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yeah so this chapter brought me to tears.
starting with this part;
Your father, who controlled every last thing, from what you would eat to the way that you dressed and how you wore your hair. Your father, who refused to let you have a mind of your own, who simply could not bear the mere thought of you thinking for yourself. Your father, whose love felt like shackles, heavy, rusted metal restraints that had been digging into the flesh of your wrists for far, far too long
god the religious trauma was going crazy this chapter. vee this was BRILLIANTLY done. when she felt that shame while joel was tugging her behind him out of the barâŠmy heart sank for her. because even though she made that choice for herself and no one was forcing her that deep seated shame and guilt never goes away. and you handled it BEAUTIFULLY.
Her rebelliousness only ever masked the pain of knowing her fatherâs love came with terms and conditionsâand the fear of knowing what would happen if those terms and conditions werenât met.
oooo ouch ouch ouch. yup thatâll do it. raise your hand if your parentsâ love is conditional đđ»ââïžđđ»ââïž and raise your hand if one of those conditions is controlling you with religion đđ»ââïžđđ»ââïž this hit SO DEEP.
Joel tugged him closer. âTest me,â he hissed through gritted teeth. âGo on. Fuckinâ test me.â
then i was slapped right in the face with angry joel đ€ why is he so hot especially when heâs protecting and standing up for her dear lord.
Teach you how to be a real good girl and suck my cock just the way I like it. That what you want, my little dove?â
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oh. my. fucking. god. vee youâreâ I N S A N E. for this line. my heart fucking skipped.
and then him asking her if she really meant what she said about staying with him????? IM SOBBING.
the ending vee. i loved that you left it open ended. it was so perfect for them. i love the reassurance of joel telling her he would protect her for the rest of her life and be everything she needs him to be but she hit him with âyou already areâ like UGH IT WAS PERFECT. well done my love i devoured this whole thing in one night (which i rarely do đ) but thatâs such a testament to your writing. i could not put it down without finishing it. i love this story so so so much and i miss them already đ„čđ
fall into temptation | three
Post Outbreak Joel Miller x Preacherâs Daughter! Reader
series masterlist l previous chapter
summary: Of all the women to catch Joel Millerâs attentionâit just had to be one of the goddamned preacherâs daughters.
warnings/tags: 18+ ONLY, MINORS DNI. JACKSON ERA. SLIGHT PHYSICAL DESCRIPTION OF READER, mentions of her hair which she can put up into braids as well as her style of clothing. despite the nickname Joel gives her, it does not speak to her body type or size. AGE GAP (reader is in her 20âs and Joel is 56). several mentions of religion and religious symbols, reader has a father and two sisters, all who come with names, reader gets put into a a very uncomfortable situation, insecurity, anxiety, Seth is an asshole, protective Joel, he threatens to break someoneâs jaw which is a warning in and of itself. SMUT. loss of virginity, reader is inexperienced but not totally clueless, oral (both m and f receiving), risky unprotected p in v sex (please wrap it up), lots of praise and pet names (baby, babygirl, honey, you know, the works), Joel gets a teensy bit rough, creampie, hint of aftercare, ends with a cliffhanger, but also not really if you think about it?
MOODBOARD FOR AESTHETIC PURPOSES ONLY, NO MENTION OF RACE OR BODY TYPE.
word count: 10k
a/n: it was not my intention to post this on jesus day, but here we are. this took forever and a day considering the second part was posted back in september, but i am so so proud of myself for finally completing a wip i could cry. i did a bulk of the editing while iâve been sick and in all honesty i probably should have asked someone to beta for me because i think i coughed out like 90% of my brain cells this week, but i think it turned out okay. ish.
Somehow, even over the volume of the live music, you could still hear their hushed, astonished whispers.
âAre you seeing what Iâm seeing?â
âIs that Joel Miller with Pastor Johnâs daughter?â
âWhatâs she doing holding his hand?â
âHeâs got to be at least twice her fucking ageââ
Throat bobbing anxiously, you glanced up at Joel.
His shoulders were squared back, his head held high.Â
Solid. Steady.
Joel couldnât seem to care less about the bewildered stares, the judgment that was being flung his way. Not once did he seem to waver. But you?
Oh, you were already starting to crumble underneath it all, on the verge of falling apart right before everyoneâs prying eyes. Shame sat heavily inside of your chest, the weight of the feeling suffocating you, making it harder and harder to breathe as it prevented air from reaching your lungs.
It had nothing to do with Joel. Of course it didnât. It had all to do with you and with who you were. Their beloved preacherâs sweet, innocent young daughter.Â
His youngest daughter.Â
Suddenly, the whispers were no longer whispers.
âOh God, sheâs not going home with him, is she?â
âThatâs not right! Someone should say something!â
âPastor John would never allow something like this.â
âPoor thingâs naiveâshe doesnât know any better.â
Hot, stubborn tears of frustration glazed over your eyes and threatened to spill. It was as if you were a child who didnât know any better, a gullible, clueless little girl with nothing in her brain who needed to be rescuedâsaved from the bad, bad man before he did bad, bad things to her.
Had it been anyone else, no one would have batted an eye. No one would have noticed, let alone cared. But it was you that Joel Miller was leaving the bar with in the middle of the night and it was you whose hand he had clasped in his own. That is what made it wrong. That is why it was a problem.
Everyoneâs concerns had nothing to do with him at all, they had everything to do with you. You, you, you. You were the sole reason why it was a problem, the reason why he was being perceived as the Devil himself, horns out as he dragged the poor little unsuspecting angel down to the fires of Hell.
âJoel?â Overwhelmed, you instinctively reached for his arm with your free hand. Cold and trembling, your little fingers curled tightly around his bicep, digging into the firm, bulging muscle through the thick corduroy fabric of his sleeve. You whispered his name again. âJoelââ
âSâalright, babygirl,â he reassured you quietly over his shoulder. He gave your hand a comforting squeeze. âSâalright. Just keep your eyes on me, sweetheart. Iâve got you. You just keep on lookinâ right at me, okay?â
Nodding, you inhaled deeply and focused on him. Only him. The broadness of his back and his shoulders. Tufts of hair that curled over the collar of his shirt. Only him. Heâs what mattered. Heâs all that mattered.
âAlmost there,â Joel murmured, squeezing your hand again as the door came into view. âBreathe, baby. Weâre almost there. Iâve got you. Youâre alright. Ainât gonna let anythinâ bad happen to you. Promise Iâve got you.â
It wasnât until his fingers wrapped around the old, brass handle that you finally exhaled the breath you had been holding out in utter relief, though it was very, very short lived. Just as Joel pulled the door open, you felt a hand wrap around your arm. Dry, slender fingers dug into the soft flesh above your elbow as an attempt, and a feeble one at that, was made to tear you out of Joelâs grasp.
The music stopped and the bar fell silent. Everything and everyone came to a sudden standstill, freezing mid dance, mid drink, mid bite, mid gossip.
Shocked, you glanced over your shoulder. âSeth?â you squeaked his name. âWhatâwhat are you doing?â
Seth didnât acknowledge you. His focus was on Joel.
âWhat the hell do you think youâre doing, Miller?â
Joelâs anger couldnât be seen, but it could be felt. So palpable you could have wrapped your fingers around it. It radiated off of him and loomed over the entire bar like an incoming storm cloud. Threatening. Dangerous.
âWhere are you taking her?â Seth demanded, his other hand curling around your wrist as he tried, but failed, to snatch you from Joelâs side once more. âLet the girl go! You let her go right now, you hear?â
Caught in between the two men, you nervously turned to look at Joel. Nostrils flared, jaw clenched, seething eyes that did the talking for him. His message was loud and oh so abundantly clear.
If Seth didn't take his hands off you, he wasnât going to have any hands.
Not after Joel Miller was through with him.
Blazing heat flooded your face. As if it couldnât possibly get any worse, everyone had now gathered around you to watch the tense encounter, eyes wide, brows raised and jaws practically on the weathered, hardwood floor.
Tommy Miller stood among the crowd, subtly shaking his head, his lips pressed together in a tight, thin line of disapproval as he glowered at his older brother. Would he be looking at Joel like that had it been Esther in your place? If she was the one he was taking home? Would any of this be happening if it was her instead of you?
âSeth.â Uttering his name, you shifted your attention back to him. You sounded calm and collected, despite feeling anything but. Joelâs hand in yours was the only thing keeping you steady and grounded. His touch was the only reason you hadnât yet spiraled into a state of panic. Clearing your throat lightly, you spoke again and tried your hardest not to waver. âPlease let go of me.â
Still fixed on Joel, he spat, âIâll be damned if I let him take you anywhere.â
âHeâs not taking me anywhere, Seth.â Without thinking, the words came tumbling out of your mouthâloud and clear for everyone in that room to hear. âHe isnât forcing me to go with him. Iâm making the choice to leave with him. Out of my own volition. Please let go of me.â
Finally, Seth looked at you. His old, worn features were twisted in disbelief. âWhat?â
You swallowed dryly. Part of you wanted you to shrink away, curl into yourself. Instead, you straightened your posture, forced yourself to stand a little bit taller. Willed yourself to have a backbone for once in your life.
âYou heard me,â you said, lifting your chin in defiance. Several onlookers gasped in surprise at your rebellion. Where had this insolence come from? âIâm choosing to leave with Joel. Now, please let go of my arm.â
Behind you, Joel stood silent and still.Â
Watching. Observing. Waiting.
He wanted nothing more than to intervene. Rip you out of Sethâs hands and shatter each and every last bone in all ten of his fingers for putting them on you. Had Joel not realized that this was probably the first time in your whole, entire life youâd mustered up the courage to use your voice, he would have easily given into the urge. He wanted to protect you. He needed so badly to protect you. Yet, he knew you werenât helpless or incapable of standing on your own two feet. He knew you deserved the chance to stand up and speak for yourself after a lifetime of being silenced, a lifetime of being forced to stay in your place, seen but never heard.
âSeth, let go of my arm,â you repeated. It was no longer a polite request. It was a demand.
He scoffed. âDo you honestly think Iâm going to let you leave with somebody like him? You think Iâm just going to stand back and let him take advantage of you?â
Oh, you hadnât liked that insinuation, not one bit.Â
It caused something inside of you to finally give way.
Snap.
The blood in your veins boiled, ran hot enough to make you feel like you were about to burn from the inside out. âJoel isnât taking advantage of me! It isnât like that,â you seethed, furiously. The quiet, well mannered, obedient good girl everyone in Jackson knew was gone. And she could stay gone. In your periphery, you could see Leah elbowing her way through the sea of people to the front of the crowd with an incredulous look plastered on her face. She stood there beside Tommy, who appeared to be just as incredibly bewildered by your outburst. âDonât treat me like Iâm some child who doesnât know any better! Iâm an adult and Iâm old enough to make my own choices, okay?â
For a moment, you had forgotten it was Seth standing there in front of you.
âIâm capable of making my own decisions! I donât need you to dictate my life. I donât need you to tell me what is and isnât good for meâcontrolling what I should and shouldnât believe in.â Your voice trembled as emotions youâd been suppressing for years bubbled their way up to the surface. Amidst the chaos, you could feel Joel squeeze your hand again, as if silently encouraging you not to lose your nerve. He was your anchor, the only person who could keep your world from capsizing. You knew he wouldnât let you drown. Not even God, who you had always been forced to believe was your pillar of strength, had ever made you feel this protected. Safe. âI donât need you to tell me how to live and much less when itâs the end of the world.â
It wasnât Seth you were addressing.
It was your father.
Your father, who controlled every last thing, from what you would eat to the way that you dressed and how you wore your hair.
Your father, who refused to let you have a mind of your own, who simply could not bear the mere thought of you thinking for yourself.
Your father, whose love felt like shackles, heavy, rusted metal restraints that had been digging into the flesh of your wrists for far, far too long.
âYou need to let me go now,â you said, swallowing back the lump in your throat. Once more, you caught Leah from the corner of your eye, your heart lurching in your chest when you noticed her desperately trying to wipe at her eyes with the back of her hand. She was the only person in the room who understood how you felt. Her rebelliousness only ever masked the pain of knowing her fatherâs love came with terms and conditionsâand the fear of knowing what would happen if those terms and conditions werenât met. For several weeks, youâd gotten a taste of what she went through everyday, how her fear of putting her foot down led her to run around in secret and live a double life. âJust let me go.â
Seth firmly shook his head. âNo! Iâm not letting you go anywhere with him. I donât know what the hell he did to you, but heâs clearly got you all fucking brainwashed.â
That was fucking enough. Joel stepped in, lowering his voice as he said, âYâknow, Iâve just âbout lost count of how many fuckinâ times sheâs asked you to let her go now and itâs really startinâ to piss me off.â Raising an eyebrow, he laid his offer out on the table. âHereâs the deal. You let go of her right now and I wonât shatter your fuckinâ jaw into pieces. That seem fair enough to you?â
âNo.â Seth gripped your arm even harder, prompting you to let out a little yelp as his nails dug painfully into your skin. Though itâd been accidental and he hadnât meant to hurt you, it didnât matter. Heâd just set off the ticking time bomb that was Joel Miller.
Furious, Joel snatched a fistful of his shirt with his free handâthe other still held yours. Gentle, despite being mere moments away from beating someone to within an inch of their life.
âJoel! Stop!â Tommyâs voice broke through the tension as he approached. His footsteps were slowâcareful and cautious, as if he was afraid to make any kind of sudden movement. âJoel. Hey. Câmon now, letâs not do this, alright? Ainât gotta handle things this way. We can talk it through. No need for anyone to wind up bleedinâ in the fuckinâ infirmary tonight, so just take a breath and let him go.â
Blatantly ignoring Tommyâs attempt to keep the peace, Joel tugged Seth forward, yanking him closer. âListen to me and listen to me good âcause I ainât gonna fuckinâ say it again. Youâd best take your fuckinâ hands off her right now unless you wanna spend the rest of the night sweepinâ up your teeth off the floor of your own fuckinâ bar,â he threatened, his tone enough to send a chill up anyoneâs spine, even your own.
âYou wouldnât dare, Miller.â Somehow, Seth managed to keep a straight face, but you could see it so clearly in his eyes and in the tremble of his lower lipâoh, he was terrified of Joel and rightly so. âNot in front of all these people. Not in front of your brother. That wouldnât be a smart move considering youâre already on thin fucking ice for what you did to that boyâs face, now would it?â
Joel tugged him closer. âTest me,â he hissed through gritted teeth. âGo on. Fuckinâ test me.â
His challenge was immediately met with a pathetic look of defeat. Seth dropped your arm and he was released.
âSâwhat I fuckinâ thought.â Without another word to the man, Joel whirled around and roughly pulled the door open, leading the way outside. As you both descended the buildingâs old, creaking wooden steps, you began to shiver and he suddenly remembered heâd left his jacket behind inside the bar. He wrapped an arm around your shoulders. âCâmere, my little dove,â he murmured as he tucked you against his side for warmth. âIâve got you.â
The first thing he did was light the fireplace.
âShould start warminâ you up, sweet girl,â heâd said to you over his shoulder. He tossed a log into the blaze as you sat perched on his couch rubbing your bare arms with your hands. âMâgonna go upstairs and find you a blanket, alright? You stay put.â
âOkay,â youâd mumbled, knowing there was no point in telling him not to fuss over you.
Even with the soft, fleece throw blanket he had draped around your shoulders and the warmth of the flames in front of you, you continued trembling. Subtle, but heâd noticed it, felt it when he had sat down beside you and pulled you close against his side. âOh baby, youâre still shakinâ?â That was when he realized you werenât cold. Frowning, Joel rose to his feet and disappeared down the hallway. He came back to the living room a minute later with a glass of water in his hand. With a small, labored grunt, he dropped to one knee in front of you and held it out. âHere.â
âNo, thank you.â You shook your head. âIâm not thirsty.â
âMaybe not, but Iâm kinda worried you could be in a bit of shock, right now,â he stated, the creases in between his brows deepening as he observed you for any other physical signs of distress. Carefully, Joel lifted the glass to your lips, gently coaxing you to take a drink. âCâmon, darlinâ. Think you can be a real good girl for me and at least take a couple sips? Hm?â
Sighing softly, you nodded and did as he asked of you, taking a small sip of water. It soothed your dry mouth and throat and you took another one. Maybe you were thirsty after all.
âLittle more, now. Little more. Thatâs it. Thatâs my good girl.â Once he was satisfied with how much youâd had to drink, Joel set the half empty glass down on the oak coffee table behind him. He turned back to you, placing his large hands on either side of your thighs below the hem of your dress. He started tracing soft, soothing circles into your skin with his thumbs. âMâreal proud of you for standinâ up for yourself back there, sweetheart. Took a whole lot of fuckinâ courage to do that, yâknow.â
You glanced down at your hands in your lap. âMhm.â
âBaby. Hey. Look at me.â One of his hands abandoned your leg and he reached up, delicately taking your chin between his thumb and index finger. He tilted your face upwards, his worried gaze meeting your own. âTalk to me. Mâright here.â
âThatâthat was a lot,â you admitted meekly, shoulders sagging as the adrenaline started wearing off and your body slowly came down from the peak hormone rush. âIt was a lot.â
Sighing, Joelâs hand fell away from your face. âYeah, I know it was a lot, babygirl. I know. Iâm sorry. I shouldnât haveââ
âNo.â You were quick to cut him off. âDonât be sorry.â
His chest heaved with another sigh, this one deeper, heavier, bearing the weight of his guilt. âWell I am,â he said. He planted his hands on either side of you on the couch and lightly shook his head. âDidnât even fuckinâ think twice when I pulled you outta that fuckinâ supply closet and took your hand in front of all those people. I was so fuckinâ hellbent on showinâ everybody you were mine that I didnât even stop and think âbout what all it would mean for you. It was selfish of me. Real fuckinâ selfish. And Iâm sorry, little dove.â
âDo you regret it?â you asked, quietly.
Joel chuckled in spite of himself. âMâpretty sure Iâm the one who should be askinâ you that question, darlinâ,â he remarked. âTell me. Do you regret it? Do you regret me pullinâ you outta that closet?â He momentarily paused. There was a stutter in his heartbeat when you dropped your gaze away from his, silence your only reply. âDo you regret me takinâ your hand in front of everyone?â
Of course not.
You wanted to be his and you wanted everyone to know it. There was no regret, none.Â
Still.Â
The consequences that you would undoubtedly have to face in the morning were overwhelming. Daunting.
Surely, by then, your father would know about you and Joel. When he came downstairs right after sunrise and he discovered you werenât in the kitchen helping Lydia prepare breakfast, he would question where you were and make some kind of remark about how you should not be sleeping in this late. He would tell her just how irresponsible it was for you to ignore your duties and obligations to him and the family. Sloth was one of the seven deadly sins, after all. He would make her trek upstairs and wake you, and when she did, your sister would find your bed empty.
Meanwhile, there would be a knock at the front door.
No stranger to having members of the congregation show up on his doorstep when they were in need, be it of prayer or comfort, your father would answer it only to find someone, not in need of solace, but who felt that it was their responsibility and moral obligation to inform him that they had seen his youngest daughter leaving The Tipsy Bison with Joel Miller in the middle of the night, hand in hand.
He wouldnât believe them.
âNow, that is simply not true,â he would say, offended that anybody would have the nerve to show up at his door and accuse you of something so vile. âThatâs not possible. I know my daughter and she would never do such a thing. It must have been someone else that you saw with him. Someone who looked like her, perhaps.â
Then, Lydia would descend the staircase and tell him you werenât in your bedroom. âShe must have gone up to the main street as soon as she woke up,â she would suggest with a shrug, not yet privy to the events that had taken place the night before at the party you and Leah had snuck off to. She never had to worry about you, the good one. âI did notice we were running pretty low on eggs. Sugar, too. She probably wanted to be the first in line at the pantry toâPapa? Whatâs the matter?â
The color would drain from your fatherâs face when the realization slowly sank in. No, you werenât out on the main street picking up eggs for breakfast and sugar for his tea. You were lying up in Joel Millerâs bedâdefiled, impure, and with the curse of Eve on your flesh. Even after dedicating his entire life to making sure you did not stray from the path of righteousness, he had failed. You had fallen into temptation.Â
There was a chance he would have mercy on you. All you had to do was beg and plead for his forgivenessâand more importantly, for the forgiveness of God. âVow to atone for your sins,â your father would say, his gaze fixed on the Holy Bible in his lap. He probably wouldnât be able to look at you, not after what you had done. âRepent. And swear to me, child, that you will never so much as glance in that manâs direction ever again.â
No. Thatâs not what you wanted.
You wanted Joel and the freedom to be with him.Â
But that freedom came with a high, high price.
You were willing to pay it, but youâd be lying if you said you were prepared to navigate the consequences. Then again, was there really any way for someone to prepare themselves to be shunned by their own father?
âI can take you home,â Joel offered quietly, the sound of his voice taking you out of the future and bringing you back into the present.
âWhat?â
âI can take you home,â he repeated himself. âI can take you home right now if thatâs what you want, sweet girl. Wonât give you any kinda grief âbout it.â
Confused, all you could do was stare at him.
âListen to me, baby. You mean a lot to me. More than I can even begin to explain,â Joel reassured you before any kind of doubt could find its way into your mind. âI want you to stay with me. Thereâs nothinâ on whatâs left of this fuckinâ earth I want more than for you to stay here with me. But what you want matters to me a hell of a lot more than what I want.â He reached up, lightly stroking your cheek with his thumb. âIf you decide you wanna go home and go back to your familyâback to your old manâthen thatâs where Iâll take you. Okay?â
Your father would give you an ultimatum. But Joel? He was giving you a choice. And heâd respect that choice.
âI wanna free you from your cage, my little dove. But I think we both know youâve gotta make the choice to fly outta there on your own.â He lightly swept his thumb over your quivering bottom lip, his eyes meeting yours as he whispered, âDoorâs wide open for you. What you do next is all up to you.â
âIâm afraid, Joel,â you confessed. A tear slipped from the corner of your eye and rolled its way down the side of your face. He was quick to wipe it away, along with the others that followed. âI do want out of my cage. I really, really do. But Iâm terrified. All I have ever known is my family and my faith. I have never been apart from my father and my sisters.â
His expression softened. âI know youâre scared. Canât promise you things will be easy, but there is one thing I can promise you.â
âWhatâs that?â you questioned, then waited with baited breath.
He gingerly cupped your cheek in his large palm. âIâve got you,â he swore to you, just like he had done so back at the bar. âIf you decide to stay, I promise Iâll take real, real good care of you, alright? For the rest of my life, Iâll take care of you. You wonât ever have to worry âbout a thing with me by your side. Swear it on my life.â
Warmth blossomed in your heartspace and finally, you stopped trembling. Lifting a hand, you curled your fingers around his wrist as your gaze fell to his mouth. âJoel?â
âWhat is it, darlinâ girl?â
âKiss me. Please.â
With a gentle nod, Joelâs other hand found your hip, the warmth of it seeping through the cotton fabric of your dress. Leaning in, he brushed his lips against yours. It was a chaste thing, soft and innocent until you grabbed the collar of his shirt and pulled him closer to you. âBabygirl,â he mumbled against your lips. He deepened the kiss, sweeping his tongue through your parted lips and into your mouth. He tasted like bold bourbon and citrus beer. There was a faint hint of tobacco tooâyou recalled him admitting to you one night in the church house that while he wasnât all that much of a smoker, at least not like he used to be when living in the zones, he would occasionally partake in the habit if he happened to come across a pack of cigarettes while out on patrol, pairing the nicotine with a drink. He tasted delicious. He tasted delicious because he tasted like yours.
You sank back into the worn, supple brown leather of his couch, tugging him forward so he sank in with you. Over you. Releasing your near death grip on his collar, you managed to wedge your hands in between your bodies and began to claw furiously at the buttons of his shirt, your fingers shaking out of pure desperation to feel him. It wasnât until you were halfway down that he finally noticed what you were doing and leaned back, catching both of your wrists.
âBaby, wait,â he panted, shaking his head. âDonât think nowâs a good time for thatââ
âJoel, please,â you pleaded, the intense ache between your thighs almost too much for you to bear. âPlease. I want it. I want you.â
âSâbeen a rough night for you.â Joelâs voice was hoarseâstrained, like he was aching just as much, if not more. âYouâre real emotional right now. Vulnerable. Last thing I want is to take advantage of you at a time like this.â
You frowned. Had Sethâs words gotten into his head?
âYouâre not taking advantage of me.â
âDarlinâ I just donât think we shouldââ
âJoel, please,â you begged him again. âI was so good for you, was I not? Wasnât I patient, just like you asked me to be?â
His lips thinned into a tight line. He wouldnât be able to resist much longer. You, his beautiful little temptress of Eden.
âI waited for so long,â you reminded him. âIâve been so, so good for you. Please, just make me yours already. I donât want to think about anything else right now. I just want to be with you. Please, Joel. I need you so badly it hurts.â
Christ.
No man could stand it. No man could possibly have the strength to deny you.
With a look of utter defeat, he folded. Before he could say another word or make another move, your greedy mouth was on his, and you kissed him with fervor, with urgency, as you finished the task of unbuttoning his shirt. Pushing it off of his shoulders, the corduroy fabric fell into a crumpled heap behind him, nearly knocking the glass of water off the coffee table. You broke away from him and shamelessly marveled at his mouth watering formâyou admired the way miles of smooth, tanned skin stretched over his wide shoulders, broad chest and soft, soft belly. Arousal pooled between your legs and you reached out and raked your fingers down his chest, and over his stomach, going lower and lower, following the trail of coarse, dark hair that led you to his brown leather belt. You clumsily started fumbling with the brass buckle until he caught your hands once more.
âSlow down, my little dove,â he murmured. âNo need to rush this. Weâve got all night.â He stood up and held his hand out to you. Time blurred a bitâmaybe it was your nervousness mingled with the eager anticipation of what was to come, but there seemed to be a small gap in your memory, a blank space that spanned from the moment you rose off the couch until the moment you found yourself standing in his bedroom where you were about to answer to the call of the flesh.
Dropping your hand, Joel switched on the lamp on his bedside table and kicked off his boots before taking you into his arms. âCâmere, honey.â He nuzzled your cheek with the tip of his nose as he spoke, the scruff of his beard tickling your cheek. âCoupleâa rules, sweet girl. I do somethinâ that you donât like, you tell me. You want me to stop, you tell me to stoââ
Without waiting for him to finish his sentence, you slowly lowered yourself down onto the floor and knelt at his feet with purpose, as if kneeling before an altar, a sacred, holy space. Though you felt anxious, you were eager to worship. âI havenât forgotten about what I said earlier tonight,â you cooed, noticing the mild look of surprise on his face. âI said Iâd make it up to you and I intend on keeping my word.â
All the blood in his body rushed south to his cock and it strained painfully against the crotch of his jeans. âBaby, Iââ Again, he was cut off, only this time by the sound of his own groan when your hand brushed up the front of his thigh and over his growing bulge. He glanced down, his heart thrumming painfully hard against his sternum as he watched you reach for his belt buckle.
With all your might, you willed your hands so as not to tremble. It was self-explanatory, what you were about to do, but your total lack of experience sowed seeds of doubt into your mindâyou wanted to make him feel good, just like he had made you feel good outside of the church house during services. Just how you knew he would make you feel tonight.
Hand still over his buckle, you pressed the tenderest of kisses to his bulge through his jeans. Then, turning your head, you rested your cheek on one of his thick, blue denim clad thighs and peered up at him through your eyelashes with a small, nervous smile as you confessed what he already knew. âIâve never done this before.â
Oh, how sweet and endearing you were. Joel reached down and smoothed your hair back and away from your face, tucking it behind your ear. âSâalright, honey,â he crooned, grazing the silkiness of your cheek with his index finger. âIâll walk you through it. Teach you how to be a real good girl and suck my cock just the way I like it. That what you want, my little dove?â
His filth made your cunt clench hard around nothing.
Slowly lifting your head off of his thigh, you pulled your bottom lip between your teeth and managed a clear, consenting nod as your hands fumbled with his buckle, the clinking sound of metal ringing loudly in your ears. You undid the button on his jeans and pulled down his zipper, your throat drying when you saw the outline of him, his size intimidating even behind the cotton fabric of his faded, black boxer briefs.
With a harsh swallow, you glanced up at him, silently asking him for his permission to continue.
Such a polite little thing, Joel thought to himself. âGo on, sweetheart,â he encouraged.
You tugged his jeans down to the middle of his thighs and hooked your index fingers underneath the elastic waistband of his boxer briefs, pulling them down and freeing his cock. There was a deep, swooping sensation in your belly as you watched it slap up against the lower part of his abdomen. After many nights of sitting in his lap, feeling him through his clothes, grinding your cunt down onto him, you thought youâd at the very least had an idea of what you would be in for, but oh, how wrong you had been. He was so much bigger than you could have imagined, and your stomach swooped again when you realized he was not going to fit. Anywhere.
Licking away the dryness of your lips, you take him in one of your hands, feeling the heaviness of his length in your palm. He was so long and so, so thick.
âOh fuck,â Joel hissed the curse through gritted teeth, his hips jerking forward involuntarily as your touch sent a charged jolt of electricity shooting up the length of his spine. He looked down at you, his pupils blown wide with arousal. Christ. You hadnât even done anything to him yet, but seeing you sitting so prettily at his feet was almost enough to make him come on the spot.
Delicately wrapping your hand around him, you found yourself almost in awe at the way your fingertips barely, just barely, touched. The sheer size of his cock dwarfed your hand, and made it seem so much smaller than it really was.
âYouâre so big,â you murmured, echoing your thoughts. You licked at your lips again, suddenly feeling ravenous, an appetite that had seemingly come out of nowhere making you salivate. The tip of him was flushed red, slit already glisteningâhow badly you wanted, needed a taste. Never, ever, did you think you would be down on your knees for anything but prayer, but there you were, starved and desperate to bite into the forbidden fruit.
âWhatâre you waitinâ for, darlinâ girl?â he croaked.
âPermission,â you replied, sweetly.
âGo right ahead, baby. Sâall yoursâIâm all yours.â
Yours.
Yours, yours, yours.
Finding your first push of courage, you leaned forward and so carefully swept your tongue along the tip of his length, collecting the slight saltiness leaking from the slit and getting your first delectable taste. With your hand still wrapped firmly around his base, you looked up, your eyes locked on Joelâs face as you flicked your tongue up against the rigid underside of his cock.
âFuckinâ Christ,â Joel groaned, all of the muscles in his stomach already pulling taut when he felt you dragging your tongue in a slow, purposeful lick along the length of him. âBabygirl.â
âIs that good?â you asked him, sounding hopeful. âAm I doing good?â
âDoinâ so, so fuckinâ good for me, sweetheart. Look so fuckinâ pretty down on your knees for me.â
Pleased, you wrapped your mouth around the head of his length, pressing forward and taking him in as far as you possibly couldâwhich, in all fairness, wasnât very far. At least not as far as you would have liked. Another groan tore itself from the depths of his chest as your plush, plump lips sealed around him, your tongue warm and wet on the underside of his cock. Moving both of your hands to rest on the sides of his thighs, you began to move your head back and forth, following what felt most natural to you. The nerves you initially felt slowly but surely dissipated, vanishing one by one with every curse, every tremble, every sharp breath.
Joel resisted the urge to buck his hips forward, fought the desire to feel himself at the back of your throat. He needed to be gentle, so careful with such an innocent, pliant thing who had much, much to learn. âSweet little fuckinâ mouth feels so good around my cock, baby, just like I fuckinâ knew it would. Yâthink it can take more of me, little dove? Hm?â
You hummed, the vibration intensifying his pleasure.
âYeah? Yâtrust me?â
Your reply came in the form of a muffled, âMhm.â
Joel reached down and cradled the back of your head in the palm of his hand. He carefully guided you further onto his throbbing length, slowly feeding you one inch at a time. Your fingers dug into the denim of his jeans. He was much more than a mouthful for you, and you could only take about half of him before he hit the back of your throat, prompting you to gag around him. Drool dribbled out from the corners of your mouth and down the sides your chin, dripping onto your lap.
âOh fuck, sweetheart. Yeah, thatâs it. Little more now, honey,â Joel encouraged. He bucked his hips forward, his head slipping further down your throat. Just when you felt like you were about to choke, he pulled out and you tried your hardest not to cough and sputter as you took in a much needed, precious breath of air. He gave you a few seconds or so to finish catching your breath as he shoved his jeans and boxer briefs further down his legs. He stepped out of the articles of clothing and kicked them somewhere off to the aside, standing before you completely bare. âOpen up.â
Your absolute devotion to him bred sweet submission, so as worried as you were that you wouldnât be able to handle it, you nodded obediently and very willingly did as you were told.Â
He guided himself right back into your waiting mouth, pressing deeply. You tried to relax your jaw, reminding yourself to breathe in and out through your nose. Tears streamed down the sides of your face as you did your best to forestall another gag. âLittle bit more,â he said, thrusting his hips in a slow, steady controlled rhythm. He advanced even further into your mouthâtrusting he wouldnât suffocate you, nor push you too far past your limits, you opened up wider. He moaned, âYeah, baby. Thatâs my good girl. Thatâs my good fuckinâ girl.â
With a bit of newfound confidence, you hollowed your cheeks and sucked him. You swiped your tongue along the thick, prominent vein on the underside of his cock, earning yourself more of his sweet, sweet praise.
âFuck, yeah, suck me off, sweetheart. This pretty little mouth was fuckinâ made for sin,â he breathed, guiding your head back and forth with a firm, but gentle hand.
You moaned, the noise muffled around his length. Slick soaked through your panties and coated the insides of your thighs. With another moan, you tightly squeezed your legs together, inwardly reminding yourself that patience was a virtue.
Noticing the way you had shifted, Joel moved his hand from the back of your head, lightly curling his fingers around your jaw. He pulled you off of his cock, a loud, lewd popping sound bouncing off the sage green walls of his bedroom. âCâmere, baby.â He grabbed your arms, effortlessly hoisting you up to your feet.
âWhatâs wrong?â you questioned him worriedly. âDid I do something wrong?â
Chuckling softly, he brushed a finger along the strap of your dress. You could do no wrong, his perfect, perfect girl. âOf course not, sweet girl. You did so fuckinâ good for me,â Joel reassured you, lightly tracing along your collarbone with his finger and making your flesh erupt in goosebumps. He leaned forward and feathered a kiss onto your lips, murmuring against them, âAre you wet, little dove?â
Before you could even process the query and generate some kind of coherent response, he dove his opposite hand between your thighs, cupping your warm heat in his palm. At this, your weak knees buckled, prompting you to reach out and grab onto his arms to hold steady and keep yourself from falling into a helpless heap on the floor.
âOh, honey. Youâre soaked. That what sucking my cock does to you?â he cooed. He peppered another kiss, this one onto the corner of your mouth. His voice lowered another octave. âPoor little thing. She needs me, donât she? Needs me to take care of her?â
You whimpered. âYes.â
âManners, babygirl,â he reminded you, skimming your cheek with his nose. âYes, what?â
âYes, please.â
Humming in approval, Joel withdrew his hand from in between your legs and guided you backwards towards his bed. âSit,â he commanded gently, bidding you to let go of him. âArms up.â
Reaching for the hem of your dress, he took great care in pulling it over your head, then discarded the vibrant yellow material over his shoulder, leaving you in nothing but your cowboy boots and thin, cotton white panties. Without a word, he knelt before you and pulled off one boot, and then the other, setting them both aside. He hooked two fingers underneath the elastic waistband of your underwear, coaxing you to lift your bottom off of the bed, just long enough for him to pull them down and slide them down your legs. He was so tender in the manner in which he undressed you.
âFuckinâ beautiful, beautiful girl,â Joel praised. His dark gaze dragged down the length of your body as you sat before him wearing nothing but the delicate, gold chain around your neck. The holy cross nestled between your supple breasts gleamed in the light of the lamp on the nightstand. He would leave it on until your decision was made, set in stone. âMy pretty little dove.â
âJoel.â You whimpered his name, hands curling around fistfuls of his dark blue sheets. You were drenched now, in dire need of some relief. If he didnât touch you where you needed him most, you would surely lose your mind.
Desperate, you leaned back slightly onto his bed and parted your knees, your folds glistening as you showed him just how badly you needed him.
Joel groaned, almost visibly salivating at the sight. The blazing heat in his eyes sent ripples of desire coursing through your body, straight to your throbbing core.
You opened wider. âPlease.â
âChrist, babygirl. Already soakinâ the sheets.â Sliding a finger up along the seam of your pussy, he grazed your clit, the touch light, but somehow still enough to make your hips arch off the mattress as white-hot pinpricks of pleasure danced their way up your spine. He lowered his head and leaned in, your sweet scent drawing him in like a moth to a flame. Just when you were about to start pleading him for more, he dipped his face into the apex of your thighs, his mouth finally, finally, meeting your wet heat.
âOh!â you gasped, your head falling back. âFuck!â
Against you, his lips curled upwards into a wicked grin. Heâd never heard you curse before, not until now.
Joel took his time devouring you, savoring the essence of your cunt with each broad stroke of his tongue. Sealing his lips around your clit, he flicked the swollen, sensitive bundle of nerves over and over again, eliciting from you some of the sweetest noises that he had ever heard in his entire life. In preparation for what you both knew was to come, he pushed one finger inside of you, the invasion causing you to fist his sheets even harder. He then slipped in a second finger, groaning in sheer, carnal bliss at how your walls squeezed them, at the mere thought of them squeezing his cock in the same manner. How was it that you felt so much tighter this time around?
âOh God.â
You shouldnât be saying His name. Not like this.
Not when something this sinful was being done to you.
Hungrily, Joel lapped at you, curling both of his fingers in an upwards motion to hit the perfect spot. He knew you were close, felt it in the way that you squirmed and writhed. Draping his arm across your hips, he pinned them down onto the bed, holding you still as he chased your high as if it were his own.
âJoel,â you chanted his name over and over again in a fevered prayer. Releasing the sheets, your hands found his hair, tangling themselves in his curls. Your head fell back, and you cursed at the ceiling of his bedroom. âFuck, fuck, fuck Joelââ
Pushing onto his mouth, you came, moaning his name so loudly you were certain the whole neighborhood was getting an earful.
Joel pulled back, his beard and mustache slicked with your spend. âSâright, honey,â he crooned, his digits still buried to the knuckle as he helped you to ride out your wave of ecstasy. Eventually, when he pulled them out, you tried closing your shaking legs. He tsked and shook his head, wrenching them open further. âNo, no, baby. Keep those pretty thighs open for me. Wanna see her.â He admired his work, his cock twitching at the sight of your pussy, swollen and shining, and ready to take him.
Like earlier, there was another brief skip in time.
Mind still in a haze, you hadnât even realized that heâd risen to his feet and guided you further up onto his bed, not until you were lying on your back with your head on his pillow and he was hovering over you, his hard length brushing against one of your messy, inner thighs when he settled himself between your legs.Â
Your heart began to pound in a mingle of both fear and excitement.
Joelâs eyes met yours. His pupils were blown so wide, there was not one, single trace of brown anywhere to be seen. âYâabsolutely sure about this, little dove?â
Your response came without hesitation. âYes. Iâm sure.â
He pressed a kiss to the underside of your jaw. Your submission was a gift, and he would cherish every last second of your surrender to him, savor it for as long as he possibly could. His lips, soft and warm, skimmed along the column of your throat, leaving a trail of fresh goosebumps in their wake.
If, by some chance, you decided that you wanted to go back to your father and to your faith, Joel didnât know how he would find it in himself to let you go, not after this. Of course, he would have to let go, though.
The last thing he wanted was to help free you from one cage just to stick you right back into another. While he was no stranger to loss, he had to admit to himself that to lose you would be a knife to whatever was left of his heart.
Shoving the thought out of his mind, he reached down and gripped the base of his cock, pumping it in his fist before running the leaking head along your puffy lips, coating himself in your wetness with the hope it would ease some of the pain you were bound to feel. âReady, babygirl?â he asked you, lightly teasing your entrance. âMight hurt a bit. Mâgonna go slow. Just need you to relax for me, alright?â
âOkay.â
âIâve got you,â he promised.
You nodded, saying softly, âI know.â
Though he knew he had all of your trust, Joel could still sense your anxiousness. He reached out for your hand, lacing your fingers together with his own as he gingerly pressed forward and eased himself into you, taking the very innocence you had been taught your entire life to preserve, one slow, careful inch at a time.
âOhâJoel!â You cried loudly at the initial stretch, your pretty face scrunching in discomfort. Tightly slamming your eyes shut, sparks flew behind your eyelids when he finally bottomed out. The burning sting in between your thighs was too overwhelming, almost impossible to cope with. He felt so enormous within you, you could have sworn he was in your belly. Another broken cry fell from your lips and he swallowed it with a comforting kiss.
âJesus Christ,â he hissed against your lips, a thin sheen of sweat coating his brow, neck, and chest. He wasnât sure where he found the strength, but he suppressed his urge to thrust. Instead, he dropped his face into the hollow of your neck and waited, giving you the chance to adjust to him. He mumbled against your skin. âDoinâ so good for me, sweet girl. Yâknow that? Youâre doinâ so fuckinâ good for me.â
Even in discomfort, you preened at his praise.
He squeezed your hand, and after a minute, he gave an experimental thrust of his hipsâand then another and another before he ceased his movement once again. He was so big and you were so deliciously full of him.
Eventually, the pain subsided, and you found yourself asking, no, begging for more. âMove.â Your other hand found itself cupping the side of his face, coaxing him to lift his head and allowing your gazes to meet. Your soft, plush thighs parted further to help accommodate the breadth of his hips. âPlease, Joel. I need you to moveâI need you to fuck me.â
Surely, you would be the death of him.
He drew his hips back with cautious, tender care, then advanced in the same manner to fill your precious cunt all over again. He did it over and over, your pleasured moans encouraging him to begin picking up the pace. He drove his cock in and out of your weeping pussy, the slapping of flesh against flesh, the lewd, wet squelch of you around him inspiring him to fuck you harder, faster. And the noises you were making?
There was something oh so beautiful about your cries, sweet raptures of submission as you laid there beneath him, all too graciously taking everything he had to give you like the good, good, good girl you were for him.
âFuckinâ hell, sweetheart,â Joel rasped. âLook at youâlook at the way you take my fuckinâ cock, honey.â
And you did.
Glancing down, your gaze fell between your bodies and you watched in awe, openly marveled at the way Joel slid in and out of your cunt, how he knocked hard so deeply inside of you, driving himself as far as he could possibly go.
âFuck Joel, Iâm gonnaââ You tried warning him as the pressure in your belly neared its peak, but you tumbled over the edge before you even had the chance to finish your sentence. Arching up off off the bed, you pressed your chest against his, your fingers squeezing his own so hard you feared you might break them.
âThatâs it babygirl, let go,â he grunted, speeding up his thrusts. âSqueeze my fuckinâ cockâjust like that. Good girl. My perfect, perfect girl.â
You didnât quite get the chance to let the praise sink in.
Joel pulled himself out of you, and with ease, he flipped you over onto your belly. His hands gripped your hips and pulled them up off the mattress, his fingers moving to firmly knead the fleshiest part of your ass. He leaned over you, the head of his cock nudging at your hole. âYâthink you can handle a little bit more, sweetheart?â he whispered the question into a tumble of messy hair, the delicate scent of the lavender shampoo you used to wash it filling his senses. âAnswer me, little dove.â
âYes,â you replied breathlessly with a nod. âI can.â
With a satisfied hum, Joel sank into you, this second stretch not quite as overwhelming at the first, but still intense. âRelax,â he murmured, hunching further over your quivering back. He pressed a kiss onto the top of your head and then leaned down to brace his hands on either side of you. âNeed you to be sweet for me just a bit longer, okay, baby?â
âGod,â you whimpered when the heaviness of his balls came to rest on your sensitive clit.
It was the second time youâd uttered His name.
Joel almost grinned at the irony. He found his rhythm, groaning in gut-deep satisfaction with each snap of his hipsâeach smooth stroke in and each smooth stroke out.
âOh fuck, sweet girl.â Heaven was indeed a real place, and Joel Miller was buried in it to the hilt, right at this very moment.
He was getting closer and closer.
Maybe it was your eagerness to help him reach his own release mingled with the pride you knew you would feel once you did that gave you a second wind, a fresh, new burst of energy. You planted your hands firmly on his pillow. Rolling your bottom lip between your teeth, you curved your spine and pushed back onto Joel with purpose, meeting his thrusts halfway as you rode his aching length to the satiation that waited for him at the end.
âThereâs my girl,â he rasped. âOh fuckinâ Christââ
No way he could live his life without you now.
He needed you.
He needed you so much more than you needed him.
Joel slipped an arm around your shoulders, across your chest.
âOh!â you gasped as he then yanked you back, pulling you flush against him. The rough crash of your back against his chest, combined with the angle in which he was fucking you knocked the wind out of your lungs.
His lips were at the shell of your ear. âStay,â he panted, his breath hot against your cheekbone. He wrapped his other hand lightly around your throat. Relentless, were his hips nowâhis movements had become frantic. Desperate. âStay with me, baby.â
Even as you fought to catch your breath in the position he had you in, you picked up on the fact that he wasnât asking you of it, nor was he demanding you of it.
He was begging you.
Him, the most feared man in this town. Begging you?
âJoel,â you choked.
âPlease, my little dove,â he pleaded, turning your head towards him. His mouth was then on the corner of your own, his beard roughly scratching the soft and delicate flesh of your cheek. âI need you, babygirl. Stay with me. Please, just fuckinâ stay with me.â
Your hands curled around his wrists. âYes, Iâll stay,â you moaned. âIâm yours, Joel. Iâm all yours. IâIâm not going anywhere. I promise. Iâll stay with you.â
A low, guttural sound rumbled through his chest. Joel firmly took hold of your cross, and without so much as a warning, he ripped the chain from around your neck and tossed it somewhere over his shoulder. He heard it land on the hardwood floor with the tiniest, faint clink the moment he spilled into you, ropes of warm release coating your fluttering walls. Curses and groans spilled from his lips and into your neck. Your cunt clutched at his pulsing cock, greedy for every last drop of his spend she could get. Â
Once you were filled, you both collapsed beside each other on the bed, heaving to catch a steady breath.
âYâokay, sweetheart?â Joel managed to ask, his chest still rising and falling rapidly.
Exhausted, all you could do was nod and utter, âMhm.â
He exhaled an amused huff through his nose. âCâmere.â He reached for you and pulled you against his side. He draped an arm around your shoulders, holding you as close to him as was possible. âYâdid so good, honey.â
Your mouth curled into a small, contented smile.
Several minutes had passed by, and despite telling him that you were too tired to even think about moving, Joel made you get up and use the bathroom, and while you did so, he ran a clean washcloth under warm water. âHere, darlinâ. Let me clean you up,â heâd said, his lips meeting your forehead in a loving token of affection before he sank down onto one knee and ran the damp cloth along the insides of your thighs. He took extreme care when he wiped at your swollen folds, knowing you were still sensitive to the touch. âThere we go. All done, now.â
Not long after, you were both back in his bed, wrapped up in his sheets.
Yawning, you nuzzled into bare his chest, your eyelids feeling heavier and heavier with each and every second that ticked by. Youâd started drifting off when you heard his voice.
âBaby?â
âHmm?â you answered sleepily, eyes still closed.
âDid you mean what you said?â
âMean what, Joel?â
There was a brief pause. âYâknow, when you said youâd stay with me.â
Snuggling closer to him, you mumbled, âMhm. Of course I did.â
âSânot gonna be easy,â Joel murmured into your hair.
âI know.â You yawned. âBut I have you.â
âYou do. Youâve got meâand Iâve got you, babygirl.â
âMm. I know that too, Joel.â
You felt him kiss the top of your head and then fell fast asleep in his arms.
The sun bloomed over the Grand Tetons.
Your father would wake soon, thatâs to say if he wasnât up already.
The nerves began to set in.
Joel must have sensed it. âBreathe, baby. Sâgonna be okay,â he soothed, squeezing your hand.
With one of his warmer, heavier jackets that normally didnât see the light of day until winter season draped around your shoulders, the two of you made your way down the road and towards your house. Or better said, towards your fatherâs house. Because after what you were about to do, that yellow and white cottage would no longer be a place you could call home.
He led you up to the porch. âYâsure you donât want me to go in there with you?â he asked, quietly.
You could have laughed. You almost did.
âDo you believe that to be a wise choice?â
âNo, I reckon it ainât the best idea,â Joel admitted with a sigh, raking his free hand through his unkempt, salt and pepper hair. He looked up at the house, then back at you. âLook, little dove. No matter what happens in there, just know that everythinâ will be alright. Mâgonna take care of you. For the rest of my life, Iâll take care of you. Iâll try my hardest to be everythinâ you need.â
âYou already are, Joel,â you said, your gaze earnest.
His chest swelled with warmth.
Truth be told, Joel didnât know how he had managed to defy the oddsâhow he, of all people, had managed to make his way into that sweet, innocent, beautiful little heart of yours, but somehow he did, and he would not take this responsibility lightly.
He brushed your lips with his and promised, âGonna be waitinâ right here, okay?â
âOkay.â Inhaling deeply, you willed yourself to let go of his hand and took a step back. You then started up the porch steps on wobbling legs. When you made it to the top, you glanced over your shoulder at Joel, who gave you a subtle nod of encouragement. Exhaling slowly, you reached for the knob with trembling fingers and turned it, opening the door. You stepped inside, your heart dropping into your stomach when you saw your father sitting there at the foot of the staircase, as if heâd been waiting for you. He had been waiting for you. Fully dressed, he sat on the second to last step with both hands folded on his bible in his lap, a rosary clutched between them. âPapa?â
He said nothing. Instead, he silently observed youâhis eyes glazed over the menâs jacket and the short dress you wore underneath it, the disheveled, loose hair and kiss swollen lips. Your holy cross nowhere to be seen.
âPapa.â You swallowed harshly and shifted your weight anxiously from the heel of one boot to the other. âWe, umâwe really need to have a talk.â
He peered around you, catching a brief glimpse of the man standing outside, waiting for you at the foot of the porch.
He cleared his throat, lightly. âYes, child. I suppose that we do.â
Nodding tightly, you turned around and slowly closed the door. Joelâs words rang in your mind over and over, giving you the push of strength you knew you would need.
Iâve got you.
divider credit goes to @saradika đ€
#ugh and the religious imagery?????#as a girlie who grew up in a strict religious household with BAD religious trauma#the religious imagery was EVERYTHING#it was so beautiful it was healing đ„č#noelleâs live reactions#fic rec#pedrospatch
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new religion.
#grace chasity fanart#grace chasity#nerdy prudes must die#npmd fanart#Starkid#Starkid fanart#hatchetfield#nightmare time#lords in black#religious imagery#thereâs a ton of symbolism here letâs see if you can figure out what everything means
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The Creation of Man GOLBetty
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#aria draws#digital art#digital drawing#fanart#adventure time#adventure time fanart#betty grof#magic betty#golb#golbetty#the creation of man#artistic nudity#tw nudity#tw religious imagery#I told you all I was making biblical adventure time fanart#I loooove combining my two most favorites things..... Religion and Adventure Time.....#Shout out to Betty grof for being my everything btw#fionna and cake#fionna and cake fanart#atfc#at
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Young man with potentialâŠ
#did yall know that im a massive fan of religious imagery?#well you do now#anyways I canât stop thinking about pulp musicals believe it or not#itâs plagueing my mind and I have no escape#this show is everything to me#and episode 4 fucking destroyed me#Iâm deceased#gone off this earth#âŠjust like Samuel#OUGH#Anyways I was thinking about the preacher from episode one and wanted to tie in that religious imagery to Samuel#especially with him having sacrificed himself and whatnot- he died so the story could go on- he was the savior so to speak#god damn Matt Dahan what have you done to me#killing me over here#I canât take it#pulp musicals#pulp musicals spoilers#the searcher in the shadows spoilers#the searcher in the shadows#tsits spoilers#tsits#samuel stratford#my art
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Bro hear me out, Milfy Nun Wanda tempting Masc Priest Rđ©
Like R is a complete devote father (R isnât a man obviously but I donât know a masc term for itđ) of the church and they are actually very innocent when it comes to interacting with women especially the nuns/sisters of the church so they try their best to interact with them without looking like a complete idiot (even though the women can detect Râs shyness and inexperience from a mile away)
R gets VERY often flirted by the women attending the masses and also the nuns (They fawn over Râs forearms and muscular build in their Black religious suit) and Wanda DOES NOT like that one bit and she knows R is a complete Virgin so she takes matters into her own hands to claim R as herâs alone. She hates how often Râs bulge makes it appearance as they speak with any women especially a Nun who R is speaking with that day who has her cleavage at full view to tease R and hopefully make them break into sinning. That night Wanda makes some shitty excuse to get R to see her like practicing a prayer or whatever. (Little does poor innocent R know sheâs wearing the sluttiest fishnets/stockings and lingerie know to man).
(mind you, Wanda learns that night how much of a puppy R is for an older woman like her and learns about their mommy kink. She even calls them Daddy to match the dynamic)
Thereâs many ways to portray how R gets seduced by Wanda but this is my personal storyline that my sinful lil brain createdđ
[I donât ask for much but please take my imagination into consideration and make it a masterpiece of a fic like you always do, you can modify it if you got better ideas or plots. Ur the Writer here.đđ]
this is the ask the new fic will be based on! it slightly differs from the stated plot, but that's just my play on it. big thanks to this anon for this idea! it's titled "guilty as sin?", from the ttpd track. looking forward to publishing it within the next few days!
#would you believe if i said i have written everything except the smut#like wow why is the setting and build up and ending already 2k words long#there's so much religious imagery it's genuinely concerning#can't wait for yall to devour this body of christ (joke)
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vampires or just bisexual goths? you decide.
#based on that jc leyendecker painting#he is everything to me#wearing a shirt that says âask me about my religious imagery in luis clothingâ#maybe i'll color this sometime idk#i was rly happy with the line art#resident evil#resident evil 4#re4#re4r#leon kennedy#luis serra#ashley graham#idr if the dog has a name but he should#art#fanart#my art#artists on tumblr#egg art
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#my godddd đźâđšâ€ïžâđ©č#life is so beautiful you guysss#bless Sufjan's fucking precious mindđźâđšđ©·!!#everything writtenâ produced and recorded by him + all the artwork and essays also by him!! he's everything!! â€ïžâđ©č#the entire album sounds both familiar and new (like Goodbye Evergreen is literally how The Age of Adz goes from Futile Devices to Too Much!#sounds very atmospheric and melancholic and bittersweet but also dreamy and euphoric. and very gentle#and there's a sense of urgency and helplessness but the album ends in a very hopeful note which is so beautiful!!#lyrically is so impressive and breathtaking. man the way he feels everything so deeply đ«šâ€ïžâđ©č#stunning compositions + so much heartbreak and existential despair and unsettling imagery and self-sacrifice#and distress and personal atonement and resignation and so much HOPE and LIFE and LIGHT#and also religious devotion (shocker i know lol)#and the Neil Young cover (shoot me!) is better than the original lol it's just so sweet and hopeful đ#i really loved it so much!!#sufjan stevens#javelin#đ
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#sufjan stevens#sufjan stevens lyrics#javelin#goodbye evergreen#oh sufjan we're really in it now#lyrics#yellow#sky#love#loss#grief#you know i love you but everything heaven sent must burn out in the end#religious imagery
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jean moreau, and faith and religion and the absence of it.
the sunshine court, nora sakavic // the unabridged journals of sylvia plath, sylvia plath // "stay down" by boygenius ft. julien baker, lucy dacus, and phoebe bridgers // the denial of st. peter, caravaggio // salome with the head of st. john the baptist, simon vouet // henry iv pt. ii, william shakespeare // the rebirth of the arts, charles haslewood shannon // daredevil: "born again" (1986) by frank miller et al. // "ash-wednesday", t.s. eliot // map of hell, botticelli
#jean moreau#the sunshine court#aftg#tsc#renee walker#all for the game#nora sakavic#web weaving#r weaves webs#okay yall im gonna be honest this is a new kind of engagement for me soooo pls b nice#however i simply had to get into it bc i have so many ideas all the time#in this case all the religious imagery in tsc literally had me losing my mind#i didn't even have space to use half the examples i found here#renee rainbow post coming maybe???#anyway for those of yall who do these web posts all the time pls lmk if u have any advice bc honestly i just gave it my best shot#like i did do my research so everything should in fact mean what i believe it means#but u know. nowhere to go from here but UP#r tags#r posts
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i like to personally think that the Lone Wanderer, obviously raised religious (christian) to some degree, had their incredulity with religion for good after seeing James die.
or maybe even after James left, and they were forced to be the Wasteland's errand person using their morals and beliefs for the good of humanity, but ultimately just being used.
faith slowly fading, turning into hatred and resentment, or maybe just a lost soul wondering why God abandoned them just like everyone else did.
#take this sad thought of mine. needed to verbalize it.#mainly this is how i see it for Luna#faith slowly fading away the second james left#she tries to do everything she can to help out everyone even if she doesnt want to or cant. she'll find a wau#shes got the weight of her parents' passion and life long dream to finish and fulfill in her shoulders#all while being the wastelands sacrifial lamb.#i have so many religious imagery and symbolisms to use for her bc of this#raised catholic & now atheist doesnt help the notion either!!!#lw: luna hayden#lone wanderer#lone wanderer fallout 3#fallout 3#fo3#james fallout 3#religious themes#mod.holotape#thinking too hard
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putting the fun in funeral
#mine#american gothic#appalachia#religious imagery#digicam#everything is fine btw but this was actually a funeral
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its just its just about Its about. ITS ABOUT jayce destroying his creation . Its about VIKTOR BEING THE CREATION IN THE FIRST PLACE ????????? its about everything getting so wildly out of hand its about their once innocent and warm dream getting so corrupted beyond recognition. its about the . The. Ththe jesus judas shit going on. Viktor's gorgeous hair (shoutout). Its about ...............!/!22'enfnfnend MY SHORTENED LIFE SPAN DUE TO THE EMOTIONAL DAMAGE IVE RECEIVED
#its about how an act of love caused such devastation#(jayce saving viktor by shoving him into the sourdough starter)#something something that which inspires us of our greatest good is also the cause of our greatest evil.#god ok im done with the Its about thinf#im crazy about them#im crazy about the came back wrong trope#CRAZY about RELIGIOUS IMAGERY AND MOTIFS#crazy about time loops so i hope this persons theory about jayce being stuck in one is fr#crazy about how viktors childhood flashback is just the entirety of his current arc#hes going to become RIO!!! I HATE IT HERE#i hate myself#its about. how. im dying rn#its. JSUT#EVERYTHING!!!!!#EVERYTHING EVERYTBING IS JUST SO#MUCH#minnie post#arcane spoilers#just screaming into the void#i love this show#Oh my Godddddddddddddddddddd#i love being distraught by art#love being gutted like a fish over ART
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im so normal about them sorry
#theres more coming#bungou stray dogs#fyodor dostoevsky#sigma bsd#fyosig#bsd#religious imagery#bsd spoilers#bc yk#sigma :(#i love how bones animated the info transfer i hate everything else#fvedyart
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how have I managed to make a mutual that likes FF7, Bloodborne, AND ultrakill. the stars aligned to give me a person who enjoys all the same things I do and it's amazing
oh you haven't seen the bannerâą yet on my pinned post
i like...many things
#my fixation list is so long that even the bannerâą doesn't have everything#a big genre of the things i like is BLOOD#look at the BLOOD#also very compelling storytelling and characters#also religious allusions and imagery
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"Everything you went through was meaningless." [St Voyager S3 E7: 'Sacred Ground']
#Serving Jesus realness#star trek screenshots#Janeway#iconic that all the aliens are like 'damn....that's crazy....anyway-' about Janeway HEHEHE they're like snickering behind their hands#I would be too honestly if some outsider tried to speedrun my ancient spiritual rituals#Love the vibe of 'this could all be hazing' they're putting out. Also I keep seeing the face paint on the guide woman as like a mic#honestly this woman's fucking hilarious HEHEHE#Janeway: I'm dying. / Alien Guide: We all die someday :) <- lady who just told her to stick in her hand in a poison jar#AHAHAHA THEY REALLY DID HAZE HER...I love these guys they're so nahnahnahbooboo-core#also the refrain 'Everything you went through was meaningless' ..... thinking BIG thoughts about post-voyager voy crew back on earth#I really do earnestly love the gleeful contempt vibe...it just seems so right. In a funny way but also in a way that's deeply true#the feeling of trying to find answers while you universe laughs and says there are none - it's meaningless - but you're welcome to go ahead#and try. If you find God you have the feeling it would just stare at you blankly. Then laugh.#Chakotay: Captain I've been so worried about you! Have you found a solution? / Janeway: Absolutely. I'm going to walk into the death shrine#Chakotay: (internally hysterical) Oh of COURSE!!!! no of COURSE she's going to walk into the DEATH SHRINE!!!!#great imagery in this one <3 folks who love religious imagery (me) will get a kick outta this one <3#anyway I love when star trek does hopeful eps like this...makes me tear up like. Yeah there could be a scientific explanation but that#doesn't make it MORE true or MORE real than the religious one - it's just as valid to believe in the spirits#Also those three old creeps were lovely <3 scared me and I like that! existential dread!
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gripping you by the shoulders. dutch and arthur as cain and abel do you understand. abel was the slaughterer. cain tended to the plants. arthur is the enforcer and the butcher and yet brings back his finest kills first to god. dutch is the one teaches, grows up the people in the gang on his philosophies and his lies and his love. but the gang is not first. he is first. cain takes the best for himself because why should he not? when god has done nothing for him but favor his brother? the fair haired child. the kind of man dutch always tried to be but failed miserably. when asked about arthur dutch deflects the question, "you just cared for yourself," "am i my brother's keeper?"
#phase weeps#BASHING MY HEAD INTO CONCRETE#making everything in rdr2 about religious imagery is my fav past time#not my fault dutch was probably obsessed with cain when he was younger#dutch van der linde
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