#the power of fear is mine
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i have an indeterminate amount of time that could be between 8am and 6pm tomorrow to clean my 3br house, do repairs, and temporarily evict my excess cats and one extra person. i am doing arts and crafts type shit to the hole in the ceiling. i am spraying chemicals. my boyfriend is pacing and baking bread. he is really stressed and not enriched at all due to the cost of living these days. he hates the pellets.
#i am an unmedicated adhd zillennial burnout who is an expert at fucking rushing everything at the last minute to really effective standards#i am like a drill sergeant with narcolepsy#the power of fear is mine
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"I have many fears, most of them about Lucrezia." — Cesare Borgia (The Borgias, 2011-2013) + hints of insecurity
that she adores someone that much / if she will reject his dark nature and act of love and violence as Ursula did / if he truly is not part of her desires / that she easily forgets him
#i have so many thoughts on these two#hes such a clingy brother wth#as much as he soothes her it is only by asking lucrezia verbally or#by looking at her that his fears and insecurities in her life can be soothed#cesare torn between - being relieved she had some joy in the ruthless marriage he had no power to prevent and did not even want to bless#or being envious there is someone else now when his little sister once said she will not love anyone as much as she loves him#but Accepting it anyways because it is impossible loves and maybe he is starting to become aware his love falls in this same category.#“should i envy this narcissus low-born who shall never see you again because of his impossible love for you when i love you just the same?”#the knife more surprise than fear. in a time when he did not love himself...“she accepts me as i am? as i do her”#biting her as if another black panther pet looking for reassurance that their love#that HE is still included in her perfect world even if he himself pulls away#“surely you're in agony as much as i am? are you already satisfied with your child and husband if we cannot share our love openly?”#“your eyes drift to mine when you say 'husband' am i not he? do you see me as so even when it was just 'tonight'?”#and then his sudden gaze as if to look for truth because how can she forget him when he only thinks of her#AND AGAIN pulling away being eaten by shame and guilt of corrupting her (when their relationship is not just his doing)#torn between hope (we have the capacity to forget and move on) and hope (our love has that much devil power over her)#cesare as the god or the devil or whatever it is that overwhelms whether at war or in love#cesare is one confident man and even if his insecurities has layers of righteousness and importance..it is still insecurity nonetheless#and only for lucrezia#lucrezia borgia#cesare borgia#cesare x lucrezia#the borgias#dailyborgia#perioddramaedit#perioddramasource#weloveperioddrama#onlyperioddramas#romancegifs#the borgiasedit
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cant stop thinkin bout charles and erik readin together on the couch but instead of reading with him charles is listening to eriks thoughts while he reads. Live mind commentary ……..
#xmen#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#the rare time i post an idea of mine only because i really cant think of a way id draw this#usually i hoard my ideas cause i like surprising you guys but this aint really one i feel like drawing so. For You my friends#like i COULD but. idk just isnt particularly something im itching to draw it just seems cute#but anyways no chat let me cook alright hear me out cause i talk in my brain all the time while i read#sometimes i stop reading just to think about a bit i read yeah#i want charles to listen in on all of eriks side comments or observations he makes while reading something#like if he wanted to charles could read the whole book in less than five minutes- maybe shorter than that#and that aint fun that aint cool …. so time for Audible: Husband Edition. With Commentary#ITD BE SO COZY just hangin out by the fireplace …. maybe its snowin outisde … if snow even exists anymore atp#a light fire cracklin and the study SEEMS totally quiet otherwise and yet…..#charles has been locked in to erik’s off-the-cuff literary analysis and mild comments for the past twenty minutes. its simple but its bliss#charles doesnt have to worry about being seen as invasive .. he doesnt have to suppress his powers …#the rare occasion erik lets charles into his mind for somethin so innocent .. ive made myself sick i fear#see now i wanna try writing a fic but 1.) have written in years 2.) id have to really think hard on how erik would commentate on a book#hm…… actually i do wonder what erik’s commentary on The Fable of the Bees would be …..#IN ANY CASE. maybe - at the very least- i can draw cherik by the fireplce someday ….#thatd be cute … hm …. depends on if i get in the mood for it down the line#anyways i have to drive back to my dorm !!! boo !!!! so good night everyone !!!!!
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My name is Percy Jackson. I am a demigod. Monsters come at me. So do the Gods. Last year, I had to stop a war. But that, was just the beginning...
PERCY JACKSON AND THE OLYMPIANS SEASON 2 The Sea of Monsters - Now in Production
#percy jackson#percy jackson and the olympians#pjo#pjo tv show#pjoedit#pjogif#percyjacksonedit#percyjacksongif#pjosource#tvedit#walker scobell#walkerscobell#the way that he just /is/ percy#most powerful demigod in history right here#i love that we get to see percy from the outside in the show - like he isn't being presented within the context of his inner thoughts#and his anxiety and fears and indecision and confusion and HUMOUR and instead we see how others see him#*my gifs#*my pjo#*mine
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Q&A with DAVE MUSTAINE of MEGADETH (1983 - present) in ROCK POWER, June 1991.
#mine#''irrational fear: street crossings'' ???? dave????#dave mustaine#megadeth#rock power#metal magazine#heavy metal#thrash metal#hair metal#metal#metal music#metal magazines#80s metal#90s metal
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PHARAZÔN TOSSING MÍRIEL INTO THE OCEAN WITH A GIANT FUCKING SEA WORM INSTEAD OF GIVING HER A NORMAL TRIAL WHILE EÄRIEN STANDS BESIDE HIM. ooooooooh my girl is not beating the evil human sacrifice temple designer allegations......... oooooooh my lovely evil girlfriend who is so lovely and also So evil.........
#im down with the elves but i fear the numenor plot might be my favourite this season#political strife? pretty outfits? cultish and religious factions? giant fucking sea monster judge judy?#🔛🔝#earien#rings of power#trop#mine
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These go in the photo album
#Family photos#gin akutagawa#ryūnosuke akutagawa#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd ch 03#bsd ch 41#mine#q.#25/09/23#Do you think when Akutagawa got his first wanted poster out they celebrate and he was all like ( ꈍᴗꈍ)#Probably not ahah. More likely he found it an annoyance.#But there must have been some feeling of power in knowing to have rose from the utter bottom where no one would even care to look at him–#to a position where everyone knows him and fear him.#Tbh I feel like if not what they specifically want both the Aktgw siblings would draw satisfaction from that.
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i bought pomegranate leave in conditioner because on all levels except physical i am persephone
#jk i do adore her tho#i am such a hades x persephone girlie#specifically the version of the myth where she chooses power and they are a power couple#ugh#mine#there is a bg3 au in there somewhere but i fear what character would be hades lmao
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helen richardson you are soooooooo sexy micheal shelly you are soooooooo sexy gerry keay you are soooooo sexy mike crew you are soooooo sexy agnes montague you are sooooooooo sexy jude perry you are soooooo sexy melanie king you are sooooooo sexy jon sims you are sooooooo sexy martin blackwood you are soooooooooo sexy anabelle cane you are sooooooo sexy elias bouchard… nikola orsinov you are soooooo sexy tim stoker you are sooooooo sexy breekon & hope ily basira hussain you are soooooooo sexy death dream guy you are soooo sexy georgie barker you are soooooo sexy jane prentiss you are sooooooo sexy sasha james you are sooooooo sexy not!sasha james you are sooooo sexy
#my thoughts on the avatars and entities and yknow#the spiral sexiest fear power 2022#tma podcast#helen richardson#micheal shelly#gerry keay#mike crew#agnes montague#jude perry#melanie king#jon archivist#martin blackwood#anabelle cane#elias bitchard#nikola orsinov#tim stoker#breekon and hope#basira hussain#death dreams guy#georgie barker#jane prentiss#sasha james#not sasha#i love yall sm#mine
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// (The Magnus Archives SPOILERS!!)
Dual Pull of Fears on Avatars
something notable about The Magnus Archives, which I think is under discussed, is that almost (if not) all Avatars turned to their Dread Power to avoid another Fear Entity.
John is marked by the Web and turns to the Eye to feel control, Jonah fears his End above all and turns to the Eye to learn the secrets of immortality, Mike Crew had his youth affected by the Spiral and welcomed the Vast as a reprieve to freedom, Jane feels Lonely and joins the Corruption's swarming hive, etc etc etc.
Every character is bound to (at least) two Fear Entities, I believe - one they reject, and one they embrace. One that hunts them, & one they seek. This is REALLY neglected by the fandom when the questions of "what Avatar would you be?" and "which Entity do you fear most?" are, mistakenly, conflated as the same thing.
(I don't remember if attention is ever explicitly drawn to this in Q&As or the show itself, but it's very key to understanding the greater picture of TMA, imo)
#tma spoilers#tma fears#tma entities#TMA#the magnus archives#text post#mine#rusty quill#jonny sims#elias bouchard#jonah magnus#mike crew#jane prentiss#dread powers#the eye#the end#the web#the corruption#the lonely#the vast#the spiral#jonathan sims
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man the thing about beauty standards and being ugly and being pretty and being insecure is that ultimately you do just kinda have to Decide that youre pretty. like ultimately thats how you become pretty, or hot, or sexy. you have to just Decide that you Are. you have to recognize that its made up, its arbitrary, its subjective, and that people might disagree with you about it, and as much as you are able, you need to completely and utterly disregard their opinions on your appearance, and decide that youre pretty now. and THEN.
you need to find beauty in "ugly". you need to recognize that ugly is made up, that its arbitrary, that its subjective, and you need to be able to find the beauty in it all. and this means you cant bodyshame people. you cant body shame shitty celebs or politicians. you need to base your criticisms on the substance of their character and misdeeds and unhinged horrific opinions and not give a shit about what they look like. you cant go calling people ugly for being shitty. you cant go calling people ugly for looking A Way You Dont Like.
and then if you wanna really galaxy brain this shit you start using ugly as endearment. OBVIOUSLY do not fucking call other human beings ugly. that shit is far too loaded, its just Rude. Dont call specific features of people or even characters ugly cos thats also too loaded. as a term it has baggage. but you can see the ugly in tacky, loud, garish clothing, and it can be Good. you can see the ugly in a distinctive, horrible tiny car from the 90s, and it can be good. you can see the ugly in animals that have evolved to look the way they do, without a single thought of what humans find appealing. you can see the beauty and the freedom in "Ugliness". you can break out of this shit altogether and feel nothing but disdain for anyone who stoops to insulting your appearance if they disagree with you about shit. you can get completely out of the cave of these beauty standards. you can find it so freeing to revel.in letting yourself be ugly. in recognizing that the way you look and exist might be ugly to some people, and youre out of the cave enough to simply recognize. thats just your opinion and it doesnt matter. didnt ask.
you can look at ppl arguing about the correct amount of skincare products to use daily, the Correct Amount of makeup, and whether or not its radical to conform to beauty standards or defy them and argue about is it really conforming if visible makeup pisses men off, and you can say, well I dont care about any of that, I recognize the societal pressures of flawless skin and all that but you see,
I just want to look like a silly little clown :o3
#toy txt post#i wasnt gonna end this on that silly note. but then i had to#ugly#pretty#beauty standards#not saying its easy. not saying you have to do this#but like if youre tired of feeling insecure about your face your fashion. you gotta just figure out what you like and lean in#and you gotra recognize this shit is made up and subjective and arbitrary and you shouldnt be doing it for anyone else ever#i used to be insecure about a few features of mine that i feared made me Ugly. and then i Decided to try to find it pretty.#it sounds so stupid and made up but like literally i just. Decided. im pretty now. this is pretty. this shit is made up. why am i listening#to you. you dont know shit. im pretty now. AND THEN i decided. actually. im ugly on purpose now but not in a way that has much to do with#my actual appearance so much as my complete disregard for your opinion on my appearance. you gotta do it for you. you gotta dress for#yourself#ANYWAY#before anyone comes in with how beauty standards are often externally enforced via peer and social pressure:#yea bud im a human being on planet earth. im aware. thats why i said: as much as you are able. i recognize i have a number of privileges in#this regard that not everyone does. the way im given more space and freedom to dress like a little freak as a thin white person etc#but like i still had and have societal pressure to shave my legs and underarms to conform. theres societal and peer pressure to wear makeup#and i just. dont. the legs thing is less noticeable tho ill admit cos i also Hate Shorts but thats a whole complicated can of worms#which also involves i am not exposing myself to ticks like that are u insane#anyway. yea. the other magical thing about this philosophy of mine is that you also just dont have to. like you can just Ignore Me.#you can keep doing what youre doing and thats fine too#but genuinely if you struggle with insecurity about appearance you gotta just. this is the fake it til u make it shit#i decided im pretty now and it got easier to take selfies bc i was pretty then#doing art and exploring different faces for ocs and making them look different from the conventional beauty standards. also helped#and like dont get me wrong theres still shit im vain about appearance wise that doesnt matter. i still like to style my hair before i leave#the house etc. im still looking in the cave sometimes#but perhaps one day i will be as blissfully uncaring about ppls perception of me as a fuckin goby#anyway. anyway anyway anyway#if you do this things get so much easier. but you dont have to. i have no power over you
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Gambit's illusion made by Madelyn Pryor
#Gambit#Rogue#Magneto#Remy Lebeau#X-Men '97#X-Men#Erik Lensherr#anna marie d'canto#gifset#gif#mine#kjnfbdhsfa#Savage Land reference#okaaaayyyyyyyy#pause#we all know Rogue and Magneto get trapped without powers in the savage land in a famous comic arc but ummmmm#if this is gambit's worst fear#has that happened in the original show??????????#i'm rewatching TAS actually#Charles and Magneto are currently in the savage lands rn#if they have gone off there together and Gambit knowsdsaknbhjfds#big if true
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Ma there's a weird fuckin stray cat outside
#i love it#i was conflicted and then i saw the mane like whips around#and i filled out my adoption papers#i love the thunder lizard idea tho with brontosaurus#also hi i live#we have floods and power outtages so i was hesitant to draw anything in fear of losing progress#lets pretend like power should be fine now!!#not so sure about the flooding oop#mine#my art#raging bolt#raikou#pokemon#pokemon sv#also dont ask me what im doing with the shading and highlights cause idk either xD#had fun#pokemon scarlet#pokemon violet#scarlet and violet
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VERNON | 'Snap Shoot' @ MCOUNTDOWN 19.09.19
#vernon#vernon chwe#choi hansol#seventeen#svt#svt gifs#seventeen gifs#*mine#my gif#tw flashing#cw flashing#flashing gif#guess who had a power cut + a fully charged laptop + this fancam downloaded + too much time to dedicate to silly buggers#if you guessed Me : 🌟 this is for you#also lmfao the snapshoot fancams are what literally started me losing my NUT over vernon's legs earlier. you should all know#hey it's not my fault he's the sexiest man alive ok. i'm gonna eat him whole <3#(side note that nobody asked for)#(i have a real fear of full-body fancams because i feel like i can never give them pretty colouring while also being sharp enough that)#(they don't totally look LIKE ASS.)#(but this went okay??? i think????? it's not???? perfect????? but i'm kinda in love with it anyway??????)#pretty boy <3#when they style him in oversized boyfriend hoodies i get extra fucking delusional
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power caused the black day
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It’s so hilarious President Snow, in order to avoid suspicion that he was the one poisoning his political opponents, would eat the same food and be like, “see I’m not dying, couldn’t be poison or me teehee 😊” but since he was, you know, ingesting poison, it’s impacting his health to the point he very obviously smells likes blood and death.
Capitol citizens: wow President, all your enemies keep dying from poison like symptoms… any thoughts on the matter?
Snow: probably poor constitutions, in the picture of health *coughs up blood*
#everytime Katniss was within two feet she was like what is that god awful smell#it just shows his power and fear because there’s no way people weren’t hella suspicious#coriolanus snow#thg series#the hunger games#president snow#thg#mine
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