#the kinda songs I'd need for work are basic enough

[francy-sketches]

I'm gonna have to work on my final project non stop for like a month straight bc I procrastinated on it too much fuck my stupid baka life

[barblaz-arts]

Hi its me again! Do you know some songs that remind you of Chaggie? I urgently need recommendations

There's a ton of songs I associate with them! Thank you so much for asking because I was already planning to make a post about it anyways lol

First of all is Curses, just because this Hazbin Hotel/ft. Chaggie animatic was what introduced me to my current favorite band, The Crane Wives

This one I've already featured in my Chaggie fic and had Vaggie and Charlie sing it to each other, but let me still include it here for the gay version.

I know this song has basically become a meme, but I grew up to amv's that feature this song and I unironically still love it. It's too perfect for Vaggie

I can see this song being sung by Charlie as she's trying to show Vaggie the beauty of hell shortly after they met. Conveniently enough, there's already a version out there sung by Charlie's VA!

This song partially inspired an AU fic I'm working on where they meet before Charlie got to working on the Hotel. It's about Vaggie being a guardian angel for the rest of the year on Earth when it isn't Extermination Day, and she keeps running into Charlie who comes up to Earth to try to prevent humans from permanently damning their souls to Hell. Charlie would be singing this to Vaggie, as the decades of seeing each other has them falling in love despite everything. This version is sung by Lucifer's VA and can also fit Lucilith, but that just gives it another reason why it would be perfect for Chaggie.

This fits Chaggie so well that I've been seriously considering learning how to make animatics with this song for Chaggie. Though i think in the end I'd probably just make it a comic, tho it wouldn't have the same awesome effect in that medium. The exchange--

"Do you like me in the dress?" "I like you very best!" "Even if I were just a mess?" "I'd still think I was blessed"

--and--

"Do you like me in a suit?" "I always think you're cute" "Out in the country where I'm farming?" "You'll always be prince charming"

-- is something I especially wanna draw with them

This song is so Chaggie it's kinda insane. The lyrics fit Vaggie's PoV so well, but especially the line "The world may disapprove but my world is only you"

This one was written by the OP about a novel apparently, but the lyrics fit really well for Charlie's PoV

[untildawnss]

Hii!! I love your ideas sm!!!

So how would the ud characters react to Reader getting hurt either during or after what happened on the mountain?? 🤭

oooh, during the events on the mountain is tricky because you have to basically rewrite the canon of the entire game to pull it off and i don't think i'm cut out for that. i was borderline agonising over this ask because i read it before going to bed and completely missed the "or after". i thought i'd have to disappoint you, anon. but i can do this. i am working hard and tap tap tapping away on my laptop.

i'm assuming you mean if they were dating the reader

i'm only going to do minor injury/pain scenarios

obviously excluding hannah and beth

going with the everyone lives ending as the premise

gn!reader and no use of y/n

ashley

(rollerblading queen ash is my favourite headcanon)

it was a nice day, just warm enough to be comfortable in a t-shirt and shorts. ashley had convinced you to go rollerblading after finding your old pair in your parents' basement during your last visit. you used to be pretty good at it but it had been ages. and here you were, slowly following ash who was looking back every now and then to make sure she hadn't accidentally left you too far behind. once in a while she slowed down and joined you for a few minutes and then sped back up, calling out to warn you of obstacles like potholes, roots or sticks from the trees along the street. your legs were beginning to feel heavy after an hour of this. "ash, i think i need a break." she gave you a thumbs up and came to a stop, way more graceful than you could hope to manage in a few seconds. in fact, you didn't manage to really stop. you accidentally shifted one of your feet just enough for your rollerblades to collide with each other, causing you to topple over and land on your hands and knees. the stinging pain suggested that you had scraped at least one of your knees on the rough asphalt. ashley giggled. "please tell me you're not proposing like this." you grinned at her. "what? i thought this was your dream."

you winced as you tried to get back up and your feet kept shifting and rolling, causing you to lose you balance all over again. so you leaned into it and turned until you were sitting on the ground. "oh no, you're bleeding." ashley crouched next to you and took off her backpack. she pulled out a first aid kit and a bottle of water. "oh, you're prepared." - "those are the rollerblading basics. okay, bend your knee a little. we need to clean that wound and it might sting a little." you bent you knee and ashley opened the water bottle and started squeezing it to flush the bits of asphalt out of your wound. she was right, it did sting. after that she wrapped a bandage around your knee. "all done. i can take another look at it when we get home. maybe i'll get you a lollipop if you're very brave."

chris

"i'm grabbing a beer, want anything?" you walked into the kitchen and opened the fridge, grabbing two cans of beer with one hand. you were 99% sure that chris would want one. the condensation made the beers slippery and you felt one can starting to slip out of your hand. you were too slow to catch it, one hand still on the door of the fridge and for some reason your brain decided to try to kick the can back up to catch it that way. well, it kinda worked. the can flew back up and over your head only to land on the floor and start fizzing. the horrible pain where your foot had made contact with the ridge on the bottom of the can made you see stars for a few seconds. you were off balance now, on one leg, the other trying to shake off the pain and almost collided with the fridge as you hopped around the room and tried to avoid the fizzing and spinning beer and the sticky puddles of foam. "hiding in the kitchen is not getting you out of watching that movie with me. i won fair and square," chris said in a sing-song voice as he poked his head into the kitchen a minute or two later. you were resting your head and arm on the kitchen counter, one leg pulled up to your chest, pressing the second, wonderfully cool, can of beer against your foot. "so, i clearly missed something. what's going on?" the can on the floor had stopped fizzing and spinning and was slowly leaking now. "i dropped a beer, i kicked the beer and i am in pain." - "but...why?"

chris had helped you hobble into the living room and to the couch and then returned to the kitchen to get rid of the evidence and to grab an icepack for your foot. now he was carefully removing your sock to assess the damage. a rounded bruise was already forming and you winced as chris poked and prodded at it and then at your other foot before finally placing the icepack on the reddish-purple area. "well, i'm no expert but i don't think it's broken. does it feel broken? can you move it?" you were trying to concentrate on the absolute bliss of the ice against the pulsing, painful and stiff area but reluctantly wiggled your toes and foot. you flinched. "i mean, yeah, i guess i can move it. it just hurts like hell. it's probably not broken but i won't be doing a lot of walking." chris grinned and you already started rolling your eyes. "oh, that's great news. that means you can't walk away from movie night and hide in the kitchen just because it's my turn to choose." - "chris, we've seen ratatouille four times in the last five months."

emily

you were trying to make lemonade but the lemons you were cutting and squeezing were not cooperating. when you looked at one more closely you almost dropped it and accidentally squeezed too hard to catch it, sending a few splashes of lemon juice right at your face and right into your eyes. "ah, fuck," you screamed as your eyes started burning. you heard emily walk into the kitchen. "are you fucking kidding me?" before you could rub your eyes she grabbed your wrists. "nope. don't rub it in. bad idea. just stay where you are for a second or you'll break your neck next." - "right, yeah, makes sense." you kept your eyes closed as emily scurried around the kitchen for a few seconds. you heard the ripping of paper towels and the bin open and close. your eyes were still burning. "alright, let's go." she took your hand and led you out of the kitchen and into the bathroom.

emily instructed you to lean your head over the bathtub and turn it to the side. she turned on the water. "open your eyes and keep them open." her voice was so commanding now that you were almost scared to talk back, so you just did what emily told you to do, even though it was painful. she aimed the showerhead at your face and you instinctively closed your eyes. "i said keep them open. did you skip all the relevant parts of chemistry? you need to keep your eyes open, so i can wash the acid out of your eyes. it doesn't work if you close your eyes, okay?" you opened your eyes again. "sorry, but it hurts." - "because you squeezed lemon juice into your eyes, dumbass. keep them open or you're on your own."

your eyes gradually stopped hurting less but emily insisted on doing what felt like the longest eyewash known to humankind, at least to you. after she was done, emily started drying off your face. "better?" - "yeah." - "okay, good, because i'm not doing that again."

jess

you probably should have remembered to put on sunscreen but you hadn't planned on spending too much time in the backyard and it had been slightly cloudy anyway. and you hadn't planned on falling asleep right there in the sun and only waking up when jess got home a while later and shook you awake. your entire backside felt like someone had rubbed glue on it that just wouldn't come off and you felt uncomfortable because you couldn't even sit down and you felt like you were burning up. jess used sunscreen religiously and, yeah, you'd never seen her get sunburnt. "don't say i told you so." you waddled around the house like a penguin as jess ushered you towards the bathroom and made you take a long and cold shower. "okay, i'm not going to say it. you already know i did." the cool water felt amazing on your skin and you felt like you could stay in there for hours. when you got out jess was there to softly dab at the skin on your back with a towel to dry you off, just telling you about a new movie she'd like to go and see with you when it comes out or the stupid joke one of her coworkers told that really wasn't well received. but you knew, oh, you knew.

jess applied aloe vera lotion for you, brought you water and painkillers so you were more comfortable and just kept talking about anything and everything and you responded in kind. it wasn't unpleasant or weird, really, but not completely normal. on day three you woke up to a bottle of sunscreen on your bedside table. jess had already gotten up and moving wasn't as uncomfortable anymore. you grabbed the sunscreen and walked into the living room. jess was on the couch, a cup of coffee in one hand and flipping through a magazine with the other. "fine." jess looked up at you. "fine what?" - "you told me so," you sighed. "yes, i told you so. and how many times did i tell you? i got you your own sunscreen and you are going to use it. because if you don't, i will not play nurse next time. you're lucky i got home when i did because that could have become a second-degree sunburn and that is so much worse. there's coffee in the kitchen. love you." jess took another sip from her mug and smiled at you. "love you, too." and she was back to flipping through her magazine.

josh

(i feel like josh would be very afraid of hurting people again and also afraid that he hurt them if something happened)

you woke up because you were falling. actually falling, out of bed, not in a dream. one of your legs was still half in bed and you heard a scraping sound above your head. as you tried to get your bearings and rub your eyes the scraping became louder and you noticed too late that one of your arms was tangled in a cord. the little alarm clock on your bedside table landed square on your face and then clattered to the floor next to your head. you yelped at the pain that erupted from your nose and the top row of your teeth. you could taste blood on the back of your tongue. josh's soft snoring stopped and your heard him quietly mutter your name and, what you assumed, was his hand feeling around the bed for your body. "down here," you groaned and your voice sounded thick and nasal. you were pretty sure you had a nosebleed. "what do you mean 'down here'?" josh's voice was louder now and the room turned lighter as he turned on the lamp on his side of the bed. you shifted into a sitting position, the pain pulsing through your head, and could definitely feel the uncomfortable sensation of the nosebleed now. josh's face appeared above you as he rolled over to your side of the bed. his eyes were half closed but widened when he saw the state you were in. "what the fuck?" he climbed out of bed. "i'll get some tissues." there was a hint of panic in his voice.

when he got back you pressed the bundle of tissues to the bottom of your nose. "how do you stop a nosebleed?" - "i don't know, i've never had one before." - "okay, okay, i'll google it." he grabbed his phone and started typing. "can you walk?" you nodded and let josh pull you to your feet and lead you into the kitchen where he sat you down at the table. he started reading you the instructions on his phone screen. "lean forward, pinch your nose for 10 to 15 minutes." he rummaged through a cupboard and set a bowl in front of you. "spit out any blood and-" josh opened the freezer, grabbed a bag of frozen strawberries and wrapped it in a towel. "put ice on the back of the neck." you jumped at the sudden cold sensation. "sorry." - "josh, calm down, it's just a nosebleed." you patted the chair next to you and josh sat down. "i just don't do well with people getting hurt around me." he'd told you about blackwood mountain before. and the role he played that night. "my alarm clock fell on my face. it wasn't you, josh." - "oh, okay, good. it wasn't me."

matt

you were holding the nail you were planning on using to hang a picture frame between your fingers and squinted to line up the hammer you were holding in your other hand, weighing it back and forth and left and right to make sure you'd hit the nail dead on. you did but you swung the hammer with enough force to drive the nail far enough into the wall that you hit your fingers anyway, hard. "ow, fuck, dammit," you swore loudly, letting go of the hammer that promptly hit the ground with a loud thump. you clutched your hand to your chest as your fingertips throbbed painfully. matt came running into the room and you felt tears welling up in your eyes as your fingers started to feel like they were swelling and burning and ready to burst. "what's going on? what happened? are you hurt?" his brow was furrowed in worry and he grabbed you by your shoulders to stop you turning and turning to distract yourself from the pain. you were huffing and puffing and through gritted teeth managed to utter "hammer, fingers, ow." matt grimaced. "ouch! i'll go get you an ice pack or something."

he was back in the blink of an eye and carefully pulled your hand towards him to place the ice pack on your injured fingers. you winced at the cold but the pain started to slowly subside. "sorry, did that hurt?" you shook your head. "no, just cold." matt grinned at you. "okay. so, you wanna leave the home improvement to me from now on?" you snorted with laughter. "that's a hard no, i like my house inhabitable." matt laughed along with you. "fair enough. made you laugh, though."

mike

(please, i just think it's extremely funny to assume that mike had to cut off his own fingers for this scenario)

you and mike were both standing in the kitchen. he was washing the dishes and you had just finished peeling the potatoes and were now starting to cut them up into smaller pieces. you were humming and swaying along to the music playing from the speaker and occasionally pausing to take a sip from your glass of wine. surely there was such a thing as rules for handling a knife but you were having way too much fun with mike to mind that right now, especially when he started singing along to one of your favourite love songs. it was all sidelong glances and smiles until you got too careless and forgot to reposition your finger, cutting right into it with the knife. "ow," you hissed at the sudden pain and looked down at the small wound that was bleeding more than you thought should be allowed.

mike dropped the plate he had been scrubbing and was by your side in a heartbeat. he gently reached around you to move the knife away from the edge of the counter. "i'm taking this from you. you just lost knife privileges." you had started sucking on the wound to get rid of the stinging sensation. "would you stop doing that?" he steered you towards the sink. "just rinse it with clean and cold water. i'm getting the first aid kit." when he returned, mike took a quick look at the cut and decided that it wasn't deep enough to warrant stitches. "alright, let's get back to it." you were about to get up when mike pushed you back into the chair. "oh, absolutely not. we're not losing any more fingers in this house."

sam

(yes, sam has a dog. he can be whatever breed you want him to be but he exists)

you and sam were playing with sam's dog max, throwing different toys for him to fetch and chasing each other and max across the sprawling backyard and around the trees and shed. it was a sunny day and soon you were out of breath and feeling very warm, so you slowed down to catch your breath and make your way towards the house to get a drink from the fridge. you turned around to ask sam if she wanted anything just in time to see max still barrelling towards you at full speed. a split second later he was running between your legs and you lost your balance. your back hit the ground hard, knocking the wind out of you and you closed your eyes as max began licking your face. "oof."

you could hear the muffled thudding of sam's footsteps on the grass as she came running over. she called your name. "oh my god, are you okay? max, sit!" sam kneeled on the ground next to you as you groaned. "i think so." you pushed yourself up on your elbows and squinted at sam. "i might be a little sore tomorrow." she looked back at you, one eyebrow raised. "are you sure?" you nodded and she got back to her feet, offering you her hands to pull you up. "tell me if it gets worse, okay?" she whistled and max started following you towards the house. "ooh, if i tell you i'm in soo much pain does that mean i don't have to do the dishes later?" sam rolled her eyes at you and clicked her tongue but she was smiling. "oh, very funny. now i just won't believe you."

[fratboykate]

Also what happens to Kate’s career in bgau. I’m assuming she hits her peak fame sometime when her kids are still little? I’m also really hoping that Kate is one of people that are able to age “gracefully” and don’t end up looking like a half melted designer bag? She seems by the most recent chapter that she doesn’t really give a fuck about fame as much, so maybe she’ll slowly bow out of the spotlight? Or maybe become an older dignified actress like Meryl Streep or something?

I'd say Kate hits peak fame probably in her 20s when her and Yelena weren't together. Like…insane stardom, tabloid insanity, four-quadrant domination type of fame. The kind where she could sell out Madison Square Garden in seconds and get her five international Vogue covers a year. She’s everywhere...talk shows, movie premieres, award stages, perfume ads, fashion week. It’s also the kind of fame that starts to wear her down fast. And it's a bit unsustainable when you have three kids. I think she naturally transitions to a different kid of fame in her 40s. She just…refines. Evolves. She slowly steps away from the hyper-visible, hyper-curated popstar persona and pivots into exactly the kind of career she always admired: grounded, critically respected, quietly untouchable. At this point the kids would still be somewhat young but not like...BABIES.

She doesn’t have a moment of implosion. She just…grows out of it. Priorities changed. She gets tired of it. Tired of the game. Tired of being watched. Tired of performing being herself. So yeah...she starts stepping back from the intentional limelight. Pulls away from music first, because there’s no graceful way to be a 47-year-old pop star unless you’re Mariah or weirdly British lol. She stops touring for the most part. A residency once or twice, sure but world tours are fucking exhausting and...kids have school. They already get lugged around enough when she's on set. They really try to give them as much of a "normal" life as possible. Whatever that means when your mom is the most famous woman on the planet lol. She still makes music, but it’s way more...intentional? She stops trying to capture the global audience and just really makes shit she cares about whether it's going to be a #1 on Billboard or not. And not as often either. Like a surprise drop of an album but it definitely stops being A Priority in her career.

Acting, though? That sticks. She grows into her second act like she was built for it. Starts leaning into prestige roles. Limited series. A24 films. Oscar bait. She basically turns into the cool, no-bullshit older actress directors beg to work with...like if Amy Adams and Nicole Kidman had a daughter who could also belt her kinda shitty song that spent twelve weeks at the top of the Hot 40 Chart song when the mood struck.

And no...no tragic facelift, bad filler, or waxy cheekbones. Kate ages like she knows exactly how many millions her features are worth and like she's been hydrating since she was 12. Maybe a tiny eye lift once in her forties, but it’s so good no one notices. She doesn’t try to stay young...she just gets better at being her. Not that Yelena would let her fall into the plastic surgery trap anyway. Yelena would roast the fuckkkkk out of Kate if she suddenly showed up at their house with a new face. I think it also helps that she knows Yelena finds her so fucking hot just as she is. She has no reason to be insecure. That grounds her.

By the time she’s in her fifties, she’s a fixture in prestige cinema. The kind of name you whisper in a pitch meeting if you want to get greenlit. The name that gets projects financed and award voters to pay attention. Her name starts showing up next to phrases like “generational talent,” “underrated icon,” or “finally getting her flowers.” Think Kate Winslet if she’d be allowed to be weird more often. Or Anne Hathaway if she stopped needing to prove she’s not annoying. She also doesn’t have to do press anymore unless she feels like it. She really does whatever the fuck she wants at that point. Far from overexposed...just iconic. Quietly untouchable. She’s still a little scary. Just…hotter about it now. An Oscar-winning MILF lol

[nugatorysheep]

Hard to say who is my favorite, because I obviously love all my lil goobers. I feel like the most appropriate answer is Druid, I've made more art and side AUs with him than with any other character. He was the second AU version of Steven I ever made (first was EINF, but… we don’t talk about Bruno if yknow what I mean lol). I'm just tragic Connvere trash at heart I guess XD Something about that old man just gets me…… his wet and pathetic charm is unmatched…..

I'm also very, very fond of Sven, my poor tired disaster of a lad… But I also project on him the most so that's to be expected

Oooo boy this will be a long one. Strap in

As it turns out, I have made a doc about my inspirations for each timeline/AU of mine specially, so I'll be pulling a lot from that. But as for the whole thing; originally I described it as a love letter to SU's community, and that's still partially true, but it's a little more than that now. It's like... my answer to all the bullshit AND a love letter to SU as a whole.

Believe it or not it's not based on the Spiderverse movies, but I have taken some tidbits of Across the Spiderverse and woven them into some of the worldbuilding

When I first came up with the idea in like 2021 it was just "hey wouldn’t it be fun to do a crossover?" (first post that mentions it can be found here, please forgive my old art lol) and I didn’t have much beyond that. But then I really sat down and thought about it… and slowly this grand idea started to form in my head of something spectacular.

I came up with a method to travel across timelines, then picked canon Steven as the lens this story could be told through

So I formulated six different "timelines" or "Lines", alternate stories about what couldve happened with SU, and they were kinda meant as generic blueprints to expand upon, common ideas I had seen across the fandom but with my own take/twist on it. I came up with Druid's first, then Heartbreak, then Sven, then so on and so on over the span of a few days. At the start, I had six timelines: Heartbreak, Beyond Bliss, 63rd, Zoology, Mirror, and Monster.

One of those may sound out of place, and it's because, at the time, 63rd wasnt unique enough to justify sticking around, so it got dropped very quickly. Eventually it did get repurposed for Sab's Nora in this rebooted version uwu

I wanted this idea of mine to be a place where all of SU's creators could work on something together. I was very surprised at the positive reception to the idea, and also woefully unprepared. It was real rough at the start but I hodgepodged something together and made it work

Then the Year of Hell happened.... yada yada yada

Fast forward to now, and I've finally gotten what I want to say solidified. I know what I want to tackle with each timeline, especially now that it's basically just me doing this comic and I can keep the story cohesive and focused

So, generally speaking, these are the inspirations / ideas behind each timeline:

Monster - Wanted to take the "steven is immortal" concept that sometimes crops up in fan content and expand it into something bigger. the DNA of the monster line is three things: a fancomic, a Tumblr post, and the entire Caretaker discography. (so sorry to all my friends who have to hear me glaze the fuck out of that project constantly)

At first it was just like, very vaguely touching on those themes of grief, but it's grown to be so much more than that. It's the nostalgia, the loss, the fading of memories. It's the feeling of seeing an empty playground. It's the static in your grandparent's television. It's the crackle of a record player after the song is over.

Obviously in the comic itself it's hard to really nail down that vibe because i do still have a Plot to deal with and I need to cram in a lot in a short amount of time, but hopefully the general feeling is there even if I just dont have the time to set the scene as much as I'd like.

Zoology - I'm still on this chapter (Kismet specifically) at the time of this post so I might be kinda vague on specifics to keep the Mystique lol

For a very, very long time Leo was my black sheep (pun unintended) and I had no damn clue what to do with him. He was dangerously close to getting cut out of the AU entirely, because besides being part cat nothing about him was all that different from Prime (WTL's canon Steven stand-in). Finally I sat my ass down and rebuilt him from the ground up.

He's MAGIC now and the furry part is a bonus. But that wasnt quite enough, I needed more.

Okay, make this an oppression story. I have p l e n t y to say about that. But now it feels weird to project so much of my own racial struggles onto a character that isnt actually my own race. Okay fuck it, he can be black. Why not? He's already a cat, might as well

So now he's my soapbox for racial oppression lol

Tho there is something very specific that I hope people can see unfold in this comic and maybe a few can even directly relate to; something that I'm sure plenty of POC, black people especially, have had to deal with time and time again

Leo can come off as incredibly aggressive, more so that even WTL's antagonist, but it's an internal rage that grew over time. You can see that he's not at all like that as a child.

In a world where your buttons are getting pushed over and over again, but any expression of your frustration is a death sentence, anger is a feeling you get you know intimately. Leo doesn't enjoy being angry, he doesnt like to fight, but he was never given much of a choice. People dont listen to you when they see you as an animal, they dont respect your words. But your actions are always going to be taken in the worst possible light, and any move you make is justification for how evil you are inside.

And that is Leo's dilemma. He has a lot of anger, a very justified anger, and no way to release it. He's not allowed to be upset, or loud, or passionate, because that's just an excuse for why he doesnt deserve to exist.

He has to subdue himself constantly to appease other people. So when he's got the chance to not make himself small for the sake of others or he's given a reason to blow off steam, he often pushes a little too far to compensate. He gets himself into trouble, instigates fights and causes problems on purpose to take off the edge of his frustration- buuut that leads into some things that I want to reveal later, so I'll shut up about that for now

Heartbreak - HB exists almost exclusively as the worlds biggest middle finger to every person in SU's fandom that somehow watched five seasons, a movie, and an epilogue series and still missed the point of it all. He is also my take on "Evil" or "Homeworld Steven", who I have seen many fan iterations of, but only one or two that felt like they really nailed the concept with respect to canon.

My litmus test for who will Get WTL and who will Not is entirely based on what they will understand about HB when the time comes for him to make his appearance.

If you didnt like SUF, wanted the Diamonds to be punished/shattered, or ever thought SU's take of restorative justice and redemption was a bad one, you will not like this character and you will hate this AU. Heartbreak is the answer to so many of SU's critics, to so many of the people that want to "fix" SU by taking away what made it so unique and wonderful in the first place.

From a character standpoint: HB's timeline is one that follows Murphy's law, i.e. if it can go wrong, it does. While he still ends up getting his CYM moment, it's a struggle to get there, and several key moments play out differently for him compared to canon. He also doesnt experience the events of the Movie or SUF, but you'll get to see more details of that in the comic

I knew when I made him that I wanted an evil Steven that still felt like Steven, so despite his edgy demeanor he is still a big softie at his core. He is not the kicking puppies type of evil, in fact if if saw someone doing that he'd punt that person into orbit lmao When push comes to shove he is still Steven. He's stupid, a crybaby, a big goofy loser in pain pretending to be something he's not. He's also still obsessed with helping, with fixing, but all of the things that made him such a good hero are being twisted into something sinister here

Mirror - At the most basic level, Sven is an "alternate Diamond" Steven, a very popular AU idea. Hell, the biggest AU in this fandom is exactly that.

Sven is interesting, because unlike some of the other characters, he wasnt always meant to play the integral role he does now. For the first few months of this project he was entirely out of the story until the end, and his timeline was nothing but vibes

Now of course he's expanded quite a bit, built up over time by myself and others. Chipping this bugger out of stone into something tangible has been a journey, but it's been a worthwhile one. I love how he turned out and wouldn't change him for anything.

Even from day one the idea behind him was that he was to be a 'mirrored' version of Steven, taking all the things from the show and flipping them to the opposite. Rose's positives became Black's flaws, White's flaws became Moss's positives. Instead of a colorful batch of Diamonds, his are monochrome. Instead of the sunny American town of Beach City, he lives in the snowy Scandinavian village of Mountain Town. Rather than being fueled by emotions he's fueled by logic.

Of course I still want Sven to feel like Steven, so despite all the opposites in parts of the thematics, the overall messages in his version of events is the same; the restorative justice, the importance of Sven being himself and not his mother. Those all still happen even with opposing ideas being explored.

I find that sometimes, alt Diamond AUs dont quite feel like a true "SU but with this other Diamond" story for meta reasons... that I will not get into here. Dont have the time

Sven, in WTL, is still in his Movie Era, so all the events of SUF haven't happened for him yet. In a way WTL is a divergence AU for him, because if this AU didnt happen, his version of canon would've gone differently. Funny that Sven is technically just an AU of and AU, in a weird roundabout way

Beyond Bliss - Sonny at first was just excuse to have Rose be alive as I felt that would make for good character interactions. I never was a fan of the "bringing Rose back" type AUs though because it feels like it misses one of the main points of CYM: Rose is gone. Steven's gem literally screams this at the top of his lungs, it could not be clearer

My solution for that was to never have Rose be gone in the first place, and by following that thread to its logical conclusion, you get Sonny's timeline. So many AUs have things be horrible for the characters… so why not have an AU where everything is perfect?

Rose, though a very convoluted series of butterfly effects, has made it to the present unscathed. The war is over. Humans and gems live in peace. Greg is a millionaire and international rock star.

Enter Sonny, a version of Steven who has always had his mom, never had to fight for anything, and has been spoiled his entire life. At first I planned to just have him be this pathetic mama's boy, clueless to any kind of struggle and obnoxiously happy go lucky all the time. If the rest of the timeline is perfect, Steven can be shitty to compensate. Over time though he got expanded upon and less one-note. But he still kinda sucks as a person at first lol

OKAY that is all the main timelines. I've got my silly little side timelines and of course Frame of Mind but I dont have time for that now I need to sleep! ask again another day

[cinder-rose]

Ugly Beautiful Reread: chapter twelve

omg they are KISSING

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47669389/chapters/123233524#workskin

I love fucking about with chronology in short fics and am never usually brave enough to do it in long fics. But it works so well here!

My nephew was going through a dinosaur phase when I wrote this (he still kinda is, I encourage it. Dinosaurs are cool.)

What is Käärijä if not a chaotic smudge for Jere to hide behind?

This is too much for me, two years on and I knew exactly what was coming and it still breaks me. I'm not at all sorry I did this to you. Fuck, Jere, I need to hug you.

Pretty. Yes I will describe a sky as "bruised" wherever possible.

Describing their friendship as unhealthy is strictly a fic thing, you understand. I just needed to make the point that all was not right, that it isn't what it seems, that it can't go on as it is. That's obvious, right?

Little siblings get it. Doesn't matter how old you are, you never stop needing that approval.

I had to rewrite this a few times so it didn't sound forced, but we had to meet Bojan's blazer early on so can Jere can seamlessly wear it later

Remember how Bojan thinks everyone only ever sees him as pretty, and lucky? That no one ever realises there's more too him that that, and how hard he works to be where he is?

Don't ruin our dreams, mikke 🥺🥺

Awkward.

I'd been waiting the ENTIRE FIC to make this joke

🎶you've got a fast car

Is it fast enough that we can fly away?🎶

Baby boy needs to be taken care of

Tipsy emotions are the most fun to write

If I'd finished the fic, this would have been important foreshadowing.

This entire exchange!!! 💖💖💖💖

YEAH fuck you mikke

I'm basically just screenshotting the entire chapter at this point. YES they had to get caught in the rain, it was a narrative necessity! No it's not too cliche, I needed it. And how so much actually happens in these scenes that I had to use little speed-running phrases to keep the flow of the pacing.

If he'd finished the fic he would have.

YEEEEEEEES 😍😍😍😍😍😍💚❤️💚❤️

Also please listen to Legacy by Cadillac Three which heavy influenced the vibe.

No songs, no competitions. Only the Bojan.

Fuuuuuuuuuuuck this is so perfect after Bojan feeling distant from him because of the language barrier in the last episode!

If I'd finished the fic, there would have been more of this. Jere saying things he wouldn't be brave enough to say in English. Except Bojan has been learning a little Finnish and can pick up a few key words.

"wait, what did you just say?"

"NOTHING"

I can't cope. Fuck.

Guys why did you ever read this? This is brutal I am dying wtf

And of course, this is the chapter that introduced me to the magnificent @lumea-art!! The first time I'd ever had art done of a fanfic, this was INSANE

https://archiveofourown.org/works/49355239

[mayanneaa]

'golden cove' series - ᴊᴊ ᴍᴀʏʙᴀɴᴋ.

005. - just the heat

PAIRING : jj maybank x fem!kook!oc

WARNING(S) : swearing, kinda not proofread, if you spot any errors please lmk

A/N : cove's a certified 2016 music lover

WC : 1.4k

golden cove masterlist. | jj's masterlist.

I try my best to hide the excitement at dinner. I don't know why, but the thought of doing something—anything—that isn't a stupid kook party and not going further than to the beach has me buzzing. For once, I actually feel needed.

My parents sit by the table, the usual silence between us three. We're eating the chicken I made with Dad when I finally speak up, "I think I'll go shopping tomorrow."

My dad barely looks up, just nodding before cutting another piece. "Do you need the car?" he asks.

"Yeah," I reply quickly. "I promise I'll refuel!"

He hums in response, and that's the end of the conversation. We sink back into the silence.

It's an everyday pattern in this house. My dad is a good person, he works hard for us to be able to get anything we want, but he just does not listen or care. I could tell him I was pregnant by some random internet guy, and he'd just hum and go back to his papers. It was... tiring.

It got worse when Mason left for his 'big trip' with his best friend, Lukas. As much as I hate to admit it, he was the only person in this house who could listen to me.

I'd barge into his room and talk about the stupidest little things while he played some games or waxed his surfboard. And he would listen every time.

Of course, I had my mom. With her shifts as a nurse, when she came home she usually wanted to rest, and I respected that. But the sting was still there.

So, now, I was left to myself most of the time. It truly was a blessing in disguise. Most of the people in my classes would kill for a situation like this - being free all the time, being able to do pretty much anything you'd want.

I sigh as I finish my plate and get up, "I'll be heading to bed," I say while loading the dishwasher. "Goodnight!"

After my shower, I slip straight under my sheets.

Tomorrow's going to be a long day. With all the driving, I need a good night's sleep—or at least enough to survive JJ. Although, with him in the passenger seat, crashing might not be the worst option.

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I am ready to go when I get down, and the car's waiting for me in the driveway. Anxiety bubbles up inside me. I'm not usually the one driving around the Outer Banks—my bike is enough for me. Besides, the world doesn't need more CO2 emissions, so I'm basically doing everyone a favor.

I just hope JJ got the memo. Sure, plenty of people stroll through the museum in regular clothes, but we're not just tourists today. We need to get access to the deeper parts and to do that, we have to look like we know what we're doing.

I check my bag for the fourth time. Everything's packed. When I get outside, the breeze wraps me around, a momentary relief before the wave of heat hits. Thank God Dad fixed the car's AC already. Handling JJ and sweating my ass off in a metal box for a total of six hours? No way.

The car starts slowly, warming up. In the meantime, I connect my phone to the radio and shuffle one of my playlists. I drive off the driveway accompanied by Halsey, lowly singing along. The engine roars, and now I'm fully on the road. With both of the front windows rolled down, my hair is dancing in the wind.

By the end of the song, I pull up to the Chateau.

JJ's already sitting on the stairs, kicking some rocks. His brows are knitted together, golden locks hidden under a hat. Somehow, he managed to pull an acceptable outfit. He doesn't notice me at first, so I make sure he hears a loud honk.

The boy jumps up, and I can't help but giggle. JJ rolls his eyes and gets up, dusting off his shorts. The honk must've alerted the rest of the Pogues because Kie appears from the inside. I wave at her, and her eyes are thin splits.

"Hi." She carefully greets me, as if she's scared I bite.

"Hey. Did John B. tell you...?" I lean out the window, my voice trailing off.

She nods in response, "We should be back before the sunset. I can, you know, explain more then."

I feel the tension fog up the string of friendship we had, but it's not broken - not yet. At least I hope so. Her lips form into a shy smile, and I answer with a bigger one. She nods and retreats back to the house, and I hear JJ, "Can I drive?"

"No? You'll probably drive us into some ditch."

He groans but walks up to the passenger side and pulls the door open. "I wouldn't," he mutters under his breath and climbs on the seat.

I roll my eyes and start the GPS. The road stretches ahead, bathed in the sharp golden sunlight. Tourons are already wandering towards the beach, dragging their oversized umbrellas and chairs.

Through the music, I catch the sound of JJ's sigh. I glance over to find him leaning back on the seat, staring out the window. He is... quiet. Too quiet.

I can feel it's just the silence before the storm. And, of course, I'm right.

After his fifth sigh—louder this time—I grit my teeth. The noise grates at me, like a broken record. By the time he lets out the next one, I shoot my head in his direction. "What?"

His brows dart up when his eyes meet mine. "Nothing."

"I can hear you sigh."

JJ rests his head on his hand, "I'm pretty sure that's called schizophrenia-"

We didn't even make it out the Outer Banks. I groan and make a sharp turn, sending him flying across his seat. When the car stops on the side of the road, he looks at me deer-eyed. "Are you mental?!"

I'm already jumping out of my seat and walking around to his door. "Get out."

"Gonna leave me here alone?"

If murder was legal, I know who'd be first on my list. A whine escapes my mouth. "I wish," He's parting his lips, ready to say something but I pull him out of the car, "You'll drive. If I would have to listen to you sigh like an angry kid for the entire trip..."

I see the blue eyes light up for a second. JJ quickly switches with me, now sitting behind the wheel and adjusting the seat. "Just don't crash. My dad got this car like, two weeks ago."

His shoulders are a bit more relaxed now, but he holds the wheel in a strong grip. A smirk appears on his lips, "Nothin' to worry about, princess."

I roll my eyes as he starts the engine again. This is gonna be a long ride.

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Two hours pass, and the sun is now high in the sky. We are only an hour away from Chesapeake. I feel the hot air even with the windows down. I notice JJ stirring in his seat, sweat creeping up on his neck. I fan my face with my hands before I say, "Let's try the AC."

JJ steals a quick glance at me, "Well, not stopping you."

I click one of the buttons, but nothing happens. I do it again, and again. Nothing. Just as I raise my hand for the fourth time, his fingers wrap around my wrist—warm and steady and not tight, just enough to stop me.

For a second, my brain freezes, like it's lagging. Then he lets go, fast, like touching me burned him. He leans back, his gaze returns to the road. "This way you'll only break it. Are all Kooks like that with basic car assets?"

I huff, "I don't even drive that much. Why would I get a whole ass car ready for a trip to the store that'll take me five minutes by my bike?"

He shakes his head, and when he speaks up again, his voice is laced with amusement, "Ever considered just trying a different one?"

I grimace at him and smash the other button. Just like magic, we both feel the breeze hit us. Despite that, my cheeks warm up, "Oh."

JJ's lips form a weird smirk—I can sense he's holding a laugh. "Don't-"

But with the shake of his shoulders, I know it's a little too late. "Real princess, huh?"

He grins like he's savoring my embarrassment and leans back. I turn to the window, focusing on the passing trees and the distant sight of the ocean, ignoring the way my cheeks warm again. It's just the heat. Definitely the heat.

[kaddyssammlung]

I think this whole thing being like two opposite extremes on a spectrum is a great way to describe the discourse especially with the release of damocles and caramel! Unfortunately I think it just sucks that people feel the need to pick fights over having knowledge of who *they* are, I mean as long as someone's respectful about it, why dies it need to be a big deal? I understand it ruins the anonymity for some people, but they also go and say that they were researching the band...like unfortunately it's inevitable that you're gonna see it especially on Google. It's just what you do with that information once you have it, yknow? On the other hand, acting like they're not human let alone grown adults behind the masks is beyond me, believe me I'm sure everyone loves the lore and connections with the masks, but they ARE humans under them, and that should be acknowledged and respected. I think people on the internet especially with the current times forget etiquette and just completely disregard basic respect and understanding. I'd love to hear more of your thoughts on it, if you have any! (I must say that I completely agree with you btw I hope this didn't come off like it was directed at you, it was just kinda a universal statement for the current discourse about everything lol)

Thank you for your ask.

Yeah I agree. Why pick up fights?! I mean you can just know and that's it. I often feels like knowing and stalking them is the same thing. There are people in this fandom who make you feel bad for only knowing. They put you into the same corner with the ones who stalked them. Omg I used past tense...I hope this is in the past?! I don't even know that. I can know their real names and treat them with respect that's what I mean. It's this black and white thinking again. Knowing does not make me a stalker, listening to old music does not make me a stalker.

That's true when you research them then you are most likely to end up seeing their real faces and reading their real names.

And also suggestions on YouTube and stuff like that. Maybe everyone has seen at least baby Vessel without even being aware of it?! Just because how the YouTube algorithm works?! But I don't know that. It's just me making assumptions.

Yes they are grown man and old enough to know what they are doing. Makes me think about last tour when some of them were sick and people made all sorts of assumptions. I go to work when I have cold that's not too bad. It depends on how I feel. I'm 37 and had a few colds and know when it's time to just take a rest XD. It's like running a marathon....I know what I can do and then I told my grandmother about it and she was like “you are crazy....that's way too much....”. She was really worried about me. She never did sports in her entire life. But she can trust me?! Or at least she can try to trust me. Same thing with having a cold and still standing on stage. Or other things like these.

I never pointed out that Vessel had a cold in the beginning of that tour as well btw. I was so scared that people will freak out. You could hear his voice crack quite often. But it got better quickly :)

I do trust him. Also when it comes to his mental health. If he feels like he can do all that and continue to stand on stage then fine. If it does not work anymore then also fine :) . Of course I would be sad first but I can also understand.

“The lore”...yeah well....I really like that you can interpret the old lyrics in every way possible. It's not limited....that's so unique. You can't do this with the new songs.

If that album has not another positive song but keeps staying that sad then okay. Whatever he felt like doing. I won't complain. I'm here to listen :)

[silverware-is-interesting]

I literally NEVER do asks but I have to,

As predictable (being his number one fan ever) I really want anyyyy tidbits about Sonny,,, I need to know more about the beloved, i need to know,,,

anyways, is it okay that I made a band au version of my recently made oc? An idea just sprung into my mind and I can't get over it. Already drew it n everything but I wanted to double double check.

Band au my beloved <3

so, there's not all too much i can really say if i ever do anything, since most of the things i've thought about are pretty plot-relevant. i can try to put a couple things

so, he still dies but he's not quite as, well, helpful. he kinda fell into a slump sine he worked so hard on everything with the band and, in his lifetime they weren't really all too popular. so he's been in some piece of tech, a computer still, and thinks things over.

oh, he's been almost erased from company history, not in like a gaster way though, more like the company blacks out any images of his face

i'll make him a little bio once i have enough n decide if i'll actually make a story of this or kinda just release little tidbits little-by-little. what i could tell you is the songs in the playlist i had added because of sonny's involvement in the story though

i have a few little sketches of his (concept) design so here, have a concept (not great quality screenshots)

they'll probably change but y'know. it's somethin' though

as for ocs, yeah. that's perfectly alright. band-ify your little guys if you want! basically the only guideline is that they can't have an instrument that someone else in the band has (though, a guitar or different type of drum are both alright) and kinda have a rock-esc aesthetic to them OH! and tag me! i'd love to see them!

yeah,, my beloved too

[dailyunstableeve]

I’ve been non-stop listening to this song, Natalie by Mckenna Grace. I couldn’t help it but to think this song is my Spidersona, Eve and Miguel. 

I wish I could draw it out but my talent in art is limited so I thought maybe it would be nice if I just used words to visualize it. 

You can listen to it while reading it too 💕

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She's got something about her

It's easy when you're around her

Miguel is used to working solo like any spiderman would, after the spider society is founded, he’s mostly with Jess. Since Jess is pregnant, Miguel would secretly look after Jess. Eve joined the group and Miguel would find his job of capturing anomalies a lot easier than before. As in dropping the idea of constantly getting worried at Jess because Miguel and Eve would get it done most of the time. 

A big smile and dark eyes you get lost in

Eve is a cheerful person, she’s a big sister to everyone or a mom figure for everyone, because of her ability to look after people, like how she cares for Miguel. Eve basically cares about everyone more than herself. 

Eve and Miguel would hang out from time to time, Eve is always there to try to crack a few smiles or laugh from Miguel but Miguel is mostly in his serious mode. But little does that Eve doesn’t know, Miguel loves watching Eve smile, holding onto eye contact as she was talking to him. 

She's the first on the dancefloor

Eve is an 80% extrovert, she will never be able to resist the temptation of music and always dance along with it. 

Small Flashback from the Christmas fic (You can find it in the Masterlist), Miguel gifted her a vinyl of classic music and she loves dancing with it. 

Watch her laugh, the kind you would fall for

This will be the same explanation of “A big smile and dark eyes you get lost in” 

She'll always be there when you're calling

She'll hold your hand in the crowd (Ahh)

Miguel often would have nightmares about what happened in Gabi’s Universe, that he will keep on working and working until he thinks he did enough (he never did). When it comes to night that he couldn’t sleep, Eve would accompany him, she would sit in the office together with Miguel as he continued the work. 

The kinda girl you'd write a song about

Or, write a poem about (They had a poem bet before) 

Natalie

You move as natural as the breeze

Every sentence that you speak has a hold

Her flexibilities, her ideas of fixing problems, all learned from F.E.A.S.T. Which brought her a huge advantage when it comes to keeping everyone on check. 

Oh, Natalie

You're as wild as the sea

Could you teach me how to be so beautiful?

Miguel believes he’s a monster, sometimes he wishes to be like Eve, that everyone in the Society adores Eve while Miguel is just a boss to them. 

I'd like to know

Natalie

She's always fun at parties

Walks in looking so carefree

She shines and I feel a little lighter

‘Parties’ take it as the band show she’ll be in every weekend with Hobie, Gwen, Miles and Pav. Eve would never know that Miguel actually watches her show every time. At start Miguel is just watching from his office then he starts to appear in Hobie’s universe just to watch the band show. 

Miguel loves to watch how Eve just spreads her wings and sings out her best, it does give him a slight relaxation of how he doesn’t need to be so strict to everythings.  

Brown hair right past her shoulders

Confidence that makes her seem older

Eve has brown hair, except she dyed it to red (since Red is her favorite color). Miguel and Eve have an age gap of around 8-9 years (I heard Miguel is around his age around 30 while Eve is 23 by the time she joined the society) Sometimes, Miguel would forget about Eve’s age due to how she handles the situation no matter how bad it is. 

I wish I was a little like her

She'll hold your hand in the crowd (Ahh)

The kinda girl you'd write a song about

Natalie

You move as natural as the breeze

Every sentence that you speak has a hold

Oh, Natalie

You're as wild as the sea

Could you teach me how to be so beautiful?

I'd like to know

Natalie

(Oh, oh-oh-oh, oh)

Natalie

Feel like the moon watching the sun

Miguel is like the moon, and also he is a crazy workaholic at night. And the moon is only able to shine because of the sun. He thinks that with Eve around, he could do so much better, turning the society into a better place

So many stars but she's the one

That everybody needs

Out of every Spiderman he recruited, Miguel believes Eve is the one (no hate towards other spiderman, spiderwoman and spidersona, I love all of them)

(Oh, oh, oh)

I'd like to be like that for once

How does it feel to be so loved?

Could you show me how to be?

After losing Gabi, Miguel basically told himself that he doesn’t deserve anything anymore until Eve appears. Eve showed Miguel that it’s okay to embrace the mistake and learn to fix it, she showed him warmth and he wishes to return that favor too. 

Natalie

You move as natural as the breeze

Every sentence that you speak has a hold

Oh, Natalie

You're as wild as the sea

Could you teach me how to be so beautiful?

I'd like to know

Natalie

(Oh, oh-oh-oh, oh)

Natalie

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a/n: this is mostly of how Miguel viewed my Spidersona and I've been urging to write about it for so long because the song is so beautiful 😭😭😭

Masterlist

[raevenlywrites]

Raev's Fic Masterlist

Since tumblr can be a little allergic to links, I thought I'd take a second to ramble about all the various little (and not so little) fics I have up on Ao3

Den of Shadows

Jaguar's Midnight: Currently a single chapter of me exploring ideas of a Midnight that is more blatantly BDSM and less human trafficking. Maybe more to come? Who knows

Unpublished Turquoise thing about her time with Daryl (pester me about if it you're interested)

Hawksong/Kiesha'ra

Ties that Bind (haitus, 30 chps) A queer, polyamorous, Romeo and Juliet with shapeshifters set on a backdrop of the first tentative peace in a thousand year war. Canon's hotter cousin. Not currently explicit but plans to potentially get there

Frayed Knots (ongoing, 20 chps) The place where all the scenes I thought would go in TTB but didn't wind up. Some one offs, some deleted scenes. A mixed bag of spicy adult stuff and just fun character exploration. Iirc spicy chapters are marked as such

Dasi High (abandoned, 4 chps) Highschool AU of Maeve and Kiesha and Co, if their story was on the CW

Forbidden Skies (ongoing, 4 chps) Crossover with Forbidden Game. Julian is a falcon and Jenny and co are avians and serpiente. Basically FB's chars and plot cosplaying as K'r

Forbidden Game

Forbidden Skies, see above

Holy Fire (one off) A sort of song fic where Zach thinks way too hard about Jenny and tries to become a magician

Hearts Desires (complete, 4 chps) Still playing with Zach the magician, this one is meant to be a fairly short exploration of magic/runes, Zach's obsession with Jenny, his inability to readjust after the game, and coming out to himself. And tree sex. It's a weird one.

Summer Therapy character study (one off) exploring her massively underdeveloped character a bit

Unpublished pre-canon Jenny thing where she's kind of aware of something (Julian) watching her at night (spicy, pester me about it if you're interested)

Longer descriptions under the cut

Ties that Bind: A queer, polyamorous, Romeo and Juliet with shapeshifters set on a backdrop of the first tentative peace in a thousand year war. Anticipated f/f, m/m, and many other shapes of m/f/m and/or f/m/f, potentially kinky if I ever get it there. Also potentially ace/qpr stuff if I can ever figure out my MC and what is true in this fic vs what belongs in side projects. Canon's hotter cousin with more magic, more setting development, A LOT more romance, and a distant relation to the original in the way that Vaporeon resembles Eevee. It wants to still fit in canon's clothes but really needs to admit its grown too big for that.

This is the big one. I realized revisiting my favorite childhood series that the big epic romance I always remembered was mostly in my head. So I decided to get it out of my head and onto paper. That is... not what happened XD It follows the basic Romeo/Julietness of Hawksong, but I decided to really explore the world and characters and so made a lot of executive decisions bc there actually isn't that much about the world/characters in the original. It's diverged wildly, spiraled out of control into a 30+ chapters novel (lets be honest) and isn't ending any time soon. It's the one I most want to work on so send me asks and encouragement about it so I can get working on it again :P

Basically, Zane and Danica are still deeply dedicated to peace. They think the idea of getting married to achieve it is ridiculous, but they're desperate enough to keep it on the back burner. Dani gets to know Zane (and Adelina) as friends. She explores her relationship with Rei. She struggles with bureaucracy and a well-meaning mother that doesn't always support her in the way she needs. Also there's a bit more magic, a lot more setting, and a bunch of characters I kinda made up to help flesh things out (hello Vasili's made up cousin). Current plans include finishing it with some sort of marriage, but I haven't decided if Zanica is endgame or not (the dynamic currently in the lead in my head is Dani takes Adelina as her Alistair, Zane takes Rei as his Nag, and the four of them all kinda co-rule. We'll see. Everyone is going to kiss everyone else before its done that's for sure)

Frayed Knots (ongoing, 20 chps) The place where all the scenes I thought would go in TTB but didn't wind up. Some one offs, some deleted scenes. A mixed bag of spicy adult stuff and just fun character exploration. Iirc spicy chapters are marked as such Current offerings include: abandoned TTB starts, some BDSM scenes with Z/D/R/A, Dani getting herself off and thinking too hard, an alternative Snakecharm opening from Kel's POV, some Oliza stuff, some Marus/Urban stuff, and some Dasi High stuff. Really, Frayed Knots is a great place to start if you wanna read TTB but are kind of intimidated by its scope. Most FK entries are 1-3 chapters. A sampler platter of my nonsense basically :P

Dasi High (abandoned, 4 chps) Kiesha and Co Highschool AU, basically what if the Dasi was a show on the CW. A fun idea, but not actually my cup of tea. Would probably be more fun to ramble about in discord than actually write

Forbidden Skies (ongoing, 4 chps) Crossover with Forbidden Game. Julian is a falcon and Jenny and co are avians and serpiente. Basically FB's chars and plot cosplaying as K'r. I really loved the idea, but I don't know if it grabbed me enough to make want to wrestle it into submission like I do TTB. With TTB, I don't know the story yet, so I can trick myself into working on it bc I wanna know what happens. With FS, I know what my intended plot will be, so this one would need a lot of outside hype to get me working on it again. But I think it could be really really cool if I did. If this crossover sounds like your cup of tea, pester me for more

Forbidden Game

Forbidden Skies, see above

Holy Fire (one off, post canon what if) A sort of song fic where Zach thinks way too hard about Jenny and tries to become a magician. I have these ideas about Jenny half light faerie, hence Julians obsession with her. In this fic, Zach is trying to learn magic to protect Julian so FB doesn't happen again. He winds up getting the attention of a light faerie, who tasks him with being Jenny's knight until they're ready to come bring her home. Basically, the song Holy Fire by Seeming wouldn't leave me alone one day and this fell out.

Hearts Desires (complete, 4 chps, post canon what if) Still playing with Zach the magician, this one is meant to be a fairly short exploration of magic/runes, Zach's obsession with Jenny, his inability to readjust after the game, and coming out to himself. And tree sex. It's a weird one. Basically, I woke up one morning with the ending of it circling around in my head, wrote that, and am now trying to build up the beginning so the ending has anything to jump off of for impact.

Summer Therapy Char Exploration (one off) Listen. I want summer to be a character. I want anything for her. I want her to have gone through some shit (she fucking died!!!! it doesn't matter if the plot undid it, SHE DIED. That should matter!!!!). Kind of a run up to the idea that she might ever be the one in LJ's abandoned sequel Rematch! to carve Julian's name back on the stave of life.

Unpublished pre-canon Jenny thing where she's kind of aware of something (Julian) watching her at night (spicy, pester me about it if you're interested) This one I do have plans to publish, I just need to get it (and myself) ready to show to the world. It asks the question "What if Jenny kinda like the idea of feeling watched all the time and deliberately got off for her imagined (or so she thinks) Shadowman?"

[purplesurveys]

1995

Have you ever been to Las Vegas?   Nope.

What did you have for breakfast this morning? Just half of an egg sandwich. I was planning to eat loads for lunch since it was going to be my birthday eve celebration, so I intentionally didn't eat a lot for breakfast.

Do you have any loose change in your pocket?     In what's actually a pretty rare thing, I don't have pockets at the moment haha.

Do you like Taylor Swift?   Nope.

What’s your favorite Disney Channel movie?     High School Musical :)

If you met your favorite celebrity, would you be calm or star struck?     I mean I kinda met J-Hope and my reaction was everything I expected it to be: I couldn't look at him dead in the eye and I stayed frozen/mostly silent. LOL. That said, starstruck is the most accurate answer.

Are there any lights on in the room you’re in?     Yeah, my main light is turned on for a change. I don't want to fall asleep yet, so I need to keep everything bright.

What’s your favorite subject in school?  My favorite was always history. :) Though in my elementary years when history wasn't yet incorporated in my curriculum, I liked language best because it was just basic English grammar and vocab and gave me easy 100s.

What’s your favorite holiday?     New Year's! I like that it's not tied to religion lol, but also the 'fresh start' vibe it gives everybody. The parties are also always just so fun.

Do you ever have to do yard work?     The closest would be, like, having to pull out weeds in our backyard when we didn't have the place paved yet.

Is your school close to your house?     Idk how would you define close? I'd say it was, though -- speaking solely for where I went to college. It was like a good 6-7km away, which was bearable enough of a drive for me.

I can't really say the same for my elementary/high school, which was well on the other side of the city + it was a daily drive up a literal MOUNTAIN. The commute was admittedly draining, considering I did it 5 days a week, 14 years straight.

Speaking of school, how did you get there today?     I haven't been in school since 2020.

Do you think Bad Romance is a catchy song, or an annoying one?     SUCH a catchy, great song. It was very fresh for its time and it makes it easily understandable why Gaga just immediately blew up the way she did. To this day I'd mark out if I ever heard the song out in public, haha.

Are you currently using a laptop?     Yeah, I also exclusively use a laptop when taking these.

Do you have any live versions of songs in your music software?     I don't consume music like this anymore, i.e. buying or saving albums to have them in my library...I use Spotify where I can easily access the albums I want to listen to, including live ones.

Did/do you listen to Britney Spears songs?     I do listen to her sometimes especially if I turn on a 90s/00s playlist, but I don't think I've ever sought her out specifically.

Is it a windy day?     I mean there was wind here and there but all it did was blow hot and humid air our way. Not very helpful.

In the past week, have you ridden in a taxi?     No. It's been years since my last taxi ride in the Philippines. I did hail taxis a couple of times in Japan back in January, though. Mainly because I knew their drivers were going to be honest and polite and will not at all rip me off lol.

What shorthand do you use the most?     Quite a lot. lol, lmao, ngl, tbh, iykwim, icymi, fyi, fyr are just select ones I can think of off the top of my head, but I'm sure I use a few more.

Do you ever wish on stars at night?     Sometimes, if I'm feeling childlike/romantic.

What color are your eyes?   They're brown, but very dark brown that they nearly appear as black.

What album is the current song you’re listening to off of?     It's an album called Coup d'Etat, by G-Dragon. It's one of my favorites :) Not a single miss.

What are you doing after you finish this?     I'll continue trying to figure out what I can delete from my phone to free up storage. I'm already transferring gigabytes' worth of stuff at the moment to my Google Drive, but I do feel like this'll last me the entire evening (2:20 AM as we speak...) so I'm fully locked in.

Reason why I'm doing this is my mom surprised me with an Apple Watch just this midnight for my birthday, but apparently I can't link it to my phone unless I've had the latter updated to iOS 18 -- which I haven't been able to do because STORAGE and because I'm TERRIBLE at backing up my files. Anyway so now I'm like mass-transferring videos to my Drive and deleting 4 years' worth of photos I've been hoarding but never look at anyway and hoping this'll be enough. I'm SO excited about this fucking watch so I'm just frustrated that the surprise was a bit anticlimactic for me all because I'm LOCKED OUT FROM MY OWN WATCH HAHAHAHAHA

In your opinion, what song is the most overplayed right now?     For a very long time it was APT, so I'm glad that kind of stopped now. I don't think anything's super overplayed at the moment.

Are you in a band?     Nope.

How clean is your bedroom?     Enough for me not to feel antsy about it.

Is there a pen within reaching distance of you?     I don't think so, nope.

Are you sitting at a desk?     Yessir.

Does your favorite band have a male or female lead singer?   Female.

Do you normally shut your bedroom door before you go to sleep?     Yes, but then again my door is always closed as I prefer it to be.

Have you seen the movie Moulin Rouge?     No.

Would you ever dye your hair a different color?     I would and I have. I've gone with ash brown; then purple around 3 or 4 times at this point; then brown; then red. I'm definitely dyeing it a new color next month since I'll be at another concert, but I'm still torn between orange or teal.

Are there any framed pictures in the room you’re in?     Yes.

Have you ever been to a Broadway show?     Not at Broadway, but I've been to a musical production if that counts as anything lol. I watched Miss Saigon last year.

What’s your favorite movie soundtrack?     Continued from...man, who knows. A week and a half ago I think? I will always swear by the Twilight Saga: New Moon OST.

Do you prefer group or individual work?     It depends on the work. If the work is heavy on my strengths then I could get by alone. Then obviously I'd feel the opposite if I'll need to do something I'm not particularly good or confident at.

Do you have a key to anything besides your house?     My car.

Are you wearing anything with stripes?   Yes, my top has stripes!

What time did you go to sleep last night?     I have no idea- it must have been anywhere between 3 to 5 AM.

Did anyone tell you you were beautiful today?     Nope.

What show did you last watch?     When Life Gives You Tangerines. I don't think I will continue it though... 16 episodes for a K-drama is too long for me.

Do you think you’ll do anymore surveys today?     I always say I will then I end up not touching this blog again for another week or so, so probably not.

What’s your favorite ice cream flavor?     Cookies and cream :)

When was the last time you stayed home from school sick?     *Work, but 2023 when I was out with a really really high fever. It had just been a little under a month since I recovered from Covid, so falling sick again almost immediately had been equal parts worrying, frustrating, and amusing.

Could you ever complete a 500-piece puzzle?     I did but it was done with someone else. Not sure I'd have the patience to complete one all by myself.

If you could run a red light and not get caught, would you?     Never.

Do any bands flat-out annoy you?     There are some K-pop groups that do lol

Do you have a mirror in your bedroom?   Yup.

Was today a birthday for any of your friends?     No.

When was the last time you rode in a limo?     I've never been inside one.

Do you take naps daily?     I don't.

Do you still make Christmas lists? I mean I start an Excel sheet so I don't lose track of 1) who to get gifts for, and 2) what gift to get them - if that's what you mean by list. I don't make wishlists of what I want as gifts though.

Do you watch the show Dexter?     I started it many many years ago but it just could not reel me in. Then again I heard the finale sucked? or like the final season or whatever it was? so I don't feel any fomo about never completing it.

Have you ever been to any sort of convention?     I went to the very first YouTube Fanfest in Manila when YouTubers were still a thing - it was I think in 2015 and the Jaspoli trio were at their absolute prime and came in as the headliners.

I've also attended a few conventions for work but I don't feel like getting into them because duh work and I was barely interested in them.

Which song did you last listen to on repeat?     Probably Untitled, 2014 by GD -- I listen to it multiple times a day and I'm pretty sure it will easily take the cake of my most-listened-track in my future Spotify Wrapped.

Where do you want to live when you grow up?     The city.

Are you currently using a blanket?     I have no use for one at the moment.

Are there any songs that make you cry?  There isn't a song that makes me cry every time I hear it, but yeah I can think of a couple that can very easily get me caught up in my feelings and have my chest feeling constricted and heavy. One is We Are Bulletproof: The Eternal by BTS; the other is First Love by Suga.

Still Life by Bigbang is also the newest member of the club.

How many siblings do you have?     Two.

What are you doing this weekend?     I'll need to hyperfocus on making the bracelets I'm giving out as concert freebies because GD's con is just a little over 2 weeks from now and I'm planning to handmake 88 pieces!

Do you prefer swimming at the beach or in a pool?     Beach, always.

When was the last time you had a haircut?     Around 3 weeks ago, for Hobi's con.

Which musical instrument do you think sounds the prettiest?     I can never pick among piano, saxophone, and violin.

Do you know what you want for Christmas?     I have an idea haha but nothing too specific!

Do you watch fireworks on New Year’s Eve?     Yes, it's always been a family tradition.

Is your birthday within the next three months?     No, it just passed.

How long is the song you’re listening to?     3:19.

Are you anticipating anything this week?     Just for me to get tired because of work...

Is your mom or dad the older parent?     Dad is but only by 8 months - they were born in the same year.

Do you watch anything on E!?     I used to when I was younger but does that channel still even exist? Hahaha I'd have no clue tbh I exclusively use apps on the TV now.

Are you going to get off the computer now that you’ve finished this? Yeahhh, I'll need to start making more bracelets. :)

[mysticarts]

silly little ROTTMNT OC CHALLENGE!

(PART 1)

So, while searching deep below in my old sketch books, I found old concept designs of my ROTTMNT oc designs......

MAN THEY WHERE TRASH!

So, I'm redesigning each of my ocs. I have their personalities, passions, and their vices so they can have proper chararer development

But also this was a chance to expand on my own drawing style. As each one of my ROTTMNT where different species of mutants, so with this, I can create ocs with different body types and ethnicities!

So enough of me talking, let me show you the redesign!

Beatrix "Trixie" Amarin

Trixie here is a Siamease fighting fish, or a beeta fish for short. There's a variety of colors when it comes to these fish, so finding out Trixie's color palette will take a while

Due to one of the most common places Beeta fish live are in Thailand! So I made Trixie's nationality Thai!

Trixie absolutely loves song and dance. And I can assure you that most likely, Trixie is a heathers/Hamilton kid, she loves musicals

For Trixie, family is very important to her. It dosent even have to be blood related. If you treat Trixie well she considers you her family.

Trixie is a team player, she's at her best when she works with others. Even if she has a short temper, and dosent realize when she's being too rough, she cares

MYSTIC WEAPONS/POWERS

For Trixie's weapon, I wanted to give her a weapon that made sense with her culture. Then I landed on Sickles. Mostly for two reasons: With Mystic powers, her Sickles can be like a scythe AND she could use em like how Melonie uses sickles in hades 2.

Trixie found her Mystic weapons by swimming. She was deep underwater, just chilling out until she found those Sickles hiding in the sand. Trixie took the Sickles with her cause she needed some for farming, and Trixie likes things free

As for powers, I was stuck between water manipulation or Telekinesis. So I just gave her both until I decide which one is better for Trixie as a charater.

Victoria 'Vee' Igwe!

Vee here, is a fruit bat mutant! She was originally a human, but those pesky bugs made her turn into a fruit bat mutant. Luckily Vee did find those gadgets that make mutants look like humans. Vee holds onto that gadget with her life.

Vee always tries to help others, in any way possible. She does it willingly, and Vee doesn't even know why she does it either. However due to Vee's good nature, she does end up to be a bit of a doormat.

Vee is African! I made her African for two reasons: CAUSE I CAN, but also Fruit bat's are common in Africa!

Oddly enough, Vee is a very empathetic person. She's always in mind of others, and tries to think of solutions while thinking how it would effect others.

As for Vee's personality, she's kind of like Wendy from Gravity falls! Very laid back and energetic, but has a good heart.

Vee has an eye for things that others most don't see. She's basically really observant, noticing others actions and overanalyzing them. She usually uses this talent of her's to try and connect with others

Before Vee became a Fruit bat mutant, she was studying to become a therapist. She was also studying phsycology aswell. That's how Vee got her powers of observation

MYSTIC POWERS/WEAPONS

Vee's weapon is a polerarm! Like the ones in genshin impact, that kind of weapon! Vee originally got the weapon as a gift from her parents, who are scientests.

Shadow control is the Mystic power that came along with the Polerarm that Vee was gifted. When I say shadow control, I mean kinda like Macaque from lego monkie kid where Vee can hide in shadows, pop her head out of them, and use them as transportation.

Unlike the others, Vee was gifted her Mystic power before she got zapped into a mutant, so she has a little more experience on her own powers.

Anyways, part 2 will be out once I got my motivation back! Feel free to ask questions about either of Trixie or Vee. I'd like to talk about em more

[thedinanshiral]

After the reveal

Cinematic trailer and gameplay reveal already out of the way, now we wait. What's a few months after ten long, painful years? Sure, i can wait some more, and now i'll do it more gladly than ever.

There's not much i could add to what everyone is talking about, so this will be a post of personal impressions.

Cinematic trailer: while i admit i was not liking it much at first, and yes i did compare it to Fortnite, i immediately went to watch DAI's cinematic trailer because i remembered it looked kinda funny too. And then i remembered DAO's awful, truly awful trailers and i felt my worries washed away by the waves of "It'll be ok" Beach. Cinematic trailers should be taken as what they are, a basic look into the game, not its final version -unless it's stated as such in the trailer itself-. I saw people not liking the characters' presentation cards but i think they were ok, as we have new factions and all. That's all it was, a quick look at new companions and locations. But as always some people went rabid over it like an undertaker eager to put six-feet worth of dirt on your face. As they've been doing for the past decade and even before that, for which i have a Zero Tolerance Policy. As for the music, while i do like Bowie i'm not a fan of that version of Heroes, and in my heart nothing beats DAI's Into the darkness as a trailer song but after the dust settled that's really my only real complaint.

Gameplay reveal: I'm glad it put most people at ease. I'm sad Varric couldn't succeed in convincing his old friend and that in the moment Solas decided destroying Bianca was the way to make him stop trying for good, that he was cruel intentionally to that end. I'm not sure how combat will feel like but i'll get used to it. I'm certainly not a fan of having to pause every two frames and i did enjoy combat in Mass Effect Andromeda so having only two companions tag along isn't exactly a new thing either. I'm a bit confused about the commands wheel screen, and how it works exactly. Location and ambience-wise i loved it all, i know they had to cut it short for the video but i hope we get a bit more freedom to explore the area. It's one thing to cut the scale down from The Hinterlands but i'd hate it for these new locales to feel like a shoebox. I'm curious to see if the tone indicators in the dialogue wheel will be like in DAI or more like in DA2, and i hope it's the latter because i need a Purple protagonist in my life again.

I rather wait until we know more, ideally until i get to play it myself, before i start weaving words about what was peaking through the rip in the Veil, about the ritual and all that sweet, sweet lore intoxication i'm gonna be getting.

What's coming: BW were kind enough to give us a bit of a schedule

Now armed with past experiences and my intuition, i'd like to explore possibilities. I've always thought the release date should be in November. It marks the 10th anniversary of Dragon Age Inquisition, and the 15th annoversary of Dragon Age Origins. On top of that, it's the year of the Dragon, and November is close enough to the holidays to bank on that as well. So i'm considering the possibility that after June 18th they give us a some days to process everything so far, and there's also the character creator reveal as well. And then by July i think they could start showing us a bit more with character trailers. With seven companions plus Rook i'd say one trailer per week is enough to make it to mid September. I Imagine a basic presentation of Rook in some of their variants, to reintroduce those origins people missed so much, the new factions, etc, could take over July and then the companions over August and September. Maybe we could get more official art or short stories sprinkled here and there too. After that i'd say a pre-order and release date would be great, giving everyone a month or so to get ready for a glorious November release right on time for my birthday.

Anyway that's all in my head, for now we have nothing beyond June 18th. I'm mostly waiting for a pre-order, of course a release date, and whether or not there'll be a Collector's edition or anythin like it so i can work my magic to get one.

[annyankers]

I don’t remember who kalevi is, will you give me a refresher?

he's actually NEW!!!! (kinda) kalevi is basically 2 things:

the product of me brainstorming up new ocs and trying to figure out who i like as a potential oc love interest for buffy in stories like love lost or nobody's daughter when there's a good chance spu.ffy isn't an option or my other top picks like faith aren't the most viable (ex brooke dates faith in s3 but it goes Bad and buffy then dating her sister's ex girlfriend feels like a bad vibe you know?) actually forget all of how i got to him but i got to him

me realizing that as i brainstormed a new oc to add to the "in case of more cast needed, break glass" oc stockpile i'd actually kinda just remade an older oc of mine who is the original kalevi but like... i'd just changed his whole background and made him a vampire lol.

His first appearance on this blog is on this reblog chain. not too long after it i realized i'd made Kalevi But Different and while thinking about him and really enjoying the character I knew I needed to name him so I just decided to take the plunge and merge the two iterations and officially make him kalevi!

everything about him should be in the kalevi huatala tag (or will be soon dfgdfgd). but he's basically the vampire brother of a former slayer who has a very eric draven/the crow "back from the dead to get revenge on those who are responsible for our gruesome deaths" kinda vibes. he's very handsome and charismatic in that "he's not moody he's clinically depressed with an addiction issue" kinda way.

he's dedicated his unlife to revenge against the watcher's council who he feels is responsible for his sister's suicide (he is not completely off the mark there considering how slayers got made) and to helping and supporting the current slayer when he's not you know, out of his mind with grief. he's like if angel and oz were put in a blender with vil.le va.lo, eric draven from the crow and trent from daria.

as another fun fact, kat and saoirse are also daria and jane coded (that was unintentional but i lean into it now lol)

also i'd reccomend looking at the rauha hautala tag, that's his sister who was the slayer before buffy.

for funsies here's the original human kalevi's profile from when he was in an rp group!

Name: Kalevi Hautala Occupation: Owner and Radio Host at KP.LU, Musician Age: 46 Pronouns: He/Him Faceclaim: Cody Fern (i couldn't use ville bc they said no musicians so i was basically in Hell trying to find a good fc and just gave up) Sexuality: Bisexual Species: Human Clan/Pack/Coven?: Nah Hometown: Helsinki, Finland Relationship Status: open to discussion Personality Traits: Depressive, Secretive, Creative, Compassionate Children: open to discussion

BIOGRAPHY [ TW: car crash, drugs, alcoholism, family dysfunction, child death, mental health struggles ]

Originally born in Helsinki, Finland, Kalevi Hautala is known across the world for his popular rock band Death In Love. He was raised in a mildly dysfunctional family with his older sister Jaana and younger brother Tino in what was a fairly normal life until Jaana died in a car accident when he was 12. The Hautala family swiftly fell into complete dysfunction before falling apart completely. Kalevi increasingly spent as much time away from the house as possible and poured his energies into his music. By the time he was 20 he had a band, enough songs for two albums and the start of a drinking problem.

His 20s were marked with increasing fame, a growing body of work and increasing issues with his mental health and addictions. By 2011 the band was in shambles and Kalevi was in rehab for the final but not the first time. Lost and out of rehab with nothing to go back to Kalevi found himself wandering through Port Le.iry, just as an event was held to try and help a local radio station KP.LU get the funds it needed to stay open. Intrigued he walked over and talked to the listeners and the people who worked at the radio. The love people had for the station moved him and he decided to help, which eventually ended up with him buying the station and revitalizing it. While he still couldn’t bring himself to get back to making music of his own, his passion for it was still intense — so much so that he eventually came to not just own the station but DJ on it himself. 12 years later and Kalevi, his smooth voice and his evening block of eclectic music are a staple of the Port Leiry area.

Things however have not been happily ever after for Kalevi since settling in Port Le.iry. Bad luck seems to loom over him no matter what he does. He does his best to ignore it and move on with life but that’s gotten harder and harder to do over time. Sometimes he feels like he’s cursed, like fate is mocking him for his past mistakes and punishing him. Sometimes he feels crazy.

MUSIC

Musical Vibes: H.I.M., Sisters of Mercy, Depeche Mode, Type O Negative, Bauhaus, Chris Cornell, Coueteu Twins, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, Leonard Cohen, Tool

Jaana’s sudden death impacted Kalevi deeply and fueled many of the themes in his music. Much of his song writing focuses around death, loss, love, devotion and obsession, when one looks at his discography it’s very clear he is still processing the loss as well as things like his own complex feelings about romantic love, depression and loneliness.

PLOTS

The Grudge: things have seemed to be bad for him for a while. He might think it’s just life, but really it’s a curse. Someone from his past is getting revenge, it could be warranted or it could be overblown. It doesn’t matter because either way, he needs to figure out how to break it before it kills him or he does the job himself. So some help would be nice.

Rekindling the Fire: it’s been a long time since Levi has truly made his own music and engaged in his passion. Maybe it’s time for him to regain that fire and work on a new album….

Bleeding Heart: Just give him someone to worry about or cry over.

Things that aren’t wanted connections per say, but are things that I’m open to happening if things develop that way and if people are interested in doing something related to these I’m more than happy to brainstorm.

Former band members coming around Kalevi being bitten or somehow made magical Kalevi having kids whether he knew about them before or not Previous partners or a current one(s) that are a bit more pre-established

[stacywaters]

Coffee and Violets (SUGA) CH10 - Golden

(YOONGI POV)

The light flickers on, my head staying focused on my notebook in front of me.

"Are you still writing? You've been in here since 6:00 am" Hoseok gawks.

"What can I say," I laugh, "I've just found something interesting to write about"

"More like someone.." he teases. My smile just widens as he gasps, "you're not even going to hiss at me for teasing you? You must be down bad"

"Ugh, I don't know, Hoseok" I cover my face with the lyric book, "what if she doesn't feel the same way? And I'm just wasting my time?"

"Loving someone is never a waste of time, Yoongi"

I lift my head, "but what if I just end up hurt?"

"You might. And if you do, you know I'll be here to help you pick up the pieces. But you might not, you might take a chance on something great and find yourself better than you've ever been. You have to love her enough to take the risk," he rests his hand on my back, "and you have to love yourself enough to know you deserve it"

I sit up, "you're right. Thanks Hobi, I needed that"

He pulls me into a hug. I groan.

"I said I needed the advice, not a hug"

"You looked like you needed a hug," he laughs, "now go finish your love song"

I chuckle and continue writing. It all comes to me so easily, stanzas pouring from my pen like waterfalls as my feelings spill from my heart onto the page.

I'd say I lost track of time, but time must've lost track of me. I found myself wandering into a whole other world while dreaming about her. Just the image of her in my mind was enough to make me completely lose my mind.

Golden hour drew shadows of monstera on the wall as I breathed in the fading light. I close my eyes, imagining the warmth of her hand in mine. Trying to picture us together, my heart pounding at the thought. As I sat there, my eyes began to flutter closed.

-------

"Yoongi"

...

"Yoongi?"

A warm hand shook my shoulder, "Yoongi, it's me, Y/N,"

I bolted upright, immediately taking notice of the lyrics sprawled out in front of me and stealing my notebook from the desk.

"Hey, just brought you some coffee"

I gasp for breath. She's standing way closer than she ever has before, and her hand is still rested on my shoulder.

"What's in the notebook?" She asked.

"Um, nothing" I sank into my seat.

She giggled, "okay. You don't have to tell me, but now I'm very curious"

"It's, it's uh," I stuttered, "my joke drafts"

She burst out laughing, "joke drafts?"

I grinned, "yeah. I like to write them down first to see if they're funny or not"

"Can I hear one?"

"I kinda feel like I am one right now," I replied.

-----

The afternoon together faded with the golden light, and soon it was just the two of us and a sky of stars. It was dark, but neither of us reached to turn on the too-bright fluorescent lights. Words stretch into the depths of the night. I take a sip of my americano, the cold of the ice now a faint memory. Driven by our caffeine delusions, the night marched on. Time has forgotten us in this patch of the universe.

"I have a lot of ideas, but I haven't pieced any of them together yet" she says.

"Ideas... like?"

"Well, um," she pauses, "I've always dreamed of having a character that, like- has become so focused on the routine of work that they kinda.. forget what inspired them in their work? But then as they find themselves meeting new and different people, they find who they themselves are, like- as an individual," she looks to me, then exhales, "there's also a romance in the book, but... but I don't know if that's too weird, or too basic, or, or maybe I just don't have the skills or the time to write something like that"

"Of course you do" I say before my mind second guesses.

She giggles, "well how would you know?"

I scoff, "because just listening to you, I know that you're brilliant enough to write whatever you want. Plus, it's not like you could write it wrong, not if no one's written it before"

"Yeah..." she plays with the lid of her drink. It's been empty for a while now, "maybe I'm just not good at trusting myself, at being patient with myself. I can never find the time to write anymore"

"If you can't believe in yourself, then let my belief in you be enough," my hand absentmindedly finds hers. I think back to Hoseok's words earlier, "love yourself enough to know you deserve to make time for things that are important to you"

She looks at me. Like, turns to face me fully while holding onto my hand with both of hers. I never noticed before, the way her eyes seem to sparkle in this glimmering way. Even in the darkness of this room. Her eyes shine like fresh snow, reflecting light into my life. I see it all around me.

"Yoongi, there's something I need to-"

"Yoongi! It's time to close the shop!" Hoseok calls from outside.

Instantly she pulls away, dropping my hand. Damn it, Hoseok!

"What did you want to say?" I pried.

She mumbled, "I uh, it's nothing. I've been here a while, I should go"

"Wait, at least let me walk you home!"

Hoseok yelled again from the storefront, "Yoongi! I need your help closing!"

I sigh. Y/N just smiles, "see you again tomorrow?"

"Yeah," I pause, "wait, you don't have work tomorrow though?"

"I know! Would you be up to maybe hanging out?"

I beam, "yes! What time?"

"Meet me at my store, around 8:00?"

"I'll be there" I grin.

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After I saw Y/N off, I stormed over to where Hoseok was sweeping.

"What the hell, Hoseok?" I fumed.

Hoseok stopped sweeping, "I should be saying the same thing! I was working all day and you couldn't bother to even help clean up?"

"Y/N was about to tell me something that could've been really important!"

"Oh my gosh," He choked, "I completely forgot you were talking to her. How did it go? Did everything go okay?"

"It was going great! We talked for hours, I got to know so many things about her, and then she said she needed to tell me something-"

"OH MY GOSH, DO YOU THINK SHE LIKES YOU TOO???"

"Well I WOULDN'T KNOW because SOMEONE interrupted..." I attacked.

"Oh Yoongs, I'm so sorry,"

"It's alright" I mutter, "I just really wish I could've heard what she was going to say"

"Well, you'll know soon enough."

"Huh?" I ask.

"With your song! Once you tell her how you feel, you'll be able to find out pretty quickly whether or not she feels the same way" he smiles, "did you finish writing it?"

"Pretty much, just gotta put it to music"

He smirks, "when are you going to play it for her?"

"I don't know... I mean what am I going to do? 'Hey Y/N, I wrote a song about you, so we need to find a piano so I can play it for you, and if you hate it it'll be a really quiet drive when I drop you off'? ...It'd be awkward"

"What if you recorded it and played it for her?"

"And just sit there while she listens to it?" I question.

"Or, or what if you said 'Hey, I made some new tunes for your cafe' and then sneak it in the mix?"

"Yeah, and what if she's like 'no, I hate this one! Why would you even make me listen to this'" I burst out laughing.

He chuckled, "I really don't think she is going to do that"

Stay Tuned...