#the theory rn is panic attacks

[runescapegirlfriend]

i’ve been having a lot of health issues lately and it’s makin me go a lil silly

[exopelagic]

why do applications feel like your soul is being lightly roasted at 180C

[kyri45]

✨ShadowPeach Bio Parents Bio AU Q&A! 29/10✨

Welcome to the Q&A! A space where I can answer related or similar question about the Shadowpeach Bio Parents AU! If you submitted your ask anonimously, then you’ll have to check the whole post if it’s answered here, if it’s not, worry not! Your asks might have been used for a future comic or just in the queue~

@xyuki-iris ha chiesto: I LOVE YOU'RE ART ALSO GOOD FOOD But I have a what if What if Redson found Mk having a panic attack over something serious about him being Trans.

Ouch poor baby Red Son would totally support MK and try to calm him down

@ashmeertheimp ha chiesto: First of all your story is glorious and congrats on getting lmk at the very top. Second does Mk want to work on his relationship with Nuwa. I think Nuwa did truly love Mk but she also loved everyone else on earth equally. Mk has forgiven Mac who actually made an effort to hurt Mk (past mistakes) while Nuwa was opposed but still didn't stop Mk from not fixing the pillar of heaven.

I always felt like after S5 his relationship with Nuwa is similar to the one Steven had with Rose after S5 of SU. So it's- complicated

@audioandart ha chiesto: mayhaps a silly question, but towards the very start of the mk shadow peach stuff when mk first shadows into the wall. He says "why is everything *more* flat". Is this implying he already sees the world as 2d the way we do or am I perhaps missing something? 😅 (I love your work! Have a good day 🫰)

ahah yeah I was!!

@fake-anjel ha chiesto: Your comic makes me stay awake at night thinking of the next cap, making theories and making imaginary scenarios and imaginary gacha reactions to them for some reason. I was wondering... If Wukong and Macaque have a child (hypothetically, and by the biological way) wich one would be the oven for the bun? You have a fan from Brazil<3

Well, I would say Wukong, but here comes the question: a Stone Monkey, born from a stone, would be able to reproduce themself? There are no other like the four celestial primates and MK, so I would assume that they weren't able to- reproduce normally. Also if they would does it mean the womb is a stone as well???

@sollythesalt ha chiesto: Just asking if Wukong is trans do his female organs also count as part of his un-glamored form or does he stay with his male ones when he drops his glamour? Also what does his glamour include in your au just out of curiosity?

No under the glamour and shapeshift he still has female organs

@dandy-doodles ha chiesto: I'm VICIOUSLY consuming your comic rn - It actually came across my feed from a reblog. Never watched the show before. Loved the comic so much I binged the entire series and now I'm sat with the task of reading JTTW. This hyperfixation is your fault I love you for it. @ivoronical ha chiesto: Hi! I don’t know how tumblrs asks work because I’ve never used them before, but just wanted to say that your art is ✨fabulous✨ and you’re shadowpeach bio parents au has convinced me to rewatch the show entirely. It’s also made Macaque one of my favorite characters and because of that I am halfway through making a cosplay of him completely from scratch and I’m very excited to finish it:) Anyways I’ve rambled enough. Have a nice day!!! @starzz-twi ha chiesto: Can I just say how much I adore your art! It inspires so much that I might try drawing lmk again 🫶🫶🫶🫶 @artemismoorea03 ha chiesto: I hope you know that your Bio Parents AU fills every waking moment. I swear I only get on Tumblr anymore to see if you've posted something. I eat up any art you post regardless of what fandom it is and I just have to tell you that your art tastes like a blue raspberry icee (the best kind). I hope you're having a fantastic day ♡

AWWW TYSM TO ALL OF YOU!!!!

@sakuralotus03 ha chiesto: What will family gatherings be like now that MK has 4 parents? Like his birthday or end-of-year celebrations. I want to see more of the dynamics of the 4 parents interacting and talking about their one and only child.🐷🤓☀️🌙

oH CHAOTIC INDEED

Anonimo ha chiesto: How does it feel to be one of those artists that like 70% of the fandom knows about

wait is that a random number or???

Anonimo ha chiesto: Will we maybe see Macaque interact with Bai He or Mei?? (I'm starved of DarkHorse/EnderDragon/NightFlare Duo and Raspberry/Black Cat Duo) But I am interested if you might make them interact! :D Anyways, I love how your art got better by each comic, you can see the improvement from the slight sharpness of the shapes in the first comics and the now softer lines.

mmmmm I will maybe I'll do some small scenes

Anonimo ha chiesto: Past Wukong working out: I'ma get so strong. Ain't no one beating me Present Wukong working out: I'ma be so good at hugging my son and husband.

AWWWWWW WHAT A GOOD BABA!

Anonimo ha chiesto: Hello! I wanted to ask if we'll see just how sensitive Macaque's hearing is in your Au in a future comic maybe? Like... a thunderstorm happens or something when he's around FFM watching Mk and Wukong train or something that affects his hearing badly? But either way, love your art and style! :)

mmmm don't know if I have a scene planned for that...

Anonimo ha chiesto: Does Wukong and Macaque know about the other 2 Celstial Primates, Red-Hoarse Baboon and Lomg-Armed Gibbon, in your Bio Shadowpeach parents au?

I think so? In JTTW he knew so I would assume the same?

Anonimo ha chiesto: Will Macaque use his future vision at any time again in this comic? We now know in this Au he hasn't used it in years. But maybe will he use it again soon? I bet he won't but I still wanted to ask :)

not unless he is forced to

Anonimo ha chiesto: I’ve been listening to a song from a Pokémon movie: Always Safe by Cynthia, and I think of the Shadowpeach bioparents Au everytime

AWW that's beautiful the lyrics omg!!!

@notjustonefandom1 ha chiesto: So, I've been thinking about MK's staff. After he got it do you think he develops a habit of clasping his hands together, especiallywhen stressed or threatened? With the fluidity and energy he moves with, I think it would take a while for him yo find a chance to Summon the staff, especially if he isn't fast at it yet, so he just starts keeping his hands pressed together in preparation.

ooooohhh that's a cool idea!

Anonimo ha chiesto: Where does the Macaque has white fur head canon come from? I'm new to this fandom and I'm still learning things and I see it everywhere

I honestly have no idea but I guess either because Japanese Macaque are white furred or bc he died.

Anonimo ha chiesto: Ok so this may be a sensitive topic and definitely doesn't need to be answered so TW Did mk ever go through a depression thing after trying to die to save the universe in the last season in your au? A in like what if Wukong and Mac find out he used to SH?

hish. I'm not probably the right person to answer this. Probably he did had depression tendencies but didn't recognize them until someone pointed them out.

Anonimo ha chiesto: This ask os Going to be a little weird But Can I See Macaque Pining Wukong on the wall?In a Flirty way?(pretty Please?) I love Your Art so much!👑❤️‍🔥💎

Ouh.. *cleans forehead from sweat* is getting hot in here... maybe?

@autism-autobot ha chiesto: Wukong: OH BUDDHA, HE CALLED ME BABA!!!!! (SCREAMS WITH JOY) What DBK heard over the phone with his brother: OH andhdbrjjsm (feral monkey screeching)

Poor DBK gotta deal with the gossip now

@alastair-1205 ha chiesto: OMG THE MOST RECENT PART IM CRYING But I also love how Mac's first instinct is just grabbing Wukong and being like: "get out of hearing range before we freak out, get out of hearing range before we freak out, get out of-" you know? It's very funny but also builds on past comics since they woke MK up last time smth like this happened and I'm just !!!!!

GOTTA MAKE THE BABY SLEEP

@eerieqloss ha chiesto: OSISJJWJSJSJWWN OKAY WAIT SO IS MK GONNA START CALLING THEM MAMA AND BABA INSTEAD OF THEIR NAMES CONTINUALLY OR WAS IT JUST THAT ONE TIME

It wont be a one time!

Anonimo ha chiesto: I hope you are resting as you should Always remember to take your time, rest first, then work, ofc as far as possible 😅. I have a fun question (if you have the time ofc 👉🏻👈🏻): will we see Feral MK again? But you know, like another kind of "demonic learning" that maybe wukong or Mac will teach him to control or see that it's not bad as it looks

For now i want my baby to either be happy or traumatized not angry.

Anonimo ha chiesto: I feel like i remember you asking about happier shadowpeach songs for your playlist, but I can't find the post anymore. But if you're still looking, Livingston's new song Glow reminds me of them and also made me think about the eclipse scenes in the comic.

Several of Livingston's other songs also give me shadowpeach vibes, but I think about them so much that I might just be seeing them everywhere at this point.

Oooh true a lot of his song fits really well!!

Anonimo ha chiesto: This is the only instance where having a kid really did bring a couple together.

TRUE LMAO

Anonimo ha chiesto: Soo...Wukong and Mac in the DBK Palace I have a question in my mind!!!! Actually I hope you to see it and draw it.. if you don't wanna it's okay! What if DBK & PIF flirt with each other or smt like this u know in front of shadowpeach?! They will probably look to each other and then blushing hard

HAHAHHA poor souls they would totally think of wanting to kiss each other but can't because they are emotionally constipated.

[msmk11]

Everything to Everyone

James Potter x fem!reader

WC: tbh I don’t know, I just raw-dogged this in the app

CW: ANGST, HURT-COMFORT, panic attack, r is very sad and doesn’t take care of herself

Summary: you can’t keep doing this

A/n: Don’t know what this is; might be garbage; but this is just a reflection of my brain and my desperate need for someone like to james to comfort me rn; I need to be someone’s everything 😭

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It’s all too much, trying to be everything for everyone all of the time. It consumes you- the need to help others, to serve them in any way possible. To be their shoulder to cry on. The arms to hold them. The voice cheering them on. The hands to build them castles in the sky.

Perhaps it’s founded in your insatiable hunger to be well-liked, loved even.

Maybe it’s rooted in your fear that everyone will leave you, and that maybe maybe, if you try hard enough, they won’t.

Regardless of its cause, your involuntary obligation to others has pushed you to the edge, leaving you broken and exhausted. You want to cry out for help, for someone to notice, but they don’t. It’s not their fault. You know it isn’t. They can’t read your mind for goodness sake. But still, you wish they’d notice. To stop and think about you for a moment.

Today is no different, your list of promises to others longer than the one to yourself. Although it’s a Saturday, your day is jam packed with plans. First, you’ve promised Peter that you’ll make a quick trip with him to Hogsmeade this morning to pick up fire whiskey for the party tonight. After that you’re due for tea with Mary at Madame Pudifoots before you have to rush back to Hogwarts to meet Remus and Lily for a study session in the library. And fuck- at some point you’ll have to stitch up a hole in Marlene’s jersey and braid Sirius’ hair for the game. And the game. You’ve promised James, your lovely boyfriend and captain of the Gryffindor quidditch team, that you’ll be there. He needs his “lucky charm.”

You’re down in the common room at 10 on the nose, sleep still heavy on your eyes despite the time. Peter ambles down the stairs a few minutes later, his big jacket wrapped tightly around him.

The cold air outside is bitter on your nose and burns your cheeks. You bundle your face further into the collar of your coat and wish you would’ve worn a scarf. As you walk, Peter yaps on to you about the girl from his Divination class that he has a crush on. You’re enthusiastic that he has a crush, and that he feels comfortable enough to share it with you, but your heart hangs heavy in your chest regardless. You can’t quite muster up the genuine smile you usually give to everyone, and instead settle for a dim but encouraging one.

After you triple check that Peter can carry all of the fire whiskey back to the castle, you trudge across the way to Madame Pudifoots. Mary is already nestled into a corner when you arrive and she waves brightly at you. While the warmth of the shop and your friend is welcome, the thick perfume in the air and the sweet array of biscuits and cookies makes your head ache and stomach churn. Much like Peter, the brunette does most of the talking, catching you up on gossip around the castle. You give a lot of dramatic gasps, wide eyes, and giggles, but they’re as fake as the flowers on the table before you.

By the time you arrive to the library with what feels like a whole ton of books slung over your shoulder, you think you could drop dead from exhaustion. You find Lily and Remus in a heated discussion about some charms theory and wonder if they’d even notice if you slipped out. Of course, Lily catches your eye in the next second and waves you over. She quickly brings you into the debate, and you give the redhead your two cents. Your opinion, it seems, sets off a whole other conversation. Luckily, this time, you can just tune them out, instead focusing on the words of the book before you. Although now that you’re looking at it, all of the words seem to be swimming together in a blurry mess. And, is that a wet spot on the page? Are you crying? You reach up and, sure enough, another hot tear trails down your face. Panicked, you bend down under the guise of tying your shoe and wipe them away quickly. Remus and Lily can’t see you crack. They can’t.

You know that it’s all really getting to you when Sirius lets out more than one yelp as you do his hair. He complains that you’re going to pull it all out, and perhaps he isn’t wrong. You loosen your grip slightly but wince when you brush over one of the fresh cuts on your hands from sewing up Marlene’s jersey. The bandaid covers the cut, but doesn’t dull the slight throbbing pain in your palm. The pain and Sirius’ whining makes you want to yell at him and tell him to do it himself. But you don’t, and instead stay quiet. When his hair is finished, you peck his forehead in apology and boost his vanity.

“Oi, Black! Trying to steal my girl, are you?”

You nearly start bawling on the spot at the sound of your boyfriend’s voice. Relief and calm wash over you as you feel his strong arms wrap around you. Instinctively, you lean back into his chest and sigh, closing your eyes.

You’re certain that Sirius and James are bantering back and forth some more but you tune them out in favor of enjoying the vibrations of your boyfriend’s voice through his chest. It’s pleasant enough that you think you could fall asleep.

You’re only startled out of your stupor when James’ soft lips press gentle kisses to each of your eyelids. Your eyes flutter open and you smile at him softly.

“Hi angel,” he greets, pecking your lips.

You return the kiss eagerly and James chuckles.

“Ready for the game tonight?”

You’d forgotten about the game momentarily, but now it comes rushing back. The thought of having to do anything else besides just lay in your boyfriend’s arms makes you want to cry. You swallow the lump in your throat, “of course, Jamie. And I’ll have your jersey on like usual.”

He gives you another quick peck, “my lucky charm.”

And then he’s moving away from you, far too fast for your taste, and you nearly whine. He collects his water and broom and turns back to you with a grin.

“See you at the game, love.”

You only whisper out a goodbye before he’s gone.

The game has been going on for far too long and you’re beginning to lose all feeling in your extremities. Like usual, James is playing great. And you’re proud of him, you really are. But you don’t want to be here anymore. You just want to lay in your bed and close off the world, rotting away in a puddle of self-induced misery.

But this fact in itself makes you feel worse than you already do. The guilt of it all- of being fake, insecure, and unsupportive- is eating you alive. Your friends deserve better. James deserves better.

It’s too much, too much, too much. And you feel like you’re suffocating.

So you’re beyond relieved when Gryffindor catches the snitch and you can leave. Though you normally stay to congratulate James, you don’t have it in you to do it. You figure you’ll see him later, so you rush back to the castle, trying to escape the notice of your friends.

While your bed calls to you most, living in a dorm doesn’t promise any privacy. So you go to the only place you know will- the room of requirement.

It accommodates you enough. The room has shifted into a remarkable replica of your bedroom back home. You collapse onto the bed instantly and your head barely hits the pillow before the sobs you’ve choked back all day finally escape you.

It’s like a dam breaking loose, a flood of emotions overcoming you. Sadness smashes into you like waves, guilt grips your throat tightly, choking you, anger heats your face, and self-loathing broils in your stomach. You can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t, can’t.

Why, why, why, why, why?

You’re so tired of giving, giving, giving. Being everything to everyone and nothing to yourself. Your body is a storm of emotions but your heart is the eye of the hurricane- silent and hollow.

You curl in on yourself, grabbing onto your legs tightly, trying to grip any sense of reality you have left. But your body shakes and your hands slip. It does little to ground you and you’re lost in another dimension, another reality. You can’t breathe, nothing feels real, and the world feels like it’s ending.

Nothing, nothing, nothing, everything, everything, everything.

“Angel, you gotta breathe for me.”

A voice breaks through your fog but you can’t focus in on what it’s saying.

“Baby, my love, look at me. You gotta take a breath.”

Through your shaking and tears you barely make out James’ figure. And when your eyes clear a little you see his eyes. It’s the first real thing you sense again, and you grasp onto it desperately. His hazel eyes stare at you, so calmly, and you get lost in them.

“Angel can you take a deep breath?”

You try to breathe but fail, only spluttering out short, shallow breaths.

“Not quite, my love. Here, match my breathing.”

James grabs your hand and puts it on his chest. You feel him breathe in deeply and hear him blow air past his lips.

“Like this.”

Still shaking aggressively, you try to inhale. Your breath is harsh and unstable, but at least longer and deeper. You purse your lips and blow, just like James does.

“That’s my girl. You’re doing it.”

You continue to breathe in and out. Each time, your breath slowly gets better. Stronger.

“Good, good. Can you tell me what happened?”

You try to think about all that’s happened and your breathing picks back up again. Tears prick at your eyes and you shake your head.

“No, no, no. It’s okay, you’re okay. I’m sorry, we won’t talk about it.”

Your body trembles and you nod appreciatively.

“Do you want a hug?”

“Y-yeah.”

You’re too weak to move towards him, so James reaches out and draws you into his lap. You bury your face in his chest and grip onto his jersey sleeves tightly. His hands rub soothing circles on your back, soft, slow, and repetitive. He intermittently places kisses to your hair, mumbling words of praise and encouragement in between.

The world starts to come back to you.

The soft sounds of James’ breathing and the whoosh of your shirt material under his hand.

His smell, a mixture of cologne and sweat.

His hot breath on your ear as he whispers to you.

His red jersey smushed against your face.

The remnants of your salty tears on your lips.

“I- I can’t keep doing this,” you mumble out. It’s barely audible, your voice hoarse from your meltdown.

“What’d you say, angel?”

“I can’t keep doing this, Jamie.”

He pulls you away from his chest and looks deeply into your eyes, his own so filled with concern.

“You can’t keep doing what?”

“Being everything to everyone all of the time. I- I can’t. It’s too much. I give and help and say yes when I can’t. But, but I can’t do it anymore.”

“Oh, my love,” James sighs, hugging you impossibly tighter, “you don’t have to, not anymore. You don’t have to be anything to anyone besides yourself. They’ll love you regardless. I promise.”

“But what if they don’t?” You whisper, your voice thick with tears.

“I’ll love you regardless. You’re my light, my love, my life just because you’re you.”

He pauses thoughtfully.

“You don’t need to be everything to everyone when you’re already everything to me. And hopefully soon, you can be everything to yourself.”

[kurishiri]

Jude chapter 3 silly but kinda detailed summary

꒰ ִ ֺ ⊹ @ notice ⊹ ֺ ִ ꒱ any pretty translation you may see in here may not be 100% accurate or contain creative liberties due to characterization or narrative flow purposes. this is a sort of summary as well. if you enjoy, though, please consider reblogging, but please don’t repost these or claim these as your own!

kate successfully completes sortin out letters so she heads to the port where jude is talking with the foreman. its there she sort of thinks back on her time at raven co and the long and short of it is that jude, as the ceo, is actually really outstanding, and he acknowledges the efforts of those who work hard, produce results and whatnot, and rewards them in turn.

(that said he could work on his wording ,,)

time skip to night after judes done and they all walkin back tgt where kates like “i think i’ll be able to have a good dinner today” and jude scoffs at her callin her a twit. and shes all defensive like hey whats wrong with wanting to eat good food and judes like when did i say that was wrong?

all of a sudden they stop in their tracks and jude tells kate “on the count o’ three, crouch” and kates all panicked like tf is going on but jude already starts counting down so she crouches anw (in a panic!)

some guy in a suits out to kill jude. god knows who too bc apparently jude don’t know him either 💀

Jude: Who are ya? Can’t say ya look familiar.

[ insert some lines im lazy to tl ]

Jude kicked up at the man’s chin, causing the man’s body to do one smooth flip before collapsing onto the ground.

Man in a suit: Jude… Jazza——!

Jude: N’ like I was sayin’, who the hell are ya?

ok turns out jude does remember him in the end, its just another dude who broke his contract with jude and was selling up some illegal drugs and whatnot.

Jude: I told ya, didn’t I? That if ya breach your contract I’d show ya so much o’ hell you’d wish you kicked the bucket?

J: I fulfilled that promise for ya. Havin’ a grand old time in hell, aren’t’cha?

omg he pried open the wound on the mans face and he let out a cry to the night sky that could shake anyone’s soul silly.

kate then thinks or foreshadows (yk how like ikevil stories r kinda told like kate is recalling the past? like “i didn’t realize it then, but xyz” kinda like one of those moments) that what she witnessed that night was but a prologue of what’s to come bc they get attacked over and over again.

kate and jude get into another argument like “i feel im gonna die every time! im at my limit!” and judes like “well ur in the way loiterin round like that” then jude just yeets off w/o listenin to another word.

she does feel something bothering her tho

(For someone like Jude, he should be able to avoid these grudges…)

When I thought this, I came up with a theory that relieved me of this unsettling feeling.

(…Could it be he’s making himself an enemy of many on purpose?)

‘Yeah, right,’ was what I thought, but also, somewhere in my heart, I felt such a theory may also be true.

shes like there’s not enough info rn but if i do know anything its that

Kate: At this rate, if I stay with Jude any longer…a hundred lives would not be enough!

and so shes like i gotta learn self defense! so she goes knocking on a certain someone’s door like pls teach me le jutsu of self defense!

Ellis: Okay. （╹◡╹）♡

turns out ellis was also thinking of teaching her some stuff abt self defense soon.

so ellis takes kate to the lobby and kates like why the lobby and ellis goes to a bookshelf to take out a book which actually reveals vics weapon collection and takes out a gun, telling kate to try and hold it.

idk if this is a real gun or not (as in it exists irl), apparently its made of silver with a wooden grip.

ellis thinks its well suited for kate. like its lightweight yk. hes like you may need to use it jic. and then hes like

Ellis: But, it’s kind of refreshing.

E: Other than me, Jude seems pretty adverse to putting people by his side.

E: So, maybe he wants to get along with you?

kates like mmm doubt but at the same time she has this question in her mind w/o an answer of why he went and wrote a whole contract and let her stay by his side then? shes abt to cook up a theory in her head when…

just then jude comes in.

Ellis: Ah——Jude.

Jude: We got a job to do.

so they head off to some noble mansion.

Jude: How do ya do, we’ll be here a while.

Nobleman: Ah, Mister Jude?

apparently this nobleman is connected with the guy in the suit jude beat up in the beginning of the chptr. he made him spit out info.

Jude: If ya just were sellin’ somethin’ shady I’d let that off the hook. Illegal drug’s some child’s play.

J: However.

Jude raised one leg and rested it atop the long table.

Jude: I seem to recall the contract prohibitin’ the sellin’ and buyin’ of humans, or am I wrong?

ko-fi☕️ ┊ comms🤍

[typing-catastrophe]

mabel and dipper's life after getting back home (random headcanons)

mabel forces dipper into improving his hygiene because she doesn't want him to be bullied in school for it

the twins make sure they get into the same classes/courses every year because they can't bear to spend that time apart

dipper spends his time in class writing a journal of his own, but passes every class with the highest grade anyway (and ford is very proud of him)

mabel spends classes doodling and struggles sometimes, but dipper is always there to help her out with anything she doesn't understand

both dipper's writing and mabel's drawings are mainly their summer adventures at first

after that dipper indulges in findings and theories of their own

both twins develop insomnia after weirdmageddon and sneak out quite frequently

they don't necessarily do anything they are forbidden from, sometimes they just go and sit somewhere like they did on the roof of the shack

it's not long after they get back from gravity falls that their parents announce they're getting a divorce and actually spend the summertime living separately

dipper regularly turns his wall into a huge 'clue board', with the red string and all (he uses every occasion to do that, even if it's not a mystery or even necessary at all)

both fill their room with lots of trinkets; mabel starts collecting figurines, keychains and buttons (and keeps collecting stickers), dipper collects enamel pins

both acquired a set of certain skills from their time in gravity falls, that come in quite handy sometimes not to say they sneak and break into some places frequently, but... ya'know

mabel starts gambling with other students and nobody knows how and when she got so good at it. she never uses her powers for evil but she will play robin hood (the money of bullies will end up in the hands of poorer kids with no lunch money)

anytime someone mentions unicorns or how mabel used to love them, she will wrinkle her nose and refuses to talk about them

dipper will often have moments where he thinks he sees someone from gravity falls and almost calls out for them, when he realises that it is someone else. it gets particularly bad when an older ginger student starts at their school

he also sometimes thinks he hears bill and gets a little paranoid, the only one who can help him not spiralling into a panic attack on a bad day is mabel

mabel refuses to do arts and crafts with triangles fro a while, until she decides bill won't ruin her favourite activities and the spite helps her not being too paranoid about it

-------------------------------------------------- thank you for reading <3 reblogs are appreciated

a/n: i could go on for a while longer, but i think i'll stop here and put more into another post; also i need to articulate them better than i am capable rn so stay tuned if you want to see more of these as well as for other characters and gf in general :D (i already have more on the way)

[sm-baby]

My brain has been going brrr with thoughts rn about the fight, like I have pre written speeches to tell y’all but u won’t since my brain barely function, but I’m just feeling like this right now

Me, knee deep in both theories and actual coding shit to try and piece together who would realistically win:

“But that’s just a THEORY.”

*is inactive so long writing that frown has panic attack*/hj

“A GAME THEORY!”

I READ YOUR POST IT WAS SO SCRUMPTIOUS

[secriden]

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They made this short film for Halloween this year.

Both of these are made entirely on JoongDunk's own initiative. Joong was the one who came with the ideas and Dunk, as he often does, wholeheartedly supported Joong and helped bring his ideas to life. I find it very endearing that they took time out of their busy schedules to make these projects for their fans. I also find it endearing that they roped in their friends and family to help make these projects. They put in a lot of effort to do their best with tbe limited time and resources they had. I hope you enjoy watching them.

;A; oh my gosh anon, thank you!?! i'm loving discovering them so so much (the timing is slightly unfortunate as this week i have to write ~6000 words on education theory and practice + work but i called in sick today so i'm pacing myself and also comforting myself with consuming joongdunk content rn ^w^;;)

[ the joongdunk MV for Last Twilight ]

oh god this is... this is breaking my heart. the utterly adorable snippets of them just being cute in disneyland?? did this start out as an elaborate excuse to go on a date and film themselves? idk but i'm not complaining.

the constant hand feeding ugh. why is food such a universal and yet visceral love language?? how is it always effective. the cheek kisses. the head pats. the dancing and twirling. the teasing each other. its all so like... that phase of the relationship where everything the other person does is magic and you are just so happy being around them and scenes they shot captured it beautifully (and setting it in Disneyland??? the automatic shorthand that brings for 'magic' and 'fairytale' and 'dreams coming true' such a great idea.)

i had to look up the lyrics and the song is so good??? "The last image I'll remember is when we were together" is such a fire lyric like it has the double meaning of the last thing i remember of you was when we were still happy together as well as the last memory that will play in my mind before i die will be of you. which is. devastating.

but then. good god the crying scenes?? wtf??? i have re-watched dunk's breakdown as he's leaning against the pillar about 7 times now. the way you can see the sobs wrecking his frame. you can *hear* the wet gasps he's taking in through his tears. what a stunning performance.

[ Halloween short film POCONG ]

ok i'll be the first to admit that i am a Wimp (yes, with a capital W, i avoid horror and anything with horror like the plague because it tends to stay with me for ages). so i'm going to watch this but like.......... in tiny (as in the screen is going to be shrunk down because its less scary that way.) xD

ok fuck that was terrifying. i'm never seeing it again. it was impressively horrifying despite it evidently not being a professional production.

the blood was surprisingly realistic?? i feel like i've seen a lot of amateur productions (at school) and the fake blood is always really obvious. the mummy was also a very scary take on it; the way you can see how tightly the fabric is tied/woven around the humanoid figure and how thick it is, like someone suffocated in it. the sound design. *shudders* the whole panic/asthma attack and then when dunk starts breaking down/sobbing especially. fucking nightmares - i'm going to go listen to the Last Twilight OST again to cleanse my ears.

also, i almost feel like both productions were, particularly, a chance for dunk to really show his range. like joong may be producing this but its also very clearly a celebration of dunk's acting talent and i love that.

i really see what you mean about it being endearing that they'll do something like this. it definitely gives us insight into what they value as creatives and its an incredible treat that they chose to share it with the fans and also support each other in it. i wonder if joong has director/producer aspirations? it'd be interesting to see where his career takes him down the line. i was looking at MDL and was kind of shocked at how many shows he was in in 2022 alone given that was like... right after covid restrictions were easing. man took every chance he got to get back into the field and that's really impressive.

[cult-of-the-rizz]

soundtrack analysis bc the brain worms are worming rn

(disclaimer: I do not have a degree in music theory this is more just my opinion and verbally explaining the amv in my head to the class)

Kallamar first cuz i love that boneless freak

So, for all the boss fights, I imagine the whole track being like a summary of the fight as a whole.

As expected, Kallamar's track begins with high stress. Notes feel half finished, the beat is fast, we feel his panic in the initial phase of the song. Slowly, the Anchordeep choir comes in. The presence of the vocal/synth choirs in any song is evocative of holy power. I mean, Kallamar is a god.

Something specific about the Anchordeep choir that is interesting to me is how light the vocals are, as well as how the mixing imitates sliding between notes. To me, it sounds like someone who can't quite hear what they're singing and doesn't know that they're not dropping the note and instead sliding (me, I do this when singing with headphones in). It all feels so Kallamar-esque, like he's the one singing almost.

Anyway, after the choir solos for a bit, the fast beat comes back in to end the transition between initial and desperation phase. The final section of the Kallamar's theme is the most interesting to me in terms of a battle theme. In general I fell like boss themes pick up in the second phase when the fight becomes intense, but Kallamar's does the opposite. But at the same time, in game he becomes absolute hell with new combo attacks and faster strike speeds.

I think this is the Kallamar the Old Faith fears. Though his strength is multiplied by the crown, it seems that through the multitude of weapons he uses all at once in combat in addition to magic, Kallamar has always been powerful though cowardly. The stressful beat is slowed into calmer version. The squid is locked the fuck in.

Without the fast beat in this section, it actually makes it harder for players to balance the timing switch in his attack speeds. You can no long rely on the music that may time with his movements, instead you have to play attention to Kallamar's movements and combat tells. He's moving autonomously of everything around him, at his own pace which is lethal to everyone else. Kallamar makes the player relearn how to fight mid combat during his boss fight. He doesn't flurry rush like his siblings, Kallamar just becomes deadly quick.

(The only instance of this that comes to mind in terms of other boss themes is Dancer of the Boreal Valley from Dark Souls III. A boss that was intentionally created to ignore the attack pattern time signature that literally every other boss in the game follows. Her theme never has a climax and instead keeps you in perpetual suspense. The only way to survive the dancer is to watch her movements, specifically her steps as she strikes)

All of this to say, Kallamar would be absolutely insane to fight if he wasn't scared shitless of the red crown. Absolutely horrific. But Narinder bullied him growing up so we don't get to experience that (I know he's older, point still stands

[sugarywishes]

Could you go a bit more into your plans and the role of Elizabeth & Even in the future of your AU? I'm curious to learn a bit more about how their respective roles change things, as well as how it will end up playing out with Micheal & William also involved on the whole...

Of course! Answers below as usual.

So I'm trying really hard to not fully expose every detail of the Security Breach portion of this rewrite, but the gist of it is Glitchtrap/William, and the Afton kids return for a grand finale! And unfortunately Gregory, Vanessa, and GlamFred have to be in the middle of it all. (Which means HW 2, Secret of the Mimic or whatever games they'll be making in the future will likely not be added to this thing, unless I really like it but it's likely I won't lmao) (RUIN-ED is in a complicated situation in this rewrite, it's technically now an AU spinoff, that's not canon to the security breach section but is still related to it, but I'm over complicating things here, I'll explain it in other post!)

And as some of you know in this section of the rewrite/AU, Glitchtrap will use Gregory as a replacement body for Evan to inhabit to come back to Earth, and boy are they BOTH upset about this! (My Security Breach portion will include Gregory's family, the Casas, and they'll get a chance to interact with Evan a lot too, since they don't know that Gregory's kind of being possessed rn)

Speaking of the Casas, EVERYONE in that family serves as a 'mirror' to the Aftons (that does not mean they share the same personalities or anything, they're just the counterparts for story telling purposes, and I mean VERY important story telling purposes!) Julian is the 'William', Rebecca is the 'Clara', Gregory is the 'Evan', and Monica is the 'Michael'. You may notice that Elizabeth wasn't included in the line up (originally, before RUIN-ED came out, there were many theories that Cassie could be Gregory's twin sister and I was ALL for it because then I could finally have Lizzie have her own Casas counterpart, and then turns out she wasn't related to him, so I had to rewrite things unfortunately 😔) So now, VANESSA is the Elizabeth counterpart.

Going back to Evan, he HATED coming back, when he did originally wake up in Gregory's body, he had a full blown panic attack and was horrified by his surroundings, cause yk he was freaked out by Glitchtrap, an 8 foot tall gay ass bear, a white woman and a teenage girl who looked too similar to his brother whom he only remembers MURDERED HIM, that can really overwhelm someone! (Btw, Mike had been fully anticipating his father's return, but he didn't think Evan and Elizabeth would come back because he thought they moved on, they definitely did not!)

After a whole rescue operation (and losing someone during it, not a death though.) Gregory/Evan will go through a lot of trials and tribulations through family matters and trauma. Again, I'm trying not to spoil a lot about this section since it's pretty crazy, but they do become friends! They will be each other's first ever friends, actually, since Cassie won't be in this rewrite. SORRY ☹️ she will be important in the RUIN-ED AU/spinoff though! (Yk the one with the stupid ass kids/ocs)

For Elizabeth, she will end up attempting to possess Vanessa (although it was not part of William's original plan, and who knows? It could work.) I really want to say more details but I must restrain myself from doing so. She will be an antagonist along with Will, she's gonna cause some evil shit, and she'll get a redemption arc because it's what she deserves! (Yk after she learns her lesson) And there is actually a reason why she and Evan even have relationships with the MCI/KCI kids, even if Liz didn't actually meet them when she was still Baby. Let's just say, the afterlife prison for her was not cool! Thank goodness she managed to escape too.

And yeah, tons of Afton family drama is relevant in this too, it intertwines with the Casas family own trauma.

I'd really like to discuss more about what exactly will happen, believe me. But I'm saving all that for when I get to it! (And also because, I'm still working on it!)

[orphicwitt]

thank you very much, now some anguish, where as the second part of Cat Reader, where after the hour of joy, the reader became an ally of Kissy Missy and Poppy, Reader sees the Player as his son, since in the hour of joy, the 3 baby kittens were killed by CatNap and fed to Picky Piggy, (since I have a theory that CatNap killed all of the Smiling Critters and gave them to Picky Piggy where she eats the corpses)

Note; So sorry if this is so late, i was under the weather and got cooped with works rn i have time to write this! trigger warning; gore?, blood, Death of 3 children mascot, eating the mentioned children.

Grief and yearning. [pt2 of this]

Catnap was acting so strange these past few weeks, you thought. he didn't play with the kittens as often as he used to does and seem to be more distant then ever.

all the critters think he had changed too and you're not the only one that notices his strange and changing behavior.

recently, you been on edge due to the dread feeling you gotten during these days, furs raising up. you were obviously stressed but you have to kept a calm demeanor for your babies.

then came, hours of joy. You vividly remember the staff agonying scream, the smell of fresh blood spilled. You were seperated from all your fellow mascot in a fit of panic.

They... the mascot... your friend... they are not acting the same! they seem to be controlled by something or someone, you thought.

then you realise, your kittens... your precious babies is missing! more dread and panic settled in the pit of your stomach as you frantically search for your beloved babies.

the distress mewl and cries made you perked up, it was the sound of your babies being hurt or even worse...attacked, wasting no time, you rushed to the noise.

only to see a scene you oh so wanted to forget so badly the moment you lay eyes on it.

catnap was holding the 3 kittens of yours, blood on his paws, their blood on his paws. he slowly lay them down and nudge them to pickypiggy.

the pig mascot was crying, blood all smeared onto her furs and face, you could hear the sound of chewing and meat being ripped apart.

pickypiggy was muttering the same phases over and over as she ate your babies as you watch in the distant away from view to avoid being seen with widen eyes. "I-i'm so sorry... I'm so sorry... i'm just ...so so...hungry" yet despite saying that she continue to devour the helpless dead body of your once alive kittens without hesitation.

Not able to bear watching this anymore, you ran and ran far away from the area and where the massacre is happening. the critters, although you knew this is not how they act.

you couldn't trust them anymore.

so you hid away until the hours of joy is done and over, then years passed with you aimlessly wandered within the playcare where your babies has been killed.

however during that time, you met poppy and kissy missy, learned the existence of the first attempted creation. the prototype, wanting to end his reign and to atleast avenge your babies, you agreed to be an ally.

then the player came, Poppy send you out to be an temporary helper to the player, the more time you spend with them, something inside you clicked the moment you saw them nearly got killed by huggy wuggy.

You helped them to defeat huggy wuggy and mommy long legs, you sworn to protect them at all cost.

were you clinging onto them out of grief for your lost dead children? yes, you were aware. you just... had a hard time cooping after since that day and couldn't simply moved on.

you also sworn to make catnap pay the prices for your dead kittens.

He will pay

no matter what

[sonnyinthesky]

Just had the worlds worst conversation with my mother (under cut)

Tw: rape, CSA, vent

So, I mentioned my fear of sharing a room with someone right? And my mum asks me why im scared of that, and i share that its because im constantly afraid of the other person raping me in my sleep, or otherwise assaulting me sexually. And i thought this was a normal-ish fear right? Like everyone is super hyper vigilant about sexual assault right? But my mum said thats actually really concerning, and asked if anyone has ever assaulted me, to which i said no, not to my knowledge. Anyway this lead to a conversation about how im constantly terrified, how any time a man walks past i shiver and think that this might be it, that he might grab me and rape me, how i cant go out early in the morning or late at night because im scared something will happen, how i cant get close to people physically because they might touch me inappropriately, and how i dont have sleepovers at friends houses because im scared. And my mother asked me questions about it, and she got really worried, and i said "but its fine, if someone raped me as a kid i would remember it", and I thought shed agree but instead she brought up how she was raped at age 4 and didnt remember until she was 20 and reading a book about CSA. And then I remembered a few books i tried reading, and how i couldnt get past where they mention/imply CSA because it made me panic. And i asked my mum if i showed signs of it as a kid, and she said yes, but i was so emotionally dysregulated because of the other abuse, not to mention undiagnosed autism, that it was impossible to tell, and that wouldve made me a perfect victim. I said theres no way because i wasnt around any pervy men, and while my dad was pure evil, he wasnt that evil, and anyway he has so many kids that someone wouldve said something by now, right? Well, he had no contact with any of his kids except me and one of my half sisters, and both of us have always been alike in our behaviour, and my sister used to beat me up, but she would kick me in the privates because "no one would check there" and now i think of it, how did she know that? How did she know to attack me there at such a young age? But then again, she couldve come into contact with plenty of men i didnt. Theres no way that happened to me, right? And i tell my mother this, and she said maybe, but then she brought up my asexuality and what ive told her about my experience with sex, and she said she was concerned even with that but now with the other stuff shes really worried, and she says i should talk to my counsellor about it, because she knows she wouldnt be clear headed enough to help me considering her personal history and the fact that well, shes my mum. But then i thought more about what ive said about being ace, and how i do experience attraction and i like the idea of sex in theory but the thought of being touched makes me feel sick, and i have nightmares about the time i had sex, despite it being fully consensual and the fact that in the moment i loved it, and when i am reminded of sex i feel physically ill, and apparently thats not being ace, that's something much more concerning? Not to mention the fanfic i used to write, where every self insert i had would always be sexually abused, despite me supposedly never being abused in that way myself. And i have nightmares all the time about being raped, but i put that down to watching too much svu. Also, tmi but like, i cant even pleasure myself without feeling violently ill and sobbing because i hate sexual acts so much....all of this is to say, i dont fucking remember if anything ever happened to me, but i do know i have forgotten other traumatic moments, and that scares the shit out of me. Im 100% not ok rn, and i cant think of anything else other than i mightve been assaulted as a child and i dont remember it. I really hope not, obviously. I dont see my counsellor for another two weeks and idk who to talk to about this. I bet none of this made sense, i just needed to get it off my chest. Im scared and worried, because what if my biggest fear already happened and i didnt know it?

[aluminumallium]

ACT 3 LIVE POST EXCEPT ITS NOT REALLY LIVE BC I POST IT AFTER BUT I WRITE IT AS IM WATCHING. SPOILERS. PRAY

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! okay lets go

AWW WAIT IS THAT EKKO AND JINX AT THE BEGINNING? SOOO CUTE

EKKO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY BOY I MISSED YOU! PANIC ATTACK :(

WHAT. WHAT. WHAT OH MY GOD

OMGGGGGGG H GJHBDSFJHBSDCHNISDBHJFCBHJSDFHJN OMG OMG time shenanigans HAHAHHAH YES. FUCK

ALL ATTENTION ON THIS RN. FREAKING IT

SO HE LIKE WENT TO AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE AFTER GOING THRU THE ARCANE OR WHATEVER? HOLY FUCK THATS AWESOME

SHES SO CUUUTEEEE IM CRYING

MYLOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭😭

HEIMERDINGER KNOWS OHHH FUCK IM RKFJKDIJFSHJFHKJISDFKHJ im going to freak out im freaingout. oh yes its the real heimerdinger ok ok. OH MY GOD HES BEEN THERE FOR A THOUSAND YEARS????????

PASSING OUT IM PASSING OUT IM PASSINGOUT. OLYMPIC LEVEL CRASH OUT GOING ON

WHERE THE FUCK IS HE 😭 SOMEONE GET HIM OUT. THIS IS SOMEWHAT WHAT I EXPECTED BUT THE CIRCUMSTANCES ARE WAY DIFF

....? WHOIS THAT. thats not good. oh man no wonder hes so fucked up dude he ended up in like HOOOOLY FUCK. OH MY GOD VI IS DEAD. FUCK. dude just explain whats going on JUST EXPLAIN IT WTF. IS JAYCE ALIVE IN THIS ONE? IS THAT WHY HE DIDNT GO THERE???? HELP! holy fuck this is so awesome dude

jesus christ he ended up in apocalypse world holy shit. wow. wow. wow this is fucking insane. i cannot overstate how batshit this is

WHAT happened in this one this is freakin me out oh my gyatt Oh no. OH god theories are entering my brain rapid fire

save my boy he aint do nothing wrong 😭 OOO OUCH. WHO IS THAT YEOOOWCHHH

DUDE HE REALLY IS INSANE NOW JESUS CHRIST. HOW IS HE EVEN ALIVE. god hes so sexy like wow LIKE WOW. like wow. jesus christ

AWWWW 😭😭😭😭😭 THEYRE SO CUTE i love them so much dude its unreal. it really is an ideal world huh :(

SHE REALLY IS IN LOVE WITH HIM 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 tiny tiny tiny tiny itty bitty arcane. time loop king!!!

masc men with long hair and middle parts. yup yup yup

AWWW FATHER SON LOVE 😭

WOW SILCO IS SEXY AS FUCK WOW.

POWDER SO CUTE!!!! HEHEHEE

the first 6 episodes i was like This feels a bit fast. this episode is THE PERFECT speed. NO they should. YES! YES!!!!! THEYRE SO SWEETUMS oh no my favorite guy. hows he doooing what is that. hey look its beautiful

thats not good. heimerdinger going hard as fuck.

is that him but dead? is that viktor but freaky. HE REALLY DID DO IT FOR VIKTOR WOW 😭 can i see him. please i really want to see him please PLEASE PLEAAAASE I ASKED SO NICELY.

HE SAID THE LINE HE SAID THE LINE! HE SAID THE LINE! holy fuck heimerdinger is gone. RIP save da world... my finale message...

YUUUP EPISODE 8. OMG MEL! GET OUT OF THERE MY BEAUTIFUL QUEEN!!!!! LETS GO

holy fuck where is she. this is so sick what OMG GLOWING EYES one of my favorite tropes heh..... bro shes in butt fuck nowhere. looking mighty fine beautiful woman. i love you mel i love youuuu <3

mel get out of there :( NO!! NO!!!!! girl she just turned you evil wtf

warwick lives...!...? get that dude out of there :/ viktor i miss you. girl fuck you ambessa. love you though shes so hot. EW GET OUT OF THERE NO!!!!!! THIS IS SO FREAKY THIS IS SO FREAKY. is isha really dead wow. :( loris youre so find

DAMN her hair is so long i never considered it. jinx i love you :( JAAAAAYCE!!!!! BEAUTIFUL KING!!!!!!! YOUR WIFE HAS ARRIVED!!!!!

DOESNT MATTER? STUPID. SHE DOESNT EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED IDIOT OMFG BE NICE oh god WHAT WWHHAT. get out GET OUT OF MYT HEAD GET OUT OF MY HEAD

THE BOYS ARE FIGHTINGGGGG. SO HAS YOUR MIND STUPID. .....? THIS IS SO SAD :( I MISS VIKTOR

him and his beautiful wife. omg other him and his beautiful wife. not convinced thats really sky lmfao

SISTERS😭!!!!! they love each other :( NO!!!!!!!!! NO DONT KILL YOURSELF 😭😭😭😭😭😭 OR WHATEVER SHIT YOURE GONNA DO

you will never be a passenger HMMM....

WAR!!!!!! AND SEX? WHENEVER THAT HAPPENS. my assumption is its cait and vi it just makes sense

makeout challenge wow. WOAH HERE IT IS. OHEREHERE IT IS HERE IT IS LETS GO LETS GO! LETS GO LESBIANS SHOUTS OUT!!!!!!

im out of my league. of legends HA.

ambessa pray for your life like damn

IM SO CURIOUS ABOUT EPISODE 6? WHY DID IT START AND END ON THE SAME SCENE IT DOESNT SEEM TO HAVE LOOPED THERE. oh girl what the fuck

warwick come hooome :(

HGNGG THE LINE stop ive been playing this shit on repeat. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS IS SO WEIRDDDD EW WHATS HAPPENING TO HIM

i hate it here WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT bro he just became ouppy shaped

LAST EPISODE im unwell btw.

WHERE THE FUCK IS EKKO 😭😭😭😭😭 BOY SAVE THE WORLD

wow she really is trying to kill herself EKKO!!!! YAY YAY. omfg girl youre abt to toast him

this is life is strange core . sorry

im so sad viktor is gone im fucked up. i miss him so bad I MISS HIM SO BAD 😭😭😭😭😭 I MISS YOU VIKTOR IM SORRY I DIDNT LIKE YOU AS MUCH IN SEASON 1 (not that i didnt like him i just didnt like him as much as jayce. they could never make me hate you jayce)

HE SMIRKED A LITTLE? I THINK I JUST FELT MY SOUL LEAVE MY BODY

MUSIC IS NECESSARY FOR WAR BTW

NO SHES DEAD :( war is hell ugh ambessa is bad as hell she looks so good

WHAT IS THIS. oh my godLORIS NO!!!!!!!!! FUCK. WAR IS HELL

FUCKING SHITTTTTT DUDE WHY IS EVERYTHING GOING WRONG FOR THEM

great. FUCK YOU AMBESSA FUCK YOU NOOO MADDIEEEEEEE FUCK YOUUUUUUUU YOU GOTTA KILL YOURSELF

YEAHHHHH FUCK YES FUCK YEAH GET HER ASS. WHERE IS EKKOOOOO

YESSSSS LETS GET IT JINX LETS GO LETS GO LETS GO LETS GO

FUCK YEAHHH LETS GO LETS GO THIS IS SO HYPE HELL YES

YEAHHHH HER HAIR LOOKS FUCKIN SICK HEHAYAHAAA YES this is unreal. this is unreal how hype this is lets fucking go

THIS RANDOM GUY!!!!! SO SICK!!!!!!. uh oh where is he

THATS NOT GOOD. ANOTHER JAYCE AND VIKTOR FIGHT ITS ABOUT TO BE HYPE

HE LOOKS SO STUPID THIS IS UNREAL. i misss viktor so bad. fuck it all this is Not what i meant by warwick come home :(

THIS IS BAD NEWS. BEAT HER ASS CAITLYN. oh god warwick looks so fucking sick this is so insane. sorry my commentary is just THIS IS AWESOME i dont have a lot of thoughts except for that lmfao

his hair looks so dumb on that head lmfao WHAT IS THAT THING oh its like Oh thats not good. its like his uhh its like his in game hand thing. great he has the power to just turn it back on. stupid stupid stupid

cait is about to look so sick with an eye patch for real. MEL IS SO BADDDDD OH MY GODDDDD im obsessed DAMN SHE DIED had to happen.

shes so swag omfg how is this even possible

bro save the world from extinction PLEASE. i cant take this anymore THIS IS NOOOO GOOD GUYS. THIS IS BADGE EVEN

PAUSE i need to pause. how the fuck was viktors hand normal in the post extinction world if he looks like this. pls tell me

VIKTOR STOPPPPPP THIS ISNT YOU BAE oh fuck dude lmfao. this is not good. LOOK FAMILIAR??????? LOOK FAMILIAR?????? DID HE DO THIS ON PURPOSE I CANT TELL!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS SO FUCKED UP

he looks so fuckin stupid btw. just yelled i need to calm down

SAVE THE WORLD!!!!!!!! YES YES EKKO YES. HUGE. small. HUGE. small. SMALL SO SMALL LITERALLY TINY. HUGE???? HUGE???? HOLY FUCK. HOLY FUCK. HOLY FUCK DEEP BNREATHS DEEP BREATHS WHAATTTTT this hurts so bad LMFAO im going to hurt THAT SOUNDED SO BAD IM SORRY WHAT WHAT HWAHTHATHAWEHTHWATSHTASWEHSRTHNBSRTHSER

CRYING CRYING CRYING CRYIJNG CRYING HE LOOKS SO STUPID 😭😭😭😭😭😭 WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT WHAT

im cvrying my eyes out i need to kill myself

I AM FUCKING SHELL SHOCKED. I AM FUCKING SHELL SHOCKED

i thinkn warwick is really dead this time vi. i think hes really gone NOT HER TOO. fuck my life FUCK MY LIFE

nothing couldve prepared me for this. its over

at least his daughter is alive at least theres SOMETHING here what the fuck ever.

I FUCKING KNEWWWW SHE'D BE SO BAD WITH AN EYEPATCH LETS GO.

theyre so everything wow. wow. wow.

LETS HERE IT FOR THE JAYVIK SHIPPERS WE GOT CANON JAYVIK LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOOOOOOO all else banned. FUCK dude. my thoughts? none its so over. wow that was so fucking good. i didnt know it was possible to make a show this good. wow. YUP

[bonesandthebees]

Chapter 23:

More of Tommy being tense, which is why he snaps so fast at Jack where he otherwise might have stayed calm(er). It shows how much he’s hiding how he truly feels and how stressed he is. He’s probably also angry in general, but he can’t really fight Clara. He can, however, fight Jack when he becomes the focus of his anger.

Wilbur and Niki’s truce is also a lot of fun. It’s this limbo of ‘we want to be friends, but our best friends are fighting and we both no now what side we’ll be on when the battle comes, but we’ll stay together at the sidelines for as long as we can’. Wilbur keeping a mental score to keep it even is fun too.

And poor Phil, he’s dealing with so much shit and most Deathlings don’t even know about half of it. Every time Phil has to step in you realise just how young all these characters are. They are basically children and it feels like the teacher having to step in during a playground fight.

Tommy’s frustration at Sam for not being able to fix his lungs is both because that’s what he blames for getting cursed (via the stuttering getting him caught by the police) and because he’s probably afraid that it’ what’ll end up killing him. Also, he’s still mad about the cafeteria confrontation and Sam is not helping (because he’s still mad at the Pythia for trying to exploit Tommy’s lungs (and angry at himself for accidentally giving him that information))

I already send a different ask talking about the Tattoo, but I still love it. I just love how excited both Wilbur and Niki are about it. It’s currently still their little secret (did Wilbur tell Tommy this chapter?). Anyway, it’s just cute friendship moments even when the house is burning down around them and I like how considerate they are of each other.

Also, Wilbur asked Niki to call him by the name she knows him once during a panic attack, and then didn’t realise she would take that a confirmation that she can now always use it when it’s just the two of them. In Wilbur’s defensie he wasn’t thinking much at all. Also, he’s not telling her to stop, because he actually likes it.

Then there’s Wilbur and Tommy being invited to go along for the next meeting. More food for the theory. Also, giving that Tommy’s now cursed there’s no reason to bring him if they don’t need him. Though my theory is that they just need Wilbur, but know they can’t just leave Tommy behind for both of their comforts. Wilbur will feel safer if Tommy’s there and Tommy will want to be there. (And maybe, subcontiously, they don’t want to leave the boys behind since last time was a disaster.) Also, Wilbur is about to get a lot of questions he doesn’t really want to answer even though he does want the government gone.

And lastly, Tommy asking if Wilbur’s ever been able to change a vision and the answer being no. First of all, we get the usual ‘Wilbur shoving that crisis away for another time’. Secondly, is this confirmation that he literally can’t change the future? Like I think I’ve thrown that theory around and I’ve definitely seen other anons mention it, but this sorta feels like proof. A small piece of the Puzzle at least.

Oh I almost forgot: Tommy is getting so much joy from Wilbur finally getting mad at Clara and shit talking the government and what was done to him. Tommy has been waiting for this for soooo long and it’s finally happening.

-🌲

yuppp even if tommy is doing a good job at hiding it he's really stressed about the whole being cursed thing, and it manifests in some ugly ways like we see with jack. jack antagonizing him just gives him a place to direct his fear and anger

wilbur and niki are walking on a tightrope rn between their two best friends and their friendship with each other it's very fun to balance

phil is so fucking tired someone get this man an advil and a beer

yeah tommy's anger towards sam is more related to his own frustration with his lungs and the limitations his own body keeps giving him, and how that's nearly caused his death twice now and it very well could be the reason he dies for real. the fact that sam wronged wilbur in the past though and is still being a bit of a dick to him only adds fuel to the fire

I love the tattoo scene it's a very sweet private thing between wilbur and niki right now :) I'm gonna have to go back and check but I'm fairly sure wilbur hasn't mentioned it to tommy. he will eventually of course. but for right now it's just his and niki's thing

yeah even though he didn't realize niki would take that as blanket permission (and a part of niki knows it wasn't blanket permission he was giving her but she wants to use his name and figures he can tell her to stop if he doesn't like it) he's very relieved she did. that way he doesn't have to voice wanting her to call him by his name again, because if she had called him the pythia in that scene he probably would've been freaking out a bit more

at this point wilbur and tommy are a package deal and phil and techno know that lmao

tommy was literally just watching wilbur rant internally thinking FINALLY HE'S NOT BEING A DUMBASS THANK FUCKING GOD HE GETS IT

[erotomanicpixiedreamgirl]

Hi !!

What dont you like about SSRI's? Just curious :)

I used to take effexor and was thinking of going back to it

ive been on every single one and they didn’t help with my depression or panic attacks. but honestly effexor worked in giving me energy and motivation. it eventually waned off after three months on it or so. but ultimately the long list of side effects is why i dislike them so much as well as it being as effective as the placebo effect. and also the way doctors peddle them like candy rn since SSRI’s are not old enough to know the long term effects on them. but truly any psych medication is like that. we only have theories to why they work for some people, why they do nothing for others, and why they make some people worse. but if they work for you then do what’s best.

[dhmisreolrants]

Pspspsps hey i'm the anon that asks about histories and just uses too many words to request something simple

I've seen some post of you where you talked about how you we're working on some digitaltime angst and the curiosity is KILLING ME RN

SOOO can you tell us a little bit about this Au of yours because I just love hearing people rant about those two (*And slowly killing them but don't tell anyone*)

OOHHH YESSS- i'VE BEEN WANTING TO TALK MORE ABOUT IT BUT MY SHYASS THINKS IT WOULD BE MUCH A BOTHER BUT OH IM GLAD YOU ASKED (long rant warning ough) VVVVVVVVVVVVVVV

This au has been a bit delayed because of other stuff, But im still working on it;

It's basically a "Past Life" AU, Where it came out from a theory i had about maybe the teachers too having a past life and such- It is mostly focused on memories and flashbacks, Sometimes even stories about the past life they had before becoming puppets, While just uncovering it again with some triggers mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm yes depression

Simple explanation of how Ton and Colin feel and act in the au: lots of ✨depression✨, Comfort fluff and your normal uhhh.... making Colin have a panic attack because remembering stuff literally HURTS him

More better explanation: They all start just slowly remembering stuff by one of those hurting memories episodes Colin has, Which Ton try comforting him all night until he finally gets some rest. They all just start noticing that specific triggers specific emotions, And if the trigger that is making Colin even get hurt from just- trying to remember who he where in the past- Stuff just starts to get even more bad from now on because it can hurt then too without any fixing ehEHehh "Which characters most suffer?"... obviously Colin and Ton <3 Also Ton's trigger mostly is specific to the future (take that motherfuc-), He is fine remembering PAST, Even if it makes him feel a bit hurt, But thinking of what even the future could now have for him now that he knows whatever the thing he is now is not what he truly is feels like a knife in his brain and heart~ I HAVE SO MUCH MORE TO RANT ABOUT THIS AU BUT I THINK ITS A BIT ENOUGH FOR NOW-