#the sheep is scared and a crybaby about it :)

[anotherartblock]

old macdonald had a farm or something idk

[pubbamoon]

Random Astrology Observation 2

Hello! Welcome to my second part of a random astrology observation. The first part has got pretty successful, so I'm gonna continue this type of observation as the series, 'cause why not. This observation may apply to the both Western and Vedic astrology. Take the messages as they resonate with you, please. So, let's just continue!

I've noticed that the natives with a prominent air signs placements, especially in Vedic astrology, are mostly famous on social media (Instagram, TikTok or Twitter/X). People with the air signs in their sidereal natal chart, especially in Rahu-ruled nakshatras (Ardra, Swati and Shatabhisha) can absorb other people's energy and others can relate with these natives easily. Rahu represents internet fame, social media, uncertainty, outsiders and even illusions, while the air signs is related to the collectivity and the masses of people. If you want to be famous online, you have to be relatable to others. You might also fake it 'til you make it. With Rahu ruling both social media and illusions, it makes sense why the social media platforms, such as Instagram and TikTok, have always been considered as fake and not representing the real true life.

One thing I hate the most about the Western astrology is over generalizing when it comes to the zodiac signs. For example, the water signs (Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces) are always described as emotional, sensitive crybabies who cry all the time, which may not always be the case. People with water risings mostly have the 10th house in fire signs (Aries, Leo and Sagittarius) if we use whole sign system, which means that they might use their own individuality and authenticity to make things happen, including their career path. Fire signs usually are related to having a strong personality, so water rising natives tend to present themselves as confident and authentic. It's similar to any other rising or zodiac signs.

Natives who have the outer planets (Uranus, Neptune and Pluto) conjuncting their personal planets (from Sun to Mars) or Ascendant may likely to be the outsiders or the black sheep of the family and of their whole environment. They're mostly the generational curse breakers of their family and they might have a life path which is way more different than their family's life. These natives tend to be highly spiritual too, 'cause Uranus represents astrology, Neptune represents spirituality itself while Pluto might represents witchcraft.

I think that the biggest lesson from North Node and South Node (Rahu and Ketu in Vedic astrology) is to balance things in our life, 'cause they're forming an opposition aspect with each other nonstop. I always hear from the other astrologers that we need to let go of our South Node's placement and to embrace our North Node's placement, which is true, but I think that focusing only on North Node/Rahu and neglecting the South Node/Ketu doesn't lead us to our life mission and purpose. Yes, the North Node/Rahu represents something that scares us and what should we work on, but it doesn't mean that we should stop to tap into our South Node/Ketu energy, 'cause the South Node/Ketu doesn't represents just our comfort zone, it's also related to spirituality and seeking the truth of our lives, while the North Node/Rahu can represent material things and obsessions.

Having a stellium in someone's natal chart means that this native is going to focus on the things that are related to one particular sign or house. For example, someone who has a stellium in the 2nd house or in Taurus sign might focus on the finances and budgeting the money the most. The stellium in the 9th house or in Sagittarius sign may indicate someone being highly religious, even a fanatic in something that this native believes into.

When a particular planet is exalted in someone's natal chart, this means that a planet is mostly strong and well-placed. This is one of the best positions for every planet possible, including the planets being in domicile or in its own sign too. The Sun is exalted in Aries, the Moon is exalted in Taurus, Mercury is exalted in Virgo, Venus is exalted in Pisces, Mars is exalted in Capricorn, Jupiter is exalted in Cancer, while Saturn is exalted in Libra.

That's could be it for today! I hope it resonated with you. Make sure to love and take care of yourself. I love you all! ❤️

Best regards,

Paky McGee

[darlingpwease]

♡ Max (anon), if you were a character in a novel, I would ship you with...

luo binghe

you can say 'ok, but crybabies aren't my type, didn't I say that', and you'll probably think the same when you meet him for the first time. innocent lamb, white lotus — not exactly your type, especially when you dress in black and like to scare yourself with scary things, finding comfort in uncomfortable, while LUO BINGHE is rather friendly and hardworking, steadfastly enduring all the troubles and remaining bright and positive, maybe a little crazy.

yes? yes?

no.

LUO BINGHE is the type who goes to the maximum and reaches the extreme in all respects and expressions — love, hate, joy, grief; he is very intense and emotionally filled, and his demonic heritage brings everything to a particularly high degree (especially in those versions where he gets a xinmo). no one is particularly interested in your view of the situation when your shidi's gaze clings to your figure and he reaches the point of no return, catching something in your eyes that makes everyone around fade against your background.

on the subject of relationships closer to 'The Heathers', especially when LUO BINGHE feels that he is about to lose you and everything that he craves, becoming especially anxious and aggressive, changing the personality of a fluffy puppy who, instead of barking, babbles like "shixiong shixiong shixiong" — to a grinning wolf that drags and carries away. LUO BINGHE is a "black sheep", but an intelligent black sheep, who understands too easily how best to 'hoe' and care for you, and what should be avoided so as not to push you away.

you may be tempted to push him away instantly, avoiding the young man out of disdain or antipathy — but in the end it will still lead you into his hands, especially when you realize that it is much easier and better to accept than trying to push or avoid, only provoking and teasing LUO BINGHE, who has long learned, that love must be earned, and it is in your best interest to love him without violence.

he will only encourage you if you are banned stayed in a house and will not get out anywhere except with him and at night. home is the fortress of your relationship, where he can always come back and grab you, knowing that no one will try to take you away — especially after what he will arrange if you decide to leave — and that he can always return home, where you are waiting for him.

LUO BINGHE is pretty much a trophy husband and boytoy, but closer to the point that he sits and smiles beautifully, playing with his hair, cooking your favorite food, bringing your favorite books and shamelessly pampering you — only to drag you home at maximum speed as soon as there is a threat that someone wants to "take"you. is he acting like an obsessive puppy? maybe, but when he turns around you, constantly sticking in and almost growling, you forced to give in if you don't want to experience various ethical manipulations afterward, the essence of which is to force you to be in a corner and agree with him.

is he clingy? more than that, but you refuse to have to go with it — after all, he is still sweet, innocent, kind and caring, happy to go everywhere with you, indulging your lazy life and accepting you as he is, expecting you to do exactly the same.

but he's still a white lotus, right?

[haute-pockette]

rottmnt turtle tot headanons

All the kids were very empathetic when they were little

If one started crying it often led to a chain reaction of all of them crying

Usually started with Donnie

If not Donnie then it was likely Mikey, they were two easiest to set off

Then Leo would get upset cause his twin was crying

Cue Baby Mikey who would start up cause he was confused and scared about his big brothers crying

Raph would try to calm them down and fix whatever was wrong but no one would be able to use their words about what was wrong

He’d then wind up wailing along alongside them when nothing worked

Splinter would panic at first cause so much tears how do you even handle four crying toddlers?

But he learned to understand snotty sniffly toddler talk and would hurry to fix any boo-boos

That would slow down the waterworks but it usually took a snuggle pile and hot chocolate to calm them all down completely

Raph was the loudest cryer, he’d straight up scream

Donnie used to be a loud cryer too

He got quieter as he grew up, now he just silently fights back tears

Leo would mostly whimper and cling to his twin

Mikey was a very clingy, impossible to get him to let go until he calms down

Even after calming down he’ll still insist of comfort cuddles

Comfort cuddles often turned into Lou Jitsu movie marathons

They all went by their colors until a week or so after Mikey’s 7th birthday

Splinter got him a book about renaissance art that year

They all thought the names were super cool sounding and picked them out

Before that Donnie already changed his name once

When they were learning words and colors he declared he wanted to be Violet not Purple

Cause Purple isn’t in the rainbow like his brothers’ names and he wanted to match

He still answers to both but he prefers Violet

The old lair’s furniture all have half-chewed legs and corners from Raph’s teething days

Teething toys didn’t last long with his powerful jaw

Kong toys worked but Splinter would also got him things like sheep ears or bone chews

It wasn’t always about teething though, it was a comforting stim

Raph also loved lick mats covered in peanut butter

He’s very texture oriented

Back when Raph was closer in size to his brothers Mikey would climb on any of them

It’s only when Raph hit his growth spurt that everyone gravitated to climbing on his shell

Mikey was just clingy in general and loved to be close or in contact with his brothers

He tends to make the most turtle noises, mostly chirping happily and soft rumbling in his sleep almost like snores

Raph would rumble in his sleep too

Mikey doesn’t chirp as much any more but he still does it way more than his siblings

Donnie mostly hisses when frustrated

Leo is more likely to make turtle noises when he’s tired or not fully awake

Leo was always the most adventurous as a kid (hence grabbing fucking swords as his weapon when he was a toddler)

He usually had scraped knees and bruises from trying to explore or mimic Lou Jitsu stunts

Despite being the third oldest he considered himself the second oldest cause he was protective of his crybaby brothers

Considered it his job to keep his twin safe

That’s how he got into being the family medic, he wanted to be able to patch up and make his brothers better when Splinter couldn’t

[raven-at-the-writing-desk]

Savanaclaw Masterlist Part 2

Savanaclaw Masterlist Part 1

Leona Kingscholar

Sick; S/O takes care of him (headcanons)

Idia finds him with sleeping cats (imagine)

Being told he’s like an onion (interaction)

S/O gets happy about something ordinary (headcanons)

S/O sits in the rain to destress (headcanons)

Crush on a preschool teacher’s assistant (headcanons)

S/O wakes him up early to watch the sunrise (imagine)

Seeing crush pretend-dating a mob student (headcanons)

S/O keeps pictures of him with embarrassing captions (headcanons)

Matching mug painting date (headcanons)

How did he become “leader of a legion of furries”? (interaction)

Cheka uses a marker to draw a tattoo that matches Leona’s (imagine)

Shy fairy!reader pines for him (headcanons)

With a clingy, crybaby child (headcanons)

S/O has the same Halloween costume (headcanons)

Pocky game (headcanons)

Snowed in with MC!S/O (headcanons)

S/O treats life like a musical (headcanons)

Sharing a scarf with S/O (headcanons)

Artist S/O asks if they can draw him (headcanons)

S/O tries to get him to eat his least favorite food (headcanons)

Innocent-looking MC!Reader is actually a working adult (headcanons)

S/O misses their pet cat (interaction)

Taking care of shrunken S/O (headcanons)

Master Chef with Gordon Ramsay (full fanfic)

Ruggie Bucchi

Giving friend!Reader a dorm tour (headcanons)

Friends with reader (headcanons)

Grandma Bucchi (headcanons)

Trick-or-treating with S/O (headcanons)

S/O tries to scare him with Halloween costume (headcanons)

Dealing with a missing Dorm Leader (headcanons)

Master Chef with Gordon Ramsay (full fanfic)

Jack Howl

First time unprotected hand holding with S/O (headcanons)

Reader with healing hair (headcanons)

Finding S/O’s scrapbook (headcanons)

Beach trip (headcanons)

Waking up on S/O’s thighs (headcanons)

His child in a cabbage swaddle (headcanons)

S/O crawls under his arm while he sleeps (headcanons)

Zombie!MC that rushes into danger (headcanons)

S/O sits in the rain to destress (headcanons)

Visiting MC’s world (headcanons)

As Dorm Leader (headcanons)

Taking tiny merperson S/O in a bowl to class (headcanons)

Sharing scary stories (headcanons)

Elsa-like S/O (headcanons)

At a holiday party (headcanons)

Selfless S/O loves superheroes (headcanons)

Riddle Red Riding Hood (full fanfic)

Master Chef with Gordon Ramsay (full fanfic)

Leona Kingscholar & Ruggie Bucchi

Magift Club eats grilled meat (imagine)

Happy Mother’s Day (full fanfic)

Leona Kingscholar & Jack Howl

S/O runs away from stress (headcanons)

Bad cook!S/O eagerly gives him food (headcanons)

Ruggie Bucchi & Jack Howl

Small S/O likes to be picked up and carried (headcanons)

The Trio

Helping a sheep onesie-wearing MC (headcanons)

Bubbly, childish S/O tries to be mature and tough (headcanons)

Leona takes Cheka on a NRC dorm tour (headcanons)

Themed Halloween party (headcanons)

His child tries to “hunt” him (headcanons)

Working at McDonald’s (headcanons)

Remaining Boys Proposing to Eliza

[yanderenightmare]

i just have to ask cuz i’m curious about your BNHA yanderes. It’s just basically would they wait until you imitate sex or force themselves on you as soon as they get the chance? who would drug their darling so it’s basically dubcon? or who would say they’ll wait until you’re ready - but after you pissed them off (like trying to escape), they just force themselves onto you for punishment? and is there anything that would make each bnha yandere stop what they’re doing, even if it’s in the middle of it?

yandere ! BNHA thirsts

TIP-JAR

goodiebag WARNINGS: nsfw, dubcon/noncon, degradation, condescension, dacryphilia, threats, abuse

This depends on what type of darling they are. 

If she’s a push-over, easily swayed or scared into submission, if she’s quiet and shy and just so adorably easy to control, most Yandere’s would definitely take advantage of her and do whatever they please. 

DABI - TOUYA TODOROKI

These sheep-type darlings attract yanderes like Dabi, where he’s not one to take pity on them, despite knowing that whatever he’s doing is not coveted by the girl, he does what he wants and if she doesn't like it... she should feel free to try and make him stop.

Dabi likes those he can play with like putty in his hands with nothing more than a growl in his chest, those crybaby blubbering messes that only know to moan when he touches places they’ve always been to shy to fully explore.

He loves drinking that innocence off their expression, loves feeling it in his hands, on his lap, wrapped around him.

He loves how soft they are, how timid, how girlish and sensitive, how sweet with fear they become, eyes wide and glossy as they take in his appearance, his scarring, his strength, his aches, how they feel bad for him even as he plays with them as though they are but mere toys for him to break.

BAKUGO - KACHAN

Bakugo is also one who would fall for such a sweet little submissive darling, but he would ease more into things.

He’s not a sweet guy and he doesn't try to be either, he still manhandles her and treats her body like a puppet, carrying her around, pulling her snug against his chest at night or when on the couch watching trash, but I do think he enjoys milestones.

First a chaste kiss, then a longer one another day, then an open-mouthed one that is accompanied by having her lightly grind down on his clothed arousal, where he enjoys torturing himself with hanging onto every movement of her hips against him, wanting to rip clothes off but exercising control for another time, then a desperate feral hungry soul-sucking slobbering kiss that leaves the lips in favor of diving between her thighs, then small kisses to her cheek as she mews and moans for him when he uses his fingers to make her little pussy quake with gratitude, then for the final achievement, feeling that fluttering pretty tightness hugging onto his length, their lungs sharing oxygen as they breath into each others mouth, her legs wrapped around his torso, her hands hanging onto his back, where Bakugo can say wholeheartedly that those that wait don't wait in vain and how an earned victory is much better than a forced one.

CHISAKI KAI - OVERHAUL

Then, of course, we cannot forget about the sweet dumb darlings with their cute dumb expressions and their precious dumb little featherbrains and their dumb fruity giggles.

It’s a different type of submission. An unrealised submission, nothing forced or fearful about it, nothing cultivated, just plain blissful naivety.

Chisaki’s favorite.

There is something so heavenly about spoiling such a soft humble creature, making something so sweet and small and precious mew and moan beneath his hands, his deadly destructive hands, having not a single clue as to how much potential danger she’s in, just basking in all the pleasant pleasurable touchings, such an innocent sinful simple creature, untouched by all things complex and corrupt in the world. 

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Then of course there are the hostile darlings. Those that will rather break than bend and bow, rather get forced down than kneel. Those bratty ones that need to be bent over a lap and put in their place. Those that need to feel a great big red-hot smack against their tush.

MIDORIYA IZUKU - DEKU

There is nothing cuter than a brat not knowing her place, nothing better than reminding her where she belongs.

Deku enjoys being degrading. He enjoys breaking spirits, the ego-boost, the high of having someone bend to his will through sheer force. And by All Might he loves the woeful regretful expression they give him once they realize his patience had an end.

Deku let’s them yell and scream and cry and roar at him, lets them sit on the throne for however long he can handle, knowing how dethroning a queen is much more gratifying than spanking a toddler.

He can't describe how good it feels to have the sassy brat face down and ass up, making her kneel, making her bow, nothing but a pretty little kitten, his little pet, ready to repent for all her mistakes, ready to serve out her punishment, ready to tell him how sorry she is as he fucks her hard from behind with his thick hungry cock deep in her poor bratty cunt.

SHIGARAKI TOMURA

Tomura too loves putting a brat in her rightful place.

Giggling like some maniac as he frightens the sassy confidence right out of her, rendering her into a little squealing piglet, all up for devouring.

So shaky beneath him, under his hands, under his mercy, his unstable mercy.

He makes a real toy of her, has her hopping on his cock as he lays back to idly watch, threatening her in mock cooing whispers, often being breached by a loud madhouse cackle as he watches with insane eyes and a wide toothy smile.

He’ll have her face down doing all the work too, plump and perfect ass raised, shoving his cock deep inside her stomach, commanding her to rock back into him, please him, make him cum or else.

SHINSO HITOSHI

A playful kitten with glistening wilderness in her eyes, tail aloft and swinging slowly from side to side as though she’s compelling him to come amuse her, ears drawn back in suspense as she awaits his answer to whatever bratty thing she’s said. That’s Hitoshi’s favorite.

Someone he can exercise those sadistic gleeful urges on, someone who enjoys running only to be caught, someone who craves that dark attention only he can give her.

Someone who talks to him, not in fear or in spite of what control he can have over her, but because of it, because he is the only one who has the chance at controlling what chaotic madness resides inside her head.

TIP-JAR

[suspiciouslackofclowns]

Here are some of my fav personal harringrove headcanons bc I’m bored at work (if I’ve said any of these before, no I haven’t)

Steve normally prefers to drive, but when he’s with Billy he 100% becomes a passenger princess. Like, feet up on the dash, he’s in control of the stereo, has a secret stash of snacks, etc.

Billy is mean in the fun way, where he’ll try to round up the kids for some reason and call them assholes, and just gets giggled at. Steve is mean in the mean way — if Billy playfully starts being a dick, Steve starts being a dick for real because he can’t help it. This almost always ends in Billy’s feelings getting hurt and Steve profusely apologizing with kisses and compliments until his crybaby boyfriend is feeling better.

They both have serious commitment issues and have difficulty professing their love for each other for a long time. Billy is scared to get attached to people because he doesn’t trust that they’ll actually stick around, and Steve is afraid of being too clingy and driving people away.

In addition to that last one, I’m a big believer of Steve’s parents not being super involved in his life, but I hc that he has an aunt on his mom’s side that he’s really close to. I have a whole backstory for her and everything, just haven’t gotten around to putting it in any fics yet. Essentially, she’s the other black sheep in the family, has gone through more divorces than anyone can count, is too “eccentric” to be invited to most family gatherings, and Steve adores her, which pisses his mom off a lot. Steve learns a lot about love languages from his aunt, let’s call her Cheryl, and how he can certainly convey that he loves Billy without outright saying it. I think they’d make a lot of progress with little gestures and signals to let the other know that they care, and they’re here to stay.

When their relationship is better, Billy becomes super protective of Max. Not in the “you can’t date until you’re 30” way, but more in the “that guy’s giving you a hard time at school? I’ll be waiting for him out in the parking lot” way. Steve is protective of all of the kids, including Max, but he often tries to talk things out rather than jump straight to violence.

Billy really likes fist fighting and Steve does not. It doesn’t take much to push Billy into that direction, because he’s still in the c’mon, hit me first so I can end you mindset, and is willing to pummel anyone that bothers to light that fuse. Steve often has to calm him down Chris Pratt Jurassic Park style.

Kind of on the flip side of that, Billy sometimes exhibits these random Burt’s of strength when he gets frustrated or angry, and on a few occasions has picked things up that seem too heavy for one guy. Those things include the refrigerator when it got stuck in the doorway, their neighbor’s cement mixer, and Jason Carver. Steve thinks it’s really hot every time this happens.

Billy’s like a big cat. He’s little spoon, and will always look for excuses to seat himself in Steve’s lap and curl close.

Steve is super into voyeurism and Billy is a capital “w” Whore, so it really works out when they mess around with a third party. The third party in question is typically either Tommy or Eddie (whichever floats your boat).

I think that out of all of the older adults, they would both get along well with Murray.

Steve cooks, Billy eats. Sharing food is one of their discovered languages, and since Steve is so giving and Billy enjoys more than his fair share of comfort food, it works.

As always, chubby Billy rights because I love him. He deserves to have a doting boyfriend who adores and worships him, what can I say? He also deserves to put on some happy relationship weight.

They’re each other’s favorite person in the whole world, and they tell one another as much as often as they can.

[mrsmarymorstan]

Don't why the fans especially the manga readers are hyping about tooru breaking the curse when she didn't even do shit. she just went on that silly adventure and be an annoying crybaby whenever she learns something new about the curse. it was actually akito who broke the curse so i can't understand what you are all hyping tohru on.

Ah yes, I to remember the days when I’d be deliberately antagonistic just for fun and beat on female characters for showing emotions and caring about people. Or indeed, resent characters for having entirely realistic reactions to the cosmic horror and terror that surrounds them. Then I turned 16 and HER WE ARE ten years later and I get to see it from a whole new perspective! What fun. 

In your misguided attempt to cause drama by shitting on people having a good time by being excited about upcoming character moments, much like Dr Flemming’s unwashed petri dish, you have hit upon something that benefits further discussion and interest. 

That point being, was it TOHRU who broke the curse, or was it Akito? 

The answer, I believe, is both. SPOILERS FOR ANIME ONLIES TONY YOU ARE WARNED DO NOT @ ME AGAIN IF YOU MESS UP. 

When Tohru sets out to break the curse and stop the love of her life from being locked up in a cold dark room for the rest of his existence, she finds out that the curse is firstly, a bond of blood sworn by the spririts of the past and not something that can be physically manifested, and secondly, that the curse has already begun to break RE: Kureno. 

Now, there’s a LOT of theories about why Kureno’s curse broke and if it truly was some random event or if there was a trigger. I think it’s a combination of the two. It’s noted by the maids and by (I think) Shigure that this is the first time in a long time that the entire Juunishi are present. There is also a sizeable age gap betwee Hiro and Kureno, that would about match up between Hiro being an infant when Kureno’s curse broke. Ergo, I propose that his curse broke soon after their first New Year’s together as a complete banquet with no spaces missing. Save that of the cat, of course, but more on him later. 

Kureno is the rooster, and I believe that in legend the Rooster was seen as the closest to God because he could deliver messages between heaven and earth. Therefore it makes sense that the first to leave God alone, is God’s messenger. “We have had our final Banquet, it’s time to end the cycle.” 

Of course Akito/God does not have a positive reaction to this, and the loss of one Juunishi inspires a great sense of loneliness and fear within Akito similar to that which lead to the creation of the bond in the first place. We do not see God being willing to make any attempt to work on achieving the Cat’s wish of finally being able to form friendships beyond the Zodiac and forming bonds with the humans he was so afraid of before. 

And THAT is the crux of the matter. Tohru came into the Sohma’s lives and began to break the curse simply by forming close bonds with them all, and letting them into her life and react to the world around them. Hana and Uo are both friends with Kyo and Yuki, actively choosing to spend time together. We also see that in Kyo attending the same school as Yuki, it opens up that same school to Haru and Momiji where they too can form bonds outside of the Sohma influence. It’s a school THEY chose, not the single sex one Akito picked out. Equally this means we have to give some credit to Yuki for making the brave choice of defying his parents and Akito’s wishes by attending a mixed school, and Shigure (who continues to be the mastermind here) for goading Akito into allowing Kyo to also attend that school and not simply pay off the private school he was MEANT to attend and have them let him back in. 

It’s also no real surprise that the two other Juunishi whose curses break before the final scene are Momiji and Hiro. Hiro is shown to be forming bonds outside of the Zodiac too. Not only has he matured enough that he is able to understand things from Tohru’s perspective now and has a relatively positive relationship with her, he ALSO becomes a Big Brother with a little sister he adores. Again, it shouldn’t come as a surprise that his curse breaks whilst he is in the same room as her. The Sheep has formed a meaningful relationship outside of the Zodaic, so it is time for the Sheep Spirit to return to its original realm. We then have Momiji, who is absolutely desperately in love with Tohru and is also equally desperate to be allowed to have a relationship with his OWN sister. Momiji’s curse breaks only after he has gone through puberty though and reaches adulthood. It’s when he starts to truly understand the path that is laid before him, and where he stands in it. He WANTS a relationship with Tohru, but he can also recognise that she is in love with Kyo and that makes it all the more painful. He knows that as he ages he is only going to be made to feel more distant from his sister, and that hurts too. HOWEVER, Momiji doesn’t ever stop LONGING for meaningful relationships and a world beyond the life of the Zodiac. He recognises that he does not have anything really tying him to the Sohma anymore, and so his curse breaks. The rabbit spirit has no need to be part of the banquet, and so heads home.   

Now, as you can see, whilst Tohru is a key trigger in the breaking of the curse, she’s still not the one to actively do it, right? 

Well, wrong. Sort of. 

Take note that when we’re told the ACTUAL story of the Original Banquet , we find that the Cat was the first friend God ever made, and was also the first to die. It was the death of the cat that triggered God into creating the eternal bond that would always bring them together, and it was the cat’s terror and dismay at being forced into such a bond that caused them to disown him. The cat has, all along, simply wanted God to make friends. The first who had the curse take effect upon them, was the one who rejectd it the most and as such was then shunned forever more. The cat wanted God to make bonds outside of the Zodiac, and in turn the cat was forever banned form making those bonds. Even though we’ve been show the Cat was granted some realtionships in the form of Kazuma’s Grandmother; it is a relationship made out of pitty rather than love and understanding. 

Tohru though? Torhu is the God Damned (excuse the pun) Year of the Cat Fanclub PRESIDENT. Nobody loves and respects the OG Cat Spirit in the way she does. She emphasied with the Cat’s plight in the legend her mother told her, feeling sorry for them being tricked like that and being forced to miss out on being part of the legend. She wanted the cat to join the group! She cradled the cat’s body in much the same way God in his final moments, as instead this time Tohru brings him back into the light and forms a stronger and longer lasting relationship with the cat spirit through love and empathy.

And later on, in that same mountainside, it is TOHRU who is the one who reaches out her hand to god and asks to become friends. It is the act of God forming friends with mortal humans that triggers Akito/God to finally release everyone from their curse. That’s why it happens when it does, when Akito knows that Tohru is safely out of hospital, that she has still welcomed Akito into her life... and that if Akito is going to take those terrifying steps into forming relationships that can end in rejection, she’s going to have to do it on her own two feet. 

THAT is how Tohru breaks the curse. THAT is what is important here and what is so FUCKING HARD ROCK about Tohru Honda. We see her willing to stand up to GOD in order to break the curse, but she stands before God as an EQUAL. Tohru WILL break the curse. She WILL fight for her soulmate. She WILL make you be friends with her and address your deep seated issues of self hate and abandonment (not that she has those issues herself ahahahha no I’m just your average happy go lucky teenager with two dead parents who lives in a tent I’M FINE) 

Of course, it turns out that everything Shigure and Kazuma told her about breaking the curse was true: That she didn’t have to do anything other than to continue to be herself. HOWEVER, in order to BE herself she needed to try and have a “silly adventure” where she tested her metal and learnt to speak up for herself. Why are we excited? Because we’re going to see Tohru finally find the confidence to speak out against others without harm! We see her get into a fight with Rin about it. We see her refusing to back down against Kagura. We see her standing on her own two feet and saying “No. No I don’t want that. I REFUSE to give in and to leave well alone!” 

All before, Tohru has been so scared to speak up for herself because of her debilitating abandonment issues (and please let’s not make fun of people’s mental health issues, okay? I haven’t been having a weekly therapy session for nearly two years now just because for the fun of it) but now she’s got to the point where she feels comfortable and secure enough to show an uglier side to herself that people might reject. She is able to be mean, and shout, and fucking break into someone’s house in order to get what she wants! How can a TRUE fruits basket fan NOT be excitd for that level of character development? 

And to end it, please, for the LOVE OF GOD it is 2020. I am 26 years old. I have been on tumblr since 2011. Do not send me hate about female fictional characters and expect me to roll over. My username is “Mrs Mary Morstan”. Mary. Morstan. The most hated female character in all of BBC Sherlock. Do not even try to fucking test me, you Petri Dish. 

[meariisjabberwok]

The Characters Behind the Villagers

So with the announcement of the reprint of the Sanrio amiibos, I realized that I wasn’t quite sure which Sanrio character was my favorites. When I was trying to decide which of the Sanrio fans I would invite to my island, I decided to look up information on each one. And I figured, why not share the information I found? (Disclaimer, I’m having my browser automatically translate these from Japanese to English, so pronouns and written perspectives shift.)

Hello Kitty 1974

Height is 5 apples. Weight is equivalent to 3 apples. A bright and gentle girl. I love making cookies and playing the piano, and my dream is to be a pianist or a poet. Good at music and English. My favorite food is apple pie made by my mom. He is a good friend of his twin sister, Mimmy.

Birthday: November 1st

So, five apples is roughly two feet (61 cm) and between baking, playing piano and just being a generally kind person, Hello Kitty is the definition of “goodest girl”. Also, I thought I read somewhere a while back that her name is actually Katie? I dunno.

My Melody 1975

A younger brother who is fresh and cheerful. The treasure is a cute hood made by my grandma. I like to bake cookies with my mom, and my favorite food is almond pound cake.

Birthday: January 18th

She’s born the day after my sister! There isn’t a height for her, but she’s really cute. The majority of other sources says that My Melody is a girl? But even if they’re a boy, they have an adorable aesthetic.

Little Twin Stars 1975

Twin siblings born of the dream star of the Dream Nebula. I came from a distant star country to become a magnificently shining star. My sister Lara is scared and a little crybaby. I love drawing and poetry. Good at cooking. My younger brother, Kiki, is curious and a little rushed. I love star fishing and inventions.

Birthday: December 24th

I feel like these two embodiment of the Lolita fashion style. I honestly didn’t know that they had names, but then again, I didn’t know they were actually Sanrio characters until recently. Also, they’re born on Christmas Eve!

Keroppi 1988

I love adventure and I'm full of energy! A popular person in the donut pond. Keroppi, Pikki, and three siblings. I'm not good at swimming frogs, and I'm good at crawling. A frog man who is good at singing. The family is the father of a doctor at "Hasunoue Clinic". A mother who is good at cooking and has a restaurant. A beautiful girl who likes climbing trees and cooking. A hard worker and a hobby of playing with machines, he looks just like Keroppi and his younger brother Koroppi. I live in "Kerokero House" on the island of Donut Pond.

Birthday: July 10th

I had a babysitter who really liked Keroppi, but besides that I never knew much about him. Can we just take a moment to appreciate that he lives in a place called “Donut Pond”? For those who don’t know “kero” is the Japanese onomatopoeia for a frog croak.

Cinnamoroll 2001

A white puppy boy born on a cloud in the distant sky. One day, a fluffy flight from the sky was found by the older sister of "Cafe Cinnamon" and she decided to live with her. The tail is rolled up like a cinnamon roll, so ask them to give it the name "cinnamon". Currently, he is active as a signboard dog in a cafe. His special skill is to fly with his big ears fluttering. It's quiet, but it's very friendly and sometimes I fall asleep on the lap of the customer.

Birthday: March 6th

This 100% threw me for a loop. I had seen Cinnamoroll a lot, but I didn’t know ANYTHING. I didn’t know he was male, I didn’t know he was a dog, I knew NOTHING. But something about this floppy eared pupper won me over. He’s just... he’s too cute.

Pompompurin 1996

A golden retriever man with a dark brown beret as a trademark. At a leisurely shop, my favorite word is "going out" and my disliked word is "orsuban". My hobby is collecting shoes. The owner's father's leather shoes, mother's sandals, etc. are secretly hidden one by one. I like milk, fluffy stuff, and pudding made by mom. His special skills are naps and pudding exercises. To get along with anyone. My dream for the future is to be even bigger. The pudding basket at the entrance of the owner's sister's house is the house.

Birthday: April 16th, sunny day

I don’t much care for Pompom; not because he’s not cute, but because he reminds me of that... pudding stuff from Japan... Is it pudding? Anyway, it’s like a custard pudding thing and I just... It’s not like I don’t empathize with him. I love milk, fluffy stuff and I enjoy naps.

So what about their villager fans? What’s to know? What should we know about them?

Rilla, the Hello Kitty fan, is a peppy gorilla born on November 1st. Her favorite color is red and her favorite style is cute. Honestly, I think she’s the first villager I’ve seen with pierced ears. More power to you, girl.

Chelsea, the My Melody fan, is a normal deer born on January 18th. Her favorite color is pink and her favorite style is cute. I literally thought her headband was just a copy of the bunny ears you can get through the Able Sisters, but whatever.

Étoile (pronounced i-too-all-eh and translates into Star), the Little Twin Star fan, is a normal sheep born on December 24th. Like Chelsea, her favorite color is pink and her favorite style is cute. She seems like someone who you’d go pour your heart out to and she’d give you some hot chocolate.

Toby, the Keroppi fan, is a smug rabbit born on July 10th. His favorite color is green and his favorite style is cute. I was kind of surprised by how he looks, it seemed like the most neutral of all the Sanrio villagers.

Chai, the Cinnamoroll fan, is a peppy elephant born on March 6th. Her favorite color isn’t stated (though my guess would be teal or blue) and her favorite style is cute. I really like her design, and if it weren’t for the fact that I already have three peppy villagers on my island, I’d move her in too.

Marty, the Pompompurin fan, is a lazy cub born on April 16th. His favorite color is yellow, and his favorite style is sporty. He is very cute and seems very sweet, and if I didn’t have Bob, I’d have Marty on my island.

Part of why I posted this was to share info about the Sanrio characters, but also to give fellow players a leg up on getting portraits. If you give a villager stuff that is in their favorite color and/or style, your friend points go up slightly more than if you just gave them random stuff. On apps like ACNH.Guide, the information on what a character likes can be easily found. While it’s not currently up, I imagine when the Sanrio cards are sold, the info will be updated.

[marshmallowprotection]

hello!! you talk a lot about ray on here and i was curious to hear your thoughts on something,, (but its fine if you don't know an answer of course!! i also don't know if you've ever talked about this before, sorry if you have!) i played through another story's prologue bad ending, the one where you end up being ray's assistant. why do you think he decides to make mc his assistant at that point instead of just letting em play the game? he also seems a lot more obvious with his possessiveness 1/2

im assuming that might be because you spent a lot of time hanging out near him as his assistant. (i know ray isn't as sweet and innocent as the fandom often portrays him and that it's a part of him that's not exclusive to this BE, but it isn't quite *this* obvious if you go thru his route. i haven't played v's yet tho.) 2/2

I haven’t talked about this specific ending, before, no. I love talking about Ray and yes, you’ve pointed out what I spend a lot of time trying to point out to other people who enjoy Ray. He’s got just as many red flags as Unknown. 

He has a lot in common Unknown when he wants, and I know a lot of people would say that Suit Saeran does have a lot in common with Unknown, but I would be skewed to say that in this bad ending, and the actions that you see him take out during V’s route, only prove them to be similar. 

That’s the thing with Ray. He’s never what you expect him to be. He’s not just a crybaby who is bleeding for any kind of attention and he’s not just a calculated guy who has bigger plans, he’s somehow got both of these facets to himself and more than that. He feels emotions the most strongly out of any of Saeran’s alters and he there for a reason. 

He takes the brunt of the pain and keeps breathing through it for the sake of the body’s survival. That’s another thing to note entirely, but it’s something that will stand, no matter if it’s a good ending or a bad ending. He wants things, he does think often about what he could do with you, and his thoughts don’t just start and stop with handholding and hugs. 

He’s utterly devoted and infatuated with this idea of you. That changes when you willingly come to Mint Eye and show him what true and real affection is like and he starts to understand that his fantasies were nothing compared to the real act in front of him. He takes a step back and becomes overwhelmed with the idea of what he wanted becoming real and being stronger than what he expected. 

He can whispers his wants in the dead of night all he wants, but when you start to give it to him, he’s stumped, confused, and the “Savior” and what she’s been feeding him all this time really affects how much he’s willing to believe and how much he’s wanting to believe that something that isn’t “paradise” can make him feel so happy. 

However, when you deny him the chance to get to know you on a personal level like you do on his route, the feeling of not having this person that he’s built up in his mind is not something that he can stomach. Ray can’t let you go. He’s built this image of you loving him and him loving you in his head and he’s scared he will not feel this for anyone else. 

He picked you for a reason. 

You... weren’t supposed to say no. 

He panics, and in the heat of the moment, he decides that if you don’t want to play a game, then he’ll gladly take you in to be his assistant instead. You can be close to him this way, you know? This is almost better in a way than you playing this game. He won’t even have to worry about the RFA stealing your heart or just talking to you. 

This sounds much better to Ray. 

You will get to stay with him... he’ll get to have you as much as he wants and you get to stay with him! It’s all good! You still have a chance in this bad ending to win him over and show him the way that he can walk to help himself change and grow from this, but it’s going to be as hard as his route if not harder given you are already not... completely on his good side. 

Oh, don’t worry, he loves you and adores you, but he’s going to have an extra layer of unease because you said no the first time. Unlike Unknown, I really get the feeling that you’re less of an assistant to Ray and more of a glorified doll. He will dress you up real nice and let you have free reign of the room as long as you are with him. 

You’re someone that needs to hang onto his arm and whisper sweet nothings to him when he needs to hear it. I wrote something akin to this for him and my MC per the bad ending on Day 4. Ray’s level of control isn’t all that different from say, how Suit handles himself, but there’s a level of sweetness to it that may rub you the wrong way... or maybe make you feel like you’re not in danger. 

He can and will do things that you may not expect from him if you’ve only thought him out to be some soft boy, anon. 

Ray is a wolf in sheep’s clothing by all accounts. Yes, he’s kind and yes, he has a good heart in him, but he’s not afraid to do what needs to be done to get what he wants when there is something stopping him from getting it. I love him, he’s feral, stop sleeping on feral Ray because he’s fun to play with. I wish more guys would like, just note that. 

Fanon soft boy is nice but it’s not how Ray really is. 

I can elaborate more if you want!

[virginsqq]

pokemon au

:)

sj!sqq:

crobat. yes its a friendship evolution. raised since a baby zubat. literally sqq’s first pokemon. no one ever brings this up. yes this is because i think sj is more of a softie than people think of him as. so there.

charizard. lovingly and tenderly raised since it was a charmander. evolved into charmeleon to help burn down the qiu house. sj literally saved its life. in the og timeline, lbh literally kills it. thats too dark

kadabra. lovingly raised since it was an abra. sj has been trying to get it to evolve to alakazam for ten years.

marowak. has been with sqq ever since qi-ge left. evolved the same time as charmander.

yamask. you know, people say yamask are the ghosts of people who died of betrayal...

sy!sqq

so first off. the kadabra and the marowak left because they like sj not sy.

golbat. because sqq’s first pokemon will not give him the dignity of a friendship evolution.

charizard. but charizard is NOT happy about it. its just sticking around in case sj comes back :(

yamask, but it makes fun of sy behind his back.

ditto, the copycat pokemon

mimikyu

yqy

aegislash. has been raised since it was a honedge “Honedge's soul once belonged to a person who was killed a long time ago by the sword that makes up Honedge's body.” “Once upon a time, a king with an Aegislash reigned over the land. His Pokémon eventually drained him of life, and his kingdom fell with him.” :)

dragonite. cause its a pseudo legendary which is known for kindheartedness

phantump. “These Pokémon are stumps possessed by the spirits of children who died in the forest. Their cries sound like eerie screams.”

serperior cause it reminds him of sj

gardevoir because gardevoir is the protective psychic type :)

sqh

alolan vulpix. a gift from mbj but sqh just thinks its cute. it bullies him all the time though

wishiwashi. cause its a crybaby! and sqh loves water types cause he needs to calm down.

jigglypuff. because he REALLY needs to calm down. and also jigglypuff gets mad when on one likes its singing like sqh does when no one likes his writing.

mime jr. cause it can be used for spying and its tiny and adorable and so fucking weird.

mandibuzz which was a vullaby in the original work but sqh raised it to evolve. vulture cause he just preys on leftovers & refuse.

mbj

beartic. yeah just cause its a cool looking ice type you know how it is.

froslass. the ice type pokemon that eats humans. thats on brand for mbj

sneasel. vicious ice/dark type who i love <3

alolan ninetales cause alolan ninetales is way more vicious than alolan vulpix and also more of a cool beauty, which sqh is known for giving to mbj.

vanillite. was a gift from sqh which mbj has a very complicated relationship with because its scared of mbj but mbj really wants to use it to make a relationship with sqh but it just fucking hides from him.

mqf

chansey. yeah. cheap. i know.

butterfree

audino

lqg

hariyama. fuck yeah big ol fighty guy.

medicham. same reason as above.

mienshao. see above.

lucario. pseudo legendary fighting type. absolute king shit. also has a strong sense of justice

umbreon. love evolution. good for him.

sha hualing

mawile. “Don't be taken by this Pokémon's cute face - it's very dangerous. Mawile fools the foe into letting down its guard then chomps down with its massive jaws. The steel jaws are really horns that have been transformed.”

chimecho. cause. cause its a bell pokemon.

nidoqueen. it just suits her.

liepard for the same reasons lmao

ning yingying

smoochum in the og work, jynx in the sy!sqq verse 

ralts in the og work, kirlia/gardevoir in sy!sqq

azurill in the og work, marill in sy!sqq

pokemon she didnt have in the og work but she does have in sy!sqq

primarina, lovingly and tenderly raised

huntail cause she used the wrong evolutionary stone on clampearl lmao

bingge

zoruark. cause hes supposed to be dark and tough and also zoruark is a pseudo legendary so. there we go.

hydreigon but was forced to evolve early. another pseudo legendary because i think sqh would just give bingge whatever the coolest pokemon are.

banette. “Resentment at being cast off made it spring into being. Some say that treating it well will satisfy it, and it will once more become a stuffed toy.” found in the endless abyss.

salamence. “After many long years, its cellular structure underwent a sudden mutation to grow wings. When angered, it loses all thought and rampages out of control.”

hypno. dream pokemon in a weird creepy and mean way.

absol. “Long ago, superstitions were spread about it, saying it brought disaster. This fed a hatred of it, and it was driven deep into the mountains.”

bingmei

altaria. fluffy dragon type and more friendly than the other dragon types. genuinely friendly.

munna. dream pokemon replacement for hypno. because its more friendly :)

sylveon. because you need two hearts in pokemon amie to evolve it and bingmei is a very loving boy.

stufful pre-abyss, bewear post-abyss. because hes a hugger and he can actually put up with getting hugged by bewear. also kind of a foil to banette, the evil stuffie pokemon.

zoruark because lbh isnt actually evil and neither is zoruark no pokemon is :) anyways. tenderly and lovingly raised since it was a zorua. they are best friends.

wooloo. cause. hes the white sheep protagonist :)

[ih8me2ash]

My Journal Entries (post #25)

The winter suits me better.

I just asked for a break, a break from this suffocating brick on my chest. To run away from this fear of isolation, putting a group of piranhas in a tank with nothing to eat for almost a year and watch them start to eat each other. If you want my honest opinion that's how I feel about the quarantine. I can't do anything, at all. And people wonder why 2020 is like the next great depression. The only reason why I'm scared of being by myself is that the words I'm writing now are what happens when I'm starting to talk to myself too much. I'm a rude son of a bitch, but I had to take a break from social media because I was being attacked left and right. The internet is like a pack of bloodthirsty wolves. Tell people they're wrong once and you'll be devoured. Even if you're right, and they're completely in the wrong.

Sometimes I think about taking a long smoke break, walk to the train tracks, and wait. I would feel cold in my hands, but the fire from my cigarette will keep me warm until then. I feel like no one would even look for my remains. My jeans wouldn't be the only thing torn and ripped. I could hurt myself and no one would even notice, trust me I know. I've forgotten to cover my arms before and no one even questioned me, people would take a glance, and then they would look away and I would overthink about my body and hide, then remember no matter how much my skin burns it's just a normal day for the world outside of mine.

I'm always thinking about how much I feel like a ghost, transparent, see-through. I'm the one who fades into a crowd of people so easily. And I have a hard understanding if that's a good thing or not. Because I hate being left alone, but when I run away from everything I don't want to be found. But even acknowledging me, just makes me feel like it sometimes forced to even put me in the picture. Why did you save me if you make me feel so out of place? Instead of making me feel like a ghost emotionally now, you should of let me be a real ghost back then and just left me to hang out to dry. Because now I feel like I could be buried six feet under with no concern. I'm not kidding where I am once again as I mentioned no one in the right mind should waste their time day worrying about me or care about me when I'm just a dead man walking, or that's at least how people make me feel.

If I stop breathing, no one is obligated to notice if I do. And that's on neglect, and being so used to it. No thanks to anyone in my family. Do you know how I can look through old posts on my Tumblr or on Elite Skills from four years ago talking about how much they "took cared of me, and how much I loved them and they loved me?" And I knew it was bullshit? That wasn't me, because I had someone moderating me, breathing over my shoulder to be forced to say that sappy shit. They didn't care about me, they only cared about the image I gave them. Once again, if you post anything public on the internet for anyone to see, get ready to have those canine fangs breaking your skin. You have an opinion anywhere else in your head, you really should keep it to yourselves, I mean that basically defeats me writing here, but people think I don't come on here and no one besides my therapist even looks at my journal entries on my Tumblr. Because I don't give that shit out to anyone because people who I don't and I mean I really don't even want them to breathe the same air as me, to find me. And I wish I could stop thinking about them, and how they use to make me feel, in those times no matter how much I took the bruises, the punches, the scratches, the cigarette burns, the kicks, the pulling, the bloody noses, I blamed myself. Even though I was going through shit, I didn't want them to take the blame because they made me feel like everything was up to me and that everything was my fault fully.  My baby hotel made an obedient loyal crybaby out of me.

Even now as a young adult, when people are using me for anything, I just roll over and take it. People say it's because I'm too nice or maybe I don't like conflict. When in reality it's because I was taught if I have any type of empathy or an opinion I was badly abused, emotionally, verbally, and physically. So when someone is upsetting me in a way or makes me feel uncomfortable, I kind of go into this numb state and block out everything, my whole body feels like when your leg falls asleep from laying on it to long, and I'm back on autopilot again and then after the whole ordeal, I beat myself over it for not stating my feelings. That's been an endless cycle since I was six. It started when I was five because sadly I believe even my baby hotel mother knew how easy it is to manipulate a child made by her womb tomb.  But if you hear anything about me when it comes from my family, I'm a betrayer, I'm an ungrateful bitch, I'm the liar, the disrespectful brat, or that I shouldn't have complained too much because even though I was going through a lot I should have just gotten over it. My aunt, my mother's sister, and my grandmother's oldest daughter flat ass told me when my grandmother died at the funeral that my crying was annoying and that I should have just gone outside if I was going to cry like a child. I was sixteen, and I cry softly. But most importantly I cried more over her mother than she did. Heartless, those people are psychotic heartless harpies. I'm not going to sugarcoat this, you can only put a person through that kind of shit for too long before that person learns to bark back because that sick twisted family betrayed me, they're the ungrateful bitches, a pack of liars, disrespectful and spoiled brats, do you know how demented and ignorant you all were and still are? And just because someone is different don't black sheep them because you're fucking boring, none of you could understand what I went through because you were worrying about how much you have that precious pathetic image that you held over your heads. I hope you know your "crowns" are falling apart.

And people wonder why I have so many trust issues, why I refuse to open up. Do you see how that's gotten me so far? No offense, but fuck you for using me to make you happy until you felt like you didn't need me anymore and left me wondering where I went wrong. Do you know what's the saddest thing is? The nicest, kindest, quiet, understanding people will never believe a single compliment they're given but they believe every insult. And wonder why when the people I was around treated me like I was nothing. My anxiety has made me physically nauseated because lately feeling anything has just left me heartbroken or like I can't do anything right anymore. To be honest, people would do better without me dragging them down with me. Maybe, just maybe, others are right about me being toxic and negative because I'm stuck in the past. No matter how far I try to walk the distance out of this tar, I'm just getting sucked in more, because now I'm looking closer at the warning sign and it says quicksand. More like guilt sand, I'm just one person so how am I supposed to live in this cage? I had to put all these posters up so I wasn't staring at white walls for too long, I'm told that I'm not crazy, but I do feel unstable. And I know I should just say this is my fault for letting this go for too long for just lying to myself that I'm going to be fine sooner or later, I'm not. Who am I kidding? You're looking at the worst luckiest person in the fucking world at this point. My karma is unbalanced when I didn't do anything to deserve this. But nope, my sister can walk Scott free, the same with my idiot of a mother. And I'm here, suffering like always, do they even feel bad for the way they treated me? Do they? Probably not, just my wishful thinking. People only care about themselves, they don't care about the people they might hurt on their way to victory. You're hurt? You're lonely? You're depressed? You're a victim? You were backstabbed? Do you ever think about how you made me feel? Because what you Kaylee my sister and you Jennifer my mother did to me was billions of times worse. Selfishness isn't helpful for anyone, not even for yourself. Because after you're done being bitter you'll look around and no one will be there for you. You are not anything you claim, Any of you. Not just my family, everyone who even gets close to me. You only think about yourselves, never about who you think you're hurting.  That’s why I feel like a ghost, because people treat me like I’m just nothing and nothing more.  - ａｓｈｔｏ n  ♡

[kpopscenario]

3:46 a.m

Main Pairing: Sana x Reader

Genre: Angst, Fluff

Length: 1.4K

Summary: You can't sleep, but thank god you have Sana.

A/N: I hope you like it :)

It's exactly 3:46 a.m and you still can't sleep. You tried everything. You tried changing your sleeping position, you tried listening to music and you even tried counting sheeps but nothing seems to make you fall asleep, and that for months now. You're so incredibly tired and would literally kill for only 9 hours of sleep, but you only slept for about 10 hours in total the last week and it literally was driving you crazy. The thoughts that were keeping you up at night drained you, overthinking every single thing out there always was something you struggled with and even if you've gotten better at handling these kind of things thanks to Sana, you still weren't close to being all good. The thing is, you knew you could get help, you knew you could wake up the beautiful girl sleeping next to you and you knew she would comfort you and give you all the love and support you needed. She would tell you that these things you were telling yourself weren't true and she would tell you that you meant the world to her, for gods sake she would probably be the only one that could pull you out of that dark hole completely, but you just couldn't wake her up, you couldn't share your new worries with her, the fear of being too annoying and being a burden were holding you back from waking up the precious creature next to you. She probably didn't have any idea of what was going on and it made you feel horrible but also kinda glad. You were always that type of person that wouldn't talk about their worries and problems, Sana was the only person you actually opened up to in the beginning of your relationship. Her comforting and loving eyes made you feel like your feelings were valid and that you weren't just an overreacting crybaby, but whenever her eyes would fill with worry and sadness you questioned yourself whether it was worth it or not, you'd suddenly regret sharing your inner self with her. You wanted her to be happy, you wanted to be someone that made her happy, so you decided to go back to your old pattern and act as if everything was okay while you were slowly falling apart on the inside once again. So when the sleepless nights became more and more frequent and your thoughts darker and darker, you just put on a smile, for her.

It's exactly 3:54 a.m and you still can't sleep. You turned in your bed for what felt like the 100th time that night and looked at your beautiful girlfriend laying next to you, you scanned her beautiful face and questionned how someone could be able to look this perfect while sleeping. For a second your thoughts slowly drifted away and were replaced by beautiful memories of you and Sana. Your first date, your first kiss, your first shared icecream and your first sleepover. Being with her was just so.. easy. Having her close makes you feel at ease, it makes you feel safe and welcome, it makes you feel like you're sane. Wothout realizing it properly, tears were suddenly flowing down your face while you were still looking at her and you suddenly questionned how she still wanted you and how she could be with someone like you, your thoughts were getting the best of you and you knew you had to get out of this room before your crying could wake her up. Your sudden mood swings weren't even scaring or worrying you anymore, they slowly became normality for you and you didn't even question them anymore. This whole thing became sort of a nightly routine after some time, you would say your good nights, you would cuddle and once she'd fall asleep you would be alone with your thoughts again which would result into you not being able to sleep at all and THAT would result into you not being able to think straight nor logically, you would sit on the couch in your living room until 7:45 a.m and slowly come back into the the bed room and lie next to her, around 8:00 a.m her alarm would go off and her day would start.

But now it's exactly 4:01 a.m and you're crying your heart out on the couch in your living room. You would try to calm yourself down and after a while you'd make your way to the kitchen to drink some water, you'd sit in there for a few more hours thinking about this and that until you would make your way back to your warm bed, but tonight was different. While you were sitting on the couch, your face burried into a pillow and your knees close to your body you'd suddenly feel someone tugging on your pillow, that someone would softly pull your pillow away and pull you into her arms. You try to push Sana away for a few seconds, too embarrassed of the fact that she basically found out that you were crying your heart out in the middle of the night on your shared couch, but she didn't let you push her away. She wouldn't say one word, she would just hug you until you stopped fighting against her and after you gave you you just gave in completely and hugged her too. You burried your face into her neck and cried silently while her hands would caress your back and hair. "Baby..", you'd hear her softly say after a few minutes which would make you look at her nervously. You expected her to be annoyed or tired but once you looked into her eyes you only saw worry and patience. "..please talk to me, I'm worried y/n..." "I-I'm fine, it's just tonight, I-" "Y/n.. please stop, we both know something's wrong, why won't you let me help you?", you'd look away from her face and just shake your head. "I don't want to make you feel sad because of me... I don't want to make you worry...", you'd whisper desperately and hope that she would understand but her eyes would suddenly fill ip with tears too. "Y/n, I love you... and I always worry about you, because I care about you! That doesn't mean it's something bad... I'm more sad when I have to see you go through bad things alone... I want to help you, I want you to be happy, can't you see that I'm just trying to be there for you?", you guys would fall silent again.

It's exactly 4:52 a.m and you're in your bed again in her arms while she whispers comforting and loving words into your ear. In the last hour you opened up yourself once again, you let her in and you let her know all the things that have been going on woth you lately. Your sentences and thoughts were a chaos but Sana just listened carefully and encouraged you to speak more and more, she didn't interrupt you once and she didn't once make you feel as if you were crazy. She was incredibly sad that you were going through everything alone but she didn't blame you at all, she was understanding and ready to help you as much as she could. "I'm happy that you opened up again y/n... please don't ever hesitate to wake me up.. i want to be there for you and I want to help you go through it all and become happy again..."

It's exactly 1:03 p.m and you woke up next to your beautiful girlfriend with a tiny bit of light shining through the curtains. You sighed softly and smiled due to the fact that you had the best sleep in months. Your heart felt much lighter and your mind more at ease. You knew that there would be many more sleepless nights and lots of crying and overthinking, you knew it won't be easy and you knew you'd get frustrated again. You knew you'd take a long time to heal, to be comletely healthy again but you also knew that with her next to you, you'd survive it all and you knew that you had someone that was there for you and that would love you until the end, no matter how hard it gets. You'd be completely in your thoughs when you'd suddenly feel a warm hand on your face, you'd look at Sana surprised but immediately start smiling after seeing her smile at you so brightly.

"It's exactly 1:04 p.m, I really want lunch"

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Ronnie & Joe

Ronnie: still stalking mckenna Joe: what, we can't BOTH like music? Joe: that's gonna be problematic for me tbh Ronnie: mozarts ghost aint gonna possess him in the encore Ronnie: you can fuck off Joe: you can enjoy your night Joe: I'll take my chances Ronnie: take your chances somewhere else Ronnie: or you wont have any Joe: you looking out for me? Joe: not necessary, I promise Joe: you look like you got your hands full as is Ronnie: its a threat Ronnie: shouldnt be necessary Joe: my apologies for making you work harder but its still not cutting it Ronnie: [throws something at him in a dangerous manner watch out everyone] Ronnie: we can both be into cutting Ronnie: not a problem for me Joe: [when he's probably with his flatmate or similar like they will complain honey they basics lmao, meanwhile just like 😏] Joe: careful, people will think you care Ronnie: what fucking people Ronnie: your girlfriend Joe: for one Ronnie: muzzle your bitch or give her shit to sink her teeth into Ronnie: it aint complicated Joe: I don't think not glassing randoms is exactly rocket science either Ronnie: nothing random about you Ronnie: you fucking wish Joe: you want some projection with that Joe: I found you, remember Ronnie: wasnt hiding nancy Ronnie: not still a runaway kid Joe: then don't hide Joe: I weren't looking for you, alright Ronnie: bullshit Ronnie: you said there aint no other bastards Joe: I meant tonight Joe: this is just coincidence, nothing more Ronnie: leave then Ronnie: your buyers remorse is about as welcome as you Joe: hardly Joe: that's not what it is either Ronnie: they were all out of shiny sisters baby Ronnie: take what you can get Joe: I've already got one of them Ronnie: yeah Ronnie: i remember Joe: you don't want a refill then Joe: replace the one you tossed Ronnie: you on the spectrum or do you not wanna read social cues Joe: well I ain't leaving either way but if you don't wanna make the most outta it Joe: 👍 Ronnie: keep putting words in my mouth & see what happens to yours like Joe: what spectrum are you on if you think that constitutes a please and thanks Ronnie: take it up with your ma Ronnie: she wasnt about to teach me how to play nice Joe: not really her forte Ronnie: thats why im still waiting for my plane ticket home yeah Joe: possibly Joe: I don't know Ronnie: 💔 Ronnie: how olds your good sister Joe: jury is out on good Joe: but 14 so we'll wait and see Ronnie: ill fucking drink to that Ronnie: if she was a write off shed already be Joe: depends on your perspective Joe: I try not to have one Joe: [is at bar] Ronnie: depends on your mas Ronnie: we cant all be black sheep Joe: exactly Joe: they don't really get on Joe: but she's probably just dreading the PTSD a teen pregnancy scare will bring Ronnie: should have kept me around Joe: yeah Ronnie: 1 more abortion and your country would offer me a fucking exorcism Ronnie: fun for all the family Joe: some girls have all the luck Joe: would not believe how hard it is for a lad to get one 🙄 Joe: [just putting the drinks for 'em on their table, when Charlie probs gonna flirt with you like oh hey] Ronnie: your girlfriend will let you hold her hand for her 1st Ronnie: stop sticking it in your cello & youll knock her up in no time Ronnie: [just staring at the drink like you've never seen one before] Joe: come on, she's CoE if I've ever seen it Joe: abortions? sure, but exorcisms ❌ Joe: [tryna just walk off but you know they'd be like who are you hello?! 'cos annoying lmao] Ronnie: not in ireland anymore baby Ronnie: [when you walk off like where the fuck have you got to be my dear] Joe: [at least he's not gonna drop the bomb, just being vague af like oh we met once or whatever goodbye] Joe: you gone yourself? 🛫🍀 Ronnie: on whos 💰 Joe: idk, your pals maybe Joe: but I've fucked off so he can at least top up your drink 'cos its long gone too Ronnie: wanker Ronnie: [comes back and punches charlie love you boy] Joe: [just wait 'til you have your own mindblown with that crazy connection boy] Joe: ✊ Ronnie: [gives him the biggest fuck you look ever like I can't believe you typed that] Joe: [just loling a lil 'scuse him company its not at whatever you said] Ronnie: [comes over, ignoring everyone else obvs, to drink his entire drink and walk off again] Joe: [omg stop flirting you two, everyone like what is going on tbh] Ronnie: [dancing with charlie cos he don't take kindly to being punched but you don't wanna answer his questions either] Joe: [save it for later you nosy hoe] Ronnie: [when you see his poor flatmate going to pee and follow her intimidatingly soz bitch] Joe: [this poor girl is in no way prepared lmao] Ronnie: [thinking she's about to get mugged or murdered] Joe: [when you're 18 and its your first time away from home no doubt this poor girl honestly] Ronnie: you deffo she aint catholic Ronnie: could see her in a penguin house Joe: weren't a question on the flatmate icebreakers Joe: shoulda asked for some segregrated accomodation but thought londoners were meant to be post-religion post-everything so Ronnie: 💔 it aint god its you baby Ronnie: shes no londoner Joe: no, I do know that one Joe: she's from Kent, I think Joe: or Surrey? Ronnie: not holy holier than tho Ronnie: u Ronnie: never gonna please a horse girl mckenna Joe: 😏 Joe: I'll not go there then Ronnie: charlies fucking easy to please Ronnie: youve done the 1 drink minimum & youll avoid the pregnancy scare Joe: I think he's the one that does the pleasing Joe: so I've been assured Ronnie: gets him off dont worry like Joe: I'll sleep easy now, tah Ronnie: lullabies are shit but yeah Joe: 🤞 that ain't his encore either Ronnie: if it aint opening an artery to spray the crowd count me the fuck out Joe: I wouldn't hold your breath Joe: though might be more fun Ronnie: [dramatically holds her breath in his direction like kids do] Joe: [just watching 'cos weird and into it] Ronnie: [lowkey going purple probably because you know she won't stop til she hits the deck] Joe: [just watching 'til the last sec when you obvs gonna catch her] Ronnie: [giving him a look when he does like we have to stop meeting like this but then exposing his tattoo wherever that is cos gotta check that really happened] Joe: [I hope you didn't opt for your booty, lol, probably inner bicep moment or something 'cos not that bitch getting those out at any chance] Ronnie: [just touching it like you're not shamelessly flirting with your brother okay then] Joe: [just looking at her face hardcore 'cos you can pretend you're checking her tat too] Ronnie: [when you come back to yourself and remember you're supposed to hate him for being your brother so you push him away unnecessarily hard and retreat to your corner] Joe: [go off to the bathroom yourself boy] Ronnie: [french exit while he's gone even though it'll make Charlie more annoying] Joe: [have fun Joseph] Joe: you missed the bloodbath Ronnie: made my own Joe: safer bet Joe: on all counts Ronnie: safer for your girlfriend Ronnie: & you Joe: you know she ain't my girlfriend Ronnie: no shit you dont wanna claim that conquest Joe: wrong again Joe: not gonna bang my flatmate who pays the bigger part of the rent 'cos she gets the en-suite Joe: give me some credit Ronnie: shed give you some if you gave it up to her Ronnie: but if youd rather pay rent Joe: there's no way I can keep that going 4 years Ronnie: she aint hacking it Ronnie: you can fucking smell the homesickness Joe: its like, down the road init Joe: ugh Ronnie: & Ronnie: she cant fit her horse in the en suite baby Joe: 😂 Joe: true..I'll make some rich friends to move in when she gallops off into the sunset then Ronnie: theyll not slum it with you for 4 years Joe: but I'm so charming Joe: what's the solution then, sis? Ronnie: sell yourself or kill yourself Joe: 👌 Joe: already with ya Ronnie: yeah dead connected us Ronnie: 🖕 Joe: you're the only one that's allowed to be suicidal? Ronnie: oldest cunt gets dibs Ronnie: aint that how this sibling shit plays Ronnie: whatever you wanna do ive already done it Joe: half the time Joe: but the other half is youngest gets away with it 'cos they're cuter so Ronnie: cause theyre a crybaby Ronnie: yeah you can have that soft lad Joe: 😥 bit of a prerequisite for the suicide Joe: so generous Ronnie: i left you alive so you can do yourself in Ronnie: since youve got such a boner for it Ronnie: generosity begins & ends Joe: You can stop thinking about my boners then Joe: that'll be my attempt at the virtue Ronnie: put em away Joe: you tryna expose me Ronnie: you dont need my help Ronnie: flashers keep more hidden than you Joe: really Joe: don't seem like that's something that would bother you Ronnie: youre that special mckenna Ronnie: every fucking thing you do bothers me Joe: 💘 Joe: check facebook some more, I'll keep my events up to date Joe: can avoid each other easy Ronnie: nah you see me you walk the other way Joe: I got places to be babe Ronnie: yeah a&e Ronnie: if you dont get the fuck outta my face Joe: see, you're well about it Joe: I got it, yeah, we're not family Ronnie: were nothing Ronnie: & if thats what gets you off pay for it like the other cunts do Ronnie: not my 9-5 Joe: I found Soho by myself, don't worry Joe: we're good Ronnie: boss Ronnie: stay there Joe: more expensive than Sophie's horse that Ronnie: train her up to be whatever the fuck you want then Ronnie: 4 years in she could probably kiss with tongue like Joe: you gotta ask yourself why you care Joe: 'cos I know Ronnie: i dont have to ask myself fuck all Joe: deny it then Joe: works for me Ronnie: theres no need to deny theres cunts i wanna talk to less than you Ronnie: or i that i gotta have something to do while i wait Ronnie: 💘 Joe: you're all talk Joe: say no more Ronnie: fuck you Joe: yeah fuck me Ronnie: stick your therapy speak in whatever hole you reckon can take it Ronnie: ill reverse over your head before i submit to this psychology bullshit Joe: not what I'm studying Joe: or doing Ronnie: you reckon if you say im all talk itll get you some action Ronnie: dream on motherfucker Ronnie: i dont look like her that much Joe: bold assumption Ronnie: nah Ronnie: charlies more like a brother than you & ive done everything there is to do to that tosser Joe: bold to assume I'm half as fucked up as you Joe: spent long enough telling me I can't be 'cos I got a ma and now I wanna fuck her, okay Ronnie: wearing it on your sleeve aint you though baby Ronnie: saw your arm & yeah i reckon halfs about right Ronnie: but me at 19 wouldve left you in more pieces than that Joe: you must be proud Ronnie: what the fuck of Joe: your 19 year old self Ronnie: youd have liked me better at 9 Joe: alright but a nonce joke is hardly original Ronnie: neithers wanting to fuck your ma Ronnie: read a book schoolboy Joe: that's you throwing that about Joe: not one I ask the prozzies to act out tah Ronnie: what the fuck else was your lil challenge about then Joe: what was yours? Ronnie: i didnt fire any shots shithead Joe: not true Joe: i got the 🍒 to prove it Ronnie: fuck me youre that cunt Ronnie: 1 sos & i owe you my life yeah Joe: where'd you hear that Joe: what was it, needle not clean or something Ronnie: you dont need to wait for a death that slow Ronnie: fucking do it Joe: why do you do it Ronnie: why do you give a shit what i do Joe: interesting Joe: why do you fuck with your face like that Ronnie: too late to keep it pretty for you Ronnie: should have nancy drewed this shit earlier Joe: you ain't gonna answer Joe: alright Ronnie: cant we both like pain Ronnie: is that your problem Joe: 'course Joe: no monopoly on that shit Joe: its universal, so the books say Ronnie: bullshit do you read fuck all else but sheet music Joe: not no more Joe: but i can read more than scales, like Joe: have to write essays and shit sometimes Ronnie: fucking hell Ronnie: save this riveting shit for your flatmates Joe: she does art Joe: dunno what the lad does, he's out his room less than me Ronnie: horse cocks out of clay like Ronnie: bet shes the professors pet Joe: 🤞 she gets in an ill-advised affair with a pervy prof Ronnie: every other repressed white bitch has done it Joe: my home is safe Joe: hooray Ronnie: til i sleuth your address Joe: then its petrol bombs and dog shit, I know Ronnie: after theres fuck all left to steal Ronnie: 🤡s in films 🔥💸 Joe: and eat six year old's arms Joe: crack on Ronnie: i aint bitten any kids since i was Joe: I'm proud even if you ain't then Ronnie: raise the bar baby Joe: guess the other lad you were with don't technically count no more Joe: actual kids are that annoying Ronnie: kids get to be annoying Joe: lucky ones Joe: the ones that get to be kids Ronnie: no shit Ronnie: youll be born & die a saint Ronnie: such a fucking martyr Joe: when God comes a calling, you can't refuse, obvs Joe: guess that's what she gets for not aborting you, nice bonus for being good Ronnie: yeah Joe: likes a joke as much as the next Joe: gutted for her Ronnie: cant take the scouse sinner out of her however much irish catholic dick shes taken since Ronnie: 💔 Joe: if its only paddys in heaven, I'll lose the invite Ronnie: you better stay in purgatory then Ronnie: dont want you in hell with me Joe: you're just jealous I'll be too busy getting tortured by some other demon Joe: you're alright, anguishing over my wrongs for eternity sounds like a bit of me Joe: I can hack it, more painful than being sodomized with pitchforks or whatever weak shit you're in store for Ronnie: wanna see your cum face even less Ronnie: fucks sake Joe: 😂 Joe: shh, you already know he's got that sick sense of humour Joe: your own clockwork orange moment for eternity now Ronnie: 💘 Joe: you ain't nothing like I thought when I was 🔎🤔 Ronnie: cheers for the romantic cliche you pussy Joe: you're that special Joe: and welcome Ronnie: what did you reckon id be like Joe: like the rest of 'em Joe: complete the cliche Ronnie: fuck off Joe: what, I did Joe: there ain't a bigger compliment, honestly Ronnie: i dont wanna hear your compliments Ronnie: or how big they are Joe: 😏 Joe: you asked Ronnie: cause i cant resist hearing how fucking soft you are Joe: that makes you pretty fucking soft yourself then don't it Ronnie: fuck you Joe: back here, yeah Ronnie: back at get someone else to knock you out Joe: shouldn't be hard Ronnie: depends how hard you are Ronnie: could be a turn on or off Joe: either way, its incentive for them to go harder Joe: can't lose, me Ronnie: enjoy yourself baby Joe: never Joe: if I lose my overwhelming urge to die what have I got Ronnie: new overwhelming urges Joe: won't be that good Ronnie: write it in your diary i didnt ask for your review Joe: you can do that you know Joe: they've all got profiles, like they're a shit local pub or something Ronnie: what a fucking state Joe: won't miss it when I'm in pugatory Ronnie: if i had a shot for every time you cried your eyes out id miss that Joe: you'd miss having a liver Joe: and functioning braincell Ronnie: didnt mean that kind of shot shithead Joe: your aim is for shit, true Ronnie: or that one Joe: ahh Ronnie: you had me at dirty needles 💘 Joe: s'worth being alive for, then? Ronnie: what the fuck waste of a question is that Joe: why? Ronnie: what do you think Joe: reason I'm asking Joe: if its just another slow way to kill yourself then I'm sound but if its more than that then its a potential for the repertoire Ronnie: if it was id have taken a faster way out Joe: its noted Ronnie: why do you wanna die Joe: its not even Joe: I ain't actually sad, soz to burst your 😥 bubble, IOU some shots, whatever Joe: just wanna turn my head off, not have to participate Joe: deal with any of it Joe: but saying you wanna be put in a coma doesn't quite have the same punch Ronnie: underline that note then Joe: yeah? Joe: not like I've never thought about it Joe: think about it a lot, hence the need for a fucking switch Joe: how cliche to look like I'm doing it to spite her though, eh? Ronnie: whatever you take now thats strawberry flavoured childhood bullshit Ronnie: youve found your prescribed dose of working adult medicine Joe: it don't touch it, not worth taking unless you wanna down half a blister at a time and have a decent kip Joe: get me some and I'll pay you 20% for your trouble Ronnie: come over Ronnie: told you im waiting Joe: alright Joe: if I ask for your current location do I give away that I'm not a decent stalker Ronnie: youve fucking shown that card bitch Joe: figured Joe: be obliging then Ronnie: [a location of who the fuck knows where cos we don't need Charlie or Bronson there for this excuse you lads] Joe: [when you need some privacy for your bonding] Ronnie: [when you need some privacy to shoot up your half brother who you ain't even told your other fam about] Joe: [fun and games] Joe: cool Joe: 🤞 i'm there just after the heroin Ronnie: get here before or ill be in no state to keep obliging you Joe: I'm yet to be initiated, my timekeeping skills are 🔥 Ronnie: give a shit about your cv Joe: I'll be there Ronnie: your loss if you aint Ronnie: dont come crying to me Ronnie: i wont hear it for fucking ages Joe: i'm not an idiot Ronnie: it dont matter who or what you are Ronnie: stopped listening after the ill be there Joe: 💘 Ronnie: get it tattooed next yeah Joe: yeah Ronnie: over the real fucker Ronnie: cause you love a cliche Joe: 'course Joe: have to find another dickhead with a gun though Joe: that one did not know his left from his right Ronnie: get what you pay for baby Ronnie: & we didnt Joe: touche Joe: I'll forgo accuracy for that Joe: and the dirty needle, obvs Ronnie: getting to put his hand on my tit will blow the brains he has like Joe: 😏 Ronnie: but if i toss him off thatll get shit back on track Joe: hot Joe: love that you have a plan Ronnie: cute Ronnie: you reckoning im pure chaos Ronnie: not your manic pixie dream skank Joe: ain't planning on being a composer Joe: least not now Joe: don't need to write about you Ronnie: 💔 Joe: make up your mind Ronnie: you aint on my mind mckenna Ronnie: dont get your balls in a twist Joe: do you wanna be on mine or not Ronnie: i know whats on yours Joe: same Joe: makes a change Ronnie: compose a song about your confusion then like Joe: less cliche than a love song Joe: still Ronnie: do it from the pov of the horse Ronnie: be a hit with your flatmate Joe: you just wanna get me stalked Joe: paybacks a bitch, yeah Ronnie: wanna get your habit paid for before you start it Ronnie: throw her a boner Ronnie: whats the fucking drama Joe: i don't fancy her Joe: nor having the convo about where all her moneys going Ronnie: & Ronnie: i dont fancy the cunt with the tattoo gun Ronnie: got fuck all to do with it Joe: & Joe: you're lowering standards, not getting anything up Ronnie: close your eyes & think of gear Ronnie: youll do anything for a horse like that Joe: let me try it first Ronnie: dont need to hear about your trust issues baby Joe: better stop talking now then Ronnie: yeah Ronnie: shut the fuck up Joe: [you know when its like 'removed message' that] Ronnie: 🖕 Joe: what Ronnie: i cant cut your sense of humour out Ronnie: cant live with it Joe: no funny business Joe: just a buttdial Ronnie: charlie aint here but adorable that you 2 homos hit it off Joe: just scousers gotta stick together or did you know him from back home Ronnie: he didnt give you the rundown Ronnie: mustve made him speechless mckenna Joe: too busy trying to work out how I knew you Ronnie: we grew up together Ronnie: & the mime standing next to us Joe: cool Ronnie: nah Ronnie: fucked Joe: I mean that you still know 'em, talk to 'em Ronnie: we aint trying to throw our family away for a new one Joe: like I said, s'cool Ronnie: like i said hes gonna eat that shit up Ronnie: you fawning over his family set up Joe: good to know Joe: not really my type either, call me fussy Ronnie: fucks sake Ronnie: join the god squad now & save yourself the 12 steps Joe: 'cos I don't wanna do a bloke or my horse girl roommate Ronnie: cause you only wanna do your ma Joe: you can't just give me dud options and come to that conclusion Ronnie: we playing fuck marry kill now Joe: not playing nothing with you Joe: cheater Ronnie: crybaby Joe: you'll 😥 when I have to kill your mate Ronnie: you wish Joe: making people cry is your thing Joe: I don't need to fight that claim Ronnie: like you aint been wanting to save me again since the 1st time Ronnie: thats your thing yeah Joe: save you from what? Joe: smack? obviously not Joe: other self-destructive tendencies? try again Ronnie: it obviously dont matter Ronnie: id never seen you & id still never seen a cunt more excited to do a rescue Joe: and I'd never seen you Joe: maybe you'd got all kinds of fucked up 'cos of all the shit I dragged up Joe: basic decency ain't nothing to get excited about Ronnie: i know how to self soothe im a big girl now Joe: didn't need you self-soothing yourself to death on my conscience Ronnie: didnt ask you to give a shit Ronnie: catholic guilts best left at home baby Ronnie: youll never find a place with the cockneys Joe: about myself? Joe: its barely but hanging on by a thread Joe: soz Joe: dead girls fuck you up Ronnie: not your type either then Joe: ultimate type Joe: don't wanna commit right now, tah Ronnie: 🤞 i od & you can finally sort your misery boner out Joe: too giving you Ronnie: im dead i aint giving a shit Joe: put that on the headstone Ronnie: pay for it you write whatever cliche you want Joe: you want a classy picture affair Joe: got it Ronnie: stop getting me Ronnie: it makes me wanna blow my brains out Joe: its obvious you wanna be seen Joe: no spooky sibling connection required Ronnie: fuck off Joe: what's better than ruining a graveyards ambiance for the mourners for the forseeable Ronnie: theres no room in the ground soft lad Joe: they just chuck you in with the old bones Joe: or 'move' them Ronnie: hot Joe: mhmm Joe: plague pit is the way to go Ronnie: fit the horse & the girl Ronnie: how fucking romantic Joe: that's me Ronnie: ill put john in the 💘 for you baby Ronnie: your ma robbed you blind of so many lennon comparisons Joe: still time to be pretentious with soph Joe: fuck off getting out of bed for good Ronnie: smother her with a pillow & fuck her corpse youll be feeling peace & love Joe: 💎🍓💘 Ronnie: playing with emojis & yourself aint getting you here Ronnie: hurry up Joe: can't make you any closer Ronnie: 💔

[ask-henry-yugi-tudor]

Just story ideas I have and wrote about a little I guess

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Just vote which ones you like xD

#1: Unnamed - unfinished not even 200 words of some sort au where yami is an animal

#2: King Yamir, King of illusions - unfinished Is a story where Yugi got kidnapped from his home and is now traveling back after 50 years with a dragon, a knight and two centaurs and their friend. However once he arrives, he realizes things have changed and he isnt sure if the life with the humans might have been better off, even if they got rid of his wings.

#3 Mermaids  - unfinished An au where Yugi gets himself into trouble by swimming too close to the surface and he ends up getting hit by the blade of a boat propeller. Kaiba ends up taking care of him but pegasus wants to put him on display. Atem meanwhile is furiously searching in every corner of the sea to find Yugi back and will stop at nothing to find him.

#4 Untamed  - unfinished Prince Yugi is in search of a mythical beast in the woods that bears the fruit of life on its antlers which can save his grandfather, and the current king’s life. if he fails however, his evil uncle Aknaheden will assend the throne and plunge the kingdom into destruction. Meanwhile he kidnaps a child, befriends the most sarcastic cook ever and insults a young prodigee mage along the way.

... tbh i think shiirojasmine would love what i have in store for that one but im too afraid to tag anyone in this long post.

#5 Aelves  - unfinished This story was created before King Yamir. It centered around Atem and his family which were orphans that lived on the streets before getting taken in by townspeople. Atem was the apprentice of a blacksmith bullied by a fierce adventerous knight who told him he would never make good swords, Timaël (Timaeus’ counterpart) was a sheperdboy who was afraid of sheep and Heba worked in a bakery. They find out their parents have been killed by Aelves and plan on finding these Aelves only to befriend Yami, Yugi and Timaeus because they saved one that almost drowned in the river while the other two were unnable to swim. 

This was the original idea, but there were too many characters and though i havent really written a good amount on it, this hasbeen revised into number 6

#6 Aelves  - unfinished Atem finds himself in a bind when he befriends a young Aelf when another thinks he is going to be Yugi’s candidate for the wild hunt. The wild hunt involves humans having to run as the Aelves chase them riding deer. And the human has the marry the Aelf that captures them. Also Yugi hits Atem with a frying pan because why not.

#7 The Time we Share -  finished Probably the only fanfic i have ever finished. Resolves about Yami, a social awkward young man that is in love with his introverted neighbor and has no idea how to handle it. A short oneshot. Nobody understands it. I dont even know myself.

#8 Words better left unsaid  - unfinished Another Neighbor Au Where Yami is a serial killer that partakes in weird human sacrifice rituals. Yugi is so dense however he doesnt notice it. Meanwile Yami keeps stalking him around, always knowing an excuse to be in the same place as Yugi. Eventually Yugi just takes him along because reasons he doesnt find suspicious at all. But having an infatuated serial killing stalker is a good thing when the world finds out you are in possession of an ancient artifact made of solid gold and everyone wants to kill you.

#9 Mirror Immage - unfinished (this is an old one) What if there was a life on the other side of the mirror that was the entire opposite of your own yet still looked exactly the same? And what if you fell through? What if your Mirror Immage was right beside you, instead of being a mere reflection? #10 We create this world - unfinished Based on an old fanfiction of mine called Need A Second to Breathe- basically it is a rewrite of this- In where Yami, Atem and the other egyptiantied cast are the incarnated gods of Egypt. Yami is not allowed to enter the Human world but does so anyway, finding Yugi. He uses his godlike powers to make Yugi happy and angers Atem further. However Atem once made the same mistake of falling in love with a human called Heba, and Yugi looking like Heba is not helping in the slightest. Yugi keeps having viseons of Heba, whos ghost has returned from the underworld, however at the terrible price of being possessed by an evil spirit. And yugi has to choose between giving up his body to save Heba, or not doing so, in turn losing Yami.

#11 A Shadow’s cast - unfinished I think I was either very tired or sick writing this one because it doesnt make any sense. Basically Yugi wakes to find a visitor in his home that is trying to hide from an organisation that is trying to hurt hus guest. Needs a desperate rewrite. 

#12 The Cecaelia - unfinished but up for reading Here What do you do when you find a little creature out on the beach being attacked by seagulls? Chuck it back into the ocean, or take care of it? #13 Mob Boss Yugi - unfinished This kind of was based on Shiirojasmine’s 3 gods au and it sort of formed into my own concoction I suppose. An au where Yugi often blacks out and becomes Yami, one of the greatest mob bosses the world has ever seen. Mai and Joey being undercover agents. Yugi gets scared and writes letters to his other self, finding out that he is a mere puppet that is to serve Atem. Atem is being captured by an evil organisation and has year to pay all his depts using Yugi, or he will be killed. A heist takes place at school and Yugi can no longer determine wether he is a high school student or a wanted drugdealer.

 #14 Beast Assylum  - unfinished  A creepy Au where Yugi and Atem have been subjected to Lycanthropy and are being locked away so they cant hurt any innocent people ever again. Instead they are being used to get rid of people society doesnt want and or need.  Atem is a crybaby. Yugi has been planning his escape for a long time now, why has he started to care for the other, this was not supposed to happen! #15 Baby And a Pharo  - unfinished A spoof fanfiction where Yugi solves a puzzle as a baby and somehow it is a portal to the past. The Egyptians think he is son or Ra and Atem takes Yugi under his wing. However Time in Yugis verse moves faster and He has to make the disission wether he wants to stay with Atem forever or not. #16 Two Necromancers - unfinished Two necromancers. A prince and a thief. They both get resurrected to life to stop big threat to the world.What the two necromancers didn't account for was that they were sworn enemies. #17 Darkness beast  - unfinished This one is too long to explain so enjoy the short version Kaiba and Dartz open up a portal to a knight-and-dragon Era and get the kings of the land they opened the portal on at their sides, Dartz tries to provoke a war, Yugi tries to stop him, Atem goes missing and then Yugi has to take care of a shadow like creature, until Dartz decides to put it onto the chessboard and use it as a threath to Kaiba and his alliences. 

#18 Demons - unfinished Demons. When the world discovered that demons could be summoned to do one’s bidding, they didn’t quite understand what that meant. People were naïve and greedy. And it wouldn’t be long before one would summon something that nobody could control. Basically Ludus’s origin story. Needs a good solid rewrite.

#19 Mewtwo Yami  - unfinished A stupid crossover where Yami ends up  being raised by Mewtwo, thinks he is a pokemon, meets Yugi and wants to compete in pokemon battles (bullies Yugi into being his trainer so he can compete) to prove he is the strongest “pokemon” to make Mewtwo proud of him.

#20 The Assylum  - unfinished Another one of these fics. basically what you would expect. Yami has the ability to see monsters that disguise themselves as humans and exterminates them, Yugi thinks he is just a mentally sick, cold blooded killer. Truth is Yami is also a monster.

#21 Chasing You  - unfinished Ai Atem gets the task to find Yugi, so Atem can hold him in his arms, but Ai Atem has his own sights set on Kaiba. Feeling conflicted because he is more than a mere replica. He is better than that real Atem! Yet he wants to know what Atem and Yugi’s relationship was like. Was it love? Is that what he is feeling?

#22 The God Bird Au - unfinished One Day Harpies descended from the skies to terrorize the little village that Yugi lives in. When one sets his sights on Yugi, the youngster ignores him. He has bigger problems than listening to the flirting of an overgrown bird. And who is this snowy owl-creature that sounds so familiar? 

#23 He’s not a retard  - unfinished What is it with me and Yami being a killer? oh dear... Yami is an intelectually impaired, wheelchair-ridden person however he is what goes bump in the night. Yugi is his caretaker and never bargained for any of his shit. Not the part where he saves a plane from getting hijacked, and not the part where they get stuck in a tomb in egypt!

#24 Yami’s Angel  - unfinished I think this was like my first Yugioh Au  Yami finds a small, unconcious Angel and befriends the little guy and takes care of him. Yugi loves strawberries and chaos ensues because Yugi ALWAYS gets lost in public places. Later in the story he finds out Ryou has the same problem. Except he has a little devil. #25 The Wheelchair Au - unfinished  A combination of the two ideas above. Atem, after a suicidal attempt which caused him to lose both his legs and a finger, refuses to undergo any opperation which could make him use prostetic legs in order to walk again. With nobody to care for him, he stays at the hospital. However one night he hearsa small voice, which is Yugi, his guardian angel, and if they fuse, Atem regains his legs. However if they remain fused for longer than 3 hours, Yugi will disappear.

#26 Dancing in Eternal winter Yugi gets stuck on a mountain with a jock who doesnt understand any language Yugi knows. Spirit Animals are there to help. Yugi then realises that Yami is unable to reintigrate into society, because he has been living on his own all this time, surviving, and his spirit Animal would be much too dangerous. No matter how nice Gulo is.

#27 The Levitated Mansion  - unfinished Atem Lives in a wealthy family and loves to look at the stars with his telescope. However one day he sees a levitated mansion, the owner of said mansion has an eye on him. #28 Shapeshifters  - unfinished Yugi is working at an orphanage when he meets an old Ijiraat, a shapeshifter that you forget after seeing him. However the more time Yugi spends with him, the more he keeps remembering. #29 Sphinxson Yugi  - unfinished Atem lives in a village that has deemed him crazy because he swears he sees monsters. Kaiba is a monster hunter and decides to exploit the scared youth. Yugi is a Sphinx that cant wait for his human grandfather to return, but how long has it been? Just a few days, right?

#30 Pokemon  - unfinished Another Pokemon Au. Yugi is an Eevee that has been taken in by the Kaiba brothers, but after a mishap in the trophee room and Evolving into a Vaporeon, What will happen to the young pokemon? #31 We Are Not Alone - unfinished An Alien Refugee gets mistaken by the Egyptian people as a god, and teach him their ways, however another of his kind is on their way to kill him. Can Atem and Yugi fight this evil Alien or not? And Where is Atem’s family?  #32 Safe and Sound - unfinished A comfort/hurt oneshot fic where Yugi scolds Yami for hurting people, even if it is for protecting him. Basically the idea was that this event is what made Yami stop his evil penalty games.

#33 On a hot summer night, would you offer your throat to the wolf with the red rose between his teeth  - unfinished Yugi is a werewolf that mistakingly kills a sheep of Yami and Ryou’s farm. However Yami and Ryou do not seem to realise who their guest is until Yami finds Yugi’s bloodied clothes on the floor one day as he returns home. thinking th beast that fled out of the window devoured him whole. Yugi tries to keep running, not wanting Yami to know he is a beast, but Yami keeps hunting, dead on bringing the beast down. #34 Bone Datem  - unfinished A schooltrip to Egypt turns into chaos when Yugi gets trapped into a tomb and tries to make his way out. However when he finds a living Mummy that follows him around and wants him to steal the millennium puzzle from the Museum, he finds himself in an even bigger hastle than he bargained for.

#35 Unnamed genderbend Yugi Blindshipping Au  - unfinished Yami and Atem are two gang members that hate each other. However yami is a playboy and gets cursed by a witch. Everytime the sun is down he transforms into a girl. But this girl doesnt remember anything and thinks her name is Yugi. One time, yami does not get home in time and this leads to yugi meeting atem who instantly falls in love with her. Theres little things though like yami being able to see everything yugi does and sometimes controlling her body or mind. At one point when atem tries to kiss him, she punches him bc yami in no way is gonna kiss that bastard xD atem mistakes it as hes gone too far and yugi is just superconfused why she did that xD I already know what i want the end to be but its kind of a sad part on yami's part? Also there is a part where atem finds out yugi is actually yami or something

#36 The Superhero Au  - unfinished Yugi is in a happy relationship with his boyfriend atem but what he doesnt know is that Atem is also the Supervillain Yami. And Atem himself has no control over it whatsoever. The rules of the world is that one who can summon strong monsters are either superheroes or villains. However Yami can only summon a small little Kuroboh, and giving Yugi more trouble than ever. Atem on the other hand claims he has never been able to summon a monster before.

#37 Demon boyfriend Atem  This was supposedly a parody idea where Atem lost his temper way too quick and started yelling in a demonic voice (ind of like Aggretsuko lol) And Yugi wasnt really phased by it at all because at the end of the day he knows atem loves him xD Even if it scares his friends a little.

#38 I wanna steal your heart (and eat your brains)  - unfinished Title was based on a song. Yugi is a zombie and has been dating Atem and chaos ensuess. Kaiba also is a zombie and has been experimenting on himself and discovered some odd perks of being a zombie. (honestlyno plot just shenanigans and lovers quarrels)

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I need to vent, don't mind me.

I just want to discuss the three Hulk movies, so let's go :

Hulk (2003)

Aaaaah, Ang Lee's successful failure, as some may call it. It's not really a bad movie as much as the flaws it has are more noticeable, such as the color scheme used. For example, the military base.

Purple walls, yellow bars, grey bits of wall, flashing red, green and blue lights. I know it's not realistic for a military base, but the idea was to go for a "comic book like" approach, sooo..it looks cheesy and cartoonish. Bright colors are often used in comic books to make an important place more recognisable, such as military bases.

The way the screen splits is also reminiscent of comic books, like you would read a comic. The storyline itself is the closest to the first Hulk comic, which is why I prefer it. (Like with Sam Raimi's Spiderman movies, it is the closest to the comics)

CGI speaking, the Hulk itself is way too green but yet again, this was probably intended to go with the color scheme. The CGI is bad by today's means, but it was the shit back in the day. I think the Hulk is very well animated for a CGI character without any sensor-motion.

The gamma dogs, however, they look hideous. It's like someone tried to animate a dog and put a Joker's grin on it with some green eyes. Their movements are badly made, they just leap in the air, along with some CGI dirt.

Acting goes well, Eric Bana will forever be my favorite Bruce Banner. He really gives off the vibe of "shy guy has an inner monster" and I can easily metaphor it as a mental illness. (Yeah I'm the kind of person who tries to diagnose fictional character with defiencies or mental illnesses)

Jennifer Connelly is also a very good Betty Ross in this, I'm surprised they didn't bring her back. I love that her Betty isn't a crybaby or a typical damsel in distress. Sure, she's Banner's girlfriend, but she is a strong and capable woman and thus, I think she's very underrated.

Nick Nolte plays Banner's father very well. A deranged but brilliant man, he knows what he's done. I try to think of him as "a madman who knows that he is crazy".

Alright, moving on !!

The Incredible Hulk (2008)

The MCU's black sheep and second entry. In overall, it's a good movie, but also a bad one. It introduces us to the Hulk/Bruce Banner that we later see in The Avengers. Understanding this complex character without seeing the movie is really difficult, considering what information we get later on.

Color scheme this time, is dark. Gloomy, dark and somber, this movie could almost play itself as a horror movie such as "The Thing". Fight scenes are often displayed in the dark, where you can't see shit of what's going on. Even in broad daylight it looks dark !

CGI is well done, the Hulk kinda looks like it's actor. I personally think that the green they used is a weird somber blend, considering the bright green eyes that barely light up. Also, the shadows don't help. All you see is a big black mass with a small tint of forest green. Well animated, it fits perfectly in the CGI city (I mean, when he climbs on building like Spiderman, that's CGI) reminds me of the city in TMNT (2007)

The Abomination is an abomination indeed, it's facial movement are unrealistic. It's movements, everything ! Clearly the budget was all on the Hulk, either that or they wanted to give a tribute to the fucking gamma dogs from Ang Lee's movie.

I would see that in a videogame nowadays.

The storyline of this one is confusing and it's basically the only piece of information you can get from Mark Ruffalo's Bruce/Hulk. The ending itself, I'm still trying to figure it out. General Ross here doesn't seem to have no logic whatsoever, the Russian guy turned Abomination is useless.

Acting is good I guess.. Edward Norton is a very good Banner, but I dislike the vibe of "I'm a monster and everyone knows it" because no one seems to care about it. Norton was apparently really hard to work with, which is why they didn't bring him back.

Liv Tyler as Betty Ross is kinda dumb. Ang Lee's Betty was strong, while this one is a crybaby and always goes where she shouldn't. I've seen that trope a lot of time and I hate it. Liv Tyler is a very good actress as well, so seeing her as this really pissed me off.

Tim Roth as the Russian guy wasn't a bad casting as much as it just looked forced. I don't have much to say, except that he loses his accent some point in the movie and no one noticed that.

Moving on.

Mark Ruffalo's Hulk (2012-2019)

Starting in The Avengers, this Banner is the same as Norton's. They give little to no explanation of who he is and instead throw a reference to the alternative ending of The Incredible Hulk. The CGI used is very well made and the colors are well done, true MCU fashion.

It's everyone's favorite of course, and it has evolved in a way no other MCU character has. First, the Hulk smashes, then gets trapped on Sakaar as a gladiator, then Banner can't even turn into the Hulk anymore and then we get Professor Hulk : the ultimate mix of Banner and the Hulk.

Banner here is a typical nerd, but is clearly damaged by the Hulk, refusing to even say his name.

In the battle of New York, he changes into the Hulk saying : "That's my secret, Cap.. I'm always angry"

This could explain so much about the confusing ending of The Incredible Hulk, whereas he isn't scared but is in control.

Scenes that I love :

In Hulk, we are treated to a scene where everything is dark, I'm obviously talking about the scene where the gamma dogs attack. It's so fucking dark, you can't see shit ! But yet again, Hulk knows what to do and is not just SMASH ! He puts Betty in a safe place and fights the dogs, which are OP btw. He breaks one's jaw by flexing, bitch slapped another, this Hulk was strong as hell ! That is, if he doesn't get distracted by Betty.

In The Incredible Hulk, there's a scene where it rains like hell. Hulk had already protected Betty at this point and got her to a cliff, where she would be sheltered from the rain. Hulk clearly doesn't understand why they were all shooting at him and even gets mad at the rain. Betty here gets really fucking scared, but eventually calms him down.(At least the other Betty had the guts to touch the big guy)

I'm done.

In The Avengers, no Betty is seen, so he doesn't really seem to calm down. Black Widow's lullaby is a thing but again, it's forced. I'm done venting, criticising or whatever.

This was my opinion, over !