and daemon doing sports! i love this detail that shows that hes really from a royal family and has duties and had an education and these royal hobbies (ig?). DAEMON CALLING READER PRINCESS. you probably didnt mean it but i do see it as the reference to her actually being his wife who has his royal title. “Then why won’t you let me put a dragonling in you?” 1) i snorted. 2) it made me think. its ok with your point of view. but since ive seen the beginning as reader dying during the labour, i though she might be frightened of actually getting pregnant? yes its been 2000 years but. she not likely got pregnant throughout this time. 'not liking his indirect insinuation of weakness' GASLIGHT GATEKEEP GIRLBOSS YES!! love her. the domestic atmosphere of their interactions is making me smile so softly. AND daemon caring about wifes well-being in the first place after shes gone? equals him being smug before. OH AND IM THE GOVERNMENT JFHCXJSDJ weve talked abt it so it was cute to find it in the fic. youre such a sweety<з STILL pretty awkward interactions with aemond make my heart clench. hes so timid and so emo for this. understandable that 1) he respects his professor 2) hes in love w/her 3) thus he wants her to be happy and hes the type to let her go find her happiness in another place 4) hes suspicious. but so emo TT and your intro to the 'investigation' (hope im not saying some ridiculous shit to you)! this book intrigues. and now im really inerested if shes gonna tell aemond anything. bc she like had intention to do so?... im intrigued. so THE king coming to the museum. its interesting how hes so calm and thoughtful(?) and its relieving how hes so protective of his brother. even if hes against the wedding and dont know this woman, he knows his brother is in love and goes crazy bc of her so hes being the real kepa and going and trying to solve it all. i also see them having a nice conversation with logic, calmness, respect and all and daemon rushing in and ruining it by screaming smth like 'fckng viserys i love her'. also. i always read the last line before reading smth. and i was so amused by seeing aegons plain and loosey text to aemond. theyre so bros here i love them TT overall, this part was more about daemon, domestic interactions, spoilers(?) of forthcoming events and symbols so no tears. (NOT a dare) im very proud of you for writing so much. i appreciate your efforts soso much! and oh how big brained r u in this part! ig all your plans were given the greatest expression and a start! youve done SOSO good! thank u so much for the time, thoughts and hard work you invest in this! hope youre proud of yourself as well. bc you deserve it. you and your fics deserve much more love than tumblr can ever provide. take care! love you<з

YAY P2

part 2 you were waiting for lifetime for! (hope no) ig ive told abt all the big things so now im gonna go for the text. oh! and!! a moodboard TT youre so sweet TT i appreciate the amount of efforts you make for this🥺 it expresses the events really good!

i didnt think you would make a p2 anymore so this is GAHHH <3 <3 im glad you like the moodboard!!! i love it too!!!! <3 i love making moodboards T_T <3 it really helps set the mood for me <3 hehe HAHAH

oh no another thing!! the previous life references from the reader! love them. the portrait and all lines she say to aemond (a lil stupid though bc? he knows nothing and not connected with this but ok)

T_T HAHAHAHAHHHAAHAHAHAH so mean to aemond HAAHHAHah but im glad you enjoy the references to yns old life

and king? love targ brothers interactions sm! vissys presence makes so much sense (beside developing the plot). it feels so much more complete w/him. have only realised it.

im so glad !!!! T_T

AEMOND WAITING FOR AEGON AT NIGHT TT WHY so cute??? TT like they bicker and almost fight over a woman but hes still waiting for his bro TT it made me cry rn.

YES THEY THIS IS BROTHERHOOD/THE SIB DYNAMIC IN AN NUTSHELL also in my head they met because specifically to talk about the issue aemond had and to air out his feelings over the fact he just witnessed THE FUCKING PRINCE AND YN MAKING OUT IN HIS PLACE OF WORK RIP THAT 💀

also this little feeling of woe between them while theyre talking abt the woman theyre both pining after and whos never to be with either of them...

T_T It be like that

WHINING DRUNK DAEMON TT im a simp. can imagine his glossy eyes and smudged kisses on whatever skin he can find bc of the yearning for close proximity.

HELP ME THAT WAS SO BEAUTIFULLY AND BREIFLY PUT THAT IS SO DAEMON THAT IS DAEMON DAEMON IS THAT WOW OMG IM DEAD NOW IM DEAD SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP

love it, so soft so tender so A. but his greezy ass😡 thanks again for not making it nsfw. i love how she rejects his flirting GHHDHD

yeah i dont think im going to make it nsfw until i feel like it makes sense. yes he wants love but you gotta give him smth real. and i want it to be super tender and sweet and full of love. LOL SIMP i was thinking maybe doing in he next part but also writing smut is so draining but anyway i do what i want. if you dont feel comfy reading smut if i do write it just skip it ok

she needs to preserve her maidenhood till the wedding night, after all. (sorry IK its bad, sorry:( )

hELP EW HSAFHLASHFLAHFALSHF THE WAY I ACTUALLY WENT EW HAHAHHH by all means go off girlie AHHAHAHAHAHA

and daemon doing sports! i love this detail that shows that hes really from a royal family and has duties and had an education and these royal hobbies (ig?).

YES I LOVE THIS DETAIL TOO ACTUALLY IM GLAD YOU EVEN NOTICED IT I ACTUALLY THINK I WILL ADD A SCENE WITH HIM DOING SPORTS 🤤🥵 JUST BE BEING A THIRST ASS RAT FOR DAEMON ALSFHALSFHALSFHASL;FHLAS

DAEMON CALLING READER PRINCESS. you probably didnt mean it but i do see it as the reference to her actually being his wife who has his royal title.

NO I 100% MEANT IT LIKE THAT YOU GOT IT RIGHT ON

“Then why won’t you let me put a dragonling in you?” 1) i snorted. 2) it made me think. its ok with your point of view. but since ive seen the beginning as reader dying during the labour, i though she might be frightened of actually getting pregnant? yes its been 2000 years but. she not likely got pregnant throughout this time.

i totally understand what you mean............................................ what if i told you................................................................................... i envisioned she had a kid in her 2000 year wait............................................................................................................ ok but honestly more of an adoptive parent. but idk im still on the fence about come on she has been alive for 20000000 yearSSSSS there should have been at least ONE PERSON AT LEAST ONE PERSON that she let get close to her, thus the plotline i told you about the ex lashfalkfhalsfh OMG GIRL I JUST THOUGHT OF A REALLY MESSY TIMELINE FUCKKKKKKK HELP

'not liking his indirect insinuation of weakness' GASLIGHT GATEKEEP GIRLBOSS YES!! love her.

PURR EXACTLY

the domestic atmosphere of their interactions is making me smile so softly. AND daemon caring about wifes well-being in the first place after shes gone? equals him being smug before.

I love the domestic atmosphere between them too!!! T_T we love a caring husband even though its rooted in his own self interest T_T idk what you mean about him being smug before but yes he is always smug anyway so HAHAH

OH AND IM THE GOVERNMENT JFHCXJSDJ weve talked abt it so it was cute to find it in the fic. youre such a sweety<з

I HAD TO PUT IT COS ITS SO FUNNY

STILL pretty awkward interactions with aemond make my heart clench. hes so timid and so emo for this. understandable that 1) he respects his professor 2) hes in love w/her 3) thus he wants her to be happy and hes the type to let her go find her happiness in another place 4) hes suspicious. but so emo TT

im a bit amused that you find aemond timid. perhaps in the face of yn and daemon, in comparison, he does come off like that, but also i think its just him being younger than both of them and not yet being so sure of himself yet. i think he also senses something between them that cannot fight against his 'love' his crush which is just silly or childish. so he would not yet speak on his feelings while their dynamic is mentor and student lol we'll see

and your intro to the 'investigation' (hope im not saying some ridiculous shit to you)! this book intrigues. and now im really inerested if shes gonna tell aemond anything. bc she like had intention to do so?... im intrigued.

im still on the fence about yn talking about the whole thing in general. i mean she's halfheartedly spoken her truth to multiple characters, but it was hard for her FOR ME to be even able to make her just to viserys that she loves daemon so much. so a part of me is thinking of making aemond her confidant, wherein he knows everything about her and no one else does but also im thinking what if hes so highstrung on figuring out this mystery its suddenly shown to everyone, daemon, aegon, aemma, everyone, BUT him and then when he finds it out for himself, hes like betrayed because everyone found out without even digging into it. but then if i take that route, i could make him into a villain and 0.0 the plot would get mega twisted HAHAHAHAH. also what you said is not ridiculous. you totally caught onto me foreshadowing the fact aemond is going to try and find out about her

so THE king coming to the museum. its interesting how hes so calm and thoughtful(?) and its relieving how hes so protective of his brother. even if hes against the wedding and dont know this woman, he knows his brother is in love and goes crazy bc of her so hes being the real kepa and going and trying to solve it all.

VISERYS BEING THAT DAD TO DAEMON THAT HE NEVER WAS TO HIS KIDS (OTHER THAN RHAENYRA) IN HIS PREVIOUS LIFE. redemption arc real. HAHAHAHA. i mean in the show this was the whole vibe viserys gave to me. also the actor in general. him and matt are so brothers irl <3

i also see them having a nice conversation with logic, calmness, respect and all and daemon rushing in and ruining it by screaming smth like 'fckng viserys i love her'.

I ALMOST WROTE SMTH LIKE THAT but i felt like it would kill the whole chapter so i didnt maybe for the next one

also. i always read the last line before reading smth. and i was so amused by seeing aegons plain and loosey text to aemond. theyre so bros here i love them TT

????? HLKASHDHASD why do you read the last first??? but yes they are SO BROS IN THIS I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

overall, this part was more about daemon, domestic interactions, spoilers(?) of forthcoming events and symbols so no tears. (NOT a dare)

HAHAHHHAAHH. there arent spoilers what do you mean ASL:FHASFAS SPOILERS ARE LIKE INFO OUTSIDE THE STORY THAT IS TALKING ABOUT WHAT HAPPENS NEXT so i think you mean foreshadowing. i mUST make you cry next time

im very proud of you for writing so much.

THANK YOU MY LOVE PROUD OF ME TOO

i appreciate your efforts soso much! and oh how big brained r u in this part! ig all your plans were given the greatest expression and a start! youve done SOSO good! thank u so much for the time, thoughts and hard work you invest in this! hope youre proud of yourself as well. bc you deserve it. you and your fics deserve much more love than tumblr can ever provide.

AWWWWWWWWW THANK YOU SO MUCH MY LOVE YOUR WORDS MEAN SO MUCH TO ME IM HONORED TO RECEIVE YOUR WORDS OF AFFIRMATION AND APPRECIATION <3

take care! love you<з

i love you <3 take care as well

xxx

[anxiously-going]

Since I moved, I've had more freedom to explore the ideas of self expression and what that looks like for me. This has resulted in me being sort of lumped into the Goth subculture, which I don't mind, I do love the fashion, but it doesn't resonate for me and I think this chart is partially why.

I have a lot of pain and I'm not at a point where I can find beauty in any of it. Where I am at is finally having the space to be angry about it. And even with that and with getting more into what's considered emo music, I didn't feel like I belonged there either because, I can't be loud about it. I'm not in a place where I can be vocal about my trauma without...a lot of domino effect that I am not prepared for.

But the other day I was telling a friend about a fic that I really want to write because I feel like it's important for people to understand trauma and survivors and how those things are uncomfortable and don't look the way they think they should. And I realized while considering that conversation and thinking about other stories that I've written...I have been making my pain heard. Just in unconventional ways.

I'm 30 years old, growing up there was a lot of negative things to say about people who identify with emo and with that style and everything about the subculture. I still have a lot of those things internalized. I can feel those kinds of cringy feelings in my chest as I make this post.

I was deep into the church when emo was at it's peak and I internalized a lot of shame seeing that culture and wanting to be part of it. And I'm seeing these posts and videos by "elder emos" and I feel like I missed it.

I have always felt like the black sheep, like I never truly fit any one place exactly. It's not a sad "woe is me" statement, it's a simple fact that I'm okay with. But those feelings do lessen a little when I think about this little chart and seeing that its okay to be angry about my pain and it's okay to want it to be heard.

I really know very little about how things like subcultures are supposed to work, especially when I have never had the opportunity to take part in a real in person community that way. But there is some deep, if minor, comfort in entertaining the idea that I just might be emo.

I've been thinking about this chart a lot lately.

[shortprince-cos]

The Woes Of An Emo

Summary: It's about time they figure this out. All it took was a mental breakdown.

Warnings: Mental breakdown, swearing, crying, miscommunication, confusion, kissing. Tell me if I need to add anything else!

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Chapter 8: Oh That Took Way Too Long.

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Roman sat in the corner of the dressing room, hair sticking out wildly, makeup smeared from tears, outfit crumpled, phone by his ear, and sobs shaking his entire body, but he still smiled at Virgil.

Virgil took in a shaky breath. "I-" the words got caught in his throat.

Roman's sad smile disappeared as he ended the call. "Why-" His voice cracked. "Why did you have to do that?"

Virgil felt sick. "W-What?"

Roman got a little angrier as he glared at the ground. "Why did you-you- f**k." He swore quietly. "Why did you take me on the date if you knew? You- you knew, right?"

"K-Knew?" Virgil was operating on 1% brain function at the moment; he was barely breathing.

"Knew that I liked you, knew that-that I was Prince." The tears were loose again. "Knew that you had your own boyfriend."

Now Virgil was completely lost. "What? I- I mean yeah, I knew you liked me -you told me that part- but I didn't know you were Princey! If I knew that I would've said yes!" Virgil said before he could stop himself.

Roman stopped shaking to look confused instead, tears ceasing for a moment. "...What about your boyfriend?"

"Boyfriend?! What made you think I had a boyfriend?!"

Roman stood to talk to Virgil better. "You said you liked someone else! A-And your phone call at the mall! You told someone you loved them!" He said defensively.

Virgil took three seconds to let that process. "That was my dad! Not my boyfriend! Are you insane?!"

"No. You are. You-you think this is funny, don't you?"

"What about this would be funny?"

"I don't know, maybe me making a fool out of myself thinking I had a chance."

"I'm not playing you, I swear."

"That's just rich, Virgil, totally believable."

"What can I say to make you believe me?"

"Nothing!"

"Why?!" Virgil was slowly losing his reasoning skills.

"Because why on Earth would anyone ever like me?! It was foolish of me to even think that you would say yes!" Roman was crying again as he yelled. "Why would you ever like me now? After seeing me like this?"

Virgil was stunned for a moment. What was he supposed to do? Roman wouldn't believe a word he said so how was he supposed to convince him?

...Well, actions speak louder then words, right?

"...F**k anxiety." Virgil walked towards Roman, grabbed him by his t-shirt, pulled him down, and kissed him.

...He was kissing him.

...oh my god he was kissing him.

It was at this moment when Virgil's anxiety returned, and he was about to panic and apologize when Roman grabbed Virgil's waist and kissed him back.

It wasn't how Virgil imagined it would be. It was hot and rushing, yet also nervous and gentle. There wasn't any fireworks or music in the background, just Virgil and Roman. Which was all he needed. Just the two of them. Together.

Virgil reached up to card his fingers through Roman's hair and cup his face with the other hand. He brushed his hand over Roman's cheek when he realized that Roman was still crying.

He pulled away from the amazing kiss to look at Roman. "Are you ok?"

Roman sighed. "Just...confused."

"About?" Virgil asked, still stroking Roman's cheek, making them both blush.

"Well...did you like Roman or Prince?"

"Oh- well- uh- I guess both? I mean, I've liked Princey for probably a year now so..."

"So-" Roman laughed. How could he laugh at a time like this?! "You had a crush on me, and I had a crush on you, but we never realized that we were the same people?"

Virgil let it sink in for a moment and laughed a little too. "Yeahahah we did." They both laughed together.

Until Roman wasn't laughing anymore.

He started simultaneously sobbing and laughing, his body beginning to shake again.

Virgil hugged Roman tight, slowly rocking Roman back in forth while he cried into Virgil's shoulder, raking a hand through Roman's hair, silently hoping that it was doing at least something to help.

"I'm-" Roman gasped for some air. "I'm sorry, I-I thought that-"

"Shhhhhhh." Virgil interrupted. "It's ok. I'm sorry that I was literally blind."

Roman chuckled through the tears. "We both were for awhile."

The stood there for a couple of minutes, trying to calm each other down.

Virgil looked to Roman. "How did you know anyway? That I was anxiety."

Roman looked Virgil in the eyes. "Well, heh, I heard Patton call you 'Virge' and I realized it sounded like your username...Then I realized it was a fricking pun."

Virgil chuckled again. "Yeah, I thought it was funny."

"It was." Roman smiled at him, and all Virgil could think was 'Roman. Smile. Cute.' "But I didn't want to assume, so I...I called you Hot Topic."

Virgil blushed. "Oh. Yeah, heh, I kinda just replied as a reflex to be honest."

Roman and him chuckled together again.

Roman hid his head in Virgil's shoulder again, melting into his touch.

"You ok?" Virgil asked quietly, resuming carding through Roman's hair.

"Not really, but you're helping."

"Anything else I can do?"

"Just-" Roman took a big breath. "Everyone thinks that I'm the strong one, but I can barely even handle something being...wrong with me."

"Roman, nothing is wrong with you, you're perfect the way you are."

"No, I'm not. I have all these imperfections and-and I can't fix them."

"Roman." Virgil started, looking back to Roman again. "Your imperfections are what make you you. Your imperfections, no matter what they are, make you unique, and I love that."

Roman's emerald eyes shone with tears and hope. "I love you."

Virgil blushed hard. "I-I love you too. A lot."

Roman chuckled. "Are you still one of those people who doesn't want to be my boyfriend?"

Virgil grew even more red, remembering their conversation from what felt like forever ago. "N-No." He admitted sheepishly.

Roman chuckled at him again. "Then kiss me again, Friend On The Other Side."

Virgil giggled and obliged, being in the moment for once instead of worrying about ahead. Why would he need to worry when he had everything he wanted in this moment?

All of their problems melted away as they just enjoyed having each other. Finally relaxed and content and loved.

Virgil pulled away from Roman. "What are we gonna say to Pat and Logan?"

"Why don't we just wait for them to find out?" Roman said with a teasing smirk.

Virgil laughed. "God, you're so annoying."

"You know you love me."

"Unfortunately."

Roman and Virgil continued to flirt and tease and maybe kiss some more, but whatever happened next was their moment. It belonged to them, and no one else needed to know. They were all they needed.

The End.

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Credit to @weweregoddesses and @thefingergunsgirl for helping edit this chapter!

And here is our final chapter!!!!!!! I really hope this was a satisfying ending, I'm not very good at ending fics lol! But I want to thank everyone who wanted to read this fanfiction, this is my longest taglist so far, and the amount of people that loved this really makes me feel like I did something well. I really hope that y'all enjoyed this experience, and I promise I have more fics where this came from!

Also, I may or may not have an extra TWOAE chapter in the works...as a treat.

Once again, thank you so much! Y'all mean the world to me!!!!

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[snickerdoodlles]

🤔 if I can just finish this skeleton before I pass out tonight, I think I’ll have come here. ch5 all ready to go by tmr…

now if only I could say the same about the oTHER wip 😭

[arofili]

I love reading what you write! It's always such good, easy writing no matter what it's about! Do you have any Russingon fic recs? I'm new to Ao3 and still figuring it all out.

Aww thank you so much <3 <3 that means a lot! and YES I have lots of Russingon fic recs! These are all taken from my bookmarks and I know there are other great fics out there, but these are ones that I have saved and come back to frequently!

(I’m also going to plug my Russingon fics bc I write them a lot and I’m pretty proud of some of those works!)

Blessed Hands Will Break Me by @absynthe--minded - WIP currently at 139k, lots of worldbuilding, from Fingon’s discovery of Maedhros’ capture to the Mereth Aderthad - Absynthe is an amazing Russingon writer, absolutely check her stuff out!

“whoso list to hunt” by vauquelin (elftrash) - 3k oneshot, post-Angband, 1st person Fingon POV - another incredible writer

“Old Pains” by @zealouswerewolfcollector​ - ficlet, post-reembodiment, Maedhros is unsure of reality

Did My Heart Love Till Now? by @absynthe--minded​ (with art by @felixwhetsel​ !) - 5k, Years of the Trees, masquerade shenanigans <3

“stay thy mind, and all the rest” by @mc-dude​ - 25k oneshot, get together, Fingon visits Maedhros in Himring, the ANGST and LONGING gahhhh !!!

“commit (to the bit)” by vauquelin (elftrash) - 4k oneshot, Years of the Trees, FAKE DATING FOR WORLD PEACE, this author has a GIFT for prose and the subtlety of interpersonal interaction

“cliffs of fall” by @arrivisting - 3k oneshot, nonlinear narrative but generally focused on post-reembodiment reunion with Complicated Feelings - another author with a truly inspiring talent for prose, I reread the wedding scene in this fic at least once a week and it never fails to make me emo

In Equal Measure by @siphilemon - WIP currently at 108k, time-travel fix-it, bullet point fic, not just Russingon but they’re the ones who time traveled and anyway their parts make me go insane

Your colors by @elesianne - 2 chapters, 3k total, Years of the Trees and then Beleriand, gift-giving and anniversaries and dirty talk, so tender and loving, Elle’s Russingon always hits me right in the heart <3

“Like the old season” by Tyelperintal - 1.8k oneshot, post-Angband, Maedhros and Fingon take a walk in the woods, super sweet

“Gifts of the Heart” by @wren-of-the-woods - 10k oneshot, Years of the Trees, really lovely get-together fic, gift-giving, just super sweet and fun

Our Houses Bound Together by @senalishia and @z-h-i-e - 5 chapters, 17.2k total, arranged marriage AU!!, mutual pining, lots of drama, very fun

“just one safe place” by sunflower_diode - 2.1k oneshot, post-Angband, homoerotic haircutting

“All About Your Heart” and its sequel “At Last Broke Silence, And The Ice” by @admirablemonster - first fic is 2k, second is 8k, modern AU ft. aspec Fingon and genderfluid Maedhros!!!, get together, family drama, ice angst <3

Life after Death by Sylanna - WIP currently at 69k, Fingon-centric post-reembodiment fic, slow moving and contemplative, the author is truly the sweetest person ever

What Is Wrought Between Us by @nikosheba - 90k series (with plenty of smut too), complete, canon compliant, ranges from the Years of the Trees all the way to after the Dagor Dagorath, a truly incredible work

“Kindness” by justonelastdance - 1.6k oneshot, Maedhros in a fucked up mental state post-Angband, hurt/comfort - this author writes a lot of Maedhros whump so if you like this check out their other stuff too (this one is just my favorite)

and under the cut, some smut recs....

smut recs

In a Jeweled Crown by @absynthe--minded - 3 chapters, 12k, complete, Fingon’s coronation and the aftermath - this one still makes me go nuts every time I read it

Reconnecting by nyromes - a series with 2 parts, 9k total, first time post-Angband + first time Maedhros bottoms post-Angband

“Bright Defiance” (1.7k) and its companion fic “Very Good” (800 word ficlet) by @edgeoflight - two oneshots, Fingon coaxes Maedhros’ story out of him post-Angband + some PWP - these are some of my favorites, I come back to them frequently

“all your perfect imperfections” by @stormxpadme - 1.8k oneshot, stumpfucking, I’m biased bc this was written for me but I do love it very much, Himring era

“These Games We Play” by @edgeoflight - 1.7k oneshot, the original stumpfucking fic, Himring era

A Surprise At Home by Findecutie and MayGlenn - 25k of pwp, Years of the Trees, newlyweds, crossdressing - part of the much longer Russ and Finno Verse but this was my intro to that verse and it’s good on its own!

“Fuath” by yeaka - 3k oneshot, first time, some truly disturbing manipulation by Melkor but the Russingon here fucking destroys me ;-;

“Rozanne” by yeaka - 2.8k oneshot, Maedhros recovering from Angband, I once saw someone use the phrase “lovingly described blowjobs” and that’s basically this fic

“Sleeve” by yeaka - 2.4k oneshot, trans!Maedhros, Years of the Trees, Fëanor invents the condom for Maedhros and Russingon are incredibly eager to try it out, they’re SO IN LOVE here it gets me every time

Passion and Anxious Care by LiveOakWithMoss - 12.5k total, 2 fic series, modern AU, oh my god they were roommates, get together and then first time, this is another one I return to frequently - this author is/was a BNF a few years ago but hasn’t been active recently

“For nimble thought can jump both sea and land” by TheLionInMyBed - 2.2k oneshot, palantiri foolishness that leads to video sex basically, Beleriand era - another BNF who is/was buds with LiveOakWithMoss

Treat me soft but touch me cool by LiveOakWithMoss and TheLionInMyBed - 4 chapters, 18k total, swoon kink/medical kink, relationship difficulties that are resolved, Beleriand era with a final chapter post-reembodiment, love this one

“Enthroned” by @ultraviolet-eucatastrophe - 4.5k oneshot, throne sex, fealty kink, King Fingon era

“A Disgrace to the House of Finwë” by @edgeoflight - 2.3k oneshot, get together/first time, Years of the Trees, they’re just super sweet together <3

“What Happens in Himring” by teasoni - 3.4k oneshot, reunion sex, Himring era, fealty kink, this fic is tagged “finally some dicks get sucked!!!!!!” and I think about that tag every time I write a Russingon blowjob jdkfhdkj

“a light in darkness, hope in woe” by @admirablemonster - 4k oneshot, trans!Maedhros, surprise baby Gil-galad in the middle of the Bragollach

“A lord and his prince” by @ultraviolet-eucatastrophe - 3.1k oneshot, early Beleriand era, reunion sex, super sweet and fluffy

“Made of Lava” by @edgeoflight - 2.1k oneshot, Years of the Trees, tender get-together fic with a kind of silly premise

Bend, bruise, beg by LiveOakWithMoss - 5 chapters, 13k total, part of a larger modern AU but tbh I haven’t read the main fic in that verse and this absolutely stands on its own, Maedhros discovering his kinks, chapters 2 (first time) and 4 (butt plug shenanigans) are my favorites

“in a field of stars” by Nacht - 3.4k oneshot, Years of the Trees, first time/get together, the writing style here is really unique and sticks with me

“a sword once sheathed” by @mc-dude - 3.5k oneshot, Beleriand era, reunion sex, the amount of horny longing is truly astonishing

Of Flight and Freedom by @admirablemonster - 2 chapters, 6.6k total, wingfic/wing kink, first time/get together, the Rescue and its aftermath

“Thorns” by yeaka - 2k oneshot, post-Angband, Maedhros with lousy self-worth, Fingon who punishes him with love, bondage

The Ice Between by angrymermaids (who has a tumblr but I don’t remember the url oops) - 7 chapters, 33.5k total, Beleriand era, piecing their relationship back together / trying to get back to being intimate, focus on Fingon and his trauma from the Ice

“much too tall for a boyfriend” by @i-am-a-lonely-visitor - 4.7k oneshot, fem!Maedhros x budding-transmasc!Fingon, Years of the Trees, I think about this fic ALL THE TIME I kind of want to write a sequel to it sjfdhdkjh

“the beat of your heart as my hand touches your skin” by @admirablemonster - 5.3k oneshot, part of the Elves in Pon Farr series, Years of the Trees, heat fic/mating cycles, first time/get together, Maedhros’ first heat catches him by surprise while on a camping trip with Fingon, accidental soulbond

“Beneath the Blanketing White” by @nikosheba - 2.3k oneshot, Himring era, pwp, cameo from little Gil-galad at the end

“What I Am (When I’m With You)” by @thatfeanorian - 5k oneshot, part of a larger modern AU, married fluff, Fingon with baby Gil, ends with some lovely smut, this was written for me so AGAIN I’m biased but I do very much love this one

“open your body and soul to me” by @the-quiet-fire-of-defiance - 2.3k oneshot, Years of the Trees, trans!Maedhros, pregnancy, exhibitionism, sex toys, they’re so in love that it drives me crazy, I can’t stop thinking about this fic djfhkjd

“Like the Golden Fire in Your Eyes” by @sianascera - 3.8k oneshot, Years of the Trees, Maedhros invents nipple piercings, extremely fun <3

[kirisaki-daichi-scenarios]

Can we get more beach trip headcannons except this time with female! manager, Thank you I love your work❤️❤️❤️

original beach training camp hcs here - worth reading for context

look at my ass saying ‘context’ as if this is some literary analysis

on the one hand, with the manager around, hanamiya’s no longer the only adult there to look after everything

on the other hand, manager-chan has to be a little mad to be even be working with the boys, and thus she’s only going to be adding to the chaos

for example, half the time, she’s telling hara that no he can’t just claim he has to protect her from the ‘’renowned okinawan beach ghost’ in order to get out of practice, and the other half of the time, she’s plotting with him at 2am about how they terrorise the others and make them think that the beach ghost does exist

side note: seto doesn’t believe in ghosts or anything that’s not explained by science; hanamiya’s the same but he pretends he worships satan every once in a while just for the sake of freaking people out; who knows if furuhashi believes in them in not, but, even if he saw a ghost, he wouldn’t be impressed

and yamazaki’s the type of say they’re stupid, and then start fucking screaming as he goes through a haunted house and then, once he’s out of there, claim that he was never phased in the slightest, and that it was furuhashi grabbing onto everyone’s arms (furuhashi’s a good target cause he’s not a large enough dick to dispute it and embarrass yamazaki; he just kinda raises an eyebrow and moves on)

road trip fic where everyone visits a haunted house and does all kinds of stupid shit when?

anyway that’s why yamazaki’s sitting in on the “reviving beach ghost” conversation (you can’t get scared if you are the ghost, am i right?)

the plan with the ghost is simple and is supposed to involve a) manager dressing up as the ghost (long black dress, hair over her face, etc), b) yamazaki making ghostly sounds (he’s good at sound effects, it’s not as stupid an idea as it sounds), c) hara’s gonna film it all (and also buy the necessary supplies, like fake blood etc)

the problem is that discussing satanically plans at 2am, after you’ve had a full day of practice (or a full day of dealing with these idiots), is that you’re not going to be awake at 7am

which is when hanamiya storms in wondering why half the team are missing

although the sight of people covered in dark cloaks (they’re just blankets; it got cold in the night) and pages filled with drawings of pentagrams (it took zaki that many tries before he could draw it without it it being wonky) may be a little unnerving

nothing is more terrifying than a fuming hanamiya dragging you out of bed when you’re still half asleep

and he also finds the written plans so, all in all, mission failed

Moving On

this is already fucking long and i’ve only just started shit

given that seto never plays in full matches, his fitness plan is a little more lenient - aka, sometimes when everyone else is off running and dribbling and whatnot, it’s just manager-chan and seto on the beach, enjoying their holiday

this is helpful as a) it prevents seto from being forgotten (see previous training camp post), and b) it gives their manager the time to very helpfully apply suncream for him, probably in a pattern, so he gets the image of a flower sunburnt to his stomach

the best part of it is that seto doesn’t even give a shit

catch him floating off on his back to the middle of the philippine sea with the flower shining against the sun like a message from god

actually that raises a very important point about the boy’s swimming abilities so,

yamazaki + hara: good swimmers, neither ever took lessons so their strokes aren’t too polished, but they can goof around in the sea and try to drown one another without anyone actually drowning (or, at least, that’s what the manager’s there for)

furuhashi: very good swimmer, even better diver. disappears without making a single ripple in the water, no bubbles either. he just appears all of a sudden from underneath your feet like “this is a pretty shell, isn’t it?” as if his dark presence at the sea bed hadn’t just made several people think there’s a shark about

seto’s real good at floating, and at a mediocre backstroke, and that’s all he ever does - or is bothered to do

matsumoto takes pride in the fact he’s a faster swimmer than anyone else on the team (except for furu that is), and he likes to do the butterfly stroke angrily up and down the shore to get rid of all his pent up stress (hanamiya never comments on it, cause hey it’s just extra fitness training)

and finally hanamiya was unable to swim for a very long time (and there is many a photo of him with swimming armbands, hidden in his bedroom, from when everyone was coming over, and he couldn’t let them know that he has a weakness

however, one time, hara had a pool party when hanamiya still couldn’t swim, and hara threw him into the pool, and he just somehow learned how to in those few seconds? talk about survival instinct

alright back to our scheduled program

furuhashi is damn good at fishing. like damn good, like doesn’t even need a rod, he just shoves his arm in, somehow grabs one, and guts it and prepares the meal there on the beach

having to eat dinner with a furuhashi whose hands and some of his chest are stained with blood (normally he’d wash it off, but he’s a little emo at heart. went through a phase as a child where he was really into blood vials, and satanic witchcraft and all that) may be a little disconcerting, but it’s also a lovely time :)

picture the scene, dear reader

all the lads, surrounded by the sunset, the evening tide and the lush green in the background, sat by a little stove fire over which furuhashi is frying the fish

matsumoto and the manager chatting about the competitions scheduled for after the team gets back (you’d think hanamiya would be involved in this discussion, but Coach Time TM is over, and now he and hara are challenging one another to watch over hot coals, as furuhashi patiently warms up more stones for them)

seto probably helping furuhashi out; either that, or telling yamazaki all the many illnesses he might catch from the ocean, as zaki takes a massive bite of seaweed and then spits it all out

everyone eventually getting dragged into the hot coals battle

someone almost definitely gets burnt (spoiler alert it’s zaki) and manager-chan has to bandage him up as he yells at a laughing hara that he was sabotaged and that he can handle heat better than anyone else here

he dives on the hot coals as if to make his point

and thus matsumoto and furuhashi have to carry him back to the hotel, cause now he’s got even more burns (and he’s also a little baby who doesn’t like pain, but don’t let him here you say that)

oh the woes of training camps when two of your group have very high IQs, and yet there is still only 1 brain cell being shared between 7 people

[snowe-zolynn-rogers]

The BNHA Group Chat Fic Nobody Asked For

Pairings: Todoroki Touya (Dabi)/Mr/ Compress (Sako Atsuhiro), Shimura Tenko (Shigaraki Tomura)/Chisaki Kai (Overhaul)/Kurono Hari (Chrono), Yamada Hizashi (Present Mic)/Aizawa Shouta (Eraserhead)/Shirakumo Oboro (Loud Cloud), Fukukado Emi (Ms. Joke)/Kayama Nemuri (Midnight)

Word Count: 2,420 Words

Summary: Uraraka makes a fatal mistake, triple date night with the Emo Squad, Thery-oki strikes again, and Hitoshi in the morning is a zombie.

Warnings: Caps, Cursing, Half Blind Character, Deaf Characters, Anxiety Mention, Mostly Mute Character (due to a different medical issue), Selectively Mute Character, Mineta Minoru Exists (sadly), Autistic Meltdown Mention, Food Mention, Sleep Deprivation, Insomnia, let me know if I should add anything else.

Note: AU where the League Of Villains are just hero course students. btw Yukimura is Dabi (he goes by his mother's surname (mostly because it's his last hurrah at making Endeavor absolutely livid at him and partially so he and Shoto don't get confused whe someone calls for 'Todoroki')

Usernames: We Are Number One™ Aizawa: Dadzawa, Aoyama: immafiringmahlaser, Ashido: princessbubblegumknockoff, Asui: Galvan, Iida: Emergency Exit, Uraraka: 9.8, Ojiro: tailfloof, Kaminari: Pichu, Kirishima: baby shark, Koda: youredoingamazingsweetie, Sato: GuyFieriIsGod, Shoji: Cthulhu, Jirou: Jack Skellington, Sero: Spider-Man, Tokoyami: EdgarAllanCrows, Todoroki: WHERE?, Hagakure: cena, Bakugo: WHAT?, Midoriya: SmolMight, Mineta: Mineta, Shinsou: exhausted, Yaoyorozu: TheGreatCreator, Kurono: stopwatch, Chisaki: donthugmeimscared, Yukimura: choticgaydisaster, Bubaigawara: shadowclonejutsu, Shimura: idontfeelsogood, Awase: illrememberyouallintherapy, Kaibara: IDOWHATIWANT, Kamakiri: scyther, Kuroiro: itsmeyaboy, Kendo: Akimichi, Kodai: deadinside, Komori: shroomgurl, Shiozaki: wElCoMeToBiBlEsTuDiEs, Shishida: furry, Shoda: cryptid, Tsunotori: mylittlepony, Tsubaraba: airbender, Tetsutetsu: Iron Man, Tokage: t-rex costume, Fukidashi: glorifiedtextbubble, Honenuki: Eren Jaeger/spookyscaryskeletons, Bondo: Slimer, Monoma: HopeSummers, Yanagi: iLiEdImDyInGiNsIdE, Rin: snek, Toga: mystique, Sako: lostmymarbles, Hikiishi: queenofmagnetism, Iguchi: eye gucci, Shinokanri: stardust

Usernames: Emos Anonymous Kaminari: blackcloakedbrides, Shoji: fryingpan, Jirou: greentwentyfourhours, Tokoyami: myscientificinfatuation, Todoroki: twentyoneplotpoints, Bakugo: immobileinwhite, Midoriya: falldownboy, Shinsou: stabtheveil, Kurono: inhalecarolina, Chisaki: plummetingininverse, Yukimura: anxietyintheclub, Shimura: nappingwithsirens, Kuroiro: thousandfootcane, Kodai: marianaspit, Monoma: entiretimelow, Yanagi: recentyearsday, Sako: halfminutetomars, Aizawa: hollywoodlivingdead, Shouji: fryingpan, Kurono: inhalecarolina, Aoyama: phantomtown, Honenuki: visualizedragon, Sako: halfminutetomars, Awase: distressparade, Shinokanri: simplestrategy

Usernames: UA Teachers Are Tired™ Eraserhead/Aizawa: grumpy scarf cat, Present Mic/Yamada: screeching cockatiel, Midnight/Nemuri: chaotic goth gay Ingenium/Iida: gotta go fast, AllMight/Toshinori: actual sunshine, Vlad King/Kan: bloody hell, Power Loader/Majima: speechtotext, Ectoplasm: needalegup?, Snipe: kazoo cowboy, Cementoss: concrete block, Blackmist/Kurogiri: goth portals

The Rise Of The Emos-Chapter 2

9:32 AM

We Are Number One™

cena: so, Kirishima mentioned that there's an emo chat? is this true?

9.8: only one way to tell

9.8: when i was

9.8 a young boy

WHAT?: MY FATHER TOOK ME INTO THE CITY

exhausted: TO SEE A MARCHING BAND

WHERE?: HE SAID SON WHEN YOU GROW UP

SmolMight: WOULD YOU BE THE SAVIOUR OF THE BROKEN

EdgarAllanCrows: THE BEATEN AND THE DAMNED

HopeSummers: HE SAID WILL YOU DEFEAT THEM

deadinside: YOUR DEMONS AND ALL THE NON-BELIEVERS

idontfeelsogood: THE PLANS THAT THEY HAVE MADE

donthugmeimscared: BECAUSE ONE DAY I'LL LEAVE YOU

Jack Skellington: A PHANTOM TO LEAD YOU IN THE SUMMER

chaoticgaydisaster: TO JOIN THE BLACK PARADE

Pichu: WHEN I WAS A YOUNG BOY

itsmeyaboy: MY FATHER TOOK ME INTO THE CITY

spookyscaryskeletons: TO SEE A MARCHING BAND

lostmymarbles: HE SAID SON WHEN YOU GROW UP

stardust: WOULD YOU BE THE SAVIOUR OF THE BROKEN

stopwatch: THE BEATEN AND THE DAMNED

immafiringmahlaser: SOMETIMES I GET THE FEELING SHE'S WATCHING OVER ME

Cthulhu: AND OTHER TIMES I FEEL LIKE I SHOULD GO

spookyscaryskeletons: AND THROUGH IT ALL THE RISE AND FALL THE BODIES IN THE STREETS

WHAT?: AND WHEN YOU'RE GONE WE WANT YOU ALL TO KNOW

illrememberyouallintherapy: WE'LL CARRY ON, WE'LL CARRY ON

WHERE?: AND THOUGH YOU'RE DEAD AND GONE BELIEVE ME

WHAT?: YOUR MEMORY WILL CARRY ON

SmolMight: WE'LL CARRY ON AND IN MY HEART I CAN'T CONTAIN IT

HopeSummers: THE ANTHEM WON'T EXPLAIN IT

deadinside: A WORLD THAT SENDS YOU REELING FROM DECIMATED DREAMS YOUR MISERY AND HATE WILL KILL US ALL

itsmeyaboy: SO PAINT IT BLACK AND TAKE IT BACK LET'S SHOUT IT LOUD AND CLEAR

chaoticgaydisaster: DEFIANT TO THE END WE HEAR THE CALL TO CARRY ON

exhausted: WE'LL CARRY OOOON

illrememberyouallintherapy: AND THOUGH YOU'RE DEAD AND GONE BELIEVE ME

SmolMight: YOUR MEMORY WILL CARRY ON WE'LL CARRY ON

EdgarAllenCrows: AND THOUGH YOU'RE BROKEN AND DEFEATED YOUR WEARY WIDOW MARCHES

idontfeelsogood: ON AND ON, WE CARRY THROUGH THE FEARS DISSAPOINTED FACES OF YOUR PEERS

Pichu: TAKE A LOOK AT ME ‘CAUSE I COULD NOT CARE AT ALL

iLiEdImDyInGiNsIdE: DO OR DIE YOU’LL NEVER MAKE ME

deadinside: BECAUSE THE WORLD WILL NEVER TAKE MY HEART

stardust: YOU CAN TRY YOU’LL NEVER BREAK ME

stopwatch: WE WANT IT ALL WE WANT TO PLAY THIS PART

illrememberyouallintherapy: WON’T EXPLAIN OR SAY I’M SORRY

WHERE?: I’M UNASHAMED I’M GONNA SHOW MY SCARS

chaoticgaydisaster: GIVE A CHEER FOR ALL THE BROKEN

Cthulhu: LISTEN HERE BECAUSE IT’S WHO WE ARE

lostmymarbles: I’M JUST A MAN I’M NOT A HERO

immafiringmahlaser: JUST A BOY WHO HAD TO SING THIS SONG

spookyscaryskeletons: I’M JUST A MAN I’M NOT A HERO

itsmeyaboy: I DON’T CARE

SmolMight: WE’LL CARRY ON WE’LL CARRY ON

WHAT?: AND THOUGH YOUR DEAD AND GONE, BELIEVE ME

itsmeyaboy: YOUR MEMORY WILL CARRY ON WE’LL CARRY ON

Jack Skellington: AND THOUGH YOU’RE BROKEN AND DEFEATED YOUR WEARY WIDOW MARCHES ON

EdgarAllenCrows: DO OR DIE YOU’LL NEVER MAKE ME

idontfeelsogood: BECAUSE THE WORLD WILL NEVER TAKE MY HEART

donthugmeimscared: YOU CAN TRY YOU’LL NEVER BREAK ME

HopeSummers: WE WANNA KNOW WE WANT TO PLAY THIS PART

lostmymarble: DO OR DIE YOU’LL NEVER MAKE ME

Pichu: CARRY ON

iLiEdImDyInGiNsIdE: BECAUSE THE WORLD WILL NEVER TAKE MY HEART

SmolMight: YOU CAN TRY YOU’LL NEVER BREAK ME

Dazawa: WE WANT IT ALL WE WANT TO PLAY THIS PART

exhausted: CARRY ON

tailfloof: wow

baby shark: told you so

TheGreatCreator: even Aizawa-Sensei joined

Spider-Man: ...

Galvan: are we gonna ignore Aoyama joined too

Akimichi: And Honenuki.

immafiringmahlaser: Uncovered like this...

spookyscaryskeletons: I just really like their songs.

immafiringmahlaser: I guess my closet emo has been discovered. Whoops.

Emergency Exit: Are you guys okay? I hear crying from Kaminari.

WHAT?: ...

WHERE?: i'm adding them to the emo chat

9:54 AM

Emos Anonymous

twentyoneplotpoints has added Honenuki, Shinōkanri, Sako, Awase, Hari, Aoyama, Shoji, Aizawa to Emos Anonymous

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Aizawa's name to hollywoodlivingdead

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Shouji's name to fryingpan

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Hari's name to inhalecarolina

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Aoyama's name to phantomtown

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Honenuki's name visualizedragon

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Sako's name to halfminutetomars

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Awase's name to distressparade

twentyoneplotpoints has changed Shinōkanri's name to simplestrategy

twentyoneplotpoints: i believe, we already know they'll serve here just fine

twentyoneplotpoints: not onto business, why is Kaminari crying.

blackcloakedbrides: I miss that band.

falldownboy: cuddle pile in Kami's room after school.

hollywoodlivingdead: i'm turning on their songs for the remainder of class. 1b is welcome to join during free time.

immobileinwhite: Woe is our poor pure Pichu. Come hither, Denki.

entiretimelow: Denki

falldownboy: for the 1b kids not here to witness.

falldownboy: [video of Kaminari sitting on Bakugou's lap with Hotaru sitting guard on his desk, slightly obstructing view. "Deku, I will break that phone."-Bakugou "No violence during cuddle time."-Kaminari "Fine."-Bakugou; the camera begins shaking because Midoriya's laughing and the video cuts off while Midoriya starts laughing]

halfminutetomars: Ah yes, the burden of darkness that looms over my emo heart lessens slightly with the purity of witnessing two emos supporting one another.

myscientificinfatuation: ...Someone said it before me. I don't know how to deal with this.

anxietyintheclub: y'all two need to hang out. you'd get along way too well.

10:45 AM

UA Teachers Are Tired™

screeching cockatiel: @grumpy scarf cat who wrote 'Avaliable Screech' on the board?

grumpy scarf cat: that would be me, darling. love you.

screeching cockatiel: I love you too but you didn't come up with that, did you?

grumpy scarf cat: it was Hito.

screeching cockatiel: I can't even be mad, I laughed when I saw it.

screeching cockatiel: Sometimes I swear he's just a smaller purpler version of you.

grumpy scarf cat: thank you.

12:30 PM

We Are Number One™

spookyscaryskeletons: Aizawa-Sensei, do you know where my dad is? He said to meet him at the teacher's break room but he isn’t opening the door when I knock.

Dadzawa: he's fine, fell asleep on the couch in here.

spookyscaryskeletons: Well, I brought him lunch.

Dadzawa: kay, opening the door.

WHAT?: Wait, so two of our hero course students are the kids of two of our teachers?

WHERE?: Honestly, I expected Aizawa and Shinsou but not Ectoplasm and Honenuki.

SmolMight: How didn't you expect that?

WHERE?: I just never really thought about it. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

WHAT?: How many other students have family members that are teachers here at UA?

itsmeyaboy: ...Shirokumo Kurogiri is my dad but my mom never told him about me because he has a wife and kids now so I’m keeping it that way.

lostmymarbles: Not a teacher anymore but my mother was Miss Marble and my father was a villain named Paralysis.

SmolMight: Miss Marble? As in the one who could control marbles as her weaponry? And Paralysis with the immobile touch quirk?

lostmymarbles: The ones and only.

cena: Didn’t her boyfriend kill her because she cheated on him?

lostmymarbles: He killed her because she had me.

Mineta: ha ur moms a hoe lol i knew a reject like you had to have a funny family story

chaoticgaydisaster: @Mineta you wanna fucking GO? Come and fucking fight me you fucking flavor-fucker piss-baby ripoff grape soda wannabe!?

WHERE?: I'm not stopping Touya, I suggest someone else take action. I'll be with my brother-in-law who is hAVING A MELTDOWN

Dadzawa: @chaoticgaydisaster don't fight him, I'll deal with this. Mineta, you've earned yourself a month of detention and garbage duty and you'll be apologizing to Sako.

Mineta: FINE

3:24 PM

We Are Number One™

mystique: Guys, look.

mystique: [pic of Honenuki asleep on his desk]

Dadzawa: that's cute but he shouldn't be asleep in class

mystique: says the teacher texting back during class

Dadzawa: touche

4:20 PM

UA Teachers Are Tired™

grumpy scarf cat: so, @needalegup? Honenuki's your son, huh?

needalegup: And?? Shinsou is yours

screeching cockatiel: Me too? dafaq?

4:56 PM

We Are Number One™

chaoticgaydisaster: @everyone all y'all fuckers stay outta my room, I'm cooking for my man. Don't you DARE interrupt our date night or you die.

lostmymarbles: Sweetheart, you don't need to do that.

chaoticgaydisaster: bullshit. meltdowns = extra love dammit and you will recIEVE IT ATSU

lostmymarbles: I really do love you, Tou.

chaoticgaydisaster: I love you too, now keep playing with Sora, she wants to cuddle.

TheGreatCreator: sorry for asking but I'm way too curious. Sora?

lostmymarbles: My weighted bat stuffie.

EdgarAllanCrows: Aw, bats are adorable.

EdgarAllanCrows: Also, keep up the great work, Atsuhiro.

immafiringmahlaser: You're doing great sweetie.

lostmymarbles: Thanks. That actually means a lot right now.

chaoticgaydisaster: Kay, dinner's almost ready. @EdgarAllanCrows @idontfeelsogood triple date night may now commence.

EdgarAllanCrows: it seems, Kai isn't feeling well and Tenko and Hari refuse to leave his side.

lostmymarbles: Oh dear, is he having a flare up again?

Emergency Exit: I'm afraid so, sadly.

9.8: What's a flare up?

idontfeelsogood: An anaphylactic flare up. He went into shock this time. Recovery Girl wants him to stay overnight because he's still not breathing right.

HopeSummers: How about we bring date night to them?

chaoticgaydisaster: ...it could work.

EdgarAllanCrows: Let's do it.

immafiringmahlaser: What a wonderful suggestion, dear.

HopeSummers: I just don't want them to feel excluded or anything.

5:07 PM

UA Teachers Are Tired™

bloody hell: btw @grumpy scarf cat I saw one of my students wearing an engagement ring today. wtf's happening?

grumpy scarf cat: ah, you mean Sako. yeah, he and Yukimura got engaged the other night.

bloody hell: really? how do you know?

grumpy scarf cat: because I’m in the kids’ group chat with both hero classes.

chaotic goth gay: How am I being surpassed in life by a teenager?

chaotic goth gay: AMERICA EGGSPLAIN!!!

grumpy scarf cat: quit your lying, you're dating Emi.

chaotic goth gay: And you're married to a human toucan and a human cloud! I wanna be married too!

grumpy scarf cat: y'all are engaged. just wait four months, y'all have your wedding.

chaotic goth gay: Unfair.

bloody hell: Hate to interrupt the gay, but some of our hero course students just took a pot, and several bowls with them out of the dorms and are headed toward the school. Should I be worried/concerned or should I just let it happen?

grumpy scarf cat: they asked to stay overnight in the Infirmary with Shimura, Kurono, and Chisaki.

kazoo cowboy: I'm still sorry about that, guys. I didn't know he was allergic to dairy.

goth portals: It's alright. Not many people know outside his friend group and me.

kazoo cowboy: I'm still sorry. I feel horrible and Shimura was pissed.

needalegup?: It's fine. He'll be fine.

kazoo cowboy: Okay. I’m just glad Recovery Girl knew what to do.

8:35 PM

We Are Number One™

WHERE?: So anyway, we already know Midoriya is AllMight's secret lovechild, Honenuki is Ectoplasm’s son, and Shinsou really is Aizawa's son.

WHERE?: But is Tokoyami Hawks' secret brother?

EdgarAllanCrows: God, I hope not

WHAT?: What is that supposed to mean?

EdgarAllanCrows: It means my parents adopted me and I have yet to get in contact with my birth parents and now I'm hoping to any god that will listen that Hawks is not my sibling, I can’t deal with that much sunshine in my life.

EdgarAllanCrows: I can hear Midoriya cackling from his room and it's very offputting.

idontfeelsogood: The whole building can hear it.

WHERE?: Also, what if Kirishima and Tetsutetsu are brothers?

baby shark: we are, dad got him and mom got me and both remarried.

WHERE?: Is Shiozaki Kamui Woods' daughter?

WHERE?: Is Jiro Present Mic's lovechild?

baby shark: go to sleep. this isn't good for you.

WHERE?: Crimson Riot is Kirishima's dad

baby shark: no he's not. sleep or I'll come up there and make you sleep.

WHERE?: fine

4:30 AM

We Are Number One™

exhausted: I’m so tiiiiiiired

WHAT?: Go to sleep then, you heathen.

7:30 AM

We Are Number One™

exhausted: angiejgbnlfdkvnlakfngao

Pichu: That’s an exhausted keyboard smash if I’ve ever seen one.

baby shark: That's cute.

WHAT?: I'll go help him wake up.

baby shark: Tell him I said hey!

Pichu: make sure you bribe him with cats or he won't get up.

WHAT?: I’m making curry bread, takoyaki, and matcha tea for breakfast when I get back if anyone wants any.

Jack Skellington: I'm suddenly awake.

princessbubblegumknockoff: Food!

SmolMight: @everyone get up and get food.

7:45 AM

We Are Number One™

WHAT?: He's up. I'm bringing him for food in our dorms.

Pichu: How many cats did you promise him? That was way too quick.

WHAT?: Dude, none. I said coffee.

baby shark: Ah, the forbidden word.

WHAT?: Yeah, still trying to get him to leave his coffee pot.

WHERE?: Good luck.

SmolMight: Do you need reinforcements?

WHAT?: No, it's good. I've got him. He's coming.

Pichu: How!!!???

WHAT?: Easy.

WHAT?: I told him to bring his coffee pot.

WHAT?: [pic of Shinsou clutching his full pot of coffee protectively while he looks dead on at the camera with a dead ass tired expression]

tailfloof: Wait, he drinks a whole pot of coffee in the morning?

SmolMight: Yup. He's a zombie without it.

tailfloof: That's...

cena: I believe the word you're looking for is scary.

tailfloof: Horrifying.

cena: That too.

8:00 AM

We Are Number One™

Jack Skellington: Did I just see Hagakure in a bodysuit? And hair dye?

cena: maybe

Galvan: Why is there dye in your hair? Isn't that defeating the purpose of being invisible?

cena: It's temporary. I can wash it out.

princessbubblegumknockoff: Oh cool.

TheGreatCreator: So now we can see you! What a great idea, Toru!

cena: aw, thanks.

5:00 PM

We Are Number One™

Cthulhu: Why are there children in the dorms?

Emergency Exit: Because we go to UA and they have set forth a dorm policy.

Cthulhu: No, like...tiny children.

Cthulhu: [video of two kids running up and down the fourth floor boys hallway, one with dark pink and light pink hair]

WHERE?: My sister, Fuyumi, is out of town at the moment with her girlfriend and brought her children over to me to watch because my brother is on an abroad trip to Korea with his boyfriend.

WHERE?: Their names are Hotaru and Yuki, they’re turning 10 in a few days. They’ll be gone by tomorrow morning, don’t worry.

Cthulhu: Ah, thank you, local cryptid.

WHERE?: No problem, pleb.

Cthulhu: I’ve never felt so honored to be insulted. This is weird.

WHERE?: Good, learn to fear the unknowns, Shoji, you need to with that one boyfriend of yours.

Cthulhu: I fear for the safety of my future children now, thanks.

WHERE?: No problem.

Taglist:  @logan-sanders-enthusiast @luckyicekitsune @whippedbel @lgbtforeverything @pinecone-chomper @mikmacmoo @wasinotwantedatthisexactsecond @purplespiderstormcloud @stankyratman @king-of-the-oranges @headcannons-and-random-things @fear-ze-queer @turtleluv799 @ymmm-someone

[delphi-p0ssum]

The Running List of Rocket’s Writing Woes

AKA I’m gonna blab about all my writing projects for a bit.

THE FANFICS

QUEENS: This one’s obvious, you’re probably reading it. EAH rewrite with a darker tone and the gayness we deserved all along.

UNTITLED MH FIC: The companion piece to Queens, will take place concurrently. I’m in the workshopping stage with it right now.

UNTITLED TOY STORY AU: An idea I’ve been brewing for a while, fusing the first 3 movies with the Buzz Lightyear cartoon’s canon. Bit edgy.

UNTITLED MCR KILLJOYS FIC: Is this just an excuse to write Party Poison and Fun Ghoul making out? Yes. Yes it is. Will I also turn other emo/alternative musicians into killjoys? Yes. Yes I will.

THE ORIGINAL FICTIONS

Pansexual Vampires go on a cross country roadtrip to stop an ancient war and maybe save the world from one of their own’s personal fuckup.

A Polycule consisting of two demons, Death herself, and the last living human fight God, turns out God was really into vore. Feat. The Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse, interdimensional travel, and brutally beating up your ex when he tries to exploit your mental health to get full custody of your kid.

Lesbian Magical Girl used as an allegory for America’s treatment of Indigenous populations, also she kills capitalism with her GF.

The Blue Goddess character from an Isekai gets Isekai’d by herself, has to save the multiverse from her old boss with her harem of girls she’s saved from the worlds God abandoned.

THE COLLAB I WRITE WITH MY HUSBAND

Normophobia

Growing up sucks. Growing up being trained to become a professional Monster Hunter sucks worse.

“I love the 90′s, but Ready Player One makes me cringe.” If you’ve ever said that, then this might be just for you. Capturing the feeling of early-mid 90′s nostalgia without just being “They said a thing I know!” the whole way down. 

Horror, Action, a little bit of comedy, and a long, long plan to keep going.

[jougogo]

relevent tags

NEW TAG SYSTEM WHOOP WHOOP MAKE SOME NOISEEEE (can u tell im v proud of these bahaha)

#champagne bubbles☼ : my interactions

#cowboy hats☼ : my sh!tposts

#golden seal of approval☼ : my fic recs

#freshwater pearls☼ : my reblogs

#california poppies☼ : tag games

#______ bby!! : my mutuals and friends!

#angel energy☼ : my anons!

#queuepid☼ : my queue

#moon cycle meditations☼ : when i’m emo, ranting, oversharing, and broadcasting my life's woes to all of tumblr bc i feel like it (...usually on my period)

[bandomwritersnetwork]

The Bandom Writers’ Network returns!

We’re coming back! It’s gonna be great! Some of you might remember us, though it’s been a while. If you have no idea who we are, I’m just gonna copy/paste the frick out of the original welcome post from when the blog for started:

“You:

are a person in bandom

are a writer (fic, novels, poetry, not!fics, ficlets, WHATEVER)

have approximately a thousand works in progress (an estimation)

are in need of motivation or encouragement

are looking for headcanon buddies and fellow writers

“We:

are a network for people in bandom who write

run a blog for writing sprints, prompts, and memes

run an optional chat for personal discussions with a heavy slant on writing woes and successes

have a net tag for fic announcements & updates or bits of writing

“Sound like a perfect match? We’d love to have you!”

Don’t feel put out by the My Chem header, we’re here for anyone in bandom from Emo Trinity to obscure new British pop punk to ... horror rock? Whatever you’re writing for, you’re welcome to follow and join in on the sprints. 

Original followers might remember that there was an application process and a kik for members. I’m still working out the finer points of that, details coming soon. 

If you’re interested, give us a follow, give #bandomwritersnetwork a follow and expect some activity (especially sprints) soon! 

[wordssometimesfail]

Okay but I legit don’t get how the movie was Kylo-stan fic. 

Like the whole point of that storyline was to show that while yes, there was conflict in him, and yes, at one point he was just a confused child, he’s since passed the point of no return. Humanizing Kylo Ren didn’t come at the expense of portraying him as a power hungry piece of shit. He still emotionally manipulated and negged the fuck out of Rey, he still fired on his mom, (thanks to @icantbearsedtothinkofone, @the-angriest-angel, and @and-classics for pointing out that he didn’t fire at Leia, I misremembered the scene!) he still maintained his “woe is me poor victim” stance, and at the end of the day he still chose the First Order. 

And Rey saw through that. 

Yes, she wanted to save him. She thought she could do what Luke did with Vader, but oh my god, the whole point was that she failed because Kylo refuses to accept that he did anything wrong. And when she realizes that, she closes the fucking door on him. Because it’s not her responsibility to save someone who doesn’t want to be saved, to forgive someone who doesn’t think they need to be forgiven. It’s not her responsibility to be the bigger person when the man wants to destroy everything she loves. It seemed fairly clear to me that the movie was trying to make a point about how while compassion can be powerful, not everyone is going to be receptive to it, and you have to get out of toxic relationships like that before they destroy you. 

Because by the end of TLJ, Kylo Ren was still a horrible emo fascist who thinks loving his family was a weakness. He’s just a little more human now, and I don’t think that’s a bad thing.