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Raise your hand if you've been personally victimised by this piece of music.
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second try
also look look, the way the lights are turn on :D
#i wish i can take pretty gifs but my laptop crashed when i hit record cuz it overloaded my graphics card#(or something else cuz i panicked and shut it down immediately KAJHDAK)#also playing this game made me realize i really suck at making buildings#throwback to minecraft where i do can do organics but not a fucking cabin LMAO#i might use these screenshots for something...stay tune#i love green roofs URGHHHH#gummmyspeaks#gummmygames#hey new tag#tiny glade
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TIL "Lay On Hands" is a paladin healing skill and I am blessed by this knowledge.
#moe talks a lot#oops i fell in love#cleric!right is forever funny to me because yeah its incredibly fitting for him to crave the power to heal#since he personally is so damaged and refuses to hurt others even in a game#but also he has such a foul mouth and you cannot remove that part of him ever#hes going to yell obscenities before he heals someone#like the joke of YOU HAVE UNO IT CAME WITH YOUR XBOX#is now YOU HAVE HEALING IT COMES WITH THE PALADIN#and then he just goes and heals karen while paul is like hey thats mean what if i want to bond with you :c#why wont you ever heal ME right i wanna be healed by you ! shes missing like 2hp what about healing my 10hp#again i have zero dnd exp and i am only learning from asking buddies who play it cause google sucks#i say that bc i tried googling something about clerics and it gave answers i didnt want to questions i didnt ask#anyway time to go perish personally im in so much pain and im v tired#for the record bc i know some people have expressed concerns in the past that im pushing myself too much to draw daily#its mostly my legs n feet that hurt constantly after work#my hand is still fine and while i do have some weird bruising on my arms (a mystery!) bc i bruise easily#its not me pushing through the hand pain or something bad like that its just i ache a lot
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#hey all#for the record I have never once enjoyed a Persona game#5 seemed like it had something going on until it sucked#4 was so boring after the beginning I could never once finish it#I hear 3 is good but I wouldn't know#but I do want to try 1 and 2 some day after I play an actual SMT game
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I literally do not have anything smart to say here, this drawing literally only happened because my siblings were telling me I should post my brainrot doodles on here, and my anxiety-ridden ass couldn't do it, and decided the only solution was to spend days (read: the entire latter end of April) working on a proper drawing because "if I'm going to post anything on tumblr, it better be a full-ass drawing"
#little fire's art#dragon ball#kaioshin#db shin#grand supreme kai#north supreme kai#south supreme kai#west supreme kai#idk the proper tags#and I don't really care rn#I just want to get this posted so I can hide in the Void for a million years or so#anyway#normal db fan: MY FAV CHARACTER IS [insert super duper powerful character here]#meanwhile#me: *holds up Shin* blorbo...#but hey this drawing did make me make some big steps out of my comfort zone for art#so I guess my db brainrot is good for something??#also for the record I DID finish this a couple days ago#my anxiety just prevented me from posting it here until now#but technically it's still a contender for April's art piece for the end of the year art summary#I'M NOT GOING TO MISS TWO M0NTHS#Feb sucked bc my tablet said fuck you and I had to replace it#if anything looks wonky pose-wise just remember I don't use pose refs much#bc I hate myself#no really#I just about drove myself insane one night trying to figure out how to draw Shin's right arm#bc the angle is weird and idk why I did this to myself#shut the fuck up Fire
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i wish i could remove the word “adopt” from kept peoples’ vernacular lol
#they constantly say shit about ‘adopting’ people and it’s so fucking weird to me#like it’s this cute and flippant thing and a sign of enjoying something#or whatever#and especially in fandom they use it for their blorbos and say they want to adopt fictional children and i hate it#adoption is not serious to people who are not adoptees at all and as adoptees we are taught to downplay the severity of our experiences#because if we say ‘hey that’s not funny’ then we get told told we are being too sensitive#we are a marginalized community that’s not even recognized as such and it absolutely fucking sucks and our trauma isn’t funny or cute l#joking about adopting people and characters is weird if u know what adoption really is#it is a LEGAL process that changes our identities and erases all biological lineage and seals our records (sometimes forever)#adoptees are 4x more likely to have mental health issues and substance abuse problems and we are more likely to be abused by our parents#and yet kept people wct as if we are not real people. we are constantly dehumanized in many ways#either adoption is romanticized or it’s a joke and either we are not human as our problems are brushed off#or we are not human and get verbally abused whenever we say something about how experiences aren’t always sunshine and rainbows#not to mention the fact that we are infantilized as well#it’s just… adoption is a different way of experiencing life. like my worldview is entirely different than someone who is non-adopted#there are things that have never even crossed their minds. they couldn’t imagine not knowing what their parents look like#or knowing their siblings or cousins or having multiple birth certificates or having a price tag over their head#yet adoption is just casual for them. it’s no big deal. YEAH IT’S NBD BECAUSE U ARENT ADOPTED!!!!!!!#keep our experiences out of your fucking mouth!!!!!!!#but someone will probably say im being dramatic or too emotional or whatever for being upset#like sorryyyyy. my bad! how overdramtic of me to be upset about not having the same rights as other people and not laughing along with them#god fucking dammit#adoptee voices#adoptee#adoption#adoption in fandom
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nothing makes me want to text my ex more than minecraft..... every new world i start is a pale imitation of what we used to have together... fully functioning moats, XP spawners, a giant map room, a secret pirate cove, an epic wizard tower, an underground rail system. we worked on that shit for like two years and i am never gonna see it again because he fucking broke up with me and he was the one who hosted the server.... i don't even know how to do some of the shit that he set up bro like the game will never be the same for me again. all my friends play terraria anyway and i don't think i will ever have as much fun in minecraft as i did with that guy... he made special command blocks so we could have hammer and sickle banners. i don't know how to do that shit. i'm never gonna have hammer and sickle banners again. fuuuuck.
#how do i say 'hey i know we haven't spoken since we were 18 and you dumped me for being an insane coke fiend...#but minecraft sucks now and i have no hard feelings so do you think we can hop on the server#and maybe at some point you can give me back my goddamn special edition beach house record'#he doesn't even have a record player what is he doing with my special edition beach house record. that motherfucker.
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Presently going insane rn:
Anyway let me talk about the one question that I have been contemplating ever since I began rotating petrosapiens in my mind. How the fuck do babies?
If you caught the reblog before this post, you might have noticed that a post about fat in aliens brought me to think about petrosapien fat, which contradicts a lot of what I've already established for them being an exoskeletal species, let alone being a hard sell in the sci-fantasy of rock crystal people of canon. Turning to one of my two animal inspirations of petrosapiens - bugs and more specifically in this case insects - I found out that insects can't build up fat, not in the way mammals or reptiles can, BUT they store the most of it in a very significant stage;
Larvae!
Then it fucking hit me, I already made some early headcanons about child development in petrosapiens (though I can't remember if I posted them or had a post ready to send) where they were already in a metamorphosing stage, though the responsibility fell solely to the layer who would use crystallokinesis to feed an 'egg'. I didn't fully like the idea though mostly in retrospect, because it felt strange in the 'pulled out of my ass' kinda way, a method of child rearing that felt more obligated to use crystallokinesis as a primary source for feeding to sorta justify at the time the inherent power petrosapiens have towards crystallokinesis.
Instead, between then and now I fully connected the idea that crystallokinesis is less of a power and more of an extension of a petrosapien's nervous system, compression of quartz through the use of a more electrical based nerve network that happens to not distinguish between person crystals and the similar crystalline structures of Petropia. With this in mind and the new idea that petrosapiens have larvae, wouldn't it be so cool if the larvae had the typical Earth-like electrochemical nervous system of humans (or I suppose bugs here) that adapts to an electrical focused nervous system through the process of metamorphosis? Where the larvae creates it's petrosapien crystal skin by building a chrysalis and melting within it to create their new body?
Unlike my old headcanon where the layer had to remain with the egg and constantly feeding them with crystallokinesis, this larvae version can feed itself when provided and so long as the chrysalis is well protected, the moment metamorphosis stage takes place the parent(s) can have momentary reprieve from child rearing and better prepare themselves for the toddler/adolescent stage for their child. The little grub probably doesn't even eat crystals in the early stages of their larvaehood since eating crystals initially marks as the materials for chrysalis building before it becomes a nutritional food source. Instead the little grub might be feed plants and potentially animal products in order for it to inherit and develop the chemicals required to build a crystallovorous stomach and the acids used to break silica down into digestible nutrition.
That does mean that early child rearing is a little bit more functionally deadly towards the very crystalline parents, who have to legitimately watch so that their fingers aren't bitten off, but holding the little grub is easy when it's covered in silicone membrane. The larvae at this stage is a little bit more resistant to any crystallovorous plant secretions due to the polymers of it's membrane, as well as the higher diversity of oxygen, hydrogen, and carbon in it's body it has in comparison to adults or adolescents who've undergone metamorphosis, their innards becoming a more uniform silicone and their skin being the crystalline silicon many crystallovorous stomachs have adapted to eat.
It also means that the shape of a grub is also considered to be cute to a petrosapien. Things from caterpillars to maggots look so much more charming to a petrosapien's eyes that back on Petropia there would be a large proportion of pet owners having what would considered on Earth to have bugs for pets. In fact, a rather common form of pet Petrosapiens might have would be a large millipede/centipede like animal that would be the size approximate of a feather boa and often held that way too, because while they do not undergo metamorphosis, they look like a larval grub well into adulthood and are considered to be very cute for it. Pet owners with these pets who are also parents love to see their little larvae and their 'dog' getting along and would love telling their adolescent all the cute stories of the little grubs curled up against each other. Petrosapiens in the age of the Surface Craze might have had the opportunity to get a few baby pictures like that, and it would be considered very cute unless you were a human afraid of bugs or not personally a fan.
Petrosapiens on Earth might see the miniature bugs and explode with cuteness overload, others might fuck around and find out that they can make human-petrosapien hybrids Makarat you chupacabra you're lucky petrosapien kids aren't born with crystals pay child support to your human wife who birthed a grub-!
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#petrosapien#ben 10#xenobiology#at this point i only think about petrosapiens as bugs rarely as reptiles- maybe i should add more reptile stuff#like leathery eggs that the grubs eat their way out of yeah let's add that#since the larvae don't have powerful enough stomachs to eat crystals yet let alone the jaw strength#which looking at a grub you can see the vague body plan of a petrosapien#the opening face- the significantly more developed rear legs (present as 'swimmerets')-#you can (mostly) tell from even the grub stage that your kid's a guy or a girl because they even have the nubs for back spines in grub stag#even if it turns out to be an excess/lack of 'testosterone' or an intersex trait#it was their grubs that petrosapiens were even able to connect themselves to old fossil records-#an extinct shrimp or prawn type thing that shares similarities to their little grub- though already with armour or even exoskeleton#also this grub thing makes the crystal twins slightly less of a hassle at least for the still unnamed human mother because i suck at names#means lucía had a grub for a twin sister for a hot while- nor did the family have much in the way for crystal for blanca to eat#so instead of crystals blanca ate bones for her chrysalis and hey look she's bone white now which- oopsie osteokinesis#no matter all the crystallokinesis that happens is with lucía and oof ouchie it's scoliosis#well- replacing keratin AND scoliosis but woopsie#that should be in an oc post
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Oh yeah. Ok so we finished rewatching the jjba anime. My ranking is as follows.
Part 3 = Part 6 > part 1 > part 2 > part 5
Above all of this is. Of course. The Primadonna Girl DIO AMV. I hope this helps.
#txt#I dont know. im so torn over if part 3 or 6 is like. better or which one I like more.#I think 6 is near perfect. it slogs in the middle but hey so does 3.#for the record also. part 5 is so far behind the others it shouldnt even be listed.#part 5 Sucks.
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Giant personal vent time
This guy stole somewhere between 3 to 6 MILLION dollars from my grandmother by conning my great aunt into signing over her estate and medical & financial power of attorney to him literally on her death bed
I and my aunt have been working basically a whole second job the last 3 months trying to get together a legal case to go after this guy. And now my grandma wants to drop it. And no one else has standing so what the fuck can we do.
This man has absolutely done this to other ppl before, there is no doubt in my mind. I’ve seen his property records for just what’s publicly available in my county and it’s sketchy as hell. I am never going to get over this but there’s nothing I can do.
Gonna put like a million more thoughts in the tags because I’m losing my fucking mind.
#it’s not like we don’t have the money#the estimated legal fees are like $100k but we’d definitely get it back from the estate in the end#but grandma doesn’t want to look like she’s going after her sister’s money#and she won’t admit she has dementia so I’m not allowed to tell the lawyer that she can’t handle testifying#so he just thinks we’re being wishy washy#and my aunt is so conflict avoidant she won’t tell the lawyer anything that’s happening that he could absolutely be helping with#and my dumbass step cousin is so conflict avoidant he’d literally rather let the family business go bankrupt than actually deal with this#why the fuck did she make him ceo#I know why she trusted this guy but jfc whyyyy did she trust him#god if only I had a time machine I’d go back 6 months and make sure we kicked him out of her house#I really really didn’t think he’d go this far. I just thought he was a weird dude she was being too nice to#but no. actual con artist#the more we learn the worse it gets#and grandma just cannot handle it. even though she has the money!! I’m so mad#I wanna email every reporter I can think of until I find someone willing to publish an article about this guy#so that at least that way someone would see how fucking sketchy he is when they Google him#so that maybe the next person won’t fall for it#is there some kind of legal action you can take that’s basically just like#hey we’re not willing to spend years to prove that you’re evil#but just for the record we need everyone to know you suck and we hate you#like just so ppl know#maybe I should ask our pastor to send out a PSA to all the other little old ladies at church#since that’s how my great aunt met him in the first place#I could get at least 3 good books out of all the drama in my fucking family I think#one for this whole thing. one for my dad’s insane parents. and one for all the bad decisions I made in Seattle
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I WANNA WRITE CHORAL MUSIC AGAIN but god im in an satb choir now. ive only written ssaa since ive spent all my life in womens choirs and generally i write stuff FOR my choir to perform
ive rewritten a piece at the whims of a director before i can probably convert,,, *something* into satb. maybe.
#i was thinking specifically about my arrangement of sound of silence but actually#having both an ssa and satb version of ''what if'' recorded certainly would be cool#i dont have time for this i dont have time to figure out how to write tbb parts I DO NOT#...could also update the piano part#@my last pianist fuck you tho im keeping it in root position#faeloops#for the record the director was not like ''this sucks rewrite it''#the song was originally sa since i wrote it when i was like... idk 19? 20? and was performed that way originally#but new director said ''hey i think this would be way better if it were ssa dyou think you can change it'' and i went holy shit youre right
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I wish someone would stab me
#with a syringe of T#not like. kill me…#my dysphoria will just kinda vanish for a few days before sneaking up on me and beating my kneecaps in#unfortunately with the way that my medical records are (very much not private - long story) I can’t just show up to the gp and be like#HEY man how about some blood tests??#also I’ve already been denied hrt once on medical basis#they just ‘’’don’t know how it would interact with your disorders or medications’’’#girl.#there’s so much wrong with me and yet somehow not a single one of those things have anything to do with hormones#(atypical pcos doesnt count)#doctor was really acting like I’d explode if I started T#the cynical part of my brain is like ‘you just don’t wanna muddy the results. you don’t wanna deal with a Transgender in your studies huh’#totally irrational but still#nothing I can really do about it. suck it up IG#not like I’ve been doing it for 11 years by this point lol#just. someone. STAB ME PLEASE#I got a nice meaty thigh just. stab!#(I only have the one thigh lol)#stab! stab! stab!#so sad Playlist play Transgender Dysphoria Blues
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also the fact that you can't choose not to deactivate roxy to get an alternate ending sucks. like have her know Something is wrong in the pizzaplex and if you choose not to deactivate her she mentions it to you and you help her out from under the car and she tags along with you freddy style as you investigate. have roxy mentioning weird shit make cassie put the dots together that gregory sure sounded like a computer splice earlier. have her question why the weird mask that stabbed her in the brain to implant a chip with no warning has been very insistent about turning off security systems. have her question why, if gregory asked her to meet him at the pizzaplex, he would leave behind a walkie talkie and then get himself stuck rather than just wait for her. and have /that/ be what gives you access to the scooper ending rather than just Zooming Out Some Cameras. also make the bonnie stuff actually have something to do with the plot dude people are super interested in that they wouldve been ECSTATIC if youd brought glamrock bonnie back for real, especially if hed somehow gotten revenge on monty, like say if you did get all the pat pats (dumb name btw) instead of deactivating him, you REactivate him, but have him be disoriented and need time to actually wake up so all he can do is like save cassie from monty at some point
#same with chica you couldve actually done something with giving chica back her voice box like theres a security door she can#screech open for you for something to get a secret#also make the ai voice with gregory more consistently present but more subtle#the fact that they obviously had most of gregory's lines recorded fresh for this game as just normal speaking and then only did the#splicing for the part right before the reveal sucks#by the time they actually reveal it ur like. yeah woo i guess#make it happen more but be more subtle that way players will notice but not be entirely sure if it's deliberate or not#also !! the scooper ending sucks it doesnt actually feel like a different ending because we get no like#follow up past 'its dead now'#is it fully gone? does gregory still take her out as a liability if the mimic's no longer a threat? it just Ends and isn't engaging as#an ending at all and leaves you like. thats it?thats the good ending?#like this is indeed somehow worse than the comic endings because at least then we got to like. see what happens to gregory after he leaves#this one theyre just like. you killed it! good job! ............................... did you like. need something. orrr#also the sharp uptick in gregory being obviously ai near the end really ruins the tension of the candy cadet story#lile if the hints were more spread out it would feel like theyre actually solving a mystery but instead its just a big#landslide of HEY. HEY HES FAKE THATS NOT REAL GREGORY HEY. HEY ITS SPLICED HEY ITS A FAKE#so then candy cadet story‚ instead of being cool as hell‚ comes across as just like. yeah dude i get it#security breach ruin
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lmao no but i really hate the hospital here so bad. they won't let you make appointments more than a month in advance but like. theres only ONE person i can see and he's always booked out so like. what i have to call you every single week forever? in hopes i can get a renewed prescription for [redacted] which i havent taken in like a year because of this bc i can only get it thru the hospital's pharmacy bc its imported or whatever and then the other department for ur other issues says do not call us we will call you and that was in march 2022 and they charge u $100 for a blood test they never told u the results of and refused for it to be put on my-health-record so i cant even read it myself and also the parking sucks so fucking bad
#ugh.#the specialist is fine hes great even finally felt like someone took me seriously but like. probably WHY hes booked out forever LMAO#its literally just the hospital sucks shit#the call back wasnt even supposed to be able to blood test it was about other things im not sharing LMAO but nope :shrug:#i tried calling them a few months later like hey whats going on and they just said they had zero record of me coming in like#what is GOING ON with ur dumbass records then i know where i went *I* have the records but you somehow dont? loser!
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When that first cramp hits 5 days before the start of the semester
#Oh No.#i keep exposing myself as afab with posts like this and posts that include literal recordings of my voice dsfghfds ew#not like it's not obvious though lol. still sucks#my sister called me 'girl' the other day. and yesterday my token cishet friend called me 'girl'#and i swear i almost lost it after that#'HEY GirL~~~!' NO! BACK OFF!!#also i read somewhere that your periods are supposed to get easier and more regular as you age????? WHO and HOW and WHAT#mine have steadily gotten worse in every possible way every year#my body goes 'No BABY??' and then just elbow drops me#and ofc a disclaimer: I Am Not Looking For Medical Advice ty
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mitski…. venusplanetoflovewasdestroyedbyglobalwarmingdiditspeoplewanttoomuchtoodiditspeoplewanttoomuch…. save me mitski….
#silv's back on her bs#I’m going insane#im taking my vendetta to a third post bc I’ve made a bajillion abt it already (rant/vent continued below ignore if you don’t wanna see)#WHY CANT MEN BE STRAIGHTFORWARD ABT THINGS#guys it’s okay when it’s not a man bc then at least I don’t have to deal w the comphet and heteronormative bullshit but when it IS????#i need to crawl out of my skin#does he like me or is he just nice does he see me as an object or is he just nice does he want me or is he just nice#am I able to fully understand the idea of a man being my friend and NOT having ulterior motives? ID LOVE TO KNOW#like my track record w male friends have been:#+ ill kms if you don’t date me also you suck and youre a bitch but also you’re the loml#+ my life sucks and im going to tell u abt it everyday and wont listen to your advice and be an incel and overshare and ignore ur boundarie#+ hey so yk how we’ve been friends for like three years all of that was actually a facade bc I’ve been obsessed w you that entire time#so far there have been two guys that have not fucked up yet and it SCARES ME#I feel like for one of these friends I’m looking for reasons to doubt the friendship and the PLAYLIST has me doing a double take#like I KNOW it’s platonic. but god.
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