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fun fact i've been reading the RFEF's child safeguarding policy (in spanish). notably, it's only one year old (there wasn't one before this) and it has no mention of children's work hours (it does mention in passing some forms of overtraining, but only in 'dangerous' conditions or while sick/injured) .................. unicef literally has policy on this (there's also an international body with policy on this). this does not comply to international child safeguarding standards LOL
#like they have a risk analysis which doesn't reference risk of overwork which is a form of abuse. like.literaly#as in in the policy for safeguarding that i'm writing . overwork as a form of child abuse has been in our definitions for years. and in our#risk analysis and protocols we have measures to prevent it. it's a staple in safeguarding#well. i'll give it to them that someone tried#me: ctrl+f 'horas' policy: none found#i mean i skim read all the sections and there was nothing abt professional work hours or protecting children from risk of over work#euro 2024#Spain nt#sorry for keeping posting abt this i've been writing a safeguardig policy for work and the more time i spend thinking abt this#the more frustrated i am#like its so funny their risk analysis is 100% unicef template i know the exact source they got it from#(Unicef safeguarding toolkit for business)#but yeah no mention of overwork#like its hilarious how much it ticks every single box except talking about any form of ab*se other than over work . or work hours.#just so blatant#they have a whole section abt accompaniment of minors playing for the NT and not a single bullet point abt work hours oh this is sick#closest they get is 'considerar el bienestar y le seguridad de los/as deportistas una prioridad sobre los resultados deportivos'#<- who else laughed#you think they put that bullet point in for pedri#fwiw i also read the FA's policy. unfortuntely it is better (probaly bc the NSPCC is scary)
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I am incredibly serious right now when I beg you all, please, and if you have Twitter or Tiktok or whatever to please spread the word: click on an author's profile on Ao3.
You want to know if an author has written more? Want to know if they're still writing? Want to see more from them? Want to know if they've written a trope or kink or sex scenario you enjoy?
Click on their name. And look at their profile.
I cannot tell you how many times in the last six months someone has read a new or newer fic of mine and said they (a new reader who has read nothing else I've done) "can't wait to see what you do next!" I've written 50+ fics and over a million words already.
"I don't know if you're still writing..." click on my profile. I am. I literally wrote a 128k+ fic for that ship last month.
"Would you ever do X?" "Please do Y!" I already did. Click on my name and look at my works.
Archive of our Own is a library. It's an archive. Not social media. It is your responsibility to fight back against the laziness that corporate algorithms have trained into you.
Click my author name. Just click it. Just click it.
Before you demand more, or ask if a writer will do XYZ, or wonder if the author still writing, or anything - click on their profile. Click on the author's profile.
I'm not trying to be mean or condescending or anything like that. I'm just exhausted. It's disheartening and frustrating to repeat myself ad nauseam, because someone couldn't take thirty seconds to do the tiniest bit of work to see if I've written lately, if I've written more for their ship, or scan my works to see if I've written what they're asking for. Please. Please. I'm begging.
Click the author's name, and explore before you ask.
#lincoln rants#I'm sorry but I'm at the end of my rope#I got a LOT of these comments on my Buddie Platonic Sugar Baby AU#acting like I was some new writer to the fandom#babes I've been here since the dawn of 2020 where the fuck have YOU been?#I am happy to answer questions! I love responding to reader comments!#but it is beyond frustrating to answer a question that if they'd literally just clicked on my author name#they would have gotten the answer to themselves#yes I have written more yes I am still writing yes I've been here longer than you have#and I don't mean that in a pulling rank/seniority way I just mean that in a could you please just CLICK ON MY NAME???#INSTEAD OF MAKING ASSUMPTIONS??? way#I'VE DONE MY TIME! FOUR AND A HALF YEARS! IN THE CIRCUS!#I'm sorry but sometimes I have to yell publicly a little#and I really do suspect this is people who are not on tumblr#so I am genuinely begging you#if you are on other social media platforms#PLEASE feel free to repeat what I have said#PLEASE I AM SO TIRED!!!
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i think marinette is worse at resting when she's sick but adrien is worse at sitting things out if he's injured. i have no explanation, these are just the vibes
#ml#marinette dupain cheng#adrien agreste#okay i lied i do have justifications#adrien probably just. would love being taken care of if he's sick#it's maybe something his mom used to do but not ENOUGH#and marinette would absolutely spoil him#but marinette is all I AM FINE IT IS JUST A COLD I AM FINE meanwhile she nearly falls off a rooftop in a dizzy spell#but adrien hate being kept away from ppl he loves. hates not being able to protect them. and an injury is more long-term and isolating#meanwhile...idk marinette feels to me like an injurt would leave her more defeated. she'd feel like she failed somehow#like she is SUPPOSED to be ladybug she is SUPPOSED to keep herself together to keep the city safe#so i think that would take a lot of her energy she'd be frustrated about it yes but also sort of...admit defeat#adrien would find ways to cheer her up though 🥺
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The Quest Continues...
(part 1- part 2)
#Fourfold Soul#<- That's the title of the project I've been working on!#I am very excited to finally show off the cowboy (gender redacted) I've been cooking in a slow boil!!! Yeehaw!#Yes this is the game project. YES I am commited to the bit of having the main character go through a long running pronoun-quest.#This character does not have a name so I cannot formally tag them...#(Okay. Technically they have an internal name for coding/scripting reasons...and I have a nickname for them.#But the important part of making a video game character you get to eventually name is that the name must come from *you*!)#The girl here is a npc so she has a temporary name. So I also cannot tag her. Hmm...#I have several FFS comics thumbnailed out. This one got made first because it's the funniest without context. Lore wise it's weak.#I would love to post the sexy clown but you have to wait just a few more comics.#Fun artist woes moment to share: This is the first time I've had to colour these characters traditionally. *That* was NOT fun.#Going from a specific digital colour palette to being at the whims of my limited colour choices in markers? Hell! On! Earth!#I might also be extra frustrated because this sure is 3x the length of what I usually do for comics! I spent a Whole Day on this.#Past me thought it was soooo funny and needed all the extra panels for pacing. I hate past me. That guy needs to be exploded.
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old RE stuff i didnt finish
#resident evil#re4#re2#second is based on my darkside chronicles experience with a friend#was gonna be one of them fat ugly frog things jumping behind em that was the entire punchline but leons arm frustrated me so bad i quit 😭#back in ... april#i miss my RE era#my art#shocked i never made more RE art tbh for how fixated i was#took a reblog to realise i forgot to tag claire#claire redfield#claire baby angel i am so sorry 💔
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codtwt is going off on brainwashed!soap bc of his new warzone skin and it’s making me think of ghost deliberately getting himself captured by makarov bc he knows he’ll be given to his dog to try and break him; knows he won’t be able to resist the irony, the cruelty of being tortured by the teammate he lost
he doesn’t fight; welcomes the chains around his wrists and ankles, welcomes the hands stripping him of his weapons and gear until he's defenceless
he wouldn't use them anyway
when he stalks into the room, the muzzle, the scars, not even the blank hatred or lack of recognition could make him mistake his eyes
that's his johnny
he doesn't flinch as he digs knives into his skin; would never shy away from his kiss even if it's tinged with rusted steel. doesn't swallow his screams; not when he always loved hearing him, when he spent so long coaxing his voice from the grave
frustration joins the anger in johnny's eyes the longer he goes without giving up information
just jokes; dark and puns alike
just advice when he can't get the jumper cables to spark right
ghost's not trying to escape; not trying to barter his return to the 141
he's right where he wants to be
#ghost letting him be tortured indefinitely if it means being with johnny i am going to eat glass#he doesnt even care if he never gets him back. if the brainwashing is permanent#he still treats him the same. gives him openings to meet a punchline or rib him for something#no matter how long he goes without responding. without giving him any hope of becoming the man he knew#if pain is all he’ll ever get from johnny again he’ll welcome it gratefully with open arms#he got his share of kindness. more than he ever thought he deserved. if pain has to balance it out then so be it#so long as johnny is the one giving it to him#meanwhile soap gets more and more frustrated that he cant break this soldier#that when he becomes more inventive he just meets him with a story about people he doest know but acts like he should#that every day when his master calls him away he leaves with a soft - /loving/ - see you tomorrow johnny echoing in his ears#he doesnt understand#and it just makes him more vicious#but the soldier doesnt care#he still smiles in the face of pain#still calls him johnny#coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt#we’re a team. ghost team#soapghost#ghostsoap#ghoap#ghost cod#simon ghost riley#soap cod#john soap mactavish#ghost x soap#save post
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Wearing your boyfriend's jacket
#for the anon asking who would wear it#any one of my characters WOULD wear it#its just a matter of how...#you dont understand my passion for fashion and what this means ok#it means an article of clothing is not about the clothing at all#its about how it fits and what it goes with and how you choose to wear it#a shirt is not just a shirt its a part of a whole...#I'm so passionate about this... it doesnt really show in my comics but thats mostly cause. there is only so much time I can devote to thing#anyways#adam is able to make anything look good#and steve is able to make anything seem like hes owned it for 10 years#they can both wear anything but in extremely different ways...#anyways this was a nice little break#its been hard HAHAHAHHA not gonna lie having an extremely rough time#I so so so do not want to return working for webtoon#I need you to know I am ONLY doing this for my readers#because I could use more time. I could use forever away from webtoon#but. I want to see the comic through! and so I will.#I'm so tired of them...#and also still frustrated by people being like 'is this ever coming back' and all that#but its fine. its coming back I'm working on it...#and its good.. its gonna be so good......#time and time again#ttawebcomic#adam and steve#sketch#I JUST REALIZED I SAID ANON...#I MEANT ASK#my brain just calls all asks anon
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Fiddauthor doodles
*leaves this politely on the floor and scurries away*
yeah. enjoy ^_^
#THEY MAKE ME ILL WHAT THE SHIT#I AM GOING TO EXPLODE#fiddauthor#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleauthor#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#ford pines#gravity falls fiddleford#stanford pines#gravity falls#normal about them.#the first occurs in the comic btw.#doomed yaoi#no because ford get your head in the game. there’s a married man that wants you more than he wants anything else.#I’m just as oblivious as him though. I can’t be talking.#also fiddleford how does it feel spending all your college years hopelessly pining for your roommate#and feeling frustrated with the lack of romantic progression because neither of you can read signals for shit#so when you inevitably don’t amount to anything and are forced to just ignore anything that may have ever existed between you two#you spitefully get hitched and have a kid to prove to yourself that you’re a) straight and b) not just some loser coward#but all along you’ve just known he was the right one for you. nobody could ever compare to what he gave you#everyone else has simply acted as a replacement or substitution for what you felt for him. you can’t shake the feeling ever.#and when years later you get a call from him you justify immediately leaving to work on the project as a) your entitlement to him and b)#a desperate and hopeless attempt at rekindling your college days#HOW DOES IT FEEL FIDDLEFORD
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having seen at least the rough outlines of all the romances now I have to say that I think emmrich's is probably objectively the best in terms of coherence and completeness of story arc (with the understanding that ultimately the 'best' romance is whichever one makes YOUR heart sing anyway so objectivity is a silly thing to claim that way, it just felt like it's the arc with the most well-paced focused content and the least dangling threads)... but lucanis' is my favourite haha. just. the whole kneeling before your beloved full of reverence but without any of the distance that usually implies??? his complete undramatic certainty and calm in every scene with rook after this, having spent the whole game caught between fear and longing???? mr. lives in a pantry but it says nothing about my psyche don't worry about it it's purely for tactical reasons that I keep myself contained in a small dark room not entirely unlike a cell, love among the parsnips -- finally coming to rook in their room and it's so comfortable and comforting???? after all the times rook supports and comforts him through the game he's finally able to return the same to them when they need it while being so calm and steady and it's so fucking sweet and feels so effortless and with no price attached?????? he basically assigns himself the role of your bodyguard and he WILL stab a god over it??????????????? the turn to protector (which was in his heart all along longing to get out and find a place) of it all????? he sounds like he's found himself unexpectedly stumbling into such a soul-lightening state of revelatory existential relief, full on 'you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves' mary oliver style, and he goes and he shares that with rook and protectively envelops them in it when they're hurting??????????????????????????? hello for the maker's sake hello can anyone hear me?????
#listen I was forged in the fires of garrusmancing. I went through two whole games just to get a gentle headbutt and some tender words#before me3 comes along and rewards you for your tenacity more fully#me? the reyes romancer???? I have the strength and headcanon game to bear the relative lack of content before the end#when the endgame is this good I am willing to hold out for it haha the way he looks at rook towards the end......#I also really liked taash' (it's really sweet) but I don't think I have any rooks ready to go right now who would go for that vibe#emmrich for sure is going to be my either crow or shadow dragon romance it really is very good! and extremely goth not unrelatedly#undeniably that old man has the most game out of anyone in this story. the move with the flower??? I'm sorry????#I actually like that lucanis' romance blooms out of the safety of an established friendship more than anything (again. avowed garrusmancer)#but emmrich... he's got some next level romantic stuff going on and is being both so wholesome and such a freak about it lmao#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#lucanis dellamorte#rook x lucanis#rookanis#all jokes aside I totally respect and understand that people are a bit disappointed and frustrated -- they're not wrong to feel that!#there really are some gaps in content there for the midgame#however I was personally custom built by experience to get the most out of this scenario as possible and by god I will#just as I feel that ryder and reyes go off and have some soul-shrivingly good sex after the first kiss#(it makes that arc make a lot more sense to me haha)#I think rook and lucanis Get Up To It after the second coffee date. weird of them to not show us that but okay I'll fill it in myself then
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While I do think anon was rude, I do think it's pretty shitty to set up all this stuff you were going to add the au and then just drop it. It's disappointing. Definitely unfollowing.
Bye.
#ask me#anon#once AGAIN.#I am not dropping anything#the au is not getting cancelled. more than likely i'm gonna take a break from it until i find motivation again#But I've been drawing the AU for half a fucking year#In that time I've only drawn 5 things that aren't mlp related#I'm getting tired and my last few posts didn't do as well as I'd hoped#And I'm not about to burn myself out on mlp au art even if I really do love making it#I'm still gonna make comics. I have a bunch of ideas.#Tulli and I still wanna do the limited run merch shop#Discord is still coming. Sunset is still coming. Sombra is still coming. I have so many ideas#But I need to do something else for my own sake. Did you know I was supposed to get the background 6 designs done by now#But I didn't because I'm TIRED#I've been keeping myself on a schedule to keep content pumping despite travel and school and family and I'm tired#what i'm getting isn't matching what i'm giving and that's nobody's fault. i'm not frustrated at anyone. a slump was bound to happen#drawing the au was fun until it become my Thing. Because when your Thing––your identity––starts to faulter#it can really make you freak out#And that's not healthy for the project or for myself. I need to find the fun again and I'm sure I will#I'm really appreciative of everyone's support in my inbox and replies it really does mean a lot especially given that about 2/3 of my#followers followed for mlp. But if you're gonna react to me saying “i'm gonna cool down on mlp art and draw my own stuff” with “i'm#disappointed in you." then Leave! I think it's good you're unfollowing#you are not obligated to stick by my side! But don't act like I'm doing you a disservice by turning my attention elsewhere#I didn't promise anyone anything and I definitely didn't say I'm breaking any promises.
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you appear familiar dear; you look just like my bathroom mirror!
#i love to just make a love letter to petscop and then disappear for a week. like hey guys :)#my art#digital art#artists on tumblr#petscop#paul leskowitz#petscop paul#carrie mark#petscop care#i downloaded the kyle webster megapack of photoshop brushes and just had so much fun trying out brushes#against all odds i am actually a watercolour bitch so i used a lot of water colour brushes for this#except this is so much easier and more enjoyable bc i could ctrl z and didnt have to wait for anything to dry lol#i adhere to the theory that paul moves back in with anna when the family takes over the channel. so paul stays in the ''guest room'' O_O;#i made this while frustrated by my homework in a library. i cant draw doorknobs but i can draw an entire room in 2 point perspective <3
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more gunslinger abigail my beloved 🫶
+ sadigail crumbs ofc (u guys why haven't i seen any drawings of abi braiding sadie's hair 😠)
#i KNOW sadie gets frustrated braiding her hair some mornings#thank god abigail is there to help always#only want to draw this abigail from now on idc about canon anymore#just wanna draw them being gfs in love comitting crimes :(#also im trying to draw more backgrounds! they're a mess but i am trying y'all#sadigail#rdr2#rdr2 fanart#red dead redemption 2#red dead redemption 2 fanart#red dead redemption#abigail roberts#sadie adler#abigail marston#gunslinger abigail#evgarart#my art
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You Don't Think I can do it? Part II
I'm watching this scene again. I think this is the moment where Carmy's unconscious motivations come to light. It's not competition with Sydney here, like I said before.
Now Carmy thinks he has a clear motivation for getting a star, and that's because of Chef David, and he let's Sydney in on that fact 'so they can see what we're capable of'
And when she asks him again, "Why are you doing this?" He stops looking at her and says, "So you can push me, and I can push you."
Note that Carmy feels the urge for a cigarette after saying that.. but decides on a more constructive alternative. He quits smoking, replacing his old habits with a more socially acceptable one.
That's sublimation.
I still can't get over Richie saying "textbook sublimation," btw- (he's definitely read too many books).
Sublimation means, as I mentioned here: - taking unacceptable feelings, desires, and impulses – often sexual or aggressive – and channeling them into positive, socially approved activities like arts or sciences.
Jimmy did say Carmy has a giant stick up his ass.
Now, watching it again, Carmy's ego is wounded that Sydney may think he can't do it- it's again Carmy puffing his chest like the time he moved his chef jacket or when he adjusted his body when she calls him an excellent chef. And showing off changing the Beef in the first episode.
There's something going on here...
Richie, is he aware of the tension between them? Look at him! Watch his expression as his eyes shift. He has a habit of observing their arguments.
Also, notice that once the Faks enter, how long Carmy stares at Sydney.
I mean, do I have to say it?
#sydcarmy#urges and what carmy thinks is unacceptable impulses turns to more productive behaviors#carmy feels both angry and sexually frustrated...#am i delusion? im reading between lines!#the bear season 3 meta
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King Ghidorah (1964)
#godzilla#king ghidorah#mothra#rodan#showa godzilla#i was gonna do more to it before posting but idk if ill ever get around to it#in either case 2 grown men getting told by a toddler to jelp her fight an alien invasion#the monsters in this movie are super fun#and i 100% know this is how thqt conversation went#and after getting frustrated the child goes to fight ghidorah#on her own#and she starts off by biting#I believe rodan and godzilla just went into panic mode when they saw the child go try and 1 v 1 a goe#cause they like immediatly change their minds#i am a big fan of showa stuff when i dont try to marathon them in one go
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I think Guzzlord was made specifically to spite me. It's got all the things.
Mostly black yarn.
LARGE.
Many distinct parts (more than 12) (at least 22) (tail, body, maw, tusks, tongue, teeth, arms (mouth), arms (head), eyebrows (winged), wings, mini head, legs).
Many spikes Everywhere (on the end of the tail, along the top of the tail, along the top of the body, on the crab mouth arms, on the tongue, inside the maw (separate from tongue spikes), on chin, on mini head).
Teeth (separate from spikes) (four sets (upper/lower yellow/black) (another set if you count the crab arm mouths) (another set if you put tusks in this category because, they are teeth yeah)
Did I mention the mouth spikes? Which ones? The ones on the tongue? The ones IN the mouth on the palate? The tusks? The ones on the arms that are in the mouth?
Last picture I posted I had forgotten to attach the tusks so technically that was a WIP post and this is the real finished crochet post. Gonna round up the time it all took and say 16 hours. An absurd amount of time was spent on the many, many, ..many details. You can't even see them all very well in the pictures, but I promise you they are there. Spikes everywhere. In the mouth. On the tongue. On the mouth. On the body which is basically a mouth. On the arms (both sets if you count the "fingers" on the head arms as spikes). The ball at the end of the tail is covered in spikes. There's tiny wings on the sides. One set is gilded. There's another set if you count the way the eyebrows look. There's a tiny little head on top of the giant mouth head that has 4 tiny little spikes.
#pokemon#crochet#amigurumi#pokemon crochet#guzzlord#art#artists on tumblr#poll#and this is one of my crochets that i think has only 78percent accuracy to the original image which is frustrating#like this guy was made to frustrate me#i am glad i made it sooner than later though but damn. did i mention the spikes.#also i had spent some time carefully plucking the stray bits of stuffing and saturn hair for cleaner pictures#only for saturn to come around and i put guzzlord down and picked up saturn and pet her a bit#and then realized there were more bits on guzzlord. again.#specifically engineered to Get me i swear
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Maybe this is something that only bothers me, but I’ve recently noticed a majority of the feedback across all my writing blogs recently has been people asking for second parts to things. Sometimes this ask for a part 2 is accompanied by a short “this was good” but most of the time it isn’t.
Most recently, this has happened on fics I’ve written that were over 20k words long and the immediate response has been readers asking for additional parts with little to no other feedback. As a writer, I’m struggling a little with this. I totally understand it comes from a place of enjoying something and wanting to see more of it, but not even telling a writer why you like something or what was so good it makes you want more is so frustrating sometimes.
I genuinely hope this doesn’t come off as mean or ungrateful, this is just me being honest about struggling with a pattern of recent feedback and trying to peel back a layer of frustration I feel, and maybe some other writers can relate.
Before asking for extra parts to a fic, please consider: did you give any other feedback beside asking for more? Did you tell the writer why you want more? Does the fic seem like it intentionally was left that way? Did this writer just put out 20k+ words?
#sorry I am really frustrated this morning#Writing is such a hard hobby and I enjoy doing it so much#But recently I just keep getting asked for more with no other feedback#And it low-key makes me want to cry. The people want more from me but can’t tell me they liked whatever I’ve already given them.
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