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hey, everything good ?
nah
#i know this is in last night's context#i live in hostel#final year undergrad#ive been feeling left out#excluded#invisible#uncared for by the ppl around me for months#partly cos our interests dont match which can't blame anyone#but one of them i was close with and genuinely liked#this had been happening for months#id confided in that one person and also subtly told the rest how i was feeling#the treatment continued#a week ago something happened and i isolated myself from them#ignore them etc etc#that one person reached out yesterday#the rest didn't bother (keep in mind these are ppl im constantly around)#i was honest that i felt extra betrayed by her cos she didn't stand up for me for months after id communicated clearly how i was feeling and#is only now reaching out when im throwing a tantrum#she just took all accountability and said sorry#but there's no change since then#they've been even more rude to me since then#im tired#this is a pattern in my life#i struggled with finding my ppl in school#11/12th grade were the worst years of my lifw#uni was supposed to be different and now this#im internalising it#cos ive reached out and initiated so many frenships and selfishly i know im a great fren#but i haven't had the best luck#and it feels like there's something inherently wrong with me that ppl don't care about me enough
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//A little ramblig about eddie dear bc i cant stop thinking about him
Im not joking when i say this whole post was inspired after seen @//purple-raspberries āthe mailmanā drawing because O MY STARS WHAT IS THAT DRAWINgGGGGGG /pos
Okay so anyway, whats up with Eddie Dear? As, like, an active character of Welcome Home?
Something rubs me in the wrong way when it comes to him as a whole, not that I dislike him, prettyā¦ much the opposite (thats why I'm making this post) actually, but I feel he is more relevant to the lore than what ppl give him credit for.
Even way before the past-year (2023) Halloween and Homewarming updates, I felt that he must simply be more than what is presented to us about him:
- He is the only character who sees all the rest of the neighbours every day due to his work
- He is one of the few if not the only one who is confirmed to be from outside of Home
- He brings one of the TWO functional clocks in all of Home (which could well be due to the nature of his work, but it doesn't take away from the fact that it's curious)
And I know, ik, this is not a lot. In fact, I believe this is not crucial info, but I want to mention it because it gives, in some way, a certain statement: Eddie Dear is not like everyone else. It differentiates him from the others.
There's simply something intriguing about him; and I constantly think about how, again, he's the resident who interacts most with his neighbors, the most helpful and willing to do anything, and despite that, he's the one who gets the most hits?
Hes always in a rush because he likes helping others, he's clumsy and yet he does his job in a stellar way and yet he goes the more underappreciated by his neighbors and its the first one to get to have his own personal breakdown during the Homewarming
Keep in mind, I don't mean that the other characters are bad or smth, we all know that inside they care for each other and are a pretty nice neighborhood-
But yea, starting with the most obvious, Howdy and Sally are downright condescending, bordering on rude to him. Howdy ignores him or pays half attention when he goes to deliver merchandise to the Bugdega and tries to start a conversation, and despite this, we can see that Howdy asks him for help to deliver things to someone else.
More specifically, during a hidden audio, we can hear that he uses Eddie to deliver an order of bowling balls to Julie DESPITE Howdy having a home delivery system and probably being able to better handle the weight of the merchandise, being at least two heads taller than Eddie, right when Eddie had just told him he had a very tiring day (of course he didn't hear that)
Sally, on her side, is condescending to him to the degree that when we hear them interacting, at least until now, it's mostly her giving him orders. Heck, Sally has a "long name" for every resident EXCEPT Eddie, whom she usually just calls "Mailman" for everything.
Julie and Frank tend to be more passive about it, but it doesn't take away from the fact that they also end up... taking advantage a bit? Or leaving him a bit aside. I know, I know, we all ship FranklyDear here, but it still bothers me how during "Eddie's big lift" (+ another hidden audio) we're shown how Julie tends to involve him in her games without much consideration as to whether Eddie even understands them to begin with, and Frank, despite acknowledging that he works hard and often overworks for everyone, leaves him lying on the ground. They don't even wait for him to get up to say goodbye properly, they just leave him there and go home. It's a bit sad to hear how Eddie talks to himself while getting up and dusting himself off.
And finally, one that I understand is a joke but serves as a transition to my next point: Barnaby and his constant gag of chasing Eddie around the neighborhood as soon as he sees him making his deliveries, or insisting that Eddie lifts him up because āhe's just a puppyā. I won't delve into this (not now) because I know that overall that's Barnaby's way of joking; Eddie is not his only victim, but when you mix it with everything said above, it gives off some weird vibes.
It's as if Eddie was the typical "punching bag" character of the show's creators; you know, the one created so that the fun we get from him is at his expense, and sadly, somehow that fact makes sense to me as to why he's the first to have a "breakdown" during Homewarming and said breakdown has to do with, what else? his isolation and probable sadness.
During Sally's history and Poppy's confinement in her own house, there were two predominant themes: what happens when we're in the dark, what lurks in the shadows and whatnot, and isolation: Sally talks about this but Poppy experiences it first hand; shes alone and in the dark, house bricked to the top. However, Eddie gets overwhelmed despite being surrounded by everyone and, clearly, in a lit environment.
My opinion? Said loneliness and darkness don't necessarily need to be tangible, and in Eddie's case, they come from a mental place. My dear doesn't seem to have too much appreciation for himself, constantly letting people get the help they want (need, of course) from him at the cost of his own well-being. Eddie Dear is not happy, in fact, I feel he puts himself down a bit, which equates to darkness, and when he can distract himself from this fact again, Home reminds him; and his loneliness comes in a literal-but-not way. Eddie is never alone, that's evident, but again, in the Homewarming video we're not only emphasized that he's upset and confused because no one has asked him for help, but because he DOESN'T KNOW how to handle his own activities outside of work. Anything that doesn't have to do with the post office but is more personal overwhelms him because he's not used to thinking outside of how he should help others because that's his "only" way of interacting with them. Eddie needs to be needed in order to be closer to others, and when that's not the case, it frustrates him so much that it even seems like anger.
Heck, it's even sad how Sally mentions that nobody bothered him with the usual tasks they would require him for to give him a day off, and then downright nobody interacted with him. Not even Julie called him to play. When Sally finds him under Home's tree, she asks him to escort her to Home for the Homewarming and it's narrated that they're the last to arrive, but if Eddie hadn't left his house then... what? Would he have stayed there? (Lowkey I theorize that he wouldn't have, because of the fact that Sally and Frank seem to have more awareness than the others, I feel like she was actually waiting for him)
Personally, I consider that when it comes to a case like Eddie's, it's even worse, because you don't need to be actively in a closed and dark place, isolated (in what voluntary situation would someone have to be like that?) for your head to go completely to shit. Think about it, you make Home angry and he doesn't need the rest of the neighbors to build a wall around you. It does what you already do well: it locks you up with your thoughts and leaves you there.
So,,, uh, yeah, I don't know how to end this.
I just wanted to talk about my fav man.
somebody help him PLAEASSE
#welcome home update#welcome home#welcome home speculation#welcome home spoilers#welcome home eddie#this may be a bit of a strech#but idk it kinda makes sense in my head#This considering the theory that Home is responsible/makes the characters have these crises as a kind of revenge or way to control them.#Also the theory that Sally and Frank know what's going on or have a better understanding#im gonna smooch the mailman#š© OffRol
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1: Letās start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
Iām confused as to why this is double spaced. i donāt want it to be double spaced, yet its double spaced. why? fuck off.Ā
2: Do you ever get āgood morningā texts from anyone?
occassionally but not on a regular basis which is tragicĀ
3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
no. thats fun.Ā
4: Do you find it easy to trust others?
i trust too easily but i shouldnāt and it bothers me but like, when it matters i donāt trust that easily. i donāt think.
5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?
sitting in bed thinking i should sleep and then not sleeping for a couple hours bc Iām annoying as fuuuuuUUuuuuUuuckĀ
6: Youāre drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
molly and lex definitely lol
7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
probably cry forever and dieĀ
8: Are you close with your dad?
not really but its fineĀ
9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
i didn'tĀ
10: What are you listening to?
jennifer talk like always when Iām doing these questionsĀ
11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
probably just water so then i can add flavoring #hacks
12: Do you like hickeys?
yes theyāre niceĀ
13: What time do you go to bed?
whenever the fuck i want Iām an adult, but usually not before midnight everĀ
14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
nacho boy. this bitch. like u bought me nachos. then told me u wish u were buying me nachos. and then u tell me u wanna not talk bc ur talking to another girl. how many times can u fuckin say weāll hang out then cancel on me then tell me i look hot then tell me ur busy for the rest of ur life then tell me u want me then ignore me and let our snap streak die. fuck YOU.Ā
15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
not as quickly but i can still do itĀ
16: Do you always answer your texts?
usually always yes. unless Iām ignoring u. but even then ill answer eventually.
17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
ummMmmMm idk who i fell hardest for tbh. but chances are yes bc i hate everyone Ā
18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
im one of those ppl who constantly has to talk to her friends so likeā¦5 seconds ago lolĀ
19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
JOEY!!!! THE LOML!!!! he picked me up last time i saw him despite him being literally half my weight. i love him. he could never make me sad. heās one of my safe spots. always happy in his arms.Ā
20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
ummmmm i was waiting for a boy to message me back so probably about him tbhĀ
21: Is anyone else in the room with you?
there is notā¦ā¦ā¦that i can seeĀ
22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?
justin timberlake would say yes so i say yesĀ
23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
no. i am 75634728930% happier now than i was four months ago. i love college. but Iām still not happy. just happier. ya KNOWĀ
24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
ye i donāt know if things are necessarily broken but they def need fixing but also Iām not gonna try if theyāre not gonna try YA FEELĀ
25: In the past week, have you cried?
yes. i cried over a dog.Ā
26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
white.
27: Do people ever call you by your last name?
my teachers used to but not really anymore
28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?
umm the love of my life on tinder is potentially ignoring me or is maybe just really busy i donāt know but i love him and want him to message me back. also, nacho boy like always but iM OVER IT.Ā
29: Do you have a best friend?
id say i have manyĀ
30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
no. lolĀ
31: Who was your last call/text message from?
mary was my last text and my mother my last callĀ
32: Are you mad at anyone?
everyone tbh. i hate people. Iām mad at everyone forever.Ā
33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
yes likeā¦..4 hours agoĀ
34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
25
35: How many more days until your birthday?
ONE MONTH EXACTLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
36: Do you have any summer plans yet?
lmao tf no i donāt even have plans for tomorrowĀ
37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
yes joseph and peter r coolĀ
38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
i do not really think so, but who tf knowsĀ
39: Do you have a secret that youāve never told anyone?
i do not really think so?
40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
not that i recall. i mean like now looking back, yes, obviously. but at the time no.
41: Do you think age matters in relationships?
to an extent yes but also to an extent noĀ
42: Are you available?
not emotionally but physicallyĀ
43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
likeā¦ā¦ā¦i donāt even know if my feelings are real. donāt fucking ask me this. bye.Ā
44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
nipsĀ
45: Do you believe exes can be friends?
i think so, if its the right kind of exes ya but shits never gonna work if there r still feelingsĀ
46: Do you regret anything?
yes, being bornĀ
47: Honestly, whatās on your mind right now?
how fuckin TIRED I AM I WANNA DIEĀ
48: Did you ever lose a best friend?
indeed i have, my dudeĀ
49: Was your last kiss a mistake?
i wouldnāt say soĀ
50: Why arenāt you pursuing the person you like?
bc hes involved w Satan (the girl not the devil) and i cant deal w that right nowĀ
51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
no he has notĀ
52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
ummmm we havenāt talked since he dropped me off but he may text me tomorrow but Iām not about to text him firstĀ
53: What was the last thing you ate?
restaurant style tortilla chips made w 7 seeds and grainsĀ
54: Did you get any compliments today?
i think so. if the boy i had sex w didnāt compliment me i shouldnāt have had sex w him. Iām sure he said somethingĀ
55: Where are you going on your next vacation?
i donāt even know if Iām going on a next vacationĀ
56: Do you own anything from other countries?
i do not think so, which is tragicĀ
57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?
girls currentlyĀ
58: Where have you lived most of your life?
illinois all my life which is LAMEĀ
59: When was the last time you took a long drive?
friday when my mom picked me up from school and drove me home 3 hours
60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
yes in like 7th grade lol but not since i do not believeĀ
61: Have you ever TPd someoneās house?
i donāt think so?Ā
62: Who do you text the most?
ummm this is a great question. maybe mary or ola.Ā
63: What was the last movie you saw?
i watched zootopia yesterday. i think it was yesterday. idk but i think that was the last movie i saw. unless Iām going crazy. wait jk i watched the beginning of mr. woodcock tonight but didnāt finish itĀ
64: Whatās preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
i donāt have a current boyfriend/girlfriendĀ
65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011?
zeroĀ
66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
no he is not U ALREADY ASKED THISĀ
67: Do you curse around your parents?
nope theyād kill me i thinkĀ
68: Are you happy with where you live?
i suppose. it could be better but it could also be much worseĀ
69: Picture of yourself?
imagine a pile of shit inside a trash can filled w trashā¦.thats meĀ
70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships?
i like monogamy if its w a good person ya know.
71: Have you ever been dumped?
i do not believe so because i donāt recall ever being in a relationshipĀ
72: What do you most like about making out?
when they stop making out w u and kiss ur neck Ā
73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you werenāt seriously involved with?
yes, thats what all my make out sessions r like. Iāve never seriously been involved w anyone everĀ
74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other?
1000% other person bc Iām a PUSSYĀ
75: What part of a personās body do you find most attractive?
smile but also likeā¦abs. fuck me upĀ
76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed?
either alex or samĀ
77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour?
that has indeed happened lmao.Ā
78: Had sex with someone you didnāt know their name?
that has thankfully not happened.
79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face?
when boys call me baby :))))))) and flirts w me :))))))))) i love attention and boys being nice to meĀ
80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already?
ummm. depends whatĀ āinvolved withā means. fuck? yes. date? no.Ā
81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you?
no bc nobody has ever had a crush on me lolĀ
82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush?
i tell my friends and i have a decent amount of friends.Ā
83: Do you miss your last sweetie?
my last sweetie does not exist, sweetie. jeez get off my fuckin case bro.Ā
84: Last time you slow danced with someone?
probs never. i donāt ever recall slow dancing w anyoneĀ
85: Have you ever ādatedā someone youāve never met?
that was never a thing that happened.Ā
86: How can I win your heart?
PUPPIES and soft blankets and FOOOODĀ
87: What is your astrological sign?
sagittariusĀ
88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
nothing much different from what i was doing at 11pm last nightĀ
89: Do you cook?
i do not :(Ā
90: Have you ever gotten back in touch withĀ an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication?
no bc i have no old flameĀ
91: If youāre single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship?
kinda, ya. :(Ā
92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly?
ummm. i donāt wanna fall into a relationship too quick but also if i like someone i wanna date them ya know
93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest?
nice hair, nice smile, nice bodyĀ
94: Name four things that you wish you had!
1. a smoothieĀ
2. a boy to cuddle me to sleep rnĀ
3. medicine to cure my brainĀ
4. moneyĀ
95: Are you a player?
i wouldnāt consider myself to beĀ
96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day?
according to the definition of a day being 24 hours i believe yes but according to my definition of a day being from when you wake up to when you go to sleep no.Ā
97: Are you a tease?
Iāve been called a tease but i donāt think i permanently am. i just looked hot and had to get attention from a boy
98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr?
i donāt think so???Ā
99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone?
yes. justin timberlakeĀ
100: Anybody on Tumblr that youād go on a date with?
probs
101: Hugs or Kisses?
hugsĀ
102: Are you too shy to ask someone out?
yes 100%Ā
103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
smileĀ
104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe?
YESĀ
105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it?
um id probs talk to them about it but tell them i wouldnāt if they were still in a relationship regardless ya knowĀ
106: Do you flirt a lot?
i try but i fail a lotĀ
107: Your last kiss?
like 4 hours ago w a boy named colinĀ
108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012?
yes
109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month?
yesĀ
110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be?
justin timberlake or brandon saadĀ
111: Do you know who youāll kiss next?
i have a solid ideaĀ
112: Does someone like you currently?
i think so yes. possibly multiple guys yikeĀ
113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone?
i do and it HURTSĀ
114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings?
id like to be in a relationship but everyone i want to be in a relationship w makes it impossible to do soĀ
115: Ever made out with just a friend?
yes. i have, thank u v muchĀ
116: Are you happier single or in a relationship?
ive never been in. a relationship so i donāt have anything to compare it to.
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