#the way real people are handled

[collectorcookie]

fandom/game vent

tw: csa

Uuugghgggh. Idk why but nothing feels right lately.

On one hand, the enstars fixation died down A LOT. Great for my bank account tbh, i don't wanna spend another cent on gacha games. My brain is free🎉🎉🎉

And rather than feeling this pressure of "omg i must grind new events and get new cards" or "omg there are so many event stories i missed out on" or "i must grind every single new song on all difficulty levels for dia" i just. Don't do that anymore lol. I actually just play the songs whenever i actually feel like playing any and i read only the stories that actually interest me. Which definitely aren't a lot tbh. (still waiting on that knights climax tl) but yeah i'm basically reading 0 stuff from engstars.

So if you wanna break free from a gacha game sucking your soul, I think the reason why the enstars fixation died down so much for me is a combination of

burning myself out trying to get cards

getting bluetooth headphones (which basically make it impossible to play the game with headphones)

turning the BP game notification off

Engstars TLs getting worse than fan TLs

Obviously i still have basic but since i can't read japanese, i can't stress myself over reading new stories because i can't read anything at all. Yaaaay. I have evolved into a casual player.

Now. On the other hand. The new fixation. My beloved wizards. Mahoyaku.

I'm gonna be so honest, i kinda hate it here.

Don't get me wrong, i love the game, i love the story, i love the characters. But the fans. The fans man.

Like with enstars fandom, i started out with tumblr, and sure, i had to occasionally block some people and filter out some stuff, but that was it. That was enough for me to be able to chill and actually be comfortable in the enstars fandom space on tumblr.

Now, there are basically no mhyk fans on tumblr. Ok fine. Guess i'll go on twitter instead. So i made a twt account.

I truly cannot explain to you how much i should not have done that.

Like, ok, LOTS MORE fanart which is great. Fantastic. Lovely. However, a lot of proshippers. Many many proshippers. Like i do not have that much experience in fandom spaces in the first place but i swear the amount of proshippers is disproportionately large in mhyk fandom, on twt at least.

Ok another warning for talk about csa if you somehow didn't catch the one above

I think it's obvious from my blog here alone how much i like northfam, especially Snow and White. To be so honest, Snow and White were the biggest hesitation for me to NOT get into mhyk because we all know the "child looking character is actually over 2000 y.o." is NEVER handled well in fiction. Well, i ended up reading mhyk anyways, and to my relief, s&w's child forms do not get sexualized ever. Thank god.

But like mentioned before, this is not the case for the fandom. Not only do i always end up finding people shipping s&w together, but also many other of my faves, like oz and arthur (foster father and son) or mitile and figaro (student and teacher). Which i do not want to see ever, and the thing with twt is, you can't tag and filter stuff like on here. And even after being on twt for...idk how many months, i STILL end up seeing stuff i would like to stay 4869761093 lightyears away from.

I've been trying to do everything, from blocking to muting words to clicking the three dots on each individual post i don't want to see for the "please don't show me stuff like this". AND IT STILL HAPPENS.

Idk man...as a csa survivor myself it feels so hopeless...like is it really worth it here if i'll just keep finding stuff that triggers me? Is it worth meeting new people and constantly being on edge if this new fan thinks being proship is ok?

I really did like making fanart for fandom purposes, it made me draw a lot more, but between my dying interest in enstars and mhyk fandom thinking the stuff that has and will put me in therapy for decades is hot. I don't feel like interacting with fandom that much anymore ngl....and that makes me genuinely sad. Idk maybe this is a depressive episode that will go away but i feel so tired for now....hobbies are supposed to be fun....

[bacchuschucklefuck]

space sweepers but they're delivery people and are at no point on screen through the entire movie

[gaminegay]

Genuinely i wonder how common it is to hallucinate / perceive things oddly / have a notably altered perception of things

[evie-doesnt-write]

I feel because of Jinx and Viktor’s popularity in fandom (having some of the most annoying fans in Arcane fandom) and the attention they receive in the show itself, people forget/don’t realise how bad they were done by the writers in s2

[dykedvonte]

I think it’s so ironic that the Pony Express escapes a lot if not all blame in discussion. I can’t even say I am excused from it but it’s just how hard people circle back to the characters alone without considering the environment they were made to be in.

Why would they design a ship where only two of the rooms lock? Not the bathroom? Not the sleeping quarters? We assume that all the companies in the universe are this shallow and careless to their workers but we explicitly know the Pony Express in extra vile. They are fed processed slop pack they can’t even really cook and the ration of those pack is meager at best. They hired and made people with a plethora of conflicting demeanors and beliefs work together on a mission where cohesion is important if not an outright necessity and punish them for not being happy about it. There’s no social protocols, not chain of command other than Captain’s word/choice and the only way to enforce that is with a literal firearm. They don’t allow them to celebrate freely and even took away leisure activities that would make them less stir crazy. They are only allowed a few hours of sleep despite their being no other real responsibilities or work on the ship, no matter the position or its importance. With any crew, with any level of synergy, this was a powder keg waiting for a spark.

I’m not saying characters that made mistakes didn’t make huge ones, but I think part of the horror is that at least for some (this is targeting Jimathan) those mistakes are partly made by a force of the hand. There’s a running theme of lack of choice and being forced into something and the very nature of how The Pony Express expected them to function plays a big part.

[tamashi-tai-tamashi]

what do you mean the japanese version is the only real, valid and canon version and can by definition only fit the characters better and be better than any dubbed version 😵

[sforzesco]

hello! I always like reading your thoughts on various media set in Ancient Rome and I was wondering if you had any thoughts on i claudius?

(I don’t know if you’ve talked abt the show but tumblr search is being awful rn)

thank you for reading and i hope you have a good rest of your day!

oooh I don't think I've really talked about I Claudius here

I enjoy it a lot! its pretty stripped down compared to the big epic productions set in Rome, and it's 1000% to it's favor. kind of like how artists will do limited palettes to push their boundaries, or stage productions allow you to escalate the character in ways you don't get to experience in other mediums. all of that pushes the show into a space where the spectacle of interpersonal drama really thrives and shines

also I like the aspect ratio it was filmed in! I think it adds a visual tightness that exemplifies how the character narratives interlock with each other, especially since the whole thing is like watching a cascading crash of dynastic dominoes.

[valewritessss]

Movies, shows, and books really made it clear how society picks sides when there’s a problem.

Ginny and Georgia where BOTH of those two characters are misunderstood and traumatized but people only think Team Georgia or Team Ginny(not so many of those).

Bridgerton when Penelope and Eloise had their conflict. I thought it was common sense that they are both understandable?? But then I open up TikTok and everyone’s hating on one or the other.

Percy Jackson and the Olympians during the Rachel vs Annabeth discourse when neither of them did anything wrong.

Even the Inside Out movie where the whole point is that Sadness is needed for Joy to be felt and people are out here just hating Sadness or hating Joy. Little kid me was like did you guys watch the movie with your eyes closed or???

Amy and Jo both being two sides of the same coin but people had to make it a debate whether Amy or Jo is right? That one actually makes me so mad Amy deserves so much better than the hate she got for being a kid.

As a little kid I was so confused on why everyone picked sides for everything and now when I’m older I’m just as confused but now I understand how much people think in black and white.

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I don't have any cohesive or clever commentary, I just hate it here.

[etrosgate]

the second readthrough of world trigger is where it really kicks in

[rwby-confess]

Confession #89

[s0fter-sin]

is there any actual catharsis in the boys or is it all just suffering and scrambling for a crumb of relief

[spidersins]

𝙃𝙀𝘼𝘿𝘾𝘼𝙉𝙊𝙉

friendly reminder that my angel has not ever been fully clean since arriving in hell !! even whilst at the hotel ( i would like to point out the fact that vaggie also mentions his drug stashes in episode 5 and that they've yet to find them all, implying he is not clean by that point ) , charlie is grossly underprepared for what that would entail. at best with her support he's managed up to four days without taking anything.

note: no slander to charlie, i adore her, but i do believe her mentality would be to just 'stop taking them all so they're all out of your system all at once!'. this is the worst choice, and angel spends days in his room, having seizures, vomiting, insomnia, panic attacks, hallucinations, nausea & general irritability and anger that is directed towards charlie and the rest of the hotel along with directing it at himself for being too weak to handle this.

however, following the events of episode 4, husk steps in to try and help his new friend with sobriety, and, unlike charlie, suggests he stops one, or two at a push, helping angel choose which drugs he could manage without first easier. these were primarily the 'party drugs' like lsd, which is why when cherri offered some and angel hesitated husk was quick to comment.

with husk's support he manages to reach day 7 ( and a half, he count's that half proudly because that night was hell ) before relapsing, as it was a morning he ended up at the studio and he was offered it and couldn't stand the thought of trying to shoot with withdrawals.

all of this does not include valentino's smoke, as it is something he cannot control his consumption of, but throughout these more sober moments angel actively avoids val in order to stay as far away from his smoke as possible.

[dykedvonte]

I beg people in the MW to think very carefully when they talk about mental illness and physical disability cause it’s not as straight forward and easy to diagnose/depict as you think…

[celibibratty]

i don't care that much about this serie to be discussing, but i gonna say,........., this season 2 is a little bit weird lets be real(and will be and will end weird probably), but, but, it's not because of the themes or the things that happen, the things that add and the stories are interesting, but the way it's handled, idk, in season 1 every action had a consequence, I would say its losing it's.....humanity(yeah, that's the word, i mean i hate this fiction=reality thing, but season 1 it was very real and human the way the characters handled things)

this season 2 is being less human to me cuz characters pass by things even WORSE than season 1 and the way they handle it's like....okay, meanwhile season 1 the most little thing was enough to make characters lose themselves or reflect(just like us humans, if you see someone talking badly about you, you get sad or get angry, that gets stuck with you for a bit, if that person is your friend you question It, you remember it), it's looking like a Cartoon( cartoons that are usually like that, in cartoons characters handle things in a very vague and fast way, cuz well it's a Cartoon, first cuz it's a fiction so things are not handled in a very real way, and second cuz of the story cuz you don't have time to show that), but here's the thing, cartoons shows that in a visual way, with gestures and stuff, but i feel not even that this season 2 do much, I mean has cuz exist the subble messages/expressions, but it not totally sure by fact, you just can assume the character is acting this and that cuz of that

That just what i have to say, it's losing it humanity

[anastacialy]

i do not know how to explain to people that "transmisogyny" is the specific transphobia that trans women + transfems face (often but not exclusively at the hands of cis people), and "transandrophobia" is the specific transphobia that trans men + mascs face (often but not exclusively at the hands of cis people), and that they all come together under the umbrella of "transphobia." these are not opposing concepts nor are they mutually exclusive, to believe in one does not mean non-belief in the other. is there a simpler way of phrasing this. can i be clearer.