#the fucked up variety at least

[cat-mentality]

hey sooo

i am indeed encouraging you to elaborate

about roier and elq

Your wish is my command!

Roier is red.

Red like his hoodie, red like a red poppy planted on a garden, red like the sunset at it's peak.

Red like blood.

He is panting from effort even if the fight, if it could even be called that, didn't last more than a few minutes. There is blood on his face, none of it his own, a few drops have fallen into his mouth but he doesn't seem to care about them, licking his lips uncaring of the bitter taste.

His whole focus on the man pinned to the ground.

El Quackity is also out of breath, probably from the impact as Roier pushed him but that doesn't stop him from looking at him with a smile.

His teeth are bloodied.

His forehead is bleeding.

The blood on his face is still somehow less vibrant than the red of his eyes.

Roier forces himself to look away from those eyes, unwilling to let himself try to search for anything familiar in them, to be softened by the memories of someone else. This is a enemy and should be treated as one, someone dangerous and unsettling who is better to keep at arms lenghts, or on the tip of his knife as he is now.

Yet the man underneath him looks anything but helpless.

"Are you going to kill me?"

The short man asks, calm, like this is nothing out of the ordinary. The urge to bash his face is all consuming, to wipe the smile of his face with his face would be so fucking easy, the other is so helpless underneath him, so weak, so pathetic.

So why does a shiver run down his spine?

Why does he feel like he is trapped by the red gaze?

Why does it feel like this is exactly where El Quackity wants them to be?

The dark haired man smiles more, showing bloodied teeth, licking his own lips even if it only smears the red liquid even more. It should be disgusting, it should be grotesque.

He shivers again.

A slow blink is his only reaction, a pale neck is exposed even further, a vein pulsating, inviting. The gesture makes his blade dig deeper into soft flesh, a shallow cut marking the area.

Roier watches the blood dripping from it, licks his own lips again.

His hand shake on the knife.

El Quackity just keeps staring, smiling, waiting.

You hate him.

You want him to beg.

You want him to cry.

You want him to cower.

You want him to fear you.

You know it is not going to happen.

Roier swears that the smile grows even wider when he finally sinks the blade on the soft pale flesh, the eyes widening in delight before the light go out of them.

He doesn't clean the blood of the knife before putting away.

El Quackity is dead, probably waking up in whatever hole he lives in, his body cooling behind him as he gets ups, dusting the dirt of his clothes, only managing to stain them more.

Yet Roier still feels like he is being watched as he makes his way back home.

[lemongogo]

anyways . silly thing

[my-current-obsession]

I decided to post a tier list of my thoughts of all the routes in various otomes that I’ve played. I was inspired to do this because I just finished Norn9, and while I’ll admit that upon finishing the game I have SEVERAL issues with the story as a whole and a few routes in particular, I did love Akito and Heishi enough to add them to my favorite routes of all time, and I’ll definitely return to the game every now and then just to replay those two, if nothing else. Looking forward to the fandisc, too!

I’d be happy to talk about my feelings in depth for basically any otome or specific route, if you’re curious. My absolute favorites are Code: Realize, Collar x Malice, Taisho x Alice, and Even if Tempest.

[giantkillerjack]

Uh-oh! You are like, SOOO awkward!!

You're so awkward that it is occasionally mildly uncomfortable for people!

You're so awkward that sometimes people are confused by you and then there are awkward silences!

You're so awkward ...... that ultimately no one is harmed!!

Oh damn!!! What a vile crime you have committed! What an unforgivable thing it is to make a fellow human briefly confused!

Why, if *I* were ever briefly confused and kind of uncomfortable as a result, I'd be devastated.... by the absolute net zero change in my happiness and health! - From which I might never recover!! Yes indeed! No punishment can ever be enough for you!!

So you better absolutely hate yourself for it.

Better be SO MEAN to yourself about every single missed social cue so you don't forget your horrible crime! Meaner than you'd ever dream of being to someone else for the same thing! This is YOUR responsibility!

You need to show the world that you KNOW you are bad by punishing yourself constantly! After all, think of all the people who BENEFIT from you punishing yourself! - No, really! Think about it! Think about who benefits from your pain.

Think of alllllll the definitely-good people that your definitely-necessary self-torment definitely helps! I mean, you can't just cut off their definitely-life-sustaining supply of your suffering, right?? Sure, everyone else has a breaking point, but you're probably the only person in human history who doesn't, right? Best not to question it probably. Sure, it's a symptom that billions of people with trauma have had, but who knows? You could be a one-in-seven-billion exception. Anything's possible!

Instead, better just accept that idea that bullies carry like guns in holsters - the idea that people who have trouble with social cues deserve to suffer. Better carry on the burden they placed on you until you drop. Aid the cause of the callous by enforcing shame and suffering upon yourself extra hard; try your best to do their work for them. They're very busy.

Better not recognize that you need patience and kindness to heal from your trauma. Better not find out that it was trauma rather than personal weakness filling your head with self-hating thoughts. Better not find out it wasn't your fault.

Better not find out that awkwardness is not inherently harmful or unkind, and, in fact, the people who act like it is *are the ones enacting harm and being cruel.*

Better not get righteously angry when you realize just how much unnecessary damage this has done to you. After all, if you get mad, you might realize you deserve better. You might even feel brave enough to DEMAND better! You might build boundaries that keep you safe! You might make other people think they deserve to feel safe too! And we obviously can't be having that, so...

Better not show yourself even a little kindness a little bit at a time.

Better not make a habit out of it after all that practice.

Better not get confident.

Especially if you can't first wipe out every trace of awkward. (And you probably never will. Because people who experience absolute social certainty at all times tend to be insufferable assholes that enforce the status quo. And you just don't have the stock portfolio for that.)

Better not be confident and awkward because then you might confuse and delight people

- you might accidentally end up making other people feel less shame for their social difficulties

- you might make isolated, traumatized, and shy people feel like they deserve to be included in social situations

- you might even make them feel they can be themselves around you

- you might start loving the effect you have on a room

- you might enjoy conversations more

- you might forgive yourself and bounce back from shame more easily and frequently

- you might come to enjoy some of those moments of harmless confusion you cause because NOBODY expects the Confident Awkward, and that can genuinely be an advantage in social situations

- you might stop apologizing so much.

- you might find that socializing is like a video game: it requires practice but also a safe space for it to be fun and positive.

Or if you can't become assertive and confident, better not remain awkward and shy and quiet, and then love and forgive yourself anyway!

Why, it would be carnage!!

In either scenario, you run the risk of finding out that it's not your fault that safe spaces full of kind people can be really hard to find, create, and nurture. You could end up building a skillset that helps you do those things if you're not careful!

If you start giving yourself even the tiniest amount of grace at a time, you will find that you've accessed a gateway drug with extreme long-term side effects:

- You might realize that it was never your fault that it took so long to like yourself.

- You might realize that you were always worth talking to, even when you didn't like yourself and communication felt impossibly difficult.

- You might realize that you'll still be worth talking to even if communication becomes harder as you age and/or experience disability.

- You might come to know that you deserve to be heard even on bad days when words come slow and blurry.

You might discover that you were always deserving of kindness, first and foremost from yourself.

So. As you can see, it's FAR too much of a risk to start granting your awkward self free pardons for your many heinous and harmless crimes. Better to just leave it there.

[oswaldthatendswald]

"A persons fanfic tells you a lot about them" ask :

I assume you have had complicated family issues, or were close to someone who had some.

I am sorry it took me so long to respond to this. Every time I saw it I just started wheezing with laughter. What a read this is. I told my partner about it and asked "Is it that obvious?" and she said "I mean, with what you write..."

[acepalindrome]

You guys talk about wanting enrichment, and listen, one of the easiest ways to do this is to try new genres of art you haven’t experienced before. Try new genres of music and movies! Read books by people who have almost nothing in common with you! Look at art that uses mediums you never considered before! You won’t like all of it, but it’s genuinely so good for you to be exposed to new kinds of art.

[lalalychee]

Are you accepting any commissions? I would gladly pay you to make more beautiful art of Spencer Charnas or some horror character

thank you so so much for your interest! i unfortunately no longer take commissions =( i have a big long-winded explanation as to why, but i'll spare you haha. my patreon is currently the only way to support my art financially.

[fingertipsmp3]

I love the sims 2 because it will completely wreck your shit right when you’re least expecting it

[tacit-semantics]

Completely incomprehensible right now but we’re moving along!!

[denzartriste]

Thinking about animorphs au again. It's a daily struggle

[gloriousmonsters]

well on one hand another popular blog is going to piss me off seeing me on my dash now. on the other hand it's for being transandrophobic so like, at least there's some variety from the tankies?

[fooltofancy]

god fine okay i'll cook

[rotisseries]

NARINES 4EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what if there were two guys that not only hated each other viscerally on a personal level but also everything they individually stood for and they tried to kill each other and there's no universe where they both make it and they have a hundred differences and a thousand similarities and they both die for drako and this started as a joke but why does narines lowkey go hard

narines will be an absolutely banger #Problematique rarepair when you're famous

[cantofworms]

wait PINK? do u have pictures I'm curious I've never seen anything other than brown

wait what do other countries not have crush ??????? epic pop brand they also make the best orange pop and their root beers pre good too

[astranauticus]

so the overall.. shape and tone of my current project is pretty much set in stone (im SO CLOSE to 50% done you guys) but i was looking through my saved videos folder on bilibili and if im gonna be doing another animatic after this one (honestly pretty likely??? given my. floruitshow obsession that doesnt seem to be going anywhere anytime soon) i REALLY want to attempt something closer to that style of animatic you see a lot on bb that employs more on elaborate editing as opposed to like............... the powerpoint presentation type beat i've got going on now

(nevermind the fact that a lot of the projects that really lodge themselves in my brain were also like collaborations between teams of people with like dedicated editor roles and i still havent fully figured out how to use lightworks. like ive also seen one man projects in this style that turn out absolutely gorgeous so i KNOW it can be done. maybe i'll go figure out if capcut is easier to use lol)