#the pills were hell

[itzpris-art]

A year ago, I was told I would be a miracle Something theoretical, I guess...

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[littleseasalt]

do you guys ever think about richarlystone. like randomly. you're typing out your college research project and then randomly your mind flashes the memory of richarlystone and then you have to stop and be like. wow that was so. so fucked up. a grieving father on drugs sculpted the image of his son using rocks so he could live the happy paradise of the drugs. do you ever randomly remember forever crying while showing a picture of his and richas' special place to richarlystone and then singing the song that is a personal song to the actual cc having him previously cry trying to sing the song to tallulah and making him finish a stream earlier because of it. or is it just a me thing

[ace-with--a-mace]

houses head wilsons heart crushed me wtf doctors...

[woodsborostabathon]

pondering the kirsch siblings orb yet again and you really cannot convince me that quinn would not have been moving like depression era bella in new moon from the moment she even FOUND OUT richie was moving to modesto...

[uniteds]

You're taking it so closely to your heart whatever these random group of men are doing is not relevant even if they wore the jacket it's an empty gesture who cares it's the most corrupt sport nobody has a spine there. Protect your peace

no! it IS an empty gesture but the global right wing fascism creep is a very real problem and the reason the problem exists is that we keep dismissing conversations as pointless. you can’t say that something is the most corrupt sport (and has political sway) and then also say that the people involved in the most corrupt sport are a random group of men and their actions are irrelevant. how does that work?

[dredshirtroberts]

dry swallowing pills is my stupidest flex. i'm not even showing off anymore i'm just impatient

[cowboy-robooty]

gordon freeman draw him plz

i actually drew hlvrai SUPPPPERRR long ago like im talking 2 years ago long ago!! ai loveee hlvrai fr tho that shit is so fire so here u get benrey and gordon kissing bc i think all my gordon sketches got lost in da sauce since most of my hlvrai doodles were traditional

[kohakhearts]

not to be Hashtag serious about anything because that goes against my principles but this was the first year since i was 18 that i didn’t take antidepressants at all and the first time since i was 16 that i didn’t attend regular therapy (or at least Think i Needed to attend regular therapy) and yeah i wouldnt say i had a Good mental health year but. But. thats a big step for me actually and one i am very pleased with. go me

[leadmeastraylittlefairy]

ran all my errands got myself auntie anne’s pretzels as a reward but i feel too bad to eat them bc my cramps are so bad 🙃 glad im suffering on my extra day off

[writey-unicorn]

So I'm actually reading batman comics instead of just reading fanfiction and watching Panda Redd skits (yes, that is how I got into batman and associates and where most of my headcannons come from and yes, I know how massively I've screwed myself over by doing so) and...

I had only heard tales of the pill helmet.

It's so much worse than I thought it'd be.

[tenrose]

It's cool because I'm no longer really depressed. Not exactly, I think.

However, I still have this problem I've never been able to get rid of. I have the idea of doing a thing but then my brain goes blank and I don't do the thing. If it's a mandatory thing I will at some point do it but like with guilt, anxiety, stress and quickly and badly. But the worse part is for hobbies. I do have ideas, desire but still I don't do the things. It absolutely make zero fucking sense. It's like my brain is lacking a connection between the thought and the execution of it. It's draining all of my energy. I don't know what to do with it.

Honestly as much as I don't like working, it's kind of a good thing that I have a job, obviously for money, but also to have a somewhat healthy pattern. It's not that healthy because I go to bed later than I should be and so I'm always tired. What I mean is that I have to cook, shower etc. And I do this because of work. I know this because every weekend everything fall apart from Friday to Sunday 18:00 when the guilt finally kick in. Like, I do enjoy cooking but somehow it's easier for me to cook for work than the weekend when I barely eat anything and at weird hours. So yes I perfectly know that if I didn't have a job I would be a total mess. And that's why unlike some of my colleagues I can't quit and give myself two months of rest before actively applying for a new job, I know it won't happen (also obviously money and even though I saved some I suffer from what I call "ex poor syndrome" so even though I know I could technically survive a few months without a salary my anxiety will never ever allow me to quit without having something to bring me money at the end of the month). So yes the plan is to apply to stuff till I have a the certainty to have a new job, then quit and take all my vacation days and maybe a few extra days. Problem is the energy needed to search for a new job. Similarly I kinda think about trying once again to do something about my driving licence, because I know I will have more chances to find a job, I could go live more in a suburb less expensive area and also the reality of adulthood since my grandpa hit me that I will need to be able to drive to take care of my parents someday. But then again my brain don't want to hear anything about it. So obviously I'm like, well then let's chill and let's do something we like. Writing about the books I finally read, collages, gif making, writing, I don't know literally drawing ugly doodles in a notebook? But even for this my brain shut down. It's exhausting I really don't know what to do with it anymore.

My brain literally lack the "click" thing that activates the whole process.

[deus-ex-mona]

help nooooo i just realised that they butchered akechi’s character too

[artmustdraw]

THIS POST IS NOT MY ARTWORK

My boyfriend drew us for valintines and i !!! Theyre the kind of person who doesnt draw themselves much, or humans in general, so its always a treat to see us in their style!!

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Them: So this one moment Season 3 (of sam and max) when hee-

Me already knowing: Youve already told me this dork ❤️❤️❤️

AWUGH I COULD MELT!!! my heart melted seeing it the first time but yk when you love something soooo much the closer you look the more you fall in love?

My boyfriend is the world to me and everything they do makes me feel like that

The boyfriend: @r-0-tten-entity (sorry love gotta tag ya bc you deserve credit 💚❤️💚❤️💚❤️)

[down-with-capitalism]

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[soup-mother]

surely it's not just me who finds those fucking "be nice, I'm in charge of the pills" pins you sometimes see doctors and nurses wearing in pretty bad taste right? like the *point* is a stand against being mistreated by patients but like...yea you are in charge of the pills and can arbitrarily deny care to people, not really sure why that's something to gloat about? like the number of stories especially of black women being totally denied painkillers in hospital and stuff because the nurses were assholes it's like....maybe you can have your snarky pins when you're not in the position to medically torture someone? idk

like you get people rushing to defend it like "you don't know what it's like working in a hospital" but like...i do sure as hell know what it's like being mistreated by medical professionals. I'm not even getting paid to be here. it's kinda fucking evil when you think about it for more than a second.

[thembo-x]

i just saw who won global all stars