#the show has a bunch of things that could potentially trigger people

[grimmcheems]

Piltie Jinx💖🎀

I always thought it’d be interesting to see what would’ve happened if Powder had been left behind or caught at the scene when she triggered Jayce’s lab experiments, when I watched the show like a yr ago that was one of the thoughts that always lingered and I like to think she would’ve been more cut out for Piltover society than the undercity bc she was neglected so much there and I think she’d be more charming to Piltie citizens with her docile nature and intelligence.

No hate to the other characters or Vander but the girl clearly had problems and they all wanted to pretend like they didn’t see it so they could feel better about taking her in and looking after her. She was also weaker and more unexperienced than the rest but they all somehow expected her to pull her own weight in high stress situations.[This unintentionally overlapped with the trailer drop bc I was completely unaware they even released them when I was making this like two weeks ago.]

That’s a whole can of worms that I’d rather not open rn bc then it becomes a whole discussion on her trauma along with poverty and a bunch of other things having to do with the people that were around her. She is given the name Jinny bc they got tired of having to refer to her without a specific name, and becuase she begged Jayce to give her one and he blurted out the first thing he saw lmao.

Anyways. In this the kids and Vi basically leave her at the scene out of fear of getting caught and because they aren’t confident that she could have even survived the blast. They all think she’s dead and Powder experiences memory loss, so law enforcement dumps her on Jayce as a punishment and reminder of how dangerous his lab was and how lucky he is that she’s alive, but along the way Viktor sees her potential in becoming a scientific inventor of some sorts based on the items she had with her when she tried escaping along with the intelligence she displays and he adopts her and takes the load off of Jayce after his probation period form the academy. Her and Jayce have a sibling bond.

I need to draw more of this but her young self experiencing this and growing up in their thriving society and blending into their society. I added makeup on her to show how well she’s managed to integrate into Piltover society and because she indulges in the riches there so much that people even forgot she was originally form the undercity, she pretty much looks and acts like she was born there. The pinkish color she puts around her eyes is her remembering Vi and the purple comes into play later when Viktor’s sickness gets worse.

I originally only drew her as an enforcer bc I got inspired by an edited pin on Pinterest but also wanted her to be an academy student so it’s a bit of an awkward mix but I figured she probably picked up becoming an enforcer as a pastime and way to make money(idk if they make money lmao) bc she can’t rely on Viktor and Jayce to provide for her forever, and because Grayson sort of inspired her a bit (though she is subconsciously reminded of Vi when she’s around Grayson). She also has a funny dynamic with Marcus, with him already being a double crossing loser he tries to be this cool older guy around her and miserably fails every time but only because she’s still young and carefree and because he basically kept it under wraps that she was alive the whole time after finding out that she was Vander’s adoptive daughter. So I guess you could say he just has a fatherly instinct towards her but who knows.

Might draw more of this later and have better details but for now this is it oop.

[kylobith]

Little Town Tails

Chapter 7: A Frog in his Throat

Summary: Halsin investigates Gortash's interest in Heawick but finds himself confronted with a rather disappointing thought instead.

Ship/Pairing: Halsin x Fem!Tav

Trope: Modern AU, Meet-cute, Little countryside town, Cosy

Word count: 4,418

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‘This is bad news, I’m telling you!’

Melly stands by the bakery’s door, wrapped up in a colourful cardigan whose hems she tucks under her arms. Disgruntled by the mention of Gortash, she readjusts her pink glasses on her wrinkled nose.

‘I’ve read about him and his kind,’ she continues without waiting for Halsin to respond, ‘all they want is to deface our villages to bring hordes of tourists that will thrash the place! No more little shops and old markets! It’ll be the same thing a hundred times over in case one milks the cash cow less than the next!’

‘Do you know if anything has been sold to him?’ he asks with a tremor in his voice, settling himself by petting Scratch’s head behind the ears. In an instant, the white dog leans against his leg, as though to bring him some much needed comfort.

The elderly lady merely gives him a shrug.

‘That, I do not know. He came here the other day too, probably when you told him off. My son, that people pleaser, didn't dare kick the man out. I had to do it for him! Good thing that I’m still overlooking things, otherwise he would have sold the bakery there and then!’

A nervous grin crosses his face, but his mind is not at rest. How could it be, when his practice, his cherished project he has put so much passion into, might potentially be threatened? Ever since Karlach showed him articles about Gortash, he has been struggling to sleep at night. He tosses and turns, wondering what he could do to protect Emerald Grove from being sold. More than once, as soon as his eyes grow weary and his lids heavy, the first thing he sees is his keys being wrestled out of his hands and the animals thrown out onto the street. That wakes him up instantly in a cold sweat.

Apparently, this same anguish must be haunting his traits again, because Melly gently squeezes his arm — at least what she can grab of it.

‘Now, do not worry yourself so much, Halsin. Nothing’s settled. That cockroach was merely lurking around but maybe he hasn’t found anything worth chewing on.’

‘I just…’ The veterinarian lets out a heavy sigh and rubs his large palm over his face.

‘I do not want to lose my practice, I have only just opened! I saved every coin I could for years to fulfil this dream. I have no intention to let the big corporation seize it away for their own gain when I know that I am helping the community.’

‘Oh love, they will not. The community will not let them, I am sure!’

Before Halsin can protest or voice his concern further, Melly raises a finger and disappears inside the bakery for a moment, leaving the veterinarian and his dog standing by the queue of hungry locals taking a break from the market. Noticing that he is tapping his foot and clenching his jaw hard enough that the hint of a cramp seizes him, he forces himself to relax and crouches to hug Scratch. Absolutely elated, the dog wags his tail enthusiastically and sniffs the man’s cheek, giving it some playful licks which bring a genuine smile back to his lips.

Perhaps Melly is right. There is no need for him to get himself in such a state as long as no shop or space has been sold to Gortash or anyone of his kind. Heawick is still what it is, authentic and tranquil, unbothered by the bustling crowds. Those who come usually know the place already or know a bunch of souls that have claimed it as their home. Names are easily remembered and recognised, shouted with excitement at one’s sight, accompanied by warm greetings and small talk. Surely, nobody would allow this haven to turn decrepit under the malicious fingers of a business mogul.

As Scratch licks Halsin’s chin, triggering a gentle chuckle from the man, Melly emerges from inside the bakery with a small paper bag she hands over to him. With a quizzical glance, he peers inside and sees four of his favourite pastries carefully nestled at the bottom. He instantly pats his pocket in search of his wallet.

‘How kind of you! Let me see… How much do I owe you?’

‘Oh, love, nothing!’

Melly pats his hand cradling the bag and grants him a reassuring grin, typical of a coddling grandmother.

‘You’re pale and tense, darling,’ she continues, ‘you must eat something, at least for comfort. Perhaps you should clear your mind by taking a walk with Scratch?’

Halsin sighs and ends up mirroring her smile. She is right, there is no use dwelling over this. There is no certainty that Gortash and his plans are a threat to Heawick just yet. Unless one of the shops is sold, the thought of which he is sure the owners would not entertain, there is no worry to be had. Besides, as Melly and Arfer often remind him, there had been a dire need for a veterinarian’s office in the area before Emerald Grove opened. Until then, even for emergencies, owners had to drive their pets at least half an hour to the city to receive care for them. Emerald Grove is a valued place in the neighbouring villages, perhaps this alone could put his mind at rest.

‘Good idea,’ he sighs, eyeing the pastries a second time. ‘Nothing like a long walk in nature to clear your mind.’

‘Good boy!’

Her validation tugs at his lips and lights up his gloomy eyes. They exchange a few pleasantries, then Scratch nudges his owner, having understood that a walk was in order. Munching on one of the little fruit pastries, he returns home to fetch the dog’s leash, treats, and a roll of small bags to clean up after Scratch should he relieve himself before they reach the forest. He tucks the rest of the pastries away in a cool corner of his kitchen to keep them fresh until his return and sits down on the edge of his sofa to slip into more comfortable shoes to walk in the woods.

As he ties up his shoelaces, his mind inevitably wanders to the one memory that brings him any solace in the storm of anxiety.

Tav.

He could not explain why his mind is filled with images of her, of her smile and the slight blush peppering the bridge of her nose whenever she looks at him. He thinks nothing of it, of course. Why should he? She is merely a patient’s owner, and he is certain that once Beaky’s paw is healed, she will no longer seek his help. Yet, despite his best effort, he cannot help but let her invade and haunt his mind. The phantom of her presence, albeit not as satisfying as seeing her in the flesh can be, remains quite soothing to his soul. It is harmless, after all, isn’t it? He is not acting upon anything. No need to question his ethics, there is no ill intent behind any of this daydreaming, and his reflections are nothing but respectful to her.

When he and Scratch reach the edge of the forest, they come across Minsc and stay for a minute or two to talk. Seeing how committed the ranger is to the forest — and to Jaheira’s flower shop — Halsin guesses that the gentle giant is blissfully unaware of Gortash and decides against telling him about it. No need to trouble him. He would probably ignore the situation anyway or misunderstand his worries. Should anything happen, the ranger would eventually be informed of it.

Once Minsc walks away to his office, waving vigorously at the veterinarian and Scratch, the dog pulls his owner towards the forest, eager to continue their stroll.

Secluded from the bustling marketplace, the forest seems more appealing than ever to him. The sun’s rays sparkle upon the lofty branches of the oak trees and filter through the green leaves. Dancing haloes illuminate the roots protruding from the cool earth, revealing the hundreds of tiny insects fluttering about. Beds of foxgloves and poppies surround and dot the woodland, adding bright colours to compliment the green of the leaves and the browns of the barks. Beyond the opposite fringe, the fields constituting the typical landscape of the region roll towards the horizon, with their crops finally reaching out towards the sky, readying themselves for blooming and reaping.

Scratch dashes between the trees, his tongue lolling out happily as he hops over the roots and taps his paws on the dead leaves and plants coating the ground as he waits for his owner to catch up with him. Halsin, with his hands resting against the small of his back, ambles behind with the leash rolled loosely around his wrist and whistling an old tune. As soon as he finds himself beside the dog, he grants him a small tasty treat.

When they near a clearing, some loose tresses of his brown mane flutter in the light breeze reaching him. Closing his eyes and smiling to himself, he hums and tilts his chin up, welcoming the fresh air embracing his face. The past few days have been rather warm for spring, a little gust always makes a difference, even for a fleeting second.

A nudge against his calf alerts him that Scratch is eager to move on. Halsin eyes the grass and hums with satisfaction when he finds a sturdy piece of a broken branch between the blades. He picks it up, throws it ahead, and laughs when the pup sprints to fetch it.

As Halsin watches him gnaw at the wood, he realises how ideal his life has come to be. Back in other villages and towns, life was not nearly as sweet. Too many circumstances and hostile environments smothered him and prevented him from living his life as he wished to. But now that the practice is open and that he has moved into a beautiful quaint house in a friendly community, he feels that he can be himself more than ever. Not that he let outsiders influence his personality much, but he did feel hindered by the norms and expectations of the people who surrounded him back then.

Now, he has built a little world within the confines of his house and practice, and he finally gets to set his own rules and conventions. They are not meant to impede on the well-being of his friends and visitors, but rather to let everyone be who they are without being confined to a precise etiquette. To him, it is rather simple: if you intend to do well by others and nature, then you are most welcome into his world and you can be whoever you are without being shamed for it. If not, then he will do his best to help you, but he will put his foot down and exclude you should your actions cause any harm to anyone.

In a way, that might be why his weariness of Astarion lingers. While his new recruit has not openly done anything to wrong him or any of his neighbours, his professional ‘accomplishments’ and the reason that pushed him into community service certainly do not help Halsin’s perception of him. Neither does his tendency to gossip. However, due to Karlach’s undying loyalty and constant praise of Astarion’s qualities, he keeps his heart open to the vampire. Whether the latter decides to seize the chance is up to him and him alone. Should he refuse and merely complete the hours of community service required to lift his suspension is also fine by him.

Overall, Halsin remains satisfied with his choice to move to Heawick. The open spaces and community have been nothing but warm to him and his beloved Scratch. How else could he repay them than by offering his help to the people in return, at the very least?

Long minutes of solemn contemplation later, Halsin takes the stick from the dog and raises his arm. Just as he readies himself to throw it, the laughter of a child interrupts him. He instantly whistles for Scratch to come at his feet so he can attach the leash to the dog’s collar. Clutching the colourful rope, he straightens up and sweeps the forest to look for the child he heard earlier and make sure to keep his distance if Scratch’s presence triggers any fear within them.

A moment later, a githyanki child emerges from between the trees, flushed from running through the woods. A large smile digs little dimples into his green cheeks dotted with black spots. His curious yellow eyes admire the height of the treetops and a gasp escapes the little boy as he spins around, as if to capture it from different angles.

The boy’s elation comes to a sharp halt as he realises that he is not alone. Sheepishness instantly seizes him and causes him to take a few steps back. His heel catches into a small rock and the child topples over, landing heavily on his buttocks in a loud thump and crunch of the leaves. Wasting no time to intervene, Halsin attaches Scratch’s leash around a low-hanging branch and rushes by the child’s side.

Tears flood the gith’s almond-shaped eyes and start to pour down his face as he lets out a howl of pain and shock. Halsin inspects his legs for any wound, but sees nothing.

‘Did your elbows hit the rock, child?’

Sniffling heavily, the child shakes his head and responds with heavy sobs. Since he sees no scrape or injury, Halsin helps the child up, gently lifting him off the ground and making sure that there is no discomfort as he moves.

‘Everything seems alright. More fear than harm,’ he attempts to reassure the child, patting his back to rid his jacket from dry leaves and dirt.

Right as he does so, hurried footsteps resound and a heavy breath fills the air, accompanied by the panicked shrill of a woman.

‘Trith!’

Halsin’s heart stops. He recognises the voice. A lump forms in his throat as he waves his hand in the air, trying to force a shout back.

‘Over here!’

Just as he suspected, Tav appears in turn and gasps at the sight of the crying child. Halsin steps back and lets her kneel by him, frantically investigating for wounds.

‘Trith, how many times must I tell you not to run off like that?!’ she scolds the boy, clutching him by the arms but demonstrating no hostility or aggression towards him. Before the child can answer, she pulls him into her arms and cradles the back of his head with a heavy sigh. ‘You scared me, darling.’

His sniffles and cries muffled by the fabric of her shirt soon die down as her presence soothes his anguish. Tav looks up and smiles at Halsin. The blush he pictured in his mind earlier expands to her whole face.

‘My apologies, Doctor Silverbough, I didn’t mean to put you in this position.’

‘No harm done, Miss Ashguard. He is safe, that is what matters.’

Tav nods slowly and pulls out a tissue to dry the boy’s tears.

‘Now, what happened, love?’

‘I fell. Tripped on the rock,’ Trith hiccups.

‘I must have surprised him,’ Halsin adds with a sorry expression, ‘I made sure to put Scratch on his leash as soon as I heard the child, but it seems that he was still taken aback that I stood here.’

Letting out a brief chuckle, she pulls out a crumpled bucket hat from her back pocket and screws it on Trith’s head, despite his weak protesting. Tav then faces Halsin again, picking up the boy and letting him rest his head on her shoulder as she tilts her hip to prop him up against her chest.

The sight unsettles Halsin. He could not explain why nor how. There is an alien sensation snaking into his veins and spreading throughout his body, numbing his fingertips with a dull pain. It is as though his heart is darkening at once, yet without resentment. The lump in his throat grows heavier, nearly choking him.

Children. Something he has considered for a long time, but never truly envisioned for himself. His career has always occupied a primary position in his life, one that he could not easily change. His projects for Emerald Grove constantly flooded his mind, which flourished with new ideas with almost every conversation he held. Little did he think about his own meals, let alone a family.

Besides, his plan to drastically change his life and environment would not have been ideal for a child. Uprooting a child, right when they are in their formative years, always resembled cruelty to him. Not if their parents could not help it, of course, every situation is different and he does not blame anybody for it. But as a conscious choice, which could only benefit the parents without any regard to whether the child would blossom into this new setting, Halsin could not fully support it. Perhaps he is old-fashioned in this way. After all, he catches himself reflecting, he knows next to nothing about raising children.

Could it be that the sight of Tav with her child suddenly makes him wish that he had settled down at some point and founded a family of his own? He loves the idea of a family, but as it happens with many others, he probably told himself that he had time for much too long. There he is, in his mid-forties, wondering about having children now that his situation is stable and his goals are met.

No. That is not it. In a way, it is, but it is not.

Is it regret? The venom of the idea that he might have missed out on life? Is it… envy? Then, as he is about to speak to break the awkward silence setting in, he sees her cupping her stomach with her free hand. The pain now rages in his chest and his fingertips.

All tender notions he had created for her vanish in an instant. Of all things he has considered, such as the moral dilemma of texting her out of the blue or even the mere idea of thinking about her, the fact that she might be taken was a criterion he overlooked. Not only taken, it seems. She is a mother, and this simple, gentle gesture towards her midriff hints at the fact that she might be pregnant again, only not showing just yet.

Good for her, he tells himself. She has got what he seems to have neglected in his life.

Halsin forces himself to smile at her and unties Scratch’s leash from the branch, bringing the dog over with him.

‘So, how is Beaky healing?’ he simply asks.

‘Rather well! Actually, I should hear about the conclusion of the lawsuit around our appointment.’

‘Should I set aside a bottle of bubbly wine to celebrate?’ Halsin teases in good humour.

‘Or to drown our sorrow,’ Tav jests in return, completely oblivious to the veterinarian’s inner turmoil. ‘I might bring one to the appointment.’

‘I will hold you to it, then!’

Her laughter resonates under the canopy of the leaves sheltering them from the rest of the world. For a moment, if not for Trith falling asleep on her shoulder for seemingly running around too long, he is happy here. But he cannot afford to feed himself illusions. He must maintain some professionalism between the two of them.

Tav places a kiss on the child’s forehead and pats his back.

‘I believe it’s time for us to head home,’ she whispers with a grin. ‘He needs a nap.’

‘You have yourselves a wonderful day, Miss Ashguard and Trith. I apologise for scaring the boy earlier.’

‘Oh, don’t apologise, doctor! He will be alright. Have a nice day yourself, and I will see you next week for the appointment.’

‘See you then, Miss Ashguard!’

Halsin nods at Tav and her son and turns around with Scratch at his feet, tossing a treat at the dog. Lost in thought, he hardly notices that he has reached Heawick until he stands in the middle of the pavement and nearly shoulders somebody. He shakes his head and takes a deep breath. It is time for him to let go of whatever is clouding his perception.

Instead of moping around, he shrugs the issue off and walks towards the market, reminding himself that he would like some fresh vegetables to make a delicious soup for himself in the evening. As he peruses the stalls and greets the sellers he already knows, a familiar silhouette appears in the corner of his eye.

Dressed down compared to his usual tweed suits and academic demeanour, Gale sings a tune under his breath while filling a net bag with nectarines and peaches. His plum-coloured polo shirt, left unbuttoned at the top, lets his chest hair peek out from underneath the fabric, and Halsin purses his lips, curious whether such a style would suit him as well outside of work.

Gale catches a glimpse of the veterinarian from above his sunglasses and he instantly lights up.

‘Halsin! What a pleasure to see you here! Enjoying the market as well, I see?’

The professor instantly holds out his hand and Halsin shakes it with equal enthusiasm.

‘I am, indeed! It seems that you are, too.’

Gale nods with a laugh and crouches to pet Scratch. A few groans escape him as he hears his knees cracking from the sole movement and from standing up again. He stretches his back with his hands on the back of his hips.

‘Oof, yet another reminder that my youth is fleeting away!’ he jokes. ‘So, how’s the practice doing? Do you manage to keep busy despite having just moved here?’

‘So far every day has been satisfying one way or another,’ Halsin reflects. ‘I could hope to see more patients coming in, but I suppose that fewer of them rushing to my office is a good sign.’

‘Hah, I suppose! Have you been able to use any of the shirts that Astarion’s been sewing?’

‘Plenty, in fact! Families find it soothing to be able to pick certain patterns. It alleviates their concerns, it seems. I can only salute Astarion’s idea to implement various fabrics into his work.’

A gleam of pride shines in the younger man’s eyes.

‘Astarion does have a good eye for such things. He’s quite talented!’

‘That he is.’

Gale readjusts his bag over his shoulder and crosses his arms, leaning in as if to speak in confidence.

‘But, tell me, is everything going well with him? Work-wise? You’re probably aware that he’s refused to do community service in many other places and that some of them rejected him altogether. I can’t help but worry that he might be reluctant to do his hours again. He has a tendency to self-sabotage sometimes.’

Halsin tilts his head, not having expected Gale’s sudden change in the conversation. But how could he blame him? Astarion’s file was not brilliant, and his temper seemed to linger on the short side.

‘Everything is going well. Astarion is a great asset in our team. He even took over Karlach’s desk once!’

‘He did?’ the professor gasps. ‘Well, I would not have expected it from him!’

‘I am very satisfied with his work, do not trouble yourself. Of course, I wish that I could connect with him a little bit more, but it is obviously something he is not interested in. Fine by me.’

Sighing in relief, Gale places a hand over his chest, letting his wedding ring reflect the sunlight.

‘I can sleep at night again, hah! I could trust Astarion’s word, but I know that he would either snap or embellish things to shut me up.’

The two men amble around the market together, making small talk and inspecting the vegetables from old Almorn, who busies himself weighing vegetables while his wife Breeza shares ideas with a customer to use the vegetables in their hands. Halsin buys what he needs for dinner, overhearing a drool-inducing recipe, and feels Gale gently nudging him as they greet the gnomish couple and walk away.

‘By the way, I heard from Astarion that someone was looking to buy your practice?’

Ah. This subject again.

‘Yes, a man visited and asked if I had the intention to sell the place. I will decline any offer coming my way, if it should happen.’

‘Good, good. He told me that the man owned several coffee shop chains and such. Well, I certainly hope that it’s nothing but a false alarm. I’ve seen how gentrification defaced Waterdeep, and it hurts my heart whenever I visit my mother. Everything that made the city what it was, all that constituted its identity, it’s all trampled by the crowds. I mean, back in the days, I would have loved to see Waterdeep be appreciated by others, not only by locals, but this… This is no longer my Waterdeep. That’s why Astarion and I moved here instead.’

Halsin adjusts his grip on his bag and pets Scratch’s head.

‘I was not aware that you were Waterdhavian, although the accent should have given me a clue.’

‘Ah, it does resurface every so often, doesn’t it?’

‘Indeed, it does.’

As they eye a cheese stand, the veterinarian’s brow furrows. He cannot prevent his mind from wandering back to Tav and the githyanki boy.

‘You and Astarion live in Combury, do you not?’

‘Mh? Oh, yes, we do. Why?’

Reddish hues tint Halsin’s complexion as he realises that he spoke without thinking. He finds himself speechless for a moment. He does not even know what he meant to ask Gale.

‘Well, um… I was wondering, are there any githyanki in Combury?’

‘Oh, yes. Two. A mother and her son.’

The professor’s answer piques his interest in an instant.

‘The child’s mother is a githyanki?’

‘Well, the child has two mothers. A githyanki and an elf. Astarion knows them well, especially the elf, but I forgot their names. Why are you asking?’

‘Oh,’ Halsin responds, the ache returning to his heart. ‘Scratch and I have just come across the boy with his mother in the forest. It… It occurred to me that it is rare to see githyanki in the region.’

‘Ah, yes. But they are lovely people.’

‘They are.’

He sighs.

‘They are, indeed.’

Taglist: @emmanuellececchi @reignydays @cakenpiewhyohmy @beardedladyqueen @carmsgarms

[emeritus-fuckers]

May I request Repugnant with an autistic reader who has a tendency to go nonverbal and their main form off affection is just booping their partner's nose?

Repugnant with an autistic, often non-verbal s/o who boops their noses affectionately

CW: usage of a slur. (DD calls reader a fag)

Mary Goore

They don't make a big deal out if it.

They view it in a "you'll talk when you're ready" way and don't really pressure you or really do anything much when you go non-verbal.

They give you your space, just chilling nearby in case you need anything.

They don't really mind the nose booping. Might be a bit confused at first, but not much else.

They'll just roll their eyes with a small grin and boop you back.

They actually become somewhat fond of the booping and it becomes your thing.

DD Sars (FWB, not s/o)

Similarly to Mary, DD doesn't make it a big deal.

Tosses you a small notebook and a pen just in case in case you're up to writing what you want to say.

He just mostly exists in the same space as you, doing his own thing.

He doesn't bother you, just giving you time.

Honestly, it's like he's not even there. With how may mental issues he has (some diagnosed, some not), even he chills out when it's about mental health.

He'll make some asshole joke about it later, but drops it once you give him a genuinely sad look.

Scoffs a bit at the booping and calls you a fag, but doesn't stop you or anything.

Flicks your nose in return, just to be a little shit as usual.

G. Grotesque

He's always at least a little bit worried at first, trying to figure out if you became non-verbal just because or because something triggered you and made you go non-verbal.

He asks yes or no questions and gets you a bunch of cards with things you could potentially ask for.

If he notices you asking for specific things often, he makes you bracelets with the things.

So for example, if he notices you ask for chocolate often, he makes you a bracelet with the word "chocolate" so you can just show him the bracelet so he knows what to give you.

Asks you before doing anything specific when it comes to affection, in case you don't want hugs. He loves hugs, of course, but he's fond of any sort of affection, so he'll follow your lead on this one.

Absolutely loves it when you boop his nose. Giggles every time. Boops you back.

E. Forcas

He's already very quiet in general, but he also has a tendency to go non-verbal completely as well, so he's okay with you doing the same.

He accepts the nose booping, knowing it's your sign of affection. Blushes lightly when you do that.

He never really comments on it, but there's a fondness in his eyes that grows with every boop.

He thinks you're adorable when you do that.

If you're non-verbal and he's not, he will just ask you simple yes or no questions so you can nod or shake your head instead of responding.

If you're both non-verbal, you usually just chill together.

He might get some cards for non-verbal times so you two can communicate without actual words.

Or get a soundboard app for non-verbal people.

Whichever you prefer.

~

Written by Nosferatu.

Taglist: @charlie-is-a-menace @copias-fluffy-asscheeks @randodummy @tuttifuckinfruttifriday @calliedion-dungeon @randominstake @callmeicaro @thecuriouss @nuntia @thermodynamic-comedian @vampyrolesbos

[misogynisticmediatournament]

I think the warrior cats and warriors in your submission list are the same thing,btw do you have reccomendations of like. anything that writes woman well

Ah, you might be right; I think I skimmed that entry's propaganda, and it was very specific to whatever series it was about without dropping the full series name, and I was like "Maybe this is Warrior Cats? I feel lazy, I'm not going to look heavily into it."

So, as a reminder: use the full but common name for the series! For example, Miraculous Ladybug (this seems to be the most common title despite being a shortened version), Warrior Cats, BBC Sherlock, etc. And check that you don't have a space after the title's entry, as that counts as a different entry than the title without the space when using the UNIQUE function in Google sheets (which is how I count the unique entries).

As for recommendations, this is hard because I watch a lot of trash, especially recently, but:

- You can never go wrong with Revolutionary Girl Utena. Note: this show (and start with the show, not the movie) has a lot of potentially triggering stuff, so check out those warnings before you start if you have any triggers at all. It uses the triggering stuff very well and to tell its story and explore its themes, not just for, like, titillation though. Indeed, it is, I would argue, necessary for the story and themes the show seeks to explore. It is legally free on Youtube in...I want to say 480p, and in better resolution on Crunchyroll and Funimation (yes, Funimation's site is still up; I find it superior to Crunchyroll's since it actually includes closed captions for dubs, although it doesn't include newer anime from after the two companies merged). Also, you want to watch the sub for this. I'm normally not one to say "the dub is bad" and stuff and be a purist about it—in fact I normally go to bat for dubs—but, uh... yeah, the dub is bad this time. Crispin Freeman and Dan Green are delightful in it though, I'll give it that.

- Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood uses its female characters well. Maybe it could be better, I've seen some people in these tournaments have beef with it, but it's a pretty perfectly told story, like solid A+, with a lot of really great female characters who I find very satisfying so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. This is on Crunchyroll, Hulu, and I believe Amazon Prime?

- Don't let the title fool you: Crazy Ex-Girlfriend is a fantastic show with great female characters who are complex and human, have compelling arcs, and are vital to the story. The relationship between Rebecca and Paula is central to the show and SO good, especially as the show goes on. The title is because it explores the trope of the crazy ex-girlfriend in a very humanizing way, and the title/opening song even mentions how the title is a sexist term, but it's a lot more nuanced than that. Also, it's a musical with very good original songs every episode. But check trigger warnings for this show too though. The show is streaming on Netflix last I checked.

- Uhh... maybe the first two seasons of My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic? It's a kid's show, but it's good. I haven't seen it in years and years though, so I don't know if I can still fully vouch for it. I believe it is streaming on Netflix?

- Revue Starlight? I haven't thought about it heavily, but I had no beef watching it. This is streaming on HiDive.

- I've heard good things about Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury, but I can't vouch for it personally. It's streaming on Crunchyroll.

UPDATE: Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury is also legally on youtube!

Honestly, I know more imperfect shows that I'm satisfied with, like I give it a B+ to A- at least, but that I haven't thought heavily about than stuff where I'm like, "Oh, yeah, definitely, definitely, nothing I'd pick out there as a problem." For example, Baccano! is probably imperfect (as well as not streaming legally anywhere), but I don't remember being, like, struck by a bunch of problems there. So, I'm not the best for recs that I can give a 100% guarantee for.

[swordofsun]

Okay, so Sam's whole thing is that the ends justify the means. It's a huge motivating factor for him in s4-12. He can justify draining a nurse because killing Lilith is a worthy cause. He can send a guy to sell his soul to a demon because capturing a crossroad demon to find Dean is more important. He can imprison Rowena and order a human sacrifice because removing the Mark from Dean is just that important. He can work with the British Men of Letters (and lie to Dean about it) because their goals are more important then his or Dean's feelings about them or what the BMoL had done previously.

It's a fascinating aspect of his character and it develops in s1-3.

It's starts with Devil's Trap and In My Time of Dying. In Devil's Trap he doesn't kill John. He goes with what Dean wants and let's Azazel escape to save John. Only to have John die within a week anyway. Over the course of s2 they learn that John sold his soul to save Dean. They also discover all of the horrible shit Azazel does over that year. Ava and Andy die. Ava's fiance die. Who knows how many other people when Azazel was collecting the kids for the death match. Sam dies and Dean sells his soul to save him.

All of which could have been avoided if Sam had just killed Azazel back in that cabin. Sam is the type of person to think about how much everything would have changed, how many people would have lived, if he'd just pulled that trigger. Debatable on whether or not Dean would have ever forgiven him.

If season 2 is a horror show of people who died brutally because Azazel was alive to kill them, then season 3 is other people laying the blame for various deaths at their feet. It starts with Isaac and Tamara in The Magnificent Seven blaming them for the people the demons killed after escaping through the hell gate and continues from there. Most significantly in Jus in Bello.

The episode has a important moral hinge point on whether or not to sacrifice one of the civilians to kill a bunch of demons and let them all escape. A plan that Sam is down for, especially after the potential sacrifice says she'll do it. It's clear that Sam is doing the mental math of one person dying vs lots of people dying. Dean talks him out of it, but the episode ends with Lilith killing everyone anyway. With a helpful rant from Ruby about how it's all Sam's fault for not killing the one person.

We can see how this effects Sam over time. He's more and more willing to take the ruthless option, even if it means hurting innocent people. With a harsh cumulation in Time Is On My Side when Sam tries to convince Dean to become an alchemy zombie living off the organs of others. Because Sam has decided that the goal of saving Dean from hell is worth killing people over. Maybe a lot of people.

It's worth noting that this is one of, if not the, last time Sam tries to argue Dean into an "ends justify the means" mindset. From thereon in he usually takes the "better to apologize than ask permission" and just does things. Even if he knows Dean wouldn't approve and that he can't justify them to Dean in a way that Dean would accept so he ends up spending all of s4 lying to Dean.

Crucially he clearly considers this a strength of his that Dean lacks. I think he only really starts to reconsider this approach in s13 when the way he was using Jack blows up in everyone's face and he can't just puppy dog eyes his way out of the consequences. He seems to take a much more measured approach with his group of AW hunters.

And those are my thoughts.

[thornswoggled]

Hello! I wanted to share some thoughts and questions and honestly this probably will be really jumbled up but here we go!, okay so I’ve been thinking (wanting) Chise can obviously Do sleeping magic as Angelica had said in one chapter were chises Magic and her Special technique will be more towards sleeping as we know. Which led me to thinking what if Chise sings another song? Not a lullaby maybe her own song Were she accidentally sings someone to sleep and if that happens will she do it Out in a fit if anger finally? What if Her dragon curse (a death curse) triggers in her song and it turns into kinda like a Song of death?,And not just that but what if a type of event happens for example Something goes on With the college maybe it involea that new mage that showed up or something else entirely. As we know Elias does favors and solve problems for the church. and mages will keep there word involving deals and promises and doing tasks for something in return. So I was thinking Elias does something for the college for something in return and it Involves an event. Elias goes to the event and maybe it’s an event only for Mages or entity’s and creatures and Faye so Elias can go. But what if chise comes along as a plus one? Or instead she ends up coming along because. Hold on let me finish that thought in a minute. As we know in the college arc There’s the Houses the sargant house and obviously these are known as the Seven Shields so what if Chise ends up going along to this event with the St. George’s and Elias doesn’t know? What if Elias informs chise he’s going to be out on business you know and he’ll be back in 3 days or something. And Maybe prior It’s brought up that Chise does sing and so maybe this event loses there lead singer or something goes wrong and there’s a spot a performer is supposed to fill. So somehow chise stands on the stage and she sings you know? Elias is there and he’s dumbfounded or something but imagine she’s Singing her sing infront of a bunch of Faye and maybe even that new mage from the latest chapter is there. And chise is now just exposed Maybe her voice is leaking mana and projecting some sort of spell and maybe she gets stage fright and Her dragon curse leaks through you know, her eyes change color and again she’s exposed Faye’s are drooling over her Sleigh Veganess and it’s this whole thing? And maybe Joseph’s Joins Elias (he probably wants out of his Well or something and maybe he knows about the event maybe it’s yearly and he’s been then before maybe he has more of status after all In one of the episodes specifically the graveyard one he says that parts and martial are hard to come by and expensive so that instigates he’s been in the black market and maybe is well known in some fashion) anyway I’m just really wanting and curious to see chise Singing and putting herself in danger in some fashion but i don’t want her singing some sort of Lamb Lullaby about 16272 sheep and NO! I need something more and again with Elias literally not knowing chises taste in music, this will make his curiosity peak and he’ll be like so stiff his red Beaty eyes watching her perform it something. My mind has short circuited so many times typing this it’s probably so all over the place and my thoughts become unfinished leading on to more and more thoughts about tamb. Oh wait I just had this whole Arc idea and speculations about tamb. I’ll come back later

wow you could probably get a pretty lengthy fic out of that idea!

as for why we've never seen chise sing again, i think shes justifiably afraid of messing someone up again - potentially harming elias and being without his guidance for several days seems to have shaken her a little. but also shes still very new to magic, and hasnt found her niche yet... theres her singing, but theres also this depiction of her magic taking the form of plants/vines, and on top of all that she also has a dragons curse so that comes with its own stank. and on TOP of THAT, there are also people who say things like "chise would probably excel at xyz magic if she was taught properly." all of this is to say she has her fingers in a lot of pots. personally i will be fine if we never see her sing again because i get secondhand embarrassment when people sing in fiction... but thats my own hangup

can someone please get chise a ticket to warped tour. oh, well, wait, that was only a north american thing.... can someone please get chise a ticket to wacken open air. she could do a death growl if you let her. i know this

[strangertheories]

I agree with your post. It's a shame that we can't criticize the show's writing within the Byler community. Also trigger warning for Byler doubt... I wish we could just enjoy the ship without the pressure of it ever becoming canon, and without looking into every single detail that 99% of the time has probably nothing to do with Byler. I feel like I'm the only one but to me it's clear that the writers wouldn't have had Mike confess his love to El if they were planning on making Byler endgame in season 5. It just wouldn't make sense. We now know that Mike being unable to say I love you wasn't because he didn't feel it, but because of his insecurities or whatever bullshit reason they came up with. It's too late for us, but we can still enjoy the amazing dynamic Mike and Will have, and make our own fanart and headcanons like any other ship, and that's wonderful! But it seems like to be in this fandom you have to believe that Byler is endgame, and it's quite tiring. (sorry for the rant I wasn't planning on it lol)

Please give me a second, Byler shippers, this isn't a Byler doubt post! For any Byler shippers reading this, I'm not going to side with the doubt but I'm also not going to try and dismiss it because I think whenever Byler shippers have doubts about canon Byler it's a kneejerk response to try and get rid of it and rationalize it out of existence. I get why, but I think anon raises a good point. I've spoken about this for months and months, but Byler pessimism is a very big thing I feel like nobody talks about. Like we get one piece of bad news, give up and then be sad and venty and genuinely stressed and then we rationalize it and move on but I feel as though maybe we need to actually consider that your love for Byler should elevate the show, not take away from it and make you stressed.

And I know that is so easy to say and I'm not saying you should not feel this way at all, what I'm trying to say is that even if Byler didn't end up being canon (not saying it won't), you can still love this community and eagerly wait for fix it fics and fan art to appear instead of immediately giving up or wanting to leave the fandom. Wanting Byler to be canon is one part of the fandom, but I also think it's so much more than that and it's healthy to acknowledge that and try to still hold love for Stranger Things even if it isn't what you hope for.

Just to put a personal thing here at the end, some followers might have noticed that I've not been posting as much recently. Truthfully, it's because Byler wasn't fun for me anymore. I was stressed out because on one hand I felt super doubtful and never really moved past Volume 2's release and the Mike love confession but on the other, I didn't want to make any of my followers feel scared or doubtful. But I've posted less frequently and re-watched the show and I'm trying to healthily express my honest feelings for the ship, most of which are nice (some of which are critical), and it's been really nice. I expected to kind of be eaten alive for it but everyone's been so nice and I've received a bunch of asks of people who also felt as though they couldn't express this opinion. And it's honestly decreasing my fears for Byler because now I feel more excited than stressed that it won't happen.

Feel free to skip this, but I didn't really know where else to say this; I've gained a lot of followers recently but didn't want to post about it. It feels weird; I have the most followers I've ever had on anything and the Byler tag has hundreds of thousands of followers too, but I just feel so weird about it, y'know? Everything is so quiet at the moment and I'm excited for stuff to ramp up again, but it feels odd gaining followers but with nothing to post about. However this week, I feel as though getting these doubts off my chest has really helped me feel happy. Now I'm excited about Byler potentially being canon instead of just worrying that it might not be happening.

Thanks for the ask and thanks to everyone for being a really supportive loving community. Getting Tumblr was great and I'm glad that this anon and others can find love out of Byler beyond it just being canon in the show.

[quirkypossum]

personal life shit ahead btw

gonna talk about some personal life bullshit under the cut so if you're not interested in my life drama or potentially triggering shit then I'd scroll past. Content warning for talking about disturbing/self-destructive thoughts, chronic pain and illness, and trans stuff..

well, I'm at the point where I am second-guessing myself again. my mom and her husband actually think I'm a hypochondriac and I didn't help my own thought spiral by watching a bunch of videos on people who supposedly made up their own chronic illnesses for crime or other reasons...

like i genuinely think there has been stuff going on with me for years now, but because i never brought some of it up to doctors at the time they tend to not believe its that serious.. Half the time they blame my symptoms on my weight (something that has changed very little over the last five years not including getting the tits chopped earlier this year) or they will blame it on my diet (another thing that has if anything gotten healthier over the last five years as I've explored more veggies and fruits).

Most recently, I went in after doing a bunch of research on POTS and hypermobility without really saying anything specific, keeping the most specific description at general hypermobility while describing my joints and pain and other problems. Well, the outcome I thought was going to be better because normally they dismiss it and don't do anything but this time it seemed different because my doctor actually ordered new blood tests that I haven't had before to rule out things like arthritis and lupus and stuff. The problem was that she said she would follow up and never did and its been like a month now since then and still nothing. Based on the ranges they show with the tests I'm within range for everything pretty much so part of me wonders if that's why she never reached out to confirm the results or what, but I am planning on sending her a message to ask what the next step is.

I know it's not smart to self-diagnose and do a ton of research into symptoms because you could be wildly off but given the fact that the doctors I keep getting just dismiss everything as normal without really doing anything to check most of the time I just can't forget about it and move on. I shouldn't be dealing with all the health problems that I am at the age that I am. Older adults always say stuff like "wait til you're older, then you'll really know pain" and it makes me so disheartened for my future if I'm already overwhelmed by it all rn. Like I really am at a "whats the fucking point?" type of mental state because of all this.

I feel like no one in my life really believes that the issues I have a real and everyone just thinks i make it all up because I complain a lot. Part of me wonders if I am faking it all and I'm just so delusional that i don't know I'm faking it. It's the same kinds of thoughts I have about being trans sometimes or about money. I've been really trying to avoid self harming lately because of all this shit.... Its so weird cause I'll have a great awesome day where I got all the shit done I needed to do, did something fun, socialized, showered, ate, all of it and at the end of it all I feel like the biggest piece of shit on the planet... Like everything I said and did was wrong and of course my doctors don't believe me Im just making it up, of course my brother said no to sitting outside with me, I'm being annoying as usual. idk....

I have so many wishes for my life and my loved ones' lives and my mom always says that obnoxious response of "you wish in one hand and shit in the other and see which fills up faster" to try and bring me back to reality and make me feel better I guess but obviously it never works. it just makes me feel worse about it like I shouldn't even complain in the first place. I really do wish things were different.

I wish I wasn't in pain every day, I wish I didn't have stomach problems every day, I wish I didn't feel like I might pass out every day, I wish my anxiety was the normal amount and not the terrifying heart palpitations I get every day, I wish I had enough money that these health problems wouldn't worry me so much, I wish my mom didn't have to work her soul-crushing job just to keep a roof over our family's heads, I wish that things were different....

If you read through all of this I applaud you and hope you can't relate to any of it.

[asecretvice]

So I recently finished reading a book* whose scope was to take different aspects of how (generally) white European men** have been describing the biology of females in other species and try to shed some better research on the situation, and I think the part I want to share with y'all the most is about clownfish aka anemonefish aka 'Nemo.' This guy:

Like many reef fish, they have the ability to change biological sex. For anemonefish this is triggered by environmental circumstance. It seems that a group living together in an anemone is led by a territorial female and a main dude who watches over eggs, while a bunch of juvenile dudes*** hang about. If something happens to the female, the main dude starts transitioning to female and one of the young guys matures into the new househusband.

But here's where it gets really interesting: it can take months to years for the transition to fully take place. The change, scientists have discovered, begins in the brain.**** And for months or years,

The transitioning fish thus ha[s] a female brain but male gonads. Which could be considered confusing for the fish, but Rhodes is certain that, if asked, the fish would say it's female.

"That's the great thing about these fish: they will tell you," he told me. All he has to do is put the fish in a tank with another female. In the wild, these highly territorial fish refuse to share an anemone with another female, and they are guaranteed to fight, often to the death. {...} The simple experiment shows that these transitional anemonefish both behave like females and are recognized as females by other fish, even though they have testes. It's a very clear demonstration that brain sex, and thus all sexual behaviour, and gonadal sex can be uncoupled. {...} This exposes the flaw in assuming a linear relationship between gonadal sex, sexual identity, sexuality and sexed behaviour, even in a fish.

"The anemonefish question the way that we assign sex," Rhodes added. "The message of these fish is you should not define sex by the gonads."

Like, look. We shouldn't anthropomorphize animals when we can avoid it. And people shouldn't need scientific evidence to deserve respect from others. But. I hope any people out there struggling with their gender identity can see with this example that wherever you think you fall on that spectrum, nature has a space for you. And nature believes you when you say who you are. You are natural, and real, and it's not just in those admittedly delightful anecdotes where a friend's dog or cat who usually has trouble with a certain type of human made you the exception like they knew your gender before you did...just...it is concrete and it's everywhere; it's in birds and lizards and fish and mammals of all spots and stripes.

Be proud, even if you can't yet be loud about it. I love y'all. Happy pride month.

Also, somebody should do art of anemonefish in the various appropriate flag colors ^_^

*The book is called Bitch: On the Female of the Species by Lucy Cooke. A highly enjoyable read except for one sentence that stuck in my craw about Hawaii. Like lady I know you're British and probably ignorant about it but making a comment about how people are not native to the islands is not the way.

**Richard Dawkins is dragged fucking immediately lol

***The 'juvenile dudes' are technically 'juvenile dudes (gn).' The book explains, "Their immature gonads are officially 'ovotestes' with the potential to develop into male or female reproductive organs. They have some testicular tissue, but it's not actively producing sperm, and they also have ovarian tissue with undeveloped eggs." But of course ~Science~ has assigned them as males because that's the default, riiiiight? [Wrong on two levels. Evolutionarily speaking females likely existed millions of years before males did. I'm telling y'all I learned stuff reading this!]

****This has to do with the 'pre-optic area' which contains more neurons in females because it's concerned with egg production, etc. But multiple scientists caution in the book not to overemphasize the differences between sexes a) because like, what is a binary, and b) biological differences, especially in the brain, are not that significant.

[confusedguytoo]

I've never cared for that idea, because it leads to ideas like being addicted to water.

Now as Willow's and power. I've never quite seen Willow the same way as most. Certainly she hated being picked on. But Willow is not actually some extroverted person beaten down, to me. She's an introvert, who's attempt to come out of her shell in BtVS while a noble effort were largely a failure.

We find out Xander approached her to start their friendship, Buffy approached her, Oz approached her, Tara approached her.

The girl relies so much on social scripts that she can't get out of a situation where Cordelia is complaining about her to her, and all Harmony has to do is engage her in a friendly manner for Willow to do so pleasantly, despite the fact she hates Harmony with a fiery passion for making her life hell since second grade.

She was the only Scooby who really had negative reactions to anyone joining the Scooby Gang. Not a fan of Cordy or Faith or Anya. She could have invited Amy, the only female friend she had before Buffy into the group. She didn't, even though Amy could have been traumatized by what Catherine did.

Yeah, she gained confidence enough to get a boyfriend and a girlfriend. The boyfriend was in a band, and is one of the rare band members who is all about the music and in the post show comic is living in the mountains of Tibet. The girlfriend is shyer than her and she plainly admitted they were very private

We find out she does have opinions of things, she's feminist for example, she's left leaning. But the closest she ever gets to doing anything about it is going to a wicca meeting where she finds out it's actually all talk, but it's feminist talk. She could have found some things in common with them, but they weren't about the things she was about so she didn't go back.

In season 7 she has nothing but good things to say about the coven. But Giles has to go out and find her where she's meditating alone.

In the comics she's become the sort of person who will disappear on magical quests

And of course season six, if you'll forgive me for going out of order. When she's at her worst, Amy is the catalyst for her going to the Bronze and going to meet Rack. On her own in both cases Willow stays in. This was likely to show Amy's a bad influence, but WIllow hadn't needed influences to that point

Sorry for going on and on, but I'm arguing a major character trait taken for granted is actually wrong.

Also she's a genius hacker in the 90s. That's potential power. She never used it. You know some fanfic writers who want to show Willow was always waiting to go bad make her responsible for the IRS going after the Chases to show what her hacking could do

So, all that is why I believe Willow is actually an introverted person trying to force herself to be more outgoing because that is what society says people should be, and because it more closely matches the personalities of her friends.

I'm not denying Willow might do questionable things, I just believe that things that happen to people because of Willow's actions would be more likely because she forgot to think about them

Like she treated them like a bunch of NPCs. Now that actually might sound worse than trying to lord power over people, but I actually feel like the Buffyverse was pretty bad about that in general post high school years. BtVS season 4 wasn't terrible, but when Buffy decided she wouldn't sacrifice Dawn to save the world I feel like that is treating the other 6 billion in the world like they aren't real people. Season 6 had the problem of focusing so much on internal Scooby problems. Season 7 tried to fix it but kind of went back and forth on treating the potentials like real people. And the affect of Buffy asking the local girls was undermined by them showing other girls outside of Sunnydale. Meanwhile they did it on Angel by not just dismissing the suggestion Jasmine's mind control was a good thing. And at the end of season 5, triggering an apocalyptic battle to make some point.

I'm always iffy on the whole choosing the time and place of the battle if there's billions of lives on the line

my biggest btvs pet peeve is when people act as if willow doing questionable stuff is out of character... besties, one of the first things we learn about her is that she "accidentally" decripted the city council's security system before she even met buffy, girly will do anything as long as she has built a good enough excuse in her head and thinks she won't get caught!

[butterflydm]

midnight mass

Just finished watching Midnight Mass and... wow.

There’s really nothing I can say that isn’t full of spoilers so, here we go...

(the spoilers are abundant and go all the way through the ending and I spoil  major things)

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(I think there’s no ‘read more’ on mobile, right, so hopefully that’s enough space for people to skip)

I cried through pretty much the entire last episode, so thanks for that! But, no, wow, as someone who... while not ex-Catholic, is very much ex-Christian... that was an incredibly cathartic experience.

For anyone interested in it: almost all the characters DO die so, you know. Take that into account if you are reading this spoiler-filled review but haven’t watched it yet. If you decide to watch it, almost everyone dies.

It’s a vampire story. It’s a story about the church eating people up. It’s a story about repression and hunger and, oh, very very much about fear. It’s about regret. It’s about desperately wanting a second chance and about the fact that there are no second chances, not really. There’s only forward, and future generations. “We fade away. That’s how it’s supposed to be.” (quote probably not exact)

Drink my blood and have eternal life. It makes sense that John Pruitt, a religious man and a man filled with regret. Filled with fear. Lost and confused and alone. A man who spent his life in service of the church and denied himself the family he wanted desperately to claim for his own. When he was ‘reborn’ into a younger body, it makes sense that he WANTED it to be God giving him a second chance. He talks himself into it. We see him do it. He didn’t choose this ‘gift’ himself, but once he realizes what it could mean, he wants to share it with the people who mean the most to him. The love that was never his wife, and the daughter that he never acknowledged was his own. And the man that he saw an echo of himself in -- who had also been given a ‘second chance’ at life after his own life had been ruined because of his own choices.

And the people Pruitt most wanted to accept the ‘gift’ of eternal life all rejected it, because the price was too high. “Don’t interrogate a miracle” one of the believers says near the beginning of the series, but they MUST because they need to know why. Because if you don’t know why and if you don’t know how, then you don’t really know if there’s a price and if it’s worth paying.

(Leeza smiles at the end, when she realizes her miracle is gone)

It’s one of the best vampire stories I’ve ever seen. The ‘angel’ is... fascinating. It’s a predator, with a high hunger drive but an even higher reproductive urge. The way the heroes use that hunger against the vampires near the end is really well done -- using themselves as bait, sacrificing themselves to save the rest of the world from this monstrous predator that Pruitt brought into their midst. The predator that they couldn’t truly see until it was too late and far too much damage had been done to the community. Dressed in the robes of a priest, because of course. The walls of the church splattered with blood. Literally everything involving Bev, who is probably the person who actually set all this is motion (Pruitt NEVER should have been sent off alone at his age and in his condition!) and is the person least horrified by the horrors and the most willing to spill other people’s blood. She was a vampire long before she ever drank any of the angel’s blood.

There are a LOT of long philosophical dialogues and monologues, which I really enjoyed but I know those aren’t for everyone. But I’m pretty much Riley in my PoV re: death and what happens to us when we die, so I really enjoyed all the discussions he had with Erin and Pruitt. Sheriff Hassan also has some really good speeches; I think I may have already reblogged one of them before I watched the show, but there’s another great one later when he’s talking to Sarah. Some of the most intense scenes involve two people just sitting down and talking to each other. The actors were all fantastic, imo.

It’s been a while since I talked out my feelings about a show like this, so this is probably a little scattered and all over the place but, yeah. Just needed to get the words out.

[showtoonzfan]

TRIGGER WARNING: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE

So I wanted to talk about Vaggie for a bit, mainly the theories I have with her. For starters, I think it’s no surprise that I believe she committed suicide at one point in her life.

(Art Credit To Vivziepop)

Vaggie seems like a character that isn’t entirely bad or evil, at least from what we’ve seen in the pilot. She’s kind, caring, and the only person who seems to be down to earth and has a more human mindset compared to the crazy world of Hell and it’s characters surrounding her. When it comes to Vivziepop’s concept art and character sketches of her, Vaggie would always seem like a miserable person, most of the time frowning and looking really upset, not to mention art pieces similar to this, with eyes watching her and her looking upset, bothered or distraught. Throughout the years, she seems like a very angsty character despite how she is now, she seems depressed, especially with the whole “goth” thing Viv has going for her, and I have the feeling Hazbin Hotel will take the direction of the cause of her death being suicide. (That and Viv lacks subtly, the print here showcases a bunch of nooses hanging over her.)

I have a theory that maybe she ended up killing someone in a fit of rage, or maybe the reason she’s in hell is simply BECAUSE of her suicide, (Because in Christianity I think that’s a sin) but if that’s the case, I sincerely hope Viv handles this issue in a serious and compelling way. Suicide is a VERY difficult issue to tackle, and I hope the show succeeds in dealing with it, though I have my doubts. I just want Vaggie to be treated better, she seems like a character who has a lot going on for her, so let’s hope she gets the spotlight when the time is right. Moving along though, I of course wanted to talk about the whole eye situation Vaggie has going on. For those who don’t know, Viv would usually always draw these eyes on Vaggie, probably for aesthetic purposes, but it is unknown why she did it. I sort of have a theory when it comes to this, but it also regards two OTHER theories I’ve seen most of the fandom have. Regarding the whole X aesthetic Vaggie has, a lot of fans have had theories that she used to be an exterminator, or a fallen Angel since she’s so kind, or even both. If you want to know MY take on that, I honestly agree, it does feel like Vaggie has some sort of connection with the Angels since they themselves are associated with X’s, but maybe that’s because it’s just another one of Viv’s obsessions. I don’t want to be the one who thinks too deeply of certain aesthetics Viv creates for her characters, because half of the time it doesn’t mean much, but I do think Vaggie being a fallen Angel or exterminator COULD DEFINITELY be a possibility.

Now I say all of this because I have one last theory of my own. Now this is ONLY if the whole “Vaggie is actually an exterminator” theory turns out to be true, but here it is. With the whole eye thing Vaggie has going on for her, I have the theory that those eyes are the eyes that belonged to all the souls that she has killed in the past, and the reason she keeps seeing them constantly is because she’s guilty, and going crazy of if they’re really there, or she’s hallucinating them. I feel like that would be a cool and interesting take on her character, especially if it turns out she used to be a ruthless killer compared to who she is now. It also sort of corresponds to an Alastor theory, where all the souls HE’S killed are the ones laughing in his microphone. It could be a similarity both characters have, and a potential way to how they could understand one another in the future. I see Vaggie going “How are you not guilty” or “how can you take knowing you killed people in the past so well” and despite Alastor not liking her, perhaps he could help her with that issue, and the two can sort of be on better terms with one another from then. Not friends, but more understanding of the two. Then again, these theories are huge stretches, and this will sound petty, but I don’t think Viv is honestly that creative to come up with something like that, but we’ll see.

While I do think the suicide theory for Vaggie will be true, I certainly do hope her character and backstory is written in a interesting way despite it seeming sort of predictable (same for most of the other sinner characters honestly.) But yeah, that’s kinda what I wanted to share. If it turns out Vaggie did kill herself, here’s hoping that the issue is dealt with in a compelling way. This will sound surprising, but Vaggie is a character I’m interested in. Next to Alastor, she’s the most mysterious, and I’m curious to know what the show will do with her. Let’s also hope the writers treat her with RESPECT, unlike Viv who sees her as a punching bag with her “Lol fiery Latina gal go brrr” attitude. You feel bad for Vaggie because she’s one of the more human characters, and I will say this, she IS pretty I have to admit, just add some moth features and maybe give her some blues or purples, but anyway, I’d like to know y’all’s thoughts on Vaggie, and what theories with her you have! Feel free to share! 💜

[the-desolated-quill]

Alright @abysmallylost23 Let me show you the wonders of the criminally underrated Toxin arc.

So Toxin is the son of Carnage, and the grandson of Venom. He’s also the thousandth spawn of his genetic line, which means he has the potential to be the most powerful symbiote, but also the most mentally unstable. Carnage doesn’t want the child, but is too weak to kill it after he’s given birth, so he attaches it to a cop named Patrick Mulligan for safekeeping while he regains his strength. Meanwhile Venom (not with Eddie Brock sadly) wants to find Toxin in the hopes that he will help him kill Spider-Man. But then he makes a horrific discovery. It turns out his grandson is actually… nice! This simply won’t do, so Venom and Carnage decide to form a temporary truce in order to kill Toxin. Toxin ultimately prevails with the help of Spider-Man and Black Cat. Patrick Mulligan however is terrified of the potential consequences of having a symbiote, considering his wife has just given birth to his son. Fearing for their safety, and inspired by Spider-Man’s message of “with great power comes great responsibility”, he decides to abandon his family in order to learn to control Toxin.

Which brings us to ‘The Devil You Know’ miniseries. Trigger warning for mentions of suicide, self-harm, depression, and abuse.

In a separate comic book event that isn’t really important, a bunch of supervillains have escaped from the Raft and Spider-Man is working with the Avengers to recapture them. The miniseries starts with Spidey recruiting Toxin to find a villain called Razorfist. A supervillain who literally has blades instead of hands. What follows is a darkly comedic but surprisingly mature story about co-dependency and self worth.

Razorfist is a horrific piece of work. Because of his blades, he’s unable to do things by himself, so he recruits followers to help him. He targets young people, the disenfranchised, the emotionally vulnerable, and recruits them to be his servants. He forces them to feed him, clothe him, and perform demeaning acts for his own pleasure such as using them as furniture or encouraging them to cut themselves. He serves as a sharp contrast to Toxin, highlighting the difference between a symbiote and parasite. Both the symbiote and the host benefit from the bond, whereas Razorfist, the parasite, just takes and takes for himself. The question the miniseries raises is whether or not the benefits of Toxin outweighs the costs to Patrick Mulligan’s life.

I adore Patrick and Toxin’s relationship. It is very much the dynamic of a single father struggling to raise a petulant teenager. Toxin is keen to show off his power and hunt bad guys, but Patrick is frightened of the consequences of letting Toxin off the leash. Over the course of the miniseries, the two learn to open up and trust each other. There are a lot of funny moments, such as Toxin refusing to come out and fight until Patrick apologises for an argument they had earlier, but also some very touching moments too. Throughout the miniseries, Patrick struggles with the guilt of abandoning his wife and child. At one point, after enduring many tragedies and hardships, he tries to kill himself by stepping in front of a train. Toxin saves him, leading to a tense but emotional exchange where it’s revealed that Toxin is actually scared of losing Patrick. He’s afraid of being alone and isn’t sure if he could move on and bond with a new host should something happen to Patrick. Meanwhile it becomes clearer and clearer that the reason Patrick left his wife wasn’t because he feared for her safety, but rather because he’s afraid that he won’t be a good father to his son. Both Patrick and Toxin end up bringing out the best in each other, supporting each other and helping to overcome their fears. Patrick gains a crash-course in parenting from raising Toxin, and Toxin learns to respect Patrick’s boundaries. It all comes to a head when Toxin finally defeats Razorfist only to then refuse to kill him, instead disarming him (ha ha) and handing him to the police. The miniseries ends with Patrick finally reuniting with his wife and son, and revealing Toxin at last. They also agree to give Toxin an hour of playtime each night, where he’s allowed to do whatever he wants provided he doesn’t commit any crimes.

I love Toxin. He’s my favourite symbiote. I love his story and I love what the character represents. Unfortunately he’s been mistreated badly by Marvel over the years. After the miniseries, he pretty much disappears for nearly a decade only to then come back in the most insulting way possible. First of all, Patrick and his family are killed offscreen, and then Toxin ends up bonding with Eddie Brock, which could have been interesting except they retconned Toxin’s personality so he’s just a mindless monster that needs to be controlled. I haven’t read anything Toxin related since. It angers me what they did to the character. There was so much potential for both Toxin and Patrick going forward. My headcanon is that the Mulligans are still alive, and Patrick and Gina are happily raising their sons Edward and Toxin somewhere. Toxin’s story is very much about nature vs nurture, and how we’re not defined by our genetics or our origins, but rather by our actions and our love for others. While it’s never been confirmed, I strongly suspect the Venom movies are influenced by the Toxin comics because those same themes play out between Eddie and Venom as well. And I can’t tell you how overjoyed I was when I realised Stephen Graham’s character was Patrick Mulligan. Yes they’ve changed aspects of his story to fit with Carnage and Shriek, but it’s still the same character I loved from the miniseries. And now Toxin, fucking TOXIN, is going to be in a big budget superhero film. I never ever thought I’d see the day. 🥹

Apparently writer and director Kelly Marcel is open to doing spinoff films featuring other symbiotes. If that means a Toxin movie is on the cards… It would be a dream come true. I love Toxin with all my heart. He never got the recognition he deserved, and even if he only ends up being in The Last Dance, I’ll forever be grateful that Tom Hardy and co went to the effort of giving such an underrated character a chance at the spotlight.

Me watching Venom 2 in the cinema: OMG, it’s Toxin! Mulligan’s got the Toxin symbiote! We’re going to see Toxin!!! 🥳🤓

My friends: Toxin? Who the fuck is Toxin?

Me, a die-hard Toxin fanboy who read the miniseries multiple times when he was a kid and will look for any excuse to talk about it:

[danger-noodle-uwu]

This is a pretty graphic idea I had but I understand if you don’t want to do it or find it too triggering.

I want to request hc’s of the Brothers + Datables (but if you do the Brothers and Datables separately than just the Brothers please) reacting to MC being summoned but MC’s covered in blood and holding a weapon like a bat or knife, because they massacred their abusive family and they don’t feel bad about it at all. Mc’s pretty emotionally hollow and they don’t show much reaction or fear to dangerous situations either since the Bros do start off threatening and rude but they relate to Mammon since he’s emotionally abused by his Bros and physically punished by Lucifer.

This is only if you feel comfy doing it and I apologize if I broke the rules and making you find it very triggering and disturbing

Trigger warning!

Mentions of blood/murder/abuse

Do not proceed if sensitive

Lucifer

At the summoning part, Lucifer would be merely worried about what type of student has diavolo choosen, pitying his taste. Though he was but a demon, weary and skittish around you.

The Avatar of pride scared of mere human?

(Though he kinda was)

Blood being spilled on the floor was common in devildom yet he was unfazed.

But now, things are different and he can't help to worry about how this weak creature will influence on his brothers.

the fallen-morningstar tried to keep you away from the entire of his brothers including himself.

He also made sure that never was anything that could be used as a potential weapon surround you.

Often the man would receive rather harsh words from you and get somewhat hurt. Yet , not a single cry reach your ears.

(Que enemies to lovers dynamic)

When the pair started dating, the raven-haired demon had already known the past and what it once held for mc...

Oh how much he wishes, he helped you instead of interrogating every movement, to regain the 'you' that your parents killed. So, he will find a solution. To find those rascals in the realm of spirits or demons and put them once again at your mercy.

Prepare yourself Mc. For a whole month of pampering and love as he will never dare repeat the mistake he made.

Mammon

As the story is, Mammon didn't encounter you first but only heard melody of your voice.

The first meet was unforgettable, he was petrified to see the blood dripping off your slender bruised figure.

One thought that he was scared however, No he was anything but scared. He had thought you were the one hurt like--you know h-how Lucifer hurts him.

He rushed towards you but was stopped by the eldest saying " They aren't hurt." And this was the first person tried who befriend you.

When your words were sweetly aimed at him and just HIM. He'd feel his heart beat racing like crazy which made him believe he thought you found him special.

He was never honest with anyone, until you showed up. His biggest fear was snapping because of the mean comments his brothers pass and you had probably done something similar.

He wanted to know. Though dense he may seem, he hoped you'd tell him.

Was it scary? Do you feared this before? Is it still scary? Do you feel emotions after this?

Yet he never asked...

When the greedy Boi and mc started dating, they told everything about their condition. Of how they snapped.

He was the most understanding of his brothers and promised to never let another one harm you. Not even you.

He loved even more since that day. Not to mention 1323433454455686 'I love you's per day.

Leviathan

Blabbering lord knows what, Leviathan had stepped out of his room even if that was to scold mammon and get his money back.

He obviously knew about the exchange program but what he didn't know was that bloody murderer would be part of it!!!

He wasn't moving when he saw the numb expression you wore and the bloody knife you had held.

Inside, he was scared shitless but he didn't know how to show it.

A mere-human had terrified The great admiral of hell's navy. What shame he was.

"Oi cut it out!" Yelled the scummy yet kind demon protectively moving between the two.

In the beginning, he felt unsafe only by your gaze and refusing to make eye contact.

And then, a good day to exit to his room. The true reason being the pearly raindrops that had littered the gardens of HOL.

He saw you... soaking wet smiling and hurting... shining brightly though it felt dim.

That day. That dammed day. He found out who truly were. A beautiful person who was just hurting and breaking.

Since then, he has been a mix of a nagging mother but also shy as if a touch-me-not.

Dating him was heavenly, he wasn't shy with touch yet words were a whole another thing to him.

He always left 'Love you's in the chats and reminders on your phone that were just a bunch of 'eat healthy' 'stay safe', etc.

And this was certain that his love will never end.

Satan

Snatching the bat from your hands, the blonde-man threatened to kill you with your own weapon if you dared to move.

And that's exactly what you wanted... to die... to end the suffering...

And he saw it.

Saw how horribly you were hurting, he knew what it felt however, he couldn't lose his composure not in front of his brothers.

Wrath is a storm which is followed by pain. He knew this. Same in your case except pain knocked the doors first.

He knew it was too early for asking. So, he kept his mouth shut. Not wishing to hurt you any further though he didn't know why he felt this way.

When you finally finished your 2nd month in your new home, things had changed as the Avatar of wrath often talked to you not about how bloody you arrived or you had killed but are you okay now?

His words were soft. So sweet.

Each time he would offer you his shoulder to cry on, you would feel your heart slowly warm up. Slightly more each-time.

Soon enough you started dating the green-eyed pact demon of yours, recalling the long lost feeling of warmth and love.

The knowledgeable one loved to show physical affection especially in front of his brothers.

Oh~ the smell of their burning envy, when he kissed the nape of your neck and complimented you.

Post-its were his favorite though.

He would often write 'Love you, kitten' 'take break,love' 'you look amazing today',etc.

Asmodues

He yelped when he saw a bloodied figure emerge from the purple haze. Are they okay?

He was concerned only till a knife was spotted next your seemingly heartless figure. Now, he was somewhat hiding behind satan in disgusted yet anxious way.

You gaze deeply disturbed him to an extent he even had nightmares of you ripping him open with same knife and had that soul-less expression.

He much like Leviathan refused to see you after the encounter but what was different, was the course of events...

He saw you arguing with Lucifer, for you refused let him hurt Mammon who curled behind you.

Asmo felt pity for you as he knew the outcome of an argument with the eldest.

"Lucifer don't hurt him, please. He already has enough bruises" Asmo says giving his sweet brother Luci the puppy eyes, hoping they would work. (Yeah they didn't)

But nonetheless Luci~ still backed out and left the hallway.

You rush for the poor injured demon, he is crying while thanking you for the save.

And there for one moment, The lustful blond saw emotion in those glassy eyes of yours. It was beautiful and aching at the same time.

Making him greedy for more...

Later the very same day, he approached you finally asking the questions his head was haunted by.

What was weird? He didn't blame you for breaking instead he complimented you for being a survivor of such harsh tortures.

Accepting his confession was the best thing you ever did.

He is open with affection especially when you both are in public to show he is yours. You are his. You belong together.

for his hunger to see those pretty eyes shine with joy is endless, he makes Mc smile with happiness and love

Beelzebub

Famished as always was the sixth born. Especially after smelling human blood.

Little did he know the blood of the now dead parents of mc, the exchange student.

He wasn't even fazed unlike his brothers. He couldn't care any less than he did nor about the blood neither about the weapon clutched in your hands.

Even if you passed insults, he wouldn't mind. Sometimes, he asks why you dislike him? And is fine even if the answer is illogical. (Don't fuckin hate him)

Numb eyes. Tears flowing freely. Cuts. Bruises. Hurting. Dying inside.

The glutton wipes the sweat off his forehead remembering the condition of yours in that horrendous nightmare.

You looked awfully similar to belphi when- when s-she died. He blamed himself and hurt himself for being so useless. Just like you do.

And then realization hits--

YOU ARE HURTING!!

He now knew why your rude words didn't hurt him because you were like belphegor trying to protect your fragile heart.

Why you look numb? because you're trying to hide the pain. Push people away so you don't get hurt when they go away.

The following day, you were gently woken by the huge teddy bear. He held a hand out for you before taking you to his room for the special breakfast.

You teared upon the sight instantly realizing that he recognized your suffering. He apologized for not noticing earlier and from now, he will be there for you.

Never in the three realms did he think he'd fall for you? Maybe he had all along just didn't notice....

Once you begin dating the orange-head, he was ecstasic and cheerful all the time. Encouraging words followed you everywhere.

He would often eat the entire fridge out. So as apology, a cupcake with sorry written on it was placed on the kitchen counter. Other days, when he won't go such extreme, carrot chips or a poison apple etc. Waited for you.

Beely is the opposite of possessive. Protective. He is Protective and supports you through the ups and downs in life. He was your true savior. A savior who never judged you for your past.

His Love is the sky, you learned to fly in.

Belphegor

He had heard the tale of how the human exchange student had shown up covered in blood with a bat in hand.

Never did he believe that it was true until seeing the monotone figure of them.

The way they spoke made them like Lucifer. Emotionless. Heartless. Ruthless. Monster.

He wanted to strangle them on spot but he was stuck within the confines of the attic.

The sloth couldn't help passing comment making mc slowly reveal the aching heart of their own-self.

Expression faultered and he saw it--No, no more like felt it. The way their tears were swallowed. The way their voice turned monotone once again to cover what had already been seen.

However, the seventh born didn't say a word, he just showed affection through body language as they couldn't touch each other yet.

After he was free from the prison of an attic, he ran to you. His star. The one that guided him out to freedom.

It felt weird dating the lazy demon. Afterall, he was doing nothing other than shoving compliments in your face and dozing off here and there.

Few months pass and things become smoother than how they were.

Now, he always compliments you but softly and sweetly. Always willing to listen to whatever you wanna rant about.

"You are my true love, Mc. The star that guides to where I belong when I'm lost."

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Welp! That was long as hell. Anyway, thank you for the request. It kinda feels like you and my sister share the same brain cell cuz she said the same thing but like- mc ate their organs and more messy. God I hope you like it...

Good day!

[frenchifries]

Deltarune.com “Secret” Pages

People have already catalogued the secret pages in Google Docs (1, 2), but they’re a little scattered for my tastes, so I thought I’d try to make my own. This is a compilation of information discovered by myself and many other people, so lots of credit goes to everyone who contributed to the linked documents!

1 & 2. code & code/comments

The bottom of the sweepstakes page contains this banner...

...which links to this “blog post” in which Noelle mentions the official Dragon Blazers website (an in-universe video game many Deltarune characters play) updating with “a bunch of weird links.” The number of links mentioned was originally lower (the first reported number seems to be 14), but increased as more pages went live on the Deltarune site, capping out at 26.

The included audio file, midi-holiday-country.mp3, is a country-style rendition of jingle bells. In the post comments, Berdly attempts to convince Noelle to make him a mod or admin of the blog, which she rejects by alleging that her computer is bugged and the admin panel won’t work.

Berdly also complains that someone keeps prank calling him, as he has included his phone number in his username; the number was originally a static fake phone number (beginning with 555) but was at some point changed to randomize itself on every page load; it still has a 555 area code, and the number itself is one digit too long to be valid.

Jockington comments to ask if Dragon Blazers contains sports; it doesn’t.

3. icee

The sweepstakes page also displays one of three randomized banners. this one...

...links to a page titled Have you seen him? containing a submission from Noelle as a young child (with poor spelling and grammar) in which she encountered a creepy Ice-e’s pizza box. As we know from her room in Queen’s mansion, Noelle has had something of a fixated fear of the Ice-e character, worrying that he’s real and potentially dangerous.

The mention of Noelle’s sister at the end there is exciting! Let’s see what that links to!

4. december

...Oh. Well, you will notice this is of course a fake 404 page. It could certainly be a reference to the fact that December is known to be missing, perhaps even trapped outside of reality/within the game’s code itself. The note “had its name changed” could also be trying to make a point that Noelle’s sister doesn’t actually go by that name anymore; After all, we’ve mostly heard her referred to as...

5. dess

This page doesn’t seem to be linked from anywhere, but its existence may be intentionally hinted at by the above page. It contains a sprite of a guitar, and the page title reads * (It’s a red guitar).

When the guitar is clicked, a version of Lost Girl plays. The song is called findher.mp3, and was also uploaded as a short, titled decemberholiday.ogg, to the holidaygirl1225 Youtube channel (we might circle back on this in another post, as this one is going to be atrociously long).

All of this suggests that the song Lost Girl is indeed intended to be associated, at least in part, with our very own lost girl Dess Holiday, and that Dess may have played guitar. Interestingly, when Deltarune Chapter 2 is hacked so you can attempt to equip the Puppet Scarf to Noelle, she comments that it “feels like guitar strings.” Noelle is known to draw comparisons to things that remind her of her sister.

6. secretpipis

Now, let’s get back to those banners.

This one links to a page with an image of a single pipis, which plays a crowd gasping sound effect (crowd_gasp.mp3) when clicked. the page is titled You lost! Not much else to this one.

7. secret

The final banner we’re looking at links to a page titled But what’s behind door number one? containing a 4x4 grid of blue cabinets.

Clicking each cabinet opens it, accompanied by a sound effect labeled wing.mp3. Most will simply show the open empty cabinet and play a crowd groaning sound effect (crowd_ouch.mp3). The following cabinets will trigger different effects:

Row 1, Column 2: A Ralsei plush appears, accompanied by the adoring crowd_aww.mp3.

Row 2, Column 3: A pipis appears, accompanied by crowd_gasp.mp3.

Row 3, Column 4: A photo of an empty gumball machine appears, accompanied by crowd_ahh.mp3.

Row 4, Column 1: A cropped screenshot from the Wikipedia page for the website Superbad, a “web art” project from the late 90s.

Row 4, Column 3: Links to...

8. chair

This eerie page contains a picture of a chair with a cloth draped over its back.

Clicking the chair changes the page title from But what if it could... to ...get darker than dark? and swaps the chair with a dark, undulating version of itself, accompanied by the sound effect water.mp3.

There is also a smallish chance that clicking the chair will result in a “jumpscare” consisting of Spamton’s pixellated eyes, accompanied by the creepy laughter sound face.mp3; this jumpscare will quickly redirect to the main sweepstakes page.

9. catpetterz

Linked in the description of the “Fur-thentic Cardboard Box,” this is another blog post from Noelle in which she discusses one of her favorite games, Cat Petterz 2. The accompanying audio file is a corrupted-sounding version of the first one, midi-holiday-country.mp3, except this one is deceptively titled midi-holiday_country.mp3 – the second dash is replaced with an underscore.

I love Noelle’s discussions of weird, vaguely unsettling video game lore and mechanics. It feels very realistic to how many games, especially older ones, have aspects that aren’t inherently outright scary, but that, especially to a young mind, can come across as creepy and disturbing. I remember having plenty of irrational fears around strange video game glitches as a kid!

The link at the end here leads us to...

10. egg

Another entry from Noelle, although it seems the black and gray pages represent her personal blog or digital journal, as opposed to the pink blog where she talks about games specifically – though the page title on these entries is still “Welcome to holidaygirl1225’s game secrets, glitches, and theories blog!” so I guess it’s all supposed to be part of the same blog. The link at the end links back to /code.

In this post we learn that Noelle encountered a “special egg” in Cat Petterz that never hatched, made a weird sound when clicked, and “left home due to happiness” after being cared for as opposed to running away from neglect. She suspects the problem arose from having too many incompatible mods, but the fact that this page is linked from a second source – and that Noelle is certain the egg had a name despite being unable to remember what it was – suggests another possible source of said egg.

11. man

Sources say this page actually existed on the Deltarune website before the sweepstakes. I believe I remember seeing it as well, but I couldn’t tell you with 100% confidence. It mimics the strange hidden rooms in Chapters 1 and 2 in which Kris encounters the man who gives them eggs.

The page is titled * (Behind the tree.). – yes, with a period inside and outside the parenthesis – and clicking the space above the tree links to /egg.

12. bluecircle

Continuing Noelle’s Cat Petterz 2 saga, in this post – linked from the description of the Pipis Bath Rug – Noelle recounts the time she put some “random letters and numbers” from a mysterious spam email into the game as a mod.

When loaded, the game created a glitchy creature consisting of a single blue circle, capable of reproducing on its own until it created so many copies that the game crashed.

I wonder if Noelle’s note about how she “couldn’t explain why anyone liked it, but it was really funny to see who did XD” is meant to reflect people’s unexpected reaction to Spamton as a character 🤔

Once again, the link at the end leads back to /code.

13. kris dreemurr kriss

Let’s wrap up Noelle’s last two blog posts. They’re both marked as private, only visible to friends. This one is linked in the description for the Heart Locket. In it, Noelle recalls when she and Kris were younger and would play together at her house. Apparently Kris would sometimes play piano. The page is accompanied by an audio file called pianpian.mp3 that consists of... somewhat odd piano music.

So it seems Kris used to play piano, though we know from interacting with the hospital piano that they seem unable to do so while under the player’s control.

14. the n3w3st g1rl g1rl

Linked from the description of the Engraved Wristwatch – and no, I’m not sure what it means that the URL is spelled like that. Here Noelle describes an incident, likely shortly after Susie joined their class, in which Susie threatened Kris and said their mom would be happier without them. Yikes!

It’s interesting how Noelle seemingly recognizes how brutal this behavior is while still retaining her desire for Susie to push her around. Other people in other posts have already talked at length about Susie’s potential reasons for saying this stuff and how Kris might feel about it, so I won’t linger on it here.

15. d a m n y o u t e n n a

Now this is an interesting one! Linked in the description of the Spamton Engraved Wedding Ring – specifically, the text reading [It hurts! It Hurts!]. The page is titled DELETE THIS !. We’ve got a TV with a red X over it, and Spamton’s ramblings about how everything is someone’s fault, and that everyone will pay, except...

Mike, whose name is written in black so as to blend in with the background.

Tenna, of course, likely refers to a TV antenna. Is this another character involved in the Chapter 3 Dark World and Spamton’s backstory?

Clicking on the TV changes the page to TV static and the title to YOU’RE EARLY!, accompanied by the sound effect tv_static_bad.mp3. Scrolling down this page reveals some difficult-to-read white text that says “WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE? YOU SHOULDN’T BE HERE!” At the bottom of the page are two clickable images, camouflaged with the background as they also consist of TV static. The upper one changes the page yet again to a blue screen, titled AREN’T YOU FORGETTING SOMETHING? When you scroll back to the top, you will find a... door?

Which takes us to...

16. icepalace glaceir

(Yes, it’s spelled glaceir. Also for the record, the “broken image” is in fact a properly embedded image called screen.gif that intentionally mimics the old-school broken image icon.) Did I say we wrapped up Noelle’s blog posts? Sorry, I lied. It’s 2:30 in the morning where I am right now!

Ah yes, more old childhood video game weirdness. Noelle talks about a maze in Dragon Blazers where you can get stuck if you access it without the necessary character in your party. Except, in her persistent curiosity, she found a way to a door, and was able to repeat this despite feeling like the process is different every time. Unfortunately, she could never figure out how to open that door...

17. ramb

back on the static screen, we will find that the lower clickable image takes us to a... different door. The page title is Where could this be?

Clicking the door changes the title to Welcome to the Green Room! and we are greeted by a very pleasant looking room with some sofas, TVs, a bar (with a little Maus hanging up in it? Also swords?), and perhaps some sort of vending machine. A nice chill variant of the already quite chill Hip Shop, called greenroom.mp3. This seems like a shop area that will be in Chapter 3.

Each door leads to a different page. The one on the left takes us to...

18. weather

Here we seem to get a sneak peek of a couple weather-based Darkners we’ll likely encounter in Chapter 3! Exciting stuff! For some reason, the title of this page is You’re the Annoying Now Dog! (a reference to the website You’re the Man Now, Dog).

Clicking on these guys gets us a full page of them doing a little attack animation, large text that says THE WEATHER ALWAYS STICKS TOGETHER, and a variant of Rude Buster called battle_vapor.mp3.

i feel it’s worth mentioning that the 3D text effect was achieved by duplicating, resizing, repositioning, and recoloring every line multiple times (about 30-40 times each).

19. changingroom

Back in the Green Room, the door with the star on it takes us to the “changing room,” a page titled (Private...). A pink curtain awaits, just begging to be clicked.

Doing so cues up the “wing” sound effect again, and reveals a “Shadowman” putting on a sock. After a moment, he screams, using the aptly-titled scream.mp3.

There is also a chance that, instead of a Shadowman, you will find a tiny spinning Lancer!

Doing nothing will result in the curtain simply closing again, allowing you to open and close it as many times as you wish. However, you can also click on the Shadowman or Lancer before the curtain closes to go to, well, /shadowmen or /lancer! So let’s look at those.

20. shadowmen

More exciting stuff! This appears to be a preview of a Chapter 3 battle against Darkners called Shadowmen, sock-wearing cartoony gangster type characters that wield saxophones and shotguns. We get to see the Fun Gang “knock their socks off” with this cool group attack that for some reason involves wearing slick suits!

battle_vapor.mp3 also accompanies this battle. This page is also linked from the description of the Ralsei Nurse Costume For Plush.

21. lancer

Just a lil picture of a very small round Lancer, also linked in the description of the Lancer Cookie. Shares the You’re the Annoying Now Dog! title with /weather.

Clicking on Lancer does a similar thing as /weather as well, showing us a full page of repeating, spinning Lancers and large text that says HO HO HO! YOU JUST GOT LANCERED!!! with the same 3D text trick, accompanied by a fast-paced chiptune rendition of Lancer’s theme, called lancer-spin.mp3.

22. tv

Okay! Back to /ramb (the Green Room)! Finally, the door on the right leads to...

A TV, turned off. No, really, that’s all that’s on this page. I’m looking at the source code right now. It’s just this. The page title simply reads * It’s off.

23. bluebubble.rodeo

This is an odd one, as it’s not even technically hosted on deltarune.com but is its own standalone URL – which is found on the Spamton Toiler Paper. Not in the description for the toilet paper. ON the toilet paper.

Yeah, if you zoomed in to read that and decided to type in that URL, you would be greeted by a picture of Kris and Susie in cowboy attire on a page titled Get ready for 2 minutes of mildly entertaining shoot-out action! Clicking on the image plays a whip sound effect (whip.mp3).

24. blink

A page titled What? depciting Susie in her dark world outfit lying down asleep.

Clicking on her will cause her to open her eyes, appearing confused. She will proceed to blink at random intervals, with each blink accompanied by blink.mp3.

Clicking on her again will put her back to sleep.

25. sighting

A page titled SIGHTING 1997 depicting a slow zoom in on a grainy black and white photograph of a Spamton plush sitting on a toilet. Clicking anywhere on the page switches to a different photo and causes digitalroots.mp3 to start playing.

26. dog

I... don’t know why I saved this one for last. It’s not the most exciting page. I was just trying to group things together in ways that made sense, and these last few pages sort of wound up here at the end. Sorry.

This one is pretty straightforward. Titled HALL OF FAME, it’s linked from the description of the Championship Belt. Clicking on the image causes the Annoying Dog to appear in the picture frame, with the words BEST INU emblazoned across the plaque, and playing a triumphant variation of HEY EVERY ! simply called dog.mp3.

conclusion?

So, depending on how you count up all these pages – does /code count even though it introduces the idea of the secret pages? does /code/comments count as its own page? – that brings us to 26 pages, the final number mentioned in Noelle’s original blog post.

It took me a long time to write up and format this post! I think we’re approaching the 5 hour mark. So I hope the information here is cool and interesting to everyone, and if anyone has any questions, comments, addendums, or corrections, feel free to let me know.

Oh, and if you haven’t already, be sure to check out Toby’s September status update! Some neat stuff is in there.

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Read this please

hey, hello. I have a idea I wanna submit to Netflix, but before I do,

I want your guys opinion.

'Alan Decker, is a scientist who works on creating unique and enhanced flavors. He has already worked a miracle on a small cafe right down his street, by giving them one of his recipe's. Only because it was the only cafe near him and the only one that had good potential. But one day, as he was going to get his regular coffee, he saw an eviction note. he asks why they were getting evicted, and Turns out, they were drug dealers who haven't been paying their rent for months now. Irritated, He decides to help out the new cafe just beside his house(lab??). He goes back home and get some stuff before entering the cafe, where he was greeted by -probably- the only employee there. He sat down, and to the surprise of the waiter, He ordered every pastry and beverage in the menu. Surprisingly, the waiter took only a few minutes to ready 20 Drinks and 35 Pastries. He ate every single one and to no one's surprise, it all taste like shit, he wants to help the poor cafe to get it up and running, so, he asks to speak to the manager. the waiter looked down and asked 'is it that bad?' this was probably the first time Alan felt bad for an employee, but he decided to be straight forward with him, 'yes.' He walks to where the waiter was pointing, and saw a man sitting holding his head, the manager and the landlord, he grabs the attention of the man and asks him he could buy the land off him, the man looked bewildered and came to his knees' 'please! I'm sorry for what I've done this time! I have a husband and child to take care of' he rolled his eyes and told him to stand up, 'no, that's not the reason why I wanna buy the land,' he went on explaining to him that he wanted to help out in ways. The man agreed, seeing that this could help him and the person working there. The waiter introduced himself as Theodore, and the manager as Javier. and so, Alan , Theo, And Javier, work together to make the best cafe. after a few weeks', the cafe finally got some attention, and in some months', the cafe was filled to the brim every day. one night, Theodore, offered to pull an all nighter to clean and watch Javier's, child(a cat) and both agreed, as Javier, had a date to go to, and Alan, wanted to sleep. Alan's phone is connected to the security system of the cafe, and so if any alarms get triggered, his phone will blare in a unusual way. he woke up to the blaring and checked the camera's first, and to his surprise, he saw a bunch of people making molotov cocktails'. He grabbed his coat and ran to the cafe,(I know his house is right beside the cafe, but he sleeps underground,) once he arrived, he saw the place in flames, he then saw Javier, and told him to call 911 and the fire department, he took of his coat and slippers then went it. he ran down the stairs to get to the underground floor, and when he got down, the first thing he saw was Theo on the ground hugging the cat to his chest, he saw Javier, beside him, so he told him to grab the important papers', and with that done, they ran back up stairs. when they arrived back up to the surface, the doctors took Theo, and the firemen took out the fire, Alan, told the police who did it and showed them the proof. now that the people who did this are in jail, and Chris is recovering, Alan, felt relief. He was worried about Theo, a bit to much honestly, a few days later, Theo, was discharged from the hospital, all well and fully recovered. and when everything was getting better, the people who had caused the fire escaped from jail, they decide to hide out in Alan's mother's attic for a while(a week) during the days staying there, some kind of tension was building around Theo, and Alan, soft brushing of hands and learning new things about each other, turns out, Theo, is really good at drawing and he has a sketch book filled with doodles,(I think you know who). a week passed by really fast, and now there back standing in front of the burnt cafe. They decided to rebuild the cafe together, better and bigger than before.

During the attic stay and the rebuilding, Javier, noticed the change of relationship between the two boys, and thought that either they were dating, or they both have an oblivious crush on each other. I think its obvious which choice it is. He decides to pull Alan to the side and ask him how he feels about Theo, which to his surprise, Alan was all open to how he feels and told him everything, and now, He has a famous scientist who has a HUGE crush on the person he has always thought of as a son, and all of the sudden he made it his life priority to make his son happy.

eventually, the cafe was finished and as they said, it was bigger and better than before, and the tension between Alan and Theo? it hasn't lessened that much actually, it more likely gained, The tension gained attention from a bunch of high school girls, who kept on recording the two. With all the mindless flirting and the unresolved sexual tension between the two, he decided enough is enough, (its Javier btw) after six months, he finally decides to make Alan do the first move, Alan was scared, but he agreed knowing, even if he was rejected, he would be able to finally get rid of the heavy lump on his chest. and on a winter night, he asks Theodore out, and to his surprise, he agrees, he set up the time and place and is filled with relief that he agreed.

They meet in front of the café and its snowing around them, Alan hid the Bouquet behind his back and looked at Theo, He opens his mouth to speak, but when nothing came out he closed it. he cleared his throat and revealed the Bouquet, Theodore looked bewildered and asked 'for me?' he just nods as Theo took the flowers, he finally confessed 'Theo, I like you a lot, like, a lot, a lot. I like you for your determination and your... face?, I uhm.. Like you for taking care of me even though you were the one who needed taking care of, thank you for your never ending patience and kindness, and thank you for putting up with my attitude, but all I really want to say is, that... I love you' He closed his eyes and was ready to get yelled at, but when he felt a warm tingle against his lips, he re-opened his eyes to see Theodore leaning on him, He leaned in too and finally felt something worth living for.

THIS TOOK ME WAY TO LONG TO WRITE, anyways, I hope you guys like it, and for visual think of Theo as Jamie campbell bower, Alan as Joseph Quinn, And Javier as Oscar isaac, But thats only my visual so get wild with your visual on them;)

If this gets enough likes (atleast 1k or above) im gonna send this idea to netflix.( as a joke, but please like this)