#the guilt she must be feeling :(
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you, and what little remains of your brother.
#sonic#sonic the hedgehog#metal sonic#miles tails prower#unbreakable bond#'family photo. say cheese!' neither of them have a mouth lol..#tails doll#thinking again abt how metal sonic was reprogrammed to hate tails. and yet he still must feel horrid guilt over his death.#im a 'tails doll has bad future tails inside; hes just not All there like metal is' truther#me (drawing thinsg that most likely arent even canon) I HATE THIS WHY IS THIS SO DEPRESSING#if you couldnt tell... tails is using sonics weird uncoiled arm as a pillow...#it isnt relevant but i think theyre in the westside dump here. back where he found tails in the first place.#i dont think either of them remember that by now. only 'this place is painful. this place is important.'#roboticized sonic theory#the title is supposed to be vague as well. works in either direction#tails doll->my brother my hero. trapped in that horrifying form. unable to be the good person i KNOW he is. is there any part of you left?#metal sonic->my brother my hope. trapped in that useless body. does he even recognize me? how much can you think? see? feel? are you empty?#my nyart#anywya#i have other versions with amy (her silhouette at least LOLSIES) but i didnt like em as much so i just... byebye ✌#serious co.pa opening vibes from this#'sachi is my pride and joy... i dont think she even recognizes me anymore...'#you get it#thats not a question. its a command. you Understand. you Do Understand...
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Oh look. Reverse!Robins.
Bruce: “No murder.”
Damian: “No murder.”
Cass: “No murder.”
Tim: “No murder.”
Jason: “No murder for babies.”
Duke: “No murder until you can write me a researched & cited essay on why it is necessary for the greater good. Five page minimum.”
Dick: “I’m gonna murder.”
Red Hood!Steph: “I LIKE THIS ONE!”
#She is his fun murder aunt. Cass is having a stroke.#For the record#I feel like Jason’s Robin-era grappling with his own morality (ie sometimes murder good when extenuating circumstances) is even bigger here#Eventually he comes to the conclusion that it is a last resort but still an option that must be considered to protect future victims.#But the guilt of everyone else seeming to have absolutely no doubts or hesitations with their own convictions#which he finds himself disagreeing with at times… especially after Steph comes back? Yeah that fucks with Jay’s head.#//#reverse!robins#reverse robins au#reverse robins#reverse order robins#reverse order batkids#reverse batkids#reverse batfam#reverse batfamily#batfamily#bat family#batfam#bat fam#red hood stephanie brown#red hood steph#rh!steph#red hood!steph#red hood!stephanie brown#my writing#mine
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HER FACE BROKE MY HEART
#I WANNA HUG HER AND TELL HER ITS GOING TO BE OKAY#the guilt she must be feeling :(#she’s so brave#the bad batch#tbb#the bad batch spoilers#bad batch spoilers#tbb spoilers#the bad batch season 3#omega bad batch#star wars
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behold: my least favorite string of words in the entirety of Tears of the Kingdom.
#totk critical#totk#tloz#gerudos#when will my brain return from the imprisoning war....#I just stumbled upon it again doing research yesterday and....#there's so many layers as to why it aggravates me#that it's spoken from the perspective of a masked woman as to embody all gerudos while removing her own identity#in the context of her loyalty to rauru as well#that giving birth to a bad man makes you responsible for his actions (he's not a toddler anymore he's an adult ok)#or more metaphorically that your initial conflict with hyrule makes you Sinful and cursed and you must Feel Bad Now *shame shame*#that she's passing on that ageless guilt with no expiration date onto the shoulders of *a teenager* and it's considered GOOD???#(wind waker shaking crying right now)#ALL OF THAT to prop her up to swear her loyalty to the people planning to go murder their ancient king (sure he's a Bad but still???)#using some sort of weird ass original sin scenario that is arguably not any gerudo's fault but Ganondorf's#(or if it is then it's not shown so ???)#the vibes are so so so off I just really !!!!! don't like#this is stuff like this that makes me reject that it's a good story about alliances being formed in good faith#because this is just manipulative#maybe the alliance angle everyone's stronger together was the intention but the execution is another story entirely#gerudos never benefited from ganondorf's actions also#so it's not even a case of making reparations for the way you benefit from systemic oppression due to your ancestor's actions#gerudos won literally nothing in ganondorf's war#apparently he even subjugated them if they weren't on his side (like.... a king would.... not to excuse it but the double standard here)#so it just instrumentalizes the ageless sin of motherhood + suffering under a bad monarch billion of years ago for war#so uhhh.... yeah that's not... that's pretty bad imo#the gerudo girl could have went “hey girl this man used us and still hurt us to this day let's kick his ass once and for all”#and this would have been a different story entirely#a little cheap but not.... That Bad
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"Morgan you say Rosa's beast is a weeping willow what's that like?"
IM GLAD YOU ASK..well Rosa isn't a kindred she is a Laibon so her "beast" and relationship to it is very different then normal.
Rosa sees hers as this ancient old weeping willow that represents all supernatural parts of her, her disciplines koldunic sorcery and even her hunger. It's not inherently bad or good it's just old and different
It's scary but in the way being around a vast hole in the ground or looking up at the wide sky is scary. If she looked up at her beast it's this giant weeping willow that feels uncanny and different but also deeply deeply her and her blood.
She needs that Tree, it must stay and be taken care of but it can't grow too large or it will eat all the grass and land around it leaving her no normalcy. Her beast isn't an enemy it's a Plant she has to cultivate and grow but also prune so it doesn't overgrow and become a burden.
#she finds the western vampire idea that “your beast isnt you” to be weakness and wrong#but she wont say that cause its rude.#any cruelty she feels pulled to or does is her won to hold.#if the “beast” takes “control” it just means she has leaned on her orun to much#and her supernatural nature must be given its quarry.#she isnt a FAN and this does give her alpt of guilt#but its true to her
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some shippers when solas has had important relationships from thousands of years ago and he can't just forgive himself for failing those closest to him then and go "okie dokie!" when his wife tells him he can come back home
#dragon age fandom critical#solavellan#im sorry some of you are not serious he literally says in the cutscene i wish ur forgiveness soothed my faults but unfortunately#hes been on this path for CENTURIES before lavellan was even born like yes he would like to apologize to mythal#AND HE LEFT LAVELLAN CLUES BC SHE WANTED HIM TO TRACK HIM SHE WANTED HER TO STOP HIM#unfortunately sometimes you kinda need your best friend turned master turned opp to say it's ok#like she literally came in went well lolz we both fucked up teehee i release u from indentured servitude PCE#and some of u are still mad#RELATIONSHIPS DONT EXIST IN A FUCKING VACUUMM!!!!!!#mind you mythal got betrayed by her own deranged husband who then got locked away and she was lobotomized#and then after she protected her people in this new world solas showed up and went well im bombing it#LIKE UNFORTUNATELY. SINCE HE KILLED FLEMETH HE KINDA NEEDED TO ATONE FOR THE NUMEROUS GRIEVANCES HE CAUSED IN MYTHALS LIFE TOO#also like even tho it was mythals choice to follow her husband and it was her own undoing#solas as a spirit of wisdom who knew better and warned her still thinks he failed her and not vice versa bc it was his Nature.#i also think it would be largely out of character for solas to just go okie after lavellan forgives him#he literally broke up w her bc he felt he was betraying this path of repentance he made up for himself#he wished it was as easy to just cast aside & get over it and adapt like mythal clearly has but#in his core he feels deeply. his regrets his losses his pain. he is a spirit#he is not a man. he is weighed down by emotions the mortal coil cannot comprehend#it is also why he did not want cole bound or inq drinking from the fountain#he made a choice and he failed and he carried that burned for centuries#he would not have that thrust upon someone else#and he also cannot wash away the guilt without confronting it. and he hasnt been confronting it until hes trapped#and even then his last confrontation w mythal b4 vg was when he gutted her to seize power and do what HE thought he must
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Having Helena think about sainthood while drawing a cross prominently over her neck is actually kind of crazy.

Robin III: Cry Of The Huntress (1991) #5
#I wouldn't be saying this but her cross is not really shown any other time in this specific issue so I feel like this is on purpose#considering she is a devout Catholic her relationship with religion is very interesting#the Catholic guilt she must feel#Helena's wiki says that her Marvel counterpart would probably be the Punisher and I would agree#but I also think that because you can compare the Punisher to Daredevil#you can also compare the Huntress to Daredevil#helena bertinelli#huntress#robin#cry of the huntress#robin comics#dc comics#limited series#my post
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Hey in my 'Penelope slipping into monsterhood is her unweaving her work for the first time fic' what if I made Athena/feel/ the snapping of the thread, she can feel the unraveling in her soul. What if I made it so that Penelope had taken a vow as Athena's blessed weaver. What if Athena was /pissed/ about this
#Penelope#Athena#Penelope unweaving her work and how it fucked her up an essay by me#Athena: already upset because she cannot stop fucking thinking about her stupid (ex) champion/best friend/pet#Last week she had to witness some stupid shit and was halfway to Ithaca on automatic to complain about it with odysseus#Got half way there realized what she was doing and has been in a rage since#Like hell is /she going to reach out/ not before odysseus is fucking groveling and begging for her forgiveness#She is the goddess here after all.#And no it does not fucking matter that she hasn't slept since then (she cannot stop thinking about odysseus about what ifs#And why he hasn't prayed yet and she has just the awfulest feeling that something is wrong but like hell is she ever going to admit that#And it's not a problem fuck off Apollo#And she's in the middle of this sleeplessness restlessness when she feels one of her vows /snap/#Like a thread unnerving#From Ithaca#Athena gets a glimpse of penelope /her weaver/ purposefully ruining a beautiful weaving /done with thread Athena PERSONAL SPUN#Thread that she gifted penelope to be used only in the specialist of occasions or when she is /making something for Athena's personal templ#And just like that she's rages again. She gave these two EVERYTHING AND THIS IS HOW THEY REPAY HER WITH BROKEN VOWS#AND DISOBEDIENCE AND BETRAYAL HOW DARE THEY#later#Athena will calm down#Later Athena will learn of the true circumstances of the suitors and the treats of murder and rape and the sheer amount of desperation#And she will drown in guilt that she had so throughly abandoned her own#That she did not swoop down in that instance and slaughter all of the disgusting men hounding /her mortals(family)/#But in this moment in her rage she is not listening closely enough to the prayers she is not taking in details and she'll regert it later#Some of her hurt/rage is spilling over from odysseus onto penelope and#Athena is convincing herself that odysseus probably made it home fine by now#(She knows that she's kidding herself but that denial is running deep right now)#Penelope to be fair knows this is going to be pallas athenas reaction. She knows but what other choice does she have?#Penelope: if it's monstrous to throw away your gifts to choose my husband over the favor you have shown me#Then I must become the monster
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Tara headcanons :3
(it's literally just angst. Blame @lionydoorin for making me have Tara thoughts)
She can't stand the smell of cooking meat anymore. It reminds her of Amber.
After Sam left, there wasn't anyone buying groceries on a regular basis. She never starved, but there were many occasions where she went to bed hungry.
She doesn’t remember most of the night her dad left (or even the man himself for that matter). She tried to grab him as he was leaving, but he shoved her off. She slammed her head on the corner of the wall really hard, and ended up with a scar on her forehead, chronic psychosomatic migraines, and tinnitus.
She'll avoid going to the hospital unless she absolutely has to. Not only does it reminds her of being attacked, she was also a really sick kid, and she spent a lot of her childhood hospitalized. Even just going to the doctor stresses her out.
She's like. 70% stress and anxiety at any given moment. Seriously somebody get this girl some SSRIs before she has a heart attack.
Her leg and hand have permanent nerve damage, and her entire left arm is kind of fucked up after 6. She has a semi-permanent arm brace, a cane for her leg, and a whole lot of chronic pain.
Christina had a revolving door of boyfriends, and would bring them home sometimes. They were almost always awful to Tara.
She really misses Amber sometimes. She never tells anyone.
#god I have SO many thoughts about her#canon isn't angsty enough I must make her suffer more#*puts her in the blender*#the other 30% is rage btw#---#pretty much the only thing her leg is good for is telling when it's about to rain#like. it works. she can walk on it. but it can't support her weight and she walks with a limp#so she has a cane. no matter how much she hates it#she just wants to be /normal/. normal people don't have nerve damage from their girlfriend stomping on their leg#so she just pretends it didn't happen. and there's nothing wrong with her leg#--#Christina's guys were awful to Sam too (when she was around) but this is Tara headcanons so#-#she feels so incredibly guilty for missing Amber#she misses the person who tried to kill her. who tried to kill her sister. who /did/ kill her friends. how awful is that?#so she never tells anyone#the guilt almost eats her alive#Tara tag#horror tag#hc tag
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The way that the Akuma no Riddle anime never explicitly talks about being gay but only works because it's gay... If Tokaku were a boy then it would be so much easier for her to be like "okay, I'm protecting Haru because I'm in love with her" and to accept that, or Haru would face her feelings more and suggest the idea that they're in love. But because they are both girls, it's not considered a given that they would be in love. Many gay people have these doubts in the back of their mind, especially when they've only recently started realizing they're gay-- "Am I really attracted to this person, or is it just [insert deflection of choice]?"
And Tokaku is forced to think, "Do I really care about her, or has she just been using psychological powers to manipulate me this whole time? Why do I feel so strongly about this girl?" And attraction or love don't appear to be a satisfying enough reason or excuse. And of course it wouldn't! They're both girls! 😱
#i considered tokaku being a boy hypothetically and not haru because#although haru being a boy would make it easier for them to realize their feelings#imo tokaku being a boy would make it SIGNIFICANTLY easier because she's already in the protective role#''i love a girl. i must protect her. as a boy would do.'' yknow?#op#akuma no riddle#also slightly unrelated but i love how haru's side of this internal conflict is portrayed#it's not just the GUILT of possibly manipulating tokaku into risking her life over and over#it's the idea that SHE WAS NEVER LOVED#that tokaku didnt do any of it because she LOVED haru. that she didnt CHOOSE to prioritize haru in this way#oh and even worse... the whole reason haru lives on. the idea that her family loved her enough to die protecting her.#and thats called into question too!!#okay i kinda told that backwards because you realize this is how she feels abt tokaku from how she talks about her mom#but you get it 👍 its really good
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on the topic of leda being the worst i also think she also suffers from having fallen for her own hype at a very young age 😍 double combo of being vain with jealous streak the likes of which WILL lead to a crime of passion at one point or another. like she needs to be the one holding all the cards and if you get one over on her she WILL pray on your downfall at best, actively plot it at worst
#oc: leda#i think all of this comes down to the terror of being insignificant all her life having no meaning except to die to fuel the astronomicon#she MUST have a purpose greater than that she HAS to believe that the emperor has chosen her personally because the alternative#is too horrifying to fathom#she TRULY believed it was her *destiny* to become the rogue trader which is why she didnt tell anybody that theodora would die#even though she'd had a vision of it days before arriving on the ship#she has issues with idira (altho they are friends) bc she resents having another oracle on board who might undermine her#(again tho like. shes not a BAD person and she does grapple with the guilt of feeling this way. but like. shes still feeling it lol)#and then argenta (also her close friend) pisses her off to know end bc how Dare she insinuate that the emperor chose her#he chose ME and ME alone !!!!!#and the worst part is on the surface she is very soft spoken and level headed and instrospective#she presents herself as humble and wise. so when these things start happening around her she has to bear it even tho her eye is TWITCHING...#anyway. i love her so much. i need to write more about her good qualities I SWEAR SHE HAS SOME. SHES GOOD I PROMISE.#I JUST NEED MY OCS TO BE AWFUL AS A BASELINE AND THEN WORK MY WAY UP FROM THERE LOL
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I came up with a more detailed backstory for my Warden Rook, and surprisingly, his guilt complements Neve's fear quite well. It's unintentional, which makes me quite proud of myself lol
Details under the cut I guess
Rook had a loving family. His mother, his younger brother (Émile), and an old mabari dog that his mother told him was his father's.
Rook never knew his father, or at least doesn't remember him. He knows his father left them when he was about 3 years old, and his brother was about 1yo. His mother rarely spoke of his father, and as a child Rook noticed and didn't ask, despite not knowing why.
Émile was 8 when his magic manifested. Rook was 10. He cried and trying to fight the Templars to stop them from taking his brother away. Émile was always a gentle child, always following Rook around, a crybaby. Rook refused to believe that his brother could ever be a monster just because he happened to have magic. The Templars treated Rook like an upset child throwing a tantrum and tried to calm him by gently telling Room it was for Emile's own good, that they were also protecting Émile from threats Rook couldn't protect him from, like demon possession, or other people's hatred.
Rook (eventually) believed them. Or at least he tried to.
A year later their mabari dog died during the harshest days of winter, along with any link left to Rook's father.
Rook believed the templars. Some of them were kind. Others less so, but he knew if he worked hard and sent coin, his brother would have an easier life in the Circle. There was never enough for letters, but Rook took comfort in knowing (believing) he helped.
Rook always thought that one day he would earn enough to pay for his brother's release, just like how prisoners would be once they served their terms or paid enough.
Then, when Émile was 18yo, Rook received a letter from the Chantry notifying him of his brother's failing his Harrowing, and "regrettably met his untimely demise."
In his grief, Rook couldn't see that his mother was grieving too. Rook decided to empty his coffer, buy things for his mother, pay the templars to smuggle Emile's ashes out. Then he joined the Grey Warden.
At this decision, his mother stopped talking to him. Rook thought his mother didn't understand that he just wanted to do something good. Being a warden is a noble thing. Why won't she understand?
He spent a few years in the grey wardens, making friends, flirting around without any intention for settling down. He felt free, and with purposes. Maybe Émile would approve of him. Maybe he would even forgive him for failing to be there, to protect him.
He went on a mission for months, and came back to learn the news that his mother had died. The funeral had been weeks ago. She passed away in her sleep.
He returned to his childhood home after years of being away. After years of not talking to his mother. There had not been any clearing up. He found a stack of letters in a box addressed to him.
Except the contents had been water damaged. The letters were illegible. His mother's attempts at communicating with her only son left were for naught. He never learnt what his mother thought of him, of his decision, or if she ever forgave him or understood that he had simply run away.
He wanted to ask her if the reason she was so mad with his decision to join the wardens was because his father had been a warden too, and he'd left because he'd had to go to his Calling, leaving a scar on his mother's heart. He heard stories, rumours of another warden with the same surname as his, but there was never any concrete proof. He wanted to ask if she had been afraid of losing her only son left, but couldn't do anything to stop him.
Rook's guilt and fear, then, is failing to be there for his loved ones when they needed him the most. That he keeps losing people without any chance for last words.
So when he meets Neve, he wants to believe in his own promise too. That he'd always be there for her. This one he doesn't want to lose.
#neve gallus#Rook thorne#dragon age the veilguard#Yeah then SPOILERS SPOILERS Elgar'nan kidnap Neve and he has a panic attack and his fears resurface#That he would lose her and that he is repeating his mistakes and that he fails to be there for his loved ones AGAIN#That's why he so desperate for Neve's “I love you” and he won't hesitate to tell her because he never got to say goodbye to his loved ones#Also this Rook after his years with the Wardens has learnt how to deflect his pains and use humour to masks them#Mostly because he feels guilt and would rather not talk about it#just a weirdo passing thru#I may turn this into a fic one day who knows#After Neve is kidnapped Rook loses all his usual playfulness and becomes laser focus on defeating the gods#His “I'll always be here for you” is his way of making sure she understands his intentions in case something happens#Preemptive goodbye if you will#He's anxious about the possibility of every encounter being their last and he must have her know that he loves her#Because he thought he had more time with Émile and never wrote any letter#And with his mother so he always put off visiting#And he never asked about his dad thinking there would always be time after#As warden his time is even shorter than normal#OTP: Permanent Trouble
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constantly weeping abt the poem “thrush” by louise glück and the maude vibes it gives off tbh
#|✧| maude#|༄| headcanons#(‘red flicker of the life that disappears’)#(‘I think the guilt I feel must mean I haven’t lived well’)#(‘Someone like me doesn’t escape.’)#(‘After many lives maybe something changes… Then you don’t need anymore to die and come back again.’)#(i don’t have the energy to explain this more atm but i am just agdgdgdg)#(she makes me sad sometimes………..)
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#I hate when someone you really care for decides your friendship is over For You#because of a perceived wrong on their end that you would never hold against them#but they assume you simply MUST be secretly#its such a self sabotage and it hurts BOTH parties and yet theres nothing the other person can do because you took that choice from them#i want to stay by your side. YOU want me by your side! and YET......#i miss her. we are BOTH disabled i never had and never WILL hold flaking on plans for health reasons against her#yet every time she had to i could tell there was such GUILT and FEAR no matter WHAT i said to try to dispell it#that i really understood and that her health is ALWAYS more important and that i'll be here whenever shes ready#she had to cancel on me a few months ago again. and she hasnt answered a single call or text from me since...#and i can just......Feel It.....#i hope she lets me back in some day. i care for her so deeply#and i miss her.
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ive been trying for 30 mins to write a post about why the Web's plan is still confusing, but I think I should face the truth and admit to myself that it's not that it makes no sense, it's just... so convoluted
#they needed jon to kill jonah cause it seems like only he could call him down#and they couldnt go through with the original plan because.... tbh still not sure on that one. at least not with the reasoning annabelle#gives. assuming that how everything works out now is how they intended it to#which it must be because if jon was ever ever going to consider 'letting anyone else feel that guilt' he sure as hell wasn't now that he#got introduced to the plan while a giant spider dangled his boyfriend above a pit. not conducive to jon cooperation#so originally spidermartin would have driven him to burn the archives and kill jonah. but theyre bond is too strong now so even if martin#would be spiders Jon wouldnt do the plan. .... huh#i just dont get that leap#why does their bond being stronger make jon less willing to burn it all down. so to say#would he want to keep his promise to martin and not become the pupil? but he did! he does! he does even when martin ISNT spiders! aaah#one thing that could make everything more elegant is if Annabelle wasnt telling the whole truth. she says they need to kill 'the pupil'#jon has been described as 'the pupil' as early as s2. and why would the Fears follow his voice on the tapes#and not just stick with his voice in jon the person?#solution; not only does the pupil have to die and the archives burn down at the same time#but jon has to be the pupil when it happens#... except that ALSO doesnt work because according to Jon Annabelle wasnt lying when she said that this would allow them both to 'survive'!#so unless we read the transcript in very bad faith and assume that she was talking about the hypothetical scenario of íf the fears leave;#then youll live; (but for them to leave youll have to die) this solution is out as well#but it would mean theyd need martin unspidered because hed be the only person able to kill jon when hes the pupil because 'it feels right'#(throwback to 178)#tma#tma meta#joos yaps#delete later#a mag a day#tma s5#one nearly incoherent ramble later.....#if anyone has a good Watsonian solution to tie everything up neatly plz link me to a post
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thinking…..moonlight on the river garfield audio ..but it’s jack talking to kelly,,, saying he’s sorry he let her down … and kelly says ‘not all of us are cut out to be the good guys’ … ..

#someday I will draw this out. someday.#cal.txt#spn#jack kline#kelly kline#that Garfield audio has caused irreparable damage to me I fear#ough#one must imagine the immense guilt jack feels for his actions in regards to what his mom believed of him#she gave her life for him because she believed he was good and worth it and he wanted her to be right about HE WANTED TO BE GOOD FOR HERRR#I’m throwing up again#the joint pain is making me sad sorry#uuuuuaagghhhhhhgggggggggg#GOD#spn revival pleaseeeeeee I need you I need my guy back . the withdrawals#the parasites in me
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