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Today I remembered shells exist
#2 arms left#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#rise leo#leonardo#heyo tag ramble update time#the irl has been killing me#im moving (again)#plus a few other things...#sorry about the hiatuses#things should smooth out for me in another 2 weeks before I get comfortable enough to work on comics again :)#thanks everyone for sticking with me though!
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i finished it, was kicked out of the game, and then spent the next 10 minutes drawing this. i will now go take a shower, most likely cry, and then go through the emotional turmoil of convincing myself to reset so i can do a geno run. i hate it here :D
#undertale yellow#uty#my art#<- ifg#spoilers under these tags beware. although it is mostly just me being very very sad#that entire thing was heart wrenching. anyways#CEROBAS FIGHT??? HELLO???#i had to exit out of it the first time (i got to the last phase) to get better items but i came back and won pretty quickly#but THE CUTSCENES?!?!?#JFC NO WONDER THIS WOMANS SO MESSED UP. HER HUSBAND PRACTICALLY DIED IN HER ARMS AND THE LAST THING HE LEFT HER WITH- HIS DYING WISH- COULD#ONLY BE FULFILLED BY PUTTING THEIR ONLY CHILD IN DEATHS WAY. AND THEN WHEN SHE TOOK THAT RISK THE WORST THING HAPPENED AND SHE NOW HAS TO#LIVE WITH THE GUILT OF BEING THE ONE TO. MOST LIKELY. KILL HER ONE AND ONLY DAUGHTER#ALL THE WHILE SHE WAS PUSHING AWAY HER CHILDHOOD BEST FRIEND AND CONVINCING HERSELF THAT SHE WAS IN THE RIGHT TO SACRIFICE CLOVER WHO HAD#BEEN ONLY KIND MERCIFUL AND JUST THIS WHOLE TIME. EVEN TO THOSE WHO WERE TRYING TO KILL THEM. FUCK.#AAND WHEN CLOVER HUGGED HER I DOUBLED OVER IRL BC *THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANTED TO DO IN THAT MOMENT* I HATE IT (read: love it) HERE#n dont even get me STARTED on after that. when clover started moving on their own and the gd white screen came up and we got flashbacks of#everyone's words. thats when the tears rlly started coming bc it clicked for me. 'oh. this is it. isn't it?' and IT WAS#WHEN THEY GAVE THEIR FUCKIGN HAT AND GUN AWAY TO MARTLET AND STARLO WELL THATS WHEN I REALLY STARTED CRYING#AAND THE GROUP HUGG#I WAS SOBBING WHENEVER I HAD TO WATCH THEM CRAWL UP AGAINST THE WALL AND DIE AND HAVE FLOWEYS WORDS PLAY OVERHEAD#AND THE FUCKOGN#THE F U C K I N G#AFTEWRCREDITS SCENE WHERE WE GOT THE 'You heard someone calling for help. You answered.' I GOT CHILLS SO BAD#to think that all the other souls have stories just as expansive and emotional as clover n frisks. how fucked up is that. in a good way tho#and finally the last scene where we got all 4 of our main friends sending us off in waterfall and we see clovers items end up in the dump#just waiting to be found by bratty and catty. fucken hell man this was a masterpiece#anyways time to reset and obliterate everyone and never emotionally recover from that ever!! really is feeling like 2016-17 again w the way#this game has me sobbing my eyes out and feeling the guilt of knowing that i dont HAVE to kill them all but im too curious not to#oh well. at least i have the balls to do it this time around instead of letting a youtuber do it for me ig
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Sorry for this super depressing poll but
#I've been thinking about it#I don't want Stan to suffer anymore. he already lost Ford once and his family the day his dad threw him out#so I don't want to think he has to live through Ford's death#I like to think that both live past 92 (after Ford had his heart attack)#and they die peacefully in their sleep in their own home. not a hospital (I've had enough irl deaths in hospitals let me have this)#also I like to think they die in close dates. Stan dies first and a few months later so does Ford#also yes Ford technically 'killed' Stan when he erased his memory but it was pretty 'brief'. he wasn't gone for 30 years and he knew he was#physically alive#Anyway I'd love to hear your thoughts#gravity falls#stanford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#ford pines#tw death mention#not art#poll#polls#tw death
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"oh Jason fought Tim in Titans tower because he didn't want any child to be a vigilante after how he ended up" sometimes what you guys want is just Joey Wilson.
#Joey who (in the same run) tried convincing the Titans and other heroes that no we shouldn't let kids run around like that#by trying to *kill* them#because he has been killed when he was on duty when he was in the same team at a similar age#(granted this is not his normal behavior bc his mind was still corrupted from before his death#(and spending so much time in Slade's mind has probably not helped at all)#but it was still his motivation!!)#meanwhile Jason's reasoning was:#1. why the hell is there a new Robin after what happened to me#2. is he skilled enough#3. why does it feel like no one remembered me#it wasn't truly about child vigilantes as a whole#in fact it wasn't even really about Tim. it was about Bruce#and anyways Joey's whole speech about child vigilantes preceded Jason by 1/2 irl years#so he's the og about that in any case#joey wilson#joseph wilson#jericho#jason todd#red hood#robin#tim drake#teen titans
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i think you forgot the tech wizard's birthday (mikado)
TO BE HONEST WITH YOU, ANON, THIS IS LESS, "Oh shit, I forgot one of my favorite character's birthday-!" AND MORE, "I've been swamped with work, school, and been more focus on a silly little stick figure show over SDRA2 and now I'm pass the deadline welp-"
Anyways, here's his birthday art that I tried to plan in advance but never finished it in time until today cause I didn't spend my time wisely.
Happy birthday to my worst boy(s)! I totally wasn't, like, four weeks late for this, hahaha!!;;;
(Featuring me still figuring out my IRLkado Lives AU coat design for him. Still not sure if I like it or not-)
#Asks#Star Talks#SDRA2#Mikado Sannoji#Super Danganronpa Another 2#IRL Mikado Sannoji#AI Mikado Sannoji#IRLkado#AIkado#SDRA2 Spoilers#Star's Art#personally I am of the opinion that IRLkado would regret creating AIkado if he ever survived and found out that his AI tried to kill him#“I never thought an AI based off of myself would betray and try to kill me!” says guy that has selfishly dirtied his hands more than once#the only reason he's against AIkado is for revenge more or less. “backstab me once and I'll make your life hell” - that kind of thing#IRLkado: “I should've deleted you once your role has been completed.”#AIkado: “...But cha DIDN'T!!” >:)))#First time drawing Glitchkado. He was kindof a pain in the ass but when is he never? lol#At least this drawing turned out pretty cool if I do say so myself
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#had one of those hyper realistic dreams where it feels more real than irl and for once there was a blorbo of mine in it#and it was super chill me and a friend group (dont know these people but in this world we knew each other since hs) were going bar hopping#and blorbo was acting kinda weird since he changed his look up#friend pulled me to the side and said the dudes trying to impress me and thinks its not working thats why hes been mopey#my brain: wtf man?? no one has to do that to win points for me#anyway we get to a bar and blorbo goes to a different table since were a group of 15#and hes taking off his jacket and i whistle at him and hit him with a HEY!#he looks up kinda shocked and I gesture at his jacket and yell#IF YOU TAKE THAT DAMN THING OFF I'LL KILL YA#and throw him a big grin and wink#he just fucking blushes and grins while putting the coat back on like he won the lottery#like YAY THEY NOTICED ME!!!!!#and i get up and go sit with him and tell him i know he changed up to get my attention and that was dumb#and he's like why??#“man I'm simple just throw a bird mating call at me and I'm yours.”#fucking wake up right when he cracks the fuck up#dumb rant but damn it that was fun wholesome stuff i want to go back to that universe#other pink variant#non magenta post
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Bitches will be like "damn am I overexaggerating how bad the current landscape is?" And then the top posts in a character tag that's not even involved will be "this post contains filtered tags [ship]"
#cath.txt#on my hands and knees praying either I run out of people to block or everyone shuts up. I don't lose because I'm Cursed.#sits on my porch with my gun whateverrrrr. I can kill everyone.#like you hauve to understand getting into gf again has been so good to me but it's also been “wow this is one of the most sickeningly#familiar depictions of what I've gone through over the past few years that makes me feel uncomfortably seen but also provides me great#solace and hope for my own future and greatfulness for what I have now“ and then I check tumblr and everybody is unironically shipping the#guy who got exploited and psychologically AND physiologically tormented as well as violated with his abuser because it's “funny” and#“they're both terrible” as though one of these people isn't a man who's made a lot of mistakes that made sense in the moment and the other#is a fucking interdimensional nightmare demon that now canonically has ran cults. like ok. thanks guys. and the realest kicker to me is the#fact that people show that three sided fuckhead more sympathy? some fucking how? like ok I see how it is. it's one and I'm tired and I'll#probablyyyy delete this in the morning even though it's buried in my own tags but word to the wise don't have things wrong with you that#make you effectively kin ford at 13 and then reconsume gf seven years later and look at how your life's progressed. like fuck dude one#second you're chilling and the next you get so mad about hearing shit about a book that you realize you're a fucking Stanford Pines irl and#have been for nearly half your life. what kinda sick joke is it that that fucking book was announced on my birthday anyway. come on man.
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much to everyones disappointment im back (might disappear again though lmao)
#angryborzois rambles#okay has it been a month? or more?#a lot happened ig#right after i went inactive i got the flu and well that was shitty to say the least#i was already sick before it (got sick on finals week as a matter of fact) and the flu didnt let me have a break lol#(making a grand total of getting sick 5 times in 2024)#and also the cold medicine killed my stomach so hard and i was in so much pain#was stuck in a constant cycle of throwing up or sitting on the toilet#also had fever hallucinations which was funny but also annoying bc if i had a nightmare it'd continue irl after i woke up#other than that i finally got gk merch like i wanted#and got a pen tablet so thats nice (im still bad at using it though)#also my luck outlook for the year according to the omikuji i got at a shrine is supposed to be really good so im really hoping so#because my health luck in 2024 was something else#hmm what else#ah and today the package that my german host family sent out finally arrived and im so happy#its a package of treats and im excited to try them#anyways ren signing out for now o7
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I also have good things going on in my life. I am going to get more into Crafts. and my dear irl now has free range of Having A Car and said we will hangs out. and also as always The Puter is a Place Your Friends Are. And I am not bound to school any more :3 So 2025 Could be my year. Maybe
#vwoop.noises#might even go see my grandparents more often since im not supposed to be at school#but. ughhh Ages ago my brother got into a car accident and took my moms car bc hes employed#and he/we cant afford another one . For Obvious Reasons#So this has also made everything worse.#Which. I have to learn how to drive again maybe seeing my dear irl do it effortlessly has given me a bit of confidence#But I do not want to learn in my dads pickup truck whos only ecological niche is killing children#On account of I don't want to kill children.#(Also I will Get Scared again. If I Try)#.. maybe in some years. I will ask my best friend. To teach me. Or something. Or I could ask my brother but hes also scary#But there's been a bus extension out here for a second and I still have a free bus pass. So I could just do that. N get out sometimes
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so do the rest of you guys just simplify your dreams when explaining them to people or do I just remember a significantly weirder degree of depth than the average bear
#thinking about shit like this every morning when i wake up after like#spending the past however many hours in part of a high stakes cop drama that takes place in the pokemon world#but my pokemon is actually an elder scrolls character pretending to be a weird rare pokemon because it's easier than passing as human#and the fair we are trying to get through is down a dirt road alley that's also a depressingly empty polynesian farmers market#and we gotta go fast because my irl friend who's with us really wants to have a mantine draped over his shoulders like when he was a kid#but then we find out that the mantine encounter was at the aquarium next to the fair and not the fair itself and he just misremembered#so he's all sad while we're riding go karts and dirtbikes because he doesn't get to play with the mantines#but anyway we were here for the cop drama bit because some teenage girl got assaulted and we need to beat up the perp's pokemon#(perp himself has already been bagged)#and now I'm realizing that I don't know what fake pokemon moves to tell my fake “pokemon” to use#(he's a daedric prince it's not like he'd listen to me anyway he's about to obliterate the fuck outta this sunflora no matter what I say)#which leads me to wondering why I can't think of a decent steel-type pokemon move similar to slash#(“metal claw only works if you have claws” I think to myself wondering why there isn't some kind of sword move like ffs honedge exists)#anyway he's already finished the fight so it doesn't matter we can go home back through the depressing farmers market#home is aboard a KotoR-esque spaceship of course which is good because it means I get “back at camp” dialog with my daedra friend#but he's gone now shit fuck where did he go is he killing people without me this is bad I leave and start walking through crowded streets#people are trying to sell me shit but I ignore them#I'm accosted by a guy dressed like an old-west outlaw who says that he's with the vigil of stendarr and he's here hunting daedra#I tell him to fuck off because honestly I'm no longer invested in this dream's narrative arc#(I'm trying to envision a different scenario that is more appealing to my current tastes but lucid dreaming was a lie and I can't hack it)#then I wake up#next night I dream about being an omnipotent dragon god with a marsupial pouch full of my adopted babies (JJK characters)
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Good evening gamers!! Hope you're all doing well! As for me, I'm not doing so hot but playing some games will definitely help!
#pan rambles#Today has just been bunch of small annoyances building up to the point where I'm gonna burst into flames-#It's all irl stuff so I won't into super big detail but#One thing I will say is that my back is killing me after Painting for so long with shrimp posture#and after I was finally finished for the day. I dropped my drink near two cables I was using#which was. not fun. awful way to end that-#the cables are fine dw but now I feel extra annoyed (mainly at myself for being clumsy)#I'm irritated and stressed and maybe some Hades will help me- I just need to hit stuff (in a game) for a bit#Ahem#but enough about that#on a lighter note#I might watch some H.aikyuu with my childhood friend after my finals are over#It's been months since I've seen her so I've been missing her so much- hearing her voice in a call would definitely help#I love her sm she's the best <3
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antis going “oh shipping sukuita is bad and illegal cuz age gap and yuji is 15!” Like bruh….as if there aren’t PLENTY of popular media (buffy, vampire diaries, twilight) featuring the teenage mc dating 100+ yr old vampires….
#like bruh I watched tvd at 14 and shipped these …… everybody was doing it shshdh#and this is not even including all the ya books abt like angels and shit 😭#like teenage mortal x immortal has been a POPULAR TROPE#and there used to be so much of it like in the late 2000s/early 10s#but suddenly now it’s problematic ????????#like we were all so normal abt back then bc we had the brains to separate reality from fiction#especially when said fiction involves smth impossible like IMMORTALS#and like how u gonna tell me a trope I’ve been enjoying since I was a teenager myself makes me a bad person suddenly?????????#ok whatever just saw some ppl say how it’s ok to ship suk*go but not skit bc of ages and got frustrated#also calling skit illegal as if sukuna didn’t literally kill gojo#so murder isn’t illegal then ??????#or going by their other logic that if u like smth in fiction must mean u condone it irl…..so they think murder is ok …?#idiots
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#tw: death#tw: irl death#tw: parent death#ok those tags will make sense in a moment but! cause I've been going back through my s/is lore it made think a lil deeper into her#relationship with o'b (true heat) n well the thought of them talking about kids came up#both o'b n myself irl have a genetic that can lead to terminal illness n cause my s/i is me she has it too#o'b carries a disease in his blood that killed his sister n mine can lead to terminal cancer not 100% but I'm more likely to possibly get it#over someone who doesn't have the same gene it's what killed my own dad irl#so i like the idea of both of them like bonding on that level knowing they both have like this *monster* inside them inside their genetics#n well its comforting to me to know he knows exactly how i feel irl#idk cause of the whole his ashes finally being ready for pick up thing it sorta opened old *wounds* n my fear of dying like he did#i know I'm gonna die someday everyone is but i don't wanna die the way he did#i think I'm venting uogihviyv not what i meant to do! I'm not looking for comfort! just brain werms went screwy lol#but i really like the idea of the two of them having a bonding moment over their fears n grief in a way that only people in that position#can#n it's comforting so ojghvihfiv#shut up rattie no one gives a shit lol
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hey i’m a mutual who dropped out in 7th grade and i just want u to know that things will be ok. i’m going back to school this year and like you can just stop either temporarily or permanently. i promise u it will be ok
:((( thank u so much this means a lot to hear . my plan has been to drop out for like two years at this point but i never really expected it to feel this much like a huge change even though it was always going to be. and my mother asked me if i just wanted to drop out when i told her i didn't want to go in today and it's sent me on a downward spiral. sorry for putting this on your dash board whoever is online and whoever saw it.
#ugh whatever sorry these tags r going to be so whiny don't look at them if u dont want to see that.#UGHHHEH its just so much. because at least having the option to have somewhere to go every day even if i never take it has been like.#almost some sort of comfort to me. because i don't want to sit around every day if it's not my choice to be doing so.#but i've never had a job. i don't know how to write a resume i don't know how to answer interview questions i don't know anywhere that#would take me that i can get to on my own since i can't drive. but if i don't get a job. i'll be sitting around broke and miserable until#applications for the course i want open up. and i don't know how to do that. the more i think abt it today the more dropping out feels#like the best option but it doesn't make it feel less like the huge step i know it'll be. i don't have a life without school. it's the only#place i ever see my few irls. it's my one source of human interaction every week. what do i do if it's not there for the next#half a year. assuming i passed the test i needed to pass and also get into the course i want. i don't know.#and everythings in my favour!! everything is going for me!! i have it easier than so many kids at my school!#my mother is a teacher and she gets me so many of the things i need because she knows the system. literally two weeks ago she got it set up#so that i don't have to go to one of my classes because it was making me miserable and i was complaining abt it constantly.#and i just feel bad that all of her effort will have gone to waste? i know she's done everything she can but it still hasn't fixed my#hatred for the school system and i feel so bad. I DONT KNWO WAHT TO DO!!! IM GOING TO KILL MY SELF!!!#whatever what ever. i;m overreacting it's what ever
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helloo !!! are you still accepting submissions for the company??
AINE ! ⠀ › ⠀ SAYS. omg hello!! i actually am still accepting, although i've been kinda on a break for the past 2 or so weeks because of a very strong burnout- 😭😭 i do have a google forms in the works about the new artists under the company, but if you'd like to join immediately, feel free to send me a dm here <3
#˚✿⸼ . . ⠀⠀ asks.#anon <3#i promise i'll start being more active soon- i'm just really really busy irl rn#my job has been killing my will to live and they keep fucking me over but- anyway!#i do have discord as well if you'd like to talk there instead <3
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Despite my adamant denial of it, I believe I do, in fact, currently suffer from the plague known as writer’s block. I shant blame anyone but mine school for this atrocity
#school kills artists#of every kind#it’s not too bad of a writers block#I’ve jsut hit awkward points in all of my fics#but with all the prompts I just got it should bring me out of it#:)#also for anyone that needs it#it’s okay to not update things for months#please don’t feel bad abt yourself because you haven’t been writing as much#people understand that motivation is a big factor in being able to get writing done#and ppl understand that everyone has their own thing going on irl#I hope you all have a lovely day
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