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Something I need people to understand, especially able-bodied people but I've gotten this from other disabled folk as well, is that yeah I could be doing more, but oftentimes I have to choose between doing what's required of me and what's good for me.
Yeah, I probably could get all of my schoolwork done no problem, but I'm so exhausted after just going to school that doing anything more than lying in bed for a few hours would cost me. Can I physically get up? Yeah, I do when my parents demand it of me, but it's not good for me.
I've tried doing more, I've tried pushing myself to do the things that I need to get done, it just doesn't work. I'll just be even more exhausted, I'll just be in more pain, and it's not fair.
Please stop reminding me of my "potential". Please stop telling me that I'm "not trying my hardest". I know that. Sometimes my hardest is hard on me.
#actually disabled#disability#chronic fatigue#chronic pain#disabilties#i am so tired y'all#i took a several hour nap#then had to go to the store#now I'm doing homework#the nap didn't help by the way#i still need to shower ugh#if one more person tells me i could be trying harder#i'm gonna lose my shit#I KNOW THAT#IT'S EXHAUSTING AS IT IS#FUCK OFF
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! Can I also have Ishida and Mitsuru in halloween costumes? Party or some such?
Day 15 - You know, just to sure đ
#My art#Requestober#Yanderapy#Thank you for requesting my boys again I feel rather spoiled hehe â„#It's funny I actually saw this one come in just before I took a nap and I was like ''Oh I /immediately/ have a mental image for that'' lol#And this was it! This was the mental image! I done did it I got it in one! :D#Even with a nap in the way it was just too strong of an image to leave my head like that haha âȘ#They are insatiably flirty with each other lol their roommates are probably so tired of them haha#''You saw each other like three hours ago can you please chill'' ''But look how cute he looks!''#''I didn't see him Specifically like this I have to say Something'' lol#Mitsu is obviously flustered seeing him looking so handsome but make no mistake - Ishi is flirting hard 'cause he's just as smitten lol#Mitsu showing off his curves like that (lol)#It's not actually a skin-tight outfit - he's got like a t-shirt and either shorts or light pants on underneath#But he did get help actually wrapping bandages around him so it is a bit on the form-fitting side haha#Ishida's was to try and play into the attractive vampire trope 'cause he figured Mitsuru would like it and he was right lol#Can't keep their eyes (or eye in Mitsu's case) off each other despite going out!#Mummies don't have blood but hmmm have you Really checked like Actually Really (lol)#It was fun to give them a go in greyscale as well :D It feels funny since I hadn't so far!#But I do a bunch of other things in greyscale so why not them âȘ It feels like a new medium in a way even tho it's still digital haha
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why the fuck do i miss pigeons
#don't ask me i am going thru it today#ebhehbbehbhebhabh#i miss pigeons dude#oooh the poor little domesticed cuties#kate rambles from here#this is a small detail of the feeling i am feeling#like post leaving nyc is wrecking havoc on my psyche#i don't want to be in the fucking great plains#a few irls don't understand my want for city life- and i didn't know it was this bad until staying there for 4 days-#but my mom's whole family is from the city- i just feel so at home there- and everything i've inherited that way is in my blood#and i just wanna bawl my eyes out#i have been quite a bit but like ik i have a goal now- to move into the city- i've always had that goal to at least move to the city near m#but like nyc was like being somewhere i felt i wanted- it's not that i'm looking to make it big- i miss the noise the water and pigeons#around here you'll hear the occasional car go by- and crickets- i miss the city lights- i keep crying about it for so many reasons but#i just don't know how to actually express it?#because it's such an odd feeling for me to feel? because if yknow me well- i love being at home- i hate sleeping somewhere else-#taking a trip down south this last christmas- i couldn't stand the quiet- it's quieter the more south you go and i can't do this#i've always wanted to leave my small town but ?? like actually being somewhere that has felt home has been unattainable bc every#where in oh hasn't been home... and for once i felt like i could do this- and having to return here- just made me break down and cry#maybe it's the person i live with- that makes me wish to leave- but that's not the full truth- idk maybe a good nap will help#kate rambles#i have a life goal now but i wish i could do it now- i hope sooner rather than later i'll at least live in the city#i've been happily living but now i have a direction i wish to run towards- and i'm gonna chase after it#sure i miss seeing tbz i loved seeing them- but it's not even post concert depression- if that makes sense?#which it doesn't make sense- because for mx it was only pcd- but for nyc it's missing the city... and it feels awful#pls ignore this i just needed to be frustrated somewhere#ig knowing what i'm missing- i can finally work on filling that spot huh? i guess that's what i'll be doing#(also vv small point but the fact that one of the people i live with- refuses to ever visit nyc again- is so comforting to me)#pls don't send me an ask about this i just needed to ramble and i haven't caught up on my daily journal yet to do so- so this is here
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i had a nap with my friend in his bed with their cat and i think it fixed something in me
#i've been socialising a bit more recently and trying to be more honest whilst i do it#when my friend is upset i'm like. would you like a hug#and he said yes. and i was like oh he wanted one they just didn't know how to ask#maybe there have been other times where people have been waiting for a comfort that i did not offer#because i assumed no one would ever want or need that from me#and unless someone directly asks for something i just. keep assuming that#but now i'm like maybe i need to be emotionally vulnerable sometimes even if it's just a little bit#i'm trying to build my way up to one day talking about my own feelings as well#but that's a nauseating thought so for now i'm just trying to start with other people's feelings first#it turns out all you have to do is say âi'm sorry. would it help if we go and have a nap and i play with your hairâ#and they can say yes or no. and it feels so weird to ask and be like âyes look i have feelingsâ but.#never underestimate the amount of pride i will choke down for the sake of making someone feel better
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ok this is a long fucking shot but does anyone out here know anything about. Allergies but rather than having itchy runny-nose symptoms you just feel systemically like shit. Like fatigue, nausea, vague headache, moderate-to-severe excercise intolerance, that sort of thing. But correlated to like, pollen exposure. Or just air quality in general?
The best ballpark diagnosis I have is asthma, but I've never actually had An Asthma Attack so I don't know if that's.... right. And even if it is, I can't really find good research or resources on managing systematic effects of asthma at this like... non-acute, non life-threatening severity.
Sometimes with weird medical shit like this, there's information that exists if only you can find the right keyword to search.... maybe somebody's got something?
Or even just, it'd be nice to hear if anyone elae deals with this and I'm not, like, completely insane*
*for this. other insanity unspecified.
#every day for the last week I've woken up and my immediate first thought has been#Ugh i wanna take a nap#Not even like âi didn't sleep enough I want to sleep longerâ#But like. I need a completely different kind of sleep. That makes me rested.#In a way that neither sleeping or any type of restful activity or non-activity I've tried has accomplished.#fatigue is stupid!! It sucks!!#And every time I have had a bit of energy I've immediately totally overdone it and fucked myself up#Because I'm BORED I'm TIRED of being too fucking tired to do anything!!#Finally just put together today that it might be the same goddamn allergies that always get me#At this time of year.#After going outside to walk around in the sun and look at plants (always good for my brain)#And getting lightheaded and short of breath#So that's super cool and completely unhelpful. I already take daily allergy meds#And they help! But only so much#I've tried an inhaler and corticosteroid spray but the side effects suck#So it's just. Untreatable unless it gets bad enough for the side effects to be worth it I guess?#I feel like I should be more grateful it's not more severe.#I know a lot of people have it worse.#But it's frustrating also to be stuck in a place where it's not bad enough to *do* anything about#Ugh sorry this is very long and self-involved#And i will possibly delete it in a minute#I just gotta yell into the void here
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HOWLS
#i forgot how insane i used to get last year when i consistently got 4 hours of sleep spring quarter because i'd stay up every night to avoid#people in the study hall and also go on nightwalks while i still lived away from family#but also wake up at 8 the next morning to go to lecture and never took naps because my roommates scared me#it's happening again. because I am getting really scared of people again.#and consuming lethal amounts of caffeine#(it didn't help by the way. my grades were still shit by the way.)#milk (delusional)#ok if i go to sleep now i can still get 6 hours which is high school levels of sleep which is fine
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i know you're supposed to sit down when u feel like you're about to faint (obviously) but all the times i've fainted i've never had like the presence of mind to think about taking any sort of action like that. like it always goes from "huh i feel kinda funny" to on the floor so fast lol. i've never been able to go "i'm about to faint i should probably lie down somewhere" it's just head ringing no thoughts bam now you're waking up on the ground and everyone's freaking out.
#the last time i fainted in the kitchen and my mom freaked the fuck out had to call everyone over to help even tho they can't do anything#and i was just lying there waiting for my head to clear up and my sister started trying to shove food in my mouth#pissed me off so much like i'm glad this is a funney joke to you like i didn't just fall on a hard tile floor from standing lmao#couldn't even say or do anything tho cause it's always disorienting#but it's also nice in a way like waking up from a very deep nap lol
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Vent in tags, feel free to keep scrolling.
#butchy babbles#vent#vent in tags#i only got three hours of sleep last night and that on top of my chronic fatigue has made today a fucking nightmare#caffeine didn't help and seeing as how i need sleep meds to fall asleep *at night* it's safe to assume napping was impossible#also i'm so used to just. being awake while suffering from fatigue that there's no way i could be able to nap#so okay i could just get an early night's rest right? and maybe in a way this'll be helpful in a fucked up way because i just ran out of my-#-sleep meds and need to be able to crash yea?#but my body does this weird thing where if i fall asleep before 10pm my body will think i'm taking a nap and only fall asleep for 3 hours.#and do i risk my body doing that again after i've already gotten a night of 3 hours?#then there's also the risk of me staying up past my bedtime if i don't fall asleep early because 1. i'm used to fatigue and-#- 2. i don't have my sleep meds#i'm just.#today has really. really sucked.#and i know i keep saying it but like. part of the reason this sucks so much is because fatigued days where i can barely get a meal in is-#-the NORM. and has been for years. but somehow it's even WORSE today. and i am just so. so tired of my body.#i want to be able to do stuff again. even things as simple as drink enough water or apply my deodorant#i miss not being chronically ill
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Toji Fushiguro
Summary: Megumi is insanely jealous of the new addition to the household.
Warnings: Fluff, Jealous!Megumi
*Didn't have anything bigger for Toji for father's day but I had to celebrate it one way or another sfjosjf. Enjoy my lovelies!
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âPapa, up!â Megumi yells, hoping to get his fatherâs attention when he sees Toji holding the new addition to the family. Megumi has reached the age where he claims to be independent, after all, four is such a big age. Heâd cry if you or Toji held him, but heâs changed his mind.
âYour baby sister is crying, give me a minute.â Toji sounds annoyed, knowing that Megumi does it out of jealousy. Jealous of a baby that canât even hold her own head, kids are so dumb. Megumi lets out a cry before yelling again,
âPapa, up!â He wants attention now. He doesnât want to wait until Toji is done with some stinky baby. Toji lets out an exasperated sigh as tears begin to stream down Megumiâs faceâ Crocodile tears, but tears nonetheless. He extends his arms and opens and closes his tiny fists repeatedly, yelling, âUp!â
âMegumi, you donât want to wake up mommy, do you?â Toji asks, trying his best to calm down the crying baby in his arms while also handling Megumi. Toji goes unheard as Megumi begins to cry his little heart out.Â
Toji takes a deep breath, trying to remain collected in this situation. Megumi is only four and getting adjusted to the presence of his little sister. Toji decides that itâs best to walk away, going to the kitchen to get the babyâs bottle and deal with her first since Megumiâs issue isnât easily resolved.Â
âPapa!â Megumi yells, following around Toji as he gets a bottle in the babyâs mouth.Â
âMegumi, wait for me in the living room.â Toji says, but Megumi isnât listening. Daddy isnât like mommy, whatever mommy says goes but when Toji speaks he goes ignored; Tojiâs is far scarier and intimidating than you are, he doesnât understand why Megumi doesnât take him seriously. âMegumi, go away!â
âIâm running away!â Megumi stomps his little feet before finally leaving Toji to deal with the baby. Toji breathes in relief, his pesky little bug finally giving him a moment alone. Heâs able to go to the living room and sit down comfortably as he finishes feeding his daughter.Â
âHeâll come around, princess. He hasnât witnessed just how cute you are.â Toji coos, as if the baby can understand or care. She finishes her bottle, and Toji burps her before setting her down in her crib. He usually chooses to hold her whenever he can, but right now he has bigger fish to fry.
Toji walks into Megumiâs room, watching how his son tries to fit his most valuable toys into a backpack. Toji is trying his best to not chuckle, knowing that Megumi is deeply hurt. Toji takes a seat on Megumiâs tiny bed, clearing his throat before asking, âNeed help packing?â
âYou hate me!â Megumi cries, and Toji rolls his eyes. Was he that dramatic when he was Megumiâs age? âMommy and you donât love me anymore.â
âOh câmon, why do you say that, urchin?â Toji tries to see the little guyâs point of view before attempting to comfort him. The last thing Toji needs is attempting to explain to you why Megumi is packing up all his toysâ You leave him alone with the kids for a two hour nap and Megumiâs already moving out.Â
âYou only care for the new baby.â Megumi angrily muffles, and Toji couldâve guessed as much.Â
âCâmere, baby. Let me carry you now.â Toji opens his arms for Megumi, and Megumi glares at his father. He wipes away his tears before deciding that he does want to be carried by his father, after all, the tantrum is simply because of this. Toji picks him up, setting him down on his lap before kissing his forehead. âIs this why youâve been so sensitive? Because of the new baby?â
âYeahâŠâ Megumi pouts, and it takes everything in Toji to not laugh.
âI will tell you something but donât tell mommy, okay?â Toji begins, almost whispering to Megumi. Megumiâs eyes perk up, and Toji is fighting back a smirk. âWe⊠Donât like the new baby that much. I mean, we just met her. But you, urchin? Youâre our favorite.â
âReally?â Megumiâs voice is full of hope, and Toji prays that this means Megumi will stop being so jealous about his baby sister. Toji doesnât hesitate before nodding. It reminds Megumi that he doesnât like being held anymore, which makes him get off Tojiâs lap.
âWill you behave around her, now?â Toji asks, and Megumi takes a moment to think about it.
âCan we sell her?â Megumi responds, which makes Tojiâs jaw drop. Did his cute little urchin seriously just say that?
âOkay, new rule: youâre not allowed near her room.â Toji stands up from the tiny bed, his knees cracking. He leans down and kisses the top of Megumiâs head, âNow unpack all of your toys before mommy wakes up.â
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rafe cameron x sleepy!reader
summary : you were just the sleepiest girl of the town. (kinda sweet smutty prompt / etablished relationship. soft! boyfriend!rafe.)
warnings : except smut, nothing much. bad sleeping shedule.
author's note : /.
â Iâm fucking tired.â you yawned as you entered the room. since the beginning of the evening, you had only been looking forward to getting back to the soft comfort of your bed.
you couldn't help but become sleepy, which meant letting your boyfriend take care of you because you were unable to stay awake. you never needed to be careful because rafe cameron always had his eyes on you. and as long as you were next to him, as long as he could feel you even if you were dead asleep and drooling over his chest, he allowed you to take a nap on his lap for hours. it was one of your few privileges.
something he didn't allow was people waking you up. if it he had to shut down every fucking noisy kook in a room to let you sleep, he would do it. it was his own version of let me burn the world for you but in a better way, more like let me quit this entire world for you.
you loved these moments of calm and peace when you slept wearing only one of his t-shirts acting like a dress around your naked body, and white high socks.
rafe was spooning you while you were already falling asleep, the reassuring and warm feeling of his cold fingers slipping under your t-shirt, his large hands covering the flesh of your waist , letting his strong arms gently slowly pulling you towards him. the shushing sound of his lips hovering your neck as you were dragged by his thick fingers. your barely covered body lazily comes closer, as soft breaths break the silence of your mouth, quickly followed by the sleepy whines of your tall boyfriend that holds his grip tighter in your hips, making sure you can't go anywhere, even if you were in a deep sleep.
you had a complicated relationship with your sleep schedule because you were sleeping both too much and not enough at the same. you could be fully awake at 5am but literally dead asleep at 12pm. for the simple reason that you were not sleeping at the right time, nor at the right hour, nor in the right place. you were one of those sleepiest girls who would disappear for hours not because you were going out on the town with friends or even stepping foot outside, but because you would sleep for hours on end.
you told rafe that you were just closing your eyes to take a nap but you ended up waking up in the evening.
when you woke up, you were completely lost and disorganized but above all so tired. it was almost ridiculous. your boyfriend was now used to your eyes half-closed, your hair completely messed up and across your exhausted face, drool on the corner of your lip with that oh-so-stupid expression.
he lay down on the bed, while you looked at him with wide opened eyes. at this point, you weren't even sure you recognized your own boyfriend. â rafe ? â
âstill asleep, babe? "
his voice was usually low, while he brushed away the trail of drool that was leaking from your mouth with his thumb. you nodded, and he smiled. â such a baby. â
you were a terrible temptation. he could have fucked you while you were sleeping. and maybe that was even what you wanted sometimes when you slept so scantily dressed, leaving your tiny thong in full view while you lay on your back, legs unconsciously spread.
âlet me help youâŠâ he whispered as he flipped you onto the bed, pushing your thighs apart to make himself a place. he had pulled down his boxers without removing them completely, before forcing your legs open with one hand. "fucking wet. i bet you dreamed about that dick inside you."
the smirk on his face was pretty charming and sick, and he pushed the fat tip of his cock against your soaked slit, before making morning slaps on your little glistening cunt. his length was so hard, hitting your sensitive bud. the plushy mushroom getting glossy from your weeping hole. he looked at you, holding his dick in a hand with your wetness dripping from the shaft, as you had a hard times focusing on his movements but he squeezed your cheeks on his hands, pulling your face closer to him. â get that mouth open, want to be able to spit on it whenever i want. â
it was also a pretty excuse for him to force you to keep your eyes open. when he first pushed in with a hard thrust that literally arched all your body, you screamed out of pleasure and pain. he didn't wait before starting working his dick faster in your swollen cunt. you always take him so good, and he can't help but pound you even deeper every time he hears your sleepily voice moaning softly, the whining getting louder and bigger as he stretches you open. you were too good, a forbidden pleasure for sure, your sloppy pussy fully soaked him.
little by little, you begin to be fully awake, eyes filled with shining tears. you were a mess that was crying and panting from the roughness of your boyfriend, crybaby whines begging for rafeâs attention. your mouth getting muffled by his, he shushed you through the kiss, heavy breath and drool falling between your lips. â s-s-slow down ! â you cried out.
he mocked you gently, answering with a wicked smile. â what about faster ? thought that's what you wanted ? âhe was still fucking you, but now a hand reached your throat, as the thickness of his length stuffed the inside of your walls, hitting all the spots. â r-rafe. â you exploded.
you were shaking, gasping for air and throbbing, eyes still locked in rafe's gaze while you lost your mind, thinking of how deep he was inside you. your cunt still twitching around his cock, making you unable to catch your breath and literally choking against the hand pressed on your throat. you were already tired, the inner of your thighs dripping with arousal and legs breaking with each thrusts. and those massive orgasms didn't help. his face was now sweaty from the heat and the sex, hot breaths escaping his lips and absolutely no sign of exhaustion. he could fuck you to death. and you wish you could reach this level but you were already too drained by the fast back and forth. â this is how i should wake up my sleepy girl every morning. don't you think ? â
he finally managed to cum, spilling thicks of loads inside you. your head failing in the bed as he slowly pulled his dick out, before pushing it into your mouth. the sight of your tongue licking every single drop of juice left him even horny, your pretty lips weeped with cum and wetness, that he smeared with the tip of his cock, before letting you clean everything.
â it was not a fuck, it was an attempted murder. â you told him.
â don't inspire me for round 2, you will regret it. â
â don't complain me about why i sleep this much when you fucking me like that. â
â i'm fucking tiredâŠâ you said, a little yawn leaving your mouth as rafe and you entering the room after a living pool party, were you literally rested on your boyfriendâs lap during all the event, falling asleep on his shoulder as he was still talking with his friends.
he was now used to since he dated you from a long moment. he was now able to take care of you every time you fell asleep. as always, there was no warning. you could be smiling, living the party, it doesn't mean you were not sleepy. He sometimes complained about how much you slept, but at the same time, how much you didn't get enough sleep.
â no shit. you were literally drooling over me. â he said sarcastically. â lift your arms. â he commanded, before helping you remove your dress.
he almost passed out when your breasts literally bounced out of your bra as your arms leaned down, his dick slightly growing and forming a bulge inside his pants. but damn, it was not the moments because he knows for sure that you will now fall asleep. AGAIN.
â do you think topper is mad at me for sleeping at his birthdayâs party ? â
â do i look like the type of boyfriend that i care about what another man is feeling about my girlfriend ? because, i'm not. â
â it was rudeâŠ. it's his birthday ! â
â babe, i could even fuck you right in front of him that he wouldn't even care or remarks. don't you see how he was just drooling like a dog because of my sister ? â
â maybe, i should callâŠâ
rafe had raised an eyebrow, his jaw twitching slightly as you pulled on one of his t-shirts. â since when do you have topperâs number ? â
âI mean with your phone. Why would I have his number. Anyways, i'm sorry for thisâŠit's pretty embarrassing. â
â What about looking me in the eyes if you at least want me to believe you about your apologies?â
â Don't fight me right now, i'm tired.â
â And actually, when you're not ? â he mocked, and you finally looked at him.
â When i'm sleeping, it's obvious. â
â You forget when i fuck youâ. It doesn't seems like you're very tired. â
after showering and brushing your teeths, you moved to your favorite place in the world â your bed. you loved the clean of the sheets. you covered yourself with the blanket, dropping only your head out.
when rafe appareaded, you couldn't help but stare at his perfect body. you followed his moves, lurking to the good and big shape of his biceps, the well-sculpted ridges of his abs, the visible v-line curved on his hips. â don't look at me like that. â he warned.
â then i will look at someone else. â
â funny. â he said, chuckling without smiling. â that you think i will let you do such a thing. but keep daydreaming. â
â no need to be jealous. there is no kooks better than you. â
â does it mean there are pogues better than me ? â
you sighed, shaking your head and crossing your arms.
â i don't even hang out with pogues ! don't take it in the wrong way. what about watching a good movie before sleeping ? â
â be serious. i know you well, you're gonna fall asleep before the movie even starts. â
â no ! i'm fully awake. â
â which movies do you want to watch ? and there is no way i'm gonna watch that fucking film with a black cat and a ladybug. â
â then what about five nights at Freddy's ? â
â sounds better. â he simply said, while typing on the dashboard.
your gaze leaned down on his ringed fingers, fast and thick. your slowly opened your lips, imagining how much they can stretch your mouth, leaving her with a pool of drool from how wet they're from your saliva. but also, how much they will manage to keep your mouth open without effort.
a sparkle shone in your eyes, and you wrapped your arm around rafe's one, making him look without really giving you full attention. â what you want ? â
â nothing. did you find the movie ? â
â you like horror movies ? â
â no, i like josh. â
â bet he died at the end of the movie. â
â rafe ! â
â yea, keep crying. â
he started the movie but you were very sleepy. again. you forced yourself to keep your eyes open but it was really hard. you blinked so many times to fight the urge of sleeping, but you're finally falling asleep.
rafe didn't stopped the movie because he was now too invested in it, but let your head rest against his naked chest, stroking your hair gently.
at the beginning of your relationship, it was so new for him to be this close to a person, to reach this type of intimacy but now he was craving for it, finding peace and comfort.
you were his sleepy girlfriend that was now sleeping over him, but will probably wake up in five hours when he will be dead asleep while, you will be looking for a nocturnal activity, trying to not wake him up.
sometimes, and a lot of times, you have sleepless nights that make you even more tired, and fall asleep early or late in the morning. you could feel though the sleep, rafe's arm loosening around your body as he manages to leave the bed to start the day while you just catching your night.
â good morning, rafe. â
â it's 7pm. â
â ... â
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Oh, I really, really like your recent blurb! Jason having a secret girlfriend/family is my favorite trope, but it is so hard to find!
Would you write about silly instances where Jason spots his family in public and tries to shuffle and guide you away without you noticing?
Ahh! I feel that validated in both my love of Jason and my love of the secret relationship trope! (This might not be exactly what you were looking for, but I hope you like it anyway!)
The first time it happened was a few weeks into your relationship, back When the two of you would meet for breakfast or brunch at the little cafe, a few blocks away from where you worked.
Jason Todd would always show up, yawning and exhausted from how tired he always was since he hadn't told you about his night job yet. But he was still on time, excited to see you even if he would go straight home and nap immediately afterwards.
The two of you would always spend more time talking getting to know one another than actually looking over the menu and ordering something to eat, but neither of you minded.
Then, one day, while he was looking away from you to hide the smile you had caused, he caught sight of Tim waiting in line to order a coffee.
Without really thinking about it, he grabbed both of your menus, propping them up and leaning over the table, trying to hide both your faces.
You frowned in confusion but leaned in too, until your faces were close together. "What are you doing?" You whispered.
"Nothing," he lied poorly, being his head over the top of a menu to see if his brother was still there and darting his head back down when Tim walked past the table. He let out a breath of relief, staring at you. "You look really pretty this close."
With an amused eye roll you leaned back in your chair, folding your arms and waiting for a better explanation. "You just wanted to talk really close for a moment?"
"Okay, fine," he sighed heavily. "I wanted to look at your freckles, alright? They're adorable. The ones on your nose are really cute."
It wasn't a lie, technically. He did love them. And you actually believed him, he thought. Or if you didn't, you didn't push the topic.
The next time you accidentally ran into somebody was at the mall, when you had dragged Jason along to help you look for a dress for a mystery date night he said nothing about, except for the fact that you had to wear something nice.
It was just his luck that you had picked the same store Stephanie happened to be shopping in as well. In most circumstances, she might not even notice him when they crossed paths in public, but in a woman's clothing store which was relatively empty, there was no way she wouldn't see him when she turned around.
Without warning, he tugged you away from rack you were looking at, pulling you into a cramped dressing room, locking it behind you.
"Wha-" You stared at him like he had lost his mind. "Why are we the dressing room?"
"How do women try stuff on when they can't turn around?" He countered, ignoring your question and planting his hand on the wall by your head to try to give himself more room in the tight space.
"It's typically not made for two people," you explained "Especially not 6'2 men."
He grinned a bit. "Do you like my height?" He asked, enjoying the proximity a bit more than he would admit.
Yes. Obviously. Who wouldn't? He towered over you. His arms could wrap around your entire body without even straining to cover more skin. Plus, he could reach the top shelf so you didn't have to climb on a chair.
But it was still too early in the relationship to tell him that.
"That's besides the point," you muttered. " Why are we in the dressing room?" You repeated.
"I just...always wanted to see a woman's dressing room," he told you, frowning at his own lie.
"Seriously?" You questioned. "You could have at least picked the big one at the end. And you didn't even let me pick anything to try on."
"Right, well..I figured we could try a different store," Jason explained, tucking a piece of hair behind your ear. "Nothing here would do you justice."
You huffed, finding it slightly amusing how foolish he was acting. But frankly, it wasn't terribly bad to be stuck in a tight space with him. So, you waited a moment longer before unlocking the stall.
You still had to find a dress.
Things were peaceful for a bit, you and Jason seemed to be growing stronger in your relationship and things began to get a little bit more serious. Jason seemed to be growing stronger in your relationship and things began to get a little bit more intense.
He knew that eventually he'd have to tell his family about you, but the next time he saw one of his brothers in public, he couldn't help but shy away from the task of introducing you.
In his defense, Damian really wasn't the first sibling you would want to meet.
He'd taken you to a nature preserve, because you said you used to go all the time as a kid but stopped after getting older.
You were practically giddy, feeding the animals from your palm, scrunching your nose when their whiskers ticked you. Jason was enjoying it too, more so because of you than the animals.
But while he was mocking you for your squeals, he heard a familiar voice having a one sided conversation with a lemur.
He turned and there was Damian, having his biweekly visit to see the animals that Father wouldn't let him bring home.
Jason cursed internally, pulling you away from the animals, accidentally spilling the feed from your hand.
"Hey, I stillwanted to see theâ"
"I'll bring you back, I promise," he said, cutting you off as he dragged you behind a tree.
You wiped off your hand on your jeans and tilted your head. "What is it?"
"I just think you've been giving the animals too much attention," Jason noted. "I feel left out."
"Oh, c'mon," you rolled your eyes.
"Really," he insisted. "You kissed a sloth and a goat but not me."
He pouted a bit and leaned back against the tree, still holding you arm, though loosening his grip before running his hand up and down your arm apologetically.
You sighed, glancing around briefly, not really taking notice of the small, angry child, yelling at some poor worker, before leaning up on your tip toes to kiss his lips very quickly. "Satisfied?"
He smiled softly. "No." He shook his head, pointing to the exit. "Can we leave?" He asked gently.
"Will you bring me back?"
Jason nodded immediately. "Whenever you want," he said.
You gave up and left with him.
Now, if you really thought about it, you could easily put two and two together, but really, the instances were so far apart that you didn't really question the strange behavior.
He had managed to be, for the most part, pretty subtle about pulling you away from his family whenever he encountered them, as few and far between as those moments were.
Like the time you were walking down the street while it was raining and he spotted Duke crossing the street towards your direction. Even though he knew you loved the rain and hated umbrellas, he still pulled his jacket off, covering your head.
"Jay, I told you, I'm fine," you assured him, trying to move it off of you.
"Yeah, but you'll catch a cold," he insisted, pulling even further over your head while blatantly stealing an umbrella from a small stand that was selling them.
He popped it open, covering his own face as you walked past Duke.
"I will not," you told him, finally tugging it off. You frowned, not feeling any rain on your skin. "Where the hell did the umbrella come from?"
"Uh- someone handed it to me," Jason muttered. "Nice man."
And even though he despised running into people he knew because it always put him on high alert, trying to figure out what to do or where to go to keep whoever they ran into from spotting them, sometimes, he actually rather enjoyed the chance to pull you away from the rest of the world.
For instance, when you insisted on going to a carnival, which he wasn't a big fan of at first, until you guys got there and he saw your eyes twinkling at all the lights.
Any thoughts of boredom were quickly drowned out by the sound of your screams on the scarier rides, when you'd reach for his hand. And he bought every single treat you so much as looked atâ the funnel cakes, the fresh lemonade, the Carmel corn.
He was watching you pull fresh cotton candy from the stick it was spun around when out of the corner of his eye he caught his brother Dick, along with Wally walking across the fair grounds.
Jason was sure they wouldn't notice you with how far away they were, but he refused to take the chance. So, he interlocked your hands, tugging you into a nearby photo booth as you made a sound of confusion.
"Just thought we should grab a souvenir," he said, beating you to the punch before you could ask what he was doing.
"I'm still eating my cotton candy," You told him. "I should fix my hair too."
Jason got a devilish glint in his eye and ran his hand through your hair jostling it further as you screeched in disbelief. "I think it looks good like that," he admitted, staring at you now that it had a bit more volume.
You blew a loose strand from your face. "I can't believe you did that," you stated. "It's all disheveled."
He nodded, still thinking it looked beautiful. Sort of like how it was when you woke up next to him.
"C'mon," he urged, pulling you into his lap. "I like you this way." He threw a few quarters in the slot and before you knew it you had a strip of three pictures, none of which were appropriate to show to anyone.
A picture of him stealing your cotton candy, a picture of him nuzzling your neck while you scrunched your nose in the way that made his heart clench, and a picture of him tasting said cotton candy on your tongue.
So, maybe it was an over reaction to pull you away from the rest of his carnival when it was huge and chances were Dick never would have even seen you. But God, did he enjoy it.
Then, there were, of course, the far less subtle times which didn't end quite as well.
Like when you just so happened to be walking out of a movie at the same time Cassandra and Barbara were heading into one.
"I think the sequel might actually be better than the original," you told him, arms interlinked as you walked.
"Uh huh," he wasn't paying attention anymore after seeing his sister and Babs at the soda machine, filling up their drinks.
He couldn't exactly pull you into a different theater, especially since he didn't know which one they would be going into.
The next best option? Throwing the empty popcorn bucket over your head.
"Jay?!" You exclaimed.
"It's a discount thing," he muttered vaguely, grimacing at his own excuse. "Wear the bucket out and you get a free movie."
Okay, not the next best, probably. Maybe like...sixth best? Seventh at most.
He pulled you past them, keeping his hand on the top of the bucket to keep it in place while raising his hoodie and keeping on the 3D glasses from the movie until you were past them both.
Once you were, he pulled it off and you were...well, fuming. Rightfully so.
"What the hell was that?" You asked, a bit bitterly, not buying his excuse for a second. "I'm covered in popcorn butter.
He cleared his throat, kissing your greasy cheek and licking his lips tasting a salty popcorn and butter on your skin. "Tastes good, though," he mumbled.
You stormed out on him.
And then, when you chose to walk all the way back to your apartment in frustration, both with his actions and lies, he finally came clean.
"I just... don't want my family to mess anything up between us," he confessed, barely even looking at you.
Vulnerability wasn't his strongest asset, but he was trying. For you.
You washed your face off in the sink for the third time and still felt greasy. Even if you got it all off your face, you'd need a shower to get it out of your hair.
"Why couldn't you just tell me that?" You asked, still confused. It wasn't like you didn't already know who his family was.
"I just- I didn't want you to think I was hiding you," he muttered.
"Jason, you put a bowl of popcorn over my head so your sister wouldn't see me. That's hiding," you stated firmly.
"Yes but it's not hiding out of embarrassment!" He clarified. "My family can be a lot to handle and they might scare you off and they'd definitely mock me endlessly for being in love with you."
His eyes went wide. That...was an accident. He didn't mean to confess that.
You stared at him for a moment, blinking. "Did you just say what I think you did?"
"I uh- well that wasn't..." He cleared his throat. "Yeah," he finally agreed with a slight nod. "But you don't have to say it back or anything, I know I'm not the easiest person to love and itâ"
You were already kissing him, wrapping your arms around his neck and pulling him closer. He was caught off guard, but it didn't take him long before he kissed you back, his hands finding your waist and steadying you both.
"You're stupidly easy to love," you told him, resting your forehead on his.
(+Bonus)
It was a quiet Friday night when the two of you were at a nice restaurant, celebrating a year of being together. The food was good, the music was soft and nice, and Jason was practically a drooling mess over you, like usual.
So much so, he didn't even notice when his father walked into the restaurant with a date of his own.
You did, though. And in keeping with the spirit of what had apparently been a pretty large part of your relationship, even without you knowing it, you slid out of the booth quickly grabbing his hand and pulling him from his chair.
"Hey, wait a second!" He exclaimed as you rushed him out of the restaurant before he got to finish his dessert. "We still have to pay."
"We'll come back tomorrow and pay," you assured him, pushing open the door, into the cold evening.
"What the hell was that about?" Jason asked once you were outside and seemingly slowed down.
You pointed towards the window. "Your dad," you muttered.
He could see Bruce sitting at a table across from Selina, his eyes scanning a menu while occasionally looking up, probably to compliment her or something.
He huffed. "Add that restaurant to the list of places we can't go," he mumbled, shrugging off his jacket and handing it to you. "It got cold outside," he simply said when you frowned in confusion.
You pulled on the nice jacket that matched his suit. "Thanks," you said, wrapping your arm around his, tugging him away from the restaurant. "C'mon, I'll buy some more dessert."
He hummed, and pressed a kiss against your head. "Alright," he agreed, letting you lead him away from the restaurant and down the street.
#x reader#headcanon#jason todd#jason todd imagine#jason todd x reader#batboys#jason todd x you#dc comics#plethorawrites
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the art & science of parenting 101 â p. js
âł summary ââ the art & science of parenting 101 (PSY1009): in this interactive course, students will explore the psychological, social, and biological foundations of parenthood. through a mix of theory and hands-on practice, you'll master the art of raising a simulated babyâaka the 'robot child'. late-night feedings, tantrum taming, and crisis control are all part of the deal.  what you didn't expect to be part of the deal? getting paired with jay parkâthe last person you'd trust to raise, well, anything. youâre pretty sure he couldnât even take care of a pet rock. now, youâre stuck co-parenting this robot baby together for 40% of your final grade. warning: sleep deprivation is guaranteed. and maybe, just maybe, some unexpected feelings for your disaster of a partner. good luck!Â
âł pairing ââ jay park x y/n [ft. enha members!]
âł genre ââ e2l!au, college!au, (fake)parenting!au, he-fell-first, she-fell-harder type beat lolz || fluff, crack
âł âá°. 20.5k [ONCE AGAIN -- this was not intentional..if you know me i just have too much fun writing sometimes & get too attached to the characters...]
âł contains ââ mentions of parenting & parental neglect (sorta, only a smidge of like five words), crack! bc if you know me i self indulge in crack whoops, jay & y/n being opposites & school rivals, jay's annoying smirk like a million times, reader & jay are psych majors, jay's also a photographer, cheesy ass kisses, jay & reader are awkward! so awkward! thereâs SO much tension . but in a cute awkward crush way
âł addie's â .á ââ omg itâs finally done. tell me why it took me so long to finish, i promise i didnât mean to but lifeâs been busier lately :â) aNyways! ugh i luv writing e2l!jay for some reason,,,he fits the trope so well in my eyes heh but i hope you all like him & the characters as much as i enjoyed writing them !!! as busy as i am i love indulging in my crack x enha writes :P hope u enjoy & tell me what you think <333
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Welcome to PSY1009, The Art & Science of Parenting 101! Throughout the next 12 weeks, weâre going to dive deep into the wondrous world of parentingâdirty diapers and all. To kick off our course, weâre starting with our campus-famous project: raising your very own robot baby for the first half of the semester (with the help of your assigned partner, of course). Before our first class, we ask that you complete this pre-project questionnaire on your current views and opinions about parenting. No pressureâthere are no right or wrong answers (maybe only judgements from your future robot offspring)!
Q1 â The Art & Science of Parenting 101 aims to apply different psychological approaches to parenting. What theories and methods do you believe are important to parenting?Â
Y/N's Submission [8:25AM, September 18th]:
"I strongly believe that effective parenting revolves around a strict routine, which can be reinforced through the principles of operant conditioning, as developed by B.F. Skinner. Proper feeding schedules, consistent nap times, and regular development check-ins are essentialâI think a structured timetable would ensure a baby's needs are met efficiently and consistently. With a set schedule and a focus on developmental milestones, I believe we can maximize a child's growth potential, even if it's just a robot baby.â
Q2 â What do you expect to learn and gain out of this co-parenting experience? Â
Y/N's Submission [8:29AM, September 18th]: Â
"I expect to confirm that a well-organized system is the key to successful parenting. I want to test my hypothesis that if you follow a set structure, yes, even with a robot baby, things will run smoothly. I am hoping that this experience runs smoothly with no unnecessary surprises.âÂ
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Satisfied with your answers, you click 'submit' and close your laptop, feeling a wave of satisfaction as you settle into your seatâcenter of the second rowâas you wait for the 9AM lecture to start. Â
It's 8:30AM. Â
You're the only one in the room. Â
Yeah, you're a little early. So what? One can never be too prepared. You've waited for this course forever, and you're determined to not only ace it (like you do with every class) but to dominate. So yes, coming early is characteristic of you, as you want to ensure you get the best seat in the classroom: center of the second rowâcenter to get the best view of the professor's podium, and second row to be close enough to show you're engaged, but not close enough that it screams, Look at me, I'm a tryhard! Â
It's clear you've come prepared. Plus, this class isn't just any ordinary electiveâit's the elective to take. Only the top students majoring in psychology get in, available only through direct invite by the professor. If you were invited to PSY1009, it meant you were the crĂšme de la crĂšme of psychology students. The best of the best. The elite. TheâÂ
Your train of thought is derailed when an all-too-familiar figure strolls into the room with that signature smirk. Backpack slung lazily over one (1) shoulder (as if two straps are too much effort), hair clearly still bedhead status, wearing whatever clothes he fished off The Chair (you know, the oneâwhere all questionable, semi-clean laundry lives).Â
He strolls past youâof courseâand plops down right in front of you.
Front row. Â
Try-hard.Â
"Y/N, fancy seeing you here," Jay Park spins around, a knowing look plastered on his face, eyes gleaming. "I missed seeing that frown of yours all summer."Â
"What are you doing here, Jay?" You roll your eyes and scoff at his comment. "Don't tell me you got into this class. It's for serious students."Â Â
Jay's grin only widens to your despair. "Contrary to your deeply misinformed opinion, Professor Kim actually loves me. I'm a great student."Â Â
âI donât believe it,â you deadpan back. âYou never turn your assignments in on time, and quite frankly, I'm surprised you were even able to find this classroom."Â Â
Jay shrugs, unfazed. "What can I say? Professor Kim doesn't just look at deadlines, she looks at talent. Guess that says a lot about me, huh?"Â Â
You mumble something under your breath about âtalent for procrastinationâ but before he can fire back, Professor Kim walks into the room, cuing the silence of all the students who've filled up the class. Â
"Good morning, class! I'm so happy to see so many familiar faces."Â Â
Jay turns his head back towards the front of the room, as you instantly straighten up, flashing your favorite professor a smile. This is officially the fifth course you've taken with Professor Kim. It's no secret youâre one of her biggest fansâthe countless early mornings you've spent waiting at your computer, finger hovering over the âenrollâ button the second registration opens so you can be one of the first students to sign up for her classes have proven that. Challenging but rewarding, her classes are always worth the effort.
And yet, for reasons beyond your comprehension, Jay ParkâJay Freaking Parkâsomehow always ends up in the same classes. Every. Single. Time. Itâs like a curse. Â
A loud, messy, procrastinating curseâŠ
âŠthat just so happens to have a side profile almost as annoyingly good that it only pisses you off more.Â
You wonder if heâs actually here to learn or if heâs just here to spite you. Because, honestly, the amount of classes youâve shared with him is no longer a coincidence. Five semesters in a row? Suspicious.Â
But realistically, and unfortunately, Jay does study the same major as you, which means those last five semesters? Oh, those were five long semesters of endless debates on discussion boards, in-class duels over psychological theories, and the infamous showdown for the TA position in Professor Kim's Intro to Psychology course. And the worst part? Neither of you got the job because Professor Kimâin a diplomatic twist that made zero sense to youâdeemed you both 'equally qualified.' So, the job went to the third best candidate instead. Tough luck. Â
You open up your laptop again, opening a perfectly organized Google Doc, ready to take notes on whatever pearls of wisdom Professor Kim is currently bestowing about your upcoming projectâwhich, in hindsight, you should really be paying attention to. You should be. But something so ridiculous, so blood-boiling, pulls your attention elsewhere. Â
Jay's desk is completely...empty.Â
No laptop. No notebook. Not even a measly little pencil. Did he bring an empty backpack? Or did he just walk in here like he's casually waiting for someone to present him his grade on a silver platter? He's just sitting there like this is a casual hangoutâprobably expecting his robot baby to parent itself while he simply supervises. Â
Before your self-induced inner monologue spirals into complete rage, you suddenly hear your professor's voice cut through the class, breaking you out of your mental rant. Â
"Y/N and Jay."Â
Wait. What?
Your head snaps up so fast it's a miracle it didn't pop off your neck and roll away.
You blink. You must have misheard.
"Y/N and Jay," Professor Kim repeats as if she could read your confused expression, voice too nonchalant for the life-wrecking news she's about to deliver: "You two are partners."Â Â
The words hit you like a bus. No, not even. The words hit you like a bus driven by a T-Rex that flips over, crashes into a building, and explodes into a million ashy pieces. And there you areâstanding right in the middle of the wreckage, somehow (and unfortunately) still alive to suffer through every second of itâwhile Jay, smug as ever, whips around in his seat to face you. Â
And of course, there it is: that look of his that screams 'This is going to be so much fun for me, and so much pain for you.'Â
"Guess we're parents now, Y/N!" Jay chimes, his voice dripping with so much sarcastic enthusiasm you swear he just got handed an Oscar for Most Annoying Human. If that tone were a substance, you'd bottle it up and use it as insect repellent. On him. Repeatedly. Â
You blink at him, you're sureâyou're prayingâthis has to be some elaborate prank. Maybe Jay bribed Professor Kim with his rare attempt at turning in an assignment on time just to mess with you. Or maybe the universe just hates you and this is your karma for stealing your roommate's last ramen packet that one time a year ago. Â
But no, Professor Kim keeps rattling off other pairs like it's business as usual, as if your entire academic career and sanity isn't currently being flushed down a metaphorical toilet, while you sit there, paralyzed, your brain rapidly melting into a useless puddle from the sheer thought of being paired with him. Â
"What's wrong, Y/N?" Jay teases as he leans over the back of his chair towards you, puppy dog eyes on display. "You don't want to play house with me?"Â Â
You narrow your eyes at him, mentally wielding your imaginary bug spray like it's a holy weapon.Â
"I donât," you reply flatly. "In fact, Iâd rather perform open-heart surgery on myself with a plastic spoon than co-parent with you."Â
Jayâs eyes light up as his hand goes to his heart. "Aw, you really know how to make a guy feel special. This is why I like our little relationship, you know?"Â
"Relationship?" You scoff loud enough to make the people sitting three rows behind you to glance in your direction.
You bring your voice down to a whisper, leaning towards him. "The only thing we have in common is a shared oxygen supply."Â
"See, thatâs the spirit," he says, turning back to face the front like he didn't just ruin your life.
And somehow, that pisses you off even more. Is it his voice? His stupidly perfect hair? The fact that he has the audacity to breathe in your general direction? At this point, he could literally sneeze, and it would still feel like a personal attack.
Is it too late to switch majors? Or schools? Maybe even countries? Surely, restarting your entire college career as a super senior would be better than spending the next six weeks parenting with Jay. Jay Park, who has probably never held anything more fragile than a Red Solo Cup. Â
Jay Park, who is just sitting there, all calm and collected, clearly loving every second of your misery. Â
While you're frozen in pure, unadulterated horror. Â
Your grade? Plummeting as we speak. Your robot baby? Probably going to need therapy by day two. And you? Â
You're screwed.
Q1 â The Art & Science of Parenting 101 aims to apply different psychological approaches to parenting. What are your current theories and methods that you believe are important to parenting?Â
Jayâs Submission [10:09AM, September 18th]:Â
"I think babies need more freedom to explore and make their own choices, even if that just means grabbing random things. Bowlby's attachment theory leans towards a secure attachment, but I don't think that means hovering over them 24/7. It's about being there when they really need you, not scheduling every second of the day. I also believe letting babies learn through their own experiences is key. Strict behaviorism, such as Skinner's, sounds exhausting and I don't think a rigid system is what makes a good parent. Babies are messy, and that's okay."Â
Q2 â What do you expect to learn and gain from this experience?Â
Jay's Submission [10:12AM, September 18th]: Â
"I'm hoping to learn how to be a responsive, yet flexible parent without overcomplicating it. The goal is to find balance between being hands-on without hovering. And, I think this whole robot baby thing will teach me how to handle unpredictable situationsâbecause no matter how much you plan, life is going to surprise you. And also, being able to say I know how to change a diaper under 30 seconds sounds pretty cool :)"Â
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Jay's screwed. Â
Like, completely, utterly, hopelessly screwed.Â
He was already kinda skeptical heâd make it past his 40s if he kept living the way he does, but now? Now, heâs not even sure heâll survive the next 24 hours. Why? Well, todayâs the first official meeting with youâas co-parentsâat the campus coffee shop at 12PM sharp.Â
It's 12:17PM. Â
He's late. Â
Seventeen whole minutes late. To your meeting. And you're basically the human embodiment of an atomic clock. Youâre probably sitting there, checking your watch every few seconds, calculating his absence down to the millisecond. Jay can practically feel the murderous vibes youâre radiating from halfway across campus. Â
And while Jay sometimes finds your need for punctuality weirdly endearing (but don't tell anyone that), he also values not getting scolded on a Saturday morning (12PM is still morning to him, don't judge), especially when he could be sleeping in.  Â
As the cafĂ© comes into view, Jay considers just throwing the towel in. Maybe he could fake a sudden illness, or better yet, skip town and maybe fake his own death or something.Â
There's no point. Knowing you, you'd probably hunt him down for sport. Â
With a sigh, Jay pushes open the door to the cafĂ©, bracing himself for impact. Â
And there you are. Exactly how he imagined. Â
Seated at a small table by the window, papers perfectly aligned, laptop open, and two different colored highlighters placed meticulously side by side. Your foot taps in perfect sync with the café's background music, your eyebrows knitted together in focus, and your teeth chewing your bottom lip as if you're about to crack the Krabby Patty secret formula. The window next to you allows the afternoon sunlight to spill through and reflect off of you, making you look...dare he say it...almost pretty.
If Jay wasn't fearing for his life, he might have actually stopped to admire the view. Might have. Â
When Jay finally reaches your tableâ17 minutes and 46 seconds late (but who's counting)âyou look up, meeting his gaze with a look that's somewhere between not surprised but definitely not impressed.Â
"Well, well," you say, quirking your mouth up ever so slightly that Jay thinks he might see you smile for the first time in, like, ever. "Look who finally decided to join us! Must be nice living on Jay Standard Time." Â
Jay flashes his usual, unbothered smile as he pulls out the chair across from you.
"Oh, c'mon, Y/N. Seventeen minutes is nothing in the grand scheme of life."Â Â
"Yeah? Tell that to our future robot baby when you're seventeen minutes late to feed it and its batteries die."Â Â
"Yikes. That got dark quick," Jay's mutters, grin wavering. "But hey, glad to see you're finally accepting the fact that it's our future baby!"Â Â
"Future robot baby," you peer your eyes at him from above your laptop. "Anyways, did you read the guidelines?"Â Â
Jay rubs the back of his neck as he leans back into his chair. "Uh, define 'read'."Â Â
Without missing a beat, you slap a packet of papers down on the table.
"Here's the breakdown. Feeding schedules, emotional development tracker, diaper changes, mood swingsâthe whole shebang. We're going to have to approach this strategically."Â Â
"Woah, okay," Jay's eyebrows shoot up, his brain trying to catch up with the words you just spewed at him. "First, how the heck is a robot going to develop emotionallyâthat's a little scary if you ask me. Like, dystopian, Black Mirror, scary. And second, since when is parenting just following a spreadsheet? Isn't part of it, you know, winging it?"Â Â
At the words 'winging it', your eye twitches so violently, Jay half-expects you to reach across the table and strangle him with his own hoodie strings.Â
"Winging it?" You shut your laptop and lean forward. "Winging it is exactly how we end up with a malfunctioning robot baby that starts a fire and fails us. Parenting is all about structure, consistencyâ"Â Â
"âand having a little fun," Jay cuts in, mouth quirked with mischief. "I mean, what's parenting without some chaos?"Â Â
"Chaos," you mutter, narrowing your eyes at him, "is what you bring into my life on a daily basis."Â Â
"Yeah, and yet you secretly love it," Jay shoots back, leaning in to meet you, as if daring you to disagree. Â
You stare at him, unblinking. It's either you're plotting his slow and painful demise or seriously considering what he just said. No in-between. Â
And yet, somehow, Jay almost finds it endearing how you can look like the world's most innocent golden retriever while also simultaneously sending him six feet under with just one agonizing glare. Almost. Â
Finally, you sigh, "This isn't a joke, Jay. This is 40% of our grade."Â Â
"And I'm 100% ready!" Jay shoots back with a wink, to which you respond with a full-body eye roll. Â
"Oh yeah? Alright, Mr. Ready-for-Anything, what's your brilliant plan?"
"Hmm," Jay leans back in his seat, folding his arms behind his head as if he's got it all figured out (he doesn't). "Well, for one, I was thinking maybe...shifts. We split responsibilities based on our schedules. I'll take the baby on certain hours, you take it other hours, and we'll spend our free days together. And if we're not together and there's a baby crisis, we stay on call."Â
In complete honesty, that came from out of nowhere. Jay didn't even know any ideas were subconsciously cooking up within him until the words tumbled out of his mouth before he realized it. But there's no way he was going to tell you that, not when you don't immediately tear his idea to shreds. In fact, you actually look...impressed?Â
Or so he thinks. Jay definitely needs to get better at this whole 'reading your expressions' thing. Â
"Huh," you murmur to yourself, fingers tapping against the table. "That's...not the worst idea you've ever had."Â Â
Jay feels elated. Validation? From you? Phew, this means his life is spared. Thank god. Â
Jay flashes you a satisfied smile and while you don't return it, he hopes you're secretly softening. Just a little. Behind that straight face, you're probably low-key impressed, but no way are you letting him see that. Â
"Don't get too excited," you say, as if you've got some sixth sense for whenever Jay throws a mental victory parade. "This is only day one. Of, like, 42. We've got a long way to go."Â Â
"Okay, okay," Jay raises his hands in surrender, though there's no hiding the smirk on his face as he still mentally takes the win. "Message received. Let's just figure out our schedules?"Â Â
You nod, pushing your laptop aside to make space for a sheet of paper you've already preparedâbecause of course you're prepared. It's like you're about to whip up some elaborate high-stakes legal contract that probably involves blood signatures.
"Okay," you say, clicking your pen, picking a bright blue that basically stabs Jay's eyes by simply existing, but whatever makes you happy, I guess.
You write 'Jay's Schedule' at the top, neatly highlighting it with a pink highlighter that somehow hurts even more. Jay wonders if this is a secret ploy to blind him into submission. He wouldn't put it past you. Â
"What's your typical weekly schedule like?"Â Â
Jay squints, clearly thinking hard, as he tries to remember what a 'typical' week looks like for him. Mostly it's a mix of spontaneous decisions, power naps, and gym sessions sprinkled between classes. Â
"Uh...well," Jay rubs the back of his neck. "I usually sleep in until like 11...sometimes noon, depends on the vibe, you know? Classes after that, gym a couple times a week, maybe? And, um, naps are non-negotiable. Make sure you pencil those in too."Â Â
Your pen freezes mid-air, hovering like you're considering whether to throw it at his face or not. Â
"Naps? Non-negotiable? For someone who wakes up at 11AM? We're raising a child, Jay, this requires commitment!"Â Â
Jay raises a calm eyebrow. "Hey, sleep is very important for brain function! You wouldn't want me underperforming as a parent, right?"Â Â
Your eye twitches. "No, Jay. That's already my biggest fear."Â Â
But instead of escalating the snark, you bite your lip, clearly restraining yourself from unleashing a full lecture on time management. Jay struggles to stifle his own laugh at your reaction. If looks could kill, you'd have him buried under six feet of color-coded charts and to-do lists by now. Â
Finally, you sigh, accepting your fate and jotting down âJayâs naps: apparently crucial for survivalâ in your notes with a frown drawn next to it, while Jay gives you an approving nod from across the table.Â
"Alright, my turn," you flip the page over with dramatic flair, carefully writing 'Y/N's Schedule' in the same stab-your-eyes-blue and pink highlight combo as Jay mentally braces himself for what's to come. Â
"So," you continue, starting with that no-nonsense tone that's clearly meant to be seriousâbut to Jay, there's something almost charming about how strict you are. "I wake up at 6."Â Â
Jay's brain immediately short-circuits. Forget charming.
Youâre downright crazy.Â
"6? As in AM? On purpose?"Â Â
You blink back at him, as if he's the one saying something ridiculous.
"Yes, Jay. On purpose."Â Â
His mind reels, purely amazed, yet utterly horrified at the thought. 6AM? Who does that? He's seen 6AM before, sure, but only when he's stayed up all night, probably cramming for an exam. His mornings start at 10AM at best, and that's very, very rarely. There are birds chirping at 6AM. Who wants to live in a world where birds chirp you awake? Â
When he doesn't respondâstill in pure shockâyou keep going, undeterred by his obvious existential crisis.
"I usually have class at 8AM until 1PM, then I try to pick up a shift here," you gesture around the very cafĂ© you two are in, "and thenâ" Â
"Wait, wait," Jay holds up a hand, needing a mental pause button. "You work here?"Â Â
"Yeah," you nod, like it's the most casual thing ever. "Why, is that surprising?"Â Â
Jay squints at you. He's never considered the idea of you pulling espresso shots and dealing with caffeine-deprived college studentsâhe's always pegged you more as a 'quiet math tutor for third-graders' type. Or maybe someone who sells cute stationery at the campus bookstore, organizing pens in rainbow order or something. But now that he's picturing it, yeah, it kind of makes sense. Maybe that's why you're so uptight all the timeâtoo much exposure to coffee fumes. Or, more likely (and evidently), you're just an insanely busy person. Â
He likes the coffee fumes theory better. Â
"I guess not," he admits, then surprises even himself by adding, "that's kind of impressive, though."Â Â
He gives you a genuine smile, and you blink back, as if searching for the hidden jab that's usually lurking beneath his words. But it's not there this time...oddly. Slowly, your expression softens, and you give him the tiniest of smiles.
"Thanks? It's alright, I guess."Â Â
It's nothing bigâno, not at allâbut Jay feels a weird sense of accomplishment at your reaction. Better than nothing.Â
He leans in over the table, all faux-innocenceâeyebrows raises, large puppy eyes and all.
"Does this mean you can get me a free coffee?"Â Â
You lean in too, mirroring him, and he's not sure why his heart skips a beat at the close proximity.Â
"Yeah...no. Nice try."Â Â
Jay groans, throwing himself back in his chair dramatically. Worth a shot. Â
"Anyway," you continue, totally unfazed, "I usually work here until 5, then Mondays I have a study group for Econ 301, and club meetings scattered throughout the week."Â Â
Jay's head spins for maybe the nth time since he's sat down. Honestly, you lost him way back at 'class until 1PM.' Your schedule is like some kind of twisted Sudoku puzzle, except much more intimidating. Â
"So...you're, like, busy...all the time?" he asks, the words tumbling out of his mouth as his brain tries to process how anyone can function like this. Â
You give him a look that almost convinces Jay himself that he's the crazy one here.
"Yes, Jay. I am."Â Â
"Wow, okay. So why did you even take this class? What happened to being committed? You don't even have time to breathe."Â Â
You narrow your eyes, and he swears you're about to launch into some motivational TedTalk.
"It's called efficiency, Jay. Also, I like to challenge myself. That's what parenthood is about, after all."
Jay stares at you like you've just self-declared yourself a cyborg.
"Oookayyy," he drawls, dragging out the word because, honestly, he's 99% sure you've completely lost it. The remaining 1%? Â
It's slightly impressed by your sheer, terrifying level of commitment. He's over here winging life, including this conversation, while you've practically mapped out the rest of your entire existence.Â
"Do you even, like, sleep? Or is that optional for you?"Â Â
"Sleep is for the weak," you shoot him an amused glance, half-joking, half-serious.
Jay raises an eyebrow. "Good to know I'm weak, then."Â Â
You stifle a laugh, but Jay catches the brief twitch of your lips before you quickly compose yourself. Heâs known you for so long, and yet, this might be the first time heâs seen even a hint of your guard slipping. Itâs subtle, barely there, but he notices. And for some reason, it makes him smile. Youâre always so put together, so seriousâbut this small crack in your armor? Jay canât help but appreciate it. Â
Maybe, just maybe, he could get you to soften up more if he tried hard enough.
And yeah, heâs definitely going to try.Â
But before he can try to tease you more, you snap back into business mode, instantly scribbling down more notes.
"Alright, so letâs just split the baby's care based on my work schedule and your...nap schedule, apparently."Â Â
Jay leans back in his chair, catching that flicker of amusement in your voiceâdespite the serious look on your faceâand he fights the urge to push a little more. There's something about that side of youânot the one behind the cold wall you've built of color-coded schedules and deadlinesâthat he wants to see more of. Somehow. Â
"Works for me,â he shrugs and grins at you, âbut if the baby's anything like me, it'll nap a lot. You might have it easy."
"And if itâs anything like me,â you mutter, barely pausing, âthen itâll easily get annoyed by you.â
Jay catches the ghost of a smile on your face, barely noticeable unless you were looking for itâwhich he definitely is. Itâs enough to keep him intrigued. He leans forward, resting his chin in his hand like heâs watching some fascinating show.Â
You donât notice him staringâor maybe you do, but youâre too busy pretending you donât. Either way, thereâs a small, almost imperceptible shift in your body language that Jay senses. Your shoulders arenât as tense, and you donât look like youâre mentally calculating how many minutes you have left before you can escape this meeting.
Jay decides to take advantage of the moment. âSoâŠdo you think our robot baby is also going to be a superhuman genius? Like in a you way?âÂ
You finally let out a laugh, to his surprise, and he feels so satisfied he has to bite his lip to hold back a smile. âDefinitely, but also part crazy. Like in a you way.âÂ
Jay chuckles, mentally declaring this conversation a victory. Your laugh fades but for a split second, he catches you studying his face like youâre trying to figure out what his deal is. And he doesnât mind it at allâbecause, for once, youâre not giving him the usual death glare that sometimes seems permanently reserved for him.
Then, just as he starts to settle into this very rare, almost⊠pleasant vibe between you two, you suddenly snap back to reality, capping your pen and standing up.Â
Jay frowns as he watches as you turn towards the coffee bar, not ready for this conversation to end just yet. Â
"Wait, where are you going?" he blurts out, sounding more tragic than intended.Â
You pause, turning back with a look that sends his pulse tripping.
"Do you want a free coffee or not?"Â Â
The following Monday, at exactly 9:55AM, you and Jay are handed your robot babyâJisoo, as Jay somehow convinces you to name it after his favorite celebrityâat the end of your class. Â
You didn't even try to put up a fight. The moment Jay's eyes lit up at the idea, you knew you'd already lost. After three whole minutes of bickering and one PowerPoint titled 'Why Our Baby Deserves to be Named After Star Quality,' you realized there was no saving it. He had arguments. He had fan chants memorized. For a robot baby. Your robot baby.Â
"Admit it, Jisoo has star quality," Jay beams, proudly looking down at the robotic baby in the baby carrier that came with her. Â
You look from Jisoo to Jay, then back to Jisoo, unimpressed. "It's a robot, Jay. Not your bias."Â Â
"Bias or not, she deserves only the best," Jay just shrugs, unbothered.
He glances down at the robot, which blinks its eyes open and closed with a soft whirring noise, its chubby plastic arms flopping lifelessly by its sides. Â
There's a beat of silence as you both stare down at it, unsure of what to do next. Â
"It's kind of creepy, right?" you finally mutter, breaking the knowing silence between you two. Â
Jay snorts. "Not even 'kind of.' A lot."
He leans in to inspect it, his brows furrowed, "So, does it justâŠsit there?â Â
"No, it's on schedule. It says here it won't eat for another three hours and it has a clean diaper, so everything should be fine. Babies are predictable once you understand their needs, Jay," you huff, already pulling out the meticulously detailed notes you took during class.
Jay lifts an eyebrow as he turns to face you, "Right...because in real life, babies are totally like robots and are totally predictable. Got it."Â Â
You open your mouth to respond, probably with something unnecessarily snarky (you don't know what yet though, you haven't gotten to that part yet), when a loud, high-pitched wail shatters the air, cutting through the now-empty classroom you two are in. The robot baby's face contorts into an exaggerated crying expression, its mechanical arms flailing (which you didn't even know was possible) like it's preparing for takeoff.Â
"What theâ" Jay instinctively jumps back like Jisoo is a grenade on her last few seconds.
"Why's it doing that? What did you do?"Â Â
"I didnât do anything!" You snap, panic slowly rising as you flip through your notes quickly. "It's not supposed to be crying! It shouldn't be hungry, and it's definitely not tired yet!"Â Â
The wailing intensifies, vibrating through the room as the cries echo louder and louder, Jisoo clearly not caring about your carefully crafted timeline. You glance down at your schedule. Why is it crying? Â
You groan and snatch Jisoo out of the carrier, awkwardly holding her in a way that's probably not safe for any life form, real or otherwise. The wailing doesn't stop. In fact, it gets louder, as if Jisoo's personally offended by your existence. Â
"Hold her!" You quickly thrust her into Jay's arms, a horrified expression written all over his face. "You deal with it."Â Â
"Deal with what? It's a robot!" Jay stares at the baby in his arms like it's going to explode. "Oh god, are we even sure this is safe?"Â Â
"Yes, Jay! It's a baby!"
You're sure you're borderline going insane from the combination of the screeching baby and Jay's apparent lack of brain cells. Â
Jay's eyes widen as Jisoo practically vibrates with the force of its cries. He tries to mimic the way you were holding her, cradling her against his chest like she's made of glass. It doesn't help. Jisoo keeps wailing, and now Jay looks genuinely distressed.Â
"Uh, shh, little buddy, it's okay...Should I, like, burp it? Sing to it?"Â Â
âSing?â You give him a look like heâs completely lost it, but Jayâs already humming off-key under his breath.Â
The baby, predictably, continues screeching.Â
You both just stand there, staring at the baby, then at each other, the panic palpable in the room. Jay continues bouncing it lightly, as if this will magically solve everything.
âDoes it have an off switch?â he asks, glancing at you like you've parented a robot baby before.Â
You continue to frantically flip through your notes, pages rustling in a blur. âNo, Jay! We canât just turn off our baby!âÂ
âWell, I donât know, Y/N, but Iâm pretty sure babies arenât supposed to sound like theyâre summoning a demon!â Jay retorts, his tone climbing the ladder of panic. "Maybe she's hungry or something."Â Â
âIt canât be hungry, it's not supposed to be!"Â Youâre still too busy scanning your notes as you shake your head in disagreement.
Jay just shakes his head, gently cradling the baby even though he's sure it's about to lift off into space from how much it was shaking right now.Â
âSometimes you canât schedule everything, Y/N. Maybe it just needs a bottle, like, right now.âÂ
The idea frustrates you. âBut itâs not time yet. If we feed it off-schedule, itâll mess everything up for the day.âÂ
The babyâs cries reach a shrill pitch, like itâs protesting your protest. Jay looks at you, then back at the crying baby, then back at you again.Â
âI think itâs already messed up, so maybe we just... feed it?â he says, half-grinning, half-exasperated.Â
You hesitate. It feels wrong. Babies are supposed to follow patterns, stick to a routine...or so you thought. You let out a frustrated sigh, your brain bleeding from the sheer sound of the glass-breaking screams. Â
âFine,â you mutter, grabbing the bottle from the supply bag. âBut if this throws off the whole schedule, itâs your fault.âÂ
Jay grins, but thereâs something softer in his expression behind it as he watches you struggle with the bottle...and your need for control.
âDeal.âÂ
You hand the bottle to him, and he places the nipple into the babyâs mouth. The wailing stops almost instantly. The sudden silence is deafening, and both of you are stunned for a moment, looking down at the baby whoâs now peacefully drinking.Â
You let out a small gasp of relief and turn your head up to look at Jay, who's widened eyes meet yours. Â
Jay lets out a held breath. âWell. That was traumatic.âÂ
You roll your eyes, though thereâs a slight twitch at the corner of your lips as you mutter, âI think I just lost three years of my life."Â Â
Jay watches as you carefully take Jisoo from his arms and place her back into the carrier, making sure everything is in order. Heâs still catching his breath, but he glances at youârelaxed, for once, after the panicâand it makes him feel something weird. He almost laughs.Â
âI dunno,â he says, a little teasingly. âI think we handled that pretty well.âÂ
âGreat, now just five weeks and six days of this left." You give him a look, but thereâs a tiny, fleeting smile this time. "I just don't understand why it was crying. It's not supposed to need food untilâ"Â Â
Jay cuts you off with a chuckle. âY/N, itâs a baby. Real ones donât run on algorithms. They just... cry when they need something. Like this little gal. I mean, you can't exactly schedule crying, right?âÂ
The silence stretches for a moment as you watch him, realization dawning a little slower than youâd like to admit. âI guess,â you mutter reluctantly, earning yourself a content-looking Jay. Â
"Look at usâteam effort," Jay says, as he beams a smile to you before glancing at Jisoo. "We're naturals at this whole parenting thing."Â Â
"Yeah, okay," you roll your eyes, but the smile on your face says differently as you reach out to unnecessarily fuss with the small blanket in Jisoo's carrier. Â
Jay's eyes light up at your response.
"A smile? The Y/N gave me a smile? Admit it, we make a great team, huh?"Â Â
You scoff, but the look on your face proves there's no bite to itâJay knows there's no bite to it. Â
Maybe, just maybe, he has a point. Â
You'd never admit it to him, though.Â
Not yet. Â
To your pleasant surprise, the past two weeks have been...weirdly smooth. Like, suspiciously smooth. You and Jay have somehow managed to fall into an actual routineâdropping off and picking up Jisoo like two semi-functional adults who almost know what theyâre doing. You still wouldnât call it 'seamless', as Jay himself struggled with having a consistent schedule for once in his life, but at least youâve gotten through the weeks without major incidents or spontaneous combustion. So far.
That doesn't mean you'll admit to anyoneâleast of all yourselfâthat you and Jay might actually make a decent team. His parenting methods are still objectively abysmal...to you, at least. I mean, just the other day, he almost put Jisoo's diaper on upside down. Upside down. You didn't even know that was possible, but leave it to Jay to surprise you more and more. Â
Despite his questionable approach to baby care, Jisoo's still alive (you think), and somehow you've managed not to explode at him yet (key word: yet). So, that's...something, I guess. Â
Today, though. Today is a different beast entirely. Â
It's Sunday, and miraculously, you've managed to give yourself the evening off. No cafĂ© shift, no emergency club meetings. The stars have aligned, and for once, you have free time. And what did you decide to do with this rare gift from the universe? Â
Spend it with Jay. Parenting. Together. In his apartment. Â
You blame Professor Kim for this cruel twist of fate. Something about submitting photographic evidence of co-parenting. After all, this is a partner project. Â
Teamwork, she called it. Â
You like to call it pure suffering. Â
Which brings you here, standing outside Jay's apartment with a tote bag of baby supplies on one shoulder, Jisoo's carrier on the other, and a silent prayer on your lips. If this apartment is even half the disaster you're imaginingâfrat house, landfill, or some unholy combination of bothâyou're fully prepared to turn around and run for the hills. Â
You take a deep breath, bracing yourself for whatever horrors await behind the door, and knock three times. Â
Precisely five seconds later, the door swings open, and...yep, there's Jay. His hair is a mess, his clothes are rumpled, and you can't tell if he's been a) napping, b) playing video games, or c) all of the above. Â
"Hey," he greets you with a lazy grin, eyes half-lidded like he's still half-asleep. Â
It's 6PM. Â
You stare at him, deadpan.
"You look like you've been hit by a truck."Â Â
Jay snorts as he raises an eyebrow.
"You should see the truck."Â Â
Before you can fire back with something equally sarcastic, you catch a glimpse of his apartment over his shoulder, andâyou blink, confused. Wait. Wait. Â
Well this can't be right. Â
You were expecting a disaster. Maybe a few pizza boxes, a stray sock on the floor, some suspicious stains on the couch. But no.
Instead...it's clean. Like, really clean. Â
The floors are spotless, there's a shelf with neatly stacked books, and are those...framed photos on the walls? Like, actual art? Your own apartment doesn't even have actual art, just print outs from Walgreens of photos you thought were cute on Pinterest and your Justin Bieber posters you got from a magazine back in high-school. Now you're starting to feel ashamed. Â
You do a double-take, your brain struggling to process what's happening, as Jay still stands in front of you, confused at your gawking.
"Y/N? You good?"Â Â
You snap your mouth shut, as you spot a vacuum neatly tucked in the corner of the living room.
"I...I'm just surprised you even know what a vacuum is."Â
"You'll learn I'm full of surprises, Miss Y/N," he says, casually leaning against the doorframe as he looks down at you, his gaze making you shift in your stance in front of him. "Come on in."Â Â
You step inside cautiously, like you're waiting for something to jump out at youâmaybe a camera with someone saying 'You've been pranked, this isn't Jay's actual apartment!' Â
But nope. His apartment is just...nice. It smells like eucalyptus and citrus, for crying out loud. Â
You set Jisoo's carrier down on the couch, the robot itself still fast asleep, as your eyes scan the room, still half-expecting to find a hidden mess somewhere. But instead, something else catches your attention. Â
On the wall, next to his kitchen, there's a collection of professional-looking photographs, all framed neatly. This is what caught your eye earlier from the doorway. You find yourself slowly walking closer to get a closer look: landscapes, city stresses, a few candid shots of peopleâall in the same style, same camera quality, same angles. You tilt your head, intrigued.
Jay comes up behind you to see what you're looking at and you turn to him, "Are these...yours?"Â
"Oh," he scratches the back of his neck, looking almost shy. "Yeah. I do some photography sometimes. Just a hobby."Â Â
You blink up at him. Jay Park? A photographer? This was not on your Jay Park Bingo card.Â
"Huh," you say, before realizing how dumb you sound. "I didn't know you were into that."Â Â
"Well, there's a lot you don't know about me, Y/N. Full of surprises, remember?" Jay replies, his head tilting to match yours with a cocky smile, whichâugh, okay fineâmakes you feel just the tiniest bit flustered. Not that you'll admit it. Â
"Oh, really?" You raise an eyebrow. "And here I thought your only hobbies were napping and showing up late."Â
"That's just the surface level," he says with a wink, walking over to his coffee table and grabbing his laptop. "I was actually editing photos before you showed up."Â
Intrigued, you follow him to the couch and sit beside him as he flips open the laptop. You squint at the editing software on the screenâfull of layers, sliders, and all sorts of professional-looking tools that immediately make your head hurt. Jay scrolls through the images, and honestly?
Theyâre good. Really good. Like, if you didnât know better, youâd think some of them could be in a magazine. And not the kind of magazine you got your Bieber Fever posters in. Â
"Wow," you say, nodding, genuinely impressed. "Thatâs⊠actually really cool."Â
Jay freezes, his head snapping toward you with a look of disbelief. He stares at you, eyes narrowing like youâve just broken some unspoken rule.
"It's been ten seconds...you just gave me an actual compliment without a sarcastic follow-up."Â Â
You let out a small giggle, "Geez, you always make me sound like some soulless witch or something."Â Â
"I mean⊠soulless witch might be a bit much. But, like⊠emotionally unavailable overlord? Hmm, maybe," Jay grins, leaning back in mock thought.
You burst out laughing before you can stop yourself, the sound catching Jay off guard. He looks at you, wide-eyed, like heâs just witnessed a rare phenomenon. And maybe he hasâbecause even you canât remember the last time you laughed this freely.
"Wow. I should annoy you more often," Jay smirks, clearly way too satisfied with himself. Youâre not entirely sure if he meant it to sound that smooth, but your brain certainly processed it that way. Heat rises to your cheeks before you can stop it, and you quickly clear your throat, a small, flustered smile playing at your lips.Â
You try to gather yourself, praying your voice doesnât betray you.
"Donât push your luck, Park," you manage, but the teasing edge in your voice is softer than usualâway softer. And, of course, Jay knows it. You know it. Youâre still smiling, andâunfortunately for youâso is he.Â
Jay suddenly clears his throat as he shifts in his seat, "So...should we order like a pizza or something? Are you hungry?"Â Â
And because lately the universe apparently has a personal vendetta against you, your stomach chooses that exact moment to let out a soundâone that resembles between a whaleâs mating call and a frog being strangled.Â
Jay stifles a laugh, trying to act casual but failing miserably, "Okay⊠pizza it is."Â
âShut up,â you mutter, giving him a playful shove thatâs just enough to make him fall back into the couch cushions.Â
"No, you tell your stomach to shut up," Jay snickers, grabbing his phone to place the order.Â
Youâre about to fire back with somethingâanythingâbut a soft wail interrupts you from the baby carrier.Â
"Someone needs attention," you say, scooping Jisoo up and cradling her in your arms. âItâs about time for her to eat anyway.âÂ
As you juggle Jisoo with one hand and dig through the baby bag for her fake bottle of milk with the other, Jay watches you from his spot on the couch, a curious look in his eyes.
âWhile you feed her, Iâll take care of the pizza. Iâm guessing youâre more of a plain cheese type, huh?âÂ
You freeze for a second, then whip your head around to give him a mock-offended look.
âFirst, you think Iâm a soulless witch, and now boring? I at least add pepperoni and sausage. Give me some credit.âÂ
"Okay, okay, noted," Jay lifts his hands up in surrender, "So adventurous. I'll remember that next time you call me irresponsible."Â Â
You roll your eyes at him as you adjust Jisoo in your arms, holding the bottle steady at her mouth. Itâs quiet for a few moments, the only sounds being the soft hum of your fake baby and Jay tapping on his phone.Â
Suddenly Jay puts his phone down, turning to you with an unreadable expression. âYouâre really serious about this whole parenting thing, huh?âÂ
You blink, still rocking Jisoo in your arms. You're thrown off by the sudden shift and sincerity in his tone. Â
âWell⊠yeah. I think itâs important, you know? Responsibility, structure⊠thatâs what makes people feel safe. Especially kids. They need to know theyâre taken care of.âÂ
Jayâs expression shifts as he listens, a more thoughtful look settling on his face.
âYou're a strong believer of that, aren't you? Structure and schedules and all that?"Â Â
His voice is a lot quieter now, lower, and you realize you've never really had a serious conversation (that wasn't a class debate) with him beforeâat least not long enough to hear this version of Jay. The serious Jay. And if you're being honest, it's making you a bit flustered. You hesitate, hoping your voice doesn't crack or something equally embarrassing. Â
âI mean⊠I guess so. I was raised that way. My parents always had everything planned out. It was like...nothing ever went wrong because there was always a system, a backup plan.âÂ
Jay raises an eyebrow, leaning forward a little in his seat.
âBut didnât that feel, I donât know... suffocating? Like, what if things donât go according to plan? You canât control everything.âÂ
Your first instinct is to scoff, but something stops you. It's a valid question, and for some reason, you donât feel the need to throw up your usual defenses for once. That's new. Â
âMaybe sometimes,â you admit. âBut I donât know any other way. It just feels like if youâre not prepared, things fall apart. And thatâs the worst feelingâlike watching everything crumble because you werenât ready for it.âÂ
Jay is quiet, studying you with an intensity that feels new. His teasing smirk is gone, replaced with something more serious.
âYeah, I get that. I didnât have a lot of structure growing up. Parents were kinda⊠there, but not really. I think thatâs why I donât plan much. Life happens whether youâre ready or not.âÂ
You blink as you sit back in your seat, absorbing his words. Itâs the first time youâve really thought about Jay outside of his 'laid-back' image of him you've had in your head, and honestly, youâre surprised by how heavy his words feel.Â
âButâŠyouâre actually good with Jisoo,â you say, almost cautiously, unsure if youâre diving into uncharted territory. âYouâve been handling this project better than I thought you would.âÂ
Jay laughs softly, shaking his head as he looks at Jisoo in your arms.
âItâs just a robot baby, Y/N. No big deal if I mess up.âÂ
"Itâs not just about the robot baby,â you counter, realizing you're saying more than you intended. âYou actually care. Youâre not graded on how well you change diapers or keep her entertained, but youâre still putting in effort. Youâre trying. And that matters.âÂ
There's a beat of silence as you see Jay pause. For once, he doesn't have a comeback. Instead, he's just looking at youâreally looking at youâlike he's trying to figure something out, and you feel the heat slowly creeping back onto your face. You're sure you're turning an unflattering shade of red under his gaze on you, and part of you, no, all of you, is begging for him to say something immediately before you combust. Â
Then, with a suddenness that almost makes you jump, he leans over and nudges your arm lightly.
âOkay, Dr. Phil. Don't go getting all soft on me now."Â Â
You let out a playful scoff to mask your relief, thankful for the release of tension in the air. But something about the conversation lingers in the air, hanging like a question neither of you is ready to ask. And despite the teasing, your mind canât help but circle back to how Jay had looked at youâserious, curious⊠something else.Â
Before you can dwell on it too long, the doorbell rings. Saved by the pizza gods. Jay springs up from the couch to answer the door, and you gently place the now-snoozing Jisoo back in her carrier. The conversation still swirls in your head as you watch Jay grab the pizza, too caught up in your thoughts to not even question how suspiciously fast it arrived.Â
You let out a breath you didnât realize you were holding, watching Jay at the door from your spot on the couch, your thoughts too heavy for someone who is literally holding a pizza box.Â
For someone who sure likes to plan everything out, you definitely werenât prepared for Jay Parkâand how he's quickly becoming the exception to every rule you've ever made.Â
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The first thing that jars you awake is a piercing screamâJisoo's, of course. Your eyes shoot open as you squint into the dim light, your eyes adjusting and blinking your way out of the accidental nap you fell into. You're trying to make sense of your surroundings through your blurry vision when...it hits you. Â
This isn't your room. You're still at Jay's apartment, wedged into the corner of his couch, and apparently, you fell asleep. Post-pizza-food-coma style. And also apparently, your mutual robot child has decided now was a perfect time for a meltdown. Â
The second thing you notice is the faint background noise of Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire still playing on Jay's TV in front of you. Your memory jogs back to when you two finally came to a consensus on which movie to watch over dinner, and naturally, the deciding factor ended up being 'young Robert Pattinson,' and no, it wasn't your deciding factor. You didn't expect Jay to even have an opinion on this, but apparently, his love for Cedric Diggory is a hill he's willing to die on. Â
And then...that brings us to the third thing. A sound from the other end of the couchâJay's soft snores. You two must have dozed off at some point during the movie somehow and of course, he's still passed out cold, totally oblivious to the screams of robotic despair coming from the baby carrier seated between you two. You glance over at him, out cold with his head tilted back, looking completely unbothered by Jisoo's increasingly offended screams. Â
But even through all these realizations, what really slaps you awake, more than Jisoo or Jay or Cedric Diggory, is the smell. It hits you like a rogue sock to the face, and for a moment, you're convinced that Jay definitely has some biological-grade garbage decomposing somewhere in the apartment after all. The smell is like a powerful, radioactive wave, and all you can think is, What in the world is this guy hiding in here? And why is it now coming to life? Â
You sit up from your spot, still half-asleep, and follow the foul scent in horror until you realize the source. Â
Jisoo. Â
Sure, you have changed Jisoo's diapers plenty of times over the last two weeks, but before? There was no smell. At most, you get these weird, vaguely sticky robotic poops in her diaper that barely registered. Now? Now itâs like Professor Kim somehow remotely gave Jisoo a software update and coded her to emit a scent so pungent that it feels borderline illegal. You're convinced this is Jisooâs final boss formâpeak realism unlockedâsolely just to spite you and your nostrils.
While youâre here on one end of the couch, one button away from confirming an Amazon Prime order to ship over a bottle of bleach for you to dip your nose into, Jay is still in blissful dreamland, not even flinching. You stare at him in disbelief, hoping your sheer mental outage might magically wake him up. No such luck.Â
You grab the throw pillow that's wedged under you and chuck in right at his face. Â
"Jay!" You're still half-asleep, so your voice comes out like a strangled whisper, somewhere between pleading and passive-aggressive murder. Â
Jay jolts, sitting up with a sleepy yelp, blinking in confusion.
"Huh? What happened? Is Cedric okay?" His panicked gaze darts around the room wildly before they finally settle on you, across the couch.Â
"What happened?" You raise a finger to the screaming, stinky, betrayal-machine between you two. "That happened, Jay. Jisoo happened."Â Â
Jay blinks slowly, squinting at Jisoo, his brain clearly struggling to boot up, and then makes the fatal mistake of sniffing the air. The realization suddenly dawns slowly, and you can see the look of horror hit.
"Oh my god, how is she even capable of...of that?!" His voice breaks three octaves as his hand shoots up to pinch his nose. Â
"I don't know!" You squawk, equally traumatized. "She's never done this beforeâI didn't even know she could!"Â Â
Jay groans and rubs his eyes, hoping this is all a bad, bad dream. No such luck, yet again. He glances around helplessly. "So, uh, who's changing her?"Â Â
You shoot him a glare as you get up from the couch and start looking for the baby bag.
"We're changing her, Jay."Â Â
"We?" Jay winces, inching towards Jisoo with all the enthusiasm one has when approaching a radioactive waste barrel. He slowly reaches down to take Jisoo out from the carrier and he starts muttering to himself.
"Great. Fine, this is fine. Just another bonding moment with our adorable robo-daughter." He finally picks her up, reluctantly holding her at arm's length like she's a ticking time bomb. It's so ridiculous that, despite the war-crime-level smell permeating the room, you can't help the small laugh that you let out. Â
"What?" Jay glares at you, though a look of amusement tugs at his lips. "You think this is funny?"Â Â
"No," you say, barely stifling your giggles. "It's justâyou're holding her like she's about to explode."Â Â
Jay gives you a doubtful look, "Y/N, I'm not convinced she's not about to explode."Â Â
You shake your head, still giggling as you shuffle the carrier off the couch and lay out a blanket, turning Jay's couch surface into a makeshift changing station.
"Alright, c'mon. Lay her down and hold her legs up. I'll handle clean-up duty. And maybe...brace yourself."Â Â
Jay exhales like a man about to face his greatest fear. He gently lays Jisoo down and lifts her legs up with the tips of his fingers, his face still contorted as if you're both dealing with a toxic hazard. At this point, it probably is. Â
"Oh my god," he breathes. "This is it. This is how I die."Â Â
You crouch down in position so you're at level with the couch and say a mental prayer before you pull open the tiny diaper. The moment you do, the both of you immediately recoil as a scent that should not even be allowed to exist wafts up and fills the room. Â
âOh god.âÂ
The scent is so ungodly it feels like it came from the depths of hell itself and punched you both right in the face. It doesnât just waft upâit attacks. Youâre pretty sure you lost at least another three years off your life from one breath alone.Â
"That's not legal," Jay chokes as he flings himself back at the sight, dropping Jisooâs little toes in the process, flailing around as if the air itself betrayed him. "There's no way that's legal."Â
You freeze in sheer horror, staring at the scene before you: Jisooâs somehow realistic poop smeared across every surface of her bottom it possibly could spread to, the stench intensifying with every passing second.
Jay starts pacing the room, spiraling into an existential crisis.
âNo, no, no, this isnât normal. This isâthis is a crime scene! This canât be right.âÂ
âJay,â your voice is muffled as a hand tries to cover both your nose and mouth from the contaminated air, âJay, focus!âÂ
Jay looks at you from across the living room, wide-eyed and pale, like a deer caught in headlights.
âYou expect me toâin this economyââÂ
âGrab. The. Wipes.â
Jay groans and he stumbles back towards you, hesitantly rifling through the baby bag. His hands finally find the pack of wipes and he peers over your shoulder from behind you, as if youâre his shield.Â
âAre you just gonna stand there, or are you going to help?â
âI am helping,â Jay protests weakly, waving the pack of wipes like theyâre a magic wand that might save you both.
You roll your eyes and turn back to Jisoo, âOkay, grab her legs again. Iâll wipe.âÂ
His eyes watch in horror as he reaches over you to take hold of the robotâs feet. With a deep breath, you start furiously scrubbing Jisooâs little body, trying your best to breathe as minimally as possible, sticking your hand out towards Jay whenever you need a new wipe.Â
âI signed up for fake parenting, not surviving a biohazard. This isnât bonding; this is trauma,â Jay incoherently mumbles, placing a wipe in your hand.Â
"I think this trauma is exactly what we're supposed to be learning and 'bonding' from," you retort, carefully tossing a soiled wipe into the designated waste bag. Â
"Oh, so Professor Kim is forcing us to bond over mutual suffering? Very sweet," Jay deadpans as he hands you another wipe.Â
"Exactly. Parenting at its finest."Â Â
Finally, after you definitely lost three years of your life, the horror show is over. Jisoo is cleaned, diapered, andâsomehowâactually looks peaceful for once. Like she didn't just commit a crime against humanity.Â
Jay exhales, looking at her with a newfound joy. "Well. She's definitely...less terrifying when she's not screaming and emitting toxic fumes."Â Â
You plop yourself on the couch and cradle Jisoo like she's a tiny, innocent angel instead of the cause of your collective suffering.
âIâm genuinely afraid to know what they put in her system for this to happen.âÂ
Jay collapses onto the couch beside you, visibly relieved, "Whatever it was, we did it. We survived. We did that."Â
You can't help but laugh, still a bit punch-drunk from the adrenaline and exhaustion of it all, "We better get an A+ on this project."Â Â
Jay chuckles, leaning his head back against the couch. The room falls into a brief silence, just the two of you sitting there, basking in the weird accomplishment of it all. Then, as if on cue, you both start laughingâa deep, exhausting kind of laugh that two people only share after a 'you had to be there' type moment. There's something about the whole ordealâhow ridiculous, how hilariously awful it wasâthat just makes it impossible to not laugh. Â
"Now do you think we make a pretty good team?" Jay grins, nudging your shoulder with his. Â Â
You roll your eyes at him, "I don't know...depends."Â Â
Jay raises an eyebrow, "Depends on what?"Â Â
"Depends on whether you can make it through the rest of the project without crying again," you quip, lips twitching into an amused grin. Â
Jay gasps dramatically, clutching his chest. "Excuse you, I did not cry. My eyes were sweating from Jisoo's toxic fumes. A completely normal biological response, thank you very much."Â Â
"Sure, Jay," you deadpan, shaking your head. Â
"Besides," he continues, leaning back smugly, "I did all the heavy lifting. Literally. I held the live grenade."Â Â
You snort, glancing down at Jisoo in your arms before handing her off to Jay, "You're unbelievable."Â Â
"And you're stuck with me, partner," he grins back, rocking Jisoo in his arms. "You too, Jisoo."Â
You lean back into the couch, watching Jay coo at the now-peaceful baby. Somewhere between his flair for over-the-top dramatics, his secret love for young Robert Pattinson, and (for some reason) endearing passion for photography, you realizeâŠmaybe Jay Park isnât the complete disaster you thought he was.Â
"Yeah," you murmur, a small smile tugging at your lips. "I guess I really am stuck with you."Â Â
And for the first time since this ridiculous project started, you don't mind that as much as you thought you would. Â
Jay would like to make a few things clear.Â
First of all, none of this is his fault.Â
He hopes you understand that, as his thumbs fly over the keyboard of his phone like his life depends on it.
Because, in a way, it does.Â
Jay [11:32 AM]: âi swear itâs not my fault, but my friend, jake, his entire load of laundry is now the color of strawberry milk. and apparently iâm the only one that can help him. can i drop jisoo off with you for like⊠an hour? tops?âÂ
He stares at his phone, waiting for your response like you hold the key to his survival.
Because, in a way, you do.Â
He hears Jisoo coo from her carrier, like even she knows how dire this situation is. Finally, his phone lights up with a buzz.Â
Y/N [11:33 AM]: âiâm volunteering at a dog adoption event on campus, but sure, drop her off here :)âÂ
Jay blinks at his phone. A dog adoption event. Of course, you'd be saving puppies on a Saturday. Of course. Like some kind of unreasonably perfect human. And here he is, about to save a fully grown man from having to wear solely pink t-shirts for the next week.
Fantastic. Â Â
With a sigh, Jay turns to Jisoo, who blinks back a stare that can only be described as the (robot) baby equivalent of good luck, bro.Â
By the time Jay reaches campus, he's bombarded with the sight and sound of...dogs. Dogs everywhere. It's as if he's entered the chaotic lovechild of a Disney movie and a petting zoo, complete with wags, barks, and the smell of kibble. And then he sees you.Â
You're smack in the middle of a fenced playpen, laughing, surrounded by every breed of fluffy chaos imaginable and passersby cooing 'aww' at the sight. And what a sight it is. Â
You look ridiculously happy, and for some reason, that makes something in Jay's chest feel weirdly tight. He wonders what it must feel like to be able to make you smile that widely, that brightly. It's unnerving. He's not used to seeing you so relaxed, so contentâor maybe he's just not used to noticing how good you look when you're not glaring at him. Â
"Y/N!" a voice calls from the volunteer tent, snapping Jay out of his daydream. Jay watches from the distance as you haul a golden retriever pup into your arms and walk over to the tent, naturally falling into conversation with your friend and immediately organizing papers. Meanwhile, Jay stands there, dumbfounded at your unbothered, graceful rhythm that you seem to fall into like second nature.Â
Jay thought he had you figured out, filed neatly in his mental drawer of uptight-control-freaks-that-happen-to-smell-like-roses-and-have-perfect-smiles, but now? Something about the way you lookâso confident, so caring, so...naturalâcatches him off guard.
Now, you're like some serene multitasking goddess in the middle of pure chaos. Â
That brings us to the second thing Jay would like to clarify (more so to himself): he definitely doesn't think you look good in, like, an attractive sense, or anything insane like that. Absolutely not. He just is simply impressed at how you seem to manage and carry yourself quite elegantly. This is pure admiration. Admiration, okay? Â
But...while he's here, staring in 'admiration', it suddenly hits himâyou're not just good at taking care of Jisoo. You're good at taking care of everything. Â
And that makes his heart do a weird flip. Â
The realization that he's been staring for way too long jolts him back to the present. Focus, Jay. There's a Jake somewhere out there, lost in a sea of pink underwear. Â
Jisoo carrier in hand, Jay manages to push his way through the dog-packed crowds until he reaches you, but the second you turn around, flashing him that wide, carefree smile that he's still not used to, he's back to stumbling over himself. Â
Heâs 99% sure he audibly gulps.Â
âOh, Jay, you made it!â you say, shifting the puppy to one side of your arms to free a hand to grab Jisoo's carrier immediately. Your smile is disarmingly genuine. Jay thinks he may need to sit down. Â
âUh, yeahâum, thanks for taking Jisoo," he swallows, his voice barely steady as he's unsure what this feeling is that came over him. He doesn't know if it's the fact that he's seeing you in a completely different light right now, carrying both a live, adorable puppy, and a (not-so-live) baby, but something is different, and he's at a loss for words. "You look prettyâuhâŠbusy.â Â
He curses himself. Busy? Really?Â
âOh, no biggie,â you give him an easy, encouraging grin, one so casual that it really shouldn't make his knees feel like Jell-O. "Honestly, I'd be out here every weekend if I could. But you of all people know my schedule."Â Â
Of course, you'd say something like that. Jay tries to think of a normal response, but his brain is spinning with all sorts of not-normal things about youâlike how you look so aggressively pretty right now.Â
And itâs a little infuriating.Â
"Yeah, no, totally," Jay clears his throat, scratching the back of his head. "Because who doesn't want to be covered in dog hair and slobber for fun?"Â Â
You roll your eyes, smiling. "Says the guy who's about to be knee-deep in a laundry crisis. Isn't that a little messy, too?"Â Â
Jay huffs, feeling himself return just a little bit back to normal. âListen, Jakeâs a special case, okay? You canât just leave him in that pink laundry disaster and expect him to survive.âÂ
"Right..," you laugh, rocking back and forth on your feet, your smile lingering as a comfortable silence falls between you. Â
Maybe it's the way you're looking up at him, or the fact that a literal golden retriever is currently nuzzling into your neck, but Jay is doing everything in his power to keep his cool. You're looking at him in a way that isn't remotely judgmental (for once), and it's throwing him completely off-balance. Â
Before Jay can pull it together and say something else, another voice calls your name, waving you over to a different table. You turn back to Jay, giving him an apologetic glance. Â
"Do you mind watching Jisooâand, um, this puppyâfor a sec?"Â Â
Before he can answer, or even process your words, he's standing there with an actual puppy in one arm, and Jisoo in her carrier in the other, and his life has become a circus he never auditioned for. Â
"Sorry! They just need me real quick!" You say with a grateful smile as you hurry off. Â
As you rush off with another apologetic smile, Jay's brain, for better or for worse, decides that grin of yours is now his mental screensaver. He watches you go, dumbly smiling before he catches himself.Â
Not attraction, he reminds himself. Totally not attraction. Â
He looks down at his armsâone occupied by a carrier with a robot baby, the other holding a wriggly puppy. Â
"Bet no one's ever been in this situation before," he mutters, awkwardly standing there as he waits for your return. Honestly, Jay has never felt so awkward or nervous before. Right now, he feels like the epitome of the standing emoji, just simply existing and there, waiting for your next command and hoping he doesn't screw it up. Â
Jay tries to hype himself up. You can do this, Park. It's just a dog. And a baby. And you. You've got this. You totally have everything undâÂ
Before he can finish his mental pep talk, the sound of your laughter rings from across the event, making Jay's head snap over in record time. He tries not to lookâhe really doesâbut the sound is too angelic to not. But right when he does look over, he immediately wishes he didn't.Â
You're standing there between two of your friends, and you're giggling. With some guy he's never seen before. And this guy, is nudging your shoulder and making you laugh so hard you're practically doubling over. He feels a distinct twist in his chest.Â
Jayâs definitely not jealous. Nope. Not even a little. It's just...curiosity. Pure, innocent curiosity about what that guy could possibly be saying to make you laugh so hard. Because Jay has never seen you laugh like that with himâever.
And suddenly, the longer you continue laughing with that guy, Jay feels something hot and uncomfortable bubbling up inside. Â
Fine, itâs jealousy. Â
Definitely jealousy.
He scowls at himself. Now heâs basically a bitter standing emoji, clinging to Jisoo and a puppy while glaring from afar.Â
And there Jay stands, bitterness levels maxed, holding both a puppy and a robot baby, while across the way, your roommate Esther gives you a knowing smirk while you're recovering from your giggling fit. Your giggling fit which was caused by Heeseung making a comment about how he stepped in dog poop more times than the average human-being accidentally should. Â
âYou didnât tell me that was Jay Park,â Esther says, trying not-so-subtly to sneak a glance at the bitter standing emoji himself, awkwardly shifting his feet in the distance, avoiding to look in your direction. âYou said he was annoying, lazy, and a pain to be around. You didnât mention heâs a total cutie.âÂ
âHe was annoying, lazy, and a pain to be around,â you scoff, though you're clearly not thinking that right now as you catch a glance of him trying to balance both the puppy and Jisoo. "But...I don't think he's so bad anymore."Â Â
You definitely don't add that he's a total cutie. Okay, maybe you think it, but saying it out loud is a whole other thing. Â
âOh, so you totally like him,â Heeseung snickers from your other side, nudging you again. Â
You make a sound that's half out-of-tune trumpet, half hiccup, before breaking into a laugh to cover your sudden panic.
"No, I don't!" You clear your throat, trying to stay cool. "We're justâlook, we're just stuck together for this project. That's all. Even if I did like him, which I don't, he definitely doesn't like me back. We're probably just going to go back to bickering with each other to no end." Â
âRight,â Heeseung chimes in, giving you a look that says he's clearly unconvinced. âJust saying, thoughâsomeone who doesnât like you wouldnât be staring at you like that, and looking at me like I just committed a first-degree crime just for breathing in your direction."Â Â
You follow Heeseungâs gaze and, sure enough, you catch Jay trying to look casual while bouncing the puppy and acting like he totally didnât just get caught. Your eyes meet, and he does a 180 so fast he nearly launches Jisoo into orbit.Â
You quickly turn back to your friends, heat rising to your face as you catch Esther and Heeseung giving each other a knowing look before smirking at you. You roll your eyes and grab the both of them by the back of their shirts, turning them in the direction of the event, "Okay, okay, enough with the delusions. Shouldn't you guys be signing off some puppies or something?"Â Â
"Don't say we didn't tell you so!" Esther calls after you as you turn on your heels towards Jay, furiously convincing yourself that they're so wrong. Â
There's no universe in which Jay Park, the Jay Park, would ever be into you. The Jay Park, who can get any girl he wants, the Jay Park who's just too different from you, the Jay Park who you proclaimed your school rival (self-proclaimed). Absolutely not. Â
When you get back to him, Jayâs desperately trying to look naturalâso, naturally, heâs scratching the puppyâs belly while Jisoo clings to his chest like a tiny koala. Your heart gives a little traitorous squeeze, but you ignore it. Get a hold of yourself, Y/N. Â
âLooks like he likes you,â you say, trying to sound casual as you nod to the puppy, who's squirming excitedly under Jay's attention.Â
âHeâs adorable,â Jay replies, blushing faintly as he shifts the puppy around.
âSo, uh, everything okay over there?â he asks, totally not imagining a deep, romantic conversation to explain your laughter.Â
Youâre caught off-guard, blinking, wondering if Jay somehow became psychic and caught onto your previous train of thoughts about him, until you realize what he meant.
âOh! Yeah, they just⊠needed help with paperwork.âÂ
Jayâs expression hardens ever so slightly as he tries to imagine a world where paperwork could possibly be that funny.
âCool, cool,â he nods stiffly, side-eyeing Heeseung in the distance whoâs still chatting with Esther.Â
"Well," Jay shifts awkwardly as clears his throat, "I should get going to Jake. He's probably in tears by now, honestly."Â Â
You frown at that, and Jay instantly self-identifies himself as the worst person on the planet. He barely resists the urge to apologize for everything he's ever done, from breathing in your direction to any other crime against humanity he's committed in your eyes. Â
"Aw, come on," you say, teasingly, though even you're not sure why. It's just...fun having him around. "Stay a little longer. For the puppies!"Â Â
Jay opens his mouth, fully ready to decline when he catches sight of your expressionâthose big, pleading eyes that make it impossible to say no.Â
And that's it. He's doomed. Right then and there, Jay knows he's doomed. Â
Is Jay currently surrounded by more puppies than he ever thought could physically exist in one place?
Yes.Â
Does he think your puppy eyes are somehow cuter than all the puppies combined?
Annoyingly, also yes. Â
And so, Jay would like to make some new things clear, for the record:Â Â
First, there is no way any of this is his fault. If Jake ends up crying over outfit choices and demands to know why Jay ditched him for puppies, Jay has a rock-solid explanation. Heâll explain the situation, which obviously couldnât be helped. Hanging out with you? Totally justified. Perfectly valid. Â
And second, wellâJay would like to clarify that it's official now. Whatever he was feeling before?
Yeah, definitely attraction. Â
Your fingers drum against your blanket. You stare blankly at your bedroom ceiling. You let out another deep sigh. You toss and turn, adjusting your position for maybe the hundredth time. It's no use.
You're bored. Â
And that, in itself, is a shocking revelation. You're never bored. Your schedule is usually packed to the brimâbetween assignments, club meetings, work shifts, and impromptu Save the Puppies campaigns, there's hardly room for boredom. But today? Â
Today, life has gifted you a rare stretch of free time. No assignments to finish, no midterms to study for, no dog adoption events or cafĂ© shifts. And apparently, you have no idea how to handle that. Â
You turn to look at Jisoo, who's chilling in her spot on your bed next to you, not having a single ounce of consciousness for you to share your boredom with. Â
With another sigh, you grab your phone and scroll aimlessly through your apps. You eventually land in your Photos app and swipe through mindlessly until a recent picture stops you in your tracks. Â
It's a selfie Jay took of the two of you, Jisoo sandwiched between your faces. The infamous day of the pizza-night-turned-accidental-nap-turned-godforsaken-poop-incident. You'd submitted the photo to Professor Kim as proof of your co-parenting efforts, but now, looking at it again, you can't help but smile. Â
It's strange. The memory should be traumaticâokay, it is traumaticâbut in hindsight, it's also...kind of fun. The chaos, the banter, the way Jay somehow managed to make everything feel less overwhelming just by being there. Â
Funny enough, that day was also the last time you remember having any sort of free time, and you remember complaining that you had to spend the day with Jay of all people. But now, looking back at it, you honestly did have fun. Being with Jay was...fun. Â
Your thumb hovers over the screen for a moment before it unconsciously drifts towards the Phone app. You hesitate, realizing with a jolt that you're one tap away from calling Jay. It's like your brain suddenly shut off and something took over you. What's gotten into you? Â
You blink at Jay's contact on your phone, your thumb still hovering over his name. Â
No. Bad idea. Â
You don't need Jay to entertain you just because you're bored. You're perfectly capable of having fun on your own...obviously. Obviously, even though the last hour of groaning and ceiling-staring suggests otherwise. Â
Besides, Jay's probably busy doing...whatever it is Jay does at 4PM on a Saturday. Napping, probably. Â
And what would you even say? Let's hang out? Like some middle schooler asking out their crush? Not to mention, you already have your 'Jisoo' plans in two days, so it's not like you have an excuse to see him. Â
You sit up abruptly, shaking your head as if to clear the fog of ridiculous thoughts. Seriously, do you even hear yourself right now? Looking for an excuse to see him? Since when did you need excuses for anything, let alone something as absurd as spending more time than necessary with Jay Park? Â
This has to be some kind of stress-induced meltdown. It's the only logical explanation. All those late-night study sessions, midterm panic attacks, Jisoo diaper changes, and endless extracurriculars must've finally fried your brain. And now, here you are, teetering on the edge of reason, actually wanting to see Jay Park. Â
Great. Now you have a new problem. Â
Because as much as you try to convince yourself otherwise, the truth is glaringly obvious: you want to see him. And that, more than any amount of free time or boredom, is the real problem.Â
You've officially lost it. Â
I've officially lost it, you chant in your head as your thumb hovers dangerously close to Jay's name on your screen again. Â
I've officially lost it, the words grow louder, taunting you, as you hover over the call button.Â
I've officially lost it, your thoughts scream as you give in, pressing down and watching in horror as your screen shifts to Calling Jay Park.Â
And now, your heartbeat picks up with every ring. You can't decide what's worseâhim answering or him ignoring the call. Maybe if he doesn't pick up, it'll be a sign from above that you're better off leaving this madness alone. Maybeâ
"Hello?"Â Â
Your train of thought screeches to a halt. Â
"Y/N? Are you there?"Â Â
"I'm here!" You blurt out, your voice jumping two octaves higher than usual. Real smooth, Y/N. Â
"Hi...what's up? Are you okay? Is something wrong?" His voice is soft over the phone, a little concerned, like you're about to tell him Jisoo had another diaper emergency. Â
You falter for a moment, staring at the ceiling like the answer might be written there.
"No! Nothing's wrong! I justâuhâ" Quick, think of something normal!
"I was wondering what you're up to."Â Â
"Me?" He sounds genuinely surprised, and you can practically hear the smile in this voice. At least, you think. Or, once again, you've officially lost it. "I'm at the campus gallery, setting up for my photography showcase. It's tonight."Â Â
The campus gallery. His photography. Â
You blink, this is news to you. You vaguely remember Jay asking if you could watch Jisoo tonight, and he hadn't given you a reason back then, but this is why he couldn't be on Jisoo duty today. Because of his showcase. Â
"Wait, really?" You ask, hoping the interest in your voice doesn't show too much. Â
"Yeah. I didn't mention it? Guess I forgot," he chuckles lightly. "It's not a big deal, just a student showcase. I'm just setting up now, making sure my pieces are hung straight and stuff."Â Â
You swallow, a sudden wave of curiosity washing over you. You find yourself smiling to yourself, feeling a wave of endearment wash over you for some reason. The idea of Jay being completely focused and serious about a passion of his is...it's nice. Itâs hard to reconcile the carefree, sarcastic guy you know with the thoughtful perspective he must have to capture the kinds of photos he does.Â
"You should come by," he says suddenly, breaking you out of your thoughts. His voice is casual, but you think you catch a small, hopeful note in it. "If you're free, I mean. No pressure."Â Â
You hesitate, your mind racing. Go? Don't go? It's just a showcase. It's not like it means anything. Right? Â
"I'll think about it," you manage, trying to sound nonchalant. Â
"Cool." There's a smile in his voice again. "Let me know. I'll save you a front-row seat."Â Â
"Front row seat? For a gallery?" You deadpan, rolling your eyes as if he can see if over the phone. Â
"Hey, I'm just being a good host."Â Â
"Hmmm," you smile to yourself again. "Maybe. We'll see."Â Â
But your decision was made the second he suggested that you should come.Â
It doesn't mean anything. Friends come support each other all the time, right? Waitâ
Are you and Jay even friends? You shake your head, trying to dismiss the warmth starting to spread in your chest. Â
It's just photography.
It's just Jay.
Nothing to overthink here. Â
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âOkay, Jisoo, in and out,â you whisper to the robot baby in the carrier that's perched in your arms as you stand frozen outside the campus gallery doors. "We're just stopping by to say hi. Two minutes max. Like ripping off a Band-Aid. Nothing dramatic."Â Â
Jisoo stares back at you, wide-eyed and unhelpfully silent, which you take as strong moral support.
"Thanks, Jisoo," you mutter, like a lunatic seeking validation from a robot. Â
Maybe you shouldn't even go in. It's basically the end of the event anywayâwhat are the odds he'd even notice you didn't show?
Slim. Probably. Right? Â
It's not like you didn't have a valid excuse for your lateness. You did have to change Jisooâs diaper before you left, and that was a whole thing. But let's be real.Â
The real delay?
The real delay was you standing in front of your closet for a solid half hour like a contestant on America's Next Top Existential Crisis. What do you even wear to casually drop by someone's photography showcase? Something that says, Hey, I'm effortlessly supportive, but I totally don't care if you notice me (yes I do). Â
Spoiler alert: that outfit does not exist. Â
And thenâbecause clearly, you love to torture yourselfâyou spent another thirty minutes pacing around your room trying to figure out why you cared so much in the first place. Â
It's Jay. Jay. The guy who thought sticking googly eyes on Jisoo's bottle would make her drink faster. Why are you stressed? Why are your palms sweaty? Â
But despite all that, you somehow made it here, standing outside the gallery with your stomach doing flips like you're about to walk into your own trial. You made it all the way here, so might as well go in, right? Â
You swallow hard, adjust your grip on your emotional support robot baby, and push the door open.Â
And there he is. Â
Center stage, right where he belongsâor at least where he seems to thrive. Standing in front of a massive wall of his framed photographs, the studio lights catch his profile just right. It's almost unfair, like he's been personally photoshopped by the gods themselves. He's surrounded by a small crowd, gesturing animatedly with his hands as he speaks, his smile so bright you're convinced it's starting to hurt your eyes. Â
But his eyes? There's this sparkle in them. Not the usual playful glint you've grown used to, but something deeper, softer. You've never seen him look so alive, so utterly in his element, and it's doing weird things to your chest.Â
You can't help but wonderâwhat does it feel like to make him look that happy? Not that it matters, obviously.
It's just a thought.
A completely useless, irrelevant, go-away-right-now kind of thought. Â
If you weren't busy trying not to trip over your own feet and accidentally drop Jisoo, you might have stopped to take it all in. To admire the way he looks standing there, talking about something he clearly loves, like he's found this magical pocket of the universe where nothing else matters. Might have. Â
But instead, your thoughts screech in a halt, jolting you out of your daydream. Â
Abort mission. This was a terrible idea. Â
Why did you come here? Why is your face hot? Can Jisoo smell fear? Â
Before you can think of a single coherent reason to not turn around and bolt, Jay glances up. And he spots you. Â
His eyes light up even moreâif that's even physically possible. "Y/N?" He calls out, grinning widely. Â
Great. Now you're here. He's happy to see you. You're standing in the middle of his gallery with a robot baby that can most definitely smell your fear. Â
Fantastic. Just fantastic. Â
Jay's voice cuts through your existential spiral, "Y/N!" He's waving you over as he calls out your name again, like you're a long-lost friend who's just returned from war.Â
Well, to be fair, you are fighting a warâagainst your own dumb feelings. Â
"Hey!" You croak, trying to sound casual but ending up somewhere between a dog's favorite squeaky toy and a rusty car horn. You internally flinch at your own voice. Â
"Wow, you came," he says, his sweet smile still on display as you shuffle over to where he's standing. "And you brought Jisoo! My biggest fan."
He reaches out to cup Jisoo's cheeks, and you almost smack yourself in the head for feeling jealous over your own robot baby. Â
"Yeah, well," you start, trying to sound nonchalant. "I figured, you know, project partners should support each other...teamwork and all that."Â Â
Jay raises an eyebrow, clearly trying to stifle a laugh, "Right. Teamwork. Totally."Â Â
You shift your weight from one leg to another, awkwardly looking up, eventually landing your eyes on the wall behind him, scanning the photos on display. Each photo is so himâa little chaotic, a little bold, but somehow...strikingly beautiful. There's a photo of a rainy city street, the light catching every droplet; a close-up of a sunflower against a brilliant sky; a candid of a kid laughing, his face tilted up toward the sun. Â
You suddenly feel a weird, warm pull in your chest. Itâs one thing to see Jay cracking jokes and making sarcastic comments during late-night baby meltdowns. But this? This is a side of him youâve never seen beforeâone thatâs thoughtful, intentional, passionate.Â
You donât realize how long youâve been staring until Jay speaks up, his voice softer now. âDo you like them?âÂ
You blink, startled, and then nod a little too quickly. You hope he doesn't notice (he does). Â
"Yeah. I mean...these are really good, Jay. You'reâ" you cut yourself off, realizing you're about to say something embarrassing.
''âtalented," you finish lamely. Â
"Thanks," Jay tilts his head, looking almost shy. "That means a lot, actually."Â Â
His voice is so genuine that it throws you off. You weren't prepared for this level of sincerity. It makes your stomach flip in a way that's both exciting and mildly terrifying. Â
Jay gestures toward the wall, his hands shoved into his pockets like he's trying not to fidget.
"I wasn't sure if this was your kind of thing, thought you'd be busy and stuff, but I'm glad you came. I, uh..," he scratches the back of his neck sheepishly, "I was kind of hoping you would."Â Â
Oh. Â
Oh? Â
OH. Â
Your brain immediately short-circuits. He hoped you'd come? Like...in a we're-in-this-together-as-project-partners way, or in a please-let-this-mean-something-more-than-project-partners way? Is this what cardiac arrest feels like? Should you call someone? Should you call him? No, wait, you're already talking to himâfocus!Â
You clear your throat and try to channel every ounce of chill you simply do not possess.
"Well," you say, attempting to keep your voice steady and failing miserably, "I'm here."Â Â
It comes out barely louder than a whisper, and you immediately regret every life decision that's led you to this moment. But then Jay smilesâsoft, something smaller, more privateâand it's like the world shifts slightly off its axis. Â
"Yeah," he says quietly, his eyes meeting yours with a warmth that makes you forget how to breathe. "You are."Â Â
And just like that, the noise of the environment dissolves, and the rest of the world shrinks to nothing but the space between you and him. The moment feels impossibly big like it might swallow you whole, and yet so small it could shatter with the slightest breath. Â
You're pretty sure you're about to combust. Explode. Turn into a human firework fueled entirely by sheer tension and whatever it is that's happening right now. God, why does he have to look at you like that? Like you're not standing here internally unraveling? Â
You break eye contact to glance down at Jisoo, and you're positive she's giving you a look that screams, Stop being weird, you two. Â
"Anyway!" You blurt out, desperate to break the tension.
"Which one's your favorite?" You gesture to the photos, your eyes darting anywhere but his own.Â
He laughs, and the sound is warm and unguarded, "C'mon, I'll show you."Â Â
He grabs your free hand without thinking, tugging you toward the far end of the wall. And just like that, you're helplessly following him, heart racing again, wondering how the hell you got hereâand why you never want to leave. Â
So much for in and out. Â
Jay pulls you towards the far end of the gallery, his hand wrapped around yours like it's the most natural thing in the world. Â
It's not. Â
Your brain is in full-blown meltdown mode. Red alerts, sirens blaring, a voice screaming, "WE'RE HOLDING HANDS, PEOPLE!"Â Â
But there's no way you're about to let him see how much this is affecting you, so you shove the chaos down, pretending like your hand isn't currently experiencing the touch equivalent of fireworks...and hoping that it isn't sweaty. Â
"This one," Jay says, stopping in front of a photo that's somehow both ordinary and magical. It's a simple shot of your campus football field, taken from the bleacher stands. You've stood in those very bleachers too many times to countâfor school events, games, the occasional half-hearted attempt to pretend you like sports. But somehow, in this shot, the field looks...different. Â
The grass glows like it's soaked in liquid gold under a sky caught between dusk and twilight. The field is empty, yet it doesn't feel lonely. There's something about it that Jay managed to captureâlike it holds a thousand stories and secrets, quietly hopeful in its stillness. Â
"It's beautiful," you murmur, the words slipping out before you can catch them.Â
"Yeah," Jay lets out a breath. "It's my favorite spot on campus. I go there a lot when I need to think or just...get away a bit."Â Â
You glance at him, startled at the sudden vulnerability in his voice. Jay never strikes you as someone who gets lost in his head; he always seemed too confident, too effortlessly sure of himself. But right now, he's not looking at youâhe's staring at the photo, like he's seeing something beyond it. Â
"I took it on one of those daysâI was just overthinking a lot about life. About who I am, I guess," he continues. "I didn't think it'd turn out good or anything, but...I don't know. It felt right."Â Â
Your chest tightens. There's something so raw in the way he's speaking, like he's letting you see a side of him he usually keeps hidden. It makes you wonder how many other layers Jay Park has, and why it feels so important to uncover them all. Â
The silence between you stretches as you watch Jay continue to study his own photograph. There's a softness in his gaze, a quiet vulnerability that makes you feel like you're seeing him a way few people ever do. Â
But then he blinks, breaking the moment, and suddenly he's looking at you. You stiffen, panic bubbling up at the possibility that he might've noticed you staring at him. Â
"Sorry," he says, his voice carrying a self-deprecating chuckle. "It's really cheesy and stupid."Â Â
You find yourself shaking your head before he even finishes his sentence.
"No! Not at all, really," you blurt out, the words stumbling over themselves in their rush to escape. You feel the heat creeping up your neck, mortified at your sudden intensity. Â
Jay raises an eyebrow, amused, but doesn't say anything, so you clear your throat and try again, softer this time, "I mean it. You have a good eye, Jay."
You mean it more than you've meant anything in a while, and you hope he knows that. Â
For a second, he just looks at you, like he's taking note of something, his head tilted ever so slightly. And then, slowly, his lips curve into that small, genuine smile that makes your chest feel annoyingly warm.
"Thanks, Y/N."Â Â
Your heart does a little somersault. Oh great. There it goes again. Â
And as if Jisoo can sense the moment might be getting too serious, she lets out a cry. You stumble back, jump scared enough by the loud and sudden sound, and Jay reacts instantly, steadying you with his hands on your shoulders. Â
"You okay?" He asks, his face so close that you can now confirm there are literal, actual flecks of gold in his eyes. Of course there are. Â
You blink. I've officially lost it. Completely, utterly, hopelessly, lost it. Â
You nod, your voice stuck in your throat. Am I okay? No. No, you are not okay. You are decidedly not okay. Â
Jay clears his throat, stepping backâthough his hands linger a beat longer than they probably need to, but still a second too short than you should probably want to.Â
You want to scream into the void. Â
"Looks like it's time for Jisoo's dinner," he says lightly with a small chuckle.Â
You fumble for words, your brain still offline.
"Uhâyeah. I left her bottle at my place, and I should probably get going anyways," you manage, your voice a little too breathless for comfort. Â
Jay glances at his watch, pausing for a moment before looking back at you, something hopeful flicking in his eyes.
"I'm pretty much done here," he says, tilting his head towards the door. "It's late. Let me walk you home."Â Â
You hesitate, torn between insisting you're perfectly fine on your own (you're not) and letting him (you want to). But the way he's looking at youâlike it's no big deal, like he simply wants toâmakes the decision for you. Â
"Okay," you say, quieter than you mean to, and before you can second-guess yourself, Jay's already taking Jisoo's carrier from your arms, effortlessly shifting it onto his own. Â
"Let's go," he says, flashing you a small smile that feels like a punch to your stomach in the best way possible. Â
And just like that, you're walking side by side into the cool night air, your breaths visible in the chill, easily falling into a comfortable rhythm as you walk through the quiet campus, the streetlights above casting long shadows ahead of you.Â
Thereâs something easy about walking with him like this. It shouldnât feel this naturalâyour heartâs doing somersaults and pirouettes like itâs auditioning for a circusâbut it does. You steal a glance at him, and heâs focused on the path ahead, his profile calm and soft in the glow of the lights.Â
"So," Jay breaks the quiet as he stuffs his hands into his jacket pockets, "Can you believe the project's almost over?"Â Â
You let out a small laugh, tilting your head, "Honestly, no. Feels like just yesterday I was praying you'd drop the class."Â Â
Jay laughs, a sound that seems to echo in the quiet environment.
"Wow, Y/N. I thought we were bonding."Â Â
"We were," you tease, turning to him with a barely concealed smirk. "I just also thought you were going to be a disaster of a partner."Â Â
He scoffs, giving you a mock-offended look, "I proved you wrong, right? I was amazing since day one."Â Â
"You handed Jisoo to me like she was a bomb, Jay," you remind him, unable to stop yourself from laughing. Â
"I was assessing the danger!" Jay protests, his grin widening. "And excuse me, I've stepped up. I've made bottles, I've cleaned her, I even know how to put on a diaper the right side up!"Â Â
"Jay, the fact that you had to learn which way was right side up is concerning in itself," you manage to let out with a giggle.Â
"Details, details," he waves a dismissive hand. "Point is, I'm practically father of the year."Â Â
You roll your eyes, but you're smiling. A sharp breeze suddenly hits the both of you, and you visibly shiver from the lack of warmth your outfit provides. All that time choosing an outfit, and you still couldn't pick a weather-appropriate one. Stellar, Y/N. Â
And of course, Jay notices immediately. Before you can so much as form a protest, he's shrugging his jacket off and draping it over your shoulders, your body immediately stiffening as his hands brush against you lightly in the process. Â
You open your mouth to say somethingâanything, even just a whispered thank youâbut Jay beats you to it, sparing you the effort of finding actual, coherent words.Â
âSo,â he says casually, like he hasnât just sent your brain spiraling, âwhat do you think youâll do when itâs over?â
"Uh," you blink, still needing a second to reorient yourself. "Sleep, for once."Â Â
Jay laughs again. "Fair. You deserve it. But you'll miss me, right?"Â Â
"Not even for a second," you deadpan without hesitation. Â
"Liar," he teases, bumping your shoulder lightly. Â
You reach your building all too soon, the doors looming in front of you like an unwelcome reminder that this walk, this moment, is about to end. You stop just before the steps and turn to face him, rocking on your heels. Â
"Okay, maybe a little," you admit, shrugging. "But only because you make me look like the competent one by comparison."Â Â
"Wow," Jay shakes his head, but there it is again. The smileâthe small, amused one that makes his eyes crinkle just enough to be unfairly attractive.Â
You glance up at him, wishing the walk had been just a few blocks longer. Or a few miles. Â
"Well," you say finally, forcing your gaze away from his own. "Thanks for walking me. And for carrying Jisoo."Â
You reach for Jisoo's carrier, and Jay hands it over without hesitation, but not before shrugging like it's no big deal.
"No problem," he says. Then, as you're adjusting the carrier on your arm, he adds, "And thanks again, Y/N. For coming tonight. It really meant a lot."Â Â
Your heart does that stupid fluttery thing again it's been doing all night, and you're starting to think you need a medical consultation. Â
"Yeah, well," you clear your throat. "Partner support, you know?" You sound dumb, Y/N. Dumb. Â
Jay smirks, but there's something gentler in his expression now, a flicker of something you can't quite name.Â
"Goodnight, Y/N. And goodnight, Jisoo," he says, giving a small wave to the baby carrier, making you giggle slightly. Â
He takes a few steps back, his hands slipping into his pockets, and gives you one last smile before turning to walk away. But before he gets too far, something bursts out of you, unwarned. Â
"Jay!"Â Â
He stops, turning on his heels, his brows lifting in surprise. "Yeah?"Â Â
You step forward, closing a bit of the distance between you, suddenly hyper-aware of how your voice wavers.
"Um, I was wrong. You're...not all that bad." Why am I doing this? "I'm sorry if I've been...you know, intense. These past few years."Â Â
Jay blinks at you, his surprise turning into something softer. You take a deep breath, pushing through the self-inflicted awkwardness.Â
"You've been a really good partner," you add, offering a small, genuinely smile. "And well...you're pretty cool."Â Â
His studies your face for a moment, the look longing and careful, like he's piecing together something fragile. A faint smile tugs at his lips, and there's a warmth in his expression that sends heat rushing to your cheeks.  Â
For a moment, the two of you just stand here, caught in the glow of the streetlamp. The world around you feels distant, like someone's hit the mute button on everything but the sound of your heartbeat. Â
Jay's smile widens ever so slightly, and he nods, his voice quiet but firm, "I'll see you around, Y/N."Â Â
He takes a few steps backward, his gaze holding yours until he finally turns and starts walking away. You watch him disappear into the night, the outline of his figure fading with the streetlights, and only then do you realize you've been holding your breath. Â
As you step into your building and climb the stairs to your apartment, the night replays in your head on a loopâhis laugh, his smile, his everything. Â
When you finally reach your door, you lean against it for a moment, his large jacket still wrapped around you. Your thoughts crash into you all at once, and two things become alarmingly clear:Â Â
You are completely, utterly, hopelessly in like with Jay Park. Â
You're in so much trouble. Â
âCongratulations, everyone!â Professor Kim clasps her hands together at the front of the classroom, a wide smile on her face. âYouâve survived six weeks of parenting. Hopefully, youâve learned something usefulâand that it hasnât scared you off from actual parenthood one day. Each baby had a monitor tracking its status, so Iâll be extracting that data, combining it with your progress reports, and factoring it into your grade.âÂ
Jay leans toward you from his seat next to you, his breath warm against your ear.
âThatâs a little creepyâŠsheâs going to take Jisoo apart? The poor thing.â His smirk is half-guilty, half-amused, and you have to bite down on your lip to keep from laughing out loud.Â
This is new. Six weeks ago, he was Mr. Front-Row Enthusiast, and sometime between then and now, youâve somehow managed to convert him into your next-row-back partner. Heâd grumbled at first when you insisted about your theory that the front row screamed try-hard, but since then, he doesnât even glance at the seats up front anymore.Â
âGrades will be out soon! Iâll see you all next week,â Professor Kim announces. âAnd donât forget to submit your reflection posts!âÂ
The shuffle of bags and jackets fills the room as students thank her on their way out. Slowly, the lecture hall empties, until itâs just you and Jay lingering at your seats.Â
âWell,â you say, slinging your bag over your shoulder as you stand. âThatâs it. No more parenting lessons for us.âÂ
Jay heaves a dramatic sigh, his lips pulling into a pout thatâs far too endearing for your peace of mind, âI canât believe it. I already miss Jisoo.âÂ
You chuckle lightly but feel an odd tug in your chest, âRight? I got so used to carrying her and her baby bag everywhere. Itâs weird not having her around.âÂ
And it is weird. You never thought youâd feel this way about a glorified hunk of plastic and wires, but now, without Jisoo, something feelsâŠoff. Â
Or maybe itâs not just Jisoo. Maybe itâs the fact that this project, unexpectedly enough, turned into an excuseâa reason to spend so much time with Jay. Now that itâs over, what happens next?Â
The thought hangs between you as the two of you head out of the building. The campus is alive with the hum of students, the energy buzzing around you as everyone heads to their afternoon classes. You both stop outside, standing awkwardly side by side as the silence stretches.Â
No more 'Jisoo days' to plan for. No more excuses to text. No more shared tasks or inside jokes.Â
Will he go back to his front-row seat, forgetting these last few weeks? Or will heâwill youâpretend none of this ever happened?Â
Jay shifts beside you, rubbing the back of his neck. His eyes flicker to yours, then away again, as if heâs waiting for you to say something first.Â
âWell,â you finally say, breaking the quiet because itâs just too heavy to bear. âI have to head to my next class.âÂ
âRight. Yeah,â Jay says quickly, too quickly, his hands both fidgeting with the straps of his backpack. âMakes sense.âÂ
He hesitates, his mouth opening like heâs about to add something, but then he stops. You notice the way heâs looking at you, like thereâs a thousand things he wants to say but canât figure out how to start. You feel that familiar heat creep up your neck, the same one you tend to get whenever youâre around him nowadays. Â
âAlright,â you finally say, shifting on your feet. âSee you around, then?âÂ
Jayâs lips turn up in a small, almost longing, smile, âYeah. See you.âÂ
He doesnât move, though. Neither do you. Itâs like both of you are waiting for the other to take a step away first, and the pause grows longer and longer until you can practically hear the universe screaming at you to just go already. Itâs getting unbearably uncomfortable for all of us, Y/N. Â
And when you finally start to turn, before you can even take three steps, his voice stops you.Â
âHey.âÂ
You glance back over your shoulder, raising an eyebrow. âYeah?âÂ
Jay scratches the back of his neck, looking like heâs fighting some kind of internal battle.
âUh, you were also a really good partner. You know, with Jisoo. I mean, you were kinda terrifying at first with all your color-coded schedules and spreadsheets, butâŠâÂ
His smile softens, and his voice drops a little, âYou were great. Really. I think I learned a thing or two from you.â Â
Your stomach flips in a way thatâs both infuriating and addictive.Â
âThanks,â you say, trying to sound casual even though your brain is short-circuiting. âMeans a lot from someone who had to Google which way a diaper goes.â Â
He laughs, the sound bright and warm in the cool air, âOkay, one time, Y/N. Let it go.âÂ
âNope.â You grin, turning fully toward him now, your nerves settling under the familiarity of teasing. âYouâll never live it down. Itâs my parting gift to you.âÂ
Jay presses a hand to his chest, feigning hurt, âWow. I pour my heart out, and this is what I get in return?âÂ
âExactly.âÂ
He chuckles again, shaking his head before finally stepping back, breaking the invisible bubble thatâs been holding you both in place.
âAlright. Iâll see you, Y/N.âÂ
âBye, Jay,â you say, forcing yourself to turn and start walking away. Â
You make it a few steps before you hear his voice a second time, softer this time, almost hesitant.Â
âY/N.âÂ
You glance back, your heart skipping a beat.Â
Jay looks at you for a moment, his expression unreadable, before his lips curve into a small, lopsided smile.
âText me when you get home later tonight, okay? After your day is done.â Â
You blink, caught off guard.
âWhat?âÂ
âJustâŠso I know you got there safe,â he says, shrugging like itâs no big deal. But the way his voice dips at the end betrays him.Â
Your chest tightens in a way that officially feels dangerous. But you know you never want to get enough of this feeling.  Â
âOkay,â you manage to say, the word quieter than you meant, but it was the most you could muster up with the bubble stuck in your throat. Â
Jay nods, his smile widening just a little.
âGood.âÂ
And this time, when you turn away, you canât stop the smile that sneaks onto your face.Â
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By the time you get home, itâs late, and the apartment is quiet. Esther is nowhere to be foundâprobably out with Heeseung or at the library pretending to study. You toe off your shoes and drop your bag by the door, the routine feeling strangely empty without Jisooâs carrier on your arm and her baby bag strapped to the other. Â
With a sigh, you find your way to your room and collapse onto your bed, scrolling aimlessly through your phone. Jayâs parting words have been echoing in your head all day, barely letting you focus during the rest of your classesââText me when you get home.âÂ
You hover over your messages for a second longer than necessary, typing and deleting a draft once, then twice, then a third time, before finally hitting send:Â
Y/N [8:52PM]: home safe đÂ
You stare at the screen for exactly three seconds before flinging your phone across your bed. You roll over, face buried in your pillow, half hoping he doesnât reply so you donât have to overanalyze the significance of a thumbs-up emoji.Â
But, of course, your phone buzzes almost instantly.Â
Jay [8:53PM]: good đ sleep well.Â
A small, ridiculous smile tugs at your lips. You really shouldnât be this giddy over such a mundane exchange, over a thumbs up emoji, but somehow, here you are.Â
And thatâs when you start going insane. You shoot up from your spot in bed. Â
Why did he tell you to text him? Does he say that to everyone? Or was it justâŠyou? And why does he keep looking at you like that? Youâve never been the kind of person to spiral like this, but lately, everything about Jay has you unraveling in ways you donât know how to handle.
Clearly. Â
You groan, flailing your arms like a toddler throwing a tantrum.
âGet it together, Y/N,â you mutter to yourself, but itâs no use. Every little interaction from the past six weeks replays in your head on a loopâhis laughter, his stupid jokes, the way his eyes crinkle when he smiles.Â
Your thoughts are interrupted by a sharp buzz from your phone. You glance over, half expecting a random notification (the other half hoping Jay double texted you) but instead, itâs the one youâve been waiting for without realizing it:Â
Professor Kim: Final grades are posted!Â
Your heart leaps. Practically fumbling with your phone, you open the grading portal, scanning the page with a held breath. And there it is, staring back at you in bold letters:Â
Semester Project Grade: 100%Â
âYES!â you exclaim, punching the air like a successful cartoon character. Youâre grinning so wide your cheeks hurt, practically bouncing in bed. Itâs the kind of happiness that makes you feel like youâre going to burst if you donât share it with someone.Â
And thereâs only one person you want to share it with.Â
Before you know what youâre doing, your closet doors are wide open, your hands rifling through. Your hands land on his jacketâthe one he lent you after the showcaseâand something about it feels right. You shrug it on, ignoring the way it smells faintly like him (and comfort), and grab your keys without a second thought.Â
By the time you realize what youâre doing, youâre already halfway to Jayâs apartment. Itâs not like you had a planâjust this overwhelming need to see him. Â
Because somehow, heâs become the first person you want to share everything with, want to experience every moment with, want to feel every feeling with, and that thought is both exhilarating and terrifying all at once. Â
But youâve never been so sure of anything else before. Â
Your breath hitches as you reach his familiar door, hand raised to knock. You hesitate for a moment, suddenly aware of how ridiculous this is. Who shows up at someoneâs place at this hour, unannounced, just to tell them about a grade? What if he already saw it and didnât even think twice? You look insane, Y/N. Insane. Â
But then you think about the way he looked at you earlier, the way he smiled when he said âgood job.âÂ
And you knock. Â
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Jay doesnât know whatâs happening. One second, heâs on his couch editing photos, and the next, someoneâs trying to break down his door. At least, thatâs what it sounds like. The pounding is so aggressive it makes his mug of tea tremble slightly on the table.Â
Heart racing, Jay tosses his laptop aside and scans the room for a weapon. Nothing. Great. In a flash of panic, he grabs the TV remote because, sure, itâs sleek, ergonomic, and maybe intimidating in the right light.Â
Bracing himself for certain doom, he yanks the door openâÂ
âOh.âÂ
Itâs you.Â
At his doorstep.Â
Unannounced.Â
In his jacket.Â
Jay flatlines. All he can do is stare at you in the oversized jacketâhis oversized jacketâlooking like you walked straight out of one of his dream scenarios. The rational part of him is trying to keep it together, but the feral part of his brain is screaming Sheâs in my clothes. Marriage now.Â
You tilt your head, studying his expression.
âJay? Are youâŠokay?âÂ
He blinks, realizing heâs been standing there for a good five seconds with his mouth slightly open. Â
âUh. Yeah. Totally. Uhâwhatâs up?âÂ
âWell first, why are you wielding a TV remote like itâs a sword?âÂ
Jay glances down at the remote in his hand, then back at you.
ââŠI thought you were a robber.âÂ
âA robber?â you repeat, struggling not to laugh. âWhat kind of robber knocks?âÂ
âI donât know, maybe a polite one!âÂ
You let out a giggle and shrug, âFair enough. But anyway, Iâm here becauseâdid you see?âÂ
âSee what?â He frowns, confused, and still recovering from his adrenaline rush.Â
âProfessor Kim posted our grades! We got a 100%!âÂ
Jay stares at you for a second before the words sink in.
âWaitâwhat? We got a hundred?âÂ
âYes!â Youâre practically bouncing, a bright smile lighting up your face. âA perfect score, Jay!âÂ
He laughs and steps forward, grabbing your shoulders in his hands.
âNo way. We actually did it?!âÂ
âWe did it!â You beam back, jumping up and down. âWe crushed it!âÂ
Jayâs grinning so hard his cheeks hurt, but he doesnât care. Thereâs something about seeing you this happy, standing in his doorway like a whirlwind of energy, that makes his chest feel way too full, too complete. Â
And for a moment, the two of you are just standing there, caught up in the moment, smiling at each other like idiots.Â
When the excitement dies down, Jay notices the way youâre still slightly breathless, like youâd run all the way here. Â
âWait,â he squints. âYou couldâve just texted me, you know.âÂ
âOh,â you shift your weight, suddenly looking a little shy. âYeah. But I justâŠwanted to see you.âÂ
Jay blinks. His brain is once again malfunctioning. Â
âOh.â Â
Oh?Â
OH. Â
âYeah. SoâŠhere I am,â you add, failing miserably to conceal the wobble in your voice. Â
âHere you are,â he repeats, his voice back to that soft tone that knows how to make your heart go into overdrive. Â
His eyes flicker to yours and stay there as the air between you suddenly feels heavier. Charged.Â
âIs that all?â Jay asks, his lips twitching into a teasing smile.Â
âUh,â you clear your throat, looking anywhere but at him. âI guess.âÂ
Jay leans against the doorframe, studying you with that stupidly charming smirk of his, âWell, then.âÂ
âWell, then,â you echo, fingers fidgeting with the hem of his jacket like itâs the most fascinating thing youâve ever encountered (spoiler: itâs not. That would be Jayâs face. But weâre not admitting that just yet).Â
Neither of you moves. Not even a millimeter. The silence stretches so long that youâre pretty sure somewhere in the world, a Netflix show just autoplayed its next episode.Â
Then, suddenly, Jay watches as your face cycles through the emotional Olympics: panic, resolve, regret, and whatever it is that makes your eyebrows do that cute scrunch thing he secretly loves.Â
âI should go,â you say, finally breaking the silence, your voice quieter now. âSorry for barging in like this.âÂ
You look down at your feet, hands still mindlessly playing with the sleeve of his jacket. Jayâs stomach twists at the sightâat the quiet, unsure way youâre suddenly retreating. Â
No. Absolutely not. He doesnât know where his bravery is coming from (he suspects itâs sheer desperation), but he refuses to let you leave like this.Â
Before you can fully turn away, Jay reaches out and gently grabs your sleeve, tugging you back like youâre his favorite person in the worldâwhich, spoiler again, you totally are.Â
âWait,â he says, pulling you close enough that you bump into his chest. Both his hands find their way to your waist, steadying you with an ease that feels practiced. Like itâs where his hands were always meant to be.Â
And that's when Jay knows for sure: he likes you. He likes you bad. Painful highlighters, confusing spreadsheets, and all. He likes the way you carry your stubbornness like a badge of honor. He likes the way you chew on your pen when you're deep in thought. The way you turn his every sarcastic comment into a competition he's somehow thrilled to lose. Â
âYou forgot something,â he murmurs, his voice soft and low as his eyes search yours, then your lips, then your entire face. Â
Your heart stumbles, your brain short-circuits, and youâre pretty sure your face is now the color of a stop sign.Â
âOh, uh, the jacket?â you stammer, looking down at where he grabbed your sleeve, grasping for any logical explanation. âYouâre right. Sorry, I almostââÂ
But before you can finish, Jay does something both incredibly bold and incredibly reckless. He leans in and presses his lips to yours.Â
For a moment, you freeze. This isnât real. Is this an alternate universe where Jay kisses you instead of just driving you insane?Â
But then, the realization sinks inâJay is kissing you. Like, actually kissing you. And wow.Â
The first touch of his lips sends a rush through your entire body, like every nerve has suddenly woken up all at once. Heâs hesitant at first, almost like heâs giving you the chance to pull away, but when you donâtâwhen you finally let go of all the confusion, overthinking, and denialâyou lean into him, your hands both instinctively reaching up, gripping the fabric of his shirt to ground yourself as you kiss him back, now realizing how much you desperately wanted this. Â
And thatâs all the encouragement Jay needs. Â
His hands tighten on your waist, pulling you flush against him, his fingers brushing the hem of the jacket youâre wearingâhis jacket, you remember with a strange, fluttering thrill. The kiss deepens, gentle but insistent, a slow, breathtaking unraveling of all the tension thatâs been simmering between you for weeks.Â
Itâs like the air shifts around you, the space between you collapsing into nothing. You feel his breath, warm against your skin, and the faintest hitch in it when your hand moves up to lightly curl against the back of his neck.Â
Heâs so close, and everything about this moment feels rightâhis familiar scent, the steady warmth of his hands on your waist, the way he tilts his head slightly to meet yours like heâs memorizing the shape of you.Â
Your heart pounds, the world spinning just a little too fast and too slow all at once. Itâs electric, and dizzying, and somehow everything and nothing like you imagined (because, yes, youâve imagined itâso what?).Â
Jay pulls back just slightly, his forehead brushing yours as he grins, his voice a playful mumble against your lips, not wanting to break the kiss, âYou can keep the jacket.âÂ
Your laugh bubbles out before you can stop it, your forehead dropping to his shoulder as you clutch at his arms for balance.
âSeriously? Thatâs what youâre thinking about right now?âÂ
âIâm a multi-tasker,â he replies, deadpan, his lips turning into a teasing smirk as he leans in and steals another quick kiss. He starts to pull back again, but you don't let himâyour hand catches his sleeve as you dart up and chase his lips for one more peck, light and fleeting, but enough to make him smile like a fool.
You're completely, utterly, hopelessly obsessed with him. Â
"Besides," he adds, the words smug as his arms tighten around you, "I've already sacrificed my jacket. Might as well give up my dignity too."Â Â
You roll your eyes, âYouâre still an idiot.âÂ
âAnd yet, Iâm the idiot you kissed back,â Jay fires back, brushing a strand of hair from your face. Â
You shake your head, your voice soft and teasing, âYouâre soââÂ
The words trail off as you meet his gaze again, and before you can even think about stopping yourself, you tilt your head up, close the remaining distance between you, and kiss him first this time. Â
Jay freezes for a second, caught off guard, before he fully melts into the kiss again, one hand instinctively curling around your waist to keep you as close as possible. There's no hesitation now, no teasing, no holding backâjust the two of you in the quiet of his doorway, and the overwhelming certainty that neither of you wants to let thisâthis moment, this feelingâto end.Â
When you finally pull back, Jayâs eyes are sparkling, his gaze holding an undeniable warmth.Â
âYou know,â he starts, voice light but tinged with something deeper, âif you keep doing that, I might start thinking you actually like me or something.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow, leaning in just close enough to make him squirm, your smirk playful.Â
âAnd if you keep talking,â you murmur, your voice low and teasing, âI might change my mind.âÂ
Jay blinks, momentarily stunned, before letting out a breathless laugh, his arms instinctively circling your waist again, pulling you just a little closer.
âNoted. Say less. Iâll shut up forever. Youâre stuck with me now.âÂ
Stuck with Jay? As in a more-than-project-partners kind of way?Â
Yeah, you think, meeting the smile heâs giving you.Â
You donât mind that idea one bit.Â
Now that the six weeks of parenthood is over, we ask that you write a reflection post in response to your pre-questionnaire answers we asked you at the beginning of the project. Were your expectations met? Exceeded? Any surprises along the way?
Y/Nâs Submission [11:15AM, October 30th]:
Parenting, even with a robot baby, turned out to be nothing like I expected. Iâve learned that no matter how much you plan, babies (and life) have a way of completely ignoring your carefully crafted schedules. It was frustrating at times, but it also made thingsâŠunexpectedly fun.
Speaking of unexpectedâletâs just say my partnership for this project caught me completely off guard, in the best way possible. Turns out, some surprises are worth breaking the plan for :)
Jayâs Submission [11:30AM, October 30th]:
Honestly? I expected surprises, but I wasnât ready to lose three years of my life over a diaper changeâor nearly go deaf from tantrums. Safe to say, I learned the hard way that being a little prepared isnât such a bad idea.
But hereâs the thing: turns out, babies (and certain project partners) have a way of growing on you. Who knew spreadsheets and sleepless nights could actually beâŠkinda great? I guess what Iâm saying is, sometimes the best things arenât planned. And also, I know how to change a diaper in 30 seconds now. The right side up :)
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imagine how easy life would be if I actually got tired at the time you're meant to get tired and not all the other times.
#took a nap earlier this evening bc I felt like SHIT#and whaddya know it helped immensely#but now it's five am and I have been on the internets all night#like why was I literally so exhausted earlier like to the point where I didn't even have energy to scroll through social media. and then no#there's no possible way I can go to sleep#and like it's not entirely that I took a nap bc its like this Every Day#ppl who get tired at night genuinely don't know how easy they have it#and I'm allowed to say that bc I had a phase of half a year where that happened to me#ante's antics
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Do you think cybertronians ever get a bit freaked out on how tough we are? Yes they can break us like toothpicks but humans seem to be able to take a good beating as well with adrenaline helping. Even our own body and oxygen trys kills us and yet we stick around like roaches. We're fragile in some reasonable and dumb ways and then resilient in the most dumbest ways.
Oh definitely, alot of the bots are very off put by how fragile humans are just in general and tend to avoid them.
But then there's the moments like Ratchet working a late shift and a small knock on the door alerts him someone's there, he turns around expecting it to be Rodimus or Whirl who he's about to scold but instead it's one of the humans and they look worse for wear. After fussing over them for a moment, detailed scans relay fractured ribs, a broken collar bone, and a heap of bruises and yet the humans just like. "Can I have some Panadol, Nurophen, and a glass of water?" Because they don't know what else to do its what they would get. Most of the times they ended up in the hospital. Ratchet is losing his God dawn mind as he rushes around looking for the best painkillers he can find for orgaincs in the smallest dosage he can give, hoping to primus it doesn't shut their heart down. In the end, they end up on a medication that makes them extremely drowsy, almost like the green whistle/ Weed.
Ratchet ends up doing alot of study on the human body and realises just how fucked up little monsters we are. We literally need oxygen to survive but he we have to much pure oxygen it will kill us. Water, we need a certain amount of it, if we don't have enough we will get dehydrated and die, if we have to much we will get water poisoning, intoxication, or a disruption of brain function. This happens when there's too much water in our cells, such as the brain and blood cells, causing them to swell. When the cells in the brain swell, they cause pressure in the brain, resulting in death. The issue is that it can become an addiction to drinking too much water for the effect it has on the body. Same with nearly everything we consume, it can kill us, but we need a lot of it in moderation.
Human: "I just need some basic pain killers and a nap"
Bot: "No, you need full surgery, sedations, and 3 weeks of recovery!"
Human: "nah she'll be fine!"
Bot: "Absolutely Not, bed now before I cuff you"
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Following that imagine a first contact AU where Cybertronians and humans are just slowly getting to know how the other works and next thing a human is kneeling over in horrific pain and it send the bots all into panic mode trying to help them, wondering what's happening and thinking they are dying. And the human after about ten minutes some pain killers still looking rather pale and unhealthy just go. "Sorry about that fuck I hate, Cramps/palpitations/ phantom pains/ and such" and the bots are just looking at them horrified like.
Bot: NOT NORMAL!!!"
Human: what you talking about?
Bot: everything that just happened you literally just short circuited!
Human: nah that's causal wait till you see the really funky shit.
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Human pet AU
Cybertronian's keeping humans as pets is like humans keeping hamsters. Humans are some of the most homicidal, suicidal and just deranged creatures that Cybertronian's could keep as pets. It's gotten to the point that they are a luxury/ exotic pet because if you do not feed them the right stuff, give them the right amount of light and socialising, and they will just die. There are so many Cybertronian's who take their human into clinics worried as and its just the human being a little bustard because they didn't get the treat they wanted 2 weeks ago and are still holding that grudge. Not to mention, we are prone to causing as much trouble and issue. We are like cats.
But we are also very easily sick and primus forbid a human gets sick because to a bot they think it's a death sentence for their sweet little spitfire of a human who they have had now for ages. And the human looks ready to die, and the next day, they are up and about like nothing ever happened.
Human: if you don't feed me the meals I want I'm going to pretend to die. If you do feed me what I want I might actually die because I shouldn't be eating it.
Panicked bot: "MY HUMAN HAS GOTTEN SICK. HELP!?!"
Human: totally worth it.
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In conclusion, the cybertronians are rather wary/ concerned about how resilient humans really are.
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» pairing: jungkook x reader
» genre: fwb to lovers, hurt/comfort, nsfw
» synopsis: âshow me your thorns, and I'll show you hands ready to bleed.â
» warnings: allusions to depression, brief mentions of self harm (nothing graphic!), a little bit of angst, cuddling, reassurance, jungkook is a big green flag, talks of therapy and healing, confessions, lots of kisses, he's down bad and so in love :( (they both are), pet names, soft!dom jk, slight size kink, missionary bc he needs to look at her and kiss her đ©, praise, dirty talk, choking, creampie, aftercare
His hand curled around the nape of your neck the moment your lips touched. Warmth trickled down your spine, and he titled his head; tongue prodding at your soft lips, like he wanted you down to the marrow. Like he wanted to dip into your soul, kiss after kiss, until he was completely submerged; until he's explored every nook and crevice, felt every bump and crack.
He pulled away from the heat of your mouth slowly, reluctantly, eyes half lidded and dark. Lungs expanding to take in more air, voice coming out hoarse.
"You weren't answering your phone..."
"I know," you whispered, "I'm sorry."
Jungkook shook his head.
"No need to be sorry, baby," he lifted your hand to his lips, leaving a kiss on the soft skin there. "I was just worried."
He wrapped his arms around you, pulling you in closer. You sank into his embrace so easily; like you just came home. In a way, you have. He hasn't seen you in over a week...
It may not have seemed like much, but your absence was tangible. Suffocating. Especially when he didn't know if something was wrong.
"I'm glad you're here," he murmured.
You turned your head to peck his shoulder, fingers entwining, and then you were walking towards his bedroom as though it was second nature. The change in your demeanor had the corners of Jungkook's eyes crinkling from smiling. You practically skipped over to his bed, hopping onto the large mattress.
"Can I get a shirt, please?"
He didn't think you comprehended how fucking cute you were. He turned to open his closet and began rummaging through it.
"At this point, I'm pretty sure I'd kill someone if you asked me," he muttered.
"What?"
"Nothing, baby."
Flushing, he ignored the curious tilt of your head and threw you his favorite t-shirt.
God, how could someone be so fucking cute?
You were always excited to nap in his bed, share food and wear his clothes. The fact that it brought you comfort made his already lovesick heart swell up and ache. Something so simple, but so domestic â it fucked with his head. He wanted this every day, in every life. You were his comfort, too. Why couldn't you see it?
He leaned against his closet, arms crossed, watching you slip out of your clothes, the heap landing on the floor. It was art. You were so beautiful; inside and out. He couldn't help the way his stomach stirred and heart fluttered, yet instead of acting on his urges, he just walked over to you and bent down to pick up your clothes.
While you got into his shirt, he folded them neatly and placed them on his gaming chair.
"I missed this bed so much," you sighed.
Jungkook glanced over at you, taking a moment to drink in the image of you lying there, the black cotton of his shirt slightly too wide and too long for your body; but fuck, it looked perfect to him. He bit his lip, making his way to climb onto the mattress beside you.
"What about me?" He asked, delighted by how you opened up your arms, instinctively scooting closer to him.
"Hm, what about you?"
Jungkook pouted, eyebrows furrowing. His arms wrapped around your waist.
"Hey."
You giggled, peppering his face with kisses, and he wished he could live in this moment forever, stop all the clocks, kill time. To hell with what that would do to the universe.
"I missed you, too."
Just like that, he melted. Somehow, it hurt so bad; he had you right there, and yet he didn't. Disappearing and reappearing. Out of reach, like a mirage.
He lifted your hand to his lips again, momentarily distracted by how small it was compared to his.
"So tiny."
Amused at the scoff you let out, he turned it to kiss your palm, then paused abruptly.
A raw shade of red caught his attention.
Narrowing his eyes, he examined the wounds around multiple fingers â or at least tried to, before you caught on and pulled your hand away like you got burned.
His heart dropped.
It's been a while. Why were you doing this to yourself again?
Fuck. He felt like a failure of a man.
He swallowed thickly, then pulled you in closer, as if treading on thin ice. Terrified of making a mistake and feeling it crack under his weight. Once he was under, once it all fell apart, he didn't know if you'd let him in again.
"Baby..." he whispered into your hair.
"I'm so tired, Jungkook," mellow, you answered the question he didn't get to ask. "I don't know what's wrong with me..."
"Talk to me," he pleaded. "I can't help you if you shut me down."
You sniffed quietly. There was a loud crack. Not in the ice, but in his chest.
"You can't help me either way."
Jungkook tried to lift his head to look at you, but you gripped his hoodie, bunching up the fabric in your hand.
"Babyâ"
"Not everyone deserves help," you insisted, a wet sigh following. "What's wrong with me? Why can't I help myself? E-everyone else seems to be doing just fine, a-and I'm just rotting away, filled with these ugly thoughts and feelings, I can't do anything right."
Jungkook hugged you tighter, like he hoped he could mold you together, give you as much of him as you needed to feel whole again. He'd let you rip him to pieces to fill the void.
"Stop saying that," he breathed, his eyes burning, "fuck, stop saying that."
He stroked your back as you cried into his chest, softly, feeling helpless and furious at the same time.
"When you're always in the dark," he whispered, "you learn to make friends with monsters to survive. It's all you know, so it's what feels most comfortable."
He heard you inhale, felt your head lift with hesitation. Eyes swollen, glossy, lower lip still trembling.
Jungkook cupped your face, wiping at the wet streaks.
"When you're always in the dark, sometimes... it feels like it's all you deserve. But it's not your fault. You're not a bad person," he said softly, his thumb rubbing your lower lip. "Sometimes, it's just the monsters you know talking."
You blinked, small and vulnerable, like a child who just woke up from a nightmare.
"I... I don't know..."
Jungkook squeezed your waist, so close his nose almost touched yours.
"But I know," he promised. "I know."
He stared into your eyes, watched them well up with more tears. He wished he could kiss them all away.
"Let me be there for youâ"
You kissed him, and once again, it hurt. Because he wanted you, he wanted you so bad, but not like this â why didn't you want him, too?
Outside of the bedroom, when you weren't tangled in sheets, it seemed like you had no interest in letting your walls down. He's spent so much time trying to climb them, only to end up with broken bones, back down on the ground again.
He couldn't do this anymore.
He pulled away from your lips, denying you the oblivion you craved. He wanted to let you use him, he'd do it every day if it meant he could see you again. But he was afraid that if he didn't speak up now, he'd never find the courage to do it.
"I want to be with you," he breathed out. "Why won't you let me love you?"
There was an instant change in your expression that made his stomach lurch.
"Iâ I..."
A pause, filled with uncertainty.
Jungkook searched your eyes. The windows to the soul, they said. Broken, and the interior was dark. Nothing good lurked in there.
"I love you," he repeated.
His heart pounded in his chest. He stared right into this endless darkness, crawling with insecurities and fear. As though he was hoping the warm whisper would chase away the frigid, haunted air breaking through, make all the other voices come to a halt.
He was no longer a boy, but a man, and he feared no monsters. He wanted to flood the space with light.
"Move in with me," his palm settled on your cheek, thumb brushing your skin. "I'll help with your classes and therapy. I'll take care of you. You can lean on me until you're strong enough to stand on your own. And even then, when you do â I still wanna be there. I wanna make you happy... Every day."
There it was. His heart, right in the palm of your hand, like an offering. Bleeding through your fingers. Willing to be crushed, if it meant at least he tried.
But you cradled it instead.
Fresh tears, sticking to your eyelashes, and then a rush of warmth in the dark. Your lips pressed into his, tender, and he shut his eyes, tasting a mixture of salt and your sweetness â
"I love you," a shaky exhale, right into his mouth.
It sank into him like sunlight, pulsing, nourishing and bright. And he swallowed it up with a kiss, his teeth clashing with yours.
He shifted to hover above you, finding rest in between your legs, goosebumps erupting when he felt your hand slip under his hoodie, inching it up.
A giggle slipped past his lips, and he disconnected himself from you only to take it off, throwing it aside carelessly before he was kissing you again.
He felt you smile. You went straight to his head like wine. Your taste, your scent â your touch, exploring the muscles of his back, his shoulders.
He was already hard, aching to get lost in you; dizzy on want and love.
Hands groping over clothes, wherever they could reach, hot lips trailing down your neck. He wanted to do so many things to you; kiss every inch of your skin, make you come on his tongue.
But you had the whole night â a whole eternity, really. And the way you squirmed beneath him, arching your back, legs parting, hips raising to feel him, urgent and breathy, wiped his mind clean off anything but the need to be inside you.
Jungkook groaned, his cock twitching, leaking precum into the cotton of his boxers. He remained still, however, letting your hand wander in between your bodies.
His eyes were glued to the way it traveled down his tensing abdomen, pausing to lower his sweats; then dipping inside.
He tried to stay quiet, though his chest was heaving, the sight and the feeling of your hand wrapping around his girth making it twitch again.
He watched you pull your panties aside, wet and ruined, revealing your pretty, glistening folds and the small entrance below.
So fucking small.
It looked almost obscene compared to his cock, long and thick and pulsating in your hand. But you fit him perfectly, like you were made just for him.
The moment you guided him forward, and the wet tip touched the heat of your cunt, he lifted his eyes to yours.
He felt so fucked out, but he was gentle as he pushed inside. The tight, wet muscle welcomed him eagerly, inch by inch, until his hips touched yours and he couldn't breathe.
For a moment, time stood still.
His head fell into the crook of your neck, inked hand squeezing your thigh.
"I missed you so much."
He sounded broken, but he's never felt so whole before.
"I missed you too..."
You clenched around him, prompting his hips to move off their own accord, coaxing the most beautiful sounds out of your body. The wetness, the smack of his skin against yours; the soft whines that fueled the heat boiling deep in his gut.
"Mmm," he moaned, raspy, "doing so well, baby."
He tried to stretch you out slowly, preoccupy himself with biting and sucking at your neck; anything not to focus on how you clenched around him.
But he was doomed, and he understood that the second you moved your hips, fucking him back.
"Oh shit," he gasped, "baby..."
He stifled another moan into your cheek, picking up his pace, so deep inside you he wondered if you could feel him in your tummy. The thought alone made his cock throb, every vein and ridge.
Long, ringed fingers wrapped around your throat, the pressure soft, but definitely there. In return, you grasped his shoulders, nails digging in, and Jungkook knew he wasn't going to last long.
"Good?" He breathed, slamming into you a little faster, stuck on your shining eyes and eager nods. "Yeah?"
The mattress began to protest under the force of his thrusts, but the sound was drowned out by everything else. Jungkook felt your cunt tightening, so warm and so fucking sloppy, his own little personal heaven.
"Almost there? Hm? Gonna make a mess for me?"
Clench.
He groaned, his tummy twisting, the moans spilling past your lips making his head spin.
You merely nodded again, as though you couldn't speak. It made the corner of his lips quirk upwards.
"Yeah?" He tightened his hold on your neck, staking his claim with a coo. "My girl's gonna make a mess on my cock? Pretty angel's gonna cream all over it?"
Your breath hitched, thighs beginning to quiver around him.
"Y-yeah," you uttered, breathless, "yoursâ"
Jungkook's tongue slid into your mouth, his rutting becoming desperate. He wanted to mark you and brand you and oh god â he was about to see stars.
"Yeah, fuckâ mine, my good girl," he stuttered out, "oh, baby, mhmm, I'm gonna comeâ"
His hips bucked as your pussy spasmed around him, sucking his cock in deeper, restricting his movements. Still, he fucked you through your orgasm, letting himself go with a loud groan. A burst of stars, the tension snapping; and he spilled inside you, white ropes of hot cum that filled you up to the brim.
He slumped against you after a drawn out moment, his body thrumming with bliss. Careful not to crush you, however, he rolled over to the side, his arms automatically enveloping your frame.
With his nose in your neck, he waited for his breathing to even out, lazily rubbing your hands.
"So good," he mumbled, "fuck... Are you okay, baby?"
You hummed, snuggling into him.
"More than okay."
Jungkook smiled, opening his eyes and pressing a kiss into your cheek.
"I'll wash you up in a sec."
"In a bit... Stay with me."
"I'm staying with you forever. Good luck getting rid of me now."
Your laughter sent a pang through his chest. He wanted to keep hearing it.
He brought your hand up to his lips, gently kissed each wounded finger, muttering his I love yous and praises until you both drifted off. Sated and warm under the sheets, tangled up in each other; with a single promise echoing through his head.
Never again would he let you hurt like this.
And whatever was happening outside of these four walls hardly mattered.
This was all that mattered.
This was home.
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Sevika Headcanons
She almost never touches you with her mechanical arm, she always holds you with her human arm or takes off the prosthesis. When you two walk down the street, she leaves her mechanical arm on the opposite side of your body.
Doesn't care about age, height or weight
She loves you all, all your body, but she has a weak spot for your ass. It's the way it jingles when she slaps it or the way it sways when you walk...
She's a dom top, but when the day was rough, she maybe will let you take control, always holding and guiding your head
Calls you "girl, doll, my girl," or "woman" and loves when you call her "vika, baby," will go crazy when you tease her and calls her "mommy"
Trusts you and lets you wander around the bar and go out with friends, but always keep an eye in case some stupid man tries something
"Wear whatever you want, doll. I know how to fight"
Always has you sitting on her lap during night games at the bar, her human arm caressing your thighs, and loves seeing you dancing
Always kisses you holding your neck and waist, devouring your moans and leaving your breathless
Always go down on you, and she eats you out like she's been starving all day, shoving her face in your pussy and gulping your juice, always makes you cum a first time on her tongue or fingers
SHE ALWAYS KISSES YOU AFTER EATING YOU OUT
Likes cowgirl, reverse cowgirl or doggy, and always chokes you during it, points if you cry in pleasure
Is the bigger spoon, and also likes to crush on top of you.
She lets you tangle your limbs on hers when sleeping and always has her human hand around your waist or holding some parts of your body
Likes when you visit her on the office and let's you sleep on the couch
She, somehow, is always attracted to energetic people, so she'll always let a sigh out but will smile seeing you all energetic
She secretly likes to see you, Jinx and Isha acting like a family, the golden retriever trio tiring she out
She feels so warm and happy seeing you taking care of Isha and Jinx, imagining forming a family with you
Didn't correct Jinx when she said that you four were a family, duh
She learned how to handle her mechanical arm and other stuff but loves when you help her or ask how to do something to help her
Her mechanical arm always hurts her, so she loves it when you give a massage that turns out in a make-out session on her lap
You don't need to know how to fight, she'll do it for you, but loves to see you defending yourself
Always make sure you're okay, have enough sleep or food, but always forget about herself so fucking loves when you bring her food o let's her take a nap cuddling you
Don't tell you about her day, to not worry you, so always ask about your day. She always glares at Jinx when she tells the truth
Always responds to your requests, so Jix and Isha are always having breakfast and dinner with you two
Jinx cut her hair and kinda messed up, but you assured her that she's fine, hot as hell, and the piercing idea was yours...
When she has to leave first, she always kisses you goodbye and always gives in when you say "more 5 minutes, baby..."
She's definitely proposing to you, but is regretting asking Jinx for help...
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