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nachtnabelle · 6 months ago

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just now my bsf since childhood said that i dont have problems/insecurities compared to the rest of our friends and it made me laugh

like yep! no issues! just the bulimia since we were 14, the disordered eating habits since way before then, body dysmorphia, constant emotional dysregulation and ofc! who could forget about the violent inferiority complex simultaneous with the belief that im a violent monster that shouldve ended things when we were 14.

no issues at all 🩵

#and who could forget about the undiagnosed adhd #constant alienation #persistent loneliness and isolation while destroying all means of having relationships with people #but it isnt even my fault cause im not even a person anyway. how in the skies could i feel the way normal people feel. im different #the same laws obviously dont apply to me /sarc #sometimes i think im not even a human being because people sure as hell dont treat me like one #i hide it cause i dont want anyone in my business #but it gets so lonely and ive tried reaching out but #god #im so scared about even little things but i cant show it cause i dont know why #i really shouldve ended it all before getting this far #i dont talk to anyone ever im so lonely ive cried so much last year and this #bu1imia #bul1mic #bulim14 #those cals wont come off even if i thr0w them up #vent #i do this to myself

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