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Another wall of text on my thoughts for episodes 70-78, Iâm gonna make a seperate post for 79 and 80 having listened to them already cause there is just. So much.
I wrote all of these notes after listening to the original episode, not any further, so enjoy my thought process though the last quarter of this season!!!
Ep 70: More death discussions, oh joy!! These are the episodes that make me the most uncomfortable, the ones that talk about the nature of death more than just the fact that it exists. I am curious where these books are coming from, if itâs not just Leitnerâs involvement that makes them fucked up. Also Not-Sashaâs laptop having âauthentication errorsâ definitely sounds accurate, even the technology can tell sheâs not really her.
Ep 71: Another example of a story with a focus on claustrophobia. Most of the ones weâve heard by now are from people who are very clearly scared/panicked by the occurance, but Karolina was suuuper chill about it all. Even not being afraid of death, as she mentioned. It feels strange to not be at least a bit perturbed by the idea of your own death, especially in such an untimely way. Thatâs coming from me though, who absolutely has a fear of death in some capacity, so Iâm probably projecting a bit
Ep 72: Basira you better still be alive and not murdered by darkness demons or some shit youâre too cool. Also kindly what the fuck is this episode. I know thereâs been some episodes to do with large amounts of meat or body parts, the room in the man upstairs, the teeth in thrown away. A part of me wants to say this is just a story about a crazy fucking murderer, but I am far to familiar with this fucking series by this point to think itâs just that. So seriously what is the fucking deal with all the meat. The link to the Tom Hahn in Killing Floor is interesting though much like Jon I have no clue what it means.
Ep 73: There are officially too many cults and I cannot keep track of them. Once again phobia themes!!! Darkness!!! Plus the idea that a space was much smaller in reality than it seemed while going through it, which sounds at least similar to a lot of the endless/infinite stuff weâve seen before. Iâm a little worried about Basira now, since like Jon mentioned being involved and in the know with these things in the way they are seems to offer some level of safety, at least more than if theyâre not part of an official organization. Iirc Natalie was the weird girl who kept unscrewing the lightbulbs in that one episode, and Rayner was mentioned in Fathers Love?? I think??
74: Totally unexpected change of events, something fucked is in the tunnels!!! Never wouldâve guessed!!!! Snarkiness aside though, this episode is interesting. Michael being there was confusing at first, but Iâd wager a guess the drawings mentioned are fractals, or something similar, and he seems to like things that go on forever and fold in on themselves. The idea of the thing in the tunnels somehow removing and replacing the floor is interesting, I donât know if weâve seen things like that happen in places that are not somehow extradimensional or unreal in some way (like the spaces Michael likes so much). The fact that the person is taking files is also concerning, I would hope Jon would check to see if anything important is missing, or what was taken in general. Clues n such. Also weâre finally getting more confirmation that Not-Sasha is up to some sketchy shit!!!! Catch on Jon please god!!
75: Michael Crew what the hell have you become. The mention from Jon about wondering if the books take power from the people reading them instead of the other way around makes sense, but what does that mean for people like crew? People who died because of something to do with the book and are just. Inexplicably back? I canât remember if there are other examples of something like this or if itâs just that thereâs been so many books and so much death that it blends together. Basira really came through bringing the tapes, and itâs a much more satisfying goodbye to her character than just âfuck it Iâm done buh byeâ
Ep 76: Melanie King my beloved!!! I love that she and Jon are able to, for lack of a better term, infordump together lol. Hearing them literally finish each others sentences in the end talking about the research King was doing gave me a special kind of happiness lol. I do hope she doesnât get murdered by ghosts in India though. Also she doesnât recognize Not-Sasha!!!!! She knows she isnât actual Sasha!!!! And now Jon has a real and true inkling of whatâs going on. Câmon Jon you remember Graham from Across the Street, put the pieces together please god.
Ep 77: we have answers on whatever is up with Not-Sasha!! The Not-Them, apparently just one weird creature. Gertrude mentions âThe Strangerâ, which idk what it means but I know Mary Keay mentioned âThe Endâ. I really donât know what this could be about, but the way they talk about them like creatures or something is curious. Jon putting pieces together at the end even I hadnât realized!!! Distortion and Strange Music both had Sashaâs voice. God I already knew the voice actor for Jon is fucking incredible but the panic and horror in his voice as he puts the pieces together of what Not-Sasha is, and what it mustâve done to actual Sasha? Phenomenal. But also I REALLY want Jon to clue the others in on whatâs going on. They might not believe him right away and it might take a lot of explanation but there is real logic and evidence in whatâs going on, theyâll pick up on that I assume
Ep 78: God the grief in Jonâs voice is awful. VA is too good. But also listening to the statement, hearing such explicit confirmation that the people attacked by the Not-Them are dead, not simply missing or lost, was so hard to hear Jon read. Just realizing that was probably the first time he got proper confirmation of it as well. Also god DAMN it he needs to tell Tim and Martin what the fuck is going on they can HELP. And maybe then he can get help from his friends instead of going through Michaelâs fucking doors to escape the now unbound(???) Not-Them. Fucking wild
#magnus archives#the magnus archives#tma first listen#tma podcast#jonathan sims#martin blackwood#tim stoker#melanie king#tma ep 70#tma ep 71#tma ep 72#tma ep 73#tma ep 74#tma ep 75#tma ep 76#tma ep 77#tma ep 78
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Still my favorite ship of Momoi :*) they have similiar personalities, they fit so well together
#knb#kisemomo#momoi satsuki#my art#kise ryouta#drawing ships nobody care about lol but I like them lot#the replace plus has a lot of stuff of them
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i think people should be fully allowed to opt out of working jobs and still be able to live comfortably no matter what their situation is and im not fucking kidding
#i keep thinking about my dad a few weeks back being like 'i think everyone needs to earn their share by working' and internally i was like#actually i think thats fucking stupid LOL but ive thought that for a while now#it also only just occured to me that i dont even know how disabled people fits into that idea of his#but theres many flaws to his idea#granted theres also flaws to mine but im not a fucking government dude idk how that shit works. and idc#cause i still think this should be a thing anyway#and people can be like 'but then no one will work! what about all the jobs that we need!' people will still work dumbass#plus honestly people dont like the idea of jobs being taken by robots but i actually do think some would be fine being taken by robots#like self check out is a thing and old people are like 'wah wah why should i use it if im not being paid to do the cashiers job wah wah'#shut the fuck up who literally gives a single fuck. when im alone i literally always use the self checkout its genuinely faster and easier#and also i dont like interacting with people if i dont have to. win win. plus retail workers are famously miserable#most retail jobs like. might actually just be replacable. not all of them. but some#this has become a lot ignore me lol im just saying stuff#also i know people will be like 'whaaa but youre anti ai wdym you think jobs should be replaced by robots!?'#i think art cant be replaced by robots. but being a fucking cashier? the biggest issue there is just shoplifting i mean come on#whatever this isnt a full on debate or anything im just rambling lol#ignore me
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i need someone to hold a gun to my head every time i consider an unnecessary purchase fr đ€Ą
#unemployed but i stay silly#anyway....bought two hydrangeas....#they're pretty.....#<3#the reblooming kind đ„°#i could not afford them but they were a good deal#not as much as the flowering trees i bought two days ago#but much bigger!!#in the two gallon pots#so i dont have to wait for them to get big to start looking nice#they're big enough i can probably take cuttings also :)#im gonna make the pond look so pretty!!#rn it looks really sad and swampy lmao#but w a little landscaping it will look like a feature :)#plus is has pretty fishies in it#and im ripping out all the invasive stuff and i need plants to replace them with to stabilize the soil#thats my story and i'm sticking to it#also if there's nice bushes that will take up space so the weeds dont come back#hopefully#anyways this is a cheap time of year to buy stuff bc its all dormant#and its going to be 60f tomorrow!!!!#so my garden fever is crazy rn#i have literally two crocuses in bloom rn and thats it lol#but my daffodils have visible buds on some of them so soon i will hopefully not be insane#this warm day should speed things up a lot#anyway#i will share pics of my garden when its pretty <3#going for koi pond vibes#but idk if i can add koi in w the goldfish#the goldfish are pretty big but possibly still small enough that the koi would eat them
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Kinda want to create one of those like 100 days of self care or mental health or something challenges for myself & post abt it each day to hold myself accountable
#i keep seeing them when i look up stuff about language learning#itâs kinda like just posting your habit tracker for everyone to see i guess#which feels v vulnerable but i still kind of want to do it#itâd purely just be me trying to enforce healthy habits for myself instead of spending all my downtime on my phone and filling my body#with crap#i definitely would want to track: sobriety (no buying or ingesting weed or alcohol or any other substance that has not been prescribed)#am i taking care of my nails and not biting them or picking up my cuticles#am i taking my hands (moisturising them and applying eczema cream if needed)#language learning: speaking; listening; writing; reading spanish. plus learning new material and reviewing old material#go out once per day. eating of fruits and vegetables maybe. taking vitamins (especially vitamin d and iron)#am i doing my skincare. am i doing any haircare. am i doing a workout (even if low intensity)#hobby activites: knitting; reading; crochet#8 hours of sleep. AVOIDING UNNECESSARY PURCHASES (which i would define as anything i donât need to live or that wonât appreciably improve#my quality of life. like subscriptions i have can stay. food is always fine. prescriptions and anything for health are fine#if something happens like my earbuds break iâm allowed to replace them but iâm not allowed to randomly decide i need a better pair when the#ones i have are fine. stuff like that)#okay this is a lot more categories than i actually thought i had lol. and i havenât even added anything like home maintenance#the only things i reliably stay on top of are dishes and trash. everything else i take WAY too long to get around to#but i donât know how to quantify that#iâve always just figured as long as nothing is visibly gross or smells iâm doing okay#personal
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i had dream about this lol. reader is naive/innocent/virgin, they know about sex but not much about masturbation. reader tells joel that theyâve been having this problem at night (usually) where they get all hot and achey down there. joelâs like well i know a way you can fix that feeling!! hopefully this isnât too outrageous, i just love perv!joel lololll
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900 / Joel x virgin!Reader / joel master
âš prequel: fires | sequel: thoughts
WARNINGS: I8+ mdni, big girthy age gap (20/50s) only one sleeping bag. fingering, grinding. mention of Joel being a girl dad.
You can't sleep. You scoot your lower body forward and away from Joel's crotch. Â
"You okay, sweetie?"Â
Not really, but you don't know how to talk to him about it. Youâve been sharing a sleeping bag with Joel ever since yours was lost in a scuffle. Joel's is big enough for both of you, but barely. Youâre settled in against him with your head on his bicep trying to get to sleep, but he was poking into you again, and it makes you ache. The feeling between your legs is so distracting, so overwhelming you can't sleep. Â
It seizes you and wonât let you relax, but you donât know what to do about it. Youâre a grown woman, of course youâve tingled before, felt the warmth between your legs, thought about sex, hoped to have it one day. But this aching, throbbing feeling worries you. Itâs so beyond anything youâve ever felt before. It's extreme and sometimes it hurts. You worry something has happened to you from sleeping so rough, not having the right products people used to have for their periods.
The feeling is at its worst when his dick gets hard and presses up against you. That makes you suspect it's sexual. But you never learned how to get yourself off, and it's too late now.
"Um, yeah," you whisper. "I'm okay."
You squirm uncomfortably and dig a hand between your legs just to stay there. Â
"What's wrong honey?"Â
You sigh. "I just feel funny, that's all. You can't help. It's girl stuff."
"Now, hold on. Gimme some credit. I was a girl dad remember? You havin' cramps?" He gently rubs your lower belly, making the throbbing between your legs even worse. Â
"No, not like that," you groan. Â
He lifts his head up and gets more serious. "What's goin' on, sweetie? Where's it hurt?"Â
Your face burns as you start to try to tell him. "In the front between my legs."Â
His breath hitches. "What's it feel like?"Â
"It just aches and tingles and feels like a lot of pressure."Â
He inhales deeply. "Anything else that goes with it?"
"I get wet," you say. "But I don't think it's like normal. This is really a lot, and I'm afraid something's wrong."Â
He's quiet for a moment. "Nothin's wrong with you, baby," he murmurs. "Imma try somethin', okay? Tell me if this makes it worse or better."
"Okay." You're desperate. Plus, you've been traveling with him for weeks and you're past the point of modesty.
He nestles in behind you and grinds his hard cock into your ass. "Worse or better?"Â
"Worse, worse."Â
"Okay, now we know what the problem is. It's just tension, baby. Built up pressure. Your body's reactin' to mine."
"Okay. . ."
"Just gotta relieve that pressure. It's okay, we all do it. I can give ya some space if ya want"Â
Your heart rate speeds up. He must assume you know how. "I don't do that," you whisper.Â
"Ya gotta. Not gonna go away on its own, sweetie."
"I never figured out how. maybe something's wrong with me"
"Nothin's wrong with ya sweetie." He's quiet for a moment then he strokes your abdomen reassuringly. His hand finds yours between your legs. "Want some help?" He asks.Â
"Um, alright."Â
You move your hand out of the way and Joel's replaces it, first feeling you over your underwear. He whistles silently when he feels how wet you are. Then he slides his hand into your waistband. "This okay?"
"Yeah."Â
He backs up and urges you to lie down flat on your back. His hand wedges between your thighs and you move them apart, making space. He watches you watch his hand. He bypasses your clit to wetten his fingers with your arousal. "This okay?" He asks and you nod.Â
His middle finger prods at your entrance "can I go in?"Â You nod again.Â
He scoots up and presses his hard cock into your hip as he swirls his finger, then inserts it to the first knuckle and your mouth falls open with the intrusion. "Real tight," he mutters.Â
"What's that mean?"
"Nothin', baby."
He proceeds to insert his whole finger, then adds another. He slides his fingers through your folds then finds your clit and begins to rub wet circles. "Tell me when it feels right," he says.Â
He tries a few angles, speeds, and techniques until one really hits the spot and you say "that."
"Good girl."Â
He rubs you just how you like. "Now if you wanna touch your nipple or somethin', sometimes that helps, too."Â
You slide a hand under your shirt and lightly caress your breast. You feel your lower belly heating up, you're getting more tense but also feeling so good with his hand between your legs. He grinds himself into you as he fingers you and watches your spine begin to arch.Â
"Come on, sweetie. Let it happen."
You whine from the pressure. "Joel, I - I don't know how"
"Sure ya do, baby just let go, let it happen," his voice is soothing and low.Â
You whine again and pinch your eyes shut.Â
"I know baby, you're almost there;"Â
A few more strokes and you see stars. You ride massive waves of pleasure and relief. It feels so good you cry.Â
"Shhh, it's okay, baby. I got you."Â He caresses your face. "You're okay, I got you, sweetie." He presses a kiss to your temple.
SEQUEL: Thoughts
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If you're into innocent readers, there's more where this came from. . . My ongoing series Left in Lincoln has an innocent, naive, virgin reader. And my master list has a virgin section lol.
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'make it right' with jk for the 1k celebration pleeeaaaasssseeee đ«¶
light of the morning
â request: jeongguk + make it right - bts
â pairing: jk x f. reader
â genre: fluff, angst
â word count: 2.7k
â warnings/tags: idol!jk, college student!oc, mild angst, they're best friends, insecurities and self-doubt thoughts.
â summary: in the eternal night that seems endless, jeongguk finds his peace in the light of the morning.
â author's note: hi anon! thanks for requesting :) summary is obviously inspired by the lyrics of make it right, which i used as the general inspiration for the story. i hope it doesn't stray too far from what you had in mind, hehe. enjoy!
a continuation of opposite of sun. i suggest to read that first before reading this!
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âJeongguk Takes Over Times Square With a Surprise Performanceâ
âMassive Crowd Gathers In Times Square for a Jeongguk Surprise Performanceâ
âJeongguk Surprises Times Square Crowd With a Free Concertâ
Itâs been a day since Jeonggukâs surprise performance at Times Square, and the media headlines praising his performance just keep flooding in. In the articles, there were no flaws in his performance. Impeccable. Perfect. The media especially highlighted the way his fans only got a 30-minute notice before the performance, yet they were able to fill up the streets of Times Square. They were loud, singing along to his songs word for word, and Jeongguk is so proud.
The praises didnât only come from online articles, they also came from the radio hosts and interviewers who were lined up in Jeonggukâs schedule today. Itâs refreshing to answer questions outside of the usual âWhatâs your favorite food to eat in the US?â and about his surprise performance instead. Jeongguk is grateful that his manager, Namjoon, scheduled these interviews after the performance instead of before it.
âDo I have any more interviews for today?â Jeongguk asks Namjoon, peeking at the clock on his phone. Itâs only a little after seven in the evening. He knows itâs a silly question to ask, already knowing the answer by the look on Namjoonâs face.
âYou have two more, actually,â Namjoon answers regardless. âPlus taping for two songs for one of them. I thought you knew this already?â
âUh, yeah, just making sure.â Jeongguk clears his throat, eyes still on his phone.
âYouâve been checking your phone a lot today. Something wrong?â Namjoon inquires, a worried look replacing the duh one he had on his face earlier.
âNo. Everythingâs okay.â
Yes, something is very wrong.
Itâs been more than a day since he video-called you, a little over a day since his performance at Times Square, and little less than a day since he texted you the YouTube link of said performance. In that time frame, his phone is completely void of any notification from you. No texts, no calls, even no tweets or an Instagram DM. Youâve been totally silent and itâs starting to get on his nerves. Why are you leaving him in the dark?
âYou sure? You look like you want to punch someone.â
What he wants is praise from you! No, he doesnât want it, he needs it. All the flowery words from the media and radio hosts mean nothing if he hasnât heard one from you. Ever since he started his singing career, your opinion has always been one of the first ones he seeks. Without it, heâs lost. Left wondering whether his performance deserved the accolades, or they were only for his pretty face.
âJeongguk, weâre here. Put a mask on and smile. You can worry about your best friend later,â Namjoon says the moment the car comes to a stop in the parking lot of a building somewhere in New York. Jeongguk looks at him as heâs getting off the vehicle, confused. His manager throws him a small smile. âDonât look like that, itâs kinda obvious youâre thinking about her.â
âI havenât heard from her since yesterday, hyung,â Jeongguk sighs. âI have the right to be worried.â
âYouâre not the only one with stuff to do, you know? Maybe sheâs busy too. Iâm sure sheâs fine,â Namjoon tries to reassure him. âGive her a call after this, to ease your mind.â
Namjoon is right. Youâre probably busy juggling midterms and your part-time job back home. The chasm he felt yesterday opens back up, gaping to remind him that you two are worlds apart. Superstar Jeongguk who replies to texts in seven business days has no right demanding a reply from a regular college student after only one day.
Two more interviews. Two more songs to perform. Then he can hear your voice, see your face, and everything is going to be okay again.
Jeongguk finishes his schedule for the day a little after 1 AM. He tries to call you in the car, on the way back to his hotel. No answer. Tries again when he reaches his hotel room. Then tries again after he showered and changed into comfortable clothes to sleep in.
Ten missed calls.
Jeongguk goes to sleep with a dark cloud in his mind, completely restless.
In the morning, when the sun is already upâthe way the moon is in Seoul, where you areâJeongguk cracks his eyes open to stare at the ceiling in his room, his heart still heavy with worry. Also heavy is his head when he sits up on his huge hotel bed, likely due to his tossing and turning in his sleep all night. It doesnât help that his lockscreen is still void of notifications labeled with your name. Youâve been MIA for almost two full days. Where are you?
He sends seven more bubbles in your chatroom, a sigh slipping past his lips when the tiny word under the blue bubble only reads delivered. Heâs on his last thread of hope when he clicks on your contact picture to video call you, and that thread snaps when all heâs staring at on the screen is his own puffy and tired face.
Maybe he should order some breakfast. Get something to munch on, pry his mind away from the thought of you and what youâre up to in a country far, far away from where he is. He hopes youâre okay. He hopes you aced that midterm you were up until three to study for (although you spent the good part of the last hour talking to him on FaceTime). He hopes youâre eating well and not some instant cup ramyeon or shitty take-out from the Chinese place by your apartment that you frequent because itâs cheap.
After skimming through the room service menu, Jeongguk places an order of breakfast enough to feed five people. (What? He needs his energy. And a distraction.) The kind hotel staff who took his order informed him that his food will be ready in around 20 minutes. Good. Plenty of time to track his schedule for today and not think about you. (So much for a distraction.)
As it turns out, his itinerary for today is not packed with work schedule. Namjoon had only written âExploreâ along with a note to bring the camera noona who usually follows Jeongguk around to film all of his adventures as an idol. Said âadventureâ is typically limited to dressing rooms of music shows, though. Oh, maybe Namjoon wants him to stroll around the city and make a vlog out of it, give his fans a little peek of what he does in his down time in New York.
In order to do that, he has to shower, get dressed, and maybe get his makeup done. He definitely needs to get his hair done, though, thereâs no way heâs going out with this bird nest atop his head. Or maybe he could go natural, let his hair breathe for the day. Namjoon said it makes him look like a college boyfriend, and apparently, his fans love the look. Throw some hoodie and jeans on, and Jeongguk would be ready to go to class with you.
Ah, you again.
His mindless scrolling on Twitter in procrastination halts, the words on his phone not registering as his mind goes back to you. What would it feel like to go to class with you? To watch your focused face in class, trying to absorb knowledge from the professor? To be there next to you, answer your question whenever you struggle to grasp a concept? To be your college boyâ
A knock on his door interrupts his thoughts.
Jeongguk stills, waits for the shout of room service! to follow, but it never comes. The clock on his phone tells him itâs only been 10 minutes since he ordered breakfast, so maybe itâs not room service after all. Maybe itâs a staff member, coming to tell him to get ready for the day.
As Jeongguk makes his way to the door, come some more knocks, this time more tentative than the one prior. Before he could reach the door, the person on the other side speaks.
âJeongguk..?â It sounds muffled by the door, but the voice rings familiar in his ears. Itâs the voice he last heard almost two days ago, via a video call connection between New York and Seoul. Could it be? No, it couldnât ⊠right?
Jeonggukâs eyes are right in front of the peephole just as the voice sounds again: âItâs me, BunâŠâ
There, in front of his hotel door, stands a girl 15 centimeters shorter than him, dressed in black jeans and her favorite sage green sweater, with a lump of black fabric hanging off her left arm. A faded black baseball cap sits on her head, so faded it looks almost navy. When she finally looks up to peek at the peephole, Jeongguk loses his breath.
Itâs you. Itâs really you.
Jeongguk is so stunned that heâs frozen in place, just staring at your confused expression that slowly morphs into one of anxiety.
âDid Namjoon give me the wrong room number..?â you mumble, fishing your phone out of your pocket.
Jeongguk has never yanked a door open that hard in his life.
You tear your eyes away from your phone, jumping in surprise at the sudden movement. His eyes lock with yours, and the shock on your face melts into a smile.
âHi!â
Youâre obviously exhausted, having just got off a 14-hour flight from Seoul, moving 13 timezones backward, seeing the sun when youâre supposed to see the moon. But the way you beam at him is full of glee, your eyes bright despite the obvious fatigue. Jeongguk is mesmerized.
Wordlessly, he reaches for your shoulders to pull you into a hug. They feel more prominent than the last time he hugged you, and he doesnât know whether itâs from your haphazard eating schedule or just ⊠time. He doesnât remember when he last gave you a hug. Doesnât remember the last time he saw you in the flesh like this.
âYou just woke up, didnât you?â you say from somewhere near his collarbone.
âMaybe,â Jeongguk mumbles. âMaybe not. I feel like Iâm still dreaming.â
âUp in the clouds, are we?â you chuckle. âWell, if youâre done dreaming then maybe we could come in? Backpackâs starting to hurt my shoulders.â
Itâs right at that second that Jeongguk just realizes the huge backpack hanging off your small frame. The poor bag is bursting at the seams, like itâs gonna comically explode if you even try to unzip it. Jeongguk closes his fingers around the small handle on top, testing the weight.
âDid you fit your whole life into this? Why is it so heavy?â he complains, immediately untangling your arms from his body so he can slide the backpack off you and onto him instead. âI feel like Iâm about to do the 20 kilometers march in the military.â
âHah! Try navigating JFK with that on your shoulders. Itâs way harder than the military,â you huff, following Jeongguk into his hotel room.
He sets your backpack down on one of the couches, turning around to get answers to a thousand questions in his head, but pauses when he sees youâre still standing by the door. Your eyes are scanning the room slowly, stopping at Jeongguk to look at him with an unreadable expression on your face.
âWhat?â Jeongguk says.
âItâs huge,â you say. âThe room, I mean. They usually are in your vlogs, but itâs different seeing it in person.â
This could turn into another conversation about their differences quickly, but Jeongguk is not in the mood to deal with distance today. For once, youâre an arms-length away from him. He doesnât want to fuck this up and send you back to KST, 13 timezones away.
âEh, I think your backpack is bigger.â He shrugs. Safe route, for now. âWhat do you have inside that bag, really?â
âMy brick ass laptop, thank you,â you say sarcastically, finally going deeper into the room just to give your backpack a protective hug. âStill have a midterm to finish and submit here.â
âYou still have midterms and youâre here in New York?â Jeongguk gapes. âWhy?â
âBecause you asked me to be here,â you state like itâs obvious. âWell, not like that, but you looked so sad on our last video call that I booked a flight here as soon as we hung up the call. Didnât really realize the weight of it until I was watching your performance with Yeseo and I blurted out that I bought a ticket to New York and how maybe it was a stupid thing to do on a whim like that. She looked at me like I was stupid and said I should totally go. So. Here I am.â
If selective hearing is a sin, then Jeongguk would be guilty because he heard nothing beyond the part where you said you were watching his performance.
âYou watched my performance?â He parrots his thoughts. âBut you said you would have been asleepâŠâ
âNo sleep is worth my best friendâs sadness.â You throw him a small smile. âActually, Yeseo set an alarm for it. And then I went to have the midterm with a terrible headache because I didnât get enough sleep. But itâs worth it, the performance was amazing. You did great on that stage.â
âI did greatâŠ?â
At this point, Jeon Jeongguk should change his name to Parrot Jeongguk, because all he ever does is just repeat things he heard. First his thoughts, now you.
âYes, of course you did great, Jeongguk. Wasnât it obvious, the way your fans were screaming their lungs out for you?â
I only wanted to hear it from you, Jeongguk thinks. The media headlines and praises from the radio hosts and interviewers flash in his mind, all positive feedback for his performance, yet still planted a seed of doubt in his mind. It caused an ugly darkness to settle in his mind, one that worsened with every call you didnât pick up.
âWhyâd you ghost me, then?â
Way to ruin this moment, Jeon Jeongguk.
âI didnât mean to, Iâm sorry. Between catching up on sleep and rushing for the flight, I just didnât have the time to look at my phone at all. Also, I was on the plane? It takes a long time to get here from Korea if you didnât know.â
âSo itâs not because my performance is bad?â
You get up from your position on the couch to grip him on the shoulders, your nails digging into the material of his t-shirt. You have to strain your neck to be able to look him in the eyes, but you hold his gaze firmly like the position doesnât hurt you at all.
âJeon Jeongguk, listen to me. Your performance was great, you looked handsome, your singing was on-point, your high note was awesome, your dancing was super cool, and the crowd was really loud. I donât know what kind of validation you seek, but I personally think everything about your performance was perfect.â
Yours. I only want your validation.
Slowly, the darkness in his mind begins to disperse, replaced by this warm beam of light piercing through the clouds. It settles in his mind like a blanket, protecting him from any more bad thoughts. He thinks itâs because of you, bringing light wherever you go. Can that light be shared with him? Will he glow from the inside out if he connects his lips with yours? Why does he want to lock lips with you?
âJeongguk, are you okay? You look like youâre floating in the clouds again.â
Yeah. No. I want to press my lips against yours. Can I?
Three knocks sound from the door. And then: room service!
Jeongguk clears his throat (and his mind along with it.)
âDo you want to explore New York with me after we have breakfast?â
Jeongguk might want more, and he might be ready to admit it. After all, the light to his darkness is here. If not now, then when?
âSure, itâll be a fun best friend adventure!â
âŠmaybe some other time.
a/n: thank you for reading! i'm planning to have a part 3 of this but let's see if i can actually find the time to write it ahah
#bts#jungkook#jeon jungkook#bts jungkook#fanfic#fic#bts fic#bts fanfic#bts au#bts college au#jungkook college au#jungkook drabble#jungkook oneshot#jungkook au#jungkook scenarios#jungkook fluff#jungkook x reader#jungkook x you#jungkook angst
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Seen a couple other people do this, so, here are some recommendations for replacements for Wilbur's music and Lovejoy!
Crywank -> indie folk punk with lots of acoustic guitar with descriptions of paranoia, depression and a lot of dry humour.
Los Campesinos -> indie rock and indie pop! For their older music, they implement more 'emo' lyrics, but overall they have really good lyricism (you might have already heard them from Lovejoy's cover of Knee Deep At ATP!)
Arctic Monkeys -> literally what Lovejoy wanted to be. They come under almost every subsection of rock ever, and have the tendency to have absolutely stupendous bass lines.
Cavetown -> similar indie vibe to Wilbur's old music!
The Backseat Lovers -> alternate rock with intense and emotional lyrics! You may have heard of them from 'Kilby Girl' from their 2019 album 'When We Were Friends'
James Marriott -> obvious choice! As a prev Lovejoy fan, I can tell all of you you'd really anjoy his music.
Together Pangea -> typically fast paced, garage pop, or whatever you want to call it. They also have a small US tour happening soon!
Half·Alive -> you may have heard them from 'Creature' from their album 'Now, not yet'. I highly recommend these guys; very lyrical and have an insanely beautiful mix of jazz, rock and pop.
The Frights -> another indie rock/pop band! Has some really fast paced stuff, and some calmer acoustic stuff.
I've seen a lot of people saying 'seperate the art from the artist!' but, full honesty, go listen to new music! I can't take back the emotional attachment I had to his old music, especially YCMGA, but listening to his shit gives him money, and there is no way I'm giving money to an abuser. Let alone, it's become glaringly obvious that the e-girl trilogy isn't a persona, that was just him. Let alone the theme of Your Sister Was Right.
Plus, he's said multiple times that the money and the fame was all he cared about; he would disappear for months and, when he wanted attention and money, would come back to a dedicated fan-base who gave him exactly what he wanted.
Go listen to new music, and support Shelby lads <3
#also been seeing some stuff float around about his off screen abuse to his younger fans which I might talk about later#because what the fuck man#lovejoy#the band lovejoy#wilbur soot
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baking, multi (˶ Ë ÂłË)Ëá” Ë˶) how theyâre like when baking
characters . sanemi shinazugawa, genya shinazugawa, tanjiro kamado, â đ âĄ Ő warnings . fluffămodern au. admin note . aaa its so good to finally be back from a hiatusss !! I missed writing sm, hope this makes me disappearing up! ໠ᩧê±
SANEMI SHINAZUGAWA.
well itâs both of yours second anniversary of being married so why not have some quality time by cooking a cake? seems wholesome, hmm..
you suggested the idea and he thought it was cute so of course he accepted, plus any quality time with you is of course the best, taking the day off of his work for you! how sweet!
theennn, the two of you are idiots and burned the cake twice or thrice, but itâs okay, the fourth time was a charm and came out well!
you slap him once with flour on your hand playfully, he either ignores it and smiles or it turns into a mess, either one that flows your boat.
sanemi learned one thing or two from this experience, that no, cornstarch cant be a replacement for flour and that you two are bad at baking, equally.
alot of ânemi, can you get that for me?â
defiantly hugs you from behind and watches over your shoulder when youâre mixing, sometimes not watching and closes his eye and snooze a little
wipes the frosting off of your face with his thumb, would lick it teasingly at times but he has table manners
you two made little doodles on the cake with both of you on it.. ( maybe on each other too )
GENYA SHINAZUGAWA.
he defiantly tried to surprise you with cookies and then burned them, then tried again and managed to make them too big; then heâs frustrated how he canât do a simple thing as baking
but he doesnât give up, despite the horrid mess he proceeds attempt to clean up while making his 5th batch. itâs for you so he has to give all his efforts even if he feels like itâs impossible for him .
he didnât check the time he spent and then you came home, to a messy kitchen and a messy genya. he gets so embarrassed and red on his ears.
trying to make excuses to not seem âpatheticâ for not being able to bake simple cookies, heâs so cute you couldnât be mad at him (â„_â„)
TANJIRO KAMADO.
he actually baked and cooked for his family a lot many times so baking with him would be easy since you havenât done it before, or maybe you thought.
heâs sorta like a mom you tried to help cook and stuff but you kinda ended up in their way somehow, but he really does try to include you while heâs making the pastries for you both
itâs basically almost that âletâs bake but you can only watchâ but he lets you mix the batter for the brownies. brownies are hard to make but he defiantly made it alot of times you could count so, you basically have a professional with you!
of course it would end up perfectly with you two eating in delight
#ïž”âżïž”âżàšâĄà§âżïž”âżïž”ïž”âżïž”âżàšâĄà§âżïž”âżïž”#demon slayer x reader#fluff#kimetsu no yaiba x reader#kny fluff#kny x reader#sanemi shinazugawa#sanemi x reader#tanjiro kamado x reader#tanjiro fluff#tanjiro x reader#genya shinazugawa x reader#genya fluff#genya x reader
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"Ribfest is back," shouts The Mayor, immediately before he descends into the turret of the tank and seals the door behind him. He is not wrong: Ribfest is indeed scheduled for this weekend, but the amount of cowardice shown in this one interaction makes me question his moral authority to preside over it.
This event is special in my town, but not for the reason that it used to be. Every year lately, folks get tooled-up on their homemade barbecue sauces and start to lay siege to the town around them. Nobody is really sure why this started so recently, but the active theory from the FEMA scientists is that AliExpress "has a lot of great shit for sale" and you'd be stupid not to experiment with putting some of it on some fall-off-the-bone braised pork.
Now, most folks would tell you that if you're going to end up fighting off your neighbour with an ice pick every year, simply don't go. This is a dismissive argument made in poor faith. And, worse than that, it's disrespectful to the meats, a concept that would make my dear mother faint in horror. The threat of imminent death that hangs over every moment of the proceedings simply adds a new dimension to the flavour.
Here's how I do it: I get in and I get out, fast. You don't want to be caught unaware while you're busy tucking into some "C"-tier stuff slopped out by the kindergarten teacher, Ms. Shotwell. No, the real strategist figures out from last year's ordeal who has the best barbecue in town. And this time, it's Barley Mowat, a young gun who used to be a television journalist before the Bad Times began. He got replaced by a machine sentience, has no job. Lives for the ribs, as do most of us now. Sometimes he starts to tell you a fact about how sewer pipes are made, or how many football fields long a structure is. It's best to just let him talk, even outside of the shrieking rage fest of a Ribfest-induced hallucination. We hang out at the bar, sometimes. He drinks a lot.
Barley's ribs are once again top-tier: he's got some kind of green chile sauce this year. Lends a real taste of the Southwest to every bite, which is tender and rich in equal measure. Plus, he clobbered a dude from the backpack store with a golf club when he tried to steal the up-armoured NASCAR that I used to drive to the event. Don't park in the designated spots, folks: like I said, get in and get out.
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I love jack so so much he's perfect but tbh I do think it would've worked much more with the show if he was a destiel baby instead of lucifer's. and I'm not just saying that as a shipper or whatever I mean narratively it would've been a lot cleaner- and actually, I think it would've been super funny to no-homo them creating a baby together, like, literally all they would have to do is say "oh, when cas rebuilt dean after hell he accidentally left some grace tangled in his soul, and every time he's healed him since then it's been growing stronger until a nephilim was born". like yes the studio is homophibic etc etc but all the jokes they'd make about dean being spiritually pregnant would be very funny for me personally.
but ANYWAY, jack's story gets messy and convoluted and I think this would've been like...a simple fix. them worrying about him going dark side could be because they're worried how demon!dean and lucifer!cas affected him in development, the show LOVES bloodline drama, chuck's wanting abraham and issac 2.0 would've worked better this way, dean's storyline with him would be improved, bc rather than 'oh no I slowly but surely emotionally adopted the antichrist' like I think he would've had an easier time clocking his john-behavoir if it wasn't a question whether he was jack's dad or not. plus last time dean actively raised a kid he went to great lengths to keep the supernatural away from him, so it'd be interesting to see how he handles a kid he CANT possibly hide from this part of his life. it would make more sense why michael wanted jack as a vessel- yes obviously he wanted the nephilim power boost but also having him as part of the winchester bloodline, making him a PERFECT vessel he doesn't have to worry about burning up would add a lot. we could also use this argument for why lucifer is so interested in him if anyone actually liked that plotline in season 14 lmao. we know chuck hated cas and dean's relationship, could you imagine if he checked in and found out they made an unauthorized baby togetherđ like that really would've given better context for why he hates jack so much. cas wouldn't need that whole weird brainwashing arc to wanna protect unborn jack, PLUS it could've been an interesting source of angst for him- he feels like he's failed once again, creating an abomination and putting dean in danger, but also still loves jack immensely. it'd be so good! also imagine how fucking stressed out heaven would be to find out a mini castiel is on the way. they wouldn't even wanna exploit that kid for power they'd be preemptively treating the headaches they know they're gonna get lmfao.
also. the casting directors literally put jensen and misha into a face morph app and cast the first actor they could find that matched the results. which would've made more sense if,,,,he was just Theirs. the comedy of dean and cas making a baby before either of them managed to admit their feelings to each other would be more fun then the "dude adopted a kid and pawns him off on his unwilling roommate's all the time and they eventually warm up to the kid" storyline we actually got. we also could've replaced some of the jack-dean angst from the show with "dean wants to connect more with jack but he feels shut out whenever cas is around bc he can't relate to any angel stuff so obviously jack's going to cas for help more!", which I think would be interesting!! how AWFUL dean and cas would feel that jack didn't feel safe enough to be a baby. dad!sam is still in full swing but he cares for jack right off the bat instead of trying to use him for his powers at first. lily sunder talking about how cas killed her kid bc he thought it was a nephilim and dean, who's already fully aware he's (spiritually) knocked up by cas is like đč inch resting cas-tee-elle tell me more. mary having a 'my baby has a baby' crisis. cas insisting jack looks nothing like him is a running joke but then at some point he explains its bc jack's 'true form' looks just like dean's soul....
ALSO- in a show where, canonically, the very first act of free will was cas falling in love with dean...the physical manifestation of that defeating chuck and taking his place as god? come ON.
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ADHD/neurodivergent đ§Œ (đđ§Œ too bc why not/it's my comfort ship and I love them)
(chock full of my own personal HCs and ideas, also mental health stuff/issues/problems heyo)
I am most definitely all for autistic Ghost, but what about ADHD brain/neurodivergent Soap? I've seen few people talk about this or explore it so here we go.
Like, even though Johnny's generally laid back, he still tends to be very hyper or high-strung. Maybe even overwhelming for some people, and is easily excited almost like a puppy (golden retriever Soap my beloved), (Ghost thinking it's literally the cutest thing ever). Bro has either the attention span of a nat or is so hyper-focused on something he forgets to blink.
He has APD (auditory processing disorder),âand will ask you to repeat yourself 15+ times before he finally understands what your saying. This is incredibly frustrating for him, but like Price will lose his shit, because having to repeat himself is like one of his pet peeves lmao. Same thing, with Yuri.
Even Ghost and Gaz get fed up with him on occasion. Though Roach doesnât give a fuck because theyâre just as ADHD as him, and just loves to talk, plus their echolalia helps to sort things out lots of times. Gaz will give him the silent treatment and refuse to talk to him. Usually when Simon finally gets irritated with him it's lead to a fight. But it isn't long before Ghost feels bad and apologizes, and reassures him saying "I know you can't help it". Simon tries to work on learning to be more patient specifically for him. đ
He does the same things that Simon does to stim, (though particularly pacing and bouncing his leg). But he also likes to chew on everything, whether itâs a pen/pencil, a cap off a water bottle or other plastic drink bottleâ(This pisses off Simon in particular, and theyâre always scolding him about how heâs gonna end up choking on it. Not to mention, he always leaves the nasty ass, spit-covered things around and forgets to throw them away after heâs done with one. Either leaving Ghost to pick up after him much to his disgust, or forcing Johnny to throw his own shit away, (as he should). If he gets ahold one of those spiky silicone balls from an arcade machine he likes to bite the nibs on it, etc. Simon has even bought him some chewlery because he orally stims so much, to which Soap uses all the time and was overjoyed when Ghost first got it for him. Though his chewlery needs to constantly be replaced because Johnny has unusually strong and sharp teeth. Itâs not uncommon for him to completely destroy shit that he gets his paws on. Simon often comparing him to a dog or a teething puppy.
I am also totally for Johnny being just as mentally fucked as Ghost.
Heâs the four b's, bisexual, bipolar, bilingual, and a bitch.
Like Simon, Johnny has generalized anxiety disorder (GAD) and post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), for similar or for maybe even the same reasons as Ghost. Not nearly to the same level of severity, but panic attacks and flashbacks do happen on occasion. As with certain things he's easily triggered.
He also struggles with bipolar disorder and/or severe manic depression. His bipolar tendencies making it incredibly difficult to maintain relationships in his youth, among many other things, (his past drug abuse/addiction only making him worse and more unstable). Though these days heâs medicated and for the most part stable, only sometimes going off his meds, (particularly when he relapses or is heavily triggered by something).
No therapist has ever been able to help Soap, though he does see a psychiatrist regularly.
Mostly for anti-psychotics and other prescription refills and the like, but can vent as much as he likes to them. Either that, or Simon doesn't mind lending an ear to listen when he needs it.
Similar to Ghost, Johnny can have very low self-esteem, but can also be of very high self-esteem, (it fluctuates due to his manic depression). And Simon is more than willing to give him reassurance and comfort, but equally doesn't mind knocking him off his high-horse, and/or, taking down his ego a few pegs if need be. (Which isn't so bad, as Johnny just so happens to have a degradation kink). >:3
Johnny is a highly reserved person, (though heâs able to put on a mask/a show for other people and strangers), and pretty stoic (all things considered), due to his traumatic upbringing. He has a very unhealthy habit of bottling up his emotions until he quite literally explodes, though he's trying to get better about that. But he canât help but genuinely let his guard down, and has LEARNED to let his guard down around Ghost, the 1-4-1, and his sisters (the most important people in his life).
This tidbit has less to do with mental health and rather his personality but I still wanted to include it here soâŠ
Soap is highly perceptive and emotionally intelligent. You can't hide anything from him as he can always tell when someone's lying to him, and he always knows when something's wrong. A true empath. He's also a very good liar himself because of this, but he uses this secret power responsibly, and would never lie to those closest to him and/or his loved ones.
All members of the 1-4-1 having highly specific phobias? Yes please.
As for JohnnyâŠ
He is deathly afraid of needles and hospitals (Trypanophobia and Nosocomephobia), because when he was growing up and as a young kid he was quite sickly, and often was in and out of the hospital. He's immunocomprised and gets sicks all the time, most of the time nowadays when he gets sick it's just a small cold, with the occasional illness that may put him out of commission for a bitâSimon always doting over him and making sure heâs okay when he even so much as senses heâs got a runny noseâJohnny finding it incredibly endearing, but when he was a child it was horrible. When he was hospitalized he'd suffer at the hands of doctors and nurses much too often, going through one too many traumatic experiences. Mostly, because of incompetence or just straight up apathy. Getting his IV done is the worst, because he's cursed with almost non-existent and small veins. Oh so jealous, of Ghost's huge and bulging veins. Someone will stick him upwards of 10 times or more, or until his arms are swollen, until they finally get it right usually. Not to mention, Johnny also has Hemophilia, and so he bleeds a lot which only makes it even more distressing. Soap specifically underwent medical and first-aid training, just so he could avoid going to medical himself as much as possible. His medical knowledge and training has happened to pay off lots of times in the field, for himself or for his teammates or squadâs sakes. Despite his aversion, he's not squeamish at all when it comes to mending his own wounds, or others weirdly enough. Even if he's severely injured he refuses to go to medical. Simon used to get really mad at him for this, because of not only his stubbornness, but seemingly his cockiness was what really pissed him off. And they know Johnnyâs skills only go so far, and he's immunocomprised and a hemophiliac for crying out loud. Eventually Ghost confronted him about this, and after Soap explained everything it was a lot more understanding and sympathetic. Though it didnât change the fact that it will borderline harass him if heâs seriously hurt and wonât go help himself, or just straight up force him to go to medical. Johnny always protests but ultimately he gives in, and Simon makes sure to give him emotional support and stay with him when he needs patched up.
Thank you for reading my ramblings, next post will be about my take on Ghost, his mental health, his autism, etc, probably!
#cod modern warfare#call of duty#cod mw3#cod mw2#video games#ghoap#ghostsoap#soapghost#john soap mactavish#soap cod#soap call of duty#ghost x soap#soap mw2#soap mw3#john mactavish#adhd#headcanon#headcanons#cod fanfiction#cod fanfic#fanfic#fanfiction#ship dynamics#shipping#cod#autism#adhd x autism#autism x adhd#mental health#actually adhd
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I would leave the ask at that but I should probably clarify that I would die and go to heaven if youâd write how you think any of various bg3 boys would react to blowing their load wayyy too early <3 <3 ESPECIALLY the more experienced/older Gentlemen like Gale/Halsin/Gortash/Zevlor/Etc. !!!
now THIS is the stuff im fucking here for BLESS YOU TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH AND BACK
I ended up doing Gale, Halsin, Gortash, Zevlor, Ketheric, and the king of one-pump-chumps, Raphael (*ïżŁâœïżŁ*)ă
!NSFW!
Gale: He'll be so, so embarrassed. He'll try to keep going, pretending it didn't happen, fucking you with his overly sensitive and softening cock. When you notice that he's having...performance issues and stop him to ask what's wrong, he'll stumble out a slew of apologies and tell you that he got too excited. If you tell him that you find it incredibly erotic that he couldn't hold himself back, he'll be reassured (and also hard again in no time hghgh)
Halsin: Few things embarrass him in the bedroom, and cumming too quickly isn't one of them. As soon as he moans through his orgasm, he'll pull out and immediately replace his cock with as many fingers as he can fit in you, looking at you with love-dazed eyes as he fingerfucks his cum deeper inside of you. His agenda in the bedroom is to have you cum at least 3 times; once from his hands, once from his tongue, and once from his cock-- at the least. So he's fine letting his dick rest for awhile, because he's still got plenty he plans to do to you.
Gortash: He literally doesn't give a shit. He has no shame. He's a busy man and he doesn't have a lot of time for sex, so when he finally does get to fuck you, he doesn't try to stave off his orgasm. If he cums as soon as he slides into you, he doesn't care--he can't help that you feel so fucking good. And plus, it gives him an opportunity to eat his cum out of you, which just so happens to be one of his favorite things
Zevlor: As soon as it happens, he'll pull away. He'll try to isolate himself-- he just wants to leave. He had worried that this would happen, and it did. There's no way that an old man like him can please someone as young and energetic as yourself...But of course, you don't care in the slightest. Pull your hellrider close and lock your limbs around him so he can't escape. Tell him how you've never felt this beautiful and desired before, that perhaps you had doubts about being with him too, because he's just so handsome and clever and strong and perfect. But having him want you so much that he came almost immediately...you don't have any doubts any more. Tell him just how lucky and loved you feel in that moment, and kiss and hold him until he's ready for round two <3
Ketheric: He hasn't had sex in over a hundred years, did you really think he'd last long? Well, he's a proud man, and he thought he could still hold on for more than a few grinds of you in his lap. And he was doing a good job of it too, until you wrapped your arms around his neck and whimpered out that you loved him. Surprisingly strong arms pull you crushingly close as he jerks his hips roughly up into you, then he stills with a heavy sigh from his nose. You can sense that his pride's been wounded with the way he stays locked into place, not allowing you to move. Just hold him close, kissing anywhere you can reach as he silently works himself through his shame
Raphael: It's not his problem to deal with. He got what he wanted, and that's all that matters. A few pumps, a languid, showy moan, and he's rolling over and ready to take a nap. You can either lay there and resent him (he doesn't care, because he still got an orgasm out of it) or you can climb on top of him and make him fuck you properly (joke's on you because that's secretly what he wanted--to have you do all the work and to overstimulate him until he can't even speak). When dealing with a devil, the devil always wins.
#daisy dabbles#requests#gale dekarios#halsin silverbough#enver gortash#zevlor#ketheric thorm#raphael bg3#sighs dreamily...gonna be thinking about this ask for a long long time#nsft
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Friendship ended with google sheets, now filofax is my best friend
#iâve been tying to come up with a system for verb conjugations#like recording all the verbs iâve encountered in spanish and their conjugations. just in present tense for now and then i will learn#past and future and any other cases or tenses i may need#and i did buy a dedicated language journal (which iâm really enjoying using. it has habit trackers; lots of space for notetaking and doing#textbook exercises; sections for vocab lists and to write out/give examples of grammar rules; journal prompts for writing#in your target language etc) but it only has 48 verb conjugation tables#i have already encountered 77 different verbs in some form or another and recorded their infinitives so that i can table them#even if iâm just focusing on the present tense right now i do not have enough space and i donât want to clutter up the rest of my note pages#with just conjugation tables#so i needed a system and at first i was going to do a spreadsheet but then i was like realistically i will spend WAY too long on the layout#and i donât think iâll actually use it that much because google sheets is so fucking awkward on my phone#iâd have to pull my whole laptop out just to look at this spreadsheet. it wonât be fun. itâll seem too much like hard work#so i thought okay. what do i actually want from a verb conjugation system. some form of organisation for sure. colour coding#the ability to move stuff around if i want to#so iâm just using my filofax and various pens#itâs a personal size filofax so i can fit two verbs per page plus a couple of sample sentences using the verbs#i am SO much more likely to grab this and use it; especially if i keep it with my main language journal#and i can always add new pages. or if i run out of space i can take out verbs iâm confident with now and replace with verbs iâm trying#to learn. (iâm starting with just the most essential verbs. since thatâs the ones iâm usually finding anyway in A1 content)#iâm really happy with this idea tbh. i donât know if i already said that#personal
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Okay, so you know how when you travel a lot you usually have that one random, mostly pointless item that just stays in your suitcase for no apparent reason? I present to you: Team Red's Random Suitcase Stuff!
CARMEN: A deck of playing cards, kept in her carry-on. A pickpocket's hands always like to be busy, and Carmen busies hers with a deck, just shuffling them over and over, dealing herself a round of solitaire if there's time and a convenient table (and yes, she cheats even when playing with herself; it drives Player nuts because there's literally no reason to do that!). Or, if the sibs or Shadowsan are up for losing, a game of poker or blackjack or what have you. She taught herself a couple of tricks, too, a simple oil-and-water or force, and has rightfully earned herself the title of Really Cool Sorceress among the kids in her mother's orphanage.
IVY: A car hobbyist magazine. It's an old one; she's read it cover to cover, even the boring stories, and it's practically falling apart, but she hates not having *any* reading material more. She keeps meaning to replace it, but just hasn't gotten around to it.
ZACH: A bag of cheese puffs "for emergencies." It's probably expired, but, eh, everyone knows those dates are just suggestions.
PLAYER (during his gap year traveling with Carmen): A Gameboy Advanced complete with game cartridge (always charged; he's no slacker). Yeah, he has some games on his phone and knows how to pull up Pac-Man and Minesweeper on Google, but there's just something about a Gameboy that makes it better for unwinding in the hotel. Plus Zach and Ivy love taking turns on it; many a hotel night has been spent with the four of them (because Carmen's not about to be left out) piled on a bed crowding around whoever's turn it is and providing commentary.
SHADOWSAN: Nothing. He is orderly and disciplined and knows how to keep his belongings in their proper places; he does not have anything like that.
(he's lying, because in a little-used pocket there may be a polaroid photo of Carmen, Zach, and Ivy from that time Ivy found a camera in the closet under the warehouse stairs and wanted to see if it worked. If fell in there completely by accident, and he's been meaning to ask Ivy if she wants it but....well, he's been busy. He'll say something the next time he sees her...if it comes up.)
BONUS:
JULIA: A book. Specifically a (dense) nonfiction work about English medieval life encompassing the early, high, and late middle ages. She's read it a few times, but in her defense it's a very compelling read.
("Bah! Of course you would have a book, Miss Argent, filled with facts and things." "What's wrong with a book?" "It is predictable. Now, my suitcase: one would never guess I'm carrying-")
CHASE: Mints.
("These have an expiry date of 1997." "So? It's my lucky roll." "That is over twenty years ago. I'm not sure you should keep these. They can't possibly be safe to eat." "Always paranoid, Miss Argent. They are perfectly fine, see- MON DIEU!!!")
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We are having a rough 2023 and it's about to get rougher.
Our attempt to buy a home fell through, our attempt to move to a cheaper apartment fell through, my car needed over 1k$ in emergency repairs, stuff keeps breaking, and this month (july) our roommates are moving into their own house, which means my rent is doubled until my fiancée can find a job and/or we can get a roommate to replace them. I can make just barely enough to cover rent at my job, but it leaves very little room for food and utilities. I'm looking into subsistence programs.
Roommates were the owners of a lot of the furniture, kitchen gadgets, electronics, etc. We're getting a lot of furniture from relatives, garage sales, and buy nothing groups, but there's a handful of items that will be difficult to obtain or that are little things that add up.
Here's how you can help.
We have an Amazon wishlist, which is mostly kitchen things that we need, plus a few things that would be nice to have. We will be adding some things to the list as our roommates pack their stuff and we take inventory of our shared spaces.
I have written a lot of things. Here's a book about pretending to be a god in rural Appalachia for money, and its sequel about how many ways a wedding can go awry. Or are you nostalgic for pre-covid problems? The Glue Famine chronicles my journey through a retail trend that baffled everyone involved. Buying a book encourages authors to write more books and that is a threat!
I have two excellent cartomancy decks. The Sweeney Tarot is 10 years old and it's still a fan favorite. I just released a 10 year anniversary edition with better quality print and a nicer box.
There is also my new, experimental oracle: The Motif Deck. You can read more about this deck and what sets it apart from other decks here.
Here is my etsy, which is where you can get some cool iron on patches.
Here is my redbubble where you can get some cool stickers and other stuff, especially if you like moths or weird animals. Lots of queer things there, too! Redbubble stickers are strong enough to hold up as bumper stickers- I have noticed, if that sweetens the deal.
Here's where you can order prints of my erasure art paintings.
Also if you like some of my photos from @photo-critter some of the nature and animal ones are available for prints as well.
And if you just want to help out without getting anything in return, there is always sending a donation via Kofi.
There is absolutely no obligation to contribute, but if you've enjoyed my stories or seen something you like and needed an excuse to buy it, or if you just want to help, really we appreciate anything that comes our way.
Thank you, once again, to everyone that has offered to help. Even if its just the tiniest bit of a commission from a sticker- it helps.
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