#the level at which I suck at keeping things short is extreme

[signanothername]

hhhhhhh i love your art so much man it's just so rrrrrrrrg words can even describe it 💥💥💥

butt like like genuinely how do you figure out poses and shit that fit who you draw so well likeee

idk me personally i just struggle with that stuff, yk always stuck with the -looking front on with hands in pockets- or the dreaded -peace sign with hand in pocket- fjdjdj

sorry for the yap sesh butttt any advice would be like so cool

also the way you portray killer and nm is like godly just 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

HDHDHHDHD THANK YOU <333333

And oooh that’s a very valid struggle, cause the thing is, I used to struggle a lot with posing characters in a way that actually satisfied me, going for the stiff front look a lot dhdhhdhdh

But the thing is with art, is that it isn’t just lines on a page y’know? At least, I stopped treating my art as such, every time i draw an artwork i want the artwork to tell who sees it something, I treat every artwork as a story in of itself

Ok imma generally give you what I learned from my art journey so far, i’m gonna start with a more general advice and then get to how I choose poses for certain characters, and imma try to explain the best I can but I can be really bad with wording things so bear with me

Art can be difficult cause different art concepts are interconnected with each other, so sometimes you need to think of so many things just to be able to do something as simple as posing a character

Before we start tho, here are 2 tips:

-everything you know about anatomy? Throw it out the window, no i’m not joking I’m being completely serious

The reason many artists suffer with making dynamic poses is cause they think too much about anatomy, they think the anatomy should look correct and perfect, and no, anatomy is the biggest reason the pose you draw is going to be stiff, you need to forget “correct” anatomy if you want your poses to feel alive and dynamic

- practice gesture/figure art, IM ON MY KNEES I BEG YOU, cause it teaches you to let go of perfect anatomy and actually learn how to draw figures in motion (which is extremely important for fluid and dynamic poses!)

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With that in mind, here are a few things i keep in mind when posing a character:

1- line of action

You hear these three damn words a lot yet no matter how much you research them you can never find a good explanation for what they mean (me after i researched this bullshit so much shbdhdhhs)

But simply put, think of the action line as the spine in a human, the more you bend it outta shape the more dynamic the pose is going to be

And it’s genuinely so important cause it can make a very simple pose such as a character standing doing nothing much more dynamic when you put line of action in mind

Even a very slight bend in the line can make the pose more natural/dynamic, because an action line dictates the movement of a character

So if you want to avoid a stiff pose? Avoid a straight action line (you gotta make that action line Queer af💅✨✨✨✨)

But here’s a mind fuckery, the tricky thing with action lines is that it’s better if you keep them in mind but not consciously think of them if that makes sense

You gotta understand them and implement them and practice them, but when you draw a character posing a certain way, thinking too much of the action line can actually make it difficult to maintain and in turn, makes your art stiff af too

Like you got to internalize this concept and to keep it in your subconscious rather than actually consciously think about it when you draw your artworks

Ok Anó, how the fuck do i do that? Start with practicing them consciously by actually drawing the action line and then the pose in art studies, and then level yourself up by practicing them by drawing characters posing a certain way WITHOUT putting an action line first, i’m sorry to say there’s no way around it, there are no short cuts

Here’s a helpful visual guide/summary of what i mean by the paragraph above cause words suck

(but sooner or later, what you learned gets burned into your muscle memory, and your hand would start doing all the work without you consciously thinking about it, then congrats!! Action lines are now part of your subconscious)

Ok but does that mean straight lines are bad/should never be used?? NO

I can never emphasize how important straight lines can be

One thing that’s beautiful in art is that there’s no such thing as “bad” or “wrong”, art is subjective, and something that’s perceived as “wrong” by one artist, can be right/ something implemented in another artist’s artstyle that makes it unique

In fact, straight action lines can be great to use depending on what you wish people to take/understand from your art (a simple example: a turn around reference sheet for a character tends to use straight lines, cause in a reference sheet you focus on clarity, and drawing with queer lines can cause that clarity to be thrown out the window)

But I especially love to use straight Action lines with Killer, I sometimes make him stiff as a fucking rock and it’s completely intentional on my part, cause i love to use stiff poses to enhance the uncomfortable/unnatural atmosphere Killer gives, or to further emphasize an already uncomfortable situation

So to summarize, if you wish your poses be more natural/dynamic and to avoid stiff poses, use queer Action lines, but straight lines are also great to use depending on what you want people to understand from your art

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2- perspective (camera angle)

Variety is key!

What is the perspective you want to focus on? I know this seems like it doesn’t have anything to do with posing a character, but it does, (remember, art concepts are interconnected!) cause the perspective you decide to draw from can also influence the pose you decide to draw or vice versa, and help you make the pose more dynamic

Hell sometimes, perspective can do the poses justice even if they��re literally the most boring stiff poses you’ve ever drawn chchchhcch

Like are you going to draw the character from an upper perspective? Lower? Fish-eye? Third person? First person?

Is the perspective tilted? Is it normal?

What is the perspective you want and why did you choose it? What are you trying to tell the people who see your art?

Here are a few tips when it comes to perspective:

-More dynamic perspectives (upper/lower) are good for artworks that have tension in them, or have some sort of stakes going on (fights, horror, uncomfortable situations)

That of course doesn’t mean they can’t be used to simply make your artwork look cool :D

-choosing how many vanishing points there are (one,two or three points perspective) can also make your art tell a different story depending on the situation you’ve chosen them for

-and most importantly, when you draw a pose, foreshortening is going to happen to the body depending on the perspective!!

But my point is, I make sure i draw in variety, sometimes I draw the character from upper, lower, tilted or even a mix of all of them, all to enhance my poses to look more dynamic/natural

Ok Anó, got it, but what if I don’t care to include a crazy perspective and i want to draw in a normal perspective? Then how do i make my poses more dynamic?

That brings me to my next 2 points

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3- camera shots

Same as perspective, there has to be variety!

Your art doesn’t always have to be full body, try to draw different shots, draw a headshot, draw closeup shots draw half bodies

If you go for different shots then you’ll be forced to think of different poses to fit such shots :D

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4-bodies are like little toys, break them

One thing you can do to bring more variety to your poses is to have different body parts facing different directions, not all limbs have to face the same direction >:)

Generally the characters don’t have to face front! Try to mix it up and draw from the side or back

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5-emotional weight and a story to tell

And this is where i’ll bring my point about treating my art as a story back

A really good way to actually put variety in your poses is to treat any sort of artwork/sketch you make as a story you’re trying to tell

Before you draw a character posing a certain way ask yourself, why is this character posing this way? What are/were they doing before that pose? Are they alone or are they reacting to something/someone?

Is there a point to them posing this way? (It’s ok if there’s no actual point to it! But the poses still would need to tell a story regardless)

Cause if you’re posing them reacting to another character (off screen for example), you pose them in a way that makes sense for their emotions of the other character right? (So if the character has negative feelings towards the other one then it makes more sense to draw them in a defensive stance or a fight or flight pose)

If you’re drawing them all alone then what are they doing alone, are they doing something important or is it their off time? If it’s their off time what are they doing for their off time? Do they like to spend it reading a book for example? What are they reading? Is it a horror novel that makes them scared? If yes then how do they deal with fear? Do they throw the book across the room or do they hide under a blanket?

Cause a pose also holds emotional weight, it shows you what emotions the character is exhibiting, it’s not just the expression of the character that tells you about their emotions, it’s their body language, and body language can be translated through poses

Let’s say they’re doing a peace sign pose for example, why are they doing it? Are they taking a picture with someone they love or are they doing it to annoy someone? Hell maybe they’re being forced to do it, and so they do it half heartedly maybe?

Get what I’m trying to say?

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And now with all of the above in mind, time to get to the most important thing and the main point of this post

How do I choose poses for certain characters?

6- personality

who am I sketching? Cause each character is unique and each character is gonna act a certain way other characters won’t, and depending on the situation, the poses change too

Understand the character and how they act, try to analyze them and take in their quirks and behaviors, and before you draw a pose for them actually ask yourself, would this character EVER do this pose?

Like you say you fall in the peace sign trap right? Now think about a peace sign pose, but with Nightmare… it doesn’t make sense right? Cause the pose is an absolute striking contrast to Nightmare’s personality, like Nightmare would never do a peace sign till the day he dies, hell i’m sure if he’s forced to choose between death and doing a peace sign he’d choose death (it’s a lot more mercifull than the humiliation he’d feel making a peace sign hcchchch)

See what I’m getting at?

For example, I draw Nightmare with his hands behind his back a lot, but you won’t see me do the same with other characters often, not cause other characters would never put their hands behind their backs, but because it’s a quirk in Nightmare’s character, Nightmare TENDS to do that a lot, he acts so formal and royal like, and so i draw him do it a lot

But here’s the thing, if i draw other characters having their hands behind their backs like i do with Nightmare, i do it in a way that makes sense for them! An example is how i draw Nightmare and Dream with their hands behind their backs :D

But I also keep in mind Nightmare’s character, so whenever I pose him a certain way, I ask myself “would Nightmare actually stand/sit/lie down like that?” If the answer is yes, then I continue, if not then i change it to fit Nightmare

To further explain, I tend to think Nightmare is defensive in nature, so you’d see that I also pose him in a way that reflects that, with his hands crossed in front of his chest for example or generally his hands close to his body, sometimes hunched in on himself, I also think Nightmare is egotistical and self centric, but most importantly, he sees himself as an elegant King, and so I draw him crossing his legs or generally have him sit in such a formal manner or a hand on hip kinda pose etc

So when you draw a pose ask yourself if it fits the personality, mindset, and pattern of behavior for said character!

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With all that being said, while it’s amazing to be able to do a variety of poses, I think it’s also important to keep in mind that art is supposed to be fun, take your time trying to learn, don’t overwork or frustrate yourself with learning new things, and it’s completely fine to not do poses that have meaning sometimes (do that peace sign to your heart’s content <333) it took me 10 whole years to get where i am today, and compared to many other artists my own progress is extremely slow, and it used to bother me cause I treated art like there was some sort of deadline above my head and that I should learn things in a timely manner (which is absolute bullshit), my point is, take your time with learning poses, even if it takes you years, the important thing is that you will get there eventually <33333

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Finally, here is one art resource for poses that i think is really good/useful

Keep on creating and hope my endless ramble helps a lil chchchchchch <33333

[lych33dragoncookie]

Ok so about yesterday's post, I'm rly rly grateful for all the attention n feedback, I'm glad ppl resonate with my analysis stuff and that they're happy to find someone who understands the characters, buuuuut Since it's my most critical post till now it's garnered a few counterpoints that I kinda wanna address.

The first one, and the one that I understand the most; the people that were telling me to not lose hope and that they could do something more with this.

I... Appreciate the optimism! I really do, and if you believe this then obviously I hold no ill will towards you and if you can keep looking on the bright side then more power to you, but... Really, I think the moment and the chance have already passed, unfortunately.

Yes, I am genuinely saying that, unless they pull a miracle, whatever they do next is just... Not going to land. Definitely not as well as it would have to have a better ending to the story we got.

Here's the main thing, really. For one... What is Burning Spice even gonna do to get one over Golden Cheese again? He's already just about entirely outmatched, and so anything they do next is just gonna feel like a repeat of what they already did in this update. Though more importantly, I'm concerned with the fact that they can't really do this again, we just saw Golden Cheese at her lowest point, actually on the brink of death, more heavily damaged than we've ever seen anyone in this entire franchise, we got extra development for both her and Smoked Cheese, and the Spice Army is kind of just... Not there anymore. No one other than Nutmeg Tiger really has any faith in Burning Spice anymore. The setting, the stakes, the characters, everything that made this story hold up (until its god awful ending) isn't repeatable, not without making it feel like we're just doing the same thing again. They can't match the sheer level of visceral brutality either, not only because again the setting is gone but also because it really won't hit anywhere near as hard the second time around, and even they have limits for how far they're willing to go with it.

That's just kind of the thing. The one thing that makes me so mad about how much this ending sucked. This entire story is one of a kind, you can't do this again, because if you try, then it's not gonna hit anywhere near as hard the second time around. Hell, it'd be the third time we've seen Golden Cheese in a low spot that she ends up pulling through and recovering from, and the second time (with Burning Spice) was so much more extreme than the first one which is part of what made it work, you can't do that again.

The framing isn't replicable. The active contrast between the two primary characters, the brutality and viscerality of it all, the active rejection of Burning Spice's ideals in a golden blaze of glory, the reinforcement of Golden Cheese's will through an adversary completely opposite to her, it can't happen again. This is why you don't fumble a story like this, because once you've shot the round, it's spent. There's no getting it back. If you miss the shot, no matter how potent the weapon, it won't do anything, and there's no getting that shot back. Specially because, like... Are we forgetting that we're not done with Golden Cheese here? Why waste more time on retreading ground that we already covered with her encounter against Burning Spice, when instead it would be much better spent later on focusing on her relationship with White Lily, and how she handles the whole Dark Enchantress situation? Sure, I have no doubt all the beasts are gonna come back, but I really, really don't see them getting entire stories dedicated to each and every single one again, specially involving their respective ancients, because... They've. Already lost. And if you try to set up the same matchups, it's just gonna feel like doing the same thing all over again. If/when they come back, it's most likely gonna be more short-form, akin more to a boss rush, I'd imagine, because the alternative is... What, exactly? Just doing their chapters again? A second time? For each one? It just feels really weird to think about, honestly.

Just... Everything here. Every bit of it. Every bit of narrative paralleling with Golden Cheese, Smoked Cheese, Nutmeg Tiger, Burning Spice and both of the respective kingdoms/armies, it was all contained in this arc, and you can't just do the same thing all over again, specially when the thing you've got set up next for Golden Cheese is a meeting with White Lily. Unless you plan to have Silent Salt and Burning Spice team up for a 2v2 against White Lily and Golden Cheese or... Something..? Completely taking away from the 1v1 fated duel kinda thing they've had going on this entire time..? I dunno, man. I don't see how they could salvage this. They had their chance, and they wasted it. Like sand, slipping through their fingertips.

Alright, that's the big one out of the way. I saw the comments and RBs bring up a few other points, so I'll address those now.

The first one, with someone posing the idea that she did take Burning Spice's Soul Jam, and that's why hers' changed color.

... What?

That's... That's not shown. Ever. Sure, you have an animation of her soul jam going over Spice's and eclipsing it, but... That's. Kind of it? It's never implied at all, and worse yet, it's directly contradicted by the fact Spice still has his Soul Jam. Like. It's right there. You can see it.

You could say maybe it's just a case of reusing assets, that they wouldn't make a whole new asset just for this one cutscene, but, uh... ... They did. It's this one.

It shows up in absolutely no other cutscene, only the one where he's about to get smacked by Golden Cheese. If his soul jam was taken not only would we have seen it (like we did both times it's happened to the Ancients), not only would he have probably noticed because that is very much a material object, but we would have seen it, like we do when both GC and Dark Cacao's soul jams are gone. So, no, he absolutely still has it. Undeniably so. You can't take someone's soul jam power without physically taking it, at least not that we've seen.

Secondly, a few comments/tags saying that it makes sense for Nutmeg Tiger to go back to Burning Spice after his defeat.

... I mean... Yeah, I guess? Technically?

It's... Not out of character. She is obsessive, absolutely to a fault, and she is incredibly stubborn. My main complain isn't that it makes no sense, and more that it's a bit of a wasted opportunity. More specifically, the fact that she went back to him with nothing about either of them having changed at all. It would have been super interesting to see how she'd react to seeing her god rendered powerless, to have him lash out at her despite her loyalty to him, to have Burning Spice's hostility and complete lack of care catch up to him and end up isolating him from absolutely everyone who served under him. To have her conversation with Smoked Cheese to be proven tangibly true, proving that yes, he would just discard her the moment she stops being useful. And, the best part? You get to keep her alive to have her process everything that just happened! Because, guess what, Burning Spice lacks basically all his power now, meaning he can't just kill her on the spot! Hell, if you really, really wanted to have a villain for a followup update, it could be Nutmeg Tiger, disillusioned with her former god's promises, deciding she'd find a way to become the next great destroyer, or something like that. Maybe she'd try to find someone else to serve instead to give her life some sort of purpose? Who knows! There's so many options you could go with, rather than just... Resetting everything back to where we started.

Really, this part of the whole thing is the least of my concerns. She's not the biggest player in this update, but I think she would have benefited heavily from the "Burning Spice gets his Soul Jam taken away" route in terms of potential development. Alas... There's a good chance we'll never get to know what that would have even looked like.

Thirdly and lastly;

The argument that it wouldn't be in character for Golden Cheese to give Burning Spice another chance.

Okay, this is somewhat minor. I need to emphasize; when I gave that hypothetical scenario at the end of the last post, I meant it as like... A long term thing. Not something to happen within the chapter itself. Besides, it's just one of many paths you could go with a jamless Spice.

... I'm still holding my ground on it, though.

See... We've got to remember here: Burning Spice's immortality is the exact thing that got him here. Take that away, and what do you get? A large man with anger issues and no special powers; and absolutely no one to cover for the newfound weaknesses of a mortal, since he's alienated and wronged absolutely everyone loyal to him. Not the Kulfis, or Nutmeg Tiger, or any of the spicelings would be left to help him. He'd be on his own, entirely. Why would Golden Cheese ever even consider helping him in any way, you may ask? After all he did, after all the bloodshed, physical pain induced, and complete lack of remorse for any of his actions?

Simple. For the same reasons she gave Smoked Cheese and White Lily another chance.

The latter specially! At the end of the latest Beast Yeast chapter, Golden Cheese decided she's ready to talk to White Lily. White Lily, who, as far as she and everyone else is aware, is pretty much responsible for her kingdom being reduced to nothing but ash and crumbs. Of course, on an objective level, White Lily is much more understandable, specially since she now exists as a separate person from Dark Enchantress, but... In the end, does it matter? Are the actions themselves any different? No, not really. The level of destruction and decay are still the exact same.

The main difference is, while White Lily would at most be hesitant to accept forgiveness and feel really really bad (like mortifyingly bad) about what Dark Enchantress did, Burning Spice wouldn't be interested in such a thing.

And, honestly? I feel like Golden Cheese would know this. And, at first, she'd have absolutely no interest in actually helping him. To me, she'd occasionally visit to see how he's faring, how this oh-so-powerful god of destruction is doing now that he's just a powerless little commoner, a mortal like all the rest, teasing him, finding entertainment in his position, while he can't do anything about it. She gave him the mercy of life, but that doesn't mean she's not gonna be a little shit about it and have her fun. And he can't do anything about it, either! Truly, eternal torture. Powerless, mocked by your enemy, made to feel small, denied the satisfaction of a proper fight or a warrior's death... Lol, get fucked idiot.

Eventually, it would probably turn into teasing him about how her kingdom is shaping up quite nicely, how happy everyone there is, how it's such a shame that his short-sighted and hostile nature prevented him from ever knowing such comfort and luxury, how instead he's here fighting for his life in the land that he once ruled.

And then idk he almost gets himself killed in the middle of a spice storm or something and she refuses to give him the satisfaction of a quick death so she drags his sorry ass off to safety much to his absolute livid rage and idk you know where this kinda thing goes. Both parties here hate each other. But I feel like sooner or later, it could grow into a very begrudging living agreement where he works for her, day in and day out, to make up for everything he did, and as payment for being given somewhere to stay. A destroyer, helping to rebuild and elevate a civilization he was so intent on destroying, how ironic is that?

And then yuri or something idk. That part is optional I just like the idea.

... Can you tell I'm a Dragon Ball fan? I'm all too used to absurdly evil villains getting another chance and becoming either significantly less dangerous or outright good.

Yes, I'm looking at you, Vegeta. You may not have killed a single earthling, but you did almost directly cause the death of 4. And then over time, through many, many humiliations, and finding yourself a woman who can somehow handle how much of an arrogant cocky bastard you are, with a temper matching or surpassing your own, you settled down and built something infinitely better than what you had when you exerted your power over those under you. Seriously, watch Dragon Ball Z, it's really good. It somehow makes a redemption arc for a guy who's blown up planets feel genuinely believable and engaging.

... Right, Cookie Run.

Yeah, I think it would be perfectly in character for GC to refuse Burning Spice the warrior's death he so desperately wanted (you know finding something that can destroy him), take his soul jam, and after a good while of having fun with watching him flounder about as a mortal, drag his ass over to her kingdom to work for her to compensate for all the shit he's done. And it would be infinitely more interesting than what they actually ended up doing.

And... I think that's it!

I think that covers everything I wanted to say regarding my last post on the update. This is probably the last I'll have to say about it of my own accord, though you can definitely continue the conversation through asks (Always open!). I'm still really mad at how bad they fumbled, but...

Hey, that's what fan-fixing is for, isn't it? This ending may have sucked, but don't let that prevent you from making a better one yourself, through whatever your medium of preference is. Go ham. Because there's a good chance whatever you have in mind is infinitely better than whatever the hell they're planning to do next with Burning Spice.

Go absolutely nuts. I'll be watching on, and potentially participating, if writing motivation ever strikes.

Cya'll.

[g1rld1ary]

jealousy, jealousy ; anthony lockwood x reader (part 2)

➻ i'm a big valentine's fan can you tell... (also thank u sm for 20 followers?! in like a week or 2?!!!)

➻ word count: 2008

➻ synopsis: you're at Fittes' Valentine's Day ball with Lockwood but things don't go quite as you intend. maybe all that's needed for the both of you to confess is some good old-fashioned jealousy

➻ warnings: ooc + villain kipps, kissing without consent + implications of sexual assault (just kissing), swearing, angst + fluff

➻ (PART ONE HERE)

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Lockwood thought he’d never seen someone more stunning. He knew you were beautiful — he’d spent enough hours staring at you in Arif’s to deduce that fact, but this was the first time he’d ever seen you not in your work uniform and your practical tied-back hairstyles.

Now, though, you were on a whole new level. Your red dress was simple but classic, grazing the floor beneath your white heels. The red spaghetti straps were hidden by your hair, extending past your shoulders in gentle waves, a frilly white barrette keeping it out of your face. Lockwood was, very unusually, completely lost for words.

“You look…” He stuttered, grappling for any words that could encapsulate the feelings in his heart.

“You’re a total knockout,” Lucy interrupted, and Lockwood nodded, grateful for the words supplied. Even George looked mildly impressed, which you took over the exasperated expressions you got when you were serving him at work. Truthfully, the source of those looks was usually Lockwood and his habit of abandoning work the moment you entered his periphery, but George wasn’t above lightly blaming you for it.

You kept Lockwood & Co meeting your family to an absolute minimum, but still not short enough to avoid your mum giving you several pointed looks.

“He’s cute,” She mouthed and you flushed almost the same colour as your dress. You tried to shut her up before anyone noticed and you thought you’d succeeded, but Lucy’s teasing eyebrow raise had you burying your head in your hands.

Soon as you could you’d ushered Lockwood & Co out of your house, waving goodbye to your parents and trying to silence all their embarrassing conversation by talking louder to your friends. Lockwood, much to your chagrin, was extremely fond of them and had made premature plans to see them again, delighting in your embarrassment at their insistence of telling childhood stories.

Still, you arrived at the Fittes building far too quickly for your liking, and you subconsciously grabbed onto Lockwood’s arm to keep him close. He looked down at you, eyes soft as they searched yours. He gave a quick pat to the arm holding his, offering you silent support.

“It’ll be fun, hey? Promise if it sucks we can ditch whenever you like — I doubt George will last that long anyway.” You nodded in response, not trusting your voice not to waiver.

You looked around in wonder as you entered the great hall where the ball was being held. It was decked out in red and pink, hearts and cherubs tastefully adorning each surface. You were astounded by the opulence of not only the room but its inhabitants. All of the agents invited were similarly dressed up to the nines, though you personally didn’t think anybody compared to Lockwood in his perfectly tailored suit.

The four of you wandered around the party for a while, and you were admittedly shocked at Lockwood’s charm and easy conversation. You knew he was a good talker — you’d been told off a ridiculous amount of time at the store because Lockwood had kept you entranced with a story or a joke, but he could seemingly keep an endless conversation with anyone he came across regardless of their age or occupation. You followed him around like a lost puppy, smiling nicely when you made eye contact and giving your name when someone cared enough to ask. The moments you liked the most though were between the endless list of people to greet, where Lockwood would crane his neck down to whisper what he really thought about the previous acquaintances and you could make a joke in return.

You were surprised by someone calling your name. “You look stunning tonight.” The voice belonged to Quill Kipps. You smiled at him, paying him a compliment in return. You rather liked Kipps — you knew there was some rivalry between him and Lockwood but it was frankly none of your interest or business, and Kipps had always been perfectly lovely to you. You could feel Lockwood glowering beside you and sighed, hoping there wouldn’t be a confrontation in the middle of a ball. Though you couldn’t say you minded the protective — and maybe slightly possessive — arm he’d snaked around your waist, holding you closer to him and further from Kipps.

You made slight smalltalk with him, but the conversation was short lived since neither boy was prepared to speak any kindness to the other. You waved softly as Kipps promised to see you later, and you scolded Lockwood when you were out of his earshot.

“Today is a day all about love and you’re staring down Kipps! What is that all about?”

“I can tell you our tragic angsty backstory later, love, do you want to dance?” You thought Lockwood was smarter than he was sometimes given credit for as that was possibly the most effective redirection tactic he could have tried, and you were soon on the dance floor together, swaying softly to the cheesy, old fashioned love songs that had been playing all night.

You couldn’t believe what was happening to you. Firstly that Lockwood had asked you here at all; it was your first time seeing each other out of the confines of the cafe and it was all going so well — the two of you got on like a house on fire. Secondly, that you were then slow dancing with him. His hands sat on your waist, warm against the silky fabric of your dress. In turn, yours wrapped around his neck, and neither of you could contain your smiles. You thought in the back of your head, trying not to jinx it, that he might even try to kiss you — and you doubted you would say no to him.

You’d settled into a comfortable silence, dancing amongst the sea of couples, and you wondered if Lockwood was having the same thoughts you were. You didn’t get the opportunity to ask him, though, as George and Lucy were at your side, raving about some high level agency figure that they were desperate to meet. You saw the way Lockwood’s eyes lit up at the name drop and drew your hands back, not wanting to be the reason he gave up an important introduction.

He hesitated for a moment, looking at you. You gave him a soft smile, encouraging him to leave.

“C’mon, Lockwood! Your sappy slow dance can wait, when are we going to get this opportunity again?” George whined and you both flushed at that — any romance sucked out of the mood. Lucy smacked him in the side but the moment was gone, Lockwood holding back a groan.

“What about you go get us some drinks while we do this and we’ll be back before you know it,” Lockwood suggested and you nodded, trying to look cool and unaffected. You said a quick goodbye before you split away from the group, heading to the other side of the ridiculous foyer.

You went to the bathroom, taking full advantage of the luxurious facilities and making extremely awkward eye contact with a woman in the mirror as you washed your hands, shrinking as you noticed how much more glamorous she was.

With Lockwood you felt like you somewhat belonged, his touch grounding you and dissolving a large part of your nerves. But now he was gone, and you felt terribly alone and like everyone who looked at you could tell you weren’t supposed to be here.

Those were your musings as you made your way to the drinks table, intending to make one for Lockwood and yourself as you’d promised. A hand laid on your shoulder from behind you, making you jump slightly.

“I meant what I said before,” Kipps said, turning you gently to face him. “You really look amazing tonight, but you do every day.”

“Oh.” You blushed, “Thank you, Quill. That’s very kind of you.”

“Care for a dance?”

“Uh, I don’t know if—” Your protests were ignored as you were swept up in his arms, limbs stiff from your discomfort. He kept trying to make conversation but you weren’t much use, suddenly uncomfortable with someone you were used to calling a friend.

“I really like you,” Kipps said and your mouth dropped open.

“Have you been drinking?” You asked, trying to ease yourself out of his grip — unsuccessfully.

“Only a little. For confidence. Look, I want to be with you, for you to be mine. What do you think?” You could feel the colour drain from your face, your feet faltering beneath you.

“Quill, you’re really lovely and all but —” He was kissing you. Why was Kipps kissing you? And why couldn’t you get him to let go?

“Lockwood!” You heard Lucy call behind you, and you managed to wrench yourself away from Kipps long enough to see Lockwood storming out of the hall. Panicking, you shoved Kipps away, pushing through the crowd to try and find the boy you’d arrived with.

The winter air outside was aggressive and sent goosebumps up your uncovered arms but you disregarded it, catching up to Lockwood.

“It wasn’t what it looks like, Lockwood, I promise!” Lockwood whipped around to face you, coattails flying with the wind. For a moment he looked frightening and you faltered slightly, shrinking back from him.

“Wasn’t what it looks like? So you weren’t just making out with the only person I really hate? While you were here with me? Yeah, right,” He said, breathing ragged. You hated seeing him angry, you just wanted to hold his face and explain everything, but you figured he wouldn’t be very receptive to it right now. “And to think I really thought I had a chance.” You didn’t hear what was whispered under his breath, your own temper bubbling after being yelled at so unjustly.

“God, Lockwood, can you get your head out of your arse for one second? Do you really think this is how I wanted the evening to go? Being felt up by Kipps because he’s had too many drinks to realise he’s not the guy I like?” You could see Lockwood’s eyes soften a bit, his guilt flaring up. “Yeah, not plan A. All night I have felt stupid and out of place in this big fancy ball and I was fine with it because at least I was here with you, but now you’re yelling at me and acting like you’re the one that’s been hurt, all because you’re jealous?”

“Me? Jealous? I—” He spluttered, but you weren’t finished.

“Clearly you are jealous of something — why else would you be acting so childish?”

“Fine!” He yelled, “I am jealous! I’m jealous of Kipps because I’ve been trying to work up the courage to kiss you all night after pining for you for months. I’m jealous because I like you so much that I can’t stop thinking about you and George is sick of hearing about you and—”

“Lockwood?”

“Yes?”

“Shut up.” You cupped his cheeks, pressing your lips to his. What you meant as a quick show of affection and method of stopping Lockwood’s rambling quickly turned into something more, something hungrier as Lockwood brought you into him. Whilst Kipp’s arms around you were threatening, restricting, Lockwood’s were warm, comforting, and you couldn’t help but melt into him, adding as much intensity as the both of you could handle.

Behind you, you could hear the telltale sound of a salt bomb and pulled away enough to laugh against Lockwood’s lips.

“You did not just fight a ghost while we were making out,” You giggled, pressing another peck which he chased after hungrily.

“Can’t have you getting ghost-touched when I’ve finally got you in my arms.” You both smiled, lacing your hands together as you prepared to go sort out the mess that had been left behind.

You supposed your Valentine’s Day had turned out alright after all.

[depressed-teacup-inc]

It’s the way derision is a legitimately awful episode for me

Hello, Hey, how y’all doing, I’m still grieving Luka, And it’s time for another miraculous episode review!

And lord I fucking hate this one!!!

So Marinette and Adrien go on pool date, and Marinette keeps having panic attacks over it, until she’s almost akumatized and has to dig deep in memory lane to not get Akumatized (and this is where the majority of this episode takes place)

So. I hate this with all my heart! This motherfucking show. Really just said “yeah guys, so all of Marinette’s creepy stalker behavior? Yeah guys it’s Chloe and Kim’s fault she’s like this it’s trauma and therefore she’s fine!”

…so let’s unpack this.

With Chloe, this is nothing new, the show keeps demonizing her and taking away from any nuance or chance she has at redemption, and the show needs us to some reason believe that Chloe (and Lila) is worse then the little abusive father terrorist in this show! Because they are probably planning on making her the next Lila in the show as Lila becomes Hawkmoth!

To the fucking point they decided to take her bullying from random mean comments and hun on a sit in season one, To fucking roaches in lockers and panic attacks!

And before you ask, no I don’t believe that every single character needs to be redeemed and complex (some people really do just suck) but the show takes that to an extremist degree! The show needs viewers to believe Chloe is more evil then literal monarch because if she got a redemption or had dimension (as she had in season 2) marinette by comparison looks awful and creepy!

To put a long analysis short, I don’t hate Chloe for being bitchy because I think everyone should be complex, I hate her for being bitchy because the show only does this to make marinette look like a saint in comparison, to the point that they will make child abusers look better then her, just so marinette can stay “the good guy”.

Now for Kim… THIS MOTHERFUCKING SHOW!!!

“Oh yeah kids ever wondered why marinette broke into Adrien’s house, harassed him, sniffed him, stole his schedule and personally belongings and information, hurt anyone that was a rival to her, broke into his house on multiple occasions, and literally got so many people akumatize from her selfish behavior? It’s because she was traumatized by Kim, who’s suddenly cruel, and it’s all Chloe’s fault!”

ThIS SHOW. LITERALLY BLAMED EVERY SINGLE WRING THING MARINETTE EVER DID (WHICH INCLUDES LITERAL LAWS BEING BROKEN AND SOME SHIT THATS ON CHLOES LEVEL OF BAD) ON “Yeah guys she has trauma PTSD, it’s all Chloe’s fault hehe”

And it’s just… so fucking upsetting!

Not only did the show demonize Kim (and everyone is just fucking buying it) out of nowhere to be this asshole (this is not the misguided himbo I know and love and I fucking hate it) the show basically erased every mistake marinette ever made under the guise of trauma, when it’s so fucking unfair and biased!

Like, by the show’s logic, if Marinette is justified for all the literal crimes she committed because of trauma, why not Chloe? You can easily just argue that her mom not being there is justification to committing literal crimes!

But the show won’t do that, because Marinette needs to be the good guy and can’t be wrong.

The show had to literally demonize and change characters entirely (boy in Lila episodes and specifically this episode) just to absolve marinette of any fault, and it’s just bad writing!!! The show doesn’t want to admit that marinette is frankly an awful person and will morph the plot around her to prove it!

Because reality is? Shit isn’t black and white! Even if marinette had this awful experience (which I will not minimize) it doesn’t justify the constant hurting and awful things she did to others, just like Chloe’s extremely bad childhood doesn’t justify her hurting and bullying others!

The show yet again just demonized and morphed the plot and characters to justify marinette, in order to make sure she’s always good and always in the right, so that they don’t have to change anything about the story, so they can drag on this show forever to make lots of money.

And frankly? I’m fucking tired of it.

(Also Adrien is officially nothing more then love interest, he’s out-of-character threatening murder on Kim because “marinette deserves people will kill for herrrr”)

[pinesfamilyguidetotheweird]

Gravity Falls Thoughts: Ford and Trauma™ Part 2 (Forced Insomnia)

Annnnnd here we are with Part 2 of Ford and Trauma™!

Last time, we tackled the likelihood of Ford living off of pills and coffee over the last 30 years. So, what’s the logical next part?

Perhaps one of the most popular Ford ships out there!

Ford x Sleeeeep!!!!

Or…his problems with it. Let’s go with that.

If Gravity Falls went a bit longer (like if it had 3 seasons), this could have been a running gag of sorts for Ford, his lack of sleep or at least the repercussions of said lack of sleep, such as him dozing off in weird places.

And you can blame a certain dream demon for that.

Not long after Ford learns of Bill’s true colors, Ford did anything he could to prevent Bill from having any control of the situation…that includes depriving himself of sleep due to his deal with Bill.

…Yeah…um…there is a glaring issue on that plan, I must say. And that is the fact that depriving yourself of sleep…will not be beneficial in the long run.

According to Healthline, there are 5 Sleep Deprivation Stages, each stage is determined by the many hours of no sleep.

Stage 01 is after 24 hours of no sleep. A personal fact here, y’all: I’ve done this before twice in my life, staying up for about 24 hours…it was not fun both times.

While not necessarily a cause for major problems, there will be some issues, such as decreased alertness, drowsiness, fatigue, increased risks of mistakes…

Stage 02, after 36 hours (A day and a half), and you’ll start experiencing severe cognitive impairment. Not to mention an overwhelming desire for sleep and the likelihood of having microsleeps (short bouts of sleep that lasts for about 30 secs) is possible.

Come Stage 03 (after 48 hours) and hoooo…boy, things aren’t lookin’ good at all! This is where hallucinations can start setting in. Which, in Ford’s paranoid case, is a definite cause for concern. And there’s depersonalization, anxiety, heightened stress levels, increased irritability, and extreme fatigue. Microsleeps becomes more of a guarantee. And you won't realize it.

At Stage 04 (after 72 hours), along with more frequent and longer microsleeps, the hallucinations could get more complex.

Then finally, at Stage 05 (after 96 hours and more), you’ll start to experience a little thing called sleep deprivation psychosis, when your perception of reality is severely distorted due to lack of sleep.

So…not much of a shock to see this…

And we don’t even know how long Ford had been trying to keep himself awake. Even Journal 3 (I have the regular edition) doesn’t provide the answer for this except for the mad scrawlings of CAN’T SLEEP and the hellish amount of coffee he drank.

This can also explain his insistence on preserving his journals instead of just destroying them. He’s not thinking clearly due to lack of sleep.

It is possible to recover from this, though, it will take a while.

It can take days or weeks to recover from a bout of sleep deprivation. Just 1 hour of sleep loss requires 4 days to recover. The longer you’ve been awake, the longer it will take to get back on track.

And considering that Ford got sucked into the Portal before he could have a moment for well deserved rest…kind of a similar situation to his crap diet while on the run, how often was Ford able to get a full night's rest? I mean...look how he sleeps now, in day wear with his coat, glasses, and boots on, like he has to be prepared to book it...

It’s honestly a wonder that Ford came back to our dimension without sporting some eyebags that would give Shouta Aizawa (or even Toshinori Yagi) a run for his money.

…Question: So, Bill had free reign of entering Ford’s mind when he sleeps, right? Did Bill still do that during Ford’s travels up until he got that plate installed?

...So, what should I talk about next? The bullying Ford had to endure? Father of the Year, Filbrick Pines? Possible complex PTSD? Major Guilt? Wounds and potential complications? Bill -fucking- Cipher and the abuse?

[tyrannosaurus-trainwreck]

Touching back on the “writing good parent-child relationships” thing, I think it’s important to remember that kids are going to have a lot of interests and hobbies and fixations and stuff like that that parents are either going to suffer through or just be extremely confused by, and that’s fine, to be expected, etc. The thing that you’re looking for is that the adult is actively looking for common ground, taking the kid’s interest in the thing seriously, and supporting the kid’s healthy engagement with the thing.

Back in the Before Times, I was going to a lot of live entertainment, and every performance had a certain amount of second or third wheels who were very ??? about the whole thing that they’d just sat through.

The big difference was between the people who acted put out by the whole thing and said shit like “I hope you’re happy, you got to see ______, can we go home now?” and the people who were patently bewildered but keeping a lid on it and asking things like “Did you have fun? What was your favorite part? Do you want to see if they’re doing autographs or selfies at the merch table?”

Like, “I have no idea what the shit I just sat through, but clearly this is speaking to you in a profound and meaningful way and I want to participate as deeply as I can because I love you and this is bringing you joy.”

And of course, if you do this shit to your partner, eventually they’re just going to dump your ass because you’re such a pill about stuff that excites them and life’s too short for that nonsense. If you do this shit to a child in your care, they... can’t really do that until they’re 18. So the lesson they take from interactions like that is not to get too excited about stuff they care about within earshot of you/an adult or not to admit to any interests that you aren’t also very interested in, because they’ll be ridiculed or treated as if they’re annoying for having those interests. It creates this whole raft of communication issues, because the parent becomes a person the child can’t entirely trust to have their back and starts selectively editing themselves around.

It’s a great way to wind up with a parent-child relationship where the kid knows they can come to you for a loan or because they need a ride halfway across the continent or help hiding a body, but they’d never in a million years talk to you about how serious they are about a romantic partner or how bad their seasonal depression disorder actually is or why they quit that “dream job” they had for a few years. If you don’t immediately understand or approve of what the kid’s telling you, you’re going to be a jackass about it and shut them down, and it’s not worth the risk of being vulnerable.

Conversely, the “I have no idea what the hell just happened, but I love you and you seem pretty stoked about it” parents are a great way to wind up with “he’s a little confused, but he’s got the spirit” relationships where children feel confident that even if their parents are going to need a few months and some research to understand them, they’re willing and able to put in that effort and can be largely trusted not to dismiss the child’s experiences and desires out of hand. Will their parents be perfect? No, of course not. But their parents are willing to put in the work to meet the child where they’re at, which lowers the risk for the child deciding to trust them with big revelations.

It’s of a piece with parenting relationship advice that I’ve seen before, which is going out of your way to create opportunities for you and your kid to learn together on the same level and to resist the urge to step into the role of an “authority” during those activities. For example, if you’ve never worked with clay before and you and your kid are doing one of those “mommy and me” classes where you make a bowl or a plate or something, you focus on making a bowl with your kid instead of getting sucked into being an unpaid teacher’s assistant because you’re a parent and therefor vaguely In Charge even though you don’t know shit about ceramics and your ersatz authority is solely by dint of being twice as tall as everyone else at the table.

In terms of fiction, it can be useful to delineate between parents that a character can reliably turn to as an Authority (but not necessarily a whole lot else) and parents that a character could conceivably go to for actual life advice.

[scribefindegil]

hello I am also accursed and what I do is I have a lil notbook and pencil in my bed to write dnd notes for, like it operates on the same tiny hand thing to do that the eep triangles do i think? I also have an audio recorder app on my phone to talk out my ideas and stuff. I know that's not helpful as much for like. PLAYING and RUNNING a ttrpg but I'm like. Hi I Feel Your Pain here is what I do for mine. I was in one of the groups of your gnome "raise the bread raise the dead" oneshot and that was a lot of fun but I Also don't have the energy nowadays to do stuff like that.

i just woke up so hopefully this makes sense I hope you have a wonderful rest of your day and that the shit hits the fan Less

Thanks for the message; I hope you have a good day too! Oh sourdough necromancy oneshot, you were such a good time . . .

But yeah, the real big problem is that while there are some things you can do to make planning stages a lot more curse-friendly and modular, to actually play D&D you need to be able to think and talk and pay attention consistently for multiple hours. I've been able to play in a game my friend's running for the past few months, but barely. We have short sessions and I spend large chunks of them lying on the floor with my eyes closed; I really struggle to keep track of my character's abilities; I don't talk much and am completely dependent on the other party members to keep track of what we've learned and put the plot stuff together . . . It's fun and I'm glad I'm doing it! But I'm still not really . . . *there* a lot of the time.

And DMing took SO much energy even before I got sick :( It's extremely cognitively demanding and you have to keep so much information in your head and make decisions in real time. And also you have to, like, talk, which is already more than I can manage a good chunk of the time. It SUCKS and it makes me so so so sad, but I just can't see any way of making DMing accessible to me with my fatigue at the level it's been for the past two years.

[tea-mew96]

hi meow :^) can i geeeeet optimus priiimal

Why, yes you can!

Send me a character and I'll tell you my...

First impression

This guy seems neat. Not sure how I feel about this whole furry alt mode thing, but I'm curious to see what else this character has in store.

Impression now

My beloved ape dad, munky queen, and comfort character.

Get past the "lol munky" jokes and you will find what is IMO one of the best designed characters in Optimus Primal. His iterations do differ (mainly in terms of the sass level he possesses), but the one constant is that he is a perfect ambassador of his beast mode: gentle, caring, and protective of his team and friends-sometimes to a fault-yet powerful and not afraid to smack a bitch if need be. Favorite Transformers character of all time, if you don't like him we can't be friends /hj

Favorite moment

You could put all scenes of Primal in the Beast Wars episode "Gorilla Warfare" here, but I'm specifically gonna pick the scene where Primal is going on a rampage through the Darksyde. Berserk Primal always lives rent-free in my head.

Idea for a story

I've given quite a bit of thought to an origin story for Optimus Primal, specifically for the original show. Decades later and we've never gotten canon info about his life before Megatron stole the Golden Disk, which baffles me.

To keep the story short, I imagine Optimus Primal's origin story being complimentary but opposing of Megatron's. While Megatron took the name for himself out of a power-hungry ego to be better than the Megatron of legend, Optimus Primal received his name upon activation due to his similar appearance to his namesake. However, he has a rough upbringing due to the pressure to be "perfect" like his namesake, despite not wanting anything to do with being a political leader or spiritual successor to Optimus Prime (hence pursuing a career in space exploration instead once he was older).

Unpopular opinion

I personally like Optimus Primal in Beast Machines for the most part, primarily from a psychological perspective.

Yes, he is snappy to his team, he's not as cheery or light-hearted as he was, but that's entirely because of the extreme negative situation he's faced with.

I always remember what Primal said to his fellow Maximals in episode 3: "Megatron decimated this planet because of me, you think I can bear losing any of you?!"

I bring this up because this is what signaled to me that Primal is not mentally doing well. Primal is blaming himself for Megatron's escape and his subsequent unleashing of the virus, blaming himself for the millions of sparks and future of Cybertron now on the line due to Megatron's actions, blaming himself for putting his teammates right back at square one but now with limited resources and numbers. Primal is putting a lot of unhealthy pressure on himself and it shows.

I just think it sucks that a lot of people don't seem to talk about this when it comes to his characterization. Most of what I see usually starts and ends with how preachy he is when that's only scratching the surface of his character IMO.

Favorite relationship

I will always stand by Primal, DInobot, and Megatron polycule, though only in an AU/what if scenario.

If referring to canon material though, I like Primal and Dinobot's relationship because of how sweet their friendship ends up being. Primal believes in Dinobot more than Dinobot seems to believe in himself, and Primal still supports him even during his worst moments.

Meanwhile, I find Primal and Megatron's dynamic fascinating to study, primarily because of how strongly linked their fates are with one another. They don't get along at all, yet their opposing characterizations and mannerisms ironically compliment each other well.

Favorite headcanon

He doesn't get many chances to do so, but Primal is a talented singer that knows how to play the guitar and piano (or whatever the Cybertronian equivalent of those instruments are.) I like to believe he's sung lullabies to Cheetor when the young bot can't sleep. Yes, this headcanon is based off Garry Chalk.

[multi-fandom-hoebag]

NSFW ABC (Sophia)

(Minors DNI)

A = Aftercare

* She’s a sweet bean, and needs all the tlc afterwards. Hold her close, kiss her softly, run your hands over her back.

* Make sure she feels safe and loved. Bonus points if you tell her how beautiful she is and how good she did.

B = Body part

* She is secretly proud of her tight, firm ass, especially the way it looks in shorter skirts. She won’t vocalize this out loud, but she does occasionally check it out in the mirror when she wears certain outfits.

* For you, she likes your legs. She loves how strong they are from working on the farm, and loves when you use your thighs to spread her legs apart.

C = Cum

* She is a squirter, and she has multiples.

* Be sure to put a towel down if you are planning for a long night because she has been known to make quite a mess.

* Her cum tastes as sweet as her personality.

D = Dirty secret

* She is intrigued by furries. One time out of curiosity she looked up furry porn and found herself getting turned on by it.

* Once in a while she will still look it up, when a certain itch needs scratching.

* She also wants to try anal.

E = Experience

* She’s had a couple of partners, but she never got to explore or experiment the way she wanted to.

* It wasn’t until you started having sex that she was able to finally branch out and explore that side of herself.

F = Favorite position

* She’s pretty flexible, so she can easily pull off the knees to chest position.

* She also loves when you fuck her doggy style with her wrists tied together behind her back.

G = Goofy

* She’s into some pretty serious role play and dom/sub dynamic, so things can get a little intense.

* But once it’s done she needs to laugh to get out of the head space and break out of the heavy mindset.

H = Hair

* Trimmed extremely short.

* Sometimes she’ll get bored and shave it into fun shapes for kicks and giggles.

* Carpet is her natural hair color which nobody knows unless you have been down there.

I = Intimacy

* There has to be a level of intimacy between you or she won’t be able to continue.

* She needs that connection and love between you, especially if you’re being dominate with her.

* If there’s no connection she can’t let herself relax enough to keep going.

J = Jack off

* She rarely does it anymore.

* Even when she was single it wasn’t something she indulged in daily, just when the occasional urge arose.

K = Kink

* She loves having the dom/sub dynamic with you. She loves letting you have control over her and bossing her around a bit.

* She trusts you completely, and knows you’ll never go too far, but she likes that you threaten to be rough with her.

* She’s also very into role play. (Teacher/student, master/slave, boss/intern etc.)

L = Location

* The bedroom, the shower, or any place where you are guaranteed a level of privacy and security.

* She is allowing herself to be vulnerable with you, and she needs a safe setting to be able to do so.

M = Motivation

* She loves when you send her provocative and commanding text messages.

* Things like “I can’t wait to taste you” and “make sure you’re ready for me tonight” are things that will make her squirm in anticipation and imagine all the things you’re going to do to her later.

N = No

* She likes being submissive to you, but you have to treat her as a person and not an object.

* Boss her around, tell her what to do, but don’t treat her like trash.

O = Oral

* She has to trust you before she lets you, but when she does it’s one of her favorite things. It’s a sure fire way to make her squirt.

* And of course she is more than happy to return the favor. She has trained herself to deep throat, so if you have a dick (or a strap) you can be sure she can take all of you into her mouth.

* She’ll happy suck your clit (if you have one) until you command her to stop.

P = Pace

* Don’t rush things with her.

* You need to take your time with her, build up the trust and tension between you.

* Don’t rush through it, especially during an emotionally taxing role play.

Q = Quickie

* She actually likes a quick fuck in the morning.

* She loves when you pull her into you and spoon her, reaching around and getting her off quickly with your fingers before getting up and going about your day.

R = Risk

* She’s super open and curious, and willing to try things considered “risky”.

* That being said, she wants to take those risks in private and will not engage in any place you might be caught in the act.

S = Stamina

* She can go multiple rounds. She cums multiple times and it takes a while to wear her out.

* If anything it’s more of a matter of if you can keep with her.

T = Toys

* She has a couple, but not a massive collection. She had a few vibrators and dildos, but she usually opted to use her fingers.

* She’s much more interested in toys you can use together.

U = Unfair

* She loves when you tease her (especially when you edge her). She tries to tease you back but her willpower is not as strong as yours and usually ends up begging.

V = Volume

* She may seem sweet and innocent, but she can get loud.

* You were surprised at the level of volume that came from her, but it definitely provided an ego boost at knowing she was making those noises because of you.

W = Wild card

* She has a fantasy of wearing a collar and leash and engaging in a bit of pet play with you.

* Nothing too extreme, but she wants you to yank on the chain if she misbehaves or disobeys your commands.

X = X-ray

* She has a tiny, fragile frame, that is easily overpowered by you.

* She’s on the thin side, but her arms are toned from all the work she has done on the vineyard.

Y = Yearning

* Despite how open and experimental she can be, her sex drive isn’t any higher than average.

* She likes sex with you, but it doesn’t mean she wants to jump your bones every night.

Z = Zzz

* It takes a while for her to fall asleep afterwards, especially if you engaged in one of your more intense role plays.

* She needs some tender loving and affection afterwards and needs your reassurance before she can get to a state where she can drift off.

* Light hearted pillow talk and affirmations will help her eventually fall into a peaceful sleep.

[emperor-of-blood]

Hi man, just read about half of your analysings(?) and i find it cool how you do it in a character basis instead of generalising the whole thing

Anyway. I thought your "Rogue of Mine" was fun but what do you actually think minecraft Steve's classpect would be? Kinda hard since he's "whatever the player wants him to be" but it might be doable

Heyo! Glad to hear that you've been enjoying things, I should really get back to this blog.

I think you're right, Steve should be doable. I guess the first thing is that Steve is more or less all alone in this world. What Steve does can be boiled down to a few distinct things:

Exploring the world

Building stuff

Ender Dragon Stuff

It's a gross oversimplification but bear with me for now. I think there's a lot of.... whimsy maybe? fucking around at the very least, included in the first two points there. It's kind of hard to really get more specific than that as we start wading into player-specific-waters.

but it might just be enough

Steve from Minecraft is a.....

Lord of Mind

Lords are mainly defined by a few things, the first being solitude. Lords only ever appear in solo sessions. Minecraft at its core is a single player game and even when it's multiplayer, by default it's still just a bunch of Steves. Steve's collective will amongst all the different players can be summed up as trying to have fun I think.... That looks pretty different for everyone but comes down to exploring, building, and/or fighting. The only thing that each separate Steve really has in common is that he exists in the game Minecraft, that is to say, Steve as a "character" is limited and defined by the scope of the game.

Another reason I chose Lord vs, Muse for example, is the active passive shenanigans. I must've mentioned it before that I don't really like the "Active vs Passive" descriptions for classes.

This as good of a time as any to elaborate on that I suppose. I'll try to keep it short tho. So traditionally, Lords and Muses main defining feature is generally agreed upon as being the most active and most passive classes. One quick example of how this is a flawed description comes to alt. Calliope. She sits around and does nothing for a long time, until of course, she does something. Opening a black hole and sucking in ghosts and all that nonsense that happens at the end of Homestuck is pretty damn active. So what is it just that they're passive until they're not? John was more passive as an air in that regard. The wind just helped him without even his knowledge. As a hypothetically more extreme version of that it's weird that we don't actually get any sort of comparable effect or anything.

Anyways, the point is that the Lord class is pretty up in the air. We know they're supposed to be strong and solo and you could say that they're active I guess. Maybe Calliope is just a really bad Muse.

Which is actually very possible. In which case Lord is supposed to be very active by comparison and the Minecraft world only changes when Steve takes action, and usually it's changing a lot.

The Mind part of the classpect, comes from the meaning of Mind being pretty literal; Actions, thoughts, decisions, and logic. Steve is the ultimate tool to change the Minecraft world, being the vessel for every player of the game. This is also technically true with most video game player characters but Minecraft has such a level of freedom that it goes to another level.

I could be persuaded to assign Lord of Space maybe, but I just don't think it fits quite as well.

That's it for this time, hopefully I'll be back again soon!

[2dkapsddr]

March 31st, 2024 - ProSeka, Arcaea, TAKUMI, maimai, DDR A20 PLUS

alas, as they all say, all good things must come to an end. as much as i've enjoyed the con so much and all my time here, it was almost time to go. what i enjoyed here would be the last i enjoyed, as we all prepared to bid our farewells to the event by its end time at 5 PM PDT. but first, a word from my arcaea and proseka scores from yesterday that i couldn't fit into this post due to hitting the 30 image limit in tumblr posts!! they're nothing special, really, but i wouldn't be keeping in spirit of the account if i didn't include them. so here, a quick expert 26 AP and a Rise of the World FTR-10 EX!

alright, now back to the con. i mostly stuck with my friends as we got there before the artist valley opened somehow, and we hung around that area until they had to go get some things signed by their favorite VAs. while we were waiting for the doors to open, i checked out takumi cubic for their april fools joke of the year and got my friend to hold my phone while i played one of the chart lab charts (the one for freedom dive where it's just the insanity chart but all trace notes). sadly though, his holding SUCKED and i ended up getting two misses even though i should've gotten NONE!!!

meanwhile, being abandoned and left to roam the arch building on my own, i got the thought: since all the rhythm game tourneys were over now, wouldn't maimai finally be free from that huge crowd? sure enough, once i got up to the right level and up to the cabs, the next spot in line was free! (save for one single person waiting, who i could partner up with to get an extra song anyways). i logged in to the cab for the second time ever, nodded to my play partner (who was logging in for the first time and suffering all the new content notifications) and got warmed up for the maimai experience:tm: which was INSANELY FUN!!! god i wish i had maimai access anywhere near me . alas, we can't have good things (or at least Every good thing)

finished with that, i try and track down my friends who finally got their autographs and wanted to play DDR in the moment. i was down to play DDR EXTREME PRO, which i haven't even experienced properly before, but they wanted to play DDR A20 PLUS there which was fine anyways. i let them play first since i was moreso interested in playing at round 1 by myself, but i gave in to the temptation and played some sets with each one (except my friend's sister) and fucking DESTROYED them oh my GOD . here's a snapshot of some of the scores, i have a video of me playing tiger rampage CSP-17 (in cosplay of course) but i still have to get it from my friend who recorded . nevertheless, here's the goodies! (there's some other scores i took pictures of that were sweet accomplishments from my friends, but i won't share them here for obvious reasons. anything AA or above is my side)

after that, we transferred over to the summit building and walked around some of the stalls before we bid farewell to the con, as it was closing 45 minutes after a reservation we had at the cheesecake factory. it was bittersweet, even if i wasn't at my most hype at first, and i'll very dearly miss it. but while we were waiting for our food at the cheesecake factory, i played last year's april fools chart for renda joceky for shits and giggles!! (it went horribly)

after eating, we went back home via the link trains and said our farewells at each house as this unforgettable experience came to a close. i'll miss it... but now that i was home, i could enjoy the all-new april fools charts guilt-free!!! (just arcaea's prank) (i didn't have enough progress in any other rhythm games on this phone)

and so, the extra-long post saga comes to an end. unless i attend some other event with a lot to talk about, i'll keep the rest of these posts short as i want to conserve both my time and sanity for actual important stuff like homework instead of writing summaries of my rhythm game scores that no one really reads. man . 'til next time though!

[lunapwrites]

This week, because I felt like treating myself, I picked up a new Oracle deck. The one I've been using up til now is a Goddess Oracle, and while I've found it very helpful during specific issues and it will absolutely still have a place in my practice, it is extremely gendered in its expression and so I needed something that spoke to the genderless cryptid in me. Sooo animals it is haha. Anyway, I worked it into my month at a glance practice as I finished up my work day today, and so far... I think we're vibing. Here's the whole mess.

I started by drawing the rune for the day: Hagalaz.

First, the fact that I am ending the month of June on the exact same rune I started it on is... telling. This month sucked! There was a lot going on, and very little of it was good. This rune represents chaos, destruction, transformation, etc... It means "hail" so... consider the damage that hail does. That's kinda where we're at here. But the important thing to remember here is that the storms are temporary, and you learn where not to park your car in the process. So I'm coming out of this month a little worse for wear, but we're learning.

Next, I drew my cards specifically with the intention of looking forward to the month of July: what am I coming in with, what are we going to encounter, and what am I leaving with?

NEAT.

So Four of Cups absolutely tracks. I am... not really in a good place at the moment? This whole chronic illness thing has been kicking my ass on a psychological level as well as physical, so... yeah, the depression card makes sense here lol. I'm coming into July with sad bitch energy.

King of Wands is an interesting play here. About half the time it shows up, it's representing my partner, and I think that's the case here - he's an island in the sea of awful. However, given the arguably negative aspect to this card's position, it's most likely also warning against setting unrealistic expectations for myself. Which... tracks.

This is supported by our good buddy Ten of Swords here in the future position, which... well, the good news is that the ten card is the "completion" card. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and The Horrors are going to be concluding. The bad news: I still have to finish experiencing The Horrors. Which... I guess I expected. This ain't gonna resolve itself in a day.

In short, July is also gonna suck, but... in a less depressing way? And it's probably going to look up in August. So that's... Good I guess lol.

So finally, I decided to check in with my new Oracle deck about what energy I should approach the coming month with. And the answer it gave me:

Keep finding happiness in the little things, and hold onto that light at the end of the tunnel. Don't let circumstances keep you down.

So... deep breaths. It's gonna suck. But remember to see the good, no matter how small.

[binaughtydiaries]

The hot tattooed masseuse.

I have been quite tense because of work lately, so my boyfriend suggested I go for a massage. He said he would book me an appointment at the clinic he usually goes to.

I get there, fancy place, smelling amazing like lavender. A girl named Cassey instructs me to remove my clothes, put the towel on my bum, face downand wait for her.

She walks in and asks me why I am there. What kind of massage I'm looking for. I tell her that my boyfriend suggested as I seemed stressed lately.

When I mention his name, she acknowledges and mentions he is a regular client. And then asked me: so you want you to relax? I got you.

She changes the lights to a dark red tone. I smell some essencial oils and the music is taking me away already.

She hears up some oil with her hands and then starts massaging my neck and shoulders. The tension going away by the second.

She then goes to massage my arms and hands. The touch is now a bit softer, gentle, almost seductive. Nah. Is in my head.

Next are my tights, she comes so close to my ass, I kinda want her to. My calves and my feet. The way she is so attentive to every inch of my body. But that's her job, no?

She comes back to my back, I open my eyes as I face the floor. I can see her legs, she definitely works out. Wait is she wearing a super short skirt??

She reminds me to relax. And then asks me to turn around. Keep your eyes closed. Which I obbly. I get comfortable and then I realize my breasts are exposed. As I try to reach for the towel, she holds my wrists....

Shhhh relax. Lay down. Is ok. She gets more oil, I wasn't expecting what came next... She starts massaging my boobs, a little pintch, did she just... I open my eyes to see her smirking with my nipple between her teeth. A wink.

I got it now, is full relaxing mode, her hands travel down my body slowly, warm, under my boobs, my stomach, the bone on my hips, my labia. Oh it is happening.

She slides two fingers inside me, her thumb pressing my clit. When we are getting into a good rithym she stops, puts my legs apart, but get on top of me, when I open my eyes, I can see her pretty pussy inches from my nose. Before I could even move, she was already licking me up and down. Girls really know how to suck the soul from another girl.

She then puts in me a vibrator, a triple one, a piece in the ass, a dick like in the pussy and the bunny ears in the clit. She turns it on, get off of me. And tells me again to keep my eyes closed. I feel a sharp pintch on my left nipple, she put clamps on me. The pain, the pleasure!!!!

She stands near my head while fondling my breasts, watch as I am about to cum. As she is naked. Her nipples are just in the perfect reach for my mouth, as I suck her. She says: oh you wanna please me too? And gets into a small ladder that leaves her ass in the same level as my head.

I rub my nose on her clit while I lick her up and down. Clit, lábia, ass, I can't hold anymore. I try to hold a scream. She tells me I can let it out. The room is sound proof. I cum like I haven't in weeks. I squirt all over the place.

Which apparently just made her hornier as she told me she was about to squirt on my face. She fingers herself to help her get there. Next thing I know I feel the blast on my mouth. I make sure to let her it all over my face. Is there anything hotter the juice a women let out her pussy as a result of extreme pleasure? Honey to my lips.

We clean up. I thank her for helping me release all the stress. I am sure coming back. Now I understand why my boyfriend comes here every other week. Buy Cassey told me that she is not usually the one who takes care of him. That's usually Andy. She helps him just once in a blue moon. 🤔😏

[pyro-the-kin]

Outer Wilds - Protagonist

Short one. Fun little worldbuilding too.

On me:

Young, barely an adult.

A bit over-enthusiastic at the beginning, eager to start my career as an explorer.

I was young at the highest point of space exploration, when the astronauts were exploring and mapping our solar system. So I was raised with constant news and discoveries, which ignited my love for it.

On Hearthians:

Unlike the game, there were more villages spread through Timber Hearth, of various sizes. But ours was the first and the biggest, and where all space exploration started from.

Our technology was of a low level but we advanced quickly every day, learning a lot from the Nomai. Despite many living in small wooden houses, we built and kept stone buildings, often adapting from Nomai ruins.

Our wood was sturdy and durable, at least from certain trees we cultivated for such means. Most of it was used for our spaceships and structural parts in the villages, but was rare as it was hard to grow and even harder to cut. Most things were made with softer and more practical woods.

Although we had mines ourselves we used the old Nomai structures as a starting point 

We really didn't know the meaning of violence, I mean our species was extremely pacifist and we never had much trouble between ourselves. So there was never the need for violence.

We had farming and animal keeping. I remember some sort of small and stocky animal that looked like a sheep, with thick fur that we used for clothing. But most of our food was from farming, or fishing. We also kept small birds as pets.

On the Nomai:

Our language wasn't gendered, so translating Nomai text always had errors as theirs had gendered words. So we could see differences between two different words, despite being translated as one.

There were works in an effort to depict how they looked from their bones, but we always had trouble with soft parts. Finding statues and drawings actually helped solve that issue.

We didn't know a lot, unfortunately most of their culture and traditions had been lost. But architectural styles, technology and knowledge on space travel remained, alongside with new knowledge I collected with the translation tool.

Scenes and events:

Dying the first time. It was purely an accident. I had traveled to the moon, and did all my research and conversation there. From that point of view I saw the Nomai ruins in Timber Hearth, and set out to travel there. I landed and started exploring the mines, jumping from slope to slope, only the flashlight to illuminate the darkness and occasionally stopping to check for ghost matter. But I didn't expect the ground to fall beneath my feet, plunging me into the abyss. I survived the fall, hitting the jetpack at the very last instant, but before I could react I felt that burning, the last thing I remember is hitting the jetpack while grabbing the camera in an attempt to escape. Didn't even feel my death, at a certain point the burning got so intense it seemed to just disappear.

I woke up in shock, but as I looked around I deemed it just a dream. Mentioned that supposed dream to Slate, they just laughed and patted my back, saying something to ease my nerves. But still, when I approached Hornfels to get the codes, it was the same exact line from my supposed dream.

I think my second death happened in Brittle Hollow. I was exploring the surface, trying to uncover where Riebeck was, when the ground fell beneath my feet, plunging me into the black hole below. Being sucked into it felt almost like a deep dive, and I found myself on the other side of the wormhole. But from my HUD I saw the ship nearby, and having enough fuel to reach it I set for it. I entered and buckled off, ready to fly again when I saw through the window, that deep red sun. The thermometer was pointing to higher and higher temperatures, until it simply stopped working. That moment was when I saw the white, that rumbling noise, and the approaching hell. But I was at some distance, and there was nothing I could do to avoid it but simply waiting, hands having long left the controls.

When I woke up again, I needed time to truly realize what was going on. But still I carried on, went to the observatory and searched everything I could on supernovas. Not much there, but all pointed to being way too soon for it to happen.

There came a point where I didn't need to see the sun to know it was going to happen soon. Even in the darkest caves beneath a planet, I would feel that chill through my skin, the deep rumble that defied the notion of space not having sound, and that dread feeling. So I simply breathed in and carried on my tasks, simply waiting for the white and the heat. Honestly it didn't even hurt, the white and the end always came up before the heat could really hurt.

Every time I went to the Hourglass Twins, I made sure to watch the sun carefully. When it started heating and decreasing in size, I often would kill myself in some quick way, usually by puncturing the suit, so as to avoid the extreme heat. Being that close to the sun meant that I would experience the heat of that event, and I really hated it, the heat took too long to kill me and was extremely painful.

One time in Giant's Deep, I fell when trying to reach a slope into the water. But before I could reach land again, a tornado snatched the island away. I knew my ship was safe so tried to swim to where I estimated the island would land, only to look up as it was falling right over me, killing me instantly.

In Dark Bramble, exploring the strange places, I followed the white lights, only to see the anglerfish too late as it moved to eat me. The second time, I brought my ship to make travelling easier, but had to leave to repair a part of the cockpit. I thought I was safe, with enough distance from the giant fishes, only to look up from my job and see the massive mouth encroaching around me.

Took many attempts to reach the skeleton in Dark Bramble, and more than once I reached it with barely enough time to talk with Feldspat and explore. I asked them about the statue’s eyes being open. I really wanted them to be aware of the loop.

Gabbro was a breath of relief. They were someone I could talk to freely, they always remembered our conversations and offered tips on what to do next. I shared my discoveries and investigations with them, both eager to figure a way out. They were kinda my notebook.

Gabbro would get really excited to hear my tales of the Stranger's inhabitants, often musing alongside me. They wanted me to bring their music instruments to play.

Until the very last moment at the Eye, I truly thought I would manage to get out of this situation. I hoped that I would be able to stop the supernova, to rescue all travellers, and to return home. I hoped that life could go on. But staying at that campfire, I finally realized everything. So I looked one last time at all travellers and those I met during my journey, my friends, crying for the lives that were lost, for the life we could've had.

And I promised them we would meet again. In other life, in other universe.

I was there, in the empty void, but it wasn't the void of space I knew off, something entirely different. And I saw it, a new beginning, a new Big Bang. And I've felt it, an old universe being destroyed and from its ashes a new one being born. I felt not only my physical body but every particle, every single element as it was born into existence. I felt as it drifted into every corner of existence, as it consumed my physical body and it became part of the universe, of everything. How I became part of the universe. I wasn't just assisting creation, I was becoming creation. To become nothing and everything, to be the flame that lights the candle into a new reality, to become every single element, every single tiny part of that new universe, to be one with the universe. And one day, perhaps, meet my friends again. In another life, in another story. As that universal cycle would again come to an ending, and from its ashes a new story begin.

[coolsharkpirate]

I don’t think these anons understand that nothing would ever change in the world if we didn’t forgive people. People make mistakes, it’s inevitable, but that shouldn’t define them. What should define them is how they grow and change from what they did. Of course, what you did sucked really fucking badly, but you admit that now and have changed. You’re a good person now who has helped others more than you’ve helped yourself, and while your bad past is important to acknowledge, it doesn’t change the fact that you’ve done so much good.

Long story short: Keep on doing your best, and I hope you feel better soon.

I kind of have a suspicion of who it could be sending me the anons, I think they got tired of me not over reacting and decided to leave me alone. Which amuses me because they had to go out of their way to send anons and that's more effort than anyone on the internet should be worth.

What I am coming to terms with, is people who are wishing harm, are probably people who I have very little interaction with. I liked to think I was rather approachable, but I also know that not everyone is going to like me and when someone says one thing they're going to jump on that and make it everything.

Honestly it makes me think of how Bean reacts to things she doesn't like. Big feelings are valid, everyone has a right to get them out, if anons feel vindicated by coming at me with accusations, then refusing to provide proof, I don't know what more I can do.

I did try to help myself instead of others for about a month, and then I got this abscess, I think I'd like to ignore myself again thanks. I'm kidding, realizing how much I meant to people really hit me harder than the last car I got hit by. Bean has been extremely gentle with me, and I always figured if I was gone she'd not care at all, because Justin seems to be her favorite person. But since I've been home if I make any noise of pain she runs over going "You ok? You ok?" And then brings me water/my glucometer/a stuffed animal and will climb up to sit with me quietly until her 3 year old brain kicks in and she has to run.

I also have an issue with relationships, with losing so many people through my life, I have always just assumed that I was an expendable person in people's lives and always just accepted that. After ending a 7 year relationship and essentially restarting my entire life from the ground up, only to have the 2 closest people at that time also just drift away suddenly, I always dreaded how it'd be with my husband, but the concern and love and just overwhelming support he gave me, including sleeping on Ched (It's a chair that turns into a bed), for three nights, taking weeks off work to make sure I'm not going to do something to get hurt worse, I think for the first time I understand what it truly means to be loved. I never even felt that way as a child, and it's kind of scary if I'm honest.

I also had friends on Discord who'd reach out and check on me, I know everyone has real busy lives and it was just touching that people thought of me during their days.

I think over all this whole hospital thing was good for me on many levels, though we got the first bills and that's going to be a fun time fighting insurance on.

I was trying to get a pic of a cat today, but they're being bastards for the camera. So have a distressed Amelio, from when I took his qtip and he didn't know what to do.

[randomclam24]

Ultimately, I don't think this is worth quitting your day job over.

I don't know which one is more important - that I'm a could-have-been-prodigy that has to be medicated first so I don't throw off everything all the time or the fact that everyone else who would *never* be one has to live in their skin arbitrarily

I have heard that smart people are extremely neurotic, meaning they have issues to deal with that regular people wouldn't, naturally, but I don't think that describes the exact problem, because I don't think I'm a neurotic.

Update

My mom acted like that, but I don't have anything special in store.

Earthbound

The Monkeys' Maze - YouTube

Update

A few days ago, I literally deleted Minecraft. There's nothing else I'm interested enough in doing, because I've already done a quest in the Nether to craft speed potions that aren't really that effective, and even when you do succeed, the experience still sucks. I think all that leaves is the End portal or something. Nothing to get excited about.

Update

Dead Internet Theory

7/7

Where I had a story arc for a hero in mind, there wasn't a clear answer cut out. Actually, the start was to literally show up at Israel to make conclusions based out of observation as to where their allegiances should lie. That precedes knowing anything about the JQ, but it was always like *why* should I just support Israel

Update

No matter what, what the left says about being the resistance despite constituting the vast majority of soulless corporations and governance is true. With the accusations they make like "homophobic", what they're fighting in that respect is human nature. So it goes without saying it indeed takes a resistance to keep up something of this nature going at all - nothing on our side mirrors this existential drive out of need

And people keep asking why does it take the collapse to get people off their ass? Because the left's movement is *perpetually* in a state of collapse, or deterioration to the extent that anyone can just call this out

So, it's a question in the first place whether the force of people in outrage over systemic collapse would even rival that of the natural vitriol of the left in simple everyday living

Update

I think I really did my work today. I know they always say do your best, but that might tear up my wrists for other days. Also, this is the level of engagement that my parents recommended that would have gotten this online course done back in January when I started.

So come to think of it, isn't it shrewd to be shorting them like this?

I remember from many days in the past months, I felt dead. These medications weren't doing their job

There are more credit-hour-earning courses that I think are supposed to be taken before you go and actually apply for a job?

The main problem with typing the course material out in order to focus was this weird instinct to either start a new line or not depending on whatever context, which does come down to applying to every sentence.

7/8 night

It felt like having slept all night after waking up.

I had a nightmare where I was physically inside of a level trying to pioneer designing it, but it was like the Plane align (slope) map but very insular as a "default" had already been designed to such a great extent that it warranted exploring. Beyond the starting area which got so dark it was like "advanced darkness", it was like a combination of the alternate dimensions of Quake and the Backrooms' Poolrooms, and it had scary demons in it. Update I'm trying to remember what a particularly disturbing and pernicious demon actually was. I can't because it kept shapeshifting between a beefy dark variant of Revenant from Doom with explosives and a massive slug with tough skin looking more like a human's, which was gross, which could levitate and then throw itself. At some point in finding its weak points which appear as red swollen parts of the entire thing while in slug form and attacking them until it's weak, it stops fighting in order to stop revealing them and asks me, what do you think the red valuable objects in this particular game actually are? Then slowly as a hint the opal-like thing dissolves into a tiny partially-formed red skeleton which is primarily a rib cage, and the white text appears beneath it, "A human fetus". And after that he just says that wasn't really one and he was just kidding.

7/8

I'm already not even using the last settings.

Anisotropic filtering 2.59489 Medium FXAA Multisample x38

This is designed to make environments more imposing.

That is something I wanted for personal level design, so - there was an attempt

I'm still too lazy to design

Update

I'm going to review MyHouse.wad

Update

Also, it is Saturday night, and Sunday morning is when everyone is gone for hours and hours. This means the largest window of opportunity to start drinking

They started selling Mountain Dew Baja Blast in 6-packs of bottles, so I'm trying mixing that now

If you're going less than 100 proof, which is already not just downing straight alcohol, does that officially make you a pansy?

It may come as a shock to many, but I have a beer gut now thanks to the alcohol. (This comes long after the fact of giving up on running away cold-turkey from the gangstalking.) I have to work it off somehow, and I think I'm going to make a point out of that too, with finding the right ways to do it and everything.

Update

I forgot to mention, we're doing this run with GZDoom's new Vanilla lighting mode, with the brightness actually lowered slightly lower manually according to benchmarks from the original Doom, so this will be extra spooky. That's a joke. I actually have terrible feelings already because I made it through the abandoned version of the house.

Update

This should go to an art convention just to see how the art world would react

Update

This makes me feel like getting it

I don't know what that translates to though

I think that non-understanding has more to do with the fact that I don't think my emotional reactivity to my own ideas would translate to other people, more so than not knowing what to actually do per se

I'd also like to know, since artists need their space to make mistakes to learn from them, what makes the new word "mid" relevant

Update

I don't know what brings this up other than the alcohol, but because I'm childhood-traumatized to whatever extent, it made an impression on me to try to vent emotions the same way when cartoon characters made their spastic expressions and mannerisms. That never boded well in my family.

Actually I think that line of thinking is what made me unlikeable the most among regular kids my age back then. That's because there's a lot more thematics of the exceptionalism of America being turned into a kind of atomized supremacy in animated TV meant for kids, whether it's a child set apart from everyone else or a supervillain.

I don't hold it against people to not like that.

Update

Common Filth makes a massive and central point out of "neoteny" as he names it being the highest ideal of the West, implying the faggotry, but I remember the cartoon Kids Next Door being some secret-agent version of that fantasy. I watched a rerun many years after the fact and basically couldn't because of the screaming.

Update

They absolutely had a structure, in the lore of that show, to where you could potentially graduate to being a teenager and still keep your memories as an agent.

Update

I *wish* I could simply vent ideas, but this isn't exactly what Japanese art considered an intimate setting

Update

I don't really know. Where that mention of preserving memories as an agent gets lost in translation to people, I don't know where to begin.

Update

MyHouse.pk3's music after entering the decrepit version of the house is just too much for me. At this point, it feels like it's punching me in the gut.

Update

If it really came down to me ranting, I would start with the ones making the real-world bullshit politics *personal*, because I don't want them to be.

http://i2.kym-cdn.com/photos/images/facebook/001/253/068/729.jpg

Will this be the end of this account? Yes, because they're fed up

Update Honestly, that meme doesn't take into account the direct role of the jews in that importing. Really, how much of the traitors' own liberalism is on account of the jewishness?

Oh no forbidden questions

Update I watched Office Space uncut with my dad today, and I convinced him to play Super Monkey Ball, which arrived just days ago, enough to play tomorrow. My dad's the one making a point out of - not playing through things so fast that you run out of content before you know it. I told him you could easily stretch it out to two days if you try the beginner stuff one day and decide you like it. Yeah, no dice.

That 4chan saying, "nothing ever happens", holds enough water still that I can just ramble with no consequences, and I already tried to state this isn't worth quitting your day job over.

Update No, there was a point where I was stressing enough to not want to have a job in my life, in my schedule, as well as all that.

Update I don't want to compete, but realistically, if I did come out with fv, I would have to top the parallels from such as the Mandela Catalogue. Ouch

Update I remember just going to parks more than a half hour away where I knew no one would be just to smoke cigarettes. I knew how bad they were for you. This was well after living a childhood of being broadcast that messaging.

Once I downed fourteen small ones before work by the riverside, and the resulting state was worse than when I started

Update The difference between nihilism's meaning nothing matters being pessimistic versus optimistic

As if, what if I had just done all of such and such without any care for my worries

I still think close to 100% of it would end up being forced though

Update So I wouldn't redo any of what led up to this point. I would never want to do that.

But the entire mentality of, what if I was on my deathbed and I had to look back on my life, at this point I might as well just continue IBM SkillsBuild

And if it weren't for the fact of having ways of using code that are done independently, I don't have a reason except that, in that I eventually have to have a job, I have to keep sucking in oxygen.

Update Do I have to write it in code or something to get the idea across

Is Madoka Magica Side Story good or nah?

If not, what else is good

7/9 My dad played Super Monkey Ball on the beginner stages, and he made it to the last level where it basically became apparent the game's challenges were too far-fetched. Then for the first time, I made it through the entire advanced levels, by a hair's margin. Then we tried the expert stages, and I wondered what that rope-like thing with bananas on it was, but that was the stage.

Update at night I feel so happy-go-lucky, it's an insult to people who work for a living.

I'll work. I'm not booked up anymore.

I thought I was 27 years old, but actually I'm 28. (But this is just *after* my birthday and not before it)

Update Considering the statistics that have been reviewed by now, making for yielding to a different opinion on the state of things - how relevant is a dire narrative about the fate of the West, in general?

I always had in mind for such a thing there is a definite system in place in and throughout everyone's conditioning that shows that keeps you from doing what you're supposed to be doing for true justice.

Really, it started from obstruction from just trying to state observation.

Really, I think that narrative is not representative of anyone but myself. Oh, and Anonymous culture which you don't talk about But I was dramatizing it in a way that would make them call me a bitch, so Which is ironic, considering the shared circumstances

This is a time to consider dumping the whole thing, or maybe restructuring

What about the fate of Europe? Do you think they're any better off than before?

Update Can you believe that the political system Americans - no, the West - has had exists? I don't get it. What is augmenting this?

If even one were permitted to tell the truth, it would be like, I'm Mr. Krabs, and I like money money money money money money

Suffice it to say, *we are in hell*

I've never heard that phrase said in that capacity

"We're trapped in the belly of this horrible machine, and the machine is bleeding to death."

If you ask anyone who is uninitiated what this means, it's about capitalism, which is equivalent to associating it with white people. What do you think it is?

It's like for regular people I have to fake it and say it's not about white people when it is. I know it is. That's what it's all about.

Okay so we're going to have to do something completely uninspired and machiavellian

We're going to have to somehow convince the average schmuck of the lowest common denominator that white people (they *are* the target) arbitrarily *aren't*? It's like, what language are you even speaking? Of course white people are the target. That's the way it goes (yeah I know)

Unironically, you could mask antisemitism *any day* by redirecting it by hating and ripping on the wh*toid (not-)people

With all this hate of white people, it's like you're saying this system built behind the scenes by jews isn't valid

7/10 Getting to object-oriented programming again, now introduced in the context for JavaScript, made me have to think about why I felt this need to decide whether I make a new line for new sentences or not. I figured the reason was that if the new sentence's meaning's relation to the previous one is what programming would consider a constant, where it's as a rule and not what programming would consider an instance, then it should directly follow after the previous one without a new line separating them. The reason I do it this way is because otherwise, everything being typed onto the same paragraph with no separation makes it all blur together, and I figure that's my thinking literally seeing them all collectively as a constant.

Update I can't get any deeper ending routes in myhouse.pk3, except I did find the Poolrooms segment and decided I don't want to If I die at this point, I don't think anything of value will have been lost. Leaders typically aren't the same people as good writers.

7/11 As you can see, white men are now outmoded in their society by the mestizo / Asian / black people natural elite

Normally, there would be enough room for representation of white people, but the remainder left in positions of authority are all these skinwalkers we know as boomer politicians

Is this just all we were brought up to be? Yes.

Update I don't think I have the fortitude to do the Poolrooms section of myhouse.pk3. I already found all the items in the regular-ending secret sections. I am mentally or emotionally exhausted.

Also, every time this mod is played, you'll have to re-extract GZDoom without deleting the save files in order to play Project Brutality again

I've beat 23 random maps with raw, fresh pistol start on Harsh

Even this lower difficulty level doesn't guarantee surviving more than a minute on later maps

Update I don't care so much for games made after 2013 or such, and this is how it works

Update We can't stop what's coming anymore. I don't know what exactly, but https://imgur.com/a/160Vo3F

This was already the situation, but now on top of that things like the top panel will additionally be completely atomized in being called out for autism

Realistically, I *think* this can be rectified by the leftists' simple statement: what the right wants is violent, whereas what the left wants is relatively harmless.

And then we'll have to go into 200 hours of referencing school faculty child rapes versus that of the Catholic church because we brought up tranny child rape is an actual thing as naturally feared While we're busy in goyish D&C from easy derailment, they'll just be walking aside and finish it up with, "it's harmless." (It *is*!) They don't see *any* of that. *They just see* that trannies, for all of the noise that regular people make in their baser nature, don't reflect any of that and just want to give input that is relatively harmless.

It's *true*! We don't want warlike

So in the end, *I like sitting on my ass all day* This void of no meaning despite the most convenient indoors setup as a standard in history and access to all the world's books online and so forth - is enough to keep *anyone* occupied (*well* throughout the day (*Well*!)!)

Update There *is* no awakening, just like before with, the uprising doesn't exist.

We operate with just a fraction of what is memed.

They're not letting us off of the *hook* - if these problems are going to be keeping persisting, it's these white males being Republican whether openly or underneath and making everything stay the same

Update Correction: We don't like Republicans either

Years ago - I think I mentioned this already - I recreated the entire starting gallery from Ib along with the bare essentials for the scripting that plays out getting you to an unfinished version of the basement. There were also like two maps in Yume 2kki. But now GZDoom has these effects. It has upscaling at the same time as multisampling and dithering. It also can have ambient occlusion on every corner. I worked with the main creator of Ao Oni Doom on YTP Doom, and I haven't tried it with the new update, but that was what made me want to know how effectively RPGMaker could be converted to 3D.

Update I think there's a legitimate reason environments could be relatively simple polygons back in like 1998 in Ocarina of Time and still be impressive. They were dealing with lower resolutions back then. Unfortunately what I'm thinking of that inspires that kind of nostalgia costs way more to render and will make everything relatively inefficient.

I was thinking, if I were to design as an "indie" developer, it would just be one person, so anything beyond that 7th-gen era would be completely out of my league. But other effects that would normally be foregone could be brushed up on. Actually, I'm not satisfied with that. There will be some more thought on that.

Update Pretty soon, people of any political leaning will be able to just ask independents, why do you hate America? And then at that point you can just autistically respond BECAUSE IT'S SHIT, FUCK YOU, and then in their glee in believing they won the argument they'll make autistic bleating noises

Update I'm sorry

After experimenting with the settings again, honestly the trick of the intended optical illusion would be to set FXAA really high. In fact if there wasn't already an extreme setting, I would say it's detrimental it doesn't go even higher With that established, multisample could be set down to 3 Anisotropic filtering is what would create the blur effect to imply depth. There doesn't seem to be a one-size-fits-all, so that's not working. Update I changed it to 2.59491, which is hardly different from the last one

Update Apparently there is an alternative to the options given by atheists about the nature of God, that the war in Heaven was lost and we're all living in the aftermath. Really, I don't think any man's scope of God extends beyond the material realm. It's just not possible. You're talking about the fate of nations. Even so, there's absolutely nothing that we can do about it from this plane of existence, so it may as well be gospel. That's how everyone thinks. Update Actually, that's not how everyone thinks. But it is how everyone feels. So right, it *is* how everyone thinks.

I can't find anything more on my own in myhouse.pk3. End my life

Update Remember when Stefan Molyneux said "the time for arguments is over"? Wouldn't it be nice if life were so nice as to allow this. The censorship is real.

I feel like it's guaranteed to outrank mass graves if we just sit here and allow whitoids to commit suicide in increasing amounts on their own time. That's all that will become of the whitoid race, and it's already upon us I'd be glad to go *too* There's zero value in following anybody anymore - just have to sleep more often, don't have a plan after that

Update I'm not a good person Update Ghost won't make another fuckin livestream

It's over

spell badoomst't't't've

I have nothing left to do but get drunk and beat my nonexistent wife

7/12 Boredom is the evident meaning of life because it is the only universal constant

7/13 The days keep piling up with how long I haven't been as productive I tried turning down the backlight on the screens. Subtle things like that might help.

I settled on a prescription amount for my other meds - these are meds which I've already taken in these amounts for months at a time in the past - but there's an enhancer drug to the other meds which is very small which also has some effect. I don't want to just conclude that the effects of these medications as a prep for the work environment are just mediocre, but that is what the man giving the prescriptions, in just trying to put me on the maximum amount of antidepressants, has left me with.

I splashed cold water on my face and neck. The blinds that I got my parents to install to avert the gangstalking that occasionally comes from the window to my room, I actually opened for once to let in sunlight. No progress. I took two DVD cases and propped up the screen to face me better with that. Actually, I stayed up last night, with the tab made fullscreen to block the clock, specifically to read the latest chapter of Godzilla NES Replay I don't have commentary on it, unless someone is going to insist that this is an example of exactly what the Republicans want

7/13 What I heard was that between 2007 and 2012, there was a massive number of people who became aware of the globalist elite, to whatever extent. What I realized was that the implied momentum that this would carry over into didn't actually happen. It doesn't actually exist. I was trying to manually make up for that. So basically it's down to instinct, if people try to shoehorn in "pride" in any way, shape, or form as an expression of how far we've come as a society, it's not an expression of surplus at all because that doesn't exist. They're just flat-out replacing it. It's like when black people fill in the gaps of their understanding of what's wrong with the world with white people. No, there's enough people knowing, not even in grassroots movements but literally at the ground level, that I don't need to worry so much anymore, but even still - what are the hypetrains and bandwagons good for?

I don't know exactly where to go from here

All the people that have been projecting in recent months, they have some *reasons* behind what they're saying - at least that's what I'm interpreting because no one these days seems to be able or cognizant of the need to argue their way out of a paper bag, just assuming that we're mind-readers and get it preemptively as they did - that's not how it works, and you need to use your words - not shitposting

They think it's not "sophistry", and that's such a baseless accusation, because it sounded preeminent in their own head

The cultural divide being bridged is like asking Internet nu-atheists to specify what life experiences have made their personal view of father figures project onto God, let alone actual religious arguments. No one's going to actually do that. Instead, they're going to oblige the getting caught up in stupid pseudo-arguments used as proxies to such things without ever taking the blinds off.

I planned on reviewing something today, but I put just enough money in the ATM machine for the Steam sale price, and that ended during that time. Now I'm just sitting here. It's not like I'm broke. I've got plenty, for what I spend.

Update Life sucks. We deserve better psyops.

It's possible studies on the human brain are systemically stifled because that would make it easier to undo obfuscation. Until more recent generations, it wasn't even known that trauma has lifelong impacts.

Update The "you don't have to know any more because the evident is right in front of you" which gains them the title of midwit

Also, when debaters' entire arguments on an individual or group are hinged on the assumption of their lack of agency - that's like 90% of debating online, combined with a ton of butthurt

Maybe 90% of people legitimately have a lack of agency hence their implications and my standards are too high

But that's why it's butthurt that they keep coming back, because otherwise you would be like me and not partake where it gets this stupid

Update Sorry for being a jerk, but it will probably happen again

Super update I've got the usual booze, snacking on in-shell peanuts which were just restocked in the store, by the way, playing Donkey Kong Country 3 - decided on LQ3XBold + Simple 2x for filtering, based on Earthbound

Are you guys ready for some hard cringe tonight?

No

Update What is inspiration? Can you illustrate it?

Update One thing I hadn't thought of, or at least not much, is - while I've settled that I'm not going to have kids, because of the impermeability of gangstalking and everything within *my* life - if you had kids, what experiences would you want them to experience for themselves? And that might answer the question of what really was worth having in the first place [*Other than things that are more mature*]

Somewhat unrelated, there was apparently an American politician who mentioned slice-of-life anime and asked on social media for recommendations. When given K-On!, he said he already watched that. When I hear it said like that, it sounds like it's just taken in as consumerist to be left unsatisfied, like adding more which are probably going to be of lesser quality are going to make it alright. This is why I haven't even watched that show yet, beyond a certain number of episodes, including a number of anime from that time period. Will there be a time for them in our society? Maybe

Update One of those bellwethers - when my dad saw I had checked out the Portable Nietzsche at the public library, which I think they eventually removed that entire author of later on - he had practically breakdown levels of trying to break it to me, this man is just pessimistic. I take things with a grain of salt. It's probably not even going to happen, but I imagine a better life where my own family isn't so...anally-sensitive?

My dad's saying, you just do x, y, z, and the world will be your oyster, is so out-there in being a boomer-skewed statement - people of my generation aren't going to get that from their day job.

And the same guy has the gall to put down Nietzsche for pessimism, in complete ignorance. It's a good thing I read things in the Bible like, you will hate your mother and father (which a pastor has said means "love less", but same concept) and follow me, as opposed to rejecting it autistically Unless you consider that only a way to convince myself that I have basis in something, which really isn't that different from what Protestants are criticized for

Update I never thought of that. I think a lot of people haven't thought about that: people who regularly go to attend a ball game aren't thinking about whether or not it's going to have a great play or not. How different should it really be for people who are watching movies as a hobby for its own sake? In fact you spend much less going to a movie. In fact my dad thought that by going to the matinee showing of a movie he didn't want to encourage the making of, he was withholding his support. It *was* only two dollars. Yet I managed to hold up a conversation with him on the topic of ruining old Hollywood icons like Indiana Jones and the ramifications it's going to have on them financially, and he seemed fairly in-touch. He had actually "heard of" Blackrock and its part in the game.

Animes have some legitimately existential concepts baked-in as the general premise which can be felt, but when it comes down to it, for example if you have the Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, there's one whole scene in the beginning season or so where it explains her experience going to a game and realizing that she's just one of many in a crowd so vast it wasn't even worth noting everyone throughout the bleachers. Then the rest of it is inevitably going to be weebshit.

Update Silent Hill + Siren is obviously rated M for mature, but there is still Nintendo games, classic Nintendo. How late would classic Nintendo be?

Only up through N64, where they had the rating K-A (kids - adults)

Update I might turn a new leaf to Halo, the ones that Bungie had a part in, so up through Xbox 360. It has all the aesthetics you need. But I got it on PC, so Xbox hardware won't really be needed.

I've heard if you haven't played GTA IV, you're not *cool* I own it, against my parents' wishes, but I haven't played it

Update If I'm asking for too much with anime, you could ask, why don't I watch Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood? I watched Fullmetal Alchemist, and then I watched how Brotherhood portrayed the first few episodes and didn't get hooked based on that. I probably should, but

In times like this, it's almost like you want the ability to go into the Akashic Records and find something good. People on actual drugs act like they're on all that. There are claims some media tapped into the collective unconscious or the Akashic Records. I don't know anything about that.

I'm grateful to my family for putting me through so many systems to try to revitalize me, even if those were more like getting crowded out than actually helping, but I feel like there's nothing in the computer science career path - aside from the original inspiration of robotics, which *hasn't taken off in the real world at all* - that would actually work to give back.

With respect to robotics, I am of the conviction that if a universal base income, even a shitty one at that, could be established by such means, many people getting laid off would not even be bad. The idea of taking narrow tasks and perfecting them to the point they can just be left to automation in our place is actually something that excites me to an extent.

But, also, paraphrased from an anon, when they mention that their job is farming, people tend to break up the conversation like it's to be looked down on when it's critical infrastructure - that anon said good luck with the collapse

Update Honestly, what if the very concept of the Akashic Records is absurd? Why would there be anything that needs to be known in the absolute? You have the Bible, and if that ever becomes redundant, then what?

Update Also, I actually went to the library on a different trip than when I got the Portable Nietzsche and skimmed Eastern religion and happened upon passages that said that, even the worst of personalities can find itself justified by the Intellect, or Logos, if you know what that means. The implication that can be taken away, though, is that that intellect doesn't make you any better an actual person, and I realize this.

I'm saying a lot of Eastern religion can be distinguished from Western religion in that respect: a lot of what they're saying is just true as an objective observation and not as a moral per se.

Update And of course, Nietzsche's personal claim - I don't take it as just personal and so atomized - that true Christianity can be tried at any time - that's a claim that sounds about as out-of-bounds as Western college Communists saying Communism has never been tried.

Honest to God, with the way the media reduces attempts at martyrdom, the very concept of that has been reduced to, "watch how all theze hoes get mad when I xyz" - it's the rap game by this point. Long story short, do we condone that? No

Update But the original thought from that last update was, if there was a such a thing as a "true level" where true Christianity can be tried, would that not provide a backbone for higher records such as the Akashic Records? Tell no one because "pearls before swine"

Update I've been lucky in that there haven't been passages I've written just to say, "uh oh!", and have to delete that, just to have people haunt me with a screenshot of it.

With Anonymous, you have the meme, two Pepe frogs have a set of cups interconnected with a string, and they say, hey fren, it's the jews, and the other responds, that's all? They respond, yup, that's it.

Update I hope knowing about this alone isn't enough to have a conviction. Even loli back in the day used to emphasize more mature features. What we have in the current state is actually closer to pedophilia. And that's the state of things *after* the crackdown on the Internet.

Update Random memories At one point, my highschool band or something went to a location where we had dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory, and while I didn't care much for the food one way or the other, it was very aesthetic - why am I thinking of that now

and speaking of areas in St. Louis, I've never given an in-depth analysis of what the St. Louis City Museum actually looks like inside, and throughout, within They actually have a restaurant in there I ate it. The pizza's good

Update I visited my grandma for the first time in maybe over a year, since she's been put in an old people's home, unfortunately, and I recounted from memory, because of the way she's acting and the way my mom didn't have any meaningful reaction to it, they say old age is your second childhood.

My grandpa already died of old age years ago. Seeing a human dead in a casket doesn't appear to actually be dead and is terrifying.

Update I don't care - accelerate

I think there's some reality in the fact that, while my parents say don't drink alcohol more than a regular person or something, I don't lose my good judgment until I'm practically already hallucinating - the fact is that withdrawal is a thing - for some reason, now that I say that, I don't care (I have never experienced it)

This isn't relevant to the current topic, but I think it has to do with my manhood - I can't beat Cuphead and Mugman on my own past World 1.

I think it's not because I'm drunk necessarily that I write random crap; I just don't care one way or the other

And yet there are topics I won't talk about like it's a stovetop that would burn me - but that has more to do with what other people would make of it beyond my scope

There is so much of people who have to suffice it to say, "if you don't like it, then don't come on to the video", where that's their best justification to the masses

Update I think there's legitimately a point to be made on the Internet being regarded as the modern-day Wild West, that being in previous years as opposed to what we now go through today - on a daily basis I don't find that kind of passion anymore even in porn (it's rare)

7/14 I'm starting over all the way from Doom 1 with Death Wish spawning

I redownloaded Minecraft to play on version 1.8.9, again, because I've only explored the Nether on console, where it's practically penned in. I think it's about time I do an actual expedition through it.

Update So, the elephant in the room on the trannies: why do we not just consider that like some form of addiction? Look at the absolute suicide rates.

That could be the other elephant in the room on the trannies: no one cares about them enough to warn them like that - this being the case despite their narcissism

Update I loved Mechanical Drawing back in high school. It felt like the most staightforward thing to me, even though even then I could barely keep up to the deadlines. The teacher had a mustache, which seemed old-fashioned, and for a teacher he was relatively small. There was one kid in the class who kept saying things that I guess a dudebro douche would say. If he said "that's so dope", you would hear the teacher say back to him, "you *are* a dope"

They would back-and-forth with that sometimes each in their own form of jest

Update My goal with Minecraft now is to do with starting up in it what I did with a Lego set of the AT-ST walker from Star Wars - for that I learned to go from the base pieces to the full thing in less than a minute. I want to be able to explore the Nether with full equipment with more to spare within a certain timeframe.

One aspect of computer programming that got to me was the concept of breaking down instructions so that - the idea is - even a gorilla could carry them out. But then I have all these ideas of optimization in mind before any of that plays out - my internal plan is more like someone very adept has to review the final instructions meticulously until it gets broken in. The mentality of having a gorilla do it is not going to accomplish these goals of optimization. It's a gorilla.

I think I know what the big division in understanding of how the computer is to handle things in programming has to do with the concept of short-term memory. I can understand, if the deal is complicated to the point that short-term memory fails, then what? Usually, if I don't have mastery of a mathematical formula in advance, it doesn't matter how I plug and chug it, because beyond a certain threshold of complexity, I'm going to do something wrong like invert a positive value to negative or the other way around. I just don't personally see success coming out of formulaic instructions that just keep extending on and on like programming and not experience entropy, directly producing fatal errors. *That's* what it would mean to have a gorilla in charge of the instructions.

I really think that gorilla analogy is defunct, because I always thought of computers like you would a calculator. If the formula is finalized and it's verified to be input correctly, it's going to do the plug-and-chug with more precision than a human ever would. When you get exceptions, they call them bugs. Back in early programming history, computers were so large, they would find literal bugs inside the machines which severed the program as an outside force.

I never understood the mentality that led to Hollywood ( - Hollywood) depictions of robots having a mind of their own. Intrinsically, a computer does not have a mind of its own. What you start out with is a blank slate.